#people put this down to neurodivergence and i agree that you can do that but i also think

[imitor]

thinking about tetchou again and how by my portrayal he’s the first “hunting dog” but by the standard that i think that the experimentations/human modifications came first and the banding of the hunting dogs came later. meaning i think, at least for now that i would say tetchou was experimented/modified as a child and when they were successful the branch of research for a special division of ability users was created and the rest of the hunting dogs were sourced by fukuchi. we know that tachihara and teruko were likely found as children and that jouno had previously been affiliated with a mafia/yakuza group. tetchou just remains a mystery to me but i align his beginnings with being more like chuuya and verlaine. not in the same vein of testing but that he was taken from his family/found by someone after tragedy and exploited and formed into the first of their “kind” being genetically modified and enhanced special ability users.

[dearpyramus]

congrats on 100+ !!! i would love to see "can you please come get me?" + "delicately putting your hand on their back" with lip <33 maybe college!lip, and the reader is at a party and feels unsafe?

tags/warnings: overstimulation (not the sexy kind), reader is implied to be neurodivergent, soft!lip, college!lip and reader, pining

a/n: sorry I got a bit carried away LMAO. tysm for ur request I enjoyed writing this a lot.

(fic btc)

Your friends had invited you to some frat party and you made the mistake of agreeing to go. 

The music wasn’t your vibe, the beer was sub-par, and your friends ended up ditching you. At one point you went to go to the bathroom to find that they basically left without you. 

Some fucking friends, you thought. You can’t say you were surprised, though. In all honesty, you only went because you had nothing else to do. Anything to procrastinate on your schoolwork during a Friday night, you thought.

Suddenly, the music started getting louder, as if someone was fiddling with the volume. The crowd of people seemed to get more congested by the minute; strangers shoving past you in a drunken haze. You felt like too much was happening at once. You need to fuck out of there.

You didn’t even have that much to drink but suddenly the room felt like it was spinning. Too many people. Too much noise. Too many flashes of lights. Your sense felt like they were in overdrive.

You skin practically burned as bodies pressed against you. You frantically begin searching for your friends. Your calls to them proved fickle as it was drowned out by the music and clamoring of people. 

You knew it was coming again right when you felt your breath catch in your throat. You need to get the fuck out.

You pushed your way through the crowd, each contact with a stranger burning through your skin. You hated how easily overwhelmed you got in situations like this. More importantly you hated your friends for ditching you.

You all but flopped down on the steps outside, trying to calm yourself. You knew you wanted to go home, but didn’t bring a car. Uber was too expensive at this hour, not to mention.

An idea popped in your head. If it were any other day and you weren’t tipsy and overstimulated, you would think of it as crazy. He was studying for an important exam, you knew that.

The urge got the best of you, however, and you were quickly fumbling through your phone. You paused at his contact: Lip Gallagher. The guy you were hooking up with. 

Did this seem clingy? Probably. Was he busy? Yeah. But something deep down inside you. You didn’t know why. You didn’t think you wanted to know why. What you had with Lip was casual, nothing more. You didn’t dare to open those can of worms.

The abrupt cut off of the dial tone causes your stomach to clench. You couldn’t back out now. 

You sighed, realizing you were probably making a big deal out of nothing. Regardless, you needed an out. 

“Yo?”

You let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding. You hated how much you needed to heat his voice. God, you felt pathetic. You swallowed your pride and willed yourself to choke out a few words, trying to bury the sensory overload that lingered.

“Lip?”

You mentally kicked yourself for that question. Obviously it was Lip. Before he had a chance to reply, you introjected with a shaky voice.

“C-can you p-please come get m-me?”

You cringe at how your voice trembles. Your right hand begins to fidget at the fabric of your shirt.

“Hey, woah. Is everything okay?”

You want to cry at how soft his voice is, something you’ve rarely heard but want to keep hearing. It feels like a warm blanket being wrapped around your body.

“My friends—“, you begin to pinch the bridge of your nose and try to calm down.

“They ditched me, I think. I just want to get out of here”

You feel you sound like a whiny kid. You go to choke out frantic apologizes before Lip shushes you softly, reassuring you that it was okay and he didn’t mind. He didn’t miss the worry and care in his voice, and told yourself not to think about it too deeply.

“I’ll be there shortly, just hang in there, okay?”

He stays on the phone with you, the comfortable silence helping you relax. You stay slouched on the stairs, the sounds of the party a background haze. 

You hang up when he arrives, the headlights of his car piercing your eyes. He’s sporting a button up over a long sleeve shirt, the sleeves bunch up by his elbows. You had to jerk away your eyes at the sight of his forearms. 

You looked down, fidgeting with your hands. He kneels down infant of you, placing a gentle hand on your shoulders. It feels warm.

“Is everything okay? Did anything else happen?”

You shake your head.

“No, just overwhelmed. Sorry”

You know you should probably offer more of an explanation, but you’re just so exhausted. Lip seems to understand, though, which makes you want to melt even more. God, why was he like this?

“Don’t apologize. ‘M sorry your buds are dicks”

You shake your head, not wanting to fret about that right now. He then stretches out a hand or you to take, helping you up. You try not to think about how protective his larger and calloused hand feels against yours.

He pulls away and you already miss the contact. You mentally curse yourself at how clingy you were being. Casual. It’s nothing more.

Your thoughts were interrupted when the hand that previously grasped yours moved to the small of your back. It was firm but gentle, guiding you to the car.

You kept trying to ignore how much your heart fluttered at that interaction. Lip Gallagher was going to be the death of you.

[storm-angel989]

Hey!! So I was wondering if you can do an autistic reader that has a problem doing negative stims like pulling hair, scratching skin until it bleeds or biting everything. Thank you!! Also keep up the good work, you are really amazing at it! ♥️

Hi friend,

Absolutely! Thank you so so much for your kind words <3

Though it's not specifically mentioned, I did my best to write the reader as autistic. As an individual who is not diagnosed with autism, I did a bit of research, talked to some people and used my own experiences with the autism community to write this story. I do want to note that negative stims are not exclusive to an autism diagnosis- many other forms of neurodivergent can be comorbid with them. This story is for anyone who engages in a negative stim- with or without the official diagnosis <3 Take a peek at what I’ve come up with and enjoy!

<3 Mandy

Valentino set his laptop down, wrapped his hand around his daughter's wrist and gently began to untangle her hand from her hair. Across the table, her fidget toy sat, played with but left behind in favor of a more fulfilling motion. Although his daughter had always engaged in stimming, it wasn’t until more recently that he noticed the drastic increase in what he perceived as negative stims. 

Stress, the doctor had told them could be triggering the hair pulling, the scratching. He offered them replacement strategies, fidgets, items she could safely bite, along with the suggestion to enroll her in cognitive behavior therapy. He also strongly suggested she receive one to one attention in times that triggered stress, and despite Reader’s reluctance, the four of them made sure someone sat with her during homework time. So far, they were two weeks into it and in his mind, she was still struggling as much as she had the first day. 

“Dad, stop!” Reader protested. “Let go!” 

“Relax your hand,” he said patiently. “I won’t let go until you do.” 

“I can’t help it,” she said defensively.  

Valentino didn’t answer. After a moment, her hand relaxed and he carefully untangled her fingers. Wordlessly, he lifted up a brush and carefully worked through the few knots she had managed to make in her long hair. The doctor had suggested cutting it, something Reader vehemently refused to do. Valentino respected her choice, provided she allowed him to take care of it when she couldn’t. 

“At, no,” he said as he took her other hand before her fingertips pressed against her face. Carefully, he handed her a small squishy ball and watched as she squeezed it tightly. 

“It’s not the same,” she said after a moment. 

“I know bebitia,” he replied softly. “But I want you to try. Finish your homework, and then you can go play.” 

He was grateful that her nails, at least, she agreed to be allowed to be kept short. She didn’t like the feeling of long nails anyway. With one eye on her, he looked back to his screen as she continued to squeeze the small toy with one hand, pencil in the other. Part of him wished he could pull her from the more advanced classes she took, he was sure the extra work caused stress. But the other part of him knew if he put her back in mainstream classes, she would be bored out of her mind. It was a double edged sword, either way he looked at it. 

“Daddy, what’s twenty five times six?” she asked after a moment. “It’s my last problem, can you help?”

“Three tries, then Papi will help you,” he said absentmindedly as he continued to type. Schedules swirled in his mind as the minutes ticked past. Angel Dust, he was owed when? Next week? Tomorrow?

“There, Dad, I’m done,” she said finally. 

Valentino looked up and took the proffered paper. A quick glance over and he scrawled his name across the top. 

“Good job sweetheart, you can go play,” he told her as he stood up. 

He watched as she took off towards the living room and settled into her play area. He sat on the couch facing her and opened the next email in line. A quick glance up at her and alarm spread across his features. 

“Bebita, no. Spit that out, right now,” he scolded as he jumped up from the couch. He knelt down next to her and took her chin in his hands. With practice ease, he pressed into her jaw and removed the rubber plastic doll shirt from her mouth. From his pocket, he pulled out her larger rubber Y shaped fidget, meant to be chewed on. 

“What happens when we put toys in our mouths?” He asked as he pressed the chewy into her hand. 

She didn’t answer and instead sat crossed legged, arms folded across her chest and scowled at him. Without responding, she threw the Y across the living room. 

Valentino took a deep breath. Behavior, at its core, was a form of communication. He needed to remember that, to stay calm.

 “I understand you don’t like the chewy Y. But you cannot chew on Polly Pockets clothes. Do you remember why?”

A few moments of silence. Finally, she turned her head to the side. “I could choke, or swallow them by mistake,” she mumbled.

“Right. And if you choke, you won’t be able to breathe and you could die. And if you swallow them, you have to go to the hospital and get it taken out of your tummy. Do you want that?” He asked patiently. 

She shook her head no and he kissed the top of her head. 

“I didn’t think so,” he said. “Do you want me to put the polly pockets away, or do you think you can keep them out of your mouth?” 

“Put them away,” she said dejectedly. “Daddy, I don’t want them in my tummy.” She reached up towards her head and buried her fingers in her hair. 

“I don’t either,” he said patiently as he took her wrist in his hand. “Come on baby, why don’t you come sit with Papi for a bit?” 

Reluctantly, she relaxed her hand. He bent down and lifted his kindergarten daughter into his arms. 

“Tight squeeze,” she asked softly. “Please?” 

Valentino sat on the couch and squeezed her as tightly as he could before releasing her. 

“More?” He asked. 

She shook her head no and instead cuddled into the crook of his arm. Valentino lifted up the remote and turned on the television. 

“Any requests?” He asked. “Or should I pick a show?” 

She shrugged and Valentino clicked on what he knew was one of her favorite comfort shows. With her safely tucked into his arms, he set his laptop on his opposite knee and began to type. A few minutes later, he felt her breathing slow and he gave her a soft smile. 

“Duerme bebe niña papá está aquí,” he said softly. 

[wisteria-lodge]

bird primary (badger system) + slightly burnt lion secondary (invisible badger model) (snake model)

Hi! I figured I'd just answer some of the prompts you had listed and see what happens! I do have an idea of what I am, but I really just wanted to try and describe myself without my "mask" as much as possible.

Oooh, does this mean we're going to get a lot of models?

I can be very polite and can err on the side of being a doormat to keep the people around me happy

Invisible Badger? Or if this is your mask... Invisible Badger model?

and hide my more "intense" character traits,

"Intense" is very often a Lion word (either primary or secondary.)

and developed a habit of lying to try and hide my neurodivergent qualities, like being forgetful and not completing things on time, but I'm unsure if those things are actually me, since both of those qualities can feel like a prison in the way of actually getting to know me, one that I force on myself out of habit and a feeling of necessity.

I don't diagnose over the internet, that's impossible and unethical, but it does sound like ADHD. Lying to cover up the fact that you forgot something, very normal ADHD thing, and not getting things in on time... ADHD is certainly one of the places that can come from. I would agree that these things don't say anything about your personality, they're disabilities you eventually build coping strategies/works around for.

and I will lie to get an extension on something I forgot to do (and can be quite clever in my lies,) and I just wanted to put those two qualities out there, since you probably won't hear much about them going forward.

In terms of this system... yeah, that "habit of lying" definitely sounds like a Snake secondary model you built as a coping mechanism. You love it, and it's useful, but it's something you did have to learn.

I love being helpful

This could be coming from a few places, but on the surface the energy is either very Badger secondary - or Idealist primary.

Anyway, sorry, it's long, but this is also a form of therapy, in a weird way.

When you really get down to it, basically every personality system is.

As a child, I was always described as "bossy" and a "know-it-all" by those that didn't like me, and "intelligent" and "empathetic" by those who did. I do think they're all accurate, though, and have been working on "reclaiming" the bossy description. I identify as a woman, so that can be tough to deal with.

You sound like Hermione. I definitely think you've got Lion somewhere - could definitely be secondary, or possibly primary. Young Idealists (Lion and Bird) often come across as 'bossy' and 'know-it-all.' Intelligent could be anything, and so could empathetic... although I'm already starting to see some Badger Secondary language coming in, and "empathetic" definitely fits with that.

Lol. Some examples of each:

Love examples.

For Bossy:  I was well-known as a kid for talking "at" people rather than with. My very best friend from preschool (and through to fourth grade, when her family moved) was a girl that had moved there from Mexico and didn't speak a lick of English, at first. My two reasons for befriending her when everyone else was avoiding her was 1) I knew she needed a friend, so I would be that friend.

Very cute. Although this impulse seems to be coming from your primary, which is interesting. ("It is RIGHT for me to be her friend.) Could be a Badger primary. Could also be Idealist.

2) (remember, I was FOUR) since she didn't speak any English, I could just talk, and talk, and talk and she would just listen. Lolol! As she became fluent in English, we discovered we had EVERYTHING in common, and I learned to let other people speak. (Sorta.)

The tendency to steamroll over people... can be a Lion secondary thing. An Exploded Idealist primary thing. An Authoritarian Badger thing? Just, it can come from a lot of places, because it can also be a neurodivergent thing, especially if you're concerned about memory stuff. Then talking over people can be related to working memory - you interrupt is because the worry that if you don't, the thought will just fall out of your head completely.

For the "know-it-all" aspect: I've been a dancer since I was a kid, and I skipped a "grade" in my dance classes early. Usually, it would go predance, kinderdance, and then Ballet 1, which would be your first "real" year of ballet instruction. I did predance and was immediately put in Ballet 1 with the older kids the next year. Yes, it was partially because I was very talented, but the most likely reason was that, when all the other kids during our classes and performances were goofing around or waving at their parents, I would become extremely huffy and try to remind them we were "serious performers" and would wind up pushing the other kids around to what their next position was and generally try to direct them in what came next.

That chip that you've got to take it seriously, you've got to follow the rules... that's the authoritarian etiquette thing you do see from Badger Primaries for me. Even the sweetest Badger primaries, your Snow Whites, gets strict and bossy when there's a job to do and people are messing around. It can also be very Black-and-White Bird - I get it, I'm doing the right thing, why isn't everyone else? I could see either making sense for you. But I am thinking you're an External Primary (Bird or Badger.)

I think they figured I'd be more "stimulated" in a class where I actually was learning instead of goofing off, and I was. Lol! I also had trouble with correcting people at inappropriate times that took me a while to figure out.

Welcome to neurodivergence. Every time I hear someone do the Titantic "I'm king of the world thing!" there a part of my brain that wants to say "um, actually, he says 'I'm the king of the world." No - bad impulse.

I'd correct people's grammar or spelling or if they got something wrong, thinking I was helping them, and then become very confused when they'd get angry and defensive. But, I figured out when I should just keep my mouth shut eventually. Lol.

Okay, I'm starting to have a theory about you. Because of the grammar policing specifically. All the police behavior I know comes from young Bird primaries. And I think it's because - grammar is a system, right? You're taught that this is the system, this is correct. Birds love systems. But English grammar specifically is a... bad system. These rules we're taught are arbitrary, recent, half of them only apply some of the time, and they don't reflect common usage (which changes anyway.) But a young Bird secondary is going to take a second to get to the point where they realize that. I would expect a Badger primary to police language in more community-of-practice ways - don't swear, that word is offensive, don't use the Lord's name in vain, etc - instead of really getting into the nuts and bolts of the actual language stuff.

For Intelligent: Well, it's the fact that I knew all the stuff I said above. Lol. I was a voracious reader and just absolutely absorbed knowledge like a sponge. I was eventually banned from participating in my class' spelling bees because I won too many times, so my teacher would have me sit with the word list and check if my classmates were right. Lol.  In case you haven't picked up on it, I was a very intense, passionate child. Lol.

It's very interesting that you locked on to spelling and grammar specifically. It seems like there may have been a puzzle aspect there that you liked.

For Empathetic: I pretty much formed the entirety of my friend groups out of other kids I felt had been pushed aside by the "popular kids," like my previously mentioned friendship. I'll never forget the moment I knew I'd be on the opposite end of "popular" for my whole school life: I was invited to a cool girl's party, but she told me my friend would not be allowed to go. I'm so proud of my younger self as I remember without even thinking making a scrunched up face and telling her I didn't wanna go if my friend couldn't go. That girl never liked me again, and since I went to a small school system (as well as some of my unfortunate social skills, which definitely came from my later diagnosed ADHD and potentially diagnosable autism, which I suspect but don't know for certain)

Oh, I called it! Anyway... I'm really doubling down on Idealist (almost certainly Bird), because of the specifics of this friend group. You built it like a Cause: "these people deserve a friend group." It's like a little revolutionary group, what you have in common is being Outcasts. It's a very Badger-flavored cause, sure, but this isn't how Badger primaries make friends. A universal Badger would absolutely invite the loners into the group, but it would be about inviting loners into the main group. For a Badger to specifically only trust loners they would have to be quite burned... and I'm not getting Burned primary from you at all.

I'm also doubling down on Lion secondary. You really like just planting your feet, speaking your truth, and if other people don't like it - that's a them problem. You didn't even have to think about it, and that made you feel strong and powerful - not nervous or anxious.

If I'm playing a video game, it's a super easy answer, but not one I like admitting. I just go the easiest route, which is often, from a meta standpoint, a guide.

Easiest, most direct point to the finish line? Just smash on through? LION.

Lol. I'm the same in pretty much all of my low-stakes problem-solving: Whatever solves the problem the quickest and the easiest is the best way to go. I LOVE short cuts, but not if they're overly complicated.

LION.

I'm also the type to think that doing something myself is faster than explaining my situation to someone else and ask for help.

I really think this is a Lion secondary thing. They just GO, and only ask for help if they've tried first and failed.

For a really difficult decision, if I'm given too much time to think about it, I usually flounder for hours or days or months or years until somebody finally puts a deadline on my decision. Suddenly, I go into "problem-solving mode" and I just choose SOMETHING.

That's Lion too. And there's a lot of power to that, honestly. But Lions have a kind of on/off way of operating at either 100% ('problem-solving mode' as you call it) or 0%.

Is it always the best choice? Honestly, I'm not sure there really ARE best choices at this point. Just the choices you make and how you prune them to your liking afterwards. I'm at my best making a decision when I have zero time to make it.

You're not a Prep-Work secondary. Thinking too long about a decision makes you feel worse, not better. You're getting in your own head, and psyching yourself out.

As an example, I do theater, and I LOVE the feeling of having to problem solve backstage, you have literal SECONDS to come up with something, ANYTHING to fix a problem, and whether the solution is perfect just goes out the door and all that matters is that SOMETHING happens, and there's nothing more freeing, since I have a tendency towards perfectionism or analysis paralysis. Where others freeze up, I'm sprinting across the stage, suddenly zeroing in on EXACTLY where the missing prop is, and putting it back in place JUST as the curtain rises. It's a rush like no other, and one of the few places I feel really, truly competent.

There are a LOT of jobs where this ability is ABSOLUTELY key. So long as you're in the right place, doing the right thing, this is a superpower. This is why we love Lions.

My fantasy is always finding a place where I feel really competent, where I can feel safe, have stability, and be able to be useful for that place.

That "useful" thing - that's you're Idealist primary talking. The "competent" thing... that's a key thing for you, this idea that you want to feel competent, and that you don't as much as you would like to. Your current problem solving strategy isn't so much fiery Lion as it is doormat Badger. I think it's likely that your secondary is a little Burnt (which is why you feel incompetent) and you've started modeling Badger to compensate.

Success and being seen as such is also part of that fantasy.

Having a lot of thoughts about being publicly recognized for your success... I mean yes of course it's a human thing, but it hits harder for young idealists.

Theater can be that for me, but stability is also part of my fantasy, and we live under the crushing weight of capitalism, so I could never make enough money to live while putting in all the time and effort for it that I'd want (at least, not right now, I haven't totally given up.) I still give as much of my time as I can to theater and the arts, like writing and creating. I love the theater because of the fast pace, and how I grew up in it and understand the process from top to bottom. Those in that community see me as incredibly competent in turn, instead of as "odd" or "forgetful" or "decision-phobic."

You've heard that ADHD people make great entrepreneurs? Not many people actually enjoy that fast-paced, freelance lifestyle. I think you'd be a great event co-ordinator, great at fund-raising and advertising, great production assistant... and those are only the fields I know something about. Don't let the haters get you down. You don't have to model Badger all the time.

As a kid, I was really drawn to Beauty and the Beast because of Belle's oddness, her ostracization from her own community, and her fulfilling my fantasy of finding a magical place with other "odd" people who accept her, see her as competent, accept her quirks, and keep her far, far away from the people who shun her. :)

She's also a really REALLY loud Lion secondary.

I also really identified with any girl character who was the sort of "rich, bitchy girl who's actually misunderstood and just wants friends." I didn't grow up especially rich, but I grew up with a terrible home life, people who shunned me because of me appearing "bossy" and "mean" when it was all a misunderstanding, and I also grew up feeling incompetent and out of my depth in "normal" situations like most poor little rich girls are shown when they try to adapt to life outside of their mansion. Examples are Elle Woods and Pacifica Northwest, among hundreds of others. The final type is Katara from Avatar, who I relate to based on where she feels most competent, in the "heat of battle," and how she struggles with learning to accept her own intensity (my bossiness or my tendency to wanna cut straight to the point, while also being someone filled with empathy and a love for certain levels of traditionally feminine self-expression.)

It makes a lot of sense that you identify with Katara. She is also a very fiery Lion secondary... who feels culturally pressured to model this caretaking Badger. And clearly she's extremely empathetic, and VERY idealistic. But she's more successful when she gets comfortable with her Lion.

(Sokka had a similar journey, learning he doesn't have to be a "warrior guy" Lion secondary... and instead leans into his natural Bird secondary. It's clearly something the show was interested in exploring. Also, now I really want to write a sorting of Legally Blonde. Because I would be VERY surprised if Elle is not a Lion secondary also.)

(also I've never really thought of as "poor little rich girl" as fun fictional way of exploring neurodivergence, but it honestly hangs together really well, especially for autism. More thought is needed.)

I feel powerful whenever I'm feeling competent, which if you can't tell is a really important word to me. Lol. I've been seen as incomptent in so many ways: clumsy, forgetful, socially too intense, too bossy, too much of a doormat when I try to turn down my intensity, etc... So, being seen as and feeling competent is my ultimate fantasy, like being a "boss babe" (cringe) where I'm walking around an office or a theater making quick decisions and talking about some deadline is part of my power fantasy.

It's not cringe. It makes you special. Like me? Oh no, that's not my fantasy. That sounds so stressful.

Lol. I work in a community serving position which I do like, but I hate how much "being nice" is involved, where your tone is monitored and you could get in trouble based on the way you said something, which can be a blind spot for me (though my history and passion for acting has helped me a bit in this.)

This definitely explains where the "doormat" Invisible Hufflepuff is coming from. You work in a job where "customer service face" is really, really important. But I bet your Idealist primary likes the... idealism of it all.

I think I'd feel more "free" and less caged in if I worked somewhere where your tone didn't matter quite as much.

I agree! And even within the community service/non-profit organization sphere, there definitely are jobs that are less public-facing.

I feel most powerful solving problems and jumping last minute on set changes in theater, or learning lines or a dance to fill in for a part in only a few hours. "Prep-time" can almost be a prison to me, when the ADHD/perfectionism creeps in and messes me up.

It is weird that "perfectionism" is so often treated as a cute quickly flaw. It a curse, it it the enemy of art... all this stuff I don't need to tell you. But yeah, this all sounds like Lion.

I've had a lot of difficult times, and all of them have come down to losing my community. I have had to walk away from friends and family due to ab*se and walk alone MULTIPLE times

On the surface this looks like a community-driven Badger primary, and like... it could be. It absolutely could be. One of the interesting aspects of this submission was how little you talked about primary, and how much you talked about secondary. I'm getting that your secondary IS your focus right now. You're looking for a place where your skills are needed, where you feel competent, useful, and secure. Once you've got THAT in place... you can start dealing with the metaphysical stuff.

I've failed at trying to make myself competent in places that didn't serve me, and I've been searching for a place to land ever since. I've found my community in some aspects of my life, but in others I'm still looking, but I haven't given up. My most important relationships are my friends and chosen family. I'm much more suspicious than I was as a kid, just inviting anyone I saw who needed a friend to be mine, but the people I have let in I truly cherish. :)

So my best guess... is that you're a Bird primary with a pretty Badger looking system. It's a system you're just letting sit at the moment, it's working fine. But to me, the way you write about switching communities here that match you Bird, not Badger. The process of leaving was terrible, but you're going to find a place that suits you (and your Lion secondary) better... next time. And you absolutely well.

Thank you so much!

You are so welcome.

Thank you to rinamars for such an excellent submission. If you’d like a Sorting of your very own, commissions are open on my ko-fi. :D

If you’d like to read more about the system I’m using, my explanation is right here.

[foxedthecards]

((Hey so here's some personal thoughts of mine about interacting with longtime writing partners-especially the ones who you consider buddies outside of rping-from me to you cause I've been thinking a whole lot about it this morning.

I've seen a lot of PSAs about RPing in general which has been all good solid advice and I have nothing really to add to it. It goes without saying I strongly agree with doing things like curating your spaces, putting yourself, your health and personal time before your hobbies, being respectful of your rp partners needs and comforts, not taking things personally etc

I would like to add though I haven't seen a lot pertaining to maintaining, nourishing and upkeeping your writing partnership and I personally really would like to see more. For me writing and rping is indeed a fun hobby and never should take precedence over one's own health or personal life. But especially with folks that I've come to know and care about outside of RPing, spending time rping and chatting with them about our OCs is also an important facet of the friendships that I maintain with them. So in light of that, my thoughts about that such as it is. Under a cut it got a bit long sorry

Make a point to let your writing partner know how much you appreciate them and the time they can give you. A lot of us have lives and work outside of tumblr. Sometimes shit happens in real life or we have to deal with things like mental health issues, disabilities, chronic illnesses and the like. All of that and more can steal the few precious spoons partners can spare. Always ALWAYS tell your partners thank you. Respect the time they can spare. You don't know what they may be struggling with. So please be kind, please be understanding and please be patient.

On that note also be excited (as much as you can manage of course) about what ya'll rp together-the plots, the ideas, the ships whatever. Please let your partner KNOW you are interested and that you care about the things ya'll are creating. Fuck cringe. If you're my writing partner by god I love for you to come busting in my DMs anytime and shove some random meme in my face or quote or some weird thing you found at the thrift store and be like 'This made me think of your OC'. Let. Them. Know. You. CARE. Obviously you don't have to be doing this every hour on the hour but let me tell you on shitty days that I've been so beat down I want to give up on everything and become a hermit, one mutual just sending me a silly little thing and being like 'look it ya OC' has sometimes made all the difference in the world.

Also please communicate clearly with your partners as much as you can manage. This is something I put as a reminder for myself too and something I'm trying very hard to be better about. I'm a neurodivergent writer, sometimes I just have real trouble trying to organize my thoughts, communicate my wants and needs and make myself understood to my partners. Especially when strong emotions get tangled up in that communication. Still if you're comfortable enough and have a good relationship with your partner, don't be afraid to approach them talk things out with them as needed. Particularly pertaining to more difficult things, be it a sensitive scene in an rp you're both trying to plot out in writing or something that was done or said in conversation that didn't sit right.

Going on that last part, I'd also say be careful and thoughtful about navigating disagreements and perceived hurts and slights. It's why it's good to always work on maintaining and strengthening a healthy separation between personal feelings and RP stuff. Because if you don't things will get weird and uncomfortable so quick between you and the people you interact with. Please try not to take things personally. It can be hard! My general take on such things is that if something your partner is saying or doing, inside or outside of rping, is really eating at you, the first thing you ought to do is step back from rping and give yourself some time to ground yourself, sort your feelings and mentally touch grass. Also think over the nature of what exactly bothered you, why it bothered you and what's your personal boundaries about it. Is it something minor that you can overlook, move past or resolve? Or is it a deal breaker for you? There's a lot of things can be talked out and dealt with positively, privately and in a calm and adult way.

Sort of related: please don't let any RP drama and shit interfere with or destroy a genuinely good friendship. I love and enjoy my OCs they reflect varied aspects of my personality as well as ideas and very personal experiences that I'm processing and sorting through. But I also recognize those OCs are fictional. They are not my mouthpiece. They are not me. RP drama also includes rifts that may pop up over romantic shipping which unfortunately can sometimes be very emotionally loaded-look I get it, we're all anxious and neurodivergent and human. Fictional feelings can affect us, it's all valid. My own take on that is that NO fictional OTP or OT3-4-5-6 whatever will ever EVER be more important to me than a real live human being and honestly if you find yourself getting to a point where anything along those lines are causing serious and lasting rifts in a writing partnership, making things super weird or blurring a line between reality and fiction then one or the other party or whoever is involved really needs to step back, reassess themselves and maybe take a break for a while to get back in a better and more grounded headspace.

Also let me just say your RP partners, especially the ones you've been rping with for a while and built up a good relationship with are not to be treated like disposable tissues to be discarded when the next new Shiny Thing or New RP Partner shows up. That is IMHO very hurtful and inconsiderate of the feelings of your writing partners. I've unfortunately had it done to me but also looking back in my own past experiences, I've realized that there's been times I've gotten hyperfocused on one thread/storyline or interacting with one or two ocs and while yeah hey it happens-thanks neurodivergent brain-I did feel like I ended up making writing partners and friends I genuinely cared about feel neglected or ignored and caused them to drift away and strained our friendship outside of rping. I honestly regret that a lot and here recently I've been trying very hard to change that. I feel I can do better in that regards and I am actively trying to do so. Trying to be kinder and better about distributing my attention more equally to my rp partners new and old.

But honestly like. I guess that's kind of the whole thing I think I'm aiming for through all this longass rambling, to just be kinder and more considerate to your rp partners. Listen to them, talk to them, encourage and uplift them, don't treat them like your personal entertainment machine, be mindful of their personal comfort and boundaries and do your best on your end to ensure that rping continues to be full of the kind of experiences that are mutually enjoyable. And of course most importantly in the midst of that, take care of yourself as well!

I really believe in the idea that if you put good out in the world then good will come back in turn. Even if it is just a hobby or a past time! God knows the world is so fucked up right now, we need all the enjoyment and distractions-and solid friends-we can get. So ultimately being a good and considerate person to other people even in the most minor of interactions can only make things better for everyone in general. I truly believe that and I'll continue to do my best to ensure that the folks that interact with me here and the folks I can call my friends and all the wonderful variations in between will enjoy themselves. Anyways love ya'll be good to each other <3))

[rottenwhimsy]

villanelle and autism

side notes before i begin:

some of these traits could also be explained by cluster b disorders, as she’s heavily bpd coded and canonically aspd, but i see her as both cluster b and autistic.

please don’t say things like “YES she’s not a psychopath, she’s autistic instead” because she’s still very much aspd and i don’t want to take that away.

just scroll if you don’t agree :)

masking/mirroring

masking is a strategy used to hide neurodivergent traits in order to blend in with neurotypicals. this can include mirroring (mimicking others expressions/behaviors), or even entire persona changes.

in the very first scene villanelle carefully observes a man smiling then mimics his smile (1x01)

villanelle hears a woman laugh on the radio then mimics her laugh, later she reuses that same laugh with sebastian (1x02)

liked copying the statue people in the street (2x05)

often mimics konstantin and predicts what he’s going to say

can quickly switch personas, adopts different accents and dialects quickly, and reuses phrases that are said to her

taking things literally

when talking about villanelle anna says “she was quite literal” and goes on to describe how villanelle misinterpreted a joke so confidently that she killed someone because of it (1x07)

interprets the bible extremely literally in season 4

“i have children” “i don’t want your children” (1x05)

“sheep are happier than wolves” “you spend your time off surveying sheep?” (3x08)

took konstantin saying “do something normal” literally (1x02)

“you are not a pumpkin, you a beautiful” (1x04)

kills gabriel because she thought he was genuinely asking to die when he was expressing how sad he was about his situation (2x01)

sensory seeking (& sensitivities)

touches and focuses on the texture of the liliana rizzari duvet, goes out of her way to ask the man she’s killing for the name of the duvet, later purchases it for herself and carefully feels the texture of it again (1x01)

generally touches and smells everything

“i want to smell her skin” (4x03) as well as her describing her ideal perfume in detail then asking eve and konstantin to smell her (3x03)

hates wearing crocs and other “non-nice” things, is very fixated on “nice” things like high quality clothes and food

makes people stroke her hair when she’s feeling upset (2x05 and 4x01)

bold fashion with a lot of colors/patterns/textures

seems to dislike most people hugging her

more up to interpretation, but she wore headphones in 3x04 and 3x05, once while she was having a meltdown on a train

struggles with social cues

includes coming off as blunt/rude, trouble navigating groups, and not interpreting situations correctly

how awkward and blunt she was at her wedding (3x01)

interacting with the church, especially in 4x02

doesn’t know how to react to displays of emotion (gabriel crying, benita crying, was confused and froze when her brother was being affectionate)

doesn’t understand why some people are upset with her (konstantin in s2, may in s4, eve at multiple points)

doesn’t understand that certain things will make people upset (being very blunt with gabriel then being put off when he starts crying)

struggles with understanding boundaries

doesn’t see authority figures as an authority (teasing and flirting with the prison guards, threatening konstantin, casually killing anton, doesn’t seem to understand consequences)

does not follow rules that don’t make sense to her

breaks into eve’s house expecting a normal dinner, doesn’t know how to calm eve down and ends up making her panic more (1x05)

didn’t understand why eve’s coworkers were acting scared of her (3x08)

is confused as to why sebastian laughs when she says she likes national anthems (1x02)

not understanding why her mom was laughing at her and that it was mocking “you always laugh at things that aren’t funny” “like you?” “yes” (3x05)

stimming

the repetitive performance of certain physical movements or vocalizations in order to self soothe or express emotion

big jumpy happy dance (3x04)

during cup game (3x05)

jumping and spinning on the heels of her boots by the train with rhian (3x08)

her copying noises she hears could be a type of vocal stim, echolalia

on the train ride at the end of 3x05

there are more examples but i can’t list them all since she generally bounces around a lot and has a lot of big movements

inappropriate/bizarre responses

yelling “this is so BORINGGG” while in an art museum (2x04)

“i mean i masturbate about you a lot” (1x08)

yelling “JUST DUNK ME” while getting baptized (4x01)

soooo many instances that again i can’t list them all…

alexithymia

alexithymia is the difficulty feeling or identifying emotions (or physical stressors like pain)

her whole aa meeting speech in 2x06 about how she feels nothing and the distress it causes (is extremely bored, hurts herself and it doesn’t hurt, just wants to feel something)

doesn’t know if she’s telling the truth or not (2x07), this could also be because of masking as too much masking can cause identity confusion, not knowing what you’re faking and what’s authentic

weakened sense of danger, even says “i don’t get scared” (2x08)

says she’s fine then immediately collapses (2x01)

other traits

meltdowns, especially at the end of 3x05 where she was wearing headphones and had increased stimming while crying

low empathy

attaches to and fixates on a specific person, obsession prone

REJECTION SENSITIVE DYSPHORIA

has always felt estranged and inherently different from others, “i’m not normal you know” (2x01)

detail oriented, notices things others don’t

bad at dancing/rhythm

exaggerated facial expressions

exaggerated speech

poor impulse control

differences in expressing emotions and communication

only comfortable with select people

perfectionism, hates working with a team and wants to do jobs alone (1x04, 3x02)

feels threatened when irina knows more languages than her, as languages are something villanelle is very interested in (1x08)

black and white thinking

[yearofthesnvke]

Okay, so this is gonna be a lot of devil's advocate and I'm sure plenty of ppl will disagree, so I just want to start off saying that this is all speculation the same as everyone else are here, just perhaps seeing it from a more positive perspective. This is what I want to believe, not what I actually think 😅

I could just be a naive teenager who's never been in a relationship before, or I could just be an overly-empathetic autistic person. Or I could just have grown up reading the How to Train Your Dragon series, where a huge moral in the story is forgiveness and growth. (it's all three of these, ik xD) But I truly believe that humans can change, and I want to believe that Chel is trying to get better, I want to believe it so much that it hurts. Regardless, I honestly think that Damien is the sort of person who sees the best in everyone, and he probably tries to "fix" people even if it harms him- like you said, he has a "saviour complex". So even if Chel isn't trying, Damien probably believes that they are.

I think it's important to remember that people are people, and people can regret their actions and feel guilty. Disclaimer- I am in no way disregarding all the horrible things Chel has done in the past, they are 100% guilty of these things and I'm not trying to deny that. The thing is, I see a lot of people throwing around the word narcissism here, and idk if Chel has been diagnosed with anything of the sort, but please just remember that narcissistic people are still humans who deserve the benefit of the doubt sometimes. Maybe they are trying to fix what they've done- we would have no clue, because as your pinned post says (which, if y'all are right and they do know about this blog, they quite possibly might've taken that advice to heart), there's no public redemption for Chel- anything that they want to make better has to be done offline with the people they've hurt. Repaying them and not doing the same shit in the future. Going to therapy, etc. How would we know if they're doing any of this or not? The only thing we allegedly have confirmed is that they're still with Damien, but I know he's a big advocate for therapy and stuff, so there's a possibility he's getting them to try it. And Chel apparently doesn't have the most money right now, so they could be saving up to pay back the people they stole from- we wouldn't know.

Maybe this facebook lie wasn't necessarily to mess with those following and speculating about this situation, but to purely get us off their back and accept that they're not together anymore (even if they are). Like, an attempt to stop the speculation, rather than to feed it. Because (and ik I'm playing the devil's advocate a lot here sorry) it must be so stressful to have everyone on the internet bashing you, and if Chel is genuinely trying to change (it's improbable but I can still hope), they'll find it easier to if everyone quiets down (not saying that we should though- I'm still 80% sure they're a shitty person).

Also, I want to check- did Chel delete the tweets/insta posts that had "mild references to Damien's anatomy" (as you put it) a short time after they were posted, or after the callout when they cleared most of their social presence? Because if it was shortly after, it's completely possible that Damien simply asked them to delete the posts if he was uncomfortable with them, and they respected his wishes. And I think I saw someone say that Chel is also neurodivergent, and idk if this is accurate or not, but a lot of stuff like this and other examples like saying things on stream that made Damien uncomfortable could simply be down to poor social skills and awareness. Sure, it seems they didn't learn from those mistakes and repeatedly kept making them, but Damien seems to have given them grace for it, and imo so should we. It sucks, yeah, but it's in no way a reason to hate on someone in the way stealing and stalking is. (However if they only deleted them after the callout, I do agree with you- that's why I'm asking for clarification.)

Sorry for the long post. Hope you don't mind some speculation in a different, more positive direction 😅

I'm happy to have it! Thank you! 💜

I'm honestly not sure at what point the socials were deleted/made private, but I'm sure somebody here can clarify the timeline. I do know there were posts that were taken down almost immediately (the lockscreen for example) and my *speculation* is that either they were asked to do so or simply posting it in the first place had the effect they wanted. Speculation.

I'm fully prepared to be wrong about Chel. It just seems likely, particularly after this FB stunt, that they have no intention of redeeming themselves. If they wanted people to leave them alone, keep 👏your shit 👏 private 👏. Don't intentionally rile up your partner's fanbase. Messy.

[foolish-took]

Hellooooo my darling fellow citizens of tumblr, I have finally finished The Residence!! I have a lot of thoughts and need somewhere to put em so of course they’re getting put in my favorite blogging site <3 I’ll be going over various aspects of the show so feel free to skip around bc I have a feeling it’ll be a long one! That being said, spoilers for every episode under the cut, be advised you should definitely see the show before reading. Other than that, let’s get into it!!

First I want to get this out of the way before I forget. I was already on the verge of tears at the last episode, one bc I was ecstatic that the finale was a 90 minute extravaganza (I love when shows do that tbh) and two bc A.B. Wynter’s story honestly pulled at my heartstrings. He was a hard working man who loved his job and, as Detective Cupp had said, saw the White House and its residents and staff as a dysfunctional family that he was going to make work. But seeing at the end of episode eight “in memory of Andre Braugher”, learning that this beloved man was in the middle of filming as Wynter before he sadly passed? Yeah that genuinely broke my heart. He would’ve done beautifully, I just know it, and I’m sorry we couldn’t see him in this role. But that isn’t to say Giancarlo Esposito didn’t do amazingly as well, and I can’t imagine what it must have been like being asked to step in.

Bit of an awkward transition, not sure how exactly to move on, but I will now be talking about Detective Cordelia Cupp bc she has been a central part of my enjoyment for the show!! One thing about me is for a murder mystery to really scratch my brain, it’s gotta have a good detective. And these good detectives usually have a couple things in common. Clever, yes, a sprinkling perhaps of neurodivergence, a splash of queerness, funny if they can help it, and immaculate fashion sense (Shawn Spencer is excluded from this last bit bc he just dresses like some guy, unless it’s a parody episode where he really goes off). These are all general characteristics I look for in fictional detectives I am Not Normal™️ about. And Detective Cupp met every single qualification and passed with flying colors, bird pun intended. She is fascinating to me. To be fair, I did end up seeing a post that was like “I headcannon Cupp as autistic and asexual” which lead me to being interested in seeing the show, and after watching the entire thing I must say: I fully agree, she is autistic and asexual. Shoutout!

No but seriously, watching her process as she goes through the murder and the clues was awesome. The way her hobby as a birdist blends with her job as a detective in how she approaches and moves through a case, the use of a birding journal to get down the facts of the case and work it out in her head, it’s all so unique and brilliant. I thought the tactic of just staring and waiting while interviewing everyone was an incredibly refreshing move for a detective to have, because it’s always clever words or slight aggression that gets people to talk, and never simply waiting them out. People get nervous when they think they’re in trouble, doubly so of course when they actually know something, but if you try and force it out of them they can easily just continue to shut it down. But if you wait? If you make them think you know something? Unless they’re a hardened criminal, which none of the people in the show were, then you’ll break, and I ate that shit up every time. It was just genuinely amazing to have a detective who was no nonsense, and yet still made time to locate all the birds to be found at the White House. UGH I could genuinely wax poetic about her but I will move on!

Ok next I’ll discuss the supporting characters. Agent Park was an interesting partner to be honest! Even though he barely really spoke in the beginning, and he had very little faith in Cupp until the end, he kept it professional by never disrespecting or arguing with her in front of suspects, and genuinely did seem like he wanted to be helpful. I actually appreciated his character a lot lol. My favorite tho was definitely Chief Dokes. He was just delightful, he always gave Cupp his full support and I adore their relationship. We don’t know their backstory but you can see the strength in their respect and care for each other. Plus, that bit in episode seven where he goes “I dunno shit about Lilly” and then proceeds to talk for like ten minutes about very detailed stuff, yeah that cracked me up. And of course, I really liked A.B. Wynter as a character, despite not technically spending that much time with him. But just hearing about him and seeing how things played out, he seemed like a genuinely good man just trying his best at his job. All the other characters were fine, I didn’t really get that attached to anyone else somehow LOL.

So. I wanna talk about the mystery itself. When I watch murder mysteries like this, I let myself get really immersed, yet also I’m stable in my place as the viewer. I take in the clues as they’re shown, I observe the suspects, but I also don’t put in too much effort to solve the mystery itself. This is mostly bc of my weakness in enjoying a performance, aka the reveal. If I’m sitting here trying to guess and figure things out, I’m not really appreciating the show, nor will the reveal be as exciting, at least for me. I did have my suspicions though, and I always like to just keep those in the back of my head as they go. Most of the time I barely bother to solve the mystery and just am along for the ride. For this series I couldn’t help it though, and honestly I was suspicious of Lilly however-you-spell-her-last-name from more or less the start. Even when they kept pushing for Harry Horinger or whatever to be the one, I was like eh? He’s just an asshole and too worried about other shit to be worried about killing Wynter honestly. But Lilly was just weird and off from the start, from the way she constantly disrespected Wynter and the staff to also just simply opening her mouth and saying some bs lmao. I was suspicious of a couple other people, that reveal of the pastry chef with the knife and the maid with the candle stick really threw me for a loop. But I always had Lilly on my list, despite not really knowing how or why or any of that. Her attempts to frame the engineer and the maid? Really good, but I trusted the other too a hundred times more than I trusted her. But god, everything just came together so well. It was confusing, there were so many little details, so many different sides to stories and tons of lies and UGH, I just had a wonderful time with the mystery itself that I’m honestly excited to rewatch the show and see what else I can catch and connect myself.

Now I’m no expert or anything, but I would like to talk a little bit about the way this show was filmed and everything. I LOVED that the episode titles were all previous mystery stories, from an Alfred Hitchcock film to the famous fictional detective mentioned at the very beginning of the show!!! I loved little details like that oh my god!!! Call me easy to please idc. I also really liked how it seemed to be edited like it was meant to be released one episode at a time every week. I didn’t know of the show when it dropped so idk if this actually happened, but I enjoy the effort nonetheless!!! Like I really like this way this show was shot and edited, it’s dynamic it’s interesting, there’s nothing corny about it, unfortunately whenever we were at the night of the murder I’m room 301 where there were no lights I couldn’t see shit but that’s a problem with all shows these days so it’s fine. They played on my favorite trope (I think that’s what you call it?? Correct me if I’m wrong) where Person A says something and like it jump cuts to three different people straight up contradicting them. Honestly I think the whole interviewing process was my favorite. And the Hugh Jackman bit made me giggle, like they couldn’t get the man himself to be in the show but they sure as hell will say his name a billion times bc Australians!! He’s Australian! Speaking of which, this was the show that taught me that Kylie Monogue is Australian, I did not know that before. The more ya know!! I think I had more specific shots and scenes that I liked but I’ve already been rambling for too long and I don’t remember everything. Oh, final thing though, the music was great, reminded me a lot of the soundtrack for Knives Out which I adore so that just immersed me even further!

Ok and that’s all!! I think this show is going in my top five, top ten at least, and I really hope we get more of Cordelia Cupp! If you happened to read all this, you’re a trooper, let’s be best friends. If you read this at all thanks so much!! Tell me your thoughts let’s chat!!! That’s all for now <3

[autistic-ben-tennyson]

In Defense of Vegans

I can’t believe I have to make this but after seeing how posts like the above still get thousands of notes I’m going to. While there are critiques of militant veganism I agree with as a former vegan, some people need to chill out. What’s aggravating about most people here is how much they hate vegans but less in the alt right conservative fashion and more under a guise of faux progressivism. All nuance is thrown out and people treat the vegan debate as a false binary of either eat local, humane meat or child slave soy.

I’ll start by saying I was a lot more anti vegan when I first got on this hellsite. Reblogging anti-vegan posts and picking occasional fights with vegans. I was a lot angrier and was letting off steam as someone who was a former vegan who had a hard time with it. Same with religion, I was a lot more anti religion when starting my blog due to anger at evangelicals. Being able to recognize how it just wasn’t my cup of tea has caused me to let go of a lot of that anger. I wasn’t happy doing it but that’s not a damnation of veganism or vegans.

What irritates me about how most treat vegans is that it’s often reacting to a stereotype or strawman of vegans rather than actually engaging with them. All these posts about how vegans are destroying the environment with their child slave quinoa, cashews and plastic leather, when being a vegan doesn’t require using that stuff. A lot of them are smarter than given credit for and do research what they buy. Many do eat local produce and use hand me down wool or leather. They aren’t just buying every hipster product labeled vegan. Vegans are forced to be put on the defensive and what should be a conversation about how no food is really ethical in this capitalist society turns into a shouting match and “no you” regarding who’s more “cruelty free”.

I can understand having beef with militants if you have faced bigotry such as racism or ableism from animal rights activists. But some people really are quick to hate vegans and justify it as woke or leftist. Sometimes, people won’t even check the source before reblogging it, like the video of that problematic new age hippie, appropriating Pacific Islander culture, claiming veganism is colonialism.

I think a lot of vegans get hate for being the wrong kind of neurodivergent in some peoples eyes. Many, including myself, do have hyper empathy and are swayed by emotional arguments such as documentaries such as Earthlings. They make one small mistake and everyone treats them as if they’re the worst even if they do apologize for it like @sobadpink here in the replies. Many of them do have trauma from the cruelty towards animals they’ve seen which is treated with little sensitivity by people who claim to be allies to those who are neurodivergent and/or have faced abuse or PTSD. While white PETA types need to be called out, many famous civil rights leaders have been vegan/vegetarian like Cesar Chavez or Corretta Scott King and people do a disservice by treating it as solely a white man’s ideology.

Being a vegan isn’t easy and a lot of people’s anger here is fairly reasonable in my opinion. Many are ostracized by their families, can hardly find any food while on the go and struggle with people not understanding or refusing to understand them. Correcting misinformation from vegans is one thing and then there’s just being a jerk about it. A lot of anti vegan people here are the latter. You can say it’s self inflicted but many do think they’re doing a good thing, even if the meat industry is more complicated than just “vote with your dollar”. I would be a bit defensive myself if people treated me like a racist, ableist colonizer who hates migrant workers the moment I mentioned what I eat for lunch.

Call me a bleeding heart or ARA if you want but I think a lot of vegans here deserve more charity than they’ve been given. It’s like this site, when it comes to this issue, is stuck in 2015 as I’ve seen vegans try to explain their side, offer different perspectives and correct misconceptions but nope, another post about slave labor quinoa or plastic wool gets made every week and gets thousands of uncritical notes. People claim those posts aren’t about shaming vegans but that’s sure not how they come off as. Even a lot of the big “anti vegan” blogs here have admitted they went a bit too far and have mellowed out. I don’t agree with everything hardcore vegans have done or said and I can understand why some who’ve been hurt by them may dislike vegans but I think tumblr is way too harsh and intolerant of vegans despite claiming to be the leftist weirdo safe space.

[hot-take-tournament]

HOT TAKE TOURNAMENT!

PRELIMINARY #286

Submission 751

The mocking of general Tumblr's userbase's lack of reading comprehension skills should not be as normalized as it is

Man, I was gonna write such a long essay on this one... I don't think I can honestly, I have a lot of thoughts regarding this subject however not as much of a decent attention span to write it all down.

But, to simplify it, you shouldn't bully, mock and put down people or the general userbase of Tumblr or anyone really in relation to their/our garbage reading comprehension skills.

Like I said, I have a lot of thoughts but not enough time. So

Just... don't bully people? Misunderstandings very much happen due to lack of reading comprehension skills however instead of bullying others for it you should take your time to clarify your point especially if you two AGREE. but some people simply don't want to take anymore their time explaining and would rather bully others which doesn't help literally anyone in the situation and only worsens it. It's fine to be stupid, it's fine to suck at reading, it's not fine to bully others for those traits because like. What are you doing with your life. Bullying most of the times isn't justifiable I would say (unless the other person is an irredeemable moral failure) but in this case the person just might suck at reading or reading social cues and it's never good to bully people for that.

We can very much just avoid misunderstandings by taking our time, being patient, yada yada. Not bullying. It doesn't matter what the person with no reading comprehension skills reason is for being "stupid"'s reason is, maybe they're some flavour of neurodivergent, maybe it's because they barely ever read, maybe it's bc of something else or maybe it's a combination of several factors. They still shouldn't be bullied for it just bc they misunderstood the tone of your post or comment or whatever

Anyway sorry if this is hardly readable, I'll try to clarify what I meant here further if needed

Propaganda is always encouraged!

And remember to reblog your favourite polls for exposure!

[thevoicefromanotherworld]

"I THINK I DO TOO"

As a neurodivergent person, I have a hard time putting into words my love for the people I love, and sometimes I hate myself for it. I have a hard time saying I love you or giving a hug. I'm not good with words of endearment, and I'm not a big fan of physical contact either. That's why I feel terrible about myself sometimes, for not being able to do the same things that others do, but you know what? It's okay, everything is okay

To my neurodivergent readers (regardless if you belong to the Black Sails fandom or not) YOU ARE VALID, WORTH IT, AND DESERVE TO BE LOVED FOR BEING JUST THE WAY YOU ARE (I'm crying as I write this lol)

I wrote this Captain Flint fic based on these thoughts

POV: You cure Captain Flint wounds

I hope you like it!

Captain Flint limped to your door, his face contorted in pain.

When you opened the door and saw him, you felt your heart sink.

He was so bruised and broken that you wouldn't have recognized him if it weren't for his intense green eyes, which were watching you intently.

"Flint," you said, "what happened to you?"

"It's a long story," he said, gesturing towards the inside of the house. "I didn't know who else to turn to."

You nodded, putting one of his arms around your neck to help him get in. Once inside, you sat him down on one of the chairs and quickly went to put some water on to boil.

You dipped a clean cloth in it and grabbed another chair and sat down in front of him to wipe the blood off his face.

He winced when you passed the cloth over his swollen eyebrow.

"I'm sorry," you murmured. "It must hurt a lot," you said, staring at him. "Are you going to tell me who did this to you?"

-Vane's men -he confessed, holding your gaze- let's say they didn't agree with letting us dock at what was now their dock

-For God's sake -you sighed, shaking your head, you knew Captain Vane, he was a man whose temper got the better of him at times, but you didn't know he could become so violent- I'll talk to Miss Guthrie, this can't happen again

He smiled as you went to wipe the blood off his neck. You looked down, noticing a huge blood stain running through his white shirt where his arm joined his shoulder. You swallowed hard, nervously.

-I have to see that wound -you said, gesturing to his shirt- Can you…?

-Of course - he nodded with a half-smile as he pulled his shirt over his head and let it fall in a messy pile on the floor.

You tried hard not to look at him, but you couldn't help but notice his strong forearms, and how his veins stood out under his skin.

He noticed your scrutiny but didn't say anything, instead he just watched you closely, waiting for your next move.

You noticed the wound on his shoulder, which was nothing more than a simple cut that wasn't too deep, so just like before, you wet the cloth again and cleaned it.

Then you sewed up the wound and put a bandage on it.

-I'm done - you announced taking a step back - How are you feeling?

-Much better than before - he replied making you smile-

-I'm glad to be of use - you said as you turned to pick up the things you had used to heal him-

It was then when you were washing the utensils, when you heard him say:

-I've missed you - he confessed in a low voice-

You felt his gaze on your back, so you turned slowly to focus on him. His green eyes locked with yours with overwhelming intensity.

The dynamic between Captain Flint and you had always been like this: nothing had ever happened between you, but every time you were in the same room, whether alone or accompanied by more people, there was always a kind of electricity that pulsed in the environment, a tension that had been prolonged for all those years.

It was the first time he had said something like that to you, so you froze in place not knowing what to answer.

Your cheeks heated up due to the shyness you felt at that moment when you saw yourself exposed in that way.

Flint watched you intently, the blush on your cheeks only making him want to close the distance between you immediately, but he knew you weren't like that.

You weren't like the other girls on the island.

You never were and you never would be.

If you had been like them, you would have thrown yourself into his arms the moment he appeared at your door.

You were different.

You didn't approach him not because you didn't want to, but because you couldn't do it.

You wanted him to be the one to approach you, and that's exactly what Flint did.

You had never said it out loud, but from several of your actions towards him, the captain knew that was what you wanted.

James knew you would never say it out loud, your shy and embarrassed way of being prevented you from doing so, but he didn't care, it was the small gestures you made that they gave him the clues he needed.

And for him it was enough

Maybe no one noticed it, or they just saw it as normal actions

But he didn't

He knew that your actions, whether big or small, always had a meaning, like that time you left a bottle of his favorite rum on the cot in his room, or when you reserved a table at the bar because you knew that was where he liked to sit.

This time was no different

The act of healing his wounds had meant a lot to you, and he knew it.

He knew that your way of showing your love was through your actions, and not words.

He also knew that physical contact was not your strong suit, so he had always tried to treat you with respect and ask you before making any move so that you wouldn't feel uncomfortable, when in reality all he wanted to do was pull you towards him and kiss you, see you and have you all to himself, let you know how special you were and how much you meant to him.

He kept looking at you. You swallowed hard and dried your hands with another rag before focusing on him.

-It's been a long three weeks - you admitted making him smile, that meant that you had missed him too, even if you didn't say it with those words-

-There were certain moments when I thought I would never set foot on solid ground again - he murmured taking several steps towards you, keeping his distance - I thought I would never see you again

-Your presence here says otherwise - you said laughing nervously, he took another couple of steps - you have a gift for getting out of difficult situations, captain

God, if you only knew how much he liked you to call him that…

The things he had imagined doing to you while you were doing it could be described as anything but ethical

-You're right - he conceded taking a couple more steps - you also have a gift - he said pointing to his shoulder - it's the first time in my entire life that they've put one of these on me

-That's not possible - you murmured seeing how he continued to advance towards you - if you don't cover the wound after cleaning it can… - you paused when he was in front of you, Dangerously close, you tried to move back to create some space, but he moved a little, doing it for you. It was those little details that made him so precious to you- … get infected

-Of course –he smiled, looking at you intently- I'm sure that way it won't get infected

-Sure not –you murmured, observing him nervously-

He held your gaze before lowering it inevitably to your lips. You took a deep breath for a moment.

-Flint?

-Yes?

-Are you going to kiss me? –you asked, making him tilt his head to the side-

-Depends –he murmured- Do you want me to? –he asked cautiously, he didn't want to force you to do anything you wanted-

-Yes –you confessed, he sketched a reassuring smile- although I must tell you that I don't…

-I know –he stopped you affectionately-

-Do you know? - you questioned, he nodded-

-I know - the captain affirmed- Do you trust me?

-With my life - you answered quickly, your anxiety was through the roof at that moment-

He nodded firmly and after observing you for a moment he placed his lips against yours.

You felt an unknown pressure in your lower abdomen, a sensation you had never experienced before.

You closed your eyes and moved your lips against his.

You didn't know if you were doing it right, or if that was the way it was supposed to be done, but the fact that he didn't separate from you made you understand that you weren't doing it as bad as you thought.

He kissed the corner of your lips delicately, before kissing you again on them.

You put your hands behind his neck, tugging at his locks between your fingers. He placed his hands on your hips, despite the layers of clothing you wore you felt his touch as if you weren't wearing any.

You separated in search of air. He rested his forehead on yours for a moment, before focusing on you again.

You were driving him crazy.

Your lips swollen from his kisses and your eyes shining with desire weren't helping him hold back.

Because he knew he had to.

He knew he had to go slow with you, and that was just what he would do.

-It seems that you don't just have a talent for getting out of difficult situations - you murmured, making him smile-

-And you don't just have a talent for healing wounds, darling - he added, looking at you with his intense green eyes- Can I…?

-You can - you affirmed, his smile growing wider-

He stared at you for a few moments, before saying:

-Don't be scared - he warned - but I think I love you

-Don't be scared - you repeated, imitating him - but I think I do too

[tamsiblings]

helloo i am new to you but man have i missed hearing good firefly talk (i don't really have people besides my dad to discuss with and we can't get into every theme i'd like)

question! where do you stand on the autistic river front? i understand its a popular hc and it's not that i don't get it, but to me it feels a misrepresentation of brain trauma and ptsd, you know? i think it's honestly less interesting for the way she sits outside of society and is treated as "other" to stem from autism and not the trauma she incurred at the hands of the powers at large.

hello!! nice to (virtually) meet you and ty for the ask <333 seriously feel free to chat any time, i love talking about firefly and especially my beloved space siblings <333

yeah, i get what you mean. my feelings about that are complicated, because i do think river’s mental state is a complicated variety of factors and symptoms that does sometimes tend to get smushed down into one specific box by fandom. like you said, river has been through some severe trauma at a very young age, so i think it’s fair to say she’s suffering some form of ptsd, as well as having a traumatic brain injury re: the removal her amgydala.

so i agree that i don’t like / it feels a bit uncomfortable when people don’t acknowledge that part of her story. i don’t actually mind autistic river as a concept, though, and i don’t know that the Only reason people see that is because of her trauma symptoms. in the flashback we see of young river in safe, though we only see a little of her, it seems to suggest she, though quite playful, is very blunt and a little morbid for her age (“we’re going to have to resort to cannablism”). i think there is some supplementary material that suggests river had difficulty making friends and didn’t necessarily fit in on osiris, and more broadly, though there are lots of different ways being autistic can present, i can understand why river’s “academically-minded child prodigy w/difficulty making friends” is something a lot of autistic people can relate to. plus, the river tam sessions seem to imply she’s always been psychic/at least had the predisposition for it, and i think there’s an argument to be made about her abilities on that front being a parallel for certain autistic traits such as hyper-empathy, sensory overload, etc.

plus i tend to think a case could pretty easily made for autistic simon as well, seeing as i think he’s kinda the definition of low empathy but high compassion, and he, while not necessarily as prodigious as river, was also clearly quite academically adept or ‘gifted’ as he says in the pilot (a loaded term, but one often connected to neurodivergent youth), getting through his internship in 8 months etc. notably, i think simon was probably quite good at masking in osiris, because he spent a life time developing a sense of the social rules and rituals there, but he notably has a hard time on serenity because he Doesn’t always understand the rules of this new environment they’re in. he also, like river, can actually be a little (what some might deem inappropriately) blunt about morbid/difficult things, like starting to explain the clinical process of suffocation or “that’s assuming there’s a head” sjhshshs. and neurodivergency tends to run in families.

a bit off topic but, all this to say, i agree that there’s a lot More going on with river than being autistic, but i also understand why people read her that way and i tend to do so as well, especially given that the medical abuse she is put through at the academy i think is something a lot of autistic people can relate to, if not in the exact same way.

[devilishdanse]

🎨Are you neurodivergent or disabled? Anything that uniquely affects your RPing?

🐣What were you like as a kid? Allegedly? Has anything changed, and have people noticed?

🦜Name a person in your life, can be anyone.

In Depth Personal Munday Meme / Accepting

🎨 — As far as a professional diagnosis goes, I am not. However, I am acutely aware of how differently I process things in comparison to most of my friends and peers, but that could mean any number of things. Additionally, I have been told by quite a handful of neurodivergent friends that. . . . I am — do with that what you will. While not disabled, I am diagnosed with severe anxiety, severe depression, fibromyalgia, chronic migraines, and a few other things that affect my day-to-day life.

These absolutely can and do on occasion, hinder my ability to sit down and enjoy writing.

🐣 I was far braver, far more adventurous, and carefree as a child. I had very little fear and embraced whatever I enjoyed in the moment. As a kid, I did pageantry, I picked up toads, lizards, and snakes, I played archeologist jn the yard, I made witches brews from grass and dandelion, I danced and sang on tables, I talked to animals, shared my food with anyone and anything — I was a feral, fae child.

Maturity and life have made me a bit more reserved. I still sing, but less openly (and certainly not on tables). I still adore reptiles, have a passion for animals, and a small amount of adventure still in me. There is absolutely a noticeable difference between little Faust and how I am now xD

I think some changes along the way were necessary. I am still figuring out who I am, and reclaiming who I want to be, the parts of myself I wish to salvage. I've been through a lot, so I am having to relearn some things. ♡

🦜 My mom. She doesn't always get it, she's still learning, but there is no one in my life who has put in the amount of effort to understand and love me the way she has. I have changed a lot, and become more vocal about things that sometimes, she doesn't understand or agree with. But through everything. . . She has been my support system, my confidant, my friend, my mom. I had a friendship and a relationship each that I thought would break me. If it weren't for her, and a few close friends, it really would have.

[tangledbea]

I have seen it speculated in the fandom that Calliope was possibly neurodivergent because of her behavior in Keeper of the Spire. Do you feel that this is the case? I have an issue because I felt the writers were trying to show case that Calliope was annoying because she was being an inconsiderate "know it all" because she was overcompensating for being insecure. Being neurodivergent myself, I dislike when an "annoying" character is speculated to be neurodivergent just for being "annoying."

I agree with you. I never saw her as particularly neurodivergent (I am as well), but as a neurodivergent person with a different kind of neurodivergent sister who is also my roommate, I'm well aware that nerodivergent people can be obnoxious (both I and my sister are self aware enough to clock when we're getting too annoying). I can't fault nerotypical people for seeing someone being annoying and supposing they might be neurodivergent, simply because that means they don't understand neurodivergence, and you can't know what you don't know. (It's another thing entirely if they don't understand and don't want to learn.)

In other news, I adore Calliope for being exactly who she is.

But when it comes to neurodivergence and Tangled the Series, I always felt that "Who's Afraid of the Big, Bad Wolf" was an ND and/or mental illness allegory. The moral there is that there can be something about you that other people find off-putting or even dangerous, but its on your loved ones to respect you and help you through it and, moreover, listen to you and your choices. That episode promotes bodily autonomy like no other. They way that they all accept that Catalina wants to keep the wolf, the way that they stop calling her Red after that. The way that Eugene sits her down and blatantly tells her that if she feels herself getting too angry again to let them now so they can help her... It spoke to me, man. That episode is overlooked.

Sorry for the tangent.

[iamunabletothinkofablogname]

Isn't it SO fun to be harassed and bullied at school? /sarc

People call me a "FUCKING WEIRDO!" (Yes, that's word for word.)

They make faces at me like I'm sort of disgusting slob. (And they SHOW it and they WANT me to know they think that!)

Along with that, one kid pretended to gag and throw up at the sight of me, and used solar eclipse glasses to not look at me.

One kid called me ugly today! (YAY! /sarc)

They poke and prod at me like I'm a science experiment.

They fear the fact I smile all the time, that I tend to keep an emotionless expression in my eyes. (I'm only following Alastor's advice!)

They love to annoy me... But it's getting tiring.

Only a select few enjoy my presence, they keep me in and go along with my antics. My friend group likes having me around. And other kids I don't know much and we're neutral with each other.

I know I'm "weird" by their standards. But what's the fun in the world without differences?

I know I took on the persona of "weirdo" in my class. I want to go up to a teacher and cry. Because I didn't deserve to be treated like this?

I didn't deserve to be told "You know you should kill yourself" when I'm already suicidal. Did I?

Get told I'm retarded like 10 times already? Maybe more? (I'm not even exaggerating...)

And considering I might have mental illnesses such as possible autism, that's even meaner. At this point I'm not living, I'm surviving.

There's a reason why I've given up. My best friends are on the internet. I don't think without them I would be able to live today. Why do the people who care about me, share my interests, accept me for who I am, respect me, and TREAT me like I'm a human being, so far away?

I know I may be Xenogender, but that's no excuse for treating me no better than some sort of inferior species.

I see no one else getting treated like this, I'm the subject, no, the OBJECT of their bullying.

What the fuck am I supposed to do??? What do you fucking EXPECT me to do??? "Be yourself"??? I AM being myself, and you're fucking BULLYING me!? AM I SUPPOSED TO PUT ON SOME SORT OF MASK? I AM SMILING, MOTHERFUCKER, YET YOU STILL BULLY ME WHEN I DO HAVE A MASK!? /not you, to them

Like, please. Let me rest. Let me have a normal day where I don't have to face discrimination. Where I get treated with love.

I get treated so awfully so much, that I don't even know who I am anymore.

I lost myself.

My catchphrase has to be "I'm so done-" because I said that more than I needed to.

I feel like the next time someone does anything to me, I'm just going to burst out crying.

🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

I hope you're doing alright right now, first things first, i need to let you know that you do matter, and you certainly don't deserve to be treated as subhuman as they treat you, I only wish the worst upon them <3 They are bitches who are a waste of oxegyn, they need to put you down to feel something or feel like they matter, and for that they are the weakest most disgusting subhuman people, genuinely hope they get more fucked up than they ever made you feel 🧡

It's pretty obvious that they're trying to make you feel shit, and i wish i was there to fight them off or comfort you when it happened, i said it before and i'll say it again, you don't deserve any of this. You deserve to be happy, and to feel like you are loved and cared for, the way they treat you is uncalled for and it's disgusting [them, not you, your cool] And agreed, your gender or your neurodivergence shouldn't be the reason you get bullied, they aren't things you can control, or things you have to change, they are litterally a part of your being/existence, I can't believe all of the shitty things they're doing, you don't deserve it. Have you tried to tell anyone? [although that doesn't work often, it's worth a try]. It seems like it's really affecting you, whether you admit it or not /nbr /npa I'd reccomend telling a teacher/principle [the meaner the teacher the better], if that doesn't work fight back, physically i wouldnt reccomend but if you have to, do it. Theres not much we can do about bullying, which is fucking shitty, but please hang in there at least and take care of yourself, i care about you and love you /p

I hope it gets better and they stop, they're pieces of shit who shouldn't be making you feel like this, they're insensitive cunts who should have their face cut up, hope they get bullied those fucking assholes

[liquid-bonhomme]

I feel like I've said this before on this blog, but I guess I need to say it again as some house keeping . . .

Speaking as someone who's been on the internet for a very long time, though there's a time and place to discuss serious issues with the gravity it deserves-- making a mockery of someone is (in my opinion) the most effective way of taking away their power. Speaking with anyone, even an abuser, with reverence can do more harm than good.

It's known that Lily uses her platform, her status as a content creator, and her false intellectualism to pray on children and the vulnerable. Destroying Lily's reputation, ratioing her, and chipping away at her influence may be the best any of us can do, and stop her from doing any more harm.

There's been some misunderstanding in regards to how laws regarding CP in Canada work. And though I agree that Stockholm fits the SPIRIT of the law in terms of what it's meant to penalize, I'd say it wouldn't be easy to get Lily to actually see justice in that regard. I'm no legal expert, but. If the law worked in the way people seem to have mistaken it to, even books like Looking for Alaska by John Green would be banned here.

Second, on a GENERAL note not specific to Lily, just some if the talk I see flying around, as a CSA survivor myself-- though I very much respect the feeling isn't universal, some of us like to cope with humor. Some of us NEED to cope with humor. Don't assume every CSA survivor is going to feel that way, don't use this fuel to shout down another CSA survivor. But don't shout down me just because you heard some other CSA survivor say they want the topic discussed with nothing but grave sincerity. Don't play judge, jury and executioner as to which opinion outrules the other-- make up your own mind and respect other people's perspectives. Not over someone's trauma. I don't make jokes directed or implicating at any of Lily's real victims for that very reason.

Thirdly, whichever content creator you're currently thinking I wholly agree with out because I'm friendly with them and have never publically expressed any criticism of-- you're wrong. I can assure you every single person I've expressed support for on this blog has said shit I disagree with. If they said something I felt harmful enough to speak out on, trust me, you'd know. No matter how friendly I was with them, I'd say something. If they asked me my thoughts directly, trust me, I'd tell them. There is a judgement call to be made on these sorts of things-- and I'd remind you all everyone is human here.

I will say this; almost every time someone asks me to comment, answer for, whatever something someone else has said-- it's in regards to someone expressing an opinion fueled by a very strong feeling. Kiddos, you cannot argue someone out of their feelings. Think back to when you had an opinion present day you doesn't agree with anymore-- the first time someone tried to talk you out of it. If you didn't ask them, if you didn't trust their point of view, how did that go for you?

Lastly, this is a parody blog. I know I talk about serious topics on here sometimes and I'm okay with you guys sharing their thoughts when appropriate-- and I'm not mad, I know there's some neurodivergency going on often in these situations, and lord knows I've sent my fair share of drunk overshares, etc. But, SOME of the asks I've gotten on here, I'm gunna remind you guys to put an honest effort into reading the room. There's tons of other "LILY EXPOSED IN 4K" blogs you can send anons to that are more appropriate for that kind of stuff. I try not to share or comment on unsubstantiated claims I can't look into myself, or comment on matters I have no business commenting on.

If any of Lily's victims would like me to signal boost certain things they are welcome to contact me and I'll make a judgement call, but for on-lookers, remember I am a very small blog. So, of course, none of them have.