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for the first time in my life i was just asked if i have kids instead of if i'm in college yet. the years start coming and they don't stop coming huh
#stooooop#i know i have been old enough to have kids for a while but ๐ตโ๐ซ#im always behind on all the milestones in life tho but it never stood out before bc people always thought i was 17#literally from when i was 13 until very recently people always guessed i was like 16-19#which was great bc i am an autistic late bloomer who lives w my parents and sucks at being an adult#so giving off the vibe and appearance of being a teenager was fine#but now i look like an adult#๐งโโ๏ธ๐งโโ๏ธ๐งโโ๏ธ#yet i am not good enough at being one for these questions and assumptions ๐ญ#i hate it hereee#anyway weird old guy at the store started telling dumb blonde jokes then asked me if i had kids#never in my life have i been asked that#late twenties fr the worst age bc u still feel young but start getting treated old and also u don't have ur shit and life together yet#but everyone thinks you do or should by now#alas#irl i'm 27 what am i a child bride moment#not that having kids is for old people#but im not even good at being responsible for myself yet let alone an entire baby#i do want kids but im not ready for that yet#also never been in love ๐ซ #or even seriously dated anyone ever#not that it's a requirement#in fact im planning to adopt esp if i dont get married but still#anyway i do very much want kids im just not in that place yet#and didnt feel that behind in life about it bc nobody ever asked me that before#thsi better not be like how everyone asks you as soon as they meet u about ur job or school i dont need to be fielding this forever
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Yeahโฆ if weโre going based off canon, Gojo is most definitely a proud virgin. Heโs never seemed like the type to even care about fucking or anything, not even getting into his personal feelings and how he views relationships (in his case, his friends and students. Obviously platonically) lmfao.
#heโs one of those characters whoโs hard to pierce despite his silly guy demeanor and he doesnโt let anyone in even those he cares about#and heโs a flirt but he doesnโt mean anything by it just donโt ever take what he says seriously if heโs speaking into your ear sexily#like lol#well not much of a flirt either but heโs done it lightly in canon lol#remember when he flirted with jogo-#never got over thatโฆ they shouldโve fucked#rambling#but Gojoโs not into that#contrary to how the fans act like heโs some sexy dom whoโs a sex god ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ#he probably isnโt one either#he seems more like a one night stand kinda guy but would do stuff like that rarely if he ever does fuck ๐ญ#he seems like the type to not care too much about that kind of stuff at all and heโs canonically never dated before despite being 29#cuteโฆ I uwu him sm#heโs fucking on Ijichi tho sorry itโs canon ๐ง๐พโโ๏ธ#abstinent king
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I love being the always single person in my family, mad respect to my sister for constantly dating guys for the last 8 years, I would have shot myself
#whenever my mom asks if i have love news of my own while we're talking about my sister's newest catch and i say no#i hope she doesn't feel pity because like. this is the life that i choose. my sister's ex boyfriends were enough for ME even#and i only met a handful of them personally but heard more than enough shit about them#i just always think i'm only flirting with some guys only to never talk to them again or ghost them because it's fun#fat girl who's always been seen as ugly by other people gets to flirt with good looking people is the ultimate ego boost arc#if i ever date anyone seriously again it better be true love and end in kids and marriage until death or i'll live as a hermit#until that happens tho...... life is a party i don't wanna miss a thing break some men's heart get revenge yolo etc etc#also the thought of actively dating freaks me out. if i meet someone and we tolerate each other long term that's good#but dating apps or going on dates with several people and deciding who's the best like on the bachelorette?? death first#plus i lowkey don't like men as a concept. at least the type i've dated. i guess you could say my last ex traumatized me hahaha ๐๐ป (๐จ๐จ)#i think i'm too young to be in a committed relationship anyway. or even to seek getting into one. there are much more important things rn#i know former classmates my age are having kids or getting married but idgaf the one who got engaged last year has been with him for 7 year#which is a decent time tbh you change quite a bit during that time and if it feels right why not#but i can't wrap my head around searching for a relationship when you don't even have a stable job and know what else you want in life#rambling again sorryyyy but yeah proud single here and i'm not saying this out of spite because i genuinely enjoy it#all relationships i've been in were so draining (tbf they were long distance too) and got me at rock bottom and had me filled with regret#also these men can be so controlling and jealous when you just wanna go out with friends while they do whatever they want too#but when you say you don't want a jealous partner they think that's a free pass for them to cheat like what the actual fuck#do you see the difference between being unnecessarily jealous when you hang out with friends and being rightfully jealous when they cheat??#at this point idk what to say. i'm very entertained by my friends' dating journeys but that couldn't be me#all the gossip i provide for them is which people i flirted with for the ego and who i ghosted and who ghosted me#mel talks
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GREAT NEWS EVERYONE THE EMO BOY IVE BEEN MAKING OUT WITH IS 1) STILL WEARING BLACK SKINY JEANS And 2) IS TRANS
#diversity win#???#emo boy#๐ค#this is the emo rep we needed back in like 2009#seriously tho I really like him#I think I like like him#thatโs my inner teenager fangirling over the fact that I finally get to make out with an emo#I have seriously never been this excited to date anyone ever#transgender#trans ftw#also just like props to him for like not even telling me ๐#he literally just took off his shirt one makeout#and I did see his scars but like didnโt think anything of it#but then later I saw fanart of someone#with top surgery scars#and my brain finally caught up#lol so I asked him when he took his shirt off again#and he was like oh yeah I forgot
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sure, he's pretty fly for a white guy but he will never be my reidentified ex girlfriend who peak misogyny'd at the same time I did. so why even try
#Like when is a man ever just going to BE peak transed and peak maned already. Like that's something I have to talk men into??#also it's not enough to be 'peak transed' for anyone regardless of sex for me cuz there's so many conservatives around here#Like. I gotta date some dysphoric ass motherfuckers if they are going to be anti gender ideology#Cuz otherwise..... I'm fraternizing with the enemy#Speaking of which. I have been thinking about leaving my bf So Much lately#Oh. Does the actual text in the post kind of give that away?#I'm pretty sure I'm over ross even though I keep talking about her 2 years later But. but. she was a solid partner like she was dope as hel#Really set a standard for my relationships that Neither Of My Boyfriends Have Met.#but seriously. if you see me posting a lot about Ross lately that is. don't even worry about it. I'm working through some stuff right now
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dude it is way too early for this, someone just told me to kill myself over something i literally dont know anything about
#'youre sending people to harass me!' i dont have the power to do anything let alone that + i havent thought about you in a long time#why would i bother#now im just curious who was even harassing them but they blocked me before i could ask#youre so classy telling me to kill myself and then blocking me before i can reply. very mature of you#this wasnt on tumblr btw idek if they have a tumblr and idc#if theyre stalking my social media thats just weird on their part#'i hope you stop burdening your family' well i hope you stop burdening yourself. you sound miserable and you always have. go to therapy.#stop hurting other people just to make yourself feel better even though all it does is give you temporary satisfaction and long term pain#fucking weirdo. we left our friendship on an argument because you NEVER let yourself be wrong even about things you knew nothing about#you wanna see me shit talking you publically? this is that i fucking guess#tell me i dont know anything about relationships because i only ever dated one person as if that person didnt leave me with trauma#that im still unpacking almost a decade later? fuck off.#at least im not marked red on shinigami eyes and have 'too right leaning for twitter to handle' in my twitter bio. thats fucking embarassing#fucking weird asshole. that entire friend group we were part of was ridiculous#the only person from there i EVER shit talked was someone else and they deserve it for being a pedo.#but i dont care to harass anyone because it does nothing for me#it only works to hurt me and im sick of being in pain. im sick of being miserable and lonely and stuck with memories of wrongdoing#i told you im in therapy and went back to school and that means im moving on and you decided that meant i should kms#fuck off. i hope you DONT kill yourself so you can come to the conclusion that you need to change for the better and work towards that goal#instead of being the same 'i can never be wrong!' ex-mean girl weirdo that led to me and everyone else dropping you as a friend#because all you did was make us mad with your behavior#and apparently not changing a single bit in the TWO WHOLE YEARS since i last saw you. grow up. we are both old enough to legally drink.#so grow the fuck up.#my post#ignore me#SERIOUSLY fucking ignore this post#vent#personal
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Oh, yes, I just love your unannounced sleepover where you both come back from the bar after carefully avoiding telling me that's where you were going, and also neglecting to tell me when you'd be home! I definitely do not want to knock you on your ass and take a bat to your dome! That would be rude and unnecessary :)
Oh yes, please do start talking about shit amongst yourselves and make me feel isolated and othered in ny own room! These moments are what I live for, of course. Naturally. Who would ever have any issues with this arrangement at all?
#txt#might delete this later but i also might not because my irritation and rage is real and i shouldnt have to so constantly discard it#i am so tired of constantly putting it aside#i want your blood in my fucking teeth. and it's your fault i want it there- certainly- because I TRY. I try so hard not to feel this way#but eventually you get tired of those little games too#okay I drafted this for a minute bc idk if this fucker is actually spending the night or not i just know he took off his belt. BUT THEN ONE#+ OF THESE FUCKERS DECIDED TO START TALKING ABOUT SPIDERS. A THING THAT I HAVE A VERY BAD PHOBIA ABOUT. I AM GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU#thinking of killing and maiming and maiming and killing and killing and shredding and tearing and killing and-#seriously though what. the fuck. you even go ''oh they're not gonna like this'' THEN HOW ABOUT YOU DONT FUCKING SAY IT#ohh and now you're sitting here making plans for when you go out without me next! I'm going to make you a bloody smear on my fucking floor#i am going to Dissect you. I'm going to rip you apart and feed you to the local strays and csrrion birds.#not even getting up and leaving right fucking now would assuage me. i wish i wasn't so full of fucking hate but you just keep adding fuel +#+to the fire#im so tired. I'll come back with a ''im fine now'' if he fucking leaves but im going to seethe now. im so fucking angry.#how do you fucks continually just bounce between the topics that makes me feel Most Violent Towards You? literally how do you not realize i#+ want you dead at this point? how do you not realize the grave you've dug for yourselves in my mind?#i dont fucking mask it that well. i know i dont. and still you fucking do this#((part of why it being a bar specifically that bothers me besides the very deliberate and careful avoidance of mentioning it to me is that#+*one of you is at serious risk for becoming an alcoholic. why the fuck are you being enabled this way?*))#((if i was dating someone with a genetic predisposition of alcoholism i would make your regular dates nights- idk- NOT THE FUCKING BAR +#+ DISTRICT. DO YOU EVEN FUCKING CARE ABOUT THEM? DO YOU? This fucking boils my god damn blood.))#(ultimately its their decision if they want to fucking drink yeah sure whatever YOU DONT NEED TO REGULARLY AND READILY ENABLE IT. BASTARD.)#(If they want to drink so fucking bad- if they push for the bars- JUST BUY SOME ALCOHOL AND BRING IT FUCKING HERE. It limits how much they+#+can have for one- and it would isolate me from you two less! just as an added fucking bonus! but no very unreasonable of me. what was i +#+thinking? clearly not about them ๐)#i might be a little out of line here. i can admit that. but if anyone spent a week in my fucking shoes back when they first got together +#+and then now? you would fucking understand.#and they just. keep. talking. to eachother. no attempts to include me. not even glances my way. like always.#''oh nothing will change'' IT FUCKING CHANGED. I want to hurt you so bsdly for that lie with ever passing day. do you even know it was a li#do you? anyway was abt to post this and noticed a gif i have of a woman ripping her shirt off so im going to stare at that until im calm ig.
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Teacher's Pet
Joel Miller x virgin f!reader
Summary: 25 years old, anxiety-ridden,ย and still a virgin,ย you ask your friend Joel for advice on your upcoming date. But you're more of a...hands-on learner. And he's more than happy to help.ย
Warnings: PWP, unbalanced power dynamics, virgin!reader, neighbor/bff/more experienced! Joel, age gap, first kiss, virginity loss, fingering, oral (f receiving), frequent check-ins, soo much banter and Joel is a menace also so soft and sweet :')....(ends on a cliffhanger but there will be a part two I swear).
w/c: 7.7k idk what happened
a/n: I am resurfacing for your monthly reminder that I do in fact still write!! Inspiration for this came out of literally nowhere but I took it and RAN with it and I think I like it?? As always, thank you to my baby love @undrthelights for helping me with this and always listening to my rambling and for being my biggest enabler Ilysm
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"Fine! What if, hypothetically speaking of course, you were to, hypothetically, give me a, um, hypothetical, lesson or whatever." Your heart is pounding so hard you can feel your pulse throb in your neck pound in your ears. You slowly drag your hands away from your face and look at him. He stares right back at you, brows furrowed. "A what?" "Forget it. forget I said anything,โ you mutter, shaking your head.ย "No no wait, hang on, what do you mean? A lesson? Like aโฆa sex lesson?โย
"Seriously, Joel. Fuck off" you snap but with no bite or heat behind it. You bring the sweating bottle of beer to your lips and finish the rest of the now lukewarm liquid off in one gulp.ย
"What? I just find it hard to believe that you've never even had a kiss. Didn't you go to high school? Didn't you ever get invited to a party? Didn't you go to college? College kids do the do like all the timeโย
"Clearly not all the time" you mutter, a tad bitterly.
Joel raises his hands defensively and takes a sip of his own beer. "Just seems crazy is all. There's gotta be some chick or dude out there willing to take pity on you and pop your cherry."
You audibly gag at his choice of words. "I don't need a pity fuck, thanks." You stand from the couch and head over to the fridge. The bottles of cold alcohol inside are calling your name and you want something that will help soothe your nerves. You're not a big drinker, but when Joel is prying into your love life like he is now, you wish you were.
"Okay,โ he starts from the living room. โMaybe I worded that wrong. What I meant to say was, there's gotta be someone out there who would be more than willing to show you a good time."
You groan and let your forehead fall against the fridge door. "That's the whole point! I came here to get advice for my date, someone who might actually be interested in me, and all you've done is make fun of me for not having fucked anyone yet. So thanks, Joel. You're a real pal."
You push away from the fridge and slam the door shut, a second beer in hand.
"Alright, alright, calm down." He says, hands in the air as if you were holding him at gunpoint as you head back to the couch. "Look, if this guy really likes you then he's not gonna care. Probably won't even be able to tell if you are or aren't."
"You think so?" You ask hopefully.
"Well, I mean, unless you're like... super bad."
Your heart drops into your stomach and you glare at him, "Joel."
"Oh come on, I'm kidding. You're not gonna be bad, okay? Just, go into it with an open mind and just relax. If he tries something you're not comfortable with or makes you feel weird, tell him. And if he gets pissy, dump his ass."
"That simple, huh?" You scoff.
"Well, yeah. You're the one who made it complicated by thinking it was a big deal."
"It is a big deal, Joel! I know nothing!
"Nothing? You ainโt ever watched porn? Jesus, I had no idea you were such a prude."
You can't stop yourself from rolling your eyes and slapping the back of your hand against his arm. He yelps and laughs, rubbing his arm.
"I've watched porn before" you retort.ย
"What kind?" he asks with a wiggle of his brows.
"None of your fucking business" you respond, feeling your face heat up.
Joel's lips quirk into a shit-eating grin and you're quick to smack him again.
"Okay okay, sorry!" he says through his laughter. "So what exactly are you afraid of?"
You're not really sure how to answer. It's a combination of so many things, most of which are irrational fears and insecurities. Sure you've seen it all done before, but you're well aware that none of it is realistic. At least, not completely. And just the fact that you're freshly 25 years old without a single notch in your bedpost makes you dizzy with anxiety. It's not like you're saving yourself or anything, it's just that hook up culture has never agreed with you and there's never been an opportunity that made you feel like it was the right one. That is until now, with your cute coworker who you thought was miles out of your league asking you out on a third date. And now, the prospect of being in bed with him is looming over you like a dark cloud and the last thing you want to do is mess it up.
"I guess, I'm just afraid that he's gonna be disappointed, or I'm gonna weird him out, or I'm gonna do something wrong and embarrass myself.โ Joel nods along and listens. "And if it is bad then we still have to work with each other and then what if it's awkward and everyone knows about it and then he hates me and--"
"Okay, whoa slow down there, buddy" Joel says, putting a hand on your shoulder. "One, you're overthinking this. You're literally thinking like, five steps ahead of what's actually going on. It's a date. And even if it does end up in the bedroom, you don't have to do anything you don't want to. No one's forcing you, okay? He can't. No one can."
"I know, but I want to," you reply quietly.
"Alright. Then do."
"I don't know howwww!! " you whine, flopping backwards into the couch.
Joel groans and sits up a little straighter, scrubbing a hand down his face.ย
"Well, there's no magic trick, I don't have a secret sex manual I'm holding out on ya."
You sigh, shoulders sagging as you look over at him. The idea comes out of nowhere, well, not exactly from nowhere, but it pops in your head so fast that you then have to bite your tongue before the words bubbling up from your throat come tumbling out.ย
It's not a bad idea, not necessarily.ย
You've been good friends with Joel ever since you moved in next door last year. An unlikely pairing, a 40 year old contractor and an almost 25 year old office worker. But after offering him a six pack as part of introducing yourself to the neighbors, you'd gotten along fabulously. He fixes things around your house and you send him home with hot dinners and warm, gooey cookies and you watch movies together almost every Friday night.
ย It's an easy friendship, open and honest and supportive, and Joel has never given you reason not to trust him. He's a good guy, if not a little brash, but you know deep down he means well. And it doesn't hurt that he's objectively attractive, with his tall and sturdy frame, strong, calloused hands, dark messy curls....It's not a bad idea.
It's an absolutely insane idea.ย
You continue to stare at him, clenching your teeth together to hold back the question sitting on the tip of your tongue.
"What?" he says, looking back at you.
"Nothing" you mutter, eyes flicking away.
"You've got that face you make when you're about to say something really stupid, so just get it out."
You glare at him again, not enjoying the way he can read you so well.
"I wasn't gonna say anything."
"Well now you're lying."
"I'm not."
"You're doing it again!"
"Doing what?!"
"That face!"
"I'm not making a face!"
"Yes you are! Just spit it out!"
You groan and hide your face in your hands. You blame it on the one beer even though you know youโre not anywhere close to being drunk because how else would you justify what youโre about to say? You wait a moment, thinking about the weight of it but your mouth opens before you can stop yourself.ย
"Fine! What if, hypothetically speaking of course, you were to, hypothetically, give me a, um, hypothetical, lesson or whatever."
Your heart is pounding so hard you can feel your pulse throb in your neck and hear it in your ears. You slowly drag your hands away from your face and look at him. He stares right back at you, brows furrowed.
"A what?"
"Forget it. forget I said anything,โ you mutter, shaking your head.ย
"No no wait, hang on, what do you mean? A lesson? Like aโฆa sex lesson?โย
His eyes are wide, and he looks incredulous. You can't blame him, because the more time that passes between your suggestion and now, the more ridiculous the idea seems.
"Iโm sorry, that wasโฆIt was stupid. Pretend I didn't say anything. Let's just watch a movie." You move to grab the remote, but Joel's hand covers yours, stopping you.
"Is that what you want?"
You look at him, searching his expression for any sign of disgust or apprehension. But all you can see is the same Joel you've known for months, patient, warm, and understanding.
"I know. I know it's stupid. But I can't get this date out of my head, Joel. It's all I can think about and the more I do, the more worried I get and I just don't want to fuck it up. And I know we're friends and this is weird and gross, but I just thought that... maybe, I could have some practice, so to speak."
He doesn't say anything. Just keeps looking at you, the panic rising in your chest the longer the silence stretches. You start to fidget, wringing your hands together in your lap.
"I'm sorry, that was way out of line" you say, moving to stand up, your skin sweaty and hot with embarrassment and your feet ready to run out the door and never come back.ย
But Joel catches your wrist, gently pulling you back down to sit next to him.
"Joel" you whine, not wanting him to humiliate you any further.
"It's okay, come here."
His voice is softer than before, and his eyes are kind. You let him pull you closer, the two of you sitting knee to knee. You can't bring yourself to look him in the eyes, not with your cheeks and the tips of your ears burning like they are, but Joel doesn't push. He simply moves his hand from your wrist, sliding it into yours. His palms are rough and warm, and the simple touch alone is comforting.
"You really wanna do this?โ he asks softly. You can feel his eyes boring into you. โI mean, I'm not exactly a prize winning catch. And it's not like there's a shortage of willing men out there."
You shrug and chew the inside of your lip.
"Yeah, but you're my friend and I...I trust you."
There's another pause, and you wish that you could just disappear into the couch and erase this moment from your memory.
"How drunk are you?" he asks, glancing at the beer bottle on the coffee table.
"You saw me finish one bottle. And half of another. Iโm barely tipsy."
"Not drunk?โ
"Nope."
"You're gonna remember this tomorrow."
"Uh huh."
"And you still want to?"
You groan for the millionth time and squeeze his hand.
"Yes I want to! Look, if you don't want to then that's fine. It was just a dumb suggestion and we can just forget this ever happened."
He hums, considering your words. His hand slips out of yours, and you think that's it, you've scared him off and washed the friendship down the drain. That you'll have to hide from him from now on, that you'll have to pack your things up and move because the mortification would be too much, and that he'll hate you, andโ
His two fingers sliding under chin surprise you, and he tilts your head up. He's looking down at you with that same even expression, eyes big, soft, and warm as he slides his hand over to cup your jaw in his palm.ย
"If you want to stop at any point, just say so, okay? I won't be upset and we can go back to the way things were before. Got it?"
You nod, your throat suddenly too tight to speak. His thumb sweeps over your cheekbone, the tender touch is enough to make your heart skip a beat. Thereโs no way this is actually happening. That your first kiss is going to be with your 40 year old menace of a neighbor. That youโre going to, how did you put it, get a sex lesson from him. His gaze flicks down to your lips and back up to your eyes and youโre positive youโre no longer able to breathe.ย
"Can I kiss you?" he asks softly. You nod.ย
You're sure he can hear the thumping of your heart in his own ears as he leans down. His other hand comes to rest on your hip and when his lips touch yours, a soft, tentative pressure, you're not prepared for the electricity that shoots through you.
He's barely done anything and already you feel like you're floating. Your own hands reach out to clutch his shirt, keeping him close, afraid he'll pull away and leave you cold and wanting if you don't. But he stays put, pressing himself against you, his lips working gently against yours. You follow his lead, kissing him back while trying not to overthink it.
It's nothing like the kisses in the movies or the books, where fireworks explode behind your eyelids or where your foot pops up in the air. It's far more subdued, more quiet and subtle. But the warmth that pools low in your belly and the goosebumps that erupt on your skin when his tongue slides against the seam of your lips, light and quick, makes you absolutely melt.ย
He pulls back before you can really react, and you're left with a dizzying rush of both blistering desire and excruciating anxiety. You want to pull him back in and never let him go. But your heart is beating so fast you can hardly breathe, your nerves are buzzing, and the urge to run and hide is nearly paralyzing.ย
"Was it bad?" you ask tentatively, cheeks heated.
"No" he replies, giving your hip a squeeze as a smirk plays on his lips. "It was fucking awful. Worst kiss of my life"
"Shut up!" you hiss, pushing him away with a hand on his chest. He laughs, the sound easing some of the tension in your body.ย
"I'm just teasing" he says, voice dropping lower. "C'mere, we can work on it."
His lips find yours again, and you try not to smile into the kiss but it's hard when you can feel the way his lips are quirked up as well. It doesnโt take much else to get you to relax and let yourself fall into the moment, into the gentle press of his mouth and the warm hands on your hip and your cheek. He swipes his tongue against your lips again, his fingers pressing lightly into the hinge of your jaw to tilt your head back and coax your lips apart.
You let him, sighing as his tongue glides across yours, hot and smooth and sweet. Your hands slide up his chest, finding purchase around his shoulders, and when you move forward, pushing yourself against him, he grunts softly but lets you. He kisses you until the both of you are gasping for air, and when he pulls back, his lips are wet and red and you're certain yours must be as well.
"Better?" you ask, a bit breathless.
"Getting there" he answers with, his breath warm where it fans across your cheek.ย
"You're such a liar" you say with a goofy smile.
"Yeah, I know. Now try again, practice makes perfect.โย
You roll your eyes but lean back in nonetheless. It's a bit more heated this time, the feeling of his teeth nibbling on your bottom lip making you squirm. His hand rounds over your hip, palm smoothing to the small of your back to pull you closer, the heat of his body radiating through your clothes and warming your skin. Your hands move on their own accord, no thought behind the action as they slide up to his shoulders and then his neck, your fingers finding home in the curls at the base of his skull. When you give them a slight tug, you're rewarded with a muffled grunt from Joel. Emboldened, you pull back, lips swollen and tingling.
"Youโre a good kisser,โ you pant. "Is that something people usually say?"
"When itโs true" he says, grinning at you. "And since I know you're gonna ask, I'd say that was a C+, maybe a B-."
You scoff but blush furiously at the smile he flashes, his eyes crinkling in the corners.
"Well then, tell me what to do next. What do I need to know?"
Joel hums as he thinks for a moment.ย
"What do you want to do?"
You stare at him for a second, blinking.
"I don't know, that's why I'm asking you" you say, shaking your head a bit.
"Well, how far do you want to take this?"
You swallow hard, suddenly feeling very shy. You canโt deny that when the idea popped in your head it was accompanied by the mental image of you naked, spread out on his bed, but the actual act of asking him, or better yet, actually doing it is... intimidating to say the least. Are you really about to let him go all the way, to see you bare and vulnerable, let him pop your cherry as he would disgustingly put it? All just to โprepareโ for a date with a guy who might not even like you that way?
Yeah, probably.
"All the way" you answer. โI want to go all the wayโย
He doesnโt pounce on you like you expected, doesnโt press his lips against yours in a frenzied kiss that you had half hoped for. Instead, he simply looks at you, his brown eyes boring into yours, searching.
"Are you sure? You can always say no and you're not gonna lose me as a friend if this isnโt what you actually want. I donโt want you thinking that."
You can't help the laugh that bubbles up and slips out, because of course Joel, your kind, thoughtful Joel, would say that. He's a good man. A great one, even.
"Yes, I'm sure. But if you don't want to, I get it, I can just leave and-"
Joel laughs, the sound traveling up from deep in his chest, the rumble vibrating against you.
"Sweetheart, I wouldn't be doinโ this if I didn't want to. Just makinโ sure this is what you really want."
"I want it.โย
He squeezes your hip and swipes a thumb over your cheekbone once again.ย
โAlright then.โ He nods, firm and resolute, and then looks around the room. โ Weโre not doing it here, though. If you're getting the full Joel Miller experience, we're gonna do it right.โย
Your eyes roll reflexively, but your heart picks up its pace regardless.
"Iโm not gonna do anything if you call it that ever again."
"Fine, fine,โ he relents. โLet me show you what a good, thorough fucking feels like. Better?"
Your jaw drops, and he's laughing at you, his body shaking with amusement.
"Fuck you" you grumble, shoving him away while trying to hide your coy smile.ย
"Yeah, that's what I'm hoping for," he says with a wide, self-assured grin.
"I'm leaving" you declare with a false sense of offense as you rise to your feet. Joel is quick to do the same and before you can take a single step away, he slips a finger through the belt loop of your jeans and tugs you back into him, wrapping an arm around your waist.
"Iโll stop, Iโll stop. I'm sorry" he says, not sounding it one bit.
You huff, but let him pull you closer until youโre pressed against his chest and you have to tilt your head back to look at him.
"Iโll be good. I promise."
"Liar"
"Well, yeah. But I can promise that I'll make you feel good."
You can't help the giggle that spills out and he kisses it away, his lips warm and plush and sweet against yours. The hand not resting on your lower back comes up, curling around the nape of your neck and keeping you close. You sink into him, and the fog creeps in again, dulling the rest of the world, making it seem fuzzy and distant, like the memory of a dream. All you can focus on is him, the warm solid weight of him against you, the strong arms holding you, the way his mouth moves against yours. And then heโs pulling back all too soon and you have to stifle a whine.
"Come on" he says, tugging at your hand.
His bedroom is dim, the little lamp on his nightstand and the faint glow of the moon through the curtains providing the only light. You swallow and take a deep breath as you step inside, your bare toes digging into the plush carpet, his hand warm and large where it grips yours.
He holds onto you as he sits on the edge of the bed. You step forward, letting him pull you between his knees. His hands settle on your hips, and you can feel their heat through the fabric of your shirt.
He doesnโt ask if you're sure again and youโre grateful because youโre not sure if you could form any kind of response right now. Instead, he slides his hands up and under your shirt, fingers dancing across your skin and leaving a trail of goosebumps. Your breath hitches as his hands smooth over your ribs and around to your back, the tips of his fingers mapping out the curve of your spine, skimming over each notch and bump. They climb higher, the fabric of your shirt bunching around his wrists.ย
โCan I take this off, baby?โ
Your heart jumps to your throat but you nod anyway. He grabs the hem and tugs your shirt up and and you lift your arms so he can slip it off over your head. He tosses it aside, the fabric falling to the floor beside the bed. Youโre left exposed, vulnerable and bare, save for the worn out bra you wear, a few too many washes and a few years past its prime.
Your hands itch where they hang by your side with the instinct to cover yourself, hide the imperfections that you know so well, the stretch marks, the softness of your stomach, the way the cups of your bra are just a bit too small and spill over the tops.
But then heโs pressing his lips to the space just above your navel, his scruff tickling your skin and making the muscles in your abdomen jump and twitch. His hands find your waist again, and when his lips continue their path upwards, his palms follow, skimming up your sides, thumbs tracing the outline of your ribs before stopping at the band of your bra.
"This too?" he asks, voice quiet and husky.
"Yeah" you answer with a squeak, and he grins like a kid in a candy store.
His fingers undo the clasp deftness that makes your knees go weak, the straps slipping from your shoulders and the whole thing sliding down your arms, landing somewhere near your shirt.ย
"God, baby, look at you" he murmurs, his hands cupping the underside of your breasts, his thumbs sweeping over the tops and then down the slope and around your nipple. Your breath hitches, the gentle touch sending a shiver up your spine. "You're fucking perfect."
The praise is unexpected and it sends a jolt of heat through your core. You whimper quietly and his hands are on you again, the calloused palms rough on the soft skin of your breasts. He kneads the flesh, squeezing gently before rolling your nipples between his fingers, pulling and pinching and teasing.ย
He pulls you closer and ducks his head, his tongue darting out to wet his lips. He looks up at you through his lashes, eyes dark and hooded, and his pupils blown wide with desire.
"Can I?" he asks.
"Please."
He leans in and wraps his lips around a peaked nipple, his tongue swirling around the sensitive nub, the gentle heat of his mouth on your skin making your knees weak.
His mouth works on one breast, tongue flicking and teasing while his free hand continues its work on the other. Pleasure builds and coils deep inside, the sensation unfamiliar but certainly not unwelcome. You whimper and he pulls away, releasing your nipple with a wet pop before giving it a sweet parting kiss.
He turns his attention to the other, his teeth grazing over the stiff peak and drawing a whine from your lips. He sighs when your fingers tighten in his hair, pulling at the strands until he groans softly against you. He sucks your other nipple into his mouth, the flat of his tongue pressing against it and dragging up and around, swirling and flicking. Youโre already breathless, panting, a thin sheen of sweat glistening on your forehead.
"Feels good, Joel," you whisper shyly.ย
"I know, honey" he says, a soft smile pulling at his lips when he pulls away. "Feel good anywhere else?"
He doesn't wait for a response, simply slips a hand between your thighs, cupping you through the denim, the simple action making you squeak.
"Here, huh?" he says, the heel of his palm pressing against you.
You gasp softly and nod, biting your lip, too shy to say anything.
"Get on the bed, baby."
You comply, crawling onto the mattress and scooting backwards towards the pillows, sitting at the head of the bed as you watch him. His eyes never leave you as he pulls his shirt over his head, tossing it onto the floor. Your heart thumps as you stare at his bare chest, his tanned skin dotted with a light dusting of salt and pepper hair. He's broad, his shoulders thick and chest solid. Your fingers burn with the urge to reach out and touch him, so you do, extending a tentative, slightly shaky hand.
He watches you closely, eyes flitting down to the palm pressed against his chest before meeting yours again, his mouth curling into a smile.
"You can touch" he says, reaching down to curl a hand around your wrist and bringing it up to his lips, pressing a kiss to the center of your palm before guiding your hand back down to his chest. "I think most people would enjoy that."
"You're having entirely too much fun with this,โ you mumble while your fingers spread out across his pec.ย ย
"It is fun" he counters, his own hand sliding up the inside of your thigh, thumb pressing against the seam of your jeans and rubbing up and down. "But it'll be more fun once these come off"
Your lips part, a puff of air rushing out.
"You gonna take them off?" you ask, the words slipping out, bold and unbidden.
He grins, his brow quirking up.
"Look at you, being all bossy"
"You like it" you say, finally feeling some of the anxiety slipping away, the familiar and comfortable banter between the two of you slipping into place in a new, unfamiliar situation.
His smile takes up nearly his whole face as moves closer.ย
โI sure do.โย
He looms over you, bracing himself on an elbow next to your head before ducking down to kiss you, his tongue easily slipping into your mouth, warm and insistent. You sigh into it, your hands finding the warm, bare skin of his back, muscles gliding beneath your palms as you slide them up and around, fingertips digging into his shoulders. He's so warm and solid and you can't help the little noise that slips out, a soft, needy moan. You're about to break the kiss and beg him to touch you, give you something, anything, but he pulls back before you can.ย
"Impatient. I like that too" he says, voice barely above a whisper.
He kisses the corner of your mouth, then your cheek, then down your neck, his beard scraping against your skin. He continues his path, pressing wet, open-mouthed kisses across your collarbones and down the valley between your breasts, his beard tickling your sternum.
His palm presses into the top of your thigh, and you instinctively open your legs for him, his hand immediately moving to cup you through the denim, thick fingers pressing against the seam and the bundle of nerves just below. Your hips rock up, seeking more pressure and he grins, entirely too pleased with himself right now.
You huff, and he laughs, the sound rumbling in his chest, but he relents, undoing the button and zipper of your jeans and tugging the fabric down, revealing the pair of pink panties underneath.ย
Joel sits up, pulling your jeans down your legs and letting them drop off the side of the bed, the sound of the denim hitting the floor indicating that you've officially crossed a line that neither of you can come back from. But if the hungry, desperate look on his face and the way you're practically vibrating underneath him are any indication, neither of you want to.
"I'll start with just my fingers, yeah?" he says, his hands running up the insides of your thighs, touch light and teasing, the tips of his fingers brushing the edge of your panties. You nod dumbly, at a complete loss for words right now.
He ducks his head, his lips landing on the smooth skin stretched over your hip bone. You squirm, ticklish, and he grins. His mouth is a great distraction from his hand, which has found its way back in between your legs, his fingers now pressing against damp fabric.
"Shit" he curses, his touch firm. "Fuckin' soaked already. Am I just that good?" he quips with a smirk.
"Jesus do you ever shut up" you gripe, but the effect is ruined by the whimper that escapes you when his thumb sweeps up, pressing hard against your clit.ย
"Oh, that's a pretty sound" he murmurs, repeating the motion to pull out another one, your hips bucking against his hand.
"Now," he starts, his tone shifting to the same one he uses when he's about to impart some life lesson. "This guy you're gonna see, or any man for that matter, should always take care of you before himself. That's just common fuckin' sense. And if he doesn't, you send him on his way" he continues. "Because a man that don't wanna see a woman get off is no fuckin' man at all"
You're about to interrupt, tell him he's an idiot and ask him to please, please, get on with it, but his fingers sliding under the elastic of your panties, swiftly pulling them down your legs steals the breath from your lungs. Your pulse sky rockets and you shift underneath him, crossing your thighs in instinctual effort to hide yourself from him.ย
"M'sorry I didn't shave or anything" you blurt out, your throat tight with anxiety and embarrassment once againย
Joel just shakes his head as he pries your legs apart.
"Baby, I could not give less of a shit about that."
"But-"
"No" he says, the word firm, an edge of command to his tone. "Youโre not apologizinโ for that. And if a man gives a shit, he's a fuckin' child who doesn't deserve the honor of bein' between these thighs" he says, pushing your knees further apart.
You nod and bite your lip, the words that are just so very Joel, settling in your chest and easing the tension in your body. You let out a long, slow breath and relax, trying to ease the nervousness.
"There ya go" he says, his fingers dancing along your slit, gathering the slick pooling there. You shudder at the gentle touch, your hips rolling up just a bit before you force them back down into the mattress, trying to keep yourself still.
"Nuh-uh. None of that" he says, immediately noticing the movement. He slides his free hand under you, his palm pushing into the small of your back and encouraging you to move again, to lean into your pleasure. "You take what you want, baby. Show me how good it feels. That's all I wanna see."
You squirm and whimper, the simple, almost lazy touch driving you insane. You've touched yourself before, brought yourself over the edge while imagining what it would be like to have the things you read about and watch in videos happen to you. But you've never managed to make yourself feel this good, never felt pleasure so intense, never felt a burning pressure in your abdomen so demanding that it radiates all the way to the tips of your fingers and toes.
And he's barely touched you.
"How's that feel?"
You can't even form the words, so you just nod and hum, the sound a mix of a whimper and a moan, your hips rolling up against his palm. He chuckles, and then the pressure increases, the friction building, his fingers slipping down, collecting more of your wetness to ease the drag against your skin.
He moves his fingers down, down, down, the tip of one circling your entrance, gathering the wetness pooling there. You whine loudly, any shame and modesty you once had replaced entirely with desperate need and pure desire.
"Please, Joel" you whisper, voice shaky.
"I gotcha" he says, dipping his fingertip in, just barely, and pulling a moan from deep in your chest. "Gonna give you what you need"
You groan, a long, low sound as he slowly sinks his finger into you. It's nothing like your own, so perfectly thick and long/ And you found the spot before, the spot that he curls his finger up into, but never at this angle, never with the perfect amount of pressure that he's applying right now.ย
"Mmm, look at that" he coos as you clench tightly around his finger.
"Joel, god, feels so good" you whimper pathetically.ย
"I know, honey, I know."
You clench again, the cockiness and self-assured attitude that usually gets under your skin now ignites your whole body in an entirely different way. He keeps his eyes on your face, watching as your eyes squeeze shut and your mouth drops open, your head tipping back as the pleasure builds.
"Another" you beg, the fullness not nearly enough.
"Greedy girl" he chides, but he pulls his finger out, and slides two back in. You swear that you could come from this alone, but he doesn't let you, the hand that was supporting your lower back disappearing, only to reappear between your thighs, his thumb circling your clit with firm, steady strokes.
White hot pleasure wraps around the base of your spine, the dual sensations of his fingers and his thumb sending you spiraling. The sounds falling from your lips are unrecognizable, high and desperate as your mind goes blissfully blank, your entire focus on the heat coiling in your abdomen. Your eyebrows pinch together and you bury your face in the pillow next to your head, trying to hide the ridiculous expression you're surely making, but you inhale the traces of his shampoo and cologne that cling to the fabric, the scent pushing you even closer to the edge.ย
You try to hold back. Surely you're not supposed to come this quickly, not just from two fingers and a thumb. Surely that's a sign that you're an easy lay, or too inexperienced, or-
"Just let it happen, baby. I can feel it, Just let go" Joel says, his voice cutting through the thoughts racing through your mind, his fingers crooking inside you and dragging across the spot that makes your hips stutter and a cry fall from your lips.
You can't hold back any longer, the pleasure cresting and crashing down around you. You squeeze his fingers, your back arching, the heels of your feet digging into the mattress as you roll your hips up into his touch, seeking more and more and more. And he gives and gives and gives, working you through it and drawing it out for as long as he can before you melt into the mattress, bones and muscles liquid and warm and satisfied.
He pulls his fingers out, and the sudden emptiness draws a disappointed whine from you, his answering chuckle making you smile.
"That was- fuck" you sigh, not quite capable of coherent thought.
"Absolutely mind-blowing? Yeah I know" he teases. You roll your eyes but don't say anything because it's true, and his cocky grin fades into a soft smile, his eyes crinkling at the corners as he watches you return to Earth.ย
"Can I- can I return the favor?" you ask, your gaze flicking down to the noticeable bulge in his jeans.
He grunts and shakes his head.
"Not yet. Got somethin' else in mind."
You frown and push yourself up onto your elbows, watching as he shifts from his position. You're about to ask what he's going to do until he's settling himself on his stomach between your thighs. You suck in a sharp breath as you realize exactly what he's got planned and your heart jumps, anxiety clouding your mind once again.ย
He rests his cheek on your thigh, his eyes meeting yours.
"Alright?"
You swallow and nod, licking your lips.
"Yeah. Just... no one's ever-"
"Yeah, I got that much, that's why we're here" he says, smiling smugly when you glare at him.ย
"But what if it's not good? Or I don't taste good? Or-"
"Stop" he says, the single word halting your runaway train of thought. "You need lessons in relaxing, not sex. You're so fucking tense all the time"
"Sorry" you say, immediately cringing.
He sighs, his breath ghosting over the skin of your inner thigh, making you shiver. "What did I say about apologizin'?" he says, his tone slightly sharp.
"I know. Sorry- shit, sorry! Fuck!"
He barks out a laugh and you huff, bringing up both hands to scrub over your face.
"See what I mean?"
"Yes, yes, you're very smart and know everything"
He hums and nips at your thigh.
"Damn right I do."
You want to snark back, but his mouth is moving, his lips trailing down the inside of your thigh and towards where you're aching for him, slick and wet and throbbing. He takes his time, laying kisses on your thighs, hips, and stomach, his scruff scraping the sensitive skin, huffing out a laugh when you start to squirm, your patience wearing thin.
His hands smooth over the soft flesh of your inner thighs, urging you to spread them wider before spreading you open with his thumbs, exposing you completely. You feel exposed, vulnerable, and the urge to close your legs and hide yourself from his gaze is overwhelming, the embarrassment making your skin burn. But before you can even think about closing them, his tongue is on you, sliding up the length of you and circling your clit. The moan that escapes you is embarrassingly loud and high pitched, but the mortification is easily swallowed up by the pleasure.
He hums against you, the sound and the feeling sending a shudder through your body. Your hands grip the pillow behind your head and you try not to buck up into his mouth, but your attempts are futile. He doesn't seem to mind though, in fact you think it spurs him on, his tongue flattening against you and lapping at you messily, the wetness he's coaxed from you smearing across his mouth and chin.
The sound is lewd and obscene, the sloppy, slick noises and the soft grunts and groans that rumble in his chest as he works you up. He pulls back, his breath coming out in pants, his chest heaving as he looks up at you, his eyes dark and hooded.
"Don't know what you were worried about" he says, his voice low and raspy. "You taste fuckin' divine"
His beard is shiny and damp, his lips glistening, hair messy from where your fingers were tangled in it. The sight of him looking so completely disheveled and filthy has you clenching around nothing, the ache almost too much to bear.
He doesn't say anything else, just ducks his head and gets back to work, his mouth moving with a renewed urgency, his hands gripping your thighs and pushing them further apart, allowing him better access.
Your eyes roll back and your mouth falls open, a constant stream of moans and whines and babbling pleas and praises falling from your lips, but you're not really sure what you're saying, not really sure of anything except the intoxicating pleasure coursing through your veins.
You hear him moan, can feel the vibration against your skin, and you glance down at him, and that's a mistake. The sight of him, his eyes closed and brows drawn together in concentration, his cheeks hollowed out as he sucks and nips and laps at you andโ is he fucking grinding his hips into the mattress?
You're fucked.
A throaty moan tumbles past your lips as your hips start to rock, a rhythm forming as you chase your orgasm. His hands leave your thighs and he slides one arm up, the weight of it resting against your abdomen to keep you still while his other hand snakes down, fingers dipping inside again, finding the spot that makes you see stars.
"Fuck, Joel, please, oh my god, I'm so- please"
He groans in response, the hand on your stomach pressing down harder to meet the two fingers curling and stroking inside of you. You cry out at the increased pressure right as he wraps his lips around your clit, sucking and swirling his tongue around the bud, his fingers moving faster and faster. Flames lick up your spine and spread throughout your body, threatening to burn you alive.ย
Your orgasm hits you like a freight train, knocking the wind out of you and turning your limbs to jello. Wave after wave of blinding euphoria crashes over you and all you can do is cling to the pillow and arch your back, your toes curling as he continues to work his fingers and tongue, happily letting you ride his face and grind into his mouth.
He doesn't let up, not until you're a whimpering, trembling mess, physically pushing his head away when it becomes too much. He pulls back reluctantly, a wicked grin plastered to his face, his chin and mouth absolutely soaked. You're panting, struggling to catch your breath as the aftershocks make you shiver despite the content warmth spreading throughout your entire body.You feel sated and sleepy, a bone deep satisfaction making you feel boneless.ย
But as you come down from your high, rational thoughts start to filter in and you suddenly remember the reason this all started in the first place.
You're here to learn, he should be teaching you how to please a man.
How to please him.ย
You watch as he gets off the bed and wipes his chin with the back of his hand. Your eyes shamelessly rake over him, the dusty pink flush that decorates his neck and chest, the curve of his belly down to the impressive bulge in his jeans.ย
You push yourself up, ignoring the way your arms tremble with the effort. He looks at you, his eyes scanning your face no doubt looking for signs of distress.
"You ok?" he asks, eyebrows pinched together in his typical concerned Joel fashion.
"Yeah" you say, a little breathlessly. "But I still want to..."
Your voice trails off and you glance down at his crotch, hoping he gets the message.
"That's alright, baby. It's a lot, we don't-"
"No" you interrupt, a hint of desperation in your voice. "You said you would teach me. Please, Joel. I-I wanna learn" You hope it's a good enough cover to the fact that you really just want him, your original goal forgotten. "I just don't want to embarrass myself" you add, pouting slightly for good measure, praying to god that he canโt detect the underlying want for him and him only.
He watches you for a moment, seemingly contemplating his decision. And then his eyes narrow, because of course he knows. There's never been an instance where you succeeded in lying to this man. He always, always knows when something is off.
"Alright" he says, a slow smile spreading across his face, something mischievous sparkling in his eyes. "Dick sucking class is now in session"
You groan, your face twisting with visible disgust.
"Oh my god, that was terrible."
"What? It's true" he says with a shrug.
"That is- no, no way. Never say those words ever again. Ever." you say, pointing a finger at him accusingly.
"Or what?" he challenges, taking a step towards the bed.
You gulp and lick your lips.
"Or..."
He waits expectantly for a response. You have none, so you just shake your head and look away.
"Yeah, that's what I thought"
You glare at him and then sigh.
"You're a bully"
"Am I?โ He asks, taking a step back to give you more room. โ 'Cause you're the one that asked me to teach ya. On your knees, kid. Let's see whatcha got."
You chew on the inside of your cheek, trying to suppress a grin. You don't know how he does it, but his ability to make a joke or a quip out of anything always has a smile tugging at the corner of your lips, even when the jokes are awful and the puns are terrible. Even when the joke is about you getting ready to suck his dick.ย
"You're a bully and a pervert" you say, sliding off the bed and sliding to your knees, the plush carpet doing a decent job at protecting your joints.
"And proud of it.โ
"Pride is a sin."
"So is premarital sex, so I'll see you in hell, honey"
You snort and look up at him from your place on the floor, grinning widely.
"You're ridiculous"
"You love it"
And that's the thing, isn't it?
Because you do. You love his innate ability to make you laugh, to make you smile even when he's about to take your fucking virginity. He knows how to comfort you, how to put you at ease, when to push you with his teasing and when to pull back and let you take control. You've never met a person who has so effortlessly made their way into your heart.
And here you are, on your knees for him under the false pretense of practicing for a man who's name you can't even remember right now.
You shake your head, the motion clearing the thoughts and the emotions that were swirling in your head, the ones that make you want to stand up and kiss him, kiss him until your lips are numb and you're left gasping for air.
"Joel?" you say his name softly.
"Yeah, baby?"
"Teach me."
Part 2 is already in the works I promise hehehe thank you for reading I hope u all enjoy!!
#joel miller smut#joel miller x f!reader#joel miller x you#joel miller one shot#joel miller fic#the last of us#tlou fic#joel miller#pedro pascal characters
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poor memory is a huge deal and i wish people wouldn't diminish it by saying "oh yeah i can't remember what i had for breakfast lol."
i can't remember the first 10 years of my life. i can't remember entire days, weeks, months at a time. i can't remember entire people, i can't remember names or faces. i can't remember when things are scheduled for, my calendar app on my phone is booked to the max with reminders and task checklists. i can't remember when i moved into what home when, i can't remember important milestone dates like when i got or lost certain jobs, or when i started a new hobby.
that's what i mean when i say i have poor memory. poor memory is so scary for the person who has it. it's not a quirky thing, everyone forgets small details. memory problems are scary because you can go through entire events or days with no memory, or plan for things in the future that you can't recall ever even looking into or scheduling. it's not a funny haha kind of thing, it's serious, and it affects a lot of people in very unavoidable ways.
not being able to plan for appointments or work schedules, not being able to remember people's names or faces, not being able to recall whether or not you were present for something or whether or not you met someone, not being able to keep track of what's happening on what dates and losing track of items because you can't remember where you put them are all very real problems, and anyone dealing with them deserves to be taken seriously, and not diminished when they choose to speak up about it.
#neurodivergence#mental health#adhd#did#ptsd#mental illness#schizophrenia#ocd#anxiety#generalized anxiety disorder#depression#bipolar disorder#bpd#borderline personality disorder#neurodivergent#autism#mental health awareness#dpdr#osdd#dissociative disorders#dissociative#depersonalization derealization#other specified dissociative disorder#memory problems#poor memory#learning disorders#chronic fatigue#neurological disability#neurological disorders#traumatic brain injury
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The Marriage Bet
Pairings: Best Friend Bucky Barnes x F!Reader
Themes: A bet. A bit of comedy but mostly fluff and Bucky treating his woman right ;)
Summary: If in three years time both of you were still single, you will marry your best friend, Bucky. That's the bet.
A/N: For those of you who voted for 'Calm Down, Dad Mode' I've added it to this story. This has got to be my favorite fluff FML. Also let me TELL YOU, the cravings in pregnancy and the emotions are real because I lived it lmao. PART 2
Three Years Ago
"You know what we should do?โ Bucky said out of the blue, his gaze fixed on you with a seriousness that made your stomach flip. The two of you had been lounging on his couch for hours, talking about everything and nothing. It was a lazy night filled with laughter, shared memories, and the kind of comfortable silence only you and Bucky knew how to savour.
You glanced over at him, raising an eyebrow. โWhat?โ
โIf weโre still single in three yearsโฆ letโs get married,โ he announced, as if it was the most logical suggestion in the world. His tone was light, but there was a quiet intensity in his eyes that made it clear he wasnโt joking.
You stared at him for a moment, trying to gauge if he was serious. โBucky, have you lost your mind?โ
โMaybe,โ he admitted with a shrug, his lips twitching up into that familiar smirk that made your heart skip. โBut think about it. No more crappy dates, no more getting your heart broken by idiots who donโt deserve you. Just us. You and me. We already know each otherโs worst habits, and we get along. Itโd be a good marriage.โ
You scoffed, shaking your head. โYou make it sound like weโre signing up for a business merger.โ
He laughed at that, the sound deep and genuine. โMaybe. But at least youโd know youโre stuck with someone whoโs never going to walk out on you. Someone whoโd fight for you.โ
The way he said it made your throat tighten, and for a second, you allowed yourself to picture it. A life with Bucky, the two of you navigating the ups and downs together. No more failed relationships, no more loneliness. Just the comfort and security of someone who knew you better than anyone else.
โYouโre serious, arenโt you?โ you murmured, still stunned by the idea.
He nodded, his gaze never leaving yours. โYeah, I am. So, what do you say?โ
You hesitated for just a beat, then broke into a grin. โDeal, Barnes. If weโre still single in three years, Iโll marry your crazy ass.โ
He grinned back, his hand shooting out to seal the promise with a firm handshake. But as your fingers clasped around his, the energy between you shifted โ playful and yet, inexplicably serious.
โDeal,โ he echoed softly, a knowing look in his eyes that sent a shiver down your spine.
ร ร ร รย
Present
You leaned against the railing of the rooftop, your eyes skimming over the city lights below as the faint notes of Taylor Swiftโs break-up songs filled the air. You and Bucky had been up here for hours, talking and drinking, the night air crisp against your skin.
It had been a rough few months for you โ the breakup still felt fresh, the sting of rejection and disappointment lingering. But being here with Bucky made it easier. He had a way of grounding you, of making you feel like everything would be okay, even when it didnโt seem that way.
โYโknow, youโre the best,โ you murmured, your words slurred slightly from the champagne. โI mean it, Buck. I donโt know what Iโd do without you.โ
He smiled softly, his gaze warm as he watched you. โGood thing you donโt have to find out, huh?โ
You nodded, letting out a sigh as you turned back to the view. โStill, I feel likeโฆ I donโt know. Like Iโm destined to be alone or something.โ
โThatโs not true,โ he said quietly, setting his glass down and turning to face you fully. โAnd you know it.โ
You shrugged, glancing over at him. โYeah, well, sometimes it feels like it. Everyone Iโve ever dated justโโ
You stopped mid-sentence as Bucky suddenly shifted, reaching into his pocket. Your eyes widened as he pulled out a small blue velvet box and, without hesitation, flipped it open. The soft light of the rooftop glinted off the 1.5-carat diamond ring nestled inside โ simple, elegant, and undeniably breathtaking.ย
โWhatโs that?โ you asked, your breath catching in your throat.
Bucky arched an eyebrow, giving you a pointed look. โAn engagement ring, Y/N. What else?โ
โYeah, I know itโs a ring!โ you sputtered, your mind reeling. โBut whyโhowโwhat are you doing with it?โ
Bucky sighed, muttering under his breath, โFor someone so smart, she really canโt see whatโs right in front of her.โ
You barely had time to process the words before he got up from his sitting position and slowly knelt down on one knee. The movement made your heart jump into your throat, your breath hitching as he looked up at you, his eyes softer than youโd ever seen them.
โI want to marry you, Y/N,โ he said, his voice firm and sure. โNot because of some bet or joke we made all those years ago, but becauseโฆ I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I want to be the one you come home to. The one who makes you laugh when youโre sad. The one who fights for you.โ
You felt your chest tighten as the weight of his words sank in, the sincerity in his voice making it almost impossible to breathe. โBuckyโฆ this isโโ
โI know this is crazy,โ he continued, cutting you off gently, his gaze never leaving yours. โBut when have we ever been normal, huh? Iโm not asking you to feel something you donโt or to change anything between us. But I am a man of my word, and Iโm keeping the promise we made.โ
Your mind raced, memories of that night flashing through your mind โ the promise, the shared laughter, the way heโd looked at you back then as if you were the only thing that mattered. And now, here he was, years later, kneeling in front of you with an engagement ring, ready to turn that promise into something real.
He took a deep breath, his hand trembling slightly as he held out the ring, his expression almost pleading. โSoโฆ will you marry me? Not because you feel like you have to, but because you want to?โ
You stared down at him, your heart pounding wildly in your chest. The world seemed to fade away, the only thing anchoring you being his blue eyes, filled with nothing but hope and determination.
โWell? Say something, sweetheart,โ he murmured, his voice barely a whisper now. โBecause Iโm dying here.โ
You let out a breathless laugh, the tears welling in your eyes spilling over as you shook your head in disbelief.ย
โYouโre really going all out, huh?โ you teased, โGetting down on one knee and everythingโฆ how could I say no to a man with such dedication?โ
Bucky blinked, caught off guard, and then let out a soft laugh of his own. โIs that a yes, or are you just stalling to make me sweat more?โ
You glanced at the ring, then back at him, a playful smirk tugging at your lips. โI guessโฆ if I have to be stuck with someone for the rest of my lifeโฆ it might as well be you.โ
โYes,โ you added quickly, your smile widening as you looked at him with all the warmth and affection you felt. โOf course itโs a yes, you idiot!โ
Relief washed over his face, his grin so wide it couldโve lit up the entire rooftop. โYou really know how to keep a guy on edge, donโt you?โ
โGotta keep things interesting,โ you replied with a laugh, reaching out to brush your fingers against his cheek. โI canโt make it too easy for you.โ
His chuckle was deep and genuine, the tension melting from his shoulders as he slipped the ring onto your finger, his eyes never leaving yours. โYou can be so mean you know that?โ
โMean?โ you scoffed, giving him a playful look of disbelief. โYouโre proposing to me, remember? Iโm just making sure you know exactly what youโre getting yourself into.โ
Bucky shook his head, laughter bubbling up in his chest. โOh, I know. And Iโm still all in, even if you make me work for it.โ
You grinned, stepping forward and wrapping your arms around him, pulling him into a tight hug. Bucky didnโt hesitate, his arms coming up to hold you close, his chin resting gently on top of your head. The warmth of his body against yours, the steady beat of his heart beneath your cheek.
Slowly, you pulled back just enough to look up at him, your chin resting on his chest as your eyes locked with his. The sound of the music drifted softly through the air, wrapping around you both like an embrace.
You could see the tenderness in his gaze, the way his eyes softened as he looked down at you. There was something indescribable in the way he held you, his hands warm and secure against your back, as if he never wanted to let go.
โYou know,โ you murmured softly, a small smile playing on your lips, โI completely forgot about that bet.โ
Buckyโs lips quirked up at the corners as he started to sway gently, rocking you both back and forth in time with the music.ย
โYeah? Good thing I havenโt.โ he agreed quietly, his voice low and filled with something that made your heart flutter.
You let out a content sigh, closing your eyes for a moment as you swayed together under the soft glow of the rooftop lights, the melody of the song weaving its way into your soul. There was a peace, a sense of rightness in the way his hands rested on your waist, the way your fingers curled into his shirt.
Opening your eyes, you tilted your head slightly, the corners of your lips curving up into a playful smile. โIโm really going to make you regret this, you know.โ
He chuckled softly, his thumb brushing gently against your side as he gazed down at you. โDoubt it. But youโre welcome to try, sweetheartโI mean what else could I possibly not know about you?โ
Your smile widened as you looked up at him, chin resting on his chest. โOh, youโll find out. Just because weโre getting married doesnโt mean Iโm not full of surprises.โ
Buckyโs eyes sparkled with amusement as he leaned down slightly, his lips brushing against your temple. โGood. I wouldnโt want it any other way.โ
โJust remember you asked for it,โ you teased, your voice soft as your fingers toyed with the collar of his shirt. โYouโre the one whoโs committing to a lifetime of never quite knowing what Iโll do next.โ
โYeah?โ he murmured, his gaze dipping to your lips before meeting your eyes again, a smile playing on his own. โI guess I like keeping things interesting, too.โ
A laugh bubbled up in your chest, and you felt the tension melt away as you both swayed gently to the music. It felt like a new beginning โ a promise that whatever came next, youโd be facing it together.
ร ร ร ร
A few months later.
The garden was alive with soft laughter and murmurs as the afternoon sunlight filtered through the canopy of leaves. The air was filled with the delicate scent of roses and jasmine, and the gentle rustling of leaves provided the perfect backdrop for the small, intimate gathering of friends.
Bucky stood under the floral archway, his suit somehow both perfectly fitted and slightly askew in that way only Bucky could pull off. He shifted his weight from one foot to the other, his fingers drumming absently on his thigh. When you turned the corner, your eyes met his, and you couldnโt help but smile at the exaggerated sigh of relief he let out.
โThank God you showed up,โ he teased, his voice carrying over the gentle breeze. โThought Iโd have to marry Sam instead.โ
You laughed, rolling your eyes as you made your way down the short aisle, trying to ignore the way your heart fluttered in your chest. โYeah, yeah, keep it up, Barnes. Heโd leave you at the altar, you know.โ
Bucky grinned, his shoulders relaxing as you stepped up to him. โTrue. He couldnโt handle my morning breath.โ
The officiant cleared his throat gently, drawing soft chuckles from your friends. Buckyโs gaze stayed locked on yours, a playful twinkle in his eyes as if you were sharing a private joke no one else could understand.
โYou ready for this?โ he murmured softly, his tone light but his smile genuine.
โReady as Iโll ever be,โ you replied, giving him a small nod.
The ceremony was simple and sweet, with your closest friends standing in a loose circle around you, their smiles reflecting the joy and camaraderie that had always defined your relationship with Bucky.ย
When it came time for the vows, Bucky cleared his throat dramatically, pulling a crumpled piece of paper from his pocket.
โIโm not good at this stuff,โ he began, waving the paper around, โso I wrote it down. Just so I donโt forget the important parts. Like promising I wonโt eat your fries without asking.โ
You let out a snort, shaking your head. โSo thatโs why youโre marrying me? For my fries?โ
โPartly,โ Bucky said with a wink, earning a few laughs from your friends. โBut seriouslyโฆ I promise to always be your partner in crime. To watch bad movies with you, to be your go-to plus-one for all those events you hate, and to be the one you can call at 3 a.m. when the world feels like too much.โ
His voice softened slightly, his gaze never wavering from yours. โI promise to be your best friend, to listen, and to support you. And yeah, to not eat your fries โ unless youโre not looking.โ
You chuckled, blinking back the unexpected prickle of tears. โDamn, Barnes. Setting the bar high for husband material, arenโt you?โ
โSomeoneโs gotta do it,โ he replied with a smirk.
When it was your turn, you took a deep breath, glancing down at your own slightly crumpled paper. โBucky, I promise to keep being your reality check, to make sure you donโt take yourself too seriously. I promise to help you with your crazy woodworking projects, even when you refuse to read the instructions. And I promise to be your partner in all things โ the weird, the good, and the unpredictable.โ
Buckyโs grin softened into a small, genuine smile, his eyes crinkling at the corners. โI think weโre gonna be pretty good at this whole marriage thing.โ
โI think so too,โ you murmured back.
The officiantโs voice broke through the quiet moment, his smile warm. โBy the power vested in me, I now pronounce you husband and wife. Bucky, you may nowโโ
โWait,โ Bucky interrupted, holding up a hand as he turned to you, his expression half-serious, half-teasing. โCan I kiss you?โ
You blinked, surprised. โWhat?โ
โYou know,โ he said, shrugging a shoulder like it was the most natural thing in the world. โThis is technically our first kiss. I want to get it right. Soโฆ how do you like it?โ
A burst of laughter escaped you, the tension in your shoulders melting away as the sheer Bucky-ness of the question made you grin. โYouโre unbelievable, you know that?โ
โCome on, humor me,โ he pressed, a mischievous glint in his eyes. โSlow? Gentle? Or should I just go for it?โ
You shook your head, still laughing softly. โJustโฆ kiss me, you goof.โ
Bucky grinned, his eyes twinkling with affection. โAlright, Mrs. Barnes,โ he said softly, leaning in. โIโll make it good.โ
His grin widened and shifts a little closer to you, Bucky dipped his head and you felt your noses brush. His breath is on your lips, and you quiver a bit at the odd sensation. Without another moment to spare you realise that he's pressing his lips to yoursโit was nothing like youโd expected. His hand slipped to the small of your back, drawing you closer, his eyes fully closed. Bucky was concentrating on the kiss, and you realised that your eyes were wide open. Slowly you close them, hiding away your brilliant orbs.ย
Buckyโs lips are oddly doft in this kiss and it stays slow and sweet. He wrapped his arm around you more, lifting you slightly off your feet. The veil fluttered around you like a soft cocoon, and then everything disappeared as his mouth moved insync with you, his kiss remained slowly, his mouth molding against yours in a way that made your knees weak.
His fingers gently tangled in your hair, his thumb brushing softly along your cheekbone as if he couldnโt bear to stop touching you.
But then he shifted, tilting your head just slightly as he deepened the kiss, his hold around you tightening. It was then that you felt him let go completely โ every barrier, every wall heโd kept up around himself crumbling as he poured everything into that kiss.ย
Somewhere in the distance, you could hear the faint cheers and whistles of your friendsโSam being the most obnoxiousโbut it all felt like background noise. It was just you and Bucky, wrapped up in this kiss that felt like it had been building up for years. His lips slid over yours with a kind of sweet intensity, a silent confession of everything he hadnโt said โ of everything he didnโt know how to say.
When he finally pulled back, his forehead resting gently against yours, both of you were breathless, hearts pounding in unison. He didnโt let go, his arms still wrapped around you as if you might disappear if he loosened his grip.
A soft cheer went up from your friendsโSam being the most obviousโ and Buckyโs grin turned almost smug. โHow was that?โ
You let out a shaky laugh, your hands clutching his shoulders as you tried to steady yourself. โYeah, Buck. I think you got it just right.โ
โGood,โ he murmured, his eyes searching yours for a long, lingering moment before his smile widened into something boyish and relieved. โJust wanted to make sure.โ
โDonโt worry,โ you teased gently, brushing your thumb over his cheek. โYouโre not getting rid of me after a kiss like that.โ
Buckyโs laugh was soft, his nose brushing against yours. โGuess I should keep practicing, huh?โ
You nodded, your grin matching his. โYeah. Keep practicing, Barnes.โ
And as he pulled you in for another kiss, slower and just as sweet as the first, you knew that this โ all of this โ was exactly how it was meant to be.
ร ร ร ร
1.5 years later
You were pacing back and forth in the bathroom, your heart hammering in your chest. Every few seconds, your eyes would dart to the three little sticks sitting ominously on the edge of the sink โ three white, plastic harbingers of potential chaos.
โCome on, come on, come on,โ you whispered frantically to yourself, squeezing your eyes shut as if willing the tests to disappear โ or at least show some clarity.
How did it come to this? You were supposed to be life partners โ partners in crime, best friends โ no strings attached, no expectations. Just two people who promised to be there for each other. Sure, you got married, but it was all because of the bet. A way to keep each other from loneliness, you both said. Nothing more, right?
Except somewhere along the line, late-night talks had turned into stolen kisses. Comforting hugs had turned into tangled limbs. And nowโฆ this.
โOh my god, heโs going to flip,โ you muttered, running a hand through your hair as you stared at the still-blank screens on the tests. โThis isnโt how we were supposed toโโ
โSupposed to what?โ
You jumped about a foot in the air, letting out a small squeak of surprise as Buckyโs voice filled the bathroom. You whipped around, your heart nearly leaping out of your chest as you spotted him leaning casually against the doorframe, an amused smirk on his lips.
โBucky! Donโtโdonโt just sneak up on people like that!โ you stammered, instinctively shuffling over to the sink to block his view.
His smirk widened. โI didnโt sneak. Youโre just too distracted, sweetheart.โ He pushed off the doorframe, crossing his arms as he stepped closer. โWhatโs going on in here?โ
โNothing!โ you squeaked, your voice a little too high-pitched.
Buckyโs eyebrows shot up. โUh-huh. So, youโre just hanging out in the bathroom, talking to yourself?โ
โYes!โ you answered quickly, nodding like a bobblehead. โYep, just a totally normal conversation withโฆ myself. Very productive.โ
He eyed you, suspicion etched all over his face. โUh-huh. And why do you look like youโve seen a ghost?โ
โI donโt!โ you lied, crossing your arms over your chest as if that could somehow shield you from his scrutiny.
Bucky took another step closer, his gaze flicking over your shoulder. โThen why are you standing like that?โ
You moved subtly, trying to casually scoot to the left, but your back hit the edge of the sink. โLike what?โ
โLike youโre hiding something,โ he said, leaning down slightly to look your directly in the eyes. โWhatโs behind you, Y/N?โ
โNothing!โ you insisted, but your hand twitched involuntarily, knocking into one of the sticks. It clattered onto the counter, bouncing once before rolling to a stop right at Buckyโs feet.
You froze.
Buckyโs eyes flicked down to the test, and his entire expression shifted โ from curiosity to confusion to wide-eyed realization.
โWaitโฆ is that aโ?โ
โNo!โ you yelped, diving forward to snatch up the stick and hide it behind your back. You stood there, breathing heavily, your face flushed with a mix of panic and embarrassment.
Buckyโs gaze slid back to you, his lips quirking into an incredulous smile. โY/N, are thoseโฆ pregnancy tests?โ
You glanced around desperately, as if you could conjure up some kind of diversion to steer the conversation elsewhere. โUhโฆ no? Maybe?โ
โSweetheartโฆโ Bucky stepped around your easily, and in one quick motion, he plucked the other two tests off the sink. He held them up, his eyes wide and eyebrows nearly disappearing into his hairline. โThere are three.โ
โYeah, wellโฆ you know, the first one could be a fluke, and the second one too, andโฆโ you trailed off, wincing at how ridiculous you sounded.
Bucky blinked, then let out a bark of laughter. โThree tests, huh? Youโre nothing if not thorough.โ
โBucky!โ you hissed, mortification washing over you. โThis isnโt funny!โ
โMaybe not,โ he admitted, though his lips were still twitching with amusement. โBut youโre freaking out over here, hiding them like I wasnโt gonna notice.โ
โI wasnโt freaking out!โ you lied, folding your arms across your chest again. โI was justโฆ assessing the situation.โ
He raised an eyebrow, waving one of the tests in front of your face. โAssessing, huh? And whatโs the situation, then?โ
You groaned, squeezing your eyes shut. โI donโt know, okay? I havenโt looked at them yet!โ
There was a beat of silence. Thenโ
โWait, you havenโt looked?โ Buckyโs voice was filled with genuine disbelief. โYouโve been pacing around in here, stressing yourself out, and you havenโt even checked?โ
โIโm not ready!โ you snapped defensively. โI meanโฆ what if theyโre positive?โ
Buckyโs grin softened into something more genuine, and he stepped forward, gently cupping your cheek. โThen theyโre positive.โ
Your eyes met his, the sincerity and calmness in his gaze making some of your panic ebb away. โBut weโre not evenโ I mean, this was supposed to beโโ
โA bet?โ he finished softly, a hint of something unreadable in his eyes. โYeah. I remember. But bets donโt always go the way you plan.โ
You swallowed hard, your heart still hammering wildly. โYouโre notโฆ mad?โ
โMad?โ he repeated, his expression incredulous. โWhy the hell would I be mad? I mean, sure, this is unexpected. But mad?โ He shook his head, chuckling softly. โCโmon, Y/N. You really think Iโd be mad about having a family with you?โ
The words made your heart stutter, and you stared up at him, wide-eyed. โBuckyโฆโ
โLetโs just see what they say, alright?โ he murmured gently, stepping back and nodding toward the tests. โNo more freaking out until we know.โ
With trembling hands, you turned each test over, your breath hitching as you looked at the results.
Positive.
Positive.
Positive.
Buckyโs grin had barely faded before the reality of the situation seemed to really hit him this time. His gaze drifted back to the three tests lined up on the sink, and you watched as his face slowly drained of colour.
โBucky?โ you asked cautiously, noticing the way his grip on your arm loosened slightly.
He blinked, his eyes darting between you and the tests like he was trying to solve some impossible puzzle. โSo, uhโฆ positive. All three?โ
You nodded slowly, worry beginning to creep back in. โYeah, Buck. All three.โ
โOhโฆ Oh, wow,โ he muttered, his eyes widening. โThatโsโฆ thatโs a lot of positive.โ
โBuckyโโ
โI mean, I knew one was a lot, but three๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝpositives?โ he rambled, swaying slightly on his feet. โThatโsโฆ thatโs a whole lot ofโฆ baby.โ
โBucky, are you okay?โ you asked, reaching out to steady him as his face turned even paler.
โIโmโyeah, I justโโ He stopped mid-sentence, his eyes rolling back slightly as his knees buckled.
โBucky!โ you shouted, grabbing for him as he crumpled to the floor in a faint.
You managed to catch his weight just enough to keep him from completely knocking his head on the tiles, though it took every ounce of strength you had to keep him semi-upright.
โAre you freaking kidding me?โ you huffed, looking down at his unconscious form with a mix of exasperation and disbelief. โYouโre the one who said youโd be fine with this!โ
He let out a soft, incoherent groan, his head lolling to the side as you carefully lowered him all the way to the ground and raised his legs above his head for bloodflow.
โOf course youโd faint, you big drama queen,โ you muttered, crouching down beside him and lightly patting his cheeks. โCome on, Buck. Wake up. Iโm not doing this alone, you hear me?โ
After a few more pats and murmured reassurances, his eyelids fluttered open, and he blinked up at you, dazed and confused.
โY/N?โ he mumbled, his voice slurred. โWhatโฆ what happened?โ
โYou fainted, you big idiot,โ you said, the frustration in your tone softened by the overwhelming relief that he was okay. โOver three little tests.โ
Bucky stared at you blankly, then his gaze drifted back to the sink where the tests still sat in a neat row, mocking him with their tiny positive signs.
โOhโฆ right,โ he murmured, his face scrunching up as he tried to process it all again. โSo it wasnโt a dream?โ
โNope.โ You shook your head, giving him a half-smile. โDefinitely not a dream.โ
โDamn,โ he breathed, a small, disbelieving laugh escaping him as he ran a hand through his hair. โI really fainted, huh?โ
โYeah, you did,โ you replied, unable to keep the amusement out of your voice. โAnd youโre lucky I didnโt let you hit your head.โ
He chuckled weakly, his gaze still lingering on the tests. Then, slowly, he reached up, his hand finding yours and squeezing gently.
โI love you, Y/N, you know that?โ he mumbled, his voice soft and a little slurred as he still looked dazed. โNot like a friend, but yโknowโฆ like, love love.โ
You blinked at him, surprised by the sudden confession. A laugh bubbled up in your throat, the ridiculousness of the situation hitting you all over again. โBucky, youโre still out of it.โ
โYeah, probably,โ he murmured, blinking up at you with a lopsided grin. โBut doesnโt make it any less true.โ
Shaking your head, you leaned down and pressed a kiss to his forehead, your smile softening. โI know, Buck. Weโll talk about that later when youโre not busy fainting over pregnancy tests, okay?โ
โโKay,โ he mumbled, his eyelids drooping slightly. โBut justโฆ so you know.โ
โI know,โ you repeated gently, brushing a strand of hair away from his forehead. โJust rest for a second, and then weโll figure this all out together.โ
He nodded slowly, his eyes drifting shut for a moment before he opened them again, looking at you with a sleepy smile. โWeโre really gonna be parents, huh?โ
โYeah,โ you whispered, your heart swelling with affection. โWe really are.โ
โCool,โ he murmured, his head lolling back against the bathroom tiles. โLove you, Y/Nโฆ love love.โ
You chuckled softly, shaking your head as you sat beside him, holding his hand. โLove you too, Bucky. Now, no more fainting, okay?โ
โNo promises,โ he mumbled, but his grip tightened around your hand, as if even in his half-conscious state, he didnโt want to let go.
And as you sat there on the bathroom floor, Bucky still looking a little woozy but smiling up at you with that goofy, endearing grin, you couldnโt help but think that maybe โ just maybe โ everything was going to be just fine.
ร ร ร ร
First Trimester.
The clock on the kitchen wall glowed a soft, accusatory 2:37 a.m. as Bucky shuffled groggily into the dimly lit space, scratching at his head. He was half-asleep, dressed in rumpled sweatpants and a t-shirt that had seen better days, and still trying to figure out why heโd been dragged from his warm bed.
He paused mid-step when he spotted you sitting at the kitchen table, your shoulders hunched, face buried in your hands. He blinked, his brain struggling to catch up with the situation. โUh, sweetheartโฆ whatโs going on?โ
Your only response was a pitiful sniffle, followed by another one. Buckyโs brows shot up in alarm, and he quickly moved to your side, crouching down in front of you.
โHey, hey, whatโs wrong?โ he asked softly, peering up at you with wide, concerned eyes. โDid something happen?โ
You shook your head, letting out a small, hiccuping sob. โIโฆ I really wantedโฆ chocolate chip pancakesโฆ with whipped cream and strawberriesโฆโ
Bucky blinked again, glancing around the empty kitchen as if he expected a stack of pancakes to magically appear on the counter. โOkayโฆ uhโฆ we donโt have any of that stuff right now, but I can go to the storeโโ
โEverythingโs closed!โ you wailed, cutting him off with a fresh wave of tears. โAnd I really wanted it now!โ
The sheer devastation in your voice made Buckyโs heart clench in sympathy โ but a very tiny, very unhelpful part of him also found it hilariously absurd. He had fought aliens, Hydra agents, and all manner of nightmaresโฆ but heโd never faced down a pregnant wife in the throes of a pancake craving at nearly 3 a.m.
โOh,โ he said lamely, scratching his head again as he tried to think of a solution that didnโt involve breaking into the nearest IHOP. โOkay, umโฆ we can make pancakes without chocolate chips, right?โ
โBut I donโt want plain pancakes!โ you cried, your voice wobbling dangerously. โI want chocolate chip pancakes! Andโฆ and I want whipped cream on top, but we donโt have any!โ
Bucky swallowed, his panic rising as you continued to cry. He was the Winter Soldier, damn it. He could handle this. There had to be a way out of this. โOkay, alright. Just breathe, okay? How aboutโฆ uhโฆ what if I make you some toast? Iโll put some Nutella on it? Itโs kind of like chocolate.โ
โItโs not the same!โ you sobbed, burying your face in your hands again. โI wantโฆ pancakesโฆโ
Bucky let out a helpless laugh, running a hand down his face as he glanced at the empty fridge like it was somehow betraying him. โBaby, youโre killing me here.โ
You sniffled, peeking out from between your fingers with watery eyes. โYou donโt understand, Buck. I can taste the pancakes. I can taste the strawberriesโฆ I can feel the whipped creamโฆโ
Bucky opened his mouth, then closed it again, at a complete loss for words. โYeah, uh, I canโt pull that out of thin air. Butโฆโ He glanced around, his gaze falling on a tub of vanilla ice cream in the freezer. โWhat if I make you a sundae? Itโs kinda like a pancakeโฆ just cold.โ
โNoโฆโ You shook your head, another tear rolling down your cheek. โItโs not pancakesโฆโ
Bucky let out a long, dramatic sigh, his hands resting on his knees. โOkay, okay. Hereโs the deal. Tomorrow morning, Iโm gonna wake up, and Iโm going to go get you all the chocolate chips and whipped cream and strawberries you want, alright? Iโll make a pancake buffet.โ
โBut I want it now,โ you murmured miserably, rubbing at your eyes.
โI know, sweetheart. I know,โ he cooed gently, reaching out to pat your head awkwardly. โBut unless you want me to bust into some diner and get myself arrested, Iโm gonna need you to hang in there for a few more hours.โ
Your lips trembled, and you nodded reluctantly, sniffling again. โIโm being ridiculous, arenโt I?โ
Bucky smiled softly, his heart melting a little. โNah. Youโre growing a tiny human.โ Then, with a mischievous glint in his eyes, he added, โAlthough, I gotta say, if I can handle your craving meltdowns, I think I deserve some kind of medal. Or at least, likeโฆ superhero husband status.โ
A small, watery laugh escaped you despite yourself, and Buckyโs smile widened triumphantly.
โThere she is,โ he murmured, leaning up to press a kiss to your temple. โLook, we canโt have pancakes right now, but how about we get creative? Maybe I can whip something up with what we do have? Iโm talking PB&J sandwich sculptures. Or,โ he gasped dramatically, โa waffle made out of popcorn!โ
Your eyebrows furrowed, but the corners of your mouth twitched. โPopcorn waffles?โ
โHey, donโt knock it โtil you try it,โ he said with an exaggeratedly serious expression. โThis could be a revolutionary invention, Y/N. We could change the breakfast game forever.โ
You couldnโt help but giggle, wiping at your tears as Buckyโs ridiculousness slowly chased away the lingering sadness. โYouโre such a weirdo, you know that?โ
โYeah, but you married me,โ he shot back, a grin spreading across his face. โSo whoโs the real weirdo?โ
โStill you,โ you teased softly, shaking your head.
Bucky let out a mock gasp, clutching his chest dramatically. โWow, so rude. No respect for the man whoโs about to go MacGyver your snack cravings at 3 a.m.โ
You smiled despite yourself, reaching out to take his hand. โThank you, Buck.โ
โAnything for you, sweetheart,โ he murmured, squeezing your hand gently. โNow, what do you say we get a little creative in this kitchen and see if we canโt make something thatโll make these pancake cravings shut up for a bit?โ
โOkay,โ you agreed, the warmth of his hand in yours grounding you. โBut Iโm holding you to that pancake buffet tomorrow morning.โ
โPancake buffet with extra chocolate chips, whipped cream, and strawberries,โ he promised with a mock salute. โYouโve got my word.โ
And as Bucky scoured the pantry for the weirdest possible combinations โ โHow do you feel about a peanut butter, banana, and potato chip sandwich?โ โ you couldnโt help but laugh, the weight of your cravings lightening in the face of his relentless optimism and willingness to do whatever it took to make you smile.
โWorldโs best husband,โ you murmured fondly as he started arranging sandwich slices into a goofy face.
โDamn right,โ he replied with a wink, holding up the plate proudly. โAnd this? This is my masterpiece.โ
You took one look at the ridiculous sandwich sculpture โ a lopsided smile made from pickle slices and a beard of crumbled crackers โ and the tears came flooding back, but this time they were unstoppable.
โBuckyโฆ youโreโฆ youโre the best husbandโฆ in the world!โ you sobbed, your shoulders shaking as you buried your face in your hands.
โWhoa, whoa, waitโhold on!โ Bucky stammered, his eyes widening in alarm as he quickly set the plate down and moved back to your side. โWhatโฆ why are you crying? Sweetheart, itโs just a sandwich! A really ugly sandwich, butโโ
You let out another wail, shaking your head as more tears spilled over. โNo, itโs not that! Itโs you! Youโre just soโso good, and sweet, andโand I donโt deserve you!โ
Bucky froze, his mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water.ย
โWait, what? Where did that come from?โ He rubbed the back of his neck, glancing around as if he expected someone to pop out with a manual for how to handle this. โHey, you deserve everything, okay? Even pancakes at 3 a.m. if I could make it happen.โ
โI justโฆ youโre always trying so hard, and youโre justโฆ youโre amazing,โ you whimpered, reaching out to grab his hand like it was a lifeline. โAnd Iโm crying because I canโt have pancakes, and Iโm a mess, and youโre making me a weird pickle-beard sandwichโฆโ
Bucky stared at you, completely lost, before he finally let out a helpless, incredulous laugh. โOkay, okay, Iโm officially out of my depth here,โ he muttered, gently pulling you into his arms and patting your back awkwardly. โBut hey, letโs save the compliments for when Iโm not half-asleep, yeah?โ
You nodded miserably against his chest, your sobs starting to subside as his steady heartbeat grounded you.
โGood, because youโre gonna make me cry if you keep this up,โ he joked softly, running a soothing hand through your hair. โAnd no one wants to see the Winter Soldier ugly-cry over a pancake buffet.โ
You let out a watery giggle at that, sniffling as you pulled back to look up at him. โYouโre really gonna get me all the pancakes tomorrow?โ
โEvery last one,โ he promised, his smile gentle and reassuring. โNow come on, letโs see if we can make this popcorn waffle thing work. Youโll need to tell our kid one day that their mom ate the weirdest thing ever while pregnant,โ Bucky finished with a grin, his hand sliding down to gently cup your cheek as he wiped away the lingering tears with his thumb. โThat way, when they give us a hard time as teenagers, I can say, โHey, kid, I made your mom a popcorn waffle at 3 a.m. She bettered have loved me.โโ
You laughed again, hiccupping through the tears as you tried to calm yourself. โYouโre crazy, you know that?โ
Bucky shrugged, his lips twitching up into a lopsided smile. โMaybe. But you married me, so what does that say about you?โ
โThat Iโm a glutton for punishment,โ you teased softly, feeling some of the tension start to ease as his thumb continued its gentle, comforting strokes on your cheek.
โOr just smart enough to know when youโve got a good thing,โ he murmured back, leaning down to press a soft, lingering kiss to your forehead. โAnd Iโm gonna keep being that good thing โ even when it means making bizarre snacks and wrangling your tears at stupid oโclock in the morning.โ
You let out a shaky breath, smiling up at him as you looped your arms around his neck. โI love you, Bucky.โ
His eyes softened, his gaze locking onto yours as he leaned in to nuzzle his nose against yours. โI love you too, sweetheart. And weโre gonna figure out this whole craving thing. Even if it means starting a midnight pancake truck or something.โ
The image of Bucky in an apron, serving pancakes from a food truck, was so ridiculous that you let out a genuine, hearty laugh. โA pancake truck?โ
โWhy not?โ He smirked, his fingers playing with a lock of your hair. โIโd be the hottest pancake chef around. Weโd have a line out the door.โ
โBecause everyoneโs desperate for pancakes at three in the morning?โ you asked, still smiling.
โExactly,โ he said with a mock-serious nod. โTheyโd be calling me the Pancake Soldier instead of the Winter Soldier.โ
You couldnโt help but burst into laughter again, your earlier tears completely forgotten. โI swear, youโre impossible, Bucky Barnes.โ
โImpossible and all yours,โ he said with a wink, then glanced at the kitchen. โNow, how about we whip up some sort of Frankenstein snack to tide you over until the morning, huh?โ
With another sniffle and a smile, you nodded. โAlright. But Iโm still holding you to that pancake buffet.โ
โWouldnโt dream of backing out,โ he promised, kissing your forehead again before guiding you to a chair. โYou sit right here, and let Chef Barnes work his magic.โ
You watched as Bucky moved around the kitchen, his clumsy efforts at โcreativeโ snack-making bringing a smile to your face despite the ridiculousness of it all. He muttered under his breath, concocting weird combinations โ โWhat if we crush some pretzels on top?โ โ and talking to the food like it would reveal some hidden trick.
Eventually, he managed to cobble together another makeshift treat: a peanut butter, banana, and honey sandwich with a few random M&Ms sprinkled on top for good measure. It looked as chaotic as you felt, but the effort and love behind it made your heart swell.
You stared at the messy sandwich, your lips trembling again โ but this time with a whole different set of emotions.
โHey, no more tears,โ Bucky said quickly, holding up his hands in mock surrender. โIโm running out of ideas here, babe.โ
โIโm not crying,โ you sniffed, reaching out to take a bite. โItโs justโฆ youโre really, really sweet, and I donโt know what Iโd do without you.โ
Bucky let out a soft chuckle, reaching over to give your knee a gentle squeeze. โLucky for you, youโll never have to find out. Iโm not going anywhere, okay?โ
โOkay,โ you whispered, your heart feeling lighter than it had all night.
โGood.โ He smiled, leaning back in his chair as he watched you take another bite. โNow eat up, because come morning, Iโm getting up at dawn to get everything we need for that pancake buffet. Youโre gonna be the happiest pancake-eating pregnant lady in the world.โ
โAnd youโre gonna be the best pancake-making husband in the world,โ you replied with a soft smile, warmth spreading through your chest.
โDamn right,โ Bucky murmured, his voice filled with so much affection it made your heart skip a beat.
As you finished the bizarre snack and Bucky continued to ramble on about potential pancake flavors and topping combinations, you couldnโt help but feel overwhelmingly grateful.
Because, bizarre cravings and all, there was no one else youโd rather navigate the chaos with than him โ your best friend, your partner, your ridiculous, wonderful Bucky Barnes.
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Third Trimester
Buckyโs overprotectiveness had started out in small, endearing waysโlike lingering in doorways or making sure you had an extra pillow at night. But as your pregnancy progressed, so did his paranoia, turning him into an almost comical shadow of your once-confident, battle-hardened husband.
It began with the shoelaces.
โWait, wait, wait.โ He practically skidded across the living room to kneel at your feet just as you were about to bend down to tie your sneakers. You straightened up, raising a brow, watching him fumble with the laces like it was a complex puzzle rather than a simple bow.
โBucky, itโs just tying my shoes. I can do that,โ you pointed out gently, but he shook his head fervently.
โNot risking it. What if you lose your balance?โ His words were muffled as he double-knotted the laces, his shoulders hunched like he was shielding you from some invisible force.
โIโm not gonna lose my balance,โ you murmured, amused. โIโve been tying my own shoes for decades.โ
โThereโs a first for everything.โ He tightened the bow a little too firmly, making you flinch. He winced in apology and adjusted it again, softer this time, before peering up at you with those intense blue eyes, a mix of worry and resolve. โHumor me, okay?โ
You sighed, relenting with a small nod. โOkay. But just so you know, youโre not going to be doing this every single time.โ
He grinnedโvictorious, as if you hadnโt noticed how he conveniently โlostโ all your slip-ons just last week.
Then there was the laundry basket incident.
It happened when you were carrying a half-full basket of towels from the dryer. Youโd barely made it halfway down the hall when Bucky materialized out of nowhere, intercepting you like you were carrying live explosives.
โWhoa, whoa, whoaโwhat do you think youโre doing?โ His voice was all mock-seriousness, but there was genuine concern underlining it as he gently pried the basket from your hands.
โLaundry?โ you deadpanned, trying to tug it back, but he held firm.
โNot anymore, youโre not.โ He shot you a look that dared you to argue as he held the basket up high, well out of your reach. โYou donโt need to be lugging this around.โ
โItโs not even heavy!โ you protested, exasperation seeping into your tone.
He scoffed. โDoesnโt matter. Iโll take it. Just point me to where you want it.โ
Grumbling, you pointed down the hallway. โOur bedroom.โ
โSee?โ he said with a self-satisfied smile, striding down the hall like he was conquering new territory. โNo big deal.โ
You had to fight back an eye roll. โYouโre gonna be like this until the baby is born, arenโt you?โ
โProbably,โ he called over his shoulder, unashamed.
It didnโt stop there, of course. In the kitchen, heโd barely let you near the sink.
One morning, youโd decided to tackle the breakfast dishesโsomething you could usually manage without too much hassle. But as soon as you set the first dish into the soapy water, Buckyโs hand appeared out of nowhere, lightly shoving you to the side.
โExcuse me,โ he muttered, though it was clear he wasnโt asking for permission. โYour bellyโs gonna bump into the counter. Let me do it.โ
โBuckyโโ
โLet. Me. Do it,โ he insisted, holding a soapy plate hostage as he gazed at you, lips set in a stubborn line.
With a sigh, you threw your hands up in surrender. โFine. But Iโm not a porcelain doll, okay? I can do dishes just fine.โ
โSure,โ he replied, but he was already washing the dishes with focused precision, occasionally glancing at you to make sure you hadnโt slipped or stumbled in the two feet heโd moved you back.
It was both infuriating and endearing, and it made you love him even moreโthough youโd never admit it when he was acting like a hovering mother hen.
The grocery trips were almost unbearable. Heโd insisted on coming along, despite your reassurances that you were perfectly capable of picking up a few items.
โWe need milk,โ you pointed out, motioning toward the far end of the aisle.
โGot it,โ he said immediately, guiding the cart forward with one hand and slipping his other arm around your waist as if to support your entire body weight.
You shot him a look. โI can still walk, you know.โ
โOf course you can,โ he agreed with a grin. โIโm justโฆ helping you waddle.โ
โWaddle?โ You narrowed your eyes, smacking his arm lightly. โDid you just call me a waddler?โ
โUmโฆโ He glanced at you sheepishly, realizing his mistake a second too late. โNo?โ
โYeah, nice try.โ You huffed, crossing your arms.
โAlright, alright, bad choice of words. Iโm just keeping pace with you,โ he corrected, slowing his stride even more so that the two of you were practically moving in slow motion down the aisle.
You couldnโt help but laugh, shaking your head at the ridiculousness of it all. โIf we go any slower, weโll start moving backwards.โ
Bucky just chuckled, his arm tightening around you protectively. โIโll take my chances.โ
By the time you reached the milk, you were almost tempted to ask him to sprint the rest of the way just to get it over with. But the truth was, there was something undeniably sweet about having Bucky hover around like this.
โLet me guess,โ you teased as you plucked a carton of milk off the shelf. โYou want to carry this too?โ
โOf course,โ he said, already reaching for it, his expression deadly serious.
You held on to the carton just long enough to make him sweat before handing it over. โYouโre unbelievable, you know that?โ
โUnbelievably in love with you,โ he replied easily, leaning down to press a soft kiss to your temple.
โSmooth,โ you muttered, your lips twitching into a reluctant smile.
With Bucky being his overprotective self, you had no doubt that heโd be like this for the next few monthsโand likely long after the baby was born. But as much as you complained, deep down, you knew you wouldnโt trade it for anything in the world.
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โBucky, for the last time, itโs just a shoe box,โ you emphasise, glancing at your husband as he carefully hoists the empty box off the couch like itโs made of glass.
โDoesnโt matter,โ he mumbles, eyes darting suspiciously to the plain cardboard. โYou shouldnโt be carrying anything in your condition.โ
โCondition? Bucky, Iโm pregnant, not broken.โ You cross your arms, watching as he tucks the box under his arm like itโs a rare artefact. The man is a walking, talking fortress of muscle, but right now, his overprotectiveness is reaching absurd levels.
โAnd nearly at your due date,โ he points out, placing the box on the counter with a sigh of relief as if heโs saved you from imminent danger. โIโve read all the books. I know how this goes.โ
You snort, shaking your head. โOh, yeah? So whatโs the worst that could happen if I pick up a shoe box?โ
Bucky turns to you with a dead-serious expression.ย
โItโs not about the weight. Itโs aboutโฆโ he falters, eyes scanning your swollen belly, โโฆstability. Your centre of gravity is off right now. A box could trip you.โ
โA box could trip me?โ You arch a brow, incredulous. โReally?โ
โYes!โ His tone is insistent, and you have to bite back a laugh. This is the same man who once told a pack of HYDRA agents they were outnumberedโjust because it was him and Steve versus a dozen of them. But now, heโs reduced to eyeing an empty cardboard box like itโs a mortal enemy.
Sighing, you sit back on the couch, deciding itโs not worth the argument. Besides, thereโs a certain charm in seeing the Winter Soldier so worked up over an inanimate object. You lean back, letting out a small groan as you shift your weight.
Buckyโs been hovering around you all day like a lost puppy, eyes following your every move. The moment you make the slightest sound, his head whips around, concern flickering in his eyes. So when you groan, immediately, heโs by your side, eyes wide, hands hovering over your belly.
โWhat? Whatโs wrong? Is it time? Should I get the bag?โ
โCalm down, Dad-mode. Iโm just stretching.โ You roll your eyes, but you canโt hide the smile tugging at your lips. โYouโve gotta stop panicking every time I make a sound.โ
โEvery time you make a sound, it could be something serious!โ Bucky exclaims, sounding almost affronted. โDo you know what itโs like hearing you groan and not knowing if itโs โI want ice creamโ or โIโm about to go into laborโ?โ
โSounds like a personal problem,โ you tease.
He huffs, muttering something about โpregnancy hormones,โ and kneels down in front of you. Strong hands lift your foot gently, and he starts massaging your arch. You sigh, instantly melting under his touch.
โBetter?โ His voice is softer now, concern etched in every syllable.
โMuch better,โ you mumble, letting out a little moan as he presses down on a particularly tight knot.
โHey, hey, hey!โ Bucky freezes, eyes wide again. โWhatโs that? Pain?โ
โRelax,โ you say, though your voice is slightly breathless. โItโs the good kind of pain. Keep going.โ
You lean your head back, closing your eyes as Bucky continues the foot massage. The man has hands that could crush stone, but right now, heโs so gentle you almost feel like youโre floating. Itโs hard not to feel a little spoiled under his doting care.
But just when youโre getting lost in the bliss of his hands working away the tension, you catch his face out of the corner of your eye. Buckyโs brow is furrowed, and his expression is one of fierce concentration, like heโs facing down a particularly difficult opponent. You stifle a giggleโonly Bucky could make a foot massage seem like a high-stakes mission.
โAlright, alright, enough of that,โ you say, reaching down to tug on his hand. โIf you keep looking at my foot like that, you might set it on fire.โ
Bucky blinks up at you, clearly having forgotten where he was. He chuckles, the sound low and almost shy. โCanโt help it. I justโฆ I want to make sure Iโm doing it right.โ
โBucky, itโs a foot massage, not defusing a bomb.โ You roll your eyes again, but your heart swells at his concern. โYouโre doing it perfectly.โ
A faint blush colors his cheeks, but he lets out a small huff, pretending to be grumpy. โIโll take that as a compliment.โ
Then, without warning, he shifts beside you on the couch, a determined look settling on his face. โNow, hold still.โ
Before you can ask what heโs up to, Bucky leans down, pressing his ear gently against your belly. Youโre about to ask him if heโs comfortable, but the sheer look of wonder on his face stops you short. His eyes close, and he inhales deeply, as if trying to capture every little movement your baby girl makes.
โHey, there, sweetheart,โ Bucky murmurs softly, his voice dropping to a gentle whisper. His fingers splay across your belly, his thumb tracing small, soothing circles. โItโs your dad. Just wanted to check in on you, make sure youโre being good for your mama.โ
You bite your lip, warmth spreading through your chest at the sight. The fierce Winter Soldier, the man with a list of enemies longer than most peopleโs grocery lists, reduced to talking softly to your baby girl like sheโs the most delicate thing in the world.
โSheโs probably plotting her escape already,โ you joke quietly, and Bucky grins up at you.
โNah,โ he says, eyes crinkling at the corners. โSheโs too busy practicing her karate kicks. Isnโt that right, little one?โ
Right on cue, a small flutter against your belly answers him, and Buckyโs eyes light up like fireworks. He leans down again, pressing his lips gently against the spot where your baby kicked.
โWhoa, easy there, sweetheart,โ he murmurs, a playful smile tugging at his lips. โSave the punches for when youโre out here. Weโve got plenty of training sessions ahead of us.โ
You snort, shaking your head at his words. โBucky, sheโs not even born yet, and youโre already planning training sessions?โ
โGotta start โem young,โ he says seriously, but the way he softens his voice when he turns back to your belly is anything but tough. โBut donโt worry, weโll take it easy. Iโll make sure you get to be a kid and have fun first. No oneโs gonna mess with you. Not when Iโm around.โ
He pauses, his eyes misting over for a brief moment, and you know heโs thinking about everything heโs been throughโeverything he wants to shield your daughter from. Slowly, he rubs his thumb along your belly again, his touch featherlight.
โAnd youโre gonna love your mama,โ Bucky continues softly. โSheโs strong, and sheโs funny, andโโ He glances up at you, his smile turning mischievous. โSheโs a little bit stubborn sometimes. But youโre gonna be just like her, I bet.โ
โGreat,โ you mutter, faking a groan. โTwo of you plotting against me.โ
โWouldnโt dream of it,โ Bucky promises, but the glint in his eyes tells you heโs already imagining all the ways heโll spoil his little girl.
He shifts again, his head still resting on your belly, and you have to stifle another laugh as he starts a running commentary, complete with exaggerated gestures.
โOkay, so hereโs the plan,โ he whispers conspiratorially to your baby. โWhen you get here, youโre gonna kick a lot. Cry a lot. But not too much. Your mama needs her sleep. Then, weโll team up to get you extra dessert when sheโs not looking.โ
โBucky!โ You canโt help itโyou burst out laughing. โYou canโt be plotting behind my back already!โ
He grins, looking up at you with mock innocence. โHey, itโs not my fault if she wants ice cream. Right, sweetheart?โ
A few more soft kicks seem to echo his words, and you canโt help but roll your eyes.
โIโm doomed,โ you say, shaking your head fondly.
โNo, youโre not,โ Bucky murmurs, his voice softening again. He presses one more kiss against your belly before shifting to sit up beside you. He wraps an arm around your shoulders, tugging you gently against his side. โYouโre gonna be the best mom. And Iโm gonna be right here, making sure you both have everything you need.โ
You lean into his warmth, smiling as his hand drifts back to your belly, tracing idle patterns.
โI love you,โ you whisper, resting your head against his shoulder.
โAnd I love you,โ he replies, voice deep and steady. He leans down, kissing the top of your head. โBoth of you.โ
With Bucky holding you close and whispering to your daughter, you feel your heart swell with a contentment so strong it almost aches. Itโs moments like these that remind you just how lucky you are to have this overprotective, sweet man by your side.
Even if he does go overboard sometimes.
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Teach 'Em a Lesson: The Bold Guide to Putting Bullies in Their Place
Gaeul x Male Reader
word count: 7.2K
You're chilling at Gaeul's place with the crew, sprawled on her comfy couch playing Pokemon on your phone. Your friends are getting restless, talking about grabbing some pizza from that fancy joint across town.
"Yo guys, let's roll! I'm fucking starving," one of your friends says, jangling the car keys.
Everyone starts walking towards the door, but there's only room for five, and there are six of you. Well, you are very focused on your game, so without much suffering you accept the mission to be exiled from the pizza run.
But...
Gaeul waves goodbye to them, saying she'll stay behind as well.
"Someone's gotta babysit the nerd," she snickers, jerking her thumb at you.
You barely look up from your game, used to her constant teasing. At 5'5; Gaeul's a tiny thing but she makes up for it with attitude. Her boyish style - baggy jeans, oversized hoodie hiding her small tits - doesn't stop her from being hot as fuck.
Not that you'd ever admit that to her face.
The door slams shut and suddenly it's just you two. The silence feels different now. Gaeul flops down next to you, peering at your screen.
"Seriously? Pokemon? No wonder you can't get any pussy,โ she taunts, poking your arm.
"Fuck off, I date plenty," you mutter, trying to focus on your battle.
She lets out a bark of laughter. "Yeah right! Name one girl you've fucked."
"None of your fucking business." Your ears burn but you keep your eyes on the screen.
"Ha! Virgin alert!" She's grinning now, enjoying getting under your skin. "Bet you've never even kissed anyone. Too busy jerking it to anime titties."
Your jaw clenches. "I said: fuck offโฆ"
"I don't know how we have friends in common."
"Shut up, Gaeul..."
"Make me, virgin boy!" She snatches your phone, holding it just out of reach. "What're you gonna do about it?"
Something snaps inside you. In one fluid motion, you grab her wrist and pin her against the couch. She squeaks in surprise, eyes going wide. your phone falls onto the couch seat next to you.
"The fuck did you just call me? Say it again!" you growl, pressing her down. Your body covers hers completely.
"I-I... virgin boy?" Her voice wavers but there's a glint in her eye that wasn't there before.
You grip both her wrists now, holding them above her head. "Ha! Wrong answer."
Her breath hitches. You can feel her pulse racing under your fingers. That's when you notice it - the way she's squirming isn't to get away. Her thighs press together, hips shifting restlessly.
"Holy shit," you breathe. "You like this, don't you? The tough girl act is just that - an act."
"N-no!" But her face flushes red and her nipples are hard points visible through her hoodie.
You lean down, lips brushing her ear. "Lying bitch! I can feel how wet you are through your jeans." She whimpers, and that sound goes straight to your cock. "Wanna see how much of a virgin I am?" You grind against her, letting her feel how hard you are.
"What the fuck are you doing?!"
"Just proving that even an annoying brat like you can turn me on too."
"Fuck you, n-nerdโฆ" she whispers, but there's no bite in it. Her pupils are dilated, chest rising and falling rapidly.
"I'm not fucking kidding. Bedroom. Now." You release her wrists but maintain eye contact, daring her to disobey.
For a moment she hesitates, then scrambles up and leads the way to her room.
The second you're through her door, you grab her hoodie and yank it over her head. No bra underneath - her small tits are perfect handfuls topped with hard pink nipples.
"Fucking slut, walking around braless," you growl, pinching one nipple roughly. She cries out, legs trembling. "Bet you were hoping for this, weren't you?"
"No, I... ah!" She gasps as you twist harder.
"Still lying?" You spin her around, bending her over the edge of her bed. "Let's see how wet you really are."
You pull her jeans and cotton boyshorts down to her knees. Her pussy is dripping, juice running down her thighs.
"Look at that," you laugh darkly, running two fingers through her folds. "Soaked just from being manhandled a little. What a pathetic little sub you are."
โI-I'm not patheticโฆโ
She tries to close her legs but you kick them apart, keeping her spread wide. Your fingers circle her clit, making her moan.
"Please..." she whimpers.
"Please what?" You slide one finger inside her tight hole. "Use your words, slut."
"Please... ohโฆ fuck me..." Her voice is barely a whisper.
You add a second finger, pumping them slowly. "What was that? Couldn't hear you."
"Fuck me!" she practically screams. "Please, I need your cock!"
"That's better." You pull your fingers out and wipe them on her ass. "But first..."
Your hand comes down hard on her right cheek. She yelps but pushes back for more.
"Gonna spank this attitude right out of you."
You alternate cheeks, watching them bounce and jiggle. Each hit makes her pussy drip more, a puddle forming on the floor. Her ass turns a beautiful shade of pink.
"Count them," you order.
SMACK!
"One!" she gasps.
SMACK!
"Two!"
By ten, she's sobbing and rutting against nothing. Her ass is bright red and hot to the touch.
"Good girl," you purr, rubbing the beaten flesh. "Now, on your knees!"
Half nervous and half anxious, she hurriedly gets rid of the pieces of clothing still on her knees, almost tripping in the process.
You take off your shoes and unzip your jeans, taking off your pants along with your underwear, letting your rock-hard cock spring free.
The sight before you makes your cock throb with anticipation - Gaeul, the annoying little brat who's been pushing your buttons for months, completely naked and on her knees in her bedroom. Her petite body trembles slightly as she stares at your massive erection, her eyes wide with a mixture of fear and unmistakable lust.
You've finally figured out her game. All those times she went out of her way to irritate you, to get under your skin - it wasn't just random bitchiness. No, this pathetic slut has been desperately trying to get your attention the only way she knew how.
"Like what you see?" you growl, slowly stroking your shaft. "This is what you've been after all along, isn't it?"
Gaeul swallows hard, her small breasts rising and falling with quick, shallow breaths. Her nipples are rock hard, betraying her arousal despite her attempts to play innocent.
"I... I don't know what you mean..." she stammers, but her eyes remain locked on your cock.
You step closer, close enough that your cockhead brushes against her flushed cheek. She gasps but doesn't pull away.
"Don't play dumb with me, you little tease. All those times you went out of your way to annoy me, to get under my skin... you were just begging to be put in your place, weren't you?"
Your hand shoots out to grab a fistful of her silky black hair, yanking her head back roughly. She yelps in surprise and pain, but you can see her thighs pressing together, trying to relieve the ache between them.
"Look at you, getting wet just from being manhandled again," you taunt, using your free hand to slap your cock against her cheek. "Such a pathetic little slut. Admit it - admit what you really are!"
"Please..." she whimpers, squirming under your grip.
You tighten your hold on her hair, making her gasp. "That's not what I want to hear. Tell me the truth - tell me why you've been such an annoying little bitch."
Tears form in the corners of her eyes, but they're not tears of fear or pain.
No.
These are tears of shameful arousal as she finally faces what she really is.
"Because... I-I'm sorryโฆ because I wanted this," she whispers.
"Wanted what? Be specific, whore."
"I wanted you to get angry! To put me in my place!" The words burst from her like a dam breaking. "I wanted you to see what a desperate slut I am! Please... please use me..."
You smirk, satisfied with her confession. "That's better. Now open that bratty mouth of yours - time to put it to better use than talking back to me."
Gaeul parts her lips eagerly as you press your cockhead against them. Her tongue darts out to taste you, making your shaft twitch. But you're not interested in letting her take her time exploring.
Gripping both sides of her head firmly, you thrust forward, forcing your thick cock past her lips. She gags immediately as you hit the back of her throat, but you don't let up.
"Relax that throat, slut," you command. "You wanted my attention? Well, now you've got all of it."
You start fucking her face properly, each thrust going deeper than the last. Tears stream down her cheeks as she struggles to accommodate your size, but her eyes are glazed with unmistakable lust.
"Look at you, choking on cock like you were born for it," you taunt as you bottom out in her throat. Her nose presses against your pelvis as you hold yourself deep, cutting off her air. "Is this what you imagined when you were being an annoying little tease? Getting your throat used like a cheap fleshlight?"
Gaeul can only make gurgling sounds in response, drool running down her chin and coating your shaft. You hold yourself there until her face starts turning red, then pull back to let her gasp for air.
"Please..." she begs hoarsely between coughs. "I need more... need you to fuck my pussy too..."
"Oh, you'll get that tight cunt stuffed soon enough," you promise. "But first, I'm going to make sure you never forget what happens to bratty little sluts who don't know how to ask nicely for cock."
You slam back into her mouth, setting a brutal pace that has her gagging and retching around your shaft. Her throat spasms beautifully with each deep thrust, but she doesn't try to pull away. Instead, she grabs your thighs, trying to take you even deeper.
"Such a natural cocksucker," you grunt, watching your dick disappear between her stretched lips over and over. "All that attitude, and all you really needed was to be throat-fucked into submission."
After thoroughly using her mouth, you finally pull out. Gaeul gasps for air, her face a mess of tears, drool, and smeared makeup. Without giving her time to recover, you grab her arms and throw her onto the bed.
"Ass up, face down," you order. "Show me that needy pussy you've been hiding under those baggy jeans."
She scrambles to obey, getting into position and arching her back to present herself to you. Her pussy is absolutely drenched, her inner thighs glistening with her arousal. You run your cock through her soaked folds, coating it in her juices.
"Fuck, you really are desperate for it," you observe. "Your cunt's practically drooling. Beg for it, slut! Tell me how badly you need this cock."
"Please fuck me!" she cries out, pushing back against your teasing shaft. "I need it so bad... need you to fill me up and use me like the whore I am! I've been such a bad girl, teasing you all this time... please punish my pussy!"
You line up with her entrance and thrust in hard, making her scream. Her cunt is incredibly tight, gripping your cock like a vice as you force your way deeper. Each inch stretches her walls, making her whole body tremble.
"Fuck, you really are a desperate little slut," you grunt, starting to pound her roughly. "Your pussy's practically sucking me in. Is this what you've been dreaming about while playing your little games?"
Gaeul moans uncontrollably, her whole body shaking as you ravage her tight hole. Each brutal thrust makes her small tits bounce and jiggle. You reach down to pinch and twist her nipples, making her clench even tighter around your cock.
"Yes! Yes! Harder!" she begs shamelessly. "Use my slutty pussy! Make me your fucktoy! I've wanted this for so long!"
You increase your pace, slamming into her cervix with each stroke. The wet sounds of your cock plowing her needy cunt fill the room, along with her desperate moans and whimpers. Her pussy gets wetter and wetter, practically gushing around your shaft.
"You're going to cum on my cock like the whore you are," you tell her. "Then I'm going to take that virgin asshole too. Going to claim every hole you've got."
Her pussy spasms at your words.
"My... my ass? But I've never... Noโฆ it's too big..."
"That tight little hole belongs to me now," you growl, reaching around to rub her clit roughly as you continue pounding her pussy. "I'm going to stretch it out and fill it with cum. Mark you as my personal fucktoy."
Gaeul's moans rise in pitch, her body tensing up as your fingers work her sensitive clit. Combined with the relentless pounding of her pussy, it's quickly pushing her toward the edge.
"Cum for me, slut. Show me how much you love being used like this."
She screams as her orgasm hits, her pussy clamping down hard on your cock. You fuck her through it mercilessly, prolonging her pleasure until she's sobbing and shaking uncontrollably.
Without pulling out, you gather some of her abundant wetness and press a finger against her virgin asshole. She whimpers as you slowly work it inside, her tight ring of muscle resisting the intrusion.
"Please be gentle..." she begs. "I've never had anything in there..."
"You'll take what I give you," you growl, adding a second finger to stretch her tight hole. "This ass is mine now, just like the rest of you."
You finger-fuck her thoroughly, making sure she's ready for your cock. Her whimpers of discomfort gradually turn to moans of pleasure as her body adjusts to the new sensation. You can feel her pushing back against your fingers, hungry for more.
Finally, you pull out of her pussy and press your cockhead against her stretched asshole. "Deep breath, slut. Here comes your first assfucking."
You push forward slowly but steadily, watching your cock disappear into her virgin hole. Gaeul cries out, clutching the sheets as you stretch her wider than your fingers did. Her whole body trembles as you claim her last untouched hole.
"That's it, take it all," you encourage as you sink deeper. "Such a good little anal slut... taking cock in your virgin ass like you were made for it."
When you're fully buried in her ass, you pause to let her adjust. Her whole body is shaking, caught between pain and pleasure as her tight hole stretches around your thick shaft.
"Move..." she finally whispers, her voice thick with need. "Please... fuck my ass... make me completely yours..."
You start with slow, shallow thrusts, gradually building up speed and depth. Her tight hole grips your cock beautifully, sending waves of pleasure through you. Each stroke becomes easier as her body accepts the invasion.
"Look at you, taking cock in your virgin ass like a natural," you taunt, watching your shaft disappear into her stretched hole over and over. "You really are just a complete whore, aren't you? Born to take cock in all your holes."
"Yes, sir!" she moans, pushing back to meet your thrusts. "I'm your whore! Your anal slut! Please fuck me harder! Use my ass!"
You grant her wish, picking up the pace until you're properly fucking her ass. The sight of your cock plunging in and out of her stretched hole is incredible. You reach around to play with her dripping pussy, finding her clit swollen and sensitive.
"You're actually getting off on having your ass fucked," you marvel, feeling how wet she still is. "Such a perfect little fucktoy... getting your virgin ass stretched and loving every second of it!"
Gaeul can only moan in response, her body rocking with each thrust. You can feel her getting close to another orgasm, her holes clenching rhythmically around your cock and fingers.
"Cum for me again," you order, rubbing her clit faster. "Cum while I fuck this tight ass. Show me what a complete slut you've become."
Your fingers work her sensitive nub as you pound her ass, and soon she's screaming through another intense orgasm. The way her asshole spasms around your cock pushes you closer to your own climax.
"Where do you want my cum, slut?! Tell me how you want me to mark you as mine."
"In my ass!" she begs desperately. "Please cum deep in my ass! Fill me up... make me yours completely! I want to feel your hot cum inside me!"
You grab her hips with both hands and start fucking her ass with abandon, chasing your release. Her tight hole feels amazing, squeezing and milking your cock perfectly. Each thrust makes her whole body shake, her moans getting louder and more desperate.
"Take it all," you grunt as you finally explode, flooding her ass with hot cum. "Every last fucking drop... marking this tight hole as mine forever..."
You stay buried deep as you empty yourself inside her, making sure she takes every drop of your seed. When you finally pull out, cum immediately starts leaking from her gaping hole, running down her thighs in thick rivulets.
Gaeul collapses onto the bed, thoroughly used and satisfied. Her holes are red and swollen, leaking your cum and her own juices. You give her ass a hard slap, making her jump and moan weakly.
"From now on, you're mine," you tell her firmly. "No more bratty behavior - unless you want another lesson like this one. Understand?"
She looks back at you with glazed eyes, cum still dripping from her well-fucked ass. "Yes, sir... I'll be good, Iโฆ fuckโฆ I promise..."
โToo busy catching Pikachus to catch some pussy, huh? What a shitty stereotypeโฆโ
"I thoug-"
โShut up. Answer me: still think I'm a virgin?" you ask with a smirk.
She laughs weakly. "Definitely not. Fuck, I'm not gonna be able to sit right for days.โ
"Good." You give her ass one final smack, making her yelp. "Maybe next time you'll think twice before talking shit.โ
"Maybe," she grins. "Or maybe I'll just have to keep provoking you."
You grab her hair, pulling her in for a rough kiss. "Careful what you wish for, little slut. I might just have to teach you another lesson." She moans into the kiss. Your lips move down to her neck, where you leave a few bite marks, just so she remembers you when she looks in the mirror later. "The others will be back soon," you remind her. "Better clean yourself up before they see what a whore you really are."
Gaeul struggles to sit up, wincing at the soreness in her ass.
You head back to the living room, leaving her to clean up the mess you made of her. When you settle back on the couch and pick up your phone, the Pokemon game is still running.
A few minutes later, Gaeul emerges, walking down the stairs with a certain distrust in her expression, wearing fresh clothes, but walking with a slight limp. She sits gingerly on the opposite end of the couch, unable to meet your eyes.
"Something wrong?" you ask innocently. "You're usually so talkative."
She squirms uncomfortably. "Shut up..."
"That's not very nice, Gaeul." You give her a warning look. "Do we need another lesson already?"
Gaeul's eyes go wide and she quickly shakes her head. "No! Not now! I-I mean... I'll be good."
"That's what I thought." You turn back to your game with a satisfied smile, knowing you've finally found the perfect way to handle your bratty tomboy bully.
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The sound of cars pulling up outside announces the return of your friends. Gaeul quickly tries to fix her messy hair and straighten her clothes, but there's no hiding the fresh bite marks on her neck or the slight tremor in her hands.
"Hey guys, we're back with pizza!" calls out one of your friends as they enter the house. "Hope you two didn't kill each other while we were gone!"
If they only knew.
Your friends pile into the living room, carrying several pizza boxes and drinks. They seem oblivious to the tension in the air or the way Gaeul can barely sit still.
"Everything okay?" one of them asks, noticing Gaeul's unusual quietness. "You seem different."
โI'm fucking fine!โ
Gaeul blushes deeply. Your friends look confused but shrug it off, too focused on the food to question further.
As everyone settles in to eat, you catch Gaeul stealing glances at you when she thinks no one is looking. Each time your eyes meet, she quickly looks away, but you can see the mixture of fear and arousal in her expression.
You make sure to sit next to her on the couch, close enough that your thigh presses against hers. She tenses but doesn't move away, especially when you rest your hand on her knee under the pretense of reaching for a slice of pizza.
"So what did you guys do while we were gone?" someone asks between bites.
"Just played some games," you say casually, squeezing Gaeul's thigh. "Taught Gaeul a few new things."
She nearly chokes on her pizza, earning concerned looks from your friends. "Are you okay?" they ask as she coughs.
"Fine," she manages to say. "Just... went down the wrong way."
You smirk, knowing exactly what went down her throat earlier. Your hand slides higher up her thigh, making her squirm.
The rest of the evening passes in a blur of pizza, conversation, and subtle torment as you continue to tease Gaeul under the radar of your oblivious friends. Every touch makes her jump, every whispered comment makes her blush.
Now you understand why she teases you.
It's so fucking pleasurable.
When everyone finally starts heading home for the night, you hang back, pretending to look for your phone. As the last friend leaves, you corner Gaeul in the kitchen.
"Think you learned your lesson?" you ask, pressing her against the counter.
She nods quickly, her breath catching as you lean in close. "Yes... I won't be mean anymore."
"Good girl." You grab her ass roughly, making her gasp. "But just to make sure it sticks..."
Before she can protest, you spin her around and bend her over the kitchen counter. Your hand slides into her shorts, finding her already wet.
"Fuck, you're soaked again," you growl in her ear. "Did you get turned on sitting there in front of everyone, knowing what a whore you are?"
"Please," she whimpers. "They might come back..."
"Better be quiet then." You pull her shorts down just enough to expose her ass and pussy. "Wouldn't want them to see their tough tomboy friend being used like a fucktoy."
You unzip your pants and line up with her entrance, sliding into her still-tight pussy in one smooth thrust. Gaeul bites her lip to keep from moaning as you start fucking her against the counter.
"Such a good little slut now," you grunt, gripping her hips. "Amazing what a proper fucking can do to fix an attitude problem."
Your pace increases, the sound of skin slapping against skin echoing in the kitchen. Gaeul's legs shake as she tries to stay quiet, small whimpers escaping despite her best efforts.
You reach around to rub her clit while you pound into her, feeling her pussy clench around your cock. Her whole body trembles as another orgasm approaches.
"Please," she whispers desperately. "I'm so close..."
"Cum for me," you command, working her clit faster. "Show me what a good girl you can be."
Gaeul buries her face in her arm to muffle her scream as she cums hard, her pussy spasming around your shaft. You fuck her through her orgasm until she's practically sobbing from overstimulation.
Just as you're about to cum, you pull out and spin her around, forcing her to her knees. "Open your mouth. Take your reward like a good slut."
She obeys immediately, looking up at you with those big eyes as you stroke your cock. With a grunt, you explode all over her face, covering her in thick ropes of cum.
"Don't move," you order as you tuck yourself away. "I want to remember you like this - on your knees, covered in my cum, finally learning your place."
Gaeul stays still, cum dripping down her face onto her chest. She looks thoroughly debauched and completely submissive.
"Clean yourself up," you say, heading for the door. "And remember - any time you start acting like a bitch again, this is what happens."
As you leave her house, you can't help but smile thinking about how different things will be now. The dynamic between you and Gaeul has shifted completely - no more will she bet the untouchable tomboy who loves to torment you. Now you know what she really needs, what she's been craving all along.
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You sit in class, bored as fuck scrolling through your phone under the desk. A notification pops up - it's from Gaeul. Your heart skips a beat seeing that familiar contact name. Opening the message, you nearly drop your phone - this crazy bitch sent you a pic of her tight ass with an anal plug inserted, taken in what looks like the girls' bathroom. The caption reads "Missing your fat cock stretching me out... meet me after class? ๐"
You adjust yoursel in secret, already getting hard remembering how you bent her over your desk yesterday and fucked her tight ass until she was begging for more. It still amazes you how things changed between you two. For months she tormented you - calling you names, tarnishing your image at college, making fun of you in front of your friendsโฆ
Until that one day you finally snapped.
Now here you are three months later, sexting during class while pretending nothing's changed in public, with a phone full of filthy videos and pictures of your former bully. Videos of her fucking herself with toys, close-ups of her stretched holes, clips of her begging for your cock. On the surface she still acts tough, but you know the truth - she's just a needy anal slut who craves being dominated.
Your phone buzzes again - another pic from the bathroom, this time showing her fingers buried in her dripping pussy. "Can't wait anymore... Come fuck me NOW!!"
You raise your hand, making up some bullshit excuse about feeling sick. The professor waves you out and you practically run to the second floor bathroom where you know she's waiting. The halls are empty since class is still in session.
You slip inside the second floor bathroom and there she is - still in her typical tomboy getup of baggy jeans and oversized hoodie. Her short hair is slightly messy and her cheeks are flushed. The contrast between her tough exterior and what you know lies underneath makes your cock throb.
"Took you long enough, nerd," she smirks, but you can see the desperate hunger in her eyes. Her tough girl act doesn't work on you anymore - not since you discovered what a submissive little slut she really is.
"Shut the fuck up," you growl, grabbing her by the throat and slamming her against the cold tile wall. She gasps, her pupils dilating with lust. "Sending me pictures like that while I'm in class... you're such a desperate whore."
"Hmm, maybe I am," she taunts, grinding against your obvious bulge. "What are you gonna do about it?"
You tighten your grip on her throat, using your other hand to roughly grope her small tits through her clothes. Even through the baggy fabric you can feel her hard nipples. "I'm gonna remind you exactly who owns this body."
"Big talk from a ne-" Her words cut off in a moan as you spin her around and bend her over the sink, yanking those loose jeans down to her thighs. She's not wearing any underwear, the slut. The metal plug glints between her ass cheeks, just like in the picture she sent.
"Look at you, walking around with a plug in your ass like a proper anal whore." You give her pale ass a hard slap, leaving a red handprint. "Bet you've been thinking about my cock all morning."
"Fuck... yes..." she admits, dropping the attitude as you start playing with the plug. "Haven't stopped thinking about it since last night..."
You slowly twist and pull the plug, watching her asshole grip the metal. "Tell me what you want. I want to hear the tough tomboy beg."
"Please..." she whimpers as you pop the plug out, her hole gaping slightly. "Need your cock in my ass..."
"Not good enough." You spit on her exposed hole and start working one finger in while she squirms. "Be specific. Tell me exactly what you need."
"I need... fuck..." A second finger joins the first, stretching her wider. "Need you to fuck my ass raw... need you to remind me what a slut I am..."
"Keep going." Three fingers now, roughly fucking her loosened hole while she pants and moans. "Tell me how this nerd turned you into such a whore."
"You... ah!... you showed me what I really am..." Her pussy is literally dripping onto the floor as you finger-fuck her ass. "Showed me that I'm just a cockhungry anal slut... please, I need it so bad..."
"Need what?" You curl your fingers, making her gasp.
"Need your fat cock stretching my ass! Need you to fuck me like the worthless whore I am! Please, I'll do anything!" She's practically sobbing now, all traces of her usual attitude gone.
You pull your fingers out and quickly undo your pants, letting your rock hard cock spring free. "Look at yourself in the mirror while I fuck you. I want you to watch yourself break."
Her eyes meet yours in the reflection as you line up with her gaping hole. Without warning you thrust all the way in, making her cry out. The sound echoes off the bathroom walls but you don't care - you need to put this bratty bitch in her place.
"Fuck! So big..." she moans as you establish a brutal pace, watching your cock disappear into her tight asshole over and over. She tries to muffle herself by biting her sleeve but you grab her hair and yank her head up.
"No. I want to hear every slutty sound you make. Let everyone know what a whore you are." You reach around to roughly pinch her nipples through her hoodie. "Who would believe that the tough tomboy loves taking it up the ass?"
"Only... only for you..." she pants, her whole body shaking as you rail her. "You're the only one who gets to use me like this..."
"Damn right." You pull almost all the way out before slamming back in, making her yelp. "This ass belongs to me. I fucking own you."
Your words make her moan even louder. You can see in the mirror how completely wrecked she looks - face flushed, eyes glazed, mouth hanging open as she takes your cock. Such a different sight from her usual cocky expression.
"Touch yourself," you command. "Play with that dripping pussy while I destroy your ass."
She immediately reaches down to rub her clit, her fingers moving frantically. The extra stimulation makes her ass clench around you even tighter. "Gonna... gonna cum soon..."
"Already? Such a slutty response." You increase your pace, the sound of skin slapping against skin filling the bathroom. "Cumming from getting your ass fucked in a public bathroom... what would your friends think if they could see you now?"
"Don't care... fuck... just don't stop!" She's openly crying now, tears of pleasure running down her face as you pound her mercilessly.
You grab her hips hard enough to bruise and really start hammering into her. Each thrust makes her whole body jerk forward, her small tits bouncing under the hoodie. "Come on then, cum for me. Show me what a buttslut you are."
Her orgasm hits hard - her ass spasms around your cock as she practically screams into her sleeve, her legs shaking so bad you have to hold her up. You don't slow down, fucking her through the intense climax.
"Good girl... but we're not done yet." You pull out suddenly, making her whine at the emptiness. "On your knees. Time to remind you what you're good for."
She drops to her knees immediately, looking up at you with those desperate eyes. Your cock is right in her face, still slick from her ass. Without being told, she opens her mouth and sticks out her tongue.
"That's right, taste yourself like the dirty slut you are." You slap your cock against her tongue a few times before shoving it down her throat. She gags but takes it like a champ, months of practice evident in how she relaxes her throat.
You grab her short hair with both hands and start properly facefucking her, using her mouth like a pussy. Tears stream down her face and drool drips from her chin but she doesn't try to pull away. If anything she moans around your cock, clearly loving the rough treatment.
"Look at me while I use your throat," you command. Her eyes lock onto yours, full of submission and need. "Such a good little fucktoy... so different from the bitch who used to bully me..."
She reaches down to play with herself again as you fuck her face, two fingers buried in her soaking pussy while her other hand works her clit. The sight of the former bully masturbating while choking on your cock pushes you closer to the edge.
"Gonna cum... gonna paint that pretty face..." You pull out of her mouth, still gripping her hair. "Stick out your tongue and beg for it."
"Please..." her voice is hoarse from the throat fucking. "Please, babe, cum on my face... mark me as your whore... I need it..."
You stroke yourself rapidly, aiming at her upturned face. "Here it comes slut... take it all..."
Your orgasm hits like a truck, shooting thick ropes of cum all over her face. Some lands on her tongue but most covers her cheeks, nose, and forehead. She moans as you mark her, still frantically fingering herself.
"Don't you dare wipe it off," you pant as the last drops fall onto her lips. "I want you to remember who owns you."
She nods, face completely glazed with your seed. "Yours... all yours..."
You tuck yourself back in while she stays on her knees, cum slowly dripping down her face. "Clean yourself up and get back to class. But leave the plug in - I want your ass ready for round two later."
"Yes sir," she says softly, finally dropping the last pretense of attitude.
As you head for the door, you turn back for one last look. She's still kneeling there, face covered in cum, jeans around her thighs, asshole gaping slightly.
Such a perfect sight.
"Oh and Gaeul?" You smirk as she looks up at you. "Try not to be such a bitch for the rest of the day. Or I'll have to teach you another lesson."
She shivers at the threat, clearly already looking forward to it. "No promises... might need another reminder later."
You leave her there to clean up, already planning how you'll use her next. Who would've thought that all it took to tame the tomboy bully was a good ass fucking?
The bell rings as you head back to class, already getting hard again thinking about round two. Maybe you take her home and fuck her in your bed, or if she can't wait that long, an empty classroom will do just as well.... The possibilities are endless when you have such an eager anal whore at your disposal.
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Later that week, you're hanging out with friends at the campus coffee shop when Gaeul suggests everyone come to her place to watch something.
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The movie blares on the TV screen, flickering shadows across the room. Your friends are all sprawled out, zoned in, eyes glued to the action unfolding. But you? Youโre only half-paying attention because Gaeul's sitting beside you, her hand resting a little too close, fingers drumming against the couch arm. Every slight touch feels like electricity shooting through your veins.
Then she shifts, stretches out her arms with a feigned yawn. "I'm grabbing something upstairs," she mumbles to the room. No one even looks up. She rises, tossing a quick, knowing glance your way before slipping out. Your cock throbs in your pants as you watch her walk away, her ass moving in those intentionally short shorts.
You count to sixty slowly before making your own excuse.
"Just gonna grab another beer," you say casually. No one even looks up from the TV.
Perfect.
Your heart pounds as you climb the stairs, already imagining how you're going to wreck that tight ass. The door to Gaeul's bedroom is slightly ajar, warm light spilling into the hallway. You open the door slowly and there she is, sitting cross-legged on the bed, waiting for you, her ankle bouncing impatiently.
โI thought youโd never show up,โ she says with a smile.
Without wasting any time, you approach and spin Gaeul around and roughly bend her over the edge of the bed, yanking her panties down in one swift motion. Your cock throbs at the sight of her tight little asshole already glistening with lube - this dirty slut came prepared, knowing she was going to get her ass destroyed tonight.
"Fucking horny little whore," you growl, giving her ass a hard slap that makes her yelp. "Already lubed up and ready for my cock. Bet you've been thinking about this all day."
"Please," she whimpers, pushing her ass back toward you. "Need it so bad..."
You unzip your pants and pull out your rock-hard cock, giving it a few slow strokes as you admire her puckered hole. Your free hand spreads her ass cheeks wider, making her squirm with anticipation.
"Beg for it," you command, rubbing your cockhead teasingly against her entrance. "Tell me exactly what you want."
"Fuck, please... need your fat cock in my tight little asshole," she pants desperately. "Want you to stretch me open and wreck my ass while everyone's downstairs. Please fuck me like the anal slut I am!"
You press your thick tip against her hole, watching it start to stretch around your girth. "Such a dirty fucking whore, begging to get ass-fucked with your friends right below us. What would they think if they knew their tough tomboy friend was really just a cock-hungry buttslut?"
Gaeul moans as you start pushing into her impossibly tight hole. The lube helps, but her ass still grips your cock like a vice as you feed more and more of your length into her. You can feel every ridge and fold of her inner walls clinging to your shaft.
"Holy fuck, you're so tight... No matter how many times I ruin your ass, it always looks like virgin territory," you grunt, gripping her hips harder. "That little asshole is squeezing my cock so good."
"More," she gasps, biting down on her pillow to muffle her sounds. "Fill me up, stretch my ass open!"
You continue pushing forward until your balls are pressed against her dripping pussy. Your entire cock is buried in her ass, making her feel completely stuffed and stretched. You hold still for a moment, savoring the incredible tightness.
"That's it, take every inch like a good little anal whore," you growl in her ear, reaching around to roughly grope her small tits. Her nipples are rock hard between your fingers. "Ready to get that ass pounded?"
"Yes! Please fuck me hard," she begs in a desperate whisper. "Wreck my tight hole!"
You pull back until just the tip remains inside, then slam forward balls-deep in one brutal thrust. Gaeul lets out a choked cry into the pillow as you establish a rough rhythm, your cock pistoning in and out of her stretched asshole.
The wet sounds of anal sex fill the room - the obscene squelching of lube, the meaty slap of your balls against her pussy, the muffled moans she can't quite contain. Her whole body rocks with the force of your thrusts as you hammer into her tight hole.
"Fuck yes, take that cock," you grunt, watching your shaft disappear over and over into her gripping asshole. "Love seeing this tight little hole stretch around my fat cock. Such a perfect anal slut."
You grab a handful of her hair and yank her head back, making her arch her spine. The new angle lets you drive even deeper into her ass, hitting spots that make her whole body tremble.
"Harder!" she gasps, pushing back to meet your thrusts. "Fucking destroy my ass, make me your buttslut!"
You respond by increasing your pace, absolutely ravaging her tight hole. Your heavy balls slap against her soaking wet pussy with each thrust. She's so turned on that her juices are running down her thighs.
"Look at you, getting your pussy all wet from taking it in the ass," you taunt, reaching down to rub her swollen clit. "Such a nasty little whore, getting off on having your asshole stretched open."
Gaeul can only whimper and moan in response, completely lost in the pleasure of being used. Her ass grips and pulses around your cock, trying to milk the cum from your balls.
The sound of footsteps in the hallway makes you both freeze. Your cock throbs inside her stretched hole as you hold perfectly still, hardly daring to breathe. The footsteps pause right outside the door.
Your hand clamps over Gaeul's mouth as you stay buried balls-deep in her ass. You can feel her heart pounding, her asshole clenching even tighter around your shaft from the fear of getting caught.
After what feels like an eternity, the footsteps continue past the door and fade away down the hall. As soon as they're gone, you resume fucking her even harder than before, driven wild by the close call.
"Dirty fucking slut, almost got us caught," you growl, punctuating each word with a brutal thrust. "Maybe I should let them catch us, let them see what a cock-hungry anal whore you really are."
She shakes her head frantically but her pussy gushes at the thought, coating your balls in her juices. The way her ass grips you tells you she's getting close to cumming.
"That's it, squeeze that cock with your tight little hole," you grunt, feeling your own orgasm building. "Gonna flood this ass with cum, mark you as my personal buttslut."
Your fingers work her clit faster as you pound her stretched asshole. Gaeul's whole body starts to shake as she approaches her peak. Her inner walls clamp down almost painfully tight around your thrusting cock.
"Cum for me," you command. "Cum with my fat cock buried in your ass like the anal slut you are!"
She explodes around you, her orgasm making her squirt all over the bed as her ass spasms around your shaft. The intense tightness pushes you over the edge and you grunt as your cock swells.
"Take it, take my fucking load," you growl as you empty your balls deep in her ass. Rope after rope of hot cum floods her stretched hole while she continues to shake and moan through her own orgasm.
You keep thrusting through both your climaxes, making obscene squelching sounds as your cum starts leaking out around your cock. Her ass is still rhythmically clenching, milking every last drop from your balls.
When you finally pull out, her gaping asshole immediately starts leaking your thick load. You watch mesmerized as white cum drips down her thighs and pools on the bedspread below.
"Holy fuck," Gaeul pants, collapsing onto the bed. Her hole is still twitching and leaking, thoroughly used and marked as yours. "That was so fucking good..."
You give her ass one slap, admiring the way it makes more cum leak out. "That's what happens to me when you keep teasing me all day long. Get your ass stretched and filled with cum while your friends are right downstairs."
She shivers at your words, reaching back to feel her gaping, cum-filled hole. "My ass is gonna be so sore tomorrowโฆโ
"Yeah, and you love it, don't you?!"
Your cock gives an interested twitch as you watch her finger herself, scooping some of your cum out of her stretched hole. To your surprise and arousal, she brings her cum-covered fingers to her mouth and sucks them clean.
"Dirty fucking slut," you growl, feeling yourself starting to harden again already. "You really can't get enough, can you?"
She grins up at you, still tasting your cum on her tongue. "What can I say? You've turned me into such a whore for your cock. Especially in my ass."
You grab her hair and pull her up for a rough kiss, tasting yourself on her lips. Your rapidly hardening cock presses against her stomach as you devour her mouth.
"Ready for another round already?" she asks breathlessly when you break apart, feeling your erection growing. "Gonna wreck my ass again?"
"Fuck yes," you grunt, spinning her around and pushing her face-down into the mattress. "Gonna use this tight little hole until you can't walk straight tomorrow."
You spread her ass cheeks, admiring how her gaping hole is still leaking your previous load. The sight of your cum dripping from her stretched asshole has you rock hard again in seconds.
"Please," she whimpers, wiggling her hips invitingly. "Fill me up again, use me like your personal anal slut!"
You line your cock up with her cum-lubed hole and push back inside with one smooth thrust. She's still incredibly tight despite being stretched and filled with your load.
"Fuck, love how this greedy little hole just swallows my cock," you growl, starting to pound her ass again. "Such a perfect little anal whore, always ready to take it in the ass."
The mixture of cum and lube makes obscene squelching sounds as you fuck her stretched hole. Your previous load leaks out around your shaft with each thrust, running down her thighs.
"Yes! Use my ass, wreck my tight little hole!" she moans into the pillow. "Love being your anal slut!"
You grab her hips and really start hammering into her, making the bed creak dangerously. Her whole body bounces with the force of your thrusts as you ravage her sensitive hole.
Your balls slap against her dripping pussy, already coated in a mixture of her juices and your leaking cum. The dirty sounds of anal sex fill the room once again.
"Such a nasty little whore," you grunt, reaching around to pinch and twist her hard nipples. "Getting your ass fucked twice while your friends are right downstairs. Bet you love the risk of getting caught, don't you?"
"Yes!" she gasps, pushing back to meet your brutal thrusts. "Love being your secret anal slut, love taking your fat cock in my tight little ass!"
You pull her up by her hair until her back is pressed against your chest, changing the angle of penetration. Your cock drives even deeper into her stretched hole as you fuck up into her.
"That's it, ride this cock like the buttslut you are," you growl in her ear, one hand around her throat. "Show me how badly you need it in your ass."
Gaeul starts bouncing on your cock, working her hips in tight circles that make her ass grip you like a vice. Her small tits bounce with each movement as she impales herself on your shaft.
"Gonna cum again," she whimpers after a few minutes of riding you. "Please make me cum with your cock in my ass!"
You throw her back down onto the bed and really start drilling her stretched hole, pounding her g-spot through her ass wall. Your fingers find her clit again, rubbing quick circles as you ravage her.
"Cum for me, you dirty anal whore," you command. "Cum all over my cock while I wreck this tight little asshole!"
She explodes around you for the second time, her whole body convulsing as she squirts all over the already-soaked bed. Her ass clamps down painfully tight on your thrusting cock.
The incredible tightness pushes you over the edge again. You bury yourself balls-deep in her spasming hole as your cock swells and pulses.
"Take it, take another load in this slutty ass," you grunt as you empty your balls inside her again. Rope after rope of hot cum floods her already-full hole while she continues to shake through her own orgasm.
When you finally pull out, her thoroughly used asshole gapes obscenely, leaking a river of white cum onto the bed. She collapses face-down, completely fucked out and marked as yours.
"Holy fuck," she pants, reaching back to feel her destroyed hole still leaking your loads. "Fuck, I'm gonna be leaking your load all night now."
"Next time I'm gonna make you wear a plug to keep my cum inside you," you tell Gaeul as you lay down next to her, catching your breath. "Make you sit through the whole movie feeling your ass full of my load."
She shivers at the thought, clearly turned on despite being thoroughly fucked out. "Fuck, I don't think I've ever been as naughty as I am with you now...." After a moment, she rolls over to face you with an unusually serious expression. "Hey... I need to tell you something," she says quietly. "I'm getting tired of hiding this. Hiding us."
Your heart skips a beat. "What do you mean?"
"I mean... fuck, this started as just casual sex after you put me in my place that day. But somewhere along the way I actually started having deep feelings for you." She looks away, clearly uncomfortable with the vulnerability. "And I'm sick of pretending I don't."
You're quiet for a long moment, processing this. "I feel the same way," you finally admit. "Have for a while now."
Her eyes snap back to yours. "Really?"
"Really." You pull her closer. "I love how you try to act all tough, but I know what a needy little slut you really are. Love making you fall apart on my cock. But I also just... love being around you. Even when we're not fucking. I love when you laugh at my jokes now, much better than when you pretended not to like them. I always thought your laugh was cute."
A genuine smile spreads across her face - not her usual cocky smirk. "So what do we do about it?"
"Well, we could tell everyone we're dating," you suggest. "No more sneaking around."
"Mmm..." She pretends to consider it. "Or we could keep this our dirty little secret for a while longer. The sneaking around is pretty hot."
You grin and squeeze her ass. "True. Nothing like fucking you with the risk of getting caught."
"Exactly." She kisses you deeply. "Let's give it another month of secret fucking. Then we can go public."
"Deal." You slap her ass playfully. "Now get dressed before they come looking for us."
She quickly pulls her clothes back on, wincing slightly. "I don't know how I'm going to be able to sit in the chair tomorrow in class."
"Good." You zip up your pants. "Something to remember me by while you study."
You head back downstairs first, trying to act casual as you rejoin the group. A few minutes later, Gaeul returns with a bowl of chips like nothing happened.
But you catch her squirming uncomfortably on the couch, feeling your cum leak out of her ass. The secret knowledge of what you just did makes your cock start to stiffen again.
She notices and gives you that familiar smirk. You know you'll be sneaking off to fuck again before the night is over. Maybe this time you'll bend her over the bathroom sink and stuff her pussy full of cock while she tries to stay quiet.
The thought of all the secret hookups to come over the next month has your head spinning. Every stolen moment will be even hotter now that you know there are real feelings involved.
But for now, you focus on the movie and try not to make it obvious that you just railed your friend's ass upstairs.
The perfect crime - except for the cum still dripping down her thighs.
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Viktor arcane smut
Talks of body insecurity, smut, fluff, 18+, female reader, similar/same age as Viktor, pussy eating, etc
Nobody has been able to make you cum before. Your best friend Viktor can help you with that.
If anything in this makes you uncomfortable at any point please donโt continue to read. <3
Enjoy ;)
Viktor is your best friend and has been in love with you for years. Jayce keeps hitting on you but you donโt like him. Viktor feels a little jealous every time someone flirts with you especially Jayce but tries not to let it be seen.
You often spend the night at Viktors place because hes your only friend and youโre his closest friend.
You and Viktor were gifted some fancy drinks after presenting your new idea to the council. You both go back to his place after and decide to celebrate. That and neither of you really feel like being alone. After all you both get along with each other better than anyone else. No one knows the two of you better than one another. Late night talks are always both of your favorite. After a few glasses of the worst alcoholic beverage you and Viktor have ever tasted you both lay down on his bed feeling tipsy and exhausted.
Viktor
โI saw Jayce eyeing you all day again.โ
You
โUgh I know, wish heโd leave me alone.โ
Viktor chuckles lightly
โYou donโt like him back at all? Not even a little?โ
You
โI donโt want Jayce. Heโs barely even an acquaintance in my eyes. Iโve always gone for men like Jayce. Not because I find any of them attractive but because I feel like I have to. To feel more feminineโฆor maybe not even just feminine. I guess more petite next to them? Womanly? Weak? I donโt know. None of them have ever been able to make me finish either. But I guess thatโs my fault. It canโt be this hard to cum for other women. I donโt really see a point in dating if I donโt find hardly any men attractive plus they donโt satisfy me at all regardless of the non existent orgasm.โ
Viktor
โHave you seriously never came with someone else before?โ
You
โโฆnoโ
Viktor
โDoes foreplay not make it easier? Or at the very least more enjoyable?โ
You laugh
โForeplay? That only exists in fiction. Men are not into that thing.โ
Viktor
โBoys are not into that sort of thing. What about oral? Clitoral stimulation with the tongue? I feel as though that can always do the job. Itโs not too rough nor too gentle. Itโs quite intimate and romantic at the same time.โ
You
โUmโฆno man Iโve been with as ever been into that.โ
Viktor
โWhat?!โ
You
โNot necessarily because of me theyโve always just said they donโt do that to any woman because โitโs weirdโ or whatever.โ
Viktor sighs
โLet me guess they request oral from their women though.โ
You
โUm wellโฆ.i suppose..โ
Viktor
โI feel sorry for you. I assure you men who are actually interested in women donโt prioritize their cock.โ
You
โThen what would they even get out of sex if not that?!โ
Viktor
โDo you really think men canโt enjoy sex if their dick isnโt involved in the equation?โ
You
โWell yes. All men are like that. Arenโt they?..โ
Viktor
โAbsolutely not. Again men *who are actually into women* will be just as if not more satisfied with his face inbetween her legs.โ
You
โโฆโ
Viktor
โReal men have far more enjoyment with foreplay or oral, etcetera than just boring average penetration. It is not impossible for you to cum. You have just been unlucky with men who should look into fucking men or better yet themselves.โ
You
โI guess. Iโm still convincing myself itโs impossible though.โ
Viktor
โTsk. Jayce is nice but he would probably not know how to satisfy a woman so I suppose you are dodging a bullet there my friend.โ
You chuckle and nod in agreement.
Viktor
โWellโฆwhat about Jayceโs looks? Do you like him in that regard?โ
You
โHeโs far from my type in looks as-well.โ
Viktor teases
โDo you prefer even more muscular men then?โ
You laugh
โAbsolutely not! Quite the opposite actually but i always feel huge next to them. If I found a man i actually like heโd never go for someone like me. If he wouldnโt find my body unattractive heโd probably be put off by my strength. Men are always so inscure when Iโm stronger than them..โ
Viktor feels a warm feeling in his chest when he hears you say โquite the oppositeโ in hopes heโs closer to your type. That feeling quickly fades when he hears you insult yourself.
Viktor
โYou canโt possibly think that can you?!โ
You
โWhat?โ
Viktor moves his face closer to yours on the bed in annoyance. He has to make sure you actually hear his words. Take them in. Believe them. You putting yourself down like this is making his head spin.
Viktor
โOne you canโt possibly think youโre big. Youโre quite small. For Christ sake youโre average height. Two you do not have to be this stupid beauty standard of stick and bone to be beautiful. Three youโre far from huge. Thats never once been a thought in my mind. Four youโre strong. Very strong but any man put off by that is a weak one!โ
You
โThere are women smaller.โ
Viktor
โAnd youโre still the most beautiful one of them all.โ
You
โYou donโt have to be nice to me Viktor. Iโm just rambling nonsense.โ
Viktor
โAll women have their own insecurities of course but I truly mean it. I do. You are the most stunning woman Iโve ever laid eyes on. I truly mean that. Iโve always thought that. I canโt possibly understand how you could think differently.โ
You
โI-โ
As he was talking he didnโt notice his face had gotten so close you yours now that your his nose was brushing against your cheek. He was so mesmerized with your beauty. So taken aback that you couldnโt see what he saw that with every word he spoke he grew closer and closer to you getting lost in your beauty. He can feel your warm breath against his face. He can hear every shaky breath you take. He was unsure before if youโd ever feel for him an ounce of what he felt for you. In that moment he knew you felt something. He could tell with every fiber of his being. He didnโt care if you felt the exact same intensity for him as he did for you at least he knew you felt something for him and that was enough. All he wanted to do was to please you. Make your legs shake. To make you feel loved. To cherish you. To hold you.
You both paused for a moment. He was lost in thought of you. Before you had time to respond he placed a gentle kiss on your warm lips. To his surprise you reciprocated. You gently tugged on his shirt pulling him in for more. He had always been your type. Always been the one you wanted. What you needed. You were too afraid to ever let him know before. Worried he wouldnโt feel the same way. Most importantly even more worried to push away your best friend. Your only friend. You didnโt know if what Viktor was feeling was just lust or love. The way he was kissing you. The way he was talking to you. It couldnโt help but make you feel as though it was both. You had never felt something this intense. Not even sex made your body react this way. You never wanted it to end.
Viktor felt intoxicated and it wasnโt just from the alcohol. Viktor hovered his hand above your waist desperately wanting to feel your skin with his hands but waited for your okay. You gave him a nod in approval when you saw his hand. With your nod he places his thin fingers on your waist gently tracing them under your shirt. Viktor pulled you closer to him with each kiss until neither of you get any closer together. He couldnโt help but let out soft whimpers into your mouth and tighten his grip on your hip every time you tugged on his shirt.
Viktor pulled away from your lips for a moment. He looked at you with need.
Viktor
โPlease, please, I want to make you feel good.โ
You
โI- I canโt finish you know that.โ
Viktor groans
โI know you can. And if you really canโt at all then I at least know I can make you feel pleasure, please.โ
You donโt respond too lost in the way heโs looking up at you with desire.
Viktor traces his fingers gently from your waist down to your legs to your knees then back up again.
Viktor
โI canโt let you live your whole life without feeling pleasure.โ
You
โY-yes. Fuck, yes. Just..do whatever you want.โ
Viktor leaves your skirt on. He places soft passionate kisses along your neck while undoing your pants bringing them to your knees. You help him by kicking your pants fully off having them fall to the floor. Viktor slides his hand down on top of your panties and gently traces circles over your clit.
Viktor
โDo you want me to make your pussy feel good?โ
You nod in response. You canโt help but moan in excitement as he starts to move his fingers up and down your wet slit over your panties.
You wonder if youโre feeling this good because of his skill or just because itโs Viktor.
Once he can tell youโre soaked, Viktor slowly slides your panties off. Admiring your bare pussy intensely starting to drool a bit at the mouth.
Viktor
โFuck such a pretty pussy. Can I give it a kiss? Please?โ
You
โMm yes you may.โ
Viktor slides himself down on the bed until his face reaches your cunt. He lays on his stomach and presses his face down into your folds. Smothering himself in your juices. He gently traces his tongue along your clit. Gripping your thighs in place as you start to shake from pleasure. You were already feeling so much bliss you couldnโt imagine what on earth an orgasm could feel like. How could you possibly feel better than this.
Once he can tell youโre enjoying this and getting used to the feeling he slides two fingers inside slowly. Gently thrusting them back and forth. Fuck you never knew sex could feel this good. After a while you start to unconsciously buck your hips into his face. When he notices this he starts to scissor his fingers inside of your hole sticking his tongue in between his fingers rapidly licking your insides. With his other hand he gently holds two fingers to your clit. He doesnโt move them, Viktor doesnโt want to overstimulate you too much. The bucking of your hips should stimulate his fingers on your clit enough. Viktor can feel you getting closer and closer to release. His boxers are soaked with precum from the sight of you. The taste of you. The sound of you. If he was to grind into the mattress he could cum in under five minutes but he wonโt. Heโll hold back. This is about your pleasure. A few more licks deep in your cunt and your gushing cum all over his face. It doesnโt matter how much you shake his face never leaves your pussy itโs like heโs glued to it. He groans as he tastes your cum. The sight of him licking up every drop is making your brain go numb.
Once heโs cleaned you up he sucks your juices off his fingers before bringing his body up in between your legs. Resting his face in the crook of your neck, holding you close.
Viktor
โDid I do alright?โ
You
โYou did perfect. I didnโt know I was capable of feeling that good.โ
Viktor smirks and says smugly
โI knew you could cum.โ
You smack his arm gently in response before wrapping your arms around his back. Holding him tightly. He feels so good like this. Youโve wanted to hold him like this for so long.
You
โDo you..want me to do anything to you?โ
Viktor
โNo, no. This is all I needed. Do me one favor though?โ
You
โAnything.โ
Viktor
โStay here tonight. In my bed. Let me fall asleep in your arms like this. Let me call you mine tomorrow.โ
You
โCall me yours?โ
Viktor
โIs it not painstakingly obvious Iโm in love with you? Do you not feel an ounce of the same?โ
You
โIโve felt the same for a while. I just..I just didnโt think you felt that too. Or maybe I didnโt want to believe it because it would be too good to be true.โ
Viktor
โLet me keep being too good to be true. Please. Let me spoil you. As more than a friend. Be mine.โ
You
โIโm yours.โ
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never took me quite where you do
tags: established relationship, fluff, silliness
a/n: based on king of my heart. (which was also my eras surprise song!!)
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"you haven't had a girlfriend?" you ask, surprise coloring your voice.
rin itoshi stares at you like you've suddenly got infinitely stupider. "not before you."
"that's," you start, then stop. actually, now that you're really thinking about it, it does make sense. "you know what, yeah. seems about right."
offense glares in his eyes as he leans away from you. "the hell does that mean?"
you raise your brows. "what do you think, rin?"
he fully untangles his limbs from yours at that, shoving himself off of the couch. you protest at his motion - a little halfheartedly, but the effort is there .
standing up to his full height, rin itoshi glares down at you.
you blink up at him, smiling with all the innocence you can muster. "yes?"
"do you know how much fan mail i get?" he grits out. "how many chocolates i've gotten on valentine's?"
it takes quite a lot of effort for you to not start laughing. "i do know how popular you are, yes. you should see the edits on tiktok."
"so why-" rin falters. "edits?"
"go on."
it takes him a second. "i could've had a girlfriend if i wanted to," he says at last. "i just didn't."
you nod, still biting back a smile. "mhm. i'm sure all the girls would've loved you after seeing that personality of yours." you scoot over, offering up the space on the couch again.
rin continues to stare, but you can see his will weakening. "not like anyone wanted to date your lukewarm ass either," he says with a finality.
you snort. "i thought you grew out of that word."
he rolls his eyes.
"also- factually untrue. i've had boyfriends before."
and rin's entire demeanor switches. "what?"
you wave your hand, dismissive. "not like a lot, but. an average amount to have for a high schooler, i think. none of it was ever serious. not like you," you grin.
rin doesn't return it. genuine shock bleeds through his face; he turns on his heel. "i'm going to bed."
"wha- rin?"
forty five minutes later, you breeze into your shared bedroom. your teeth are freshly brushed, your skin lotioned, and you're almost ready for a good night's sleep.
"are you actually still mad about- what the hell are you doing?"
rin freezes, one hand still on the computer mouse. from your vantage point, you can see every pixel on that screen.
"is that my high school boyfriend?"
he turns in the swivel chair, very clearly not in bed. the classic 'itoshi indifference,' as you've coined it, masks itself over his face.
you step closer. "rin. is that, or is that not, the instagram profile of my ex."
he nods, slowly.
"can i ask why you're looking at his profile?"
he begins to shake his head, and then changes his mind (a good choice). but rin itoshi has never been too good at keeping himself calm-
"he's unemployed."
there's a beat of silence.
"sorry?"
"jobless. a leech on society. useless as a human being," rin continues. "a complete ass of himself, basically."
you stare at him. he stares at you. and then-
you burst out laughing. "are you serious?"
rin seems surprised by your reaction. it makes you laugh even harder.
"oh my god- you've been stalking his socials? for the last, like, hour?' you broke your stupid athlete sleep schedule for this?" there are genuine tears welling in the corner of your eyes. "for a guy i dated years ago?"
a little self-conscious now, rin stands up. "i was trying to sleep for the first twenty minutes. after that.." he trails off.
and you slam into him with a hug, still laughing. "i love you so much."
he stiffens at the initial contact, but gives into your touch the moment after. "i love you too?"
you hum into his ear. "they don't matter anymore. you know that, right? they never did- not seriously enough. you're the only one."
rin doesn't reply.
"and i know you could have any girl you wanted. but that doesn't matter to me. because you want me. and i will never get enough of you, rin itoshi."
his voice is a low murmur. "me neither. no one's ever compared to you."
and he presses a kiss onto your lips, and it's better than anything you've ever had.
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๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ก๐ข๐ง๐ค ๐๐ก๐๐ฒ'๐ซ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ๐๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐๐จ๐ค๐
( โง ) โโโโโโ ๐๐จ๐ฒ๐๐ซ๐ข๐๐ง๐ ๐ฌ๐ญ๐จ๐ซ๐ข๐๐ฌ . ๐๐ซ๐๐ฆ๐ - ๐ฌ๐ก๐/๐ก๐๐ซ .
- [๐๐ก.] TOP6 . rin itoshi . karasu tabito . otoya eita . yukimiya kenyu . nagi seishiro . shidou ryusei - [๐ฉ:๐ฌ] subtle jealousy.
#Rin Itoshi
Rin doesn't have a good experience when it comes to telling people how he feels. And it's even more shocking that you managed to wow him enough for him to like you. He, himself, didn't want to admit that he liked you because he didn't want to feel weak. And he believes that if he shows emotion towards you, you'll end up finding him weird. Which is the opposite of what you'd prefer.
He'd try to push himself to talk to you at least once when he realized that he liked you. Whether that'd be a snarky remark of his, or a back-handed compliment. You can imagine his surprise when he finds out that you don't find him weird. Since he's used to everyone in his life hating him in some way.
So when one day, he gets enough courage to talk to you and ask if you want to go on a date, looking to the side as he tries to calm himself down and talk to you. To his surprise, you think he's joking.
He looks at you with semi-shocked eyes. Do you think he's joking? It shouldn't have surprised him as much as it did. He overthinks his actions and looks at you confused.
Joking? He surely definitely isn't joking. He's serious. Why else would he come out of his way to ask you something as important as a date? Rin just doesn't get it.
"๐๐ก๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐ฃ๐จ๐ค๐ข๐ง๐ ? ๐ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ."
He said confidently exaggerating 'like' heavily. He views your relationship with him seriously and wouldn't ever dream about being unserious with you.
#Karasu Tabito
It's not that hard for him to like someone. Just as long as you stand out to him. Which is very hard for anyone to do. At first, he didn't know how he felt about you, he liked talking to you but didn't understand why he thought about you 24/7. Until he realized that he liked you.
Suddenly whenever he talked to you he talked to you more and began to become more friendly around you, in a way. Karasu never really wanted to tell you that he liked you, fearing that he would mess up your guys' relationship. So instead he just kept his feelings aside.
But that's not what he wanted. Whenever he talked to you he felt like he had to tell you then and there that he liked you... but he couldn't. He just doesn't leave the thought of you being creeped out alone.
He compares himself to you and feels mediocre. Like he doesn't deserve to look at you. From the outside, he seems so confident.
When Karasu finally had the confidence it was when you and him were walking together. There was a long silence when he said he liked you. A long silence that made him regret his actions.
His eyes opened wide when you asked if he was making fun of you. Just like Rin, he values his relationships seriously, it would be a curse if he didn't. Luckily he quickly shot that thought of yours down.
"๐'๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ง ๐ข๐ญ ๐๐จ๐ฆ๐๐ฌ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ, ๐ฒ๐'๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ?"
#Otoya Eita
Otoya doesn't have a good history regarding feelings for people. Especially girls. One day he'll say that you guys are friends, the next day he'll act like you don't exist. He's used to brushing people off to the side whenever he feels like it.
He's known not to take relationships seriously. And would only keep talking to you if you're the one going for it. Or he'll recycle you, and move on to the next person. Claiming he only wants exciting people.
Otoya has done this his whole life, and he doesn't even recognize when he likes someone. Which led to him getting hurt, for a reason he doesn't understand. You're supposed to mean nothing to him. Why does he care about you?
He questions himself for a moment, but quickly ignores himself to go up and talk to you.
Otoya wouldn't try as much when it comes to someone he likes. But will sneak glances at you often, claiming that you're distracting him. And would blame you for making him fall for you.
But when he tells you that he likes you, he already knows what is going to happen. You're confused, taken aback, and hesitant. Not like he's not used to it. He finds people being skeptical around him whenever he says he likes them.
But in the back of his head, he knows that you mean something to him. And wants to have you to himself.
Yet, you are hesitant about how he truly feels about it. You don't want to be used, he knows that. And he says to himself that he'll never use you, and will try to make you see that.
"๐๐ก๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ค ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐๐ฌ ๐ ๐ฃ๐จ๐ค๐? ๐'๐ฆ ๐ฌ๐๐ซ๐ข๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ."
#Nagi Seishiro
He doesn't know why he likes you. Nagi just thinks of you as a normal person that he talks to sometimes. He stays the same around you as he does for other people, chill, and easygoing. But for you, he may sometimes look at you when you're talking to him.
Nagi often asks Reo to talk to you for him, for many different reasons why. However, he often claims that he's lazy and doesn't want the hassle to get up. And it's true, but he's just worried about how you'll think of him.
Nagi views you as out of his league and wants Reo to help him get with you. Often when he commands Reo to do stuff, like ask you what your favorite games are. He watches from afar watching you two talk.
He hopes that one day he'll end up talking to you, one-on-one, without feeling that small feeling of nervousness he gets. So why not get Reo to do all the talking?
But one day he was feeling different, and he wanted to talk to you himself. He built up the confidence and heard all of the conversations you and Reo had, which helped him get a feel of how you acted and your vibes.
Though he knew he wasn't as outgoing as him, he believed he could do this. He tucked his arm behind his head and said that he liked you, out loud confidently.
To his surprise, you thought he was joking. Nagi's eyes opened wide and his arm dropped a little. What did Reo say her? He said in his head. Wondering how he should go about this.
He took a deep breath and wondered how he should manage to convey how felt this time.
"๐ ๐จ๐ง๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐๐ฌ๐ค๐๐ ๐๐๐จ ๐ญ๐จ ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐ค ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐๐จ๐ซ ๐ฆ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ ๐ฐ๐๐ฌ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ข๐๐. ๐๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ ๐ซ๐๐๐ฅ๐ฅ๐ฒ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ. ๐๐จ๐ซ๐ซ๐ฒ ๐๐๐จ๐ฎ๐ญ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ญ."
#Yukimiya Kenyu
Yukimiya understands his feelings very well, and others too. He often takes a calm approach when it comes to discussions about people's feelings. Just as long as they're not related to soccer. Yuki never really had a crush on someone besides when he was little.
But he did often look at people and realized how pretty they were, just like with you.
When Yukimiya first saw you he figured you were also a model just like him. He was so enamored by your appearance that he knew he had to talk to you.
He focused on every single detail about you, but never told you that because he didn't want to be creepy. But instead showed it through his long glances at your face.
Often complemented with a nice smile of his.
Yukimiya knows he likes you, and he accepts it. But it would be a long while till he gets the courage to say it, in fear of rejection. So he plans out a list of what to do before he breaks that ice and tells you his true feelings.
He takes a slow breath in and smiles as he tells you about his feelings. And how much he likes you... But it backfired for him. You weren't so used to people being this nice to you, getting you questioning.
Yukimiya realizes this and instead tries to show you through actions. Showing that he is serious and would never dream about faking it.
"๐ ๐๐ข๐๐ง'๐ญ ๐ค๐ง๐จ๐ฐ ๐ฐ๐ก๐๐ญ ๐ฌ๐ฉ๐๐๐ข๐๐ข๐ ๐๐ฅ๐จ๐ฐ๐๐ซ๐ฌ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐ข๐ค๐ ๐ฌ๐จ ๐ ๐ ๐จ๐ญ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ญ๐ก๐๐ฌ๐. ๐๐ก๐๐ฒ ๐ฆ๐๐ค๐ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ ๐ฅ๐จ๐จ๐ค ๐ฉ๐ซ๐๐ญ๐ญ๐ฒ."
#Shidou Ryusei
Shidou has zero experience when it comes to having a crush. He's not experienced when it comes to liking someone besides how cool they are. He even surprised himself that he managed to find someone that he genuinely liked.
But he doesn't know what to do. Of course, he can go up to you and be all flirty with you, that's him without self-control, and speaking 'self-control', he has zero.
He "tries" to control himself somewhat, because he doesn't want to scare you too bad. So Shidou decides that he'll just 'try' and get along with you normally. He does have a lot of determination to make this work for you and him.
At first, he'll just come off as really "bold and cool" he says, and then slowly let you see how funny he is. Not only for him to get close to you, but to see if you guys would have chemistry.
And when he's finally fully comfortable with you, and sure that you guys could work together. He'll tell you he likes you.
Of course, it comes as a surprise for you, that he likes you. You can't help but feel it is just one of his jokes again. But little do you know he is serious about liking you.
His expression doesn't change when you question him on his feelings. He knew it was going to happen, Shidou instead just listens to you and hears you out.
But after your done questioning him, a large smirk comes on his face and he puts his face close to yours.
"๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ข๐๐ง'๐ญ ๐๐๐๐ฅ ๐๐ง๐ฒ ๐๐ก๐๐ฆ๐ข๐ฌ๐ญ๐ซ๐ฒ, ๐ฐ๐ก๐ฒ ๐ฐ๐จ๐ฎ๐ฅ๐ ๐ ๐๐ฏ๐๐ง ๐ญ๐๐ฅ๐ค ๐ญ๐จ ๐ฒ๐จ๐ฎ?"
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drop the act โ satoru gojo
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fem!reader, fake dating to real lovers, fluff, 0.8k+ wc. ๏พ requested for my milestone event.
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โletโs just stop.โ satoruโs announcement came out of the blue. his tone came off serious and firm, which was quite uncharacteristic of him. it took you by surprise, a dumbfounded expression was written all over your face. even though you knew that this whole โfakeโ relationship situation wouldnโt last long and that it was bound to come to an end sooner or later the moment he found someone he truly loved, and although you prepared yourself for that day, you just couldnโt help but feel a hint of sadness and hurt as your heart clenched painfully inside your chest.
why? because what first started as nothing but a mere attraction, a show to stop your parentsโ constant nagging about you not seeing anyone at you age while most of your peers had gotten married already, turned to real and genuine feelings of love. as time passed by since the start of your relationship with him, you found yourself helplessly fall for satoru and those sweet, tender acts of his. the way your name slipped off his lips ever so sweetly, and how it rung into your ears like a serenade. how he took your hand into his as they fitted perfectly, like two puzzle pieces that complete one another. how he casually threw his arms around your waist like it was the most natural thing in the world to do for him.
you knew that all of his sweet actions and gestures were all just a part of his act to make it seem as believable and convincing as possible, and he did exactly that. no one, not even your parents, had a single doubt that the two of you were really dating. to outsiders, your relationship was what they call 'goals'. not knowing that it was all just a show, a camouflage. although you knew it all along, but you couldn't help but fall for him.
satoru was your ideal type for what a lover should be, and you wanted to do nothing more than to confess your feelings for him, but you couldnโt bring yourself to do so. after all, the two of you only ever agreed to do this was because there were no strings attached. it was only a matter of convenience for both you and him, since he also happened to be in the same situation as you. so when you asked for his help, he was more than willing to oblige.
you wanted to tell him not to leave you, to stay with you longer, that youโd gotten so used to being with him to the point where you weren't ready to live without him, that you needed him. just thinking about how the two of you would part ways from then on, and how satoru would eventually move on like nothing happened between the two of you and maybe even find himself someone whom heโd truly love almost made your head spiral out of control.
if only you had known your feelings for him would grow this intensely, you wouldn't have agreed to do this.
your body moved on its own as your hand grabbed the sleeve of his jacket. you swallowed a lump that was starting to form in your throat.
"do we really have to?" your voice was shaky as you sounded very desperate. your eyes were practically glued to the floor as you anxiously awaited for his answer, refusing to ever look up. your chest moved up and down rapidly as as result of your heavy breathing.
you heard him sigh as he removed your hand away.
"yes, itโs gotten really tiring having to keep up with this act." your heart sank at his response. it really was the ending, and you were trying your hardest to fight the tears that eagerly awaited to fall.
satoru reached his hand out and used his thumb to lift your chin up, forcing you to look at his beautiful sky blue eyes. his lips slightly parted as he began speaking.
โletโs drop the act, i love you for real.โ
and the sudden declaration hit you like a truck, did he just say that he loved you? it took you a couple of long minutes to process his words and fully register them in your mind.
the seriousness and earnestness of his tone along with his unwavering gaze at you left no room for doubt, he definitely meant every word he said. and you couldn't believe what started as a mere act at first had actually become something real.
the anxious look on your face began to relax as all tension slowly escaped your body, replaced with a wave of joy and relief. you let a few happy tears fall down your crimson, red cheeks as a result of being overwhelmed with emotions, which satoru gently wiped.
"yeah, let's." you hummed, a soft smile made its way onto your face. you wrapped your arms securely around his neck as you stood on your tippy toes, whispering softly into his ears in a moment of genuine intimacy and affection which you had felt for the very first time.
"i love you, satoru." although it wasn't your first time saying those words to him, but this time it felt much different, much more meaningful.
he smiled softly and leaned closer as the distance between you and him was completely gone.
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I love basking in the love of romantic movies and shows until I remember I'm never going to experience that feeling myself
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