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My Thoughts on The Sun and The Star.
Iāve organized my thoughts into some lists. Enjoy.
I polled my followers and they said they wanted this so you canāt get mad at me.
I must first emphasize that at 20 years old, Iām hardly this bookās target audience. I am fully aware of that.
Second, this book is fine. Itās not bad, itās not insulting to queer people, but itās also not the most interesting work of fiction Iāve ever read.
Third, I never finished the Trials of Apollo. I donāt think it hugely affected my reading experience with this one as Iād read all 10 of the other books and could use context clues for anything I didnāt know about. But I thought I should mention it.
Fourth, a lot of my problems with this book have also been present in all of Rick Riordanās books post-pjo. So, these arenāt new.
Fifth, I went into this book with basically zero expectations. Iām not active in the pjo fandom (this is an anime blog), so I wasnāt seeing the book hyped up or anything. Before this, Iād basically only talked about it with my family and friends. I also donāt really read pjo fanfics. I have because Iāve gotten curious before, but I havenāt read enough to know about general fanon interpretations of characters.
Okay,
Nico has been my favorite PJO character since I was a kid (yes I grew up gay with abandonment issues shut up), so I was excited for this book.
The queerness is well done. There isnāt any āotheringā of Nico, Will, or their relationship due to their queerness.
We got Italian! Nico moments, which Iāve been wanting more of since forever, so Iām happy about that. They did an okay job rounding out Willās character. And Nico and Willās relationship got a lot of good exposition (even if I felt that they were unrealistically mature about it). Nicoās experiences with homophobia felt very real.
Okay, now on to my critics:
Without a doubt my biggest criticism of this book is that it is very clearly fanservice. It doesnāt exist because it has a story to tell. It exists because fans wanted more Nico and Will content.
I didnāt like that the book was written from third person. I had this same critic of the Heroes of Olympus books. Rick Riordanās strength has always been first person POVs, starting with the original PJO series. I feel like the funny chapter names, the breaking of the fourth wall, the sidebars, etc. are the reason that Rickās prose stands out. A first person perspective is the reason the books are as funny as they are. And this book lacked that spark.
The choice to write from third person is part of what contributes to the fanfiction-esque writing style of this book. As someone who both reads and writes fanfiction, I can tell you that almost all fanfics are written from third person. This is because, for the most part, the characters youāre writing are not your own. First person is way too intimate a POV for that type of writing, and itās why most fanfic authors donāt use it. Thatās what I feel like is happening here. Oshiro is writing characters that arenāt theirs, and that means they canāt bring the intimacy of a first person POV or even a more intimate third person POV.
The book is also very on the nose with its themes and ideas. Generally, this is fine in this type of literature. This is a piece of middle-grade fiction. The target audience is middle schoolers. But also, middle schoolers can pick up on subtext. Theyāre young, not illiterate. There was far too much telling when they were already showing.
A good example is the title of the book. Itās very clear that āThe Sunā is Will and āThe Starā is Nico. I assumed that before I even opened the book. That imagery is incredibly obvious, so the authors donāt need to state it in the text. Butā¦ they do. Bob refers to Will and Nico as āMy sun and star.ā It was one of the moments in the book that really made me cringe.
The book has major pacing issues and is too long. I felt like it was going on forever. There were full scenes and segments that I think couldāve been cut without affecting the plot.
This book really put on display that even though Will and Nico work as boyfriends, they donāt work as partners. This contrasts Percy and Annabeth, who do work really well together since they were partners first. But Nico and Will are so bad at working together that their quest dynamic isnāt fun.
Generally, I donāt love the characterization in this book.
Nico and Will are supposed to be on this dark, dangerous quest. One so horrible no one would ever want to undertake it. Itās the House of Hades (Nyxās Version). Except it really isnāt. It felt like they wanted to make it more psychological than the previous books, but they also werenāt totally willing to commit to everything that would entail.
Despite all the fluff in the book, it takes itself just a little too seriously. Nico and Will are 15-16. I feel like they could have had more fun with it while still tackling darker themes. Again, I know Riordan is capable of this because *gestures at the original PJO books*
Nico and Will have this weirdly mature outlook on their relationship that doesnāt fit their ages.
We donāt get PJO-esque jokes until 80% of the way through the book (yes, I kept track). Thereās the āTravel Brochureā joke and the āSaturday Sundaeā joke during the Nyx confrontation. Both of which invoked the feeling of reading the original Percy Jackson books. I got really excited.
Immediately after those jokes this became one of the cringiest books Iāve ever read. And I do not care to elaborate on that because Iām just happy that the book is over at this point.
Lastly, I wasnāt sure where to put this, but I read it, so now, you have to too. āāWill, he said it has to be both of us,ā said Nico. Will hesitated at first, but an epiphany dawned in him, and his eyes went wide. āTogether,ā he said.ā After reading this, I immediately recoiled in disgust and went āUGH!ā And there are multiple lines like this in the book. Absolutely horrible -7563/10. Rick, never allow another sentence like that into one of your books again. This isnāt YA. You canāt be throwing lines like that at me out of nowhere.
In conclusion:
Iāve seen people saying the criticisms of this book are the result of homophobia andā¦ yāall no they arenāt. Most of the people Iāve seen criticizing the book are queer, including me! Iām tired of this idea that queer people just have to appreciate whatever representation theyāre given without having any criticisms about it because at least itās something. No! If Nico and Will were a straight couple, Iād still have the exact same critics of this book. Iām gay and itās my godgiven right to dislike books that focus on gay people if the stories arenāt good.
Something that I do think is sad here is that Oshiroās name is now on this substandard book forever. Theyāre a new author, and they donāt deserve that. Rick Riordan will be fine if this book isnāt received well, but Oshiro is less likely to be. That upsets me deeply as a queer writer myself. That sucks. I hate that. Go check out their books instead of this one tbh.
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Welcome to the Dungeons of Fear and Hunger.
#Fear and Hunger#D'arce Cataliss#Cahara#Ragnvaldr#Enki Ankarian#Unlike Dungeon Meshi - I cannot in good faith recommend this game to a broad audience.#My background with F&H goes as follows: I am hanging out with a friend. He says āhey try this game I've been playing.ā I say āOkay!ā#I have never heard of this game. I pick the mercenary. I go through 5 min of character history and background. I am mauled to death by dogs#It took me 4 resets to even get in the dungeon. But I finally get there. I am caught by a guard. He cuts off all but one of my limbs#I am forced to crawl around in a blood and corpse pit until the game tells me 'give up idiot'.#I reset. I am mauled by dogs again. I realize this is not for me but I am intrigued enough to go home and watch some playthroughs#And WOW what an interesting game it is! I really do appreciate games that blend their design philosophy with the theme it wants to set#This is a game about fear and hunger. And persevering. And penis (my god is there a lot of penis)#I recommend this to people who like extremely challenging games and can handle the many *content warnings* within this series#If the idea of Bloodborne/eldenring and undertale having a little RPG maker baby sounds appealing to you - give it a shot#It's made by ONE GUY and it's a great horror game. I am just really bad at it.#My friends just enjoy putting me in situations where I scream and yell. We don't talk about the corn mazes. Or the other horror game nights#Apparently I'm funny when I'm Scared!#As people who follow me on twitter might know; I am deep in the pits of this series right now. I will be back with more art.
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Uploading all my Tomgreg art at once from the past few week before season 4 hits, who knows in what kind of mental state i'm gonna be once it does :')
#tomgreg#succession#dont even talk to me i started watching this show when i had nothing to do at work and now i watch it with averiel my good friend averiel#and we are going to watch s4 together and i feel physically ill from bein so excited#so ya thats what ive been up to... anyway. i love these idiots they desever nothing but the worst (affectionate)#im also a tomshiv lover btw. im the one who yells 'THIS IS HOW TOMSHIV CAN STILL WIN' while they are actively losing on screen#thats the kind of person i am#dont look at me (lying on the floor)#okay i was not going to say stuff in the tags and let the art speak for itself but i NEED to point out details in the wine Painting..#i put a lot of work into that one. thinly veiled metaphors and symbolism yknow..#greg is gripping the stem of the wine glass with his full fist. tom and greg are dressed in the same outfit (sock garters included)#greg look appalled but he is not doing anything about the spill. tom is fondly pouring greg more and more wine. he is doing him a favor#i colored the red wine the same way i would color blood :) oh and tom is not really touching greg#only holding the chair in place. greg is making himself look smaller than he is like usual#oh and @ the person who said that it's the inverse of the tom and nate scene i love the way you think. i did not think of that before#but god. yeah. i actually thought about the scene change from when roman uhh.. christens his office in s1. the one with the coffee machine#i always go insane at that cut. this is not exactly the same since it's more.. about emotions but yknow.. it can be.. the same...
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Svsss headcanon: Ning Yingying has a part time job working as a waitress in Hua Cheng's gambling den.
#shen qingqiu come get your disciple#how did she 1v1 the young hua huan palace mistress so easily? customer service job#people are yelling and limbs may go flying every now and again but the tips are great and Yin Yu is a patient and understanding manager#āsir i can't do monday next week my sect is going to the immortal alliance conferenceā#āthat's okay just let me know if you have any grave injuries by tuesday so i can get someone to fill in longerā#scum villian self saving system#svsss#svsss headcanon#tgcf#mxtx#ning yingying
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Everyone else, in the paint rain: *Screaming, running and panicking*
Wednesday & Tyler: *Chilling, hanging out, not moving until the crowd moves them.*
#weyler#wyler#wednesday addams#tyler galpin#wednesday and tyler#This scene is the definition of matching freaks#Like you can say what you want#But that scene alone proved they match freaks#I yell at my screen on rewatches like āTyler thatās not how a normal boy would react- He canāt hear me heās too busy matching Wednesdayā#Go back and watch it like#Until he turns his back to her#Tyler is STOOD STILL getting SOAKED with paint#Itās hilarious#Heās so cringe fail loser boyfriend coded#Literally giving pathetic wet cat boy in that scene#Okay Iāll stop now
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gymnast kaito x sharpshooter shinichi meet-cute in the olympics au
#kaishin#i can already hear my brain going BUT SOCCER PLAYER SHINICHI RAAAAAAHHHHH#but shapshooter shinichi tho cmoooon CMOOONN#yall have seen the olympic athletes yall have seen the flavor#i saw yeji and yusuf and im like OKAY SHINICHI SHARPSHOOTER#also gymnast kaito this is canon in my brain idc#i would love to see kaito's floor routine like pleaaaaaseeee#also that one epke zonderland london 2012 high bar routine but make it kuroba fucking kaito RAAAAHHH#also also in my mind shinichi would only wear glasses and he'd affectionately call it 'conan'#idk a whole lot about the olympics and either sports so im not confident enough to make hcs#thats why im just yapping here LOL#might binge watch some olympics related videos and articles later idk#yell some hcs for this au at me I'd love to know!!!!!!#dc prattles#ALSO FUN IF KAITO GREW UP IN PARIS AND HE'S REPRESENTING FRANCE WHEWWWW#but it's also fun if kaishin are both team jp and theyret meeting for the first time yippeeee#akai would be shinichi's coach maybe š¤#also i looked it ip and apparently karate was removed from the official olympic games FUCK but WE DONT CARE BECAUSE#OLYMPIC ATHLETE BESTIES SONOSHINRAN MY BELOVED I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU#anyway sonoko in gymnastics ran in karate and sharpshooter shinichi WOW WOW WAIT MY BRAIN HAVING A MASSIVE ROT RIGHT NOW#oh you just know sonoko does all those tiktoks with a shy but excited ran and completely forced to participate shinichi LMAO#kaishin meet through sonoko ofc ššš#sonoko and kaito are besties too and are familiar with each other for both being in the gymnastics scene#anyway kaito and shinichi meet and kiss and fall in love#ALSO SHINICHI THIRSTING OVER KAITO'S MUSCLES LMAOOOO#AND KAITO THIRSTING OVER A FULLY CLOTHED SHINICHI POISED FOR A SHOT LIKEEEE#oh they wanna makeout real bad i fear#ALSO KAITO IS THAT ONE ATHLETE WHO KEEPS STEALING THE CHOCOLATE MUFFINS IN THE OLYMPIC VILLAGE LMFAOOOO#the tiktoks of that guy was so funny lol i just know kaito would do the same#you know what maybe I should've just typed this on the post and not on the tags but it's too late now LMAO i want more of them tho omg š³
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anyway meeting Uruha has been so stressful bc the last time I watched a main character try to protect a master swordsman on a train it didn't end so well
#I THINK I'VE SEEN THIS FILM BEFORE AND I DIDN'T LIKE THE ENDING#uruha bestie you have to live okay you can do this you can make it#at least the other guy is off the train now but i'm not letting my guard down#holding hakuri by the shoulders like IT'S ALL ON YOU KID#GO GET EM TIGER#actually that is me @ chihiro all the time#the definition of go get em tiger#liza blather#i should make a tag for these#liza reads kagurabachi#or should i make a side blog š¤#on one hand i already have. so many side blogs.#but on the other it would be easier to organize the yelling#scheduling this bc i'm still feeling a little ;-;#it's giving pizza & sorcerers & samurai for the soul
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Bro I hate fundamentalists and culturally-fundie parents they'll say shit like "spare the rod spoil the child am I right haha yea my parents used to have to beat my ass with a switch almost everyday but I sure did learn my lesson" but like??? no you didn't??? you were hit multiple times for something you very obviously did not, in fact, learn
Like studies about how harmful even lightly spanking children is aside, you're literally contradicting yourself?? Some even admitted they got worse as they got older cause they wanted to see how far they could push their parents before they got punished
And studies not aside, you're gonna get child raising advice from the same book that tells you to stone your wife if her hymen doesn't break on your wedding night instead of the decades of research we have now?? Just say you're a bad parent and move on my guy. Skill issue
#bro I had a coworker go 'unpopular opinion I think some kids really do need beatings' and I'm like????#unprompted???? what's going on there????#well anyways I ended up going 'yea so I plan on specializing in play therapy with autistic children so I've been learning about talking#to children and the ways their parents and environment affects them'#and they're like hmmm but beating this kid with a stick after they broke something or I upset them to the point of yelling is good actually#had a boss say it taught him and his kids respect cause they were hard-headed#and I'm like?? that's fear not respect! they fear punishment! they do not act out of respect for you!#he's a conservative christian black man tho so he's like 'But Authority!' like bro I don't even respect you what are you on about#'You don't respect police and their authority?' Nope! I fear them! I do not respect cops and every cop/cop-adjacent person I personally know#has reinforced that for me#'We'll agree to disagree' Cool! Doesn't mean you're not wrong! I could believe trees aren't real but that is in fact incorrect#then he pulled out the bible verse and I was like ah okay I forgot you like 'here's how to treat slaves' book you're so right bestie#I'm totally wrong now and so sorry for doubting you and your 2000+ year old book I don't believe in <3#They'd go 'well I turned out fine!' then say something that directly contradicts that#anyways I need christians to get their grubby little hands off the current state of Child Protection and Rights in the U.S.#So we can actually start working on helping kids without the force of christian hands suffocating them#cause homeschooling and child raising by evangelicals are so fucked up bro I'm tired of this shit#I'd only stay in my current state to help children get out of that cycle since I'm in the bible belt#ex christian#religious trauma#child abuse tw
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i feel like horror would have sourdough starter. he doesn't even use it to bake he just keeps it alive like a funny little experiment. the yeast in that starter will never get to experience the fulfillment of becoming bread unfortunately
and then he totally gets mad at dust and killer if they dont take care of it properly when he can't. WDYM THE STARTER OVERFLOWED!!! YOURE SUPPOSED TO ADD LESS WATER!!!! that's his baby guys he named it and decorated the jar and EVERYTHING š
#would this be considered torture if sourdough starter is alive#dust is also into the little yeast experiment but he doesn't wanna get yelled @ by horror (he dont feel like dealing with that)#he wants to know what would happen if lead were dumped into the starter. good thing horror doesnt bake with this#so he just gets killer to do all of the care for the starter when horror cant#plausible deniability and all that. at least killer's the one that gets yelled at instead of him!#horror probably does have a seperate jar of starter he keeps seperate for baking#if dust and killer find it he'll make them all match skulls#I FUCKING HATE MAGMA WHY IS THAY STUOID ASS WEBSITE SO CONFUSING#HOW DO.PEOPLE USE IT OH MY GOOOOOF THIS SUCKS BALLS BIG HAIRY BALLS#IK GONNA SCRATCH MY SKIN UNTIL IT BLEED LET ME DRAW!!! YOU FUCK!!! THE BRUSH PRESSURE IS SO SHIT#WHY IS IT NOT PICKING UO WHEN I DRAW I HATE THIS#anyways. this is horror cooking propaganda idc if he'd be ass at it#man. this sucks. i dont like magma. please let me use ibispaint layout and everything. ibispaint save me ibispaint save me#siiiigh. okay. time to post this. people who see this will definitely see this guys.#me on my way to send a post off the populate the murder time trio tag daily#tricule hc#killer sans#dust sans#horror sans#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#nothing serious right now because i really dont feel up to it#guys if you liked this post like and subscribe for more. listen i give tou an mtt playlist what else do you eant fron me#i do as much as i can while balancing my office job and college education (i say. unemployed and in high school)
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random thought: tim bursting into the room just in the nick of time to witness the birth of his baby, and lucy upon seeing him immediately starts cursing him out in cantonese.
#*carly catalogs#can you imagine???? lmaooooo#a heavily pregnant sweating heaving red face lucy taking 1 look at him with daggers in her eyes and yelling profanities in another language#sszdzfrtyghjkl#i imagine angela and nyla in the room with her and angela takes a giant step back scared like 'holy shit she's speaking in tongues now'#and tim holds a hand up like 'it's okay she's just cursing me out in cantonese'#it'd be so funny šššš#the rookie#tim bradford#lucy chen#chenford#otp: you know me so well
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I just got through the Earthlings arc during my SU rewatch and im absolutely facinated by Jaspers character
Sheās such an effective antagonist for so long because she clashes with every other character so fundamentally. Sheās got this completely foreign to the show worldview that is shown to be contrary to what the rest of the show is trying to say but she still feels like a real person and when you think about her sheās just as much a product of her circumstances as anyone else. She doesnāt want to talk it out with Steven because why would she? She was literally born to fight as has been doing so since the second she was born, itās all sheās ever known and has been drilled into her head that thatās whatās expected of her, sheās rewarded for fighting well and watches as others are punished for doing badly, either by losing or by facing consequences for failing.
And then thereās the whole āperfect soliderā part of her character. She was literally born more capable and with a higher status than everyone else. But because of the way home world is structured to reward her and punish people like the off-colours, sheās been indoctrinated into thinking that the reason she came out on top had nothing to do with how she was made and everything to do with her behaviour and attitude. Peak āpull yourself up by your bootstrapsā type person but because itās a fictional story you can see what happened to make her this way. Her and amethyst are fundamentally different, theyāre different quartzes, they were born in different places, they were just created differently, from the start jasper was always going to be better at some things than amethyst and amethyst would be better at others than jasper. But because of the way jasper has been āraisedā for lack of a better word she doesnāt see that, she doesnāt understand that her and amethyst are simply different gems who were made different, sheās better at fighting and is picture image of what a quartz āshouldā be so that means itās possible and anyone who canāt live up to that standard simply isnāt trying hard enough. And she even manages to get that into amethysts head, if jasper is capable of this then that means that amethyst must be too, even tho thatās simply not true. Through no fault of her own amethyst would have to try infinitely harder to achieve even close to where jasper is, jasper started out with a huge head start and trying to play catch up does nothing but hurt amethyst. Itās such a good analogy for so many things I think
Her main role in the story is serving as a character who simply refuses to talk it out with Steven, but again, why would she? From her perspective the entire reason her life is like this, she reason shes spent her life fighting endlessly, all the suffering shes lives through, its his fault. Rose Quartz started the war she was quite literally born to fight in. Rose Quartz also ended that same war by killing the only person jasper ever had to look up to, forced her out of the only reason she had for existing (both as in to fight the war and to serve Pink Diamond). And then heres Rose Quartz once again, saying she wants to help her? Where was she offering help when jasper when she was living to fight as much as she was fighting to live? Where was this āhelpā when she shattered Pink Diamond and Jaspers entire world with her? āHelpā? Help my ass shes the reason everything thats gone wrong in jaspers life went wrong in the first place
And then she gets poofed at her lowest point, gets removed from the story entirely until Future, and Future does nothing to make anything better for her! Last jasper knew the person shes been seeking revenge on her entire existence cant even be bothered to remember what she did, and then she loses herself to the Earth and corruption, the very things she prided herself on being better than.
And then suddenly shes brought back and āhey guess what! That war we created you to fight in? The one you created your entire person around? The one you lost Everything in? Yeah so it was pointless. Actually the person you idolised for the past 6000 years is the same person who you thought killed her and have been seeking vengeance on for the same amount of time. Crazy how that happens. Anyways so do you wanna come hang out with us now that we sorted that out and were chill about it?ā
Can you even IMAGINE what that feels like? No wonder she runs off into the woods and becomes a hermit what else is she supposed to do! Shes got nowhere to go! Her entire life has been turned on its head and sheās expected to just move on! Thatās ridiculous!
And thats just the backdrop for her appearance in Future. When she finally does appear they kill her and thats the first and only time we ever see her happy. Someone Finally speaks to her in a way she can understand and she actually dies, and uses that to find herself a purpose. If steven is powerful enough to shatter her, a feat never before seen by a gem, then sure she can serve him, anything to give her life purpose again. and then they just forget about her! Steven literally ditched her in his house! They pull the rug out from under her Once Again. but now she can be ānormalā now she can do what other people want her to do so they all assume shes ābetterā now.
I think future did her so dirty the original show handles her character So Well and im not really sure how else they could have gone further with her character because people like Jasper in real life dont really change. And if she were to change and agree with steven it would feel like the show saying steven was right and jasper was wrong and she should have listened to him from the start. Shes such an interesting character to delve into because shes the antagonist yes but shes a very specific type or antagonist that doesnt appear very often and when it does its not with as much backstory, even if just implied, or delving into the thoughts behind the actions. Its so interesting to me
#hi my name is duck and im normal about steven universe characters#steven universe#su jasper#su rose quartz#su pink diamond#su analysis#Tree Man Posts#me when i go to the bestie gc and yell about jasper for an hour straight#listen okay. Jasper.#thanks for listening#no seriously i love thinking about jasper. shes such a product of her environment#but in a different way to all the other characters#and she has such a different just fundamental worldview compared to every other character and esp compared to Steven#she represents the kind of person who i see in real life but canāt understand why they are the way they are#but jasper. being a fictional character. means that i Can i Can look at all her appearences and consider other sources of information#and really Think about why she is the way she is. and at the wnd i dont even think sheās unjustified in her actions#i highly doubt anyone else in her position would have come out any different#len look what you did you supposed my jasper analysis and now here we are
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i love your fics and the ideas you describe for the ask games. i'm especially fond of your takes on the rarer pairings and i always smile when i see your posts in the ship tags <3
and don't stress too much about not posting anything, real life is important and participating in fandom should be fun, not something you have to force yourself to do. god knows fandom burnout is real, especially if you feel like people are expecting something from you. just keep doing what makes you happy :)
ghgfhgjhkjhjhg this was so sweet, thank you so much! i *love* talking about rarer rarepairs, especially if it gets other people to ship them too. the popular ships are fun and all, but i truly love spreading rarepair propaganda.
that's very reassuring, thank you <3 i've loved everything i posted here so far and have not felt pushed to post anything i haven't enjoyed, but sometimes i forget i can like. use this blog for whatever i want and not *just* headcanons/fics/mets/etc lol. and i also forget i don't have to rush myself. it's annoying to want to write and either not have time or not have the words work. i used to run a fandom blog in my teens that got very large and felt like a chore and i was so stressed about the need to perform and the numbers and all of that. like if a fic didn't do well i saw it as a personal failing and forced myself to write popular headcanons just for the numbers game. was not fun or sustainable in the long run and i think it contributed to me no longer having any taste for the ship i primarily wrote for. so for too long i treated existing in fandom like a job lol. i've mostly gotten it through to myself that this is a space for me, but i occasionally forget when i'm so caught up in all the things i want to get to for this blog. my to-write list is a mile long and i need to be bonked with a paper towel roll, i think. so it's very kind of you to say this bc the reminder is nice <3
#necrotic answerings#kindly praise#this was *so* sweet anon wtf#i'm not naming the blog i used to run#yes it still exists#and it's not hard to find if you really hunt my digital footprint tbh. i don't hide my main blog#both this blog and that blog are mentioned on my main so you could find it if you looked i'm not hiding it just also not advertising it#at my height i had about 4k followers over there#which in tumblr numbers for the ship i was writing felt like a lot to 15 yr old me#overall enjoyed it but *man*. it did get rough trying to game the system#bc generally even now when i'm writing a fic i *know* how it's going to preform#i've been surprised a couple times but typically#the combining factors of the ship's popularity and the concept's appeal to popular headcanon make it easy for me to parse out#and tbh it doesn't bother me anymore. like i know if i write say timcass or jeantim#it will not preform like jaytim will#and i'm okay with that#i write timcass bc *i* want to write timcass#so yk. i'm having fun#i just forget i can be more ālow effortā on the blog too#esp bc i gained followers far quicker than i expected#i've had this blog for barely two months and i almost have 200 followers#made me shooketh i tell you.#i expected this to be yelling into some kind of void.#i wanna do something to celebrate hitting 200 but i'm unsure what#maybe i'll save it for 250 idk#anywhore.#ty anon i'm going to staple this ask to my forehead <3
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#duskull#lest we forget that duskull only has one eye that just goes in the middle of their face and they move it around to get a view#so of course when ffp'd they're gonna look like a gyroid#gyroids scared me so much as a kid. not like the concept of them but remember in the original animal crossing when you didn't save#and resetti came out to yell at you or whatever. he would turn you into a gyroid#yeah. THAT scared me to DEATH. the way that it looked. every time it happened. but i was always kinda likeā¦ okay. if you can note down the#fact that i did not save. then that means you knew i played the game. and you knew i did it without saving. so why. did you not just#autosave for me. obvi animal crossing has autosave now and it's nice but it kinda puts resetti out of a job. except for like. rescues i gues#wowā¦ resetti joined a rescue teamā¦ he's gonna save the worldā¦.#this is irrelevant. duskull! the guy who runs the bank in treasure town. trust *this* guy with your hard-earned money from that dungeon#in fairness to him he usually does take pretty good care of it. although him being an unevolved form of dusknoir made me not really trust#him very much when i first played pmdeos. aaaaanywaaaaayyy
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#just saw that tweet abt pink days on the set of the barbie movie & i think it made me realize why it - the marketing etc - annoys me so#'margot robbie went around collecting fines and donated them to charity haha' okay. look.#that's just the perfect metaphor for how it worked for us - me - anyone who wants to align themselves with me - when we were girls#isn't it#because you grow up and you desperately want to fit in with the other girls but you don't & you don't know why#but you're surrounded by things and people telling you what a normal girl is like & little-to-none of it is things you find appealing or#interesting. makeup and fashion and skin care. gymnastics and romance. you're told that you are obligated to be pretty#but prettiness has never been part of your perception of yourself. femininity is an arcane concept#an exclusive club that will never grant you entrance#& the only comfort you can give yourself is deciding that it's dumb anyway. shallow. vain. who cares about looks and boys and all of that#idiots that's who#but this is Doing It Wrong too isn't it? because now everyone who has taught you that you will forever fail at femininity turns around#& tells you that's patriarchal oppression and YOU'RE the bad one by distancing yourself from something that always made you feel defective#'YOU may have never lived up to this impossible standard of perfection but some ppl do and actually it's fine to be like that!#hyperfeminine traditionally beautiful women are the most oppressed group of all & finally we will stand up for our rights!'#'girls can be pretty AND conpetent' but that's not what they're actually saying. isn't it.#because performing femininity correctly is the prerequisite. a threshold you can never cross and you know that. & that's fine#but somehow that's wrong too because you're not supposed to make peace w that are you. you're SUPPOSED to want to do it right#even if you don't and never have and never will#and once again everyone is yelling at you that this club isn't meant for you. if you criticize the barbie movie you're antifeminist#if you refuse to wear pink I'll make you pay a fine#hashtag girlpower#(well im not a girl. not a guy either. and not a secret third thing. just bad at femininity.#bad at being a person. and y'all don't need to tell me you don't want me in your club#I've always known that. i just wish you'd stop expecting me to beg for entrance.)
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no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online š every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.
i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.
[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!
also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]
#goddd my family finds it sooooooo funny that i can't do basic tasks! it's soooo funny that i can't even think of a horror movie to watch#on halloween bc i genuinely can't remember a single one right now. it's soooo funny that i can't take cardboard boxes or#old furniture out of my room without help bc i've physically and mentally and emotionally burnt out for Months.#and me not being able to move shit out after two (2) days makes me a hoarder somehow. and ofc hoarding is a moral failing#and my mom has to give me a stern talking-to about hoarding things... that were. again. in my room for 2 days....#[tbc it isnt a moral failing no matter the reason. life is hard and things happen and it can be hard to get rid of things for Reasons.]#nevermind them making constant snide remarks about me using ugly 'mismatched' desk / storage furniture. bc it was free / cheap? no income??#AND!!!!! i have a couple of new diagnoses. which doesn't change much day to day but it does make my family making fun of me#even more dumbfounding. like. this explains a lot of really scary unexplained symptoms that constantly leave me#housebound for weeks but uhhh haha hehe hoho??? so silly so funny that i'm barely conscious for multiple weeks???#and you can see that i'm getting worse but that makes it funnier??? hmm!!!#also nevermind that i've told them the exact reason why i've been like this (read: them) but that ALSO makes it funnier somehow.#but i also can't say shit bc they're doing something ~nice~ for me (out of convenience + after almost a decade of 'don't get comfortable'#and 'don't decorate this room bc it isn't yours' and 'you need to be ready to move out by x date'#only for the date to arrive and them to pull the 'i never said that. and if i did say it i didn't mean it like that.#and if i did mean it like that i don't anymore.' card. + any big renovations are things they wanted anyway. hmmmm!!#and how i have to do all of the phys labor alone bc if i ask for help i get made fun of!!! and yelled at that i'm doing things Wrong#(hint: i'm following instructions to the letter but. my family knows better than those silly things!! ^^ ))#jfc i sure did rant. uh. yeah. things. are really weird and uncomfy and i feel thankful that i finally can have my own things on display#outside of closets and bins again after a decade?? but i'm also waiting for the other shoe to drop / them to tell me i owe them in#some way??? bc that's how it works. 'i'm doing a nice thing you didn't even ask me for so now you have to do whatever i tell you to.'#meanwhile i can't even maladaptive daydream my way through it bc my brain is soup right now. can't remember basic things abt#my interests bc i've been on negative battery / spoons for a couple of months straight and it's only getting worse.#OKAY TLDR i'm not in a state to do anything until everything irl gets settled. and i'm trying So Hard to get it all over with but there's#only so much i can do in a day before i completely shut down. i didn't even get into the insurance stuff i've been fighting too ughhhh.#so if i show up on here in short spurts -- hi! bye! hi!! i wuv and care u!!! hope youre well mwah mwah!!!!!!! i'll post what i can and then#disappear when i need to recharge. it is what it is. i need to try to sleep now... uh if this post disappears when i wake up.... yeah......#š [ my posts. ]#š [ my thoughts. ]#vent -
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im gonna need teachers to stop yelling at us. if you have something to say, say it calmly or dont say it at all
#like the quiz had been over for merely a minute so we still have the stress of that and now we also have you yelling at us for the most#stupid things. like yea okay students should know how to upload the files and where they saved them#you yelling wont change that though so please just fuck off#also she was like 'dont put colors on your excel i can tell where everything is' but like dude 1. the file you had uploaded as an example#had colors and 2. im not doing it for you im doing it because an excel sheet with 5 different things and no colors is unreadable to me.#so just shut up#jo says stuff#university update
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