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like don't get me wrong Callum flat out exchanging the cube or freeing Aaravos of his own 'free will' because Rayla's life is on the line is my Beloved Theory. that said, because we've already had a hostage deal and exchange of information + dark magic use was to save her life, it's like...
It'd be even funnier to me if Rayla's not directly in danger. Because it's one thing to knowingly open yourself up to Aaravos and risk doing dark magic again when if you don't, she will literally die (thank you 5x08). It's another form of escalation entirely to trust Aaravos' word or or risk possession Again just because she's sad or will maybe do something dangerous to free her family if you don't step in and do it first
#like CHET is insane but rational#but if he just does it bc he wants her parents out#solely so that she doesn't have to maybe sacrifice something#or solely so she can be happy#like. Buddy. My Guy#im Begging you#snake boi callum#cube hostage exchange theory#+ variants#s6 speculation#predictions#arc 2 viren&rayla holding hands as they get better and refuse to make sacrifices#callum&claudia getting worse as they roll right on ahead walking both their paths lmao
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i wanted this comic digitalized so bad that i used max's birthday as an excuse. :)
this is the true ending. if im insane enough ill show you the alternate ending though
bonus because i just. it just kinda peters out. longggg post yayyye
#adventure time#wizard city#together again#i realize if im all 'oh every wizard kids has to have their episode tagged' then i should be that stickler about mister death.#mr death#mr fox#blaine#digital#distant lands#long post#im gonna also throw in#suicide mention#because its not very obvious or serious but mr fox's brain did go there. sorry. and i guess thats technically the whole. hm. yeah okay. h.#larry#blaines mom#ALSO THERE. i cant. make her look right. to me. but shes. so much to me. i KNOW they have one. its so specific in my head that they do#they cannot be being raised solely by a posse of wizard guards. that cant be real.#'dont let them take you without saying goodbye to me blaine' - mom whose kid's best friend just got zilched with no warning. :| real great.#'you took my friend away' '(loading....) ohh. the old guy took him but i can figure it out. yeah. i know a lot of people one sec.'#i feel like there is more i should say. hm. but ok guess not! happy bday max. im scheduling this to post exactly on ur bday#this comic was mostly for me. but mr death is there and hes sweet. so i will post it on your bday.#au#idk if it needs an au tag but it’s getting one. i talk a lot in digital art pieces
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You’re gonna die if you keep that up (Patreon)
#Doodles#SCII#Damned#ZEX#Kayako#And Teisel's there technically#*Die again - he's sticking with his track record lol at least he's consistent#Ghost/Curse GF arc!! I enjoy seeing ZEX happy but I am Concerned for him lol#ZEX be attracted to something/one that won't brutally murder him challenge - difficulty impossible#His affection for the grotesque and monstrous - I mean while it's admirable he does regularly put himself in dangerous situations!#Runs solely on the Suspension Bridge Effect lol - attraction and fear so conflated in his mind <3#I keep thinking of his human instincts as specifically Max's instincts since it's his body - Max's self-preservation and fear and hunger#Which ZEX dutifully ignores lol Max's body tells him to bolt and privately replies like ''Yes yes in a moment'' haha#His fascination wins out! To his own detriment haha#Although I say all that as though I don't relate in my own way - I have maybe just a few too many notes relating to ZEX lol#It's always been hard for me to get into horror in the way it's intended to spook and scare because I tend to get sad :')#So many monsters and ghosts and creatures are victims of circumstance! Like Kayako! As she is here she's not even malicious just dangerous#I've never seen the Grudge so it's only speculation but it seems very sad that she was tethered as a Curse rather than a malignant spirit#Like a battery moreso than an individual - what a terrible after-existence! It makes me sad to consider!#ZEX reaching out to her in his own way is very sweet <3 He's so biased towards his darlings hehe#In a way being human does suit him - we'll packbond with anything that Might have even the slightest inclination to not maim us lol#And the way he personifies her! (VUXonifies her?) Reading intention or emotion into her actions with no proof and no understanding!#The way he ''tries to read her face'' as if he hasn't been struggling with that this entire time - with other humans who can tell him so ♪#His pride is so delicious <3 He is so easily blinded to his own shortcomings in the face of pleasure and the potential for connection!#It's no wonder DAX worries about him so much hehe ♥#It also always makes me so happy to have something fit together so perfectly like those last two hehe <3#That vine didn't exist when this happened! But there it is!! I love newer memes on older media hehehe ♪♫
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while i'm on my soapbox, let me say one more thing.
i see the critique of 'you sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days'. i have seen every variation of complaint about this line specifically. how dare she criticize him for being mentally ill? (nevermind that the same was immediately done for her.) how dare she leave him just because he was depressed? how dare, how dare, how dare?
and i just, i think it's telling in many ways. as someone with depression/someone who has recently gone through a year-long depressive episode, i think this is severely taken out of context. the beginning of the song even includes a piece of that puzzle- i stopped tryna' make him laugh. the chorus asking how much sadness he believed she had in her, the multiple mentions of her bearing the weight. i've been on that side of this dynamic as well, that realization that someone you care about is hinging their happiness and healing on you. you have to bear the brunt of this because they, through no fault of their own, have settled into a fog.
it's already difficult enough of a situation, knowing this loved one is depending on you, but when you struggle with depression yourself? when you're hinging every day on being what this specific person needs to feel like they have something real to hold onto? there comes a certain point where, if you don't leave, you're going to lose yourself. you're never selfish for choosing yourself. depression looks different for everyone, and sometimes it does have that dangerous lead into dependency. you have to realize when you're breaking yourself with the same tools you're using to build them up. you just have to.
#tate.txt#taylor swift#let me be clear: if this was her stating she left him SOLELY BECAUSE he was depressed then that would be entirely different#but their situation was obviously incredibly complex. the lyrics of that song do show the weight of bearing what the other person needs#and disregarding how much you're falling apart until it's too late#stop villainizing people for taking care of themselves for fucks sake.#AND WHILE I'M AT IT.#she has every right to be angry that he put that weight on her.#that shit is traumatic.#you cannot hinge your happiness on other people and expect them to remain unscathed.#you can spend years shattering yourself so you can build this one person back up. those are years you won't get back.#it's okay to be angry while simultaneously understanding that no one is truly the worst in the situation.
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who up praying for downfalls 🤨
#mine#yandere#yancore#yandere vent#oh my god have i got some things to say. ooohhuuoouugh buddy#its not even my own situation this isnt even related to me. but im being a nice upstanding young man and venting abt it instead of invoking#the curse of ra. wishing someone dies is such a good coping mechanism fr because instead of thinking about it forever i can move on with#my life. and its great! but oouuuh theres something wrong with that huh. and oh my god. this issue is so fucked but i cant explain it in#a heartfelt and meaningful way. so imagine someone is religiously devoted to a guy and their mental anguish stems from jealousy or fear#of abandonment. and they are internally tormented about that forever. and just because they dont fit your definition of whats right#youre all like Hey you know that guy that means everything to them. how about we take him for ourselves solely bc this person#this suffering person whose life depends on him- who acts like that BECAUSE they are suffering- you think they deserved to be punished for#their traumas? their guilt and pain and anguish? you are no better than whatever you think they are.#i dont think this even makes sense cause im vague on purpose. this sounds like a situation from the bible i think#idk i didnt read it. anyways im skipping and frolicking in my cradle of hatred that fills me with warmth and delight#its not required that people are nice or respectful when their lives have been wretched thanks to people like YOU#but i hope their devotion never wavers due to people who hate their happiness. its not like those people matter anyway#if youre meant to be with your Guy and you love him enough then nothing else matters at that point. its all a test#die a martyr for your own romantic ideologies or whatever satou matsuzaka said#this is literally the equivalent of like. a mother cat adopts a kitten that isnt hers bc her own kin are all dead. she protects this kitten#with her entire life. and her whole being. and hisses growls bites at anyone that comes close to it. and some human teens are like#we should take that kitten solely because the mother cat loves it so much that shes willing to get violent for it.#because its not very niceys of her to harass those who want to take away the only thing she has left! oh noes!!#like shut the fuck up dawg. if that cat mauls someone for getting too close to her baby then mind your own goddamn business#clearly they did not grow up italian 💀#clearly they did not grow up with nothing being their own. nothing being sacred. no desire to protect anything#anyways yanderes i love you. you are fr so easy to be around and you should never change for anyone. i mean maybe take some therapist#advice here and there in case your devotion makes you suffer but OTHERWISE!!! dont feel bad about being a hater!!! protect what is yours#and i will respect it so hard i swear to god. its not that difficult to treat your devotion with the kindness it deserves.#if a disrespectful teen tries to steal your kitten then ill help you beat them to death with a shovel idc
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Said this on Discord, but I'm definitely leaning towards giving Mina SOME kind of powers like Bill. Probably nowhere near as powerful as him, but I imagine she has the ability to make a person's dream as happy and nice as it can POSSIBLY be while in the Dream Realm.
Not that good dreams NEED her help to form on their own, but she was stuck in there for a trillion years and probably felt ANY sort of desire to make other people happy and that was the only way she knew how. Even when trapped and all alone, her main goal was making others happy. Even if her own dreams were so far out of her reach.
#Hayley Speaks#My OCs#Mina#It's similar to Bill in that I don't think he's the MAIN creator of nightmares#But he can CREATE them and CONTROL them#I don't think Mina's the sole creator of good dreams but I think she probably has the ability to CREATE them#And often does as a means of making herself useful while she's trapped#Also it furthers her whole 'people pleaser' thing; making sure everyone else is happy while she's so lonely
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#ya know.#after having spent about a month and a half in são paulo with my grandparents i can now confidently say that im ready to go home#and thats not brasil's fault at all and is instead a reflection of who my grandfather is as a person#i love him. i love both my grandparents. but with my grandmother at the stage of alzheimer's shes in he just doesnt have patience#to help her the way she needs. and hes been very very happy to put all of that onto me. EYE give her all her medication.#EYE make sure she bathes. EYE make sure she eats. EYE make sure she stays hydrated (somehow the hardest part of it all)#and theres been multiple times. including about an hour ago. where she says something to piss him off and send him into a shouting fit#and its just so beyond counterintuitive and unhelpful. like shouting and bitching and whining isnt helping anyone#and im ready to pass this responsibility to my aunt after being put into a situation no one warned me about#i was never told my grandmother had deteriorated to this degree. i was never told my grandfather's temper was getting worse.#i was just. never told. and while ive had an incredible time meeting family and seeing things ive never seen before#and enjoying what is the last time i will ever get to do something like this with my grandparents#im also really happy to go home next week. im going to miss brasil so much and ive enjoyed every second ive been here#but im ready to not be the mediator anymore. im ready to have a room to myself again. to not sleep in a cot thats literally (LITERALLY)#1 foot away from my grandparents' in this itsy bitsy hotel room#im ready to not be the sole person shouldering all this responsibility. a responsibility i wasnt warned about in advance#and i hope my father can bring me back to brasil next spring like he says he will so i can see rio. god i HOPE.#anyway. the weather is gray and gloomy today and im feeling a bit maudlin about it all#i hope everyone is well and i miss you all. im sorry for not answering the messages i have. things havent exactly been the easiest lately.#i love you all ♥️ and happy sunday#personal
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I'd die for her 🥺
#she's just so cute in this agh 😭😭🥺😍💞✨️#I'd also commit crimes for her. like waging war on troy#edwige <333#also she was GLOWINGGGG in this film#like not just bc of good lighting and costuming#you could TELL she was happy offscreen#and i have a feeling i know whyyyyyy~~#but i could be wrong#i know people can give a different engery when they're speaking a foreign language but i don't think her performing in english was the caus#not the sole one anyway ;P
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I still haven’t watched Hazbin yet but everything online made me want to draw Rosie and Donna SO BAD
So here’s them based off that wlw art challenge! It’s based on the cover of Jessie Dumont “I Prefer Girls”
#hazbin hotel#hazbin oc#hazbin hotel oc#donna gorgon#donna medusa gorgon#hazbin rosie#hazbin hotel rosie#will I ever draw Rosie in her actual outfit instead loosely basing her clothes off of whatever Edwardian Fashion I can find?#who knows#while you are here I would like to brag about HOW RIGHT I WAS FOR LOVING ROSIE ALL THOSE YEARS AGO#16 year old me is absolutely thrilled based off of what I have seen from her#I do want to watch the show solely for her now#she’s an absolute delight I’m so happy#I’m absolutely drawing so much more of her and Donna NO ONE CAN STOP ME#I already have a few plans lol#ngl I’m not too happy with this art#but it’s whatever I got homework to focus on so I’ll just crank this out for now and see if I can do more later
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Been thinking about my body a lot
#Sel talks#Listened through Fat Talk by Virginia Sole-Smith which talked a lot about how bodies are tools#And the way she talked about how thin-ness shouldn't be something we strive for#And I can't help but draw parallels between my own desire to go on t? I don't know. Been having too many thoughts stewing#I keep coming back to isabeau's line of “maybe it was easier to change into someone I could love than to learn how to love how I was”#And I had drawn both hrt and diet culture back into this; but. Neither of them are from self love?#It's. Idk; a friction? On how you perceive yourself and how the world perceives you?#Or. Idk idk. It's hard to articulate now that I'm trying to get it down#If I remember right; one of the messages of fat talk was how bodies should be for function first and foremost; and should hardly-if ever-#Considered for aesthetic. And yes- trying to loose weight is one of the most damaging aesthetic changes you can do-#Idk! I feel like I'm looking too far into it#Something something you're not happy with how your body looks/is perceived so you want to change it#Whether that's influenced by society; loved ones; or something biological; it's still a desire to change your body#Although one is vastly more accepted than the other#Trying to become thin is trying to make yourself more comfortable in a vastly fatphobic world; to placate the people think they have say#Over your body; make yourself more palettable to the world around you.#Which I guess is an important distinction#Becoming the person you want to be even through everyone telling you that it's wrong or disgusting#But a part of me can't help but think a part of the reason I want to do hrt might have something to do with our male centric society?#I'm too tired to elaborate any further but I feel less busy now that I have it out
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the universe has had 23 years to smite me and it's yet to succeed,,, so now i get cake
#you'll never guess what day it is#is this my amphibia/frogsona? yes#am i basically playing chicken with my amphibia moots/followers at this point? also yes#i thrive on the knowledge that soon enough my art is going to jumpscare them on their feed :)#because i never mentioned i made an account >:) /devious#will i post my amphibia art on here?? 👀 perhaps#i'm hyperfixating hard on rottmnt at the moment so i'm appreciating having a blog dedicated pretty solely to it#but if the people demand it#i can supply some frogs (and possessed teens what who said that)#anyway happy birthday to me ig#amphibia#frogsona#my art#personal art#explodingstar art#btw her name is scrunch and she likes arson#a fun game for you to play with your therapist- who can find my insta and twitter the fastest ready set go#theming is consistent but username is not#good luck :)c
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If Kaeya has the opportunity to bring a plus one to any event, most likely he will elect to bring Klee. Especially if he knows it’s going to be a bright, lighthearted event
#hc; kaeya#//He would get her THE CUTEST and FINEST clothes and accessories#//everything she wants to wear#//Treats every time he picks her up like he’s taking her to the goddamn prom; bring her flowers and asking sb to take photo#//Bc he deffo got his hands on a kamera first chance he got solely for Klee mementos#//Swings by Good Hunter or smth to get her a pregame snack then off to the event#//Will be utterly focused on her the entire time outside times he NEEDS to pay attention to others#//That’s his BABY; he is gonna treat the gal to SO much fun#//Loves any Dawn Winery events specifically to sneak off with her and take her to his old room so they can play with his childhood toys#//Or hop up onto the roof and he can tell her so many stories of everything before they go back down to snatch grapes#//If he has to go to an event out of Mond; he will BEG Jean and Bedo to let her come with#//He just wants her to have so much fun#//She DESERVES all the happiness he can possibly give her; DESERVES the best possible childhood#//If he could; he’d try to bring Albedo along for her to things too; but that’s trickier to manage
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Can someone tell Emilia fart that eccentricity is only charming when a person is just being their authentic self and not when it is forced and she comes across as a deeply insecure individual and it is exhausting and sad to witness?
#this is unecessary of me and isn’t gonna help anyone but it just comes though her videos so clearly it’s hard to watch coz I’m reminded#of my own identity crisis shenanigans and I’m sure many ppl can relate#growing up is realising that doing activities for the sole purpose of getting attention is just pointless and annoying for others#it could be that she finds it funny but no that doesn’t come across. it could be that she genuinely enjoys it but neither does that coz#she tends to seem self conscious and not really happy at all doing what she’s doing#so it’s just so forced and no one cares because you have nothing genuine to offer with these activities#aside from trying to be a memorable charcater and have ppl make complications of you which im sorry but#just seems like her aim ok :/#I’m being mean but#whatever you guys know what I mean on this? those who have seen her vids?
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i am. still just so glad i got out of teen wolf when the cast started falling apart. like season three was such a shitshow from day one and made me INSANE as it was airing and i just could not continue to watch for season four after they killed off or wrote off essentially half the cast and killed all the found family potential and i will admit!!! that seeing crystal reed herself on a new teen wolf story DID tempt me!!!! i am only human!!!! i am not immune to allison argent!!!! but truly i know myself and i know that the show died a horrible death for me over the course of s3 and there’s a lot of good reasons i stopped watching it and those reasons will sustain me through my decision to not watch this new movie
all that said. @ my loyal six followers. please do not be alarmed if i end up temporarily in a teen wolf revival moment. i am not immune to allison argent and the nostalgia of it all DOES make me want to go back and reread all the old classic pack fics from before davis decided to start killing kids left and right !!! i am not immune to the powerful energy of sterek writers, nor to the call of pack-fics!!!!
#d speaks#teen wolf#god. teen fucking wolf#y’all know that when they killed erica i was mad but was like whatever that’s not a REAL death she can come back. i can ignore it. and then#they massacred my boy(d)…….. and i was in PAIN. but i thought to myself. it’s okay. i need to see what theyre doing. where they are going#and then. then they kicked motherfucking allison argent#and i KNOW! i know okay that it was crystal’s choice to leave!!! and yes i loved kira!!! but!!!!!#i was seventeen okay!!!! and they killed off one of the three MAIN CGARACTERS !!!!! in a stupid little mtv show!!!!!#i was not emotionally or mentally equipped to deal with that!!!! i genuinely MOURNED in the realest way y’all!!!!#my high school friends were concerned because i spent a week in like. a fugue state. like a zombie as if someone i actually knew had died#(yes i was mentally ill in high school and WHAT ABOUT IT?!?)#and at that point the show died for me. i couldn’t handle it#and some of the tw blogs i followed kept watching and going and i sort of peripherally experienced some of the new pack shit but just#could not make myself care for new baby characters when they Massacred My Boys………#so i stepped out!!! cause i was happy for a while there to continue to just exist in that happy part of the fandom that said ‘nah fuck it.’#‘solely post s2 aus here’. that shit was great#but then the more time passed the less fics like that came out and the more the fandom moved on….. onto the NEW plot…… and i Could Not Hang#and so teen wolf in my eyes was laid to rest like all the teenagers of color in the show#and now you come to me paramount plus. years later. when i am an ADULT with a fully developed prefrontal cortex#and you tell me. that allison argent is alive????? that you gave derek hale a child????? no#no you cannot and will not trick me into this. i will not watch it. i pretend i do not see it#however. i MAY end up rereading some of my classic fave fics. reblogging some old art. i am but a mere mortal#hearing tyler posey say ‘allison???’ DID hit me in my stomach. it did. i am weak#tw
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god give me the wisdom the courage the strength not to say fuck it and make elspeth queen consort and subsequently start a riot in the middle of the landsmeet
#oc: elspeth#tay plays dao#I LITERALLY REMADE HER SOLELY TO AVOID MAKING THIS CHOICE FOR THE 67TH TIME#i LOVE the queen ending but i always feel so guilty for pickig it like its so.... unrealistic. but its also fucking iconic so#BUT I DOESNT MAKE SENSE FOR HER !!!! EEEEEEE#the whole POINT of her is that she eventually overcomes her pride and prioritizes duty over her noble origins#so making her queen just doesnt work#but consider this. i love her and want her to be happy :(#ALSO JUST. HHH. mistress wardens have it sooooo bad pimping out alistair to morrigan AND anora#i could make alistair rule alone i guesssssss#but idk. ella cares about anora and wedding her to alistair is also partly about keeping HER safe too#even if they can never be friends after the whole executing loghain thing :/#idk i was feeling fine abt this yesterday but god its so sad i cant believe i went from ella 1.0s happily-ever-after disney princess ending#to ella 2.0 depressed ptsd martyr complex failwarden who has to share her bf with his hotter blonder richer wife#hhhh.#if i can think of some way the consort ending actually makes sense & gives elspeth narrative closure as a chara...well a bitch just might😔#until then lana del rey voice i know ur wife and she wouldnt mind i guess </3
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There's something so sad about Kadokura-verse Kimi. Er, aside from the obvious things lmao.
She knows he'll never really care about her. And she accepts that. But it hurts. It hurts so much. She's so desperate for his regard. To be valued at all.
Unfortunately for her, she has next to no use to him.
Sure they share a fair few interests and as "dumb" as she is, she is actually fairly intelligent, and more than that, creative. Coming up with wild, seemingly outlandish answers to problems, that work.
So she could carry a conversation.
He already has people for that.
She doesn't really have skills he values, and while she's young and could be honed, isn't really worth the investment more than likely. She isn't in any way exceptional.
About all she really has to offer is her fervent loyaty and love and adoration and. Well he rather balks at that.
Her care is... unneeded.
Perhaps she can be used for something someday. A pawn to be tossed aside, perhaps, but at least she was useful for something.
It's unfortunate that he was not and never could be just a "boss" to her. She latched on, unhealthily so. And blurred lines that probably never should have been. She's manufactured in her head a closeness that doesn't exist. She sees him, yes, as her employer, but also as a friend, as family, and it just isn't mutual. I don't think she even really meant to inflate her own significance, she doesn't think herself important at all. She just created an emotional relationship that is very one sided and kinda forgot that it's... Well one sided. She reaches for him in many ways as one would a closer connection, than the connection they really have.
It's rather tragic, but she chose it.
(well sort of, she and her collection of mental illnesses lmfao)
#bickering#yakkimi#kadokura-verse#majimemegoro#I like making this verse half angst and half crack#he's so fun to fuck with#but the over arching dynamic is#pretty depressing lmao#I wonder if there is a happy option in there somewhere#probably not#not unless she forms other bonds too#and Kadokura becomes hmm#vital but not her sole connection#she views him very much as family/hers#tbf with enough time she could settle into a sort of melancholic contentment#she can't have what she wants#but what she has isn't bad#I do like to imagine in more light hearted timelines#she basically fills this weird hobby friend niche?#like neither of them can sleep so theyre in the kitchen bickering about the best way to cook something#she isnt part of the dangerous stuff even of she has weird random insights and understanding#but the more domestic things#like cooking and fashion and languages#she isn't good at learning them but she loves listening to him and finding him new random trivia and obscure words
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