alvinmichaelmurphyseville

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i love being a writer. it’s so chill and easy and stress-free, unless you count the constant mental ping-pong between “i’m a genius” and “this is the worst thing ever written by a human being”

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Please enjoy this really rough sketch I made in the breakroom at work.

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“Look at me fillin’ out the mental health survey that came in the mail immediately instead of losing it under a pile of unopened letters!”

“Score is ADHD: 0 and Responsibility: 1!”

“Speaking of responsibility, I have been doing GREAT sticking to my meal plan this week! Look at me go!”

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“It has come to my attention that Albert me is a lot better at expressing himself emotionally off meds. I still stink at identifying emotions sometimes, but I can express them fine! Turns out there’s not some emotionally silent part of me, that’s just a side effect of disabling the default mode network in my head.”

“Therefore, only some of the opinions that ADHD medicated me forms are opinions that I actually agree with. I should NOT be thinking about my medicated self as “fully unmasking” because I think only some traits get unmasked while the rest get masked harder.”

“Anyway, to cope with the fact that I do still occasionally need those personality sucking meds, I will now be referring to the entire experience as being Vulcan for a day. I’m me, but I’m a psychologically altered me who thinks a lot like a Vulcan.”

“This is making taking those things a lot less terrifying and identity warping.”

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2015 adaptation of Alvin Seville get behind me because why is the entire cast out to get and invalidate this 12 year old’s emotions every single episode

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“SPACE CANDY!”

“Did you know gumball machines still exist!?”

“We went to the mall today. It was fun.”

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“It is 7:45pm on July 31st, but I MANAGED TO FINISH THE JULY OUTFIT!”

“Alvin looks AMAZING! The glitter gave me such a problem, but the orange and gold glitter really makes the red pop better.”

“All those star gems. My hand is so sore! But it’s been worth it to bring you this 4th of July themed look.”

“I think the David Bowie face paint is my favorite part! Oooh and his star chains on his pants! He is definitely a rockstar!”

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“So far, this is my very very haphazard and rough meal plan for the week.”

“I was gonna make it more detailed, but then I decided I should probably just start small and make it something I can actually stick to.”

“I picked two favorite food items that I know I can get to incorporate and include each day. Gonna add “stick to meal plan” to the Finch app too.”

Alvin Seville’s sorta almost meal plan

Tuesday- Lucky Charms cereal and yogurt with granola. ✅

Wednesday- Assorted nuts trail mix and tuna on crackers ✅

Thursday- Ramen noodles and broccoli ✅

Friday- A strawberry milkshake pop tart and a banana ✅

Saturday- Pizza and salad

Sunday- Clam chowder and cheese on crackers

“Obviously I’ll eat more in a day than this, but I look forward to adding these things among whatever else Dave’s cooked up.”

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“It’s time for another before bed brain dump because when I do these I seem to get dreams and not nightmares.”☁️

“Today, I was thinking about the logistics of hanging up your clothes by hand all the time. Why can’t we automate this process? Think about all the time we’d save. Just gotta program the robots and machines not to accidentally destroy the clothes.”🤔

“Speaking of clothes, I’m still nervous about washing my beloved physics shirts. After what happened to one of them, I really really doubt they’ll hold up. But they stink so bad and they gotta be washed and what if the red dye comes out and what if the designs rub off? I don’t know if I can handle that, but I’ll try.” 😰

“Topic detour. I was wondering if I could actually stick to a meal plan now that I’m utilizing my super organized autistic side more. I’ll try to add more to the meal plan than just pizza.” 🍕

“I’ve filled up the tiny notebook I carry in my pocket to take notes. Taking notes on my phone is fine, but I really need a new notebook because taking them on my phone makes me look unprofessional.” 🤓

“I need something to get excited about and hyperfixate on again while I wait for the Lost In The Stars fic to get updates. And while I wait until August 29th for the new AJR album! 😭”

“Do ya like my increase in emojis? I feel like they jazz up my posts and make them less boring!” 😎

“That’s all for the brain dump today! Tune in again the next time I exhibit the symptoms of insomnia.” 😛

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“I’m really nervous about writing chapter 20 of the multi fic.”

“It’s gonna be the most intense chapter of the entire fic because I get hit with 3 life changing reveals, back to back.”

“I really look forward to when this multi fic is wrapped up and we’re back to the more lighthearted mini tales.”

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“I recently got hooked on a new fanfic and it’s grabbed my attention unlike any fanfic before it. I wish I had time to sit and read it all day, but I gotta break things up and make sure I remember to, you know, eat.”

“Anyway, it’s called Lost In The Stars and it’s written by @sawyer-chipmunks-shepherd It’s AWESOME! And it’s about SPACE!”

“Gonna read chapter 6 tonight! Ohoho! I CAN’T WAIT!”

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“Sharing all my little doodles with you guys!”

“Doodling helps me listen and I gotta use it MORE!”

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“IT IS GOOD TO BE ME!”

“I actually got to relax today! Let my brain latch onto random shiz, jam to my tunes, play a game with the fam, and scroll online to my heart’s content.”

“I even played my harmonica until Dave got annoyed and I had to stop!”

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thinking of that one aatc episode where alvin gets freaked out by a bird swooping him and dave calling him overdramatic...SIR YOUR SON IS A PREY ANIMAL. HE IS BIRD FOOD. A HAWK CAN EASILY TAKE HIM AWAY!

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“Alvin did incredibly well handling a stressful situation today with very little screaming….compared to how much he usually screams about things like this.”

“Technology is so tough to understand. Why does one account need 4 usernames and passwords?”

“Anyway, the boys now have their Student Portal set up so they can keep tabs on their report cards when school starts up again.”

“I’m going to need a coffee after all that.”

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“I hate being forced to spend my entire day of summer vacation trying to log into some stupid report card portal thing because apparently now students have to check those instead of parents.”

“It’s THE MIDDLE OF JULY! Why do I have to set it up now! I can’t remember or figure out how to reset any of my passwords and I am about to lose my mind because apparently you need FOUR different usernames and passwords to access this stuff! THIS IS LIKE POISON FOR MY BRAIN!”

“I can’t executive function anymore. I was on a road trip with Dave yesterday and I needed today to relax and recharge.”

“Do I get that time? No. Is Dave stressed and yelling because I’m stressed and yelling? Yes! THE CYCLE IS INFINITE! Rinse and repeat!”

“I’m like 3 seconds away from taking my ADHD meds because at least they’ll remove all the feelings of stress. I don’t WANT to pull that ripcord though.”

“Simon’s bailing me out right now and I feel bad because that shouldn’t be his job. I’m such a basket case. I ate food and drank water and I’m still nearing meltdown. Going to use the family punching bag and see if I can get an emotional reset.”

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Smth I hate as a nerodivergnt prsn is how ppl think if I mention it i am using it as a crutch

Like I misplaced my phone and bc of severe adhd I told my parents "sorry I have adhd and misplace stuff" YES ITS A PART OF MY ADHD TO MISPLACE OR NOT REMEMBER STUFF AND ALSO DONT GET ME STARTED ON SCHOOL IF I HEAR ANOTHER "you're just using your adhd and autism as an excuse I know you understand" I WILL EXPLODE

Honestly if we lived in a world that wasn't so abelist I'd be happy

“This is honestly a mood. I hate how most people are like “everyone struggles with that.”

“NOT TO THE EXTENT OF SOMEONE WHO IS AN AuDHDer!”