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Jumped rope for 50 minutes!
The play list was epic and the mood was unstoppable!
1/4/24
#workout#fitness#jumping rope#jump rope#honeycombhank#healing#candles#new year#pushing myself#doing my best#apple watch
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Avoiding homework earlier today
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rough seas
#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#ford pines#stan pines#gravity falls fanart#fanart#disney#uh uh uhhhhh idk i started drawing the sea on magma and then i was like what if i put stan in there#and THEN i hated it but then i was like hey what if i redid the comp and added a companion ford#and that was fun#so idc if it's ass anymore I LEARNED THINGS!!!!!#mfw pushing myself out of my comfort zone teaches me new things about art#woahhhhh bro#okay anyway.#my art#mods art#mods draws
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couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead
#calne ca#hatsune miku#VOCALOID#cw: body horror#<- And I Fucking Mean That We Are Not Fucking Around Today#well we are. as in I drew this as a fuckaround treat for myself#but the body horror tag is the most warranted its ever been on this blog#ask to tag#I am as ever on my journey to make calne ca Worse. her OG version is too cool. even the crab ver is too cool#I need her to be worse to look at. I am also getting myself into to mood to test my hand at boarding a pmv for my friend's cover#I think my thought for this was ''I should try and give her a more insectoid bodyplan''#which in this mostly means gently three-part body and six limbs (my favourite amount of limbs to draw rn)#actually almost gave her eight but didnt like how that silhouette came out so I mermaided her uh. abdomen I guess#though maybe next time I do this I should push that idea more. the head and torso are still very distinct for one unified part#I feel like one of my old attempts was onto something with like. a more horizontal body plan... well! live and learn etc#happy late mid autumn I guess. I should play with touys about it... I miss model kits. mayhaps...
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My Code Phrase for “kinda functioning while being ill or unwell”. 😵💫😷😭
(art by graffiti factory)
#zombie#hello kitty#kawaii#cute#sick but functioning#zombie brain#exhausted#sick#illness#diabetes#menstrual cycle#sleep apnea#premenopause#not well#barely functioning#trying my best#doing what i can#pushing myself#adulting#one thing at a time#human body#limited#getting older#it’s fine#love#art
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read the whole story> here by @clarionglass :)
#a whole month later from starting working on this....tis done....#im so stoked i could actually push myself to finish it and im so fucking proud of myself#i also hope we continue doing sam!master shit in the future#because this whole idea became so dear to me whilst throwing ideas back and forth with clari:)#reich!master#sam reich!master#game master#doctor who#dw#dr who#dw fanart#doctor who fanart#15th doctor#fifteenth doctor#ncuti!doctor#ncuti gatwa#sam reich#dropout tv#game changer#gamechanger#college humor#brennan lee mulligan#grant o'brien#the master#northernfire art
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Camp NaNoWriMo Results
I did two projects within thirty days. The first one I was about my emotional health…my inner shadow work, my PTSD moments, and some anxiety. I got over forty thousand words. The second was a story was for NaNoWriMo anthology. I wrote over ten thousand words with notes, the actual story and several edits. I only gave myself a word count goal of thirty thousand, but I made fifty. However when…
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#2024#accomplished#anxiety#blah#burnt out#Camp NaNoWriMo#campnano#Challenge#determined#Edit#experiences#freaking#frustrated#goal completed#goal completeld#health issues#life#Motivation#NaNoWriMo#new project#passionate#pieces of me#pieces of me learning#pushing myself#short story#theme#therapy#time management#what I want#word count
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Today is the day I step out of my comfort zone, from now and forever.
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every time I say “starting nooooow I won’t have any major expenses” something HAPPENS! there’s raw sewage backing up from my drains, and apparently the plumbers will need to break the floor and the wall to get to the pipes and fix it.
if the cat stuff hadn’t wiped out my bank account, this would be annoying but manageable. as it is…..I’m going to try to get everything up in the store for Friday.
#it’s hard because I’m trying not to push myself too hard with mono#the nerve damage stuff is scary#so I’m doing my best to have a zen attitude about all these goings on#but like another surprise 3.5k expense?? how is anyone supposed to live in this world?#there will reach a point where I’m forced to sell this house.#because I don’t know how much longer I can do this all#sorry to be nothing but complaints recently. but things have been hard!
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I am not ready for the holidays, I am really missing the kids I used to be so close to that I worked with, I miss working, making my own money, feeling independent and driving myself to and from, anywhere I wanted.
This morning I am struggling with a deep feeling of inadequacy, of depression and grief for a life once easy to live, even with the stress of everyday life, it was so much easier to keep my spirits up when I could feel all of that grounding me.
Some days I’m hit head on, it takes so long to recover sometimes from my seizures, it takes so much work just to exist in this body so much of the time.
I feel that I should be doing something more with my time on earth, it’s hard to keep a healthy balance in my thoughts between it’s okay you can rest don’t feel guilty and okay you can do this just gotta push one step at a time today.
Being sick with Covid these last few days has been truly awful, being stuck inside knowing I’m not at all ready for the holiday, knowing I have tasks to get done towards applying for disability and making gifts for my family and friends that used to be so close that I need to reconnect with and call, but feeling like my brain just won’t give me the tools I need to accomplish any of it.
I’m left feeling empty, hopeless, unworthy and unwanted. I do have a logical side that tells me to say no to these thoughts but good lord it’s hard to keep up.
Thank you for listening, I know you all have your own struggles and I know I have many things to be thankful for.
12/19/23
#honeycombhank#healing#covid#in my head#my thoughts#personal vent#seizures#non epileptic seizures#mental health#disability#sick#i’m so sick#stuck inside#inside#resting#pushing myself#trying my best#thankful#count your blessings#crying#wtf#life hurts#christmas#holiday#gifts#money
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Hungry
When I finally get hungry, it's already too late.
I've ignored most of the warning signals up to this point, so what I'm experiencing is something akin to a last resort.
My body is yelling "Fire!"
The hole in my stomach is there. Along with the irritability, the shakiness, the dizziness.
I should've ate 6 hours ago.
And no matter how closely I pay attention I will miss the initial signals.
Because I've gotten used to it. Used to ignoring the warning signs. To toughing it out. To letting it go "until it really matters".
How many more times can I do this to myself before I suddenly feint one day?
Maybe I'll hit my (abnormally) hard head and finally be done with it all.
But I know it won't come that easy. Nothing ever does.
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executive dysfunction really is a complete fucking nightmare. all the decisions you could make, but you won't. All the things you know you should do, you want to do, but you won't. Yeah yeah we all know it's a symptom but it feels and looks like just.... deciding not to be responsible.
It's easier not to, so i guess I just won't. I promise it's not laziness, I swear. It's not me just giving up on things that affect more than just me, I swear. Maybe if I say it enough I could hope to believe it myself.
#I need to make dinner but only decisions that lead me in the other direction are capable of having any strength#I can step back but pushing forward is completely useless#fuck me I guess. I'll just hate myself because what other choice have I been given here#problemnyatic vents#problemnyatic thoughts
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I dont care anymore...
feeling myself and what I mean by that is so liberating
knowing what I bring to conversations knowing what I want and seeing how it can happen! gives me the most hype I've had in a minute!
security within in myself is what I'm trying to find!
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i'm on an itafushi kick and i am making it everyone else's problem
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#itafushi#fanart#jjk fanart#megumi#yuuji#IM SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM ok i just love them so much#thinking abt them makes my heart do this unpleasant clench-stutter-race#and i think thats love???? unclear#anyway they are not out of my system so have sketches i will exposure therapy myself into posting more rough pieces if it kills me#im beginning to think that one of the reasons ive been so averse to posting sketches#is the fact tht i havent allowed myself to play around with different strokes n textures so ! I Will Do That .#rough chalk brush my beloved dry oil brush my beloved uneven pen textures my beloved#but god i just. BITES them.#however . one complaint. when both parties in a couple have pointy hair n u have to make them realistically interact . pain .#>:( i know i love u triangles..... but u r pushing ur luck
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Instinct lives to see another new page.
I know, I know, it’s been since April when the last page was out. I’ve been noticing Instinct has gained a bit of attention the last couple of days and I finally pushed myself to make a new page. And because I felt bad I left it at a pretty tense moment.
Prev: pg. 67
#gravity falls#stanley pines#sea grunks#my art#comic#instinct comic#stan pines#i’ll try and push myself to make another#when the inspiration will let me that is
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I’m going to overcome my fears and just tackle everything I have been holding myself back on.
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