#post: musing

[majkemaniiia]

A Letter to Poe de Spell, hidden in a desk drawer for a good 15 years.

Brother,

I sang a mourning song today without even knowing it. You'd call it a slow and steady dirge, any mourning song is to you, but you couldn't be more wrong. It sped through my mind quickly, every note known despite my lack of talent for musical notation.

Brother, it sounded like that melody mum would hum if we ever passed the ocean. If we ever sped down the coast, watching the sea crash against the cliffs.

You called it an unsettling show of power, the slow erosion of the cliff face year over year.

I called it a beautiful show of change.

Perhaps we were both right.

Lena's well, as I'm sure you guessed. Or perhaps you're still skeptical, seeing as you demanded to speak with her last we phoned.

We're settled in a seaside town again. I think the air is good for her.

Brother, she looks so much like you. There is no denying it.

For her sake, visit soon? You and Minerva are welcome to stay. I miss my sister-in-law, and I miss you, too.

I've decided not to send this letter, I'll write you another account of Lena telling you what she's eaten, what friends she's made, her entirely acceptable bed times.

But that song by the seaside is mine. And I'm just now realizing how much we've lost.

— Majke.

[menodoramoon]

🌘 ----- Musing: Menodora & Stella (+ Hands) ----- 🌖

The idea of Moon having a hard time bringing herself to hold Stella when she's first born. Moon, tired and exhausted from childbirth, hesitating when offered the chance to hold Star. She hasn't renewed her spells. She feels a near-Macbeth need to rub her hands clean of metaphorical blood and literal forbidden magic. How could she be allowed to hold or have this most perfect girl that the world could never even hope to deserve?

River might take Star instead and hold her out, just to alleviate the poor nurse who's offered Star to her mother. Moon knows it's silly, but she wants her first touch to be gentle and delicate and worthy of Star.

Her hand would have hovered there forever, a moment's peace from her daughter and on the precipice of one action or another, if Moon's nerves had been the determining factor.

They were not.

It just so happens that Star's just-born hand, aimless, drifts to brush against Moon's first. It's not deliberate. It's not intentional. Star doesn't even know what she's doing, she's a baby. But it breaks the ice enough for Moon to trust herself to hold Star and hug her close.

She may not be worthy of Star, but she could do everything in her power to try to be as close as she could be.

TLDR: Moon's terribly self-conscious of her hands and when she sees Star for the first time, she has a hard time convincing herself that she's worthy enough to be a mother, let alone even hold her.

[lipikkawrites]

A lot will go wrong before everything goes right.

Keep moving forward.

-@lipikkawrites

[butcharium]

Never once have I thought that a butch looks less masculine for visibly having boobs

[werewolfbarista]

one of my shift leads was like "aelyis i have something so funny to tell u" and when she got over to me she was like. we got a review that said "the barista was wearing a dog collar. don't know how appropriate that is" and when i tell u i laughed so hard i CRUMPLED

[blood-starved-beast]

love how all the Nyx kids we know are losers. They're all some flavor of dork and all are vaguely pathetic.

Except for Charon. Dude is living the High life swimming in dough and even got a boyfriend locked in. So much rizz that even Aphrodite is noticing. King shit.

[greykolla-art]

The amazing @countandra mentioned to me his idea for a grownup Boo/Maria meeting Randall again and face her fears.

And that reminded me of the best movie trope ever! Girls embracing their “unattractive” qualities in the form of making friends with a monster manifestation of them.👏 Think: Drop Dead Fred, Your Monster or Pretzel Jack.

So here’s Boo being haunted by her old monster lizard! And he’s gonna teach her to be more confident/assertive or something at her workplace! And possibly advocate for embezzlement, but she’s just gonna ignore that part…

And additional messy sketches:

I love Randy but man has no business having 8 legs. That’s at least 2 legs too many! I have no idea where to put them all!

[iamnmbr3]

7 most unhinged canon drarry moments

Harry calling Draco his arch nemesis just a few months after Lord Voldemort tried to murder him for the second time but also immediately thinking that he kinda misses him

Harry getting hit in the head by a piece of luggage because he got so distracted by the sight of Draco changing that he didn’t notice someone swinging a large object at his face

Harry lying to the Order and Magical Law Enforcement to obfuscate Draco’s crimes at the end of sixth year

Voldemort immediately assuming Draco has gone looking for Harry when he goes missing during the Battle of Hogwarts…and being right

Narcissa assuming Harry will know where Draco is and if he’s still alive…and being right

Lucius getting mad at Draco in book 2 because he has spent the entire summer talking nonstop about Harry Potter

Harry forgetting about the time Voldemort possessed and nearly murdered Ginny but remembering every item he saw Draco look at in Borgin and Burkes 4 years previously

[pinkravat-art]

messy gomen

[lyricsxmusings]

Send ♡ to see what my muse thinks of yours

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[bugssontoast]

[swordatsunset]

Oddly enough one of the most meaningful/painful parts of I Saw the TV Glow was when Owen is sitting there, watching the old tapes, someone with a family and an adulthood (or so she tells us), however small and sad that life is, and she tells us how abjectly humiliated she is rewatching them. The cheesiness of the show, its stilted and childish plots, the bad acting and bad visuals and whatever else— Owen is humiliated to have been saved by this bad TV show. And regardless of the fact that I don’t think the Pink Opaque she watches is the actual Pink Opaque that saved her, it tunes into this fascinating and essential part of living dissociated from your actual life and restored/saved/rescued by media, which is the shame of living like this. Yes, this was the thing that helped me survive; it was awful and childish and embarrassing and I can’t believe I survived it, I can’t believe I got through this period with the help of this. It’s so easy, when your life is so small, to be ashamed of your lifelines: it’s so easy to survive and look back and be horrified at how pathetic (however untrue it may be) and pitiable you were, and then, in reaction to that blinding embarrassment, lash out at your former self, try to say how much you’ve moved on (because you’re better now, of course you’re better, you don’t need to be saved by anything, right?). You loved this? The reason you’re alive is because of this? How embarrassing. How sad.

[ylangelegy]

seokmin, who is widely regarded to have the most boyfriend material-like photos in the group, has a little secret. if he looks like a boyfriend in his photos— well, it's because he is.

seokmin, who will shyly smile at you when you're out on dates. you already know what he needs before he asks.

seokmin is never any less embarrassed about making this request. when you take his phone and unlock it, you're at least comforted by the fact that his home screen is a photo of the two of you.

seokmin will tell you everything from "you know all my best angles" to "you have an eye for lighting." you might think he's flattering you, but he's dead serious. his favorite photos of himself have been captured by you.

seokmin never questions your creative direction. if you instruct him to take a sip of his drink, he'll happily oblige. if you tell him to look away from the camera, he'll snap his neck around. ask him to jump and he'll say "how high?"

seokmin, who is generous with his affection and his compliments. he'll prop his chin over your shoulder and hug you from behind as the two of you assess the photos. "you got my good side here," he'll point out about one picture. "i like how you framed that," he'll say of another.

seokmin understands, however, that some things are sacred. like this: when you're reviewing pictures, and there's one that you really like? all you have to say is off-limits, and seokmin knows what that means.

seokmin doesn't care if it's the best photo he's ever taken. he doesn't care if it will feed in to the delusions of his many fans, if it's likely to make the internet go wild. if you call a photo off-limits, then he won't post it. it's yours. wholly yours.

seokmin, who, after all this time, still falls for your one favorite tricks. when you're trying to get him smile a certain way? sometimes, instead of saying cheese, you'll say i love you!

seokmin, whose grin is bright and wide in those photos. and, sometimes, if you squint just enough— you'll notice that he's actually looking at the person behind the camera.

[taweetie]

[butcharium]

I AM A BIG BUTCH! I AM BIG AND FEROCIOUS AS I STOMP AROUND IN MY BIG BOOTS! I AM SOOOO SCARY!! SUCH AN INTIMIDATING BUTCH!!

[lipikkawrites]

-@lipikkawrites