#pretend it's coherent

[pillowfriends]

THAT FUCKING. THAT FUCKING EPISODE.

[spiritsglade]

everyone thinking that tim robin and jason robin were the same person is important to me actually. the erasure of jaybin as his own person the denial of his legacy as something of his own. the costume in his memorial case is the same design dick wore. public perception conflates jason and tim. jason himself is nothing had nothing nothing he did mattered. he bore this mantle he died in this costume and robin doesn't even bother to remember him.

[beaft]

wish it was more socially acceptable to just... stop talking. not forever, just for a while. sorry. no more words today. all used up. don't bother asking me questions because all i will do is stare at you

[shorthaltsjester]

having thoughts and feelings about perc’ahlia and their could-be-but-would-never-allow-the-other-to-destroy-themselves-enough-to-actually-become-the-briarwoods parallel/foilism. particularly with vex and delilah and potential places this season might go but also just vex’s “it’s like i’m a bad omen” and the fact that like. vex has full awareness of her feelings for percy and alludes to them to him. but then after she has sex with him it is so so compelling to me that vex is like. this is all i can have with him and i’ll take just this even if maybe it’s flying too close to the sun. and something something the shot of delilah embracing sylas after she’s brought him back, looking over his shoulder into a mirror where it looks like she isn’t holding anything at all and just . god. the like oppositional threads of delilah refusing to lose sylas and holding on tight at any cost and vex holding herself so far from percy to deny the pain that would come with losing/hurting him and the like. venn diagram cross over of something is lost anyway.

[slingbats]

you had your chance but you turned your eyes away again

happy birthday, Oswald (26/7)

[walltalks]

I know that this has been hashed over like a thousand times but it’s been in my notes app for like a month, so I’m making it everyone else’s problem now.

Okay, I see people hashing out the amount of control Jackie had over Shauna or how much control Shauna had over Jackie, but that feels like the incorrect conversation to be having. As I see it there was no true power struggle and need for control over the other, instead it’s two opposing forces coming together and then being repelled like magnets. Let’s start with Jackie because I feel like people get her character wrong way too much. Jackie is not a mean girl, she never was and she never will be—I will not hear it. Jackie adheres to societal expectations like inescapable prophecies (and she also isn’t the only one. I will get to that in a second). For her, becoming exactly like her mother is simply something she cannot escape. There is no free will in question it’s just a truth for her. She doesn’t choose the roles she plays she just does. She plays the role of the popular girl in a small town, and learns it with precision (which is partially why she struggles with the wilderness so much. She doesn’t know how to be a person. She just knows how to play a role). That’s something that I’m going to say that might be controversial, but Jackie really isn’t a person—and, okay, that’s harsh, but what I mean is that she doesn’t do things because she wants to she does them because she thinks she should. Or well, most things. She chooses soccer and she chooses Shauna. But that’s it the rest of her life is dictated by the part she thinks she’s supposed to play. She plays her high school part, and she intends to play her college part. She’ll go to the state school and rush a sorority. She’ll end up with some frat guy and get a Mrs. degree and when they graduate they’ll get married and she’ll be a stay at home mom while her husband works; and it doesn’t matter what she wants because this is a prophecy that is inevitable.

The thing that makes people think that Jackie is trying to hold something over Shauna, is that Jackie assumes that Shauna also feels this way. And this brings me back to the fact that Jackie isn’t the only one who feels destined to the people they think they will inevitably become. A good example is Nat who gives in to the fact that she knows she’s going to be a junky and a burnout. Nat who feels like she can’t escape from what she comes from and what she is going to be. So does Jeff and so does Van. They all feel like they can’t escape the inevitability of becoming their parents, of getting trapped in Wiskayok, of this prophecy that tells them that they will never amount to anything. Jackie isn’t the only one, and so why should it be a stretch that Shauna feels the same way. Jackie doesn’t mean to control Shauna she just thinks that they are headed towards the same prophecy and Shauna in some way feels it the way Jackie does. Jackie pushes Randy on Shauna because it has nothing to do with Shauna needing to actually like him because for her being with Jeff has nothing to do with liking him. She’s just doing what she’s supposed to, and Jeff is a part of that (she assumes that Shauna understands). If Shauna gets with Randy then they can both be playing their societal parts but then cheat the system a little bit by doing double dates and using that as an excuse to actually hangout with each other (killing two birds with one stone. Fulfill my societal duties and hangout with the person I actually love). If they play their roles parallel then really they’re doing it together just with the extra inescapable bits on the side. For Jackie a husband is a nameless faceless thing that she’s simply just destined for and it has no bearings on what she actually wants. Same with having a boyfriend, and not to say that she never liked Jeff as like a person but it was always apparent that he was a means to an end. If she wanted to play her part she needed to have a boyfriend. It’s like needing a car to get to your job, and sometimes you have to fill it up with gas (and sometimes you have to give him a blow job). It’s just something to be dealt with because there’s no other choice. Jackie holds onto Shauna the way she does because that relationship is the only relationship that she genuinely wants and is not tied to her role in society.

The biggest problem with this line of thinking, outside of the fact that it’s just sad, is it does indeed work under the assumption that Shauna feels the same societal pressure that Jackie does and is working under the same constraints. The thing is Shauna doesn’t feel even close to the way Jackie does. Shauna is desperate to get out of Wiskayok and make something of herself. She doesn’t feel the impending doom of becoming something she’s destined for, so she doesn’t feel the need to fall into playing the part she’ll become because she understands that she has free will (Her and Tai are the same in this way). However, it’s not like she’s healthy with this line of thinking either. This all manifests In hyper independents, and the need to grasp control over things in her life. That means shoving down her emotions and falling on anger and journaling things but not talking about it and fucking her best friends boyfriend so that she can take something back (what that “thing” is, is up to interpretation and I doubt that she even knows). Shauna is afraid to lose the sense of self that she has and is afraid to fall into expectation. I think it’s easy to assume that Shauna’s sense of self is so fragile because she “grew up under Jackie’s thumb,” but that’s forgetting that Shauna and Jackie are born from the same environment. That Shauna’s way of thinking is considered the more impractical of the two, and anyone who knows how small towns work really do know that a lot of people don’t escape and do really become their parents. Yes Shauna understands she has free will more than Jackie (not that that bar is very high), but also maybe she is afraid that everyone around her is right and she really can’t escape all the things she’s so desperate to. Who is she if she never escapes? What is she if she never makes anything of herself? Oh…look…the fear of failure. The smart kid is afraid that she isn’t worth anything if she isn’t good at everything, crazy. And that’s kind of where all of her disdain for Jackie really comes from (besides all the hyper independence and anger issues). Jackie doesn’t have a fear of failure because she doesn’t want to make anything of herself, and she’s so good at playing the role she has because she gives in to the point of not being a person in her own right. Shauna is so afraid of everything Jackie thinks is inevitable. Shauna hates it. Shauna hates Jackie for it because on some level Shauna wants what Jackie has. Shauna is just a teenage girl, and she understands very little about herself even if she’s convinced she has so much control over everything. She wants attention and notoriety and to be good at something and appreciated for it. She wants to be wanted. Which *wee woo* *wee woo* is where her own hyper independents bites her in the ass. Shauna is a character that wants to push things away while keeping things close, and all the different parts of herself are battling it out in a cage match. Which, I mean, yeah who isn’t complicated? It’s just Shauna doesn’t process any of this and instead shoves it down or scribbles it into her journals, or both.

And now one can probably see why these two characters are at odds with each other, and it’s not like they aren’t both being reasonable in their own right. Jackie who lives in expectation and just wants to carve a little bit of something out for herself, and Shauna who wants so desperately to be something and make something for herself and prove that she is capable.

Codependency and hyper independence beating each other up in a fight to the death.

[lover-of-mine]

“No, I was just the guy standing there when it happened who couldn't do anything to protect him.”

(insp.) (Eddie's Version)

[inklore]

pen telling colin she loves him in the heat of an argument because she knows it to be the truest thing in that moment. she doesn’t have all the answers right now, neither of them do, and what they’re going through they both don’t know how to handle and there’s so many feelings and emotions and life altering things happening all at once. but she loves him. at the end of the day she loves him. and the look on colin’s face upon hearing it and then after hearing it again and the way his eyes flash down to her lips and he gets that intense look on his face he only gets when he’s overcome by emotion from the woman he loves and that intensity coming through in their kiss and how passionate these two are about their feelings even when they’re both scared, hurt, and lost is something so personal to me.

[labotor]

"Envy is never satisfied."

[falafels]

I nominate Allison for next Q&A ✨✨🫶🫶

oOohhhh okeyyyy ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[holdoncallfailed]

helpppp help the "punk has always been a radical left-leaning political movement" historical revisionists are in my notes again HELPPPP

[asoulwithadream]

[ksbbb]

WIP WEDNESDAY 🩸

Tagged by @hemlocksandfoxgloves @fruchtfliege @honestlydarkprincess

“Forever a victim. Never a hero, or dare I say, a villain?” Liam catches the last drop of blood and Theo’s body shakes with undeniable fear.

There’s a staggering wonder at how much he’s enraged, but also turned on at the same time.

“I never said I was a victim.” Theo sputters, growing colder and more aggressive at the thought of being seen as damaged.

Theo’s not damaged. There’s nothing left of him to break. Pieces maybe, but only remnants of himself that hang around. Only to make him feel slightly more normal than he is.

“You never said you were anything. Your sense of purpose is consumed by staying alive and out of Scott’s way.” Liam viciously says, a perfectly honest assessment and Theo shoves him away, no longer being able to hold in his anger.

“Oh, don’t be too bold Teddy.” Liam growls.

Tagging @thiamsxbitch @chasing-chimeras @maplesyrizzup @theoceanismyinkwell @mmoosen @blue-hair-and-angels @wolfboy88

[bunny-banana]

ok the REAL capvers cocaina are those post-war reunions where Cap is so so so happy and relieved to see Havers made it and ofc hes sooo impressed by all of Havers' achievements like thats HIS it girl right there ofc he'd made Major what else and while Havers is ofc also happy, theres a certain apprehension there. bcs there is a part of him genuinely worried that the scars and all the trauma he now carries with him might diminish all the affection Cap used to have for him. which is LAUGHABLE bcs Cap loves him regardless, Cap loves him for the scars bcs they are a testiment of survival, and whatever nightmares torment him now could never scare Cap away like HELLO DO YOU GUYS HEAR MEEEE

[peoples-problem]

If you think about it, meaning wise, "Steve is going to London" and "The entertainment's here" are the same, just like "Pretender" and "The trick" but then you have "The good part" and "Next up forever" that are complete opposites

Like, "Steve is going to London" and "The entertainment's here" are about distracting the thoughts with other stuff and keep getting distracted just to stop (over)thinking, "Pretender" and "The trick" about lying about how you are to get people to like you, but then "The good part" talks about how you want to click all the process to get somewhere because you don't know wtf you are doing while "Next up forever" talks about wanting to live in the anticipation of what's coming next instead of living it and those are way too separate moods that can't coexist. I just think it's really funny

[exhibit-ayyy-look-at-this-nerd]

reading @logans-old-tie’s fic the rise of a king and the fall of a queen & this scene was very endearing to me so i wanted to doodle it ^^