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did you know your nintendogs gifs were used in a medium article? thought tell you about that
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#sars cov 2#covid 19#i've interacted with 4 different friends/acquaintances in the past month alone who have all been hospitalised after having a stroke#(and in one case multiple strokes)#one who i visited in hospital over the weekend had a (unmasked) nurse coughing up a lung in her room 👍#and one of them who had to undergo surgery also had to be moved to a different hospital#bc the ward they were keeping him in was full of confirmed covid patients 👍👍#idk how many times it needs to be said before it gets through people's heads but VACCINES ARE NOT ENOUGH#and encouraging ppl to rely solely on them when there are already plans to jack up the prices so you have to KEEP PAYING for boosters#for an ONGOING mass-disabling event is so laughably unrealistic and absurd and flat-out demonic#you need to mitigate the actual spread of covid by WEARING A MASK + fighting for CLEAN AIR/proper ventilation in public spaces!!!!!!#ppl are so eager to forget the whole 'break the chain of transmission' thing and how effective masking is and so this is where we're at#'i got infected and infected other ppl who might die or become permanently disabled but it's no big deal bc no one else wears a mask#so if /i/ didn't infect them someone else would have anyway so it's not my fault and really its got nothing to do with me and my choices'#if everyone is responsible then no one is responsible - that's how it works right?#it's no wonder some ppl go rabid at even the sight of someone wearing a mask and minding their own business#ppl seeking treatment for unrelated conditions/illnesses and then dying from covid caught in hospitals#due to lack of npis/basic mitigation measures - no regulations no accountability#we truly live in a hell (''new normal'') of our own making#anyway none of this is new news at all i mostly thought it might be good to share the info graphic abt signs of stroke#covid has been given free reign and chances are increasing as to how likely you'll encounter it happening to someone you know at some point#also heart attacks and pots and alzheimer's etc etc etc
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being an mcyt fan is scary
#10pieceart#soupforeloise keeps showing up in my comments…. scary#i can never get twitter if i have to deal with more frequent notices ill die of a heart attack
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Normally Sanji is the most put together person between him and Luffy. He’s probably the most put together person on the entire crew besides Robin. Meanwhile Luffy is a walking disaster, chaos is naturally drawn to him and he’s ALWAYS getting into trouble. When it comes to their actual romantic relationship tho. It’s COMPLETELY flipped lmao
Luffy will walk out on deck with his hair slightly tousled and his vest a bit askew but that’s normal for him. He looks smug as hell but that’s also normal for him. Nobody bats an eye. Then Sanji comes tumbling out of the galley. Shirt untucked and buttoned up the wrong way, hair thoroughly ruffled, clothes rumpled, looking utterly fucking disheveled. His nose is bleeding, he’s stumbling like he’s drunk and his neck is covered in hickies. Everyone on deck proceeds to lose their goddamn MINDS
#Sanji tries to tell them he was ‘attacked’ but then Luffy goes ‘Yeah by me ;))))’ and Sanji promptly gives up#Usopp: Dude you’re a mess. I’ve never seen you this unkempt before#Sanji: I. Listen.#Luffy: 😋#Sanji: DON’T LOOK SO PROUD OF YOURSELF THIS IS YOUR FAULT#Luffy: I take full responsibility and I WILL be doing it again!!!!#Sanji: NFJSNFNSNCNSNCNSN#Lusan#Sanlu#One Piece#Sanji#Luffy#Shima speaks#Just reminding you all where my heart lies. In case you didn’t know already tee hee <3#I love the contrast between how they are normally and how they are when they’re intimate#AKA Sanji’s a fucking mess after Luffy gives him any kind of affection and Luffy is fully unbothered#Sanji getting overwhelmed at any physical affection makes me ill actually.#Luffy knows that he’s doing smth right when Sanji’s nose starts bleeding LMAO#Luffy: Cool!! I’m glad Sanji’s enjoying it :D#Meanwhile Sanji’s brain is fried. He can’t even articulate. LMAO#Idk what it is about them!! They’ve changed me!! They awakened something in me………jfjdnnd
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hi.
#i know most of you didn’t even realize i was gone#but man…#my mental health was like in a state of 📉📉📉 in the past 30 days like we love being mentally ill and fucking insane <3#it was mostly bc i panicked and started obsessing over possible water damage in my flat kind of out of nowhere#like it started when my landlord came to check my bathroom bc my downstairs neighbours had water stains on their ceiling back in july#which had been caused by their shower curtain apparently but i was already spiraling when my landlord told me so i was sure it was my fault#i was assuming it was bc of me bc i had sometimes been spilling some of my bathwater and i was like WHAT IF IT HAS GONE THROUGH THE FLOOR?#and it didn't help that it has been hot af and very humid in my apartment LIKE WELL OVER 25 DEGREES AND 60% HUMIDITY#anyways i couldn’t shake this not matter what i tried and my fucking insane brain made me think i was going to get arrested for like#flooding the whole building or for causing some sort of mold infestation#i had SO MANY panic attacks; i wasn't able to sleep; i wasn't able to eat; i was on edge and panicky basically 24/7 so fun fun fun :D#and i kept waking up in the middle of the night and HAD to go check my walls or the space below my kitchen#it was compulsory like i couldn't not get up and go check and tbh i would've thrown out all of my furniture if i could've to check for mold#(and shhhh i know how fucking insane this sounds but having a mentally ill brain that's anxious all the time does suck ass sometimes 🥲)#(the worst thing about it tho was that i was SO AWARE of how insane about this i was being and yet i couldn't stop losing my mind over it)#(also i was so ready to move tf outta here bc i couldn't handle being triggered 24/7 which is why my mom let me stay with her last week )#i was so out of it that i couldn't even let myself do the things i usually enjoy... like at all#like watching my shows or spending any ungodly amount of time on tumblr... or replying to messages i got from people who i love#ig this goes to show HOW bad this actually was for me mentally bc usually tumblr and my shows are like my safe place#anyways we finally had a leak detection dude come over today and we had him check the water levels in my walls#and he said everything is fine and he specifically told me i should stop worrying about any water damage BC THERE IS NO WATER DAMAGE#he also said that the weather has just been insanely humid this year so it's not surprising that the humidity levels are higher than usual#i’m still a bit scared about some possible mold but ig this is good enough for now#i am aware how ridiculous this must sound for anyone who's reading this now but couldn't let it go not even with meds so let me live pls :(#TLDR I WAS GOING THROUGH IT BUT I AM BACK I THINK AND I AM MOST LIKELY GOING TO START BOTHERING YOU WITH MY GIFS AGAIN <3#AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN ANY OF THE HEART KILLERS STUFF YET ASIDE FROM ONE OR TWO PICS LIKE :(#OH AND I NEED TO START WATCHING SUMMER NIGHT ;_;#sabrina talks#@AIRENYAH GIRL I AM SO SORRY I WILL PROBABLY REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGES LATER TODAY OR TOMORROW MORNING ;_;<3
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Ok, hammer really sucks, axe is like, the best thing in the game, and dagger is right next to that,
But curse only with Devine protection is literally the best thing in the game, next to the heatseeking bullet one
I had a boss rush run where I beat EVERY GID OF THE OLD FAITH HITTLESS just with like, the sharp dash, and cursed fleece.
Not to mention aym dies in 2 hits with it for some reason, and dashing through boss' with the sharp dash card makes them drop fervor, you end up being sufficiently invincible and dealing a high dps; you can cast Devine protection and have enough time to get in 2 dodge rolls through the boss, and then be at a net positive and you can cast again.
you can also gain access to finding weapons again by transmogrifying the curse only fleece with the goat, and then adding player 2 mid crusade
Sorry I just needed to say this. The strat is unbeatable, and with hounds of fate, you can spam bosses anything and they're dead in less than 10 secconds. It works weirdly well against kallamar last I checked. I haven't played in a bit, so my knowledge isn't up to date
i hauve never used a curse in my life . Gun
#i guess i am a certified cult of the lamb artist now because i have so many asks about it. fandom Speedrunning.#i have 30 hours in this game but ive only had it for three days i Actually feel exhausted and ill rn . so im taking a break from playin.g#but i did get the curses only fleece so i might fuck around with it for funsies...#rn all my fervour goes towards blunderbuss heavy attack and healing soul hearts bc im bad at the game#asks#cotl
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza series#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#jo sawashiro#ichiban kasuga#masumi arakawa#snap sketches#i miss the shadowed face i used to draw mine with 😩 i been meanin to draw a sawa ver since. //points at jo/mine venn diagram// lol#this stupid scene still makes me giggle like girl grow UP. threw hands with a 17 y/o ass#mk bye im streaming in like twenty minutes. kinda wanna get a monster...... lol...... maybe ill get seltzer instead#idk i just want flavored water... <- should prob get the seltzer then and not the heart attack
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Aziraphale fell first
Crowley fell harder
#get it bc crowley fell from heaven??#ill leave now 😭#do you think crowley had a heart attack the first time a human called Aziraphale mr fell?#he gets all concerned for a sec thinking Aziraphale might've fallen from heaven#why am i making myself sad#the world may never know#gomens#good omens#good omens spoilers#gomens spoilers#Aziraphale#crowley#good omens crowley#antony j crowley#david tennant#michael sheen#angel crowley#not my gifs
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I've been very unwell today and my queue is pretty short at the moment, so I might go quiet for a bit. Honestly I might end up in hospital again. I've been struggling for awhile and it's gotten worse, and I'm about past my limit of managing.
Take care of yourselves. xo
#personal#mental health#mental illness#anxiety#panic attacks#lowest I've been on the MH pain scale all day is 7 or 8#gallstone levels of distress at the moment#tempted to call the crisis line but I'm not sure they'll have resources to do anything#it's not like my panic is irrational or catastrophising#it is very possibly the end of the world#pretty sure anxiety and wanting to die is an appropriate emotional response#I'm being stupid and histrionic I guess but I'm not ok#nothing happening is about me but i still can't bear it#i can't focus or think about anything except dread#I've tried meditation and 3 3s and tensing all my muscles and then letting go#I've tried distracting myself with games and tv#nothing is working#heart palpitations high bp tinnitus hyperventilating nausea tightness in chest crying all day on and off#i can't feel like this for the rest of my life#i can't feel like this for another two weeks or another two days#and i don't see why i should have to#might have to go completely offline on a permanent basis but then I'm without my social contacts or my job so#take care of yourselves and each other#maybe i can get sedated or something
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not even panicking . idek what ur saying why would ever be worried abt this
#head in hands#trial practice for tap class is in about 20 minutes and im just about remaining sane#GAHHHH this is so stressful#they do not really speak english and i do not really speak japanese so this will be exciting#plus the class is like..... 2hrs long lol#BUT WE FUCKING MOVE OK IM BEING SO BRAVE#IM GOING TO GO TO THE CLASS AND SEE WHAT ITS LIKE#ITS GOING TO BE FINE IM SURE THEY WILL ALL BE NICE AND LOVELY#tap people generally are i find#i will go to the class and do some tap and not die of a stress induced heart attack because ITS SOMETHING I LOVE#AND ILL DO IT#and if it sucks and i hate it then fuck it. i never have to see these goddamn people ever again if i don't want to#hopefully i WILL want to. bc its gonna be great and im gonna love it#I HAVE FAITH#I CHOOSE TO BELIEVE 😭😭🥳#i will update u guys when i get back 🫡#if its fab i will recommend it#and if it sucks we will roast it mercilessly#either way i am being very brave today and i am sharing this bravery with u as well 🫶🫡#the little gay people in my phone believe in me and i will not disappoint#just the same way that i believe in you too ✊🥳
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What pisses me off about the nhs, is how sick you can be and they still expect you to come in.
#i spent a hour on the floor unable to get up#but sure ill come in tommorow#my whole body hurts#i had the worse pots attack ive had in a while#i had 2 salt satchets#and it did nothing#lying flat on the floor my heart rate was 100#sitting up was wild#but sure#ill go in tommorow#its bad when you also hope you pass out and hurt yourself to prove that your actually sick#pots#dysautonomia#nurse#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome#nhs#chronic illness#nhs hate#not really free healthcare is a beautiful thing
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Day 105 of Writing Something Everyday
(365 Day Challenge)
I keep smelling chemicals like chlorine,
I keep smelling the vinyl on a warm summers day and how the plastic would burn you if you weren't careful.
I remember the wet dogs - the smell of their fur, tongues hanging out the sides of their mouths huffing and puffing after running around and playing in the water all day.
I remember the smell of bathing suits and how the chlorine smell never washed out.
I remember the smell of coconut sunscreen and the way it never screened anything - it just smelt nice, smelt like summer I thought.
The smell of sand on a hot day, almost pungent but still bearable - comforting in a way strangely.
This all just started happening the other day.
Maybe it's because summer is coming up?
Maybe it's because it brings back nostalgia?
I don't know..
It's not necessarily bad memories, but it's not exactly memories needed right now when I'm alone.
I don't have faith or hope that my life will get any better or anything good will happen to me or for me.
When I'd lie on my back in that blow up pool in our backyard I felt like an adventure - the whole waiting and having any whimsy or anticipation whatsoever over my future.
I'm not sure if 13 year old me would like 31 year old me.
I never did anything on the time capsule list I said I wanted to do.
I thought I'd have my mom forever...
I'd have to tell little 13 year old me that her only and best friend would die and she'd have to traumatically watch this happen, not just on the day of her passing but for the rest of her life.
I don't have a boyfriend and never have, no family or friends, just alone and hoping someone arrives one day like a prince in a fairy tale to take me (the princess) away.
As a kid it's maybe tomorrow, then maybe next week, then maybe next month, then maybe next year until you're not even looking for love anymore and you haven't been keeping track.
Now when people show up I just feel like I'm being lied to and want them to just go and save the oxygen and brain cells they're going to use to fabricate what they tell me.
It's harder now as an adult, I can't see past my childhood and how I was then. Can't see that I'm not that girl anymore but sometimes I wish I could go back there to that time when I ate cereal and drank juice. Cartoons and colouring were life, lunches and suppers consisted of sandwiches and chips (possibly a slushee) and I was dying waiting to go back into the pool until I'd be called in later on that night.
To feel that water on my skin again, to hear those leaves on the trees rustle above my head, wondering if It was the wind, a squirrel or a cat moving the branch.
Boys climbing the fence to giggle at an 11 year old me in a bathing suit then running away when I noticed them.
There was a part of me as I drove under the water that giggled to myself as no one could hear but me.
Is it bad that I kind of miss that?
The innocence of thinking someone was cute, giggling and holding hands.
I wish I had experienced any of that completely and not half assed..
Being out in the pool when it started to rain that night, feeling bigger and better than I ever had.
Being out in the pool with you and wanting to kiss you so bad that night.
Staying up late with you to watch Titanic (both VHS tapes back to back) and NOT fall asleep. I can't remember who'd fallen asleep first?
Half happy because I didn't make it to the part where Jack dies - you would've seen me run away moments before that scene to cry alone because it made me so sad.
I remember being at that Christmas party, I was 6 and you were 7.
The adults had been calling us and they couldn't find us because we were under a blanket in the dark in a room (by ourselves)
You had been kissing my neck so much under that blanket my mom had to buy me turtle necks in every colour of the rainbow to cover up the shit load of hickey's you left on my neck..
I can't remember who found us but I remember the blanket being ripped off of us and lights in my eyes and lots of yelling.
I was the kindergarten trollup and I had no idea...Nor did anyone else. My mom made sure of that Lol
I don't believe that purgatory is a real place,
But I do believe we all have mini fun sized versions of it living in us.
Living in our brains..
We can't see it, touch it, taste it or hear it.
Yet somehow it's there?
It's so real that you can actually go there, but just in your mind's vehicle. Only we usually use it for negative places and get lost on memory lane.
I'm just in the passenger seat, just along for the drive but I hope we park soon.
Inside with my eyes closed I can smell the car, it's rented. The keychain around the rearview jangles lightly over the low music playing.
It smells like new air fresheners and I'm in my seat leaning back awkwardly like I'm in a nascar race - my back is hurting sitting like this for too long.
I'm not in control..
It's always night time when I'm here and I can never see the drivers face, just a light silhouette.
I've spoken about this before in the past too I think.
Everyone says they'll stay and not to worry, then they wonder why you have trust issues and are in the middle of a mental breakdown.
I know people are lying yet I allow them too having too much hope that maybe I'm wrong this time..
Then it happens again, proving me right again.
I even lowered my standards as I thought maybe I was just too choosey in picking friends, then people started coming to me and it was still all the same crap all over again.
No changes...
No surprises..
Nothing is new anymore and that's truly sad.
I have people around me now since my mom passed away and to me none of them are no more than acquaintances.
Nobody that I'd actually want to go for a coffee with.
Nobody I can just call up randomly because I want to, I have to be "squeezed" in or it has to be "arranged" leaving me feeling like I'm a burden.
It's just better to leave everyone alone...
I finally stood up for myself, I told the church lady that I didn't want her making plans for me and that church was in itself overwhelming for me that I'd add on things slowly down the road if I'd like to do I get used to everything slowly.
She got pissy and told me that "fine" she'd "not send me anything anymore" and I haven't heard anything from her in 3 days.
It was very childish and I can't deal with people who refuse to do anything other than what they choose to do.
I do not have to explain my grieving process to people who said "I know" a little too much in the beginning..
Shouldn't they know me then?
~Jenni
#who i am#thoughts#feelings#spilled heart#spilled words#spilled thoughts#mental health#thinking#learning as i go#God help me#written word#original writing#creative writing#writing#writers on tumblr#writeblr#writers and poets#female writers#love#poetry#writers and writing#spilled ink#spilled writing#spiritual attacks#bpd#borderline personality disorder#mental illness#mental distress#getting through it#i need a hug
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The New Knife Game (Klance)
"There is an old tradition, a game we all can play You start by getting liquored up and sharpening your blade You take a shot of whiskey, you grab your knife and pray And spread apart your fingers, and this is what you say"
Keith turns around on a corner, half listening to Lance’s voice in the distance.
"'Oh, I have all my fingers, the knife goes chop, chop, chop If I miss the spaces in between, my fingers will come off And if I hit my fingers, the blood will soon come out But all the same, I play this game 'cause that's what it's all about'"
A rather creepy song, if you asked Keith. He wasn't sure, but he thought he had heard it somewhere before.
"No, you can't use a pencil, you cannot use a pen The only way is with a knife when danger is your friend And some may call it stupid, some may call it dumb But all the same, we play this game because it's so damn fun"
What even was that incessant tactactac sound?
"Oh, I have all my fingers, the knife goes chop, chop, chop If I miss the spaces in between, my fingers will come off And if I hit my fingers, the blood will soon come out But all the same, I play this game 'cause that's what it's all about"
There was Lance, in the sort-of-living-room they used at the Castle. He was doing something in the common table, but Keith couldn't see very well what it was...
"Oh, chop, chop, chop, chop, chop, chop, chop, I'm picking up the speed And if I hit my fingers, then my hand will start to bleed"
Was that a fUCking knIFe?!
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Keith screamed his lungs out, and now Lance has a scar all around the base of his ring finger.
#scar ring#weird ways to propose but ok#lance mcclain#keith kogane#klance#voltron#voltron legendary defender#keith didn't mean to but now it's permanent#he was just very worried and the song getting faster along lance's hand spooked him#he screamed “LANCE!”#and off goes lance's finger#they went to the medbay immediately after and there was a lot of blood#his finger is exactly the same as before no repercussions#just the scar#this was born because lance's dexterity turns me on#but it gives keith heart attacks xDd#txt post#so for now all drawings will be done in txt format#and ill draw them later
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having pots is so funny bc i will put a full teaspoon and a half of salt on One(1) egg and not think it’s over salted
#pots#chronic illness#disability#disabled#for those who don’t know salt helps with electrolytes and regulating blood pressure#ppl with pots have naturally low blood pressure which is a Problem#therefore consuming more sodium will get our blood pressure closer to the healthy level#aka do not consume this much salt if you don’t have a condition that requires it#that’s how you get a heart attack
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I hate panic attacks
#rant#which is to say i hate the whirlwind of specifically bad times in my life that brought them on and kept them#i hate that they trigger when i feel strong Anything#ive been trying to Dissassociate less and feel more. because feeling stuff does HELP me notice whats helping or hurting me#but like. i WISH it was about feeling joy and pleasure and excitement. maybe ill feel those eventually#but right now Any strong emotion is still ridiculously close to triggering panic attacks#im still terrified to go watch a play. because i LOVE plays and the last times ive gone for the past decade#ive had awful panic attacks because my brain clicked Love them with Intense Feeling into Panic dont breathe chest hurts Hate Urself#turns out my brain didnt just attach the trigger to fear of loud noises or fear of asking for#trigger from self hating thiught loops#it alsp clicked the trigger into: particularly notiveable romantic feelings of any kind (lile someome? have a panic attack! thatll keep u#physically incapable of getting near them! like plays! lets have you unable to breathe sobbimg hysterical so ur terrified to be trapped in#the audiience for hours! fucking hate hate hate it)#neurofeedback and emdr certainly lowered the panic attack rate per day or week to a Lesser per month situation#but im still lucky if i get thru a pa without illogivally trying to Fix it the irrational way i did when young which is hit myself#in the illogical hope if im injured enough ill be able to think again (which doesnt work its dangerous and makes the panic attack last#longer a pa just does Not let u think rationally untol its over u CANNOT try and fix it while in it and dping that makes it much worse)#if i get thru a pa without a concussion ive done much better than usual :/ i dont want any more#im so tired man. i want to go see a play!#i dont want to Try and then end up hyperventilating and crying with my brain imsisting i Need To be Dead for 2 hours#im the parking lot because it triggers when i park. or worse it triggers when i drive and i have to pull over and im trapped x place for#hours. either way i miss the play i wanted to fucking see!#i hate how panic attacks feel like a trap. not even a trap i can fight. its my own limitation. goddamn ive been fatigued ive been dying#in a hospital a few times. panic attacks feel worse to me. at least dying i can do something (eventually) to stop#altho i guess dying for hours in hospital until i got helped was similar. but ill hopefully only go thru that 1-2 more times in life#and i had like 5 panic attacks during that hospital visit since a heart rate so high like 200 cant calm down anyway
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Someone help the Merlin hyperfixation is fixating again I was doodling those fuckers last night I can’t keep doing this to myself
#merlin#guys I was crying over fanart last night#I have been crying over fanfiction for the last like#six days#I think I’ll have a heart attack reading them#I get too invested#I feel apart of them#I HAVENT EVEN FINSIHED THE SHOW#I CANT#ILL CRY FOR WEEKS I KEEP CRYING KVWR ANY REFERENCE TO IT#GUYS#IT’S MERTISM#IT’S MERLINTISM#SEND A DCOTOR
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