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#im super manic rn and my brain is running at 300mph again#rapidly changing thoughts#so if my posts get annoying just block out the .bdo tag for the day#.bdo
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The Voice of Reason
#indika is a funky little game#i initially thought that the “devil” was just the voice of reason that was clashing with her christian indoctrination#but i rapidly changed my mind: it's just Her voice#her genuine feelings which she tries to squash down#not necessarily reasonable#but certainly more sincere#indika#indika game#indika fanart#fanart#digital art#my art#eeriedragone art#my favourite bit is whenever it gets all red and the world breaks#ifkik
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added tattoos and some skin details :)
#hinnry pulled off the commune just having a rocking twink body is so funny to me. he should have been at the CLUB#he's a lot softer here bc this is toward the end of the Events but his hands are actually really rough and cut up and scraped#this skin actually had hands like that and i never noticed???? i just changed the stomach and gave him back dimples and he's golden#anyway ilya tattoos. the roman numerals are when his dad died then the squirrel skeleton bc yknow#the bird thing on his back thigh is because he does taxidermy. badly. and the rest he just thought looked cool#and yeah that's ilya's handwriting on his name he did that one at home. as their relationship was deteriorating rapidly! :)#ts4#ts4 edit#ts4 render#the sims 4#hinnry#ilya#two-headed lamb
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Agvkdfnjifvdjnivefjnedi?? More self insert??
Yes :)
#Twelve likes on my last post!!#Wow!#I feel so special /pos#:))#I was always too nervous to post my stuff because I never thought I was that good at art lol!!#Anyways!!#not sure if anyone reads these hehe#>:)#Wally#Wally darling#welcome home wally#wally x oc#wally x reader#Wally x anon#wally x y/n#Wally x you#Wally x yn#self insert#welcome home#welcome home puppet show#yippee!!#Also!!#I’m sorry if it seems like my art style rapidly changes!!#I’m honestly reposting old art works that never saw the light of day lol#they were made a few weeks apart!!#<3#art
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i pride myself on my very specific aesthetic and my goofy smile and sense of humour
#rapidly changing aesthetic may i add#and my immaculate music taste#thoughts ୨𖹭୧#girlblogging#it girl#wonyoungism#girlhood#pink pilates princess#female insanity#girly tumblr#this is what makes us girls#girly stuff#im just a girl#it girl energy#it girl aesthetic#pinterest girl#pink blog#that girl#ningdungie#pink girl#girly girl#girl code#girl therapy#girlcore#girlworld#girl things#girl thoughts#gaslight gatekeep girlblog#divine feminine
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walking in the rain save me. walking in the rain. save me walking in the rain
#peace and love while im rapidly blinking against icy little droplets#I Do Genuinely Enjoy It!#its a small thing!#but an utter delight!#after spending the vast majority of my life in a desert its a welcome change of pace...#except for the thunder. its incredible long & lengthy#and last night i nearly convulsed out of my chair like a Startled Goat when it hit#literally came close to flinging my tablet#the Shock! the Horror!#for a moment i feared the mountain may collapse!#but no. Thunder <3#i'll get used to it eventually...#absolutely unprompted#better than the first time when i thought an earthquake was about to happen#in my experience: big rumbly + slight shaky = FUCK
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#currently on the worst road trip of my whole entire life! well. i don't want to jinx it lmao but#today i popped TWO TIRES at once in the middle of the Katy Freeway in Houston TX (the widest highway in the US; 26 lanes btw)#managed to make it over to the shoulder without DYING but then had to sit there for like an hour? and panic called a tow truck because duh#I know how to change a tire but I was – again – sitting on the shoulder of the widest freeway on the continent so#anyway I called a tow; a guy showed up. I assumed it was the tow! turned out it was not. but he helped me put on the spare and then was lik#“follow me to my shop I can do the tires for you” and I was like okay! 👍 but then the ACTUAL tow called me and I realized this was#just a random guy (very nice up to that point but then I got scared about following him to a secondary location?) and so I didn't lmao#I just kept driving and didn't follow him but the guy on the phone was then mad at me because I wasn't where I said I would be because#AGAIN – I thought the original guy WAS the tow company that I called? but anyway guy 2 on the phone was like “YOU OWE ME $200!!!!”#and I said for what? also how would I pay you? and he tried to get me to cash app him lmao?? I didn't. I hung up on him#he called me like 6 more times yelling at me until I finally just blocked his number 💀#however NOW at this point I'm driving on one spare tire and one rapidly-flattening second tire and I still have 3 hours left to get where#I was going for the night and to top it all off I'm in the middle of a city I've only been to one time before? so I manage to get to a hote#like a nice-ish one where I'm like “okay if I get stuck here this won't be the end of the world”#because keep in mind today is a national holiday so basically everything is closed!!!! btw!!!!!#but eventually I'm sitting there and it's literally 100F outside and I remember oh right lol I have car insurance which pays for a tow#(a normal one; not a random one I panic-found on google who calls me screaming at me to cash app him $200)#so anyway I call my insurance and the guy on the phone is very nice and is like “it's okay; we'll have someone to you in 45 min”#and I'm like okay. OKAY. 🙌💪 I am a strong independent woman who is figuring this out and no longer on the side of the highway#but instead in a nice calm neighborhood and all I have to do is wait 45 min and everything will be okay#one hour goes by. I call back. get redirected to the tow company that was dispatched. guy says oh! is my guy not there yet?#I say no. he says okay – I'll have him call you. hangs up.#okay. 20 more min go by. guy finally calls me. says “I'm 20-25 min away” at this point I've been waiting about an hour and a half#I say. okay? okay. 30 more minutes go by. I try to call the guy back. straight to voicemail. three more calls. three more no answers.#I call my insurance back. sit on hold for 15 min. eventually get put through to a different person who's like “okay let me check on him”#get put on hold. eventually she comes back and says “okay he says 15 minutes” I've been waiting over 2 hours at this point. I have to PEE#I just... burst into tears. on the phone with this poor random woman from Geico Insurance. I'm bawling my eyes out.#she was trying to get claim info from me but I'm crying so hard she's like “oh baby no. okay. okay. we can get that from you tomorrow.”#when you cry so hard that even the insurance company is like “you know what we're just going to let this one slide”#anyway guy eventually shows up. he's very nice even though I hate him a little for being so late. he drives me to an OPEN TIRE SHOP
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whenever i think abt writing Nandor and i get going thru a series of sequences of him behaving like a well-adjusted, caring, adult i have to stop myself, backspace several mental paragraphs and remember that he's basically a semi-captive lion being observed in a nature documentary and he functions on 92% Id
#wwdits#what we do in the shadows#nandor#nandor the relentless#neat fanfic trick: if you're nandor is behaving ooc like a normal well adjusted empathetic human being just ask yourself#“what would a lion do in this exact scenario?”#and whatever the absurdity it's probably closer to the truth than not#anyways i have a lot to say abt the amorality of the vampires and how they simply don't function with the same human ethical thought#but that doesnt mean they dont care and love and have social behaviors of their own that shouldnt be judged less than#and will express those emotions in ways that might feel foreign to most humans#...is what i say to myself to keep from crying as i delete 3 pages of nandor talking out his feelings 😭😭😭#(also brief note: when i say he functions on Id its not that he lacks intelligence or the capacity to use it along with his ego/super ego)#(as seen in the s5 finale)#(but rather he's an apex predator so his whole being is funneled into traits for hunting. not other things we think show intelligence)#(in the mordern non hunting/gathering world)#(which is partially why he's so disconnected from the world and struggles to find purpose in an environment that no longer values him)#(truthfully nandor is human but simply the definition of humanity has changed rapidly from what it valued centuries before)#(and leaves nandor lost)#(except for guillermo. his one connection to humanity and what anchors him to the modern world 🥲)#(...looks like i got lost in the tags again...)
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bad bitches when they got the spoon of restraint !!!
#cursed princess club#this makes me think about isolde and prez parallels.............#kinda.#isolde's life rapidly changed by a bad decision where she is pressured into living her life as someone quiet and obedient#prez whose life was like that until she broke away#cpc thoughts#cpc prez#queen isolde
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so i'm listening to the bluff city s1 finale, and... there's a thing that happens to me occasionally with fatt, where i'll learn about a moment by fandom reputation before i actually hear it. i'll know or reasonably guess when it happens, but i won't have any of the build-up or context. so i'll be comfortably expecting something to be funny or sad or scary... and then i'll reach the actual moment in my own listen, and it will still 100% destroy me in exactly the predicted manner. because this is a good show.
anyway, hearing "mike truck takes the other seat" sent a real and visceral bolt of fear through my body, even though i knew it'd happen at some point, and i can't even fully explain why. sangfielle who. bluff is the real horror season
#i have many other thoughts piled up abt bluff s1 finale but i'm gonna try to finish this ep and listen to the postmortem#before writing any of it up#because things are changing so rapidly rn#but i needed a second to calm down after that moment lol hence this post#hello world#fatt#fatt lb#bluff city#some other notable examples of this:#tattoo of a bluebird#motion's first appearance#partizan 28#also NOT to be down on sangfielle. i love sangfielle. it just never scared me as viscerally as this bluff arc#tbf this arc is reminding me a lot of the left right game which fucked me all the way up so i'm sort of pre-scared
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How do you go about picking a new name for yourself? I've never really felt one way or another about my given name.... I just don't feel connected to it much is all. I don't hate it though, either. Like the rest of me it's just kinda There.
I'm thinking short, still. And definitely more gender neutral? Just don't know what.
I don't plan on changing my name -- not officially. I'm just getting ready to apply for graduate school in Sept and was contemplating adding a 'preferred' name to my applications. All the schools are out of state so I'd be getting a completely fresh start. What better way to test out a new name?
#names#new name#preferred name#chosen name#gender#gender identity#realized ive been having a bit of a gender crisis for the last while#and idk how to fix it#so i wanna try a new name#and im chopping my hair off on Wednesday#i have a real hard time when it comes to picking what to wear each day#i realized i don't have any short sleeved button ups or whatever... may have to hit up ross or tj maxx next week after payday#ive been trying to identify a clothing style i like other than oversized sweater/sweatshirt and joggers/leggings#and i find it's all over the place#i don't think its my clothes themselves im struggling with its my body#i keep rapidly gaining and losing weight due to my changes in meds and its really messing with my perception of myself#because one minute my clothes fit & the next they really really dont & they're either too snug or sliding off & just. nothing fills right#my name my pronouns my clothes my SKIN#people joke about feeling misplaced and alien or whatever but gdi everything feels so wrong 😭#fox thoughts
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back on my Maven is a bad person and it’s horrible how him being a bad person is somewhat erased by the fandom despite how prevalent it is bullshit
#yes Elara molded him into the monster he is#but that monster is still HIM#And we have no way of knowing who he would’ve been without her cause he never existed in the world without her molding his mind#all we have is Cal’s picture of him and a sweet innocent quiet boy THATS IT#idk my views on Maven and the way i want to interact with him has changed rapidly recently#i want to make a longer post but writing my thoughts coherently is hard🫶🏻#he’s still my number one pookie though🫶🏻
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It's 2 am.
My brain is running around like a Jack Russel terrier on six back to back doses of 5 hour energy.
So many thoughts. So many ideas.
Don't know what to focus on.
Time to spin the wheel and go for a ride!
#wardenspeaks#Anxiety has been taking me for a damn ride#Keep rapidly changing between thoughts and topics#Meds ain't working#None of them are...
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sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#unfortunately i doubt i will ever get therapy bcs i have this. thing. idk. but i believe in myself to just rely on myself?#and yeah i uhh can go on more about that BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF THIS sorry i suck at explaining things. anyways#humans. interesting. i am fascinated by humans and myself and i'm tired of typing now GOODBYE anyways xiv music is so fucking good#and also idk how to interact w others sorry ..... i am scared of getting close to people bcs everyone i've grown close to has ended up#leaving me or i mess up! but tbh it's better now i think and also not as bad as i think but sorry i still have bad issues with. that#me saying i don't want to type anymore and then proceed to rapidly type out so many words oopsies#pls just do not PERCEIVE ME !! unless you want to ig but idk why you'd want to do that uhm#yk i like tumblr most out of all social medias bcs it feels like i can... sort of just be my weird self here! and it's not fully nice#and i still have anxiety problems and overthinking problems and whatnot which is evident by my 100+ notifs i havent checked since#christmas but that's not the point (?) idk whats the point honestly uhhhh nvm (??)#OH I LOVE FF SO MUCH tbh it's w/o a doubt still my favorite series ever but drake/nier is also up there for sure#which i think is amazing bcs i have yet to finish a game. and ive only like played idk 5 hours of replicant and automata#and then ive already spoiled myself on important aspects of all games but that helps ngl uh. i could explain but im tired of typing#ANYWAYS GOD actually noehgjbsejhbghjes i really suck w interacting w others i really wish i were better at all that#im not super introverted or shy im just kinda awkward and anxious but im a fun person and all and idk#and tbh its interesting thinking abt my personality... some parts of me havnt changed at all from a bit (/pos) like my lively. aspect of my#personality !! i was a bundle of energy and a little annoying (perhaps unintentionally but now i think its a bit more on purpose lol)#but the only person who really sees my true self is me. and the closest to that is lune. but even i dont know who i really am#and yeah... wnvr im like woa ill make more friends !! and then when i have the opportunities i suddenly dont care anymore IT SUCKS#anyways i think i have Opportunities now again so lets see haha ?? at least uhh in school. its like 2nd sem and i dont rlly have friends#as usual haha that sounds so sad help BUT its not like im disliked im just rlly quiet and shy at school..... throwback to 7th grade tho#that was rlly the worst but also now is just as bad in a diff sense but back then i cldnt talk w my crush at ALL i didnt speak at all im so#sorry about that HELPPP I RLLY JUST CLDNT SPEAK anyways moving on in my class rn i do have a group of sorts. like#we're grpmates wnvr theres grpworks and we can pick which is nice! ive been classmates w em all b4 and theyre the cool kids#but in the more fandom sense and one used to be a close friend of my twin and of mine too by extent and then the other was someone#who knew me when i was more extroverted so yeah uhhh anyways#OKAY ALMOST MAX TAGS im DONE rambling. bye. hopefully. bye. oh god
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"With “green corridors” that mimic the natural forest, the Colombian city is driving down temperatures — and could become five degrees cooler over the next few decades.
In the face of a rapidly heating planet, the City of Eternal Spring — nicknamed so thanks to its year-round temperate climate — has found a way to keep its cool.
Previously, Medellín had undergone years of rapid urban expansion, which led to a severe urban heat island effect — raising temperatures in the city to significantly higher than in the surrounding suburban and rural areas. Roads and other concrete infrastructure absorb and maintain the sun’s heat for much longer than green infrastructure.
“Medellín grew at the expense of green spaces and vegetation,” says Pilar Vargas, a forest engineer working for City Hall. “We built and built and built. There wasn’t a lot of thought about the impact on the climate. It became obvious that had to change.”
Efforts began in 2016 under Medellín’s then mayor, Federico Gutiérrez (who, after completing one term in 2019, was re-elected at the end of 2023). The city launched a new approach to its urban development — one that focused on people and plants.
The $16.3 million initiative led to the creation of 30 Green Corridors along the city’s roads and waterways, improving or producing more than 70 hectares of green space, which includes 20 kilometers of shaded routes with cycle lanes and pedestrian paths.
These plant and tree-filled spaces — which connect all sorts of green areas such as the curb strips, squares, parks, vertical gardens, sidewalks, and even some of the seven hills that surround the city — produce fresh, cooling air in the face of urban heat. The corridors are also designed to mimic a natural forest with levels of low, medium and high plants, including native and tropical plants, bamboo grasses and palm trees.
Heat-trapping infrastructure like metro stations and bridges has also been greened as part of the project and government buildings have been adorned with green roofs and vertical gardens to beat the heat. The first of those was installed at Medellín’s City Hall, where nearly 100,000 plants and 12 species span the 1,810 square meter surface.
“It’s like urban acupuncture,” says Paula Zapata, advisor for Medellín at C40 Cities, a global network of about 100 of the world’s leading mayors. “The city is making these small interventions that together act to make a big impact.”
At the launch of the project, 120,000 individual plants and 12,500 trees were added to roads and parks across the city. By 2021, the figure had reached 2.5 million plants and 880,000 trees. Each has been carefully chosen to maximize their impact.
“The technical team thought a lot about the species used. They selected endemic ones that have a functional use,” explains Zapata.
The 72 species of plants and trees selected provide food for wildlife, help biodiversity to spread and fight air pollution. A study, for example, identified Mangifera indica as the best among six plant species found in Medellín at absorbing PM2.5 pollution — particulate matter that can cause asthma, bronchitis and heart disease — and surviving in polluted areas due to its “biochemical and biological mechanisms.”
And the urban planting continues to this day.
The groundwork is carried out by 150 citizen-gardeners like Pineda, who come from disadvantaged and minority backgrounds, with the support of 15 specialized forest engineers. Pineda is now the leader of a team of seven other gardeners who attend to corridors all across the city, shifting depending on the current priorities...
“I’m completely in favor of the corridors,” says [Victoria Perez, another citizen-gardener], who grew up in a poor suburb in the city of 2.5 million people. “It really improves the quality of life here.”
Wilmar Jesus, a 48-year-old Afro-Colombian farmer on his first day of the job, is pleased about the project’s possibilities for his own future. “I want to learn more and become better,” he says. “This gives me the opportunity to advance myself.”
The project’s wider impacts are like a breath of fresh air. Medellín’s temperatures fell by 2°C in the first three years of the program, and officials expect a further decrease of 4 to 5C over the next few decades, even taking into account climate change. In turn, City Hall says this will minimize the need for energy-intensive air conditioning...
In addition, the project has had a significant impact on air pollution. Between 2016 and 2019, the level of PM2.5 fell significantly, and in turn the city’s morbidity rate from acute respiratory infections decreased from 159.8 to 95.3 per 1,000 people [Note: That means the city's rate of people getting sick with lung/throat/respiratory infections.]
There’s also been a 34.6 percent rise in cycling in the city, likely due to the new bike paths built for the project, and biodiversity studies show that wildlife is coming back — one sample of five Green Corridors identified 30 different species of butterfly.
Other cities are already taking note. Bogotá and Barranquilla have adopted similar plans, among other Colombian cities, and last year São Paulo, Brazil, the largest city in South America, began expanding its corridors after launching them in 2022.
“For sure, Green Corridors could work in many other places,” says Zapata."
-via Reasons to Be Cheerful, March 4, 2024
#colombia#brazil#urban#urban landscape#urban planning#cities#civil engineering#green architecture#green spaces#urban heat#urban heat island effect#weather#meteorology#global warming#climate change#climate hope#climate optimism#climate emergency#climate action#environment#environmental news#city architecture#bicycling#native plants#biodiversity#good news#hope#solarpunk#ecopunk#hopepunk
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i could not be trusted to make this game because my immediate thought is that the game advertises and markets itself as what op intended but steadily and then rapidly becomes very clear that instead of a cozy cute cottagecore "mystery" the story SHOULD be about the blatant corruption, cruelty, systemic oppression, and persecution and bigotry of her neighbors, but the main character is desperately clinging to the original genre of omg cozy cute and cottagecore because she feels overwhelmed by the potential responsibility to enact meaningful change rather than feel-good aesthetic positivity, thus becoming actively complicit in the town's crimes through her not mere inaction but in fact conscious choice to decide that she will be the protagonist of a cozy cute genre game rather than a story which might challenge her preconceptions of the world and the state of her own community.
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