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ppumeonae-bigvibe · 6 months ago

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pairing: dormmate! woozi x gn! reader

↬ tags: bringing the 96 liners into this because i can, pining + longing, love is blind yada yada <3, quite wholesome towards the end

summary: through unspoken thoughts and harmless meddling, both you and jihoon get caught in the midst of your friends playful matchmaking

word count: 1.1k words

a/n: i posted it a whole day later ,, i thought today was the 1st of august… ㅠㅠ

jihoon wanted to get close to you. but the only thing stopping him was just that he was bad at initiating anything, especially when it came to things concerning you. unlike his friends who seemed to so easily befriended you. he sadly thinks that his love language might just be existing.

soonyoung displayed his affections with physical banter, oftentimes grabbing you and roughing you up playfully. you didn't mind it one bit, but jihoon did when his chest tightened at the sight of you leaning against soonyoung almost willingly as the male scrolls through his phone and shows it to you. or when you linked arms with soonyoung as the two of you strolled, leaving jihoon trailing behind.

the ever so brotherly junhwi was like a big sibling figure: upon your request, jun always never hesitated to do anything for you within reason. acts of service was something jun excelled at; on the other hand jihoon's dejection simmered beneath his skin when you walked past him towards jun, asking for his help even though jihoon could have done it too.

you sought wonwoo to spend time together. every time he thought of asking you to do passive things together, you had claimed to be spending time with wonwoo instead. wonwoo and you clicked because of the games you two played, but outside of gaming you two also do school work together in comfortable silence.

in conclusion, he's bad at expressing his feelings that he wanted to be with you. he found it confusing himself too, not being able to put a feeling as to why he always desired to spend time with you, to hold your hand, to do things for you.

funny thing was that, his friends knew about his way-too-obvious crush, and have been devising so many ways for you two to be alone together. call it brothers for brothers, or something.

jihoon zones back into the present: it was a movie night after finals and you had suggested to host a sleepover with the rest of them. wonwoo lightly bumps shoulders with jihoon; a curt nod, and a small grin.

junhwi unpacks all the food and exclaims in displeasure (jihoon thinks it was a bit too much), "we didn't get the drinks!" sooyoung makes a show of sighing (a little too loudly), "dang i was just getting thirsty for some cola..."

"i can go get them!" you offered unknowingly and jihoon perked up. his three friends looked at each other, as if their brains were firing off signals simultaneously and jihoon immediately claims, "i'll go down too, you guys can set up the area."

"yeah that would be good. we aren't too familiar with the neighborhood here." wonwoo adds on, sealing the deal. (jihoon never thought he'd see the stoic wonwoo trying his best to fight off a playful smirk)

with a recycle bag slung on jihoon's shoulder, the two of you headed out as the evening sun started to dip. "i'm glad finals are over." you light-heartedly started the conversation, beaming a little when jihoon reciprocates with his shy smile, "me too. it's been a while since we last saw them too."

silence blanketed you two again, and jihoon started getting fidgety as the convenience store emerged as both of you turned left. you glanced at the male, "jihoon, do you have something to say to me?" his shocked expression betrayed him with a mere statement from you.

you soften your eyes, "is this about the laundry? if it is, then i'm sorry, i knew it was my responsibility and i've been just so cooped up with all the tests and everything, and i know that you're a stickler for hygiene and i--" jihoon notices a whizzing cyclists pedaling downslope and immediately drags you towards him, "watch it!"

you let out a gentle "oof" at the sudden impact and jihoon hopes his heart wasn't beating too loudly. you moved away from him almost as quickly as he pulled you in.

"you okay?" his hands were still lightly grasping yours and your face flushed under his scrutiny, "yeah. you can let go of me now." jihoon's reluctance seemed to catch your eye too, "did you mean to talk about something else?"

dang it, you and your perception.

jihoon glanced down at his hand intertwined with yours, "why can't i link arms with you like you do with soonyoung?" you were mildly taken aback by the sudden question, but jihoon pressed on, "or when you got jun to do things for you when i could do them too? i'm your roommate, not him. certainly you don't need him to move your shelf when i was around."

you stared back at him with an unreadable expression and jihoon abashedly looks at the ground, "and when you spend time with wonwoo instead of me, i feel like i've been...left out. i don't know, tell me if i'm reading too much into this or maybe..."

he hears your sudden laughter amidst his worries and he thinks you might have lost it. you wiped away a tear from the sheer amount of force it took you when you started chuckling, "i didn't think this day would come. i like you, lee jihoon. like, a lot."

jihoon sputters, "this entire time?" you averted your gaze, "i just wanna ask if...maybe you do have feelings for me?"

"i do, for as long as i've met you and i..." you pecked him on the cheek and rocked back on your heels, "then that's all i wanted to hear."

if jihoon could combust right now, he would. he noticed how your blushing face mirrored his and he pulled you in for a hug: this time it was far from anything like that of two friends embracing.

"the things you mentioned: about soonyoung, he's just naturally clingy like that, but i thought maybe if i got closer to him it would make you jealous. same with jun, or more like he offered and i decided to test you a little to see if i was right. and for wonwoo, he was totally on board trying to rile you up."

you stopped your rambling and raised your hands as if to surrender, "i said my piece. the boys had a hand in all of these sneaky actions."

your words caused jihoon's mind to run at miles per hour, "but they told me they'd be 'wingmen' for me, and would try to create more opportunities for us to be alone together...?"

realization hit you. they've been instigating everything, orchestrating every action. "do you think they..."

"i think so." you confirmed his suspicions. hurriedly, you two entered the provision shop and bought the drinks, feet quickly carrying both of you back to the dorms to confront the three trouble makers.

the door bursts open at the impact, effectively shocking the three masterminds.

jun swallows his food comedically, "uh-oh." "seems like our plan worked out, huh?" wonwoo smirked as he leaned over to high-five an equally joyous soonyoung, "welcome back lovebirds!"

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#ppumeonae-bigvibe #seventeen #seventeen x reader #seventeen woozi x reader #seventeen fluff #seventeen imagines #seventeen scenarios

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wildlife4life · 1 year ago

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Seven (+) Sentence Sunday

Tagged by the super amazing @daffi-990 @lover-of-mine @try-set-me-on-fire @fortheloveofbuddie @wikiangela @spotsandsocks @jesuisici33 and @diazsdimples. Thank you all so much and I am super excited for your upcoming works!

Another tag day, another snippet of NFL Buck. Back to Eddie's perspective! This time, we are delving into this au's version of his and Shannon's background and relationship. WOOO! (Every previous NFL Buck post can be found here) Enjoy!

Buck gave Eddie a very befuddled look, "Um, if this is your way of breaking up with me, I think you skipped a few major steps here." Eddie rolled his eyes, "Make sure the equipment manager gives you an extra thick helmet Buckley. All those previous head injuries are catching up to you." His boyfriend gave a half hearted glare, but didn't make a comment, allowing Eddie to explain. "They're for Shannon." "Ohhhh." Evan finally caught on and Eddie can't help but roll his eyes again. "I keep forgetting your un-repressed ass is still married to a woman." The jerk had the audacity to crack jokes and give Eddie a cocky grin. "And that makes you my mistress." Eddie fired back. "Meh." His boyfriend shrugged uncaring. Which is fair because he's the mistress who beat the odds and convinced the husband to leave his wife. Though did it count if the wife left first? Eddie shook his head, pushing aside that thought, knowing it would lead down an emotionally twisted path he didn't want to get into at the moment. Picking up the divorce papers, Eddie returned them to the manilla envelope labeled with only Shannon's name. "Look, with the move to Houston I am obligated to inform Christopher's mother of his whereabouts. I did the same when we moved to Austin, though back then I was hoping that by telling her we were out from under my parents roof, she would return." Buck grimaced, "Considering you showed up for our not-a-date, date, that didn't happen." Eddie nods, unable to meet the younger man's saddened gaze. The hurt and anger towards his soon to be ex-wife, was all twisted up with a healthy dose of guilt and the love he would always have for her. It felt unfair to Evan to still love her. His feelings towards Shannon used to be less complicated. Before Eddie bent under his parents expectations, she was one of his closets friends. Much like Buck, she was easy to talk to, made him laugh, and didn't pressured him to be anything more than himself. Eddie never did express his disinterest in girls to her or how his eyes tended to linger a little too long on some the guys on the football team (he has a type, repressed or not). The subject of girls and dating didn't come up, until his dad made an off hand comment about his son not bringing any dates home to meet. Eddie panicked. And when Eddie panicked, he came up with some awful ideas. Kissing Shannon after his baseball game because he knew she had feelings for him beyond friendship, was one his worst. Back then, Eddie hoped that treating Shannon as more than friend would lead to feelings of actual attraction and romantic love. It didn't. Further expectations, additional pressure lead to more panic and stupid decisions. Then one day during his senior year, Eddie found himself with a positive pregnancy test in hand and Shannon begging him for a solution. He was down on one knee with a ring his mother shoved into his hands two days later (Eventually Eddie would learn the silver band with a small lone diamond was a promise ring from Adriana's cheating ex.) Shannon said yes, Eddie's Uncle Paco ordained their wedding at the local rec center, and Christopher Edmundo Diaz was born May 8th, 2008, just after Shannon took her last final (her water broke as she handed in her math test). When Eddie held his son, he instantly knew, his entire heart belonged to this tiny little boy, but right on the heels of that love came the cold dredges of panic. On May 9th, 2008 Eddie acted upon yet another awful idea and signed up for the Army. Neither he nor Shannon made it to their high school graduation. Instead the first tear in their relationship was being formed with angry shouts, heartbroken sobs, and a hastily packed duffle tossed into an old truck.

I will admit, I am not the biggest Shannon fan, but I am not a Shannon basher either. Her and Eddie both made mistakes, and that will be shown in this au, as Shannon was a big part of Eddie's journey and the mother of his child. Hope you all enjoyed!

Tagging (no pressure): @theotherbuckley @disasterbuckdiaz @devirnis @exhuastedpigeon @bekkachaos @thewolvesof1998 @giddyupbuck @eddiebabygirldiaz @hippolotamus @rainbow-nerdss @spaceprincessem @athenagranted @eddiescowboy @evanbegins @elvensorceress @malewifediaz @911onabc @911-on-abc @loserdiaz @hoodie-buck @ladydorian05 @bigfootsmom @watchyourbuck @thekristen999 @princessfbi @letmetellyouaboutmyfeels @spagheddiediaz @monsterrae1 @rogerzsteven @honestlydarkprincess @bitchfacediaz @buck-coded @housewifebuck @glorious-spoon @buddierights @prosperdemeter2 @lemonzestywrites @gayedmundodiaz @cal-daisies-and-briars @transboybuckley

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nobodysdaydreams · 5 months ago

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Fic recs, please!

Maybe my beloved Connie Contraire or my good friend Reynie?

Two wonderful characters. I will try my best to find good recs and also hopefully get the text size right/consistent this time because that last post was horrendous. I'll also try to indicate if it's show or book versions.

Constance Fics by category:

Fluff:

Firefly Nights by @sophieswundergarten, cute fluff of Constance and Sticky (Book Versions)

petrichor by @mahpotatoequeen, more cute fluff of Sticky and Constance walking home in the rain (book versions)

Sugar, Butter, Flour by @never-wake-up, cute fluff of Constance, Rhonda, and Number Two as sisters

Angst and Hurt Comfort:

Constance Discovers Capitalism by @acollectionofcuriousreblogs, angst involving Constance haunted by the memory of Dr. Curtain (book or show characters would work here)

Lifeline by @mvshortcut, angst involving Constance finding herself as an unlikely ally to her uncle, Dr. Curtain (a mix of book and show elements)

Families of Choice by @sophieswundergarten, angst involving a "what if Mr. Pressius took Constance?" scenario (book version)

Ten Years of Constance Contraire by @myfairkatiecat, an account of Constance's birthdays and how she spends them before she finds her family (show version)

After the Whisperer by @heyitsthatonesmolgay, Constance angst in the Whisperer's aftermath (show version)

AUs:

Nicholas Benedict's Home For Misfits by @fandom-queen-13, an AU involving science experiments and strange abilities (show and book versions)

Crack:

The Mysterious Benedict Society and the Epistolary Bullying Campaign by @mvshortcut. This is one of the highest rated fics in the fandom for a reason. It's hilarious. If you wanna see Constance bully Curtain, this is the place to do it. (Show Version)

Now for Reynie Muldoon:

For anything involving Reynie or Sticky, you honestly have to have a separate section just for the fics by @sophieswundergarten. So...

Fluff (Sophie's):

Fractal Patterns, a sad fic about Reynie, but it all ends okay when he finds a family in Miss. Perumal. (Book version).

Of Missed Opportunities and Scaled Fences, in another world where Reynie Muldoon never took Mr. Benedict's test, the society still finds him (books or show version)

The Best Solution to Nightmares is Buying a House, Reynie and Sticky buy a house together (book versions)

Angst and Hurt/Comfort (Sophie's):

Safety is a Fading Memory in the Rear-view Mirror (But With You I Feel Home Again), Reynie and Constance fight the ten men (Book Versions)

Reynie Blender Time Heeheehoohoo, this is what she decided to title the fic, Reynie gets beat up by the ten men again, you can't say she didn't warn us (book or show version)

An Averagely Cold Winter Storm, Reynie nearly dies in a snow storm

Sparks, Reynie is tortured by the ten men (again, book version)

Chance Encounter, Reynie sees an old childhood bully (book version)

Lights and Sounds (And What Comes After), Reynie gets sick (book or show versions)

Reynie Going Comatose Apology Fic Where it Actually Ends Happy, it's exactly what the title suggests (mostly show but tagged as both)

Mental Literature, before the society, Reynie didn't have many or any friends (book or show versions)

AUs (Sophie)'s:

Once Upon a Time (Perhaps), a fairytale AU involving Reynie and Miss. Perumal. A very sweet and creative fairytale retelling.

And now for some other Reynie Muldoon centered fics:

Fluff:

the learning curve by @mahpotatoequeen, a series of one shots of the Perumal family (book versions)

these hollow bones also by @mahpotatoequeen, Reynie is an empath au, I wasn't sure whether to count this as an whole separate AU or where to put it. (book versions)

Angst and Hurt/Comfort:

Rolie Polies by @plentyghosts, after the waiting room, bugs are terrifying (book versions)

Safe to Say I Don't Like It by @seirve, Reynie deals with anxiety (show version)

Resonance by @/stainedglasspanel (I'm sorry I don't know what their tumblr is, someone please tag them if you do!), Curtain puts Constance in danger (mostly show with book elements thrown in)

here's to (never) growing up by @mollyhats, the kids deal with nightmares (books and show)

Sunday Tea (Is Still The Same) by @mysteriouseggsbenedict, adult Reynie talks to Mr. Benedict and goes to him for comfort years later (books or show)

AUs:

I Saw You by @heyitsthatonesmolgay, in an AU where everyone has superpowers and SQ, fed up with his father and the society, decides to become a villain, he confronts Reynie.

A Traveling Song to Ease the Ride by @/lesboholic (please note: that is the AO3 username, I believe the tumblr username for this fic is @crow-in-springtime) a fairytale AU.

The Sweat Beneath One's Eyes by @phtalogreenpoison, an AU where Reynie starts out on Curtain's side

Crack:

Old friends, Old Enemies, I had trouble hunting down Reynie centric crack, which means sadly I have to recommend this. I made this for Sophie and Milk for Sophie's birthday. Milk agreed to help with zero information as to what they were agreeing to. They both like the fic. They both struggled not to laugh while eating and in the company of other people. Will you like it? Or will it make you concerned about my mental health? You be the judge.

#I hope this is enough for anyone looking for Reynie and Constance fics. Sorry Sophie I had to do it.#Reynie Muldoon #Constance Contriare #tmbs #the mysterious benedict society #mbs #mbs disney #tmbs disney #bods answers #mysterious benedict society #mbs fanfic #tmbs fanfic

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eruscreaminginthedistance · 11 months ago

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Ugh it's taken me like a week to post this because reformatting PF posts on my phone is a bitch so I'm gonna throw this out here so that i don't put it off any longer; my Dune Part 2 review.

Basically, I feel like I'm living through a Category 5 LOTR event in real time. I was worried going into the second film that I was overhyped and that I should temper my expectations; speculative fiction adaptations 9 times out of 10 are usually dead on arrival and Dune Part 1 already defied the odds for being as good as it was for an almost 1-to-1 recreation.

I feel like after this I could confidently trust Denis Villeneuve with my life. The man's not really making a product. He clearly LOVES sci fi. Respect for the source material oozes out of every scene of Dune, and his little tweaks and changes are done with care and with a sense of critically engaging with the story that shows real thought.

Praying to the gods that once Denis finishes the trilogy he brings out a boxset DVDs with at least three behind the scenes DVDs MINIMUM. I need to see every single aspect of production on this leviathan of a project and then ritualistically watch all three movies back to back as I would with LOTR.

Spoilers under the cut

In terms of what I liked:

I've only read the first two books in full - Children and God Emperor are next on my list to finish this year - so I can't speak as an uber knowledgeable Dune nerd who knows the books back to front, but I'm very confident when I say that Denis's changes to the source material didn't take away from the experience of the story at all.

- Chani's probably the biggest change of all in the sequel and oh my god does it revitalise her character. I was quite shocked scrolling through tags to see book readers complain about how much the movie changed her and her arc. What are they mad about? That they gave Chani something to do other than sucking Paul's dick? In the book, literally everyone is 100% behind Paul uncritically accepting every single thing he does and Chani is just one of a swarm of characters that do that. I say this with much love because I like her book counterpart but I struggle to understand the people who claim to be so invested in book Paul and Chani's dynamic as opposed to the film's when book Chani's whole character is "Wife", until Dune Messiah when she gets the "Nagging Wife" upgrade. Denis's version effectively makes her co-protagonist with Paul and it was so exciting to see that play out on screen. She became the moral litmus test and the last vestige of uncorrupted ideals in the movie; Paul's descent into fascism and betrayal of the Fremen would not have hit nearly as hard if everyone went along with it like in the book.. I really felt for Chani having to watch everyone she knows get swept up in this insane fervour. She's too dedicated to the concept of freedom to fall for the bullshit and that was such a relief ti witness. Film Chani is her own character, not just another limb of Paul's, so her story is going in a slightly different direction and I'm really excited to see that. Would not have been nearly as hyped if her whole arc was just going to be "be pregnant. die" again.

- Jessica being an absolute FREAK. She was probably my favourite character from the book and I was so pissed she wasn't in Dune Messiah. I needed to get inside her head and wiggle around in there while I was reading, and Denis fed me. In the book, I got the impression she was quite a passive participant in the prophecy, so getting to see her go full wicked witch in the film was a massive highlight. Speaking to Alia in the womb, her sinister use of The Voice (such a horrific departure from her only using it for self defence in Part 1), her FASHION. Denis needs to adapt her into Dune Messiah I refuse to watch a version of Messiah without Jessica in it.

- Stilgar came out of nowhere with the steel chair for me. The first book is filled back to back with noble fatherly leader figures so he got very lost in the shuffle and I didn't really pay attention to him that much beyond being one of Paul's many mentors. I read a tiny bit of Children before watching Part 2 and Stilgar seriously considering murdering Paul's children made me do a double take. Then seeing him in this movie blew me away. Guys I think I've slept on Stilgar all this time xD. Not gonna lie though, the film beefs up his character quite a lot from the books. I think it was a good decision to make him comedic relief, because it offsets that "religious fundamentalist" element that could put people off. It makes him much softer and more likeable. He's just a guy with big hopes and big dreams and a big heart who's a bit silly sometimes, and that makes him the ultimate prey for Paul and Jessica. It's absolutely sickening to see them exploit his sincere faith and beliefs and I'm getting upset now just thinking about all the horrific things he'll be lead to do. Denis did a fantastic job of making him a more sympathetic and softer character for people to compare with his post-timeskip Space Hitler's Right Hand Man role.

- Introducing Princess Irulan early hell yeah!! Huge improvement on the book imo; she was very much a dark horse character for this film and Florence Pugh nailed it. I loved her being the narrator much like in the book, and it was interesting to see her contribute to putting the pieces in place for the endgame, rather than just turn up at the end. More of her please, Denis!

- One of my complaints about the first film was that there wasn't enough Harkonnen action, specifically the Harkonnen-Atreides rivalry, which was talked about a bit but not really shown. Denis made all those Harkonnen scenes specifically for me. I adored the balls to the wall aesthetics and the incredibly villainous acting. This film isn't afraid of moustache twirls and villainous laughter and I LOVE that. It felt fresh. Villains who just love doing bad shit and aren't even trying to justify themselves they just LOVE being horrible creatures in their black stone murder palaces.

- What can I say about the look of the film. You've all seen it. If you haven't then go fix that. It's one of the most visually cohesive and stunning films I've seen in a long time. I don't know how a world can feel so real and yet unreal (/pos) at the same time.

- Hans Zimmer showed the fuck UP for this score. I've been listening to it nonstop all weekend. I kinda miss the Atreides bagpipes but the new horns drive me insane so it's a good tradeoff.

Things I'm on the fence about:

- I think it was a good call to remove the whole thing with Paul uh, inheriting Harah from Jamis. It gave more screentime to Chani and I think would have really put viewers off Paul when really you wanna keep people going in blind rooting for him until the third act. BUT I was surprised she wasn't in the film at all? I was convinced that the lady we see Chani talking with was supposed to be an adapted Harah, but I'm seeing everywhere online that that's not supposed to be her and Harah wasn't in the film? Why not? It just felt a bit weird that she's just some nameless Fremen.

- I'm not gonna lie I forgot Thufir existed on my first watch. I think me not missing him overall is a good sign. I didn't rewatch part 1 so I guess I assumed they'd killed him off in the Arrakeen attack, and didn't realise his part had been cut until I saw an article about it later. That was kind of disappointing. While I think the film is perfectly fine without him, I think the inclusion of his plot as kind-of prisoner kind-of strategist for the Harkonnens would have really solidified the Harkonnen-Atreides rivalry. Again because we almost never see an Atreides and Harkonnen onscreen together, so having him there to exemplify it in practice I think could have just polished things up for me personally. But also I want all films to be 5 hours long so what do I know.

- Jessica and Chani didn't interact nearly as much as I wanted them to tbh. I'm hoping that Dune Messiah beefs up their relationship.

- Timothee Chalamet

Things I didn't like:

- Not Paul btw, just Timothee

- Been saying this since the first movie but him and Zendaya were really only cast cos they're hot ticket items right now, not because they have the look and feel of the characters or the world; they just wanted to cast some hot supermodels in the roles

- Zendaya justifies her casting though by being the better actor though; I was sceptical but I came to buy her as Chani and she did a good job resonating with me

- Timothee's just a guy though, wasn't impressed

- Which is a huge problem because the emotional throughline of the movie is their romance and I just. Did not buy it. Timothee could not have paid me to believe that he was in love with Chani. They were like the definition of everybody's beautiful but nobody's horny. Just saying words with their blank hot faces. At least Zendaya put some effort in.

Anyway 10/10. This is going in my top 5 movies of all time and is one of the best book to screen adaptations I have ever seen.

#dune #dune part 2 #crossposting #pillowfort

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megumi-fm · 1 year ago

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20th - 25th Dec || 145 to 150 of 150dop

this is a late post because I was away from home for the holidays and I didn't really have the time or good enough internet to update you guys, but here we are!!! thank you to everyone who tagged me in cute games during this time (i will be doing them only next year tho hehe) and especially to @chaotic-diaries-of-yours-truely and @winryrockbellwannabe who sent in really comforting asks during this time <3 you guys are my favourites. (I will answer them soon I promise! I've just been swamped 😭)

🎧 Son O-Gong by Seventeen

📋 Tasks

🩺 Radiomics Projects ↳ BCR: draft next year timeline ↳ GBR: download source code and learn mechanism 📝 English Proficiency Test ↳ results are out!!! I did really well, yay!!!

🎨 Personal

I went to my hometown (it's not so much my hometown as it is my native place) and got to meet a lot of family friends and relatives!! It was a lot of fun!! I had a great time!! 📺 Shows this week ↳ My Love Mix-Up JP ✅ ↳ Cherry Magic TH 🔽 (can I just say that I love this adaptation wayyy more than I expected. I really like that it is not trying to be a replica of the JP version and instead focusing on the same themes in a different light) ↳ Last Twilight 🔽 ↳ I also kind of started Trillion Game (meguro ren the man you are)

and we're finally done!! this was my first challenge after setting up my studyblr and I am so happy that I made so many wonderful friends on here who have been checking in on me and supporting me through the course of these 150 days. Even if you're just sharing these posts or liking them, it has really motivated me to do better and keep going. And you guys, who have also been working hard to meet your goals, y'all inspire me day in and day out, I really wouldn't be here if it wasn't for this wonderful studyblr community <3

I initially started this series in july and it was only supposed to be for 100 days, but now, after several days skipped in between, and the 100 days updated to 150, and constantly changing goals, we're finally here. At the end. And despite all the modifications, I've only really met 50% of the goals I set for myself. But that being said, i'm proud of myself for making it through. I tend to struggle with consistency a lot, but I'm happy that I still tried my best to be regular with posting. I'm also happy that I was kind to myself through the duration of these 150 days- that I didn't get too rigid with the structure and I let myself have off days or club several days in a post together. At the end of the day, it wasn't supposed to feel too pressurizing or like a chore, and I think I succeeded in that. I also learnt a lot about planning, and I've also in general come to accept the truth that goal setting is a dynamic process and goals and due dates will change over time and that is okay. So yeah. I felt really challenged throughout this series, but that being said, I'm never doing this again 😭. May next year bring new challenges hehe

37 - 42/final42 // the end.

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malinaa · 11 months ago

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2023 WRITING REVIEW

tagged: no one i just wanted to do this and i forgot about it soz </3 tagging : board of directors i'd tag u here but this is mostly fic-based so sorree... anyway if u have already done this my b.... i wld like to see ur post tho @evcndiaz | @brimay | @usignedupforthis | @seek--rest | @posallys | @dustorangeheartssnowman | @adhd-merlin | @queerofthedagger

number of stories posted to ao3: 34 ±1 bc i updated a fic from a while back <3

word counted posted for last year: 90k... a feat (i wrote more but it was ofic so add like maybe 10k to that)

fandoms i wrote for: alex stern series, merlin, house md, pjo, spidey, hunger games, doctor who, & the grisha trilogy

pairings: merthur / arwen / mergwenthur / mergana, darlingstern, hilson, percabeth, petermj, everlark, tenrose, malina

stories with the most KUDOS: jealousy, jealousy (house md) with 522 <3 BOOKMARKS: except my life (merlin) with 137 <3 COMMENT THREADS: rip current (pjo) with 38 <3 *technically the answer to all of these is tested with torment but that's a fic i updated so i don't reallyyyyyy count it

work i'm most proud of (and why): thread of gold (arwen, bbc merlin) because i don't exactly post 2nd person fic and tbh most people HATEEEEE 2nd person fic AND i got people to enjoy it. HA!

work i'm least proud of (and why): coffee drinker (gen fic, bbc merlin) because it was just a promptfic and i didn't even really feel like posting it but i wrote it so i might as well yk?

share or describe a favorite review you received: any review that quotes a line but this one from judas kiss (arwen, bbc merlin)...

THIS. IS. WONDERFUL ❤️❤️❤️ *creates bookmark with gusto* I LOVE that you dug into what it might have been like for Gwen while she was under that enchantment! It was so creative to have her past memories blurring with glimpses of the present during the enchantment. I *felt* her disorientation, and it *hurt*. I felt so bad for Gwen all over again! 😭😭😭 That aspect of this story could have been a fantastic standalone one-shot in its own right, but noooo, you raised the bar and KEPT GOING and made it even better!!! I love that you showed Gwen and Merlin staying friends after Gwen becomes queen, and I love how she confides in him and how he immediately drops everything to go look for the offending piece of jewelry. The bit about Arthur’s incredulity at Merlin’s method of testing the enchantment was a great dash of humor, and I love that you fleshed out the concept of the enchantment to be something the others could experience so that they could truly *know* that Gwen had been innocent. And don’t even get me started on how much I love Arthur’s “Forgive me.” I love how he doesn’t think twice about humbling himself in front of everyone because his focus is solely on Gwen, consumed by the urgency of doing the right, honorable, and loving thing in that moment. You write Arthur and Gwen’s relationship so beautifully. 💕 Well done; I hate you (/affectionate) for all these feels. 🥰🫂👏

a time when writing was really, really hard: august through october... idek why i was literally in agony not writing

a scene or character you wrote that surprised you: writing jj in spider-man: homewrecker because i've NEVER written him before (in my memory) and i was like. Hello .

a favorite excerpt of your writing: cannae lie i have a few favs so... killing is a love language (mergana, bbc merlin) Heartbreak snakes up his throat, constricting him at the sight of her. Morgana’s beauty is incontestable even like this, but her hatred wore her down to her bones. Gone were the full cheeks and rosy lips, the perfectly combed hair, the wardrobe that would put princesses to shame. Now, her face is sunken in, her hair a curled storm, her dress is merely black rags at this point. thread of gold (arwen, bbc merlin) Your father’s presence is larger than life. Larger than love. It looms. It casts shadows long enough to hide every hope and dream you’ve ever had for yourself. the boy and the girl (malina, the grisha trilogy) Memory fractures into shards. Real or not real? There’s Mal in the meadow. Mal buried beneath the hanging tree. Mal cold in her palms. There’s a sky darker than night. Her hands bloodied. A knife lodged in his heart. Her knife. His blood. Her fault. She killed him. She loves him. Her fault. Rest her head on his still chest. Her fault. No heartbeat. Her fault. No warmth. Cold light spilling from her palms. She killed him. The Saint’s only true worshipper martyred.

how did you grow as a writer last year: my hopes from last year was that i finally finish a multichap fic.... 😭 does a short 3-shot count. besides that i wrote more consistently and i'm finally Used to my writing style. i think.

how do you hope to grow this year: hell if i know if i could write something longer than 20k that'd be great 😭😭😭😭

who was your greatest positive influence this year as a writer (could be another writer, beta, cheerleader, etc.): the board.... @rosesau / @bipercabeth / @stellwood fnh...... i'd tag katie but she absconded from tumblr smh. anyway hi freaks n geeks

anything from your real life show up in your writing last year: oh i don't even know. nothing ig

any new wisdom you can share with other writers: bro idek the more i write the more writing becomes fundamentally so hard to talk about ... sorreeee

any projects you're looking to starting (or finishing) this year: IF I DON'T FUCKING MAKE PROGRESS ON MY PLAY I WILL BASH MY HEAD INTO A WALL. THIS CAN'T KEEP HAPPENING. ATLAS AND VIVIAN YOU WILL BE WRITTEN ON THE PAGE INSHALLAH

#tag games #2023 #writing #text #tais toi lys #not the numbering getting fucked. whatever

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stellafrin · 22 days ago

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It's New Year's Eve and I'm now a year older.

Right, now's the time to talk about future plans? Resolutions? Boastings? Whatever you wanna call it.

I guess I'll start with a retrospective sorta thing tho.

This past year for me feels like nothing and everything has happened.

I didn't end up getting any real progress done on my personal projects past March.

I also ended up starting another extended hiatus after finishing ISaT. I did end up popping back in for October to stream Mouthwashing and Slay the Princess but have since gone back on hiatus for the time being.

Related to why that first hiatus started, I finally got myself a therapist and am also now properly medicated for my ADHD again so I'm able to focus for the first time in ages. But I've been far too focused on IRL stuff to work on any of my projects.

I have atleast been trying to be better at relaxing and not over working myself, neither with my projects nor from DD. (The reason I stopped working on anything in March may or may not be related to the fact that I accidentally burned myself out again... oops.)

Speaking of IRL(ish), back in March I caught myself calling myself by something and a few weeks later decided to start testing it out with friends, about a month ago I decided I'm gonna stick with it for real and started the process to get my name changed!

Unrelated to any of that, for a while I've been watching some shows with friends in a server. We'd have some long running show going once a week (we finished Adventure Time towards the beginning of the year, started DragonBall, around Sep/Oct finished it up and moved onto Z) and people were open to watch some shorter shows whenever.

Back in May, the show that my friend Mizzy decided to share was Madoka Magica, and over those 4 weeks of slowly watching threw this show, I unlocked an ancient love for this series including 2 OCs I had completely and utterly forgotten about. (I need to write down these girls' story at some point, would be a good excuse to try and start drawing again too.)

In the midst of finishing Madoka, my family came back to town for a Con and while here my older sister decided to watch Dungeon Meshi with me and our 2 younger siblings.

After finishing both shows, I needed to watch more...

I decided to go looking to see what anime I had been putting off that could be accessed easily and found that Bocchi the Rock was completely free on Crunchyroll and ended up bingeing the whole show.

Next was Frieren... which I caved and subbed to CR when I realized only the first 3 EN episodes were free (which I had already watched) and I needed more.

I remembered a show that an anime YouTuber I watch recommended earlier in the year so I went to check it out. It was interesting, wouldn't recommended it to anyone without a million caveats tho. (No I won't share it's name, if you already know then you know.)

Around this point was the beginning of the new anime season and I ended up getting into Mayonaka Punch and VTuber Legend at around episode 3, keeping up with them as they aired. (I think the last time I was keeping up with anime live was early pandemic when I was still watching MHA before I dropped it because I was bored.)

I desperately needed to find people who were talking about these shows because the conversation was essentially dead back on twitter, and thus, I got dragged back into using this godforsaken site consistently again for the first time in ages. (The tag system is just so good at keeping track of things and doesn't actively take up space in a post like on twitter, it's perfect for fandom)

It is now too late, I've gotten back into anime/manga. There is no going back.

...

This was supposed to be a retrospective wasn't it?

Like 2/3 of it is anime talk

Fuck

There's gonna be so much shit I need to cut for the bluesky version, fuck

......

Anyway

Future Plans! Resolutions!!! BOASTING!!!!!!

I WILL FINISH MY LOWPOLY 3D MODEL!!!!!!

I have so many cool VTubing mutuals I want to get to know more and possibly be friends with. I will attempt to reach out to people more (crippling social anxiety be damned)

By July I want to be back to streaming atleast once a week and keep it up for atleast 3 months.

I want to stop just being an observer on the sidelines like I have been for ages. I will make something! Wether it be,

Editing down my voice work from the ISaT streams or doing some more voice work for some other characters I think might be fun,

Writing out either my VTubing lore, my pmmm OCs info and story, the Frieren OC I ended up creating after finishing the show, or something related to ancient AU ideas for random fandoms I used to be active on the sidelines of eons ago,

Attempt to start drawing again,

Or even write, script, and edit at least one single video!

...I can't think of anything else... welp time to schedule this and pass the fuck out. I'll figure out how I'll chop this up for bluesky after I'm done working.

#Frin Speaks

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pumpkin-spike18 · 8 months ago

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✨Weekly Progress 2024 #22-23✨

#22 would've come out last week if I didn't forget my planner when I packed for traveling.

Weekly Progress #22

Updated tumblr tags

Thumbnailed, sketched, refined sketched, lined, and finished [fan project #2] illustration

Submitted forms for [fan projects]

Made work plans for P-M and SFB

Basic o2a2 outline

Fixed SYVNH bug

Generated sprite pieces for P-M and SFB

Fleshed out o2a2 outline

Weekly Progress #23

Coded P-M sprites

Updated itch page images

Made new BWBOK schedule

Copied P-M script into Renpy

Scripted P-M s1-s3

Answered BWBOK comments

Drafted [fan project] posts

Designed P-M GUI

Wrote 100+ words for SFB

A Sky of Falling Birds

As I mentioned before, SFB is my next big project, which I plan to submit for BAF VN Jam. That's... 7/1.

It's okay, I still got... 20 days.

There's a lot of work left to do and not much to show off at the moment.

Pre-Make

Or Pre 🕰 Make (P-M), I haven't completely decided on how to advertise the title yet. It's a "small" project that I came up with back in 2020 and still haven't finished. I thought I'd dedicate a few days' time to it and see how far I'd get. There's still a bit of work to do, but much of it is done.

The art's quite old and the story telling was the original test I did for SYVNH's looping mechanism so it won't be anything novel. The screenshot above is from this game. If he looks a little familiar, don't worry. That's not your imagination.

The Beauty Which Only Beast Knows

My other big focus for this month, we're hoping to finish it for Otome Jam... which also ends 7/1. I've a loose schedule for achieving that, but the team's health is the top priority so we're playing it by ear. It may take a little longer to finish up.

Other!

O2A2: Because I couldn't sit still!! I started planning for O2A2 2024! It'll be another entry into the kill series, but I hope to include some point and click elements to it. Last year I finished 9 VN projects, something I don't want to do again-- but!! I don't want to only finish one project this year!! I've been skipping and fomo-ing all the jams in the first half of the year. Well, no more! I'm going to get some work done this summer!!

Fan Projects: I don't think I need to keep my involvement in fan projects a secret anymore! I took part in the D. Gray Man 20th Anniversary Project, which we actually started work on late last year! I also took part in the Narumitsu Big Bang 2024 event, which... also started work late last year 🤔 Huh, I was really busy back then. Maybe that'll teach me to sign up for too many fan events... (😂 no ofc not!)

Misc: I finished some tedious updating work that I promised myself to do a while back. I'll admit I make my blog easiest for me to navigate, first and foremost. But if there's something that's bothering you, or have an idea to make navigation better, feel free to let me know through an ask! I also updated all of my itch io pages' images. They were originally linked from discord, which changed its policy and broke all direct image links. Thankfully, I had everything labeled in a private server so I could easily retrieve and reupload to update the pages. Yes, I should've done that long ago. And I'm sorry I just... didn't;;

#visual novel #vnlink #devlog #vndev #sfb #bwbok #kill series

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acromandus · 1 year ago

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Finally getting around to doing this! Thank you @thelifeinmyshadesofgrey for tagging me ♥♥♥♥♥ I haven't done these in ages so it was fun to feel like we were back in the 'golden era' of tumblr xD

Tag someone you want to know AND/OR some of your besties: I don't wanna pressure anyone to have to do this, so consider this a warm suggestion rather than a I-will-judge-you-if-you-don't kind of situation @heyitszev :) (and if anyone else reading this feels like it, go ahead, the more the merrier lmao)

Favourite colour: This is a tough one because it all just depends on context so much. I'd say typically I veer more towards darker tones in general: really like a nice dark green, or a dark red or crimson. Purple is lovely too :D

Last song: Two Knights and Maidens by Crash Test Dummies https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5NS2EcHzdYY

Say what you want about the lyrics, but the chord progression in this song is *chefs kiss*

Last movie: 9. A bit of a strange one perhaps, but an interesting take on a post-apocalyptic world brought to life in a style that reminds me of Tim Burton a little bit. Basically, the world has been destroyed in a war between humans and machines, and we're introduced to a group of sentient dolls, each with a number on their backs from 1 to 9, who have had to survive in this strange new world while figuring out why they were made in the first place. I don't wanna spoil this for anyone who hasn't seen it, so I'll leave it at that :)

Currently watching: I'm in-between series atm haha. Waiting for season 4 of the Boys, and just finished watching season 2 of 30 Coins. Might just do a rewatch of Andor or the Punisher to fill this void.

Other stuff I watched this year: Err… from what I remember (and yes, since we're only in January, I'm counting 2023 into this as well) I'd say Moon Knight, Andor, 30 coins, a rewatch of Supernatural (up to season 12), and the One Piece live action series. Out of all these Andor was perhaps my favourite, but I enjoyed all of them, and was pleasantly surprised at how well the One Piece adaptation remained loyal to the original works :D they obviously had to adjust some things but it still felt true to form. With Andor, I was hesitant to watch it at first because the last SW series I had watched had been declining in quality (weird writing, etc), however… Andor completely blew me away. The way it builds up to the climax was just so well done, the writing is superb, music fantastic, and it's one of those series I wish I could forget about completely so I could experience it for the first time again.

Shows I dropped this year/didn’t finish: I haven't watched many series I've not finished since I usually watch them to the end anyway, but looks like that new Percy Jackson series may unfortunately fall into this category?

Currently reading: I've been powering through the Harry Potter books. Started during the Christams holidays and I'm now on book 6. So far so good, though I've had to slow down with holidays being over. Might need to reread the Robert Langdon series as well after this as it's still one of my personal favourites.

Currently listening to: This changes daily but I do find myself drifting back to Riot music very often. So, that's music made for League of Legends, Valorant, etc. Not the soundtracks, but songs like Worlds anthems like "GODS" (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3GouGa0noM) and 2021's "Burn It All Down" (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Z6CHioIn3s). I also absolutely love "Breathe" from the official launch video for Legends of Runeterra (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNhKAJwlj04). I also like this vid for it heavily featuring Darius, the only champ I ever played when I attempted to get into LoL before the toxicity got to me and I decided it's not for me :3 (didn't take long, but left me with a bit of a soft spot for him lmao)

I absolutely do not play any of these games but man… the music is on point imo. Something again about chord progression, don't ask what my obsession with that is lmao.

If I'm not listening to these and songs like them, I'm listening to heavy metal (industrial or symphonic), movie or game soundtacks, or oldies belonging to various genres from the 70s and 80s, occasionally 90s as well. Here's a couple examples:

Once You've Tasted Love by Take That

Take the Long Way Home by Supertramp

Evil Woman by Electric Light Orchestra

Misplaced by Sonata Arctica

And I will leave it at that as I've already included too many songs lmao

Currently working on: I'm currently making a backend for a gym app I'm working on. I somehow got the GraphQL elements working, now I need to get it saving to a database of somekind. I could do this locally or learn to save data to the cloud but I haven't yet decided which approach to take lmao. Overall, I'm just upskilling in the hopes of eventually landing a job as a full-stack developer. NO LUCK SO FAR aside a couple freelance frontend opportunities :/

Current obsession: Hmm….. good question. I'd say, despite me not playing it as much as I used to, I am slowly getting back to Elder Scrolls Online? Fire Emblem Fates is another, as well as Bleach.

#personal #i can't help that my tastes are very eclectic #i like so many things it might even be easier to point out things I don't like #but where's the fun in that :)

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pippenpaddlopsicopolisthethird · 3 years ago

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Watching the new @staff and @changes on tumblr who actually listen and respond to their userbase is so bizarre to see, because I feel like I've come full circle on the site.

I joined 10ish years ago (shortly post-Reichenbach, if that dates me) and that time was still solidly in the era of David Karp. Staff communicated but were overall seen as lovingly incompetent. Everyone used Missing E to fix all the problems, and then Xkit when Missing E stopped working, but nobody thought twice about it. We mostly just joked about how often they fiddled with the shade of background blue.

I remember the sale to Yahoo, and how it took a while to notice, but the site kind of just got worse. We got ads, which everyone hated. Changes were passed down from above with little to no fanfare. But staff was still there and making some effort to reach out to users; we got some of the best April Fools jokes in that era, like Coppy and Decision 2016 that showed that someone in there knew what users liked. Features like direct messaging and rebloggable asks and stacked posts were still coming through, even if the communication with users was opaque. Bots invaded every inch of the site. And then we got the porn ban, which snapped the site like a twig.

After Verizon bought tumblr, there were a few years where staff almost seemed to vanish, or did their best to hide what they were doing. I can't even remember the last few years of April Fools jokes, if they happened at all. Ads got bigger. Changes just happened and there was no way to tell if it was intentional or glitches. If they were intentional, they seemed almost malicious. Users started talking about shadowbans and tags getting wiped out and some posts not showing up in tags or searches and user deletions happening behind the scenes. Bots got worse and worse and less was done about them. If anything went wrong, there was no confidence that reaching out to support would do a thing. Staff was spoken about in posts with the same tone as Bezos or Google, just another tech giant slowly making our lives worse for the sake of squeezing another buck out of us and then selling us to the highest bidder. If nothing else, we could be proud of squeezing the resale value out of the site for them.

I don't know exactly what happened over the last year, if it was because of the sale to Automattic or other internal changes. But all of a sudden, staff started talking to us again. And we didn't fuckin trust em an inch, and rightly so. Changes got rolled out again, and we started complaining again, because we may have no power to make any web experience better so the least we can do is go down complaining.

But the things they started changing were... stuff we wanted? We got tag viewers, timestamps, dash customization, filtering that actually worked. Most new features get toggles so you can turn it off if you don't want it. Huh, we thought, that doesn't seem right. Ideas flopped like Post+, and god did we complain. But after we did... the features... changed? Staff started testing out the ideas that the users endorsed? Like tipping posts on a per-post basis to avoid copyright issues with fanworks and an ad-free subscription model? Huh, we said.

And the final nail in the coffin was that new iOS tag-copying "feature" that we all complained about to no end... that was actually a glitch. Not some coder's whim that got passed down and we just had to deal with it forever. Sorry, staff said, we'll get that fixed right away.

Huh, we said. Huh.

Aside from being an unexpected change for tumblr, it's making me realize how weird it feels in the internet as a whole to have some transparency and communication between site developers and the userbase. When I joined tumblr, forum culture and the heyday of the early creator-run internet were fresh memories. Staff who posted like users were common, and popular demand was the actual goal of web design. But now there is no social media where the developers speak directly to the users and incorporate real feedback into the changes they make. Algorithms drive everything, moderation happens silently, and it's impossible to tell what a human has laid eyes on. Decisions are made based on what can get the most eyes on sponsored ads and drive clicks. Social media is now Big Tech, driven by Big Money Decisions and ad space.

Having a staff who talks and listens to the userbase is a direct return to tumblr's roots and also the most jarring and noticeable jump back to Classic Internet that the rest of social media has long since abandoned.

#my posts #i get to reminisce they give you that right once you've been here 5 years or more

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pynkhues · 3 years ago

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Logan needs to be put in the bin but the 'kick anything he loves' thing is driving me insane from a psych perspective. Where's that coming from? Did he feel so abandoned by in childhood/youth that he constantly feels the need to test that people love him unconditionally/wont leave him? Is this Rose's influence again? If its based around the whole Rose thing, is that why he does it so often to Kendall particularly? We need a Rose Roy AMA immediately.

That line from Caroline felt like it kicked me in the chest, anon!! It was awful, but so poignant and really cut to the heart of Logan's abuse. To have that scene so promptly followed by the one with Logan and Kendall was gutting generally, but to have Kendall try and take the out Logan was forcing him to only to have the leash firmly pulled tight again - - it's no wonder 3.08 ended the way it did. Logan wants Kendall to feel punished and unwanted, but he doesn't ever want him gone. I said it in tags I think on the day of the ep, but it's like he wants to lock him out of the house but make sure he stays in the backyard, pawing at the door.

It's awful, but man, if Brian and Jeremy didn't sell it. This show handles abuse so deftly most of the time, but that scene I think is one of the season's if not the series' best.

(This got a little long, so I'm putting it under a cut, haha).

But yes! I'm inclined to think a lot of Logan's feelings around fatherhood and relationships have been shaped by his upbringing. We simultaneously know so much and nothing at all, so it's sort of hard to know the exacts of any of it, but we know Ewan, Logan and Rose were sent to live with their Uncle and his wife in Canada when they were very young because their widowed mother couldn't look after them, and that they never saw her again. We know that Noah ran the print shop that Logan took over and turned into Waystar Royco, and we know that Noah was extremely physically abusive given the scars on Logan's back. We know Rose died, and that Logan blames himself (but, interestingly, that Ewan doesn't blame him), and that he married Connor's mother and had Connor in his mid-twenties, before having the golden trio in his forties, and getting at least full custody of the latter.

We also know, of course, that Connor's mother had some sort of mental illness. I talked about it a bit in this post before the last episode aired, but I'm actually more inclined than ever to think that Logan took full custody of Connor when his mother was institutionalised. Knowing now that he did of the golden trio after his and Caroline's divorce really strengthens that for me (it totally features into that sense of how possessive Logan is of all four of them), and in a lot of ways Caroline inviting Connor to her wedding feels like it bolsters that a bit too. If he'd been living with Caroline and his dad from the time he was fourteen or fifteen, or gosh, maybe even younger, Caroline would likely have enough connection to him to invite him, even if it was just for show.

I'm doubly fascinated by the podcast mention in 3.08 too – a show pitched at looking at the tragedies surrounding the Roy's, and as Comfrey said, it's set to cover Connor's mother, Logan and Rose, the tabloid suicides that Frank mentioned in 3.01 (which I'm also fascinated about) and Andrew, the cater waiter Kendall accidentally killed.

That doesn't tell us a lot, but I think it does tell us whatever happened to Connor's mother and Rose is tragic, and I've made the argument before that I think Rose might have had mental health issues and commit suicide (which I think could've been why Logan ended up with perhaps a similar woman in Connor's mother and married and had a son so young), but again, this is all just speculation.

But yes! More to the point of your ask, haha, I do think Logan's behaviour is tied to his own abuse. Jesse Armstrong talks a lot about how this show is primarily about generational trauma, and a key part of that is the spectre of Logan's unmanaged pain. He's perpetrator, survivor and victim, all rolled into one, and I think a lot of that is manifested in the analogy Caroline used. Logan obviously kept going back to his uncle in a way Ewan didn't – Ewan served in Vietnam after all, while Logan stayed at the print shop – and I wonder how much that compounded this attitude that abuse is a form of love.

How we're trained to receive love is, after all, at the heart of the series too. While it happens throughout, I don't think it's ever been clearer than in Kendall's fixation with Sophie Iwobi in 3.03. She was insulting him in increasingly humiliating ways, and he was convinced she loved him, because that's what Kendall's been brought up to believe love looks like.

For Logan, his first understanding of what family was was in abandonment – a dead father, a mother who sent them away and never saw them again, an older brother who went to war, a dead sister – which makes me inclined to believe that Noah was probably the first person Logan had in his life who stayed. To have that first formative experience of stability intrinsically tied to violence and abuse is a monstrous sort of love that I think Logan probably internalised to survive. How that manifested then with testing everyone he loves to see if they have the strength and the 'love' themselves to stay too – the strength and love Logan had to have for Noah, later immortalised and objectified in the family business – is unspeakably traumatic.

Add to that Logan's ego and temper and neediness and the horrible, deep, broken love he has for his children, and you just get a world on fire.

In that sense, I do think Rose always factors in, but I think she particularly factors in as a part of why Logan's so possessive of them, and is so afraid of losing them. I talked about it a lot in this post (which you might have read already given your ask, haha), but I think Logan's reaction in 2.04 to Kendall being missing after the gunshot and the glass being put up at the end of the ep was so loaded and not a side of him we often see at all. He knew how vulnerable Kendall was, and Logan's coddling of him in those moments of s2 - - I don't know. I do tend to tie them to Logan having experienced something similar with Rose, and having the show mention her in 3.08 as a part of the Roy family tragedies definitely bolsters that argument for me too.

It's such a rich topic to discuss! Logan's awful, but man, I love him as a character. He's so, so compelling.

#i could talk about the generational trauma in this family all day!!#i have an ask about logan's different relationships with each of his children and i want to answer that this week too #because it is also a topic i'm obsessed with #the show does such a great job of making them so similar but SO different too #logan roy #rose roy #kendall roy #caroline collingwood #kendall + logan #logan + rose #hbo succession #succession 3.08 #succession 3.03 #welcome to my ama #succession meta

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athyathye · 4 years ago

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Mutiny

Mikey/ Manjirou Sano one shot

Tags : Royalty! Au, one-shot, angst, 5k+ words

Trigger warnings ⚠️: mentions of war, death and others, random use of archaic words and ooc! Mikey, very fast paced, violence curse words, and more.

Royal!Reader, Noble/Anarchist!Mikey

Author's note : Thank you for 500+ followers!!! So glad to be able to reach this far! I'm truly thankful for each and every one of you! As a bonus I'll post a follow-up fic later. Probably at night time. But ince again thank youuuuu~!!! Please continue to support me! Also this is very fast paced because I didn't think you guys want an 11k fic again lol

Here's the follow up fic

It seems far-fetched to believe that we could just be dreaming.

Or are being deceived

by an all-powerful demon-like human

I rely on my senses at every step of the way.

But why is it that not once have I thought about how you might be my fathers’ and consequently, my enemy as well.

Might it be the way you blinded this fool as well as yourself?

Or tell me, Did you purposely become a fool like me? Ignoring the innumerable flags that showed you the possible- no, the inevitable end that waited for both of us?

It is hard to fathom the new way of thinking you brought to me, which is constantly put to the test of critical thinking. If we could not trust the world then the senses are our only window onto the success.

One thing is for sure though, It is not the job of the senses to teach us how the world works.

“It is beyond my control.” Mikey spoke to the ever benevolent king.

“I will take that as an insult to yourself and impudent behavior towards a king. Is that your final answer? Then, I will take it as you are threatening the crown.” Your father spoke as he sat on his throne in all his glory. Gold-studded rings on every finger in his hand covered his mouth.

“Take it as you please, whether you find my words discourteous, or if you consider them to be a start of a rebellion,” His voice was cut, clear and concise, so rough that it had people inside the hall to burst into gasps of disbelief and rage.

“It is no longer my problem.” He looked directly into the king’s eyes, evident in his eyes the hate and disdain he held towards them.

“You! You lit-” The king started, only to be cut off by the sound of a sword leaving it’s sheath. Followed by numerous metal clanking sounds.

“It is us today, but it will be you tomorrow.” Was his last vicious words as he swung his own sword through the endless number of weapons directed at him.

Leaving the courtroom with a final look, scoffing through the faces of power-loving nobles.

‘I wasted time, and now doth time wastes me.’ He shook his head as he hurried towards the place which was filled with his people, his companions.

He could still remember the last words of his fellow friend, That had died protecting those cowardly nobles from the angry mobs of their own citizens. Even if he didn’t want to.

“Kill a man, and you're labeled as a murderer. Kill millions of men, and you're a conqueror. Kill them all, Mikey and you'll become a King of your own kind.”

His words that were filled with contempt and spite, he was the first person to introduce Mikey to the corrupt ways that nobles had operated.

The first person to show him another world, another side of people, another family, Kazutora showed him his future in those moments.

Was that the start of his thoughts towards rebellion? Probably not, but did it further his will to abolish the ruling system? …

As he was on his way, walking through the seemingly endless woods and leaves of the forest he was venturing, he stumbled upon a maiden, so beatiful and so bright she had to be someone of a high status. But with the clothes she wore, she looked no more than that of a runaway slave.

Her hands and feet were dirty from the soil she had walked through, but still, she stood with a smile on her face as she watched the scenery around her with a jovial mood.

She looked happy and content, a world Mikey knew he shouldn’t hope for. He turned to leave, Hoping to not drag unnecessary situations with him, walking as quietly as ever. He probably walked at least a 5 minute distance when he felt something in his body to tell him to turn back.

He wasn’t sure what it was, but he was never one to ignore his intuition, not when it had saved him and his comrades numerous times in the past.

Running back towards where he saw the young maiden, there he saw her on the cold ground, nothing to prove she was conscious but the constant yet slow rise of her chest showed that she was still alive.

But who knew how long those short breaths would last. Mikey contemplated what to do. After all, if he brought home a random stranger who knows what she could be up to or was involved with.

Mikey looked around, hoping for a good samaritan to suddenly appear and take the issue from him, but alas none had come.

“What luck” He sighed, the little amount of goodness left in his heart had won him over.

He hovered above your unconscious body, kneeling down on one knee as he brushed your hair that had covered your face.

Your face had him enticed. You looked like you had not seen a strip of sunlight, not in a way to be described as pale, but in a way that had your original skin color lose it’s complexion.

But looking towards your body, he had noticed no scars, no blemishes, nothing. It was like you were hidden from the rest of the world, maybe that would explain why you looked so excited to look at a mere tree earlier.

He said nothing as the goodness in him overpowered and carried you bridal style, walking towards his original location.

“Mikey!!” a voice shouted, along with less than a dozen pairs of eyes looking at his figure.

They looked at him with apprehension.

“My lord- wha-” Mitsuya, one of their commanding officers had stuttered, as far as they knew their leader wasn’t one to just pick up a random stranger. He was calm, calculating but wild on the battlefield.

“I did not know what else I could do.” He spoke bluntly, your limp figure further slouching in his arms.

Draken walked over to him, taking a look towards the girl, at her disposition.

“I haven’t got the faintest idea of her identity, How certain are you that this woman isn’t from an enemy fleet?” He asked, reaching over to take him off your hands and to a much more comfortable place.

Mikey passed your body to him as he undressed the fairly hard uniform and untied the cape with the royal family’s emblem off of his shoulders.

“I, as well, haven’t got a single clue.” He spoke as he looked over to the rest of them that shared conflicting gazes.

“That lady had already fainted when I reached her, And I took her with me for a reason I have yet to discover” He said to the group in front of him.

They looked at each other for a few moments, deciding on whether or not the mysterious woman would stay in their area or leave her somewhere, preferably on a trusted villager...

“Though our actions may be considered as dastardly, I suppose” Chifuyu spoke in retaliation to Baji’s statement of leaving you in a remote place.

“To hell with that! We have masses of other activities we must conclude.” Baji shouted in frustration as he banged his fist on the table.

A few hours had passed, and they decided to focus on their own mission, one so important they could not let a single hindrance distract them.

That was when they heard the sound of stumbling.

Draken looked at the rest of the group who had become quiet and went on his way to see the hopefully conscious woman.

Meanwhile you looked at your surroundings, it was without a doubt an unfamiliar place, you sat up, looking around once more before it sunk in your mind.

You stumbled down from the bed as your heartbeat sped up. You held your chest as you felt the familiar feeling of it twisting before you heard the approaching footsteps of a person.

You dashed toward the corner of the room as you curled up into a ball. You heard the familiar sound of a door open, you did not look up as you felt someone approach you.

“Hm?” They hummed obviously confused but not wanting to scare you any more.

You tensed up as you slowed your breathing, your senses going haywire at the unfamiliar situation.

“Lady, thou must keep calm, I will not bring you displeasure.” He spoke calmly in hopes of letting you know he meant no harm.

Then, only did you raise your head just a tiny bit, showcasing your teary eyed and pathetic figure.

“Our leader had brought you here of his own accord, please do not misunderstand” He raised both of his hands, to show you that he truly meant no harm.

But you were far from trusting him, as you should, “The excuse that thou made in this delay is not longer than the tale thou excuse” You spoke with a warning tone but your voice still trembled.

“Thou seemed to be not well, Had it not been for that reason, we wouldn't has't to beest in this predicament.” He replied to your suspicion.

You looked at him, anxiety evident in your features but you soon relaxed seeing the genuine look in the man’s eyes.

“I- I will trust thee then” you looked up at him which made him wonder just what could’ve been your life before this as you seemed to be lacking basic common sense, why would you trust him exactly.

He watched as your tense body began to relax, then sighed as he went to inform Mikey about your now serene state.

You thought back to what you had done in the past few days, remembering how you escaped from your palace with nothing but a maid assisting you, but that maid soon abandoned you in the middle of the woods with nothing more than the disguise she gave you.

It was getting hectic for you anyway, the constant eyes on you, the overbearing maids and knights that your father appointed, it was hard to even take a single breath.

People often think the acquisition that wealth brings power, inclines us to infer that the wealthier we are, the more powerful and better off we will be.

But experience taught you that the acquisition of wealth breeds resentment and insecurity, which causes us to change our assessment and tempers our acquisitive dispositions.

Just once, you wanted to see the world in a way you knew you could never explain, In a way you knew you could never forget.

Yes, it seems as though those runaway princess novels that were so incredibly naive also motivated you to do the same, except you chose only to do it for one night.

Bearing any consequences that may concur after that night.

Before the time your father could sell your life away, you had decided that just for maybe a night, you wanted to be at a place where no one could invalidate your freedom.

But now here you were, the people who were tasked to take care of you would be in a state of chaos right about now back at your place, you just had to smile at the thought.

That was the same time Mikey had entered, he looked at you, being bathed by the sunlight coming from the window with a sweet smile on your face.

Mikey had to admit, you were truly captivating, he had never seen someone as bright and innocent looking as this.

The way you could smile at your situation and the way you could still hold yourself well was all too interesting for Mikey.

He stared at you with calculating eyes, wondering just what you could smile about right now, His mind drifted to numerous conclusions, one idea more plausible than the other.

Then his eyes met yours, the smile wiped away from your face as you observed him.

“Kind sir, I thank you for your benevolence” You stood up, bowing to him, like the thousands of times you had done.

‘Suspicious’ He thought. But still, it was too early to make assumptions so he just took note of your behavior.

“Tis not matter” He spoke curtly as he held his hand out to you, “Pleasure to meet you, I am Mikey Sano”

You placed your hand in his as he kissed the back of it, though you were already used to that greeting it did not stop you from blushing from embarrassment as your hand had been dirty.

You didn't reply to his introduction, so he took matters on his own hands and tried to smooth out your concerns with a question.

“May I ask for the reason wherefore i hath found thee dwelling around somewhere thee hath seemed not to be familiar with” He carefully asked, observing your facial expression and behavior.

“Ah, well. You see-” Now the way you talked seemed more comfortable, not like those uptight nobles or overly respectful people he met along his path.

Though he was no idiot, he could see your twitching fingers, the way you looked upwards, avoiding to make eye contact.

And the fact that you had not spoken a single thing about yourself.

“If you are not yet comfortable telling me, I will not pry.” he placed his hand above his chest, changing the way he spoke.

“Please feel comfortable, we will allow you to leave whenever, but please allow us to nurse you back to health.” He spoke with no hesitance.

‘How kind’ You thought as you glanced at him with your bright and sparkling eyes. Truly touched by his words and their kindness as a whole.

"I do not wish to intrude...but I also have to repay your kindness." You spoke as you placed both of your hands on your knees

"Like I said, please think nothing of it, anybody would have done the same" He smiled at you…but it felt different.

You shook it off as you gave him a bright smile, one that differed from your usual smile. You could only hope it reached him as he turned his back from you and left.

Meanwhile Mikey was intrigued. What was it with you? He couldn't understand, you spoke so eloquently to Draken but quite informal to him, yes he heard your conversation before Draken had called him in.

But the fact that bothered him was that you had not old anything about you, who you were associated with, how old were you and why were you stumbling around in the woods.

You looked as if you had been taken care of your whole life like you were a precious jewel, but that jewel was hidden, never to be used, kept safe in a drawer that never saw sunlight.

He closed his eyes as he breathed through his mouth "Shinichiro tell me what I must do" he leaned his head against a wall.

He was conflicted about everything now, should he continue his plan? Or should he make sure none of his people get put in harm's way….after all, war is war.

It was a battlefield where everybody gets hurt, weak or strong, woman or child. Everybody does, and he's no hero who could save the day.

He was just a broken man, having had enough of those at the top abusing the people at the bottom.

In the few days you had stayed in their "home", you had managed to weasel your way to their graces.

Like other noble children, you had access to top-tier quality education, therefore what they thought you couldn’t understand...you could.

But you spoke nothing, letting them think whatever they came to.

"You look to be in a state of disarray, my lord" you spoke to Mikey as he entered the sparring area looking quite roughed up.

"I'm feeling quite agitated is all" was all he spoke before he grabbed a sword and started uncontrollably slashing at a wooden pell.

You flinched every time he took a swing, you could just feel the anger radiating off of every hit.

"M-my lord...the wooden dummy does not deserve your anger directed at it" you spoke with hesitance.

"It can take it." He replied curtly once more, raising up his sword to create more slashes to appease his obvious pent up aggression.

He continued his assault towards the beam as he heaved.

"Are you perhaps feeling stressed, my lord? I know a good way to help you… that is if you'd let me." You brushed your hair back as you looked towards him.

"Why do you call me with such a title? Surely you don't know who I am so why is there a need to call me so respectfully." He turned towards you, sweat on his face after practically abusing his practice dummy.

"I don't know who you are, surely that is enough reason to be respectful." You unconsciously crossed your arms in front of you, putting one hand above the other.

Mikey saw this, but decided to let it go for now.

"I, as well, don't know a thing about you, All I know...is that you seem to dream of freedom. I understand what that feels like." Recalling the way you had been so happy to see things back in the forest. It was all too easy for him to piece it out.

"Well we have a lot of time to figure each other out don't we Sir?" You grinned at him as you put both hands now behind you and tilted your head with a smile.

'A smile so carefree and genuine' Mikey couldn't remember the last time he smiled like that. Surely it was a long time ago, back when he wasn't swallowed by his own dark impulsivity.

He wondered if he could one day smile as purely as you once more, he hoped he could plaster that kind of smile on his friends, that would truly be a sight.

But alas, you were wrong. There was not much time at all.

The sound of swords clashing against each other, gunshots and the agonizing cries of each person on the battlefield was heard.

Mikey watched with squinted eyes to keep himself from tearing up as the chaos unfolded, how did this happen, how could he let it happen.

He watched as one of his people got struck in the chest, another falling on his knees as he vomited blood while crying out someone's name.

He didn't know, he should've known, As their leader he should've been more careful. But he wasn't.

That was his biggest mistake that led to his fall, years of planning and enduring gone to waste.

But how was it that he didn't feel any disdain towards you?

"Save the princess!!" "You evil b*stards!"

He could hear the knights shout, how pitiful. A single woman, a single mistake had managed to cost such destruction.

He looked towards the left, hearing his friends call out to him as well as the people whom he managed.

He wordlessly let them push him away, drag him to a carriage so they could escape, leaving the other people to fight those armored savages.

"It's not your fault Mikey" "You didn't know"

He let the words flow through one ear and out the other. He didn't need that kind of comfort right now. No, he couldn’t hear them right now.

He let his eyes wander outside of the hidden carriage to see the reason for the battle.

He watched as you were carried on a soldier's shoulder.

Why were you crying? Did you have the right even when he couldn’t? It was only at that moment he felt anger towards you.

But it diminished when he locked eyes with you. Mouthing 'I'm sorry's' at him, your hands interlocked as you brought it to your lips to help muffle your loud cries.

He could feel his heart break at the sight of grief, guilt and everything else in your eyes. You were always an open book.

But could he forgive you? How sure was he that you didn't plan this?

He looked away from you as he focused his vision in front. Dead and emotionless empty eyes looking as tired as ever. He let them close as he felt like he was about to blow up from the thinking he was doing.

For a woman he didn't feel any connections with, it was truly a wonder why he could still see you in a light, though was it a positive or negative light?

It was a mess, a mess he didn’t know if he could fix or contribute to the mess.

You never expected this to happen, you didn't mean for this to happen. But it has already been done and you can do no more than regret it.

Maybe it was your naiveness that got you into trouble or maybe it was longing, whichever came first.

You felt incredible guilt inside you, gnawing at your every action and plaguing your mind every second of the day.

You looked in front of you from the tower you had been locked into, a probation of 3 months without contact with the rest of the outside world was your punishment.

The only way to reclaim your life now was by marriage, you still had to be chained to someone in order to last.

The few days you had been in here were used to make you rethink all of your recent decisions, you couldn’t do anything else but blame yourself.

"A fair fitting of a punishment for an idiotic princess" you thought as you teared up from the thought of being locked up once more.

You vowed to yourself that maybe one day, you could break free from the tyranny that was your father and the other nobles.

“I know I have but the body of a weak and feeble woman, the mind of a manipulative yet stupid child but I know for a fact I have the heart and courage of a true king…”

Then the unexpected happened. You heard noises, far too loud to be some minor action.

You ran to the source, seeing as the only way for a person to enter was through the door which was locked with the empire’s best locksmiths that not even a person with a numerous amount of brute strength could open it.

That was why you ran towards the only window the tower was equipped with, seeing the person you least expected.

“M-my lord…” you gasped, watching as he hurled his trembling body over it. Then you ran towards him, grabbing a random flat object to fan him with.

“W-why...why are you here? D-do you wish to take revenge?” You hesitatingly asked, eyeing the sword sheathed on his waistline.

“Nonsense, I am not the type to hit people when they are weakest” Mikey said as he looked around. Wondering just where to start.

“T-then” Your trembling did not subside, in fact it got even worse when you saw him posture himself in a better position.

“ ‘There will always be a reason you meet people. Either you will change their lives or they will change yours.’ That was what my brother used to say to me when I was a boy no older than two digits.” He said as he glanced at you, “I’m curious as to what your reason was when you betrayed us. Did you plan it from the beginning?” He asked with no emotion on his face.

The atmosphere became tense as you watched him with wide eyes, you expected that coming, after all you caused the destruction of their place when they did nothing but provide you with care.

“I… I did not mean to cause such a situation, My lord” You started before getting interrupted by Mikey’s scoff.

“Do you expect me to believe that? Her royal highness?” He spoke his tone laced with malice and contempt.

“Surely, you were there as a spy, of course you were, The king was already on my trail the moment I announced my hatred for him.” He accused you as you looked at him with a teary expression.

“....why do you address me that way, My lord” You asked, not yet ready to answer him as you formulated your next words before you heard him speak.

"I now know who you are, surely that is enough reason to be respectful." He spitefully replied.

"And surely you know of me now as well, one of those few people with a noble title...but no territory" He spoke as he scoffed at his own self, feeling the taste of unfairness greet his tongue

"My lord, that is not the case at a-" you spoke before getting interrupted by him once more.

“....If only I could talk to myself the day I met you...so I can tell myself what I should have done...I had all and then some and now none.” He said as he raised his hand towards his face.

“I never intended to be the cause of your downfall...I….I especially admired you because it seemed like you were the definition of free….that was all I wanted since the beginning.” You spoke, looking down on the ground as you clenched your dress.

“Funny, I believed that was you as well at first. That you had managed to successfully run away from your owners.” He recalled the first time he met you, wearing such a ragged dress, no one would believe him if he said he found the princess of a powerful empire like that except his friends who had seen you that way as well.

“ah….Was I blaming you too much?....You see, I was a mistake of nature, A wild beast...I have no excuses for what I have done.” He spoke as he bowed his head towards you.

“The way they lived, the way those at the bottom continue to get abused I hated it, And so I thought a rebellion could be the one to stop such treatment. I guess I was bound to fail with my ambitions tainted with vileness” He spoke his honest thoughts, the real reason behind his plans.

“My lord...the way you are acting right now….makes it seem like you have been in the wrong.” Tears streamed down your face as you fell to your knees in front of his kneeling dogeza form.

“I- I am the most selfish person I know. I tried to escape for one night, then it turned into days. My lord, why do you feel bad about being righteous? I abandoned my duties, I abandoned my people… who knows what I could have done in that one night…” He looked up to see your agonizing smiling figure, nowhere was the smile he had adored seen.

“My treachery does not end there...If I could...I’d do it all once more, because every second I spent outside, I treasured it, along with the interactions I had with your group...so please” You spoke desperately. Looking at him with a sincere gaze.

“Do not make the same mistake as I did, Do not be trapped in such a world, live for yourself. It is highly selfish but, to the commoners you are a hero, but you will be nothing more to them than their hero, they won’t care about you once you are no longer their hero.

….But to me...you are my salvation”

True to your words you really did consider him as your savior, he was the one to help you back then when you were abandoned by your own maid, the one who introduced you to their group, their world.

His way of living that you thought you could never do in your life as a powerless princess.

Your words showed a new perspective for Mikey, one that he couldn’t be sure if he wanted to commit to it, but maybe because he was caught up in the moment.

“.....We both had the wrong idea about each other’s circumstances in the beginning that it now seems humorous to me, princess.” He smiled at you, which made a breath get clogged up on your throat.

He then remembered the conversation he had with Draken prior to meeting you.

“Mikey!!! That woman is all to blame! No matter how much I try to look in different angles! It’s on her! SO WHY THE HELL ARE YOU TRYING TO LOOK FOR HER!”

“Because, I’ve done enough for now...everyone else is too busy killing each other. And my secret to survival is to never go to war with yourself.

“I thought you wanted to give people their freedom, what are you trying to do now Mikey…”

“Don’t you get it? Freedom is not chaos, but about the right to pursue our own goods or ends in life. To hell with those stuck up nobles...They can have their money...I just need more time to think about things as well.”

"Why....why are you trying so hard to reach someone we no longer consider as an ally"

"Why exactly would I need a reason not to."

“Ah...your highness, you really know how to make a man bend and break once inside your palms” He chuckled while you looked at him with confusion.

He then hurriedly stood up, and grabbed your hands “The people I interact with...those people are the ones in my heart. That is why I won’t leave you alone.”

“My Lord, you barely even know me…”

"Well we have a lot of time to figure each other out don't we princess?"

You stared at him, speechless. But he didn’t acknowledge it anymore as he forcefully grabbed you onto his back, making you circle both your arms around his shoulders.

“B-b-b-but-” “Hold tight!” “Kyaaaaa!”

He ran towards the window, only to jump off.

You closed your eyes as you felt the harsh winds envelop around your falling bodies, you held onto him the tightest you could.

That was when you both landed on a soft mattress hidden by the numerous bushes that his group had planted.

“MY LORD!!! YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND” You spoke with fright as you looked around. Only seeing the people he brought with smiles on their faces except for Draken who glared at you.

“I do. We’re kind of the same in a way.” He spoke as he tried to make you loosen your hold on him.

“NO!!! YOU DO NOT!!!YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND AT ALL!!” You screamed as you pushed him away.

He stood still for a moment, everyone getting silenced as they watched your frenzied state.

That was when everybody heard a shout “Your highness, the princess!!!”

All of those present glanced at each other with wide eyes, but not wider than their leader’s who didn’t think things through.

You reached your hands out towards them, your eyes filled with desperation “Go. You’ll get caught.” You spoke quietly, not bothering to move from your spot as your eyes watered, a new set of tears ready to fall.

“Hurry.” You glanced down as you sniffled “GO!!!” You screamed at them, to which Mikey glanced at you, his own eyes watering.

“N-” He couldn’t even finish his words as Draken grabbed his figure, throwing him over his shoulder as he and the rest of the group ran away, getting farther and farther away from you.

“DON’T JUST STAND THERE MIKEY!!!” Draken had shouted as he ran with them.

“STOP SCREWING AROUND!!! YOUR HIGHNESS!! COME WITH US!!” He screamed with desperation as well, he couldn’t lie...he had now formed something with you. But that something was still confusing for him. He didn’t know what it was and he surely had no clue.

He watched as you one knight surveyed your state and you hugged another one who had tried to chase them.

“YOU HAVEN’T EVEN TOLD ME YOUR NAME YET!!!” were the last words he screamed as he watched you prevent the knight from chasing them.

“Don’t go after them!!Please! LET THEM GO!!!” you sobbed, not even caring about your dignity as a royal anymore.

All the while others heard less and less of your cries as they managed to run away once more.

Mikey just stood limp in Draken’s hold, watching the grass underneath them get rustled and stomped on by his friend’s, reduced to a shell of who he once was just because of a fleeting encounter.

Call it whatever you want, but he had never felt heartbreak like this. It was the first time somebody had called him a saviour….not like the insults and mocking names the other nobles threw at him for being a lowly one. The first time somebody had made him feel special in a way that no other could.

But why was it that the world was against you two?

That was all he thought about as he prepared another larger and more durable plan for a rebellion.

“My lord, good thing that woman is gone, I could not even bear her presence back then. Hopefully the royal outcast is now somewhere between life and death” One of those people who tried to suck up to him mocked you.

Mikey could feel himself growing mad but he stood silent.

“Just what do you think you’re declaring you wench-” Draken spoke up before getting stopped by Mikey’s hand raising.

The person who had insulted you continued to speak ill before Mikey had enough, he then stood up and left with his loyal aid following him.

“Mikey-”

“Let them be Draken. I’ll round up each and every one who insulted her once I become king.” He spoke with his eyes full of ambition.

He then glanced around, looking at the far horizon above them.

Maybe someday your voice won't ring and echo in my ears….

maybe someday your face won't appear through my head and suffocate me with the air I breathe….

maybe someday your name won't have to be tattooed on my heart and mind so I can never forget you,

and maybe someday I can be able to reach you with my own might...

Or maybe a day will come and you’d be nothing to me but a beautiful mistake…

I pray that day may never come, your highness.

For your knight in shining armor still awaits for you, for the day we can finally meet again...

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