#past self-hate

[sunderwight]

I think Airplane accidentally made the Heavenly Demons incestuous.

I think it was an accident not in the sense that Airplane wouldn't potentially do it on purpose, but that he just didn't think too hard about the elements he was smashing together in this aspect of the backstory, and it'd probably occur to him if he did think about it a bit more, but he didn't get there before he lost his notes. And then after that point he was selling out so even if he subsequently thought too hard about it, he wouldn't have brought it up because much like the thing with demons eating human flesh, Heavenly Demons being hugely inbred would probably not go over well with his majority readership.

But like. Bro created this bloodline of demons whose powers tend to breed true, and yet despite the fact that they've ostensibly lived among demonkind and even ruled them for generations, they've basically died out? Also despite being incredibly powerful? There are like three total left in the world, one of whom seems to be purely Heavenly Demon in terms of ancestry, the other two being 50/50 hybrids?

The only other Heavenly Demon we hear about is Zhuzhi Lang's mom, with an implication that her and Tianlang Jun's parents just had the two kids -- one boy and one girl. No info on where those parents came from either. No other Heavenly Demon branches or notable bloodlines that seem to exist or have recently died out.

Like I'm not saying there's DEFINITELY a Targaryen situation going on with the Heavenly Demons, but... there was definitely a Targaryen situation going on with the Heavenly Demons.

But again I do think this was accidental. It's the sort of thing that happens in people's fantasy world-building all the time. Airplane wasn't thinking about the implications, he was thinking about things like giving the protagonist a cool secret bloodline, making that bloodline both rare and powerful, and so on. Which wouldn't have mattered except that then this became part of an actual world, where things have to function and make sense as well as matching the token descriptions offered.

Mostly I don't think this would have much impact on the wider story except to let Tianlang Jun offer some inappropriate commentary on the whole shizunfucker situation. Like someone eventually makes a comment about it being kind of incestuous that Luo Binghe is with Shen Qingqiu and TLJ is just like, yeah funny thing about that actually.

Also this adds an interesting layer to TLJ and his sister's backstory. They were supposed to marry each other. Instead she ran off with a snake (literally) and he eventually hooked up with a human. Both of them tried to get so far away from the arranged incestuous sibling marriage that they developed a thing for interspecies romance instead.

[melimpostor]

This blog marks its first year today! Thank you for making the journey with me!

I'll talk about something a bit personal in a minute so... for everyone not wanting to go that far: Thank you again, I appreciate each like, reblog, comment under my posts! 2024 was a ton of fun creatively-wise for me!

It's seems pretty uneventful i know- But it's important to me. To be perfectly honest when i first launched this blog i never thought it would go that far. It was a bit of an experiment. This was supposed to be a blog to dump some art for a month or three then disappear as quickly and quietly as i appeared. No one knew about this blog, not even my friends, i wanted to start fresh.

I've been internet shy for more than half a decade. Posting online made me feel miserable. Nauseous even. I mainly shared stuff with my close ones because who cares right?

But when i love something, i love it with PASSION. I get very ignited, make a bunch of fanart then die. supernova style

Attack on titan is no different, I was in shambles when it first aired, lost interest because of the wait but came back at it again with impeccable timing right before the grand finale and what do you mean my crackship from 2015 is actually canon? You crazy son of a bee, i'm in!! I couldn't share my crazy obsession too much with my friends because...well i didn't want to be obnoxious but i needed it out there. This was a shot in the dark.

Well all this to say that i didn't expect the love. Sincerely thank you. It helped drawing feeling fun again. It helped posting being a bit less stressful too.

I can't say for sure how long this will stay but i enjoy every moment in the community so far

Thank you for making me feel welcome!

[katabay]

johnnnnnnnnn constantine!

I usually watch constantine 2005 sometime during the last couple of months of the year. sometimes several times during the last couple of months of the year. sometimes I even get around to doing a full re read of the vertigo run and find some time to draw the man the myth the legend while I'm on a train.

[monsterbisexual]

[introspectivememories]

thinking about jason and juno again. and juno specifically, not hera. bc like hera likes him, loves him even if the moon is blue enough, but he's juno's son champion through and through. like that's his mom. juno and lupa. when he thinks about his mom, he doesn't think about beryl, he thinks of how cold and wet lupa's snout was when she used to nuzzle him. he thinks of juno's hands in his hair when he would fall asleep in her temple. like that's his mom!!!!

and i really do wonder what their relationship was like before the switch. what did it mean to be juno's champion? and it's not like juno was just some big goddess. contrary to what riordan thinks, the romans were not some temu knockoff of the greeks. juno was the protector of rome and she was part of the capitoline triad. what did that mean for jason who so clearly bore her favor?

the romans considered her the protector of rome. they called her juno moneta, juno the warner. did jason also feel when threats to new rome were made? maybe he didn't get visions but did he wake up somedays and tie his shin guards tighter? did he run drills twice as hard in the year before the battle at mt. tamalpais? as the romans were preparing for war with the greeks did he move restlessly on the argo II? when he was out on missions in new rome, did he take out monsters near the camp? and in a more day-to-day experience, did he vote against seemingly harmless policies in the camp and in the city because of a gut instinct?

she was the patron of marriages in rome. did they have come to weddings in new rome so it could be blessed by juno? did she let him bless unions? do you think this was jason's favorite aspect of juno? do you think he tried to attend as many weddings as possible? do you think he felt like something was missing when he was a chb when he couldn't perform these duties? she was a fertility goddess as well. when a baby was born in new rome, do you think jason woke up with a pull in his chest? do you think jason liked holding these infants, the newest member of his city, and blessing them? do you think jason became a common sight in the maternity ward? how many children had a "big brother jason" or an "uncle jason" who came over every once in a while to play with them? do you think he let them play in her temple when they came by? do you think he lifted them up so they could adorn her with flowers?

like do you think he was her priest in addition to being her champion? did he raise the geese that lived in her temple? did he slaughter the goat for her festival? did he sweep and clean her temple? did he sing the songs and lead the prayers? did he find the peacock that lives there? did he plant the lotus flowers? how much of the temple duties did he perform? how long do you have to do something before it becomes a part of who you are? and when he's at chb, did it make him angry to see how cold and impersonal hera's cabin was? did it make him uncomfortable to see it so empty? was he twitching with no temple duties to keep busy with? with no geese to run after? with no rome to protect?

when he was younger, how often did he fall asleep in the temple, under his lady's watchful eye? how often did he wake up to a woman in a goatskin running her fingers through his hair singing lullabies? how often did he talk to her? how often did she respond to her champion's prayers?

and i think ultimately this removal of such a core part of him is why he never truly repaired his relationship with juno. because she took out a core part of who he was. maybe it was conditioning, maybe she raised him from birth to be a lamb for the slaughter, but it was still who he was. he was jason grace, "champion of juno" first and "son of jupiter" second. and in many ways, he was her only demigod son. and when she took it out of him, there was hole. a yawning, gaping, chasm. and he filled it with other things so well that there was no need and no room for her. he had now become jason grace "son of jupiter" first and "champion of juno" second.

[vv-ispy]

Despair disease

[zu-is-here]

Fight

Aftermare Week by @bluepallilworld

Error by loverofpiggies

Nightmare by jokublog

[twilight-deviant]

[Echo 1x05 / Daredevil: Born Again 1x01]

[dumbfucksystem]

i keep thinking about the fact that unlike sy (who never even thought about how his family might feel about him dying), airplane actually had the option to go back to his family and ultimately decided not to.

like imagine being a parent and finding out that your child chose a life that didn’t have you in it.

just think about the guilt that his parents must have felt when they heard the news. each of them are enjoying time with their new families, but they haven’t spoken to their son in a while. he’s in college though so he’s probably fine. he’s not reaching out saying that he needs help or money or anything though he never asked for much when he was home either.

then they get the call. and they find out that he died alone in his apartment. he was electrocuted while trying to salvage his laptop. and they think he didn’t have to die this way. he never asked them for anything, and now they know that he desperately needed them. he never mentioned how much he struggled, and maybe he would have if they had been in contact more often. but they were too caught up in their own lives to pay attention to him.

no parent should have to out-live their child, but they distanced themselves so much from him that they couldn’t even be there for him when he died.

cough your child could have lived a long, happy, & healthy life and eventually die of old age surrounded by people they love. but instead he died when he was young and alone because he didn’t feel comfortable sharing his problems with you cough cough

[weepingtalecowboy]

Hylia is merciful for she would dim her light for her people and her knight

Fanfic prompt : When Link was still young he was told that hylia is a merciful and loving goddess

he used to believe that perhaps if he just kept doing what hylia wanted

If he keeps being her hero perhaps one day she might listen and answer him for still his prayers remain unanswered

Tell him why he was the one who had to save Zelda ?

Why nobody else could do it instead ?

For his uncle tried only for his attempt to bear no fruit

Why was he special?

But he unfortunately got the answer ?

He was special but it felt more like a curse at that time

Years passing yet no answer in sign

Even after he fought ganon and saved two more kingdoms again

But he did so much. ..,

Was it still Not enough for her to bother answering him

Why does hylia let everything happen to him ?

Wasn't he worth of her protection's grace as well ?

Slowly his prayers got tainted from her indifference

He no longer saw her as anything capable of mercy ,… at least for her soldiers and especially herself

She was cruel on herself and herself only

Her soldiers she cherished but herself she loathed all way

Her gentleness only reached her people,… not herself

Never herself

The holy goddess bleeds for her people , she makes bleed for her people herself again and again

Never her expendable self to be cherished by them

Never had herself belonged under her protective glow

She walks the surface … , the blinding sun giving warmth as she burns out herself as she goes forth

Her mercy is sacrifice of her mortal shells

Her light shines bright on her people

As it sears her children and never shines on herself

Her holy blood boils under her mercy

Link learned her way well

He and his sister and all her other mortal shells to be discarded

For her mercy

For her atonement for the sun may loathe her lights but she loves her soldiers as they go on to keep her light aglow

But her lights she despises enough that they may never be enough for her even as they wander on to keep her glow

The beautiful sun would sacrifice herself for her knight as she did the very first time

Even if her light glows in her knight

She will just dim it one day

O for she will lover her knight then again

As she loves her knight but loathes herself more

Her light shines bright forever more

Or

Do you ever wonder …

why the hero of legends had such a long grueling life when the goddess was shown to lover her heroes ?

Why Zelda is almost always sacrificing everything she has so that link may have a chance?

Why Flora prayed and begged her goddess but never got a reply yet Wild did effortlessly ?

Why Hylia hates herself so much ?

[nenoname]

with ford being aware of tbob from his travels, i'm surprised there hasn't been an au of pre weirdmaggedon!bill getting his hands on the book of bill (along with all the time paradox stuff that comes from a dead bill telling his past self exactly what to do)

and the first thing tbob!bill would likely make his past self do is murder stan

[spookythesillyfella]

·-★ BLORBO ATTACK !!!!!! ★-·

★ close upz under cut :

[kindaasrikal]

Art crisis has been handled i have found a new way to do some stuff yippie

Thinking about it now these three are technically my top three favourites. Unagami and Cryptor slide in next. Me and my inhuman/partially inhuman characters bro.

Anyways drawing requests are still open and i WILL draw those birthday ones guys i swear i just hit my art crisis at that time.

[coolnonsenseworld]

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[enby-mori]

Jason "The Pit gave me a fully functional transitioned body" Todd VS Bruce "The Pit undid my transition" Wayne

[mushyfart]

TLRG but in visual novel form (this was going to be an actual video but this drawing alone took WAYY longer than I thought it would😭)