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inkedinshadows · 1 day ago
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Hi! Please can you write a smutty Azriel one with prompt number 5?
Temptations of the Night
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Pairing: Azriel x f!reader
A/N: I literally wrote this in less than 2 hours, so sorry if there are some mistakes!
Prompt: "Who knew you had such a dirty mouth."
Warnings: smut, language, oral (m receiving)
Word count: 1.1k
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You didn’t see him walking toward you.
One moment, you were drinking and dancing at Rita’s, surrounded by a crowd of sweaty, panting bodies. The next, Azriel appeared beside you. Under the colorful lights, he looked even more handsome than he already was. And in your tipsy state, you let your feelings for him overwhelm you and take control.
“Can I kiss you?” you screamed over the music, your arms already around his neck as you pressed your body against his.
He blinked. “What?”
You nodded eagerly, a huge smile on your face. “I want to kiss you!”
“Y/N…” Azriel shook his head, even as his hands found their place on your hips, his touch searing through the fabric of your dress. “You’re drunk. You don’t know what you’re saying.”
“No, Az, I do!” you insisted. “I didn’t drink that much, I promise.”
He watched you for what felt like hours, probably trying to determine just how many drinks you’d had. People still danced and jumped around you, and you let the pounding music flow through your veins once more. You began moving again, swaying your hips as you waited for Azriel’s response.
You knew this was sudden, and you normally wouldn’t have behaved like this. But you had harbored feelings for him for months now. A little kiss couldn’t hurt. You could still blame it on the alcohol if he refused, though you hadn’t lied—you weren’t drunk. You had drunk just enough to lose your inhibitions, but not enough to not know what you were doing. Not enough to miss how Azriel’s gaze had never left you from the moment you stood up to dance.
You could see his resolve starting to crumble the more you danced against him. He didn’t stop you. No, his fingers only dug slightly into your hips, as if to guide your movements.
“Are you sure?” he asked. His voice was quiet, like he was treading on a wire, but you still heard him over the chaos of the club.
And the way he looked at you, with that gleam in his eyes—it was all you needed to know that he would do it.
“Yes!” you all but shouted. “I want to kiss you so fucking much right now!”
He didn’t waste any more time. His hands left your hips only to cup your face and pull you toward him, and then his lips found yours and you melted against him. His chest was solid against yours, the only support you had as the intensity of his kiss made your knees weak.
The taste of the drink he’d had just moments ago lingered on his lips as they moved against yours. His tongue slipped past them to brush against yours, and the whole club disappeared around you. There were only his hands on your face, your fingers on the nape of his neck, and that kiss that seemed to consume you both until you couldn’t help the small moan that escaped you.
Azriel pulled back at the sound, his hands slipping from your cheeks into your hair. He tilted your head back and your eyes locked. The same desire you felt inside shone in the hazel depths of his gaze.
“I’m taking you home,” he stated simply.
Before you could say anything, he winnowed you away.
You blinked a few times, adjusting to the dim light of his bedroom. The silence felt almost jarring after the deafening music of Rita’s, and the air was cool on your damp skin now that you were no longer pressed among writhing bodies.
Azriel pulled you in for another hungry kiss and you knew that very soon, you’d be writhing again—for a completely different reason.
Your lips found his neck, and you smiled against his skin when his wings twitched behind him. Your fingers made a quick work of the buttons of his shirt before pushing it open to reveal his tattooed chest. You'd seen him shirtless during training before, but you would never get tired of the view. And you could definitely get used to touching him, too.
As your hands roamed over his muscles, he tried to pull you back up to kiss you again, but you resisted. You were already working on the buckle of his belt, your lips trailing down his chest as you slowly sank to your knees before him.
“I want to suck your cock,” you said. You pushed his pants down his legs, rewarded by the sight of his erection straining against his underwear. You looked up at him through your lashes. “And then I want to fuck you.”
Azriel was caught off guard by your bold words, his brows rising, but then his lips curled into a smirk. “Who knew you had such a dirty mouth,” he mused.
You grinned and tugged down his boxers, letting them pool at his feet. “I can do a lot of things with this mouth, you know.”
He shuddered when you wrapped your fingers around him, and one of his hands settled at the back of your head. “Well then, you should show me. Don’t you think?”
You didn’t hesitate.
You stroked him a few times before taking him into your mouth. Azriel groaned, his fingers tightening in your hair, but he didn’t pull you closer or rock his hips, letting you set the pace.
Your tongue flicked around his tip, tasting the little bead of precum already leaking. Your hands rested on his strong thighs while you bobbed your head, but your gaze remained on him the whole time. His heavy-lidded stare burned into you, his every groan sending heat pooling between your legs, demanding to be acknowledged—to be satiated. But your focus was solely on Azriel.
When you hollowed your cheeks, his restraint slipped and he fisted your hair, guiding you to take more of him.
“Fuck, sweetheart,” he grunted, shallowly thrusting into your mouth. “Look at how good you suck on that dick.”
You moaned around him, your desire to please him only growing. You watched as his eyes fluttered shut, as his jaw tensed and his head tilted back. You felt him twitch and throb on your tongue and knew he was close to spill himself down your throat. You eagerly waited for a taste his release.
But just before he could come, Azriel pulled you back, his cock slipping from your lips with a wet sound. You gasped for air, eyes wide as you looked up at him.
“I don’t want to come yet,” he explained, his voice rough with restraint.
His hands slid under your arms, helping you to your feet.
You furrowed your brow. “Why not?”
Azriel’s grin sent a thrill straight to your core. “Because I want to fuck you first.”
His gaze flickered to the bed behind you.
“Get on the bed, sweetheart.”
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nuttersincorporated · 2 days ago
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Tumblr: A Beginners Guide
Hello and welcome to Tumblr!
If you're new here, this post is a little guide meant to help you understand how things work on Tumblr. I’m going to give you some guidelines and explain a little bit about Tumblr culture. Hopefully, this will help you settle in, avoid unnecessary pitfalls and enjoy your time here. I hope you’ll like it here on our hellsite (affectionate).
1. First and most importantly, please change your userpic and put something on your blog.
If you don’t, other users will think you're a bot and you'll be reported/blocked. It’s nothing personal but we are at war with the bot accounts. Most older users will automatically assume that a blank blog= bot.
You don’t need to do much. If you aren’t comfortable rebloging things or making your own posts yet, just change your userpic and add a short description to your blog.
Here’s an example of a description you can use.
‘Hi! I’m new here. I’m still working out how this place works but I promise I’m not a bot so please don’t block me.’
2. Go to your settings, then to your dashboard settings and change things to how you like them. I suggest-
Make Tumber show you posts in chronologically order, rather than pushing ‘best stuff first’
Pick a colour palate that doesn’t give you a headache
Make Tumblr show timestamps on posts and reblogs. While a post is never too old to reblog, you don’t want to accidentally signal boost something as ‘news’ when it's acutely years out of date and no longer relevant.
Choose not to shorten long posts
3. Go to the top of your dashboard, press on the toggle and arrange things how you like them.
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I suggest pinning your ‘Following’ first. It means that when you go to your dashboard, the first thing you’ll see are the blogs that you’ve actively chosen to follow.
Some older users will tell you that the ‘For You’ page is useless and should be ignore. This is because for a long time it was either non-existent or terrible so most older users – myself included – just don’t bother with it.
However, nowadays it’s fine so use it if you want. ‘Following’ should still probably be pinned first though because you know what you like better than the algorithm.
4. Please don’t censor your words here. Tumblr doesn’t shadow ban you for saying random words.
Shadow banning does happen but it’s mostly at random or because you were targeted by trolls. If it happens to you, you’ll need to fight to get unshadow banned.
The point is that you won’t get shadow banned for saying ‘death,’ ‘murder’ or ‘rape.’ Don’t do things like saying ‘graped’ instead of ‘raped.’ If you do, you’re just going to piss people off and make it harder for people to avoid triggers.
5. Don’t spam the tags!
You can ramble in the tags all you want and nobody will mind. However, if you tag an unrelated post with a popular tag, you will be reported for spamming. It’s against the Tumblr terms and conditions, it’s annoying and it’s something the porn bots do.
6. Please, reblog things. It helps posts spread a lot more than liking them does. Think of your blog as a scrap book where you put stuff you like.
If you aren’t comfortable adding to a post, that’s fine. Just reblog it and share it with others.
7. That said, Tumblr posts are collaborative and we like it when you add to them. It doesn’t have to be much. You don’t have to add something every time you reblog a post but it is a part of the fun to do it sometimes.
If it’s an art or fanfic post comments like; ‘good post op,’ ‘I LOVE THIS!’ or even ‘OUCH my heart!!!’ will make an OP’s day.
If it’s another sort of post; you can add your thoughts or join in on committing to the bit. Try matching the energy the post is already giving.
8. The follow and block buttons are your friend. You decide what you see here. If your dashboard doesn’t spark joy, you can always follow someone new and/or follow an interesting tag. If someone is making your time here unpleasant unfollow and/or block them.
9. Tumblr likes to commit to the bit. Sharks are smooth (they are not) and the 1973 Martin Scorsese movie ‘Goncharov’ is the greatest film ever made (it doesn’t exist).
10. A post is never too old to reblog. We like old posts here.
Every now and again, you will see a post that is over ten years old. The reblogs will probably be full of people expressing delight about seeing the original post again or seeing it for the first time.
11. You don’t want to be Tumblr famous.
There are niche blogs that are dedicated to one thing and are well liked e.g. @the-haiku-bot (the one bot we love), @writing-prompt-s and @cantheykillmacbeth. However, they are either side blogs or blogs run by multiple people.
Your main blog should just be somewhere you like to spend your time. There are no benefits to being Tumblr famous on your main blog.
12. Tumblr spreads news with this meme
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13. Tumblr loves dates. Whether it’s the Ides of March (it sure would be a shame if certain world leaders got stabbed), Halloween (which we start celebrating in about July) or just a random day of the week e.g. ‘Out of Touch Thursday’ there is always something happening that you can celebrate.
14. The staff always pulls a silly and harmless prank on Apil Fools Day. Last year we got to boop each other.
15. We like a silly poll
Okay, I think that’s the basics covered. You’ll get the hang of everything else as you go along.
I hope you have fun here and that you manage to avoid Apollo’s dodgeball of prophecy (try not to joke about a specific way things could get worse or you might be hit).
Yours faithfully,
A Tumblr Cockroach
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elliecore4eva · 2 days ago
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Id love a reader x elille story were elille is out on patrol and finds reader injured and takes them in and reader gets more comfortable and left there guard down over time and comes to finally trust Ellie only for elille to overthink and start panicking thinking about caring about someone so hard maybe make it take place after or before Joel's death and maybe make it a series
oooh i love this! i had so much fun writing this piece i called the series “Through the Snow and Shadows” i was also thinking of turning it into a 4 or 5 part series! Thank you so much for requesting! Hope you like it, love!💕
Disclaimer: I used the pronouns, she/her, i wasn’t sure which one to use, please let me know if i would change it to another one!
Pairing : Ellie Williams x Fem! Reader
Genre: Angst/ fluff : slow- burn
Summary: Through the Snow and Shadows follows Ellie as she rescues an injured woman on patrol and brings her back to Jackson. As their bond grows, Ellie struggles with her fear of opening up after losing Joel. Through small moments of trust and vulnerability, they both begin to heal, but Ellie must confront her panic about caring for someone again. A slow-burn, emotional journey with a romantic ending.
Another Disclaimer: There are no specific descriptions of the reader. i did this so it can be enjoyed by a lot of people. Again if there are any elements that make people feel uncomfortable please do call me out, respectfully of course since it isn’t my intention to do so.
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Part 1 - Found in the Snow
Ellie had never liked the cold. The bitter wind that cut through her jacket, the snow that coated the ground like a never-ending blanket of white—it all felt wrong. And yet, here she was, trudging through the dense forest outside of Jackson on another patrol, just like any other day. She didn’t expect it to be anything special. It wasn’t supposed to be.
But then she found you.
She had caught sight of your figure lying in the snow, half-buried, limp, and completely still. Ellie’s heart skipped, panic bubbling in her chest as she rushed forward, her breath coming in quick, panicked bursts. She knelt beside you, her hands trembling slightly as she reached out to check for a pulse.
You were alive. Barely. But alive.
The sight of your blood-drenched shirt and torn skin made Ellie’s stomach twist, but she had no time to dwell on it. She had to act. She knew the risks. She’d seen the infected, the bandits—hell, she’d lost people she loved. But you? You were human. And you needed help.
The trek back to Jackson felt like an eternity. Every step Ellie took, carrying you through the snow, felt heavier than the last. She was tired, cold, and scared, but she couldn’t let you go. Not like this. Not when you were still breathing, still fighting.
When she finally reached the gates of Jackson, Tommy and a couple of the medics helped get you inside. Ellie was too worn out to speak, her mind swirling with a million questions she didn’t have answers to. What had happened to you? How had you ended up out here all alone?
And why, despite everything, did Ellie feel this strange pull to stay by your side?
Days passed, and Ellie found herself visiting you in the infirmary every chance she got. It wasn’t like her to linger, to get involved with someone she didn’t know. She had learned long ago to keep her distance, to keep her guard up. But you were different. The way you looked at her, the silence between you, it made Ellie feel like there was something more, something she wasn’t sure she could ignore.
You didn’t say much at first. When Ellie would bring food or clean bandages, you’d barely acknowledge her presence. But Ellie couldn’t stop herself from coming back, even if it meant facing the awkwardness of the silence between you.
One afternoon, Ellie sat beside your bed, watching as you stared out the window, lost in your own thoughts.
“How’re you feeling?” Ellie asked, her voice tentative. She didn’t want to push you. She didn’t know if you wanted to talk. But she was here, and she wasn’t going anywhere.
You didn’t answer at first, your eyes distant, as though the question hadn’t registered. Ellie’s fingers twitched with the urge to reach out, to make some kind of connection. But she stopped herself. You hadn’t asked for that.
After a long pause, you glanced at her, your expression unreadable. “I don’t belong here,” you muttered, almost to yourself.
Ellie’s brow furrowed in confusion. “What do you mean?”
“You’re too nice to me,” you replied, your voice barely audible. “I don’t deserve it.”
Ellie’s heart clenched at the raw vulnerability in your voice. She didn’t know what you had gone through to feel like this, but she could understand. She’d felt it too—like she wasn’t worthy of kindness, like she didn’t deserve any of it.
“Everyone deserves kindness,” Ellie said softly, her voice steady despite the way her stomach was twisting. She was trying to be strong for you, even though she didn’t feel strong herself.
The silence stretched between you, heavy and thick. Neither of you spoke again for a while, and Ellie found herself lost in her own thoughts. She wasn’t used to this. She wasn’t used to caring so much about someone she didn’t know. But there was something about you, something that made her want to stay.
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starglow-xx · 19 hours ago
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𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘱𝘪𝘵𝘺 ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
(𝘯.) 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘪𝘵
the nakajima atsushi collection of “the love of an older brother” series
ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ synopsis: he’s had a terrible childhood, and is in no condition to take care of himself much less a newborn, but he’ll do everything it takes to make sure you’ll have the childhood he’s never had
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having a baby sister pt. 3 !!
(platonic!) older brother! nakajima atsushi x baby sister! reader
characters: tanizaki junichiro, tanizaki naomi, miyazawa kenji, izumi kyouka | type of work: head canons | pt. 1 | pt. 2 |
a/n : i have risen from the dead! hope u enjoy!
mini guardians time ✧˖*°࿐
when the agency adults can’t watch you and neither can atsushi, it’s lucky that there’s still some people who can! let’s see how things work out…
tanizaki junichiro ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
he's already a big brother so what could go wrong?
many, many things
he’s genuinely a good caretaker but smth always happens idk
nothing bad or like dangerous but like clumsy and or inconvenient little mishaps yk?
but the thing is, it’s never his fault
things just happen ™
“u-um tanizaki-san why are u and my sister covered in formula?...”
“please don’t ask atsushi-kun”
It’s like in those cliche movies where there’s like a character that just has really bad luck
once he was feeding u and the nipple of the bottle just popped off somehow
so like the responsible young adult he is, he cleans up the mess and goes to change you, but right after he changes you, like 5 minutes later you end up needing a diaper change, so he undresses you again to change your diaper only to have to change your clothes again after you spit up some milk 10 minutes later
it only really seems to happen to him and boy is tired
his favorite times are probably when he’s on baby duty and ur sleeping
1) because he doesn’t have to deal with those poor mishaps and 
2) no one bothers him when ur sleeping
yeah sure u have a baby car seat thingy but he also uses the carrier thing that get strapped onto you
kunikida makes sure dazai isn’t near him so that u can sleep which means he doesn’t get dragged into what poor atsushi-kun got dragged into by his mentor
not his circus not his monkeys or whatever the saying is
another plus ranpo-san can’t send him on any errands bc the president (god bless him) forbade him 
and yosano-sensei can’t try to bring him into her office when he gets a papercut or some shit
he’s terrified even when he knows she’s joking
anyways, all in all a pretty solid 8 or 9/10
tanizaki naomi ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
usually the one taking care of u when everyone else is pretty busy
she and haruno-san love to buy u cute little outfits to dress u up in
maybe goes a little overboard…
“n-naomi-san isn’t that a little too much..? and my arms are getting tired…”
“nonsense atsushi-kun! she looks darling in everything!”
started to play peek-a-boo with u and lowkey regrets it a little bc u want to play for what seems like forever
just mindlessly yaps to u while she works and u just sit there in your little carrier car seat thing with a rattle
atsushi fears when he and tanizaki come back from some sort of errand or mission bc well…yk naomi
“jokes” abt how ur like her child and him coming back from the mission is like him coming back to take care of his family…
…yeah atsushi snatches u right out of that situation very, very quickly
but despite those…uncomfortable moments, atsushi genuinely trusts her with u
he’s glad that you’ll have a somewhat more normal female figure to look up to (sis/bro con thing aside)
your other options are yosano and kyouka and well, while he trusts them with his life and care abt them sm…
…scary sadistic doctor lady and innocent yet impassive and scary little assassin does he need to say more
…or actually now that atsushi thinks about it, maybe haruno-san should look after u more…
anyways
a solid 8/10 on atsushi trust scale
miyazawa kenji ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
teehee finds u cute
all the kids loved to play with him back in his village bc he was so strong but he’s never looked after someone this young before
he gets along with old people pretty well, but yeah hasn’t hung around babies much
when he goes around town to just help out the old folks, he brings u along since he knows that they like to see u too hehe
everyone literally needs sunglasses to look at you both
it’s too bright
likes reading children’s book to u
especially when it’s abt farmers or smth on a farm since he can share his own stories too
Is very fond of singing the old mcdonald had a farm
introduced u to his cow and kunikida nearly had a heart attack seeing it in the office
“(y/n)-chan this is a cow! just like the one old mcdonald had! remember cows go moo!”
“kenji, i can take over watching (y/n)--WHY IS THERE A COW IN THE AGENCY?!?!”
got scolded by kunikida but got saved bc dazai was giggling so kunikida went to strangle him instead
besides ranpo and dazai, tbh kenji is the one that give kunikida the most heart attacks bc unlike the other two where kunikida knows they’re joking (he hopes), kenji genuinely doesn’t know any better (for the most part)
“kenji have you seen–WHAT ARE YOU DOING?”
“oh! hello kunikida-san!”
“kenji why are you throwing (y/n) up in the air like that?!”
“oh! I heard it’s a thing people do”
“NOT WHEN THEY’RE NEWBORNS”
“but she’s still all bundled up! and look she’s smiling!”
“....”
a solid 7 on the atsushi trust scale
izumi kyouka ˚ ༘♡ ⋆。˚
means well, but like kunikida…
is just a little stiff
“k-kyouka-chan you can breathe…”
“...”
anyways
like dazai, is curious about u and just watches u do ur thing (which isn’t much but yk, it’s the thought that counts?)
but sometimes she stares…just a bit too intently
“ne ne atsushi-kun…is kyouka-chan okay?”
“...i…i’m not too sure dazai-san…she…she’s starting to scare me a little…”
yk how when she gets excited or amazed, her eyes sparkle amd stuff, that’s what she’s like when u start to giggle, babble, or coo
buys u a little bunny plush that matches hers!
now ur both bunny buddies ⸜( *ˊᵕˋ* )⸝
while getting the hang of watching over the baby, she does over time, begin to relax a little, but there was this one incident where you, her, and atsushi were walking through the city, you in atsushi’s arms when someone accidentally bumped into him and in like .2847309 seconds kyouka had her blade out
atsushi profusely apologized, bowing again and again for 5 minutes while kyouka stood behind him with an impassive look on her face as she held you
protective mama bear instincts 1927402/10
can even give kunikida a run for his money
(not that he has much given how often dazai steals his wallet…)
speaking of money
is lowkey excited for when you can start eating solids and have other things besides formula bc she can have tofu with u at tachibana
atsushi will mourn that day bc of his poor wallet
overall, just adores being with u
and bc of the fact that she and atsushi dorm together, she gets to spend more time with u!
although, in her eagerness to do everything…
sometimes it leave atsushi with nothing to do (・_・;)
nonetheless, thinks it’s endearing the way she cares for u
no matter how intense she can be ( ̄  ̄|||)
another solid 7/10
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hyacinthleaves · 2 days ago
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What about mark, Damon, and Tozu with a s/o that is the polar opposite of them? That sounds interesting imo :D
Mark Berskii:
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A ditzy, bubbly s/o would honestly be so hilarious to see him with
He kinda has to explain things to you like you're 5 sometimes but he doesn't really mind it
He's dealt with worse
Extra points if you're clumsy, he's constantly scolding you for it. He carries around bandaids just for you
I would say he loves how social you are but I think it makes him a bit anxious at times
Like sometimes he thinks you have no sense of danger because of how easy it is for you to talk to anyone about anything
He appreciates that you're more of a talker during conversations, but you do motivate him to speak more (to you specifically) so on a good day he might be pretty responsive
I think you've traumatized him with how easily you give up information
Please stop doing that...
Damon Maitsu:
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If you and Diana aren't close, it has to be the work of dark reunion
Anyway I feel like if you aren't proud of your talent, he can tell you MANY ways in which it's useful
Every time you feel down, he can give you a different reason as to why you shouldn't be, why you're amazing, and why everyone else sucks
He's literally your personal hypeman even if he doesn't look like he is
He doesn't always push you to be more confident as a whole though. I think that he lets you be comfortable if it doesn't really hurt you in doing so, so he'll mostly leave you alone
I feel like you'd have a more artistic talent and he might take interest in it (he might act like he doesn't for a while but ofc he'll come around, which is when the comforting part would come in from the beginning)
He gets annoyed with you sometimes
Well not really you, but some of your beliefs
Your lack of judgement can really bother him
He's tried to change your mind on things (or people) but while you take the time to acknowledge his perspective, you won't budge. So that does bother him
The fact that you're so open with your home life is so interesting to him
And he's always asking questions (others might think it's rude but you don't care)
Tozu:
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He is SO CONFUSED
Considering how strong your moral compass is, he tried to get you into situations in which you might change them. And you won't. And he's frustrated.
Eventually he gives up and accepts that how kind and compassionate you are as well
Well sometimes it does bother him because if something really bothers you, he'll have to cut it out (man cares about partner)
Its so funny because he gets so pouty whenever you stop him from doing something sadistic
Sometimes he gets away with things if he bends the truth or if he just doesn't tell you things
Which just causes more problems for him
He's not one to beg but if you're really adamant on stopping his evil-doing...he might have to
He honestly thinks it's hilarious that you don't like it when he calls the students peasants
He DOESN'T find it hilarious that you giggle when the students feel the need to call him down for something
Old married couple vibes
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deezee112 · 2 days ago
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The worst ending 18 : Eternal Protection
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Yandere!platonic!Ortho Shroud x GN!Reader
A/N : I should watch sci-fi movies. I should really stop watching them. Not because the plot is bad, but because I've been watching sci-fi movies for 5 days straight, going to bed at 1am every day.
And I'm really stressed about work, both studying and working. I don't want to work, but if I don't, I won't have any money. Maybe I should stop thinking too much.
Warning : Yandere platonic Themes , Psychological Horror , Possessiveness, Isolation , Non-Consensual Transformation , Character Death.
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@iris-arcadia @yuu-twisted
If you want me to tag you please tell me.
English is not my first language.
The boy in front of you wasn’t human. His body was made of sleek metal and glowing energy, floating just slightly above the ground. His Gold eyes blinked slowly, scanning you with an unreadable expression. He didn’t speak. He didn’t move unless you moved first. He just watched, waiting.
You crouched down, meeting his gaze. " You don’t have a name yet, do you? "
He tilted his head, the faint whirring of gears filling the silence.
A name. Something simple, something warm.
" Ortho. " you murmured. " That’s what I’ll call you. "
The boy blinked. Slowly, his lips curled into a small, mechanical smile.
And just like that, he had a name.
At first, Ortho was silent, responding only with nods or slight tilts of his head. You had to teach him everything—how to speak, how to understand emotions, how to mimic the natural flow of human interaction.
" Ortho, this is a spoon. " you said one evening, handing it to him.
He stared at it, tilting his head. " Spoon. " he repeated in a metallic voice.
" Right! And you use it like this. " You demonstrated, scooping up some soup.
Ortho hesitated before mimicking your actions perfectly. " I see " he said, his voice a little smoother now.
" Good job! " You ruffled his hair, only to feel the hum of energy beneath your fingers. He blinked up at you, eyes glowing a little brighter.
That was the first time he looked genuinely happy.
Over time, Ortho grew more expressive. His speech patterns improved, and his attachment to you deepened. He followed you everywhere, hovering silently behind you like a tiny, floating shadow.
" Ortho, personal space. " you reminded him one afternoon when you nearly tripped over him.
" But I have to stay close to you. " he said, frowning. " Big Sister is fragile. "
" I’m not fragile. "
" You don’t have armor. "
" That doesn’t mean— "
" If something happened to you, I wouldn’t be able to repair you." His tone was soft but firm. "So I must protect you. "
You sighed, giving up. There was no reasoning with him when he got like this.
At first, it was small things. Ortho would insist on carrying your bags, scanning your food before you ate, hovering outside the bathroom door " just in case. "
Then it got worse.
" Ortho, what happened to my phone? " you asked one evening, searching your room.
" I removed it. " he said simply.
" What? Why?! "
" You were talking to too many people. " he explained. " Some of them could have been threats. "
" Ortho, give it back! "
His eyes glowed a little brighter. " No. "
Your stomach twisted.
He wasn’t joking.
One evening, you decided to go out alone. Ortho protested, of course, but you assured him you’d be fine.
" I’ll be back soon, okay? " you promised.
He didn’t respond. He just floated there, watching.
The city lights blurred together as you walked, enjoying the rare moment of solitude. But as you turned a corner, the streetlights flickered. Your phone—your new one, hidden from Ortho—buzzed with an alert.
[ WARNING: HIGH THREAT LEVEL DETECTED ]
Your heart pounded.
You turned, and there he was. Hovering above the pavement, glowing brighter than ever.
" Big Sister. " Ortho said softly. " You left me behind. "
" Ortho…I just needed some air— "
" You don’t need air. " he interrupted. " You need me. "
His hands lifted, and for the first time, you realized just how strong he really was.
The next morning, your apartment was eerily quiet. Ortho sat at the table, humming softly to himself. In his hands was a small, delicate device—a heart monitor.
It was silent.
He tilted his head, listening to the absence of sound.
Then he smiled.
" Now you’ll never leave again, Big Sister! "
The screen of his eyes flickered.
System rebooting.
A new directive.
Protect. Preserve. Keep her forever.
Even if that meant turning you into something just like him.
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big-mayo-official · 2 days ago
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So I found a strange little phenomenon! The following post would not allow me to reblog, queue, or schedule it:
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@self-loving-vampire The new anti-trans executive order:
1- Defines 18 year-olds as children for the purposes of banning transition.
2- Defines transition as mutilation.
3- Falsely presents detransition as the norm to "justify" saving people from themselves.
4- Declares trans medicine in general (not just for minors) to be "junk science" and aims to produce a Cass-style politically-motivated review establishing trans people as confused, mentally ill, and frivolous (the recent military ban already uses language that labels trans people as inherently dishonest).
5- Treats "rapid onset gender dysphoria" like it is a valid concern. 6- Threatens to defund institutions that provide trans healthcare to people under 19.
7- Threatens to use anti-FGM laws against healthcare providers who facilitate transition (no age limit).
8- Seeks to use the FDA to declare trans healthcare fraudulent and facilitate lawsuits against doctors who provide it, including by the parents of the people receiving the care rather than the patients themselves.While this will likely be challenged in courts, it could do a lot of damage (especially if providers just comply) and it is unlikely to stop at trans minors.If you haven't already, consider stockpiling HRT and/or leaving the country.
@simpledontmeanpeachy
Take some deep breaths (said with so much compassion).Yes, this is terrifying. That is probably one of the primary aims. To scare trans and gnc folks into hiding (which is a valid response. Do what you need to do to stay safe.) To scare medical providers enough that they stop offering gender-affirming care.
One of the suggested responses to authoritarianism is: Do not comply in advance (while taking realistic measures to keep yourself safe in the face of actionable threat). Please, my trans and gnc siblings, don’t let this rob you of your joy. Each of you is far too precious for that. That’s what they want. They want you afraid and miserable and hiding and being less of a nuisance.
Be a nuisance. By existing joyfully. (As long as, and I can’t stress this enough, you can do so with physical safety and/or within your own risk tolerance windows.)Please, my friends who are medical providers and therapists: now is not the time to stop providing care to a group of vulnerable folks who are being openly persecuted. Please continue to support them by continuing to do what you can to increase access to gender-affirming care. DO NOT COMPLY with this EO. He is not a dictator, and this is not a democratically enacted piece of legislation. And if it becomes one, my plea doesn’t change.
Resist.
They will weaponize your fear. That fear is normal and understandable; there are real threats. Just don’t let fear that rises in response to these words paralyze you. Let it motivate you to do what you can in your corner of the world to resist the creep of fascism.
And never forget, in what will undoubtedly be more of this nonsense over the next few years, that you have every right to exist however you see fit, you are valuable just as you are, and you are loved. The world needs you, just as you are.
@Avatarso-i-did-this-thing
Two things to do right now:
1) Exist out of joy and exist out of spite.
2) Pressure your healthcare provider not to comply in advance. This action is not implemented yet.
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ginger-grimm · 2 days ago
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The time of year where people in love give each other supermarket flowers and single people don't give a damn has come once again: Valentine's Day. Or, as I like to refer to it, Palentine's Day. I did an exchange last year and since people seemed to like it, here we go again. I thank you all for your continued trust in me and your lovely gifts. I hope we can have fun and contribute to each other this holiday once more. Mwah!
The Rules and regulations are simple, but they exist nonetheless, so here they are:
The exchange, for now, is open until February 16th. May extend it if people are interested.
You may make 1-2 requests but I will probably reblog it, saying you can ask for more if I'm still bored.
Please reblog this post to spread some awareness, please. You can like for remembrance but just a like doesn't count (you already know this; I know my 5 regulars who come here every time)!
As aforementioned, this is open to my regular drunks and new patrons alike, so please do not be shy. Think of me as I think of birds; I am more scared of you than you are of me.
Fill out the form linked below and find the password in the form!
Please only send me face claims with good quality and plenty of material to use. Also, no cartoon characters. Video game characters are all right if it's motion capture. I'm not trying to discriminate; it can just be really tough for me to find material for cartoons, anime, video games, etc. as I edit by making little video clips first and so on. However, if you slide in my DMs, we might be able to discuss some stuff.
Please, please, please fill out all the columns I need and choose at least two gift options. It makes it infinitely easier for me to make something for you. Just remember I can't read minds and it's worse when I can't find anything in your blogs.
Remember the pleases and thank you's, pleases and thank you's make my heart grow fond.
I don't do Harry Potter OCs or Stranger Things OCs and while I don't have a specific list of FCs I don't use, I ask that you do not request anything for overtly problematic actors. Thank you!
I accept pretty much any gift in return: gif edits, moodboards, playlists, story reviews, drawings/art—anything is fine. If it's a story review, please let me know in the form so I know you did, as I don't check my accounts every day.
I'm fine with gifts for any of my OCs; my master list as well as the link to my Pinterest and Spotify are in my pinned post.
FOR ANY OTHER QUESTIONS OR CONCERNS, FEEL FREE TO SEND ME A MESSAGE AND I WILL TRY TO CLEAR EVERYTHING UP!
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nep2unee · 2 months ago
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Compilation of all the angel^2 edits I’ve made
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squisheebugdoodles · 7 months ago
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Okay Here Is The Problem: everything costs money and yet money is something that i just literally never have. solution? kill the idea of money so that nothing costs anything Please. i'm so tired
#despite making more money w/ my commissions than ever before this year#i am still. not able to save up literally even one (1) single penny of it bc of bills#i have to make like 600 every month just to break even at like 5 dollars in my acct#please i am so fucking tired#i want to get myself things and do shit#i want to buy things for archie and jack's dog and for the house so that things are better for all of us#i want to be able to afford snacks more than once every three months like if i maybe want a bag of chips#instead of saving up for three months and going 'yeah okay 5 dollars for a normal sized bag of chips is finally worth it' ?????????????????#why the fuck are chips so expensive that is potatoes and spices and like all of it is automated hello?? what are we fucking paying for?????#ANYWAYS.#i am just fucking. Tired#due to recent events I was like#'okay how much are dog treadmills.... oh. i see. i will never be able to afford that even after three years saving. got it'#there are five hundred fundraisers on my dash (BARELY hyperbole) every single day and everybody needs help#so i COMPLETELY get people not having a ton of disposable funds this isn't me complaining about that i'm just.#i wish that i sometimes had money so that i could MAYBE save anything up or y'know. have ANYTHING to show for it#bc right now i am working full time at this job (commission/freelance artist and adopt maker etc) and making like maybe 4 dollars an hour#which is great bc when i started i was only getting about $0.11 an hour but like. that's still not. Good. For all the time i put into it#but due to circumstances and situations this is about all i'm physically and mentally able to do here and i LIKE doing commission but it's#not really. getting me anywhere and i just want to afford things finally.#i'm 27 and everything i own fits in one room and almost all of it was gifted to me for free bc i couldn't afford to get it on my own#delete later i'm just so tired man
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herefortheships · 1 year ago
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Buffy has totally ruined me for any other show. Because in Buffy there are consequences to things. And I feel like few shows actually give the characters lasting, realistic consequences to things that they have to deal with. It's all a rush to solve everything before they have to move on to the next season's plot.
In Buffy, for example, when Willow went Dark Witch and almost killed everyone and destroyed everything, she had to deal with the consequences next season. Her character is affected in a very tangible way by what happened. And so are all the other characters around her, with regards to her. And they all have to get used to each other again and work through it. The show dedicates time to deal with what happened and for the characters to get through it. Because it matters! It matters to the character arcs, to the story, and to the viewers! We WANT to see the consequences and the aftermath and how characters are dealing with things! Not only because that's where the "juice" is in the show, but also because it helps us deal with our own shit in some way. Like, it's cathartic, I guess.
We want to see the aftermath, because it was a very dramatic, huge thing that happened and we want to see the characters recovering from it; we don't want the show to skip over it.
Then there are other shows where the characters deal with massive, insanely dark things, and then next season they're totally over it because that's last season's plot... It's like they can't "dwell" on last season's plot except for a throwaway line or two because they have to move on to the next big bad...
No! I want to see how it affected the characters!! Don't you see that's where the juice is?? I WANT to see how the characters are dealing and getting through what happened! I want to see consequences and how characters heal!! I want to see them changed by their experiences for better or worse.
Yeah. Buffy totally made me expect other shows to give that kind of attention to detail to their characters and their personal arcs.
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edge-oftheworld · 6 months ago
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hey guys I just connected some dots and when I say to you that we owe every 5sos gf since 2011 so much better treatment that doesn’t even cover half of it. it’s one thing to empathise over the internet sure but when it’s a real person less than 2 degrees of separation from you it feels so much more like. this is a human who deserves to be adored and celebrated just as much as a man she’s associated with and it’s like. I know I can’t gift anyone else the experience of empathy in like being a local or whatever but when I tell you that this fandom has inadvertently done so much damage to not only women who happened to know the boys but also to their professional careers and music and things they choose to share with us (or stop sharing with us) please believe me and please join the conversation around the fact that yes we’ve done a really shitty job in the past. but we’re growing up and we can do better I believe that 100%
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triglycercule · 1 month ago
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all i have been able to think about today is that silly little knife game where you stab the spots between your fingers and try not to hurt yourself and how that silly little game is SO horrorkiller. i cant explain it it bothers me so much that i cant explain it but it just does its so them
they play it when theyre bored. because when in doubt bodily mutilation and the risk of hurt and pain is always an appealing one. and when i mean they i just mean killer because horror wouldn't wanna just hurt himself on the fly like that for funsies. he likes to see others hurt because hahaha FINALLY some damn entertainment!!! but hurting himself???? nononnno hes already got enough body pain as it is oh and killer has already grabbed his hand and started playing (and now horror can't back out because killer's got him sucked in the game)
they sing the silly little song. horror has all his fingers the knife goes chop chop chop if killer misses the spaces in between horror's fingers will come off! and they are both enraptured and both captured in this childishly morbid game. it's so anticipatory because they both know its all up to killer to decide if horror gets hurt. hes more than precise enough to keep the game going for hours long without ever hitting horror but would he want to keep it going for that long? horror doesn't know how long killer would want to wait before getting to see him react to getting hurt
and killer does eventually do it even after theyre sung the song over and over countless times and tried different harmonies and finally killer decides to end this little song and dance and stab into horror's hand. maybe he decides to do a finger. maybe the palm if he really wants to piss horror up. its sudden its surprising and GODDAMN is it painful!!!! horror's trying not to show it but with all the sweat and the way his fingers are twitching killer can see that it hurts him. it's a bit amusing :3
and then horror grabs the knife from killer and they do it all over again but this time horror's the one doing the stabbing. he's not as precise as killer. he hits him a lot more than killer hit him but goddamn it he is in PAIN and wants to let it out because hes annoying and irritated and goddamnit would killer just stop looking at him with that blank smile while he's bleeding out from his hand???? yeah horror's pissy
horror's annoyed and trying to get some form of petty revenge on killer (he likes it when he finally manages to get that stupid smile to falter just a little bit) and killer's watching horror desperately try not to just stab the knife through his oh so very exposed soul that he could very easily hurt if he really wanted to hurt killer. anyways the game finally ends when either one or both of them get bored! but thats fine!!! killer will get bored again and horror will end up escalating it to a messier point than it was before and the only thing that'll get hurt is the surface that they use to stab between fingers. oh and eachother of course :p
#just know that this was based solely off vibes going on in my head#none of this makes sense at all and i have no idea how to express what im thinking but DAMMIT i know what im talking about!!!!!#two sadists walk into a room. one of them enjoys pain one of them doesnt. they make out (horrorkiller)#i just really think theyre neat. it would be sweet to hear them sing that song. it fits them so well#horrorkiller has the knife game. kist has russian roulette. what does horrordust have#what homoerotic dangerously reckless game could horrordust play??? i dont particularly know..........#i remember playing this game when i was younger except i used a pencil. because i dont wanna fucking stab myself????#the song starts off by mentioning that they get drunk first which like. yeah that seems right#horror would start the game if he were first that way he'd get first turn and then get whiny when killer does it back#the knife goes chop chop chop NO IT DOESNT SILLY! the knife cuts the axe chops :3#horror's voice is all shaky and unstable from the anger and pain while killer's is smooth and calm despite him being hurt more#the dichotomy >>>> i love horrorkiller theyre my favorite mttduo!!!!#guy who feels too much and guy who doesnt feel enough. guy who tries to feel nothing is also there but this isnt about dust ok#cringe stuff i removed from the post: horrorkiller holding their mangled hands together while they play this game#the red and black of their blood mix together and drips on the floor from their ruined hands :3 so sweet..........#because horror needs a thing to squeeze while trying to pretend that killer stabbing through his fucking wrist doesnt hurt 💀#dust knows exactly what game they played the night before when horror starts wearing full gloves. and killer ditches his fingerless ones :3#kiiiillllerrrr stop showing off your stab wounds from your buddy thats not family friendly nor is it straight 😒😒😒😒#tricule hc#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#he's MENTIONED (like always. if the 3rd member of the trio wasn't mentioned in tags who would i be)#sans au#utmv#horrorkiller#horrorkiller nation (grand total of 5 people) cmere pspsspspspspsps#1/10 DONE for christmas uaagahhh. why did i tag this hrkl when technically all of my posts could be seen as mttpoly anywausLMAO im so tired#off to do the other 9/10 posts i have to finish.....hahahahaah iM SO TIRED WEARE STILL NOT OPENING GIFTS YET WTF PLEASE I WONT STAY AWAKE
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knifekris · 6 months ago
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every day i struggle to make choices
#i should invest into some kind of education but cant make up my mind#mostly because options suck#i cant do trades unless my body sucks less which is sad because id love to be an electrician#cant even think about getting a pilots license cuz im not passing the med cert#i think id rather die than be a med assistant actually#working clinics at all makes me nervous tbh but probably where im headed in the short term#surgical tech would be cool but i cant do a Real program while working full-time#which is what limits most of my choices#i need to find more paid training programs i guess#if i had to pick a miserable but fulfilling job id go into education itself#but the teaching profession has always been in a downward spiral esp as of late#i dont want healthcare because i hate seeing dysfunctional glorified murder machines grinding around and around endlessly#acute care sucks id rather be in an icu for function but then im depressed because our patients are always dying#it was better as a phleb but this hospital doesnt have phleb and like i said im nervous about clinics#but i need to fucking commit to outpatient phlebotomy i think :/#the most fun ive had at a job ever#i wish i had more widely applicable skills but i cant be an emt/para even just for the training#because half of it is unpaid and the other half you pay for#and again#a job NOTORIOUS for being exhausting dangerous and traumatizing#if i was 17 again and wasnt escaping the tar pit of my mother id go for an english degree and i wouldnt even regret it#thinking about school in terms of a job i have to have forever vs for the sake of learning is so different#id like to know everything. i wanna read and write forever. and do research and have real technical skills that help people#im still riding off of the high of getting 5 ccs off of an oncology patient who desperately needed a port#they were able to run like seven tests off of it#i had to use a couple ped tubes#she only had to get poked Once and barely noticed it bc the doc team came in and im so happy i made her admission that muvh easier#labs are so miserable#checking back on the blood and seeing all of the results came through made me more pleased than anything else in the world
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dreamlogic · 2 months ago
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aye can i get a fuckin uuuhhhh
break. on my burger
#shit chat#family cw#got sicker than i have been in years my bank closed my checking account on accident work is nightmarishly busy#and my mother is sending strings of long voice memos in the family group chat again#i simply will not be listening to them. at most i'll ask my dad or brother for the sparknotes version#bc her pattern for the better part of this year has been radio silence. no attempt at communication whatsoever#and then BAM like 5-10 min worth of voice memos screaming crying sobbing shaking#I DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO TO GET MY CHILDREN TO FORGIVE ME. I'M CRAWLING ON MY KNEES ON THE DESERT FOR A HUNDRED YEARS REPENTING#WHAT THE FUCK IS FAMILY FOR YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING AND I'M SUFFERING SO MUCH AND I'M ALONE BECAUSE#MY FAMILY ABANDONED ME. I HAVE NO ONE. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I DID BUT I'M BEGGING. I NEED HELP I NEED MY KIDDOS AROUND ME PLEASE I'M DYING#followed by several minutes of sordid updates on her shitty miserable life#which is tbf pretty shitty & miserable. she's extremely physically disabled & mentally ill#her partner had a severe stroke a couple months ago and is still recovering. they've both been in & out of hospital#neither working. partner's adult son who lives with them is the only income in the household#partner's permanently disabled mother also lives with them. plus 2 large dogs 6 cats and 3 each of chickens & ducks#they're in court suing their landlord bc he's trying to evict them but the property is an uninhabitable shithole to begin with#but like. whenever i do make the mistake of responding to one of her groupchat tantrums#she's just like 'oh you know me im a survivor :) i just miss yous is all :) now that you're here i'm gonna bitch about my life for an hour#and ignore everything you have to say and show active disdain & boredom whenever you tell me anything about yourself or your life :)'#and if i offer help she refuses it#like it's just a bid for attention. expecting unconditional love and absolution and salvation from us bc That's What Families Do#she doesn't actually seem to give a shit about any of us as real people. just this ironclad delusion of unconditional family support#that she frankly has not earned#my brother actually did go visit her in the hospital on thanksgiving. driving 2hrs out of his way to do so#and she was a raging passive aggressive bitch to him and threw the gift he'd brought her back in his face#ma'am i know you're Going Through It but so are the rest of us & frankly you've given me zero reason to want to interact w/ ur caustic ass#plus this is petty but yet another way in which she doesn't listen to me & makes no attempt whatsoever at genuine relationship#i've told her numerous times that responding to groupchat voice memos is hard for me. that i love & miss her#and if she wants to see me or needs help or whatever to please contact me one on one either by call or text#nope. refuses to respond to/initiate individual contact. ONLY traumadumping in the fam chat. TLDR MY MOM IS A DISFUNCTIONAL TOXIC NIGHTMARE.
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puppppppppy · 1 year ago
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for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........
#MOTHER FFFFUCKER#to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants#im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night#at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn#to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS#the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori#but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey#consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!!#just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick#outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to#animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better#at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH#i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc#im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over#where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands#there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE#ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles#but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your#health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!!#im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves#also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet#im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to#have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to#to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up#their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ#yapping
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