#or drinking apple juice or liking sports as well as reading or being bad at things or having off days to be lazy af

[goldrushseason]

haiiii :3

with my final fall semester around the corner, i joined tumblr in order to document everything. i want to make the most of my final year of university (because it's come around way too quickly) and honestly girlblog... life is too short to not do the things i'm scared people will judge me for!!!

to stay mysterious, i'm em and i am studying history and hopefully will stay in education by becoming the teacher hehe

but as a quick intro post, you'll find me keeping this as either a digital journal or trying way too hard to keep this aesthetically pleasing

see you sooooooon <3

[crab-in-a-pocket]

reserved farmer headcanons + meeting the bachelors for the first time!

wanted to make some generally reserved farmer headcanons to kick off this blog and bc i see a lot of very friendly farmers out there and i... am not one of them LMAO

additionally, there's reference to a supposed volatile relationship with a (former?) loved one (projection time!)

also i forgot to open my askbox bc idk how to tumblr ?? i think it's open now (i hope).

tw: drinking and alcoholism, references to past trauma, one Bad Word (sh^t!)

when you first meet everyone, it's a quiet greeting and maybe a witty remark, but you don't stay for any chit-chat

close-lipped smiles are your signature move, along with the Man Nod whenever you run into someone

you are, of course, a nice and courteous person but you don't feel the need to say hello to everyone every damn time you pass by them because, really, you're too busy rushing to Pierre's for some seeds or lugging around foraged beach stuff

okay, maybe some of them think you're a little cold and an introvert who has... problems

but you're not! you are a strong and emotionally stable farmer who gets Shit Done and prefers to observe over participate and think over talk!

mayor lewis is extremely puzzled and almost mistakes you for someone else-- it's been over a decade and people change too much, too soon. he makes a remark about a wishing well your grandfather had built long ago (remember the well? how you fell in it that one time?) and you nod along politely (i didn't fall, i climbed in because i desperately needed my wish to come true)

it's nice to meet people who aren't as temperemental as the tides. maybe, for once, you could have a proper relationship with someone.

alex

easily the most annoying and extroverted person in town what with his obsession with sports and loud, brash personality but you two get along fabulously because you had that same passion for gridball in college before you were too busy being a corporate slave

he's a little surprised that you sit next to him at the saloon but he goes along easily and the conversation flows between the two of you easily, ranging from future plans (thinking of going pro... think i'll make it?) to the weather without sounding like you're making fake smalltalk (i wanted to play pro, too, and here i am now. if you really want it, you'll have to leave this all behind)

there's something genuine about him that's intriguing and it leaves you wanting to find out and see what the real alex is like inside because you can see through that wall he's made

and there's something enigmatic about you, who is reserved and quiet and seems to be a simple open book, when in fact, you are a very attractive onion with many, many layers

sam

you think he's immature. a wildchild, a manchild, a wildmanchild, really. sam, on the other hand, is drawn in by your calmness and how in-control you appear to be-- when you offer to play a game of pool when sebastian doesn't show up, he's delighted at the opportunity to know you better

okay, so he is immature and a wildmanchild but there is a softness in him that surprises you every time he shows it-- which is frequently around you

he has a soft smile to counteract his proud one and he's so in awe of how you get so much stuff done every day (i don't know how you do it, that's gotta be tough), every week, and every month (you'd like the responsibility, i think. to me, it's one big project i need to finish)

he has instant crush on you because you're so cool even though your line of profession really doesn't evoke much awe. i mean, you're  attractive, you are so in control of your life, and you have a really cute smile whenever he compliments you-- how could he not?

shane

bit bold of you to sit next to him at the saloon because every knows he's can be a real asshole, but he glances at you with a hint of awe and more than a hint of annoyance. you elect to ignore this and choose to order a whisky on the rocks (if you don't drink, call it apple juice)

whisky: shane's a touch impressed because you look like a lightweight. well, it's nice that someone can hold their liquor. he makes a remark about it (planning on getting drunk, huh?) and you raise a brow at him, looking a little haughty and tell him that it's your drink for the week. he's annoyed at your remark and starts an argument that surprisingly, settles down into a civil conversation

apple juice: he snorts at that and makes a remark about meeting penny for your lessons the next day. you play along and sip at your drink, making witty remarks (thank yoba for hangovers. it's the non-drinker's edge, really. just like not having liver failure). he's not sure if he should be annoyed or impressed at your cool-as-a-cucumber personality, not sure if it's too big city or too closed-off

you offer to buy him a pizza if you can take a away his beer-- at any rate, he looks like he'll end up with liver failure the way he's going. shane aquiesces and devours the entire pizza. your conversation is slow and punctuated with his loud chewing but you're pleasantly suprised that he's quite smart and well-read about whatever you're interested in

the fourth time you sit next to him, he turns down your pizza and doesn't say a word. neither do you and it's almost like it's back to square one until you realize that he hasn't made a single salty remark about anything. you decide to try again the day after tomorrow-- nothing comes too quickly to people like you and shane.

sebastian

it was the necklace you wore that caught his eye. a shining teardrop stone hanging off a gleaming silver chain. he had spoken before he could stop himself and watched as you smiled and told him he was right-- it is supposed to be a Yeti's tear.

you're pleased to meet someone who is also a homebody and a touch more reserved than a lot of other people in town. he's easy to get along with (oh, you're kidding, you really have the signed edition?) and he's got pretty good taste when it comes to literature-- after all, who can refuse a good sci-fi book? (of course i do, i'm dedicated fan)

oddly enough, your conversation is quick and eager and not all reserved. instead of the companionable silence everyone assumes you two to have, you two nearly talk over each other because you finally have someone to complain to about everyone's over-friendliness and he finally has someone who understands what it's like to be trapped in a small world

you tease him about the corporate rat race and he fires back at you about being a part of it. you like sebastian and he likes you-- it's as simple as that.

elliot

he had heard of you through leah who had heard of you through emily who had heard of you through gus who had heard of you from lewis. it was a long grapevine and he's not sure how much of the truth was preserved and it's almost a relief to meet you because, to be frank, he's tired of being the town's newcomer.

first-- you're not peppy and overly cheerful at all. second, you are definitely not hot-tempered. and third, there's something so fascinating about you, something hidden under your calm, pragmatic character. he finds a kindred spirit in you, save for the flowery words and, admittedly, the vanity.

you're amused to meet a writer living on the beach. the cabin was built by one of your grandfather's old friends, a rather surly man who had taken a liking to you when you were much younger. while the hut is in no way fancy, you can't help but consider how pretentious and, contrastingly, humble the writer must be. pretentious in such a way that he thinks living in a sandy, damp shack is a way to beat writer's block (it's odd, it's rarely a choice people make) and humble in such a way that he accepts and bears with living in a worn house with little complaint (it's admirable, if not a little silly!)

you find yourself in his company late at night when you can't sleep and it's so easy to open up to him because he's kind, he listens, and most importantly, he's not embarassed to admit he's got faults, at least to you. you let him see past your collected facade and into your cracked heart far sooner than you think and elliot doesn't mind at all

harvey

you might be the most mysterious person in town simply because of the way you present yourself. he finds himself always stuttering a little whenever you're around because of the way you watch him, set in a relaxed stance, your gaze flat and cool. later, he realizes that it's your resting face. he wonders about what you'd look like if you smiled-- really smiled

he's touched at the fact that you buy him coffee whenever he had to patch you up-- which is frequently, given your liking for the mines. you're adorable when he gives you general anesthesia. he had run out of local anesthesia and you needed a fair amount of stitches and though you told him that you have a high pain tolerance (stitches are far more painful than you think. i really don't want to put you through that), he insisted and you let him (fine, fine. get on with it, doctor). you had let out several inappropriate jokes under anesthesia and your cheeks had hurt from laughing non-stop

harvey's entranced. there's no other way to put it-- he's bewitched by your bright character hiding under that collected facade. he never pries for your secrets because he's got secrets, too. you like harvey because he's sweet and compassionate and even though he has to put up a firm, professional affectation, he wears his heart on his sleeve.

you see him as a friend at first, all platonic and it seems to be the end of it. but one day, as you hand him a coffee, he laughs and smiles and hands you a coffee just the way you like it. you're falling for him so hard and fast you think someone's put a spell on you that makes you notice the minute expressions on his face and mull over the way he talks to you. you're in love with him-- you can only hope he feels the same way too

[affectingmementally]

hey i’ve been so inactive but i’m back now.

May. A new month and, as i’m sure all of you understand, an opportunity to look at where you went wrong last month and start fresh.

so i’ve started something new. some new rules to kind of relax how obsessive i am about calories but still stay in a deficit low enough to be losing weight. i’ve set myself a deficit of 1,200 on mfp, however i will only allow myself to actually reach that at the weekends or special days like birthdays, holidays etc. otherwise, i’m going to do my best to stay at around 1,000 but if not i’ll allow myself 1,100. the only reason i’m more comfortable with having the extra 200 on weekends is because one day i work for 4 hours and i don’t get to sit down at any point, i’m constantly walking around, lifting things, cleaning and if i leave early enough i can walk the long way rather than the short way to get there. during that time those extra 200 cals would have easily been burnt off. the other day i do water sports so again, the calories get burnt.

another thing that i’m doing differently this month, i’ve decided not to track vegetables. this is mainly because my parents are picking up on how much i was weighing stuff and things like lettuce, cucumber, broccoli will never be over 20 cals so i’ve decided not to count them. however i do want to count fruit because the sugar content usually makes them higher in calories.

secondly, to manage my IBS i need to cut down on coffee. so i’m going to try to only have 4 per week and no more than one a day.

third, i’m going to start writing down my total calorie intake for each day on the calendar on my wall. this way i can have a reminder of how much i should be eating and i can calculate my weekly average.

fourth, vitamins. i’ve been awful at taking them in the past and it’s noticeable when i skip them. so i’m making sure i take them before i sleep. i’m keeping them in the draw next to my bed so if i’m tired i don’t need to go downstairs. i take 1x probiotic 1x A-Z multivitamin 2x turmeric tablets (they’re anti inflammatory so help my stomach, nothing to do with weight loss) 2x colon cleanse (not laxatives, they manage toxins) and 2x metabolism boosting. they are all made from my dads line of supplements and it’s just to make me feel brighter and hopefully help me faint less as well as being in less pain with my stomach.

fifth, i start my morning very specifically now. what i want to try to do is walk in the morning but i’m taking things one step at a time. i wake up earlier to go downstairs and make myself a green tea and get a bottle of water (my bottle is 800ml and i usually drink about 6 of them everyday). i also get a hot water bottle for my stomach and sit in bed and make sure i drink all of that before i do anything else. i’ve figured out that if my mornings start well the rest of the day tends to go better.

sixth, green smoothie. some people hate the idea of drinking a litre of green liquid first thing in the morning but THIS SHIT HAS BEEN SAVING ME I SWEAR. i’m always constipated, like to the point where i’m lucky if i go once a week. however, my mum has been drinking this smoothie everyday first thing for a few months now and she’s lost quite a bit of weight. i’m not saying it’s a miracle potion but if it makes you shit that’s at least something. i make it differently to my mum, but it works well and doesn’t make you bloated (yay!).

the recipe:

- 150g frozen pineapple

- 100g cucumber

-50g celery

-25g kale

-around 5 mint leaves (optional)

-125ml apple juice (optional but does make it taste better and it’s still low calorie)

-250ml water

-1 scoop green nutrition powder (optional, i just put it in for the extra vitamins and shit)

this fits in one of the large nutribullet cups and comes to around 150-200 calories (depending on whether you include the optional ingredients)

seventh (??), i want to try to walk everyday but the weather is shit and sometimes it’s just too bad to go outside and physically go on a walk. however, one thing i do make sure of everyday is that i plank. i don’t really like doing at home workouts, plus the ceilings and walls in my house are paper thin so my family can hear everything, as much as i can hear everything they do as well. but planking, no noise :) i’ve been doing it on and off for years but i definitely recommend it’s something people get into just because once you can do it for a good amount of time the benefits are endless. your core, thighs, glutes, shoulders, back, chest. everything is working. i can plank for 5 mins and i do this before i go to bed. it’s a good distraction to listen to music in the background and for me i like to watch the timer on my phone. for some people that just reminds them of how much time they have left but it motivates me because i can see that time go down if you get me.

lastly, actual hygiene. i want to shower everyday and make sure i do my skincare so my skin doesn’t dry out too badly and my acne doesn’t flare up. when i restrict too much this is a huge issue for me and again, people notice and my parents are better now at picking things like this up because i have been enrolled in therapy for my ed before, so they have been told about all the behaviours and signs. anyway, i want to get more comfortable with showering because last month i way leaving it for WAY too long, just because i didn’t want to see my body. if i do it everyday even for 5 mins i’ll get more familiar and it’ll become a habit.

that’s what i want this month to be about i think. breaking bad habits and making new ones. i don’t want to purge anymore because tbh i don’t enjoy it, it makes me feel relieved afterwards but unless i’m really uncomfortable i hate doing it, it’s my last resort. i haven’t for months but i don’t want to self harm anymore. i have a job where i’m on show to the public and i don’t want to have to manage new cuts or scars anymore, it stresses me out and gives me very little release for the price i have to pay afterwards.

BUT, on a positive note i do want to eat over 1,000 calories each day. that will be an achievement and i want to get more comfortable with the idea that you can still lose weight on high restriction. i do want to get back into walking and enjoying it like i did in lockdown. i used to look forward to it but i began associating it with weight loss and that ruined it for me. i need to learn to enjoy it because it calms me down and it’s time on my own with nature, not just an excuse to burn calories even if it does come with that benefit. i do want to start running again even though i know that will be challenging due to how tired i am each day. hopefully with my sleep pattern getting better and with the vitamins that won’t be a problem in the near future. i want to read again, it’s such a great outlet.

I’m not ready to let go of my ed, i’m not ready to let go of the control i have right now. However, i’m doing my best to positively better myself as much as i can. this is how i’m doing it, this account is anonymous so don’t compare yourself. you don’t know my age, build, my lifestyle or my situation well enough to even begin to compare yourself. we all struggle, i am still struggling a lot. this whole post seems like i’m doing great but i still cry over 10g of peanut butter. i still get angry when i can’t stick to the plan. i still get nervous when food is mixed into any social situation. this month is about coping in the best way i can.

i really hope that from this someone can take something positive that will improve your quality of life no matter what stage you’re at and just to disclaim, i fully support and encourage recovery, i’m just not in it right now. this is not a pro account, it’s a place for me to vent without judgement.

have a good day :)

[imperfekti]

Tenipuri Party: Fuji Shuusuke profile translation

TN:

In the absence of an official English version, this translation is intended to help those who can’t read the material in the original language. Please support Tenipuri by getting your own copy of this book - it is worth it! There are various ways of purchasing it even for those not living in or visiting Japan.

The pictures I have included in this post do not show full pages.

On the translation: I’m aiming for a more direct, “Japanese-sounding” translation to share the mood of the content more as it is. This will probably cause some sentences to appear weird in English.

On Fuji’s style of speech: he uses a lot of little additions that soften the tone, and most of them are pretty hard to include in English. In general his style of speech is a balance of casual but polite.

I’m still working on Japanese, so there might be mistakes. Please let me know if you spot any translation errors so I can fix them here!

Fuji Shuusuke

U-17 Japan representative player, middle schooler Seishun Gakuen Middle-school player

Towards the distant sky, reflected in the mind’s eye --  A noble youth, soaring like a refreshing breeze

Message

“This kind of wonderful placement… it’s rare to get to taste it. Everyone, thank you so much. I’ll have to meet those expectations. (*1) Following the guidepost that I have made myself… I swear I’ll advance to greater heights. I’ll definitely show a new scenery to you too.”

Extra prize: a surprise box decorated with memorable photos “There are even balloons attached to it. An exciting, heart-warming gift. The music box’s tune was to my liking, too.”

Profile

[DATA] Middle-school 3rd year / February 29 (Pisces) / Blood type B / 167 cm / 53 kg / Right-handed

Special techniques: Tsubame gaeshi, Higuma otoshi, Hakugei, Kagerou tsutsumi, Houou gaeshi, Kirin otoshi, Hakuryuu, Hecatoncheires no monban, Hoshi hanabi, Closed eye (*2),  Aoi fubuki, Hikari kaze 

Play style: Counter puncher

Family: Father, mother, older sister, younger brother

Father’s occupation: company employee (foreign company)

Hobbies: Collecting cacti, photography

Favourite saying: What is important is invisible to the eye 

Favourite color: Beige

Favourite foods: All spicy foods, 100% apple juice

Favourite book: Travel journals, travel photo books

Favourite music: Celtic music

Preferred type of person: A person who smells like flowers

Preferred date spot: An observatory where you can see stars clearly

Most wanted thing right now: Stimulus (*3)

Weakness: Sour things

Elementary school: Seishun Dai Daisan Elementary School

Committee: Graduation album committee

Strong subjects: Classics

Weak subjects: Science

Often-visited place in school: Photography room

Uses allowance on: Taking care of cacti

Skills beyond tennis: Winter sports, recognising constellations

His routines during tournaments: Drinking coffee from all over the world, contacting his brother

Favourite anniversary: Birthday of the person he likes

Preferred travel destination: Salar de Uyuni on a night with shooting stars

Present for a special person: A ring made of flowers

Scenes

For Fuji-senshu, who had specialised in counter tennis, a certain incident at the U-17 camp became an impetus for an awakening. (*4) Making the Critical wind ‘Aoi fubuki’ his new weapon, he changed his style greatly into offensive tennis.

(Quotes on pictures:) “Tensai Fuji Shuusuke.” “Now, shall we go one more time…” “Was there this kind of an tensai sleeping in Seigaku?” “This team reaching the nationals championship, that’s my wish!” “Game and set… won by Fuji Shuusuke…” “Critical wind ‘Aoi fubuki’” “One of the Critical winds, ‘Hikari kaze’” “I’ve already stopped playing just defensive tennis.”

Sparked by a certain oath, I began to aim for my own guidepost

Currently, both among fans and people involved, Fuji-senshu’s change to offensive tennis has become a topic of discussion. Was there some impetus for this?

An impetus? Well… I exchanged private oaths with a certain person - is all I think I’ll say here. Fufu.

An oath...? Please give us at least a hint!

Well, just a little, then… Before, I used to draw out the opponent’s strongest skills, felt the thrill of defeating them with a counter, and enjoyed myself like that. But in the end, that depended on the opponent. The guideposts you need to traverse on mountains, you have to find by yourself - that is what I understood.

About Fuji-senshu’s new technique, “Hikari kaze”. How are you able to react like that?

By ascertaining the opponent’s muscle movements and breathing, the moment that information is intracerebrally linked as an image, it’s as if time stops and all noises and the scenery of your surroundings disappear - only the trajectory of the shot the opponent has hit emerges as an signpost of light. So, from now on too, I will follow the guidepost I’ve found by myself, and am aiming to go beyond my limits.

Then, to finish, your objective from here on out is… eh, you already talked about that just now, didn't you?

Yes. I determined the next question before it was asked, and responded to it.

As expected of the prodigy Fuji. You got me there.

Message for Fuji Shuusuke

I thought you seem like you’d be popular with the girls. Alles gute! (Bismarck)

Congratulatiooons! By the way, show me your homework for the report next week ☆ (Kikumaru)

I made a lot of wasabi sushi as congratulations, so please eat them. (Kawamura)

I need to update my data. Congratulations. (Inui)

As expected, Fuji. Next time, let’s play until we are satisfied. (Tezuka)

It’s not something anyone can do. My respects. (Kaidou)

Congratulations Fuji-senpai! I won’t lose next time! (Momoshiro)

Not bad. But, please be prepared that I’ll snatch that from you one of these days. (Echizen)

Hooray! Should we take a memorial photo with everyone! (Ooishi)

I’m amazed. I feel like I’ve caught a glimpse of your hidden inner strength. (Duke)

Congratulations, you are the pride of Japan. (Noa)

Party talk

Q: What was your family’s reaction to the placement this time? A: I think my sister said ‘as expected of my little brother’. Yuuta… He was here, so I’ll ask right now. Hey, Yuuta --!

Q: Th-that bright red food…? A: I wanted to taste even more wonderful, stimulating foods. What about you?

Q: The singing performance just now was lovely! A: Being the first to go on the stage… it was thrilling and fun. (*5)

Q: Who have you talked with, and what was the topic? A: Member of staff, Oliver-san taught me about places near the tournament venue where you can see the starry sky well.

Q: During the sideshow, you took a picture of the audience, didn’t you. A: Because it’s rare to see Tezuka making that kind of an expression.

Q: Is there anything that has piqued your interest in the venue? A: That flower stand with cacti, I wonder which country it’s from… Tube?

History

Age 0 February 29 Birth

Age 4 After napping with Yuuta, is frightened by Yuuta who saw a bad dream and tears up

Age 8 Goes out sea bathing with Yuuta and Saeki

Age 9 Gets a camera from grandfather, starts taking pictures Is deeply impressed by the form of a swallow (tsubame) found in an aquarium

Age 12 March Graduates from Seishun Dai Daisan Elementary School

April Enters Seishun Gakuen Middle School Division Plays against Tezuka, is not satisfied

August Goes to Kawamura's house for the first time, wasabi sushi is made for him

December After Yuuta ran away from home, searches for him all through the night in the snow

Age 13 March The extremely spicy food he makes at gratitude-party is unpopular

April Proceeds to second year in middle school

June During the athletic festival cavalry battle, has a showdown against Tezuka (unsettled)

July Is scouted at his older sister's commemorative publication autograph signing party

February Succeeds(?) in a triple spin jump at the neighbourhood skating rink

Age 14 April Proceeds to third year in middle school Kikumaru, now in the same class, comes over to play for one consecutive week

May Start of the Tokyo Prefectural District Preliminaries Plays against Gyokurin in the quarterfinals, wins against Nakano in S1 Advances to the Semi-Finals November Plays against Mizunofuchi in the semifinals, wins against Egawa, Yamanishi pair in D2 Plays against Fudomine in the finals, defeated by Ishida-Sakurai pair in D2 by forfeit Wins the Tokyo Prefectural District Preliminaries championship, has a celebration at "Kawamura Sushi"

June Start of the Tokyo Prefectural Tournament Plays against Kamata in the Third Round, wins against Ishizaki in S3 Plays against Akiyama Third in the Fourth Round, wins against Morishima-Nishikawa pair in D2 Plays against St. Rudolph in the quarterfinals, wins against Mizuki in S2 Plays games with Yuuta who came to stay at home, loses Plays against Yamabuki in the Finals, defeated by Nitobe-Kita pair in D2 Wins the Tokyo Prefectural Tournament championship

July Start of the Kantou Tournament Plays against Hyoutei in the first round, wins against Akutagawa in S2 Bowling tournament with the Regulars Plays against Rokkaku in the semifinals, wins against Saeki-Itsuki pair in D1

July 27 Plays against Rikkai in the finals, wins against Kirihara in S2 Wins the Kantou Tournament championship Beach volleyball tournament during the joint training camp with Rokkaku

August 11 During a practice match with Tachibana, his Triple Counters are broken

August 17 Start of the National Tournament Plays against Higa in the second round, wins against Hirakoba-Chinen pair in D2

August 19 Plays against Shitenhouji in the semifinals, defeated by Shiraishi in S3 Participates in the yakiniku battle, drinks Aozu and drops out

August 23 Plays against Rikkai in the finals, wins against Niou in S2 Wins the National Tournament championship Is inspired when visiting a hollyhock gallery with Kawamura

October Is invited to an amusement park by a student whom he saved from groping, but declines

November Participates in the U-17 training camp Wins against Yuuta in the “friendly fire” matches The restaurant’s tabasco runs out, a restriction for use is put in place Plays against Tezuka who is leaving Japan, swears three things

December On the overseas training camp right before the U-17 world cup, faints from eating Akuto meshi at the pick-up tournament In Australia, enjoys coffees from all countries with Jackal U-17 pre-world cup begins Plays against Germany in the first match, wins against Bismarck-Siegfried pair U-17 world cup begins Plays against Australia on the second round of the qualifying league, wins against Mac-Milky pair in D1 Japan is qualified to play in the championship tournament

What I most want to photograph now is Australia’s starry night sky

During the camp and on off days, what do you do for a change of pace?

I guess the main one would be taking pictures. Especially on an overseas trip like this, taking a lot of pictures of sights I don’t usually see arouses my creativity.

Since coming to Australia, what kind of pictures have you taken?

When you go a bit outwards, there’s a desert, so I’ve taken a lot of pictures of cacti. But though you may say “cacti” in one word, there are tall ones, types that have a form that is round like a tennis ball, and so on - there are many different kinds. Besides that, I took pictures of koalas. Tanegashima-san recommended a good place to me… I could even hold them in my arms, so I had fun. What I’m thinking I most want to photograph next is the starry sky. Since it’s the Southern hemisphere, the scenery of the night sky totally differs from the sky in Japan. The Southern Cross, or capturing the Milky Way - I’d really like to take such pictures.

Do you show the pictures you take to someone?

I often send them to family and friends. I sent a lot of pictures of the koalas to my brother Yuuta, fufufu. It seems my sister likes cacti of weird shapes.

I think the fans also really want to see Fuji-san’s pictures.

I brought many with me today, so sure. I’d be happy if people would like them.

Photo

In Australia When I find the time within the U-17 tournament, I take pictures little by little. Don’t you think this koala looks like Yuuta?

Cacti We often go for walks together. Even if it’s a familiar scenery, it becomes fun when cacti are around. 

Family trip A camera is a magical tool that can cut out a scene that will not happen again. I can’t miss doing that when I’m traveling.

Fashion

Fuji really likes knits! Are you wearing the hat with ears that I gave you? (Kikumaru)

I’m not that interested, but protection against cold is important. It’s good to warm your body properly with a stole. (Ochi)

“I guess I wear a lot of clothes in white or beige. Especially in winter, I choose clothes that don’t clash with the snowy scenery.”

“After all, the feel when wearing something is important. Clothes with natural, smooth feeling materials are to my liking.”

Before, he used to wear things like shorts a lot, but it seems that’s not the case anymore. (Saeki)

Room

I’m aiming for a room with a Nordic taste Since around autumn, when I’ve had the time I’ve been changing the design little by little. I found an antique lamp, and I think I want to establish unity by using Nordic furniture. Next to my cacti, plants I got from Yukimura and Shiraishi have joined the group.

TN:

*1 Or “respond to those feelings.”

*2 Furigana says “closed eye”, but the kanji is actually for “kokoro no hitomi”, mind’s eye.

*3 "Shigeki": stimulus, impetus, incentive, encouragement, motivation, provocation, excitement, thrill.

*4 Literally enlightenment, spiritual awakening, opening one’s eyes to the truth.

*5 It’s not clear whether he is talking about himself, and I haven’t read the overall story yet, so this is my assumption.

[mimisstudy]

Ash - character study

We are doing a new project called ‘write what you know’ which means writing a film about something that has happened to you or around you. Mine is about why people don’t report things straight away as this is something I see complained about a lot with #metoo

Ash is the main character ~17, and based on me. She lived with her dad who emotionally and sexually abused her, and then moved in with her mum when she was ~16. 

this is a super long post btw

Personality

Are they more optimistic or pessimistic? Pessimistic - considers herself a realist, prepare for the worst, hope for the best.

Are they introverted or extroverted? Introverted - was great at making friends as a kid but really struggles to since living with her dad.

What bad habits do they have? She keeps things to herself far too much - she wasn’t allowed to talk to her dad as he would make it about himself and so, despite not living with him anymore, she still internalises until she can’t anymore

What makes them laugh out loud? Shitty puns

How do they display affection? Giving gifts - listening to what they like and giving things related to this

How do they want to be seen by others? Smart (was always told she was smart so doesn’t want to seem dim)

How do they see themselves? An idiot, weak, a bad person. Then she moves. Smart, funny, kind, brave, creative/inventive

How are they seen by others? Funny, kind, smart, gentle

How competitive are they? Competitive with themselves, doesn’t care so much about competing with others but hates when she does something worse than she has before. 

Do they make snap judgments or take time to consider? Indecisive but once set on a plan, she will do it to the max.

How do they react to praise? Struggles to, not used to it

How do they react to criticism? Also struggles as not used to it. Never really praised or crisitised, just sort of blends in

What is their greatest fear? Wasps. Being abandoned. 

What are their biggest secrets? The abuse

What is their philosophy of life? Fuck it, might as well try.

When was the last time they cried? A wasp landed on her while she was on a hike and she had a panic attack

What haunts them? Her dad. she is starting to see him on the streets and in her dreams.

What are their political views? Prioritising people's safety and well-being over the economy

What will they stand up for? Equality, environment, women's rights, sexual assault

What quality do they most value in a friend? Honest / real

If they could change one thing about themselves, what would it be? Their past, though she wouldn’t actually change it. Or make themselves more confident

What is their obsession? gardening

What are their pet peeves?

What are their idiosyncrasies? Autistic. Stampy feet flappy hands.

 Friends and Family

Is their family big or small? Who does it consist of? Small - Taylor (sibling), mum and dad. Lots of extended family but she has moved too much to bond with them.

What is their perception of family? Used to hate her mum but now appreciates her. Loves Taylor but weird sister relationship as they didn’t grow up together

Do they have siblings? Older or younger? Taylor, 3 years older.

Describe their best friend. Does not have any - struggles to bond with people long term

Describe their other friends. Mainly extroverted people that talk for her. 

 Past and Future

Did they grow up rich or poor? Not obviously poor (she wasn’t aware of it) but far from rich. Under the poverty line a few times but didn’t go to food banks

Did they grow up nurtured or neglected? Felt nurturing but was rather emotionally abusive

What is the most offensive thing they ever said? ‘I would like to live with mum/dad’

What was their first kiss like? Awkward school dare - she’s not that into dating but did hook up with someone while in a depressive episode to avoid thinking

What is the worst thing they did to someone they loved? ‘Basically everything ever’

What are their ambitions? To help others get through what she did. set up her own music label

What advice would they give their younger self? Say no clearer

What was their childhood ambition? Be a musician

What is their best childhood memory? Camping at Tolpuddle music festival and the way the musicians interacted with the audience. 

What is their worst childhood memory? The dad experience

Did they have an imaginary childhood friend? No. She would talk to her blanket though.

Love

Do they believe in love at first sight? No. She is aro/ace, she thinks

Are they in a relationship? No. 

How do they behave in a relationship? She has only been in one proper relationship and this was a depressed escapism one - she was sleeping with her as a distraction from her life but wasn’t sexually or romantically attracted to her. she was nice to her but was mainly there for the sex - though she is terrified of insulting people so was still respectful and kind

Has your character ever been in love? No

Have they ever had their heart broken? By her family, yes

Conflict

How do they respond to a threat? Disassociating - she struggles to speak and is very slow. She also stims a lot which leads to rubbing her skin raw and has many scars because of this. 

Are they most likely to fight with their fists or their tongue? Neither but her tongue if really having to.

What is your character’s kryptonite? Loud people/sounds

If your character could only save one thing from their burning house, what would it be? Her blanket that she has had since she was born

How do they perceive strangers? No one is trusted until they do something big

What do they love to hate?  Sound design

What are their phobias? Wasps

What living person do they most despise? Certain political leaders and CEO’s that are fucking up the plannet

Have they ever been bullied or teased? No - they aren’t really noticed at all. Taylor used to tease her constantly though - mean, even for a sister, but they are far better together now.

Where do they go when they’re angry? To her garden plot. She has one away from the house.

Who are their enemies and why?  She doesn’t pay attention to anyone enough to hate them that much.

 Work, Education and Hobbies

Do they have a job? Yes

What is their current job? Editing music videos for a band that she knows from secondary

What do they think about their current job? She likes doing it but hates that she could mix the songs better than them - they wont let her change anything though

What are some of their past jobs? They worked at the sweet shop round the corner for a few months before she moved in with her mum.

What are their hobbies? Mixing, baking, minecraft, gardening

Educational background? 7+ (the new uk grading system) in all subjects at secondary. Working on a music and media course at college - predicted distinctions.

Intelligence level? Very smart but struggles understanding basic things often

Do they have a natural talent for something? Baking but she doesn’t enjoy it so doesn’t do it often. 

Do they play a sport? Are they any good? Swimming - she’s good enough to not drown but mainly enjoys just floating around

What is their socioeconomic status? Working class. Her mum is slightly more well off (upper working) but both parents kept their money troubles to themselves.

 Favourites

What is their favourite animal? Snakes

Which animal do they dislike the most? Wasps

What place would they most like to visit? Havana, Cuba due to all the music that has originated there.

What is their favourite song? We’re going to be friends - the white stripes

Music, art, reading preferred? Music

What is their favourite colour? Green

What is their password? Chrysanth3mum

Favourite food: Bolognese but the pasta separate.

Who is their favourite artist? The Crane Wives

 Possessions

What is on their bedside table? (Kubrick was obsessed with bedside tables, he thought they spoke the truth about an individual). Three books: one on music theory, Percy Jackson but she’s barely got through it, and one on gardening. A bedside lamp. A mug. Her glasses. A spray. A hat. Sweet wrappers. A pen and pencil. Her journal, open.

What is in their bin? A years worth of receipts after she finally emptied her wallet. Seed packets. Tissues. 

What is in their purse or wallet? Lots of receipts and business cards. A few bank cards. Lots of change but no notes.

What is in their pockets? Her phone and earplugs. Her jacket pockets are stuffed: rocks and shells she likes, seed packets, tissues, gloves, various bits of rubbish she has picked up, pens, a tiny notebook

What is their most treasured possession? Her hardrive

 Spirituality

Do they believe in the afterlife? She hopes is doesn’t exist - the idea of still being alive after you die is horrifying

What are their religious views? She was into all the spiritual wiccan things at one point but fell out of it during her last depression spell. She still uses crystals and tarot cards though.

What do they think heaven is? Heaven is in the moments of bliss

What do they think hell is? The world we are currently living in

Are they superstitious? She thinks other things are out there and around us but she isn’t scared of that. She likes to leave apples outside for the ghosts and fae

How would they like to die? Either by her own hand (again, depressed) or drowning. Old age would also be nice.

What is their zodiac sign? Taurus

 Values

What do they think is the worst thing that can be done to a person? Not listen to them

When did they last lie? ‘No, its fine’ - when asked if they wanted to talk about what he did

What’s their view of lying? Lying is bad, it’s just really confusing. That being said, she is okay with it when you are doing so to protect yourself

When did they last make a promise? They don’t make promises

Daily life

What are their eating habits? They won’t eat things if they are in the wrong order. Eating is boring so she wont do it unless she is actually hungry. She has lots of ‘bad’ foods - tomatoes (puree is okay), cucumber, bananas, mushrooms, dates, oranges (orange juice is okay). Fizzy drinks. ARFID

Do they have any allergies? no

Are they minimalist or a clutter hoarder? Hoarder. Everything looks like a mess but it all has a reason for being where it is.

What do they do first thing on a weekday morning? Clean teeth, shower, water, food, pack bag, get dressed, clean teeth, check the lights and plugs, college.

What do they do on a Sunday afternoon? Edit and then do some gardening

What do they do on a Friday night? Make pizza and play minecraft and drink

What is the soft drink of choice? She doesn’t like fizzy drinks. She will have ribeena

What is their alcoholic drink of choice? Blackberry liquor that her mum makes for social drinking. She has a habit of getting very drunk with vodka and smoking to dull her mind

Miscellaneous

Who is their hero? Elton John

What or who would your character dress up as for Halloween? She doesn’t celebrate halloween and instead tries to do Samhain rituals.

Are they comfortable with technology? Yes but she does tape over her camera and is always using a vpn

If they could call one person for help, who would it be? Taylor

What is their greatest regret? That they didn’t say no enough. Thinks about the butterfly effect constantly though so wouldn’t change anything in her past if she could.

What would they do if they won the lottery? Split the money between her, her sister, her mum and a little tiny bit for her dad so he doesn’t hate her. She would set up her own music label and get a farm but almost the rest of it will be for setting up charities/donating. She wants one charity for helping victims of abuse, another to go to an orphanage, and then to alazhiemers and autism charities. 

What is their favourite fairytale? Snow white and rose red

Do they believe in happy endings? No

What is their idea of perfect happiness? Sat on her farm, her music playing softly in the background, many cats and goats and chickens, and a bowl of soup. 

If your character could travel through time, where would they go? They would stay right where they are. Although, she would quite like to tell the guy that came up with autism to not be a sexist twat.

What sport do they excel at? They are weirdly good at golf but don’t like it as it is such an unnecessary use of green space

What sport do they suck at? Frisby 

If they could have a superpower, what would they choose? Invisibility or the power to change chances

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #253

hope everyone is staying safe through this quarantine. wash your hands.

Which band do you have more music of than anyone else on your computer? Ozzy. Who’s your favorite philosopher? *shrugs* I don't know any's ideals well. How old were you when you learned how to read? I'm not sure, but I know I was exceptionally young. What’s the coolest Halloween costume you’ve ever worn? I don't think I've ever worn something rather cool. Who’s your favorite painter/artist? If we're talking about well-known, "popular" artists, I'm not sure. Maybe DaVinci. What’s your favorite song lyric- ever? ARE YOU??????????? FOR REAL?????????? Holy FUCK I get goosebumps from lyrics SO easily, this is like impossible. Probably an Otep lyric, though. I really don't like her personally, but goddamn can she write. What’s your dream tattoo if you don’t have it already? I've linked it before, so I'll just remind it's "Denialism" by deviantART's NukeRooster on my entire, upper left arm. I've already gotten her permission (I don't like just... stealing artwork to put on my body), now just comes the day I can pay for it by a top-tier pro. What’s the coolest screen name you’ve ever had? I don't think any have been necessarily "cool." Who do you think was the most badass serial killer? (Real life.) I'm not well-versed in serial killers honestly, but I can say Charles Manson was a C A S E. I think we can all admit he was... interesting. Just the epitome of weird. Most badass fictional serial killer? ig Jason; again, I don't know a lot off the top of my head, but I like him. How many bank accounts do you have? I don't have one. Have you ever been falsely accused of starting drama? Yep. Have you ever found a song that describes your whole life? Parts of it, sure. What kind of car do you drive? I don't drive a car, but Mom's is a... Honda? Kia? Idk. I'm bad with car brands. What kind of car would you like to have? Average size, pretty simple. Burnt orange or red. I know I want one of those screens you look into to see what's behind you when backing up. Have you ever been to Dairy Queen? If so, what’s your favorite thing to eat from there? mmmmmmmmMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. So unhealthy, but I will destroy and Oreo Cupfection. Try. That. Stuff. Their milkshakes are also great. Which website do you email from? Outlook. Do you enjoy receiving souvenirs? Sure, it's nice. Have you ever had the flu? No. What about strep throat? Maybe once? Do you normally have a lot of homework, if you’re still in school? Kinda, yeah. Did you ever enjoy gym class? Fuck no. Even when I was healthy. What is your biggest insecurity? My body. Have you ever painted a room alone? No. How many huge secrets do you have? Huge? Uhhh, none, I think. Have you ever painted something and been impressed by it? Yes. Would you rather go out to eat or stay in? I prefer eating out because yummy food, but considering I'm working on losing weight, I avoid it. Do you have any younger siblings? One. Have you ever considered bleaching your hair? To the point of being snow white. Considering my hair is super healthy and bleaching so heavily would destroy it, I'll be avoiding that. I DO want to bleach my hair to do other colors, though. Brown hair sucks. Do you drink vitamin water? No. Are there any old movies you absolutely love? Oh sure, a good handful. The Outsiders probably tops it. Have you ever had a Big Mac before? No, doesn't appeal to me. I don't like veggies on my burgers... despite eating veggie burgers when I was vegetarian lmao. Do you think you attract the opposite sex at a reasonable rate? I doubt that. Have you ever filed a lawsuit on someone? No. Do you enjoy reading often? I'm finally back into it!! Lately all I've been wanting to do is READ READ READ. Have you ever had a deadly illness? Well, I consider depression (among other mental illnesses) to be very deadly, but on a literal level, no. I mean I have dormant MRSA, which can kill if active, but it never has been. Most people carry that dormantly anyway, if I remember correctly. Ever had food-poisoning before? No, thankfully. Where did you last eat dinner at? Mom bought Nicole and me Sonic. Have you ever had someone pick you up off the ground & carried you? When I fainted, yes. Are you a flirty person? Not really. A name you hate with a passion? Edward, to name one. Erwin. A lot of old names. What is your favorite type of water (ex. arrowhead)? Essentia mmmmmmmmmmmmm,, Have you ever been to Warped Tour? I WISH. :( Do you know anyone who wears fur? I fucking hope not, because I wouldn't associate with them anymore. When was the last time you were on myspace.com? Damn yo, millennia ago. How often do you cuss? Too much. I mean, I don't even believe "profanity" is a thing by our definition of "that word is magically bad," but still, it's like when people say "like" too much. Have you ever cussed out a teacher? No. What did you think of the movie Juno? I never watched it. How often do you eat meat? Sigh, more than I wish. What grade did you meet your best friend in? We didn't meet in school. Last time you cleaned your room? Couple days back. I'm honestly bad at dusting regularly in here, but that's gotta change with Mom having chemo now. Her immune system will be compromised so this house needs to be as pristine as it can. When you were little, would you have rather watched Cartoon Network or Disney Channel? Disney Channel. We weren't really Cartoon Network kids, actually. It was Disney or Nickelodeon. Do you shave your arms? No. Are you a big fan of the Harry Potter series? Never read a book, never watched any movies; the first one was playing in my presence once, but I paid no attention. How often would say you pulled all-nighters, if you ever do? Shit man, never, nowadays. I don't think I've had one for two years now. My youth is escaping. Has a friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend ever had a problem with you for any reason? I don't think so. How many times a day do you find yourself cracking your joints, if at all? Maybe not even once a day. Only my big toes and upper back can pop. Is there a particular sport you follow on a regular basis? No. Are you 100% over the last person you kissed? No. Do you put ketchup on top of your french fries or on the side? On the side. Who was the last person you talked to in person? Mom. Do you have a dog? Not anymore, thank fuck. Do you like orange juice? Yes. Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister? I never liked it. They're not inclusive at all towards fucking NORMAL bodies, nevermind plus size. Apparently even their rules on looks for workers are absolutely horrible. Ashley liked them though, so sometimes I just had to go in with her. If money was no object, would you change your wardrobe? My goth could finally  E S C A P E. How do you/did you get to school? My mom drives me. Have you ever had to have a pet put down? Four times that I remember off the top of my head. What candy cane flavor is your favorite? MMMMMMMMMM get the pink Starburst kind. Do you get angry when fast food restaurants mess up your order? It's annoying, yes. Angering when you've already driven away, especially when you really wanted something. What was your favorite elective class in high school? Art. Did you ever wish you could be homeschooled? Yes. I was homebound for a little while. Have you ever had a dream so realistic you could’ve sworn it happened? Yes. Do you have any mental disorders? I'm a walking mental disorder, lmao. Y'all know the biggies, and now ADD and especially DPD (dependent personality disorder) are being considered. Do you feel comfortable talking about these disorders, if you have them? Yeah, I really don't care. Where did you go on your last field trip? I want to say to a band competition in high school. Are you able to agree to disagree? Or do you have to have the last word? Yeah, pretty easily. Is there a cover song you like better than the original version? A whole lot, actually. Do you have a hard time talking about sex with the opposite gender? I have a hard time with anyone. Have you ever had major surgery? Major, no. Is there any food you don’t like that a lot of others do? Here in the South, everyone is most surprised when they hear I hate fried chicken. What was the last thing you bragged about? Hm. I'm not sure, actually. I don't make a habit out of doing that. Can you do a backflip? Hell no. Are you listening to anything right now? I have a video up of relaxing tracks from Silent Hill 2 + 3. Great shit. Has anyone ever tried to tell you you were adopted? No. How many doors are in the room you’re in? Two, but one's just the closet door. Have you ever been engaged and broke it off? No. Has anyone ever drawn a picture of you? Yes. Do any of your friends have children? Yep. Is there anything you’re craving right now? Not really. Who got married at the last wedding you attended? A family friend. It was the second wedding I shot. Is happiness something to be achieved and sought after or is it something to be retained and held onto always, no matter what happens? The former. You can't just stay happy when, like, your grandma dies. What gives you a peaceful feeling? Nature. Hearing water and birdsong, specifically. Are you a Toys-R-Us kid? Hell yeah I was. My sisters and I would go crazy if we had the chance to go there. We were SOOOO upset when it closed down. If you believe in Heaven, are there separate heavens for different animals (kittie heaven. dog heaven, bird heaven, etc)? I don't know if I believe in a "heaven," but some sort of peace after death, yes. I believe it's one, unified "heaven." When you sleep next to someone do they fall asleep first usually or do you? They always do considering it takes me ten years to fall asleep. If they do, do you watch them sleep? I have. Not in a creepy way, but rather a "wow I love this person" sorta way. What is your usual breakfast? Usually apple and cinnamon oatmeal What do your salt and pepper shakers look like? They're nothing special. The salt is a blue ceramic, and the pepper one is just what you get from the store. Have you ever had your car towed? I've never had my own car. What band or singer do you believe started rock and roll? I'm pretty sure Elvis is given that credit. Whose voice irritates you like fingernails on a blackboard? The female singer of Mother Mother's voice. Mom and I can't stand her singing. All I songs we enjoy feature almost solely the main singer. I can *tolerate* it in some songs, but. What do you contribute to society? Ha. Do you take naps? Almost daily. Do you have any cavities? Not to my knowledge. Do you believe that there has been a man on the moon? Yes, though I do believe the "first" landing was faked in competition with Russia. It sounds ridiculous, but I'm so serious, look into the theory - there's incredible evidence. Would you ever go into a sex shop? I'd be too self-conscious to. I'd just order online. Let’s just say your school team is on a winning streak. One of the cheerleaders cheers both for your team and the other team during games. Does it make you angry? I don't care enough about sports to even consider how I'd feel. Do you prefer carnivals, festivals, circuses, parades or faires? To be real, I only know the difference between parades and circuses. What even distinguishes the other three from each other. Do you believe in psychic ability or is it a sham? I lean towards no. What is your favorite classic rock song? You CANNOT ask me this question. Classic rock is some of the best music there is.

[the-real-tonystark]

Lily's random list of self-care tips

Brush. Your. Teeth. Twice a day, two minutes each, etc. Floss too. Lotta people don't do that and it's gross. If you're reading this then I assume you're at the age where you lost all your baby teeth and won't be growing another set. The ones you got, you're stuck with for life. Also they're hella expensive to maintain already, let alone with poor dental health, so you're better off taking a few minutes a day to brush than suffer later.

Shower. I didn't say hour-long bath with bath bombs and candles, I said shower. Baths are a treat type thing. Showers shouldn't take more than 10-15 minutes for a full scrub. Warm ones are good for relaxing and unwinding in the evening, and colder ones work well on hot days and to wake you up. If you can't shower for whatever reason, get some baby wipes or something to stay clean.

Eat. You are what you eat, and if you eat crap, that's what your body will feel like. Fruits like apples and bananas are fairly cheap if you're in a pinch, and canned fruits and vegetables share a lot of the same nutritional value as fresh ones. Replace simple sugars and fats like processed foods with healthier alternatives like whole wheat or avocado (yes, the milennials were right). Limit your caffeine intake to one or two cups a day, and never after 3 PM. Try to finish your meals by 7 or 8 PM, and keep any snacks after that light. If you buy your own food, you gotta actively resist the temptations of junk food. If you live with a provider like your parents, ask them to buy those things.

Hydrate. That means water, not soda or juice or coffee. Carry a reuseable water bottle and drink and refill it often. (Tip: decorate it with stickers, it makes for good conversation starters.) You should drink around 6-8 cups of water a day, though that may vary based on body mass and medical needs. If you don't feel like glugging down water, eat some ice cubes.

Sunshine and fresh air. You don't need to be a nature hiker for this at all. Even opening a window to let air circulate makes a difference. Try to at least sit outside if you can't be assed to move around. Even if you use a computer while sitting on the bench, your body is still soaking up the sun's rays and the Vitamin D will benefit your overall physical and mental health.

Exercise. I know from personal experience that it's really difficult to get up and make yourself move around. The first step is always the hardest. My advice is to start off by standing up and stretching once in a while. Pace around the room a little. Then work your way up to a walk around the block, then maybe two or three. Then after you're accustomed to that, try a jog or maybe do some other activity like a sport you played or always wanted to play. A good tip is to make it social, like yoga with your mom or playing baseball with your friends, because other people holding you accountable will make you wanna keep going.

Sleep. Goddamn are people terrible at this. No caffeine in the afternoons, no electronics an hour before bed because the blue light keeps your brain awake, no aerobic exercise or showers shortly before bed, and no prolonged naps or sleeping at weird hours because it'll mess up your schedule. Put away any school or work things half an hour before bed. Keep a consistent bedtime routine. By the way, bedtime stretches and chamomile tea actually do work.

Interaction. Make it a point to interact with at least one…somebody every day. It can be a call to your parents or texting a friend or playing with a cat or saying hi to a neighbor or ordering from a Starbucks barista or praying to Jesus Christ himself. As much as you probably wanna isolate yourself…don't. Again, this is where you gotta work on your willpower, because being alone will only make you feel worse in the long run.

Dress. Your looks matter. I'm not talking about in a "I need to ace this job interview" or "I need to impress X person" sense. I mean the type of clothes you wear inadvertantly influence both your activity level and self image. If you're lounging around in sweats and PJs all day—typical lazy day stuff—you're gonna feel like it's a lazy day when it's not and you won't wanna do anything. Taking time on your looks also subconsciously tells your brain that you are worth the effort, and when you look good in the mirror, your own self esteem will slowly improve. Personally, I like to use a little bit of jewelry and makeup to accentuate even on casual outfits. Again, it's about making an impression on yourself, not others.

Habits. Form good ones, abstain from the bad. If you've never smoked or drank or whatever, don't start. Don't even give yourself the opportunity to start. If you don't have any healthy habits, gradually find the ones that work for you and adopt them. Start with the basic necessities like food and hygeine, then work your way up to more intricate things like social lives and studies.

Literally none of the stuff I wrote above matters if you don't personally make an effort. Go at your own pace, but challenge yourself. Yes, it's hard to make yourself get up some days, let alone do all this stuff. That's why it's better to start sooner than later. You will have days where life knocks you down, but it's your choice whether or not to get back up. The best things in life are the things that you have to fight for.

You got this.

[eye-raq]

Blood Sport.

killmonger x Black OC

Warnings: HORROR. SMUT. ANGST. 18+ (blood, gore,possession,witchcraft a little)

Summary: A New Orleans native turned big city with Salem blood she is unaware of meets an unlikely creature of the night; not a vampire but something else more.

So there is mention of tarot card readings as well, I tried with it so if it’s wrong just go with it for the sake of the story lol, but anyways I hope you all enjoy this ride. It may be a mini-series.

“YOU WANT ME TO FUCK YOU HARD? Make you cum so fucking hard you can’t utter a single syllable? Is that what the FUCK you want?”

“Give me it alllllll. I NEED it alllllll. You’re in control of me killer.”

She yearned.

“SAY THAT AGAIN. I like it when you talk with little air to breathe..”

He was the puppet master.

“Give. Me. Your. Best.” She leaned forward, mouth like a gaping hole, and teeth flared like she was ready to feast. The persistent need for this man was forbidden but oh so exquisite. Her entire mouth latched onto his shoulder, molars, and canines bending flesh until it split like a seam, drawing blood that was as sweet as cherry juice.

“My actions can’t be tamed, it’s you that I want. Always. No one and nothing else...you’ve consumed me to the point of no return.”

“Mind, body, and fucking soul.” He finished, taking her goddess of a body, wrapping his thick hand around her slender neck, the other gripping her thick thigh that rested around his waist and slamming her into the soiled sheets of the victim's small temporary apartment.

Soiled.

The blood of their victim was stuck between dry and wet, clinging to her naked back like glue. She gripped at the sheets in need, her entire body arching towards the ceiling in a perfect semi-circle, twirling her body like a crazed woman in heat. She was delicate but wild. Her killer of a man ripped his blood-drenched shirt down the middle, unhealed scars grazing his very skin. The deep tan set a soft warm pattern under the flickering lights of that small shabby place, setting the mood perfectly.

“Have at me, darling.” She spoke in barely a whisper. This scorching hot man released himself from the constrictions of his black leather pants, his third leg bobbing free. It was thick and it was powerful; tough to take but generous.

His pupils expanded creating an almost dark pit right in the center. He was consumed, and it happened every night; although tonight he was at his most powerful. It was a full moon night, lycans, werepanthers, and werejaguars together to form a bloody massacre. This werejaguar was nothing to mess with. When he got hungry, he got hungry. The sex drive was on infinity and his primal nature strong enough to kill was enough to wipe out city blocks. He took her under his wing, tamed her and marked her as his.

“She’s mine.” He would say. Any man to try, any man to come within a few feet of her, would be clawed with his long blackened nails. He took pride in slicing clean and smooth across the neck, or gripping the top of the head, sinking his deep claws within the cranium; twisting and then pulling.

The way the tendons would pop, bone cracking like a harsh whip and skin pulling away like a blooming flower. The blood splatter, the warmth of it, the loss of life within their eyes; it was breathtaking.

“Fresh prey; the sweetest victory.” He would practically sing, eyes black and teeth sharp and pointy. His eyes would shift from yellow to black. Yellow when he wanted to draw you in, and black when he was ready to take you. The wound that made him into this creature of the underworld was nothing but deep claw scratches that lay diagonal along his back; cursed and unhealed. It was a mark to remember.

Aria. That was her name; his Aria. She wasn’t fully werejaguar, but she was marked, almost completely his to keep forever. He needed two more bites to seal the deal, and he was determined to get it.

To be marked, you have to be bitten by a full werejaguar. She was bitten but not turned, leaving every dream, every touch, as his. When he first tasted her flesh, it gave him access to her life. She dies by him and him only, she lives because of him.

It was fate. It was satisfaction.

“My sweet, sexy, Aria. You see what I had to do? You see what I’ve become because of you? You made me like this… I’m a jealous man now miss Aria.”

A man lay headless in the corner, blood splatter thick on the wall behind his lifeless body. The room began to smell like fresh dead meat but they didn’t care; bodies ready to fuck like wild animals.

The dead man tried to tempt Aria, following her while she was on her way home, standing outside his apartment building smoking a cigarette. Her killer was always there, watching her closely. That carcass gripped her arm with force, trying to whisper sweet nothings until her killer jumped from a worn gargoyle atop a small museum in downtown Manhattan, yanking the man by the head and pulling him into his shabby apartment.

The kill was gruesome and gory, commanding for her to watch. His booted foot crashed with the man’s chest before swiping clean across his neck, the thick blood trickling down his leg. He wasn’t quite done, gripping the man’s head and with a deep grunt, pulling it from his body. Aria slid down the far wall, her eyes set yellow, and a sinister smile creeping up. He was so primal it made her core ache.

Her lover raked his long blackened nail along her inner thigh, circling the bite mark he gave her. She whimpered, arms flailing to grab him. He smiled in gratification, pleased with his work. Her heart beat heavy and a thick sheen of sweat showered her.

Those pretty brown eyes turned yellow, she was FULLY under his control, long ginger hair cascading down her back. He could drink her blood and eat her alive that’s how good she smelled and tasted. That’s the one thing that drew her to him, she smelled like no other, his senses at an all-time high, and her smooth brown skin.

She was into astrology, tarot cards, and palm readings.

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Aria’s family were from New Orleans but she took her talents to the Big Apple. She had a small loft apartment with a shop at the bottom where she gave people readings. One particular night, Aria said her last goodbyes to some friends after enjoying Pho, packing her items away to settle into slumber. Before she could, the bell to her shop donged, alerting her of another guest.

“I’m sorry! We’re closed! Come back around 11am tomorrow!” She continues to busy herself with cleaning, blowing out her soy candles with a cinnamon scent. It was an almost unbearable silence that followed, nothing heard except for her breathing. The silence was deathlike, and it made her belly feel sickened.

“Hello?” She called out timidly. Aria closed her eyes, hand clutching her chest; eyes closed.

The darkness will never consume me. The darkness will never consume me. She spoke, slowly turning to burn sage. Not tonight. She would not have it. Lately, she felt a dark presence and the dreams that followed had her waking up with night sweats. The floorboard creaked as she walked slowly and hazardously towards the front of her shop, her nerves sparked. Finally reaching the front, she came face to face with nothing. Of course, naturally, this was as if she resided in a typical horror film.

“Of course, no one. What a moment.” She barked out sarcastically, turning on her heel only to crash with the solid chest and abdomen of a man. The petrifying look on her face spoke for itself. The man dawned in all black from head to toe...

Black Henley unbuttoned, sleeves rolled up.

Silver cross medallion hanging on a thin silver chain laying in the middle of his chest.

A single silver cross earring in his left ear reminding you of the 80s.

Black slouchy cargo pants.

Black doc martens on his feet.

And hair crisply dreaded; short, with a sharp temp-fade.

She shudders a spine-chilling shudder. The striking but terrifying look in his eyes set her rigid. He was tall and broadly built. His arms were folded over his chest with domination, and that alone made her take a seat.

“I’m s-sorry. w-were closed.” She stiffened and stuttered.

“Who’s we?” his voice was set and deep.

“I. I meant me.” She stumbled. Who was this man?

“All Alone here. Do you like being alone?” He took a slow stride toward her, pulling out the wooden chair that resided at her frequent table. He slumped into the chair, right arm arched over the back of it, legs wide and swinging. His deep brown eyes scanned her frame slowly and on purpose. Aria felt like her body was undergoing orthostatic breathing.

He was tempting. What did he want? She was getting a bad vibe from him, her throat began to itch; she grabbed at it. He tilted his head, an eyebrow arched; calculating.

“Can I help you?” She cleared her throat.

“I want a reading done. If you don’t mind.”

“But we’re closed-“

“So? I want a reading...DONE.” A ghostly sigh whistled in her ears, eyes fluttering and limbs tiring like she had lifted weights all day. He had a jarring look in his eyes. Fingers tapped against wood and it gave her a heart-stopping feeling.

“Palm reading?T-Tarot cards?” She quickly reached over for her card deck, her shaky fingers struggling to shuffle them.

“Tarot cards are fine, I’m intrigued.”

He hooked his chain, circling it along the pad of his thumb, his tongue peeking out of its cavern quick before hiding again.

“Oh.” She stole her eyes away, resting them on her hands as they shuffled. He was so fearful. Aria quickly laid out the cards specifically for him.

The Chariot. Upside.

It seems like you have strength and willpower. Critical in ensuring that you overcome the obstacles that lie in your path. Maintain control of your surroundings.

She chanced a look at him, noticing a shift in his mood. He seemed turned on, enjoying this not like like an excited customer for the first time but a sexual deviant. Nonetheless, she continued.

The Emperor. Upside.

You...it’s all about control. Authority, regulation, you make the rules, you see them out...the desire to foster, honor, and discipline. You act rationally and accordingly though, to rule you have to serve.

His mouth set into a deep smirk.

“You’re-“

“You're what princess? Am I startling you?”

“N-no.” She lies through her teeth.

“The lies you tell. I can see right through you. Your heart is practically ready to burst like a fucking blister.”

She had one more, placing her middle and pointer finger against it.

The Moon. Upside.

You are animalistic in nature. On the path of the moon stands a wolf or a dog… maybe even another creature of the night. There is a danger, but it brings you clarity. In the dark of the night; full moon mostly, you take on a path that you are first unsure of, but when you’re sure, you allow your imagination and intuition to guide you.

He was interesting and frightening all in one.

“That’s all I have for you...you have depth though, I’m sure there is more but that’s the cards I felt the most energy from.”

He leaned in further, breathing through his nose. The air tickled her arms, raising the little hairs there. He finally reached her personal space, breathing in, her scent causing his eyes to roll and turn pitch black almost.

“You smell like temptation. I’ve had my eye on you, and now I have you.”

“Wha?” Aria felt like she was on a cloud.

She lifted frantically from her seat, walking past him with a loud click of her Steve Madden slinky shoes. She went to open her shop door, turning to him suddenly with struggling courage.

“Okay, it’s time for you to leave. Your sessions over for today.” Her chest rose and fell heavily.

“So soon? But I just got here girl. You don’t wanna have a little fun? That pussy does though I can tell you that.”

“Leave. NOW. I swear to God if you don’t leave I’ll call the police..”

She took in a sharp breath, her scene shifting like she was within a time machine, then out of nowhere, the haunting man was looming over her shoulder, taking his heavy hand to slam her door shut, glass cracking from an almost shatter. Her eyes welled with tears, and her body flew with impossible speed back to that same seat at that frequent table.

“That pussy. I can smell it. It smells sweet; like you were dipped in honey. The little kitty wants to play, I’m turning you on and all you want to do is lie. At least I know what I want.” His heavy booted feet echoed in her ear. The sound waves of his voice were reflected back over and over from low to high. It was a song she wanted to hear on replay.

“Drift baby girl, slip for me..” his voice became distant, she tilted back, the small black cami stretching across her 38 C chest, nipples hardened. Little bumps raised on her chest and it caught his attention. Her wine-colored coffin shaped nails clawed at the chair beneath her with an ache.

Teeth like an animal appeared and saliva dripped onto her surface. She was mouthwatering. He had her finally, and no one else will.

“Who are you?” She asked in persistent need.

“I’m the man you’ve been waiting for. I’ve waited for this moment, killing, tormenting, obsessing, just to get here.”

“I asked your name. Who are youuu??”

He spoke his name against her skin, her pulse thumping loudly in his ears. She felt touch starved, desperate, and heated.

“I’m Erik.”

“How do you know me? What do you want with me?”

“Everything. And trust me it’s possible.” He stood, dragging her limp body with him. Her arms swung loose to the sides, eyes low and trained on him. The small purple suede couch in the back of her shop rubbed against her back, her bodycon hunter green skirt lifting slightly to reveal her gold lace panties. In her mind, she wanted to gain control, but her body was telling her otherwise.

“Look at you, I haven’t even tasted you yet and already your burning with need. That’s my girl.” He pulled on her legs roughly, causing her to gasp loudly. She was in shock and stuck.

“So fucking beautiful, so fucking precious.” His crazed eyes could see right through her. He pulled her legs apart drastically, earning a cry from her pretty mouth.

“THIS IS FREEDOM.” He spoke, nestling his face in the area between her pussy and thigh. He nuzzled with his nose, growling like a wildcat before sinking his teeth in deep and sharp. She screamed, so loud that the entire block could hear. She gripped at his head, yanking as he feasted with the most painful suction. His nose scrunched like jaguars and black claws ripping at her skirt.

“Mmmmm” he hummed, his eyes on her, those now yellow eyes. Her skin grew hot like a fever, and her eyes were wide and appeared yellow as well. Her grip grew weak, and her pussy practically throbbed. Erik finally lifted, tilting his head to the moon letting out a cat cry; it was loud and striking. Her veins boiled and then stopped. She tried to catch her breath with difficulty, feeling his wet tongue lick away her blood.

“YOUR MINES. All mines.”

“Yours?” She felt like she was in a dream.

“You belong to me now Aria. Every move you make, every dream you have, every time you stroke that pussy, and tweak those nipples. Every moan and groan and whimper. I own that shit, and I will until I say otherwise.”

She let out a longing sigh, her arms reaching out to grip him. He let her, his face looming over hers. His now black eyes met yellow, and then full lips met heart shaped ones, the pouty lower lip tucking his full pillowy one into her mouth. She moaned around his mouth, her body arching into his. It was like magic; forbidden magic.

“I’m yours, I’m all yours Erik.” And she meant it. As crazy as it sounded, she did.

“Remember that shit, and scream it while I fuck you.”

Aria lifted from her bed suddenly, sweat chilling her as she kicked the covers away from her body. She breathed out hoarsely, clutching her chest for dear life.

“What the FUCK?” She spoke, her long pressed ginger hair sweaty and matted to her head. She closed her eyes, replaying every scene like a picture book. Absentmindedly her fingers grazed her inner thigh, touching a tender bruised area that made her cock her hand back in terror. She clutched her hand, watching as the moonlight caught the wound.

She shook, eyes fluttering and lower lip trembling.

Erik. Erik did this.

“You rang?”

Aria jumped, head quickly turning to her window seat, watching as the body of the man in her dreams lifted, completely naked and glowing. She roamed him, her heart melting and her eyes unexcused. He was delicious, remarkable, textured, and erotic.

“Words princess. You’ll learn to speak when spoken to. I’ll fix you.” He toyed with a dagger, purposely piercing his skin.

“What are you? The devil?” She meant that.

“No, but I am a creature of the night. I’m a Werejaguar.” He chuckled, and it sounded like a song. He was breathtaking.

“Am I still dreaming?”

“Does it feel like it?”

“Yeah, It does.”

Erik approaches her, causing her to draw her sheets close to her chest, her eyes trying its best to look at his face and not his dick.

“Look at me.” She stared into his eyes.

“Not up here girl, down here.” Erik palmed his dick, causing her to gulp. Erik bit down on his lower lip.

“This is how hard you make me Aria. Take pride in that.”

He pushed her body down with speed, causing her to gasp. He was over her now, arms straddling the sides of her head. He studied her when she turned her head, he did, when she looked down he did. Erik wanted to learn her more. She was perfect.

“No man will EVER lay a finger on you again. If they do, I’ll cut them up from limb to limb. I’ll claw their fucking heart out and gauge their eyes. I will make blood shed for you, and I MEAN that shit.”

Aria gulped, “Yes.”

“Yes, what?”

“Yes...Erik?”

He gripped her neck so quick and tight it caught her by surprise.

“Call me Killer. I’m your daddy and your Killer. I’ll kill for you, that’s how bad I want it. It’s almost tempting to kill you too.”

She couldn’t believe her ears. What was she getting herself into? This man was beyond dangerous and clearly out of this world in some shape or form. She mustered the courage as she felt him spread her legs so far back her pelvis almost split.

She was tainted now, and there was no going back.

That was two months ago.

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Erik; her Killer, took his thick tongue, dragging it along her blood-drenched skin. She could feel the goosebumps rise, the encounter itself putting her in a deep euphoria. He sucked in her big nipples, slowly pulling back with a loud pop. He moved back and forth over her chest with need, making the chocolate buds even harder. She could climax from that feeling alone, her thighs desperate to close. She was open and vulnerable, her body in his control. What could she do? She had to take it.

Aria’s willpower would win occasionally, the inner Salem of her that she was so unaware of pulling her back to reality; to the girl she once was.

Erik flipped her over with force, her right cheek crashing with the blood that drenched the black silk of her bed. Her vision was blurred and trained on the lifeless corpse sitting in the corner, the 3 hr stench filling her nostrils. It was a bad smell but not unbearable; not at it’s worse...not yet. Erik cupped both thighs, pulling her up into an arch. She gasped her unguarded pussy spread and wet for him. He kissed up her spine; tender, soft, and desperate.

“The moon is full tonight.” She whispered.

“Full moon nights are cursed nights love.”

Erik kissed each globe of flesh with more attention, sucking on the skin even. It tickled her in the best way and it had her eyes rolling.

“You want me to devour it, don’t you? I can see it clenching. This phat pussy is throbbing with need.”

Erik’s fingers slid between her plump lips, the slick wetness coating his finger. He leaned forward, his clawed hands digging into her flesh. That damn tongue; it wiggled with force and he didn’t miss a spot; ever. She could feel herself dripping to the bed, her hips moving to cause her clit to glide along his tongue. It felt silky and fiery to her, making her abdominal muscles tighten. He spread her further, his tongue dragging along the sides, front, back, and in her hole. She just lay limp, her eyes off focus and mouth parted.

“Oh, oh..” she couldn’t speak.

He sucked then, pulling back each time like he was savoring a popsicle. Her body would shutter after each suck, causing a single tear to escape her eyes. Erik ate her like no other, he got a little bit more each time she gave. He frantically flicked the underside of her clit causing her to inhale sharply, and then came the sweetest of treats.

“You taste so fucking good, give me that fucking nut.” She dipped her waist, her pussy sitting on his tongue as her cream coated it. Erik gave her ass a loud, sharp smack, putting her back into that back-breaking arch before entering her without notice.

She worshipped his dick.

She savored his dick

She spread wide and let him ravish.

It was amazing and so bad. Her ass clapped back on him with force and she didn’t want it to end.

“Make it last longer Daddy.” She cried, biting her lip hard, drawing blood.

“Make it last forever?” He teased, one hand resting on her lower back pulling her deeper over his dick. His eyes were all black now, deep veins forming over his skin practically throbbing. The full moon was calling him, and now he struggled between wanting to kill her and wanting to fuck her harder.

She squirmed from his dick hitting her cervix, hand throwing back to push against him. He was becoming madder with every stroke; she was familiar. She screamed, her entire face covered in the foul blood now. Erik; her killer, was transforming. She couldn’t move for what felt like a week last time. Fear gripped her and her inner self began to chant. She needed a release.

“DON'T THINK YOU'RE GONNA GO RUNNING ON ME AGAIN PRINCESS.” He demanded, his voice ghoulish and not his normal boyish husk. He lifted her, then flipped her, her legs around his waist and her arms gripping his neck for dear life. She came face to face with his transformed one, the contours not that of a man, but a Jaguar. He was menacing and yet her eyes couldn’t look away. Her head fell back heavy, his dick deep in her.

“Fuck me.” She whispered, her hands grazing his chest.

“mmm, this damn pussy..” He moaned deeply, his eyes trained on her wet tight grip on his dick.

“I’m killing your shit right? wrecking your shit.”

“omg yess. keep going Daddy don’t stop.”

“Tell me what you want me to do to you.” Erik paused, staring down at her limp body.

“I want you to make me cum.” She cried like a child.

“It’s okay, Daddy got you. Cum all over this dick like you wanna.”

“Ah!” She cried, Erik’s clawed hand sinking into her neck. It was painful and sharp. His dick slipped out, her puffy eyes watching as he gripped the thick rod, pushing it in with so much force her body jolted. He was too big, she felt like her body would split.

“Erik! It hurts... I can’t” he leaned forward to bite her there again, the venom from his razor-sharp teeth claiming her again. He wanted to take a chunk out of her neck and chew on the flesh so damn bad.

“Shhh, just take this dick like I trained you to. Spread wide for me it’s not enough.” His voice was demonic.

Don’t let the darkness consume you..don’t let the darkness consume you...break free..” she opened her eyes and saw a light, the yellow slowly fading from her eyes. She began to radiate heat, causing Erik to growl and then…

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“Aria? ARIA!!!”

She woke. It was her safe haven. The familiar silk of her round bed and the heart shaped halo light that hung over her headboard was safety. She could hear the familiar New York nightlife below her as she let out a sigh. Her skin was clammy and cold, the sweat soaking the loose tankini that she wore, breasts hardened and pressed against the fabric.

“You are scaring the living SHIT out of me.” Her friend and roommate AJ had a firm grip on her arm, eyes concerned.

“What?” Aria grabbed at her forehead, trying to ease the pain.

“I’m burning sage, that’s it.” Her plump short friend shot up from the bed, her curly pixie cut freshly wet and little black biker shorts hugging her wide ass. She picked up some sage from Aria’s mantle, burning it without question. The smoke was a comfort, and it brought Aria back to the present fully.

Was that another dream or did that really happen?

“Who the fuck is Erik Aria? And don’t lie either. You smell like musk and cedar.” Aria lifted her tank to her nose taking in that very smell. She fell into satisfaction from the alluring smell.

“Just...he’s a man in my dreams.”

“You sure? Cuz you're covered in love bites and scratches. What kind of magic are you toying with?! Did you steal some dark spells out of that book in Madam Dalia’s shop?!”

“No-I...no AJ I didn't, I swear. Plus, why would it even work? I don’t even know if I’m of Salem blood.” Aria lifted to the bathroom, flicking on the light to examine herself.

She looked sleep deprived. Her skin didn’t have a glow like usual and her neck had a bite mark that began to bruise. She took her shaking hand to rest it on her neck, tears forming in the corners of her eyes. She turned on the taps, cupping water to rinse her face. She lifted suddenly, a chill creeping up as her eyes set on that man.

She froze, his body stepping forward and leaning over her shoulder. He had on an all-black biker jacket, chest bare and neck littered in silver chains. He tilted his head to hers, rubbing his nose in her hair with so much force it began to tangle.

“What did I tell you huh? Back in that dank apartment...I could have sworn I told you to stay right?” He warned.

“You smell like death.” She closed her eyes.

“Would you like to know how they tasted?” he was invading her security again.

“You don’t have control over me.” She wanted to be angry, but the way he cupped her naked pussy flooded her veins with elation.

“Do you want me to stick my tongue so far up your pussy? Do you want this dick to unhinge you like it has done so . many . fucking. times? His fingers slid into her. They were thick and rapid, digging deeper with every ripple.

“You want this, I know you do. I can feel it no doubt; it’s what I’m good at.” His yellow eyes appeared, and the most beautiful smirk followed suit. She practically melted, her hands gripping the sides of the sink.

“Drift...fall with me…” the echo of his voice came back, but so did her sanity, as her friend came entering the bathroom.

“Aria are you okay in here?” She spoke, the door creaking open slowly at the same time as Aria’s hand came crashing against the bathroom mirror, a high pitch scream leaving her mouth. It shattered, breaking her skin. She drew her hand back, watching as the thick crimson trickled down her arm.

“I’m-im Hurt.” She was at a loss; in a trance.

“Aria! Omg.” AJ ran to grab her phone, dialing the paramedics before her friend's body came crashing to the bathroom floor, seeing black.

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Keith & Krolia Modern AU Pt. 4

Keith was a Harry Potter kid

when he first read the book, he became instantly hooked with all things magical

he would re-enact scenes from the book with his friends

tried to create his own little quidditch team

most of the kids didn’t want to

they found it weird to be running around with a broom between their legs

random kid: come on keith; it’s basically soccer

keith: no it’s not, you filthy muggle!

random kid: the hell did you just call me??

even he wanted to be whisked away so that he could go on a great adventure

he doesn’t want to leave his mom behind, but he is tired of all the adults telling him that he will never amount to anything just because he has no father

when keith turned 11, he waited for his hogwarts letter but it never came

he was upset for sure but he didn’t make a huge deal out of it

he knew deep down that nothing that great and awesome would ever happen to him

because of harry potter, keith became an avid reader

krolia is super proud of this

usually it’s hard to get young boys to read but she didn’t have to struggle with that

he’s not much of a gamer

he only knows a few games because of his friends since that’s the only time he would play; when he’s over at their place

krolia didn’t have that much money to spend on games, play stations or consoles

she would wonder if her boy is missing out on something important since all the other parents would complain about how their kids are always glued to the screen

but keith never complained so she didn’t think much of it

he was much happier with his books, sports and sketchbooks

in elementary school, keith loved art classes

the first time he got to use paints, he had a magical experience

it was as if he was offered the utensils of creating whole new worlds

no matter how many times his teacher reprimanded him, he never used the paintbrushes; he always used his fingers

krolia would get mad because it took super long to get all the paint off

but keith didn’t care; he got to paint and he gets to have long bubble baths

krolia ended up sending an old shirt that keith can wear during his art classes

he somehow still ended up dirtying himself

his hair would be in various hues of purples, greens and reds by the time he got home

up until grade 5, keith loved coloring books

he preferred the usage of pencil crayons over markers and regular crayons

he used to color in his books while his mom cooked

when he got older, he stepped away from the paints and crayons and just stuck to mindless doodles in the corner of his notebooks

he never seriously gave art a shot but he thinks he would enjoy it

he prefers having the art soothe his mind and be an activity he engages in during his bored and lazy days

keith loves throwing themed parties

for his 11th birthday, he had a harry potter themed party

all the kids had to come wearing their house colors

all the foods were harry potter inspired

candies: the chocolate frogs in their customized boxes, bertie bott’s every flavored beans, rock cakes, cockroach clusters, sherbet lemon, popcorn, acid pops (lollipops), licorice wands

appetizers: mini hot dogs, chips (thick cut fries), an assorted cheese platter,

dinner: chicken pot pies, lasagna, vegetable soup, garlic bread

desserts: Gryffindor cake

drinks: punch, juices (apple and orange), water, lemonade and hot chocolates

the entire apartment was decked out in gryffindor colors

there were red and yellow streamers hanging overhead

candles were “floating” in the air by fish wires

the food and drinks were placed upon a long table with the four house tapestries at the back

the long table was made up by multiple tables attached together

there were red, yellow and white balloons

some of keith’s friends owned pet cats

keith told them that if they want to come to the party then they have to bring their cats

no cats, no entry

the kids’ goodie bags were shaped like broomsticks

the invitation cards were also hp themed

(ignore jacob wallace; it’s keith)

there was spooky music; some from the hp soundtrack

it was a shit load of work, but krolia & keith put in the effort and made it possible

stayed up many nights coming up with recipes, finding the right decorations

keith was very scared that all their efforts will go to waste because no one will come

krolia tried to shake away his fears

why wouldn’t the kids want to come? you are throwing the best party on the block after all

indeed, keith’s 11th bday party was the best party the kids had gone to

they talked about it for weeks

keith sky rocketed to becoming one of the most popular kids on the block

when he came back from school, he gave his mom the tightest and longest hugs ever

he loved her even more because of everything she did

all the kids loved him and wanted to be his friends and those who didn’t like him much, now wanted to come to his parties

they all think he’s a cool kid

he tries not to cry but he’s just so happy

krolia returned the hug and was one of the few times she felt she was successful at being a mother

the relief, the peace, the self-satisfaction = it all humbled her and left her feeling as if she had achieved a huge accomplishment

the parents were impressed with all the efforts krolia put in & the way she took care of all the kids by keeping them engaged in various activities and keeping them out of harm’s ways

of course, there were those who criticized her for being “too unholy”

living on her own with a child, no wonder he’s gaining a fondness for witchcraft and the occult

krolia was ticked but kept her mouth shut because she didn’t want to create a scene in front of all the other kids & parents

plus, she didn’t want keith to get upset on his bday

keith and krolia are not the type to splurge

keith knows about their economic situation very well, so he doesn’t asks for a lot of things

he tries to make do with what they already have

krolia tells him that it’s okay to want things and express those desires

so what if she’s not able to buy it now; she might get it later on

he still doesn’t feel all too comfortable telling her because he doesn’t want her to feel bad about not having enough money to do so

they settled on going all out for their birthdays instead

they go over the top, extra crazy for the celebrations

october happens to be the month where they spend the most out of the whole year

krolia sometimes has to work overtime to make up for it, but that’s okay

she’s willing to put in as many over times it takes as long as her baby boy gets to be happy and feels loved

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Bihhhh Gabe - kitchen. Genji - bathroom Jack - attic Jesse - bedroom. You don’t have to do them alllll

Bih you know I’m gonna. 

These are my personal HCs for LtR, read below the cut:

Gabe - Kitchen:

What is the character’s favourite food?

Gabe’s eaten a wide variety of foods, but nothing will ever beat his abuela’s cooking. Her carne asada is just the best. It just is. And don’t get him started about her tamales.

Are they good at cooking? How good/bad?

Gabe is the best cook in the household. He’s no 5 star chef, but he knows what spices are and how to use them, unlike Jack, who uses none, and Genji, whose version of cooking is to dump everything he can find in a pan and then forget he was attempting to cook until the fire alarm reminds him.

Do they leave the dishes out?

Seeing dishes left on the counter, on the stove, or even in the sink makes Gabe flinch like his abuela’s smacked his knuckles with a wooden spoon when he was younger for such offenses. He physically can not stand to leave dishes out.

What kind of food is in their refridgerator?

Wiith high-calorie intaking veterans and a bottomless pit named Jesse in the house, they have to keep stocked. There is always a ridiculous amount of eggs and bacon in the fridge, peppers and onions galore, apple juice for Genji and sports drinks for the guys, beer Jesse thought he could hide, meats and vegetables Gabe plans on using that week for a meal or three, sandwich fixings that only Jesse and Jack really seem to use. That’s just the fridge. The pantry is ridiculous.

Do they cook, eat out or get take-away/delivered food more?

As much as Gabe likes to cook, he doesn’t cook incredibly often. Maybe twice a week if work isn’t too heavy on him. Gabe tends to order or pick up food on his way home for everyone. Gabe is more inclined to cook if someone asks him to make something specific that week. Gabe will especially help cook when they visit his abuela, and is an unstoppable force in the kitchen for holidays.

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Genji - Bathroom:

How does the character prepare in the morning?

Genji is early to rise most of the time, not able to sleep once the warm body next to him is gone (he indulges more in sleeping in once Jesse is one of those warm bodies). Which is good, considering he’ll take his time getting ready for the day. Full face wash, careful makeup application, hair perfectly gelled or moussed. He’ll take forever getting dressed, wanting Jack’s (or whoever he can trap) opinion on what panties he should wear, which day collar to show off, which of his ridiculous collection of plugs to wear. He’ll catch up on beauty and fashion people he follows on social media the whole time he’s getting ready.

Do they sing in the shower?

By himself, no. Genji showering by himself will usually just be him staring at the wall for 35 minutes. Genji does not like to shower alone. When he gets to shower with Jesse, they’ll listen to music and sing along as loudly and obnoxiously as possible. Attempted dance moves have resulted in some chain-reaction slipping and falling and therefore are not repeated.

What kind of hair product/make-up do they use?

Genji’s hair stylist, Amelie, gives him his hair products. They’re all French and he has no idea what’s in them, but she would kill him if he used anything else. Makeup, Genji has it all, as far as brands go. Especially anything that’s getting rave reviews online or is a new trend. Jack makes him clean out his makeup boxes and drawers every few months due to it accumulating at a ridiculous rate.

How clean is this character?

Genji is ridiculous. He hates sweat on him for too long. Outdoor activities are usually avoided, as there’s dirt out there. Genji will indulge in a spa day usually twice a month to scrub him down and wax everything, as well as get an immaculate mani/pedi experience. The boy’s nails are always pristine and clean. And I was just talking to Trash about enemas for a reason… He’s clean inside and out.

Does the character have thousands of shampoo/shower gel bottles by the shower, or do they use only the bare essentials?

Genji has a stupid plethora of body washes, perfumes, soaps, oils, and bath bombs. He loves to smell good. But Amelie would crash through a window and destroy him the second he bought any hair product she didn’t recommend. At least that’s what he think she’d do, anyway. Better not to risk it.

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Jack - Attic:

What is the character afraid of?

Jack is a war veteran, plagued by nightmares consisting of memories twisted into things of horror. He’s seen and done things he’d rather not repeat, ever, not in action or word. Despite being in the BDSM community, Jack is afraid he will hurt someone, truly hurt them. He doesn’t trust himself to deliver pain for pleasure when it gets to a certain point. And he will not choke someone.

How do they deal with bad memories?

Usually their memories crop up in the form of nightmares, though explosions and gunfire will occasionally bring forward some flashbacks. Gabe grounds him, and he does the same for Gabe, bringing each other back to the present. When Genji came into his life, Genji would be there for the nightmares and the flashbacks, and learned quickly how to ease him back down. Jack has some bad memories regarding his family and hometown, but he’ll just harden his expression and press past it if they ever come up.

What is this character’s role in a horror movie?

Jack would call the police on a spooky house. He doesn’t play that shit lol. In the midst of actual danger, though, Jack would be the one to gather everyone together and come up with the plan to get out of the situation alive.

How do they hide their secrets?

Jack is pretty open at this point in his life. If someone doesn’t know something about him, it’s probably just because they haven’t asked about it. As a younger man, Jack struggled with learning himself so much he developed many secrets, mostly about how he really felt about things versus how people expected him to feel. He used bullheaded pride and anger to cover himself when he was feeling like he would be exposed, but in the end he merely came clean and freed himself from secrets.

Which of the Seven Deadly Sins does the character relate to most?

Pride. Jack may be open about himself but he likes to maintain an image, which, when challenged, makes that old prideful attitude rear its head again. Gabe has known him for so long that he’ll pick at Jack’s prideful side and humble him at times.

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Jesse - Bedroom:

How does this character sleep? (Position, sleeping habits, bedtime routines)

Jesse just falls asleep when he feels like it. Not much prep to it. He’ll get jostled by Gabe to wake up and go brush his teeth when he falls asleep without doing it first. Jesse usually lays on his back or stomach, ending up in weird positions and places in bed half the time, but if someone wants to spoon or have him snuggle up to them, he’ll lay on his side… though he usually ends up squirming away. He runs hot at night and gets sweaty up against another body.

What are their pyjamas like?

Flannel pajama pants and an old, soft, too-large-on-him shirt of Gabe’s in cooler months, just silly boxers that Genji (and sometimes Gabe) get him when it’s warmer.

What do they dream about usually?

Santa Fe, his Mama, and Gabe.

How neat/tidy is this character?

Jesse doesn’t try to be messy, but he ends up thinking he’ll come back to something or someplace, only to get distracted and leave his mess behind for someone else to find. He’ll help clean up the kitchen after Gabe cooks, and he keeps his personal bedroom tidy. He won’t fret over organization, however, and his clothes are never folded right. He’s a strange kind of in-between with his tidiness.

How affectionate is this character?

Jesse will sling an arm around someone as he stands with them, but generally doesn’t outright show affection unless he really needs it. He will cuddle the shit out of his boyfriends in private, though.

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oumami for the otp doodad?? :^)

You all seem to like Oumami a lot wow..!(The answers will be a.u. oriented)

1: Who spends almost all their money on the other? Rantarou is the money boy (Komaeda is rich & Hinata earns very well) so he would.. but I think Ouma wouldn’t like the rich & fancy life Rantarou has to offer, just enjoying them them being together.

2: Who sleeps in the other’s lap? Ouma is so small he’d would curl up nicely on Rantarou’s lap.

3: Who walks around the house half-naked and who yells at them to put on some clothes? Rantarou would always be clothed on point. Ouma would not run around butt naked but probably be the one who allows himself to be more “lightly clothed” while Amami would be behind him with a coat.

4: Which one tells the other not to stay up all night and which one stays up all night anyway? Ouma would be the one not sleeping because there is always something intriguing that keeps him up. Either something making hims curious or thirst of knowledge. I can also imagine Ouma as a big reader who doesn’t put the book down until he’s over

5: Which one tries to make food for the other but burns it all by accident and which one tells them that it’s okay and makes them both cookies ? I think Amami is a good cook so Ouma is the one burning the food and Amami makes him a whole batch of cookies to comfort him.

6: Which one reads OTP prompts and says “Oh that’s us!” and which one goes “Eh, not really”? Amami would think it looks like them and Ouma would lie saying he’s right but he really doesn’t think it is.

7: Which one constantly wears the other’s clothes? Ouma. Obviously because Amami can’t fit in anything Ouma owns & also because the latter is comfortable in Rantarou’s baggy clothes.

8: Which one spends all day running errands and which one says “You remembered [thing], right?” Rantarou would run the errands and at the end of the day Ouma would be like “lmao i forgot to tell you i wanted apple juice”

9: Which one drives the car and which one gives them directions? Rantarou drives and Ouma guides.

10: Which one does the posing while the other one draws? Ouma would ask Amami to pose and draw him. Amami would obide & pose for 3 hours just for Ouma to show him a ms paint drawing in the end.

11: If they were about to rob a museum, which one does backflips through lasers and which one is strolling behind with a bag of chips? Ouma is strolling with the bag of chips and Rantarou doing the most. But the whole operation consist in following a thorough plan by Ouma.

12: Which one of your OTP overdoes it on the alcohol and which one makes the other stop drinking? Ouma drinks and Rantarou watches what he becomes, stopping him when he’s indulging too much.

13: Which one likes to surprise the other with a lot of small random gifts? Ouma ! He’s FULL of initiative and his gifts are spot on. Always some kind of private joke or something Amami mentioned weeks ago & forgot about.

14: Which one keeps accidentally using the other’s last name instead of their own? Rantarou.

15: Which one screams about the spider and which one brings the spider outside? I Rantarou takes care of the spiders (he brings it outside) while Ouma is hiding behind him.

16: Which one gives the other their jacket? Rantarou does ahah !

17: Who keeps getting threatened by the other’s overprotective older sibling ? If I ever decide to bring in the a.u. Rantarou’s 12 younger sisters they’d be giving Ouma a hard time. Not that he can’t handle it.

18: Who’s the first one to admit they have feelings for the other ? Ouma.

19: How good would your OTP be at parenting? Yes. Rantarou & (I think) Ouma really care for family. Ouma would be a fun dad, anticipating his child’s every needs while Rantarou would be loving & protecting.

20: Which one types with perfect grammar and which one types using numbers as letters ? Ouma definitely uses all the emoji (mostly to be annoying) but knows how to switch how he texts depending on the situation. Amami has perfect grammar.

21: Who gets attacked by a bully and who protects them? They’d both do it. I don’t think any of them would be bullied though.  Amami is definitely the guy everyone loves at school so no one annoys him. While Ouma is the guy that upsets everyone but they know better than annoy him.

22: Who makes the bad puns and who makes a pained smile every time the other makes a pun? Ouma makes all the bad puns & Amami laughs (genuinely) at them.

23: Who comes home from work to see that the other one bought a puppy? Once again as the spontaneous one, Ouma would be the one suddenly buying a puppy.

24: Which one gives the other a piggyback ride when they’re tired? Obviously Amami.

25: Which one competes in some sort of activity and which one does the overzealous cheering ? I like to imagine Amami as sportive guy. He does rock climbing & basketball (in the au) since he’s tall. Ouma does cheer for him. I think Ouma does combat sports but is more secretive about it.

26: Who takes a selfie when the other one falls asleep on their shoulder? Rantarou. I precised in another posts (x & x) that Ouma doesn’t strike me as someone who’d be really into phones while Rantarou would. He’d have many pictures of Ouma in it and make it his phone background.

27: Which one would give the other a makeover if they asked? Rantarou could give it but they wouldn’t think about having one.

28: Which one owns a pet that the other is absolutely terrified of? From this previous otp thing if Komahina get a big overprotective doggo, it’d probably bark at Ouma all the time.

29: Which one holds the umbrella over both of them when it rains? Amami since Ouma can’t hold the umbrella over Rantarou’s head.

30: If your OTP went on vacation, where would they go and what would they do? Who would take the pictures? Rantarou being an explorer he’d like to bring Ouma in unexpected places & the latter would love it.

[miraniel]

l85 questions tag game

Tagged by @peppermintfeminist​. Hi mate! You’re the best!

— What was your last…

1. Drink: Alcoholic? You’re kidding right? I recently tried a milliliter of Somerset Apple Brandy and NOPE, never again. Non-alcoholic? Water with lemon. 

2. Phone call: My parents, just before I left for England, where I am now (not over the excitement yet)

3. Text message: “Yes” in response to my grandmother, who asked if I got her text. 

4. Song you listened to: Reflection from Mulan

5. Time you cried: Two days ago, in the middle of a back country road in Somerset, over a goddamn Severus Snape fanfic. I’m still mad that the writer actually managed to make me care about fucking Snape. 

— Have you ever…

6. Dated someone twice: No. Have I dated someone once? Yes, but only by accident. 

7. Kissed someone and regretted it: No.

8. Been cheated on: Look I’m ace as fuck and have never dated really ever. 

9. Lost someone special: Yes, I’ve lost friends in multiple senses. 

10. Been depressed: I don’t think so. 

11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: Any alcohol has this taste for me that the best I’ve been able to describe it is “rancid nickles,” it’s bloody awful, and I’ve never been able to stomach more than a sip of the stuff, so no. 

— Fave colours

12. Olive green. 

13. Purple. 

14. Deep cerulean. 

— in the last year have you…

15. Made new friends: Not really. I made a couple of cordial acquaintences in the drama productions I’ve been in, but no one close.

16. Fallen out of love: No, see above about being ace as fuck. Now, my brief obsession with the show Sherlock...

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes. So many times. 

18. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes, in both good ways and bad ways. 

19. Met someone who changed you: So many people. Just one who springs to mind is my Education professor at college. She was amazing. 

20. Found out who your friends are: I am fully aware that I am a terrible long-distance friend. It’s my worst flaw and I wish I was better about this. I think I’ve betrayed more friendships by just letting them slip away than I ever have had people turn on, or abandon, me. 

21. Kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Unless we’re referring to familial pecks on cheeks... no. 

— General

22. How many of your facebook friends do you know irl: Nearly all of them, apart from one random guy that my cousins met online and who has since befriended the entire family. 

23. Do you have any pets: I no longer live at home, but my family still has one of the two cats we had when I was growing up. 

24. Do you want to change your name: I think about it sometimes. I think about it a lot. I’ve just started using a new name with an eye to it becoming my official pen name. I don’t know if I want to start using it as my everyday name. 

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Oh, crap... I can’t remember. I think my mom was there, and my grandparents. We had cake and a tiny family party. I think. All I remember is I was glad I didn’t have a play rehearsal that day. 

26. What time did you wake up today: 6:50 am

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Sleeping, for once in my life. 

28. What is something you can’t wait for: Finally achieving my lifelong goal: being employed, being published, and being financially stable enough that I can afford a little house, with a dishwasher and laundry, and a cat, and food, and health insurance, and Netflix. It seems... a long way off. Also the next episode of Supergirl?

29. This question is mysteriously missing, so I will pose a question to the universe/the people I’m going to tag: What was the first piece of media (film, book, world, comic, game, character, etc) that you were ever obsessed with?

30. What are you listening to right now: Silence.

31. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Several Tims, but no Toms. Excluding possibly some random middle aged guys back when I was growing up because who remembers that sort of thing

32. Something that’s getting on your nerves: People assuming I’m in my early teens and asking me things like how high school is going. Then I’m like, “Nope, I’m like ten years older than that, graduated college a while ago now,” and they’re like “Oh, you look so young,” and I’m like “I know!!” and then (and this is the bit that’s driving me crazy) they all say “You’ll be so grateful when you’re my age!” Like... I just kind of called you out for patronizing me? And your immediate response is to patronize me again? Also there’s no guarantee that I’ll still look ten years younger than I actually am when I’m 50? Also, I may be grateful or not when I’m your age but it sure isn’t doing me any favors now? Please stop. Just stop. 

33. Most visited website: I may or may not be slightly obsessed with Nonasuch’s fantastic Dogfather Harry Potter AU and I might check their tumblr once or twice a day. 

34. Hair colour: Somewhere between dirty blond and light brown now. It was blond when I was a kid. 

35. Long or short hair: Okay, so I really want to be able to braid my hair elaborately again, but I also love the feel of short hair on the back of my neck.  Right now it’s in an inbetween stage and I can have neither of these things. What is a person to do. 

36. Do you have a crush on someone: I had things I called crushes when I was in high school and hadn’t figured out I’m ace as fuck. I get hardcore friend crushes. 

37. What do you like about yourself: I’m proud of my talents, though I play them down more than I should, and I neglect to practice them more than I should. I like how far I’ve come figuring out my identity and who I am these past six years or so. 

38. Want any piercings: Under no circumstances am I voluntarily going to sit still and let someone poke a needle through me or into me for anything other than a medical necessity. This applies to tattoos as well. I respect people who have them, but hell no for me. 

39. Blood type: SOMEONE knows because I’ve had a blood transfusion, I think, but I don’t have a clue. 

40. Nicknames: I have wanted a nickname my entire life and nothing has ever stuck. 

41. Relationship status: Single asexual inactively seeks person willing to share habitation, bookshelves, Netflix, pet, and nerdy conversation for the rest of their life. 

42. Sign: I don’t do the zodiac thing at all, but I’m an INTJ and a Hufflepuff. 

43. Pronouns: Um, this is a weird place and time to do this, but since you asked, I’ve just changed them to “they/them.” 

44. Fave tv show: Ever? Avatar the Last Airbender. Right now? Supergirl, The Flash, Miraculous Ladybug

45. Tattoos: See above regarding NEEDLES

46. Fave city: Albuquerque. Fight me. 

47: Ever had surgery: When I was a kid I had The Case of Pneumonia From Hell and Fun Times in Hospitals and got chest tubes and part of my lung removed. Also a few minor random stuff. 

48. Piercings: See above regarding needles. The needle phobia is directly related to the Fun Times in Hospitals. 

49. Sport: Literally none. I’ll watch gymnastics and skating every four years, but apart from that the highlight of my interest in sports was that time that JKR was live-writing the Quidditch World Cup on Pottermore. 

50. Vacation: I’m in Oxford right now, somewhere I’ve always dreamed of being! And I’m on my way to Scotland and Wales. 

— More general

52. Eating: Sushi, macaroni and cheese, fruit, chocolate, scones

53. Drinking: tea, tea, tea, milk, orange juice, non-alcoholic lemonade or apple cider, water, tea, tea, tea

54. I’m about to watch: Brooklyn 99 (The UK has it on netflix!!)

55. Waiting for: My betas to come back to me on my novel draft. Then it’s agent shopping!

56. Want: A cat, the ability to focus, the ability to read properly without stupid eye problems, a job, writing time

57. Get married: ... growing up I fantasized about getting married because I wanted my paternal cousins to meet my maternal cousins and I couldn’t think of any way that would likely happen apart from my marriage and I think they would get on like a house on fire.. this still seems like one of the only motivating factors for me ever to get married. 

58. Career: Author and poet and crazy cat lady

— Which is better

59. Hugs or kisses: hugs

60. Lips or eyes: Neither. I don’t actually like making eye contact even though I’ve learned to do it, and why would I stare at people’s mouths?

61. Shorter or taller: For a dance partner? Taller, but not significantly so. 

62. Older or younger: If this is meant to be about romantic partners? Because why would anyone ask this question? Significant age gaps are generally not a good thing either way, except possibly between two consenting adults who understand and work to alleviate the uneven power dynamic a significant age gap typically creates?

63. Nice arms or stomach: The heck?

64. Hookup or relationships: Relationships. 

65. Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant and trying to overcome it

— Have you ever

66. Kissed a stranger: NOPE

67. Drank hard liquor: See above regarding the horrors created by my taste buds and any alcohol.

68. Turned someone down: Yes. It was awwwkward, but he was a friend. Normally, when I suspect someone likes me, I run away and never speak to them again. Trying to get over that. 

69. Sex on first date: Uh nnnoooo

70: Broken someone’s heart: I hope not

71. Had your heart broken: By friendships, yeah.

72. Been arrested: Nope

73. Cried when someone died: Not really. 

74. Fallen for a friend: A couple times, but in like, a really aggressively platonic way

— Do you believe in

75. Yourself: Yes.

76. Miracles: Yes.

77. Love at first sight: Yes, because it basically happened to my parents. Theirs is a story of being bookstore managers, an immediate attraction, a mutual failure to understand origami, and a shared love of Star Trek. It would make a perfect rom com but there was literally no drama. My parents are adorable. 

78. Santa Claus: I have always had the ability to choose what I believe in. Santa Claus was one of those things, long after I knew the truth. 

79. Angels: Not really of the stereotypical “feathery wings and flawless skin” type. In the possibility or even likelihood of benevolent forces or beings outside human comprehension that are not a divine creator but may be from or of the divine, yes. This likely has a lot to do with how many times I read Narnia, The Dark is Rising, and A Wrinkle in Time as a kid, now I think about it. 

— Misc

80. Eye colour: Green

81. Best friend’s name: I have a few. One starts with a C. 

82. Favourite movie: The Fellowship of the Ring. Or 101 Dalmations. 

83. Favourite actor: Maggie Smith

84. Favourite cartoon: Avatar the Last Airbender. I didn’t discover it until I was about 18, but I love it to death. 

85. Religion: Ex-roman catholic Episcopalian 

Tagging @nerdiekatie, @swimmingbirdrunningrock, @dragon-feathers, and @fantasiavii

[unleashthemidnight]

92 Truths

Tagged by @serendiptious-esparza, thank you my darling <3

Last…

Drink: Juice (grape-apple-raspberry)

Phone Call: Mom

Song you listened to: Juha Tapio - Sydän Jota Rakastan (The Heart I Love)

“I wouldn’t want to live here by chance and without a reason. I have searched flashes in the middle of the emptiness. I whisper to you “I might believe in a miracle” and you laugh when you ask “well, what kind”“ “On the Milky Way there’s a star, and a planet going around it, on the planet there’s a city, in the city there’s a street, along that there’s a house with you in the window. And you have the heart that I love.”

Time you cried: Today a little, because of the laughter (youtube gaming videos and ~the golden dick path~ [I love you all so much <3]) and sadness (tried to put my depressed feelings etc into words in our whatsapp group with couple of closest friends).

Have You Ever ___?

Dated someone twice: No

Been cheated on: No

Kissed someone and regretted it: No

Lost someone special: Yes, my dad

Been Depressed: Yes, and I have been diagnosed with depression (and mixed anxiety disorder [aka anxiety and some sort of depression], don’t know if the diagnosis changed overall or just added the severity level of it)

Been drunk and thrown up: No

In The Past Year Have You…

Made a new friend: Yes (I joined tumblr, you are my friends n__n)

Fallen out of love: not in "loving someone and not anymore” kind of way, anything else not sure

Laughed until you cried: Yes

Met someone that changed you: Yes. I count here all the small things like the people who changed my day in positive way etc even if it was just for the moment. The smallest things can change the bigger picture even if I don’t know it now or even later.

Found out who your true friends are: No...? I don’t have many friends and the friends that I have are true, atleast I think so

Found out someone was talking about you: Yes

General

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: I know that few of my irl friends have tumblr and I know couple of the url’s but they don’t know mine. Atleast I don’t think so...

Do you have any pets?: Yes, two cats

Do you want to change your name?: Not really. There’s a nice flow to it and I have gotten compliments of it and ofc I have told my mom about those times. XD <3 Sometimes I have thought of taking my third name as official one and I have thought of taking my mothers maiden name too but I don’t know. Maybe the combo could be my stage name~

What time did you wake up this morning?: at 8am, 11am and 1pm (my drunken sleep schedule and the body getting used to new medication)

What were you doing last night?: Tumblr and watching playthrough of Finding Paradise game. It’s pretty story and pretty game.

Name something you cannot wait for: Pate Mustajärvi solo concert in March, me healing and getting better and functioning like a actual human and surviving everyday life and I would like to graduate but I don’t know can I even finish the school etc.

Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: There’s really not many people named Tom in Finland... So no. But if we are talking about the finnish versions of the name, then the answer is yes,

What’s getting on your nerves right now?: The biggest things getting on my nerves can be boiled down to “my depression lying and making things bigger than they are”. Also not being able to read fanfics to escape because there’s a disturbance with my concentration and cognitive skills because of the depression (greetings from my doctor). And I feel like bad reader and friend and shit like that etc because all of what comes with things like these. Overthinking. But hey, atleast I‘m aware of it and reasons behind it.

Blood Type: A+

Nickname: Potato

Relationship status: Single

Zodiac: Scorpio

Pronouns: She/Her, not minding if someone uses they/them, finnish hän (because there’s no gender pronouns).

Favorite Show: SPN, MacGyver (original), Lucifer, Doctor Who etc

College: I can’t ever remember what college is in finnish school system. College as university: yes, doing that from home, now on sick leave, studying “civic activity and youth work”, profession as community pedagog. Very new, large and mixed field.

Hair color: Brown

Do you have a crush on someone?: No (my fictional loves)

What do you like about yourself?: I don’t know at the moment. This was actually last question I answered. Um, I like that at the moment I have gain back my interest to art and writing and how I’m just having fun with it and learning and growing with it. Also my weird optimism that one day I can overcome this mental barrier I have; even in the very bad days just small voice coming through reminding me that I can survive, I have people helping me, I’m getting help and I have taken that step. It’s weird and small little voice but I like it. And no, I’m not hearing voices, just my brain and optimism and hope coming through. Also I like my hair and sometimes my face and sometimes even overall package.

Firsts

Surgery: Adenoids as a very small child

Piercing: Don’t have any. Maybe someday ears.

Sport you joined: Never did.

Vacation: I think I was under one year old when my parents took me to Estonia so...

Pair of sneakers: Can’t remember

Right Now

Eating: Nope but should eat soon

Drinking: The same juice as before (grape-apple-raspberry)

I’m about to: Watch/Listen some relaxing youtube videos and eat and maybe trying to sleep couple hours

Listening to: Mikael Saari - C’est la Vie. Kinda my mood at the moment and loving the sound too. I could put all the lyrics here but have a link to it. “C'est la vie, my friends! It will be alright! Let's be hungover tomorrow, and worry about that instead. C'est la vie, my friends! It will be just fine! She's gone by tomorrow, now fuck it all and goodbye.” “- - now all I need is time, and some wine, and all will be fine.”

Want Kids?: Sure but years from now

Get married?: If that happens, it happens

Career: I’m a student at sick leave, possible future community pedagog. Something to do with culture.

Which Is Better?

Lips or eyes: Eyes

Hugs or kisses: Both

Shorter or taller: Doesn’t matter

Romantic or spontaneous: Good balance of the two, maybe a bit more romantic

Sensitive or loud: Sensitive

Hook up or relationship: Relationship

Troublemaker or hesitant: Hesitant (troublemaker if the troublemaker is Gabe~ Although hesitant Gabriel...)

Have You Ever…

Kissed a stranger: No

Drank hard liquor: Yes

Lost contacts or glasses: Yes (and found later. Like that one time my other glasses were in the plant pot half buried because of our cats)

Sex on a first date: No

Broken someone’s heart: Only my own as far as I know

Been arrested: No

Turned someone down: Kinda with that construction worker

Fallen for a friend: Not romantically

Do You Believe In ___?

Yourself: I want to. Sometimes. There has been times. There will be times. I wish I can.

Miracles: There has been instances that made me believe in them. Sometimes it’s just miracle of humanity, heart and soul.

Love at first sight: Don’t know

Heaven: It’s complicated, in my own way yes

Santa Claus: As a good tradition and spirit that comes with it, yes. As someone literally coming to my house, no.

Tagging: @sumara62 @authoressskr  @nobodys-baby-now @be-fantastic @clockworkmorningglory @pizzamanteachings @fearthenatural @gallifreystands @thewhiterabbit42 and everyone who wants to do this

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MADISON’S QUESTIONAIRE

*PERSONAL DETAILS*

Nicknames? Maddie. Although I guess technically Madison is a 'nickname' ;)

Where do you live? Right next door!

What’s your age? 17, dancing queen

Hair color? Dark brown

Eye color? Darker brown

Height? really short, like 5'2"

Date of Birth? December 29

What’s your star sign? Capricorn!

Element? Earth probably.

How many siblings? one (1)

How many pets? zero but I already have a bunch of cat names planned out for my future two cats

Obsessions?

    I want to wipe out all the sad ideas that come to me when I am holding you    I want to erase every nasty thought that bugs me every day of every week

Bad habits?

     When my fingernails get too long I pick at it, I procrastinate a lot, and I also get random ticks (ie drumming my fingers, clucking my tongue it goes on)

Phobias? I would say death, but honestly, it's probably life

*ABOUT YOU* What makes you happy?

     Being with friends I trust. Watching an entertaining show/movie/gameplay

What really irritates you?

     Apathetic people.

What makes you sad?

    Me. Capitalism. The pressures and expectations that society puts on individuals.

What makes you angry?

    People who don't care about other people's feelings. When someone says that it's required to stand for the Pledge of the Allegiance. The rampant racism and sexism and honestly discrimination in general that we humans seem naturally so inclined to.    

What makes you scared?

    The thought of how our universe and everything in it will disappear and we humans will only be a blip in that timeframe. But perhaps that isn't really scary.

    New answer: Trump. Guns. 

Who is your best friend? 

   I have like three best friends outside of bdrp: Rose, Abigail and Riley.

Ever broken a bone?

    Nah. The closest is when I twisted my ankle.

What was the last CD you bought?

    I myself haven't bought any. But like as a family, pretty sure it was Legally Blonde.

What was the last book you read?

    Throwback to middle school with the Raven Boy series.

Who was the last person you spoke to?

     The bus driver haha.

What was the last thing you ate?

    Cookies (that Riley gave me) and yogurt. 

What was the last thing you drank?

    The answer should be water, but it's juice.

What’s the best thing you’ve ever bought?

     I'm young I don't really pay expensive things. I would have to say that of the things that I know that I bought is the book Battle Royale.

What’s the worst thing you’ve ever bought?

    I bought a lot of food in my life, some pretty crappy.

What’s the best thing you’ve ever been given?

     I love my parents <3. They got me a violin (several but they sold some back), my Bose headphones, and my drawing tablet (that I should use more).

What’s the worst thing you’ve ever been given?

    Idk my parents sort of know what we want and my grandparents can't really give me anything and I don't remember bad gifts from elementary school friends. But our family gifted ourselves a guitar which my mom wanted but promptly said that the strings hurt her fingers so probably that. 

What are your future goals?

    Happiness, success, and love. 

Describe your bedroom?

     It's pretty small and the walls are yellow and pink with a sticker tree with birds it's pretty cool. I have a bed, dresser and a lil vanity table that has a lot of random stuff on it. 

Who do you consider the most beautiful woman in the world?

  Lupita Nyong'o, Song Ji Hyo, Ashley Moore, IU, Emma Watson

Who do you consider the most handsome man in the world?

  Taron Egerton, Avan Jogia, Lee Jong Suk, Song Joong Ki, Dave Franco

Favorite thing to do on a hot summers day? 

  Eat ice cream

Favorite thing to do on a snowy winters day? 

  Eat ice cream (but inside)

If you were granted 3 wishes, what would they be?

  To use the popular loophole, wish for more wishes. If that's not the case, my wishes would be: world peace, no need to sleep, and the ability to focus on what I want to without getting distracted.

If you could go back in time to see or change something, when would it be and what would you do?

Well, if it was possible for Riley to get professional help without trying to commit suicide that would be awesome. 

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Doing the extra credit my freshman year for English so I would get an A instead of a 89. Sitting with someone else in sophomore year math class so it would be entertaining and I could avoid the only B I'm gonna get in math during high school. 

/

Doing something about Ryan my freshman or sophomore year. Doing something about Joey.

/

Regretting less. 

What’s the first thing you think about when you wake up?

  Going back to sleep. 

Do you believe in the after-life?

  Yep.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years time?

  I'll be 27, but that also gives me no sense of time. Probably at a nice office job or graduate school.

What’s the funniest joke you’ve ever been told? 

  Nice shoes, wanna fuck? 

or: This fibonacci joke is as bad as the last two you heard combined

Any hidden talents?

    I once fell asleep while standing. 

Dream job?

  My dream dream job would probably be being a popular actress but also 1) that would never happen and 2) that sounds stressful. So my other dream job is being the position right under the CEO of a very successful company.

Who is your hero?

  you <3

Describe yourself in 3 words: 

  Nice (get it? if not I can explain it to you in discord), smart, passionate

*FAVORITES*

Favorite color? Purple and black

Favorite number? 25

Favorite animal? Pandas and cats.

Favorite sport (to play)? Lol. 

Favorite sport (to watch)? I watch football a lot actually. But have you /seen/ badminton games of professionals it's insane

Favorite Show(s)?

  Too much honestly. KShows: Running Man, the Genius, Problematic Men. Western: Miraculous Ladybug, Misfits, Project Runway and Big Brother as my guilty pleasure

Favorite movies?

  Excluding Disney movies because I love all of them, I highly recommend the Cabin in the Woods, Truman Show, 10 Things I Hate About You, and Old Boy. From there, it's like a tree with tons of movie options.

Favorite band?

  The rubber ones that can change into shapes

jk, the only 'bands' I really like are Kpop, so 2NE1 (rip), BTS, Blackpink and Big Bang.

Favorite song?

  I love Savages by Marina and the Diamonds, Crybaby by Melanie Martinez, and Whistle by Blackpink.

Favorite room in the house?

  My bedroom's pretty cool, I just don't spend a lot of time in there

Favorite food? 

  Chocolate. I also like a large variety of fruit

Favorite drink?

  Apple juice hands down. Besides that, there's this Korean drink called 2% that's really good.

Favorite place?

  Bed? Wizarding World in Orlando Studios, Florida was pretty awesome, and South Korea has some great places. And of course, our expensive home Disney World.

Favorite cartoon character?

  Blossom from Powerpuff girls, Kim Possible from well, ya know, and to continue this trend, Wendy from Gravity Falls.

Favorite day of the week? Saturday.

Favorite day of the year? December 28

Favorite season? Fall

Favorite Holiday? Christmas

Favorite girls name?

  Madison (haha) but I also like the name Victoria. ngl Petrana is a pretty good name too.

Favorite boys name? Ryan

Favorite country? South Korea? Countries are pretty problematic tbh

Favorite smell? Dollar bills ;)

Favorite sound? Fire crackling

Favorite accent? Gonna be stereotypical here and say British.

Favorite Ships (in or our of BDRP)?

  Too much to list in bdrp so I'm just gonna go outside BDRP.  Percy/Annabeth, James/Lily, Spartace (from Running Man), Jungwan/Dukseon (from Reply 1988). I’m not a huge shipper tbh.

Favorite Fandoms? 

  All the fandoms I'm in are basically my favorites (except Gravity Falls to a certain point cuz that fandom has a very big 'weird' side). Disney of course, Harry Potter, PJO/Heroes of Olympus, Miraculous Ladybug (a bit). The Genius, Undertale, Cuphead (to another certain extent I don't play it but man the art is gorgeous), Bright Sessions (!)

*PREFERENCES* Coke or Pepsi? I don't drink either, not a huge fan of fizzy drinks

Pen or Pencil? Pen

Day or Night? Night

Cat or Dog?Cat

Summer or Winter? Winter

T.V. or Radio? Radio (gotta listen to those tunes in the car)

Brains or Beauty? Brains

Cup or Mug? Cup

Tea or Coffee?Tea (i'm not a huge fan of coffee either ngl)

Gold or Silver? Gold

Brush or Comb? Comb

City or Country?City

Early or Late riser? Late late

Blond or Brunette? This is bias against black haired people 😔 so blonde

Scary or Romantic movies? ooOooo idk this one's tough. If it was books it would be romance hands down, but since it's movie I'll say scary

Board or Computer games? Computer games

Half full or Half empty? Half full

  Happy and poor or Sad and rich? man this was tougher than you would think. But since it's based off how I don't think I could actually be 'happy' while poor, I will choose happy and poor. 

Glasses or Contacts? Glasses.

Flowers or Chocolates? Chocolate

Love or Money? Love

Hugs or Kisses? Hugs

~~

And there you have it!

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #194

“i’m numb to the pleasure but still feel the pain.”

Do you still talk to the person you last made out with? Yeah. What kind of vitamins did you take as a kid? I believe I first had those Flintstones ones, then later Mom got the gummy type. Have you ever gone to court? Only to explain to a judge why I thought my scheduled month-long stay in the psych hospital was unnecessarily long for my state. I was convinced all I needed to do was talk to Jason and boom, my problems would be gone. Safe to say, I was delusional. Glad I won that battle though considering I loathe that hospital for their extreme lack of therapy and activities to keep us occupied and out of our own heads. I was committed there I think five times and no stay did jack-shit. Are you friends with your neighbors? No. How long has it been since you’ve seen The Lion King? Years. But bitch when that live action remake comes out I'mma be the very first hoe at that theater. Have you ever had a crush on your siblings friend? No. What's the longest amount of time you’ve been on an airplane without changing flights? However long the flight to Michigan was. What’s the best wedding you’ve been to? My former dance instructor's. What time did you wake up this morning? Like, 7. What are you doing this weekend? There's no difference in weekends and weekdays for me. I'm sure I'm doing nothing. What’s your favorite Disney movie? TLK. Do you wear colored contacts? No, but honestly I'd love more sapphire blue ones if they're a prescription and not just cosmetic. Who was the last person you went to the movies with? I think Mom? Or did I go with Dad later? When’s the last time you spent time with your cousins? I haven't seen Robby since '15, but Audrey passed through with my uncle sometime last year. My other cousins, hell if I know. Why did you fall for the last person romantically? Good Lord, that's an essay. Just more than anything, I think it was the fact that she cares so deeply about animals and people alike and is passionate about what's right and wrong. Can you speak in a different language conversationally? If so, which language? I could maybe manage a very simple German convo? Do you ever fear falling asleep? No, but I do rather frequently don't look forward to it, or at least the process of falling asleep. I don't go quickly. What’s the last thing you had to eat? A bagel. Would you rather eat all day or exercise all day? I don't believe you physically could eat all day? And exercising, I'm assuming you'd eventually pass out? But let's be hypothetical. I'd have to choose exercise, I care way too much about not gaining weight. Does one eye tend to be weaker than the other? Yes, my right is considerably worse. What do you think of guys who ask girls out over via text message or internet? It's definitely not my preferred method, but do it if you don't have the courage to in person/just can't for whatever reason. Have you ever had a churro? I believe I have? If I'm remembering the correct treat, it was unbelievably too sweet and I didn't like the crunch. What’s one thing you like about your town? The town itself is real old-fashioned and small. Did you believe that alcohol is more dangerous then weed? I know it is. Do you drink more apple or orange juice? Orange. Are you a fan of the Grand Theft Auto series? Never played, but I highly doubt I'd enjoy it. Do you like the beach? If it wasn't for the wind, blistering heat, and sand. So basically, I don't. I only like being in the ocean. Do you or did you have a curfew at one point? No. Well, correction, if it was a school night before high school and I was out with a friend, I'm sure Mom established something, but idr. Do you peel the wrappers off of plastic bottles? No. What do you think is the youngest age someone should lose their virginity? No younger than 16. But at any age, be. Smart. Have you ever played Super Smash Brothers? I think at friends' as a kid? What do you like on your sundaes? Like, just chocolate syrup lmao. Have you done anything productive today? Well, I exercised some. Do you believe in abstaining from sex until marriage? What I care about is waiting for a person you feel truly in love with. I actually feel like abstaining could be a bad idea, as I'd assume for some people, the desire to have sex would play a factor in them wanting to get married, so marriage could potentially be rushed for the sake of that when you're not adequately prepared in other areas. What is your sexual orientation? Bi. Do you put your name on your food coverings? If I was using a fridge at a job or whatever, yeah, but I'm not in that type of situation. What is something you have acquired with age? Open-mindedness. Would you ever go out in public sporting pajamas? Depends on where I'm going. Have you ever ridden in a race car? No. Do you enjoy history? No. Have you ever changed religions? Twice. Is there anyone to whom you are afraid to stand up to? Mom. And pretty much everyone else. Do you like making lists? Sometimes. Do you play sports with your siblings? Never di- oh wait, Mom signed all three of us up for cheerleading as little kids. Hated it. Are there stairs in your house? No. Do you like onions on your burger? A small amount of minced pieces is fine. Could you ever give yourself a shot? Yeah. What is your favorite room to clean? I get the most satisfaction out of cleaning my own. Do you enjoy cleaning? Not the process of it, just the feeling afterwards. What do you consider your ideal weight? My /ideal/ would be around 120 again, but I'd be happy enough between 130-140. How many pounds do you need to lose (or gain) to be your ideal weight? LET US NOT What is your favorite thing about Valentine’s Day? Just it being a celebration of love, which to me, goes beyond just romantic. I think people should spend a little extra effort in letting one another know they really love each other. Now I believe every day you should treat people with love, but seriously focus on it and be thankful for those you have. If you wear one, what color is your wristwatch? N/A Have you ever made a pair of earrings? No. Who did you inherit your hair color from? I actually think Dad? Going through family pictures after Grampa died, I found out he was actually born dirty-blonde (I've only known him with black), like I was. Pretty sure Mom's was always brown. Have you ever wished that you were born in a different era? Woulda loved being born in the mid-early '80s. Do you prefer soft rock or hard rock? ....... I read "rock" as in like, minerals. And I was. Very confused. High on the list of my dumbest readings. Anyway, definitely hard. What was the best time of your life? As a kid. Do you prefer sunny or cloudy weather? Partly cloudy. How do you like your potatoes? For most of my life I only liked them as fries or as potato skins w/ cheese and bacon bits, but I'm gradually branching out. I like baked potatoes split with cheese and bacon inside too, and Sara's mom exposed me to the very first time I enjoyed mashed potatoes, yeet. So those have to be made a very specific, non-clumpy way. I also like hash browns, but not the shredded kind. Oh yeah, I live for the fiesta potatoes at Taco Bell too like gd good shit. Who’s your best friend? My babygirl. <3 If you don't count her, it'd be my mom, but if she's excluded too being family, I don't really have a best friend. Maybe Girt, idk. What’s a TV show you never miss? I don't watch any shows regularly. The one and only situation where I'd watch every episode ASAP is if Meerkat Manor came back. Have you ever lied about your gender? No. What are you planning on doing on your next birthday? Go out to eat with family, and though unlikely, getting a tattoo would be awwwesome. Do you know anyone else with your last name other than family? I don't think so? Is your favorite band still together? I actually just looked it up because I really wanted to know, and his band's still going, apparently! I thought this coming tour ("No More Tours 2") was the end, but apparently it's just the finale of his world tours. Where do you see most of your concerts? I've only been to one, which was in Raleigh. That's the most likely place we'd go to, though. Have you ever had escargot? Never in my life will I try it. Do you use Google every day? No. What was the last new food you tried that you thought was delicious? Oh my god in Heaven. So, for Christmas, my sis made these hot chocolate cream balls things she found on Pinterest, and literally, maybe the best thing I'd ever had. I just barely had enough discipline to not eat more than one lol. If you could invent a new holiday, what month would you put it in? Hm. Idk. Have you ever had a bedroom with a specific theme? No, I don't think so. If you had to design a room with a theme, what theme would you choose? Gothic, maybe with lil bits of pastel goth for some more personality. What was the best thing that ever happened to you? Realizing I can't just give my entire life to a person, losing any control over it myself. You have to allow yourself to be free; do not chain yourself to a single person. Have you ever given money to a homeless person? No. One, I don't have a source of income, and two, I'm perfectly aware what probably 99% do with it, especially because of my mom, who's pretty much made friends with the homeless on the side of the road, has learned each and every one use drugs or alcohol, so instead she buys them food frequently. That's something I would want to do, but I'm so paranoid of strangers, especially desperate ones, harming me for whatever reason that I probably never will. Do you like your hair better long or short? SHORT. OH MY GOOOOOD CUTTING MY HAIR SHORT WAS ONE OF MY BEST DECISIONS. Have you ever designed your own Facebook timeline cover? Yeah. What is one site that closed down that you wish would come back? Hmmmm. I don't really know. Well, the Animal Planet site still exists, but I wish there was still a dedicated MM section, y'know, with the forums and games and such. Really think it'd be nice if they kept little sections for all of their classic, better-known shows for old fans. Hell, I'm pretty sure MM was their most successful, why not keep remnants of it up there? Do you ever watch TV shows on YouTube? Rarely, if I ever watch a show. Foo Fighters vs. Red Hot Chili Peppers: Not a real fan of either, but I'd have to choose the former as I enjoy at least two of their songs. Have your parents ever complained about your hair? My mom was reeeaaally shocked and distressed when she arrived at the parlor when I got the "big" haircut and saw how much was gone (eight inches), but only because she was scared I'd hate it. Thankfully she really liked it when it was all said and done. Are you a fan of the Saw movies? Never really watched 'em. How did you decide on your Tumblr name? I'm a sucker for alliteration, and it's a survey blog. Do your friends have the complete opposite music taste as you? My closer friends, not really, actually. Do you ever forget how old your siblings are? I don't know any of my half-siblings' ages, and I forget how old Ashley is sometimes. I forget frequently if she's two or three years older than me. Do you tend to walk places more than drive? Ha, you can't walk to a destination here in the country. I only ever ride/rarely drive anywhere. Do you have any photos of you kissing someone? Yes. Do you ever hang out with your ex? Rarely with Girt. Would you like the ability to read minds? No, especially if you can't choose when it's "on" or "off." Even if you only choose when you do it, idk. Just... doesn't seem like a safe idea. Do you see the same people everyday? Lol that's usually just my mom, and yes. Have you ever made out on a couch? Yeah. Are you mad at anyone right now? No. It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, what do you do? Almost a guarantee I won't hear, considering it's on vibrate. Now if I did for whatever reason, ignore it unless it's a contact on my phone. Have you ever fallen backwards on a chair? I believe so, playing as a kid. Last time you laughed so hard you cried? I'm not sure, but considering I do that easily... Who last talked about kissing you? Sara. Who was the last thing/person you took a picture with? My kiiiitty. Did you speak to your father today? No. Would you ever get gauged ears? Definitely no. What aren’t you looking forward to? I really don't mean to sound all emo and whatnot, but I genuinely don't look forward to like every afternoon/early evening, as that's around when I hit my extreme boredom decline, which goes so low I feel death could maybe be more exciting. I am in no way suicidal, I just want this era of isolation, lack of purpose, and no progress towards a great future to end. My life's been at a stand-still for pretty much a year. Would you rather get your tongue or lip pierced? I already have both done. I find my snake eyes way cuter, but when I consider my outward appearance and what people generally see, I'd rather have my labret. What is your favorite personality trait? Kindness. What is the most romantic thing a significant other could do? Idk, but something with deep personal meaning for sure. When you are dating someone, what is the most important thing to you? There has to be a mutual, serious care for our relationship; my partner has to understand I'm not in for a fling. We both have to have the goal of forming and maintaining a healthy, long-lasting, meaningful relationship. If I feel being together is a game to you or just for a couple months of a bit of fun, bye. Would you be able to tell someone you love them, even if you didn’t feel it? No. Well, I do with my mom if she's pissed me off and I *feel* like I don't, but I know I do. If you were engaged, would you want a wedding as soon as possible? Not necessarily. I believe engagement is a stage where you're certain you want to get married in the not-so-distant future, but you have other important things to take care of first, like for example, buying a home and stuff like that. When in a relationship do you have to have contact with your partner on a daily basis? I wouldn't freak the hell out if you couldn't talk to me for a day, but I'd definitely want at least a little conversation, especially if we're serious. Do you believe in moving in together before engagement or marriage? Yes. You should know how you're going to handle being with your s/o every single day. Did you ever give a hickey to the last person you kissed or you guys didn’t go that far? Not yet. Is there anyone you want to come see you? Yeah. What was the last thing you saw that scared you? A video of this guy with his giant pet centipede like an idiot (super venomous) crawling all over him. Centipedes creep me the hell out, although at the same time I find them kinda cool. Is there something that’s happened today that you don’t want to ever go through again? No. Is the last person you kissed attractive? Yeah. Do you feel bored with your life? I think I've covered this enough. Who’s someone you miss that you haven’t talked to in years? Megan, more than anyone. Do you have severe withdrawals from medications? I don't think any were ever severe, but I was weaned off of them all I believed. Just honestly I've been on so many since 6th grade that I can't recall each one's ending. I only recall having shadow hallucinations when I was coming off one. What’s the most weight you’ve ever gained from a medication? Let's not talk about the subject I'm more bitter about than anything else in the entire world. Summary: Don't touch Abilify even if your fucking life depended on it. Do you have a doctor you can trust? My psychiatrist and therapist, very much so. I've only seen my new general doctor twice, so I can't make a fair judgment of her. Mom has a friend who sees her though, and she only has positive things to say about her. Do you pray? If yes, to whom? No. What do you miss about high school? A social life. Art class. What do you miss the most about college? Literally the one and only part I enjoyed at my first college was lunchtime, because Jason and I could spend time together, sometimes with his friends. Second college, nothing. It was online. Have you ever been the victim of a crime? I don't believe so? Is your life worse than you could have ever have imagined it to be? Or is it better, or just what you expected? Ohhhh man... As a kid, I was so sure I'd be amazing. Still had a bit of hope in middle school. High school and beyond, it's, so far, worse than I'd planned. What is the most beautiful landscape you have ever seen? Mountains. Driving through them is unreal. What is one place you have always wanted to visit? Idk about "always." But for the longest amount of time, it's been without a doubt South Africa. Who were your favorite celebrities as a child? Steve Irwin was and still is one of my absolute heroes. I loved Jeff Corwin, Jesse McCartney, Raven Symone, and the Sprouse twins, too. Do you prefer slow songs or fast songs? I'd say generally, faster. What color is your trash can? White. Who was your favorite family pet when you were growing up? We didn't really have a "family" pet, just ones one of us individually were particularly close to. I'd say the closest that qualifies would be Chance, our first cat. She was special. List five of your favorite YouTubers. You Already Know, GameGrumps, Shane Dawson, Daniel Howell, and Jeffree Star, but. I have so many jsfaqoweuoapsf. I wanna squeeze Rhett and Link in there, but while I still love them as people and creators, I've been losing interest in GMM over the months. What’s your favorite type of bird? Barn owls. I also love ravens though for their intelligence and personalities. What pet names do you use with your significant other? A lot, but I'd say either "sweetheart/sweetie" or "dear" are most common from me. I think. How would you describe your sense of humor? Sarcastic, I guess. Have you ever been a member in a band? No. Well, except school band. Have you ever watched yourself on video? Yeeaah, senior project was fun. But I know how I usually am well enough to say I honestly don't feel I did badly. Have you ever missed a flight? Yup. Never go to the O'Hare airport, jfc. Have you ever seen a lunar eclipse? Yes, and I hope to see the one this Sunday! Are you still in touch with your best friend from high school? No. Any animals whose behaviors you find particularly interesting? AHHHHHHH SO MANY!!!!! Social species' above all. Do you like animals better than most humans? Yes. What simple things in life bring you the most joy? Long car rides when I can play my iPod through the speakers and just go to another world. Sara singing, hearing my mom laugh. Seeing old couples holding hands in public kills me. How did you meet your significant other (if you have one)? YouTube. How did you meet your best friend? She's the same person as above. Are you friends with anybody you didn't like at first? Also see Sara lmao. Are there any musicians you didn't like at first, but grew on you? The first/most recent to come to mind is In This Moment. Is there anything you used to love, but now dislike? Peas as a kid. I'm kinda on the fence of liking or disliking PewDiePie as he is now (although I haven't watched too much of his newer content). Do you have any favorite books you'd like to have signed by the author? It'd be pretty cool for Ozzy to sign my copy of his autobiography, sure. Do you enjoy any of those old black and white horror films? Any one I've ever seen has been horrid, so I haven't seen many. What is your favorite yogurt topping? I loved those ones that had M&Ms in them. Where do you shop the most: Kmart, Target, Walmart, Fred Meyer, or other? Walmart or Harris Teeter. Have you ever done a craft project you saw on Pinterest? No. What beverages do you drink that contain caffeine? Soda. What has been the best experience you've had in a church? Uhhh. Oh, Jason's brother's wedding. Do you prefer that your nachos be spicy or not spicy? Obviously spicy. Have you ever had a kiss that felt magical? Mine and Jason's first was cute, but I don't recall if I thought it was "magical" because all I was focusing on was just how shy I was. First kiss with Sara was definitely more than special. Who is your best online friend? Sara once again. Who knows more about you: online friends or offline? Online, easily. Do you think that love makes people irrational? It can. What book, movie, or TV show did you find to be total garbage? Oh, I'm positive there's something, but nothing comes to mind. Is there a topic that is a sore-spot for you? Mental health and how it may affect your loved ones. Have you ever lost a friend over a guy/girl? Pretty much. Have you ever lost a friend because of a lifestyle change? Yup. Do you like kissing? The right person. What location holds the most memories for you? My childhood home. Hypothetically let’s just say you’re a supervillain. What’s your agenda? What are you trying to destroy and why? I would never want to be, but I suppose the most suitable for me would be punishing the person to break a promise somehow. Why, because I know just how agonizing broken promises can be. What’s your go-to topic when making small talk with others? How their day's been. When you get to be in charge of the tunes on a road trip or party - do you play what you want to hear or tailor the playlist to what you think the other people in the car/room want to hear? I do a mix of both. Thankfully, Mom and I like most of the same music, but I do learn what songs she doesn't like and avoid playing them unless I really wanna hear it. You have any bad habits you shamelessly don’t care to or plan to quit? Shamelessly, idk about that. There’s an app for everything. What apps consume the most of your time and energy? Facebook. The most overrated thing ever - what is it? I literally judge you if you have a bigass, obnoxiously loud truck. Compensating for something? The most underrated? Ummmm. Talking about pointless shit and doing nothing while enjoying your favorite person's presence is surely one. What’s something you find unconventionally romantic? Teaching your s/o how to play a game together and you both are enjoying it asjfaoswuw. One of my most cherished memories with Jason was that with Little Big Planet. Just in general I find it super cute to share what you love with each other.

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Get To Know Me!!! A Little Too Well

1. Name: Nicole 2. Nickname(s): Nik, Nikki 3. Birthday: June 21 4. That makes you: 18 5. Where were you born: Nebraska 6. Location right now: Same place 7. Shoe size: 7 8. How many piercings?: None 9. Tattoos?: None, but I'd love a few <3 10. When you wake up you're: Confused and even more tired 11. When your about to sleep you're: Wide awake 12. Zodiac sign: Cancerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr/Gemini 13. Chinese sign: Rabbit 14. Righty or Lefty: Righty 15. Innie or Outie: Innie 16. School: Out of school :P Section Two: Looks 17. Nationality: White 20. Weight: 110 lbs 21. Height: 5'6 22. Braces? No 23. Glasses? Yes Section Three: Private Life 24. Do you have a boy/girlfriend? I do! 25. If so, who? The love of my life, Nate 26. If not, do you have a crush on someone? My boyfriend 27. Who has a crush on you? No one haha 28. Ever cheated on your bf/gf? Nope 29. Who was your first kiss: Nate, he kisses pretty good 30. Who was your last kiss: Nate <3 31. Are you a virgin? Yes 32. Ever had a threesome before? No 33. NQ- Ever been swarmed by ladybugs?: Nope 34. Have you ever been in love? Yes 35. Broken any hearts? Not that I know of 36. Got your heart broken? Quite a few times 37. Ever liked a friend? Yea 38. What happened? We started dating

Section Four: Past Relationships 39. How many relationships have you been in? 1 40. How many were serious enough to count: I'm in it 41. Who were those serious ones: I've only been in 1 42. NQ- Who USED to be your best friend: Well, he's still my best friend so 43. What made them different: Nothing 44. What happened: We started dating 45. Best boy/girlfriend: The one I'm dating 46. Worst boy/girlfriend: N/A 47. Ever been kissed: Yes 48. Who do you want back: No one 49. What do you regret: Focusing too much on guys 50. Why? Because I would've done so much better in school Section Five: Favourites 51. Song: Sound of Silence 52. Movie: Zootopia 53. Food: Anything really 54. Drink: Apple Juice 55. Store: Gamestop and Hot Topic 56. Television show: Stranger Things and Mom 57. Holiday: Christmas 58. Book: Grace Lost Series 59. Ice cream: Mint Chip 60. Sweets: Chocolate 61. Crisps: Doritos Jacked 62. Type of music: Pretty much every genre 63. Artist: Singer is Luke Bryan, Painter is Bob Ross 64. Word: Loquacious, vernacular 65. Time of day: Evening/night 66. Dressing: Ranch 67. Alcoholic drink: Don't drink 68. Colour(s): Blue, Red, Black, and White 69. Piece of clothing: Beanie 70. Character: My fursona 71. Smell: Fresh rainfall 72. Shampoo: Fructis 73. Soap: Fructis 74. Smiley: >3 75. Board game: Too many tbh 76. Sport: Soccer 77. Number: 5 78. Quote: "The only thing we have to fear is fear itself." Franklin D. Roosvelt 79. Animal: Wolf 80. Actor: Ryan Reynolds/Chris Pratt 82. Vegetable: Sugar snap peas 83. Fruit: Grapes 84. Place to be: In my room 85. Thing in your room: Pictures 86. Gum: 5-gum 87. Shape: Circle 88. Country: Europe 89. Mall: Any mall 90. Car: 67 Chevy Impala 91. Boy's name: Christopher 92. Girl's name: Chrissy 93. Family member: My brothers and my dad 94. Restaurant: Johnny Carinos 95. Movie place: The theater 96. Person to go to the movies with: Myself 97. Noise: Falling rain 98. Brand of Shoe: Airwalks 99. Brand of clothing: Aeropostle 100. Body part of a chicken: Thigh 101. Swear word: Asshat 102. Month: December 103. Possession: My ring 104. Team: Don't have a favorite 105. Season: Winter 106. Radio station: Pop station 107. Magazine: Don't read them 108. Favourite grade: Senior year 109. Least favourite grade: 5th grade 110. Teacher: Kindergarten 111. Least favourite teacher: Math teacher in 5th grade, he was a douche 112. Subject: Art/Choir 113. Subject to talk about: Anything and everything Section Six: Family 114. Who's your mum?: Not here 115. Who's your dad?: My role model 116. Any step-parents?: Yea, had a few 117. Any brothers?: 2 118. Any Sisters?: Nope 120. Coolest: Older brother 121. Loudest: Me 122. Best relative: My cousin 123. Worse relative: No one 124. Do you get along with your parents? My dad, yea 125. With your siblings? Mostly, we game with each other 126. Does anyone understand you? Yea 127. Do you have any pets? Nah 128. If so, what kind and name? 129. If not, what do you want as a pet? I want another dog, we had to get rid of ours Section Seven: School 131. Are you still in school? Nope 132. Did you drop out?: 2.75, I didn't pay attention freshman and sophomore year 133. Your current GPA: No thanks 134. Do you buy or bring lunch?: School bill paid for it 135. ABC's?: Know them 136. Favorite class: Choir and art 137. Play any sports at school?: Played soccer 138. Are you popular? With the outcasts 139. Favourite memory: Being the only girl good at soccer 140. Most humiliating moment: Falling in front of my close guy friends 141. Most funniest moment: Hitting someone in the face with a soccer ball 142. Most scared moment: Graduating Section Eight: What do you think of when you hear 145. Chicken: Bawk bawk 146. Dog: Soft puppy 147. Christina Aguilera: Music 148. Ricky Martin: Who? 149. 50 cent: Rapper 150. Poop: Emoji 151. Beach: Sand 152. Dessert: Cactus 153. Water: Blue 154. Osama: Bin Laden 155. Love: Life 156. Your little brother: Xbox One 157. Butt: Nice 158. Clowns: Pennywise 159. Wonder: Over Yander 16o. Brown: Pants 161. Banana: Yum 162. Sex: Rope 163. Parents: One 164. Homosexuals: Jensen and Jared 165. God: Father Section Nine: Do you believe in 166. God: Yes 167. Heaven: Yes 168. Devil: Yes 169. Hell: In a sense 170: Boogey man: No 171. Closet Monsters: Nah 172. Fortune telling: Nope 173. Magic: Nuh uh 174. Love at first sight: Depends 175. Ghosts: Nope 176. Voo-doo dolls: Nah 177. Reincarnation: Nope 178. Yourself: Ehh, not really Section Ten: Do you 179. Smoke: And kill my lungs? No thanks 180. Do drugs: Pfft, why would I? 181. Drink alcohol: Again, I'm not trying to die at a young age 182. Cuss: Yea 183. Sing in the shower: Sometimes... 184. Like school: Yea, it was the best place to be! 185. Want to get married: Mhmm, and I'm glad I found someone 186. Type with all of your fingers: Not really 187. Think you're attractive: Most days 188. Drink and drive: Fuck this 189. Snore: Sometimes 190. Sleep walk: Nope 191. Like watching sunrises and sunsets: Best place to be honestly Section Eleven: Have you ever 192. Flashed someone: On accident 193. Gotten so drunk til you threw up everywhere: I don't drink 194. Told that person how you felt: Yep 195. Been arrested: Nope 196. Gone to jail or juve: No 197. Skateboarded: Yes 198. Skinny dipped: In a bath 199. Rock climbed: Do it every summer 200. Killed someone: Nope 201. Watched porn: Nah 202. Gone on a road trip: Kinda 203. Went out of the country: Nah 204. Talked back to an adult: Yes 205. Broken a law: Nope 206. Got pulled over: Don't drive 208: Cried to get out of trouble: I don't usually do anything bad 209. Let a friend cry on your shoulder: I'm supposed to, I'm there to listen 210. Kissed a brother's or sister's friend: No 211. Kissed a friend's brother or sister: No 212. Dropped something on the floor and let someone eat it anyways: Nah, I usually eat it 213. Mooned someone: Yes, once 214. Shop-lifted: No 215. Worked at McDonald's: No thank you 216. Eaten a dog: A hot dog! 217. Give money to a homeless person: Yea, I've fed them too 218. Glued your hand to yourself: Yes 219. Kissed someone of the same sex: Playing Pocky 220. Had a one night stand: I have two right beside my bed 221. Smoked: Nope 222. Done drugs: No 223. Lose a friend because of your ex: I don't have any exes 224. Slap someone for being stupid: Yes 225. Had cyber sex: Sexted?? Kinda 226. Wish you were the opposite sex: A lot more often than I should sometimes. But for completely different reasons 227. Caught someone doing something: Yea 228. Played a game that removes clothing: Strip truth or dare ;) 229. Cried during a movie: All the damn time 230. Cried over someone: It's hard not to when you can't have an actor love you 231. Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yea, and I did 232. Hooked up with someone you barely met: Nah 233. Ran away from home: Nope 234. Cheated on a test: Once Section Twelve: Would you 235. Bungee jump: Nope 236. Sky dive: Hate heights 237. Swim with dolphins: Yes 238. Steal a friend's bf or gf: That goes against girl code 239. Try to be the opposite sex: No 240. Lie to the police: Hi officer my real name is Nicholas... Cage 241. Run from the police: No 242. Lie to your parents: Done it before 243. Backstab a friend for your own well being: That's just plain rude 244. Be an exotic dancer: Only for my boyfriend <3 245. NQ- Kill the president: Nah Section Thirteen: Are you 246. Shy: Yes, especially around new people 247. Loud: Extremely 248. Nice: I try to be 249: Outgoing: I fake being outgoing haha 250: Quiet: Yea 251. Mean: Depends, I'm mean to those I like 252. Emotional: Sad to say, but yea 253. Sensitive: Mhmm 254. Gay: I'm very happy 255. Strong: I wish, need to start working out 256. Weak: Yea 257. Caring: Yes, especially towards animals 258. Dangerous: Well, does this include caving? 259. Crazy: Uh huh 260. Spontaneous: I am the most random and spontaneous thing out there 261. Funny: I try to be, I fail at it 262. Sweet: To eat ;) 263. Sharing: With most things, but not my food 264. Responsible: Most of the time 265. Trustworthy: Definitely, if you want a secret kept come talk to me 266. Open-minded: Depends on what you mean 267. Creative: For the most part 268. Cute: Um, not even close, no matter how many of y'all say I am 269. Slick: They don't call me Nik the Slick for nothing 270. Smart: Yea 271. Dumb: I act like it 272. Evil: No 273. Ghetto: If only 274. Classy: As in sassy 275. Photogenic: Nope 276. Dependable: Only on a few select things 277. Greedy: Only with food 278. Ugly: Yes, 100 times over 279. Messy: With my life 280. Neat: With everything else 281. Perverted: You can say cookie and it'll go bad 282. Silly: Yea 283. A B****: I can be if you want me to be 284. A Good Listener: Mhmm 285. A Fighter: If you make me mad enough 286. A Party Animal: I'd rather read, thanks 287. A Game Freak: YES 288. A Computer Freak: I literally want to work on computers Section Fourteen: Future 289. Dream job: Animation 290. Dream house: Somewhere out in the country 291. Husband/Wife: My sweet redheaded boyfriend 292. Kids: 2 293. Names: Something with Ns 294. Pets: Literally so many 295. Car: Anything that gets me places 296. Age you would want to get married: I wouldn't mind getting married in the next few years 297. Best Man/Bride's Maid: My best friend Elena 298. Honeymoon: Anyplace that has a bedroom Section Fifteen: Your friends 299. Best friend: Elena, Nate, Jasmine, Kelsey 300. Known the longest: Nate 301. Craziest: Elena 302. Loudest: Elena and I 303. Shyest: Jasmine and Kelsey 304. Best hair: Kelsey 305. Best eyes: Kelsey 306. Best body: Nate 307. Most Athletic: Me 308. Hot-Tempered: Elena 309. Most impatient: Me 310. Shortest: Nate 311. Tallest: Kelsey 312. Skinniest: Me 313. Best singer: Me 314. Funniest: Literally all of us 315. Can always make you laugh: All of them 316. Wish you talked to more: Elena 317. Wish you saw more: All of them 318. Who drives you insane after a while: Elena, but in a good way 319. Who you can stay around forever and never get sick of: All of them 320. Ever lose a friend because you took it to the 'next level': Nah, I'm dating Nate 321. Whose always been there when you need them: All of them 322. Who is like your family: All of them 323. How many friends do you have?: Quite a few, and I love each and every one of them 324. How many are really close? About 10? Section Sixteen: The last 325. Thing you ate: Poptarts 326. Thing you drank: Apple juice 327. Thing you wore: My hoodie 328. Thing you did: This meme 329. Place you went: The store 330. Thing you got pierced or tattooed: Nothing 331. Person you saw: My dad 332. Person you hugged: My dad 333. Person you kissed: Nate 334. NQ- Person you beat to a juicy pulp: I wish I had done that to a couple jerks 335. Person you talked to online: Nate 336. Person you talked to on the phone: Nate 337. Song you heard: Vulnerable by Secondhand Serenade 338. Show you saw: Mom 339. Time you fought with your parents: Um... about a month or two? 340. Time you fought with a friend: Haven't for a while 341. Words you said: Fuck you is what I said Section Seventeen: Now 343. What are you eating: Poptart 344. What are you drinking: Apple juice 345. What are you thinking: About my boyfriend 346. What are you wearing: My hoodie 347. What are you doing: Writing this up 349. Hair: Down 350. Mood: Tired 351. Listening to: Spotify 352. Talking to anyone: Yea 353. Watching anything: Nah Section Eighteen: Yes or No 354. Are you a vegetarian: Mostly 355. Are you a carnivore: Nah 356. Are you heterosexual: Yes 357. Do you like penguins: Yes 358. Do you write poetry: Yes 359. Do you see stupid people: Yes 360. You + Me: No 361. Do you like the Osbournes: Yes 362. Can you see flying pigs: No 363. Do you sleep with stuffed animals on your bed: Yes 364. Are you from Afghanistan: No 365. Is Christina Aguilera ugly: No 366. Are you a zombie: No 367. Am i annoying you: Yes 368. Do you bite your nails: Yes 369. Can you cross your eyes: Yes 370. Do you make your bed in the morning: No 371. Have you touched someone's private part: Yes Section Nineteen: This or That 372. Winter or Summer: Winte 373. Spring or Autumn: Autumn 374. Shakira or Britney: Britney 375. MTV or VH1: MTV 376. Black or White: White 377. Yellow or Pink: Pink 378. Football or Basketball: Football 379. Mobile Phone or Pager: Mobile 380. Pen or Pencil: Pencil 381. Cold or Hot: Hot 382. Tattoos or Piercings: Tattoos 383. Inside or Outside: Inside 384. Weed or Alcohol: No 385. Coke or Pepsi: Pepsi 386. Tape or Glue: Tape 387. McDonald's or In-n-Out: In-Out Section Twenty: Opinions 388. What do you think about classical music: I like it 389. About boy bands: Nah 390: About suicide: Talk to someone if you're thinking about suicide. It is a very real thing and should not be joked about. I don't want to find out that any of you are no longer here because of suicide. I've lost 2 very close friends that way. 391. About people who try to force their opinions on you: They can kindly fuck off 392. About teen pregnancy: Only if they know they'll be able to take care of the baby 393. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years: With my husband in some country town 394. Who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: Nate, Elena, Kelsey, Jasmine, hopefully all my friends 395. About gay men: They're human too Section Twenty-One: 396. Do you have a website: I'm working on building one 397. Current weather right now: Cold as balls 398. Current time: 7:00 399. Last thoughts: Byyyye