#okay im done ranting in the tags lmao

[be-gay-do-crime-ahaha]

Holy fucking shit the dysphoria is dysphoria-ing right now. I feel physically nauseous oh my fucking god. I’m gonna fucking kill someone maybe myself rn I’m gonna lose my shit holy hell.

Doesn’t help that I’ve been incredibly overstimulated the past few days every sound is like a fucking cheese grater in my ears oh my god.

[blue-jayyy8657]

i’ve noticed that while some people have trouble saying they love others, refuse to believe what they feel, i’m the complete opposite. i love too easily, too freely, and it ends with me getting hurt all the time. i love strangers, friends, my family, animals, everything that gives me some form of joy or any emotion at all. i love everything when it gives me nothing back, and it hurts. it hurts when people leave, people die, people don’t return my love or break my heart because it’s just so easy to do. i love people i hate. i love the lady on the bus who smiles at me when i pass. i love the family across the street who ring my doorbell on halloween with painted faces and open bags. i love my best friend who stands up for me when i can’t stand up for myself. i love my brother when he says he hates me or shares his snacks. i love the stranger who replied to my tiktok comment. and it hurts when no one loves me back as deeply and as easily as i love them. it’s a kind of pain i don’t think i’ll ever get over, loving too quickly. and it’s so confusing to me when i see people in shows denying their love for others, reading about it in books or fics. how can you ignore something so powerful and simple as love? how can you deny the very thing that makes up your entire life? i’ve always loved too freely, i’m only just now realizing what pain it causes me.

[hyper-revenge-sio]

Just thinking about that one scene in Captain America: The First Avenger when they come back that first time and Steve brought Bucky back from Hydra, when Steve and Peggy are talking or whatever. How Bucky was smiling when Steve was looking at him, and how Bucky's smile drops immediately when Steve looks away.

He already looks so broken in that moment, from how he just looks down blankly to the look in his eyes it's so upsetting. It doesn't help that the bruises on his face are exactly where we see the machine Hydra uses on him later connect with his face.

[thatdeadaquarius]

"Oh my gosh do you sound like a sim to them??"

Me trying to place myself in their shoes:

"Why the fuck do I sound like a villager in Animal Crossing-- ARE THEY HEARING ANIMALESE WHEN I SPEAK?!"

(A.k.a I saw the previous ask and thought wait a minute. Two different worlds. Languages so similar but so different....... We're basically speaking animalese in another game/world lmfao)

(Bonus: Creator!Reader knows this and takes full advantage as their payback. Traveller magically understands and speaks back causing further pyschic confusion. Pretty sure soke brains have been melted among linguistic students in Sumeru)

-Vine Boom

VINE BOOM MY BELOVED IM SO LATE TO ATTEND TO YOU!! :'(

It has been a minute and yet, you remain my love!! Thank you for your patience, have a little scenario as my thanks for that and submitting the cool idea <3

Me @ you: ♥ ( ॢᵕ n ᵕ (꒡ᵋ ꒡ღ) mwah! /p

this gif is just really cute thats why its here.

also i have very little to add so its short but only bc im ✨uncreative✨ atm and ur ask alone is funny enough lmao, so once again, a scenario bc vine booms just a genius all on their own ✨️

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😭so you mean 😭 as revenge 😭 for this awful deed 😭 done to your speech 😭 you just start EMBRACING IT 😭😭😭PLEAASEEE-

PLEASE the traveler understands it!! 💀

Also if anyone reads this im so sorry ive flooded the sagau tag with language shenanigans LMAO

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Ever since you realized that the entirety of Teyvat sounds like Sims to you, (and the subsequent awful reckoning that you sound the same to them 😭) 

You have finally mentally recovered enough courage, and desperately shoved any embarrassment deep into your soul, to try and think of what to do about it

♤

You quickly found that people had 3 types of reactions to your speech,

 

1. They try to understand the nonsense like you trying to understand their Simlish, it really doesnt work, you wish you could tell them to give up and just gesture at you instead:

(ALHAITHAM he keeps trying then giving up then trying again lol, Diluc, ZHONGLI, Sara, Albedo, Candace, Dehya she thinks she’s gonna get it THIS time she swears-, Eula, Gorou, GANYU she feels bad lmao, Jean, AYAKA, keqing, kuki, Nahida, ningguang, AETHER, Thoma, xinyan, XIAO)

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2. They act like you when you hear animal crossing characters speak 💀 you can see the “omg so cute” sparkle in their eyes:

(KAZUHA, kokomi, barbara, KAEYA, ZHONGLI again lol he tries to hide it but you can see the tiny smile everytime you walk over and start ranting at him bc ur bored, Faruzan, GOROU, AYATO, YAE MIKO, keqing, LISA, mika, mona, KLEE literally loves you and you can tell shes always trying to get you to say something lol, Ei (archon), Rosaria she always SMIRKS and ur just- 😳, CHILDE the little shit giggles at ur misery, LUMINE AND AETHER U CANT TRUST EITHER OF THEM- , THOMA, SCARAMOUCHE BUT HE’D NEVER ADMIT IT BUT HE ALWAYS IS OBVIOUSLY TRYING TO HIDE A TINY SMILE AND GOES A LITTLE PINK-!! SAME FOR XIAO LMAO)

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3. You know that tiktok audio thats like Isabella from Animal Crossing singing, and then someone’s like “uh-huh! YEAH! OKAY!!” yeah like that, but to you LMAO

(ITTO, Bennett, KAVEH, heizou, VENTI, Nilou she like nods after everything you say and makes sure you’re treated well in every conversation aw, qiqi, KLEE, Raiden (puppet) + Ei (archon), SHENHE no explanation needed, CYNO too, LUMINE, YELAN, yoimiya, yunjin)

♧

Alright i got tired sorry not everybody’s there lol^

So no matter the reaction, they all are a little bummed nobody can get you, 

…but then of. Fucking. Course. 

LUMINE/AETHER as ALWAYS get SPECIAL TREATMENT 

(there’s not a single person throughout all the nations, the archons, the allogenes, doesnt matter, who hasn’t felt a LITTLE pang of envy for this- bc as cute as you sound, goddamit they USED to understand you when you weren’t physically here, before you overcame the Universal Barrier AKA the computer screen lol)

AND THEY GET TO UNDERSTAND YOU.

The Sumeru linguistics department is grinding their teeth, Alhaitham straight up glares every time they translate for you lmao, Zhongli’s eye twitches at least once everytime they do so, Kazuha is literally trying to bribe them with cool places he’s seen that the traveler hasn’t so they’ll share the secret of how to understand you, Ningguang gets 10x chillier when they’re helping convos w/ you, Ei looks like she’s fucking pouting-

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Aether is just like 🤨?? For what?? I’m helping???

So confused he never gets what’s going on lol

✨

Lumine, on the other hand, is FULLY aware and smirks every time she’s so smug about it LMAO 

^ the embodiment of the cat surrounded by knives meme ^

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Ahhhh my exhibition is April 6th u guys!

May I finally rest in peace when that day comes 🪦

Cant wait to graduate and just have a regular job and not academia + deadlines 😭😫

Hope you guys have had a nice week or two!

Look out for more posts after the 6th :>

Safe Travels,

💀♒️

♡the beloveds♡

@karmawonders / @0rah-s / @randomnatics / @glxssynarvi / @nexylaza / @genshin-impacts-me / @wholesomey-artist

Short one but hope its fun my beloved!! :)

[shima-draws]

how did u get into sanlu/lusan ???! im ever so grateful u did bc oohohhoho my god, ur sanlu content FEEDS MEEE 🤞‼️

It’s funny you ask that bc I kinda already answered that with the last ask?? LOL

TLDR basically it’s become almost habit at this point to ship my favorite characters together (if they are compatible ofc) and Sanji and Luffy ended up becoming my favorites after watching OP for a bit so. It was inevitable 😂

I actually started out as a Zolu shipper (I still am just to a lesser degree now!) so really I think it began there—when I get into something I usually scour the AO3 tags for fics so I was on the hunt for some good Zolu writing. Zosan, being the most popular ship in the fandom (according to AO3 stats with over 10k fics. Holy shit) was also often included with Zolu fics making it a poly ship, so I was like oh hell yeah? I’m totally on board with that. So I got to see a lot of really fun dynamics with the three of them, and I started to get invested in the Sanlu side of things. As this was happening I was also watching OP at the same time and Sanji was quickly rocketing up my list of faves to take one of the top spots (Luffy had already become a favorite from the get go). And my brain was just like

so I was like okay alright. Considering. And then after that I was fucking DONE for. They got me in a vice grip and rotted my brain so thoroughly that I’m utterly ruined for any other Luffy or Sanji ships now. I can even pinpoint the EXACT date it happened bc I posted about it lmao here’s my “realizing Sanlu is the ship of all time” post from early December, the day my life changed forever /j

Anyway they just have a really good dynamic and me being the idiot I was decided not to blacklist spoiler tags so I kept seeing stuff about WCI and how it was THE Sanlu arc so that probably doomed me even further. An arc focusing on my favorite characters and their very not homoromantic relationship with each other? I started binging OP nonstop just so I could speedrun to WCI and this was back when I was on like. Episode 300 something. I was soooo impatient I was desperate to get to WCI as fast as possible so I could Suffer LMAO

So um yeah the Sanlu hyperfixation has me by the throat and doesn’t plan on letting me go anytime soon. Sorry for the rant. I can’t shut up about them Ever

[blipblepbloop]

ok i’m dying to know what ur realism gripe is about the body that you mentioned in the tags of your reblog of my post about it

BAHAHA ty for noticing my commentary hidden in the tags so i can make this rant post about it lmao

first off, im aware its a tv show and some things need to be dramatized or exaggerated for the purpose of achieving a certain effect in the show. especially in an episode like the body, a lot of choices went into very intentionally setting a tone for the episode. however, that being said-

towards the very beginning of the episode, buffy calls 911 and a couple of paramedics show up. they tell her that her MOM is DEAD, get another call, and UP AND LEAVE. and in real life they would absolutely NEVER FUCKING DO THAT and it drives me INSANE every time i rewatch it.

take this with a grain of salt because the extent of my medical knowledge is first aid and lifeguard training, but according to everything ive ever been taught about BASIC FIRST AID they absolutely should not have left her alone, because they weren't done treating every patient on that scene. buffy is quite VISIBLY in shock, which requires treatment just as much as a physical injury. yet all they do is tell her to sit down, ask her if there's anyone else coming, and then leave. like they don't even at least make sure she's sitting down or confirm in some way that somebody's coming before just leaving. maybe protocols and training with that sort of thing was different at the time that the ep came out, but i kind of doubt it. she could have fainted, she DOES throw up, and just...who actually thinks its a good idea to just leave someone whose mother just died and is clearly in shock completely alone?? certainly not trained medical professionals.

again, i could potentially be wrong about this, and im also fully aware it was for that dramatic intense effect the audience gets from her being left completely alone to deal with the fact her mom just died, but today at least that definitely is not how that would go down. at least one of the paramedics would have stayed behind and talked with her and made sure she was okay at least until giles got there. and it mostly just makes me upset for buffy because she should not have been treated like that lol.

[jerrsterrr]

guys guys the afternothing guys the after notjing guys guys look you guys

wip (fanboying below)

OMGS okay this THE ocs/persona ever OKAY

Its been so long since ive started drawing this FREAK ASS storyline and on like a random tuesday it dropped back into my lap AND im always thinking abt it ALWAYS thinking abt lore im a nerd)) BUT IM DRAWING THEM AGAIN YIPPIEEEEEEE

its so insanely cringe talking about these 3 guys lore cuz they are like,,, the same guy,,,, which happens to be ME LMAO

ANd then im reminded that this entire story is like Life and Death and Heaven and infinite realities and found family and open ended ending because there is nothing that deems these guys will ever find peace,, which all comes from this dream i had in 2019 LOL

Im very slowly putting out the story on my toyhouse and its very fun but id much prefer lik talking about it or just jumbling it all out irl and just ranting out the storyline through words (BUT ITS SO EMBARRISINGBHIDRGFY) and yet at the same time i crave to just have it ALL ORGANIZEDDDDD and out of my brain!!!! rAHHH

man i draw these guys a LOT though the story is not just like about these three, i reallly like getting into all the backgrounds and hinting at like lore and stuff (MORE LIKE TRAUMA LOL) Like what makes these characters work and such,

Whenever i do think of like the rest of the story and how id actually express the stpryline, and the whole plot of The After Nothing its more or less from outsiders (the other ocs) finding out about everything, "who is this guy and how did he get to the After?" "How are you alive but souless??" "Ew oh my god is the DRAGON YOUR SOUL???" "What do you MEAN youve died and every peice of soul is going to you because youve LOST YOUR OWN REALITY????" "YOURE BEING CHASED??????" and all of that info being forced out of some guy who just does not know how to comprehend being a person (because he isnt exactly one)

i have a few comics in mind!!! (shitty sketchbook example above) so as soon as i reintroduce like the main characters to my insta (through the wip in this post) Ill definetely get a move on to some silly interactions, before they meet the whole main plot and other characters!!!!!

so yippieee!!!! major coping being done through my creative process and my enjoyement of alternate realities, vessels, Life and Death, Heaven and Hell, and exploring what exactly makes a person act the way they do!!!!!!!!!!!

SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!

(@moenmomentsthemoe-en tag cuz this counts as oc loredumping?? i thinks UH OKAY RUNS)

[carmenized-onions]

I love this whole freaking story so much bro. Chapter 11 was so ugh love. While I was reading it and Carmy would say these insane comments bro my jaw would just fall. I had my own little comments to myself and my friend on factime is so confused. ANYWAYS, you are genuinely such a good writer and idk how you capture the stress and like tension in every chapter, legit pure talent. I feel like I’m actually sad after that last chapter lmao, as if I was actually in the show getting yelled at (one can dream).

What the heck im obsessed with Richie bro. Hes such a girl dad and like ugh. Him standing up for Chip was so🥹. And Syd too, her trying to love Chippy, UGHHH.

Okay I’m done, can you tell this was a very unorganized rant?😅

(Pls add me to the tag list bookie)

HELLOO I'm so glad you've enjoyed it. Chapter 11 Carmen was so. He was fucking on one, absolutely. I had fun playing out different versions of this fight in my head on my 7am commutes to work and writing down favourite zingers from him. I'm a little. unhinged.

READING THIS ON FACETIME SOUNDS LIKE ACTUAL HELL AND I CAN'T TELL IF I'M CONCERNED OR RESPECT IT? I THINK CONCERNED? A little of both.

I hope chap 12 was a little bit of balm after that extreme tension/grief, it was TOUGH after 11. I honestly feel like it's unfair, for the people that had to wait that week and a half between 11 and 12 and the people that started reading after 12 came out. Like that was a week of hell. no one knows this pain. I DO!!!

Richie is so divorced girl dad I love love love writing him and there are a lot more moments with him that you shall see that are very very special to me that I think everyone will absolutely lose their shit over, next chapter. So UNTIL THEN MF!!! ADDED TO THE TAGLIST THANK YOU FOR YOUR THOUGHTS!!

[alwastakenofc]

hmmmmm so ! lesser-than-before rant incoming :)

i’ve been playing this game on my phone for the last 3ish weeks bc i’m tryna get $80 from getting to “grand sultan” level thru this app that gives me games to download and rewards me for playing them/hitting checkpoints and stuff idk it’s rly cool but that’s besides the point ! so i figured i would Bounce after the month is up bc like it’s just a gimmicky pay-to-win kind of game where if u don’t keep up daily u fall behind, BUT there’s also a Huge player base for the game (which makes it fun but also gives it that rly insanely competitive edge that makes it hard to miss days without feeling like ur behind). so one of the things i had to do was join a union/guild where i am partnered up with ppl like the guild leader and co-leader and elites and others members ya know? and we can do quests and stuff and it just gives u a good boost to everything which obviously helps u level faster ! so i was like “hmmmm maybe ill make one…” but then i noticed ppl talking in the all chat saying how they’re not new, this is their 3rd, 4th, 5th+ server that they’re hopping on bc they wanna start over again, etc etc so i was like “…. nah im not making my own union LOL” so i ended up joining this one that had free slots and rly didn’t like the guy leading it bc he was kinda rude… so i left, changed my name/avatar, and DM’d the leader of this guild i had my eye on in the first place but was full at the time! they now had 1 space free and i had to wait 24 hours to join bc i just left my last guild… so she said she’d save the spot and BAM, i got in! we talked in DMs abt how i left my last guild bc No One except the leader talked and when he did it was to Demand things from us like “Everyone better donate 200 diamonds or else.” and stuff!! lmao

SO. fast forward to now. it’s been about 3 weeks in the guild and MANNNNNN IVE MADE A FEW FRIENDS, THEYRE ALL SO NICEEEEE 🥺 me and a couple other guild members were up til Midnight last night just talking abt life and where we wanna travel and our jobs and education and Everything !! it was so wholesome and nice and so just idk. pure and innocent and Fun to just have casual conversations with ppl that were complete strangers 2 weeks ago, but who ive gotten closer to and now can have those nice long convos with !! and it was all just in the guild chat so anyone could read the next day lol but idc ! it was fun! plus my name on the game is selene which is Not my real name lol i just like the name a lot and it always makes me giggle when they say “lol, i know right selene??” and stuff and im like heh.. yea, das me 😎 idk the guild leader gave me the “life of the party” tag and said she loves my energy and it just feels so good bc i know i am just so cripplingly socially anxious irl and that’s why i can talk so easily online and love talking online so much more. like im still ME, but… not Fully being perceived to a point where i feel uncomfy or anything LOL . it’s been nice

i think imma keep playing after the month is up, i rly enjoy my guild and the ppl ive met thru it :’)

ANYWAYS!! i also think im gonna go to therapy/go to my family doctor to get reccs on therapists and maybe a psychiatrist? psychologist? idk i wanna get evaluated for… well let’s just save that for when i get evaluated bc if i don’t even have anything wrong with me and my dumbass rly gets laughed out of the office by the doctor saying “LUL no u rly just gotta try harder bruh” imma feel like a damn Fool LMAO. BUT yeah. that’ll hopefully be a thing i book this month.

also gonna be responsible and Not over spend on food when i get paid, like delivery and whatnot… but i Will be buying lifetime subscriptions to a couple japanese apps on my phone that i think will be easy access and help me learn japanese to a point of comfortability before i start college again. 😎

OKAY IM DONE WHEW. rant over :)

[spacexcowgirl]

Hi Rose!!! 🫐 and 🍈 for the ask game pls <33

hi em!! ty :)

🫐 What’s your favorite underrated thing in your fandom? (A ship that only you seem to write for, a character there’s almost no fics about, a trope that criminally hasn’t been written yet, etc.)

okay so. I haven’t posted for this ship and I think no one will agree with me but this is probably my time to come out as… a prongsfoot shipper. I have read like every fic under the tag on ao3. I have ranted to maggie about why they work. I have felt the shame of even considering them.

they’re certainly not my favorite pairing together, and they’re one of those ships that a lot of the time, I don’t really see working out in the long run, but it can be so fun. really this all just comes down to the fact that I am first and foremost a friends to lovers girlie, and if done well, they can be so good.

I think it comes down to like a lot of people really love and relate to regulus, and then can see him in various pairings. and while I love him, i’m not sure I relate to him? so I struggle when he’s in any other ship bc i’m like wait. no. it has to be jeg. so on the flip, i’m kinda down to read james with anyone? like will entertain almost any of it. idk if that makes sense? essentially I just love james and am happy to read him in most pairings bc im still reading him.

otherwise I think ravenclaw barty is pretty underrated and enjoy when I see that occasionally!

🍈 Who’s your blorbo and what are some of your favorite headcanons/ideas about them that repeatedly show up in your fics? Free pass to rant about blorbo opinions.

mmm james. always james.

i’m trying to think of specific things I include about him in all of my fics though.

I always see him as desi, even if I don’t tag it bc it doesn’t come up. but in both of my long fics, it is tagged, and ive specifically dived a bit into what state in india his family was from, bits of their culture, traditional foods, etc. the only time ive ever been out of north america was when I went to India when I was 14? 15? so i’ve really enjoyed like showcasing a bit of desi james beyond just saying he’s desi.

otherwise, I don’t really subscribe to the sunshine headcanon? i’ve used metaphors about the sun before, bc they’re easy lmao, but he is not like. this always happy always perfect guy. in fact he is like, usually a major fuck up in my fics. and I think that’s good! let him make his mistakes, yanno?

idk if any of this makes sense or if it’s all too long but ty for the asks again <3

fic writer asks

[idiolex]

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first of all hi, my name is idiolex, or literally any of the other names i go by (there are many), call me lex if you want something shorter i guess? i write on ao3, and uh. that's basically it LMAO. here's my linktree for anything else you may desire.

i'm new to this whole actually-organised-blog thing, so this may be a bit messy, sorry if i've done anything wrong!

all posts will be tagged with their respective fandom tags: our flag means death, hannibal, harry potter, mcu, etc, you get it

all posts relating to any of my fanfics will be posted under the abbreviation of their titles (because i have. long ass fucking titles), so, for example, don't meet in the middle would be #dmitm. any fics with 3 words or less will just be tagged with their title :3 (title tags only get added to the tags of this post if/when i actually post about that fic)

#idiotlex - shitposting of any kind. probably largely about fandom

#parasocialex - chatting about my personal life, basically anything non fandom related

#analysis - talking about Actual Stuff about the shows, being a lil bit more serious

#uh oh im being super pretentious again - is what is sounds like. any kind of poetic anything + any time i'm getting too up my own ass about media analysis

#idiowips - i'm working on stuff. i'm working on stuff and complaining about it, mostly. i'm working on stuff and screaming about how sad i'm making myself, quite a bit.

#comment of the week - i'm trying this out so fingers crossed ill remember, but just my fav comment i've received in the week :D

#ao3 - anything funny i find on ao3 lol

#asks - is self explanatory tbh

#statistics - any cool graphics from or responses to my google form of people who read my shit, which is here if you're interested!!

okay rant over, enjoy the tumblr, bye bye!!

(tags are all on this post for easy searching)

[averysjameson]

"eye to eye, it was hard not to remember that when jameson kissed a girl, it wasn't tentative. it wasn't gentle. it wasn't real, i reminded myself."

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"i needed... something. it didn't have to mean anything. there didn't have to be feelings involved. "fine," i said, my voice rough in my throat. "let's call off the bet."

i expected him to kiss me then—to take advantage of my moment of weakness, to push me back against the wall and wait for my head to angle up toward his, wait for a yes. he looked like he wanted to. i wanted it."

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"he doesn't want me," i told max. "not really. he wants the mystery. he wants to keep me close until he can use me. i'm a part of the puzzle to him."

"but...," max prompted, "would you like to be used by him?"

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"nothing ever feels real to you," i whispered, but the magical thing was that i didn't care. this didn't have to be real to be right. "this... us..." i let my lips hover over his. "it doesn't have to be anything other than what it is. no messy feelings. no obligations. no promises. no expectations."

"just this," jameson whispered, and pulled my body tight to his.

"just this." it was better than riding on the back of a motorcyle going a thousand miles an hour or standing on a rooftop fifty stories tall. it wasn't just the rush or the thrill. i felt completely, utterly in control. i felt unstoppable."

-

"what am i doing?" i asked max, feeling like i was in a maze now. "jameson and i are..."

"what?" max probed.

i shook my head. "i don't know." i knew what jameson and i were supposed to be: adrenaline and attraction and the thrill of the moment. no strings attached. no messy emotions.

so why did i feel like i'd betrayed him?"

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aka just some of the moments where avery feels like she can't have all of jameson, will never have all of jameson, but she will take whatever he is willing to give her. she can't want him, not like she previously did because she believes he doesn't want her. so she'll want him like this. she'll have him like this if this is all he's willing to give her. they'll be friends who kiss, friends who have undeniable chemistry but no strings attached. they have an understanding: no mess, no one gets hurt. it isn't real. but as avery said, even when it's not real, it doesn't mean it's not right.

this entire time, as skye put it, she was already his.

[spacepunksupreme]

Ough guys Im gonna rant about Feyd in the tags again, it’s about his angsty haircut again

[alyisintrouble]

[the-game-spirit]

uuuugggggghhhhhhhhh

[raavasgf]

Hnskdjldbk happy for you!

sksk thanks anon 💀😭