#phyiscal disability

[joy-haver]

What I learned from being sick.

When one thing goes wrong, it’s more likely that another will go wrong. But also, when you start to improve something, itll probably get easier to improve other things.

Everything is everything. Take small steps and big ones. prevent harm where you can. Cause and effect form loops that feedback and build more of what is already built.

This is the best thing and the worst thing. When you are in a position where things are going downhill so hard, it feel’s impossible to ever go up again. And that’s okay, it may be impossible. But what’s almost definitely possible is to slow it down. Remove as many factors from the loop as possible. Those that can’t be removed should be diminished.

What you will find is that you suddenly have all these small, positive feedback loops. Maybe youre eating in a way that makes you feel better, and that gives you more energy to cook, so you can eat a little better again and for a little cheaper. And maybe you are riding your bike a little more, which builds strength and makes injuries less common in your legs, and also means you can ride to pick up your own meds, making it less likely for you to get them late.

These small things add up. But more than that, they continually open up new opportunities for improvement that weren’t there before. This part of it is particularly important, because it means even the little things, the things that don’t amount to much on there own, don’t have to just be valued on their own merit. They are part of a greater push towards positive looping. They are integral steps that make up the whole.

But still, it’s not about “getting there”. There is no place to get too. You can’t go into this stuff hoping to be abled again. As much as possible, I’d advise avoiding specific goals. I really wanted to play guitar again and be able to draw. Those goals made me not see the possibilities of dobro and watercolor, which filled similar needs in my life, but we’re much more achievable with my hand issues.

It is good to know what needs aren’t being filled in your life, and to try and find the most accessible ways to fill them. We all need food, exercise, water, art, joy, time among plants, novelty, community, and deep trusting relationships. A big part of what disability is is not being able to get these needs met in the ways you want to or in ways that are best for you. This sucks. But sometimes, things are out of your control.

In AA, one asks for “The serenity accept the things you cannot change, the courage to change the things you can, and the wisdom to know the difference.”

With my disabilities, the courage to change what I can hasn’t been the primary limiter. The main issue I’ve had has been being too close minded on how something can change. I keep imagining narrower possibilities than what exists in reality. And that makes sense. None of us can see the whole of what’s possible at any moment. But that is where open mindedness and novelty can really open up a whole new world of recovery.

because recovery isn’t “I’ll be how I was before.”

It’s not “I’ll be the way I want to be” either.

Recovery is the process of learning how to fill your time. Recovery is the process of learning how to meet your needs. It’s about learning what options are available to you, and letting those lead to more options.

In doing this, start by doing whatever will be the most helpful for the least effort. This isn’t an exact science, and there is trial and error involved. For me, this means drinking enough water, eating within 3 hours of waking up, and putting on my back brace the moment my back reaches a certain pain threshold. Those are the easiest things I can do that will help the most. They form a foundation that allows me to do the next easiest, the next most helpful things, like the dishes, and socializing, and art. Those things help me cook more, thing clearer, and maintain my relationships of support with caregivers. All of that lets me exercise more, and build strength, and do laundry. Essentially, learn to apply the ideology of triage to your own disaiblity.

Okay< i don't have a conclusion to this that ties everything on it together, so ill say this

Everything is everything. Do what you can. Don't wait unless you have to.

[hamletisabitch]

Specialized OT when you have generalized issues can be so funny because like. I walk into therapy with a rib out of place and a knee that's not cooperating, but this is the Hand Specialist so the topic du jour is how my wrist is kinda swollen.

[rjalker]

Ableist: If you don't do X [having a job, not being homeless, voting, going out to physically protest despite no one wearing masks these days and the general inaccessibility of public spaces and /literal marching/, ect.], you're a bad person. No exceptions.

Physically disabled people: Yeah, a lot of us physically can't do that.

Ableist: Well, this disabled person [who has access to dozens of recourses you can only dream of] did it, so you have no excuse!

aka I'm still not over my mom's husband claiming that it doesn't matter if most homeless people are disabled, because one time he saw (saw, not met) a man with only one arm and no legs in a high-tech powered wheelchair who had a job, so homeless people who claim they can't get a job are just lazy.

he had no answer for why I was somehow magically different from disabled homeless people, because he knows I'm disabled and can neither get a job nor health insurance nor disability SSI because of the nature of my disability and not being born rich enough to be able to pull over 2k out of my pocket on a whim to pay for a psyche eval out of pocket, let alone pay for every test that would be required to ~prove~ that my hypermobility prevents me from standing long enough to do literally any job within walking distance.

no but really with protests, immuno-compromised people have been begging for years at this point for self-proclaimed leftists to wear masks, but everyone fucking refuses. But now abled people want to be holier than thou and say if you don't physically go out to protest it means you don't care, while ignoring the physically disabled people who literally physically cannot do that for any number of reasons, including the fact that every other protester there would be actively threatening your life by refusing to wear a mask to stop you from dying from Covid19.

Edit: Can't believe I forgot ableists' most favorite crime disabled people can commit: not being able to live independently!

[officialma]

At the very least every Burns family member has scoliosis now.

Graham I feel like has exercised-induced asthma? Def takes his inhaler before strenous rescues.

I can't think of anything else rn brain goes brrrrr.

[locketsvault]

「 CUDDLING WITH BSD MEN PT 4/4 」

pairings: tecchou x reader ፥ jouno x reader ፥ tachihara x reader

tags: gender neutral reader, fluff, cuddling/phyiscal affection

warnings: talks of disabilities in jounos part

other parts: ada ᨒ port mafia ᨒ doa + the guild ᨒ the hunting dogs

a/n: tachiharas is short since I haven’t entirely figured him out, I hope that’s okay!

// tecchou suehiro ⌇˚.༄

⮑ He promised you to always take care of you and he means it.

⮑ He pulls you into a hug by grabbing the back of your head and leading you into his arms. Sometimes he will even tuck your face into his neck. Honestly you could melt into his arms, he’s just that comfortable and safe. Don’t think too hard on it though, we all know he’s muscular—.

⮑ He has designated cuddles based on your mood, I’m dead serious. He is very observant and came to the opinion cuddle positions are based on moods. He’s surprisingly not wrong. If you have aches he will hold you close which rubbing/massaging the area. He is the definition of attentive.

⮑ He doesn’t see the appeal of pda but he doesn’t mind it either. If you’re the type to do pda then okay, if not that’s also okay. As long as it’s not flashy pda in front of his co workers.

⮑ His cuddles never fail, he’s always comfortable no matter what. Honestly I’d like to compare him to a security blanket. I’d love to at least hug this man, at least once.

⮑ 10/10 cuddles, you always come first to him.

// jouno saigiku ⌇˚.༄

⮑ My poor baby with insane hypersensitivity. Good luck.

⮑ It’s canon that all of his senses are very heightened. I feel like too much touch could easily overwhelm him. He’s talked about being able to hear heartbeats and internal body movements. I think that being too close to someone can overwhelm him not just talking about him telling tecchou to stop breathing. If you did cuddle it cannot be in silence or he could get overwhelmed.

⮑ And I imagine touch is a similar amount of torture for him. He feels everything x10. Too much touch can be suffocating to him. I adore jouno and physical touch, I’d love to say he loves cuddles, but in all honesty as someone who has a normal amount of hyper sensitivity I genuinely think it could get too much for him.

⮑ When he can handle cuddling he’s always in control or the big spoon. He keeps the touching to a minimum usually, like holding hands. But if he notices you need more he will compromise and give it to you. Sometimes though he will give in and let you hold him instead. Though sadly it’s usually when he crashes badly.

⮑ It takes a while but he will adjust to being able to hold each other close, which is quite nice. However when he does get overwhelmed he can be a bit mean I’m sorry but it’s true.

⮑ 3/10, it’s rare and minimum or else he might lose it.

// tachihara michizo ⌇˚.༄

⮑ I don’t really see him as much of a cuddler, especially when he’s under cover.

⮑ I don’t think he dislikes cuddling or physical affection, don’t get me wrong. I just don’t think it’s his style. Unless you tell him you enjoy it and would like to do it, he doesn’t do it much. And when he does, he’s such a guy about it.

⮑ He’s always a big spoon, I don’t see him being comfortable being a little spoon. Also this is very strange to say but he can act like such a sibling when cuddling you. Except when you or he needs it, then he takes it serious and is surprisingly gentle.

⮑ He does not like pda, he doesn’t understand the appeal and just doesn’t like it. When he’s with the port mafia he’s got an image to uphold, being in a relationship or at the least being affectionate is a big no. And with how much he gets teased by the other hunting dogs I’d say he tries his best not to get caught. It doesn’t always work though.

⮑ 3/10 cuddles, when you get your cuddles lol.

main hub ✦ masterlist ✦ to do list

[brbgensokyo]

this has been on my mind all month bc its disability pride month but a bizzare amount of inclusivity when it comes to phyiscal disability inclusivity within a narrative boils down to "we're the same! :D You can do it if you put your mind to it!" which is a lovely sentiment but it misses alot of the reality of actually being disabled. Seeing characters in wheelchairs in a fantasy setting comes across as silly to me especially when you could integrate them in a more sensible way

[welcome-home-official]

Can't believe I'm losing my Mondays now. Permanently. I swear if my boss tries to make me work *another* day after I've firmly established that I can't do more than three days of this kind of work-three days is at my PHYISCAL LIMIT, she complained about how much I pulled and sprained muscles before, WELL WHAT DO YOU THINK WILL HAPPEN????? I can't just un-disable myself, ma'am!! I didn't ask to have a body that's held together by glitter glue.

She pulls this because of football season, I'm quitting.

[rjalker]

I'm saying it again. The Cripplepunk tag is the only reason I was brave enough to buy myself l a cane. If you are not phyiscally disabled, Cripplepunk has nothing to offer you.

If you wouldn't argue that allistic people should be allowed to use the "actually autistic" tag, then you don't get to argue that ablebodied people should get to use the Cripplepunk tag.

There is constant fucking ableism against specifically physically disabled people online, and all physically disabled people are asking for is literally just one (read it, 1!) tag that's only for physically disabled people, where we won't see that kind of ableism.

But these sorts of people literally think wheelchair users existing in public is personally oppressing them "because having an accessible bathroom stall means there's fewer stalls overall".

And that's a real fucking thing people have said. People on this fucking website, and everywhere else ablebodied people and their bootlickers exist, literally think the existence of one accessible bathroom stall in some public restrooms is oppressing them, as though there aren't always at least two other stalls in the bathroom, as though you'd be shot on sight for using the accessible stall if the other ones were being used and you really had to go.

If you think it's "unnecessary" for physically disabled people to have just one fucking space that's only for physically disabled people, go fucking look at how ablebodied people react to wheelchair users asking to be allowed inside the fucking building.

[ID: Green text on a black background that reads:

"If you think ablebodied people belong in Cripplepunk, unfollow and block me. Physically disabled people deserve spaces free of the ableist bullshit ablebodied people bring with them everywhere, including online. If you think physically disabled people asking for one (1) fucking space just for ourselves makes us the same as TERFs, you're a horrible, ableist person and you should feel bad. Cripplepunk is not for ablebodied people." End ID.]

[ezralambu]

CAN'T I JUST FUCKING LIKE RID ETHE CYCLONE N LEGOLAND IN PEACE. IT'S NOT MY FUCKING FAULT SOME OF YOU DIPSHITS ARE TOO FUCKING STUPID TO UNDERSTAND SOMETHING SIMPLE IM LITERALLY PHYISCALLY DISABLED AND II LIKE IT OK OK OK SHUT THE FUCK UP LET MEE LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT BEING SJHAMED FOR UT

[justpracticingwritingalittle]

The OekytAlet

*irhuitallas ‘basket bearer’ -> oekubitalan?

(Dare I try to tackle this?) The oet-tir’s caste system is a near-direct inheritance of their division by the larger Fire Giants, and the rules they had to abide by. OekytAlet are a unique case of a caste determined by phyiscal (disability). The basketbearers at the height of the FiGi empire were, sadly, blinded (or born blind) so they may not relay to others the secrets of those whose belongings they carried. In the decline, more rules were imposed as FiGi officials who feared oet-tir rebellion as Jeimon coalitions pushed in. One of the most notable decrees was that of ek-kat (<ishas?) Bit’et - that no Oekytalan was allowed to join a family outside other Oekytalen. As a point of fact, many of them were ost in the final onslaught on Bokkunolit and those that remained to fill the caste were there because they could no longer do the work required of them higher up. These few had been regarded with hostility, lost connections to the gods whose cruelty they had internalized. Within a couple generations of Pelishon rule, these individuals were suddenly venerated and questioned for the memories of the gods that once ruled them before they all passed, as secret sources of wisdom their new rulers wrongfully thought were just well-cared for blind folk. Soon after, new oet-tir would be blinded to fill the caste

Oekytalat Attubanit was one of the [MEkidet Datub’atet] (ten blind ones), the last group of surviving oekytalen who would become venerated. She is arguably the most famous, as she secretly passed down the craft of the forge, allowing for the eventual selling of Bronze weaponry to competing powers who would assist in freeing them (for a time)

It would be inaccurate to say she is a god, but rather a Truthteller, a framing character/author of popular lief, in a similar function to biblical prophets but perhaps infused more with a power of divinity 

Many et-Tir will invoke Attuban in blessings of skill, of enduring in memory, and in curses of being forgotten. She is portrayed as all of the Ten Blind Ones are - in sturdy shoes, bindings for back support, no eyes, the Fire of TabelIdat around her head symbolizing her skill and her wisdom. 

Somewhere there is a once-collapsed tunnel, that if cleared out reveals an old Hall of Skulls, where her Skull rests in honor (until Fire returns)

[final-girlfriend]

i really hate how theres not like. good enough terms to talk about ableism. esp as someone who is both physically disabled and mentally ill/neurodivergent

like i cannot count the amount of times ive seen ablebodied neurodivergent people being incredibly ableist towards people with physical disabilities or on the other side people like my mother (who is physically disabled) being ableist to neurodivergent people

theres really no way to communicate this different forms of ableism without getting overly wordy like ive done here and it really negatively impacts conversations within disabled/neurodivergent communities. it also contributes to people within the community thinking that they cant be ableist to others around them. even the difference between invisible chronic illness and physical disability is really glaring sometimes and theres just no easy way to talk about that

[psychelocktango]

Kinda fucked up that the reason I don't see myself as the main character of my own life is not only because of trauma, but because of being a minority in many ways.

[crippledpunks]

i support you if you struggle to socialize due to disabilities. if hanging out with people is too stressful due to anxiety, OCD, PTSD, dissociative disorders, personality disorders, schizophrenia, depression, bipolar, autism, ADHD, or any other neurodivergence or mental illness, it's okay. if maintaining friendships and keeping up with plans is too difficult due to fibromyalgia, ehlers-danlos syndrome, arthritis, chronic pain, gastrointestinal disorders, chronic fatigue/low energy, epilepsy, neurodivergence, mental illness, learning disorders or any other health conditions, it's okay.

i support you if you find it difficult to keep up with making friends, socializing, or maintain relationships. i'm here for you if you want to have more friends and close relationships but struggle to maintain them and don't know how to or just can't due to your disabilities. i'm here for disabled people who don't seek relationships or close bonds for the sake of their own mental or phyiscal well-being. you know what's best for you. you are allowed to live according to what makes you feel safe and comfortable. i support you.

[describedposts]

[ID: Tumblr reply from @/feinstone - same with phyiscal disabilities tbh. End ID.]

when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people

the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to

[this-world-of-beautiful-monsters]

Disabled/Neurodivergent Turtles

List is also on AO3 here.

The Salamandria Saga by kalachelone - A Leotello story set at the end of the world (physical disability; tw family separation, explict nonhuman sex)

Blindspot AU by Valpoet - SAINW where the brothers all survive (blind Leo; tw trauma, depression, mentioned self-harm)

A warming hug from a warm family to warm your heart by Lokisbur - The turtles wake up from a Mutant Wasteland, and Donnie has it worse than the rest (autistic Donnie; tw panic attacks, trauma)

Prognosis by servantofclio- Leo and Donnie come to terms with the nature of Leo’s injury (Physically disabled Leo; tw guilt, internalized ableism)

Quiet by Fight_As_One - A Quiet Place AU where the Hamato clan fights for their lives (Deaf Leo; tw violence, grief, major character death, guilt, trauma, horror)

Deadweight by MorikoTheHalfAngel- Leo and his family try to cope with all the scars Shredder left (Physically disabled Leo;; tw injury, trauma, panic attacks, nightmares)

Send Your Lifeboats Out For Me by Crowdog@Crowdog - Leo gets caught off guard and suffers life-altering consequences (Permanently injured Leo; tw eating disorders, rape, sexual abuse, tcest, panic attacks, child abuse)

Got Your Back by FoxGlade- Donnie comes to terms with the things that separate him from his family (Physically disabled Donne; tw discussions of ableism)

superfight by swordfright- Donnie and Leo’s latest fight spirals out of control (Phyiscally disabled Donnie; tw family dysfunction and mentions of ableism)

Silenced by DreamerofCurses- Leo struggles to communicate his new revelation to his father, with painful results (Vocally impaired Leo; tw child abuse)

Not Our Problem by Kyn- Leo hears a baby in a dumpster and unfurls the surviving turtles’ fragile lives (Blind Leo and OC with learning/developmental disability; tw violence, explict sex, attempted rape, family dysfunction, suicidal behavior, fascism, poverty, family separation, grief)

The Chronicles of Karai Getting Her Shit Together by Crowdog@50-shades-of-cloaca - A multi-chapter tries to survive with the help of a new family (Blind Donnie and physically

disabled/depressed Leo; tw underage rape, sexual abuse, trauma, victim blaming, internalized victim blaming, mental health issues, gore, torture)

spectrum by m00nie- Leo has autism and it won’t be overlooked forever (Auistic Leo; tw meltdowns, internalized ableism)

A = B = C by Screamless- Donnie learns to connect with his family in his own way (Autistic Donnie and ADHD Mikey; tw internalized ableism)

Mind Meld Part Deux by goldenspecter- ROTTMNT AU where Donnie can’t get away from what he did to his brothers forever (Autistic turtles and autistic/DID Raph; tw betrayal, family dysfunction, possible ableism)

I would not wish any companion in the world but you by BrightLotusMoon, Sissystinger- A reality spanning adventure exploring hearts and minds between the Bayverse and ROTTMNT universe (Autistic and ADHD turtles; tw ableism, violence, family dysfunction)

Bad at Communication by Lovely_Dovely - Donnie tries to help Leo out (Autistic Donnie and ADHD Leo; tw anxiety, insomnia)

It's 5 AM, Mikey by Screamless- Donnie puts his scheming brain to work when Mikey stays up too late (Autistic Donnie and ADHD Mikey; tw insomnia)

Assuming Command by slipstream- Bayverse AU where Raph keeps Donnie from falling apart as the family flees New York for their lives (Autistic Donnie; tw panic attacks, mentioned violence)

Trans Michelangelo by leaderinblue- Mikey experiences something very ugly (ADHD Mikey; tw underage rape, misgendering, violence, trauma)

kids by Hyakkei- Splinter asks Mikey and Leo a question (ADHD Mikey; sort-of-tcest)

Troubled Turtle by Crazy_Comet_97 - No one notices Mikey slipping towards the edge (Depressed/ADHD Mikey; tw suicidal thoughts, family dysfunction)

three o'clock in the morning by agotdamnclown- Leo is kept awake by a stream of dark thoughts (ADHD Leo with anxiety; tw self-esteem issues)

i can make you happy, too! by paindump- Mikey prepares to make a terrible choice (Depressed and ADHD Mikey; tw suicidal thoughts, suicide attempt, depression, self-hatred, self-harm)

Enough by jelliclekitten- The turtles try to pull themselves together after Splinter pushes too hard (neurodivergent Donnie; tw child abuse, injuries)

Breathe by asandygraves for Werepirechick- Leo helps Raph keep himself together after a bad fight (tw dissociation, panic attacks)

turtles all the way down (and down and down and down) by leones- Leo struggles with intrusive thoughts (Leo struggles with OCD, although the author doesn’t want to fic to be taken as a an accurate portrayal; tw mentions of underage noncon, mentions of injury, self-loathing, self-hatred, internalized ableism)

soft words and even softer blankets by leones - Mikey helps a brother in need (Depressed Leo; tw internalized ableism)

pathetic by cxlesstial - Donnie has a secret he can't keep anymore (tw internalized ableism, self-harm, self-loathing)

Silk and Steel by katanashipping (stopbeingbored)- Usagi to help Leo as best he can (Leo with PTSD and depression; tw past injury)

Dog Days by runawaydirtbag - Karai helps Leo out during a dark stretch (Depressed Leo; tw self-hatred)

clinging to hope (what else is there to live for?) by leones - Leo receives help from an expected source (Depressed Leo; tw suicidal thoughts, implied self/harm)

ride it out by leones - Raph tries to help Leo at a dark moment (Depressed/PTSD Leo and Raph; tw dissociation)

A Petal Falling by FoxTheWriter- (Leo with anxiety and depression; tw panic attacks, eating disorders)

"I swear, I don't know who's killing you!" by leones - Leo celebrates a good day with his brothers (Depressed Leo)

No One Notices by Anonymous - Leo is overwhelmed with dark thoughts (Depressed Leo; tw self-harm, blood, self-harm)

On Some Days by Justalittleobsessed - MIkey doesn’t want to be the only one left (Depressed Mikey; tw trauma, grief, suicidal thoughts)

My R by cxlesstial - Leo’s pain brings him face to face with everyone else’s (Depressed/PTSD Leo and everyone else, tw trauma, suicide attempt, suicidal thoughts)

Play the Fool, Pity the Fool. by Werepirechick - Mikey is pushed over the edge (tw suicidal attempt, family dysfunction)

And this is just my own stuff

“ senses ” by with friends like these, who needs - Raphael isn’t the first person to underestimate Mrs. Morrison (tw mentions of discrimination)

mind meld and me: some random autistic bullshit- My meta babbling about TMNT and autism, feel free to overlook competely (tw discussions of ableism and brief mentions of torture)

“ we can take it real slow ” from you could try and take us (but we're the gladiators) - Usagi helps Leo get ready to face the day (tw past injuries, mild internalized ableism)

gonna pop some tags - The TMNT shop for each other (physicall disabled Leo; tw mentioned tcest, frank discussions of sexual stuff)

i promise that you'll breathe again- Raph, Mikey, and Donnnie survive together (tw past alcoholism, grief, trauma, past tcest)

nothing here for me anymore (but I don't wanna be alone)- Karai and Leo flee for their lives together (physically disabled Leo; tw past underage rape, past sexual abuse, past forced marraige, past domestic violence, past abuse)

wave your hands in the air if you feel fine - Leo and his crew pack in for the night together (amputee Casey; tw incest, alcohol, past child abuse)

new year who dis by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters for Crowdog, leones- A list of Leoraigami New Years’ resolutions (physically disabled Leo; tw mild internalized ableism)

[dandylion240]

Part 2 @izayoichan

[ 💍 ] does your muse have a “type” of people that they prefer to enter relationships with? is their type generally compatible with them, or does the dynamic tend to be toxic?

Jayden has only ever been in a relationship with Evan. Evan is such a caring and empathetic person that Jayden felt instantly drawn to him. He didn't feel the pressure to put on a show to impress him. He could be himself. Unfortunately early in their relationship Jayden took Evan's easy going nature for granted. He ignored Evan's needs until Evan felt invisible. However Jayden really did love Evan and put forth the effort to become a better person.

[ 🏆 ] is your muse multitalented? what are their hobbies, and why did they pick up these hobbies? if they don’t have hobbies, why don’t they?

From a young age Jayden was always drawn to the arts. He can play most instruments although he lacks the drive to be really great at it. He has a good singing voice. He can paint to and was really good at it too. What he really enjoyed was sports, especially track. There's nothing like getting up early and going for a run. However since his accident he's not able to be that physically active anymore. For a while he drifted uninspired to do anything. However that's changed since they've adopted Ryan. He's picked up a paint brush for the first time in ten years and the old feeling of doing something that fills him with purpose is burning inside him again.

[ 🐱 ] does your muse have pets? did they have pets as a child? how do they feel about animals?

He didn't have pets as a child. His parents thought their house was full enough with kids, which was true, afterall Jayden is the oldest of six. He wasn't much of a pet person but due to his depression and physical disabilities his therapist suggested he get a service dog. When they went to pick up Shadow from the shelter Josie fell in love with Pockets, a tiny black kitten who followed Shadow around. Needless to say they couldn't tell her no so they brought home a kitten and a service dog, which eventually turns in Jayden's familiar so they'll be together forever.

[ ❌ ] is there something your muse struggles with that they might never overcome? what is it? why do they have so much trouble with it?

Jayden struggles with his phyiscal limitations and needing to be in a wheelchair 80% of the time. He slips into depression where he sometimes feels as if his family would be better off without him.

[ ✨ ] what aesthetics or symbols do you reference when writing your muse? are these backed up by canon, if your muse comes from a canon? is there any specific relevance to these choices?

I'm not as okay as a I pretend to be.