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PROLOGUE 1 PART 1
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AN INTERACTIVE TWISTED ONDERLAND X GN!READER FANFICTION.
You are [name] [last name]. A powerful villain stripped of their powers and sent to another world called Twisted Wonderland as a way of rehabilitation after attempting to end their world.
What is your fate? After all, everything solely relies on what actions you take as long as you trekk towards your happy ending, if it’ll even be happy in the first place.
TW: None.
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You have chosen:
LIVE IN SPITE
Your chosen path has been woven.
Your choice has an effect on [name].
You scoff at the very idea of redemption demanded to you by the Gods that led you astray in the first place. How dare she? You didn’t want this new life, it was just thrusted upon you by Dawn’s hideous self-righteousness. Dying anticlimactically was better than all of this nonsensical game of angels and saints.
She wants to command you to be good? To be better? You’re already better, better than you could’ve ever been back in your Homeworld. So you’ve decided to be a petty and vanquish any thoughts of what Dawn had asked them to do once they’re in this new world. Instead, you’ll do the opposite of redeeming yourself; you’re going to become worse.
Of course, you’re not going to aim for “#1 Enemy of the entire World” again, you already did that before, it’d be redundant to go for it all over again. Besides, what you were fighting for no longer exists. No, no, all you’ll do is just sprinkle a little bit overe here and then there, nothing more or less. Like sharing your art to the world by spray painting Crowley’s portrait that sat welcomingly in his office.
The old crow deserved it, anyway! He was being irritating, cutting you off every time, going on and on about how ‘kind and benevolent’ he is, just his voice is enough to piss you off. To your ears, it sounded like nails on a chalkboard.
Let’s start from the beginning.
After your less than stellar first impression on the residents of this world—Twisted Wonderland was its name, not Wonder of Lands, Dawn can be so overdramatic—you are introduced to the place you had spawned in. Night Raven College, a notably high profile all-boys school for talented magicians all over the world. Like Dawn had said, this world has magic, but it works more differently than in your world.
Dire Crowley, Headmage of the school, attempted to magic you away since your Forte had been sealed by The Design (and you still don’t know how you can get it back), but unfortunately for him, his little mirror tricks aren’t going to work because you don’t belong anywhere in this world to begin with.
You didn’t mention coming from another world. It isn’t like Crowley specifically asked for that information to begin with, why would you share such personal information about yourself to someone?
You decided to really play into the role of  ‘lost soul’. You have a vast imagination so you came up with a simple lie—you had no memory of where you’re from and your life before you found yourself in Night Raven College, with the exception of your name. And for this, Crowley is now deemed responsible for you. Since you were technically still a student in Night Raven due to being chosen by the Dark Carriag, he decided to take you in.
And by his definition of taking in, he brings you to a rundown dorm building on campus and tells you that you’ll be living there until he knows what he should do with you and leaves before you can ask him questions or even complain. So kind of him.
If Crowley knew about Dawn’s otherworldly intervention of dropping you in this world, and it’s not the fault or an error of the Dark Carriage, he’d be less kind to such an outsider like you. It’d be worse if he knew your background.
So, you'll be referring to yourself as 'lost soul' for the time being.
After walking around the dreadful dump that is Ramshackle Dorm, you’ve decided that you’ll just set fire to Crowley’s office next time—“Mrahh!” A startled noise from the basement made you pause. What was that? Who was that? Did this miserable, rundown place really have residents? You went downstairs to check it out. What you found there was beyond what you’d expected.
Apparently, cartoonish-looking ghosts are inhabiting Ramshackle, and now, they’re terrorizing a small creature with a cat-like appearance and blue fire for ears. You say cat-like because you aren’t sure what this creature truly is, with its forked tail, and prattle that no animal from your world was capable of doing. A talking animal, what has become of your life?
“G-get back! I, the Great Grim, will not take this!!” It howled as it spat out a ball of blue fire, directed at the ghosts. But the attack had no effect, for the ghost was quick to dodge it so effortlessly as they cackled tauntingly at the creature. You sigh as you take a nearby working lantern from a furniture and lifted it towards the ghosts, “Hey,” You called their attention, “Please leave,” You said as politely as you can with gritted teeth.
“Muehehe! Or else what?” One of them snickered. One of the ghosts appeared behind you and let out a loud, “Boo!” In your ear. You turned your head and eyed them, strictly unamused. The cowering creature on the ground was surprised of your reaction, “You.. you aren’t scared?” He asked, in awe.
Oh please, you’ve seen mangled bodies and literal bloodbaths, this kid show is nothing.
“H-hah! I knew it! You ghosts are just jokes!” The creature said overconfidently, attempting to mirror you, “You can’t do nothin’ to me!” Another ghost appeared behind Grim, placing their hands abruptly on the creatures shoulder, muttering a menacing, “Boo,”
“MYAHHHH!” The creature projected another blue fireball, but once again, the ghosts dodge it. This creature really is pathetic, you almost felt pity for it, “Do something!” It called out to you, demandingly. You roll your eyes, then pause when you see Grim’s fire spreading before it was quickly put out by one of the ghosts. Your lips quirk upwards as you drop the lantern on the ground, letting it shatter.
“What are you– hyieeee!!?” The ghosts all jolted when fire started to catch onto the wood from the lantern. You point to the creature, “You, make the fire bigger,”
“WHAT!?” Both the ghosts and the creature said in disbelief. The creature shrieked, “You’re crazy, crazy I tell you! Do you want the whole dorm building to burn down?!” You narrow your eyes at him, “Just do what I say if you want these ghosts off your back,” Grim grumbled incoherently before shooting his fireballs at the raging fire building up.
“Wahhhh! Put it out, put it out!!” They frantically attempted to do so, but the fire had gotten bigger thanks to Grim’s involvement. You take a few steps back until you’re in the middle of the staircase back as you counted in your head. The door bursts open, revealing a distressed Headmage, “What is going on here!?”
“Headmage, this student of yours burned down the basement!”
“The fire is still going!”
“Expel them. Expel them!” The ghosts all circle around Crowley, who was speechlessly staring at you. You, who didn’t look guilty at all, and the you who now has the creature from before hiding behind you, “And the raccoon thing too!” One of them added, making Crowley snap out of his daze, “Raccoon?” He looks at the creature behind you
“You. I thought I already kicked you out! How are you back here?” He pointed accusingly at the creature, who jumped at the sudden attention on him before retorting, “Heck yeah, I’m back. You can’t get rid of me that easily!” He said, baring his teeth at Crowley while clinging onto your leg. So much bark, yet such little bite.
“GUUAAAAARDS—!” Crowley yelled out. You hastily picked up the creature, “But Headmage,” You get into character once more, “You can’t! This furball protected me from the ghosts. I was so scared!” The creature blinked at you, bewildered, “You were?” You nodded solemnly, “We didn’t mean to burn down the dorm, honest. So honest! Scout’s honor.” You raise three fingers, “I’m even crossing my heart,”
“Protected?” Crowley questioned. You nodded again, “I didn’t think Ramshackle would have any ghosts… please don’t kick me out on the streets, Headmage! I swear I’ll do better! I know being magicless and an amnesiac is stretching it, but I’ll work hard, I promise!!”
“Amnesiac? Magicless? Crowley!” The ghosts start to turn on Crowley with disapproval on her face. Crowley raised his hands in surrender, “Why am I suddenly put on the spot!?” He shook his hands, “Okay, okay. What about this?” He uses his magic to put out the fire. You take notice of this.
Art of Water, or whatever they call that in this world. What are the limits and strengths of their magic, you wonder?
“I’ll ask one of the dorms if they have a spare room, yes? Though you aren’t sorted, it’s better than residing in a half-burnt building,” You repress the urge to laugh to yourself, your plan has worked, “Oh I wouldn’t want to impose,” You feign for a bit. Crowley shook his head, “You won’t be imposing at all, no worries! As for the rest that is unsaid, I still have to hold a meeting among the staff and Housewardens for that.”
“Wait, what about him?” One of the younger ghosts points to Grim. Crowley clicked his tongue, “Ah, right, that,” You looked down at the creature in your arms, “He stays,”
“Really?” The creature beams up at you, but you pay no heed to it. Instead, you look right at the Headmage, “I’ve grown attached to this… to him the moment he saved my life,” You gave the Headmage the most pleading look you can muster. Crowley easily breaks, “Alright, alright. Though familiars aren’t allowed at school, I’ll make an exception for your case.”
“Hey, I’m no familiar!” Grim complained, “I don’t want to be a magicless’ student’s familiar!”
You pinch Grim, making him yelp and fall silent, not letting your smile waver. This impudent little creature is not going to make your plans fall apart with his ridiculous howling.
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“This is the Hall of Mirrors,” Crowley introduced as all three of them walked into the room, “These mirrors are no ordinary mirrors. They lead to the seven dorms in this school, all modeled after the Great Seven. Do you have any memory of them?” You shake your head, “Not a problem. I’ll make sure you have extra classes to help you keep up with the basics of our history and use of magic.”
“Now, you stay here while I go in and ask the Housewardens personally if they have extra room for you. Mmkay? Stay!” You watch Crowley walk into the mirror that reads ‘Heartslabyul’, disappearing into the reflective surface. You moved from where you stood to admire the mirror doorways.
“Hey! The Headmage told us to stay right there!” Grim pointed at the entrance.
“Quiet, you,” You hissed, “Honestly, can’t you l read the room? You little shit,”
“What’s with the sudden change in attitude? You were all skittish a while ago!” Grim bats at your cheek, “You were lying, weren’t you? Why’d you do that? Hey, I’m talking to you!”
“You should be grateful I did just that,” You dropped Grim onto the floor, “If it weren’t for me, you would’ve been in that basement, scared out of your wits, ‘til the end of time. Or worse, kicked out by that stupid birdbrain,” Grim lets out a yowl of pain, “Hey!!”
“What are you anyway?”
“A prodigy, that’s what!” Grim replied, “I was supposed to be the one in that coffin, not you. Hmph! The Dark Carriage has no taste.” Grim looked up and saw you walking away, “What the, human! I’m talking here!”
You felt yourself gravitating towards the mirror, as if they beckoned you. A calling that’s not really there, an instinct, you could say. You decide to follow this instinct, thinking: I’m sure the Headmage would appreciate the exercise of running around the entire campus until he can find me. You step into the mirror, feeling the world morph around you.
You distantly hear Grim’s voice behind you, “What are you… wait! Wait for meeeeeee!!”
The mirror you two just disappeared into stilled, with it reading above: Octavinelle.
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A/N: Psst. unreliable narrator alert! dont take anything [name] says or thinks to heart and focus on what they actually do. love you guys. 🤎
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coolnonsenseworld · 3 months ago
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A little promo with my little obsession on the side...........
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#klance#halloween au#im projecting on the internet my own impostor syndrome#i feel that im awful and should be learning how to draw instead of writing shitty fics#and when i want to write a post and share a little doodle or smth - 'sorry' is right between the lines and its so frustrating#like???? nobody probably cares#im either here or im not#and if i need to finish that little abomination of a fic then so be it you'd think people wouldnt mind too much#and would still want to listen to my captions and see whatever silly doodle however silly it is as long as its true#..............but what if its all redundant#what if i cant draw after i had to flip my entire routine upside down#and will forever chase a thrill of feeling like a prolific artist and it will be always out of reach now#what if people scroll past my art and feel nothing now#what if world is filled with people who kinda hate klance but stay out of reflex and not bc its their deeply routed source of comfort#what if i reached an artistic plateau and will never be good enough#what if this is the limit of my 'talent'#what if i will forever love the projects i want to share but will always hate the execution of it wanting to fix it fix it fix it learn mor#i keep reading the little notes i get on orders#some screenshots i saved#i find good words and opinions and love letters to art as a whole#and i feel insufficient#subpar#i drew a comic about it to an old poem and still havent finished it#there is a point of trying your best when it stops feeling like a challenge and feels like a failure#its the moment where you keep going of course#and yet#there are emotions im sure nobody shares on social media bc we just try to get through them#but who else will take it better than tumblr tags#either way if im less around its because im dealing with creational self-hatred and artistic ambitions#but on the other hand arent all artists like that? i ran out of tag space btw have an awesome weekend
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pedaleceleste · 4 months ago
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did they.. did Dan and Phil compare themselves to chARLIE AND NICK FROM HEARTSTOPPER????. look. I’m not one to go « omg its as if theyve already hardlaunched », I’m really not (bc as an aromantic person I rlly dont think it matters if their relationship is or is not romantic like we can value it for what it is without needing it to be labeled directly and explicitly in alloromantic-allonormative terms ANYWAY ONTO MY MAIN POINT) …
I did pause the video and stare at my wall in disbelief for a full minute though… what a time to be alive, truly.
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dynamitekansai · 4 months ago
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wwe: Sami Zayn saved Roman Reigns, Jey and Jimmy Uso from a post match brawl… but tonight was not the way any of them wanted this to go. 😮‍💨👎
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calo-wav · 3 months ago
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the freaking mongoose 💥
(mongoose = righteous clarity (or stubborness))
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thecherrygod · 2 years ago
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currently thinking about when you let kim know you found out about the pale while he was gone, and that if you tell him its terrifying hes like "so trying to spare you from it was a good idea", or that if you tell him its unreal he says how a lot of things are unreal, or that if you ask him where you are he says they are in elysium, but that all of them involve him comparing the pale to water, death, and "the fact we are all stuck behind our eyes, between our ears, talking for all eternity, like every other human being". and then saying heavy topics are not his forte and acting as if he never said that. you cant just say "heavy topics are not my forte" after dropping that. both the caring and trying to protect harry, and that water, death, and having a mind is terrifying/unreal/just how the world is...
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thedreadvampy · 12 days ago
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I really can't substantiate bc it's an ongoing situation but one of my best friends works at a formerly extremely inclusive and queer-friendly women's charity which has recently come under new management
and they told me the other day
that their 'gender interrogation' is this week (their words, not the employer's)
apparently, they and 2 other employees out of about 30-40 have been singled out and asked to say whether they self-identify as women. implicitly as a condition of continued employment.
because it's a women's charity they all already self-IDed as women when they started there for the purposes of the Equalities Act exemption on gender-specific services.
oh also as a Strange Coincidence all 3 of the staff who've been asked to reassert their gender are butch/GNC and there are femme nb people there who aren't being asked. My friend is nonbinary (but uses she/her at work), but is a dyke in Dickies and buttondowns so has to pinkie promise they're a woman in order to Protect The Women.
they're so fucking mad about it cause they're like. wild that as an afab person I have to self-ID as a woman for it to count, but self-ID means nothing for amab people (the charity has already jettisoned all its transfem staff)
and I'm just like
jesus well that's not a good sign on the Weimar Mindmap is it.
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seventh-district · 10 months ago
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so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh
#hsr#honkai star rail#hsr 2.2#hsr spoilers#hsr leaks#the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am#i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before#but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one#so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days#it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me#but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and#gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it#and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story#not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know#but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game#anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :)#and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream#pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we#i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see-#-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out..#the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!)#i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!?#they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing#Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it#and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet#also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow.#that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!!#not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good#Seven.txt#viddy game stuff
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blueiight · 2 years ago
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the thing is abt rosaleen is that shes someone who loves ghastly things & sees herself as someone proximate to that (which is why the brunt of her movie is scattered dream sequences that eventually becomes ‘real’ in that she becomes a wolf + the movie ends with her being awakened to wolves breaking into her bedroom). her favorite person is her grandmother whos viewed by the village as this withering crone regaling her with ‘old wives tales’. the grandmother seeming to warn rosaleen not of the wolves , but how people are mistreated bc of the fear of them not realizing sexual abuse + the hunt is commonplace and not unique to wolves, but something in ‘men’ (the woman who married a werewolf , thought he died, then she remarried, the werewolf was alive, attacks her child, and her second husband beheads the wolf+ slaps his wife for still loving him). the only two stories rosaleen herself recites from her grandmother to her mother + the huntsman are that of outcasted women making the best of their lot — the pregnant witch who turns the nobles into wolves and makes them sing her baby songs, the shewolf who came above and chose the world below. just as rosaleen herself ‘chooses’ the world below, ‘chooses’ the werewolf who hunts over polite society. rosaleen seeing the glass infant that sheds a tear as she applies on red lipstick (and her ‘self’ in the modern world going to sleep with a full face of makeup on, how the fixtures of her tales occupy the room she lays in) and the village encountering the cow that died in childbirth… the girl died, the woman is destroyed, and the shewolf is born thru the demise of the only other she was close to (her grandmother) as she runs off with grandma’s killer away from the villagers trying to save her. the company of wolves movie came out in 1984 , adapted from the 1979 bloody chamber, and featured a werewolf who hunted wolves with a red cape + rifles, and we had a friend whos story in 1985 starts with him donning a red cape + a rifle to hunt wolves, another who suspected him of killing his brother , the only other person that understood him in this world, but ‘chose’ to become a monster with him
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devilsskettle · 11 months ago
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i hate that this website has location based ads now like it's one thing to promote the local grocery store chain to me but i am seeing ads for my workplace now :/
#stop it......#i don't want to go back but this is the last sick day i can reasonably take#i probably should've gone back today but i told them when i was still feeling worse that i wasn't coming in.......#ohhhh i dread going in tomorrow so much. i don't even dislike this job i just hate being somewhere everyday#each day feeling its meaninglessness...... my meaninglessness in the space.......... the repetition and redundancy#selling people who don't need to be there things that they don't need#standing all day long just fucking bored#hoping that enough has happened since i've been gone that people can fill me in#ugggh because it's soooo boring but stressful to have to generate conversation with the same people every day#when nothing new ever happens#and i get sick of everybody even the people that i like and i don't really think anybody likes me that much either#i guess i felt this when i worked there part time but because i only had to be there part time it wasn't this constant gnawing feeling#and they didn't have me in the shop all the time....... this schedule is fucking killing me#i walk there i stand all day and i walk home#that's one of the reasons i haven't come back in yet - i was so dizzy and nauseous that the idea of standing all day was like.#i obviously can't fucking do that even if i would otherwise feel well enough to come in#if i had a sitting job then it wouldn't matter if i was a little dizzy#but getting back and forth to work and then standing for 8 hours. even when i'm feeling well it's kind of a lot#idk i guess i'm pretty unhappy with this job and where i am in life etc but i can't quit rn because what else would i do#there's literally job of this type that is going to pay as well and have good benefits#and i'm not qualified yet for the type of work i hope to do in the future#so i just gotta wait it out but it feels like. endless.#sigh anyway i'm just lazy lol#all this is to say. stop putting ads for my workplace on my dash lol i don't need to see all that
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digirainebow · 2 years ago
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Jonas essentially just shows up and Alex is like oh I hope he's friendly... And then immediately proceeds to give up her life for him and the fact that you can say something like "that was for Jonas" it's like OUUUGH SHES SO-
when her grief from losing michael makes her not only accept jonas as a sibling right away, but also makes her follow in michael's footsteps by taking jonas out somewhere just to bond and have fun but accidentally loses her life instead 😁✌
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j-esbian · 1 year ago
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HOAs are fucking wild. you're telling me that even if i legally own this home, i still have landlord rules. who the fuck cares if i have pets in the house that i own. it's my problem to clean up after them.
and who the fuck cares!!! about the color of my curtains!!!!!!!
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bmpmp3 · 1 year ago
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more fashion dreamer pics! more Dave plus I made my OC Meena (that one of many OCs i made off a dream LOL) as a second muse! i dont have a very close hair colour for her vaguely pinky creamsicle colour i usually paint her with rn so she just has fully pink hair for the time being jhkfldskjrf also raven showed up at my showroom! and some isaac fits because they say shit like %#^[#!{%#% so i always wanna talk to them LOL
can u tell "flirty" was my favourite style in style savvy DS vhjbelkfrfe
#fashion dreamer#the very first game the original DS game. i miss u flirty. i know it got like#divested into mostly bold and a bit of girly and pop#irl i think its supposed to be inspired by like gyaru-ish stuff and a lot of general 2000s hot pink shenanigans#looks like jirei kei but more tube tops and fur and a more saturated pink LOL#it was a bit redundant of a style so it makes sense they got rid of it after the first game#but listen. black and hot pink and bows and lace. i just love it HJKDLSJFKDS#attempting to single handedly make as much flirty esque clothes as i can now#thats one thing thats nice about the clothing making aspect of this game. its a bit more limited than i would like rn#but now i can make ALL the flirty style. i can even make type b flirty.... im unstoppable#like everyone else i expected but am still a bit bummed by the genderlocking in this game#i expected the clothes but the socks and shoes being locked is a bit of a killer sometimes..#i want type a's in dress shoes and type b's in heels is that so much to ask#also i want fishnets for type b so so desperately#let dave wear fishnets. please#what was a bit of a shock tho was the npc poses u unlock are also type a or b only#which SUCKS because NOW type a's cant look half asleep like sleep deprived simon#and type b's cant do a tadaaa pose like woodland whateverhernamewas#its so sad because my oc dave would be perfect for the tadah! and my oc meena would be perfect for the half asleep#THAT i hope they update especially cause like yeah u need to alter things for the different rigs but its an animation man#pwease. pwetty pwease i want those poses to be universal ;-;#still playing like daily tho LOL intensely addicting gameplay despite the many flaws
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b4kuch1n · 1 year ago
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Hi, I've been inspired by the composition and abstract style of your artwork for a while now, if I made an experimental art piece inspired by your composition style would you want me to credit you as an inspo? or would you just not be comfortable with me using your art as inspiration altogether? (which is fine btw, i don't wanna do smth that would make you uncomfortable)
oh sure! feel free! I don't mind at all lol
#ask#bakuspeech#tbh I do think this question is like. somewhat redundant in art. or idk unnecessary?#all of art is inspiration man. very frequently from art by artists you're never gonna have the chance to reach out to#large cause bc they've been dead for decades to a few centuries#and like. idk as an artist you kinda have to accept that people will actually look at ur art and interact with it in their own space?#so like. yeah there are things that if I see you do with my art I will block you for. but on principle I cannot bodily stop you#this is all to say that like. if the question is about my personal boundaries it's gonna be more complicated. like if you make something#with ill intention and then cite me as an inspiration source. of course I'd not like that#but also that will be on me to reflect on that and like. do what I need to do#but outside of that. saying 'don't take inspiration from my art' is 1/genuinely patently unenforceable and 2/antithetical to#the way that I do art at all#like! I thrive on remixing! it's what transformative fanstuff is. how would I ever get on someone else's case for doing the exact same thin#anyways yeah don't worry about it I guess all of the above is more like. somewhat of a blanket permission#do whatever you want with my art! if it's cool and u want me to see it feel free to tell me. if u know I wont like it dont get caught by me#I am aware that I have before mentioned things you can't do with my art. those are personal boundaries. I enforce it in my own spaces#I have no power in yours. it's just how it is. use ur judgement. have fun chillin#that's it babey I go get snack now. its past mid autumn so the moon cakes are on sale so Im gonn#a get a bag of dried corn
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thecherrygod · 9 months ago
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#my posts#...........................................................................................................................................#............................................................................................................................................#is that enough i think that's enough#yeah that's how its going#everything's been getting worse and I've been feeling very bad but also very pathetic and like complaining almost makes me feel worse but#i can't do anything else about this so like. vent post lmao bc I'm a dumbass#i truly just want to(redacted)but one of those isn't an option and the other i have a drs appointment soon and i don't want to explain that#everything is just. bad. and what isn't i feel like it's getting bad and it's my fault. and I'm probably right.#just. i hate it here#the deserving mentality is truly getting to me and i fucking hate it. it's not logical. I'll still agree with it.#i truly don't deserve the food stuff i can't keep in my life and i deserve the shit that in getting and i can't stop agreeing with that#'oh this classmate wants to have lunch with me on Saturday after working on something! i should cancel before it's too late-#-so i can continue feeling bad for being an apple bc people should hate me bc I'm horrible and don't deserve kindness' like#it's. it's false. it's not logical. and yet#everyone else there's the fucking plexiglass wall and where it wasn't i think it's getting formed and it is my fault probably#i am annoying that one is true#.... I've been making posts like this all day and deleting them bc I'm pathetic also. it's.#... there's a little too much going on lmao#nothing's worth it and i feel like shit and anything i could try to do about it doesn't work and I'm just tired#... in case someone does read this i know it sounds worrying but nothing will happen tbh I'm just a pathetic coward who's sad and tired#and tired of being sad in a way that feels like it's getting worse#I'm not very sure when was the last time i felt. this bad in just. i don't know how to make it stop lmao#also in already annoying so this is all i can do i think lmao#i think I'm seeing now I'm just. being redundant and if i keep this up too much i will delete this. and i should but. i don't think i will#also without saying much this year the one thing™ has been worse than usual and that's not helping either so it truly is just.#that everything is kinda very bad#.... yeah. whatever. it's just.¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯#... i truly wish killing myself was still an option like when i was a teen bit it's not so i just have to deal with whatever this is#... i hate being aware this is all super illogical bc the logical post of my brain teams up making me feel worse somehow.
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beatcroc · 1 year ago
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comic planning/roughs on the clock at work 👍 ok. this one's still a few posts out though
#god i really do just need to get a tablet or. something#some way to draw digitally on the go bc my laptop is um#at least 200% less portable than your typical old clunky laptop. its a whole ordeal#and as u can see tradish scribbles are barely usable#though i guess it would help if i ever remembered to grab something besides a shite pen at work lmao <-hates pen forever#mad bc i think this one is kind of mid+redundant for what i'd intended it to do bc of how some of the previous ones shifted#but i still gotta draw it bc one of the later ones uses it. buh#when i said these werent chronological or connected btw i lied#though only VERY VERY LOOSELY so. enough to bother *me* if i don't do them in order#but not enough that's really going to be noticeable to anyone else. they're each still intended 99% as standalone.#the arc is very minor but its there. for me. for anyone else it probably just amounts to a couple easter egg references/ consistencies#by the by the pizzaposts before this arent part of the series.#one small quickie thing and one i would...really like to get done sooner rather than later bc i need it out of my system#former's like 70% sketched im just waffling on execution#latter is uh...theres a lot there but it's harder to work on And harder tell how close to done it is.#unrelated its funny how i Always forget brick until i start putting anything down and then its like oh god yeah i can do bg Jokes with him#funny in the sense that one of my webcomic protag oc's is a...spatially similar deal as him [little kid with a big bear companion]#and i ALWAYS forget the bear when im scripting it. until i start messing with the layout and its like fuck theres a bear.#i have to do things with this now. fortunately thus far it hasn't been too hard to adapt#much rambling tonight goodbye. i haev to go block all these damn bots
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