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Max Unravelled

Unravelling Max's Mystery (Max Verstappen x Online Friend!Reader)

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Summary- Max accidentally made an account on google plus in 2013. He came across a poetry page and enjoyed reading them. He ends up friends with the poet. He loved the normalcy she brought to his life. He didn't realise when the comfort he felt for her turned into love.

{Max's POV}

2013

I was searching for something on my gmail account when a pop up for google plus came through; without much thought I clicked on it. Some how, I'm yet to figure that out, I ended up with a google plus account. One of the few accounts I got recommended was a poetry and story account. They wrote very eloquently; I could feel the emotions in every word. I started reading all their posts in my spare time and even commenting on the ones I liked. I found my self constantly checking back to their page to see if they posted something. Their poetry was relatable and understandable. I hope they always have a good day since their words always pick me up when I'm down.

The poet I had been enjoying so much is a girl, and her name is Y/N. She's around my age; I guess that's why I related to her work so much. We spoke for the first time ever on her birthday. She made a post about it being her birthday so I wished her. She was sad about not being able to enjoy her birthday, I felt bad for her so we talked for a while until dad called me to practise. That was the start of our friendship. We ended up talking on google plus a lot. We shared the same sense of humour and best of all, she didn't know about racing. It was like a breath of fresh air to not talk about racing. She doesn't even seem interested in it; so I can live as Max for a while now.

My birthday was shit but talking to her made everything better. I can't believe I got excited about talking to someone and that someone made me feel good even on one of my shittiest days. She's one of the nicest people I've had the pleasure of talking to. I really do wanna talk to her on phone, typing everything I want to say out feels tedious.

2014

I've gotten busier since this year with Formula 3. We barely get to talk anymore. She did send me her number and we chat on Whatsapp whenever we can. But obviously it is not the same. I've suggested talking on call a few time and she finally agreed; I just need to find the perfect time to get away from everything to talk to her. I felt so nervous to talk to her for some reason, what if she thought I was weird and didn't enjoy talking to me? What if she heard me and decided I wasn't fun? What if we had nothing to talk about? I called her while sitting in my driver's room, she picked up quite quickly after 2 rings to be exact.

Max- Hi, Y/N! Y/N- Hey, Max!! How are you? Max- I'm good, what about you? Y/N- Yeah, I'm good too. haha!! This is so weird talking to you. Max- yeah, you sound pretty. Why would I say that? That sounds so fucking creepy, I face palmed myself so hard. Y/N- You sound nice too. I mean....you have a nice voice. Max- haha, thanks, this is the first time some one has said that. She thinks I have a nice voice, do I? Y/N- soooo, what have you been up too?? You've been so busy lately. I could hear people outside the driver's room. I quickly locked the door before answering her question. Max- yeah, I've been busy with stuff. I'll be done soon for a while now. Y/N- That's great I need my best friend back! Did she just call me her best friend? I've never had a best friend before.

We ended up talking on calls a lot more. I would have her contact ringer saved with a separate ringtone so that I would know to answer it. She usually called at reasonable times, where ever I travelled as if she knew my schedule.

2015

I got signed with RedBull Racing's junior team, making me the youngest driver. It was such a surreal feeling. But this also meant I couldn't talk to Y/N as much as I wished I could. Training and the races kept me very busy. But she was very understanding and would always welcome me back, no matter how long I was gone for.

2021

The first time I'm regretting not telling what I do to Y/N was today when I won my first World Championship. I was surrounded by my team, my girlfriend and my family as I got out of the car after I finished P1 at Abu Dhabi but it felt strange; like I was missing someone. I wish I could share this win, the biggest in my life yet, with the person who makes me feel so special yet so myself.

When I asked her about Formula One, she didn't know about, she didn't even know the prominent figures. So, I wasn't as worried about her finding out but I did worry now; since my win was controversial according to the media. However, she never asked. Was she really unaware or playing dumb? I wasn't sure if I should be grateful I get to be just Max or sad that I can't share a huge part of my life with my best friend.

2023

Y/N and I have been friends for the past 10 years. Time really flies. I've gotten a lot better at balancing my personal and work life. Y/N is my well kept secret; like I'm the only one who knows her. She moved out for college and we've only video called since. She is still funny and still writes. I think it's so cool of her to stay passionate about what she loves and keeping at it. She loves my cats more than I love them sometimes, she get's so excited when I send pictures of them. She says they cheer her up and that Jimmy and Sassy are her virtual pets. They loved her too honestly, they would always recognise when she was on call and jump into my lap or the phone to see or hear her. She still doesn't know what I did for a living; we've kept that a 'secret' you could say. But really I just didn't know how to tell her I was a Formula One driver and a 2 time World Champion.

Today was like any other day, I hadn't spoken to Y/N at all. Whenever I called her, I would usually close/lock the door depending on who was at home. My girlfriend didn't know about Y/N. I didn't even know how to bring it up, honestly. I sat down on my SimRacing chair after I switched the livestream off. Her phone rang for a few times and then stopped ringing but she didn't answer the call. I tried again thinking maybe she was busy or didn't hear it. I called a couple times before texting her; no reply. I was freaking out. This was the first time in 10 years that she hasn't answered my calls. She won't even reply to my messages. I found myself pacing around the house. The door to the room opened to my girlfriend's daughter standing in front of me, "Maxie, why are you walking in circles?" She asked after observing me for sometime. "It's nothing" I said, trying to calm myself down more than give a reply to her question. All these horrible thoughts swirled through my mind; what if she was in an accident and no one knows? What if she got robbed? What if she hurt herself and can't get help? What was I supposed to do? I didn't even know where she lived. I just couldn't think straight. My hair was a mess with how much I was running my fingers through it, a few stands coming along when I almost pulled them out of frustration.

After 7 hours, she replied to my text. I had almost given up hope, but she said that she was fine and that her phone was about to die. I felt relieved knowing that she was ok. But the text was so out of character for her. I texted her everyday after that in hope of talking to her. We always spoke everyday and it had been years since we didn't speak for so long. Almost every text was left on delivered. I had a race this weekend which I won and went out to celebrate with everyone because they wanted me to tag along. I didn't see the text Y/N sent me a while after the race since I was at the club. I only saw it when I got home. As soon as I saw it, I called her. She answered after a few rings.

Max- Schat, how have you been? Haven't heard a word from you in days. You could clearly hear the worry in my voice. Y/N- I've been busy, school year ending and stuff. Why didn't you sleep yet? Max- You know my sleep schedule is non existent. Y/N- Yeah, I guess I do. What did she mean by that? Her voice seemed hoarse, was she sick?Y/N- You know how I do freelance editing Max- You've told me about it Y/N- The latest author I'm working with is a sports author. I was hoping you could help me since you are a walking encycylopedia. Max- sure schat, but what's up with you? You know I'm always there for you Y/N- Yeah it nothing, just stressed. Max- Take off, you deserve it I wish she took care of herself instead of working so hard without breaks. Y/N- The summer break is here soon, I'll be fine. So about that author... Max-Yeah, what sport does she write for? Y/N- Formula One. I don't really like reading lengthy articles and I'm sure one article wouldn't do a sport any justice. I felt the ground slip from under my feet. My palms had gotten sweaty suddenly. Max- You did not go through google yet, right? (I stammered out) Y/N- Oh no, what do you take me for? I got excited to learn about something new. Do you know who the reigning champion is? I felt like I was about to lose everything. I didn't know what to say, my mouth was dry. No matter what I said, I don't think I could fix this situation. Y/N- Some dude named Max Verstappen. You guys share the same first name. He has 2 cats too; named Jimmy and Sassy, who look exactly like your bengals. I mean he even looks like you, with horrible sleep schedule just like you. He even sounds like you. There was horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and my lungs felt like there was no air in them. Watching her tear up was the worst feeling.

Max- Schatje, I can explain. Y/N- You don't have to Max. I never asked you what you did. You don't have to explain anything. Max- I wanted to tell you, it just never came up in conversation. Y/N- I get it, it's difficult to tell your friend who has amounted to nothing that you are the World Driver's Champion, best of the best in Formula One. Max- Y/N, it's nothing like that. You're great, you're kind, you're funny. She laughed, but that stung my heart for the first time when her laugh was my favourite sound in the world. Y/N- Those are character traits I possess, they don't describe my career goals or achievements. I know I work 2 jobs to stay afloat while you make millions, I know I wish I was an author and not their editor, I know you probably thought I was too stupid to understand your rich and fancy world. Max- No, no, you're so talented. I've read your work and I'm sure the right publication will pick your work up. Y/N- I got rejected for the sixth time today. All of this is fine except that you lied to me about being single while having a girlfriend for years and having the happy family you dreamt off. You didn't have to introduce me to her; not like my boyfriends met you. But it would've been nice if I knew. Max- It just never came up. (I held my head in shame) Y/N- I...we joked about setting you up with someone all the time. Please don't. I get it, we didn't tell each other about work goals or what we did as a job but personal life; I literally told you about every guy I've ever been with. I felt bad telling you thinking you were single. I feel stupid right now. I wanted to reach out and wipe her tears but I couldn't. Max- I'm sorry,Y/N. I promise I won't hide anything anymore. Please, don't cry. Y/N- My name is Y/N Y/L/N. I majored in literature in Uni and now work as a primary school teacher and freelance editor. I'm trying to get my book published soon. I broke up with my boyfriend 2 months ago. This fucking hurt, everything she said and the way she said it. Max- Please don't do this. Y/N- I believe at least one of us should be honest. Max- Let me fix this. Y/N- Don't worry. There's nothing to fix. Max- Please don't say that. You mean a lot me. (I felt tears in my eyes.) Y/N- Me too. That's why, I need time. I'll talk to you when I'm ready. Max- Please, I can't lose you. I felt like my world was crashing. Y/N- You won't. I'll always be there for you. I just need time. Take care Max I was crying as she said it. Max- Bye, take care Y/N. I'll always be here. And the screen blacked out, I could see my reflection on the screen, tears streaming down my face.

After I was able to clear my head I texted her telling her that I would always be there for her and I would like to clear up the misunderstanding when she's ready. I spent the next few months thinking about her. It was starting to affect my relationship. I couldn't really give my girlfriend time when my mind was occupied with thoughts of Y/N. When my girlfriend brought it up how we were growing apart; I had a fight with her. I don't know what came over me, but not talking to Y/N or not knowing what was up with her was making it very difficult for me to focus on anything. The fighting became a constant after that. I didn't understand why she couldn't let me be. I missed my friend but she wouldn't get it.

I was SimRacing when Y/N's name popped up on my phone asking me to call her. I guess she was ready to talk it out. I really wished that this wasn't the end of our friendship. I really hoped that we could get over the misunderstanding and still be friends. I told the team I had some work and called her immediately. She answered like always; I waited for her to speak with baited breath. She started talking and we cleared everything up. I apologised for hiding the truth from her. I told her how much of a constant she was for me in my ever hectic life; how talking to her made everything better. She listened to me, I listened to her and then finally asked her to come to my home race. I wanted to meet her. I couldn't live knowing that I had the resources but didn't meet the one person that mattered to me the most. She was hesitant at first but I offered to get her the tickets and insisted on her joining me at the biggest race of the season for me and finally she agreed. I was over the moon. As soon as we ended the call, I sent her the tickets. I found myself counting down the days to the race for the first time.

I was waiting for her at the airport when she got here. My heart was beating very fast as I waited for her to come out. When I saw her; she was beautiful, shorter than I expected but she looked cute with her bag in one hand and a back pack on her shoulder, her hair in a low bun, a small smile graced her feature. I don't think I've noticed anyone with such detail ever before. Our conversation flowed easily. It didn't feel like it was the first time we were meeting. I dropped her at the hotel and went off to do media duty's at the paddock when I came back she was still asleep, traveling must've tired her out. She got dressed while I waited for her to get ready, even giving my 2 cents on what she should wear. She looked gorgeous, I couldn't help myself, staring at her. The black satin dress hugged her curves in all the right places. Her hair flowed down her back, the jewellery sparkling against her body. We went to have dinner at a fancy dutch restaurant. She loved the food especially the apple tart. The moan she let out as she devoured the dessert made blood rush downwards. I found my cheeks heating up, thankfully the whole place was dimly lit. We walked around for a while after the meal, she made fun of my name but I couldn't care less. I apologised and she accepted it and hugged me. Her arms were soft and the embrace warm. I found myself wrapping my arms around her, my face buried in her neck. I was scared I was gonna lose her, forever. I've never been scared to lose anything but a race until now and the thought of not having her in my life seemed scary. She consoled me and we headed back to the hotel.

The rest of the weekend was uneventful except for my girlfriend being pissed; she fought with about Y/N. I don't get what her problem is, she's just a friend I've known since forever. I'm just showing her around. I was giving interviews when I saw her talking to Lando, I saw them laughing along in the corner of my eye. It made me feel strange, there was this feeling in the pit of my stomach and I didn't like it. When I got back, Lando had left since it was his turn. She found Lando cute and it irked me, I was annoyed hearing her ask me to set her up with him. We got back to RedBull hospitality when my girlfriend asked me to talk to her, I left with her reluctantly leaving Y/N with Checo.

"Listen Max, I get it, she's your childhood friend and all, but it's so weird how she suddenly cropped up when I or for that matter any one knew nothing about her. People are saying stuff about us since she stepped on the paddock and the way you are dragging her along." my girlfriend spoke. "What are people saying? I will not stand any slander against her" I cut her off. She laughed dryly. "WOW, they are saying stuff about us, Max, us, that you are cheating on me with her. You've been so distant for months until a month ago, I didn't know what went wrong and you wouldn't talk either." she said running a hand through her hair. "It's nothing really. She just knows me as Max and not Max Verstappen and that's why I'm closer to her. Nothing more." I said. "It's pointless talking to you" she said turning around. "If we're done, I'm leaving, Y/N doesn't know anyone here except me." I said leaving for the door. She huffed before she followed me out. Y/N looked worried about what was going on between me and my girlfriend but I calmed her down and we spent the day together. She tagged along during quali too. I saw her praying before quali, it made my heart swell. I was starting pole and we spent the night watching a movie even though Y/N wanted me to rest before the race, I wanted to make the most of the little time we had.

Y/N hugged me before the race wishing me. I wanted to win so bad, I'd won here twice before but this was different. I wanted to win in front of her. I raced like a mad man and then I heard it. I crossed first and my happiness knew no bounds; knowing she was watching. I got out of the car and immediately ran to her; hugging her. It was cathartic. Y/N said my girlfriend looked annoyed, but I couldn't care less. I watched my girlfriend leave, annoyed. When I received the trophy at the top step of the podium knowing she was watching me from below made it so much more worth it. Y/N wanted to go out to celebrate my win and I wasn't one to say no. I went back to the hotel to get cleaned up and ready for the night.

I was greeted by my girlfriend in the room, it was dimly lit as she was sat at the corner of the bed with tears streaming down her face. "HOW COULD YOU DO THAT MAX?" she screamed at me. "Am I a fucking joke? I let it slide, you said you were friends but the first person you go to after winning your race was her, what do you think people were whispering when you did that?" she said in between sobs. I didn't get what she was saying. "Do you like her?" she asked. "What? We're friends" I stated. She shook her head, "No, Max, you aren't. The way she looks at you is how I look at you. The way you look at her" She cried, "You've never looked at me like that" she lamented. "It's nothing like that" I began. "You should've respected me at the very least and broken up with me if you liked someone else, I'm not gonna be some girl's place holder till you can have her." she cried out. "You're not a place holder for her" I said. "Feels exactly like that" she said wiping her tears. I felt nothing my 2 year long relationship might be ending and I didn't care. I didn't even try to correct her, did I really like her? Was Y/N really more important to me? "We're through Verstappen, if you can't even fight for us, I'm not about to fight for us" she sighed dejected. I walked towards the bathroom to wash up while she packed up to leave. When I got out she was gone. I went to pick Y/N up.

She kept asking me about my girlfriend but I never told her that we broke up. I didn't want her to feel responsible for my decision. At the club, she got close to everyone pretty quickly. She was unstoppable, downing one drink after another. I hadn't touched alcohol since I was driving. The others kept handing her drinks much to my dismay. She asked me to come dance with her but I had the others to look after too. She was busy dancing surrounded by too many guys, one of them going as far as to touch her and grind against her. All I saw was red, I bid the guys good bye and stormed the dance floor to drag a reluctant Y/N with me; I ended up carrying her out on my shoulder. She wasn't very happy, screaming and hitting me till I put her down. She puked as soon as I put her down and joked about missing my expensive car, I didn't really mind if she hadn't since she was more important than the car. I got her medicine and left them at her side after putting her to bed.

We spent the next few days after the race sight seeing. Y/N brought up my girlfriend a few time and I ended up avoiding her. When we were cuddling while watching Barbie I felt my heart beating out of my chest as she scooted closer to grab tissue. When her hand brushed against my skin, it burnt and a weird feeling erupted in my chest. She seemed completely unaware of how she was making me feel. We fell asleep on the couch that night.

I wasn't able to avoid the girlfriend question any longer and told her that we broke up without making any eye contact on the way to drop her to the airport. My eyes stung and there was a lump in my throat; I wasn't sure it was because of my girlfriend or Y/N. I bid her farewell, she would turn back towards me to wave after every few steps; my eyes were blurry after sometime trying to prevent the tears from falling. I ended up crying after she left.

All the races after, I ended up going shopping after or before every race to collect some trinkets or stuff that was special to that place and mailing it to her with small notes attached. She would graciously open them in front of me on video call; the smile she gave me the first time she received was unparalleled. It made my stomach turn over. I wanted to make her smile every chance I got. That's how I ended up sending her a package after every race from every country until I got reprimanded by her for the excessive amount of gifts. She asked me not to send one after every race and stick to one or two in total; I was forced to agree to that request.

We were planning on spending Christmas and New Year together; she wanted to leave after Christmas but I was able to convince her to stay until I had to leave for pre-season training. I couldn't wait for the season to end and to spend the year end with Y/N. We celebrated me winning the championship on video call; even though I had hoped she could be present in person but it wasn't possible with her schedule. This championship felt better than the last two since I was able to celebrate it with her. 2021 me wouldn't believe me right now.

Y/N flew in as soon as winter break started for her. I had cleaned up the house as much as possible. I had told my cats about Y/N visiting who seemed excited. I picked her up from the airport and when we got home the cats were very excited to meet her; a lot more receptive than the other guests I've had over. We spent the next few days going to places and the Monaco GP circuit. She cribbed about walking the entire time we walked the path. It made me laugh.

The night before Christmas we fell asleep on the couch cuddling; I hadn't slept this well in a very long time. When I woke up, Y/N was no where to be seen. I sat up waiting for her to return when she came back, she looked so cute in her jumper and shorts with her hair a mess. We opened up presents after some time. She had gotten me a Sid plushie, an ugly sweater and perfume. I got her a Formula One book with my face, a coffee mug and a pendant. I wanted to get her more stuff but I was sure she would make me return it if she saw every thing. I think the house would be over run with the amount of stuff I wanted to get her. Then she brought the matching sweater she got with me; I put it on immediately. I wanted to match with her all the time. We had a bit of back and forth on the dinner but agreed on Turkish kabab.

New Year came too quickly, which meant Y/N would be leaving soon. We went clubbing on New Year eve. She didn't drink like the last time we were at the club but made friends with some of the guys there. Having a social butterfly for a friend was a bad idea. We counted the time down to midnight as the clock struck 12 and I turned towards her to celebrate I saw she was kissing one of the guys she had befriended when we entered. If the club was quite you could hear my heart shatter. That's when I realised that all these weird feeling and all the times I couldn't stop thinking about her was because I liked her, no scratch that, I loved her. I felt my heart constrict when she turned towards me and hugged me later. I didn't want to talk about it, this would ruin our friendship.

All I could think about was how it felt to watch her kiss another man. I hated it, the worst feeling, worse than DNFing or not winning. I hated knowing another man could touch her and feel her. I wasn't even sure how to bring it up since what were we if not just friends. I put myself into training for the upcoming season but those feelings I felt when she kissed another man were still fresh in my head and I couldn't get rid of them even if I tried.

I was able to convince her to join me during her spring and summer break. We had fun, I loved having her waiting for me at the end of the race. I didn't really enjoy all the media questions that had cropped up about Y/N when she was seen with me, before or after the race. During my summer break, I spent it at her place. When I got there, it was a small apartment; but it had a homely feel. She would cook food for me and we would watch movies; I had a few commitments with the team and would leave for some time but then be back. It was so nice to have some one to come home to. When she was having her book launch, I went to meet her at her launch with a bouquet of flowers. "Congratulations" I said while handing her the flowers and giving her a hug. "Thank you" she replied, a smile playing on her lips. We had celebratory dinner after. Immediately after that, we were on the news. It read that I had a girlfriend, she kept apologising but it didn't matter. It made me a little warm, I'm not sure what emotions I felt hearing people speculate that she was my girlfriend.

I flew back to Netherland for the race early, she would only be joining me on the race day due to work. It dampened my mood but there wasn't much I could do about it. She flew in the morning of the race; it made my day watching her walk out of the airport. We talked all the way to the hotel where she got changed and we headed to the paddock. I had thought it through; after the qualifying, I had planned on telling her how I felt. I was gonna win this race and confess to her. Knowing that I can't hold her while someone else can was eating away at me and I wanted to take the chance before it slipped away from me.

I started the race P2 and finished it at P2. In the final laps, the only thoughts running through my head were, I really wanted to ask her out as a race winner, I can't do that now. She probably doesn't even like me like that, did I really want to ruin everything I had with her. I stumbled out of the car towards her, a big smile on her face. And suddenly I said it; "I wanted to ask you out as a race winner" emotions were running high. She insisted me to continue and when I did, she agreed to go out with me. I was over the moon, my head was reeling. This race ending was not what I hoped for but Y/N's answer was something I really was hoping for.

She waited for me in the driver's room. I couldn't help but not touch her. Her skin against mine send electric shocks through me, I couldn't help but smile at the feeling of her against me. I wanted to have this feeling for the rest of the life. I wanted to have her next to me; it took me a while to figure that out but now that I had, I didn't want to let go. I loved her and I wanted her.

We were both in the hotel room at the end of night in each other’s embrace, "Can't believe you're my boyfriend" she exclaimed. "Can't believe you're my girlfriend either." I exclaimed back. "I've liked you since I've known you" she mumbled. "What?" I asked shocked. "Yeah, I've always had a crush on you. Teenage me would lose it right now if she saw" she said. "I'm sorry it took me so long" I muttered pressing a kiss against her lips. "better late then never" she laughed wrapping her arms around my neck, flipping me to straddle my hips. She bent down to kiss me again.

I could spend the rest of my life like this, if it meant I could have her forever.

Hope you had fun. Thank you for enjoying the story!!

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animeyanderelover · 7 months ago

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This is my first request so here we go! Can I get head cannons on what it’d be like to be in an OT3 relationship with both Shigure AND Akito in Fruits Basket? Like, how they met, how they established a relationship and how the tumultuous relationship evolved during the course of the anime’s plot? I know it’s gonna be SOO toxic, especially with the crap Shigure pulls, Akito being Akito, and the constant back and forth between the two, being the middle piece in their game is gonna be such a pain emotionally, physically, psychologically, any way you can think of. Also the s/o is gender neutral.

There have been some changes to the original plot of the manga to adjust this storyline better. Also, this is quite toxic but that should come to no surprise. I'm also obviously not going to remember some of the stuff that happened in the Anime so this is a shortened version.

Tw: Yandere themes, toxic relationship, possessive behavior, obsession, delusional thoughts, clinginess, paranoia, jealousy, abuse, manipulation, guilt-tripping, gaslighting, isolation, threats, violence, sexual exploitation, hinted non-con

Tags: @flaming-vulpix

Falling in love with the same darling

🐕⚫From a very young age on, you have been working as a maid in the Sohma estate with your main tasks always involving catering to Akito's needs. Akira assigned you specifically for this job as you were only 2 years older than her and he wanted her to have someone around her age to befriend. Even years later you remember how you were brought to Akira and Akito, the little girl hiding behind her father's back as you walked in. Akira had been a gentle and kind but also terribly gullible man from the few memories that you have but his love for Akito had been there, even if perhaps a tad bit misguided as she was the God of the family. He beckoned Akito to step forward as he introduced you to her, telling her that from this day on you would be her new friend. You were too young back then to understand everything, otherwise you would have stopped him as he told Akito that you'd always stay with her. When the little girl, although back then you thought she was a boy, asked you with big eyes if what her father had just said was true, you didn't think about it. You only nodded enthusiastically and even if she had still seemed a tad bit apprehensive, you saw the hopeful gleam in her eyes.

🐕⚫Soon after being assigned to Akito who quickly latched on to you, you met Shigure. He has always been rather weird, even when he was still young. Both of you did not get along well initially, although that was mainly his fault. His feelings for Akito had already blossomed back then and her clear attachment to you elicited jealousy. Back then you had still harbored the mindset that it was your job to be Akito's best friend so you had also felt a childish envy as you saw how close both of them were. You had always been whenever Akito asked any of the Zodiac signs who had already been around at that time for any affection and you'd only realise years later why she had always done that. You had felt entitled of her and her friendship, threatened in your position and in return you grew clingy and tried everything to please her, openly expressing your jealousy. Your behavior was like fuel to flames as she desperately absorbed every affection you gave her and clung as a result only tighter to you. Her father was immensely pleased by this development, ignoring how unhealthy it already was back then and only told Akito that even those who weren't Zodiac signs would love her.

🐕⚫The rift between Shigure and you only grew as time passed by, both of you fighting for Akito's attention and love. And it made Akito happy. In fact whenever the words of her mother would get to her, she knew that she always had the both of you and in her growing desperation sometimes she even caused such arguments between the two of you on purpose simply to watch and realise that her mother was wrong. She was loved, even from those who were not part of the Zodiacs and sometimes she couldn't help but have the two of you argue in front of her mother as she gave her a defiant glare to show her that she was wrong. You remember the boiling jealousy when one day Akito showed you proudly the camellia that Shigure had fetched her and told you how he had confessed his love to her, her dark eyes staring at you as she wanted, needed, to see your reaction to it all. You were miffed the entire day about it and the very next moment you returned with a bouquet of flowers yourself and made sure to wait until Shigure was accompanying both of you before you handed all of the flowers to her and promised to always stay by her side. You sealed your fate on that day.

🐕⚫When Akira passed away due to his illness, you were there with Akito in his last moments. You weren't supposed to but Akito had demanded you to be there with her, her hand clutching yours tightly. It had made her father happy too to see both of you being so attached to each other and in his last moments he had made you promise that you'd always stay with his child and had reminded Akito one last time of her special existence that would make everyone love her. You'd been her shoulder to cry on when both of you were left alone, the tears only falling when she was only in your company. She had clutched the material of your yukata as she had begged you to not leave her like her father had just done and you had promised her once again that you would stay with her until the very end. Then Ren stormed in, furious that she hadn't been informed of Akira's death and had lashed out at Akito, screaming that she was unwanted and that everyone would leave her eventually. You can still clearly remember how you yelled back at her mother and insulted her, only fueling her hysteria. You still remember how your teeth sank into the flesh of her hand when she struck you, refusing to let go.

🐕⚫There were screams, the ones of ther maids but above all Akito's own hysterical screams all of a sudden when Ren tried to hurt you and you only scratched and bit her more until you could taste blood whilst your own nose was weeping with your own. It took more than a handful of other maids to separate the two of you as Ren was escorted away, still cursing at you. Akito was in that moment instantly by your side, crying and yelling as she screamed at the other maids to cater to your injuries even whilst you reassured her that you were fine. You were adviced to stay in bed for the rest of the day and Akito refused to leave your side the entire time. She sat there with you, ate her meals with you and even drew and played board games with you. You ended up with scratches all over your arms and your face, bruises and swollen lips from Ren but it made you almost proud when you heard that you had done some damage on her too. You found Akito often staring at your face, more often than she had done before, and when you asked her if she was sad about your injuries, she said something that caught you off-guard. That she felt happy. Happy because you had gotten so aggressive and hurt for her.

🐕⚫Her mind had been made up forever after that. She only focused on you from that day on. Whilst she was still possessive of other Zodiac signs, they became a second priority as you were from that day on her main focus. You were always kept by her side for the entire day and she even demanded you to sleep in the same room as her. Seldom did you see her mother but when you did, Akito almost appeared to show you off, even if her grip on you tightened. Ren could only glare at you silently as the physical wounds may have healed with time but her ego had been forever damaged by you. One time she approached you with a dangerous glimmer in her eyes but Akito was the one who stopped her this time. It was the first time that you really noticed how damaged Akito had become as she threatened her own mother and gloated gleefully in front of her how she had been wrong and that you loved her even whilst not being a Zodiac member as she pulled you closer to her side. Even when Shigure came over, her focus was always on you and whilst the smile on his face always stayed, you could tell from his eyes just how much you started grating his nerves.

🐕⚫Akito deemed you to be the person most important to her and that was something that didn't sit right with the young man. He wanted Akito for himself but you were in the way. He needed you to betray her and break her heart. If he could make Akito hate you, he could take your place. In hindsight it was truly frightening just how far Shigure had always been willing to go for Akito but you had luckily always been rather wary of him. So when he suddenly tried to befriend you, you were cautious and careful. He needed to find some weak link he could abuse, something to turn Akito against you. Unfortunately that was hard as Akito had been all you had known your life and vice versa. But perhaps that was how he could approach it. You had rarely left the Sohma estate, never had been friends with other people. Weren't you curious though? Slowly he tried to put ideas in her head, trying to fuel your curiosity to get you away from Akito. And it worked. You had grown a bit older though and even if you still treasured Akito, a feeling of loneliness had gotten to you as your freedom had been restricted to only revolve around her. When Yuki was introduced to Akito, he saw finally a good chance.

🐕⚫As Akito got to know Yuki better, he tempted you to go outside and leave her side more often. Shigure convinced you to even leave the estate with him as he introduced you to new people and encouraged you to get to know them better. It was strange yet also exciting to meet other children in your age range who weren't Akito and you befriended them rather quickly. You even told Akito about them excitedly, oblivious to the way she fidgeted with her fingers and bawled her hands into fists as your joy was like a stab to her heart. You wanted her to meet them yet the moment those words left your lips, she rejected your offer harshly. Upon noticing your startled expression, she quickly added that it wouldn't be wise for her to leave the Sohma estate. Her heart grew sick though as she finally learned why you hadn't spent as much time with her as you used to and when she approached Shigure in search for comfort, he used her growing heartbreak as he told her that he had seen how happy you were with your new friends. She cried in his arms, wondering what had happened as you had always been so close with her. You loved her. You had to love her.

🐕⚫Torments from her mother increased when she asked Akito where you were whenever she saw her, her taunts only serving to slowly break Akito further. Her temper got considerably worse and Yuki, the one who spent most time with her as she tried to take you off of her mind, got the worst of it even when she apologised afterwards to him. A part of Akito wanted to tell you desperately about it yet she didn't because she wanted you to figure it out yourself. You knew her best afterwards. So why didn't you notice how she felt? When Kureno's curse suddenly broke and Akito lost a bond that defined her existence, she was finally pushed over the edge. She feared that everyone's curse would break and that you, the one who wasn't bound to her in any way, would be the first one to leave. Shigure's own words only poisoned her young mind further. The next time she saw you, she dragged you to her room with a surprisingly tight grip on your wrist and forced you to stay there with her. There she then broke, yelling and sobbing as she grabbed your face and forced you to look at her. You had betrayed her! You had broken your promise! You promised to always stay by her side!

🐕⚫Never again were you allowed to go outside again after that. Akito has kept you by her side ever since that day as Shigure's plan only backfired as she has grown incredibly possessive of you. The other Zodiac signs are the only people you still see sometimes, although Akito makes sure to even reduce the contact you have with them. The bitterness of you having dared to make other friends when you always had her has festered inside of her and has never allowed her to let you get close to others. Kureno and Shigure are the ones you tend to see the most, although even then you are never left alone by her. There has been tension between Shigure and Akito for a while now too though and that is mainly because you have told her that it was Shigure who introduced you to your former friends back then. She suspects that he has tried to take you away from her and the glares and sharp words she has given him ever since are a telltale sign of her growing distrust. Shigure remains immune to her hostility though as something has seemed to change. He has always focused way too much on you as he used to despise you for stealing Akito. Hatred and love however, are two sides of the same coin.

🐕⚫He has grown an interest in you over the last few years and it truly doesn't do anything to better the situation. He flirts with you in front of Akito, the sight of her being possessive and jealous over you something he seems to enjoy as he doesn't mind all the insults and yells she gives him the moment she pulls you closer to your side. Both of the people he finds himself obsessed with are already basically attached to the hip and he likes seeing that. Shigure is already seeing it through that no one dares to to take Akito nor you away from him and one of the reasons why Akito still allows his presence so close to yours is because he is a mole. If he even suspects in the slightest that someone is interested in you, Akito is always the first to find out. Most of the time she sees it through herself to send such a person to her mansion and remind them violently that you belong to only her. In rare cases where the person in picture is someone who isn't part of the Sohma estate, Shigure promises her to ensure that they learn their lesson. After all you belong to Akito.

🐕⚫Whilst Akito uses violence, intimidation and emotional guilt-tripping to force you to stay with her, Shigure leans much more in the manipulative spectrum of things. Whilst he has yet to claim both Akito and you for himself, he knows that it would be the best scenario if he sees it through that you stay by Akito's side. Not only because Akito will keep you nice and isolated but because he can use both of you against each other to draw out advantages for himself. He can have Akito running to him and begging him for comfort and help whenever he manipulates things enough to give her easily paranoid mind the impression that you think about leaving her for someone else and can be your pillar of comfort when Akito's antics threaten to break you once again. Your heart feels like it is constantly bruised and beaten yet attachment and pity are cursed chains that keeps you by Akito's side. As violent and terrible as she is, she still has you and she thinks often that she really only has you. Shigure murmurs those words into your ears when you are hidden in his arms, abusing your pity to convince you to return to Akito which in return does earn him Akito's grudgingly gratitude.

🐕⚫Then the singular worst thing happens to you and it changes things for all three of you. First it happens with Akito who has grown into a woman who has to pretend like she is a man. She has needs, needs that need to be satiated but she only wants one person to cater to her most private needs. She wants you to take care of her. You've always taken care of her after all. She is needy and desperate for sexual affection but at the same time remains highly demanding as she forces the sexual relationship on you and thus reveals to you that she is a woman, a secret she has kept from you for years but now doesn't care to keep it hidden from you anymore. It messes with your mind as you are unable to deny her requests, the shackles of guilt and fear forever around your heart from that day on. You confide in the only person you see besides Akito and it only leads to your second downfall as you entrust Shigure with the news. He soothes you, coaxes the tears out of your eyes whilst comforting you yet there is a jealous gleam in his eyes. It truly is rather disgusting of him to feel that way, especially since he should be relieved that you lost your virginity to Akito and she hers to you.

🐕⚫His mind works in dark and twisted ways though as he feels like he has been robbed of something he would have loved to claim for himself. He can't help but wonder from that day on how you would look beneath him and soon his desire spurts him on to do something perhaps even more terrible. On a particular night where you are especially vulnerable he convinces you to have a few drinks with him as he keeps on filling your glass whilst you babble about your feelings and emotions until you are completely drunk. You only remember faintly sweet words coaxing you to his room, hands undressing you and lips traveling across your body and dark eyes expressing his weird co-existence of envy and pleasure that it was Akito who claimed your body first. You are awoken the next day by other maids who knock against the door of his house and inform the both of you that Akito has demanded for both of you to appear. Your heart drops as you look with panic in your eyes at Shigure who only gives you a grin as if he doesn't care about what he has done to you. Akito is weirdly silent at first when both of you arrive but the tension threatens to suffocate you.

🐕⚫She slowly approaches you, her eyes roaming over your body. The moment she demands you to kneel, your body reacts instinctively as you kneel down and look with fearful eyes at her. Hands caress your hair for a few seconds before she grabs a fistful of it and yanks your head up, screaming at you. Tears and snot drip down your face as she insults you, shames you and reminds you that your only worth is serving her. The one task you were assigned to yet have failed miserably. Your eyes silently beg Shigure to help you as he has gotten you into this mess yet he just idly watches and you feel sick to your stomach when you realise that he won't help you. You are thrown around, slapped across the face and yelled at for minutes before he finally speaks up and carefully advises that Akito should take it easier on you since you are on the verge of a panic attack. That is when she snaps her attention to him and you can only watch through sobs and tears as he receives the same treatment. Your throat feels like it is closing, you feel like you can't breathe and your whole body starts trembling uncontrollably as you witness how she banishes him from the Sohma estate.

🐕⚫Things are never the same again. It all has broken with no chance to fix the damage that has been inflicted. A small part of you still loves Akito but everything has been tarnished and stained by all-consuming fear. You flinch when she tries to touch you, your mind letting you see the maniacal gleam in her eyes on the day she found out that you had slept with Shigure and are constantly on edge as you have to endure every single day with her. There is no thing called privacy anymore as she has deemed you as someone she can't trust anymore. You sleep in the same room as her from now on, often she demands you to share even the same bed with her, and even showers are taken together. She doesn't take well to the fear you feel for her. She either reacts violently, desperately or just leaves you whilst muttering insults. Often it is all three in a random order. Emotionally you are already broken but even physically Akito tends to get so blinded with rage that she strikes you or throws something after you only to yell for her maids the next moment when she realises what she has done. Sometimes she tries to clean and bandage your wounds herself, her touches rough and her hands trembling slightly.

🐕⚫Most of the time you spend just silently accompanying you as you start changing. You don't care anymore about others and don't try to speak up for them. When Kana and Hatori ask Akito for her allowance for both of them to marry, you don't interfere when she flips out and hurts Hatori. Instead you wait for her to calm down herself, grasping her hand the moment she returns to your side and demands for your support and affection. You know by now how it goes. After every outburst of hers she will drag you to her room where you spend an hour or two giving her affection and helping her to calm down before she regains her composure again. You seek Hatori out later and apologise to him though, although he doesn't hold it against you. You haven't seen Shigure since he was banished but you have overheard some maids mentioning that he has sent you letters. Letters, which never made it past Akito who ripped all of them apart but you know that he would be smart enough to know that and probably only sends them to rile her up. You'll never forgive Shigure though for using your drunken state against you and for messing with your vulerability like this.

🐕⚫Your heart is in your throat when Shigure one day appears again and gives you a wave as if he has done nothing wrong. He's here to ask Akito if a girl named Tohru could live with them and to your surprise Akito agrees to it. Her grip on you is tight as she glares at Shigure throughout the entire conversation as his eyes never leave your form, almost relishing in the way cold sweat appears on your skin as you are once again exposed to being in the same room as both of them. He tells you with a smile that doesn't look sincere to you that you should visit them and meet Tohru since she is such a lovely girl. Akito has started shaking next to you and you can only clutch her hands tighter in silent hopes that she'll keep it in as she growls at him to leave now. A last warning and for a few dangerous seconds it looks like he considers making her snap before he seems to decide for the better and bids both of you goodbye, reminding you one last time of his offer. It is yet another bait he has been given as Shigure silently counts on the fact that Tohru's presence might help him to get closer to both Akito and you again, even if he has to kindle Akito's doubt and jealousy.

🐕⚫Akito brings her with you when she visits Tohru's school to meet the girl herself and brings you along. You keep your gaze low for the most part of the meeting as you know better than to give Akito any reason to be triggered. That is at least until the girl calls you out herself, her voice concerned and her eyes sincere as she asks you if you're feeling well. Kindness. Real kindness that almost has you tearing up before you feel Akito's hand grasping your wrist and squeezing it dangerously as she tilts her head and tells Tohru that everything is fine with you, forcing you to repeat her words as her grip on your wrist is a dangerous reminder. You're rather surprised when you see Yuki again and he shares the sentiment as he tries to rescue her before she starts taunting him. The moment Tohru pushes Akito away to stop her verbal torment though, you instinctively reach out to catch her, although Tohru was gentle when pushing her. Akito is rather pleased by your gesture as she tells you later in the car when you are sandwiched between Shigure and her, your heart racing dangerously in your chest as the two people who have hurt you the most are both sitting next to you yet you con only swallow your tears.

🐕⚫When the Sohmas enjoy their vacation during the summer, Shigure makes another move yet again as he convinces Akito to join them. Kureno and you accompany her. You do nothing as she torments the other Sohmas because you know that you would only make things worse for yourself and them. The entire time that Akito and you spend there, Shigure subtly tries to manage to get you for himself. He offers to show you around the house he's staying in and to give you a brief tour of the area. Akito denies you everything though unless she is with you and if no one else is around. It is quite obvious that she doesn't want Shigure and you to be left alone as she fears that both of you would betray her once again. Realising that, he still remains by your side like a leech as he decides to use the chance to the best of his abilities. You can't help but think that he's provoking Akito on purpose though when he asks how the both of you have been doing and aren't allowed to say anything as Akito answers all questions for you or simply forces you to produce the answer you know will please her. Shortly before both of you have to leave again, she meets Tohru and declares her status to her.

🐕⚫For some reason Shigure worms his way back inside the Sohma estate despite having been banned. The way he looks at you makes his skin crawl and his words, even if carefully veiled to hide their intentions, hit their target as he forces you out of your numb shell and gets you to express some emotions around him despite your attempts to ignore him. He doesn't really mind if you hate him. He just won't allow you to ignore and forget about him and if he has to torment you to do that, he will gladly do so. Occasionally he brings Akito and you some presents though, although his intentions are unclear. You think you fear him more than Akito in such moments where he hands you a bouquet of flowers because you have known Akito long enough to predict her somewhat even despite her impulsive temper. Shigure on the other hand has always shrouded himself in mystery and has never made his intentions obvious. You feel like you're walking on eggshells when he is around and the man knows about your feelings. He can't say that he hates it though as he finds odd enjoyment to see you so skittish around him. At least it means that he has an impact on your thoughts after all.

🐕⚫Slowly the curse of every member breaks though and the more it happens, the more do you find Akito growing more unstable. She grows even more hysterical until you feel like you can't breathe in her presence anymore. She runs away after having stabbed Kureno in the back as she reaches the peak of her instability and you do not follow her as you instead call an ambulance. You instead wait for her as you don't dare to leave the estate without her specific order. You aren't overly familiar with the city outside either as you have been very sheltered and would probably get lost outside if you were to run after her. It's Shigure who brings her back and the moment she sees you, she nearly causes you to topple when she throws herself at you, sobbing into your chest. Shigure is ushered away by the other maids as you find yourself in the familiar position of comforting her again. Only that this time is different. She confesses to you what had occured after she had run away, about Tohru and how she fell down the cliff before she asks you a question that makes your heart stop. Do you hate her for everything she has done?

🐕⚫You are unable to give her an answer to that question and expect her to lash out but that doesn't happen. Instead she almost seems to reflect on herself when she notes your inability to give her an answer. She requests of you if you'd like to come with her when visiting Tohru, afraid and unused to go anywhere without you yet not directly forcing you. Ultimately you decide to come with her as both of you visit Tohru who offers her friendship to the both of you and after that both of you visit Kureno who forgives her when she apologises to him. She seems to try to better herself but you know that it must be hard for her. Both of you have one way or another grown dependent on each other as she doesn't really know what to do without you and you essentially feel the same. She feels uneasy and anxious if she doesn't have you within her sight and you don't know what to do with your life either if you don't have her with you for a certain period of time. That is when Shigure finally decides to step back. Initial tension soon leads to both of them confessing their feelings for each other which then finally leads Shigure back to both people he has been wanting for essentially his entire life.

🐕⚫Akito isn't used to sharing and even if she does her best to mend her ways, old habits die hardly. She struggles to split your time, time she has been having years for herself. Especially since you do not want to be left alone with Shigure as the encounter from years ago is still very fresh in your mind and you prefer the devil you know over the devil you don't. Shigure doesn't respect your boundaries though as he constantly invades your privacy and follows you around. He has been waiting years for the moment where Akito would finally let him back and he plans to use every single chance to be with the both of you. It isn't like he doesn't know that he has traumatised both you and Akito but this is his own way of expressing his twisted feelings for you. He corners you, trails behind you and uses every chance to have a few moments alone with you. One time you snap at him and ask him through tears if he has no shame or guilt for what he has done. He confesses to you in that moment that he is fully aware of his wrongdoings and admits to being a terrible person but also tells you that he doesn't really regret anything he has done. It is a horrifying revelation that has your stomach churning.

🐕⚫At the same time Shigure clarifies though that he doesn't expect you to forgive him for what he has done to you and Akito. Knowing that both of you are now his is enough for him. Things don't really get better for you even if Akito is now attempting to be a better person. She has allowed Shigure back in her life and since both of you are still learning to get rid of the mutual separation anxiety which will probably never fully go away, you also find yourself stuck with Shigure. With his desires finally fulfilled, he may be less inclined to be a fulltime jerk but Shigure is still a terrible person who fully embraces his wickedness. His goal now is to ensure that you do not leave him because you don't feel the same way Akito feels about him. You love Akito though and wouldn't leave her side, especially since he knows how much both of you struggle to exist without the other. And he uses that to his advantage as he doesn't plan to assist in getting rid of the separation anxiety both of you have. There's nothing wrong with remaining attached after all. So even if Akito works on herself to be a better person, the relationship remains strained and toxic, especially with Shigure who will step low to keep you by their side.

#yandere fruits basket #yandere furuba #yandere shigure #yandere sohma shigure #yandere akito #yandere sohma akito #yandere x reader #fruits basket x reader

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whoelsehasthathair · 6 months ago

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The Most Comfortable Place - George Weasley x Reader

George comforts you as you deal with a harsh breakup. Reader is a Ravenclaw. Also slight reference to my previous fic Come On George Weasley (which I never posted a part 2?) This has been sitting in my drafts for literally 4 years so it's probably shitty but i thought why not post it so here we are

As rain poured down the transparent walls of the Greenhouse 4, 5th year Ravenclaws and Gryffindors were getting ready for their Herbology class with Professor Sprout. Y/N got her usual place between George and Lyanne and put down her books on the table.

“Good evening class!” started Professor Sprout with her usual tone full of joy.

“Good evening Professor Sprout” said the class in chorus.

“Today we’re going to learn about Aconites.”

Y/N’s eyes shot wide open and a grin formed on her face. “I know about this” she whispered to George. “It’s used in Wolfsbane potion but it’s poisonous, so be careful.”

“Then I might slip some into Eddie’s pumpkin juice at dinner y’know” he whispered leaning over Y/N’s ear. It has been only a few weeks since Y/N had broken up with Eddie and George was still angry at him that he broke Y/N’s heart so badly. He realised that she wasn’t eating well nor sleeping well. He saw the joy in her eyes fading away, replaced by thoughtful, cold and blank stares. But that was when her mind wasn’t busy with classes. He had always loved the way her face lighted up and her eyes grew wider when something she knew was mentioned, the curious and hungry for information nature of her showing itself while extracting new information, how she put her whole focus on something she loved. In every class with Ravenclaws, he loved seeing her different than the times he saw her probably overthinking.

“Not gonna lie, I wouldn’t really mind it Georgie” Y/N giggled.

“Who here can tell me about the Aconite plant?” asked Professor Sprout. George looked at Y/N, she didn’t seem like she was gonna raise her hand so he decided to make a move. He grabbed her hand and under Y/N’s confused looks, raised it. Waving he shouted with a wide grin “Y/N would like to answer Professor!” Y/N was trying to lower her hand in shock but of course the best beater the Gryffindor quidditch team ever had was too strong for her and his grip tightened more as she tried.

“Oh, Miss Y/L/N! Yes please.”

“Uhmmmm... It—It’s used in brewing Wolfsbane potion but it should be carefully concocted since aconite is a poisonous plant. It’s also known as Wolfsbane because of its use in this potion.” she spoke so quickly that she caused Professor Sprout to furrow her brows trying to catch her.

“Excellent Miss Y/L/N! 5 points to Ravenclaw.” Her fellow Ravenclaws grinned with amusement.

“Look” George whispered once again to her ear “Professor Sprout doesn’t bite.”

“I know she doesn’t bite you git” she nudged George’s arm

“I’m just trying to boost your confidence. Come on, be confident! You’re excellent and I’m sure you’re gonna nail your OWLs too.”

Y/N’s cheeks went red without her realising it and she gave George her classic “thank you” smile.

It was dinner time and the Great Hall was full of students chatting and eating. But Y/N wasn’t doing either of them. She was just staring at her plate as her fork aimlessly played with the roasted chicken and tart, sighing every 5 seconds trying to fight with her thoughts and trying to hold back the tears slowly starting to forming in her eyes. “Ain’t you eating Y/N?” asked one of her friends. “You love chicken and tart.” “Just not hungry” she murmured. She sighed once again and finally decided to leave the Great Hall. She quickly made her way to the library and sat down near a window. She let the tears fall from her cheeks. She pulled her knees to her stomach and buried her face as she let out a quite sob.

George left the Great Hall right after Y/N and followed her to the library. He watched her sit, curl up and start to sob quietly. That moment he promised himself he would make a deadly prank plan to play on Eddie with Fred and that time he wouldn’t be holding Fred back from his crazy ideas. He slowly approached to Y/N and sat at the table near her. “Would you mind if I sit here for a while?”

Y/N nodded. George pretended to study as he watched Y/N in complete silence. He didn’t want to do anything that would make Y/N uncomfortable. He knew she needed a little bit of loneliness at times like this, so he watched for the right time. When Y/N finally brought her head up and sniffled, he moved his chair next to hers. “Y/N, I-- I want you to know that even if that git doesn’t love you, there are still people who love you so much. Like your mom, your grandparents, Eleanora, Lyanne, April, Fred, I, professors, your little sister and cousins... We all love you more than you can imagine. I don’t want you to think you don’t deserve to be loved, cause you really do. That git is the one who doesn’t deserve your love.” he slowly caressed her hand. Y/N smiled sniffling once again and nodded. “Thank you” she put her head on George’s shoulder and wiped her tears with her sleeve. George smiled back at her and pressed a soft kiss on the crown of her hair. “You know what, you look cute with a red nose”

Y/N giggled and looked up at George. She hadn’t felt this comfortable for a long time, not since she was comforted by George before Christmas. “I wish you could just obliviate me about him sometimes”

“I’m afraid we would need someone like Lockhart on this subject since I don’t wanna delete wrong things.” They both giggled.

“Better?” asked George.

“Better.”

“Great. Mom always said that here is the most comfortable place.” He said patting on his shoulder, a proud grin on his face.

Y/N smiled back and stood up “I think I need to go now. Thank you again for everything.”

“Great to be in service” He hugged her one more time before letting her go.

“I knew it wasn’t the books that brought you to the library.” said Fred with a wide grin as he came out amongst the shelves.

“Freddie, we have someone to prank. And this time, every idea is accepted.”

“Hmmmmm I like this.”

#fred and goerge weasley #george weasley #fred weasley #george x reader #george weasley x reader #george weasley imagine #george weasley fanfiction #george weasley fic #harry potter #george weasley fluff #george weasley x y/n #george weasley x you #weasley twins #weasley twins imagine #harry potter fanfiction #george weasley x fem!reader

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charly1902 · 8 months ago

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Analysis of Charles and Edwin's friendship/love: a thread #DeadBoyDetectives

1/ Right from the start, it's clear that they've known each other for a long time. They know each other, they know how to react and how the other will react, and beyond that, they're really complementary, which we can see from the very first scenes of the series, particularly in their different approaches (mental for Edwin and physical for Charles) to solving a case.

2/ Later, in this same first episode, we also discover their complementary way of being. Edwin is fussy, organised, cold and thinks a lot before doing anything, and can even be described as "uptight". On the other hand, Edwin is much more spontaneous, unthinking, funny and cheerful (at least at the time, that's what we see of him).

3/We also immediately see the attachment they feel for each other. From the very first minutes, they both express their desire to stay together, hiding from death so as not to be separated. What's more, Charles' instinct to protect Edwin is immense throughout the series. Whether it's the Cat King's attitude towards him or the boxing training he undergoes to learn how to defend himself.

4/ Still in this first episode, we have the arrival of an element that will upset this balance, Crystal. Charles, unlike Edwin, likes her quite quickly, but we begin to see that the relationship between the two becomes a little strained by a difference of opinion about whether Crystal is welcome or not. After 30 years of just the two of them, it's understandable that Edwin seems to be jealous of Crystal, who has Charles' undivided attention. But then again, you might think it's just friendly jealousy, or maybe just a lack of familiarity with a third person on their team.

5/ It's in episode 2 that we realise (in a way, at the same time as Edwin) that this isn't just friendly jealousy but something deeper than that. The arrival of the Cat King shows Edwin something he didn't want to see, his romantic love for Charles. This creates a real rift in their relationship. Edwin becomes hateful to Crystal and Charles can't understand why Edwin is so strange and refuses to talk to him about what's bothering him. For his part, Edwin is kind of hurt by how nice it is for him to have someone new their age (and alive too).

6/In episode 3, this is further emphasised by Crystal and Charles talking in front of Edwin and Niko about how much they like each other and how much further they could go together without any problems. For Edwin, this reinforces the rift between him and Charles by his desire to have a relationship with Crystal, but also by Edwin's inexperienced/"uptight" side, as he realises that he's not on the same wavelength as Charles, who thought he was. (Still in friendship, I mean, they never seem to have talked about it).

7/ In this episode, the crack in their relationship almost reaches its climax. We discover Charles' violent past with his father. Charles is going through hell with this violent father who slaughters his family over and over again. At this point, Edwin discovers another side of Charles that he didn't know before, and at the same time realises that Charles would rather talk to Crystal than him about it. But for all that, Edwin still loves Charles, and it's this paradoxical feeling that will trouble him enormously over the next few episodes. He sees both his best friend of 30 years, whom he knows by heart, and he discovers a complete stranger in this episode.

7bis/ It's worth noting Charles's great distrust of Monty from the start, which could be akin to a feeling of rejection of his best friend with a friend he doesn't know and doesn't really like at first.

8/ This paradoxical aspect of knowing Charles and at the same time not knowing him is once again supported in the fourth episode. First of all, Edwin plucks up the courage to talk to Charles, explaining that if he needs to talk, he's there for him. Charles politely refuses. Edwin feels a fracture again, understanding that Charles doesn't feel the need to discuss it with him. However, he is still very disturbed by his new feelings for Charles, looking at him intently for several seconds.

9/ As a viewer, in this episode we learn even more about the circumstances of Charles' death and his behaviour. But for Edwin, it's all the same: he discovers a violent Charles who even sends someone into the belly of a fish to protect him and Edwin. However, Charles doesn't seem to realise how extreme his actions are, once again coming into conflict with Edwin.

10/ At the end of this episode, we witness a heartbreaking scene in which Charles finally expresses himself. He explodes with sadness as he explains that he didn't feel ready to die, that he hates the fact that he's dead and that he's keeping a smile on his face because Edwin isn't the positive type and prefers to react cheerfully to everything to balance things out and keep his spirits up. Edwin falls flat on his face, hurt by Charles's words. But Charles continues, this time on another subject, the fact that he's good for nothing, pointing out that he can't reassure Edwin about what's happening to him. This shows us that the situation doesn't suit Charles at all either. Up until now, we've seen him detached from it all, occasionally trying to find out what's bothering Edwin but not seeming to be hurt that he's not responding. In truth, he's just as hurt by Edwin's silence as Edwin is by his own. At the end of this scene, he even rejects Edwin's reassuring hand, showing once again the chasm that has been created between them. At the end of the episode, Edwin again reminds Charles who can talk to him, Charles nods and heads off to Crystal's room. I find this scene quite striking. The 2 characters are pitted against each other and end up in opposite rooms. This can be seen as a reminder of the characters' estrangement from the beginning.

11/ At this point, the two find themselves in a new situation with new people in their team and a misunderstanding between the two of them that disturbs them enormously and which really reaches its climax in this episode (in my opinion).

12/ However, in the following episode, we notice a desire on the part of the 2 friends to get closer again, finding themselves once more in a case they know and can handle as usual. On the one hand we have Charles telling him that he kissed Crystal, which is a bit disturbing for Edwin but we can see that he's still trying to get interested, but he still manages to come back to the fact that Charles doesn't like being dead. Charles realises at this point that Edwin was really hurt by his words and that he was still thinking about it. So he reassures him, explaining that he was very angry and that if he's going to be dead, he's delighted it's going to be with him, his best friend. Edwin feels better after these words and things seem to be slowly returning to normal.

13/ Things continue to be positive for both boys as, at the end of the episode, Charles finally confides in Edwin about his desire to be a good person, not to be like his father and his distress at the anger he's been feeling all the time lately. Once again, Edwin reassures him that he's not a bad person. The scene ends with a hug, which seems to please Edwin but also upsets him a little.

14/ We finally understand at the end of the episode that Edwin has finally accepted his feelings for Charles and so he explains to Monty how he feels. This episode is a sign of renewal in their relationship. After a long, dark period when the two couldn't understand or get along with each other, here the two protagonists finally talk to each other and accept their feelings. They also accept themselves. It's a really lovely episode where you get the feeling that things are finally going to work out.

15/ In episode 6, there isn't much to say about the relationship between the two, with the stories focusing instead on Monty and Crystal and David. However, we still get a nice show of love and protection from Charles for Edwin when they're both caught by Teeth Face and, faced with the possibility of their demise, Charles puts his hand on Edwin's as encouragement. This is a particularly beautiful scene too, as we can see that Charles is frightened by the idea of disappearing, but at this point he prefers to be reassuring with Edwin rather than lamenting. We can assume that, for Charles, Edwin will always come first whatever the circumstances, which makes us wonder about the nature of the love Charles feels for Edwin.

16/ So at the end of episode 6, we had Edwin being dragged back to Hell by a creature, leaving Charles totally helpless and distraught. Within minutes of this happening, we see a Charles determined to find a way to get Edwin back to him. Once again, he thinks no further than that, by which time he is already sure to be going to Hell to look for Edwin. Finding no other solution, he even agrees to the Night Nurse's deal, obliging them to return to her once he's managed to find Edwin. At this point, he prefers to leave his "life" on Earth and go to the Beyond if it means having Edwin by his side.

17/ At the same time, we discover the true circumstances of Charles's death and his meeting with Edwin. And so we understand why they are so close. In both cases, they were the first people to meet in their new "lives". Charles is dying and has learnt a lot about death from Edwin, and Edwin has just escaped from hell and discovers a Charles who is about to go through the same stage as him: dying by someone else's hand without ever having asked for anything. However, what really stands out for me is Charles' trust in Edwin from the outset. He asks no questions and seems at ease with him even though he doesn't know him. Edwin is the same: he's not frightened, he's happy to spend the last moments of Charles's life by his side, and he naturally confides in him that he's a ghost. Right from the start, he seems connected by something, without knowing what would happen next, they both trusted each other in a situation where they should no longer trust others because of their past. This trust has evolved into a totally natural, fusional relationship that makes them, in my opinion, true soul mates.

18/ And it's clear from the start that they love each other beyond measure. Even though they don't seem to realise the extent of their relationship and how lucky they are to know each other in death, they would do anything for each other without hesitation.

19/ Charles's arrival in Hell shows us how determined he is to find Edwin. As he passes through the different rooms, he doesn't understand what Edwin has been through. It's only when he reaches him that he realises what his best mate went through during those 70 years in Hell. When he finds him, he immediately tries to reassure her, using a series of gentle gestures towards Edwin. You can see in his eyes how relieved he is to have found him. But Edwin is both delighted to see him and panicked. First, he's afraid for Charles, he doesn't want him to get hurt or trapped in his own Hell, especially if he's coming to save him. Secondly, Edwin felt very vulnerable. He'd never told Charles about what he'd been through in Hell, and he has to show Charles a part of himself that he wouldn't have wanted him to see. Charles is obviously very worried about Edwin when he finds out what he's been through, but here he's acting as a guide to help him escape. He relies on him completely, not having the strength to do it on his own.

20/ Towards the end of Hell, Edwin finally manages to express his love for Charles, even though Charles doesn't really seem to listen or understand him at first, replying that he loves him too but without conviction. Even though he is completely honest in his words, he doesn't respond at all to Edwin's love for him. It's when he finally understands that he makes a speech that I find incredible for Edwin. In my opinion, this speech doesn't close any doors and Charles doesn't even seem to think about what he's saying, pouring out his words as if they were completely natural. He tells him that he loves him very much, admittedly not in the same way that Edwin loves him, but enough to go to Hell for him, which he wouldn't have done for anyone else. And above all, he tells him at the end that they have all eternity to work out their relationship. For me, with these words, Charles doesn't close the door at all to a possible relationship with Edwin, even explaining to him that they'll have time to understand the nature of their relationship. It also shows us that even Charles is aware that they have a strong bond and that he may already be wondering about the nature of their relationship with Edwin. For the moment, he doesn't feel the same love as Edwin, but he loves him like he loves no-one else and he leaves the door open to their relationship. Frankly, I can see why Edwin is happy with this answer, which I think is the best answer he could have given her in return. I find it really perfect and full of love. To conclude this episode, we even get Charles reassuring Edwin one last time that his revelation hasn't upset him and he even responds with an honesty and a smile that can raise a lot of questions.

21/ In the final episode, we find them both much more at peace with a relationship that never seems to have been so positive. However, this is short-lived as Esther puts her plan into action and goes to find the 2 ghosts to take them home. During all the moments when Edwin is suffering and being tortured by Esther, we see Charles being totally helpless and he is extremely worried about Edwin. It's not as strong as it should have been, but you can see it in the few scenes. Charles is subjected to a kind of psychological torture that prevents him from intervening to save his soulmate, and he can only listen to Edwin's cries of pain. When it's all over and after SPOILER's death, we see him once again being the rock, pulling Edwin and Crystal out of the house so that they don't get swept away by Death.

22/ Towards the end of the episode, we have a final discussion between Edwin and the Cat King. Edwin seems much more at peace with himself than he has ever been. He's done some real soul-searching about his resemblance to the Cat King, realising that he's finally accepting himself and his feelings. You can tell from his speech that he knows he is no longer alone and never will be again.

23/ At the end of the episode, after their near dismissal, we know that he's once again worried about Edwin's fate, reminding us that he's there because of a mistake. Eventually it all works out and they're very reassured for each other by the end of the episode. I think that at this point, their relationship is healthy, they no longer have any secrets from each other and it can only get better. At this point, they're in tune and they seem to want to move forward together in their "new death", away from their fugitive lives and happy to be together.

24/ I'll just conclude this thread by expressing my love for these 2 characters, because for me, their relationship is so beautiful but at the same time, so complex. That's honestly my favourite thing about TV shows, the relationships between the characters, and sometimes I struggle to be truly satisfied with the way the characters are treated. But in this show, in my opinion, it's flawless. Every character reacts as they should and that's why I'd really like to see this series renewed for a 2nd season at least.

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Switched Sides Chapter 4 - Lloyd Hansen Series

Character: Lloyd Hansen x former Hitman!FemaleReader

Summary: Y/N L/N quit her job as a hitman to take care of her nephew after her stepbrother died. It’s been a year since she became a good aunt to her nephews, and she wants to keep it that way. But her quiet life got disturbed when her former boss asked for her help.

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“No.” Y/N quickly answered.

“Eh~ why not?” Lloyd asked with a whining voice.

“If you live here, do you want to explain to the kids why they came home with blood on their head, broken leg, or losing a finger?”

She had that thought before, to continue her job as a hitman when she became an aunt, but consider the danger, and any day would be her last day. She can’t risk that.

“I already risked my family's safety when I let you into my house.”

“Wow.”

“What?”

“Don't you realise this is our first argument as a couple?”

“We're not…”

“I know, I know, I'm just teasing you. Don't get mad. Let's get back to sleep.” Lloyd stroked her back multiple times.

He doesn't want to make her angry anymore, or she will move from his arms. It's already a miracle she didn't push him away. Lloyd was half honest when he asked about moving in. If Y/N says yes, that would be great, but it is also fine if she says no.

The next day, Lloyd woke up with an empty bed. When he looked at the clock, he was surprised it showed 9 a.m. He slept the whole night. Then he saw folded clothes beside him.

It turned out Y/N had prepared it.

He wore the clothes and walked to the kitchen. The image he saw is Y/N cooking breakfast, and the kids are sitting at the dining table. Then she said, “Come here, or the omelette will get cold.”

Is this what having a normal family looks like? It's not bad.

Lloyd sits on the chair and greets the kids, “Morning, Mark and Kendall.” He gently patted Kendall’s head.

Mark, while munching his food, he kept looking at Lloyd.

“My daddy used to wear that; you could keep it.”

“Oh, thank you.” Lloyd's fork cut the food in front of him. But then a hash brown being dropped to his plates. When he looked up, he realised the food came from Kendall. The little kid is smiling at him.

“He likes you,” Y/N said while enjoying her coffee. Kendall did the same with her after he became comfortable with her. Nobody knows that she shed a tear that day.

“Kendall couldn’t speak properly yet, so he will show affection through giving.”

Lloyd felt a lump in his throat. This little kid just shared what he had with a hitman like him. Everyone says he’s a heartless and sociopathic man, but with litter gesture like this made his cold heart melt for a second.

He ate the hash brown, and look at Kendall “I will get the best doctor to treat you, kiddo.”

******

After the four of them had breakfast and showered, Lloyd got a message on his phone when he was sitting on the couch while Kendall rested on his chest.

“Y/N, I'm going to need your help again.”

“What is it now?” Y/N, playing Monopoly with Mark, closes his ears with her hands. She hopes he won’t hear their conversation.

“I will meet a weapon dealer, but I need a translator. My dear Y/N, you are fluent in Italian."

“I don't like where this is going.”

“Could you please be my plus one? If you help me, Hmmm… let me think about it.”

He was silent at the second, wondering what he could give her. Then he thought, “I will change your minivan to BMW.”

Y/N shook her head. "No, the maintenance and taxes are expensive."

She would say yes if he had given her that offer one year ago. But now, after becoming an aunt, she needs to count all the expenses, and her priority is her nephew. Besides, the car her brother left is still in good condition.

“Oh, I didn't expect that answer. I have another offer that will benefit you.”

“What?”

“I will catch your stalker.”

“Huh?”

Lloyd slowly moved his body to sit down while holding Kendall. “Don't you know someone has been following you for a couple of months?”

Y/N has a strong instinct because of her training and skills as a hitman. She will sense if there's another killer near her.

But what Lloyd said about someone stalking her?

"That person may not be in the same business as us. That's why I don't feel threatened."

“Ooh pumpkin, parenting is hard for you and makes your excellent skills rusty. Don't worry. I will get him for you.”

Lloyd finds out where she lives, and he knows someone is stalking her. So she will leave him with that job. “Promise me you won't kill that stalker. I want to hear the reason why.”

“Fine.”

“But we have a problem.”

“Who's going to take care of the kids?”

“Bruno will watch them.”

“Me?”

Y/N and Bruno asked at the same time. It turned out Lloyd had called Bruno.

“Him?”

“Yeah. He's good with kids.”

“Me disguised as a kindergarten teacher on one mission doesn't make me a kid expert.”

They once got a month-long mission at the private school to catch a criminal. She became an elementary school, and Bruno became a kindergarten teacher. He seemed to have a big impact; kids cried when he said goodbye.

“Two Richard Mille watches. Limited editions.”

“Deal.”

Y/N move closer to Lloyd’s phone. “Make sure they don't eat peanuts; the last time they can eat chocolate is 4 p.m.; if you let them eat past 4 pm, they will get hyperactive. You don't want that, right Bruno?”

"No."

“They could watch cartoons. If they can't sleep, just play a video of Bob Ross. His voice always works to make them fall asleep.”

“Easy cake.”

“Wow, pretty Aunty.”

“Pwinsess.”

Damn, these kids made the first move. Lloyd clicked his tongue; when they were done giving a kiss to their aunt, it was time for him.

“You look beautiful.”

Right now, three of them see Y/N wearing a dress. This would be Mark and Kendall's first time seeing their aunt stylishly like this. While Lloyd, who'd seen her wearing all kinds of clothes, still made him speechless.

“Thanks.” She didn't rebuke what he said. It's been a while for her to wear a beautiful dress and make-up. After becoming the aunt, she only wears comfortable clothes. But now, she looks like the old Y/N. Confident, sexy, and dangerous.

Sometimes she wondered how Lloyd could get a nice dress this fast.

*****

They arrived at the expensive restaurant. After Lloyd told the name to the waiter, he brought them to a private room. She saw a man with a suit, big rings on his fingers, and leather shoes there. She could read him as flamboyant and narcissistic from how he dressed. This will be a difficult negotiation.

“Glad you’re not late, signore Hansen.”

Y/N pinched Lloyd's arm and whispered, “You said he can’t speak English.”

There it is, a smirked smile on his face again. This is his plan from the beginning. He just wanted to be alone with her, but she kept saying no. “Perhaps, he’s been taking lessons.”

The weapon dealer's name is Luca. He flicked the shortened cigarette butt onto the ashtray and stared straight at Lloyd. “You see, signore, my boss doesn’t agree with the number you offered.”

Lloyd put off the cigarette to the ashtray he barely smoked. “What a coincidence, my boss also hates the number you gave.”

“I expected we couldn’t make an agreement today. So this is my last gift to you.” He grabs the knife steak and taps his champagne glass. With the clinking sound, many people appear from the door. Luca turned out to bring a bodyguard with him.

They are outnumbered, but their skill is nothing compared to Lloyd and Y/N's level.

Y/N kick their table aside to create a defensive barrier; she grabs a knife from her thigh holster.

Y/N and Lloyd work together to beat the bodyguard at the peaceful restaurant. Loyd always likes Y/N's skill with knives. His eyes admire her fight while he delivers a fist to his opponent. The way she threw the blade knives was so fast that they couldn’t be seen properly, and she would accurately hit her target.

“I know you missed this,” Lloyd shouts, directed to Y/N from his position. From his eyes, he could see her eyes with glee, and Y/N was enjoying it.

The man who had beaten Lloyd groaned and pulled a gun out of his jacket. But Lloyd acted quicker; he grabbed his gun and pulled the trigger.

It didn’t take long for both of them to deal with the bodyguards. Lloyd tidied up his dishevelled clothes and grabbed a white cloth to wipe the blood off Y/N's hands. They act like nothing happened while Luca sits trembling near the kicked table, looking at Lloyd and Y/N with trembling eyes.

Lloyd grabbed a Y/N knife that stuck on a bodyguard's chest. He squatted in front of Luca and stabbed the knife on the table behind Luca; his ears almost got cut.

“Send this to your boss. Accept the price we offered, or he doesn’t see another sunrise.” Lloyd kicked the man’s head, which made him pass out.

*******

As they going back, silence filled the inside of the car. None of them opened their mouth. It was Lloyd the first to break the silence.

“You can’t go home like this.”

Y/N eyes were fixed on the road, glanced at him. Lloyd, driving briefly, looked at her from head to toe. After she followed his gaze, she understood that dry blood spattered on her clothes, and she couldn’t get rid of the blood from her fists. She went out of control tonight.

He’s right. If Mark and Kendall saw her like this, they would be scared. “You’re right.”

“Let’s go to my place. I still have your clothes.” Lloyd tapped the steering wheel.

“Fine, I’ll was my hands, change my clothes and go home.”

Suddenly, the speed of the car increased. He sped on it so roughly that her body leaned backwards, startling Y/N.

****

Lloyd brings her to one of his hidden apartments. Y/N removed her make and took a quick shower. Washing her hand with hand soap, and her hair is a mess.

After she felt refreshed, she went out of the bathroom and heard to the wardrobe. She was shocked by the outfits. It’s all silk satin dress and pyjamas. Where the heck is her old hoodie and training pants?

“Lloyd!!!” She screamed his name and slammed the wardrobe door. Suddenly behind the door, the man appeared with a smug smile.

Lloyd stood in front of Y/N. He stretched out his arms on both sides of her and touched the back of the wardrobe, and Y/N was completely trapped in his arms.

Y/N raised her head and stared blankly at him. His blues have always been her favourite colour.

She reached out her hand and slowly stroked his face.

Lloyd twisted his mouth into a smile. He bumped their forehead together.

Y/N placed her hand on the nape of his neck. “You're right; I miss this.”

The moment Y/N said that Lloyd pulled her body close to him. They passionately exchanged. He carried her onto his bed. A long moan escaped from her mouth. The longing that had been held up exploded, and without hesitation, they lunged at each other.

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OKAY so I found this list of OC couple questions (I hope they're also okay to use for OC x Canon couples), and I'm going to answer them for Boromir and Aeroniel because I love them ❤️

I probably repeat myself like crazy, but I hope if you choose to read this you enjoy it 🥰

1. What were their first impressions of each other?

Their first impressions of each other were very positive. Though she was slightly intimidated by him at first, Aeroniel quickly found Boromir to be a very comforting presence. There was just something about him that felt so... safe and warm, and she hadn't met someone like that in years (not that she had met many people, because she was kind of a shut-in). Talking to him felt easy.

Boromir thought that Aeroniel's tendency to ramble was very sweet. He also liked the fact that at first, she had no idea who he was, so she was speaking to him like a person, not looking up to him like he was on a pedestal. I kind of headcanon that Boromir has struggled to have proper friendships with people other than Faramir because everyone sees him as like... a 'hero', and no one really gets to know him as himself. And even though Aeroniel gets all awkward and formal when she first realises who he is, once they start seeing each other more often she treats him like a person rather than a symbol, and he loves that.

2. Is it a casual relationship, or true love? Or somewhere in between?

True love, for sure. I'm too sappy to have them be anything else. They get married, raise their four children together, and love each other for the rest of their lives.

3. What was each of their 'oh shit, I have feelings for them' moment?

The first moment that Boromir realised his feelings for Aeroniel was when she gave him a scarf that she had knitted just for him. Like she gave him the scarf, said something about not wanting him to be cold or fall ill, and he was floored. It wasn't until the situation outlined in Q.5 that he realised he couldn't live without her, however.

For Aeroniel, it was quite an easy realisation. There was no big moment that solidified how she felt, all of a sudden she was like "oh I love him".

4. Did either of them fight their feelings, or was it easy to accept?

Both of them accepted their feelings after realising them, but I also think that they both struggled with believing their feelings would be reciprocated by the other. I imagine they bring that up later and both of them are just baffled, like... "what do you mean you didn't think I could be in love with you? Of course I am, you're amazing!!"

5. When was their first 'I love you'? What prompted it? If neither have said it yet, why?

Okay, so this is very random, but sometimes I like to take little bits of lore from different sources and mix them all together. I read on Boromir's Tolkien Gateway page that in The Lord of the Rings Online, there's a storyline about Denethor betrothing Boromir to Lothíriel. I didn't like the idea at first, but after a little bit of thought I was like "oh, I can use this". So basically, Boromir had never imagined himself getting married. He'd never had strong enough feelings for someone to make him think of marrying, and his position kept him very busy anyway.

Then he met Aeroniel, and he started to think about what it might be like to be married to her... of course, that would never happen. Then, his father started talking about marrying him to Lothíriel, and it terrified Boromir. If he was going to marry, he wanted it to be for love (and not to his cousin), but Denethor was not listening. After a brief talk with Faramir, he practically bolted to Aeroniel's home to tell her how he felt about her. He told her that he loved her, and that he wanted her to be his wife. Aeroniel accepts, of course. They ended up getting married in secret a few days later, with Faramir as the only witness.

6. Who's the big spoon and who's the little spoon?

Boromir's the big spoon and Aeroniel's the little spoon, but I think they're more likely to cuddle with Aeroniel resting her head on Boromir's chest ❤️

7. What was the biggest obstacle to their relationship?

Denethor. Expanding on the things I spoke about in Q.5.: The plan was to eventually tell Denethor about the marriage after a few months, but then Boromir had to go to Rivendell and when his horn washed up everyone thought he was dead for a while. Then, when he came back to Minas Tirith with Gandalf and Pippin and everyone found out that he was alive, Boromir informed his father that he was married. Denethor was probably too far into his madness to really take much notice of Aeroniel though, but I'm sure he'd get a few insults in before his death.

Also, there was the distance between them after Boromir left for Rivendell. Part of me thinks that Aeroniel was pretty mad at Boromir because he insisted on going, so when she hears news of his 'death', she's not only devastated but she feels guilty because she had been mad at him the last time they spoke. All was forgiven when he came back though ❤️

8. What drew them to each other the most?

I kind of talked about this in the other questions, but Boromir is drawn to Aeroniel because she treats him like a person rather than a statue on a pedestal. Like yes, she admires him and thinks he's amazing, but she understands that he's just a man with emotions and vulnerabilities like anyone else. He knows that he can talk to her without any judgement.

What draws Aeroniel to Boromir is similar, in the vein of being able to speak without judgement. After her parents died, she was raised by her uncle who mistreated her and made her feel like there was something wrong with her (for obvious reasons there's no diagnosis in universe, but she's most likely AuDHD), which led to her shutting herself away even after he died. Her and Boromir met each other by chance, but he gave her a reason to let the world in again.

9. How long did they know each other before developing feelings?

They did start developing feelings pretty quickly, to be honest. When they met something just clicked, something that neither of them had really experienced with other people before. While it wasn't exactly 'love at first sight', it was close - though this is Middle Earth, and people fall in love at first sight all the time 😆

10. What is their favourite quality about each other?

For Boromir, it's how passionate Aeroniel gets about her interests. Like he could have no idea what she's talking about but it's the enthusiasm that gets him. For example he knows pretty much nothing about art, but he knows how happy it makes Aeroniel, and he could easily listen to her talk for hours.

For Aeroniel, her favourite thing about Boromir is how he can be so strong but so gentle at the same time. She feels safe around him, both physically and emotionally, and knows that he will never mistreat her or judge her for who she is.

#boromir x oc #boromir x aeroniel #boromir #aeroniel #oc x canon #canon x oc #lotr oc #lord of the rings oc #mari's stuff

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alone-in-the-suburbs · 3 months ago

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Alcohol Psychosis.

TW Serious Post / Mental Health, ignore if not on theme.

Introduction

This is about people that suffer from drinking problems and what I have discovered through seeing a therapist for 2 months and reading multiple articles around this issue. If you are someone who struggles with this, or someone I know/knew personally. I recommend reading.

Do YOU ever wake up and wonder why YOU acted like THAT?

Definition

"Alcohol-related psychosis is a secondary psychosis that manifests as prominent hallucinations and delusions occurring in a variety of alcohol-related conditions" This mainly discusses the non-violent type of psychosis.

Remember, your past does not define you. What you do in the future is what matters, if you are going through the impact of alcohol induced psychosis, remember you can fix it from here. You will be a better person/partner/employee.

What is Alcohol Related Psychosis?

I've recently discovered through therapy that I have something called Alcohol Induced Psychosis, specifically a type which causes you to dream while you are awake. This is linked to your brain falling asleep but intoxication keeps you talking and walking. I'm by no means an alcoholic, but I found myself in a position where my nights out were getting out of control and it damaged relationships with people I loved. So I decided to make a change and look into why this was happening. No one had spoken to me about this before.

My favourite part about it is that usually you completely go insane, usually saying things that are both untrue and often your brain running with whatever thought crosses it. It also links directly with "Hangxiety" which a lot of people suffer from, myself included.

You form this psychosis through prolonged drinking in younger years, common in people that "Haven't taken a weekend off" since they were 17 but it is also commonly found in people that use drugs in the same capacity. It has a lot to do with tolerance, while most people will just fall asleep or vomit, people with extreme tolerance will often find themselves being so intoxicated your brain turns into an melted popsicle.

What does it look like when it happens?

Sad about something? Suddenly you want to kill yourself.

Struggling with sex life/can't get it up when you want to? You must be gay, right?

Saw a person on the street? They must be trying to kill or rob you right?

Work is a bit too much at the moment? You have to quit.

Girlfriend didn't reply to a message? Cheating, must be.

Feel like you're getting older quickly? You must be 37! (You're only 25)

"Drunk talk is sober thoughts" right?

No, not all cases are like this, alcohol induced psychosis tricks your brain into saying/thinking things that are so absurd that you cannot fathom why you said that in the morning. Usually playing on minor insecurities or worries, and blowing up to the most extreme they can go. You may be inclined to be more honest after a few drinks, that is true. But Alcohol induced psychosis is not a "few drinks". It's a complete collapse of ones mental state due to over consumption. Often at no fault of their own, but because they lose control.

The idea that what you said while drunk is true is difficult to cope with, but usually that's because sober you doesn't believe it to be true either. You may say something about someone while drunk, then realise you actually really like them in the morning. Drunk you is not you.

It's troubling but the only way around it is extreme alcohol control, even to the point of not drinking ever again. You may not be an alcoholic but once you start suffering from this, you pretty much manage your alcohol consumption perfectly or quit altogether.

Luckily this type of psychosis only comes into play when alcohol is consumed, so if you suffer from this just know it's fixable.

My Experience

I once was able to go all night, drinking as much as I wanted. But one thing always happened. I was sick. Awful right? Not so much, being sick is your body telling you that you've over consumed, the same with falling asleep. After 7 years of drinking, I got to the point where I was no longer sick, no longer sleeping when drinking. Great tolerance!

But no, this leads to overconsumption and alcohol psychosis. Your body has natural checks in place before you reach that point and once they are gone... Well.

Calling my best friend and telling him I'm 37 (I was 24, but noticing my age in the mirror each morning, sub-consciously)

Calling my then girlfriend to explain I was probably bisexual (I am straight, but got picked on relentlessly when I was younger for not displaying interest in girls and Sketch (Yes the streamer) had just been caught out as an onlyfans model, so in my mind, I either told the "truth" or risked the world discovering. All of which was not true.

Hanging out of my bosses car window at a work event while she drove us to another bar, incredible how I didn't get fired for this.

Trying to drop out of my university course which I was steadily succeeding with, just because I felt it was all too much.

Ruining a double date because I had failed a university assessment, fearing the dread that came with this I did not eat and continued to consume alcohol for the whole day, with my best friend not attempting to put it in check. At no fault to his as the intoxication was very sudden.

Being mean to my now ex girlfriend, telling her to shut up in a tense situation where she did not deserve that in any sense.

All very embarrassing, but easily avoided and all in the past now, never to happen again.

Often times, you "dream" what you are thinking about. Remember that dream where you accidentally told your boss to "GFY"? or you dreamt that you were in Tokyo? Well when you suffer from Alcohol Psychosis you might call your boss and say that! or you might book those flights to Tokyo with absolutely no idea why.

Some of you may remember this ad about Marijuana use. It's sort of like that. YOU wouldn't do it, but sober you is not present at that time. You can say, do or think all sorts of crazy stuff.

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Managing Alcohol Induced Psychosis

While you may want to drink, it's usually in your best interest to manage it the best way for both your heart and brain. Your brain may tell you it's need to relax and have a beer, your heart may hurt and tell you it wants a shot. But if you suffer from this issue, you must use your brain and protect your heart.

Personally, I found my triggers long after I had these nights. I found common trends, work was too much, I failed an assessment at university, old traumas had been on my mind or I the relationship I was in was damaging my self-worth. I can link all of these to a night where I drank too much and woke up like wtf.

If you suffer from these issues or have had nights where you wake up and go why the fuck did I say that? You should look into this, as it may save you from pain in the future.

If you know someone who suffers through this, they may not know it. They may call you and tell you stupid things, you just need to know how to handle it. Often times people let those around them continue this trend, but you can intervene. Talk to them, explain the condition and tell them that it can and will damage them in the future. Once they understand it, you may never have to meet the person that called you that night drunkenly telling you they are 37, suddenly gay, quit their job, think their girlfriend is cheating and being followed by a man who is for certain trying to kill them.

Academic Articles recommended to me

If you or someone you know seemingly goes insane after having a few too many, it’s not them, it’s a condition. Sit down and think about it, talk with them or talk to someone.

Methods for control if you don't want to stop drinking.

Try to lower your tolerance, skip a few weekends of drinking, don't have that beer or two after work. Try to control your alcohol intake. High tolerance seems great, but it doesn't mean you get less drunk. High Tolerance just means you don't throw up or sleep like most.

Know when to stop, as soon as you start to feel it. Stop. Just stop, grab a coke or a water, you'll be better off. It's not super easy for some, but try to have a check and balance system. Ask friends or family to watch over you, to stop you from drinking more try to keep your drinks 1 for 1 with a friend you know doesn't drink too much.

Drink something different, use to drink 10 whiskeys? Try drinking 5 whiskeys with more mixer, drink a lower strength beer or make the beers smaller. Notice that wine makes you go ballistic? Try something else, maybe a ginger beer or even a liquor! You are not going to get it right every time but knowing there are options does help.

Eat more, often times, not eating will cause your body to process alcohol a lot quicker. Having food in your system will allow you to better recognise the stages of intoxication.

Avoid caffeine, one of your bodies natural checks is sleep. If you avoid sleep by consuming caffeine you will in turn increase your time and tolerance to consume alcohol. But you will still get just as drunk. Recognise when you are tired and develop the ability to call it a night.

Tracker apps! These are not super easy to use, but they are definitely a start. Recognising your body weight and height vs your recommended alcohol consumption is a great thing to do, if you are 5'5 / 100lbs you probably shouldn't drink as much as your 6'5 250lb friend, as much as it sounds fun. It will be for them, not for you.

The app I use <3

And be nice to yourself, remember you are human and humans make mistakes. No matter how low down you are, or how deep into the issue you are. You can always go up.

However you go about this, it's crucial you make a change. If you don't you may find yourself in a position where you are forced to realise, which isn't nice. You may get arrested, lose your job, drop out of school, estrange family members or lose an important relationship.

If you find yourself in a position where you are drinking and no one around you will tell you to stop and you are unsure whether you can do it yourself. Change your phone background to something that will remind you. Or ask someone you trust to take your card. Or don't go! Don't put yourself in a position for a potential relapse just for one night of fun, don't cause a lifetime of hurt.

Tl:dr - Alcohol induced psychosis is a condition related to high tolerance of alcohol that makes it so you can keep drinking to the point where you go crazy. If you suffer from this you probably remember the mornings where you said "why did I do/say that", controlling your relationship with alcohol is key.

Thanks for listening to my ted talk.

#Therapy #Alcohol #Psychosis #tw drinking #Alcohol Psychosis #Drinking #addiction #self care #self love #personal #recovery #mental wellness #coping #self acceptance #healing #self compassion #Youtube

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damonfuckingalbarn · 2 years ago

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Can you do the second part of thehistory of a cheating heart ? ( When you can or have time )

Oh my gosh, I actually!!! Wrote something!!!

Part one is here, if you want to refresh your memory before you read this.

“The History of a Cheating Heart” 2014 Damon x Reader (Part 2)

Pairing - 2014 Damon x Reader

Words- 1196

Warnings- No warnings, it’s all a bit sappy

My requests are open but I am SUPER slow at writing them at the minute, but still do send them over as I’m answering them on a bit of an adhoc basis at the minute.

You weren’t sure if you’d ever felt this worried about knocking on a door in your life. You couldn’t even stall and pretend you couldn’t find his house, ever since he had given you his address you’d looked it up on Google maps so many times you almost felt embarrassed.

You weren’t surprised he’d ended up living in Notting Hill, it was always one of your favourite places to visit when you were together. Though, you were surprised he still lived there after all these years, you would have thought it was starting to grow too gentrified for his liking nowadays.

You walked up the short path before inhaling deeply and knocking on the door, you knew that if you’d waited any longer you’d talk yourself out of it.

It didn’t take him long to answer the door and as soon as you saw his smile the worry that had built up inside of you, quite literally, melted away.

“Hi darling” He grinned, opening the door further to let you in before gently brushing his lips against your cheek as he greeted you “How are you?”

“I’m good thank you, how are you?” You responded as you placed your coat into his outreached hands, watching as he disappeared into a small cupboard with it.

“I’m all the better now you’re here” He called out to you, making your already red cheeks grow warmer.

You knew this was unbelievably tame flirting for Damon, in fact you were pretty sure he wouldn’t even class it as flirting, but it had been such a long time since anyone had spoken to you like that, let alone it being the man you used to be so madly in love with.

“I wasn’t completely sure what to cook, if I’m honest” He told you as he started walking through to, you presumed, the kitchen “I was going to order something but I thought that was cheating”

You laughed at his words, appreciating being behind him so you could quickly glance at the decor as best as you could. There were certain African paintings, wooden sculptures and little trinkets that just screamed Damon to you, but there were also aspects that you could have never imagined him choosing himself and you couldn’t help but wonder if they had been chosen by his last girlfriend.

“Sorry everything’s so mismatched” He laughed softly, you felt a pang of nausea when you realised you hadn’t been that discreet and he had been watching you take in your surroundings “My daughter chose a lot of the stuff and I want here to feel as homely as possible for her, even though she doesn’t always stay here”

You took a seat at the kitchen island, nodding your head as he gestured towards a bottle of wine before thinking about your next words carefully.

“Tell me about your daughter” You prompted, not being able to miss the smile that came across his face just at the thought of her.

“She’s amazing, you would love her” He gushed, sitting down next to you before taking a sip from his wine “She keeps me on my toes, I miss her when she’s not here”

Before you could comprehend what you were doing you reached across and have his hand a reassuring squeeze. You didn’t want to pressure him into saying anything but you felt like you had to know what he’d been doing all these years.

“If you don’t mind me asking Dames” you paused slightly, letting your hand rest on top of his “what happened with-“

“-Missy-“

“- sorry, what happened with Missy’s mum?”

“She erm, well she’s amazing but we just sort of realised that we were really meant to just be friends” He shared, taking a sip from his glass before glancing over at you “No matter what happened between us she gave me Missy and for that, I’ll forever be grateful to her”

“When did you break up?” You probed gently, a big part of you couldn’t help but wonder if Damon’s unfaithful habits had travelled into that relationship too.

“Officially, about 6 months after Missy was born, but we lived together for almost five years to try and make raising Missy a little bit easier” He pulled a slight face before shaking his head “But enough about that, tell me everything I’ve missed since I last saw you”

The conversation between you flowed as easily as it ever did and a part of you felt like you didn’t have almost twenty years to fill each other in on.

You couldn’t help but notice all of the small details he had clearly deliberately put around the house. You were a creature of habit and luckily for him, none of your favourites had really changed in the past years, as there was a bunch of your favourite flowers on the table, your favourite wine pouring freely and your favourite dinner being served up.

All throughout the dinner, the same question kept on spinning around in your head ‘What did he want to get out of this?’

For you there were two easy answers, a shag and a relationship. You laughed at how fickle your morals were, ready to drop to your knees the second time you’d seen him, but then he had always had that effect on you.

You shook your head to almost try and dispel all of those thoughts, you had to remind yourself that you were in his company, he was sitting right there.

“Still a day dreamer” He grinned, his hand reaching out to squeeze yours, pulling you out of your thoughts.

“Sorry Dames, I just, I just honestly can’t believe I’m sitting here” You laughed lightly before taking a sip of your wine “With you”

“That makes two of us” He dropped his eyes from yours, shaking his head slightly before making eye contact with you again “I feel so lucky that you’re here after everything I did, it almost feels like it’s too good to be true”

“Damon, it’s in the past, I’m over it and clearly you’re not the same person you used to be” You tried to reassure him, though you knew your words weren’t reaching him.

“I’m not the same person, I’ve changed for sure” You noticed how he caught his breath, almost as though he was hesitating on his next words “Though one thing that’s never changed is how I feel about you”

You suddenly felt very aware of his hand that was still resting on top of yours.

“Leaving you and treating you the way I did has been my biggest regret” He sighed, you subconsciously held onto his hand tighter “Not a day goes by where I don’t think about you and wish I could go back in time and change everything so that we would still be together now”

“Damon” You responded quietly, a part of you wondering if he could hear your heart pounding “I don’t know what to say”

“You don’t need to say anything darling” He mused, a smile growing on his lips as your eyes met “Just know that I love you, I always have done and I always will do”

#damon albarn #blur #gorillaz #blur band #damon albarn x reader #britpop #damon albarn fic

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wowzah2nd · 9 months ago

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The Lioness and her Serpent lover: A forbidden love story (Draco Malfoy x reader)

A Siblings Dilemma

part 1, part 2, part 3, part 3.5, part 4

word count: 2.9k

Everyone was still surprised to see you and Draco hanging out so often some were shocked, some had no opinion, somewhere even okay with it but there were other who definitely didn't agree or tolerate it.

After a few hours you ended up falling asleep even though there may have been a murderer hiding around the castle. You were still pretty tired but were also confident that if they were in the castle the professors would do everything to protect their students. After a long night you finally woke up as you were adjusting yourself you realised there was a hand over your hips, it was Dracos, you quickly had a look around to see if anyone had seen, luckily everyone was still asleep so you slowly took his hand off your hip. But as you were doing so Draco finally woke up and in a whispered voice greeted you a good morning.

Draco: Good morning there love You blushed as the nickname as always but more so being shy since what if someone saw Y/N: Draco what if someone sees or hears us

Draco: Don't worry were being quite plus no one is awake yet, plus i've never been able to wake up next to you before

At this point he had pulled you into his chest and buried your head into his chest so he couldn’t turn even more red. Which made him laugh seeing you so shy since you were always somewhat confident and outspoken.

Draco:If this is what my future looks like i can’t wait

You then pulled you face away from his chest to look up at him

Y/N: you’ve thought about having a future with me?

Draco: Of course I have, even before we dated I may have day dreamed a bit here and there

You giggled at his admission it was good to know he was as in love with you as you were with him

Y/N: let get up thought and maybe pull ourselves a part before someone sees

He gave out a reluctant sigh practically say “fine then”, you pulled yourselves apart

After a couple more minutes everyone started to wake up as well. Once everyone was awake everyone was given the okay to head back to their dormitories to get ready for classes for the day. One of the first classes you had was defence against the dark arts which as always you were excited for. Ater getting changed and readying your things for the day you head into the great hall to eat breakfast. You decided to sit with the twins Fred and George Weasley today since you were always friendly with them, same thing with Lee Jordan. As you sat down you were immediately bombarded with questions by the twins and lee as always was there for the show.

Fred: so i heard you in a bit of a tiff with your brother

George: His a bit of a git so i bet it was his fault

Fred and George: so what did he do?

He gave out a long sigh they were my friends so they did deserve to know

Y/N: they think that Draco's only friends with me to get to him, which i think is so self absorbed of him. He does know im a potter too right

The twins looked at each other then back at me

George: I mean it's strange he is friends with you

Fred: you gotta admit the serpent prince and our Lioness princess

Fred and George: An odd combo if you ask anyone

Fred: but knowing you, you know how to pick friends and if anyone did mess with you they get hell for it

George: So we definitely know he’s being friends with you cause he wants to

you were a bit annoyed that they agreed with Harry but if you looked at it from an outside view it did look a bit strange to gryffindor and slytherin friends. Unheard of,even though you hated the stigma it was so rude

Y/N: Well I'm glad you guys can at least see I know how to pick my friends but until Harry does i'm not speaking to him. Also can you guys stop calling me the Lioness princess you've been doing that for years now and people won't stop calling me that

They both laughed, at first the nickname was a joke towards your temper being like a lions but after awhile the nickname ended up sticking and now your stuck with it

Y/N: you two are insufferable

After finishing your food you notice draco had finished his as well and was making his way towards you

Draco: hey you done eating breakfast

Y/N: yeah i am, why?

Draco: wanna go to class together?

Y/N: Sure thing, let me grab my things

You picked up your bag and said goodbye to the twins as you were getting up from the table. You noticed everyone's faces from your house in shock that draco came to you. You weren’t really bothered but you were bothered at the expression you brother was making. If he'd just apologise things would go back to normal

As you were walking to your class Draco was looking around as if checking if anyone was following you two. Once he knew no one could see you he gave you a quick hug and kiss on the forehead

Y/N: what was that for

Draco: can’t i just miss my girlfriend

Y/N: you were literally just cuddling with me this morning

Draco then gave you a look that said yes and, you gave out a sigh he was just so silly and you loved it

Y/N: whatever i missed you too anyway

You then got on your tippy toes and gave him a kiss on the cheek

Draco: i think you missed love

Y/N: what did i miss

You said teasingly, draco was clingy at times which would surprise anyone if they knew, draco then grabbed your waist to pull you closer to him

Draco: A proper kiss on the lips

You gave out a sarcastic sigh, but complied and gave him a kiss on the lips, once you pulled away you could see his stupid grin starting to form

Y/N: come on let's head to class before YOU make us late

You walked ahead of him, he waited a bit before following after him

As you entered the class, you knew something was off since professor Lupin wasn’t there to greet the class, as everyone got into their seats while sitting next to draco. You were surprised that professor Snape had entered the class. He walked towards the front of the class closing all the windows to darken the room, soon as he wa front and centre he let the students know

Snape: turn to page 394

Timeskip ( brought to you by my laziness)

To say the class was quite odd was an understatement.

You and draco left the class wondering why you had to write about werewolves when the topic wouldn’t come up till a week from now. Then snape gave you homework to write 2 rolls worth of parchment about werewolves. It really ticked you off. After classes had finished for the day draco asked you take spend time with him at the astronomy tower and who were you to deny him of your company, you laughed a bit. Dinner was now over and you made your way towards the astronomy tower. You knew draco was already there so you tried to hurry as to not make him wait any longer as you got up to the top you noticed some lights and as you got closer you say a blanket with some pillows as well as some lit candles around it. And there you saw draco standing there waiting for your arrival

Draco: Surprise

Y/N: w-whats all this

Draco: well i thought i would do something nice for you, i know your still a bit sad about your brother so i thought i'd cheer you up

You were left speechless at the scene everything was beautiful and perfect and you couldn't ask for anything else

Y/N: thank you darling this means so much to me, you have no idea

Draco: i'd do anything to make you happy love

The whole night you just star gazed and talked about what you wanted to do once you were older and a little bit about the future. Which excited you a lot for what was to come next. As the night went on it was starting to get late and you had to part way, you helped draco pack everything up and put it all away in an enchanted back he had that could fit it all in. He also decided to walk you back to you common room.

Y/N: thank you for tonight draco i loved every bit of it

Draco: anything to make you smile like that everyday my love

Luckily for you when you went back to your common room, everyone was asleep which saved you time from explaining where you had been. But for Draco it was a different.

Draco Pov

After a wonderful evening with y/n i headed back to my common room expecting everyone to be asleep i made no attempt to sneak in but i was sorely mistake when i see pansy arms crossed sitting on one of the couches.

Pansy: where have you been

I gave out an annoyed sigh

Draco: that not really you business pans

Pansy: You were out with her weren’t you?, why are you always spending time with her she’s a filthy mudblood

As I was heading to my dorm room I stopped as soon as i heard what pansy said and turned around and marched towards her and got right up her face.

Draco: don't you ever call her that again, i don't care what you call anyone else but you do not call her that ever and if i ever hear you or anyone for that matter call her that i will personally deal with you myself

She looked at me shock and confused as to why i would defend her, if she knew i could be in big trouble or worse y/n could get hurt

Pansy:b-but

Draco: no buts or else

She didn't say anything after that i assumed she got the message but i would be sorely mistaken later on.

Y/N Pov

it was now the next day and today was the quidditch match, it worried you a bit since you brother was playing in such bad weather and even though you two were in a fight you still worried of his safety

as the game went on you noticed that harry had found the snitch and was heading far up into the sky to try and catch it to the point he was no longer in view it was a while till you noticed he was falling. everyone was gasping seeing harry fall and you thought your brother wasn't going to make it but thank merlin Dumbledore casted a spell to allow for him to slowly decent onto the ground. harry was immediately take to the hospital wing and you followed along everyone else.

you were waiting for a bit until he had finally woken before anyone could say anything you flung yourself to your brother

Y/N: i thought i had lost you was so worried for you

harry a bit shock you were there did hug you back

Y/N: hey, are you okay does your head hurt, did i hurt you, maybe i should be madam pompfrey

But before i could the twins grabbed me

Fred: i think his fine

George: just think his a bit in shock seeing you here since

Fred: yeah know, your fighting

duh no wonder he was surprised but it kinda made you sad why wouldn't he think i wouldnt be there for him even though you were fight he was your only family of course your would be there for him. but the moment of silence was broke by ron being ron

Ron: he looks a bit peaky doesn't he

Fred and George ( cause i can't tell them apart) peaky?, what do you expect?, he fell over 100 feet, come on Ron lets walk you off the astronomy tower and see what you look like

Y/N: stop it you three

Fred,George and Ron: Sorry

Y/N: hey how are you feeling

Harry: never better

he said in a sarcastic tone

Y/N: seems like your alright if you can joke about

you started to laugh, but harry didn't seem to be in a joking mood

Harry: What are you doing her any way

this left you a bot speechless, same with everyone else in the room

Y/N: i came her to see if my BROTHER was okay, i was worried

He scoffed

Harry: well as you can see i'm okay, you can go now

you just stared at him in shocked, is he being serious right now he nearly died and he wants to shoo me off

Harry: are you deaf, GO

You picked you thing and left, with tears in your eyes, Hermione tried to follow you but you heard harry tell her to let you go and she did, some friends you had

after that you went straight to your room and found the book Draco had gifted you to talk to him when ever you couldn't find him in person

Book Pov Y/N: Draco where are you Draco: in my common room, why? Y/N: i really need to see you please Draco: come to the Slytheirn common room entrance ill wait for you there Y/N: okay ill see you soon

you shut the book and grabbed some stuff to maybe sleep over if you could as well as thing you may beed for the next day, you ran to the Slytherin common room and once the entrance was in view you saw draco standing there waiting for you. once you saw him you immediately ran into his arm bursting into even more tears

Draco: what happen?

Y/N: my brother h-he-

Draco: hey hey hey, deep breathes

you did what he said and suddenly you felt like you could breathe again, you didn't even realise you were struggling to breath

Draco: before you tell me what happen why don't we go to my dorm and talk there

you didn't respond only nodded

he lead your through the common room and you were both getting lost of stares especially from pansy but you didn't care, you had no energy to care right now. once you were in his dorm he lead you towards his bed and sat you down

Draco: Now tell me what happen

he took a seat right next to you wrapping his arms around you for comfort

Y/N: he pushed me away, even though i was so worried that he could have died he pushed me away and told me to go... he could have died and he decided to let this fight still go on and be petty

you started to cry again. draco wasn't to sure what to say so instead he comforted you by hugging you and gave you forehead kisses

Y/N: can i stay her for tonight

Draco was about to ask you if you wanted to but seems like you beat him to it

Draco: of course you can

but then something else made you re think the idea even thought you were ready for a sleepover

Y/N: wait what about your roommates

Draco: i don't have any

you swiftly turned your head to look at him shocked and surprised, you then decided to have a look around the room and he was right he had no roommates it seemed he had a room to him self. having a queen size bed, a bed bench, his own closet, fire place and couches

Y/N: must be nice having rich boy privileges

you said with a bit of a laugh, hearing you joke made Draco happy since it showed that you were starting to be okay again but he coudl still hear the sadness in your voice

Draco: it had its perks

after just sitting on his bed and hugging him you both decided it was time to get some sleep, crying really made you tired Draco insisted you take his bed which made you feel bad, you tried to tell him you both could share it but was told that he had nosey friends who didn't know how to knock. you both didn't wanna risk the relationship being outed so you decided this was the best way to go.

Before going to bed him self he sat onn the bed next to you while you were laying down

Draco: you know i love you right

Y/N: of course i do, why would you say that?

Draco: i'm worried that you might start thinking that i dont after what harry said, and i just wanted to reassure you before had that i do, and i won't stop loving you for any reason

you put your hand to gently cup his cheek and started to stroke it lovingly

Y/N: how did i get so lucky to have someone like you love me

Draco: i don't know, must be fate i guess

you both laughed at the statement, you cupped the back of his neck to pull him in for a goodnight kiss

Y/N: i love you Draco

Draco: i love you too Y/N

after that you fell right asleep, Draco kissed your forehead then made sure you were warm and covered with his blanket before making his way to the couch to rest for the night.

#harry potter #draco malfoy x reader #draco malfoy #ron weasley #hermione granger #albus dumbledore #fluff #secret relationship #established relationship #angst #romance #george weasley #fred weasley

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jazlynriddle · 3 months ago

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Welcome to your life - Pt 2:

Acting On Your Best Behaviour Ch 4:

Summary:

They'd seen it in their fellow orphans often enough to recognise the pattern and were now forced to admit, despite their hopes to the contrary, that Isidora had likely suffered similar side effects.

No… they'd always known she had. The Keeper had just wanted the power that Ranrok had, enough to convince themselves that they would be able to handle it better than that naive woman.

With the start of the Keeper’s sixth-year in Hogwarts, comes a whole slew of headache-inducing challenges from the most unexpected of places. Between insignificant pests throwing wrenches into their plans and tedious teenage drama, that the Keeper is entirely unprepared for, they wonder if they'll make it to their NEWTs without losing their sanity.

Or worse, Ominis or Sebastian.

Warnings: Sebastian x MC x Ominis! Drug Addiction! Spoilers! Slow-burn corruption! Dark content! Fucked up 1800s orphanages! MC has no love for Anne or Solomon! Dubious happy ending (it's happy for MC, Seb and Ominis at least).

You can also read on AO3! (chapter specific warnings below)

Notes:

Warnings: Quite a lot of vulgarities?

Boy am I glad I told ya’ll I was going to take a three week break, because I was ridiculously busy during those three weeks. I barely got one and a half chapter written- it should hopefully be calmer for me this week and maybe I’ll actually have time to write…

"Class dismissed." Professor Weasley smiled as she returned to her desk.

The Keeper sighed, shoving their Transfiguration textbook into their satchel. The day had barely begun, and already they were feeling worn out as they followed Ominis out of the classroom.

Fuck.

They really messed up last night. How could they have lost control like that? By the time they'd gotten a grip on themselves, the jar they were holding had been depleted by nearly half its contents.

Horrified by their own actions, the Keeper had sworn to themselves that it wouldn't happen again. Honestly, the thought that their self-control had slipped so badly, and they hadn’t even realised it, was terrifying. What is wrong with me?

With only half a jar left, they probably shouldn't take any more for at least a week. They would need to ration out the energy as long as they could. The Keeper bit back a groan, not wanting to worry Ominis as they made their way towards the great hall for lunch after Herbology.

What the Keeper wouldn't give to be able to go to the Room of Requirement and smash some furniture. Maybe they could at least smash the pots at the bottom of the staircase to the Slytherin common room later. Everyone always kicked those by accident anyway, no one would think anything of it.

If nothing else, at least their mind hadn't been this clear since school started. They still weren't quite up to their usual standards, but the Keeper had to admit that the fog in their brain had cleared, enough for them to actually hear themselves think at least.

"Professor Sharp? Do you need something, sir?"

The Keeper paused as Ominis spoke beside them, drawn out of their thoughts and frustration, as the Professor approached them.

"Not from you, Mr Gaunt." Professor Sharp shook his head, turning to face the Keeper instead. "A word, if you will?"

"Of course, Professor." The Keeper replied quickly, pushing down the burst of anxiety that twisted their stomach. What now?

"Go on ahead Ominis, I'll join you later." The Keeper added, placing a hand on Ominis shoulder briefly, before following Sharp to a spot where they could speak outside the flow of traffic.

Ominis lingered, uncertain if he should stay nearby and wait, despite the Keeper's words. He was worried about them, and about what the professor needed from them, they didn't need even more problems on top of everything.

He'd thought the rest yesterday had done them some good, the Keeper had seemed less absentminded and distracted today, but they'd also been fidgeting far worse than they had for all of last week. Combined.

His partner had been walking around with a charged atmosphere that made Ominis uncertain of what to do or what to say to them. He'd never felt so useless and awkward, at least with Sebastian he'd understood what was upsetting him.

Ominis knew something was up with the Keeper. Something they weren't telling him. He'd been waiting for them to come clean with Sebastian and himself when they were ready, but if this got any worse… He had a feeling that things could get dangerous.

Perhaps he should press the Keeper harder for a proper explanation…

He didn't want to fight with them about it, but neither he nor Sebastian could help if the Keeper refused to be honest with them. Truthfully, that also stung, they were lovers, weren't they?

He was so tired of people he loved keeping secrets from him, putting themselves in danger without caring about how he felt.

Ominis paused, re-examining the thought, but that wasn't quite true, now was it? The Keeper wasn't just keeping secrets from him, they were keeping secrets from everyone.

They'd told him and Sebastian so much already, such mind-blowing secrets the Keeper held. Why would he assume that they'd told him everything? That they wouldn't have even more Inferi in their closet?

The Keeper had never said that they would be relying on Sebastian and Ominis, it was always the Keeper who'd been the one being relied on. It'd been like this the whole time he'd known them. From helping Sebastian with his search for a cure for Anne, to supporting Sebastian when Ominis couldn’t, to keeping the nightmares away for the two of them.

Ominis had never seen the Keeper ask anyone for support, it was always the other way around. Sure, they'd ask for information or assistance with achieving a goal, but they'd never sought to confide in anyone. Even telling Sebastian and Ominis about their childhood abuse had been in honest answer to questioning, rather than the Keeper wilfully seeking comfort from them.

Perhaps the Keeper just wasn't used to asking for help?

He and Sebastian might have to take the initiative here this time, and he should probably speak with Sebastian about this first…

With that in mind, Ominis took a few steps towards the great hall, when he noticed something with his wand sight.

The bullies, who'd been stalking them since the classroom as usual, were abruptly walking in the opposite direction.

Ominis frowned, why would those wombats leave all of a sudden? A feeling of unease gripped him. What in Merlin's name were they up to?

Well, following his gut had rarely led him wrong. So, without hesitation, Ominis spun on his heel and pursued the stalkers.

Using his wand sight to keep them within "view", Ominis carefully trailed the two boys all the way to the Central Hall.

He frowned as they scurried down the stairs and took a left turn. Following quickly behind, he stopped to wait by the Statue of Gregory the Smarmy, as the boys travelled along the corridor to the Potions classroom.

Hearing the door close behind the two bullies, Ominis hurriedly made his way through the corridor as well, stopping behind the door to the Potions classroom this time. His eyebrows rose on his forehead as his wand sight showed the stupid boys standing before Professor Sharp's office door.

Tipping his head to the side, Ominis strained his ears and his eyes widened as he heard one of them whisper. "Alohomora."

Ominis wasn't sure which he was more surprised by, that those bumbling baboons were trying to break into the office of a Professor or that one of them could cast Alohomora in the first place.

Waiting for them to enter the office, Ominis slipped into the classroom as well and stopped beside the ajar office door, focusing on trying to hear any sounds that emerged.

"Have you checked behind the jars?"

"Are you stupid? Why would he keep legal documents on an ingredient shelf?"

"Hey, I'm just being thorough."

"We don't have time to be thorough, he'll be heading back here after lunch. We're already lucky as fuck to have more time thanks to his chat with the mudblood."

"Fine fine, got it. Merlin's balls, why does he have so many scrolls on the bloody floor."

"Anything useful in there?"

"Not yet, oh hey, my essay from last week!"

"Stay focused dimwit, we need to find that document with Sallow's signature or we won't have proof that something's up with that mudblood's guardianship transfer."

"Urgh, can't we just tell Sharp that no one's seen Sallow's uncle in Feldcroft all summer, despite that thing staying in his house?"

"No, you twit, girl gossip ain't evidence. If we can prove it's a forgery, it'll fuck 'em up way better, but we need that damn paper and another one with his signature on it or my dad's lawyer won't be able to prove that for me."

Ominis stiffened. That was not good. How did these idiots even figure that out!? If this got out, it wouldn't be the Keeper alone who'd get in trouble.

"How'd you get him to agree to that anyways?"

"Heh, caught him making out with me mum last year."

"That's fucked up, mate."

Deciding he'd heard enough, Ominis quietly left the classroom, closing the door behind him and sprinting towards the stairs. If he was lucky, Professor Sharp would still be speaking with the Keeper.

"What did you wish to speak about, Professor?" The Keeper asked politely, working to suppress their anxiety.

The teacher observed them for a few moments, lifting his chin slightly before speaking. "How have you been?"

What?

The Keeper blinked in some confusion, feeling even more wary of what this might be about. "...fine, sir?"

"Hm." Professor Sharp scrutinised them with narrowed eyes and folded his arms. "I've been having some concerns for you."

It took a fair amount of effort for the Keeper to reign in their physical reaction. Merlin, were they lucky the Professor had chosen to speak with them on a day when their brain was actually functioning.

"It has not escaped my notice that you've been having difficulties focusing in class." Sharp frowned, and while the Keeper felt like his words were reprimanding, his tone was oddly even and clear of irritation. "Both your classwork and assignments have suffered since the start of term."

"I've heard similar reports from the other professors." The man sighed, relaxing his arms, and leaning against the wall beside them to take weight off his bad leg. "If something is bothering you, or if taking seven NEWTs is too difficult for you to manage, it is perfectly fine to drop a class or two."

The Keeper found themselves bristling internally at the suggestion that they'd bitten off more than they could chew with their courses. They would have been 'perfectly fine' if they didn't have two fucking wrenches in their steam engine.

"You needn't worry about me Professor, I have just been… adjusting to school again." The Keeper gave a tight smile, doing their best to keep their wounded pride under wraps.

"Mhm." Sharp eyed them sceptically, his expression told them exactly how convinced he was. Which was clearly, not at all.

The Keeper felt a flash of impatience, as Professor Sharp hesitated for a few beats, before finally airing his thoughts. "Have you perhaps, been having a hard time due to a… lack of guidance, like that of which you had from Professor Fig?"

The Keeper stared uncomprehendingly at him for a moment. What? Why would he bring up Fig all of a sudden? The change in topic was bizarre, and they wondered if Sharp was just throwing out random guesswork.

Though, they did suppose that all this nonsense might have been easier to deal with if Fig were here… The old man would probably be livid that they had been using Pain energy so much during the holidays, but it would have been nice to be able to seek his advice about dealing with those pesky stalkers.

Too late, the Keeper realised that they had been silent for far too long and Professor Sharp's brow had taken on a pitying crease. Disgusting.

The Keeper bit back their grimace, well, can't do anything about that now, might as well go along with his assumption. "I do miss Professor Fig, however, I can assure you that I have everything handled."

Professor Sharp sighed again. "If you were anyone else, I would not be concerned by a dip in performance at the start of Sixth year. The jump in subject difficulty is not insignificant."

"However, the drastic decrease in your performance is concerning." The professor continued, humming thoughtfully for a moment before speaking again. "I'd initially intended to simply ask that you consider dropping a subject to decrease your workload."

The Keeper frowned, what had they done to change his mind?

"But, I believe it might be better to speak with you more on this matter." Sharp straightened, and the Keeper struggled to swallow their groan. This was taking far too long already, they just wanted to go to lunch with their boys, having Sebastian and Ominis around always soothed their frayed nerves.

Professor Sharp gave them a small smile as he waved a hand in the direction of the Potions classroom. "Would you mind joining me in my office? I will have an elf bring us food and you may eat while we discuss."

What an absolute waste of time that would be. If you can’t convince me here, what makes you think a change of venue would?

The Keeper liked Professor Sharp well enough. He was a pragmatic man, and they respected him for his power and skill. As well as his level-headed leadership qualities, but he could keep his pity and ‘guidance’, the Keeper had no use for them.

Those would have been of more value to Sebastian two years ago than a 'talented' sixteen-year-old who was only showing some difficulties keeping up with the curriculum. These adults were so bad at gauging when they should intervene, versus when they should give a kid space to solve their own problems, the Keeper thought to themselves with some bitterness.

Plastering on a forced smile, the Keeper opened their mouth, intending to tell the professor where he could shove his invite. Politely, of course. When they were interrupted by the approach of a slightly breathless Ominis.

"I apologise for interrupting Professor, this will only take a moment." Ominis bowed his head politely.

Professor Sharp gave a long-suffering sigh but nodded, waving a hand dismissively. "Very well, Mr Gaunt."

Ominis then turned to the Keeper, and they wondered what he'd come back for. "I wanted to tell you that Sebastian and I won't be able to have lunch with you, Sebastian's uncle has asked us to help him catch the two rats who've been pestering us, they're apparently in his office at the moment. I hope you don't mind."

The Keeper blinked, Solomon's office? He definitely didn't have an office in the Feldcroft house, not to mention, he was dead. That left only the possibility that Ominis was trying to give them a coded hint.

"Of course, I'll see you guys after lunch in Defence then." The Keeper nodded, answering smoothly as they digested his words.

Two rats who'd been pestering us. The bullies, obviously. Catching the bullies in Solomon's office. Catching the bullies in an office… the Keeper’s eyes widened. Professor Sharp's office!

"Be sure to return within the hour, Mr Gaunt, you wouldn't want to lose house points for tardiness." Professor Sharp eyed Ominis sternly.

"Of course, Professor. I apologise again for the interruption." Ominis nodded respectfully.

As Ominis left, the Keeper turned back to Professor Sharp with a bright smile. "As I was about to say, Professor, I wouldn’t mind speaking further in your office, I suppose it would be more comfortable than the hallways."

The teacher nodded approvingly and began leading the way to the Potions classroom, where his office was located. The Keeper could barely contain their anticipation, hopefully they would reach the office in time to catch the buffoons in the act!

The walk was painfully slow, and it was even harder for the Keeper to stop themselves from rushing the limping teacher. It felt like ages since they'd had something vindictive to look forward to.

Finally, as they stepped through the open Potions classroom door, a sharp grin spread across the Keeper's face, at the rustling sound emerging from the office door. The door that was slightly ajar.

The professor stiffened beside the Keeper, and with a surprisingly swift movement, he jerked the office door open, his voice a low and dangerous growl. "I sincerely hope that the two of you realise how much trouble you're in."

The Keeper leaned forward, peering into the office behind Professor Sharp, and had to stifle a snicker at the identical looks of terror on the bullies' faces. The professor's normally stoic countenance must be truly terrifying, and the Keeper was mildly disappointed that they couldn't see it from behind him.

"Pro- Professor Sharp! T- this isn't what it looks like! We-" Selwyn stammered in alarm, dropping the parchment he'd been holding.

"If you think you can weasel your way out of this, I will be even more concerned for your intelligence than I already am." Professor Sharp's dry tone was laced with derision and the boys wisely clammed up. "I can assure you that the consequences of breaking into my office will be worse than a failed essay, Mr Selwyn."

"T- that's not- you can check! I haven't changed anything!" Selwyn spluttered, scrambling to pick up the parchment, freezing when he realised that the fact that he'd been holding it, was even more incriminating.

"W- well sir, we didn't break in, t- the door was open, and we were worried th-" Macnair started, when the professor flicked his wrist and the man's wand slipped from his sleeve into his hand.

"Priori Incantatem." Sharp pointed his wand at Macnair’s, across the room, causing it to reveal the boy's last cast spell. The Alohomora charm.

Shaking his head with a sigh, Professor Sharp lifted his chin, his voice disappointed. "Clearly, you are both liars who won't even take responsibility for your actions. The fact that you are here despite not even taking my class, Mr Macnair, is not convincing me that you aren't here to help your friend cheat. I expected more from students of my house."

The two boys wilted as the futility of their attempts to escape judgement sank in, forced to endure the scathing disappointment of their Head of House. All while the Keeper watched them get railed by the ex-auror in satisfaction.

As Selwyn lifted his eyes dejectedly, he spotted the Keeper standing behind the professor, and his eyes widened when they flashed him a mocking smirk. His face immediately turned red with anger.

"This is all your fault, isn't it, Mudblood!?" The brown-haired boy spat, unable to restrain himself, while Macnair's side-eyed his friend in alarm.

"Twenty points from Slytherin! I do not tolerate language like that between housemates." Professor Sharp snapped. "And I don't see how your own foolish actions can be blamed on your junior. If you are referring to my timely return, then I would have you know that it was I who invited them to my office."

For the first time since the Keeper met them, the two idiots made a wise decision and stayed silent. Seemingly reminded that the Keeper was still with him, Professor Sharp turned his head slightly to speak to them.

"I apologise but it seems like we'll have to postpone our talk while I deal with these two." The professor sighed. "You should still have enough time to grab a quick bite before classes resume."

The Keeper nodded their head in response. "No worries, Professor, I understand. I'll head to the great hall then."

The professor nodded and the Keeper slipped back out through the door, chuckling quietly to themselves. Well, that had certainly been worth burning most of their lunch break.

"Tempus." The Keeper murmured with a flick of their wand. Fifteen minutes, they'd have to get to the great hall as fast as they could if they wanted to have any food.

With a sigh, the Keeper picked up the pace, just shy of sprinting through the halls.

Panting slightly, they weaved through the trickle of students leaving the great hall, heading to their next classes, till they arrived at the large doors to the Great Hall. Slipping inside, they spotted Sebastian and Ominis speaking by the table, and hurriedly made their way over.

"You made it!" Sebastian grinned. "How was the show?"

"Satisfying, they looked like they were going to wet themselves." The Keeper smirked as they surveyed the remaining food on the table, searching for something they could eat very quickly.

Sebastian's grin stretched further. "You better show us that memory in the Undercroft pensive when we get the chance."

"Of course." The Keeper chuckled as they grabbed some bread, cheese, and turkey slices to put together a quick and simple sandwich.

"I was wondering if Sharp would still want to speak with you, but now you barely have time to eat. It'll be ages till dinner." Ominis' expression was somewhere between irritated at the professor and worried for the Keeper.

The Keeper laughed as they smushed the sandwich as flat as it could go. "You underestimate me. I had to eat fast when stealing food, couldn't afford to be caught with any of it, so I'm used to it."

The Keeper promptly demonstrated their point as they effectively crammed half of the sandwich into their mouth, chewed quickly and swallowed, chasing it down with a gulp of tea. In less than two minutes, the first sandwich was gone, and they began working on the second.

"Please don't tell me they're inhaling their food." Ominis pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Well, can't say anything then, now can I?" Sebastian replied distantly, uncertain if he was impressed or appalled at the way the Keeper was eating. "At the very least, I can say their swallowing techniques aren't limited to swallowing yo-."

"Sebastian! I swear if you finish that sentence-" Ominis exclaimed, smacking Sebastian in the shoulder with one hand and covering his face with the other, while his ears turned red. Thank Merlin the great hall was empty.

"Haa-" The Keeper sighed as they set down the cup of tea that they'd emptied to wash the two sandwiches down. "Alright, let's head to Defence. We can discuss the two idiots after dinner."

With a final slap on Sebastian's shoulder, Ominis trailed after the Keeper as they strode towards the door, followed by Sebastian and his cheeky grin.

"So, Ominis, what exactly happened while Professor Sharp was being nosy?" The Keeper asked in a low voice as they took a seat beside their blind partner in the Slytherin common room after dinner, while Sebastian sat on the couch opposite them.

"I noticed our stalkers leaving after the professor approached you." Ominis began.

"What did Sharp want to talk about anyway? You said he was being nosy?" Sebastian tipped his head to the side curiously.

The Keeper waved a hand dismissively. "Just some presumptions about my lack of focus being related to Fig's passing. Carry on, Ominis."

Sebastian gave them a scrutinising glance, and Ominis' features took on a concerned countenance but continued as requested.

"I decided to follow them, and thus witnessed them breaking into the office. I eavesdropped on their conversation for a bit and then went to find Sharp." Ominis flashed a wry grin at the Keeper. "I was rather relieved when I heard him invite you to his office, I wasn't sure I'd be able to come up with a way to get him to return in time to catch them."

"It was fortunate that you arrived when you did, I had been about to politely turn him down." The Keeper chuckled. "So, what did you overhear?"

"...that's…" Ominis trailed off, his jaw tightening and his eyes narrowing grimly. The Keeper frowned, they were getting a bad feeling about where this was going.

"They were looking for evidence that they could use to prove that we forged Solomon's signature for your custody transfer over the summer." Ominis’ words made the Keeper stiffen and Sebastian’s eyes widened.

"How- how could they-" Sebastian spluttered in shock.

Ominis shook his head, rubbing a hand over his forehead anxiously. "I don't know, they were looking for the letter from Solomon and any previous document with his signature for Macnair's lawyer to run tests on, saying girl gossip isn’t evidence."

“Girl gossip? What in Merlin’s name could that mean?” Sebastian echoed in bewilderment.

His words barely registered as the Keeper's mind raced. They'd found out. Somehow, someone had realised that something was abnormal with Solomon. If this got out… if those fucking morons managed to draw enough attention to initiate an investigation…

Sebastian…

They could lose Sebastian.

Like fuck I'll let that happen.

The Keeper's blood boiled. Up to this point, their stalkers had been a nuisance. Now, those two fools were a threat.

Anyone who tried to tear apart the paradise the Keeper was building, whether they realised it or not, would suffer the worst pain imaginable before death.

Still, how did the stalkers figure it out? The two boys hadn't made any sort of intelligent move until today. Which meant that something must have happened recently that caused them to recognise the irregularity.

The Keeper mentally backtracked, going over everything the bullies should have witnessed, searching for anything different from the last few days.

The most outstanding event was probably the visit to Feldcroft on Sunday. However, what could they possibly have notic-

The Keeper's eyes widened. Girl gossip? The twins. Hadn't those stupid boys had been talking about them with their twin girlfriends outside the Feldcroft house?

"Sebastian." The Keeper spoke, drawing his attention.

His eyes turned to them questioningly, hand stopping midway through its motion, leaving his fingers still threaded in his hair.

"You said that Solomon told your neighbour Mrs Ndiaye that he was going to be leaving the house to you." The Keeper continued and Sebastian frowned, lowering his hand.

"That's righ-" Sebastian started, cutting himself off as his eyes widened. "Merlin’s balls. She might have mentioned that to her daughters."

"And if they had told Selwyn and Macnair, even those idiots would have realised how unlikely it'd be for Sharp to release me into the custody of a man who wasn't going to be around for the entire summer." The Keeper grimaced.

We underestimated them.

Notes:

For comedic effect, please imagine the Keeper eating like Link from Breath of the Wild! xP

Also, can I just say that I hate coincidental plot advancement? Things like Harry Potter just "pure luck" stumbling into something inherently important or overhearing vital information. Like walking in on Snape threatening Quirrell or Snape and Karkaroff arguing about being Death Eaters. At least the thing with Slughorn had the excuse of a luck potion, what about every other time!?

I can accept some level of luck in fiction, like just barely making it in time for something, that makes it exciting, but when the whole situation is coincidental from start to finish, it breaks the immersion for me.

Here’s a cool piece of trivia, the reason there are three doors you have to go through to reach Professor Sharp’s office, is actually part of fireproofing building design! Since fires have a hard time travelling past doors.

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timoswerner · 1 year ago

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“it’s his job not to be soft” is crazy when a) what in the toxic masculinity, b) he was yelling at them in the second half, and c) he was brimming with anger in the post match interview saying it was unacceptable … it’s honestly a bit sickening time and time again to see all these micro aggressions against sonny. especially ppl who compare him with kane like why is kane shown so much grace for his bad games and sonny is not lmfao despite being instrumental in possibly our greatest achievement since 2008 (cl run). think we all know why really

like it's fine to say 'cor sonny was shit today' because he was, and it's fine to say if he's on a bad run of form too such as times like last season (not his fault) but this person was also questioning his commitment to club and the team... im sorry but you just cannot ask for more from a player. he's one of the committed players to the club i've ever seen, and even if kane had stayed there was no other candidate for the captaincy in my opinion. it HAD to be sonny. i have never once looked at him and thought he was lacking any effort, not even last season when there was a few players who i wasn't sure were quite putting their all in (understandable, they were playing under conte after all)

and yeah so what if sonny isn't a shouty person? players are allowed to have a 'softer' personalty. we know sonny has such a good relationship with his teams mates on and off the pitch that they'll all run through a brick wall for him. he's the bridge between all the players and language etc... people were also a bit like this with hugo as if he wasnt vocal on the pitch and would be angry when needed in interviews like sonny - people seemed under the impression he never fucking spoke lmao. there's also been some talk around this in how people talk about odegaard and his captaincy too... just because a player doesn't go around CONSTANTLY shouting a la henderson or roy fucking keane like its still the 90s doesn't mean they're not a good leader for being 'soft' it just means they have a different leadership style and personality and there's nothing wrong with that. there's definitely some racism when it comes to people thinking sonny's soft, imo. (it's also funny when you consider that rival fans think that sonny is some horrible dirty player who goes around trying to purposefully injure players because of a spell where he was petulant and got 2 reds and then his foul that lead to aurier breaking gomes' ankle... 2 completely differently views of him lmao)

look, i'll always love kane for all the goals but yeah, he really could do no wrong in a lot of spurs fans eyes. even when he went on strike. like COME ON, no other player would have been forgiven so quickly after that, and no other player wouldnt have it held against them. going back to the commitment thing, sonny would NEVER EVER pull a stunt like that. it's really annoying that people don't see that sonny is just as - if not more- committed to us than harry was. he could have pushed for a move every summer for the past 5 years and hasn't. sonny ALWAYS stepped up in kane's absence (as seen in the champions league that year). can't even say kane was afforded extra grace because he's an academy lad when you look at how our fans have treated other academy players over the years so what does that leave... i don't think people quite realise they're doing it, tbh (same with the 'soft' comments)

#answered #anonymous

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blasphemme · 1 year ago

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just finished call of duty black ops. here are some (long, comma abusing, mostly tangentially related) thoughts after playing it for the first time for anyone who might read them!

altogether the campaign was fine, i guess.

as many others have in the past few years following the modern warfare remakes, my online activity has been inundated with thirst edits made of characters in call of duty — despite having never played the games myself. they’re not my thing.

my flatmate, however, has played them. he played them as a kid when they were being released, and he has had the misfortune of being on the receiving end of me watching these edits and reading fanfics (shout out early 351780!!). increasingly annoyed at my thirsting, he has forced me to play every call of duty campaign on the xbox 360.

i’ve found that i actually really enjoy playing cod. it’s enjoyable, action packed and, most importantly, quite compelling. they’re something i’d never have considered playing without him pushing me to play them. i’m more of an assassin’s creed/ace combat/nier girl and always have been. the closest i’d been to playing a shooter before this experience was playing gta, badly.

my flatmate knew my priorities. after an introduction to the premise with world at war — the first game in the black ops series, which i promise i will get to at some point — we played the original modern warfare campaigns first, because i am a wee bit in love with captain john price, and i loved them. the stories, while simple enough to follow (and already knowing about the main character deaths in advance — it’s a 10+ year old series, after all!), were emotionally evocative. i found myself becoming attached to the protagonists quickly and deeply, all the while having a whale of a time fucking around in the rest of the mission. this girl loves just walking onto grenades! between world at war and the modern warfare trilogy of campaigns, i was hooked from the start.

i realise now that i have been spoiled. those campaigns were just too good.

black ops’ campaign pales in comparison to the other four games i’ve played. i will admit that it is still fun — very fun! i enjoyed the feeling of progressing from one badass area to the next, with sam worthington’s horrific american accent and gary oldman’s alright russian accent pushing me through. i also have to admit that i still play like an absolute scrub, but the enjoyment i got from it outweighed the frustration. (mostly.)

black ops lacks the charm and depth i loved in world at war. while fun, every plot twist was spotted as soon as it was hinted to, much to my flatmate’s dismay. it took one guy telling mason to get a hold of himself for me to figure out the twist around reznov, and one recitation of the numbers on the way to the pentagon for me to figure out that mason would go on to kill kennedy. this, in particular, also felt like a bit of a cop-out — having this confirmed in a post-credits scene was disappointing, when i’d gone through the whole game and sat through an eminem song in the credits expecting a sequence where i’d be on the grassy knoll just to end up in a round of zombies. honk shoo.

modern warfare — modern warfare 2 in particular (kevin mckidd’s soap my beloved <3) — introduced new mechanics that’d be used once or twice in the whole game, most of which i enjoyed. the missions where you have to assist tf141 from an ac130 in the first game? stellar. absolutely unmatched. all ghillied up can go fuck itself on a gameplay front though, fuck you if you think i’m gonna figure out what the coriolis effect is. in black ops, the helicopter sequences felt like hate crimes against me personally. poorly designed flight controls and awful combat mechanics combined to make a literally unplayable pair of missions involving attacking other helicopters that i had to beg my flatmate to complete for me. embarrassing.

this game is utterly us army propaganda. the epic final shot in the campaign after killing dragovich — where suddenly 3 aircraft carriers are there waiting for you flying star spangled banners, and 8 fighter jets pass overhead — only resulted in making me cringe and laugh in disbelief, where in 2010 it would’ve made young men enlist. world at war at least has the balance of ‘war is cool and we’re the best’ in the pacific segments and ‘war sucks, actually,’ in the eastern front segments. modern warfare, too, falls face first into the latter, and that’s part of what i enjoyed about it.

even the little fun things weren’t as enjoyable. i didn’t have a favourite gun, or a favourite mission. the star cast choices were okay, but nothing to call home about. there wasn’t a ‘production babies’ segment in the credits, and they made me listen to eminem and pink. what the fuck?

altogether, black ops 1 has the worst campaign of the franchise i’ve played so far. next we’re onto black ops 2, which hopefully won’t come with a free personal statement like this one, and which i’ve been told is one of the best games ever made. we’ll see.

3/10

#sav talking to the void #cod posting #this is mostly me talking about how much i loved modern warfare btw #tldr 3/10 #fun to play but shallow and boring to think about #viktor reznov my beloved #<- new babygirl alert

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Uta-Net Lyric Essay Part 2 & 3

In commemoration of the release of her 3rd original studio album “Sono Saki e”, Wakana has been invited to write three lyric essays for the song column of “Uta-Net”. Part 1 (featuring Butterfly Dream) has already been translated HERE. Part 2 (featuring KEMONO) and Part 3 (featuring Sono Saki e) are now available as well. There are also audio recordings provided so be sure to check them out!

DOWNLOAD AUDIO Uta-Net Lyric Essay Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

Part 2 Hello everyone, this is Wakana. This time, I would like to share the second part of my lyrics essay. I am writing this essay just as the seasons change, we are quickly transitioning from spring to early summer. Already, I'm starting to remember the stifling heat that I had completely forgotten about during the cold months. I also notice that the days are getting longer. Little by little, the day of the album release has come closer, the people around me are getting more and more hectic. Up until now, my days have been filled with many aspects of the album production, I've been challenging myself and facing each song with great care. Now I can finally share my thoughts and feelings with the world. It's an important opportunity for me to talk more deeply about all the thoughts I put into the album in various interviews, radio appearances, and other media coverage. It's actually quite hard for me to put all these thoughts and ideas into words so I can properly convey them to others. Also, the more I talk about it, the more things come to mind, my thoughts and interpretations are constantly changing. When I spend my days doing nothing but talk about one topic, my mind tends to overflow and I become overwhelmed with countless emotions. At times like that, I really want to be close to my plants. I have many plants at home. I know that spending time with them is the best way for me to ground myself. It's been getting a lot warmer recently so I repotted my Artemisia on a bright and sunny day. My plant baby has already doubled in size ever since I bought it last year. When I took it out of the small golden pot I had been using, I realised that the roots had been growing way too tightly. After apologising profusely for the delay in repotting, I removed the old soil with a shovel and put my plant into fresh, soft soil. Then I gave it plenty of water and let it soak in the gentle afternoon sun. When I saw the glistening leaves swaying gently in the wind, I felt a sudden clearness in my head. My plants may not be able to talk but they live life to the fullest, they reach for the sun at all times. Their appearance is so pure and beautiful, I truly love the honesty of plants. When I am interacting with my plants, it's the perfect opportunity to face myself. For me, it's precious "alone time", a chance to cleanse my mind, organise my thoughts and regain myself. Everyone feels the need to be alone at times, everyone should have the chance to recover one's true self . But maybe that "alone time" is still shared with something. After all, living in this world means coexisting with other beings. The lyrics of "KEMONO" contain a strong will. Don't be afraid to be alone, don't be afraid to be left alone. As long as we have something that is important to us, dreams that we want to pursue, we are always free. We are just like plants who continue facing the sun with a dignified appearance. With that in mind, I feel at ease every day to be alone and rediscover myself. All right, I will finish the second part of my essay here. Until next time. Wakana

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Part 3 Hello everyone, this is Wakana. Today I will share my third lyric essay. It is the final part of the series. Now that the album has been released, I would like to talk about the thoughts I put into it. It was last spring that we decided to produce this album. Back in 2020 I felt very lonely and anxious just like everyone else, I was also lamenting the fact that I could not share my music with you. However, in a world where it felt like I was suddenly rendered useless, it was music that made me want to get back on my feet again. Singing felt healing to me but it also brought a lot of pain, during these days I once again realised how much I loved music. In 2021, I was fortunate enough to be able to hold a lot of live performances while keeping all of my thoughts from 2020 in mind. I was truly grateful for all those great opportunities, it felt like I could finally make up for all the times that I wasn't able to meet you. During the period between my previous album release and my 3rd album, I experienced various things and tried to refine my voice to find the best possible styles for myself. Even when everything got tougher than I had expected, I always found solace in my music. I wanted to put all of those thoughts and feelings into my next album. When we finally decided to start the production, I felt a quiet but strong determination to take on new challenges. At the first meeting for this album, my producer Satoshi Takebe-san suggested that we should use a brightly shining light as main concept for the album. A dramatic and sparkling ray of light that provides glimpses into a brighter future when you are feeling down. Maybe people are always dreaming of such moments, hiding their sorrow and pain in their hearts, but looking straight ahead, continuing onwards and aiming for the light that lies ahead. I want us all to see that light together. I want to walk forward together with all the feelings and thoughts of this world within our hearts. This is the core message I wanted to convey. Everything I put into this album is filled with such sentiments, it's about a light that leads to the future. Even when we are down on our knees, in tears and overwhelmed with this world full of sorrow, we refuse to give up and continue living here. We live proudly without being ashamed of who we are. We can do this because we know that we are never alone. "Sono Saki e" is a song that bears such feelings. If my music can illuminate someone's heart, even just a little, I want to aim for such a future. Thank you for joining me on this three-part lyric essay journey. I hope to see you again somewhere. Wakana

#kalafina #wakana #audio #my translations #my translation #Sono Saki e #そのさきへ #uta-net #media appearance

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thuviel · 11 months ago

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For Fennec: Chocolate (>:)) 3, 5 Cheesecake: 1 Cupcakes: 2

For Faron: Ice cream: 5 Doughnuts: 3, 5

For Nicodemus: Candy: 1, 4 Ice cream: 3 For Dio: Lollipops: 2, 4 Doughnuts: 1

Hello I bring questions :DD no need to answer all, but would love to hear! hehe

Ohohoho a whole marathon of questions!

Fennec

Chocolate 3 What does your OC find comforting when they are distressed or anxious? Are they able to ask for this comfort from others? Or do they need to be alone?

Depends on the kind of distress and how strong it is. But generally his strongest instict is to withdraw and be alone, usually in animal form (I can finally say this omg!!). Sometimes straight up just flee the situation. What actually comforts him a lot though is kind words from others, words of affirmation, words of comfort, just gentle words that prove to him that things are not as disastrous as they might seem. He would never in a million years even consider asking for that though xD

5 Does your OC ever comfort eat when they are unhappy? If so then what food do they find most comforting and why? If not, then what might they do instead?

His appetite gets worse if he's unhappy so not much comfort eating happening. However he has discovered that he loves chocolate, thanks to Nielh so graciously sharing it, and that actually helps when he's feeling down c:

Cheesecake 1 Has your OC fully realised their own potential? If not in their own view, then perhaps in the opinions of others?

Nooooo, he's only just barely started on his journey of growth and self realisation, he has miles still to go. But his new friends are helping so so much!

Cupcakes 2 Does your OC enjoy parties and festivals? Or do they find them somewhat overwhelming? Or even pointless or frivolous?

Yes but also it's Complicated TM

Faron

Ice cream 5 At what point did your OC consider their childhood to be over? Was it a milestone in terms of age? Or did it follow a particular event? Did they feel ready for adulthood at that point?

Hmm I think if we're talking strictly childhood, then he felt like that part of his life was over once he started joining the hunting parties around 14-15. He didn't consider himself an adult though until he received his vallaslin at 17. He definitely thought he was ready for adulthood but boy did he very quickly face tough challenges he was not prepared for xD

Doughnuts 3 Does your OC take the time necessary to recover fully from exertions or strain? Or do they sometimes push themselves to get back out out into the fray (literally or figuratively) before they are truly ready?

Oh once he's with the Inquisition he constantly pushes himself out there without being ready and recovered. Sometimes because he truly has to but often just because he feels obligated to and would feel too guilty resting in his rooms when he feels "needed out there". He isn't completely unreasonable though and some stern words from the healers, Josephine or Dorian will persuade him to stay and rest more. Usually.

5 Does your OC believe that good deeds should be their own reward? Or do they prefer that appreciation be shown through generous material compensation?

Oh Faron is definitely an altruist, honestly not helping people and doing things out of kindness would eat him up inside. Who cares about rewards.

Nicodemus

Candy 1 Does your OC have any "guilty pleasures"? Are they at all secretive or embarassed about these?

Honestly what gives him most enjoyment is sitting with Sips and work on spell stuff together, or just watching Sips be brilliant and work on spells. He would definitely be super embarassed to admit that when he was younger, but as they grow old together I don't think it's a secret anymore c:

4 For what (if anything) is your OC most greedy? Perhaps fame? Sexual satisfaction? Knowledge? Power? Or something else entirely?

Knowledge, 100%. In fact he often does quite stupid/inadvisable things for the chance that he might learn a tiny bit of new knowledge. That and ink and paper for new spells xD

Ice cream 3 Does your OC have a good sense of humour? What kind of jokes do they find funny? Do they have a favourite joke themselves?

It takes a lo to make him laugh at jokes, he has to really find it funny. Usually that would be something with a really clever word play or particularly niche wizard references.

Dio

Lollipops: 2 To what degree does your OC fear failure? Are they something of a perfectionist in all things? Or can they accept a chance of failure in some situations?

Dio is a bit less of a perfectionist actually. He doesn't really fear failure too much in most circumstances, after all his entire existence has been framed as a failure from the day he was born, so he doesn't feel like he can really do that much worse than being born in the first place.

4 What does your OC see as being their greatest failure? Does the memory of this still fill them with feelings of guilt or shame? Are their feelings of failure justified?

There isn't really any one big thing Dio failed that haunts them or anything. But when they were still small they tried their hardest for years to please their parents, they thought that if they behaved really well and did perfectly in all their lessons and chores that their parents would finally love them. They were around 5 when it finally sunk in that no matter how well they did or how much they excelled in their lessons, their parents never paid any more attention to them and never looked at them with anything other than disdain. They felt like they failed to make their parents love them. This realisation definitely shattered Dio's self worth and made them feel like an unlovable ugly thing that didn't deserve to be alive, feelings that they have struggled with since.

Doughnuts 1 Is your OC someone who finds it easy to relax? Or do they tend to always be busy and in need of external stimulation?

They prefer to be moving and actively doing things, pausing too long and not having anything to occupy them easily leads to dwelling on dark thoughts and their terrible self worth. Being in the army this wasn't a problem though, there was either constant training or actual battle happening, whenever there was a small break for rest they would pass out from exhaustion and not have any time to think. Then with the tadpole gang there always was some problem to solve or travelling to be done, so that worked fine too.

#i you see you babu with the targeted questions i see you ;)#thank you so much for asking about all my babies omg #<33333 #fennec #nicodemus #faron lavellan #dio #oc #ask game #babufactory #answer

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