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bf-rally · 6 months ago
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okay so im back in navbar hell (when i thought i escaped...!!!) but ive managed to get this set up today :D
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moonstruckme · 1 year ago
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hey :)) first off, i love the hozier caption in your bio. second, I’ve been reading so many of your fics recently and i think you’re sooo talented! i wanna be like you when I grow up (im 20 almost 21 lol)
anyways, I’ve never really requested anything but i wanna give it a try. I was wondering if you could do a poly!marauders x reader fic or a just remus x reader fic where’s she’s driving and accidentally hits an animal and is really upset about it but they’re there to help to her move it and comfort her.
i just hit a cat and im not taking it well. we think it was just a stray cause I left my number with it in case but no one has called. my family kinda, but not really, made fun of me for being so sad about it and i kinda just need something with the guys being so affectionate and loving with her after everything.
it’s totally okay if youre not up to it! I understand that it’s such a hard topic so I won’t be offended if you don’t feel comfortable writing in this.
thank you again and im sooo looking forward to youre future work!! you’re talented, brilliant, incredible, amazing, show stopping, spectacular, never the same, totally unique, completely not ever been done before (lady gaga)
Mwah mwah mwah <3<3
-aves
(sorry this is so long)
Hi sweetheart, thank you so much! (Is your username a Lizzy McAlpine reference? I love that) I'm really sorry you went through this, I've been fortunate enough to have never hit an animal but I've seen it happen and it's so horrible, I'm really sorry you've been dealing with this :(( I think you did the right thing by leaving your number with it, and I hope the weight of that trauma and grief is starting to lift off you my love. Thank you for requesting <3
cw: mention of killing an animal, reader feeling guilty
poly!marauders x fem!reader ♡ 1.8k words
James hears the door and is up instantly, bounding down the hall to greet you and Sirius. 
“Hello!” he calls ahead, eager for company after being left alone in your flat for over a half hour. “You guys took your time today, I thought even Remus might beat you home. Was traffic a riot, or
”
Sirius is looking at him with panic in his blue-gray eyes, clearly trying to convey one of those telepathic messages James has never been great at interpreting, and you
you’re looking at nothing. Your gaze is distant as you work off your shoe, the area around your eyes puffy and gray with smudged mascara. 
“Hey,” James breathes, then feels stupid. It sounds like he’s accusing you of something. He tries again. “Is everything okay?” 
Sirius gives him a look that says What do you think? and crouches beside you to help with a stubborn knot in your shoelace. Your hands are trembling, James notices. Dread settles like a stone in his stomach.
“I’ve got it,” Sirius murmurs to you, fingers gentle as they intercept your own, but the alarm doesn’t leave his expression as he watches your face. Ah. As much as it kills James to see you upset, Sirius will have no idea what to do with you in this state. Tears have always set him on edge. 
James squats, joining the two of you on the floor. “Hi, sweetheart.” He does his best to keep his own anxiety out of his voice as his hand finds your ankle, fingers wrapping around the bit of skin between the hem of your jeans and your socks. “Has something happened?” 
Your eyes meet his already full of tears, and James braces himself. Sirius does too, by the look of it, his shoulders tensing as he watches your face like youïżœïżœïżœre about to crumble away to nothing right here on their doormat. 
“I—” That’s all you get out before you have to bite down on your lip to keep from crying. A tiny whimper escapes, and spider web cracks spread across James’ heart. A sluggish tear leaks from your right eye. 
“It’s okay,” he swears, though he has no way of knowing it. You press the back of your hand to your mouth, trying to quell the sobs that shake your frame even with no air to feed them. “Oh, honey.” James leans forward, wrapping you in an awkward but very heartfelt hug, your knees between his chest and yours but your head crossing the distance to wet his shoulder with your tears. 
A sympathetic pressure builds in James’ sinuses, but he does his best to breathe through it. Stability tends to help you more than sympathy in these situations, and since Remus isn’t home yet, it’s left to James to be the reasonable one (Sirius would have all sorts of jokes to make about that, but he doesn’t seem to be feeling up to them either). 
He gives you a few moments of reprieve, a few passes of his palm up and down your spine, before trying again. “What’s going on?” he asks, gently as he can. “You guys are scaring me. Sirius?” 
Sirius’ brow pinches like he almost doesn’t want to say it either, and the anticipation in James’ chest heavies. “We were driving home,” he says slowly, keeping a wary eye on you lest he worsen your upset, “and a rabbit ran in front of the car.” 
Relief nearly chokes James at the same time as a sympathetic sorrow takes ahold of him. He pets the back of your head. You tremble with the force of your crying, leaning into his touch greedily. 
“She was driving?” he asks quietly, though he’s nearly sure. If your reaction isn’t enough to go off of, he already knows that you usually pick Sirius up from work and drive the both of you home. 
Sirius nods. 
“It doesn’t sound like there was anything you could do,” he murmurs to you, cupping the back of your neck to encourage you to look up at him. You do, sniffling as your lip quivers, and James uses his thumb to brush a wet streak of mascara from your blotchy cheek. 
“It must have been so scared.” Your voice breaks on the last word and James’ heart along with it, leaving a throbbing wound in the center of his chest. 
“I doubt it had time to be scared, honey,” he tries to reassure you, but his own voice is fraught. He looks to Sirius. “Did you
do you know if it
passed?” 
Sirius is half hiding behind his hair, a sure tell of his disquiet, and it brushes his shirt collar when he nods again. “We weren’t sure at first, so I got out to move it off the road. It was dead.” He winces at his wording, and you bite down on your lip harshly. His tone softens as he addresses you. “I really don’t think it felt any pain.”
You look nowhere near ready to believe him, and James is preparing to offer to make you a cup of tea and let you sort out your grief at your own pace when the front door opens again, stopping when it hits Sirius’ side. 
“Oh.” Remus pokes his head through. “Hello. Why are we all sitting on the floor?” 
Sirius scoots the rest of the way out of the door’s path before deciding to stand instead. He speaks to Remus in a low voice while James runs a hand up and down your side in an attempt to soothe you. He locks eyes with Remus over your shoulder, watching as the taller boy’s gaze takes on the weight of understanding. 
“Oh, I’m so sorry.” Remus wraps Sirius in a half-hug, kissing his surprised boyfriend on the temple before stooping beside you. “That must have been awful to have to see. Let’s get you up, yeah?” He wraps a spindly hand around your forearm, more encouragement than anything, and James grips your other hand as he stands to pull you up with him. 
Neither of them seem quite willing to break contact with you, walking you over to the couch like a newborn fawn despite your murmured I’m okay. Sirius follows close behind. The both of you look like you’re perching rather than sitting, unable to completely relax even now that you’re home. 
“It must have been quite a scare,” Remus sympathizes, sitting on the edge of his favored armchair. 
“A bit,” Sirius mutters, and your throat bobs. 
Remus cocks his head. “What’re you thinking, darling?” 
James almost wants to look away at the rawness in your expression as you raise your eyes to meet Remus’. “I just
I can’t believe I killed it. I’ve never” —your voice pitches, and you swallow again— “I’ve never killed anything before.”
 “It was an accident,” James tells you, beseeching. 
“You couldn’t have stopped,” Sirius says. His voice has an odd, desperate quality to it, and James sees Remus notice it at the same time as he does, both boys leaning forward to see Sirius better. For the first time, James notices—had he missed it before, or has it only just started?—that Sirius is trembling slightly too. James’ free hand twitches instinctively toward him, but his dark-haired boyfriend is only touchy when he’s in a good mood. He’s not keen on physical comfort; no matter how many years James has worked on him, Sirius has always preferred to keep his struggles internal. “Or avoided it,” he goes on. “It happened too fast.” 
Remus nods at you. “As awful as it is, these things happen sometimes. Hopefully,” he adds when another tear slips down your cheek, “never again to you, but selfish as it is, I’m glad you didn’t slam on the brakes or anything else that could have gotten you and Sirius hurt instead.” 
You glance at Sirius, and he gives you a weak smile, taking your hand and squeezing gently. 
“Nothing you could have done,” he whispers. 
Your lips tremble again. James watches as panic flashes in Sirius’ eyes, but he keeps it together. “I’m really sorry,” you tell him, voice wavering. “I shouldn’t have made you take care of the bunny by yourself.” 
James' chest aches as Sirius takes a steadying breath. “You were frazzled. Understandably upset,” he corrects himself, squeezing your hand again. This time you squeeze back. “It was a one-man job anyway.” 
You make a soft sound, leaning your head on his shoulder, and James has the sense something has settled a bit in each of you. He raises your joined hands to his lips, kissing the back of yours as Remus’ eyebrows furrow. 
“Have you had a chance to wash your hands, love?” he asks Sirius, who blinks.
“No. I forgot.” 
Despite the heavy atmosphere, James actually feels the beginnings of a smile tempting his lips as he watches Remus forcibly quell his horror. “Right, then. Why don’t we go do that in the kitchen now, and I’ll make us all some tea.” 
“Good idea,” James says heartily, swiping his thumb back and forth over his own kiss on your hand. “Hey, could we take out the good cookies as well?” 
Remus hums what James chooses to interpret as assent, shepherding Sirius into the kitchen. 
“I’m sorry,” you say to James once the other two are out of hearing. 
He looks down at you. “What for, sweetheart?” 
You shrug, your shoulders remaining just a tad too high after the motion. You’ve stopped crying, and James is grateful, but he doesn’t think this shameful look is a vast improvement. “I feel like I’m being dramatic. And Sirius is the one who had to see it. He had to drive home too, I was too upset.” 
James’ battered, broken heart wells for the both of you. He forgoes his attentions to your hand, wrapping his arm around your shoulders instead to tuck you against his side. “You’re not being dramatic,” he promises, “okay? You and Sirius were in the wrong place at the wrong time, and you both had to witness something awful.” Your head sinks onto his shoulder, and he rubs your upper arm. “I think it’s alright to be sad for a while. For yourselves, and for the bunny. Just, don’t torment yourself, alright?” He withdraws enough to see your face, and you tilt your gaze up to his. “Please. You don’t deserve the guilt.” 
Your eyes cast down, contemplative and a bit shy, a moment before your head comes back to its spot on his shoulder. “Thanks,” you murmur. 
“No thanks necessary, babe. You can cry all night if you need to, I’ll be right here. Just do me a favor,” he lowers his voice, glancing toward the kitchen, “let me sit between you and Sirius if you do. Many more tears and I think he’ll have a heart attack.”
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cherryssodapop · 5 months ago
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Billy Hargrove astrology chart analysis
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Though I could be wrong about the time, the aspects are pretty much the closest I’m gonna get (Unless somehow Dacre or the Duffers have released the information of Billy’s birth time and I just don’t know. I punched in 'March 29, 1967 11:06 AM San Diego USA' my fellow astrology baddies do what you will with this information Either way the main planets SHOULD stay the same but his houses might be different BUT we’re proceeding with what we have!).
Now, mind you I haven't done this in a while, I'm SUPERRR outta practice so to my fellow astrology baddies if I miss anything I'm so sorry 😭.
Alr lets get into it, same as the readings I did for Dallas and Darry I'm gonna go by planet and house and basically explain what it all means.
Sun in Aries (in 10th house) - okay so this is so interesting because even prior to me calculating his chart, I always knew Billy was some sort of fire sign, I mean, LOOK AT HIM??? Like HE'S a fiery little cracker (hahaha cracker... I'm sorry im jk I love u B).
But anyways the sun in 10th house is really interesting, I found a post on here that really explained in depth that aspect and how it affects the natal person (Post here) Basically, people with this placement crave recognition, they stand out with confidence and charisma that often draws attention towards them without fail (we see this the second he arrives at Hawkins, he draws attention towards himself immediately). They naturally gravitate toward leadership roles, even if they didn't ask for it (everyone gravitated towards him and put him on the pedestal of being the "King" and dethroning Steve from the social hierarchy). Their drive for validation stems from fragile self-esteem, leading to feelings of underappreciation despite their efforts. Failures can be deeply personal, like they take failure personally and it affects them greatly, but their ambition and resilience pushes them to rise again, embracing challenges as part of the path to success (started working full time the second he graduated so he could work towards leaving his abusive father).
But back to his sun though, Aries is so interesting because that's so accurate???? Like he's intense, he's passionate. He's very straight forward and will say what he has to say with his chest. People tend to follow him around where he goes, Aries are leaders. They can be spontaneous and impulsive. Stubborn but also a bit reckless. These people are your typical "act before think" people, but like who doesn't love a little chaos đŸ€Ș. They're ruled under Mars so this sign is all about action and getting shit done. They'll talk their shit and rock your shit, so messing with them isn't really a good idea. But if an Aries likes you they can be a lot of fun. They're very energetic and active people. You'll be anything but bored with them.
now onto his cutesy little moon
scorpio moons are have my heart because they're so sensitive and emotional, that often it's overwhelming even for them let alone an outside person.
People with Scorpio moons often have traumatic childhoods especially his being in 5th house, so probably exposed to big dramatic fights, or the conflict or circumstances were very grand and outrageous (bro kinda witnessed his mom get beaten by Neil and in turn gets beat himself now that he's older). At the same time these are very strong and enduring individuals. Because they tend to always think about the worst possible scenario, have a very cynical and distrusting view on the world. But at the same time, let's not forget, they are water signs, so that sensitivity will always be there, deep down this sign is scared of being alone. There will always be a part of them that will crave intimacy, like true, deep, raw (lol) intimacy. However because of this deep desire, these people can also often be a little.... delulu per say. Like obviously once you've lost a scorpio moons respect they will immediately cut you out like literally, they will treat you like your dead. But Scorpio being the sister sign of Taurus and being a fixed sign, it would take a lot for a scorpio moon to leave like they will put up with A LOT, which is why they often can get taken advantage of in relationships (:/// ). So yea scorpio moons need to be protected and wrapped up in a blanket with some hot coco and be kissed on the forehead.
Moving onto his Mercury (smiles in mercurian dominant myself)
I find this so interesting because on one hand pisces mercurials can be really wise and intelligent (being the last and oldest of the zodiac), these people can have an "old soul" type of mentality so I can totally see them being into topics like philosophy, spirituality, creative arts, anything to really boost their imagination. his 9th house boosts this even more since 9th falls under sagittarius which is all about philosophy and teaching. Because of this, often people with this placement are really good writers. (so I totally agree with the head cannon of Billy secretly writing poetry, and being good at playing games like dnd).
This placement often gets mislabeled as "dumb" or "ditsy" but they're not stupid they just process information slower than most people.
These people are also really good liars. Like they're some manipulative lil bitches (we saw how he lied to mrs. wheeler that he was worried about Max when he was actually raging mad.) They'll lie about almost anything. Sometimes they do it to keep peace around people and avoid conflict and to get people to leave them alone. But yea this placement certainly has a silver tongue innit, helps them get away with stuff but it also means they're really good at rizzing people with their words; speaking of...
our boy over here has a Taurus Venus. like first of all, this comes with so many pluses because Venus is right where it belongs. Taurus is ruled by Venus so this planet is right in its home sign. So my boy is a romantic lil bachelor 😜. Now his mars kind of makes him a fuckboy (most scorpio and sagittarius mars' are but the difference is is that sags often can't tell the difference between love and lust so they just pursue the person anyway whereas scorpio mars' are just horny fucks with strong game) BUT once he finds someone he wants to be in a relationship with, ouuuu girl he's such a gem.
Taurus Venus's value things like stability, security and comfort. He will very much pamper you. He'd give you the best he humanly possibly could. Taurus's are all about luxury and savouring the physical pleasures of life. He WILL be super affectionate, gifting you things, always touching you right, buying you or cooking you your favourite foods. Taurus's like routine so he will memorize your schedules and routines, coffee orders and all those small things. Although Billy would typically be impatient, he'd take his time pursuing you. Especially with his Scorpio Mars, he'd come in strong and steady .I don't wanna say like a predator stalking his prey cause that's more Scorpio Venus but bro definitely wouldn't back down easy. He won't mind playing the long game if he thinks you're worth it. The main thing here with this placement is their ACTIONS say a lot about their feelings towards their s/o. His Pisces Mercury will soothe you with sweet words, but his Taurus Venus will show you with his generosity and sensualness. He definitely knows how to make his girl happy and will stay loyal for a long time if he's certain about her.
Billy has so many aspects that indicate strong sex appeal and attractiveness, like it's written all over his chart lmfaoo his Venus trines his Pluto, His Venus also sextiles his ascendant.
His eros also trines his mars so he has a very passionate and intense drive, especially in the bedroom. No matter what you are to him, sex with him will always be intense. There's nothing soft about the way he engages in intimacy.
Billy has a cancer rising, for those of you that don't know your rising is in charge of your looks and people's first impressions of you. So cancer risings often have rounder faces, softer features and big eyes (I mean look at him bro, he's so baby girl). They also have curvier bodies (have you seen this man's thighs) shorter limbs too. Cancer rules over the chest so cancer risings can have large chests or big boobs ( he certainly has boobs). Also cancer risings are very pursued after, almost as much as scorpio risings but the difference is that Scorpios are very intimidating so often people don't wanna get past the sexualness of it. But with cancers, people simp over them emotionally too because cancer is considered as the "divine feminine" or "mother" in astrology, so basically people wanna wife them up as well as fuck them (literally his entire fandom). But yeah, anyway, Billy is a pretty boy we all know this, even his chart does 😭.
Alright now more about his mars-
Its in the 4th house, which is also another indication of his abusive childhood :/
His is in Scorpio and yes he's a kinky little shit and a great lover in the bedroom, however that's not all that Mars represents in a natal chart. It also represents how a person takes action to something. How they pursue and how they behave and manage their more aggressive and angry side. On one hand, Billy has the potential to be very good at achieving what he wants in life. He's capable of having a really strong mental fortress as scorpio is a very driven and determined sign. Tactical and calculated but also very loyal people. However at the same time, it makes them lowkey control freaks. They're the type of people to always want the last word in an argument and to have control over everything and everyone in almost every situation (though it does make them strategic leaders at the same time, it's kind of annoying). But yeah these people stand on business they will fuck your shit up if necessary because this planet is also in it's home sign, but Scorpio is also ruled by Pluto so it's the darker one of the mars ruled signs. So their anger can be very explosive and dangerous (we saw how he beat Steve to a bloody pulp), so don't piss them off, it takes a lot for them to loose their cool but once they've lost it, it's gone and not coming back.
Last thing I'll talk about is potential career placements he has because we never got to see him thrive and flourish in life because the duffers hate to give us nice things so I'll just tell you what it could've been with his chart
10 house/ MC in Pisces
So this is so cute because this means that he could actually be successful with a writing career, as this placement flourishes in creative careers. So these people are often musicians, actors, writers. They can also be philosophers, and teachers/mentors of some kind (he taught the kids at the Hawkins community pool how to swim). He'd be such an influencer 😝 I can totally see him being a model for Calvin Klein because he's literally built like a model (this is so possible with his 11th house in Taurus) As well as Leo in his second house, he'd live a very lavish lifestyle if financially stable and would really thrive in a position where he shines in his own spotlight.
Anywayssss that's everything for now, if there's anything else in his chart you guys want me to talk about don't be afraid to inbox me.
I hope you guys enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing this <3
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midnightsnyx · 2 years ago
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girl at home | mat barzal | part 2
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pairing: mat barzal x fem!reader summary: you’re eighteen when you find yourself pregnant after Mat leaves for hockey. nearly eight years later, Mat finds out about your daughter and you have to deal with the consequences of not telling him about her.
warnings: mentions of pregnancy, lil bit of angst with a sprinkle of fluff and not edited im sorry lol word count: 2.1k authors note: *screams internally* thank you guys so much for the love on this story so far. I was super hesitant to post it at first but I am glad you guys like it! I'm posting this a little early but updates will be every sunday from now on. This chapter is kinda sad but happy times are on the way <3 thanks for the feedback, and if you like part 2, let me know!
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Sitting across from Mat for the first time in almost eight years, doesn’t go exactly as planned. He’s waiting for you even though you arrive fifteen minutes before the agreed time, hoping to rid yourself of the anxiety you are feeling which means he’s been here even longer. So you wipe your sweaty palms on your jeans and stride over to where he’s waiting and sit on the chair across from him. He’s staring at his phone so his head jerks up when he hears you.
The first words that come out of his mouth are: “are you sure she’s mine?”
Which, okay, that’s a fair question because you did tell everybody and their grandmother who asked that Mat was not the one who knocked you up. Of course, nobody actually believed you but there were a few people from your high school that believed it. Most girls who had always had a crush on Mat, would say that you cheated on him and obviously Nora couldn’t be his child because for some reason, they never actually accepted that you and Mat were a couple. 
So yeah, his question is fair and you did know he would ask. 
“Yeah, we can do a paternity test if you don’t believe me,” you say quietly. It’s not something you necessarily want to do, because then you’d have to come up with some reason to tell Nora why she needs to go get her cheek swabbed or blood tested. She’s as stubborn as Mat, and you would probably have to hold her down to get whatever the doctors needed unless she agreed. 
“No, I believe you.” 
His words take a huge weight off your shoulders but also replace it with a new one. You know Mat, he’s the kindest soul and has the biggest heart and he’s going to want to at least properly meet Nora and might ask to be in her life. In the first few years of her life, there wouldn’t have been anything you wanted more in the world. However, you’ve grown now and so has she. Your number one priority has to be what is best for Nora, and turning her life upside by introducing her to Mat is scary. For both you and her. 
And Mat? Despite what he might think, he’s nowhere near prepared to jump into being her dad.
“Can I ask you something?” he says, pulling you from your spiraling thoughts. 
“Sure,” you say even though you know what he’s going to ask. It’s a question you’re nowhere near ready to answer but you have no choice now.
“Why? Why didn’t you tell me about her?”
He doesn’t sound as angry as you were expecting, maybe thanks to his dad talking to him but there’s underlying hurt. You try to put yourself in his shoes, trying to think if there was anything in the world that would have stopped you from wanting Nora. You know for a fact that if Mat knew, he would have been in her life somehow but you’re not sure if he would have given up the NHL to do it, and that’s exactly why you didn’t tell him.
“I didn’t want to hold you back,” you say softly, watching his facial expression change. He just looked confused before but now he looks sad almost. His eyes close for a moment and when he opens them, you feel like you’ve been punched in the stomach. 
“I thought you knew me better than that.”
“I did! I do,” you argue. “If you knew about her, it would have kept you away from everything you worked hard for. Your dream was the NHL, Mat. If I told you about her, it would’ve crushed that dream. We didn’t want to hold you back.”
“Yeah,” he scoffs. “Who’s we? You and my parents? You shouldn’t have made that choice for me, it wasn’t right.”
“This is a child we’re talking about Mat. Were you really ready at eighteen to drop everything and raise one?” 
“Were you?”
“No,” you say truthfully. “But I didn’t have a jersey with my name on the back waiting for me.”
He doesn’t say anything and for a moment, it’s silent between the two of you with background chatter from the cafe. You’re sure that he’s just going to get up and storm out but he takes a deep breath and slowly exhales, knotting his fingers together.
“I wish you’d told me,” he mumbles before looking up at you. “I would’ve stayed.”
“I know,” you whisper but you can’t meet his gaze.
. . .
You’re picking Nora up from her day camp a couple of days later when you get a message from Mat asking if he can meet up with you. There’s been no contact since the two of you last met, having left with a short goodbye to pick up Nora. He hadn’t asked to see her and you hadn’t offered so you thought maybe he would leave it but you should’ve known better.
You fire off a sure, see you in twenty, and debate on whether to bring Nora with you or drop her off with your mom. Mat might not even want to see her, but if he’s reaching out to you again it’s probably about her. 
“Wanna go meet my friend?” you ask, looking back at her to gauge her reaction. She might just want to go home after all day at camp, but she perks up immediately when you ask.
“The one from the grocery store?” she squeals but narrows her eyes and gives you a suspicious look. “Hey, I thought you said he was a stranger.”
Shoot.
“Well, he was to you,” you try to explain. “I knew him when I was younger.”
“As young as me?”
“As young as you,” you tell her and she grins, nodding her head and shouting an excited yes, so you pull out of the parking-lot and start towards Mat’s parents house. You’re a little nervous to be around his family after dancing around them for so long after Nora was born. Meeting up with Liana wasn’t as hard as you were expecting, but you’re not so sure about his parents. Aside from the occasional awkward greeting, you haven’t properly spoken to them since before Nora and you’re starting to think maybe bringing her will just make things worse but before you can change your mind, you’re parking your car in the driveway. 
He’s sitting outside on the porch swing when you step out, and his eyes widen in surprise when Nora climbs out of the car. He definitely wasn’t expecting you to bring her but this could be a good test. If he decides he wants to be part of her life, having all their interactions scheduled wouldn’t be a good start so you decide to just jump in the deep end.
“Hey,” you call out before grabbing Nora’s hand and making your way towards him. He’s already making his way down the pathway and meets you about half way, pulling you into a surprising hug before crouching down to Nora’s level.
“Hey Nora,” he says, smiling gently and offering her his hand to shake just like last time. “Do you remember me?”
She bobs her head once, accepting his hand but tries to hide her face in your leg. Of course now, she’s practicing Stranger Danger, instead of blurting out her full name. 
“Mom made dinner, if you guys are hungry?” 
Family dinner is just about the last thing you want to do but Nora perks up at the idea of food so you agree, following Mat into the all too familiar home you spent so much time in as a kid. Not much has changed, you realize as you look around the foyer. It feels a bit like coming home but you’re not sure if you were missed. 
“Smells good,” you say, trying to make conversation and Mat smiles awkwardly. 
“Yeah, mom is making your favorite.” 
How she can remember your favorite meal is beyond you, but you’re not about to miss a peace offering and this is certainly one.
“My favorite food is spaghetti,” Nora informs him and you watch Mat nod seriously, taking in anything she says. You try not to look too deep into it because even though he knows she’s biologically his, Nora is still just a cute kid talking a mile a minute about anything and Mat has probably been trained on how to handle excited children. 
When the three of you make your way to the living room, with Nora still chatting excitedly, you stop short when you see a picture frame on the wall. 
It’s you. Well, it’s you and Mat at graduation. Arms wrapped around each other and Mat kissing your forehead. If you look close enough, you can see past your smile and see the sadness in your eyes. This was before you were pregnant but you were already grieving the loss of Mat. He left for hockey shortly after and your only reminder was the brown haired little girl still talking to Mat. 
“Is that you, mama?” Nora asks suddenly, standing on the tips of her toes so she can get a better view. Her nose scrunches up and she looks at the photo, then Mat, and then the photo again.
“Oh,” she says and you sigh. 
“Let’s go see Mat’s parents.”
Nadia and Mike are waiting in the kitchen, trying to make it seem like they weren’t listening in on the conversation. Liana is sitting at the table, reading a book casually but you know she was probably listening too.
“This is Mike, Nadia, and Liana,” you tell Nora who lights up at Nadia’s name.
“My middle name is Nadia!” She squeals and you stare at the floor, not wanting to meet any of their eyes. Someone - probably Nadia - inhales sharply and then lets out what sounds like a sob. 
“That’s a beautiful name,” Liana says and you look up to see her looking at Nora with a soft smile on her face. Mike has an arm wrapped around Nadia who’s trying, and failing, to hide tears. You’re glad Liana is trying to distract Nora because you’re about two seconds away from crying and Mat must be able to tell because you feel his hand lightly touch your back. His hand lingers for a moment until you take a deep breath and blow it out steadily. 
Then his hand is gone and you feel the loss right away.
“Hey, we have a swing outside in the backyard,” Mat tells Nora. “Wanna go check it out while dinner finishes cooking?” 
He looks at you for permission so you nod, smiling at Nora when he takes her hand and leads her outside. Liana follows shortly after and then it’s just you, Nadia and Mike. Both their eyes are red rimmed and Nadia only hesitates for a moment before striding over and pulling you into a tight hug. 
“Thank you, my girl,” she whispers and all you can manage is a nod because you’ll probably cry now if you try to talk. The two of you just stand there for a couple minutes until Mike chuckles. You pull away, wiping your eyes to see him standing in front of the patio door so you make your way over to see what he’s looking at and almost start crying again. 
Mat and Nora are playing what looks like a game of tag, Liana laughing at them while trying to film. It’s exactly the kind of thing you had sometimes allowed yourself to imagine.
“Would you look at that,” Mike says softly. 
“He’s a natural,” Nadia agrees. “Always was.”
Then she turns to you with a small smile on her face. “I know the struggles of being a mom. You have to do what’s best for your kids
” she hesitates, gazing outside before looking back at you. “He wants to try, if you’ll give him the chance. We’d all love to get to know Nora.”
You would love nothing more than to have Mat’s family in Nora’s life. For her to get to know her other grandparents but you can’t help but be scared of what could happen if you let Mat into her life. She could get attached only to have him ripped away when he has to go back to New York but you can’t have Nora in Nadia, Mike, and Liana’s life and not Mat’s. 
But maybe you owe it to Mat, to give him a chance at having a place in her life after not telling him about her all this time. You were doing what you thought was right - what was right - but if Mat really wants to be part of her life, maybe it’s time. 
You look outside and see Nora on Mat’s shoulders with Liana chasing them, before looking back at the woman in front of you and smiling softly.
“I think Nora would love that.”
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whatwooshkai · 2 months ago
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hiiii! I saw that previous anon post about the rescue bot's battle struggles and was inspired to try and shoot my shot (if i'm coming off as too "intense" then feel free to ignore this im just a little crazy rn) but I'm also currently writing a fic as well which is kinda like my take on an sg universe but with so much sappy redemption because I like that stuff and I wanted to get your opinion/headcanon on this topic because I really like your writing style and lore dumps and takes on the rescue bots characterization. What do you think their obsession/desire would be? Like you said in your previous post of Boulder being a pacifist, I have him down as someone who wants peace and safety for others but in a more twisted way of being overprotective and punishing towards people who are mean or violent and for Heatwave I have him as someone who obsesses over strength and bravery, the display of and actions depicting heroism and the likes. My current issue is that I can't think of anything for Blades and I know in the show he's very skittery and frantic, kinda worrisome and perpetually anxious, so I'm translating that as a sort of savior complex style "the only thing to fear is fear itself", where he's very protective even more so than Boulder but in like a fanatic manner.
OKAY IM SO EXCITED YOU ASKED THIS!!!!
okay so me and @fishleeks discussed something like this at length a couple months ago so I'm using our notes for an au I was planning on introducing but never got around to lol. maybe I'll play with it some more after this
my original idea was just a personality swap from like a doc greene machine but a shattered glass type situation works just fine, I don't have any notes for the burns (I found the situations funnier if just the bots were affected) but okay here we go:
The rescue bots are clearly a little family of some sort, or at least obviously a bunch of guys that live together. The biggest thing that draws them together is their loyalty- these guys are devoted to each other and Griffin Rock and the Burns. If we do a straight opposite day dynamic it basically turns them all into backstabbers who don't give a shit and honestly I find that boring! The loyalty aspect is especially interesting when it's a band of assholes who by all accounts should hate each other but work together well and care in a weird twisted fucked up toxic way, now that is INTERESTING!!! Love me some toxic dynamics... just a bunch of guys who are better inflicted on each other than anyone else, I guess!
Now I'll do one at a time with my interpretation:
BOULDER:
Before: very sweet, mild mannered, pacifistic, curious and mellow.
After: neurotic freak who is disgusted by everything that touches them and very loud about it. Has screamed "I HATE THIS PLANET!!!" sixteen times in the last hour.
Why?: I just want to say I'm obsessed with your idea of twisting Boulder's pacifism into an obsession with strength. I would say it fully depends on the way you're doing the swap: because if you're doing a straight swap, Boulder's pacifism and wanting to keep everyone safe turns into a disdain for mechs and people alike (especially people... nasty organics, lol) and not caring who gets hurt- they would turn extremely selfish. However, if we are going with the equally interesting good traits gone bad, I imagine Boulder's going to turn into something that resembles Shockwave a little. Curiosity and pacifism turns into "I have to know, I have to protect, no matter the cost." And of course... hurts everyone in the process. Becoming the very thing you swore to destroy... hurting the very ones you swore to protect... delicious I love it. But also, if you do a mix of both, Boulder is disgusted by the planet and feels the need to protect the Rescue Bots from it and single-handedly becomes the greatest threat to Earth's environment immediately.
HEATWAVE:
Before: Hot-headed, stubborn, fiercely fights for what he believes in and to protect the ones he cares about.
After: Meek doesn't even begin to cover it. If he speaks you can barely hear what he's saying, usually on the edge of tears, folds like a lawn chair under the slightest amount of pressure. Usually hiding behind Chase or Blades, usually Chase (as he isn't as mean- but the bar is in Hell.)
Why?: Okay so addressing your point about Heatwave obsessing over strength and bravery again I think that falls more into good traits gone bad than a shattered glass type swap. Not a bad thing of course- Heatwave is my favorite so I like to humble him (sorry!) but taking his bravado and flipping it inside out leaves him an anxious and insecure mess (he and Blades are such interesting opposites of each other that when swapped they almost turn into the bastardized versions of each other... I'll go over it again in Blades' section but it is an interesting little thing we noticed and I love them). But yes, I think his obsession with needing to protect as well as the image he holds as the strong leader of the team can quickly get out of control, as he could easily turn controlling and possessive. Any word against him could be reason for violence (we all know he's got that impressive temper) and while he's convincing himself he's "protecting" his team he's really their biggest threat. Awful I love it
BLADES:
Before: Sassy, but extremely anxious, likes to have fun and share that with people.
After: Angry all the goddamn time- far too angry to be tactful or clever with his insults. Usually screaming at everyone to shut the fuck up and has zero impulse control
Why?: Yeah so Blades basically turns into the nightmare version of Heatwave. This is not really important but I love thinking about the ways he and Heatwave interact- usually it's Blades stepping behind Heatwave while Heatwave defends him, but in the bizzarro dynamic it's more like Blades begrudgingly letting Heatwave cling to him while at the same time screaming at him and attempting to goad him into a fight (you just know he loves causing problems). Okay but onto the actual analysis! In a good traits gone bad scenario, I think Blades' obsession would be with self protection and staying safe. I think his anxiety and insecurities and penchant for letting someone else start a fight spirals out of control into complete selfishness where he starts avoiding fights and conflict all together, and then mechs, and then you never even see the guy. Most likely, he's going to stop talking- can't avoid conflict if you don't do anything to start it. I imagine he's just going to recess until he's practically a shell of a mech, too terrified to do anything that could get him in trouble that he ends up doing literally nothing but standing there motionless looking at the ground. Or, in the worst possible mixture of the two, Blades is a raging asshole who is too scared to fight so he forces everyone else to do everything for him.
CHASE:
Before: Polite, very conscious of the law, respectful but never hesitates to stand up for what he believes is right.
After: Compulsive liar and kleptomaniac. Is always sporting an insincere grin that's lowkey really creepy and absolutely loves to scheme (he and Blades set mean pranks).
Why?: Okay so we were thinking a bizzarro Chase would have an even deeper understanding of the law, just so he's way better at exploiting loopholes and breaking it. But a good traits gone bad Chase I think would go in a similar way as Heatwave, desperate for control. But it's also established that Chase desperately needs to be useful and his worst nightmare is having nothing to do. In tandem with a Heatwave that prevents him from doing anything, I imagine Chase starts causing problems on purpose just to do something. 100% he starts lashing out- and as for his obsession/desperation, make that need to be useful and dial it up to 1000%. He's doing everything. He's solving problems before they start and actively causing new ones. Oh Blades Boulder complained about your video games being loud so I took the liberty of disposing of them. But in the wrong receptacle so I have an excuse to completely remake the recycling plant as more efficient. Stop crying it's not that deep.
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Okay probably way more than you asked for and I did my best to answer your question but everything very quickly got out of hand lol. I love these idiots so goddamn much
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indigos-stardust · 8 months ago
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Violet, Blue, And Bruised All Over: Long Talks part 2
Part 1/ Part 2/ Part 3/ Part 4/ Part 5/ Part 6/ Part 6 2/3
Sorry for the hiatus lol, Vio and greens Convo is next part, should be fun, Comments and reblogs appreciated!! I wanna hear y'all's thoughts!
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"Green was right about those too being similar. But it wasn't just cuz they were so stubborn. More like they were both weirdos that had a vendetta against sleep. Seriously, would it kill Blue to sleep in for five more minutes..."
Blue unlocks the gate to the training yards, practically yanking the key out before he shoved his way into the door. Yep, there it was. Blue, folks. Mr. King of Emotional Repression. Red couldn't help but roll his eyes. Sure, he was kinda bullying Blue right now, but it was only in his head! And it wasn't his fault Blue dragged him out here before the Hylias light could even grace the sky.
Blue just kept moving like some stocky stiff machine, aggressively setting up the training dummies. Oh no- That layout and choice of training dummies and lack of shields meant he wanted to be competitive. Usually Green was there to rise to the challenge in those "everyone's the enemy and lets see who'll score more points because I actually feel angry at the world but I don't know how to talk about it cuz I'm Blue!" duel things. But today, it was only Red. Hell no.
Ok, all he had to do with turn up the charm! Just cuz there wasn't any sun didn't mean he couldn't shine bright enough to make up for it! Probably.
Red's plan was to softly put his hand on Blue's shoulder, start with that emotional support you know, but then Blue immediately stiffening and clenched his entire body so hard before he'd even grazed his fingers against him. Oh this was bad.
"Hey Blue?"
Blue grip on the wooden training swords was so tight his knuckles were white. If he breaks another one he'll get splinters again.
Time to turn up the charm, "Blue? Hey! Why are you being a grumpy silly head??"
He tried to really bring some light soft teasing into it, with wide open eyes and a non judgemental silence aaaannnnd-
Blue turned around with the most pathetic look he'd ever seen Blue wear in his entire life! Or well, since they became four people anyways- Is that what I look li- NO PAY ATTENTION TO BLUE.
He looks like a toddler trying desperately to NOT bawl his eyes out! Face all scrunched up, eyes unsure, and a wobbling uncertainty. He was obviously trying to look mad, but the way his furrowed brows and eye kept twitching it was clear he couldn't hold on to Red's all consuming gentleness.
All at once Blue yelled an ugly curse and kicked into the weapons rack. Red had to flinch back to avoid the whiplash.
"UEGH! Don't you get it?! Of course IM NOT FREAKING OKAY?!!"
Hook, line, and sinker.
"WHY IS IT THAT WHENVER SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS ITS ALL MY FAULT?! OH ILL TELL YOU WHY, ITS CUZ IM THE BAD GUY RIGHT?! RIGHT?!!"
Oof, and there it is. Raw and true, and oh so Blue. Red had been tempted to zone out on Blue's rant's since they could get.. slightly lengthy, but he still needed to pay attention. Cuz buried under all those sharp cold layers was something very raw and in pain. Lashing out like a cornered animal. Oh Blue...
Blue kept stomping and huffing as he went on, hands clenching and grasping as thought he was trying to strangle an enemy that wasn't there. Stomping feet leaving little clouds of dust in his wake as he went back and forth.
"I'm NOT some kid!"
" HE'S THE ONE WHO-"
"I didn't even DO ANYTHING?!"
"I trIeD to DEAL with the NERD but NoOOOOo I'm THE BAD GUY-"
"Teaching him a lesson and THEN GREEN-"
One after one, a dam broken, the hot waters gushing out with a force so great it'd overwhelm and push away anyone who tried to stop it. But Red didn't try to stop it. He let it pass around him as he observed. He was ok, and Blue would be ok too.
He loved Blue.
"And- AND- He- I JUST- AUGH!"
Suddenly, Blue stops in his tracks. Flustered, red and sweating, feet together like some shy and embarrassed kid. He's got a grip on his own arm, shoulders hunched, like he's trying to keep himself together. A look of frightened shock overcomes him, as though he's only just now realized where he is.
Red just keeps sitting on the bench though, head tilted, mind open. Puppy vibes c'mon. He watches Blue crumble inside, a deep sigh overcoming him.
"And I-"
"Yeah?"
"I just-"
Red quietly smiles, and pats the spot beside him. Before he knows it, Blue has already plopped beside him, exhausted without even picking up a sword.
"I just don't get it."
"Whaddya mean?"
Blue fists grip his knees tighter. "Why he was even so mad..."
"Green?"
"N-No, I... I deserved that. ONLY a little bit though I-"
Red incredulously raised a single eyebrow.
"AUGH! Ok fine! I deserved it a lot! Is that what you want?? To rub it in more?!"
Red blew a strand of hair out from Infront his nose. He seemed so disinterested at first, but then, like the flick of a finger, a mischievous little smirk grew.
"AWH, Blue!! I didn't know you thought of me so highly!" he beamed.
Blue couldn't have looked more unimpressed if he tried.
Red couldn't help but a giggle a little bit before he softed.
Blue sighed and mumbled remorseful, "Didn't mean to stress you out I just.."
Blue paused, watching the light join the horizon. His whole mood just reminded Red of a damp campfire. Or maybe a wet cat? One of the two for sure. Red couldn't help the surge of love and pride, Blue really had gotten SO much better at talking about his feelings! Blue worked so hard on it, Blue was amazing.
Red pressed up against his side and slipped his hand over Blue's.
Blue finally broke, "I just can't figure out how I messed up so bad- Vio- I know he doesn't like me, I get why I just- What did I do to make HIM outta all people get so... mad? at me?"
Oh. Red got it now.
"He never gets like that, that's what I do! And- I just don't get how I messed up that bad?!"
Red frowned, thoughtful, "Well, what happened before you guys started fighting and stuff?"
Blue grimaced, "I was just.. Telling him to do the laundry for once- Wasn't even telling him to do it correctly this time either!"
Red mentally facepalmed, but schooled his expression. This was like when he almost got into a fight with the radish seller guy isn't it?
"Blue," Red started quietly, "Do you remember how you asked him to do the laundry?"
Blue froze, stupefied, like he'd never considered in all his history that that could do anything with what happened. Probably because he hadn't. Blue was, extremely, tone deaf.
"I uh, joked about it? I mean- I he mentioned me like- being all frozen and stuff like a jerk! I was trying to "lighten stuff up like you said I should!"
Oh for Faron's fate-
"Blue," Red deadpanned, " Tell me exactly what you said. And what you guys were talking about BEFORE that. "
The absolute clueless, oblivious, and unaware look that screamed "thoughtless gerbil in a field with hawks" was. So painful to watch.
"Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Well uhhh Vio was kinda like. Being a btch?"
Red somehow managed to resist the urge to slam his skull into the brick wall behind them.
"Blue."
Blue, in question defensively puffed up like some startled baby kitten, " Hey! I- I'm telling the story and its the truth! It's not just me being mean about it! And- I won't even swear again ok! Don't tell Green- Please-"
Red silently stared into Blue's soul for half a minute. Din give me strength- "Okay."
Blue straightened up, like he was talking to some higher ranking knight, confident and steady. Or as confident and steady as you could be when you had baby rabbit ears that flicked and burned crimson with shame.
"He- He thinks that he's better than everyone else, you KNOW how big his head is-"
"Bigger than yours, Blue?"
"H-hey n- No! ANYWAYS, he was being all judgmental and crap!"
"Uh huh?"
" And- And all 'oHHOoOHH IM ~ViO~ And I'm- I'm smart and you're stupid! 'AND THEN- Get this! He goes all, freaking 'You don't care and you're hearts frozen HAHAHAh'-"
" Really, Blue? Really?"
"Oh come on! You know he's got that weird like- Theater kid laugh?? Like he learned it from that Shadow or something I dunno- Weird little sorta- kinda maniac-"
"Blue."
"Geez OK! Fine!," Blue relented, " Ok maybe he didn't laugh, but he did say like- my- My heart might as well still be frozen and-" Blue choked off.
"Oh. That's.... pretty messed up."
"Yeah. And- I've been thinking at least I have a heart..." Blue concluded grimly.
"Well there's more to it than that right?" Red prodded.
"Well! I tried to- Ya know, make it into a joke or whatever- And told him that oh hey! Maybe, maybe HE broke his brain like how the mirror was all smashed! Like- A you're making fun of me so I'm making fun of you joke-"
Blue made airquotes, "Banter, or whatever," he shrugged.
Was this how Green felt? Like several of his veins were just going to pop? Like he just wanted to lay on the ground and cry? And just eat a bunch of cupcakes and hide in his plushie pile? Okay, that last part was definitely mostly Red, but still! Blue was. The whole fight thing was... Yeah, yeah this just meant Red was right. They were being all emotional while trying to not be all emotional. That plan NEVER works! Stupid idiots. Big ol' dummies. His brothers.
"Blue, you know he's like... Sensitive about what happened in the tower of winds right??"
"He's what?"
"BLUE! He- He never talks about it! He gets all weird when WE talk about it! He- He goes off all quiet to "sort out his thoughts" or whatever! He doesn't go off and get all angry like you do!! He- He acts all mature and stoic and stuff!!"
"Oh."
"Bluuueee!!"
"Wait. Wait- So he actually- Wait are you saying I HURT his- his little twinky feelings??"
"BLUE!"
"What! I didn't know he cared about stuff!"
"You didn't think he had feelings??!!"
"N- I mean- Maybe- Have you met the guy?"
"BLUE WE USED TO BE THE SAME PERSON HOW ARE YOU SO-"
"...."
Red groaned, "Sorry Blue..."
"So Vio was right then huh?"
"H-huh?"
"I'm, I am kinda stupid huh?"
"Heh, well... hm... maybe jus' a lil bit.."
"He's still a jerk though."
"Ok, but now you guys can apologize?"
"..."
"BLUE-"
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not-your-rain · 10 months ago
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Clears throat. UNPARALLELED INNOCENCE ATTACK!!!! đŸ€Č👂
AHHHH HI okay i haven't talked about my ui interpretation so im gonna do the ask game and also ramble about her :3 rambling will be under the cut, ask game will be right here vvv
how i feel about her: i started out hating her just because of the throwaway line from chasing wind but she kinda grew on me? idk i like "mean" girl characters. she's one of my faves now and basically my oc at this point since we know nothing about her
my ships: calloutpost/milkshake (her and five pebbles) i think it would be funny. i have a lot of thoughts about them actually please ask me about them
my brotp: her and no significant harassment would be so fucking funny together i fear. i take sig as something of a prankster and he and inno would have some pretty terrible ideas
unpopular opinion: i don't actually think inno is as mean/as much of a bully as one would think. a lot of people take wind's dialogue at face value which is understandable tbh. usually when a character says something else about a character and there isn't any real firsthand confirmation of whether or not its true its probably safe to assume that it IS true. we know nothing about this character aside from the fact that wind thinks she's mean, and their dialogue implies that this is something that happens a lot. i like to interpret inno as being really impulsive and a huge gossip, but i don't necessarily think she's cruel or malicious. this is just what i think though lol
thing i wish happened: idk i wish she actually got dialogue instead of just being offhandedly mentioned once. she is so interesting to me solely because of that one line of dialogue. what are they implying about you babygirl. i want to know...
other rambly things under the cut
ill just be elaborating on her personality a bit here. like i said earlier, she is very impulsive and nosy and likes to gossip. do not tell her your secrets because she can't keep them to save her life!! she also struggles a lot with empathy and has trouble relating to others. she tends to be very stubborn which leads her to butt heads with other iterators. i don't think she is intentionally cruel but she does have a bit of a mean streak that shows with those who are just as stubborn as she is. she and five pebbles in particular bicker a lot. she has low self esteem and because everyone else perceives her as being "mean", it's something she leans into simply because she doesn't feel that it's worth it to try and convince anyone otherwise.
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kiawren · 10 months ago
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Hi... Im no legitimate poet or anything...Was listening to these deft.ones songs and started writing something about kiawren on the bus home
This is so self indulgent I'm sorry.. idk if you can understand my abstract writing and it's okay if you don't 😭😭
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For anyone that bothers... I'll try to explain the poem but you can interpret it how you'd like :))
These are some of the lyrics inspiring it (romantic dreams, diamond eyes, sextape)
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The title—I was thinking that the only constant of his between real life and my self insert world is his name, I can say it here just the same as I can there, everything else about him otherwise isn't real.. Hence the two realms, and the inspiration from the lyric "I'm hypnotized by your name" (more to add to this towards the end of the poem!)
The Vermillion bird (basically a phoenix) is from Chinese myth, I think it represents both of us becuz fire and bird.
'Take me one more time/Take me one last wave/Take me one last ride' is from Sextape, I heard it as I started typing the poem, so I just added it in hehhee .... for 'wave', I often think about us sitting in Wela volcano park overlooking the ocean together. It's vast and beautiful. For 'ride', I also like to imagine us going for rides on char.izard together.
'rilles' are from volcanic flows on the moon, with i learnt when Googling while writing this. Actually I thought they were for normal volcanoes too, before I googled again when typing this, well they're only on the moon, lol that gives another meaning (kiawren sun/moon dynamic loll). The rilles here are in my veins cuz he just has that impact on meâ˜ș
There's stuff like 'burning a visage on skin', 'place my tongue where you blaze' 'bleed the sea whole' cuz that's what people would typically do for their lovers you know. (/sarcasm) I just mean I would go to such lengths for him.
Synonyms of red—cherry, ruby, cardinal, in a way those lines are getting more intense.. The plush of youth (our young love and its dreaminess) and the clush of rubies, then cardinal in my head also alludes biblically like 'cardinal sin' that's why I wrote 'cardinal hell', the red becomes so red! And yes more on the hell later.
Clush is also a song by Isles & Glaciers that makes me think of kiawren so I added that word :)
'rose-cauterized eyes' — I like the phrase 'rose-tinted eyes', took a different way here with the cauterization, something more graphic like those other stuff I had up there, I feel like if you'd cauterize eyes you'd see through foggy, patched-over, maybe painful vision. But if you cauterize with roses... There's also layer of romanticism.
'meteors-heavy stubborn blue sky'... When I listen to 'diamonds reign across the sky' in the song diamond eyes I think is us watching miniors together (a poke.mon that's basically a meteor). Hmm, it's hard to explain it, but the red-rose overworld downturning into stubborn blue sky kinda has the feeling of the worlds and skies turning and colliding, and the red/blue kiawren you know... like a merger, something dynamic and disorienting... Anyway it kinda leads into the last part too!!!
'My heart' —yes it's both my literal heart going up in flames when I love him and also him, becuz this is also my term of endearment for him. And he burns in his passion. He burns brighter than I ever can.
Ok last part that Im excited to type out
While a mythical being all proud and overbearing yet unhelpful in the alluded Nirvana, and 'romantic' people look up to this fictional mythical heaven-ruler (they're idealistic hence the word romantic, also that this 'romance' is more insincere),,,,,,
I have independently travelled inside the Earth to unite with my Kiawe!!!!! Orpheus and Eurydice!!!!!!!! I am Orpheus for real.....i'd cave so hard.
Last two lines are interesting becuz I 'see my baby', but Orpheus doesn't get to see Eurydice..... Meanwhile don't 'turn back to a blue sky', I reject the reality of a blue sky, like how the red overworld downturns into it earlier, for the fantasy of a red realm with my loveeee... Instead of not being able to turn to 'Eurydice' which here is Kiawe!!!!!, I *can* see him!!!! instead I do not face a reality, and I succeed in uniting with him away from it.
Also I've been wanting include the Vermillion bird in writing for kiawren. Didn't expect to be hating on it in the poem LOL
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valleygirlmukuroikusaba · 18 days ago
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lol when the FMJ performance show company started chiaki was seeking out new opportunities since around then she was off contract for regards to her interviewer contract at the time and was like. oh shit some swag sparkly florida man wants hit it big! okay im gonna help out. so she met FMJ and was like. well first we need support that can help fund i can go ask around and FMJ was declining chiaki’s offer.
infact FMJ didn’t reach out to chiaki at all FMJ is kinda annoyed some rando with a job is forcing herself onto FMJ’s plan because FMJ already knows how to run a company on her own she doesn’t need support
but chiaki’s insistence was probably something FMJ could work around. so FMJ lets her do her thing in exchange that chiaki would never leave the company
chiaki is like. nuh uh im here to provide additional support from the outside world.
like COME ON FMJJJJ you know a company needs feedback to operate right FMJ and chiaki will just do that!! leave the load up to chiaki chiaki knows what she can handle. and chiaki isnt a company person anyway chiaki has a profession and she’s just gonna do what she needs to do
FMJ just stick to what u need to focus on. don’t worry about chiaki. chiaki is just trying to do her thing
well FMJ doesn’t actually care about the company so she lets chiaki’s stubbornness win. maybe if she cared about the company more she’d handle it but. FMJ is skeptical of chiaki regardless but if it’s over the company. ok FMJ is willing to half-ass it and give some room for chiaki to do what she wants. FINE HAVE IT UR WAY CHIAKI UGHHHH
the mfs that FMJ recruited were pretty easy to get on board because they originally were so desperate or excessively unwilling which are the kind of ppl FMJ would find fun to throw into the company. but their struggle there wouldn’t have been something that is productive in the bigger picture but. the cooperation of them trying to keep at it would be fun to watch.
FMJ’s struggle feels meaningless so FMJ just watches them have a similar kind of meaningless struggle that twogami and fuyuhiko would try to put a name to. to develop a goal in the midst of cooperation or destruction contained inside a cage with no connection to the outside world
well the provided goal that FMJ gave them was that they’d join the performance but that whole struggle outside of just like. idk the performance rehearsal training shit is also like.
entertainment for FMJ anyways she kinda knew like most of them dgaf abt the performance
sayaka wouldnt have been struggling as much as she did if the company had been managed with prosperity in mind so when sayaka showed up and tried to take control the way she normal does just doesn’t work. sayaka is shocked why no-one with passion is in this goddamn company
chiaki wanted the company to prosper that’s why she kept getting feedback from other people outside the company to provide additional information and new things to consider because while nagito can def come up with new things on the spot the extra information is always appreciated and nagito can probably work with it to figure out what to do and seek whatever it is nagito was trying to find outta this damn company
until nagito decides to jump sayaka 😭😭😭😭😭 and hajime is enticed to help him even tho hajime don’t have a clue what nagito tryna pull of
nagito and hajime gotta stop being mean to sayaka yall what’s wrong with them
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1d1195 · 1 year ago
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SAM MY LOVE I FORGOT TO SEND IN MY FEEDBACK😭
I typically write out my thoughts on my notes app(have a folder just for your storiesđŸ€§) bc this is me trying to be organized lol . Anyways this time I did fully put down my thoughts I just forgot to send it through here like a dummy lol BUT I DID NOT FORGET ABT YOU BESTIE!!! So here are my thoughts lol
YOU TRULY KNOW HOW TO KEEP THE STORY GOING IN SUCH A GOOD WAY!!! You know I love anytime Niall shows up in your stories bc you truly write him so well, I NEED HIM!
when i tell you once I read that she unexpectedly feel down, I just knew that Ava was behind bc my heart DROPPED! And then she apologized, my heart felt so sad :( I mean I can't blame her because I do the same thing too and it's a hard habit to break! Then them talking about the eggs... PAIN PAIN PAIN ALL AROUND! But I like it, it keeps the story moving!
Also I am not mad at here for wanting to be friends with him at all! Like personally I would have just been stubborn and guarded but I know I would have folded soon lol BUT THATS WHY I AM NOT HER, SHES HER OWN SELF! And Niall is gone so I don't blame her and shes in love so yeah lol oh and that "munchkin" part 💔💔💔 so good!
NOW I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY TO KNOW THAT SOMEONE WAS CHEATING EVER!! like I really felt that Ava was cheating or had cheated on him and like it was so satisfying to see that unfold, like it may sound fucked but it felt nice to know lol And maybe Im feeling just a tad bit petty but I kinda liked to see harry grovel a bit but only a tiny bit! bc it is very hard to get out of a toxic and manipulative relationship and it is something hard too do no matter shitty it was! He does has some healing to do and its a process but still happy for both to be out of it ya know.
And the end... SAM😭😭😭😭AHHHH so so so GOOD!!!!!
Side note I saw that some anon was just being straight up mean and that is not okay. It's one thing to give constructive criticism and that's fair but there is no need for just straight up saying they don't like. we all experienced something not being for us and that's okay but I would never just be mean to that author, ever. And I want you to know for every thing you post no matter what is such a gift! And I want you to never forget how loved and appreciated you are! love you so much!-💜
I'm OBSESSED A WHOLE FOLDER AHHHH 😭 I don't deserve you
I love Niall so much if I wasn't a Harry-girl I would be feral for Niall. Honestly, sometimes I still am. I see tiktoks of him and I'm like đŸ€€ Personally, I think he should be illegal. He's really fun to write and I wish I could tear myself away from Harry for two seconds to write a fic about Niall.
I'm glad you feel that way about her wanting to be friends. I really wanted to them to NOT be friends but I also would have folded very quickly. I also wanted to keep the plot going and I didn't want to be like *seven months later* because I think the whole Niall moving thing is still fresh so idk it made sense when I did it so I'm glad you're good with it! I love my munchkins 💕
When i started this story I didn't WANT you guys to like Ava but I wanted to keep an air of mystery but I think everyone assumed she was probs doing something worse (not that that makes Harry's thing okay) but again part of my process was ensuring that Ava would sound AWFUL when the time came to announce her secret.
Don't you worry about groveling and healing, I got you covered đŸ€Ł
You're so so nice 😭 I have a bit of a pleasing-complex so I feel so bad when I disappoint people. I shouldn't let it get to me but it's easier said than done.
Thank you for your message I love you and your brain so so much 💕
xoxo
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hibiscusseaart · 7 months ago
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DUDDE OMG I LOVE YOUR BRAN AND ART GPDKGKDJFG LOVE IT SMMM
Im gonna yap too cuz im thinking about them all day
first of all Naruto as a Hatake heir omg YES??? Imagine the headache he would cause for everyone. Political nightmare. Like Kakashi probably would take up the position in the clan council just to fuck with people.
Oh and if Ren and Kakashi are married (probably at 18 or smth like EARLY for tax benefit and just in case) so it means Ren is a HATAKE now!!!
Also Ren 100% calls Kakashi his wife, it's not up for negotiations. Kakashi just like to freak out people when Ren (fairly short, nice medic) talks about him like "I don't know, I need to discuss it with my wife..." and then Kakashi appears behind him (tall scary jounin) "Hmmm, to discuss what with me, dear?"
"(He literally tried to murder Naruto when he was less than an hour old.)" <- DUDE LMAOOO
I LOVE Naruto visiting the stone and talking with his uncle Obito who sits near by in the bushes and just "thank fuck they didn't raise a depressed kid, i couldn't handle the 3rd one"
And can you imagine The Feels at the war not only for Ren and Kakashi but for Naruto too? Like THIS is his favourite uncle, his hero who 'died' for his friends? The fuck happened?!
Also the implication that Obito listens to Ren when he visits. Obito is probably being "WHY the fuck are you visiting, you don't even KNOW me!"
Tho I imagine Ren doesn't talk much, just smoking quietly and cleaning up if needed. I think he blames himself a lot since when they were kids he always told Obito how he would look after him and take care of him so he could become a Hokage. And fucking failed to protect Obito in the end. So yeah immense guild and Ren can't even express it. The words just stuck in his throat.
Obito is so confused, like wtf, we never even met.
Omg the massacre. I think Ren would try to lure Sasuke to their house just because he's the last Uchiha and Obito would want them to take him in (Obito literally helped with the massacre but whatever)
Sasuke will be really stubborn and it will be like trying to adopt a stray scared kitten. Naruto would help when he realises what his dad is doing.
Jiraya would probably visit a bit, just to make sure Naruto's and Ren's seals are okay and don't react much on each other.
Isobu will be really well behaved I think. I think Ren is a good host for him since they're both be like "You didn't want it, I didn't want it, so let's just work together and try to be as comfortable with it as we can"
If guilt money doesn't work, Jiraya sends Kakashi more porn (who Ren is ALSO very interested in), some medical things from other countries and gifts for Naruto. It kinda works, Jiraya can find lots of interesting stuff in his travels.
as for their friend group, damn Naruto will have the worst company to grow up in.
I imagine Kurenai (age 15, Naruto is like 1), who is very interested in having a kid one day, asks Ren a lot of questions and coos on Naruto and Ren is just sits there barely alive, cuz Naruto is LOUD and ACTIVE and FUSSY
Anko just looks at all of it once (1) and decides that she will never have kids.
Genma and Asuma (who introduces Ren to sigarets) are just laughing at them and congratulating them on becoming dads. In revenge they're the main targets for babysitting when Naruto is fussy and Kurenai is busy.
Btw Kakashi and Ren def have conflicts about smoking in the house. Naruto joins in later cuz fox gave him enhanced nose.
Ren tries to quit, but it's hard. Like he doesn't ask Kakashi to stop reading porn for example.
oh and they're both freaks about romance novels porn or no porn. They sit on their bed and just reading their own pieces and then share their thoughts.
Obito listens in cuz he's curious lol.
Oh Ren would def recognise Kakashi as Sukea, like he knows his wife.
"Wow, dear, are we Nohara now?"
Thinking about them after the war... Ren and Kakashi feel awkward af cuz like, they're married and they love each other and now here's Obito, who (they think) is still in love with Rin. He's not and he's in love with both of them but well they don't know that. So a bit of drama cuz they don't know but Obito won't fucking tell them cuz he thinks he doesn't deserve it anymore.
At first Obito being totally at home at their house and knowing how they like their food, who does who in the household and ect.
"How do you know all that? Wasn't you busy with your terrorist group at the time?"
"Hey, can a man have a hobby?"
"Which is?.."
"Stalking. I also want to join your book club, I have thoughts on the last book you read before the war"
Later when they get their shit together it'd be hilarious. "This is my wife the HOKAGE Kakashi Hatake. And this is my ex-terrorist husband Obito Hatake."
"Do you have to introduce us like this?"
and yes Obito changed his last name just in pure spite.
btw Kakashi living his best live with not one, but TWO husbands.
@hibiscusseaart
Ren Nohara
Ren and Kks doodles + me yapping ab this AU bc the brain rot has me in a chokehold
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I JUST REALIZED THIS WOULD MEAN THAT NARUTO IS TECHNICALLY ALSO THE HATAKE CLAN HEIR URAGHHHH
I NEED TO DRAW HIM WITH ALL THE NINKEN SO SO BADDDDDD
KAKASHI SHARING CLAN LORE BC HE HAS PACK TO CARRY ON HIS CLANS HISTORY AND TRADITIONS BC IT ISN'T JUST HIM ANYMORE SAVE ME SAVE ME
Hatake 'the line ends with me' Kakashi BUT NOT ANYMORE BABY HELL YEAH!! having a spouse and child will do that to you
Now does he really gaf ab tradition? Honestly, probably not but the idea of him not being alone in terms of family/clan is what he deserves (along with a lot of therapy).
HE MAY STILL BE MENTALLY ILL BUT NOT AS BADLY AS THE FIRST TIME AROUND đŸ”„đŸ”„đŸ”„đŸ”„đŸ”„
Also, the consequences of Naruto having two parents who are both some of the most elite shinobi in Konoha is probably one of the best 'fuck off' deterrents he could have in terms of curbing harassment over his being the nine-tails container.
ALSO ALSO, "I'm gonna be Hokage!" oh and he's wearing those little blue goggles and carrying around the weight of a dead boy's dream without really knowing just how heavy that burden is but still carrying it all the same in the way only optimistic children can. Oh bitch I'm throwing up everywhere. Like yes he's going to bring peace to the shinobi world but he is also giving both his dad's the worst type of heart ache. Seeing doubles because he's so much like Obito but blonde and four times as stubborn.
kkrn trying so hard not to see ghosts in their kid but he's literally a mash up of Minato, Kushina, and Obito. Minato's kindness, Kushina's vitality, and Obito's pure will to be good.
Not saying that ghosts are all they see cause it's very much not. Naruto is still Naruto but sometimes there's that outline of an old memory that just doesn't fade. A little like deja vu I guess. Kakashi and Ren are so glad it's peacetime because even the thought of dandelion blonde beneath a too-big boulder makes breathing that much harder.
I imagine he gets trained an insane amount because both Kakashi and Ren want him to be able to defend himself. Even while it's peacetime, they're shinobi, there's always a risk. So long as Naruto is on active duty he'll always be in danger. With both of his guardians growing up/serving in the third war when they were barely older than Naruto it's practically a given.
Not that I think Naruto would complain about being able to learn jutsu/shinobi skills. He'd probably be stoked about it until he has to spend like four hours straight throwing shuriken and reading survival guides about edible plants. He complains about it. Loudly. mb lil bro half of ninja training is literally just ingraining reflexes and learning the land.
mmm academy-era Naruto going to the memorial stone and ranting about his day to it in the way he's seen both Ren and Kakashi do in the past. That's so cute and sad like "and then Shikamaru slept the whole time but it was supposed to be a GROUP project! Can you believe that!" and Obito is in the bushes nodding his head along like the good uncle he is. (He literally tried to murder Naruto when he was less than an hour old.)
Naruto just talks and talks and talks. About everything and nothing and its probably like the least depressing one-sided conversation Obito has ever heard in front of his grave (looking at you Kakashi, Ren).
I imagine that Naruto kind've treats the stone/Obito's memory fondly. Both Ren and Kakashi talk about him in warm tones and with growing up hearing stories of him it's hard not to feel like he knows him. He's not there, obviously, but if Naruto closes his eyes and imagines that scowling boy in his parent's team photo while he talks it almost feels real. (Honey, you've got a big storm coming.)
To their family, Obito is forever thirteen. He's passionate and has a short fuse. He loves sweets and has eyes and hair darker than the night, he's a sucker for a sob story and helps old ladies with their groceries. Naruto finds it hard not to see a friend in a ghost he's never met.
AA and then post Uchiha Massacre, Naruto just stares at the stone and wonders that if Obito were still here would he be gone too? Man I need to see what's going on in Obito's head during that.
On an unrelated note i wonder where the fuck Jiraiya is in all this. Bro is just out and about doing fuck all as two fourteen year olds take care of his godson and he's running from responsibility😭 i bet he sends guilt money. Ren literally doesn't give a single shit because even if Jiraiya did try for custody he would literally be getting his hands chopped off. No way in hell is Ren letting a pervert like that raise a kid that's a recipe for disaster. The money is nice but Ren could not give less of a fuck ab that mans guilt. Like "oh, you feel bad for not owning up to your God Father title that Minato, my late sensei, entrusted to you? Good."
I need to see Ren and Genma + Anko and Kurenai friendship. They would be a horrible terrible no good amazing friend group. Terrifying when together. Four horsemen of the apocalypse when they have an idea and put their mind to it.
Anyway, what are our opinions on ANBU Ren and Ren meeting 'Sukea' bc that all i've been able to think ab today. Okay, I'm done yapping thanks for listening.
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