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Snoopy #14
15/10/2024
#peanuts#snoopy#art#14#oh well u know. why go to bed at a reasonable time when u could just stay up until 3AM and then feel like garbage the next day?#it's brown to represent coffee which everybody of course knows is the keepsyouawake drink#just kidding i do not drink coffee because i have a toddler drink palate and can't handle bitterness#going through life sleep deprived and uncaffeinated can i get a Hell Yeah!!!!#(don't hell yeah me for my unhealthy behaviours)#it's just brown bc i don't think i've done a brown background yet!
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hello sweeties! i'm going back home today to take a whole two-weeks++ break from everything, which will probably include actively posting in general.
i might still pop in to ramble and scrumble sometimes, but i want to try harder to be present at the moment so i can spend lots of quality time with my family and recharge! meanwhile, my queue will run as per usual. if you leave any asks/replies/mentions, i may see it, but i might only reply once my mini-holiday concludes.
thank you always for your support and i hope to see you again all refreshed and de-stressed ✨🩷
#a psa from rin#my sleep schedule is so fucked i slept at 8 and woke up at 11 bc noises#and then i could only fall asleep at 1. woke up at 3. it's now 6 and i'm in the airport lmao#8pm 11pm 1am 3am 6am respectively to clarify hsjdjd#im so eepy i'll be travelling for like 10+ hrs pls pray for me jdklfsjskld#OH BUT BUT i'm super excited bc i found a guzheng retailer back home#i've contacted them a while ago and tldr i'm going to have a dunhuang guzheng delivered within the next few days#which means i'll be able to play as much as i want while on holiday yayayay#i have a few music sheets prepped like relaxation in liyue or golden hour#orrrr i may want to try the right hand of divine damsel of devastation#ahhhhh sososo excited!!!!
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honey as a hair mask & face mask while drinking honey water & googling abt the benefits of honey; immersive experience, Winnie the Pooh core etc
#there have been times I’ve felt better physically so honey yes#but had just some basic pretty much the cheapest honey I could find at the grocery store so got worried if that’s actually not good for#your skin/has any benefits#but turns out all honey here is that ’’raw pure unpasteurized honey’’ bc otherwise u couldn’t sell it as honey#so all good#u know tho what would help? sleeping more than 6h after that 36h of being awake#idk I went to sleep at 6pm but woke up at midnight and couldn’t get more sleep#so now it’s 3am and I’m up googling abt honey#march 2024#2024
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i've managed to get really far with my ep4 meta, i've only got just over 3 scenes left (the "be my bf" scene, style finding out the truth, the gym scene, and i gotta finish the nc scene) but the problem is that i've only got about 4h left which i'll probably need to write it all up in the first place (also it's less than 3h bc i'm also travelling) and then i would still need to make the gifs and proof read it, which is also gonna be time consuming rip
#i was considering doing another binge-writing session but then at 3am i was so super tired#bc i hadn't slept well the night before#that i decieed it was better for me to go to sleep instead#and i did something i NEVER do: i actually got up EARLY just to do some more writing for my meta lmaooo#the things this show has me do....#airenyah plappert#thk#adrm#ah well let's see how much meta i'll get done on the train#my uni assignment be damned lmao#unfortunately i got RIGHT up to the nc part this morning which means i'll have to write about it in public kdjdjdjf#wish me luck no one will be sitting next to me so i can actually pull up the ep on the screen if i need to look something up#i mean atp i've looked over-analyzed this scene so much and stared at so many gifs#that i could probably do it from memory#but still djfjfjfjjfnf
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#i went to sleep at 3am and its 6am now bc i criedmyself to sleep 👍👍#sorry to ventdump my annoying insecurities again#i cant bring myself to do something i really want anymore#been having these thoughts since last year but this year its a lot more apparent#ideas are not scarce but the motivation/time to execute them are#i wish i could take an indefinite break on taking commissions bc by the time im finished with all of them im too burnt out/1#to draw for my blog and by the time it passes my motivation for these ideas also vanishes/2#I cant actually stop now bc im still an unpaid internee working for experience+portfolio so I need the money#I feel like shit whenever i can't get art done at the appropriate timing (ex: thematic holiday/character bday/event etc)#everything passes too fast and its already too late and the hype dies#its so hard to stay relevant and charismatic enough#Looking back I can't say im 100% satisfied with ANY art i posted this year#“was it worthy? is it still relevant? did I waste my time doing this?”#im too overly emotional over this (unfortunately) popular fictional lion beastman#“I want to yume/draw him more often/talk more about him!”#why? hes already popular enough. He has louder and more popular users who do that for him. nobody would care if it's you.#you'd get a swarm of hate. nobody would send you nice asks about it.#you don't get nearly half of the asks you used to receive back then. people just aren't interested in you anymore.#maybe you should delete your blog and start drawing trendy doodles of whatever is being hyped up at the moment.#.#if I can't execute original ideas what's the point of it?#I hate HATE having to do trendy art of whatever unfunny meme is being hyped up at the moment#but sometimes its necessary for the algorithm to boost you and to get some actual crumbs of engagement and new followers#what else can I do? being interesting on your own or having an interesting oc is no easy feat. I envy those who manage.
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i love ryomina
no but seriously. even when i’m thinking about other things that captivate my interest, i find myself coming back to them and feeling like i fell down three whole flights of staircases every time i do. they are one of my favorite pairs in media and are very special to me.
it’s the way that ryoji and minato’s lives are inevitably intertwined with each other due to the circumstances 10 years ago on the moonlight bridge. without no minato, there is no ryoji. minato as he is today is because of ryoji. they have irreparably affected each other’s lives that you cannot discuss one without bringing up the other one.
ryoji mochizuki, who is death, pharos, thanatos, nyx avatar, the man of many names and identities, is the perfect summation of p3′s messages and themes.
minato arisato, the wildcard and protagonist, who has boundless kindness in his actions despite the unfortunate cards handed to him.
the two of them complement each other and tell a beautiful story from start to finish.
minato’s personas capture this perfectly. he awakens to orpheus, who’s flames burns bright, is snuffed out by thanatos during the encounter against the arcana magician. a visual precursor of the idea that ryoji stole from the life that minato could have had.
it’s the way that over the course of the game as minato interacts with pharos, talking throughout the dark hour, forging a bond that cannot be broken, that allows ryoji to exist. minato humanizes death.
november. the bells toll, calling the appriser. and yet, it’s peaceful... quiet, and full of life. ryoji, who breaks free from death’s chains, refusing his role, is given the chance to live for a month. to make the most of the humanity that minato has given him over those ten years. and what a life he lived. ryoji’s life is a reflection of what minato’s life could have been like in another universe.
it is the way the two of them are reflections of each other. ryoji with his hair down is just like minato. they are both stubbornly committed to choosing to be kind, to love life, yet are chained down by the cards the narrative dealt them with. they finish each other’s sentences, knowing each other intimately in a way no one else does.
how is that, a boy who lived for only one month, profoundly changes the course of the narrative? he is simultaneously relevant and irrelevant. blink, and you miss it, the beautiful life that he led.
ryoji is horrified at the revelations of being the appriser. he who so desperately wished to forget that his existence was meant to bring the end to all life, was unable to escape the inevitability of death. in a non-human way, of course. he becomes remorseful. a shadow of his brief time as a human who was enamored by the small beautiful things that life had to offer.
he is swallowed by grief. grief knowing that his very existence will take away not only minato’s life, but everyone else’s. the very thing that ryoji loved- life, fundamentally went against the role he was born for- to be the harbinger of death. and unable to grapple with this sadness he believes that the best thing for minato to do is to kill him, so that SEES can live in bliss not knowing about their inevitable end.
SEES is left rattled, calling into question what the meaning of life is and what they do when faced against the inevitability of death.
and!!! minato chooses!! for ryoji to live!! even in spite of what ryoji is MEANT to embody, minato still stubbornly chooses to defy death itself! and if that’s not cool i don’t know what is!! minato wants everyone to have the chance to live!!
so he climbs. he ascends tartarus, to meet ryoji, again, who is now the nyx avatar. and i just think there’s something so so beautiful about being able to use messiah, minato’s ultimate persona, against nyx avatar.
messiah, being the fusion of orpheus and thanatos is peak ryomina to me. because ryoji and minato have established an unbreakable bond from having been entwined for 10 years, minato still has a piece of death with him, and by proxy!! ryoji is able to defy and rebel against nyx trying to bring the fall! and i think that’s fucking cool shit if you ask me!
even when all of the arcanas have been gone through, it’s still not enough to stop the fall. and yet. minato knows. in the way that ryoji was sealed in minato 10 years ago by aigis... minato becomes the great seal so that everyone can live. it comes full circle.
march rolls around. he fulfills his promise to SEES on graduation day. minato dies from exhaustion. but goddamn does his sacrifice make me weep- he’s had such, such a tiring journey. he’s been through so many things because he was at the wrong place at the wrong time. but at the end of it all, he’s reunited with ryoji in death.
and i think this is why ryomina continues to evoke so much emotions for me, to this day. the relationship that they have embodies so much of persona 3′s messages and themes that it makes me feel like a microwave with nothing running in it.
p3′s message is very hopeful, for me. my favorite takeaway from it is that even if death is inevitable, appreciating the life that we were given and choosing to live as best as we can with kindness (even if we can’t feasibly do everything), is just? really nice? and you see this manifest in both ryoji and minato’s personalities and what they do for the other characters.
ryomina just feels so distinct to me, the flavor that their relationship ties back to my favorite takeaways from this game and im just!! god!! i love you minato arisato! i love you ryoji mochizuki! im so glad that i could meet them! i’m happy that they changed my life! they made me want to appreciate the connections in life even if they were fleeting! they made me!! want to pay attention to the good moments in life and cherish them!
i love ryomina so much!!! i’m so glad that these two could bring so much joy into my life! and i hope that others can have this joy too! 💛💙
#lizzy speaks#persona 3#ryomina#ryoji mochizuki#minato arisato#meta#long post#(literally)#HI SO UM YESTERDAY I COULDN'T FUCKING SLEEP so to cope i was like 'i will talk out loud about anything and everything'#and somehow that turned into me talking about ryomina out loud and something about verbalizing my thoughts made me feel crazy about these-#two again. i mean for the record i continue to love them always very dearly but like my p3 braincells sometimes go into hibernation bc-#ive been on a really huge splatoon kick. but anyway my voice was like cracking at 3am because i was tearing up#i was like 'THE!! IM! SO NORMAL ABT WHAT ORPHEUS AND THANATOS AND MESSIAH SYMBOLIZE' etc etc etc#so i kinda just went to sleep like 'ok well you GOTTA type it out. everyone needs to know about this.'#and um i didnt mean to make 1069 words! sorry! not really! but i love them!!! even if im very quiet these days!#ohhh how lucky i am to have had the chance to experience ryomina they are such a gem. they make me so goddamn emotional#they really mean a lot to me because of well. (gestures at the entire post) but also they came at a really good point of my life and FUCK!!#im so so grateful to them!!! i love them!!!! the themes that their relationship and characters convey just !! IM SO NORMAL ABOUT IT!!!#they've affected me so profoundly and deeply and i wish i could make better art to get this across. but its ok. one day i can. one day#they make me so fucking talkative like actually but um. i had a lot of fun writing this! i dont think ive had like. a proper appreciation-#post for them that articulates why i like them so much (unless you count the essays i write in my art tags) so it was nice to make this.#admittedly theres a lot abt p3 that im rusty on since its been a goodwhile since ive interacted with the source material#and in a way you could say that like. i need to renew my p3 license LMAOOO but god some parts of p3 still have such a huge death grip on me#and what i mean by that is that the big Fucking Events have such!! clarity!! in my mind!! i recall them and i wilt on the spot!!#oh god i cant fucking shut up. the tags are probably 500 words long. enjoy my ramble. i wish every ryomina enjoyer a Good Life <3#actually no. i hope that EVERYONE on the dash today has something that sparks joy for them the way ryomina does for me.#everyone deserves 2 have something that makes their brain do a little excited dance that makes them blow up and explode. its good for u!#BYE FOR REAL this is why i have to post my thoughts very spread out otherwise yall would have so many WORDS on ur dash pls help i have so#many emotions and i am so tiny i cannot possibly fit all the feelings i have about ryomina and other things inside my tiny little body
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inspiration saturday
decided to make a lil moodboard for the ryan/taylor fic I posted a snippet of yesterday - not really sure where exactly im going with it, but this is more or less the vibes haha - reuniting, sort of getting back together, long distance relationship, plus a bit of family vibes haha
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no pressure tags: @gaydiaz @diazass @silentxxsoul @shortsighted-owl @eddiebabygirldiaz @arthursdent @911onabc @housewifebuck @rogerzsteven @watchyourbuck @underwater-ninja-13 @eowon @loserdiaz @evanbegins @ladydorian05 @pirrusstuff @theotherbuckley @wildlife4life @fortheloveofbuddie @nmcggg @diazpatcher @lover-of-mine @exhuastedpigeon @king-buckley @monsterrae1 @thewolvesof1998 @hoodie-buck @spotsandsocks @jeeyuns @callmenewbie @alliaskisthepossibilityoflove @weewootruck @hippolotamus @steadfastsaturnsrings @malewifediaz @honestlydarkprincess @buckaroosheart @spagheddiediaz @rainbow-nerdss @giddyupbuck @jesuisici33 @jamespearce9-1-1 @daffi-990 @elvensorceress @thebravebitch @disasterbuckdiaz
#istg i'll be back to buddie tomorrow haha (actually made some progress on my buddie fics haha)#inspiration saturday#ryan x taylor#fic snippet#wikiangela writes#my writing#my wips#ryan atwood#taylor townsend#the oc#the oc fic#fic moodboard#moodboard#just made this last night when i was procrastinating going to sleep at 3am so why not share haha#also obvi had to include the gif of the lil nose boop bc it gets me every single time#it was right after their first kiss and the kiss itself was amazing - he ran in grabbed her and kissed her and it was 🥵😍#and the kiss was to convince someone they're together so she could get a divorce!#istg this is the second best ship that's ever happened to me I'm so obsessed with them 😂#but anyway who tf cares lol#back to buddie tomorrow!!
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Starting to slowly realise I'm really not doing well mentally and it's. concerning. I feel like I should take a break from tumblr bc it takes some of what little energy I have but it's also my source of joy with friends so idk what to do, like I'd miss y'all more than I'd feel good about being away. But if you notice me talking less/not responding in days it's bc I just cannot. I leave your message notifs up so I don't forget tho <3
#Personal#Feeling dreadful bc so many friends have shared with me things they wrote that I SO GENUINELY AM EXCITED TO READ#I've just had literally no time nor energy for ANYTHING I enjoy in like a month#And I'm also literally not sleeping. I'm either not sleeping or I have recurring nightmares that wake me up. It's god-awful#Therapy isn't helping either cause atp I already know everything they're advising me about it's just not working#Nothing's changed either which ofc makes me feel worse. No meds changed no habits changed nothing crazy happened#I'm just suddenly worse than I've been in years which is Not Good#I feel awful for not being able to read my friends' things if I could let y'all see my mind you'd know I want to read what you write so bad#I just can't right now. I'm sorry#Not to mention work and school have been especially more demanding recently and I literally get home after 8 every single night#Don't even eat dinner til past 10pm#Doing hw until 3am etc etc#It's like high-school all over again but I'm an adult with more responsibilities than ever
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not to sound too horny but i want a chenford sex scene so bad.
#*carly catalogs#started giggling thinking about them running off to go have some quality naked time at nolan's wedding#because they'd probably be making love like it's THEIR wedding night sszrdftyghjkl#i can just picture the rest of the gang back at the reception sipping their drinks like 'nah not gonna go up there for awhile' 😂😂#the rookie#tim bradford#lucy chen#chenford#otp: you knkw me so well#gotta say i am insanely jealous of stellarider's and that shower sex scene they got 12x01????#even if it was a split second thing like i could almost start watching the show just bc of that#(but i'm not going to cause i don't care enough to commit anymore to 12 fucking seasons of a show lol)#(maybe if i had started it earlier)#sorry it's 3am and i'm losing sleep cause we're getting the s6 trailer today#give it to me rn i need it
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omg the cute autistic/mutual friend at the party I was talking ab way back just moved into our building!!! I legit ran into him omw in and exchanged instas he is SO adorable and cute and I love him like I just wanna be around him so like tf I am SO HAPPY
#im not sure the post is even still up but me n my friends were just having a casual gettogether and i met him n my post was talking ab how#im glad no annoying autsitics have been introduced to me yet bc ive already met like 3 and theyre all either like#smart autistics or adorable autistics or interesting autistics and i have a crush on two of them including the cute autistic this post is ab#like im so HAPPY omg im gonna bug him so much its weird bc idk what u call the type of crush where its like im not searching for romance#but i will do anything to be in ur prescense bc i know id enjoy being friends or partners or whatever the fuck involves KNOWING YOU#idk lol#yutamayo is starting the day off right (#(its 3:47pm)#at the party we were playing Detroit Become Human anf he seems to also be a hyperfixation/skilled autistic bc he SLAYED at the game i just#enjoyed watching him speedplay at that point#and everyone was ig close enough with him to call him by a semiracist nickname bc hes indigenous n his last name wad apparently too long#so i was like NOPE and made sure to spell it out and resay it so i could say his last name properly instead of his nickname#im noy shading them bc its fine to have a close friend thing where ur able to have a joking nickname ab a characteristic like my bestie#calls me “it” sometimes and thats not something i dislike bc we KNOW each other and its the opposite of malicious intent#but yeah i wad likr nah id prefer to know how to say it#then it was like 3am anf there was only like 4ppl left n he was like yeah i gotta go bavk home to whitby apparently he was just gonna#use the electric scooters they have around town but thats like 30min away in the mf a.m#n he didnt wanna crash on our couch which isfine n everyone else was like mkay bye bc yhey wanted to sleep#n i was like NOPE and hunted down bus fare n waited with him at the bus stop for the night bus n made sure he got on it then never saw him#again#until#today#god fucking bless#*introduced to 3 autistics not 3 annoying autistics the post was ab how im gkad i havent met an annoying autistic in my buikding yet*
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Can my brain stop fucking forgetting where I put things???
It's been like a month since I last saw my meds that I REALLY NEED but I don't want to waste a refill and be short a month. I finally was able to refill it for Dec/Jan and god I cannot wait to not be in agony anymore. Like I have been praying, crying, thrashing (that's more a physical symptom of nerve pain), wanting to scream, losing sleep, FOR WEEKS.
I cannot fucking remember what I did with it. It's just a blank. I have a visual memory and can remember specific shit accurately (as accurately as memories as a whole are) BUT NOT THIS
I now have lost my ipod touch... my beloved 🥺 that's where my stories are (that I wrote), that's where my music is, where my games are (okay like 3 games now that ios is updating and god forbid we get another ipt). That's where my pictures of Bean are, and I need them to post reruns on his account to keep it active sgdgdggdgd That's another story
Anyway I lost it when I changed my sheets and it's not downstairs in the laundry (shook out the blankets). It's not behind the bed, not around it, not in my usual spot. BUT most importantly... I cannot fucking even conjure up a vague memory of when I last saw it. 😠 at all. Like my meds it's in my room SOMEWHERE
And ofc bc I have been off my nerve medicine for a full month, I am so fucking drained that I don't have energy to fucking deep clean and look for these things better/more
I'm so fucking sick of this shit
#marquilla#im so tired#especially today bc i woke up at 12 with the worst back pain like very sharp achy pain and ofc then my nerves acted up so im like writhing#on the bed trying to think of what i can take to make this pain stop. i took advil/tylenol. a pepcid. and 2 rls homeopathic pills.#i was literally crying it was so painful and Finally it subsided enough for me to sleep... at 2am... i fell asleep and had a full dream in#that blissful hour i slept 🙃#i really considered calling off work today man. but im only working like 12hrs so i figured it would be better overall if i went and work#went well - i recovered everything but the licensed shit area bc it wasnt super bad and i didnt care enough sgdgdggd so i had 10 min before#my break left so i did the HEAVY coats for RC and she looked so relieved when i said that (one less thing for her to do) so 🤙#oh and i figured out that that pain was most likely from all the cherrios ive been eating that have been causing me gi issues#but i dont have anything else i wanna eat at 3am before work so.... i just kept eating them regardless sgdggddgdgdgd it was hell#anyway i ate them and i got that horrible pain in my stomach and back and went '...ah' sgdgdggd like hmm probably that#could also be wheat! could be both together! bc fuck me thats why
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I miss when this illness was just me being sore and sleepy instead of coughing so violently and badly that I can't sleep and have to use my mums inhaler bc I'm wheezing and short of breath 😭
#s.txt#AT LEAST I COULD JUST SLEEP THROUGH IT BEFORE....#last night i couldnt sleep until well after 3am bc i was so uncomfortable#and only slept 2.5 hours before i woke up to hack my lungs out again#when the sharp dry chest cough hits 👍
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Anyone have any drawing requests?
#could b anything. but would appreciate objects. vibes. and nature-y things#im just trying to stay up late enough to see the sun set bc getting up for work at 3am has fucked my sleep schedule beyond repair#and my left arm is fucked from carrying hangers lol. also i close my eyes and im sorting bras#so many bras. no one knows where to put them. theyre so disorganized. no one knows how to sort them.#unrelated
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There's gotta be more in-universe video games than the three we can actually play in-game and I am saying this Specifically bc the mental image of North playing some sort of chill farming game on one of those Zariman tablets with Higgins watching and slowly dozing off next to them won't let go of my brain
#chatter tag#oc: drifter north#oc: higgins#wonderful vibes and also limbro-related yearning#if i could draw rn this would already be a sketch#theyd be staying up until like 3am doing this. north unintentionally talking higgins to sleep#even tho warframes need less sleep than humans do/can go longer without bc catching up goes easier for them
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Idk how people impulse buy shit i spend all day thinking about it buy it too late in the evening and then can't sleep because I'm insane
#literally lying in bed at 3am rn mind racing bc i bought a coat 6 hours ago like WHY DOES IT MATTER!! GO TO SLEEP!!#but i can't bc i have to think of all the ways this could be a mistake#I've been thinking about this coat for 3 weeks btw. fucking bonkers.
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next time i pick up a book i need to know if it has university related emotions bc man
#maybe i just hate change#maybe i just hate doing my work in the way i should and am subconsciously stressed about it#maybe i just hate that i haven’t seen any of my friends this break and still haven’t done any work and maybe i don’t deserve to see them bc#i haven’t done the stuff i need to#but also i miss them BUT ALSO i’m shit at making plans and i miss everything i could do bc i’m a fucking flake#maybe i’m just too in my head about everything#and MAYBE I STILL NEED TK ASK ABOUT THE BALL#and also maybe i should just go to sleep the 3am ramble is hitting#maybe i could also ask that no one read this or mention it to me bc maybe i’ll explode
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