#please no one look at me
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having the deep unwavering urge to be john price’s housewife—always soft and warm and completely pliant under his touch, always patiently waiting for him and phone calls and the rare yet perfectly worth the wait video chats. to be taken care of in a pretty house in a quiet town, with price printed on the mailbox in curvy letters and mail that is addressed to price residence.
the way the door to his study is perpetually open—you like to leave it that way, just a smidge because you don’t want the room to stop smelling like him, but walking past the closed door to your husband’s office makes you a little too sad every day. so cracked open it is—sometimes you curl up on the armchair in there and stare at the various decorations—some picked by you (a couple shots from your wedding, a frame holding your vows because john swears he feels better when he looks at the paper) and others that came with him (medals and other things that you look at but never touch) and you have to hold back the water works.
you miss him so much it almost hurts to sit here and stare at his empty desk chair, your mind fills in the blanks and can picture the way he would look at you, glancing up from paperwork with a smile that has your head spinning. he knows—always has known, from the day he met you, even from the very hour, what you’re feeling and how to make it better.
but you’re a good wife—one of the many things you’d promised in those very vows, to always be patient, to always remember that toe-curling, ecstatic feeling when he finally comes home to you, because that feeling is worth all of this. you were made to be john’s, in every single way, but maybe there’s an easier way not to miss him so much every single day. (there’s really not, but when john comes home, you figure you’ll give it a try anyways. what’s the harm?)
you jump into his arms and keep your hands tight around him—he does the same to you, like you’ll disappear from under his fingers if he doesn’t hold on tight enough. and after a kiss that leaves your knees weak and realizing just how lovely the scratch of his beard feels back on your neck, you get on your toes and ask your husband if he wants to put a baby in you.
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give me clay, and give time,
and i will show you what the,
what the soul really is.
#my nonsense#:( sigh#ohhhh#please no one look at me#im having a moment#if you know me irl no you dont#fuck it#if you know me no you don’t#nobody knows me#ohh these hands were meant for expressing and arting#yearning#wlw yearning but art is my wife and poverty is my cruel mistress#depression and art go so well together#i am off my meds#i love you#i love the ground#i love the stray animals i see#i love everything#but i cant#express it#is it a thing to be depressed about not being to create horrifyingly true art that simply doesnt make sense at first glance#is it my own destiny to always jump for what I'm not tall enough to grasp?#i am the cause#i am the flaw#i am the heart#i am the hand#i care so much#i care so little#ok fine i reveal myself as a peter stamatin kinnie
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There’s that post that’s like ‘everyone should get into a tiny niche fandom at least once’ fully agree, that was really fun -- but I would like to add that everyone should get into a fandom where their opinions run counter to major fanon because it really teaches you about sticking to your guns and trusting your interpretation of the text without having to rely on peer validation
because WHAT are people talking about sometimes
#aka: genuinely sometimes I think I live in a parallel universe and simply watched/read different things#full disclosure it does make you feel like a killjoy sometimes#because often times these fanons will be presented in a silly jokey manner#'oh so silly isn't this character so funny this is just my silly little headcanon'#and it's like yes yes lol lol but ok look me in the eyes and tell me you know that this is#at best only one interpretation of many and at worst simply not supported by the text at all#please tell me you know that#or in one specific example such a ubiquitous joke that is literally a significant theme of the work and i feel like SUCH a killjoy#being like 'ok yes very funny.....you know that was a major theme right?? tell me you know that'
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#hehe#seal meme#love this animal meme#seal#EDIT: OH FUCK THIS HAS OVER 1K NOTES. thats wild#2k#3k#that one clip of patrick looking under his house yelling WHO ARE YOU PEOPLE#sprout speaks#4k#5k#10k#15k#20k#25k#30k#35k#40k#45k#ok what big blog reblogged this. please god help me#50k#60k
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be careful what you wish for, Fordsy
commission info here
#gravity falls#the book of bill#stanford pines#bill cipher#billford#ford pines#my art#my fanart#that one scene in lilo and stitch but make it the beggining of toxic yaoi#holy shit the bgs actually look great on this what possesed me#Ford's self isolated ass like “please I need a higher power to help me and maybe make me feel less lonely”#and a higher power answered#but powerfull does not mean bening as Ford was soon to find out#they make me insane#less shippy than my other stuff but
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"we know how to move our bodies, but i didn't know how to manage my heart, so you need help for this"
hi we need to talk more about judo gold medallist christa deguchi.
#maybe i need her#that video about her battling mental health woes in 2021... ;___; i love her#she's all over the japanese forums the past few days#and the wlw community is going feral shfgshjfk#some of them call her “the one who got away”#and “my wife who was too hot for japan judo to handle but is now thriving under canada”#and today i just saw a post that just says:#i just learnt about deguchi-sama and then i rolled over in bed and looked at my husband#and thought to myself: maybe he's not the love of my life#in love with her actually#incredible things happening ;___;#also she has the three cutest cats........... please let me raise them with you....#long post#christa deguchi#team canada#olympics#paris 2024#cats#cats of tumblr#wlw#wlw post
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because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.
you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.
you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.
don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.
if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.
you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:
how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!
aren't you happy yet?
#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail''#ah tumblr...#writeblr#warm up#idk . having trouble writing rn#ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum#i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for#i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" .....#no.... not really.....#idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography#like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days#furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing...#this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey.#idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me.#i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will#actually ever happen#ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum
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still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)
anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#calling dibs on skeleton kisses as the name of my band#man scully is just a delightful little weirdo and i'm enjoying him immensely#(i'm going with scully until we get something official just because it makes me think of x-files)#(スカリー is also how the agent's name is transliterated and i don't know if it was intentional but i love it as a bonus reference)#(i want to believe™)#gosh though#'no one at school likes me because i won't shut up about halloween and jack skellington' i'm feeling VERY attacked right now twst#look scully your people are out there#just get on the forums and -- oh wait you're probably from like the 1800s or something#(my theory is that he's from the past and there's just some Book Magic going on to bring us together)#(LOOK they made a point of saying that the book fair has been held annually for a super long time)#a hot topic goth born before hot topic was invented...so sad 😔#i dunno i could be wrong but that feels like a good working theory for now#if it wasn't for mal sensing twsty ~magic~ on him i would think he's like. a christmas elf who's going to kidnap jack in a reverse-nmbc#(not ruling that out though because it would be amazing)#god all the sprites in this event look AMAZING. loving the desaturated colors and the extra drawn-on lines 😍#i'm genuinely kinda sad that we aren't gonna get to see every character like this#who knows...maybe halloweentown will be imperiled again next year...#come back and destroy my keys again please#(that said i'm doing weirdly well so far?)#(i promised i'd save for sebek and just do cursory pulls to get the SRs and not hope for the SSRs)#(...but then leona jumpscared me four coffins in anyway. halloween magic is REAL)
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thinkign about characters i like being sweet and tender with each other
#specifically 8 and grace no one touch me im fine#edit: this blew up so just to clarify this isnt my image i just didnt expect this to explode . please do not think this is mine#unless you are looking at the newly added doctor who image which i DID put together
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Birds of a Feather
#genshin impact#arlecchino#peruere#clervie#arlevie#PLEASE TAKE THIS POS DRAWING IM SICK OF LOOKING AT IT#that one billie eilish song got me in a chokehold and i went a lil deranged once more#the party ended an hour ago and im still here
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Our boy is a fashion icon!!!
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And in the end, Rouge was like, “You know what? Sure.”
#kinda makes me sad to think Roger might have been with rouge just so he could have a son#but hey if it was mutual then that’s so funny#(please have my baby) *rouge looks Roger over* (sure)#also roger literally spent his whole life surrounded by dudes. bro does not know how to talk to women#art#digital art#my art#fanart#drawing#one piece#portgas d rouge#gol d roger#sketchhh
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jinx is hilarious. "i'm not a homophobe, just a hater."
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#the way vi looked so pissed man ALKSDFJASLKFDJA#no one ask me how i screenshotted off netflix (please do)#no one ask me (do)#caitvi#caitlyn kiramman#jinx#vi#arcane#arcane spoilers
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dad with a dog that he didn't want after a week.
#i tried a new way to draw this time#i actually struggled a bit with nicks face#that one time a year where i can draw folds#please forgive me for dogmeat looks i dont know how to draw animals#art#digital art#illustration#artists on tumblr#fanart#fallout#fallout 4#nick valentine#miki walentyna#fallout companions#fallout fanart#fallout 4 nick valentine#fallout art#fallout 4 companions#dogmeat#fallout dogmeat#fo4 dogmeat#ted art
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Hi i’m reaching soo hard but.
It’s not a 1-1 match, moreso about the habits? Nervous arm clutch, leaning forward when mad, clasping hands a lot, the smug side lean. Loop shares the most similarities with Siffrin, but I like to think they picked up some habits from the party too (after all they had a looong time to memorize those😁)
#isat#isat loop#isat spoilers#2hats spoilers#listen. hear me out#sorry if someone else pointed this out already#the isa one is funny to me because they have the same tick but very differently#isa does it when he’s nervous or embarassed#loop does it when they’re uncomfortable or feel cornered#odile one is vibes only i looked at their sprites and went. this lean feels familiar. and then looked at hers. sorry if its a stretch😁🙏#Siffrin also does that forward lean. i like to think he picked it up from bonnie but the vice versa is cute too#mira and loop clasp hands very differently but. they both do it a lot#guys please im cooking please no dont go💔#in stars and time#isat odile#isat isabeau#isat mirabelle#isat bonnie
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cursed kids v2 ⚠️👹
i've been a jjk first years stan since day one and have been wanting to redraw the first art i did featuring the three of them
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#itadori yuuji#fushiguro megumi#kugisaki nobara#yuuji#megumi#nobara#fanart#jjk fanart#im so tired help but theyre DONE im sososoosos pleased with them#even yuuji who dug his heels in to th very end :'>>>#wow 2020 rly was 4 years ago huh#to my credit i still think the designs i came up with in th og r honestly really good???#obv i didn't do a fullbody redraw (n thank god fr that) so i couldn't include All my details and there were some things that i edited#but overall they r solid !!!! i rly regret tht i couldn't include nobara's fishnets dgfhs#gave her her bat instead . equivalent exchange :)#she has one in the original but i specifically remember being bummed that the pose didnt let me show the nails that were in it#so took Full advantage of the new pose here !! she has killed before and will kill again#other changes....yuuji's omamori earring n sword details r New! as is the decision to include his canon scars :> fits the vibe#megumi changed the least?? changed the tassels n colour of his shoulder kanji to match yuuji and gave him a cigarette to fill empty space#other than that i think th majority of his changes r just me getting better at drawing megu#god the edited poses make these designs sing im so happy i did this#these r my kids !!!!! they have grown with me!!!!!#i am very proud and also sleep deprived and i need to not look at these anymore
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