#or is it morally/socially bad to do so

[robinlmaoo]

long rant ahead

been feeling more and more like it’s wrong to obsess over one thing/fixation in a biased way and i should like all characters from that fandom equally

like i’ve gotten REALLY into a specific utaite recently and i love their voice (not gonna specify who and my close friends who DO know pls don’t say). i like their voice and all! it’s super cool and almost sounds like ado’s voice but genderbent lol. but then… social anxiety or whatever it’s called in this situation, it grabs me by the throat and says:

“there are other utaites that deserve attention too and it’s not FAIR that you just focus on one just because you LIKE them!!”

“you’re only liking them because you like them. go listen to others too for a change” after an hour of listening to exclusively their covers”

more popular utaites like mafumafu, ado (i love her btw /pos), 96neko, soraru, etc etccc

and then i force myself to do that because i feel so guilty if i don’t do that, but then it just eats me up inside when i do.

i feel like i have this problem with everything i fixate on lmao… like prince series— i REALLY liked shintarou and found him pretty and cool and relatable but then i forced myself to partake in discussions that involved other characters too (like his brother, junta) just for the sake of “giving other underrated characters attention” and “making others feel valued” too. it just drained me of my social battery and i fell out of that fixation pretty quickly.

same with cells at work, augshsgdjdgdj. i like aa2153 because he’s cool and pretty and he A N G S T boi. but then i feel an obligation to “like” other characters too. like u-1196 and ac1677 (not saying i DONT like them it’s just that i don’t like them with the same level of ferocity as i like 2153.) this also applies to the original caw characters too (i feel very very obligated to go “enjoy” them too, but then it just drains me to force myself too.)

then this all cumulates into me not being able to comfortably enjoy anything at ALL. lmao

does anyone have this problem with “i NEEED to like all characters equally or i’ll be a bad person”. or is it just me. i’ve been feeling more and more upset with this lately and wonder if i need to do that or can i just like my specific character as it is.

thank you for listening to me if you read all the way to the end here’s a cookie 🍪

[canisalbus]

To me, Machete kind of has the energy of a secondary villain/coldhearted side character in someone else's story that a lot of fans latch onto, moreso than the protagonist. Question is, would he be the villain in anyone's story?

Why, thank you! I'm actually glad to hear he gives off that vibe. I don't think he set out to become a villain but a lot of people certainly view him as one.

[starry-bi-sky]

okay a few more danyal al ghul au memes because i think they're funny to make. with bonus yaelokre danyal memes!

yaelokre! danyal 🤝 threes! danyal: being five years older than damian

yaelokre danyal comes from my oneshot right here. however, i would frankly recommend reading the version i put on ao3 because it's been edited and includes more content! shout out to my boy, he's got amnesia </3

Do i think that the LOA has technology in it? Absolutely I do. LED lights but in 3000k warm white instead of the jarring bright sterile white, if they've got glass windows they're those solar panel glass panes my college natural science building uses that detects sunlight position, which in term controls the lights, which in turn saves energy. Amber lights for outside, solar panels. Just. anything environmentally sound and friendly, they've got it, they use it.

Do i think they've got computers and tvs lying around for casual recreational use? ....that i'm not so sure about. For this au? I'm gonna say nooooottt really. That stuff is typically reserved for like, mission planning, debriefing, research, etc. Frankly danny probably does know how to use a computer, however i thought it was funny if he didn't. so the meme is staying in lmao.

If they're not training, they've probably like, got a greenhouse or two somewhere on base they can help with. The LoA's whole thing is balance, harmony, restoring the natural world with extreme environmentalism. All that jazz. Probably plenty of ponds, recreational areas outside, gardens, just, stuff to do that's not technology based. My most basic understanding is that these people are the world's deadliest hippies. They can't be training all the time, that's neither good for morale nor for their bodies, so when they're not training... they're off doing shit. If Ras has kept this thing running for thousands of years then it’s gotta be pretty lit enough that nobody’s revolted lmao.

[soullessjack]

idk i just think it’s a little weird that almost every character who gets the “innocent baby” / “little ray of sunshine” treatment usually ends up just having neurodivergent traits and actual negative traits in the show that nobody pays attention to. like idk man it just feels like diet infantilization to me and it’s a teeny weeny bit uncomfortable to see all the time

[teagrammy]

Just saw a (recommended) post cross my dash hoping Colin is going to be more upset about Pen “writing bad things about herself” than the actual tangible things she’s done to people… be fucking for real please

[working-dreamer]

It’s wild how shipping culture has changed so drastically over time on the internet.

In the old days people shipped characters who either had only one line of dialogue with each other, never even met, or not even from the same piece of media. It was the wild west and sure some ships were uncomfortable but people had the mindset to just block the tag and stay away from ships they didn’t enjoy.

Nowadays? It’s more like people have to clarify that their ship isn’t canon compliant, character adjacent, and story irrelevant otherwise they get a flood of comments saying “but this character isn’t like this in canon” and some people legitimately get angry if you’re not following the canon.

Like- shipping and fandom culture from what I understand it is about engaging with media in a way that caters to you. And if you don’t like a ship or show just… block the relevant tags and don’t engage in the ships? The internet isn’t supposed to cater to us- we have to cater ourselves to our internet environment. And no matter how many times people may harass others over a fandom or ship they don’t like, those ships are not gonna disappear.

The internet has just been getting worse when people have decided to place morality in their opinions by saying things like “if you enjoy the ship then you support (insert horrible thing here that’s usually completely unrelated to the ship itself)” when it used to be “eh, not my thing” and people just moved on.

And for the record this isn’t about a specific ship or anything- just an observation of how fandom has evolved (and regressed) over the years and I find it fascinating from a sociological perspective cause we still don’t know how having the internet from birth affects the development of kids and how that affects how they interact with others- isn’t that scary?

I know that’s slightly unrelated but the way people engage in media has been changing over they years and that also involves fandom and the maturity level thereof in the internet space and someone smarter than me could probably write a whole thesis paper about fandom culture and how the internet has hindered the social development of people and how that affects community specifically from a fandom lens.

Just- for your sanity younger internet children: it’s not worth harassing others over something as trivial as ‘it’s not canon that this character kisses another character.’ Just find ships you like. Block ships you don’t. And just enjoy your time doing what you like!

You can’t control the internet but you can nurture your little corner of it.

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

Yesterday my wife and I were discussing the abject nonsense that is the Designated Survivor tv show (I like trash because it's trash fuck off) and I was talking about like. The motivations and informatics of warfare tactics [some people are War Guys TM because they like nazis, I'm a War Guy TM because I think strategy is a fun way to occupy my brain when it's about a war that already ended] and wifey was just like "Yeah, obviously the Geneva Conventions are just a suggestion" to which I replied "as in all things, I remain unconventional" so now whenever she sees me around the house she points at me and goes "most likely to commit a war crime for fun and profit" AND I CAN'T EVEN ARGUE I DID THIS TO ME

[asurrogateblog]

as a media psychology researcher 85% of my job is figuring out the most horrifically academic way to say "you idiots wouldn't last a day on tumblr"

[weather-phenomenon]

yall are mad elon musk is supposedly autistic bc it means tht u too can be autistic n a not nice person/do unkind things (to put it mildly) which has the potential to ruin ur im autistic n inherently blameless everything i do is bc of the autism n therefore i am exempt from negative judgment n if u do attempt to call me out it's abelism n death to u UwU card

[mostlikelyshutup]

the worst part about being a fat woman with an eating disorder is that if you offered a chance for me to be thin, i know i would take it in a second, and i also know that it comes both from a place of insecurity and ed thinking but also very real oppression as a fat woman

[unopenablebox]

complaining online more. just whining

i kind of want to like. rent? a rigid heddle? so i can spend a month figuring out if using it normally gives me Diseases or not? and then decide if i need a different kind of loom/shouldn't weave/am content with the fabric-making and patterning capacities of a small lap loom without harnesses. however. im not sure i can do that feasibly. i guess i could advertise? online? to pay someone to borrow theirs?

small rigid heddles are cheap enough secondhand that i should just buy one except all the good deals that are not obvious scams are in providence. or like, woonsocket. and on observing this i am very tempted to buy one new. this is, essentially, paying $100 in exchange for not spending 2.5 hours round trip on the train to providence. objectively probably a stupid choice, but i like exchanging money for convenience. on the other hand at that point im buying it full price even though my only experience using it is that it bruises my hand bones. which also seems stupid.

theres also a decent deal on a table loom that i could just pick up in boston. tempting bc the table loom might be better on my hands? and would let me make more interesting things. and it's not much more than a new small RH would be. except 1. it's a structo artcraft and im not sure if those are weird somehow? there's a whole thing about how they were originally toy looms? maybe it's a problem? 2. it's almost certainly going to be less portable/i might struggle getting it home on the train 3. it will need more space in my home 4. it is going to be an additional whole thing to learn to set up/warp and i don't have a warping board or whatever 5. based on the photo i kind of think it's being sold by the person i took a class from? and for whatever reason that fact suffuses me with deep awkwardness and stress even though it would surely be totally normal to buy a loom from her.

additional problem with all of this is that due to my bad nature it is going to be very hard for me to assemble all the executive function steps that result in any object that enters my house being listed for sale online and then actually leaving my house. so i shouldn't get anything that will ruin my life if i turn out not to be able to use it and then it sits in my apartment for six months

maybe i should. stop by the weaving studio again the next time i go to my nearby knitting group. and just ask the person there if she rents looms and/or is selling secondhand ones. with my terrible human mouth. and if she says no then i guess i have to decide on the spot whether im buying a new cricket from her instead or dying and never speaking to her again

[swagging-back-to]

not sorry. i extend very little sympathy and patience towards tras who are underage, and the only ones who do get said sympathy are TIFs. but again. it's MICROSCOPIC levels of sympathy.

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

[marchessa]

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[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I feel like the post I just reblogged pointing out the all-or-nothing in how many people interact with their deconstruction of systems of oppression is resonating for me right now with so many different moments in my life where someone decides that because some part of myself has access to some of the levers of control/influence/etc that come with the relationship to power, and decides what that must mean about all the other parts of me that might be explicitly refused access to those same levers.

It has happened in so many spaces/aspects of my life, and it can be so hard to feel safe and seen and trusting of others when that's my chronic relationship to being perceived - half truths and obfuscation.

It doesn't really change regardless of who's doing the assuming either. Like, where they land in relation to systems of power may influence which direction they lean in their assumptions about me, but even that is often inconsistent. Both sides of the equation (those who share my marginalizations and those who exist in spaces of closer proximity to power) will still do it nonetheless.

When I was doing my liminal social identities work in undergrad, this was actually a big part of the conceptualization we explored of traumtic alienation of self as individual from self as collective, and what it can do to people to exist in this liminal relationship with your environment and the people in it. As I'm starting to gather my thoughts about my stress modeling, this conceptualization is bubbling back to the surface. I'm finding myself meandering through it on both a path specifically my own, and in an effort to better understand what other paths may be available to people during their version of the process/experience.

Selfhood is so fragile, and so in need of balance between self-construction and co-construction for us humans, and that gives us so many beautiful, even spiritual, experiences of meaning making and generativity of self. It also createa many pivot points where we may find room in our path for vulnerability or blurring of self. As much as these pivot points can be distressing, I think they also sometimes become our foundations of change/personal evolution, when we find that through the distress of existing in shift, something meaningful is occurring or observable in our experience of self-in-transition.

I think something I've valued especially about my own relationship with self is its transience. It doesn't always end up somewhere I would be happy to sustain, but it always allows me a degree of comfort in complexity that I think has made my body-mind a safer place for me overall.

[toytulini]

terfs go climb into a hole and start rotting. animals cannot inherently tell your "biological sex" you are all so fucking stupid. All this post is saying is that animals are not infallible judges of character and some of them make really stupid vibe checks and that people should try not to take it personally. Unless youre a terf in which case they know and they hate you and you should take it personally

re that one post tbh i do want to stress i dont think animals are like magically psychic at knowing your True Gender tbh i think ppl definitely get way too weird about Animal's judgement of ppl.

Sometimes a dog will vibe check a man and the dog will be right and you should listen. but sometimes the dog will vibe check someone for no good reason. sometimes dogs have wack judgement. sometimes dogs have biases influenced by their owners or previous owners. like. there are Racist Dogs. its not the dogs fault, but that doesnt make the bias theyve developed less real, or less potentially hurtful. i dont think we need to like, Cancel Dogs Bc Sometimes Ppl Can Train Them To Be Racist, but we do need to stop perpetuating the idea that a dog's judgement of someone is infallible. theyre not responsible for it and its not their fault its developed, theyre just dogs, they didnt choose it, but that doesnt mean theyre RIGHT lmao. i think its important to stress this for many reasons but in regard to that last post specifically, if youve ever been vibe checked as a gender you arent by a judgy dog its literally not your fault. might not even be the owners fault. not the dogs fault cos like. its a fucking dog. you do kinda have to be the bigger person in that scenario cos the other person is. A Dog.