#past self-hate

[melimpostor]

This blog marks its first year today! Thank you for making the journey with me!

I'll talk about something a bit personal in a minute so... for everyone not wanting to go that far: Thank you again, I appreciate each like, reblog, comment under my posts! 2024 was a ton of fun creatively-wise for me!

It's seems pretty uneventful i know- But it's important to me. To be perfectly honest when i first launched this blog i never thought it would go that far. It was a bit of an experiment. This was supposed to be a blog to dump some art for a month or three then disappear as quickly and quietly as i appeared. No one knew about this blog, not even my friends, i wanted to start fresh.

I've been internet shy for more than half a decade. Posting online made me feel miserable. Nauseous even. I mainly shared stuff with my close ones because who cares right?

But when i love something, i love it with PASSION. I get very ignited, make a bunch of fanart then die. supernova style

Attack on titan is no different, I was in shambles when it first aired, lost interest because of the wait but came back at it again with impeccable timing right before the grand finale and what do you mean my crackship from 2015 is actually canon? You crazy son of a bee, i'm in!! I couldn't share my crazy obsession too much with my friends because...well i didn't want to be obnoxious but i needed it out there. This was a shot in the dark.

Well all this to say that i didn't expect the love. Sincerely thank you. It helped drawing feeling fun again. It helped posting being a bit less stressful too.

I can't say for sure how long this will stay but i enjoy every moment in the community so far

Thank you for making me feel welcome!

[katabay]

johnnnnnnnnn constantine!

I usually watch constantine 2005 sometime during the last couple of months of the year. sometimes several times during the last couple of months of the year. sometimes I even get around to doing a full re read of the vertigo run and find some time to draw the man the myth the legend while I'm on a train.

[zu-is-here]

Fight

Aftermare Week by @bluepallilworld

Error by loverofpiggies

Nightmare by jokublog

[nelkcats]

Imaginary Friend

Jason Todd had an imaginary friend. Or at least that was his theory, because the other option was not acceptable. His imaginary friend appeared right during the moment of the explosion (in the same place where the fucking Joker had stood) so Jason wondered if what created it was the trauma, maybe his head wished he saw a friendly face before dying.

However that didn't explain why his friend appeared after his resurrection. Jason wondered again if he was going crazy. The day he came out of his grave, with a dizzy head and blurred memories, his friend manifested. The weird thing was that his friend aged (just like him) and his shiny white hair had a floating crown.

Maybe Jason wanted to be friends with royals, who knows. His friend (Danny, because apparently he can talk), showed him where to walk (he seemed to be avoiding something?), unfortunately he didn't listen to Danny, and he ran into Talia. His friend frowned at him in obvious disgust, but how was he supposed to know?

That was how Jason confirmed that Danny was product of his imagination, because Talia couldn't see him. But Danny was strangely helpful, he knew a lot about combat and helped him in the League, when he asked him about it he said that he wanted him to get out of there as soon as possible.

Years later, when he had already left the League and established himself as Red Hood, his friend was still by his side. And Jason was strangely grateful that he'd never left—Danny had helped him so much— his friend had grown up with him. So, the day Dick asked him who he was talking to (Danny, of course), he dodged the question.

In his apartment, he looked at Danny (patient, always attentive) and asked "Are you really imaginary?" Danny smiled sadly, but didn't answer. Jason wondered if it was possible to fall in love with a product from his head.

[twilight-deviant]

[Echo 1x05 / Daredevil: Born Again 1x01]

[dumbfucksystem]

i keep thinking about the fact that unlike sy (who never even thought about how his family might feel about him dying), airplane actually had the option to go back to his family and ultimately decided not to.

like imagine being a parent and finding out that your child chose a life that didn’t have you in it.

just think about the guilt that his parents must have felt when they heard the news. each of them are enjoying time with their new families, but they haven’t spoken to their son in a while. he’s in college though so he’s probably fine. he’s not reaching out saying that he needs help or money or anything though he never asked for much when he was home either.

then they get the call. and they find out that he died alone in his apartment. he was electrocuted while trying to salvage his laptop. and they think he didn’t have to die this way. he never asked them for anything, and now they know that he desperately needed them. he never mentioned how much he struggled, and maybe he would have if they had been in contact more often. but they were too caught up in their own lives to pay attention to him.

no parent should have to out-live their child, but they distanced themselves so much from him that they couldn’t even be there for him when he died.

cough your child could have lived a long, happy, & healthy life and eventually die of old age surrounded by people they love. but instead he died when he was young and alone because he didn’t feel comfortable sharing his problems with you cough cough

[weepingtalecowboy]

Hylia is merciful for she would dim her light for her people and her knight

Fanfic prompt : When Link was still young he was told that hylia is a merciful and loving goddess

he used to believe that perhaps if he just kept doing what hylia wanted

If he keeps being her hero perhaps one day she might listen and answer him for still his prayers remain unanswered

Tell him why he was the one who had to save Zelda ?

Why nobody else could do it instead ?

For his uncle tried only for his attempt to bear no fruit

Why was he special?

But he unfortunately got the answer ?

He was special but it felt more like a curse at that time

Years passing yet no answer in sign

Even after he fought ganon and saved two more kingdoms again

But he did so much. ..,

Was it still Not enough for her to bother answering him

Why does hylia let everything happen to him ?

Wasn't he worth of her protection's grace as well ?

Slowly his prayers got tainted from her indifference

He no longer saw her as anything capable of mercy ,… at least for her soldiers and especially herself

She was cruel on herself and herself only

Her soldiers she cherished but herself she loathed all way

Her gentleness only reached her people,… not herself

Never herself

The holy goddess bleeds for her people , she makes bleed for her people herself again and again

Never her expendable self to be cherished by them

Never had herself belonged under her protective glow

She walks the surface … , the blinding sun giving warmth as she burns out herself as she goes forth

Her mercy is sacrifice of her mortal shells

Her light shines bright on her people

As it sears her children and never shines on herself

Her holy blood boils under her mercy

Link learned her way well

He and his sister and all her other mortal shells to be discarded

For her mercy

For her atonement for the sun may loathe her lights but she loves her soldiers as they go on to keep her light aglow

But her lights she despises enough that they may never be enough for her even as they wander on to keep her glow

The beautiful sun would sacrifice herself for her knight as she did the very first time

Even if her light glows in her knight

She will just dim it one day

O for she will lover her knight then again

As she loves her knight but loathes herself more

Her light shines bright forever more

Or

Do you ever wonder …

why the hero of legends had such a long grueling life when the goddess was shown to lover her heroes ?

Why Zelda is almost always sacrificing everything she has so that link may have a chance?

Why Flora prayed and begged her goddess but never got a reply yet Wild did effortlessly ?

Why Hylia hates herself so much ?

[coolnonsenseworld]

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[enby-mori]

Jason "The Pit gave me a fully functional transitioned body" Todd VS Bruce "The Pit undid my transition" Wayne

[kindaasrikal]

Art crisis has been handled i have found a new way to do some stuff yippie

Thinking about it now these three are technically my top three favourites. Unagami and Cryptor slide in next. Me and my inhuman/partially inhuman characters bro.

Anyways drawing requests are still open and i WILL draw those birthday ones guys i swear i just hit my art crisis at that time.

[shanklin]

Five years ago, you write a fic and you never post it. You’re stuck. You hate it. Ford is too mean, you keep repeating yourself and nothing makes sense anymore, especially your English.

You decide to take a break from editing. Maybe you’re just too hard on yourself. It’s fine.

You’re a liar.

To escape your fic you change fandoms. You tell yourself  “If I ever obsess over Gravity Falls again, future me will deal with it.”

You pretend you’re not haunted by this fic sitting in your documents every time you hear the song that inspired it all.

Years pass, you make a mistake. Gravity Falls is trending and you open the tag to figure out what’s going on. It’s over. There he is. The sad, gross old man you love so much. Uh oh.

Your past self is laughing at you.

You don't want to post the fic but you have to. It’s the longest thing you’ve ever written.

You make it your New Year's resolution. It's hard, but you decide to push through. You turn on the song you avoided along with your fic and start reading.

For some reason the only part that's remotely coherent is the one single paragraph near the end that establishes the Mystery Shack as sentient. You stare out of the window for a long time.

Does it have anything to do with the actual plot of the story? Hell no. 

But was it extremely important that everyone knows it’s sentient and loves Stan? I GUESS?!

You throw your hands up in the air and give up. Fuck it. We ball.

Chapter 1

[luwkade]

If wukong saw his past self he would do some horrible sht to him, I'm pretty sure. 😔

[starays13]

So I’ve had this scene rotating in my brain as if my brain was a microwave

[nenoname]

with ford being aware of tbob from his travels, i'm surprised there hasn't been an au of pre weirdmaggedon!bill getting his hands on the book of bill (along with all the time paradox stuff that comes from a dead bill telling his past self exactly what to do)

and the first thing tbob!bill would likely make his past self do is murder stan

[owari-no-suffering]

shoutout to lan wangji and luo binghe for being endlessly tormented by their love interests' mixed signals, reaching their breaking point, and then proceeding to never be normal about their (always reciprocated) crushes (turned husbands) ever again.

[petaliiss]

“Stressgenic” oh my sweet summer child you had no idea did you.