#personal things being oc stuff

[nina-ya]

DILEMMAS I don’t know if I should write this law fic on work on personal things

[meamiki]

mira !!! :]

[gatoburr0]

I wanted to join idk

sharing is caring ffs Riley 😒😒 (read tags psst)

[evermorethecrow]

would you speak on this crosshairs pupil Chuuya trend you're doing

this was my evil plan to manipulate nawy into sending an ask so i could make a full post on it...

ALSO YES!!!!!!!!!!!!

aside from the fact its just fun i wanted to mimic the eyes certain devils have in csm

(art by fujumoto and mappa studios)

As a general art thing i like to give non-human charecters funky eyes

i consider it a fun way to know a bit about a charecter before their properly introduced

Now regular 15 chuuya IS human but his eyes are like this because he doesnt think he is, i like to have charecters effected by their own or other peoples opinions of them

I do a slightly more annoying version of what harukawa does with light in eyes

In example (using an oc of mine)

Misacho's eyes in Misacho's pov (Its based on how she sees herself morally)

Misacho's eyes in chuuya's pov (based on how he sees her morally)

And then misacho in the readers view (unbiased lense so its based on how she actually is)

It makes it more complex and i think its fun if you have to first decode who's perspective is influencing whatever comic or image there is and then get a read on the charecters opinions based on that

Circling back to 15 chuuya

I like making him more monstery looking with sharp teeth and nails and funky eyes especially when hes around the sheep (he gets MORE monstery then) because of the sheeps feelings about chuuya and his own about himself ect

in short this was an excuse to rant about details i like to put in my art

[therussiancourier]

// blood warning

God, Forgive Me

I've finished what I started. I got rid of this nagging burden on my shoulders. Did it make me feel better? Was it worth it? Should I have died so painfully? No one deserves it. No father deserves his son to die like that. No sister would want that to happen to her brother. It's painful. It's scary. It's lonely. I can't stand it. Did you really have to force yourself to suffer in order to finally understand the lesson? Without that, you wouldn't have anything in your head, would you, 76? Did it help you find yourself, did it become the "key" that you have been searching for in what seems like eternity? Why, just why? I already had everything I needed, and I didn't even acknowledge it. I don't have to suffer to deserve the title of a human being. I'm an idiot, I'm a jerk, I make a lot of mistakes and I bring a lot of pain to others, but first of all to myself. Through what I do to myself, my loved ones suffer. And I'm tired. I want to rest, I want to be safe. I want to be myself. I don't want to force this person to go through all this for an empty goal. I don't want Clyde's friend to suffer, because who am I to hurt someone he cares about? Who let me play the sculptor of myself? Who allowed me to treat this man so carelessly? You don't owe anyone anything. You are not in debt to yourself, you do not have to torment yourself in order to calm your own soul. I don't have to torture myself to calm my own soul. I will no longer bring unreasonable pain to this person. I will no longer bring unreasonable pain to myself. I am me, and that's just a fact. And does it matter compared to the universe how much I resemble myself from the past, how much I've lost, how many years I've spent on something I don't understand? I'm just a speck of dust, and that's fine. I don't have to worry about such things. I am me, with all the losses, with all the gains, pros and cons. And I don't give a shit what gets molded out of me in the future, because I don't want to disfigure it anymore. I'm just a fucked up man, that's all. That's my whole point. I'm a weirdo, and that's a good thing.

From 76 to Ulysses

[vaguely-concerned]

I feel that during the first coffee date walk through the market, rye has a fraction of a millisecond's kneejerk trauma freakout of '...wait. wait. am I really catching feelings for a rich boy again. with how that went down last time. am I truly that stupid' (once derogatorily referred to quite openly at a party as 'young master anaxas' pet mortalitasi' to which the young master anaxas only grinned and shrugged and STILL you don't break up with his smug controlling ass for good for six more months because you have a desperate bottomless yearning pit where your self respect should go, twice shy lol). and then he actually looks at lucanis standing next to him getting harding spearmint to help with bad dreams and generally being so quietly thoughtful and sweet through the prosaic yet necessary medium of grocery shopping it makes me feel a little unwell to truly contemplate. and rye is like '*the softest fondest eyes anyone has ever turned on anything* ...you know what. I suspect we don't have to worry about that repeating, I think we're probably safe. I am comfortable being this level of stupid. (slowly dawning marital intent even at this stage)'.

(part of the reason rye buys NONE of illario's bullshit at all right from the beginning is that he's basically vaccinated against this exact type of dude after that relationship lol. charming suave guy who in the beginning pays you a lot of lavish attention and takes pains to make you feel special every time you're in a room with him -- but shallowly and mostly, it slowly dawns on you, when there's something he wants from you (and he's often doing it at the expense of someone else, raising you up to put someone else down and you won't believe this... it can turn into a seesaw at a whim. yay). and beneath that there's just a seething pit of resentment and inferiority complexes and bitterness left to fester until he can make it everyone else's problem and that IS going to start to bubble up between the cracks with you too if you stick around for long enough. no thank you been there done that wasted my youth and potential on it and all I got was this lousy shiny set of new emotional intimacy issues haunting me for life! trust me illario I HAVE, as it were, chosen the wrong dellamorte before, which is exactly how I know I didn't this time. go get him lucanis I've got your coffee

hilarious mental image: rye and illario sitting quietly together while everyone else is busy milling about during a cursed dellamorte family dinner (the vibes are so bad. you know the vibes are bad. sitting as still as you can and hoping for calm skies is your best bet without lucanis or teia favourite child privileges to work with) and rye out of the blue gazing thoughtfully into nothing over the edge of his glass with half-lidded eyes to go 'you know. you remind me a lot of my ex. not in a good way' and illario with absolutely no shame and hilariously also something that's the closest he ever gets to real sympathy going 'yeah, I get that a lot'. best talk those two ever had, unironically. their bond leveled up to its final form that day. *soulsborne boss defeated text* MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING REACHED)

[moeblob]

They're soulmates in every single universe and I miss them at the most random times.

[stromulites]

AU Shithead acquired! Feat. the coat he stole off of Grayson (oc). For clarification you don't need to draw the coat wherlsdgdf. The wings are optional too, since they come and go at will.

@soulspite the promised ref (I hope this is clean enough kwelrsdg)

I will now put other info and Unsolicited Lore Stuff under the cut

162cm (5'3) for this ref.

I have been just calling him B.J. There's no in-universe reason for it. Just like BJ BLAZKAW-(self combusts)

Probably ADHD and on the spectrum, just never got properly diagnosed before he kicked the bucket.

Got struck by lightening or something <- Doesn't like talking about it so most people just guess.

Dying is a pretty sensitive topic since while Reapers are cool and all, the event itself is still traumatizing as all hell. Especially for those who die suddenly in violent, unrighteous deaths, like BJ.

17 when he died, chronologically 19. Age for Reapers is weird since they're just souls of the dead who don't get yoinked by The Demons when they perish.

Really likes it when Hannah (This AU's GF) helps preen his wings. He will straight forget if she didn't remind him. Visits four days a week, probably more if Hannah herself didn't tell him to go do something else.

Likes to keep his wings out, but they're not very practical in enclosed spaces so he'll tuck them away then (they straight up disappear in this context).

Bit of a loner despite it all. He'll let others get close to him, but won't fully indulge himself and keeps his distance aside from a few select people. This is a more recent development.

If he likes you enough, he will bring you random shit he found on the ground. Like seaglass and some poor sod's missing ring. Or ten million paperclips/smooth rocks that look nice when wet.

Is generally cold in body temp since, y'know, bucket kicked and over is keeled. Not affectionate with other Reapers since they also run cold and it bothers him. The only exception to this is Grayson and their jacket, which is why it's stolen so often (its warm), and Hannah, who is Alive.

Has the best American Woodcock call impression known to man.

Also, for those that want it, wing pattern ref be upon ye:

[keeps-ache]

[loud singular cough]

[puppppppppy]

Been LOVING your lil magician folks recently please continue they're beautiful and very cute and cool and also very well-designed!! 🥺❤️

thank you for the kind words !!! im not much of a writer, but i do have some sort of story in mind for them.. theyre bitter rivals who end up as roommates bc of their scatterbrained elderly landlord lol

[shalpilot]

confiding

[so-very-small]

me: been a while since i made some fluffy g/t ocs, i should do that

the little mouse who runs in circles in my brain and talks endlessly about g/t: oh no

me: you took the fluff and turned it into a fucked up enemies to devoted lovers dynamic, didn’t you

my little brain mouse: oh yes

[cactiico]

.🍷.

the dress gods took me gently by the hand and said "you will draw this"

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

is this outfit historically accurate? probably the fuck not. is it practical in any way shape or form? also probably not! but does it serve cunt? YES 😩🙏💅 and that's all that matters!

[chimeracreates]

Happy New Year everyone!! Here's to more art in 2025!!! 🥂🎉

[offorestsongs]

being in my little carefully curated fandom bubble makes me genuinely forget that some people still think that oc x canons or self-shipping or x reader fics or whatever are 'cringy' or 'embarassing'