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āGreetings, once again. It is I, Nerdy Alvin or Full-Nerd Alvin. Iām not sure what Iām calling myself.ā
āI am delighted to inform you that one day of the 12 hour ADHD medication has helped me ace two quizzes and one big exam.ā
āComputer Science class, meet my untapped genius. I am EXCELSIOR!ā
āI shall miss this soon. Itās late and I can feel the effects fading. It shall feel nice to hyperfixate on random things again though. Itās impossible to do so while my brain is āSimonized.ā
āI donāt know why I said I hate taking these things. Theyāre not so bad when I reassure myself the side effects I donāt enjoy are temporary.ā
āI shanāt need them tomorrow. Iāll be back to short release ONLY IF my classes arenāt going well. Itās a pity. I hate to leave this (whatās the word Iām looking for?) significantly more competent and mature state of mind. But, the cycle continues. I must depart. Farewell.ā
#alvin seville#alvin and the chipmunks#alvinnn and the chipmunks#alvin 2.0#alternate universe#aatc#adhd meds#school#still playing catch up#or rather get ahead#Iām ahead now#I enjoy this#well as much as I can enjoy it when my emotions feel so muted#is this how Simon feels all the time?#probably not#but it is similar#side effects#lack of hyperfixation#mild interest in things#but I can still do them#this isnāt so bad#temporarily#if I had to live with this brain chemistry all the time I would SCREAM#Woes#thoughts#I am very tired#oh no Iām RAMBLING again#curious that I can still ramble but I now find my own rambles incessant and annoying#living science experiment#alvin signing off
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You guys ever think about an AU where Jason goes to hound Tim through Titans Tower, and, mid pursuitāwhile Tim is screaming at him about the second Robin being his hero, tryin to crawl away in a trail of bloodārealizes heās become an even worse version of his own mother, who sold him out to the Joker?
Because I do.
#the perpetual horror of genetics#and what our minds make of it#nature and nurture#Jason having an entire existential crisis in the middle of enacting his pointless vengeance#meanwhile Tim is just grateful for the momentary respite#Jason having a split second decision of āNo I will NOT be like that monsterļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ and scooping Tim up#Tim thinks this is it and heās done for#in actuality Jason is going to personally patch the replacement up if he wants to or not#Tim doesnāt know whatās happening but heās not a fan of this do-and-donāt#heād rather have a clear road ahead of him than this weird psych manipulation thing thanks#meanwhile Jason: Iām gonna coddle the shit out of you you little cockroach#Tim: Iām getting real mixed signals here man#jason todd#Tim drake#titans tower au#prompts#batfamily#red hood#Robin
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Legend, at the slightest provocation: I came into this earth screaming and covered in someone else's blood and and I'm not afraid to leave the same way.
#linked universe#lu legend#lu incorrect quotes#legend is not one to go down without a fight#like none of the links are but heās the one to be the Loudest about it#anyway personal stiff in the tags ahead so jump ship now if youāre only here for the lu content#*stuff#WOW i love not being able to edit tags on mobile because thats one hell of a typo under the circumstances#i got back from my grandadās funeral today :)#when he was younger he buried the ashes of a couple family members in the graves of other family members#rather than pay to have it done properly and officially#and i keep telling my mum we need to keep the tradition alive!#when we get his ashes back we need to go to the cemetery in the middle of the night and bury him with granny#she doesnāt seem too keen on the idea
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just to be clear Oliver never in any way, shape, or form has confirmed as of today that buddie was supposed to go canon in s4 or that they were having an 'oh' moment during the shooting arc or otherwise at any time or that Buck has been in love (?!?) with Eddie since he joined the 118.
all he said was; there was a pitch about the bi Buck storyline in s4 that got shot down (at whatever stage we don't even know, there might not even have been a single scene written for it, for all we know) and that in retrospect and considering the slow-mo and the music in the scene, Buck was possibly confused about his feelings around Eddie when he joined the team ā which is something Tim has already talked about before.
please stop acting like the conclusions you're jumping onto are facts or canon ā even if the shooting was meant to be an 'it' moment, it didn't end up happening in canon so, as interesting out-of-universe info this is, it doesn't have an affect on the in-universe canon at the moment.
and I promise, I'm not saying all this because I hate fun, hell, not even because I necessarily disagree. only because I can already see this leading into Oliver and the cast being harassed in case the show doesn't end up confirming these ideas that are currently being passed around as cold hard facts.
#posting it here too cuz twitter is apparently being stupid af and i'd rather get ahead of it spreading#i get being excited but please stick to what we're actually being told here not some la la land bs#oliver stark#buddie#911#911 abc#ramblings#my stuff
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My depiction of Vertin is very normal.
Based on this comic
#reverse 1999#verneider#vertin x schneider#vertin#schneider#together within the rubble#this is specifically calling out TWTR!Vertin and i'll never not laugh at that fact that I made them this way#everyone talks about sonetto having separation anxiety when i personally feel like vertin would have a better chance of it#her constant desire to connect with people but not be too close out of fear of getting attached. their drive to always grant people's wishe#the constant paranoia and fear that everything she ever knows and loves will be swept away by the Storm and leaving her the sole survivor#the fact vertin would rather tell them to go ahead rather than wait for them to make that decision first#y'all this timekeeper can hold so much trauma
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"Mission clear."
+ bonus
#kamen rider geats#kamen rider buffa#ace ukiyo#ukiyo ace#michinaga azuma#azuma michinaga#kamen rider#userdramas#umbrella.gifs#tokuedit#please do not repost#umbrella.edits#umbrella.posts#just a simple scene that i think helps set up their dynamic well#geats being a step ahead and buffa being frustrated and harboring anger that simmers through his mannerisms before he#eventually explodes bc he doesn't really want to face his feelings and lets them get the better of him rather than talk about it or work#through his grief and anger in a productive way#i'm not far in but i have thoughts
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Whatās the Janeys/Brakul death scenario?
So like upon review I mostly just was going to kill them off for Couya + Faiza + Hibridesā character development (#FEMINIST WIN!!!!!!!).
The background situation of their death scenario is something that will happen either way:
Throughout the story, the pilgrimage requests tribute from the towns it passes through (mainly food and other supplies). This is a common practice for pilgrimages and the travels of royalty, and Imperial Wardi civilians are used to the concept (just not so much during a famine). Some people give fully willingly (a lot of people believe in the pilgrimage's goals/and or the necessity to keep its high status participants fed), most are at least partly coerced (usually not via direct threats, but the pilgrimage contains a couple hundred soldiers, the Usoma, and Odonii leadership. The threat is implied), some are Fully coerced via threats.
In the latter third of the story things are not going well. Thereās been a lot of internal struggles among the soldiers and dissatisfaction with pilgrimage leadership (mostly Stavis), men are starting to defect and a large body are getting outright mutinous. The group has also lost much of their food supplies and things are getting desperate (they've been starting to eat their own pack khait and oxen)
With this going on, the pilgrimage sends three soldiers to exact tribute from a farming village in the province Lobera. They meet a group of men acting as representatives for the village, who flat out refuse to give tribute. Things escalate into an outright fight, the soldiers are better armed but few in number and are killed.
One of the village elders finds out that this happens and panics, knowing that the men who killed three of the Usomaās soldiers (one of which is her son) have signed their own death sentences, and possibly that of others. She attempts to persuade the families to preemptively flee, and then takes the village's one remaining skinny old plow ox to carry the bodies of the dead soldiers back to where the pilgrimage is camped. She supplicates herself before Stavis Amanti and begs for mercy, saying they don't even have enough food stored to feed themselves, much less to give, and that the men thus considered the killings righteous self defense. She shows that sheās returned the bodies for rites as an act of goodwill, and offers the ox in tribute, the most valuable thing she can provide. She begs that the Usoma accepts this as tribute and spares the men's lives, and that the pilgrimage moves on without taking anything else.
Stavis bids her safe passage away from the camp (without confirming or denying that he's accepted her plea), and the heads of pilgrimage confer on what to do. The killing of the soldiers is a violation punishable by death, but this would be like, a notably bad PR move. Meanwhile a contingent of soldiers (including some major side characters I havenāt introduced) break off and lead a raid on the village to avenge their fallen brothers and loot supplies. Others get drawn into the fighting, and it devolves into a full on massacre.
A couple families had fled at the elderās suggestion, but most refused to leave their homes. Some of the villagers believed they would be left unharmed if the killers were given up, others had been preparing for a reprisal and armed themselves with everything available. But they have few actual weapons and none are trained combatants. All of the remaining men and adolescent boys get killed, one woman manages to take out a soldier using a shovel but is killed, most of the other women and girls are spared murder but several are assaulted. The village is looted for supplies and kindling for funeral pyres.
Stavis Amanti has no fucking idea what to do. The soldiers defied orders and killed Imperial Wardi civilians, but the current climate amid the pilgrimage would make it EXTREMELY Bad for him if he demanded their punishment (but also potentially very bad if he didn't- not all the soldiers participated in the massacre and many were horrified). Faiza encourages him to exert authority in a measured response by having the ringleader of the mutineers killed but sparing the rest, and offers to publicly back him in hopes of avoiding full on mutiny.
The raid reveals that the villagers had been hiding more grain than they claimed they had (as in like, enough to feed their people on starvation level rations for a few weeks). Stavis takes this as an opportunity to justify not punishing the mutineers (as the villagers DID technically have something to give, and execution IS technically the punishment for refusing the order of tribute (though not execution of the entire community)), but insists that their Galenii bless the village dead and their men build pyres for the civilians as is honorable conduct. (This attempt to make amends is not particularly appreciated by the survivors.)
The pilgrimage holds a funeral for their own dead soldiers. The village ox that was given in tribute is killed and butchered for the funerary feast.
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In the Bury Your Gays route, Brakul is one of the three that gets killed during the tribute extraction. Janeys loses his fucking mind when his body is brought back, and tries to slit his own throat on the spot. Couya stops him by wrestling him to the ground while Janeys screams threats at her and the old woman in a very pathetic public spectacle. He is deprived of all sharp objects.
While the pilgrimage leaders are conferring, he hovers miserably around Hibrides (who is also not feeling so great about all this). He's suddenly very interested in her pregnancy for the first time ever, asks to feel the baby (which has been just starting to kick). She's like "fuck off", but he strongly implies he's planning to commit suicide asap and she concedes and then is like Okay I Let You Feel The Goddamn Baby Now Leave Me Alone Holy FUCK.
Janeys turns his attention to fucking murdering anyone tangentially involved in this happening. Heās among the initial raid party, plays a major hand in it turning from its ostensible 'find and execute the ones responsible, subdue the rest, steal their food' directive to a full massacre by directing his men to immediately attack the first man he sees. He and his group capture three young men as prisoners and demand that they be slain at the soldier's funerals as is wartime custom (this isn't wartime). Janeys additionally demands that he should get to do it, as the only kin of any of the dead men. Once that's done he immediately cuts his own throat and bleeds out. They wind up getting cremated at the same time so things work out how Janeys wanted it.
At one point I realized that this is kind of just The Iliad?
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So like obviously whether they die here or not has little impact on THESE events, but a lot of the endgame revolves around Couya Faiza and Hibrides and these deaths would be very significant to THEM in varying capacities. It affects the trajectory of the final stretch of their arcs and adds a lot of layers to the ultimate Couya/Faiza conflict. I also liked their deaths being kind of random and shitty and meaningless because that in of itself is kinda ~thematically resonant~ with the story. (A lot of tension between the lack of intrinsic meaning to events and the profound levels of meaning ascribed to them).
I'm almost definitely not going with this version of events though. Janeys and Brakul don't have much active involvement in the endgame and don't Really need to be alive for it as it stands, but I think the version where every main character (except Faiza she's doomed) survives to see What Has Been Wrought and living to experience the fallout ultimately works better.
#In retrospect probably not clear enough that the baby feeling demadn is 'I am planning to die imminently you will never have#to deal with me again can I FUCKING feel signs of life from my dead boyfriend's bastard fetus currently in your body before I do'#and not 'let me feel the baby or I kms'. With the latter Hibrides would be like 'Okay Then Die' instead of 'FINE go ahead and then die'#The current scenario might involve the tribute extraction party Not all dying but rather one being killed and the other two being#badly wounded and taken hostage (with the realization of what the consequences of the first killing will entail- as a desperate#attempt to stand off against the pilgrimage and bargain for their safe release)#So the character involvement can stay Similar without ending in death and the fallout of these events will get messy in different ways#The massacre is also the straw that breaks the camel's back that leads to the province of Lobera declaring itself an independent#city-state and seceding from Imperial Wardin so like the pilgrimage spends the final third mostly traversing through outright#hostile territory it's great stuff for them.#A massacre like this happening is pretty much standard for wartime sackings and would not be questioned much if committed#against a declared enemy but this was inflicted on Imperial Wardi civilians which is a big fucking deal
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OOO, I like the implication that the yokai trio are gonna watch their dad get devoured by Shredder and achieve the same effect the scrapped Shredder!Splinter arc we almost got!.... unless you're going in a different direction than canon šššš
Oh wow, I didn't even think about adapting the Shredder!Splinter plot in any way in the AU XD. But I've already mostly figured out how I wanna do the season one finale and beginning of season 2, and I don't wanna change it now soooo....
I'm actually gonna stick pretty close to canon, Draxum is gonna put on the Dark Armour only to, not too long after, get slurped like a Capri Sun and unceromoniously spit out, and then Shredder is gonna start running around wrecking shit. That still isn't gonna be too fun for the Drax Trio to witness, of course!
#Then a bunch of other stuff happens but we'll get to that later#I'm always conflicted on how much I wanna reveal of the story ahead of time#it's not like i'm making a proper comic for the au so spoilers aren't really something i need to worry about#but it's still more fun to explain the story with art accompanying it rather than revealing the whole plot in random text posts lol#I am currently working up properly explaining how the season 1 finale happens in the AU#I just need to explain a bunch of other stuff first for the sake of context lol#Tiz Sep AU#tizel talk#tmnt#rottmnt#rottmnt au
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Aaahhh, thank you so much for the tag @king-a-queen!! šš
15 Questions Tag Game
01 - Are you named after anyone?
First name: nope Second name: yep, after my grandma
02 - When was the last time you cried?
About a week ago bc I was laughing too hard Also techinically this morning. My eyes just started tearing up a bit while I was still in bed & staring against the wall. I guess that white wall was just tugging at my heartstrings
03 - Do you have kids?
The only children I have are my OCs <3 My current beloved OCs are Aym, Marchosias (ššššš), and Baal; all for Obey Me
04 - What sports do you play/have you played?
So as a kid, I took MSE (self-defense) classes, I did ballet for a short while, and I played badminton. But now I'm not really doing much sports anymore. I'm occasionally working out in a sad attempt to stay healthy but that's...not working out all that well because I keep forgetting about it lol. That being said, I walk anywhere as long as it's a walkable distance away (to me, that's around 90min max), idc it's the European mindset. Der FuĆbus hƤlt Ć¼berall :)
05 - Do you use sarcasm?
As if I would ever smh what are these accusations
06 - What is the first thing you notice about people?
When I pass strangers on the street, I try to look for little moments that bring them joy. That being said, 90% of the time I'm just lost in my own thoughts & have completely tunnel vision, so imagine noticing anything š When I first meet people tho, it's usually the way they look at you, which tbh is a little ironic because I sometimes just cannot look people in the eyes NFDHSKGJHKSDLGS
07 - What's your eye color?
They used to be blue, but now they're more of a greyish green with a few brown spots in them
08 - Scary movies or happy endings?
Okay endings, actually! Where characters don't get the happy ending they were hoping for, and some things are still a little messy, but all in all things are okay and they finally get to breath again. Though I guess that's kind of a happy ending? lol
09 - Any talents?
My newest talent is being able to imitate the cry of an owl. My sister explained it to me earlier & once I got it to work I've been doing it non-stop until I got lightheaded š Worth it tho Other than that, being able to teach myself the basics of a lot of things within a day (one of the upsides of ADHD), as well as abandoning a lot of my projects after a while because I suddenly decided to start a completely different one (one of the downsides of ADHD) I also have a real talent for writing angst. Ask any of my closer mutuals, I keep terrorizing them with my ideas (love you guys š) And finally: telling myself that I'll go to sleep early & then it's 5am
10 - Where were you born?
in Germanyyy fun fact: I was born more or less close to a town that has a store called 'Mephisto' lol
11 - What are your hobbies?
being insane, obviously š some of my mutuals can surely attest to that lol No, but in general I enjoy writing & drawing, as well as, uhm. Randomly deciding to take up multiple really time-consuming projects, such as the OM card rec thing I did that I still need to update ahhhh, my Obey Me OC & MC ask game that originally had 200+ questions before I cut it in half out of fear of it being too long, half of my side blogs, and SOOOO many other things. <- or in short, being insane š I also really love cooking & baking! Side note, if anyone wants an easy chocolate lava cake recipe, you just need to ask... š Also lately it's just been romancing Thanatos in Hades because I randomly remembered that I hadn't done that yet
12 - Do you have any pets?
I used to have clownfish and a starfish, but other than that I've never had any myself. I love the dogs I dogsit with all my heart tho, and there is this cat that I sometimes meet on my way to work. She always runs up to me when she sees me and won't stop meowing until I start petting her, and last time she climbed onto my lap (I sat down in the middle of the sidewalk, I did not care lmao), she's literally the sweetest šš I also ring the doorbell for her whenever it rains so she doesn't have to stay outside lol
13 - How tall are you?
1,68m or 5'6 if I got the conversion correct lol
14 - Favourite subject in school?
Heavily depended on the teacher, but generally art class because we usually got to work on whatever we wanted with and listen to music. Also English in 9th grade, math in 10th and German in 11th because the teachers were great
15 - Dream job?
I've been thinking of translations in general/software localizition for a while now. I just love dissecting all the small differences between languages (D.D.D.s being called 'D3' my beloved), + there are so many invisble choices made when translating. You'll always lose something because every language has its little quirks and a different mindset that can't be translated directly, but you'll also gain something that the original version didn't have. It's an art form in itself, and I really love that <3 The other job that keeps popping into my mind is event mangement. I already get to organize a ton of things for my uni since I'm part of the student council for one of my two majors. It's exhausting, but also really rewarding when you have people come up to you afterwards to tell you how much fun they had!
No pressure tags for a bunch of people, hehe >:) @alpine-forget-me-nots @healersadjust @misc-magic @sweetbrier2908 @reblogs-are-the-love @shootingstarrfish @mjoria @too-much-gacha @layphie @katboykirby @ghostlyyraccoon @lost-in-lamentation @bagofwetmice @glamphantasm @wizardthesai @mellonyheart @arlatthan as well as anyone else that wants to join!
#tag game#15 questions tag games#if anyone tagged would rather answer with a different blog of theirs then go ahead! i have main/side blogs figured out for most of you lol#also if some would rather not get tagged again in the future lmk!!
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Drew a sort of cover for the fic I just finished and will be (hopefully) uploading soon!
#omori#omori au#omori sunny#sunny omori#omori omori#omori (character)#siren art#'soon' meaning. when i get over my anxiety i always have when im about to post a fic jbgjfnfjd#this one will be different from my previous ones as itll be multichapter rather than a one shot#scopophobia#< ill go ahead and tag it it was meant to look creepy and it did kind of creep me out once i started coloring jbdjdndjd
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together in every universe. or something
#bojan cvjetiÄanin#kris guÅ”tin#joker out#im neglecting schoolwork to draw this but that seems like the norm at this point#hoping if i get it all out of my system now i'll be normal during exam szn (in like. a week šØ)#<<sorry if i keep talking about school btw (semi age reveal ahead) gcses are fucking killing me uuaghhgshhahhhaj#i actually quite like this since i started drawing on a whim this afternoon and its only ten now#i dont even mind the lineart (DONT LOOK AT BOJANS HAND OR ILL JUMP OUT A WINDOW)#only a one storey one tho ššš can't die without seeing bokris irl <<pipe dream as im too embarrassed to go to a concert#NO because bumping into jo in london would be my worst fucking nightmare ššš#what do i even fucking say 'hey are you jan from jo--' NO id combust on the spot#and what if im bothering them uknow šš idk but i used to live in an asian city where none of my idols from the west would ever visit#(except safiya love you safiya) so keeping the real life person and fictiinalized versions apart in my brain and/or at arms length was easy#but now that i live in the uk and the chances of seeing them irl are non-zero? and presented with the chance to#actively seek them out and you know go to a concert#im just too scared and awkward to do it#maybe i'll bully my friend into going with me#i feel safer revealing age more in the fucking depths of these tags but another thing that makes me feel awkward about going is age#like ik lots of jo fans are younger than me and there's no shame at all in bringing your parents i just feel so embarrassed?? to???#like i'd rather go with my friends#but that would require at least us riding the train alone and i am a small east asian girl who never looks up from the floor ever#sooooo#not happening any time soon#maybe next yr?? but probably not#unless i suddenly get a lot more independant and cool#i doubt anyone's read this much of my tags but if you have šš hope you like the art i guess#at the time of me writing i want to draw more but i'll see#(you will know since it will have been posted)#a tag previously used to say 'queueing to post at school' this is false as i am now in fact nauseous at home#my art
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Sister "I became skilled at so many things just so I would still have value" Beatrice not having hobbies makes me feral. Camila has her music, Shannon had her art, Mary had her cooking, Lilith has her being-a-massive-bitch, and Beatrice is over there like "I have encyclopedic knowledge of the fighting styles of every woman in this convent, and also I have spreadsheets"
girl, ava shouldn't have to yeet herself into another dimension for you to realize you need a better work-life balance
#no wonder you reached your breaking point the first time someone really invested themselves in you as you are#rather than judging your worth by what you could bring to the table#(teen bea at boarding school like maybe if I'm top of my class maybe if I'm winning martial arts tournaments maybe they'll let me come home#teen bea devoting every waking moment to bettering herself because that's the only way she could get her parents to notice her as a kid#teen bea losing herself in the focus and isolation of individual sport)#(adult bea trying and trying and planning a museum heist and /failing/ and losing ava and if she can't do what's asked then she's worthless#adult bea coming undone becoming desperate chasing and chasing and chasing and vehement that Ava thinks she has worth as a matter of course#believes in that and believes in Ava hard enough to power through the fog plague#adult bea who enters the church and flies true as an arrow towards ava comes back to her path every time she's dealt with an opponent#adult bea heading dead ahead towards her north star towards the space at ava's side where she belongs)#warrior nun#sister beatrice#ava x beatrice#avatrice
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RWBY X MMO Nonsense
*JNPR Dungeon Prep*
Jaune: "Also, I finally learned a Combo!"
Pyrrha: "Oh, good on you!"
Ren: "Mind showing us?"
Jaune: "Sure."
Jaune: *Does Heavy Slash*
Jaune: *Follows Up with Twin Strike*
Jaune: *Does Shield Bash before following with Lunging Strike*
Jaune: *immediately finishes with Cut Down*
Jaune: "What do you think?" :D
Nora: "Awesome!"
Ren: "Not bad."
Pyrrha, who can do that without really thinking: "It's a start, but I can give you some tips."
#rwby#rwby shitpost#jaune arc#pyrrha nikos#nora valkyrie#lie ren#mmo au#Pyrrha teaching Jaune on his skills is just a lil funny to me#however. it'd be hilarious if her skills were much more wild#Jaune gets cool but rather simple swordsmanship#Pyrrha is just going full DMC with APM in the 'fuck you' levels#if anyone wants to add on go ahead
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just thinking out loud here but if (even disregarding the mismatching years they take place in) the events of Logan went down in Wade's universe and the sacred timeline isn't in danger from disintegrating due to not having an anchor being, that means that the sacred timeline aka Earth-616 aka the mcu (which btw already doesn't make sense, but let's move past that too shall we) does still have a Wolverine
which means that either a) it's an entirely new timeline X-Menwise and we've yet to see how things went down in that universe for the mutants or b) the mcu and the xmcu are on the same timeline, on Earth-616, while Logan was on Wade's timeline on Earth-10005
ofc this also requires us to decide how canon was the xmcu young generation cameo in Deadpool 2 (although if Hugh can play 99% of Wolverines then that cast can also feature multiple universes as well)
but tbh all i care about is Logan not happening on the same timeline as xmdofp because i can't accept Logan going through all that just to end up with another shitty future, he deserves good things goddamnit
#yes i am deep in my marvel feels#tbh i can't decide if i want an entire new version of the x men... i think i'd rather just get the fassavoyverse back#but they muddied that whole thing with apocalypse and dark phoenix so maybe a reboot would work better...#they could still keep the actors though... well some of them anyway#we still got 3 weeks until 911 s8 so sorry but this is what we're looking ahead in the meantime#deadpool#x men#deadpool and wolverine#marvel#ramblings#my stuff
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#my art#the apothecary diaries#kusuriya no hitorigoto#jinshi#his cringefail rizzing attempts and 2 faced persona have captivated me#idk man something abt him just made me go ouuuuugh esp after reading ahead in the manga#started the LNs now but uh Iām only like 1 chapter into volume 1 lmao#kinda wish I knew how to read Japanese so I could read the original web novel since I heard itās darker and focuses more on the intrigue#rather than the romance#donāt get me wrong tho I eventually want him and maomao to make out sloppy style#maybe even throw in a little pegging idk LOL
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sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:
thing that I already do
thing I have tried 10 times
thing I already do
thing that I don't have the money to do
thing I already do
thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail
thing that is impossible given my situation
thing that doesn't apply to me
thing that I already do
thing I have already tried
hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently
thing I have already done
#I think maybe productivity tips help less if the reason you're unproductive is partially like.. physcial health and other extenral things#out of your control. rather than just like having trouble paying attention or spending too much time on tiktok or whatever#all the strategic to do lists in the world are not going to somehow prevent me from waking up with a debilitating migraine or whatever#or having external stressors or lacking resources and connections or other Productivity Essentials etc.#especially many tips involve stuff like 'cut off from social media' since thats the modern day time waster for so many poeple#and it's like.. lol.. i can hardly even maintain a blog even thuogh i actively WANT TO DO SO. 'shut off your smart phone!' already#done babey i fucking hate smart phones i shall never use an app unless i am forced to. 'delete tiktok' yep. already covered. tiktok and#all of those thinsg are my enemies. 'save money by cancelling some of your services' cool. already ahead of you.#who the fuck is out here paying for like 10 different subscription services. pirated videos uploaded to google drive and youtube to mp3#my beloved. etc. etc. and so on. 'socialize less' .........LOL.. if only you knew.. mr.writer of the article. i can barely muster#talking to friends more than once a month and even less if I'm actively sick (often occurence) etc. etc. ... hewoo#I think maybe instead of generic productivity tips I need more like.. how to refocus and be productive anyway even if you have a headache#or are nauseous or etc. Not that those are always things to ignore. and of course you should let your body rest and etc. But plenty of peop#e have mild physical symptoms and just work through them. Ithink something about the way my body/mind is SOO hyper attuned to all#sensory information just makes it like... constantly 'GRR well I cant focus on WRITING right now because my lef#t ear feels weird and my socks are too itchy and my back has a strange pressure and I'm vaguely warm and my eye feels some ssort of#way it doesnt normally feel and I'm hyperaware of my breathing and also nauseous for no reason' and like half of those things I#think '''normal''' people wouldnt even notice or at least would be able to just live through. but for me it's like.. nealry impossible to i#gnore and soooo distracting always. like 'wahh.. nooo we can't draw or get anything done.. my legs feel slightly heavy or something!!'#like............. ok......... who cares. thats not even a PAIN sensation it's just something weird. but it's just like.. NO. constant#mental alerts about the 'heaviness' of your legs be upon ye. Though Imean like.. yes.. 70% of the time I am in genuine pain#or having some sort of actual ailment with trackable physical symptoms. but sometimes it's just like... we could totally be working right#now and ignoring this silly thing but my brain is fixated on it for no reason uncontrollably. etc. etc. I guess it's the same way that like#most people can go to a grocery store without the whole experience being so overwhelming and so much stuff going on at once#that they have to rest afterwards but like.. in my own HOME doing NOTHING i feel like I should be able to not get overwhelmed lol. ANYWAY#Rolling my bastard little rock up a dumbass hill and so on and so forth
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