#past self-hate

[phone-kisser]

I got ONE person's verbal confirmation so I'm gonna fucking DO IT.

Comence me talking about how I relate very much to Roger.

Oh yeah and like. Major spoilers for Roger's route dlc

RAAAHHGHGH this route HURT me. Doggo why do you always manage to make me cry with every game you release... it's my curse...

Anyway, so, Roger! Absolutely love this guy, he's so silly and sweet. He might be a little..... slow, sometimes.... (he did in fact accept a USB that supposedly could let you play vr games on your pc WITHOUT a headset. Like I love you man, but get AHOLD OF YOURSELF.) But overall he's a very sweet guy.

Which is why I don't understand why I RELATE to him SO MUCH.

This scene, right here.

FIRST OF ALL, ROGER, STOP IT RIGHT NOW.

This scene hurt a little too much because I've felt this EXACT same way. Looking in the mirror and seeing someone you hated, someone you could barely recognize. I HATE MIRRORS.

This one, too:

Feeling like you need to be your best self, not for you, but for them. Because if you're not there to help, who is? Why would they trust you ever again if you screw something up?

Trying to do something you feel you can't do, just to help them. For their sake. Like if I don't do this right, they'll be the ones paying the price.

NEXT!

..so uhm WHY. WHY ARE YOU ATTACKING ME RIGHT NOW

I felt like this for a long time before I got better, I sometimes still do. Feeling like I don't matter, like no one would miss me if I just disappeared. I even tried to disappear a few times, didn't turn out great.

Luckily I have family and friends that helped me heal, and feel better about myself as a whole! I still have those days when I feel small and useless, but I always have someone to help me out, and I honestly couldn't be more grateful to everyone who's helped me get to this point.

Including my beloved mutuals, the majority of whom I've never spoken to. You've all done more than you know. Love you guys

BACK TO ROGER

This little wet sock of a man makes me so happy. He's so silly and goofy and you can tell he truly cares for all of his friends no matter what. I'm glad he got the ending he deserves and realized that he's good just as he is.

Just like I did.

[taffywabbit]

I finally watched breaking bad (all within the past week or so while I worked, finished it and watched el camino last night) and I'm confident this isn't a new thought I'm expressing or anything but genuinely how DID an entire generation of dudes convince themselves Walter White was cool and admirable and intended to be sympathetic. I know ppl just lack media literacy sometimes but I'm still so confused

I don't think I've EVER watched a piece of media that so blatantly depicts a guy making the worst possible decisions at every turn and having his life ruined for it and not being redeemed or made sympathetic in any significant or lasting way. the kinds of justifications villains USUALLY give that make people consider them "morally grey" or "tragic" or whatever (everything I did was for my loved ones, I did what I had to to survive, once I was in this I couldn't get out, I just needed you to trust me so I could keep you safe, etc etc) is ALWAYS framed as complete self-serving bullshit when Walt says it, and one of the only shreds of personal growth he ever exhibits in the whole series is when he finally fucking admits that. every time he does something even remotely cool or drops a quotable one-liner, something terrible immediately happens that makes everything worse and makes him look like an unreasonable idiot asshole again. by the end of the series the ONLY characters they can still contrast as being morally "worse" than him are literally a bunch of bloodthirsty neonazis who kept a guy in a cage for several months. this show is practically SCREAMING at you the entire time not to admire Walt. why did every dude I knew in highschool have his face on tshirts and Facebook pfps.

I just don't get it. at least with The Dark Knight's Joker it was like, a feature-length movie and that's it. you spend a lot less time with the Joker and it has a lot less time to delve into his motivations, so there's way more room for flanderization and misinterpretation as people extrapolate the few cool/interesting/sad things they saw into a whole nuanced misunderstood guy in their heads and online. Walter White has 5 seasons' worth of 45min episodes to convince you beyond a shadow of a doubt that he is a miserable fucking loser who ruins everything he touches because of greed and selfishness. if you weren't watching it for that, what WERE you getting out of this. what DID you think this show was about. am I just missing some key piece of context from 2012 or whatever that would help me understand this

[katabay]

johnnnnnnnnn constantine!

I usually watch constantine 2005 sometime during the last couple of months of the year. sometimes several times during the last couple of months of the year. sometimes I even get around to doing a full re read of the vertigo run and find some time to draw the man the myth the legend while I'm on a train.

[hivemindscape]

the buddy-buddy act ends now

[zu-is-here]

Fight

Aftermare Week by @bluepallilworld

Error by loverofpiggies

Nightmare by jokublog

[kanjichris]

"why don't you want him to know how much you love him?" "that's a little personal. he knows." "uh-huh."

[nelkcats]

Imaginary Friend

Jason Todd had an imaginary friend. Or at least that was his theory, because the other option was not acceptable. His imaginary friend appeared right during the moment of the explosion (in the same place where the fucking Joker had stood) so Jason wondered if what created it was the trauma, maybe his head wished he saw a friendly face before dying.

However that didn't explain why his friend appeared after his resurrection. Jason wondered again if he was going crazy. The day he came out of his grave, with a dizzy head and blurred memories, his friend manifested. The weird thing was that his friend aged (just like him) and his shiny white hair had a floating crown.

Maybe Jason wanted to be friends with royals, who knows. His friend (Danny, because apparently he can talk), showed him where to walk (he seemed to be avoiding something?), unfortunately he didn't listen to Danny, and he ran into Talia. His friend frowned at him in obvious disgust, but how was he supposed to know?

That was how Jason confirmed that Danny was product of his imagination, because Talia couldn't see him. But Danny was strangely helpful, he knew a lot about combat and helped him in the League, when he asked him about it he said that he wanted him to get out of there as soon as possible.

Years later, when he had already left the League and established himself as Red Hood, his friend was still by his side. And Jason was strangely grateful that he'd never left—Danny had helped him so much— his friend had grown up with him. So, the day Dick asked him who he was talking to (Danny, of course), he dodged the question.

In his apartment, he looked at Danny (patient, always attentive) and asked "Are you really imaginary?" Danny smiled sadly, but didn't answer. Jason wondered if it was possible to fall in love with a product from his head.

[dumbfucksystem]

i keep thinking about the fact that unlike sy (who never even thought about how his family might feel about him dying), airplane actually had the option to go back to his family and ultimately decided not to.

like imagine being a parent and finding out that your child chose a life that didn’t have you in it.

just think about the guilt that his parents must have felt when they heard the news. each of them are enjoying time with their new families, but they haven’t spoken to their son in a while. he’s in college though so he’s probably fine. he’s not reaching out saying that he needs help or money or anything though he never asked for much when he was home either.

then they get the call. and they find out that he died alone in his apartment. he was electrocuted while trying to salvage his laptop. and they think he didn’t have to die this way. he never asked them for anything, and now they know that he desperately needed them. he never mentioned how much he struggled, and maybe he would have if they had been in contact more often. but they were too caught up in their own lives to pay attention to him.

no parent should have to out-live their child, but they distanced themselves so much from him that they couldn’t even be there for him when he died.

cough your child could have lived a long, happy, & healthy life and eventually die of old age surrounded by people they love. but instead he died when he was young and alone because he didn’t feel comfortable sharing his problems with you cough cough

[solitaireships]

I feel like I should say since there's been a recent uptick in a lot of communities I'm in/see stuff from a lot of white people pretending to be Asian, but you are not welcome here if you are in anyway stealing from Asian cultures for clout or the aesthetics of it

This includes if you're white and you give your self inserts Asian names, I truly do not care if your f/o is from an anime, you should not be using an Asian name under any circumstances. I hate that whenever I see someone using an Asian name online, I feel like I have to start searching their account to see if they're actually Asian or just a white person who likes the aesthetic of it bcs far too many white people will use Asian names here just bcs it sounds cool, with no regard for the actual cultural meaning behind it. Meanwhile actual Asian people will be mocked for their names, or treated like their names are too hard to learn to pronounce, or discriminated against based on their names

Asian cultures are not a fun little costume for people to dress up with. They aren't just a nice aesthetic, they aren't just a thing you can borrow from bcs you think it sounds cool

[cent-scratchnsniff]

Please don't hurt yourself

[taborc]

So do think Branch and Creek's related would be toxic at first or not all

Realistically, I think Branch would have a very hard time trusting Creek at first.

He would be petty, rude, and hostile before letting himself see Creek in the light of friendship. In general, Branch isn’t the kind of person to trust automatically. There would be some toxicity there, some resentment at first, but I believe he could allow himself to foster some sort of relationship (friends or more) just like he has with everyone else in his life.

My headcanon for Creek is that he has narcissistic tendencies, but truly did care for his friends before his own life was in danger. Fear makes fools of us all. I think he would regret what he did in some capacity, realizing that being alive - but alone - wasn’t worth it in the end. He would want to try and make it up to the trolls, even Branch, but doesn’t know the proper way to express his remorse. He knows Branch still doesn’t trust him, and there’s no foundation without trust.

[coolnonsenseworld]

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[enby-mori]

Jason "The Pit gave me a fully functional transitioned body" Todd VS Bruce "The Pit undid my transition" Wayne

[beanghostprincess]

Zoro would cringe so much if he looked back at his past self from when he met Luffy.

Past!Zoro: I can't cut this cell! Guess I'll just carry with my bare hands the guy I just met and instantly fell in love with while I'm bleeding out.

Zoro: Ughhhuhhshhhgughhh what are you doing iughhh it's so fucking lame why did I do that???? I couldn't even cut the damn thing and then I just carried Luffy like that ughhhhwghhh

Nami: This has to be so embarrassing for you right now

Zoro: Ughwhhhhhhughhh I was so weak back then

Nami: And you wanted Luffy so bad-

Zoro: Fuck you. Shut up. Shit, I was a loser. I hate myself. Iughghhh.

[luwkade]

If wukong saw his past self he would do some horrible sht to him, I'm pretty sure. 😔

[icewindandboringhorror]

A little costume with eyebrow whiskers again.. making their return lol..