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𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐯𝐢𝐜𝐞!𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐤𝐚 𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐫
𝐬𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐤𝐚 𝐱 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐥 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐤𝐞𝐫!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫
Word Count: 1k Content/Warnings: nsfw, porn w no/little plot, brothel worker!reader x service top!sev, bottom!reader, fem reader (no anatomy mentioned), masochist!reader, traffic light system A/N: based on this post! credits to @no1jinxer for the idea! it's in the name; sev is high on shimmer fucks the shit out of you. enjoy <3
𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐁𝐞𝐞 ୨ৎ
──˚₊୨ৎ‧₊˚──
୨ৎ Sevika on Shimmer, who usually refuses to set foot into the brothel under the influence of its effects
୨ৎ But tonight, she’s got a job to do
୨ৎ She’s been tracking a rival chem-baron for a few weeks now, and it hadn’t taken her long to figure out that he frequented the brothel
୨ৎ So, she struck up a deal with Babette; “I’ll pay you and your girls double for the next three months if you’ll give me a ring the next time he shows up.”
୨ৎ “You’d pay me twice to see Y/n, anyway,” Babette scoffs; but ultimately, they shake on it, and the rest is a waiting game
୨ৎ When Babette does give her the call, she’s there in less than 10 minutes, and he’s dead in less than five
୨ৎ She doesn’t typically let work get personal, but when she’d heard from a few of Babette’s girls that this chem-baron tended to get a bit too rough with them, it was hard not to let anger fuel the job more than she typically would
୨ৎ And as soon as he’s been taken care of, she makes her rounds, peeking her head into every open door to ensure that everyone’s okay
୨ৎ When she makes it to you, she releases a breath she didn’t know she was holding upon finding you arranging pillows on the velvet couch, unassuming as ever
୨ৎ “Hey, doll,” she sighs. “You okay in here?”
୨ৎ You’re calling her name in excitement before you can help it, head whipping around to look at her; and when you do, you find her in a state you’ve never seen; only heard of
୨ৎ Her copper arm hums with energy, working hard to circulate the unmistakable glow of shimmer through its workings and into her bloodstream
୨ৎ Her scar glows with the same hue, glittering like hot coals of magenta
୨ৎ And her eyes; lilac pulses in their irises, her gaze even more alluring now than it usually is
୨ৎ You don’t realize your own eyes have gone wide until she breaks the silence with a voice raspy from exertion
୨ৎ “I know,” she begins, almost apologetically, “I don’t normally let folks see me like this unless they’re about to get their shit rocked-”
୨ৎ “It’s okay,” you quickly interrupt, shaking your head. “I mean, I’m not scared, if that’s what you’re getting at.”
୨ৎ She nods tentatively
୨ৎ “Okay… and you’re alright?”
୨ৎ “I’m just fine, Vika. Come, sit,”
୨ৎ And when you take a step forward, she takes one back
୨ৎ “Listen… I can’t ask you for anything tonight. Not when I’m still riled up.”
୨ৎ You don’t take another step forward, but your eyes stay locked onto hers, your voice steady
୨ৎ “Do you want something?”
୨ৎ She scoffs, dark lips stretching up into a wicked grin
୨ৎ “Baby, it’s you. Of course I do, but I don’t wanna hurt ya.”
୨ৎ She doesn’t miss the way your lips quirk up into a smirk of their own
୨ৎ “Three months of comin’ to see me… and you haven't figured out that I like a little pain?”
୨ৎ Her face falls- morphs into something serious, something dangerous- and she raises her brows in a silent inquiry:
୨ৎ ‘You sure you know what you’re asking for?’
୨ৎ The cock of your own brow in return says:
୨ৎ ‘You have no idea.’
──˚₊୨ৎ‧₊˚──
୨ৎ Sevika on Shimmer, who never would have thought such a sweet thing like you would turn out to be such a masochist
୨ৎ And when you’re begging like that for her to mark you up, throw you around, leave you sore… what kind of service top would she be to deny you?
୨ৎ Eventually, she starts showing up with an extra cartridge of shimmer, loving the way you go dumb for her when she triggers it and fucks you into tomorrow
୨ৎ It takes her a while to get comfortable with being as rough as you want her to be, not because she doesn’t want to, but because the last thing she wants is to hurt you in a way that suddenly isn’t fun anymore
୨ৎ But, just as always, you’re more than patient, and make her feel more than safe to explore this new facet of her time spent with you
୨ৎ She’ll bite down, and you say harder, she’ll pull your hair, and you say rougher, she fucks you deep, and you say deeper; until she knows just how limp you really want to be by the end of the night
୨ৎ And she has to admit; it’s nice
୨ৎ Really nice
୨ৎ She’s usually already pent up from the bullshit of her day’s work when she comes to see you, but when she’s pent up and wired off the purple substance flooding her system?
୨ৎ She can’t deny that blowing off all that steam in the form of ravaging you is quite the gift you've given her
୨ৎ Of course, Sevika still will not sleep with you if she’s too high to rein herself in the moment you need her to, and as much as she checks in with you when she’s not using it, expect twice the requests for your color and triple the orders to remind her of your safeword when she is
୨ৎ But, damn… quite frankly, you give her a run for her money, and that isn’t easy to do
୨ৎ By the time she’s done with you, you’re littered in bite marks and bruises, legs trembling and face tear-stained
୨ৎ She finds that aftercare with you makes the come down off of shimmer so much easier to handle, too; that pressing kisses to every mark she’s made and whispering praises in your ear as she wipes away at your shuddering form helps ground her just as much
୨ৎ And then, she sleeps like a Gods-damned baby
୨ৎ She never falls asleep at the brothel; or so she thought, but here she is, being woken up by an angel in pink lingerie letting her know that it’s closing time
୨ৎ Of course, she flips out when you tell her she’s been asleep for hours, but you refuse to wake her up and kick her out, caring more that she catches up on the sleep you know she’s not getting than the money you could've made in those hours
୨ৎ But, it’s not like the money matters; she pays double for you, now
──˚₊ 𝐄𝐍𝐃 ‧₊˚──
#sevika x reader#sevika x you#sevika x y/n#sevika smut#sevika headcanon#sevika headcanons#sevika imagine#sevika#sevika arcane#arcane smut#arcane headcanons#arcane imagine#arcane imagines#sapphic#lesbian#wlw#arcane
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Another one of the paintings I did this week, was playing around with lighting and felt like painting Zuko, so I did. :D (oh yeah - and a close up if you're interested - you can see the sketch lines if you squint, but I reckon that's part of the charm~ *smiles innocently)
#this was actually the first one i did#watched a tutorial on how to not overwork watercolours recently#and wanted to test out the theory#this is take one#the other paintings i did got better as they went on#(like. i like this one its just a lil blotchy yknow?)#:D#zuko#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko fanart#love drawing this angsty dude#mixing all the different reds is a lil hard tho#since i left most of my paint stuff at home#and like. i was away for most of this week#with my mini 12 colour paint set#(bit bigger than one of my hands)#cause it was easier to pack#anyway#reckon i figured some stuff out#really like this kind of 'sketch - paint over sketch - outline with fine liners' thing im doin atm#watercolours are cool#havent really tried other types of paint but yeah.#i like them a lot#:D:D:D
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No rest for the wicked I suppose
#hi!!!!! sorry this is the only thing I've drawn in like a week. I got busy freaking the fuck out about moving back in with my parents :)#it totes feels like everything is falling apart around me but also its fine!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll figure it out!!!!#anyway. I tried to put ghosts in the background but they would not turn out so just imagine that Vriska is getting tormented by ghosts#or more ghosts I guess#aradiaaugust#aradia megido#vriska serket#hs#homestuck#my art
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ticking time bomb, wrapped in skin
[(Convict;Divide) - Don't Stop - Ripping Me Apart -- by Nothing More]
#I tried editing the speedpaint to make things more clear but i do not know if they actually are. lmfao#jdate#my art#david wong#john dies at the end#im actually very embarrassed of this one i like making edgy ~cool~ art but i always worry about how itll be received-#anyway. this was mostly to test out the new pixel brush set i got off the CSP store :] i really like the airbrush!#the brushes are made for small canvases but seem to work just fine for larger ones if you use em just-right#watch me redo his legs like five fucking times and theyre still not right. its fine ill figure out legs someday#anyway. ive gotten obsessed with this album again and also seeing so much shadow fanart on my dash has me thinking about#dynamic poses and bending anatomy and just Doing Weird Stuff again. i may redo this someday with more interesting perspective#wasnt rly thinking of it but. it could use some additional Drama
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every time i try and actually think about gender stuff i always just come to the conclusion that its all stupid and pointless which probably isnt the best stance but also wtf else am i supposed to do at this point
#like a while ago i somehow stumbled across implagender which like i guess man. but also. ehhhhh.#< though also thats like A Part Of That so its probably it. or at least close enough#another problem is that irl me and online me are VERY different gender wise#irl idfc if i get she/her used on me its all the legal shit and like besides how i dress i look enough like a girl.#online though its. less ok. id rather it not happen it feels weird#also ive been thinking about he him???? like using it on myself is fine i do it on accident sometimes#but the thought of someone else using it on me feels werid. not as much as she her but still weird#it its is another option i guess. i dunno man#fucking terms are a whole different thing. i think i prefer masc ones but idc at this point#whateverrrrrr man#like. i guess i could also just go unlabeled. which is basically what im doing now i dont think ive got anything saying it#unless ive got the agender flag on my strawpage or something. thats another one that like kinda fits#“kinda fits” meaning it does but i feel weird about labels#annyways my problem w unlabeled is thats a label in itself. so like im unlabeled in concept but not fr if that makes sense??#maybe. i dont fucking know i never have i probably never will#irs so funny how complicated this shit is but then my sexuality is so easy.#gender is. ??????. sexuality is aroace lesbian#though i gues si could theoretically go more into the whole aroace thing cuz i know im full on aro but idk where i am ace wise#but like literally it doesnt matter why should i put myself through that. i can't#and im like 99% sure im like. is it still called sex repulsed#which is a shitty name unless im thinking of a different thing or getting it wrong bc like the idea of sex isnt gross 2 me. but ok#ANYWAYS rant over. jello literally who asked#jello shut up challenge#wait i figured it out my genders actually [deltarune gaster noise]
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i promise... i am still working on requests ..... its just taking a minute 🥺
#no ones pushing it i just feel a little silly its taking so long!!#i mean its like obv i am not required... esp since im not being paid to do reqs . but Still.....#(if i ever do get around to opening comms... id be less slow about it i think.... and obv probably more specific#figuring that out is a Nightmare LOL also cus im like well then would it be pointless to do reqs if i do that . which like#isnt quite true. thatd be more of a 'as long as ive okayd the comm its not smth ill flake out on. like i could with a req'#still.... scary. and i struggle to gauge interest for that wo feeling self conscious that im talking about it wierdly HAHA)#but ANYWAY point being ive got like 2.5 reqs... i have some done on one but struggling w the 1.5#i say 1.5 cus two ppl requested the same thing :]#(which is fine w me im just like hehe about it cus that two ppl wanted this amuses me and i smile)
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If you annoy people for fun, don't be surprised when people don't like you
Work rant in tags. Didn't know there was a 30 tag limit lol
#one of the people in my department is sick so we pulled a out of department coworker to do her shift today#she is !! so annoying !!#doesnt do anything right doesnt take anything seriously thinks she knows what to do better than the people whove been there daily (ME.#im not going to make sandwiches 10 minutes before the lunch rush are you kidding me)#anyway. shes got 4 grown kids and has this job to fill her time (left 40 minutes early) and specifically told the evening shift that she#makes it a challenge to annoy people. for fun.#'teehee i put the spoons away head up cause [vic] doesnt like it and [they] put it back immediately' its not a prank when it violates-#food safety. and also it is literally making more work for me. i worked 2 hours with her and im exhausted today. i only have 4 hour shifts#literally like. puts nothing in the right space does nothing correctly or finishes something in one go leaves the Strangest messes#put me on my autistic back foot (the hotcase is supposed to be the same everyday. for us AND the customers. no one knows where anything is!!#regulars come in and glance at it to see if we have their things in there and theyre just walking away cause its in the wrong spot!!)#anyway. she made me do the donut pull and didnt dump her trash and also put the oven waxpaper on the trays in the sink.#and told me to Not clean the meat slicer cause ill need to use it for sandwiches (the cooler that we put our sandwich stuff in broke 2 weeks#ago so we are low on space everywhere and are trying to keep everything to a minimum. there were 3 tubs of meat sliced AND ALSO IT WAS 10.#MINUTES. TO RUSH. IM NOT MAKING SANDWICHES CARRIE. THERES LIKE 5 ALREADY OUT THERE I MADE YESTERDAY.)#srry she like implied-asked me to make some like 3 times while i was literally cleaning her mess.#i cant work in that kitchen if every surface is cluttered i will clean it before making a Bigger Mess.#anyway. she only works over here if someone is sick enough to call out w no cover which is like maybe once every 4 months so#she doesnt know how to do things. which would be fine if she recognized that. she does the hot case so wrong yall.#its usually [burritos; stick items; boat items] [corndogs; strips; (boat items or fries)] [fried chicken; (space or fries] [bakes chicken;#special of day and fries after its gone; space/special part 2 or fries] [sweet corn; mashed potato; mac n cheese; two kinds of gravy]#its mever that when she works even tho its NEVER DIFFERENT.#today it was [baked chicken; strips x2] [baked chicken 2; special;boats?] [fried chicken; fries] [corn dogs;burritos; CORN.] [STICKS.; mac#;mashed potato; gravys]#WHY DOES SHE MOVE THE CORN. ITS ALWAYS THE CORN. EVERYTHING ELSE MOVES AROIND BUT WHY IS THE CORN BOT IN THE ROW WITJ THE OTHER SIDES.#it bothers me so much but i cant Move things cause its a mess and its hot and i have mire important things to do like CLEAN HER MESS.#ugh. anyway she talked rrally hushed to the evening shift and i thinj he reassured her that im just like this (quiet/bad at talking) and do#like her and like. lmao. i dont but she doesnt need to know that. i was too overwhelmed by figuring out wtf she was doing to figure out to#talk to her#anyway (thats the third anyway i need to stop) she called me mellow so at least my stress wasnt showing too much
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Where's that one Ford art post thats like I'm in the best years of my life clutching a hot pink thermos thingy with hot gurl juice when he's clearly not. cause damn . Yeah
#ive got it actually downloaded on my phone. so dont actually need it forwarded to me. but also#christ man what day. what a life. what am i doing man. im so exhausted. trying to figure out my masters. which like. UGH first pushed to#do things and then im like oh okay yeah makes sense ill do it and then suddenly people are like a YEAR LATER wait what do u actually want.#like. idk man i do enjoy what im doing and enjoying myself. but also fuck im tired. but also i would be excited to do further work on what#im doing. like. i get my aunt dying recently has suddenly all my other aunts reassesing their lives but its just like. yeah and now suddenly#youre reluctant about the shit youve pushed on me huh#and CHRIST the stress of figuring how the dynamics work since everythings changed up here and ive gotta move AGAIN#and the oma needing to be medivac'd out today like fuck man. and then i fucking went to craft night and started weavibg a basket#like. what the fuck man. and then finished two typesets.#ughhhhhh. and was like damn i needed to make those hours for work today but whatever i guess. tomorrow it is#me w my sad little micky of liquor and my laptop for typesetting and antique roadshow on in the background trying to relax#omas probably fine but CHRIST last i was in they were like shes fucking dying. okay wait shes a little better no one else is in can u#look after her. horribly stressful#yeah. sure. prime of my life. to stress out about everything.#hugin personal#had a breif moment sitting on my bed where everything dropped away and i was like damn what the fuck am i doing. what is going on.#how am i still moving. anyways. i think i need a vacation#its fine its just been a long few months and things keep piling up and im supposed to be making importnat life decisions and i feel like an#impaled beastie on a fork writhing around. AND im not home so i dont got my snuggly boy to cuddle. i just need some sleep i think#the prof i was thinking of supervising me seemed super nice... and talking to stydent this week also where nice and only had nice things#to say. idk man also been thinking this week about growing up and never having your work being acknowledged. its just why havent you not#done that. like. damn. dont think i can recall my dad every saying im proud of you. ughhh some ways good to be out of the house since dads#stressful af to be around and the parents still arent sure about maybe getting a divorce but its also awkward af dynamics here#the rents seem fine for the most part but yeesh. the fall was not good. also i miss my boyyyyyy#anyways. yeah classic NDN thing of your life being fucking run by your aunties somehow work wise#also being asked point blank what i want was like fuck man. what do i want. can u just leave me alone to do hobbies actually...#jk i do enjoy my job. i love research tbh. coordinating stuff less so but it do be a part of it#ok well. whoops rambles on here wayyy more then was expecting
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...... i literally have a VR headset. i can make this in the art program on it. i do not need to agonize over trying to make a 3D object in 2D space.
#i just have felt guilty for owning it since i got it so i havent touched it 😭😭😭#and also its a meta product which irks me and I've been trying to figure out if i can factory reset it and resell it djdkdl#I don't want it bc i feel guilty for having it and also it freaks me out that its a meta product fhfkdl#but idk if reselling it is very viable#honestly i would take like. $150 for it. that's like half its retail price fhdkdl#I've also wondered if i can ask other brother what headset he has and see if maybe we can trade if his isn't a meta product....#he gets a specs upgrade while i get to be free of meta dhfjdl#i dont need a crazy complex headset honestly - i just want one to make art with 😭#and also i got this specific headset bc there is a specific art program i wanted to get on it#but now I'm like... man. idk if the owning a meta product is worth it for just a specific art program fhdjdkl#anyways. hi. I've been hiding the headset in a box under my bed so i dont have to look at it bc i feel so conflicted over it fjdkdl#second very foolish and expensive purchase I've made in my life. the first was rubber ducky isopods DHFHDKL#BUT WHATEVERRRR everything is fine. <- trembling violently#i should maybe see if theres any like... more of an open source type of headset out there... it'd probably be far more expensive though#but if i could resell this meta one and put money towards a better one that i wouldnt feel so guilty and scared for owning... would be good#hmmm#also i think i misjudged the amount of games that would be available for it bc it is not a lot compared to what i imagined to exist DBFJDL#which makes sense fhdksl its still very new tech#also I've been too scared to try to figure out how the VR room hangout thing works dhdksl ik that exists#bc thats what my brother does a lot of. but like. i want to be anonymous and muted and idk how to do that#i should just see if i can schedule a hangout w other brother ig and see if i can chat w him abt it all#he will not understand abt my meta hatred but ... other things i could get some good advice on maybe#and perhaps also that trade depending on what he has ....#🐑🌻
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why's all the colorful stuff always in the kids' options oTL
#just me hi#Whyyy [laying on the ground facing up. hand on your shoe]#I see a thing with colours I like and it's either a) fast fashion garbage that'll break down quick + be incredibly uncomfortable#or b) only goes to size 10 in kids#Must I suffer. Its already hard finding my shoes they're funking Black kdhsvfh#Not only would colours just be nicer to wear they'd also be easier to find <3#And I got the go ahead for multicolour so Whyhuhyhyhhyyyyy lmaoo#And if I get recced another pastel palette I'll explode. It's just not happening. Help kfvsh#It's either pastels or dusty colours I do not vibe with at this time. Or black#And black can be Fine but I don't want black but I also don't want to die immediately walking around and Blaaahh bloooooo ouhrrrr#My mother said this shoe brand she wants me to get shoes from has good colours and I go to check it and you Won't Believe What They Had#I've been SNUBBED#is that the word here? Hang on loll :)#Close enough 👍💥💥#SNUBBED dude. Just awful kfshsh#I don't want neutral colours I am so tired of them lmfhsf#That and pastels. Lord please I am begging for a restraining order against pastels#I had this same problem looking for skates last year whyyyy am I supposed to be beige and faded blue all the time BLAH#//anyway I Did sleep yea :>#I'm also slightly hungry which my explain my renewed issues with this but yk what I think I would had this problem anyway. Peace kfdhshf#At least I can find clothing with patterns and colours i like that happen to be on the same shirt right. Right#Okey I'm gonna stop talking abt it Lmfhsvfhd#//yea I've got some left over energies from last night and a thing I've gotta get on so :3#I think I've figured out my process w/ the tradi inking and then colouring! Went at record speeds last nnnI mean this morning Kfhsvf#Though I have Got to eat before that. Sigh. Sigh. Sighhhh#Life: you get to eat but you also don't have a choice lmao#Same thing with sleep. And baths. Why must good things suck so hard [shaking my fist]#//anyWho I'm going on my way. Onnn my way#Yep. Moving now. As we speak uhh huh#Alright toodles pfsh :>
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i need eddie to get another guy friend in season 8, and buck loses his shit about it (again), so he breaks up with t because he's convinced that the weird feeling he gets when he sees them together is because he is Really attracted to the new guy.
#like things with t are fine cuz he likes exploring this new side of himself even if t doesnt always match his energy but whatever its fun#and maybe at work chim is the one who brings up eddies new friend and he is immediately just. what new friend?#chim laughs and says. tbf last time eddie got a new friend you attacked him so you could date his friend. hes probably keeping it to himsel#and bucks like. dude what. that was. yeah it was shitty of me but it was a one time thing. i wont do it again...#and when eddie shows up for shift buck immediately asks about his new friend and eddie tells him about the guy without hesitation#after shift tho buck is like. why didnt you tell me about him? after t i get why you dont want to but im just. you dont have to worry man.#buck. i know. im not worried. anyway he and i are gonna head to a bar to catch the game. you want to come with? you can bring t if hes free#oh. thats. thatd be okay? i dont want to idk ruin the vibe by bringing a date#nah man. itll be fine#and so he and t go to the bar and eddies already inside with the new friend and its Fine. its Great actually because t gets along with eddi#and the new guy and the new guy makes eddie laugh and doesnt miss a beat and knows more about the teams record this season than buck and#buck is doing Fine. this guys smile is big and his eyes are bright and when he laughs he sorta leans into eddies space alittle and its Fine#the night ends and buck and t go back to his apartment and buck cant stop thinking about that guys hand when it clapped down on eddies#shoulder or the look on his face as he teased eddie about the beer he drinks (cuz its kinda bad but only buck can say that) and buck Cant.#he wants that guy. he wants his hands and grin and teasing voice all to himself and not on eddie.#so he breaks up with t and ts confused af cuz i thought things were going good?#yeah. i just. i want to explore my options yk now that ive uh figured out i like men.#and its a clean break. not dramatic or messy. t tells him to call if he every changes his mind. buck wont.#bucks trying to not pry about eddies new friend and he doesnt grill eddie or anyone and just waits and listens to all the new info he gains#and eventually eddie invites him out to watch another game because whatever team they were watching made it to the playoffs#and when he gets there eddies like. no t tonight?#nah we. uh. we broke up.#eddie says sorry man that sucks. and the new guy is like. honestly he didnt even seem that into you which what an idiot. youre great.#and its good because the new guy splits his attention between the two of them now. eddie isnt the only one getting hands and grins and eyes#and the third time theyre at the bar the guy follows him to bathroom and kisses him hard against the door before pulling back with a#panicked sorry and leaving and when buck finds eddie after hes like. what happened? new guy ran out of here without even saying goodbye#he kissed me in the bathroom. i think uh. i think he was kinda freaking out about it and thats why he left.#and eddie just blinks at him before being like. buck. buck you said you werent going to do this again.#i didnt mean to! and buck means it. he just saw the way that guy made eddie laugh and put his hands on eddie and had eddies attention and#oh.
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i really am the definition of wasted potential.
#lily talks#don't mind me I can't sleep#sorry for being gloomy on main#sometimes I think about how fucking great I could be at things without the anxiety and depression#because there are so many things I *could* do successfully if I just fucking managed to get out of bed consistently#or not be exhausted from the most fundamental things#But unfortunately I spend my days so desperate trying to *not think* that I procrastinate everything I could do#I don't know how I am supposed to handle anything on too of dealing with my own head#and anyone I meet is always so shocked when I fuck up the most basic things because unfortunately I've mastered *pretending* to be competen#I've got that shit down#Same with being the token optimistic person#I am very Fine (tm) always and if I'm not it's a conscious choice 99% of the time so that people think I'm normal#Because obviously no one is always doing well#But yeah it leads people to thinking I got everything under control and that I'm bound to do something fantastic with the brain the world#Has given me#Unfortunately it only spends its time getting into petty fights with itself and figuring out every type of self sabotage under the sun#... I don't know where i was going with this...#anyway#Sorry to anyone who ever had or still has expectations of me#I am committed to the failgirl lifestyle
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Ooohhh??? This is one amazing battle choreography And art direction! Okay, I'm staying. I'm hooked now.
#ariambles#OFF WITH HIS HEAD! is what happened to the guy the moment the mc (ghislain??? i forgor alrdy...) got the sword. it was amazing#how smooth the whole thing was. this isnt rlly a dungeon break manwha like what i was looking for. its a regressor manwha#''the regressed mercenary's machinations'' is what its called im at chapter 4 and was tryna figure out if i wanna keep going. im not really#tooooo into regressor manwha. im very picky with it. tbh im picky with a lot of manwha genres and subgenres anyway. also i didnt#quiiiittte like the art style for this. like its Fine. its actually pretty nice and unique! just takes awhile of getting used to and since#i was still feeling the manwha out. i dont know if im gonna be staying for long enough to actually get used to the art but now i am!
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(Ignore some of the tags duplicating and being out of order I guess? I'm too tired and irritated to rewrite the rant. I have no fucks left to give. It's also storming here right now and our water alarm went off, and everything's fine but I just want to fucking sleep because it's 9:30pm and I have to wake up at 4:30am and I'm exhausted and in pain. And ran out of tags/characters to go through the whole rant in the tags as per usual. I'm so tired)
#ah yes#it is tumblr#the place i always return to whenever i need to scream into the void#so anyway#incredibly short version#partner and meta and i (polyamorous household) got a puppy the other day#but when im not the only one working from home tomorrow i am hiding out alone in the basement for the entire day#the two of them actively WANTED a dog#i was fine either way because ive been around dogs most of my life#but didnt necessarily actively want a dog#like im barely keeping houseplants alive right now dude#and this is a 2-3 month old Australian cattle dog/blue heeler puppy.#we have had her for two and a half days and im already regretting this#she keeps trying to get into stuff#and chewing on things even when she has multiple teething toys#and now that she's figured out where outside is#she'll whine and run around for you to let her out and then just walk around for a few seconds and immediately come back in#I've basically been the one babysitting her all day because i work from home#and like#i love animals dude#but i do NOT have the patience for this#she's driving me nuts#and its not like im taking it out on her or anything#shes a puppy#but my partner was hoping having a dog around would bring joy to our lives and make us all happier#and im so fucking annoyed already#but hes wanted a dog his whole life and was never allowed to have one#and i know she'll grow out of some of the behaviors as she gets older#but when I'm not the only one working from home tomorrow i am 100% hiding out alone in the basement all day with headphones#i cant be her full-time babysitter three days in a row dude I'm fucking losing it over here i cant get anything done. just needed to vent
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watching secret life is like twenty minutes of me rolling my eyes and then as soon as ricky and adrian have a conversation im kicking my legs and giggling
#i missed him i had to start watching again :(#gemitus#ben and amy's actors are doing a great job pretending to have a conversation in the background lol#ricky and adrian have a perpetual 'broke up?' on my chart which is pretty awesome to me#we have a situation here where everyone is arguing but i think theyre all in agreement??#ricky doesnt want ben and adrian talking adrian doesnt want ricky and amy talking. like whats their problem isnt it fine#Well im having fun anyway. why is ricky jealous over ben talking to adrian :-)#literally cant get over the way ricky cant even explain why he doesnt want ben and adrian talking besides 'bevause.' like ok man! :)#ricky's good boy face pisses me offfff booo 👎👎👎 you arent fooling me 💥💥💥💥#this show's fades to black and transition fades are so funny#one thing about this show i really respect is its commitment to the timeline. like you really can track the plot along the nine months#ricky and amy had sex in july -> amy gave birth in april. and you can figure out that its currently may#ricky asking adrian after they had sex about romance and she says she isnt it. uh ohhh hes catching feelings ♥️#wait hes actually telling her he wants to actually be exclusive for once this is huge#how did they turn this into an argument. Well im having fun anyway#i needed to relive My Favourite ricky adrian scene from s1 but god he was so fucking annoying when he wanted to fuck grace#but i got My Favourite scene from how much adrian agrees with me so ♥️#i forgot about ricky threatening ben to not have sex with adrian Alright hes normal about her hes normal#'what are these people putting in their coffee theyre so fertile' genuinely.#ricky: i dont want to have sex with amy. ben needs to go to italy on his own amy: if i dont go to italy with ben ricky might... ricky: 😏#ricky's lowkey getting adopted by ben's dad rn its cute
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All I think about now by the pixies you are commander cody coded or I’ll make you 🔫
#couldn’t figure out a good way to word vibes fit it fits even if it doesn’t exactly#commander cody#commander cody posting#I ever tell you guys about how I’m a triplet and when the clone wars cgi show came out we were like wow there are three main characters one#for each of us cody rex ashoka. Anywyas I didn’t really like ashoka as a kid bc she felt very the girl tm added for the girls tm tm not much#character she’s the girl and like yeah but she gets better but like it made me so mad that I was supposed to like a character bc I was#allegedly a girl and they were too so they had to be like the sort of pink power ranger thing idk if it was me being mad about feminism or#that no one understood I wasn’t a girl but sure gave me a loaded baggage for characters like that ajdjdjdd#anyways like so as I kid I would say I liked cody or rex the most depending on which brother I was mad at/bc I was basically saying that the#brother whose favorite was cody/rex was my favorite ajdjdjd like taking their side#and I got into fights all the time with Robert so I think I just said cody all the time bc that was Bradley’s favorite anyways I later just#really liked his character but that is the true origin ajdjdjdjdjd#to be clear ashoka is fine I liked her ok i jsut hates always having to play the girl characters when we played pretend I did not understand#why I could not be luke skywalker tho Bradley did like like baby luke so I’d give him that#I was going to vaguely reference this hidden sibling lore or maybe make it its own post but then I thought it’d be far funnier to drop it#here in the tags of this random ass post#sorry commander cody for high jacking your post but the story was about you so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#sw
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