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(Avocado) Horizon Line
Chapter 1: A Heart of Logic and Empathy
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Summary: Due to an unfortunate accident, Avelyn finds herself injured and stuck in a stranger's house in the middle of nowhere. Eco, meanwhile, is just trying to deal with having another person living in their home. Under other circumstances, neither of them would have guessed that they'd get along so well, but maybe with time, they'll find out that this accident wasn't so unfortunate after all...?
(The world of Deltarune belongs to Toby Fox, Avelyn and Link belong to @pukeseven, and Eco and Click belong to @brightgoat.)
High above the dark sea, a biplane weaves amongst the green light cast by the grid that stretches across the sky. The planeâs pilot steers it through a series of increasingly complex maneuvers, showing off the fact that she is extremely skilled. (She knows it, too.)
However, all the skill in the world isnât enough to help her when a critical component in the engine, weakened from all of the back to back long-distance flights across the water, stops working entirely.
As the plane begins to lose altitude at dangerously high speeds, the pilot struggles to eject, only to discover that this is one of the systems that has failed her. Left with no other options, she works to maneuver her aircraft into a glide, fighting to bring it closer to the faint lights of the shore in the distance in hopes that someone will see her.
Clinging to the yoke with all her remaining strength, she braces for impactâ
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âNEMMUYâŠâ
âGood night to you too, Flash.âÂ
Eco smiled at the pod of poppups that lived in the channel of water by their house, taking their time to give each one their own special good night. This was one of the few routines of theirs that they maintained with each new pod of poppups that passed through their house, and they liked to think that it made each member of the pod feel special and loved. To be fair, it also helped them to grow up into healthy and friendly advertisement companions, but theyâd be lying if they said that was the only reason they did this each and every evening.
They waved at the entire group one last time, before walking away somewhat reluctantly. It was always sad for them to say goodbye to their beloved creatures, even just for a night.
Suddenly, a loud crash resounded nearby, startling some of the younger poppups out of their sleep and making the scientistâs fins shoot up in surprise.
âReally?!â Eco hissed to themselves, their heart racing. âI just got the little ones to settle down!â
They hurried back over to the channel once again. âFlash, Ink, Escape, you three take care of the little ones, alright? Everybody, behave yourselves while Iâm gone.â As much as they would have liked to stay and comfort their poppups, they had to make sure thatâŠwhatever that wasâŠdidnât pose a threat to anyone.
The ad-creatures were abnormally silent and wide-eyed, clearly frightened by this unexpected occurrence. Eco offered up a small, sharp grin in response. âHey, donât worry! Iâve got this under control!â they insisted.
Then, they raced off to go see who or what had dared to disturb their pod. Sand wasnât generally the best surface to run on, but Eco was used to it enough that even in their high-tops, it hardly slowed them down at all.
Once they saw the smoke rising in the distance, however, their speed only increased, but now fueled by fear instead of frustration. No matter how annoying the noise had been, the scientist could never stand to see anyone get hurt. Theyâd always been that way for as long as they could rememberâit was part of why they were so good at caring for poppups.
As Eco skidded to a stop in front of the wreckage littering their beach (their poor beach!), they offhandedly noted that it resembled a modified amphibious plane, retrofitted for light cargo flights. The scientist didnât know much about airplanes, but they did at least know that light cargo transportsâŠwere still required to have pilots.
And at that very moment, they noticed the one thing that definitely didnât match the rest of the wreckâa flash of reddish-orange amongst the twisted metal. Quickly making their way over and around the broken remains, they found an unfortunate Addison trapped inside what had most likely once been the pilotâs seat. Â
With a decent amount of effort on their part, they managed to shift the broken pieces enough to get the Addi free, lifting them up in their arms. The pilot was completely unconscious, but thankfully seemed to have been protected from the brunt of the crash by their cockpit and flight gear. Their ankle did seem to be swelling slightly, though, and Eco knew theyâd have to take a look at that once they got back to their house.
Once they were sure that the other was secure, they rushed back the way theyâd come, slipping slightly more on the sand now that they carried an extra weight. Careful not to jostle the mysterious pilot, they called for another member of the pod, Tracker, to come and help open the door to their house as they approached.
âWhat are you even doing out here in the middle of nowhere?â Eco muttered to the unconscious Addison.
Gently laying them down on the sofa, the scientist began to heal what injuries she could, switching to her first aid kit once her magic began to falter. There was only so much she could do, anyhow, given that the pilot had some nasty scrapes plus a twisted ankle. Quite frankly, theyâd been extraordinarily lucky as it was.
Once sheâd done all she could, Eco ran out quickly to settle her pod down once more before they slept. âDonât worry, guys!â she reassured them. âItâs all going to be okay. Iâve fixed everything up, I promise.â
They seemed plenty reassured by that, given that one or two had even fallen asleep by the time sheâd finished checking on them. For that, at least, she was grateful.
Then, she came back and sat down on the couch next to her unexpected guest, keeping watch over them until they woke up.
She didnât have to wait long, as it turned outâonly half an hour. In a fraction of a second, the pilot jolted from sleep intto full awareness, gasping. Their eyes darted around, and they began to push themselves uprightâŠonly to be startled again by the sight of Eco. This time, they glared directly at her, scrambling into an upright position (and wincing as their injuries clearly flared up).
âHey, take it easy!â Eco cried. âYouâre going to hurt yourself all over again!â
The other Addison simply continued to glower. âAnd why do you care?â they snapped. âIf you know whatâs good for you, youâll leave me and my plane alone.
Eco sighed, rubbing her forehead tiredly. She really didnât have time for all of thisâshe had enough on her plate with this pilotâs presence alone, without also having to convince them that she wasnât the bad guy in this scenario. âListen, if you want to be like that, could you just go do it to someone else who didnât save your life? I literally just finished patching you up after you crash-landed on my beach.â
âCrash-landed? Iââ The Addison sprang up off the couch. âOh, god! AirdrâowwwwâŠâ They winced, lifting their twisted ankle off the ground.
âDidnât you hear me earlier?â Eco said, giving them a stern look as they sank back down onto the sofa. âYouâre going to hurt yourself more if you keep acting like that!â
âFineâŠâ they muttered.Â
Eco folded her arms, not ready to let up just yet. âYou have sustained severe bruises across your entire body, mild lacerations on your arms and side, and damaged your ankle. I would not recommend doing any kind of strenuous physical activity whatsoever for the near future.â
âGeez, not pulling any punches with that, huh?â the pilot said. They sat there in silence for a moment, but then sighed. âSorry. I was just rushing home after a massive delivery job, looking forward to restingâŠand now I wake up in a strangerâs house with a busted ankle and an even more busted plane. Not exactly the way I was hoping to spend my night, but none of thatâs your fault.â
The pilot cracked their first smile since waking upâa small one, seeming slightly embarrassed now. âIâm Avelyn, she/her. Nice to meet ya. And, uh, sorry again for snapping earlier.â
âEco, she/they. You too, and thank you.â the teal Addi replied, feeling some of the tension in the room dissipate.
A moment of mildly uncomfortable silence passed before Eco remembered what hosts were typically supposed to do. âCan IâŠI donât know, get you anything?â they asked awkwardly.
âSome waterâd be nice. I feel drier than a desert right now.â Avelyn sighed, sinking back into the couch.
Quickly, Eco darted off into the kitchen and returned with a glass of water, which the pilot downed in one go. It was only after theyâd come back again with a refill that they thought of another question to ask.
âHey, is the couch comfortable enough for you to sleep on? If not, I have an air mattressâŠor I could take the air mattress, and you could take the bedâŠâ
âThe air mattress oughta be enough for me, thanks.â Avelyn said, smiling again. âDamn, youâre being awfully nice to someone who just smashed up your beach, yelled at you, and basically pushed her way into your house, arenât ya?â
Eco grinned sheepishly, not having expected a compliment like that. âOh, really? Iâm actually surprised you think so! My friend always says I donât know the first thing about having people in my house. Heâs kind of been giving me tipsâŠin between the sass.â They rolled their eyes, recalling the numerous choice words said friend had had for them over the years. âAnd the fact that you got hurt wasnât your fault, after all, so I donât see why I shouldnât be decent, you know?â
âWell, maybe because I wasnât exactly decent to you? But, uh, I appreciate that youâre not takinâ it out on me. And by the way, that guy sounds like a real charmer.â the reddish Addison muttered, rolling her eyes.Â
âHe likes to think he is, but I would personally beg to differ.â Eco elaborated. âHe wouldnât like me saying this, but heâs actually a dork most of the time.â
Avelyn snickered. âYou roast all your other friends like this?â
The scientist frowned, genuinely confused. âOtherâŠfriends? I mean, I have my pod, but heâs the only Addison I spend time with.â
The pilotâs eyes widened. âOh! Oh geez, Iâm sorry!â
âWhat for?â Eco asked, not bothered in the slightest. âI donât need that many people in my lifeâI have him, and now youâre here to stay for a whileâŠhonestly, I think thatâs about as many Addis as I can handle at a time!â
Avelyn tilted her head. âWell, you donât need to worry about me, really. I can take care of myself!â
Suddenly, a distinct growling noise came from the general area of her stomach, and she visibly cringed. âThat is, if you happen to have a kitchen âround here somewhereâŠâ
Eco perked up at the sight of a distinct goal once more. âIndeed I do! Why donât I make you something and show you around?â
Avelyn made a valiant effort to stand up, but couldnât rest any weight on her left ankle at all. Eco frowned for a moment, before their fins shot straight up. âI almost forgot! Hang on, wait right there!â
âNot like I can really go anywhereâŠâ the pilot muttered, but Eco had already dashed out of the room.Â
They rushed up the stairs to their room, dug their old crutch out of the closet, and then raced back into the living room, before pushing the crutch on Avelyn eagerly. âThere! Now you should be able to walk just fine.â
ââŠshould I be concerned that you just happen to have this on hand?â she asked, raising one eyebrow warily.
âOh, not at all!â Eco chirped, already heading towards the doorway theyâd previously used. âI just got mauled by a sidebar shark once, had to use that for a week or two until my leg healed up. But now I have a really neat scar, so it was all fine in the end.â
Avelyn just stared for a second, dumbstruck, before following the scientist through the door.Â
âSo, this is my little kitchen-slash-dining room, and over thereâs my medbay. Itâs mostly for my poppups in case they get hurt or sick, but Iâve used it once or twice myself.â they explained.Â
âOh, so youâre a poppup breeder?â Avelyn asked.
Eco grimaced. âI donât love the term breederâŠIâm more of a caretaker, personally. I let them do what they need to do, teach them what they donât know, give them a safe place to live until theyâre needed. That kind of thing.â
The reddish-orange Addi smiled briefly. âThat does sound nicer than most breeders Iâve heard of.â
Their wince switched abruptly to a beaming smile. âAnd Iâm proud of it!â they declared, thinking happily on all the poppups theyâd helped raise to maturity over the years.
âOh, right, back to the tour.â Eco continued, gesturing towards the stairs. âI donât want to make you go up and down those any more than you have to, so just know that up thereâs my bedroom and office. Iâll run up and get you the air mattress so you donât have to climb the stairs every night and morning.â
âHang on, didnât you say you had food in this house?â Avelyn interrupted.
âOh! The food!â Eco slapped a hand to her forehead, eyes wide. âHere, let me seeââ she began rummaging around in her cabinetsââwould you beâŠpartial toâŠsome soup? I have a can or two of thatâŠâ
âSounds good to me.â Avelyn said.
âExcellent!â Eco cheered, attempting to sit up and promptly knocking her head into the top of the cabinet, given that she hadnât gotten fully out yet. âOh, damnâŠdonât want two of us injured here.â she muttered.
âAre you alright?â Avelyn asked, stifling a giggle.Â
âYeah, I just donât go down there very often.â Eco said, shuffling a few more things around in order to gather up what she needed. âOof, I really need to organize this place sometimeâŠâ she added, mildly embarrassed now that she actually had a relative stranger over and looking at the moderate mess of her house.Â
As soon as sheâd gotten out, she shot upright, putting a pan on her small stove and setting everything up. âYeah, but soupâs good, actually,â she said, half to herself, ânot a lot of workâŠâ
âYou talkinâ to me?â the pilot asked, sounding more than a little bewildered.
âOh! No, sorry, I just talk to myself sometimes.â Eco explained, shrugging. âComes with the territory when you live out by yourself, you know?â
Avelyn blinked. âYou sure youâre not aâŠmad scientist, by any chance?â
âIâŠdonât think so.â Eco said, answering the question completely seriously. âClick calls me that as a joke sometimes, but I have too many morals and ethical constraints to be a true mad scientist.â
ââŠClick? Wait, is your friend from earlier Click?!â
âYou know him? How?â Eco exclaimed.Â
âHe and I hang out when Iâm in town sometimesâhow did you meet him?â
âHe heard me talking about Addison code at some conference-type thing and wouldnât leave me alone until I talked to him about it.â Eco laughed at the memory. âAfter that, we justâŠnever stopped talking, I guess!â
âWho wouldâve thought?â Avelyn muttered, shaking her head. âI guess youâre not such a stranger after all.â
âSoupâs all heated up!â the scientist declared, before replying, âHe might come over while youâre here. Or he might not! Heâs been pretty busy lately with that new partner of his.â
âOoh, a partner?â Avelyn asked, sitting down as Eco poured the soup into two bowls. âI havenât heard about that!â
âHe refuses to tell me much of anything over text.â they said, before adding, âBut I do know itâs his boss.â They accentuated the last word with a smirk, and Avelyn gasped appropriately.
âNo! Link?!â she cried. âIâve been away for ages on work, I didnât even know they were into each other! How have I missed this?â
Eco grinned. âI did know Click had the hots for Linkâhe would not shut up about them the last couple times we talked! It was kind of annoying, but also a little cute, if Iâm being honest.â
âOh, theyâre definitely going to be super cute together!â Avelyn added, grinning. âPlease tell me he at least told you how they got together.â
âYeah, he did do that. He actually panic-texted me the same night it happenedâŠâ the teal Addison began, launching into the story as the two sat down to eat.
They talked for hours, but eventually the two began to grow exhausted, and headed off to set up Avelynâs bed and then to sleep.
After Eco had gotten her new guest all set up, she turned to leave, but was stopped by the sound of Avelynâs voice. âI donât think I ever properly thanked you.â
âWhat do you mean?â she asked.
âYou let a total stranger into your homeâŠbandaged me up, got me food, made me feel welcomeâŠand I havenât even had the decency to say thank you. I guess Iâm not used to this kind of hospitality, but thatâs still no excuse. So, thank you. For all of this.â
Eco blushed slightly, equally unused to this level of attention and thoughtfulness. âOh! Ofâof course! Iâm happy to help!â
âI appreciate it.â Avelyn replied warmly. âAndâŠI hope you sleep well.â
âYou too!â Eco replied, before leaving the room herself to (at last, several hours later than expected) go to sleep.
#deltarune#deltarune addisons#addison oc#econ o addison#avelyn addison#sol's fanfiction#how did it take me until NOW to realize that i don't know avi's middle initial????#wow...anyway#this is my first time writing both of these addis so i hope i did them justice!#also a question for anyone who feels up to responding:#the poppups are going to appear a lot more in the next chapter#do they have gendered pronouns#use they/them#or use it/its?#i have literally no idea what the fandom consensus is here#so any advice would be much appreciated#okay that's all#thanks for reading!!
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Guys I'm so glad everyone loves hit JRWI campaign: The Suckening so much. 12 thousand notes on just a thumbnail that's so cool. Anyone think about emizel pussy-out post revival
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bad youtube clickbait thumbnail that reads "I think I just had a therapy session with a DEMON???"
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Following the author of The Last Unicorn on Facebook is the only thing that makes being on that site worthwhile.
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i think theres this idea in the general public that the "best" fanfic gets turned into real books like 50 shades of grey. but the truth is that the best fanfic can never be published as an actual book because its intricately woven into the canon material so its inseparable even if you change the names
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How I found out about trump getting shot
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idk why people get super pedantic about the movie logic in Home Alone and start and try to pick it apart, because like, its a Christmas movie about a child accidentally being left home alone, the premise isn't exactly asking us to suspend our disbelief that much, and yet nearly every single "gotcha" question I see people bring up about this film is literally answered within the first 15 minutes :/
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Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.
#katniss everdeen#the hunger games trilogy#the hunger games#primrose everdeen#hunger games#batcavescolony reads the hunger games#suzanne collins#'now it seems i have become someone precious' NOW? GIRL BFFR you're their hunter girl#and this isn't negative just bffr girl#your WHOLE DISTRICT did the three finger salute that you yourself says means admiration thanks and goodbye to someone you love and on top is#old a rarely used. your WHOLE DISTRICT decided in that moment that they needed to bring back this sign of respect for YOU#...................................................................#idk why some people are thinking i mean this as negative i don't she is unreliable but its not intentional. like when Peeta heart stoped in#CF she doesn't know what Finnick is doing at first cus she doesn't know off the top of her head what cpr is. she also thinks Peeta after the#reaping is acting for the cameras. he isnt we dind out later his mom basically told him Katniss was gonna win and he would die. obviously#shes not doing it on purpose shes just for lack of better words uneducated? as in she doesn't know everything shes not omnipotent#so when Plutarch (? second games guy) shows her his mokingjay hiden watch shes like *wtf that's weird?* then the people traveling to#district 13 show her the mockingjay cookie and explains it and she then goes on the difference between his watch and their cookie#and why does eveyone act as if district 12 is as bad as the capital? they CANT help Katniss and Prim in the way you want. they cant give#them food. none of them have any! and im not putting iton Katniss but they hid they needed food so they could stay together. it sounds like#some of you are in this our world mentally of what people do after a loved one dies (brings food constantly checks on them etc) district 12#cant do that. they dont have food and they're all suffering. you cant give someone food when you have none to give. then theirs the fact#that peeta DID help. Peeta buring the bread and tossing some to her then taking a beating from his mom is a HUGE thing in the books.#he used his resources to help her like you all said someone should.#district 12 DID (rip) care about Katniss before the hunger games. why do you think she was allowed to hunt? or how her trades were good#these are the little ways 12 can shows Katniss they love her. but again Katniss doesn't see this and YES its because she had ptsd before the#hunger games as well. i swear some of you make it seem like d12 was all living a life of luxury and glaring down at Katniss.#other things that show Katniss is in hight standing with at least her people of d12 is her dad was known enough through d12 for peeta dad to#comment on his singing along with his commenting on her mom. also her mom is a healer in the community. yeah her parents arnt the top but#of d12 but they are/were definitely high staning in the Seam.
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Local PHD student at wizard school HARRASSED!! FOR SHAME!!
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If you use arab.org like I do please consider taking the extra 30-60 seconds to click on ALL of their causes. Palestine is important but so are the environment, refugees, children, women, and the impoverished across the middle east and it doesn't take away from Palestine to click for multiple causes. The arab world faces a lot of problems and they only get worsened by how western nations have oppressed and attacked them. Clicking is small but it generates something and overtime it does benefit the greater good. It takes all of us clicking as often as possible but we can do it! It's really easy and safe and they have proofs on their site on how they do make an impact and are donating your click money
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lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)
if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I donât owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. Theyâre always passing urges, but itâs disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brainâs spent so long thinking only about suicide that itâs forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But Iâm trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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