#pay no attention to my spiraling

[you-remind-me-of-the-babe]

Hello and thank you for the tags today @martsonmars @artsyunderstudy @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @nightimedreamersworld and Wednesday @fatalfangirl and @palimpsessed I love seeing what you’re working on.

I’m trying to get back into writing the next chapter of How to Avoid a Scandal, my friends to lovers, fake dating, Hollywood AU. It’s been a while since I’ve touched this and I am determined to keep plugging away until I can update it. (The art for the next chapter by xivz is SO good, too!) Here’s a bit from Simon’s POV:

“You make very good points,” he muses, voice low.

“Course I do,” I mumble, busying myself with drinking my wine so I don’t have to look at him anymore. Don’t have to let it twist my stomach into knots.

I don’t know how to do this. This is all so new, the realising I have feelings for Baz and having to deal with it. While I’m with him, and he looks like that.

I chance another look and regret it instantly. My eyes are immediately drawn to his wine tinted lips. Like they’re a fucking bullseye.

It’s still a little rough but we will get there!

Tagging @cutestkilla @bookish-bogwitch @captain-aralias @facewithoutheart @moodandmist @aristocratic-otter @raenestee @onepintobean @stardustasincocaine @ivelovedhimthroughworse @shrekgogurt @technetiumai @johnwgrey @larkral @theearlgreymage @hushed-chorus @letraspal 💛

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

DON'T listen to your body! IGNORE physical sensations! DON'T pay your mortal form heed!

[bat-luun]

(tags via @encryptidarchivist)

YESSSSS i love him very much hes my darling beloved!!! <33

(ramble below cut cuz this got so long oh my god lmao - cw: suicide mention)

The tma oc is actually an au version of 'Pai Rite' (he/she)! He's player character i made while co-DMing a Call of Cthulhu campaign. He's originally from 1982 Chicago and about 28 years old. Her og lore and backstory and what played out in the campaign is rather complicated so imma leave it out. (tho i'd happy to rant about it lol-)

For the tma version: She uses her full name more often than just her nickname/chosen name; Joshua 'Pyrite' Kerr (he/she). She was born in 1978 in LA, moved to England in 1997, and died 2010 at age 32.

She is marked by both The Vast and The Spiral! (in the same way Martin is a mix of The Eye and The Lonely)

Pyrite has a rocky relationship with his parents from the start, his father was killed/taken by The Vast when Pyrite was only 17. His mother was killed by The Spiral, which triggered Pyrites leave to England to study mathematics at the King's Collage in London.

(Idk if it would really work all that well in canon but I've taken The Vast in a less 'real' direction? Like making it less of a place of endless mist or whatever but making it more like a concept?) Pyrite's father was a mathematician and investigating/trying to figure out more of the pi number. The horror of the uncomprehendable powered my the Fear drove him to insanity and eventually suicide, leaving his family suddenly and without a word.

Her mother, turning even more hyper religious than before, turned to pseudoscience as a way to cope with the grief (buying crystals and crafted religious symbols/spells to protect her, and doing other low-key paranoid superstitious stuff).

She eventually got her hands on some colorful (sea)glass shards which she hung by the windows to catch the light and "ward off evil".

The glass is an artifact of The Spiral! It slowly multiplies in numbers in the given location, and starts changing colors/patterns of objects within it's line of sight (though the owner is the only one who can see it's effects).

The longer the artifact is a set location and affecting it's victim, the more intense the distortions get (pottery/dishes "melting" or changing shape, entire rooms becoming mirrored, objects switching places with each other, glass clinking sounds being heard from every room, ...). Eventually it moves from inanimate objects to people in the victims life.

Pyrite's hair got turned a purple/pink as a cause of the artifact. Panicked, Pyrite's mother took a hammer to the glass, breaking it untill there was nothing left but dust. Pyrite found her body later that day as it was being taken away by paramedics. He moved away after that, taking a single glass shard as a keepsake to remember her by, having no idea of it's effects.

He went on to study mathematics in London and found his fathers research notes, going down the same cursed rabbit hole he did.

She did become an avatar for The Spiral later on as the artifact went on to distort any research notes Pyrite made/found beyond recognition, essentially 'winning' and making her a Spiral avatar. Pyrite died in 2010 after Gertrude and Michael stopped the great twisting. Died mad and dazed and out of breath, trying to keep her grip on the only thing that was left of her mother, the destruction of the ritual making her take her own life.

me and my best friend(one of the other co-DMs) did art of Pai Rite and his gay boyfriend Revemine for valentines day!! :D

(also tagging @horrid-mothlegs for if you want more info for when our tma ocs can hang out >:])

[bilestat]

insane how quickly something small can tank my mood

[wortsandall]

my sister just called me out in such a stupid way that i can't even be mad.

"do you even have whimsy in your soul?" she asked. and then went on to say that it seems i don't actually like anything at all, because i only discuss the negative. even in media i say are my favorite, all i ever talk about is the negative aspects or discourse.

i literally have zero response.

[dreameasel]

think i'm gonna add a bit to the rules of all my blogs about not really following back/interacting with people who have a blanket bi.lly hargr.ove dni thing just bc like..... i write him on another blog and it feels weird to be told to fuck off for liking a character but also having someone want to talk to you? like people make it such a moral thing to like or write billy no matter how much you lean into or acknowledge his faults (which is WILD bc i pm NEVER see the same treatment for characters bi.lly loo.mis who i also write or hanni.bal lec.tor and are LITERALLY serial killers and just generally WORSE) that it actually makes me feel uncomfortable when people who seem to hate him follow me on my other blogs.

like it feels like i'm being looked down on as a person but still deemed tolerable/useful enough to fulfill a fantasy/slot in their rp life at least for now. just... i dunno it really makes me feel bad. i don't really care if people want to rp with my billy or not but when you're taking a moral stance against him but still following me one of my other blogs what am i supposed to do with this? i don't follow these ppl across any of my blogs and unfollowed some people when i started rping him out of respect for their choice on that front. i guess it just doesn't feel like the respect is mutual? It's happened multiple times now since i made him and i've debated saying something about it before but i think i'm just gonna do it because fuck dude.... i can't with this shit.

[birdo-is-here]

Here,, Have a quick Whole design, the static was very fun and i now want to draw it more often

Never going to recover from Time Machine Reprise 👍

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[turigirl]

ive decided i shall just Not sleep

[rhysnolastname]

I have a huge bruise on my calf. A huge bruise on the back of my calf, the size of a grown man’s hand. I have no idea how that got there, it’s literally a black and blue bruise. I have other bruises of my legs and body with no recollection of how they got there. I have really bad memory issues and my pain tolerance is kind of high. I don’t know if these bruises are just appearing randomly because I am ill and don’t know it or because I’ve hurt myself and forgot that I did. I am always bumping into things and falling I guess. I don’t know. It’s literally a huge huge huge black bruise. I have no idea how long it’s been there or when it happened.

[itadore-you]

a a a a a a a a a a

last placement with loml uni crush and im not even gonna enjoy it bc HES SO DISTRACTING (false - im distracting myself by thinking/staring at him constantly) and im so tired and so stressed because im behind on everything and my brain is working so slowly and ITS DARK OUTSIDE WAY TOO EARLY and

[werchezdeeno]

i rest my case.

[andromeda3116]

me to myself, currently: other people aren't obsessing over your social mistakes like you are other people aren't obsessing over your social mistakes like you are other people aren't obsessing over your social mistakes like you are other people aren't obsessing over your social mistakes like you are

also me: obviously they have all begun to hate me

[mintjeru]

are you normal or did you note down the puns in the act 1 event quest to compare between localizations

[peachsunset]

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[ashenxrogue]

holy fucking shit meow meow fucking loves me

i started with 146? or so wishes and already had him at C2 and uh

40 or so pulls later another one, next 10x pull another one and not a single gen 5*

i still have 27 wishes left over