#please I need someone to talk to about this so badly

[stuck-in-jelly]

With the new lens of Corvus knowing how Soren feels about him and Soren being a bit oblivious I also started thinking about wing man Terry during the hunt for Parrow too.

Terry trying so hard to wingman for Soren and Corvus because it’s painful for him at this point watching them flirt and seemingly never get that they are both very into each other. How can two people so perfect for each other not realize this!

Until one night after they’ve set up camp Corvus walks over to Terry and tells him they need to chat. Privately.

Terry of course does not like the sound of that and is pretty nervous as Corvus leads him deeper and deeper into the woods until finally Corvus turns around and is like:

“Hey. I know what you’re trying to do with me and Soren and I need you to stop.”

Terry starts getting embarrassed saying something along the lines of “oh sources I totally misread your feelings for each other didn’t I? Im so sorry I promise I wont-“

“No you’re right. We have feelings for each other.”

“Oh…oh! You’re already together!”

“No.”

“….I uh, I’m a little confused?”

Corvus kind of nods and sits down, patting the floor to let Terry know he is welcomed to join him. This is a weird conversation to have out loud so they might as well get comfortable.

Corvus awkwardly prefaces the conversation with how he isn’t great with words but continues on.

He tells Terry he’s known Soren has been in love with him for years but he has only realized recently he has also been in love with Soren for years.

Terry asks him if he knows why hasn’t he said or done anything about it? Corvus shrugs even though he knows the answer. He confides that he wants Soren to figure it out for himself, that the last thing Soren needs is someone telling him how he feels and what to do and how to act about it.

He wants Soren to make his own choice. If Soren realizes his feelings and wants to make a move he’ll be happy to reciprocate but if Soren realizes and decides be doesn’t want to do anything with it then that’s his choice.

He loves Soren and he wants him happy, that doesn’t mean it needs to be with him at least not right now. He’s been through so much and he still tries to smile but until the smile isn’t forced Corvus doesn’t want to rush into anything not until Soren is ready.

He has spent so much time haunted in the shadow of his family, and its been 3 years but Soren needs more time to be himself away from the chains of his history.

Terry can’t help but think back when Claudia had asked him to tell her what to do, how he declined. Sometimes guilt seeps into the memories of the times he could’ve told Claudia what to do, told her to not go down this path, but the feeling of control over her would’ve felt worse.

Its just now that Terry is realizing how badly Viren messed up both his kids.

Despite the memories Terry smiles cause he gets it now, these two are working in reverse from him and Claudia. Soren just needs time to be himself and Corvus is patient. He doesn’t need to rush things for them, they both are right where they want to be with each other right now.

Terry bumps Corvus’s shoulders and says Soren is lucky to have such a great future partner.

So although he’s playfully rolling his eyes when he watches Corvus rest his chin on Soren’s shoulder when they fly with a pleased look or when Soren can’t stop talking about Corvus when they split up with that wistful look in his eyes, or when Soren starts singing extremely off key and Corvus starts hums along he knows all they need is a bit of time.

That love they have for each other isn’t going anywhere anytime soon.

[colorlessjay]

I love love love your Promises kept AU. How did you even come up with that premise ??? More Promises kept AU please 🥺🥺 Also, does Dean not call Cas "Cas" in the future od Promises kept au ??

OKAY SO

idk if anyone is interested in this AU, but!

I got the idea from the song Wondering Why by The Red Clay Strays. I saw a tiktok of Jensen singing it

Originally, it was just gonna be an animation. But I guess the idea expanded until I started rambling about it to I think the Reverse Destiel Bang discord group? That or maybe Destiel inc.

Either way, I just needed someone to talk about it with. Ended up sliding into @farenmaddox's DMs and word-vomited everything to them. So be sure to follow them cause they are a fantastic writer

Anyways, the basic idea was that what if a love story where both Dean and Cas are fully aware of each other's feelings, but society, self-doubt, and their promises to each other are the things keeping them apart

Like, instead of misunderstandings, it's a story about them pining for each other.

like seeing one another from opposite ends of a chasm, wanting so badly to reach each other.

While Dean keeps trying to jump over, desperate to get to Cas, falling and getting hurt but never giving up, Cas is shackled on the other side, trying to build Dean a bridge so he doesn't get hurt anymore, but at the cost of his shackles getting tighter and getting further away from the cliff

oh also. "Promises Kept" isn't a permanent title. Was just the first thing I called it. Will definitely change it one day with Faren's help

anyways, boom shakalaka

[deadstaticolivia]

So,,,that new icebound episode huh?

[daughtersofzaun]

I want to make a long post about the hyperspecificities of arcane that have been eating me alive for the past couple months, for a couple reasons. For one, they are all I have been thinking about since I watched the show. It felt almost disoreinting how represented I felt while watching season one, and that was a new feeling for me. The second reason is because I see other people saying the same thing, and for the first time in a really long time, I dont feel alone in my relationship with my sister.

I heavily relate to Jinx. Part of that is the fact that she is a really good representation of CPTSD and BPD, and that isn’t something that is very common to see in my opinion, but more importantly, its her relationship with Vi. My parents are very good people and I never doubt that they did their best, but they never really cared much about me, and I was neglected. Most of the time it was just emotionally, so you know not really the end of the world, but it did mean that my sister was my only person. I have written a couple paragraphs on here about Jinx where I really have just been projecting, but let me write out the specifics of my situation and then you can try and spot the difference:

I had just turned 13 (powder act 1 is estimated to be 11/12?). I was already fairly mentally ill and it was probably going to get worse but it wasnt the worst thing in the world. I had my family that I’m sure loved me but I didn’t see or believe that at the time. I was really not doing that well, but I did have my sister. My sister was smart, and funny, and so insanley creative and talented and I absolutley worshipped that girl. Everything she did, I wanted to do it too and be just as good as her (I never was). And then my sister (who was 15 at the time) killed herself. And while this is obviously not the same situation as Jinx and Vi, I can’t help but obssess over the similarities. When my sister left me I felt so betrayed. I was angry that I was now alone, and even more than that I was angry that I had failed as a sister. After spending my entire life just trying to be like her and be like someone that she could like as much as i liked her, I was cut off. I no longer got to try anymore. It was essentially the world telling me game over. And I felt like I was the one that died. The disconnect from myself, my childhood, and even my name, were all things that I have spent years thinking about. And not only did I disconnect, but I went a little crazy. I ruined relationships, I destroyed any semblance of my old identity, and I yelled. A lot. I only started season one of Arcane back in November, coincidentally less than two weeks after the seven year aniversary of my sisters death, and holy shit. I saw me and her in jinx and vi before even finishing act one, and then I saw us even more in the following acts. Season two was maybe even worse. Some of the reasons for this I just physically cannot write out (maybe for lack of the right words, or maybe I just don’t want to), but one thing in episode eight was just discustingly specific. CW nightmares and suicide for the following btw:

For a couple years after my sisters suicide, I got these horrible reccuring nightmares. And they weren’t all the same, but the generaly plot line was that my sister was about to kill herself and there was nothing I could do about it. One of the specific ones- and you might see where this is going- was this nightmare where I was in some type of cell (occasionally a traditional one, other times something a litte wierder and more dream-like) and my sister was going to leave to go kill herself, and she woud tell me this. And there was nothing I could do. Anyways, there was something crazy gutwrenching about seeing the nightmare that made you afraid to go to sleep for years animated in a tv show with charcters you’ve already projected your entire life on.

Also, sibling grief is not a commonly relatable type of issue. Especially not sibling grief that was violent and traumatic. And after feeling so alone for so many years, seeing myself represented and seeing other people relate to these characters has been really intense.

I’m probably not ever going to be done rambling about them, but for now I think I am.

[t-u-i-t-c]

"This is a nice planet you got here."

[laurrelise]

once again rambling about five and lila because i’m fucking pissed. enjoy

“five and lila were perfect for each other because they had so much in common” yet so many perfect couples have absolutely nothing in common???

they could relate to each other in ways that made them hate each other and that’s why they were SUCH good foil characters, i don’t understand why the romance had to be necessary.

there is absolutely no reason that this romance plotline should’ve been created. it was so ridiculously off-focus from what the plot was (AND should have been) and it literally only made the season so much worse.

do writers understand that not every single character has to fall in love with one another? i mean genuinely?

personally i don’t believe five is aro (though he could be ace) because i can’t help but love five’s love for delores (even if she wasn’t real) but i completely understand five aroace truthers because he truly can be independent romantically as we saw in the show.

i cannot wrap my fucking head around the fact that the writers saw two awesome, dynamic, badass characters with arcs and goals outside of love and attention and decided to turn their personalities inside out and upside down for a dumbass dead-end romance that makes zero sense.

five and lila were the only two people on god’s green earth who could understand each other and hated the other for it. why couldn’t they just be frenemies and call it a day?

god fucking damn it i’m so upset

shoutout to 13 year old 58 year old five hating lila and 29 year old lila despising the fuck out of little five !!! <3

fuck you to the worst, most nonsensical couple of all time and space ❌❌

[universalthaumaturge]

so. chapter 5 huh.

[ghostboyhood]

i hate you season 4-6 abed i hate you i hate you

[silent-sentinels]

i need everyone to understand that i am trying my best and i hate every second of it.

[tmae3114]

Ephesians 4:29, also known, to me, specifically, as the "do not get into stupid arguments on the internet" verse-

[fragglerockopinions]

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[sammygender]

my biggest goal of all time is to get put on a fic recs list

[buttercuparry]

In less than two months it will be October 7th again.

In less than two months, it will be a year of genocide. 

In light of this, I just have only one request for you; please do not give into whatever you are describing as “compassion fatigue” right now.

Realize that this is exactly what the colonizers conducting this genocide want you to feel. Realize that apathy during a genocide is what leads to the normalization of atrocities. Realize that this is a tried and tested method found throughout history; that now when the genocide is been widely documented by Gazans themselves- the only way the colonizers can get away with it is by running you down and making you feel hopeless!

They want you to stop caring about their victims and this is why you need to fight harder now more than ever!!

I request you to fight harder for every Gazan! And therefore request you to fight for my friend Siraj Abudayeh too, whose family recently faced another assault. His parents and siblings had to flee to him for protection, because their areas ( Hamad, southern Khan Younis) were marked for assault from occupation forces. With the number of people depending on him increased now, Siraj has a much heavier responsibility on his shoulders to raise enough funds to support all of them and their needs, when prices of food water and other essentials are already skyrocketing.

With the coming of the rainy season, there comes the danger of epidemics spreading from open sewers as well! Siraj’s son Amir has already fallen ill, and his other two sons are showing symptoms too- they are in dire need of medical treatment! I cannot overstate how badly Siraj and his family need these funds!! How badly he needs your continuous support.

There has been a significant drop in engagement with fundraising posts and I very clearly remember, someone tagging one of my posts with compassion fatigue. It shocked me to my core to think that the cries of Free Palestine could fade so suddenly; that after only a year some of you have begun to feel fatigued, from having to care about this.

Do not give in please; do not let the colonizers make you complicit in this horror! They know that if they can overwhelm you enough, then one day the videos and posts would stop hitting as hard and sooner or later everyone will stop talking about Palestine. This cannot happen again! Not when your attention can literally save a life! This is the power you hold- especially if you are living in the Imperial core. The colonizers are afraid of it. You have to know this and believe this!

So please do not turn away and help Siraj get to 50k as soon as possible!

He is currently only at $45,044 / $82,000 CAD

[ GFM LINK ]

[ Vetting at 219 on Hussein's spreadsheet]

And if you are having trouble donating to Siraj's fundraiser through Paypal, please get in touch with @malcriada .

[phagodyke]

venting sorry... don't want to just delete it bc it helps to get it out just ignore this post pls 👍

haven't slept much at all and feeling so sick andstressed and in pain bc my period is due and so tired its making me dizzy but i cant sleep more or ill just feel more sick and I want a hug and to cry so hard into someones shoulder but no one cares or will even come near me it makes me feel diseased they think things about me that aren't true bc I struggle so much to communicate and thry all make assumptions insteqd and no one wants to give me space to talk to them about it so I cant undo that now and its all my fault and I'm so. exhausted :-(

[lohstandfound]

oh these new poems are shit

[ghostighostly-oldaccount]

School is just torture made specifically for autistics by the government im convinced