#poor self esteem

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

Autistic Burnout can Cause

Feelings os isolation

Negative thoughts

Independence incapacity

Feelings of self doubt

Poor self image/concept

Poor mental health

Reduced quality of life

Feelings of self loathing

Littlepuddins.ie

[chaotictrainwreck]

"I just can't look at you anymore..."

[lifeseenbyme]

I’m lost in a fog of doubt

Wondering if I can ever be someone I love

Grief is consuming my every thought

Reminding me that I’m broken

I know that my many breaks

Create room for inner growth

But what if what’s growing is more darkness

What if it overshadows all the good in me

What if people see who I really am

And run

[owlee22]

You ever just see yourself totally self sabotaging but you're just like "let's roll with it?"

Yea me neither

[waspsinyouryard]

As someone who has no experience with experiencing romantic attraction and not a lot of self-confidence, it is REALLY weird to consider the fact that, statistically speaking, there is probably someone out there that is attracted to me

[reignmaefall]

"I wish we could switch bodies so you could see yourself the way I see you" "my biggest fear is you seeing me the way I see myself" nah fuck that.

I wish you saw me the way I see myself.

So you weren't too blinded by rose-colored glasses to see my flaws. So you could see my beauty and my ugly coexist. I wish you saw the parts of me people don't get to see, how my eyes get red when I cry and it makes my irises look like crystals. How my hair looks when I get out of the shower, dripping down my shoulders and curling in ringlets before it dries a frizzy blob of half-defined waves.

I wish you saw my flaws the way that I see them. I wish you saw my skin, that's so pale I sparkle in the sun like a twilight character, as something beautiful and magnificent and fantastically magical instead of something I had to fix. I wish you saw my smudged mascara as a form of abstract art the way that I do instead of something I have to re-do. I wish you saw my short-temper as a reflection of my passion for things other people would deem trivial.

I wish you saw me the way I do. I wish you noticed the things about me only I do. How my smile is odd and crinkles my eyes unevenly. How my face is asymmetrically symmetrical, but so my brain, as cluttered and scattered as it is. How my face is always pink and it gets flushed when I smile. How my jaw is sort of funky and my nose is sort of thin and how my eyes are kind of sunken. How my freckles are light and scattered across my face. I wish you saw the freckles that only I've seen, because you have to look at my face real close to notice, like the one on my lip and the ones in my eyebrows. I wish you caught me counting my steps in 4's (one two three four, one two three four, one two three four..). I wish you caught me counting everything in 4's the way that I do. I wish you saw how poetic my mind is. How my mind is a never-ending factory of stories and hopeless romantic brain rot and a scatter-board of everything you can think of. How the vein in my neck bulges when I get worked up about something. How im always touching my face or my hair or fidgeting with something in my hands. I wish you saw my scars and thought of me as not a victim but a survivor. I wish you saw me as not a victim but someone in recovery and doing so well and having grown so much. I wish you saw me the way that I see me.

Beautiful. Because I am beautiful. And I know it. And I'm tired of pretending like I don't. I'm tired of pretending to hate myself because society says it's better than being self-obsessed. But fuck that. I love myself. I love myself. I love myself I love myself. I weird and odd and I can be obnoxious but it's endearing and I love that I try so hard to make other people laugh that I end up looking like a fool. And I love my appearance and fuck society for ever convincing me I don't. And I love my personality and fuck society for calling me narcissistic for that. I think im smart and funny and passionate and cool and beautiful.

I think that I am beautiful. Because there is so much beauty in this world. And we're only here for so long and people come and go but we have to stay with ourselves, we can't leave, there's no use hating ourselves. I love myself and fuck you if you think that's narcissistic. I'm beautiful and flawed and oh so human and I have spent so much of my life obsessing over my appearance and hating myself deep into my core that I missed out on so many memories and opportunities and so much of life, and fuck it because there is so much beauty in this world and I want to see it and I'm tired of pretending that I don't see it in myself. I'm human. And I'm perfectly imperfect.

So yeah. Fuck it. I wish you saw me the way I saw myself. Because then you'd see how beautiful I am

[unhingedselfships]

If a clogged toilet were sentient, it would have better self esteem than me.

[iamn1ya]

these are some quick shots of progress i’ve made on my first zine project, im super excited for it. it’s going to be a series centered around mental health and the goal for me really is to be able to get my emotions out onto paper.

i struggle with explaining myself and how i feel and so writing and journaling can be hard especially when i can’t accurately explain sensations as i’d like to so i’m hoping to accurately convey everything visually

im going to be using a random assortment of shadow work journaling prompts i find online to help me really dig deep and hopefully let go of all the emotions that i’ve been storing for years in my brain 😎👍🏾

[roxx-disorder]

Rule # 1 Don't ignore your emotions they affect your mental health

[sweetnnaivete]

jason the kinda guy to be like "this one's for you" while playing basketball then by surprised when he makes it in the hoop

[corpusdiem-seizethedead]

Angel: Husk let me fell asleep with my head in his lap and kissed my cheek when I woke up. He's so cute. I wish he liked me.

Cherri: *looks into the camera like she's on The Office*

[lifeseenbyme]

Do you know what it’s like to be undesirable

Knowing that nothing you have to offer is quite enough

Understanding that becoming who you are

Is someone’s worst nightmare

Taking up too much space

Unspeakable trauma haunting relationships

Scaring others away

Do you know what it’s like to not be wanted

Simply because you are you

[shakingparadigm]

what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?

It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:

During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.

Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.

I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:

I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.

The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.

This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.

The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.

I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.

[brucewaynehater101]

Tim can't escape Robin. It's a self-inflicted curse brought about by his self-sacrificing tendencies, his need to feel useful, his continuous labor to Bruce, and the cycle of abuse.

He could be so much more than the mantle he chained himself to. Unfortunately, he hasn't healed enough to find self-worth outside of vigilantism and his ties to the Waynes. He also may not recognize that he's stuck in a cycle of abuse when he's (as far as I'm aware) only been hit by Bruce once. All abuse is horrid and has their own perils. Emotional abuse can be much harder to spot or acknowledge (especially when compounded by their situation as crime-fighter leading to easier excuses for drastic measures ["he psychologically tortured me to make me a better hero"]). Tim will need to willingly set boundaries and build his self-worth in order to flee the clutches of Robin. His love for Bruce makes this process extremely difficult.

Batman needs a Robin. Bruce needs Tim. Until Bruce can function without a child-made crutch, Tim will always be Robin (Red or not).

[unshallow-feelings]

I think there's an essay to be written about Mizi and Ivan both believing that Till doesn't care about them but both of them want to form some connection with him and vice versa.

[ofallthingsnasty]

H A T for Ace? Hehe

Yandere Alphabet

pffffft 😂 hey, i should be the one making cheesy jokes here skadjk honestly, it might be my grand old age (not really) but he's such a soggy little man to me. you have been warned - he's very different to the ones posted so far.

tw.yandere, emotional manipulation, minors dni

Hell: What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

The whole fucking relationship. He depends on you, needs you. You’re his band-aid, his childhood plushie, his mom, his sibling, his partner, his best friend - Ace is the everything-issues man and all those deep-seated insecurities and all that trauma, all that hurt is coming out when he’s with you. He’ll never hurt you physically but it’s going to be a total mindfuck for you. This whole thing clearly isn't right; he is definitely out of line, you're in this situation against your will - but he's like a wet cat when he's with you and it's not an act. You'll feel like you're losing your mind - caught between being scared and forced to dry the tears of a man who has basically decided that you're his ersatz family. Maybe he'll snap one day? He doesn't seem to be the type but he already went so far - you never know with Ace.

Affection: How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

He’s extremely affectionate. He’s constantly touching you, playing with your hair, your clothes, your accessories. He wants you to touch him, too - just dote on him, please, show him that you’re there, that you care for him.  Cup his cheeks, cradle his head - he’ll practically melt into your touch. If you initiate it, he’ll be so happy.  (Don't overdo it, though. Or else he's gonna start crying and you don't want that. Absolutely ghoulish.)

Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream, cry, and/or isolate themselves?

Oh god, anything but tears, please. He simply can’t take those - it breaks his heart to see you sad. At first, he’ll try anything and everything to cheer you up - but it’s not only for you. It’s for him, too. I think he’s very unstable as a yandere, in the sense that he flip-flops between being delusional and being horribly self-aware of the things he has done to you. He didn't want to be a monster, ever. Now look at him, forcing someone into playing pretend with him. Maybe all those people were right and he really is a demon child.  But he can’t let you go, either. You soothe that sting in his heart, your touch is all he thinks about after a long day. As much as it eats away at him, he's too selfish to stop this.

So don’t cry, please, don’t make him face the reality of what this is. Play nice, play soft, play your part convincingly so he can forget about it all. Make him think you're here with him because you want to be and maybe he can finally believe that he deserves to be loved.

If your tears and silence don't get better, though - he’ll simply clam up and ignore you. Not out of malice, never out of malice - but he really can’t take it. He just reaches a certain point where he can't help you without spiraling himself and has to get away from those big, sad eyes.