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How does one casually bring up their dad's donor number at a sleepover?
Sleepovers are a rite of passage for many children and teens. They offer a unique opportunity to bond with friends, share stories, and create lasting memories. However, for children conceived through sperm donation, the question of how to discuss their unique origins can be a bit tricky, especially in a casual setting like a sleepover. One particularly delicate topic is how to bring up their…
#bonding over origins#building trust#casual conversations#celebrating differences#deepening friendships#donor number disclosure#empathy in friendships#family discussions#friendship tips#fun facts#gauging comfort levels#group dynamics#handling discomfort#humor in friendships#icebreaker jokes#lighthearted conversation#mutual support#neutral reactions#personal anecdotes#personal disclosures#positive reactions#respecting boundaries#science project metaphor#sharing personal stories#sharing unique experiences#sleepover conversations#sleepover dynamics#sperm donor children#unique family history#unique origin stories
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it strikes me once again in episode 10 when crozier says that he "knows little's nature" and that he would be there with men and guns at day's end, he's absolutely right. he does know edward's nature. it's almost exactly what little said to rally the men, "we have hickey's camp outnumbered and outgunned." edward is ready to march all the men he can gather to rescue crozier, just as francis thought he would. what crozier doesn't know is le vesconte's nature. he doesn't know the nature of the men. he isn't aware that edward himself is being mutinied against because he's once again unable to see the similarities between himself and his second. because, just like in terror camp, he's placed expectations on edward without realising that the context in which edward is operating has very drastically changed. he's thinking of edward's loyalty but not edward's own duty to the men (a duty crozier shares!) and that edward's orders don't exist in a vacuum. it's just the debate about arming the men played out again but with debatably worse consequences
#and edward refuses to see the similarities between him and crozier as well!#he's blind to this mutiny playing out before him until it's far too late#he's failed to properly understand dundy like crozier once misunderstood jfj#and at this point they're both trapped by the men who they're duty-bound to lead#because so much resentment and mistrust has built up between them#and the degree of thawing keeps being frosted over again by more mistrust and failures of disclosure#their personalities are such that together they could lead so well#at the start of the expedition it's clear that they Do work well together!#but as the stakes got higher this trust soured. but it never disappeared.#so edward still dies at crozier's side. both of them having failed in their command#the toxic father-son relationship of my heart and soul#the terror#francis crozier#edward little
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“the merciless cobra. its caustic venom can traverse any distance… as long as it stays out of danger.
…please, pay no mind to those ghastly stains. it must’ve been splashed with paint while my back was turned.”
reptile
1 power - 1 health - 3 blood
2 power - 3 health - 2 blood
sniper - you may choose which opposing space a card bearing this sigil strikes.
touch of death - when a card bearing this sigil damages another creature, that creature perishes.
hidden trait - gemmified
when a sigil is transferred to this card, it becomes gemmified. gemmified cards gain +1 power, +2 health, and -1 cost.
COBRADILE!! this was probably the most fun card to make out of all of them. also probably the prettiest card imo!!! writeup below!!
sniper and touch of death! pretty deadly combo. literally. you can just kill any card you please from any spot on the board. i was DEAD SET on giving her the sniper sigil. it just felt right.
GEMMIFICATION YIPEEE! this is a mechanic from act 3! but mox cards appear in act 2 as well. in base game inscryption, you need to have specific gem vessels on the field in order to activate the buffs (ruby for power, emerald for health, and sapphire for cost) but! mox cards and gem vessels aren’t really. in kaycee’s mod. and it would be super clunky to add them for a single card! so all you have to do is sacrifice a card’s sigils onto her. is this a little broken? maybe. but this is inscryption, literally everything is broken lol
^expanding on this, it still kinda fits lorewise? ka buans do compress their ashes into diamonds after all. let’s say that they compressed the creature into a diamond or something and that’s what’s powering her, idk
ok i’ll stop talking about the mox thing after this. both sif and odile were given mechanics from the other scrybes! siffrin requires bone tokens (grimmora) and odile has mox (magnificus). no sorry there’s nothing for p03. they don’t have computers in the isat world i think. i’m pretty sure.
initially i wanted to make her a stork or an ibis, but. all avian cards have the airborne sigil. which makes their attacks hit the opponent directly instead of their creatures. and that defeats the entire purpose of sniper. so she gets to be a spitting cobra! i think it’s more fun this way anyways. more fun shapes.
also this kinda spoils bonnie’s card a little but!! i put thought into the tribes too!!! the vaugardians (mirabelle, isabeau, and bonnie) are all from the hooved tribe! odile is a reptile and sif is tribeless because they’re outsiders. teehee.
ok patch time. she gets double strike, which makes her attack twice (as the name implies). i chose this in reference to memory of first strike (it just reminds me of it? idk) and also because it synergizes with sniper! you get to oneshot TWO cards in one turn! good god! odile really is merciless
that’s everything important about this card! i know this is long as hell but! that’s what happens when you introduce an entire new mechanic. i guess. anyways alt card art!!!
#marshdoodles#isat#in stars and time#inscryption#isatscryption#in stars and scrybes#full disclosure this is probably my favorite card#i’m the colors guy!!! i like colors!!! i think this card is super pretty looking#believe it or not she wasn’t actually going to have mox mechanics at first#but someone mentioned the mox glasses when i posted the sketches on discord#and i had a Vision. shoutout to that person#other fun fact. i genuinely forgot to add the patch when i posted these to isatcord#i was having too much fun. forgot that damned patch#at least it wasn’t *that* annoying to add this time around#also didn’t mention this#but feeding her to the campfire survivors will kill them#she’s got the same trait as the adder#don’t feed her to them though that’s mean
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Could you draw Buck and Graham? I wonder how they'd interact.
i hope nothing good happens. deeply unserious suits
#duck shuffler#buck ruffler#pacesetter#graham ness payser#firestarter#flint bonpyre#requests#tawney is there but very small...#full disclosure i am such a biased person to ask this specifically. i like buck & my good friend likes graham. so i have to make them play#but idk. i think it'd be funny if they got along in a cartoonish way. they get along by not getting along. is this anything#clash put them on opposite sides of the map & manager hierarchy because there would be too much collateral damage if they were friends#i have to put this here for my sanity -> sorry for the quality shift. i would never finish this if i did full lines and color. kicks a rock#my art
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crawls out of my cave spitting blood. do you see the vision. do you understand
#vaggie meets charlie starts to heal lute doubles down and becomes ten times worse#the most bitter exes there ever was#tried to draw vaggies hair more true to canon#‘wait why’s she so desaturated heavens really vibrant’ adam is grey and lute is nearly paper white I wanted her to fit in#also it makes her look miserable#[my art]#hazbin hotel spoilers#adam#lute#vaggie#charlie#chaggie#whatever the other ship names are#look this hc applies regardless of if there’s anything romantic#top exterminator + lieutenant#saying that like a legal disclosure 😔#but seriously. the vitriol feels personal
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Rome is going great. I’m normal.
#personal#there are so fucking many of them you don’t understand. I’m from Denmark so even seeing a priest except for in church is new for me#I have to respectfully avert my gaze each time#they’re so hot and for WHAT#every time I go out from the metro station they’re there#I’m not getting let into heaven. but we already knew that#dadd— I mean da— I mean father 👀#(full disclosure I would never ever be weird about it. I just have thoughts)
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To your "Dick Grayson accepted headcanons" You said Jason will smoke with him, Damian throws his cigarettes OUT, and Bruce keeps trying to quote statistics-
How do you think the rest of Batfam, The team, and Co react to Dick smoking?
-@batfambrainrotbeloved <33
Hello friend, thanks for the ask! Gonna stick to Batfam because this is long already but let me know if you still want Titans/outsiders too!
I'll preface with I think everyone makes fun of Bruce because he smokes as Matches, but not Bruce or Batdad (will take cigarettes out of people's hands).
Next up, Alfred smoked heavily when he was younger (particularly during his acting days), he just forbids it in the Manor and mildly disapproves.
Steph smokes socially with some of the Birds of Prey and sometimes Jason , so she thinks Dick’s smoking is kind of funny (because he makes it a Thing he has chronic guilt about).
Cass is anti smoking (she inherited from both dads) and gets annoyed by the smell, mocks Dick when he gets winded and can always see his withdrawal symptoms so she tries to help out.
Babs hated how much her dad smoked and deeply dislikes Dick transferring the scent on her furniture.
Tim thinks it's the least of the stupid things Dick does, has personally dabbled in smoking cigarettes and weed, and will steal smokes off Dick.
Duke grew up around too many smokers to really notice it, but he feels tempted when he's juggling forty tasks and school.
#I'll be devastated if some of these turn out dead wrong full disclosure have read perilously little for Tim and I'm still on Duke’s comics#batman#batfamily#dc comics#personal#dick grayson#Roll call#alfred pennyworth#stephanie brown#cassandra cain#Duke thomas#Tim drake#Red Robin#Spoiler#Signal#Batgirl#Oracle#barbara gordon#asks answered#Nightwing#Long post#Batpost#batfamily headcanons
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me 🤝 symbolically adopting the foster teens who participate in my study by coming just to chat with them outside foster home
#ethics this ethics that#understandable#have you ever asked for a traumatized fostered teenager to relate their life stories for a study?#countless researchers come and go#fuck that bro. im inventing safe words with mine for interviewing processes and easing out the sharing of something so big with an unknown#person by making myself a person. if that's unethical im against science. enough of depersonalization#we are talking about humans#if a teen gives me indication they need more from me than just a formal presentation the least i can do for my study and for them is giveit#and yes i do believe in therapeutic disclosure. when its done purposefully. no i do not endorse disclosure because you have gotten a degree#based on 0 actual competencies
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Middle Earth Asks
🥔 po-tay-toes: one of the hobbits invited you for a meal; who are dining with? Which of the seven meals are you enjoying?
🍞 lembas bread: what's the best road trip snack?
🌾farmer maggot's field: what is your favourite plant? Do you enjoying gardening?
🌼 simbelmynë: You've got the opportunity to bring one character back to life, who is it?
🍃 leaves of lórien: what gift would you most like to receive?
📽 action!: rank all six of the films (or three if you're a hater)
🚲 bicycle basket: what is your favourite middle earth meme?
🌟starlight: you're allowed to live in one of the Elf Kingdoms of Middle Earth, which one are you picking?
💀 Hey, did you know-: What is your favourite piece of behind the scenes trivia?
🌙 moon runes: which of Tolkien's languages would you most like to speak?
🧂 best salt in all the shire: which small joys do you most look forward to? (particular tea, using a perfume, rereading a book, etc.)
✂ cutting room floor: of all of the things that didn't quite make it into the movies, what would you have most liked to see?
☕ may I tempt you with a cup of chamomile?: What is your favourite hot beverage?
🐎 bill the pony: who is the best mount in all of middle earth?
🌳 fangorn forest: Which of Tolkien's creechurs is your favourite?
🔮 palantír: you've found a palantir! Who are you hitting up in middle earth? What are you telling them?
⏳ time and age: which poorly aged scene from LOTR is your favourite?
✨ evenstar: Who is your favourite middle earth couple?
🎆 fireworks: you're invited to Bilbo's 111th, what present do you think you'd receive?
🕷 creepy crawlies: which of tolkien's creatures do you think is the most frightening?
💍 my precious: what role do you think you'd play in the fate of the ring?
📜the company of Throin II Oakenshield: who is your favourite dwarf from the company?
🕶 i care not: what common complaint about the movies or novels doesn't bother you?
📢 motivational speech: which film speech do you find most invigorating?
🔥 barbecue: who is the worst antagonist?
🍿 popcorn: list your top 5 supporting characters
🎇 firefly: which (known) deleted scene would you most like to see?
⛏ expedition to Moria: which side character's adventures would you watch a spin-off movie about?
🎞 extra film: is there an extended scene that should have absolutely made it into the theatrical cut? which one and why?
🎵 can you sing, master hobbit?: Which song (from books or movies) is your favourite?
🖋 quill and ink: which of tolkien's themes resonates most strongly with you?
🗝 lost heirloom: which heirloom/object in the films or novels would you like to learn more about?
💿 leitmotifs and orchestras: which of the films songs (Howard Shore or singer) is your favourite?
🍲eowyn's home cooking: which other way could the ring be destroyed? (funny answers only)
🧙♂️precisely when he means to: what is your favourite gandalf moment?
⚔ you have my sword: what is your favourite aragorn moment?
🏹 and my bow: what is your favourite legolas moment?
🪓and my axe: what is your favourite gimli moment?
🍄 MUSHROOMS!: what is your favourite moment from the hobbits?
💎 the arkenstone: favourite Thorin and/or company moment?
🧵 spool: list your top five favourite costumes from any of the films.
📕 the red book of westmarch : what is your favourite quote(s)?
💛 family: what is your favourite family moment throughout the novels/films?
👀 the eye of sauron: who are you looking at disrespectfully?
🗺 arda: if you could travel anywhere in middle earth, where would you go?
👑the silver crown: the war is won, the world is saved, the king has been crowned. Who are you partying with at the coronation?
✏ rewrites: here's a pencil, which ONE thing in the novels/films are you changing?
🐺 GROND GROND GROND: which of the battles is your favourite to watch? is there a combat scene in particular that you enjoy?
⚠ fucking buckleberry ferry: from the clip of Dom and Billy discussing the one swear word they could theoretically get by censors, which line would you change?
📚 boxset: how were you first introduced to Middle Earth?
🏔 the misty mountains: the pass is treacherous, which two characters are you taking with you to make it over the mountains?
🌄 the rolling hills of the shire: what is your favourite outdoor activity?
🌋 mount doom: what middle earth take are you throwing into the fire?
⚙ technology: everything is exactly the same but you can give one character a modern invention. Who is it and what are you giving them?
⛵valinor: we're approaching the end of this game, is there a take/opinion you absolutely want to share?
🦅 the eagles: What thing or thought saves the day when it's not going so well?
🦗 weta: you're allowed to take one prop (or the canon useful version) home with you from the set, what are you taking?
☀ when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer: either share a piece of good news or something you're looking forward to.
📖 final chapter: what unanswered questions do you have middle earth?
#lotr#middle earth#the hobbit#tolkien#lord of the rings#ask games#asks#lotr asks#full disclosure i've read the hobbit 5 times and the trilogy once#I haven't started the salmon riot yet#never seen RoP#and i've seen all of the movies (lotr and hobbit) about 1000000 times now :)#chaos mix of MidEarth questions and personal qs#i didn't spell check whoops (its too hot for editing)#i also did the emojis on my laptop so if they don't match well just ignore that#rao's games#rao's asks#this was a fever dream (i wrote the word strongelist a one point)#the worst part about making stuff is walking away from your device afterwards bc I want to constantly refresh my notes 😭
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Mouthwashing is so prescient on discourse about inaction. So many people asking why Curly brushed aside Anya's fears and remained lenient with Jimmy. So many people asking why Swansea didn't immediately take action after the private convo in the cockpit.
And now, in real time, you can see people trying to defend both men. And I don't think this is done out of malice, or any intention to downplay the horror of Anya's situation. I think it's pretty human nature to want a better world, to want to soften the blow. There's so much we don't know (the timeline, the details of the convo, the actual nature of Curly's friendship with Jimmy, etc etc ad nauseam), so there is space to hope for a gentler moment, even if we all know the aftermath is unbearable and impact is imminent. We still want to believe things could be different, that things could be better. It doesn't change anything, but still. But still.
Maybe Anya had still held on to a little bit of hope, futile though it would have been. Maybe she didn't feel completely isolated the entire time. She was failed by both Curly and Swansea in every way that matters, but maybe she could have sat by them and not feel like her world had fully imploded. Maybe there were moments where the world allowed her to breathe.
Maybe Curly didn't know. Maybe he did try to keep Jimmy away from Anya. Maybe he was doing what he could, despite his desire to see the best in people (Jimmy). Maybe there wasn't enough time for him to even do anything. Maybe Swansea tried to step up afterwards. We don't know. We only see through the eyes of one man who only wanted to see the good in the world, and then through the eyes of one man who only saw himself.
And the game's prescience even about the end––wishing doesn't change anything. Anya dies putting away her conviction that your worst moments don't define you, that they don't make of you a monster. Daisuke dies having helped no one with his hope and sacrifice. Swansea dies filled with regret, having done nothing, protected no one. Curly watches till the end as his freeze reaction ensures he stays frozen, unable to act, to help.
Even Jimmy, wishing he was better, that he was a hero––and in the end, even Polle turns away from him.
#mouthwashing#full disclosure i also want to defend curly. i love curly. i get it.#but even if he DID try or if there WAS nothing he could do. what does that change?#i think a lot about the people who sided with someone who hurt me. not because they didn't care about me.#but because they didn't want to believe that that person was capable of being cruel. they didn't want me to have been hurt.#like i get it. i've been there on both sides. i get it. it's human nature#this discourse is important and fascinating but seeing it play out in fandom (which typically lacks nuance) makes me feel worse#like it's kinda making me spiral lol#for the record i don't think curly was prioritizing jimmy in the convo where he learns anya is pregnant#i think he was shocked and panicking and he had no idea what to do except that he couldn't allow violence of any kind to happen#and what else is a gun but a tool of violence?#his ''i can fix this'' is a plea for time to think. which he legit was not given (unlike jimmy)#i genuinely disagree that by that point he would have sided with jimmy. even unconsciously#i think he was just completely taken aback and fell back onto his stock phrase (i can fix this). it's just such a curly thing to think#that things CAN get better. but also that he's scared that things CAN get worse. and he's scared his actions WILL make things worse#and he was right. things could be better. but he made things worse. inaction is also an action.#meta thoughts#fragmentaries
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Every now and then I remember I am significantly older than the legalization of gay marriage in my country and I take psychic damage every time. I am not that old, like my life has just begun.
Just... Remember our rights didn't just descend from the heavens hundred of years ago. It is still a fresh memory, a blip compared to the timeline of the world.
#politics#gay#lgbt#lgbtq#gay complacency is forgetting just how much fighting we and our forefamily had to do to even GET to that point#and it's forgetting just how recently it happened that we got tgese protections. and they unfortunately aren't set in stone#maybe that was harsh wording but Please... blood was shed for this cause. people died for us#people died for this cause#people threw themselves in front of the FDA to protest - literally die-ins#full disclosure that this is about the US - i am a USAmerican and won't be comfortable commenting on queer rights internationally#(internationally to me not that the US is the world)#i am fully aware that there are countries that have NO queer rights recognized or even entertained as a thought by the governments that be#and that's... tragic. there's genuinely no word strong enough for how heartbreaking and evil it is#and i do not have the ability to comment about it personally like it is my right to claim that pain
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Hello and good day! I'm sorry if this has already been asked before and you can totally just ignore this if you want, but I'm curious: can you imagine a world where somehow, Aoi likes someone else and not Akane? Cause I think that while the canon version of her is cute, I have recently read a what-if fanfic in her pov where she absolutely hates Akane the same way she does her other admirers and now I am hyperfixating on that. What habits would have been different compared to canon Aoi? Would Akane have grown more deperate since he (presumably) would know that Aoi genuinely does not like him in this scenario? What if he began noticing Aoi starting to like her dream boy in class? The possibilities are killing meeeeee!
Oh man, I'm the wrong person to ask this cause I genuinely can't imagine this scenario being possible without obliterating Akane's characterization.
Do you remember why Akane fell in love with Aoi? Because Aoi loved him so much that she broke her "cold and indifferent, hate dealing with people" mask for him. She TRIED so hard to hate him but still ended up crying cause she cared so much.
If the mask was real and she truly didn't care about him, I don't think Akane would fall for her.
If he did fall for her later on anyways, I can't see him trying to pursue her after being rejected/met with her discomfort/annoyance. Even in the timeline where she does like him and comes up with the silliest of excuses to keep him around without straight up accepting his confessions, he had admitted that he would keep keeping her safe while keeping a distance in case she doesn't want him.
He only pursues her so much cause she actively flirts and encourages him to.
The idea Aoi would encourage him if she didn't like him does make Akane pestering her believable but at the cost of Aoi's own character being obliterated. I don't think I'm being harsh when I say Aoi would be a bitch if she went "hehe try harder <3 Impress me Akane-kun!" consistently enough for him to buy it that she could date him while thinking "Tch, hate this guy, he keeps harassing me".
That would means she doesn't even consider him a friend, she doesn't care AT ALL about his feelings, which is nothing like the Aoi who tries to pretend the people she dislikes don't bother her/don't exist and loves her friends dearly, putting them above her.
The most I can picture is Aoi falling for someone else and Akane either not getting a crush on her and supporting her fully, or slowly putting some barrier between them cause he can see Aoi doesn't like him and being in pain, the classic 'i want her to be happy' and 'she won't be with me' conflict where he has a crisis but eventually learn to let her go, reach the point he can be comfortable by her side even when she is with someone else.
Or Aoi realizing Akane likes her romantically and being anxious that she has to reject a friend, whom she deeply values, but her growing unease and lack of encouragement wouldn't be able to fool Akane for long. Their whole thing is that they know each other well after all and Akane consistently asks 'are you okay?' when he senses anything may be wrong with Aoi.
Maybe it would take some months for Akane to understand without Aoi giving him a straight-up rejection, especially if they are small when he gets the crush, but Akane pays so much attention to her, he would pick up the signs she is uncomfortable, especially if it reaches a point of Aoi staring to resent him for it more than being scared of losing him. He either drop it silently or straight up confront her about it, probably.
#full disclosure i hate 'what ifs' that turn kind characters into very non complex mean people#so again. I am not the best person to ask this. I have negative bias T-T#but the base premise of 'aoi liking someone else' can be interesting#i just never saw it done without either aoi or akane becoming caricature of themselves#tbhk#toilet bound hanako kun#aoi akane#akane aoi#jshk
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Briefly returning to this blog because I feel like I'm going to explode if I don't find a place to say this where it might be heard.
I feel uncomfortable and disappointed by the way the D20 fandom, and even the players, have responded to the Riz and Skolanda conversation.
It feels like everyone immediately went on the defensive. Endless "she just doesn't get that his friends love him," "look at all this stuff his friends have done for him," "the relationships between the Bad Kids are perfect and they could never take advantage of him." Plus, Ally, Emily, and even to a certain extent Zac immediately shifting how their characters interact with Riz in response to Skolanda's criticism (that their characters wouldn't know about). I generally feel like Brennan tends to get a free pass while players (especially non-male players) get criticized for things that are partly or mostly his fault. But this is the one time that's not the case. It seems to me like he was trying to set up an interesting story. What does it mean for someone like Riz ("very social but weirdly doesn't have any friends," aromantic and desperate to hang on to his first friendships for life, a workaholic) to not really be able to set boundaries with his friends? How does that lead to situations where even loving and well-intentioned friends are taking advantage of him (getting him to write their essays for him, making him adapt to a nickname that was originally used to bully him, sacrificing sleep and mental health in the name of maintaining his relationship to them/helping with what he understands to be their goals)? It's not a pretty story. It's a story where everyone (including Riz) has to admit to some wrongdoing. And everyone has to change their behavior. But it has the potential to be a great story! In a way that "everyone is great, Riz's mom just doesn't get it" doesn't. It would be one thing if Brennan was having this come out of nowhere. But he's not. There has always been an expectation among the Bad Kids that Riz and Adaine will do the bulk of the labor. That Riz will put up with it when his friends make fun of him or seem to use him as a means to an end ("are you just the little thing that finds the clues").
It's a good story. Or at least, a good idea for a story. I get that it could end up in a place may feel too much like pvp for some players. And if they decide to dodge it for that reason then that's fair. But if the reaction to it is just "How dare someone accuse my (teenage) favorite character of not being emotionally aware enough to realize when they are taking advantage of a vulnerable friend?" I don't know how we can expect these stories to be particularly emotionally nuanced or complex. Or really having anything valuable to say at all. It's not a bad thing if the Bad Kids have unhealthy relationships. It's not a bad thing if the Bad Kids are imperfect perfect people. It's probably better storytelling if those relationships are being prompted to actually grow and change for the better. And I'm sad that the situation seems to be that we'd rather shield these characters from any criticism than be excited about maybe seeing them grow
#dimension 20#riz gukgak#negativity#disclosure of bias i am an aroace person overly invested in Riz as a character
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What if the bats got Eddie so bad that part of his guts were damaged beyond repair and he needed to get a stoma?
TW for body issues and medical content (I guess? Please let me know if I should use another TW for that)
EDIT: I posted an extended version of this post on ao3. Thank you @spectrum-spectre for helping me get there <333
They were in Eddie's bathroom, Eddie on the stool that had been placed there for him before he got home, and Steve standing right in front of him. Eddie was still recovering, but he had finally gotten the green light to leave the hospital. He had spent the day with Wayne, who was now at his night shift, so Steve had arrived to the trailer to keep Eddie company instead. Nobody really liked the thought of Eddie being alone in the trailer, even though Eddie himself pretended like it was all fine – the guy was a terrible liar, and Steve wouldn't mind spending some time with him anyway.
At least, he had thought he wouldn't mind, before he actually got there. He had pictured them spending a couple of hours hanging out together, then helping Eddie get ready for bed, and falling asleep in Eddie's bed together at a reasonable hour because Eddie still needed his rest. What he had certainly not pictured, was Eddie practically begging him to leave him to his own devices behind a locked door in the bathroom.
'I'm not letting you do it alone,' Steve said, getting tired of Eddie's stubbornness. 'Wayne would kill me if he found out, and I only just won his trust – not worth it, man!' He hoped that throwing Wayne in his arguments would be more successful than his concerns about Eddie's health and safety, which did not seem to hit home at all.
'I can take care of myself, alright?'
'Barely,' Steve couldn't help but scoff.
'Wayne can help me with this shit in the morning!'
'I know, but he isn't always here. What if you need help when he is at work?'
'I can teach Nancy how to do it, or Robin.'
Steve wanted to say something along the lines of 'So it’s just me who you don't trust with this?' but he knew it'd be a real dick move to make this about himself, so he decided to go for logic instead.
'Both of them will be off to college after the summer,' he pointed out. 'And I'll be right here. So why don't you teach me how to do it and let me help you?'
Eddie opened his mouth, no doubt to protest some more, but Steve was losing his patience by now.
'Look, you need a backup close to you, man,' he said. 'You want Dustin to do it?'
Eddie chuckled darkly. 'God, no,' he mumbled.
He squeezed his eyes shut – but not before Steve caught a glimpse of the tears Eddie was apparently trying so hard to hold back – and suddenly he understood that this wasn’t just Eddie being an annoying little shit. Eddie was scared. He was vulnerable. And trusting people when you were scared and vulnerable... Well, that was a goddamn scary thing, even Steve knew that.
'Hey,' Steve said, in a much softer voice than before. 'I got you, alright?' He gave a gentle squeeze to Eddie's knee, feeling the soft skin through the rips in his jeans against his fingers. 'It's okay, I really don't mind. I'm happy to help you out. And I’ll be careful, you can trust me.'
'It's not that I don’t trust you, it's...' Eddie took a deep, shaky breath and Steve could sense that something important was coming.
'It's kinda gross, you know. The whole stoma thing. And, like, extremely unsexy.'
And there was something about the combination of Eddie calling it unsexy and him preferring the help of Robin or Nancy over Steve's... Something that Steve very much could not begin to unpack right now, even though it was doing something weird to his stomach.
'It's not gross,' he protested, focusing on the other – the easier – part of Eddie's confession. 'It's just your body, man, it's part of being alive. I like that you're alive.'
'I can barely even look at it,' Eddie whispered, so softly that Steve could barely make out the words. It sounded so small, so un-Eddie-like, so fragile...
'So let me take care of it,' Steve tried. 'I'd be happy to do it for you. And I promise I won't find it gross. I mean, yeah, maybe it's not sexy, but not everything needs to be sexy at all times. Things can be neutral, right?'
'Are you sure?'
'Yeah.' He made sure to not lose eye contact with Eddie as he nodded earnestly.
'Okay. I think I can settle for neutral.'
'Can I take off your shirt?'
And somehow, that got him another chuckle.
'Sure, big boy, you can take off my shirt,' Eddie answered.
Steve felt like there was a joke in there that went over his head, but he helped Eddie pull the black fabric over his face and his curls.
There was so much more to look at than the tiny piece of intestine peeking out of Eddie's belly and the pouch filled with turbid liquid attached to it. There was also a whole maze of wounds and bruises scattered across his torso, some all-too-familiar looking bite marks that would no doubt leave scars in Eddie's sides. But none of it was gross or unsexy. Yes, maybe some of it was neutral – Steve wouldn't wish the bite marks both of them carried onto anyone – but underneath all that, there was something else: it was the fact that this was Eddie's skin, that the half-torn-apart tattoos he saw had once been selected by Eddie, that Eddie's heart was beating in that chest...
Steve quickly let his gaze travel upwards, back to the safety of Eddie’s eyes.
‘Alright, tell me what to do,’ he said.
Eddie finally gave up his protesting and guided Steve through the process of taking off the pouch, cleaning the skin underneath it, and applying a new one.
'Sorry,' Steve mumbled when he was struggling to attach it properly.
'Don’t worry. Takes a while to get the hang of it,' Eddie answered. And Steve tried not to think about how there seemed to be a promise in those words, a promise that Eddie would trust him to take care of him, now. That he'd get to do this often enough to get the hang of it. That he'd get to know all about Eddie's body.
'Thank you,' Eddie said in a soft voice when they were all done.
'You don't need to thank me for that,' Steve protested.
'No, I mean, thank you for... Not, like, flinching or, I dunno, looking disgusted or something, when you...' He stumbled his way through the words, uncharacteristically awkward, as if he felt ashamed of what he was trying to say to Steve.
'No need to thank me for that either,' Steve answered earnestly.
But Eddie still looked at him with those scared wide eyes, so he gently placed both his hands on Eddie's bare shoulders.
'You look...' He swallowed, chickened out right on the verge of saying whatever it was he was going to say. 'It's not disgusting. Not at all. It's... It's just you.'
And there was this shy smile around Eddie's lips, as if he knew exactly what Steve had almost blurted out.
'I think it's kinda metal,’ Steve added in attempt to steer things back to safer territories - and for the first time since they were in that bathroom, Eddie let out a real, actual laugh.
He playfully bumped a fist against Steve's shoulder.
'You really don't know enough about metal to decide that, big boy.'
Steve chuckled. ‘Well, I’m pretty sure Izzy would agree with me on this one.’
‘Ozzy,’ Eddie corrected him, rolling his eyes but still smiling.
Steve's hands were still resting on Eddie's shoulders, and Eddie wrapped his arms around Steve's back, tugging him closer until he could rest his head in the crook of Steve's neck. Steve was sure Eddie would be able to hear how violently his heart was beating right now, but he didn’t pull back, didn’t move; he simply kept holding him, gently tracing his hand over the bare skin of Eddie’s spine.
Eddie wasn't the only one who had been damaged beyond repair, but in this moment, in the trailer's tiny bathroom, they could simply hold each other and pretend like they were both still whole.
#full disclosure: i don't have any personal experience with stomas#so everything in here comes from what my housemate told me and some internet research#please let me know if i should make any changes!!!#tw body issues#tw medical content#the mortifying ordeal of being known#steddie#steve harrington#eddie munson#stoma#stranger things#fruity ficlet#don't mind me rambling about stranger things
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Have you ever returned to work after a couple of days off, only to be smacked in the face with the reality that your work, while "greatly valued" for its high quality, is about to become obsolete because it's cheaper to just use AI and/or a lower-quality human supplier? And you knew that already, right, but it hits differently now because it's your best client suddenly joining the choir?
Just me?
I'm so tired of the translation industry, and so anxious I can barely even look at my current projects, and so worried about how stressful and economically unsustainable it will be to study something new on top of everything else going on in my life, because the only other thing I currently know how to do is writing (which offers no "career prospects"), and I live in a country where a Master's degree is fucking toilet paper unless it's in the exact field you want to work in.
Fuck this week all the way to next year.
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hey people who talk like this about us fat people you are not helping. this IS part of the problem. im not a “chonky boi” or whatever and neither is any other fat person out there. we’re just people. its okay. you can like fat people without calling us “friend shaped” or whatever new fresh hell phrase you decide to inflict upon us
#silver tongues#you fucking idiots owe me 4000$ each time you say shit like this#this wasnt directed specifically AT me for full disclosure and clarity but i am a fat person whos always been fat & probably always will be#im speaking through my own experience as a fat man#skinny people compliment a fat person without being fucking weird about it (challenge level impossible)
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