#okay i'll stop being a 🤡 now

[currymanganese]

When this plays over the Sydcarmy sex scene in Season 5, what then? 🥴

[edenesth]

Clumsy Hearts, Steady Love

Pairing: boyfriend!Hongjoong x fem!reader

AU: non-idol au

Word Count: 2.4k

Summary: He was a great friend but a terrible lover, and he knew it. For the longest time, he believed he wasn’t cut out for relationships. But then you came along, and for the first time, he wanted to try. He wanted to be better, to be good for you, even if it meant being clumsy along the way. For you, he was willing to learn how to love.

A/N: Only @itstheghostofmypast knows this was initially meant to be a timestamp🤡

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"Don't drive today, darling. I'll pick you up from work this evening."

Those words from Kim Hongjoong echoed in your mind. For the first time in a year of being together, he offered to pick you up. Your heart soared at the unexpected sweetness from him.

It wasn't that you thought he was a bad boyfriend, but you knew his nature from the very beginning. Your friends had warned you when you accepted him; he was a workaholic, someone who would always put anything and everything before you. A good friend but a bad lover—that was his reputation. Yet, you couldn't deny the way he made your heart race, the way his presence made everything better, the way he vowed to love you as you deserved, the way he promised he would try for you.

From the start, you knew what you were getting into. You didn't expect perfection. You didn't want perfection.

You just wanted him.

But loving Hongjoong truly was not easy.

It could be exhausting. Perhaps today was another one of those days.

You had looked forward to this day for so long, hoping he would be the boyfriend he promised to be. But deep down, you knew better than to have such high hopes.

Letting out what felt like the thousandth sigh of the day, you nearly froze to death from being soaked in the rain, your ankle throbbed from a sprained heel as you stood by the bus stop outside your office building where he was supposed to pick you up.

But he was nowhere to be seen.

Every call went straight to voicemail, escalating your worry to panic. You didn’t dare move, fearing he might arrive at an empty bus stop.

After hours of agony, trying to reach him, and calling all his friends, you got the same useless response: he was unreachable, and they had no idea where he could be.

Three hours.

You sat there for three hours, sick with worry about him, when you were the one who needed care, only to end up taking the bus home. So much for the excitement and anticipation of him picking you up for the first time. You should have been furious, but the pounding headache and rising fever stole that from you. Another heavy sigh escaped your lips, the disappointment of what should have been an exciting Friday evening turning into an utter disaster.

"Enough, my darling. I'm here now, am I not?" said Kim Hongjoong.

The audacity.

You had left work to be greeted by a heavy downpour, cursing yourself for not bringing an umbrella. As if things couldn't get worse, your sprint to the bus stop where he promised to pick you up was interrupted when your heel chose that moment to snap. You yelped in pain, stumbling forward onto the wet ground, your belongings scattering everywhere. Crawling on the rough pavement to collect them, you finally stood up, only to feel a sharp throb in your ankle.

But it was supposed to be okay because seeing Hongjoong was sure to make everything better.

Ha, bitch you thought.

He left you panicking like a mad woman for hours, only to show up in the most infuriating way. When the 8pm bus finally rolled to a stop before you and the automated doors swooshed opened, you were busy dialling his number yet again.

"Come on, pick up pick up pick up—"

Wait a minute, is that...?

You did a double take when the very person you had been desperately trying to reach this whole time stepped off the bus with a sheepish smile, only for his expression to fall when he saw the miserable state you were in.

"Please throw your phone away if you have no intention of using it," you said flatly, walking past him and intentionally bumping his shoulder as you boarded the bus, no longer caring if he followed.

Of course, he did.

He cursed under his breath, noticing your limp, the heels in your hand, and your soaked, shivering form.

Settling into the last row of seats beside you, he quickly took off his jacket and wrapped it around you. You were too weak to fight back or refuse. His heart ached as he pulled you close, rubbing his hands up and down your arms to warm you up. Silently, you accepted it all. Not only were you too exhausted to reject his gestures, but you also felt you deserved this and more after what you had endured. When you were warm enough, he immediately checked on your now swollen and bruised ankle, careful not to hurt you. The concern in his eyes was enough to melt your heart, but he didn't need to know that.

Once he was done fussing over you, he leaned back in his seat, offering his shoulder. Stubbornly, you turned away and leaned your head against the window instead. Knowing you needed time to calm down, he kept quiet and let you be, but not without staying close. He needed you to know he was there for you.

When you sighed again, he could no longer take it. He felt the need to explain himself.

"I know you're mad, and you have every right to be," he began, his voice soft and sincere. "I messed up, and I'm so sorry. I got caught up in something I couldn't get out of, and I swear I was going to call you, but my phone died and the stupid car broke down. God, I'm such an idiot. I should have tried harder to reach you or get to you sooner."

Still, you said nothing, your silence more punishing than any words you could have spoken. He sighed, running a hand through his hair, clearly at a loss.

"I love you," he whispered, almost to himself. "I just want to make things right."

For a moment, you softened, but the memory of the cold rain and the throbbing pain in your ankle kept your resolve firm. He had to understand the gravity of his actions.

Finally, you spoke, your voice barely above a whisper. "You can't just show up and expect everything to be okay, Joong. You scared me. I thought something terrible had happened to you. And all the while, I was the one who was hurt and alone."

"I know," he said, his voice cracking. "And I'm so, so sorry, my darling. Please, give me a chance to make it up to you."

You turned to face him, meeting his eyes for the first time since he got on the bus. The sincerity and regret in his gaze were undeniable.

"One chance, Kim Hongjoong," you said firmly. "Don't mess it up."

He nodded, relief washing over his face. "I won't. I promise."

With that, you leaned back against the window, still not ready to forgive, but willing to see if he could truly make amends. And for the rest of the ride, he stayed close, his presence a silent vow that he would try his best to make things right.

As you slowly drifted to sleep, he guided your head to his shoulder, gently pressing his cheek against your forehead. Feeling your breath steady and the tension ease from your body, he allowed himself a small, relieved smile. He reached for your cold hands, stroking his fingers against your skin to warm you, finding it funny how he used to judge couples in public, but now that he had you, he realised he couldn't blame them—you were all that mattered.

The truth was, he had been late leaving work today, and to make matters worse, his car had broken down in the middle of heavy traffic. When he tried to call you, his phone had died. In desperation, he had caught the quickest bus he could find, but traffic had been relentless. He could have told you all of this, but he didn’t want to make excuses. He knew he should have done better.

Hongjoong glanced down at you, his heart aching with tenderness and guilt. He was still clumsy when it came to love, but for you, he would learn to be a better lover. Stroking your hair gently, he whispered, "I’m so sorry. I won't make you wait again. I promise to do better. I promise to always be there for you."

The bus ride continued in peaceful silence, the hum of the engine and the occasional jostle of the road the only sounds. He held you close, vowing silently to never let you down again. As the bus neared your stop, he adjusted his position, cupping your cheek softly and kissing your head, whispering, "We're here, darling."

You let out a small groan as your eyes fluttered open, unconsciously snuggling closer to his warmth and comfort as you tried to register your surroundings. If only you knew what your little actions did to his poor heart. Tightening his grip around you, he helped you up from your seat and carefully guided you out of the bus, ensuring you didn't put pressure on your injured ankle. The driver gave you a sympathetic nod as the two of you stepped off. The rain had slowed to a drizzle, and the night was calm.

As you walked the short distance to your shared apartment, you suddenly remembered what had happened and peeled his hands off you. You weren't necessarily cold to him but you still needed space to cool off. He gulped, his fear of losing you was apparent. "Please, you're hurt. Let me take care of you."

To be fair, he knew he deserved your reaction. You weren't upset merely because of what happened today; he believed this was you letting out all the frustration you had kept in for the entirety of your one-year relationship. And he knew now that if he wanted to keep you by his side, this was his sign to take things more seriously.

No more excuses.

You had been nothing but the best and most attentive girlfriend to him. So, what was stopping him from doing the same for you?

He knew you didn't want to be near him right now, but he also didn't have the heart to stay away. Offering his hand, he nodded toward it. "Come, let's go home."

Tired out of your mind, you swallowed your anger, deciding to save it for another time. For now, you needed him. You reached out with a pout, surprising him by holding onto his pointer finger. "Fine, let's go."

He chuckled, his heart bursting with affection at how cute you were. This was better than nothing. Walking slowly, he made sure you weren't hurting yourself, each step a reminder of his promise to himself and you.

As you entered your apartment, he helped you settle onto the couch, your injured ankle elevated and cushioned. He fetched a blanket and wrapped it around you, his eyes filled with concern. "I'll make us some tea," he said softly, heading to the kitchen.

While he prepared the tea, you watched him move with a newfound determination. You could see he was trying, truly trying, to be better for you. And that thought, more than anything, began to melt the icy wall you had momentarily built up in your heart.

He returned with two steaming mugs, setting them on the table before sitting beside you. He took your hand gently, his thumb rubbing circles on your skin. "I know I have a lot to make up for," he whispered, his voice thick with emotion. "But I promise, I will. You mean everything to me."

You looked into his eyes, seeing the honesty and love there. It was a start, and as you sipped your tea together, you felt a glimmer of hope that things could truly change.

Just as you finished your tea, you sighed and looked up at him, intending to get up and head to your room. But before you could move, he gently squeezed your hand and stood up. "Let me help you," he insisted, his voice gentle yet firm.

You hesitated, feeling torn between wanting to assert your independence and appreciating his newfound care. "I can manage," you insisted weakly.

"I know you can, darling," he replied softly, crouching beside you. "But let me take care of you this time, please."

His sincerity was palpable, and despite your initial resistance, you found yourself nodding. He carefully helped you to your feet, supporting your weight as you limped towards your room. Once inside, he waited patiently as you freshened up and changed into dry clothes, his presence a reassuring warmth in the quiet of the room.

As you emerged, feeling somewhat more composed, you glanced at him gratefully. "Thank you, Joong," you murmured, genuinely touched by his unexpected tenderness.

He smiled softly, his eyes reflecting relief and determination. "It's only my job as your boyfriend," he replied earnestly.

Returning to the living room, you settled back onto the couch together. The warmth of his tea and his presence beside you enveloped you in a sense of security and hope. Perhaps, just perhaps, things could indeed change for the better between you.

You couldn't deny his affections any longer, his pleading look was enough to melt you into his embrace. As he gently pulled the throw blanket snugly around you, drawing you closer, your heart fluttered. His actions conveyed a heartfelt apology, reminding you why you could never leave this man, no matter how tiring things became. At the end of the day, you both belonged to each other, despite his occasional clumsiness; your love remained steadfast.

Nuzzling against his neck, you breathed in his familiar scent. "How's the car? Have you contacted insurance?" you murmured, slipping effortlessly into the role of the attentive girlfriend he knew so well.

With a tender smile, he shook his head. "Don't worry about that. I'll take care of it. Take care of everything. Take care of you."

His words made your heart skip a beat, and you tightened your grip on his sweater. "Don't make promises you can't keep, Kim Hongjoong," you teased gently.

He reassured you with a squeeze of your shoulder. "I won't, my darling. Not anymore."

Looking up at your boyfriend, you could see the honesty in his eyes. You knew perfection wasn't guaranteed from this point onward, but you at least trusted that he would always give his best effort.

And that was what mattered most.

"If you say so," you whispered, your eyes closing as he leaned in to press his lips against yours. Hongjoong understood your doubts, but this was where he would begin to earn your trust.

From now on, he would do everything to be the lover you deserved. He would learn from his mistakes and grow, all for the sake of the person he loved most in the world.

I swear, this came out of nowhere lmfao. I was supposed to be working on Jongho's TWTHH spinoff but this happened. Tbf, this has been swirling in my mind for the past week at work because something similar happened to me. I was soaked in the rain and my heel did snap. The 3-hour wait was also a past experience of mine, except that douchebag was no Kim Hongjoong HAHA

Thank you for reading and I hope you lovelies enjoyed this random little oneshot. As always, let me know your thoughts! <3

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july 2024 savanaclaw + 4koma manga updates

There's no Episode of Octavinelle chapter this month! It should also be noted that the next chapter for the Episode of Savanaclaw won't be out until DECEMBER. With that news out of the way, let's get into this month's updates ^^ (It's a lot of me screaming)

Aaaaaah, I'll never get over how pretty this mangaka draws Leona's eyes and hair 😳 LIKE LOOK AT THAT HEAD TURN BACK SHOT, DOES HE NOT LOOK LIKE HE'S A MODEL MAKING A TURN ON THE CATWALK???? ?? ? ????? ? ?? Vil... eat your heart out 🤡 (This probably is not what I should be focusing on in a chapter full of action and high stakes qwegkuvqwoevqwdsa)

The way the other characters are reacting to Leona's UM really lets us see how powerful King's Roar is! You can see how their bodies are being pushed back by the sandstorm, how they're physically bracing themselves against it (like Riddle, Ace, and Grim) or even having their vision obscured and struggling to breathe in the new dry environment (like Deuce).

I didn't share them here, but we also see Leona blowing through many Savanaclaw mobs. The sheer magnitude of power on display is really amazing--and I can see why his UM sparks fear in others.

AYO RUGGIE YOU GO He leaps at Leona and attaches himself to his dorm leader in an attempt to try and get him to stop...

(Warning: lot of barking incoming)

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It's not like seeing Ruggie in this state is anything new; the dialogue hints at it in the game and the light novel also has an illustration of Ruggie with his skin cracking from Leona's UM. It's just... something about seeing it depicted across multiple frames + the sheer desperation in Ruggie's face (and the close-ups, MAN, the close-ups) really amplifies the emotions.

THIS IS LITERALLY THE SASUKE CHOKE MEME, ID ON'T TKNOW WHETHER TO LAUGH OR TO CRY OR TO BE WORRIED FOR TRUGIGIE

MAYBE ALL THREE 😭😭😭

DAHLBEFQBOUFQEYVIQEFYFQEBIPFOA But also there's a part of me screeching about L*ona gripping your neck like that while glaring at you like you're garbo 🤡

Here's the part where Riddle attempts to collar Leona and fails. Again, I MUST stress how well this mangaka draws Leona's hair and eyes, they are UNMATCHED.

OKAY FIRST IT WAS HUGGING RUGGIE'S NECK, NOW YOU'RE GRIPPING HIM BY THE HAIR????? Leona's handling the perceived traitor so callously 💦 The way Ruggie is looking back up at him, too... Caught up in Leona's shadow and glaring at him with such defiance... declaring that he will never EVER give up.., contrasted with how broken and empty Leona looks before he lets go of Ruggie... telling him to just give into despair… It's a lot of complicated feelings going on right now. As the Savanaclaw light novel elucidates, Leona was afraid of his own dorm members looking to him for leadership, afraid that they would make him hopeful again--because he expects to be let down like he has all those other times he tried to prove his merits. Now everything leading up to this point has proven him right, toppled that hope he had built up because he let himself be taken in by the starry eyed students under him, Ruggie included. AND NOW LOOKING AT RUGGIE, ON THE GROUND AND IN DESPAIR, IS A REFLECTION OF LEONA'S OWN FEELINGS... BUT HE WON'T LET HIMSELF CRY OR BE WEAK LIKE THAT 💀

WOW UH This feels really different from how the same "Leona tried to sand Ruggie" scenes played out in other interpretations of TWST. Here, we more clearly see that, despite the interruption of Riddle trying to collar Leona (which made Leona drop Ruggie for a second), LEONA JUST TURNS RIGHT BACK AROUND AND FULLY COMMITS TO SANDING RUGGIE????? That's so stone cold 😭 Look at the lack of care in Leona's eyes???? They're so blank, he has entirely given up :((

What a way to end a chapter...

Now for a complete tonal shift--

This month's 4koma (there's only one "segment") stars Sebek, who is receiving praise from Crewel for having the top exam score! Ace and Sebek proceed to work on Enigmics/Magic Analysis together. They are stated to share this class together in the game, so that's a consistent bit of lore for ya! In the end, Sebek's able to pull a transportation spell by visualizing where Malleus is. He earns an apple from Crewel for being a "good boy"!! Sebek is then asked to teleport the apple to Malleus and Lilia to demonstrate his mastery of the skill, but accidentally teleports a ton of them.

That's it for this month! A little less content than usual, but still quite substantive. We're getting down to the wire; soon we'll see both Leona and Azul's OBs!!

[landograndprix]

clarity ✾ c.l

summary – in which Charles and reader can't get along until they do.

a/n – requests are open!

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y/nusername

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y/nusername definitely not what we expected after some issues during practice and qualifying but p2 is a welcome suprise. We'll keep pushing and give our all next week.

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y/nfan32 you killed it today ❤️

scuderiaferrari girl power 🙌

zhou_ey the battle between you and max was the highlight of the race, a well deserved p1 & p2 if you ask me.

charles_leclerc 👏👏

carlando_ boy are you being hold hostage, is she holding a gun against your head? what are you doing here?💀

tifosired Fred doing everything to make them like each other I see 😂

lunaaar he didn't 👏👏 when they 'bumped' into each other in the media pen 😂

daisyyy lmao not y/n her fault he ended in p6, boy is always mad when she finishes higher

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f1.memes a collection of charles' face whenever someone mentioned y/n in HIS interviews 🤣

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leclerc_16 lmfao stop this man is too much sometimes

thurthur lando liking this is sending me 😭

dannyric3 the grid knows

thurthur like half the world knows lol

norrisfour y'all think he sends this to charles and y/n 🤡

thurthur oh definitely :')

maxmaxver y/n just suck his dick already, he's done waiting

emmaaaa 😭 😭 y'all too much

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maxmaxver we just know it's what will ease the air between them 👀

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc pole and p1 this weekend🏆

car was feeling really great, amazing team effort @/scuderiaferrari ❤️

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marck6 phenomenal race once again!

leclerccharles16 😍😍

scuderiaferrari thats how we do it 👏

damian00 took you long enough to get them a good enough car

tifosi_16 always our p1 🥰

y/nusername 🏆🏆

leklerkc Charles holding a gun against y/n's head right now 😆

y/nfan289 Charles said comment on my post like I was forced to do last week 💀

norlando "Okay at least I got a podium too unlike you last week." – y/n probably after Charles forced her to comment :')

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y/nusername summer break with the kids 🐶 😺

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y/nfan4 I would in fact die for ruby and milo if I need to

charlie_16 ruby and roscoe playdate when?

hammyton didn't they try that before but ruby is like terrified of roscoe 😭

y/nleclercc yeah they met in Monaco last year and my girl ruby was like 'is that a boy? Disgusting, get me outta here.' 😂

bott_ass imagine being afraid of roscoe :')

Zhouey24 why's milo staring at me like that what does he want..my soul?

y/nusername the more the merrier 😻

landonorris what book are you reading, racing for dummies?

y/nusername bet you laughed real hard at that when you thought of it..

y/nusername I'll give it to you after the break, god knows you need it

landonorris ouch..okay

landoscar 💀 welp if charles and y/n isn't going to happen, let it be these two

ferraricharles Charles what are you doing here? 🤣

chilisainz 👀 👀

Hannahh don't think we don't see you Charles

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landonorris posted on his story

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y/nusername team-building or something..I don't know, something in the contract that we didn't read when signing it..kinda fancy him I guess ❤️

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grussel63 we've come a long way lads but we've made it, they've finally seen the light. Good job everyone 👏

ricricdaniel took y'all long enough..:))

charles_leclerc ❤️❤️

y/nusername ❤️❤️

scuderiaferrari what a team 👏

sainzjr55 yall better keep an eye on the drivers' rooms 💀

charlesnyn finally 🥰🥰

danielricciardo @/landonorris so when are we going on some team-building trip?

landonorris soon, I'm planning something as we speak

danielricciardo thanks babe

norrylando when I tell you I love the grid, this is what I meant 💀

[robin374]

I saw that your requests were open and I jumped into action lol

Any ideas for the Mercs and reader with an “only one bed” trope? (Love the stuff youve written btw <3)

One Bed Trope with the mercs (part 1)

I'm gonna start with Demoman because he is my husband and gets the privilege of being the first.

Demoman ❤️

He just wanted to sleep man 😭

When you two finished the assigned mission that Miss Pauling gave you two, you went to the hotel/motel (how do you call it in English?). When you entered the room the first thing you two saw was a single big bed, for two people.

You looked at Demo and he was awkwardly standing there. He couldn't believe his eye

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"I'll sleep on the floor, don't worry Demo." "No, Y/N. I've slept in all kinds of places, I think I can handle sleeping on the floor" "And that's exactly why you are sleeping in the bed"

At the end, you two decide to sleep in the same bed. He couldn't help but feel nervous, like yeah, he has slept at the top of Edinburgh's castle. Or with some random seals at a random beach. But he's never slept with the person he's in love with.

With that said, he remembers those words his Mom told him once.

"You better get a job, Tavish!"

I could give him a good job-

I don't know why he remembered that, don't ask me.

HE'S SO WARM KSDKAODJAKL I feel like his body would be so warm, because of the amount of alcohol he consumes.

He snores a little bit. Just tiny tiny tiny tiny little bit. 🤏

Not as much as Heavy at least.

He's a heavy sleeper so good luck trying to wake him up

I feel like he would see it as an opportunity to confess his feelings. Like you two are talking while laying down in bed, and casually spits it out. By the time you realize what he said, he is already sound asleep, his back facing you.

"I'm in love with you, Y/N" "Hmm? What did you say? I didn't hear you *Scottish snoring*

Scout 🤡

HE DOES NOT HESITATE 🗣️🗣️

He knows what these situations are about and he will not let it slide so easily.

He doesn't even ask you if you are okay with sleeping with him, he just says "I'm so tired, let's sleep!" And he launches himself towards the bed.

He will pat the space next to him silently telling you to sleep too.

But then reality hits him like a rock, he is sleeping with you. He is really happy, any girl would've slapped him at tha exact moment, but you just accepted your fate.

He doesn't snore, but he does this thing that dogs do that is moving his legs as if he was running.

You better be a heavy sleeper because he talks while sleeping.

"Spy stole my chicken and now I can't eat my bullets. " "Scout are you awake?" "Fuck you Spy, I miss my chicken :("

He got so red when he woke up in the morning. You were still asleep, that's the first thing he saw after opening his eyes. He wanted to kiss you so bad.

"Good morning, toots. You've slept well?"

He's so in love with istg.

But he won't confess, he wants to keep this as a (really) good memory and confess after he's sure that you feel the same.

Scared of rejection I guess.

Engie 🤠

He's so casual about it.

He has to sleep in the same bed as his crush? Well, darn.

"It is what it is" energy.

You don't want him to sleep on the floor and he doesn't want you to sleep on the floor. Oh no, sadly we will have to sleep in the same bed :( (that's sarcasm for those confused)

"Come here, sugar, I don't bite." Unless you want me to.

He snores more than Demo sorry, it's bearable though. It's like having a horse next to you huffing and puffiing. A horse you don't mind to ride (ok I'll stop now sorry lmao)

He's like a teddy bear, he doesn't mind if you hug him. On the contrary, he will "unintentionally" pull you closer.

He would wake up in the middle of the night, because he's not used to sleeping like a normal person would do. So he will take advantage of it and admire your beautiful face. How the moonlight delicatedly lights your face, your closed eyes giving that feel of calmness... He will eventually kiss your forehead and go back to sleep.

He won't say a word about it in the morning. He will just greet you like always do in the base and get back to work.

In the inside he's screaming, dancing, running, whooping of joy. For him, it's one little step more to you being his pardner.

[youremyheaven]

I had some perspective altering sex with this Bharani Sun & Mercury man. He's been obsessed with me for over a year (idk what it is but men who want me, pursue me for years 😳) and he calls himself my "admirer" and he's just madly blindly completely taken by me, I'd never casually say that about anyone but for a year and a half, this guy has been there for me in a way nobody ever has 😭😭and he's never even met me. He came to my city today morning from ANOTHER STATE just to see me 😭😭😭😭and we had a great time just hanging out and stuff but then we went back to his hotel room and he was just being casual and just talking to me and stuff but then the vibe changed and I started to kiss him 😳and then he stopped me and hugged me and said "I don't deserve to have sex with a woman like you. Please never forget your worth. You're so precious, very very few people deserve to see you naked" 😭😭😭😭😭 I felt so ???? like he's 34 and he's very protective of me in a big brotherly way and he's just always seen me in such a positive light??? and i felt kinda embarrassed 🤡and he literally just lay there hugging me and told me how I'll go very far in life and how I have a bright future ahead of me and how he feels blessed to even get to hold me like this 😭😭😭 but then the vibe changed and he went down on me, and kissed every square inch of my skin and ate my 🍑and idk if this is a Bharani guy thing but both arm guy and this guy (who I'll call bald guy because he's a skinhead) just stare at me lying down or lying on top of me and don't do anything 😭😭😭 Venusian men are kinda awkward at making love I feel like??? Both of them treat me like I'm too precious to be fucked which I really like kinda tbh but sometimes you just want someone to fck you like a ragdoll if ykwim 😭😭😭😭 and both of them say the same exact thing "I just want to take it all in" like ok king but I want to take it all in too 😭😭INSIDE ME THO 😭😭 and I'm literally begging him to fck me and he says he can't 🤡🤡🤡 and I was like huh 😳 and he said he cannot bring himself to fuck me 😭😭 I WOULD'VE SCREAMED, like I'm horny out of my mind 😭and idk if y'all know what it's like to be edged BUT THAT SHIT IS PAINFUL 😖😫 and I gave up and we're just cuddling and talking about stuff and he says "I love you, if you ever need anything I'm here for you, I've loved you for a year and a half now and I've always dreamt of saying it to you and now I get to, so here, I love you" 😭😭😭😳🤡 and so many of his habits in bed reminded me of arm guy ngl 😭🤡 down to some of the things they said to me and the moment they said it etc 🤡🤡🤡 it's the Bharani effect I think 😳😳😳and by that point I lost all hope but then he started touching me again and finally he lost all self control and he was like fck it and FINALLY put it in 😌😌 and when i tell you, i saw stars 😩😩 but he lost his hardness and couldn't finish and said he wasn't feeling confident and I told him it's okay because I didn't even care about cumming at that point, I just wanted to be pounded into 😭😭😭 and then we finally left 😭he dropped me home in a rickshaw (he didn't have to come but he still did 🥺) and he spent hella money today just paying for everything 🫶 and in the rickshaw he told me "if anybody asks you who I am, tell them I'm your sugar daddy" 😭😭🤡 he was just joking obviously but it kinda felt like it 😳😤😳

But it was so emotional and so healing in some ways and just the way he handled my body like I was made of crystal or something 😭 really 🤌🤌rewired my brain I feel like 😭😭😭

[ashomodeus]

may i ask for a chubby trans man mc with self confidence issues losing his virginity? very self indulgent ik, doesn’t matter which characters really but preferably at least asmo, luci and levi (maybe mephisto idk) but i wouldn’t mind if you did the rest of em that’s up to you ＿|￣|○ - 🤡 anon

HOLY SHIT YES???

I do apologize for any triggers this may cause, especially dysphoria, for others. You are all valid and seen. Not every trans person experiences the same feelings as others, but the important thing is that you are seen and heard here. I'm so sorry this took longer than I wanted. Work has been KICKING MY ASS. I'm so sorry if this wasn't what you wanted.

Trans M!Mc Losing his virginity

content warning: some smut, hella comfort, chubby Mc. Grammar sucks. Lucifer, Levi, Asmo, Mephehe (his part is shorter due to my lack of knowledge. I'm so sorry). After doing research, there is not much M!Mc x Mapleleaf, Maybe I'll change that.

Amen Beyonce.

Lucifer

Lucifer has taken his time getting to know Mc. He's noticed Mc has had issues with his body. He tends to avoid mirrors but when he does look you could just feel him picking apart at himself like a game of I spy. Lucifer never understood why. Every curve of his is all he could think of.

Lucifer reminded Mc everyday that his body is beautiful. He knew times were emotional so he never mentioned how badly he wanted Mc to ride him and just claim him as his. He overheard Mc talking about being a virgin and now everything he does just drives Lucifer insane.

Once they got close enough, Mc came out to Lucifer as a transman. He's educated on Mc's file and already knew, he actually even forgot. "Oh Mc that's completely okay with me" Mc sighed with a breath of relief. Lucifer offers to take him out on a proper date. During that date things got a bit heated with soft touching and heavy flirting. Lucifer and Mc raced to his bedroom and locked the door. Mc began to kiss Lucifer and started to strip Lucifer's clothing. Lucifer begins to undress Mc once he gets to Mc's boxers Mc stops Lucifer's hand.

"I need a second..." Mc was catching his breath. He rushed off to the bathroom and stared at the mirror. He started to stare at his body and felt disgusted. Tears began to fill his eyes but he cannot let them go. "Once I go back out he'll realize it's a mistake". He took a deep breath and walked back out. He grabbed his clothes from the floor and tried to put them back on.

"Is everything okay?" Lucifer looked confused at Mc getting dressed. He covered himself before grabbing Mc's wrist to stop him.

"I'm stopping you from making a mistake. I mean look at me. I'm chubby, I'm a virgin, and I'm trans. You deserve a rea-" Mc was cut off by a very upset Lucifer.

"Real. What? If you're implying what I think you're implying you're wrong." Lucifer said sternly. "You're handsome and sexy and I would love nothing more than to rip your clothing off and have you in this bed. You're saying you're chubby as if it's a bad thing. It's more for me to mark up and love." Lucifer sat Mc down and started to kiss his face. "You are real to me."

Mc let a tear fall and Lucifer immediately wiped it up. Mc took a shaky breath.

"You mean it" Mc asked.

"I'll show you how much I mean it. I'll take it slow, I promise" Lucifer Lays Mc down. He takes off the remainder of his own personal clothes and leaves Mc fully clothed. He kisses down the areas of exposed skin on MC's body then proceeded to take off Mc's shirt. He kissed and sucked every part of Mcs neck even leaving a few bite marks. At first it tickled Mc but every small bite had Mc let out a deep moan. The idea of Mc cumming for the first time on Lucifers dick had him rock hard. His cock was twitching for action but he wanted to make sure Mc was okay first.

Mc slowly rubbed Mc's belly placing small kisses everywhere. He got close to the band on MC's boxers and looked up. Mc gave a small hesitant nod. Lucifer slowly pulled down the boxers and kissed Mc's inner thigh. He sat himself up and positioned himself to Mc's hole. He looked up at Mc but Mc was so flustered and needy that he tried to have Lucifer go in already.

"Patience" He smirked as he slowly thrusted his hip. Mc instantly moaned. Lucifers size was a bit overwhelming but it distracted them from any negative thoughts that he could currently have. One of the most powerful demons are taking his virginity. Lucifer stayed still for a bit to make sure Mc was okay. He stared at Mcs body once more and he felt his cock twitch, eager for some movement. Mc immediately nodded and Lucifer got down to Mc's ear and whispered.

"You're taking me like such a good boy let's see if you can handle a bit of speed. Someone needs to punish you for all those thoughts." Lucifer began to thrust his hips harder making sure to carress his body. He wanted to fuck Mc dumb. That's exactly what he did to him. As Mc got close Lucifer steady his pace. The sounds of both of their moans echo in the room. Lucifer was trying his best to hold everything in to let Mc enjoy his time. Once Mc realized this he immediately came. Euphoria waved over him as he just came first the first time with the help of someone else. His body relaxed but as soon as he did Lucifer pulled out. "Uh Uh uh... Mc you need to realize that this is my house and I make the rules. It's going to be hard for you to talk poorly of yourself when your mouth is full." Mc looked at Lucifer confused as Lucifer gets up and shoves his dick in Mc’s mouth.

He took care of Mc after their first times together. After that anytime Mc thought poorly of themselves Lucifer would fuck his perfect boyfriend until he could no longer think.

Levi

Mc came out to Levi as soon as he met him. Levi just had this comforting way with supporting him. Levi showed him anime with trans characters. He was infatuated with Mc. He felt so honored when Mc came out to him. The two have gotten so close. So many gaming sessions turned into hot and heavy make out sessions. Mc would always cut make out sessions short by running to his room and just hiding. Levi respected Mc's privacy but he always felt rejected and thought Mc just didnt actually like Levi. One night after a makeout session Mc runs off to his room. He accidentally left the door cracked as he paced back and forth.

"Of course he doesn't want you Mc he wants someone who is better looking and doesn't have as many issues as I am. Maybe someone with default settings on their character customization" He stop to stare at his mirror. He starred daggers at his body. "Why would someone as amazing and caring as Levi waste their time on me." Mc just wanted to be able to love Levi and be with him but why did he feel like he'd never deserve that happiness.

"Mc... I know you wanted to be alone but I can't stand you talking about yourself in that way" Levi barged in. He closed the door behind him. "First of all I love you, every single ounce of you. Your weight never mattered to me in the first place. I might look like I a stick but I swear I keep up with those dance games." He walked up to Mc and hugged him from behind. "Forget default settings on a character. You're the type of character people spend money on... spend hours on just to get." He used one hand to rub on Mcs curves and the other to pet Mcs hair. "You're my boyfriend hence I ban you from saying anything bad about yourself" Levi smiles.

"Are you sure-" Mc tries to speak.

"Banned."

"But-"

"Double banned"

"Levi-"

"Tripled, vetoed, voted off the island, nope, no, naur." Levi playfully interrupts Mc.

"It doesn't bother you, that I'm trans? I mean you're Levi you can have anyone. You could probably find bett-"

"You're sounding like me. That's not fair. I like because you are yourself, not me. Plus it's the other way around. You're Mc, I see the way everyone looks at you. It's not fair. You even have the prince of Devildom after you and you want me, to be your boyfriend. That sounds like a joke to me. I'm just a lover shut in who barely has a chance. If anything I should be the insecure one." Levi looks down. MC turned to Levi, he gently places his hand on Levi's face.

"You're exactly who I want." Mc kissed Levi. Their long kissed turned into heavy petting. Levi picked up Mc with ease and laid him on the bed. Levi laid down with Mc and they continued their makeout.Their tongues didn't feel as though they were fighting for dominance it was a perfect harmony of neediness and desperation. The words rang through Levi's ears. He got someone that he wanted despite others who are 'better than him'. This Made him feel powerful and possessive. As their legs intertwine he feels Mc grinding on his thigh. Levi's erection felt like he was going to explode. Mc let's out a small moan as he grabs Levi's hard cock. Mc strips Levi and with a nod from Mc he strips Mc. He kisses Mc's body and just admires it for a bit. Levi begins to adjust himself towards Mc's entrance and looked at Mc.

"It's okay Levi... just be gentle. It's my first time" Levi's face turned bright red. He wanted Mc's first time to be special but they were already too far. Secretly there's a small (huge part) of Levi who's excited to take Mc's virginity. It turned him on so much he was about to cum right then and there. "Leviathan,,, please fuck me" Mc arched his hips. He is desprate now.

Levi slowly stretched Mc with his pulsing cock. Mc bit his lips as he tried to moan quietly but Levi felt too good in him. After a few strokes Levi's already close to cumming but he goes a bit faster so Mc can catch up which was very easy. Levi has been dreaming of this day. He wants everyone to know he's all his. Levi started to leave hickies all over Mc. Who knew those little words would give him so much confidence. Mc tightened around Levi as they came they couldn't stop saying Levi's name. Which made Levi fill his load into Mc. They both could go another round but decided against it as they would like to relax and focus on each other.

Asmo

He knows everything about Mc. What color are his eye? What's his favorite flower? What color underwear is he wearing? The one thing Asmo truly couldn't understand about him is why? Why can't he takes my eyes and see himself the way I see him? Asmo knows when someone is thinking negatively about themselves and he especially knew when that someone was his baby boy. He knew everything about Mc, he might be a trans man but that makes him no less than any other man. He knows that he's chubby but that's more to love and grab and praise. He knows that he is a virgin. None of that bother Asmo. What bothers him is how much these thoughts eat at his head. It's like a parasite.

"My darling, are you okay you're staring off into space" Asmo shook Mc's arm. Mc was in his own thoughts again. This time Asmo changed in front of him and his mind was stuck on replay.

"Yes sexy" Mc teased Asmo.

"You're the sexy one" Asmo teased back.

"Nah" Mc looked down again. Asmo couldn't think of a more beautiful person in his life, other than himself. Mc is gorgeous on his own, he doesn't need a 12 step skincare routine. He doesn't need anything. He's perfect the way he is. Asmo wasn't shy about the things he would do to Mc. He is the avatar of lust. Oh to just lay him down and tell him sweet nothings as he cums over and over again but Mc wasn't ready. One night Asmo is flirting with Mc by touching his face and arms. Asmo was teasing which was usual but what was unusual was Mc was reciprocating more than usual. Asmo and Mc began to make out and Mc got on top of Asmo taking the lead. Mc has been wanting to fuck Asmo forever but he never felt ready but they've gotten so close and Mc is so desprate for Asmo's touch. Asmo began to undress Mc and flipped him over so Asmo would be on top. Asmo kissed the one part of Mc's neck that he knows would drive him wild. Mc's eyes rolled to the back of his head as he moaned in pleasure. Mc opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling. A wave of insecurity hit him. He pulled away from Asmo and sat up.

"Boo you're such a tease... are you okay baby boy" Asmo sat up next to Mc. He has a look of confusion on his face as he tries to figure out what's wrong with Mc. "Handsome...? What do you want me to do, beg? I will" Asmo got up from the bed and got on his knees. Mc frowned as their eyes turned glossy. "Darling?" Asmo held Mc's face.

"Do you even want me... I'm not as good looking or as thin or.." Mc began to silently cry. Asmo made a face and scoffed.

"First of all my sexy boyfriend is the most gorgeous creature, right next to me. Your weight does not determine your level of attractiveness. Your gender identity does not label you as broken. How dare you say that or even attempt to say that. I think I've masturbated to photos of you everyday since we've met. I'm pretty hard to please and just the look of you makes me want to put you on this bed and make you cum as many times as possible until you're screaming my name." Asmo speaks quickly but clear. He wanted to make sure every single word got to Mc. "You're my handsome baby boy." Asmo wiped Mc's tears. "Those curves on your body, the things I would do to you." Mc calmed down a bit after Asmos rant. "We don't have to do anything that you're not comfortable with but please just know. I love every part of you. Every inch I will worship in my mind until I am able to show you what you mean to me." Asmo continues. He began to kiss Mc's thighs. "Without your curves you wouldn't have this or even this." Asmo pushes his hand under Mc's thighs to grab Mc's ass. The small touches put Mc's mind back at ease.

"Can we... try again?" Asmo didn't notice Mc's face was red and he was full of lust. Those thigh touches did a lot more than what they both expected. Asmo nodded.

"Were, going to try something. You're going to tell me if you don't like it." Asmo laid down Mc and undressed himself and then Mc. Asmo started to slowly kiss up Mc's body starting from his hips and working his way up. The first kiss Asmo laid on MC's hip had Mc's back arching. Mc had his eyes shut to not look up at the mirror. "Uh Uh, prince. Look up." Mc's face flushed red as he opened his eyes to see asmo kissing down his body. Asmo made his way to Mc's center and began to tease his hole with his tongue. Mc arched his back he felt so good. He looked up at the mirror and moaned.

"Good boy. Now get ready. Asmo got up and positioned himself into Mc. As he thrusted his hips Mc let put a loud moan. Asmo looked up at the mirror he smiled and thrusted harder.

"I didn't think you could look any better but my cock being in you makes you look so good. You're taking it like a good boy." Asmo moaned as he thrusted harder. Asmo couldn't help but look at the mirror. He loved the way Mc looked. Mc was high out his mind as he was getting fucked. Any insecurities were fucked right out of him. The avatar of lust makes you only think of good it feels. Asmo continued to pound into Mc while Mc came. Asmo wasn't done with Mc.

Mc was flipped on his stomach and was faced towards another mirror in his room. Asmo began to fuck Mc from behind. The entire room was filled with moans and the sweet smacking sound both of their bodies make when they made contact.

"You're so cute when you're squeezing my cock with your tight hole" Asmo moans into Mc’s ear. They were both covered in sweat but Mc was about to cum for the second time. Asmo slowed his paced and Mc began to whimper as he was so close.

"Now baby boy I need you to repeat after me and if youre good ill let you cum." Asmo began to steady his slower pace. "You. Are. Hot" Asmo thrusted with every word. Mc stayed quiet for a moment and Asmo went slower. Mc, desprate for him to speed up.

"I...am... hot..." Mc blushed as Asmo began to kiss his back as he rams his cock into Mc. Mc quickly came and so did Asmo. As they lay on top of one another Asmo pet Mc.

"You're such a good boy. I can't wait to tell you how good you're doing it round two." Asmo said excitedly.

"Round... two??" Mc said out of breath.

"Of course. Now that I have you, you're not getting away that easily. Let me get you some water... you'll need it." Asmo winked as he put on a robe and ran to the kitchen.

Memphis

Mephisto never thought he would have fallen for a human. Mc accidentally came out to Mephistopheles during a newspaper club interview. Mephisto swore to keep that information private. He saw nothing wrong with being trans but he knew it could cause problems if the wrong demon knew. Little did Mc know that if someone gave him a problem Mephisto would fond every detail about that demon or human and destroy them. After that interview Mc would hang out with Mephisto 'against his will' if against his will meant his smile was brighter, he was more open to trying 'commoner things' if it meant to be closer to Mc. The two would always exchange a playful banter. He would definitely day dream a date with Mc but Mc probably view him as a friend.

Mephisto went into the newspaper room as he would normally be expecting a visit from Mc. He always made sure to look his best. Mc walks in with a serious expression and kisses Mephisto without any warning. Mc instantly pulled back.

"ILikeYouAndIDidntKnowHowToTellYouSoNowIMustBlabberLikeAnIdiot" Mc turned bright red. Mephisto was in still in shock but remained calm. Mc tried to run before Mephisto could say anything but he grabbed his arm before he could leave. Mephisto rubbed Mc's face and kissed him. They began to have a makeout session as Mephisto locked the door behind Mc. Mc paused "I'm a virgin..." Mephisto paused for a moment. "You're right this is no place for a handsome man like you." Mc was suprised that his virginity status didn't change the mood but what about his other issues. Mephisto took out his phone and began texting. Maybe it did put a damper on the mood. Mc looked down and tried to get back up.

"I'm sorry it's was probably for the best anyway, especially because..." Mc trailed off as he motioned to himself. Mephisto looked up from his phone confused.

"I was making sure my home was empty for the both of us to enjoy together... what do you mean 'especially'" Mephisto raised an eyebrow.

"You know... me being trans.. and chubby" Mc sighed. Mephisto let out a laugh as he didn't think Mc was being serious. Mephisto is looking at a stunning human being. Because of him, Mephisto wanted to try new things which is new for him. Mc looked down. "I'm sorry this was a mistake." Mc tried to run off but Mephisto was not having it. Mephisto grabbed Mc and took him to his home. Mephisto took Mc inside the ride was silent as Mc picked himself apart in the car. Mephisto dragged Mc to his room.

"I want you to know this is the first time anyone has ever seen my room" Mephisto broke the silence. Mc was shocked with that information. Mc looked around the room, he felt honored to see this part of Mephisto. "I don't care that you are trans- I mean I do but not in the way that it changes my feelings about you. You're so fucking handsome you drive me crazy. Not a single thought in my mind doesn't involve you. Do you understand how difficult it is to not put you on the cover of the newspaper and say 'mitts off he's mine.' Even though you are not mine. I understand you're a virgin but this is my first time with a human as well I want to make this enjoyable for the both of us. I know you have issues with the way you view your body but frankly, I do not care because I view you as the complete opposite. The sight of you is like a drug and I'm addicted Mc." Mephisto spoke as he held Mc's hands. Mc blushed as he confessed. May I? Mephisto began to undress Mc. "I understand you're scared but you're going to tell me exactly everything. When to stop, when to go, how good I'm doing... that's the important part..." Mephisto didn't want to tell Mc just yet he had a praise kink. Mc nodded as Mephisto undressed himself. "We can stop whenever you want" Mephisto and Mc began to make out. While Mephisto's tongue explores Mc's mouth, Mephisto felt up Mc's body. Feeling every curve. Mc moaned into Mephis mouth as he continued to move his hand to Mc's hole.

"Okay..." Mc quietly agreed as Mephisto begins to tease Mc's hole by slowly using one finger. Mephisto began to kiss Mc's neck. "Fuck..." Mc quietly moaned. This was already turning on Mephisto. He began to add another finger. "Faster... please" Mc bit his lip. The pleasure was paralyzing Mc. Mephisto moved his fingers a bit faster, he was so turned that he began to rub his cock. Mc noticed this. "I want you inside me..." Mc blushed. Being in Mephisto's room gave Mc so much confidence. Mephisto nodded immediately he wanted to be in Mc already. He positioned himself into Mc and made soft thrusts. "Harder baby boy" Mc moaned out. Mephisto was at a loss of words with the nickname but who is he to deny him of pleasure.

"Of course handsome." Mephisto started to thrust into Mc. Mc grabbed Mephisto's hair as he thrust harder. Moans fill the room as much as Mc was being filled. "You feel so good" Mephisto moaned.

"So do you, you're making me feel so good." Mc moaned out as Mephisto continues his pace. Mephisto was flustered at the comment he wanted Mc to keep telling him these things. It didn't take long for the two to cum... They both learned new things about each other that they will now be using against each other while they playfully banter. Mephisto would casually tell Mc how good they were the night before and Mc would tell Mephisto how good he was and tell him what he should do next time. That conversation almost always ended up with the newspaper room locked for a very important meeting.

[212-apricity]

1999, part four - final part!

oh my gosh. final part and what a surprise, she's a long one again💀💀ive loved writing this silly little series so so much and i love all of you very very much🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽please give me requests on what to write next bc my mind is completely blank rn, all i can think of is the cold war and bolsheviks from my history revison and i dont think they would make v good fics🤡🤡

lmk what you think of this part and your fav moments, enjoy!!

warnings: tiny angst, mostly fluff, swearing

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conrad’s pov

Since Y/n is unable to hold a phone herself, I'm tasked with a lot, but I didn't fully realize the worry of her family until she had me working through each task with her.

No wonder she’s overwhelmed. The number of texts from Laurel, Mom, Belly, Jere and Steven she has to sift through in a given hour would drive anyone insane.

Or maybe I'm just going crazy by sitting this close to her. The smell of her coconut soap is permanently ingrained into my memory as she sits flush against me, pointing at different texts with her uninjured hand.

I can tell her nerves grow stronger as the Uber near the hospital.

Her knees bounce up and down as she dictates message after message I need to send, confusing me more and more with every word.

The work doesn't stop there. After we check in, a nurse hands us a clipboard filled with pages of information that need to be filled out. Y/n stares at it like it might catch on fire at any moment.

"Here." I pass it to her.

Her eyes shift toward the exit. "Will you help me please? I can't write like this." Her voice drops to a barely audible whisper.

"Okay. Tell me your answers and I'll write them down."

Her throat bobs as she scans the first line. It takes her far longer than necessary to read the first question.

"Do you mind reading the questions aloud for me? I'm too stressed to concentrate right now." Her overcompensating smile irritates me.

"Are you sure? Some of the questions are probably personal."

Don't be a dick. Just do what she says.

"I don't care.”

The rigid way she sits in her chair says the complete opposite.

She seems to be one minute away from breaking down, so I concede. I sigh as I grab the pen and get started on the first question. The paperwork doesn't take us as long as I anticipated, so Y/n and I sit together in silence. She stares at the exit longingly.

The way her eyes dart around the room as she gnaws on her bottom lip makes me feel merciful enough to save her from the anxiety eating her up inside.

“If it's any consolation, I hate hospitals too."

Her head swings toward the direction of my voice.

"Yeah?"

I nod. "Haven't been to one since…"

"I know." she says as she sees my chest heaves as I remember the millions of times we’ve been here before.

I keep my eyes focused on the soundless television playing in one corner.

Her good hand clasps onto mine and gives it a squeeze. I'm grateful she understands me enough not to ask any other questions. The idea of offering another raw part of myself feels like a betrayal of the years I've spent carefully developing a certain kind of persona.

"I hate them too." Her voice cracks.

"Why?"

She stares down at her swollen hand. “My dad…” She pauses, and I give her hand a reassuring squeeze like she gave me. "Let's just say mom ended up in the ER a couple of times for being clumsy."

I take a deep breath to stave off the anger bubbling beneath the surface. "And did you have issues with being clumsy?" If she says yes, I swear to God two men will end up floating in the Chicago River tonight.

She shakes her head rather aggressively. "No. No." My rapid heart rate can be heard through my ears. "If you were, you can tell me." While I can't promise I won't do anything about it, I can promise to make him hurt. A lot. With sulfuric acid or something, those pre-med studies are starting to come in handy now.

The overwhelming sense of protectiveness hits me hard, and I don't shy away from it. There is nothing I hate more than men who use their fists against innocent women and children.

"It never got to that point. Suze made sure of it." she says with a small smile.

"How?"

"She caught onto the signs and interfered before things got bad. Used her savings from my grandpa's life insurance policy to help Mom get a divorce and start a new life." A tear slips down her face, and I can't stand the sight of it.

I brush it away with the pad of my thumb, but the damp trail still lingers. A driving force inside of me wants to erase the sad look on her face. "Did her plan also happen to include a jug of sulfuric acid?"

She forces out a laugh. "I think concrete shoes were more in style back then."

I fake shudder. "Remind me to never make mom angry again."

"Forget her, you'd have to deal with me." She holds up her injured hand like a war trophy.

"I'm absolutely terrified."

"Miss Y/n?" a nurse calls out.

Y/n doesn't move at the sound of her name.

"That's you." I place my hand on her thigh and give it a squeeze.

She sucks in a deep breath as she stares down at my hand.

Her chair nearly tumbles behind her as she bolts out of the seat, throwing her one good hand up in the air. "I'm here!"

The nurse leads us through the emergency room bay.

Individual beds line the wall, each area divided by a paper curtain.

The empty bed meant for Y/n is unacceptable. Between the person retching behind one partition and the individual on the other side hacking up their lung, I refuse to let her be seen here.

"I'd like my…my friend, to be taken care of in a private suite," I speak up. I know I sound snotty right now but honestly, I’ll be damned if I let her already horrible hospital experience get any worse.

The nurse grimaces as her gaze licks across my body. "This is a hospital. Not the Ritz. Take a seat and wait for the doctor like everyone else."

Y/n hops on the bed without any complaint, and I'm tempted to grab her and go elsewhere. The nurse doesn't seem the least bit bothered by all the noise happening around us as she checks Y/n’s vitals and asks some routine questions.

Y/n answers each one while chewing her bottom lip raw. This atmosphere couldn't put anyone at ease, least of all her.

The nurse hangs the clipboard at the foot of the bed, and I decide to try again.

"I'll pay whatever it takes to have her seen somewhere quieter. Money is no object."

The nurse only replies by shutting the paper curtain in my face.

Y/n laughs while I stare at the curtain, dumbfounded to be treated like this.

"You find this funny?"

She nods, her eyes alight for the first time all night. "Did you see her face when you said money is no object? I think if she didn't put the clipboard away, she would have slapped your face with it."

"It's not my fault she isn't accustomed to how things are done in the real world."

"Wake up baby. You're living in the real world." She waves around our room.

"It's terrifying." I say, looking away so she couldn’t see the blush that appeared on my face at the nickname.

"Come here. I'II make it better." Y/n pats the bed.

Doubtful, but I'm a glutton for giving her what she wants lately. Paper crinkles as I sit next to her. I take up most of the bed, giving her little room to get away from me. My thigh brushes against hers. She tries to scoot away, but there isn't enough space.

“Isn’t this cozy?" she quips.

I give her a small smile before she asks, “Hey! Let me see your tattoo.”

God I’d forgotten all about them. I move the collar of my shirt to show the two small ivy leaves we’d gotten. She gasps and gently touches my skin, “Oh my gosh it’s so pretty Connie.” she stares at it for a moment before I ask to see hers.

She lifts up her shirt on the side, exposing her ribcage and the two matching leaves.

“I can’t believe you agreed to get a Taylor Swift referenced tattoo with me Con.” she says as I admire the tattoo for a bit.

I smile until saying, “Hey I might be quiet and mopey but at least I have good taste in music.”

She softly smiles at me before eyeing the IV bag with horror before checking out the exit.

"What’s wrong?”

She leans closer to me and whispers, "Is now a bad time to admit I pass out whenever someone tries to stick a needle in me?"

My lips lift at the corners. I don't know why I find the idea hilarious, given her ability to watch eight consecutive hours of true crime documentaries without so much as flinching.

"You're afraid of needles?"

She sputters. "No. I'm not afraid. It just happens to be a bodily reaction I can't control."

“That's good then because the nurse needs to set you up with that IV when she comes back."

“No! Don't tell me that! I thought she was one of the good ones.”

I nod, pressing my lips together to prevent myself from laughing.

"She lied to me!" She bolts from the seat and would have tripped over her own heels if I didn't reach out and catch her.

*Careful." I place her back on the bed and decide to stand guard in case she gets any ideas to flee the scene.

Her eyes fit from me to the gap between two curtains, as if she is thinking how she can get past me.

"I'm joking.”

She scans my face for the truth before she slaps my shoulder with her good hand. "Asshole! I believed you!"

Laughter explodes out of me like a bomb, stunning her.

“Did you just laugh?”

"No."

“Yes." Someone calls out from the other side of the curtain.

“Now, do you mind shutting up? Some of us are trying to get some sleep over here after having our stomach pumped."

Fuck this place and the people in here. "We're leaving."

"Not so fast. You can't leave before I check you out." The doctor strolls in and points at the bed with his clipboard.

Y/n remains tight-lipped as the doctor checks her chart. He asks her some questions about how she got hurt, all while staring me up and down like I'm the person she was trying to injure. She is taken away for a few scans, and my breathing doesn't return to normal until the nurse brings her back.

That should be my first sign that things are getting out of hand on my end. I'm inching closer to an emotional minefield without any kind of map, only one wrong step away from exploding.

The doctor checks the scans. "It looks like you have a boxer's fracture."

Her face brightens. "That sounds badass."

I glare at her. "Calm down, Muhammad Ali. I wouldn't count today as a victory by any means."

The doctor's eyes lighten. "Next time, avoid any initial contact on the fourth and fifth knuckles."

"Please don't encourage her."

The doctor shakes his head with a laugh before giving Y/n a detailed set of instructions regarding the healing time. I'm skeptical about the whole visit and, given the setting, doubtful about the level of care. I'll be damned if Y/n sustains permanent injuries because of Dean. My chest tightens at the idea.

“Great Thanks, Doc!" She hops off the bed, but I hold my arm out, stopping her

"I’d like a second opinion." The command bursts out of me without any rhyme or reason. Deep down, I know a boxer's fracture isn't the worst thing that could have happened. But things aren't right in my head where Y/n is concerned. At least not anymore.

Both of the doctor's eyebrows arch. "For a small fracture?"

"Don't mind him. He tends to be a bit overbearing." She shoots me a look as if I'm the crazy one out of the two of us.

"Okay..." the doctor says.

Maybe I am losing it because why else would I care?

You hate it when she cries.

You wouldn't mind murdering someone who hurt her.

You took her to the hospital even though you despise them with every fibre of your being.

The signs all point to one thing: our situation is quickly crumbling, and I'm the only one to blame.

Y/n interrupts my thoughts. "I'll be sure to wear the brace for a few weeks and avoid any kind of activities that could aggravate the injury."

"Perfect. And don't forget to schedule a follow-up visit with your physician. "The doctor gives me one last look before handing Y/n the discharge paperwork. "Nice meeting you."

"Will you help me with this?" She holds out the clipboard with her left hand as the doctor leaves.

I grab it from her and fill it out.

She checks the time on her phone. "Well, at least that didn't take as long as I thought it would. I'm sure you're dying to get back home."

That's the scary thing. I didn't think about anything or anyone once during our entire time here because making sure she was taken care of was my only concern. I've spent the past seventeen years of my life thinking solely about my future, and all it took was one girl to make me completely forget about my responsibilities for a few hours.

As if that doesn't scare me enough, it only takes one glance at her makeshift brace to make my blood burn hot under my skin. I know exactly why her injury angers me more than anything else.

It's the same reason I feel the urge to push Jere away from her whenever he gets too close or the way I unexplainably need to see her whenever she is out of my sight for longer than a few hours.

You’re in love with her.

Fuck.

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y/n’s pov

We’re in an Uber on the way home, sitting in comfortable silence until Conrad breaks it.

“Why’d you get with Dean anyway?” My stomach doubles over.

Comfortable silence is so overrated.

I sigh. I’ve been dreading this question for ages now.

“I don’t know.” I answer vaguely.

Conrad gives me a puzzled look, “What do you mean you don't know? You must’ve had a reason.”

His restlessness gets me more agitated.

“I don’t know Conrad. I don’t know why I got with him, I don’t know why I was waiting on you for so long either.” I look out the window as the car stops in front of the house.

“What? What do you mean?” he says as I get out the car and speed up to the front door, taking the keys out of my pocket and refusing to carry on with this conversation anymore.

Conrad keeps yelling after me as he follows me upstairs to my room, both of us trying to ignore everyone else who joined Conrad and are trying to ask their own questions.

I slam my door shut and collapse on my bed hearing Conrad trying to calm everyone down and telling them everything that's happened until he asks them all to give me some space for now.

I cry in the silence as I hear everyone leaving from outside the door until it opens.

“Hey.”

Steven. Thank God.

“Steve…” I say sniffling.

He looks at me with a sad smile before sitting on the bed with me and taking me in his arms.

“Con told us everything,” he says after a few minutes of holding me, “did you really get a boxer's fracture?”

I laugh in tears before showing him my hand and saying, “You should see the other guy.”

Steven and I laugh together before going back to the silence as he hugs me.

“He really cares about you, you know.”

“No he doesn’t. He hates me. I yelled at him and now I’m crying here on my bed like an idiot.”

“Did he say anything to you?” Steven looks down at me.

I shake my head before saying, “He asked why I got with Dean.”

“Oh. That’s not too bad.”

“No it’s not.”

“Then why are you so upset?”

“Because I’ve been waiting for Conrad for so long and I’m just sick and tired of always being there to help him get over his breakups when he’d be so much better off with me. I know I sound selfish and none of my reasons are justified but I just thought that after everything we’ve been through together, he’d maybe like me just a little bit.”

Steven hugs me again and softly says, “He does.”

After that almost everyone but Conrad came in to check up on me and make sure I was okay, making me feel even more guilty about being all emotional like this. It’s not until Susannah’s holding me and whispering sweet nothings that my eyes start to feel heavy.

I think I fell asleep after that, I don’t remember much except waking up to the sun shining its very unwelcome face in my eyes.

I step out of my room after freshening up and I’m about to make my way to the kitchen for food until I’m stopped by something in the hallway.

Or should I say someone.

“Conrad,” I bend down and stroke his hair out of his face, “Conrad wake up.” I say gently.

He stirs for a minute before sitting up and taking my hands in his.

“Have you been out here all night?” I ask.

“Yes.” he says in a raspy voice.

God that voice would make my knees give out if I wasn’t already on the floor with him.

“Why?”

“I need to talk to you.”

I sigh before he interrupts me, “Listen, I heard everything you said to Steven last night and I know I shouldn’t have and I was eavesdropping but I’m sorry it was by accident. And I know I don’t deserve any more of your time…I’ve already wasted a lot of it but just hear me out for ten minutes.”

“No.” I try to get out of his grasp.

“Stop fighting and give me ten minutes.”

“No way.”

“Nine then.”

“Five.”

“Eight and a half.”

“Six.”

“Seven.”

I pause, knowing that he won’t let me go anywhere before I hear him out.

“You don’t deserve seven seconds, let alone seven minutes of my time.”

“How about seven words then?”

I laugh. “I’d like to see you try.”

“I am falling in love with you.”

I blink up at him. Either I am still sleeping or I must have not heard him correctly because there is no way Conrad Fisher just admitted that he is falling in love with me.

Absolutely no fucking way.

Right?

I squeeze my eyes shut as if that can erase the words from my memory.

"You're joking.

"I'm not."

"This is just another part of your game." I try to push him away, but he doesn't budge.

"It stopped being a game for me a long time ago."

"You're lying."

His brows pull together. "Ask me why I hate when people touch my bookshelf."

"Are you serious right now? What does that have to do with any of this?" I think back to his bookshelf he won’t let any of the others go near but loves to let me organise and re-organise each year.

"Because I did it for you."

"I'm sorry, what?"

"I read somewhere online that organising objects like books and things is good for people with anxiety, because then they can feel in control of something and know exactly what to expect especially if things are the same as they've predicted all the time. You love reading too, so I changed it. Bought all the books you like to read so that you’d stay and read with me more often. I forced everyone else out of my room and especially away from that bookshelf. All because I wanted to help you."

Emotions clog my throat, preventing my ability to reply.

What can I possibly say that could compare to that?

Conrad doesn't give me an option as he continues. "Want to know why I kept this plant you got me?" he says pointing to the small green cactus with “Don’t be a prick” written on the pot that we could see looking into his room from the hallway.

I nod.

"Because it was the first time someone got me a present that made me laugh."

If hearts could melt into puddles, mine would be liquified right about now.

I take a deep breath.

Remember what he did.

“Con that doesn't change anything you still ignored me for a whole year. Every time I tried to call you or text you, you’d just leave me on read or decline, and now you’re telling me you love me? Who does that?"

"Someone who doesn't understand the first thing about loving someone, but is willing to try if you give me a chance."

"You want me to give you a chance after everything? Do you think I'm stupid?"

He winces, and a bit of my anger fades away at his vulnerability.

"Intelligence has nothing to do with this."

"Easy for you to say when you're not the one who feels like a fool."

"Really? Because based on your reaction today, I'm feeling pretty damn foolish for ever admitting that I'm falling in love with you." He gets up off the floor, leaving me feeling chilled to the bone.

"Con..." I reach out, but he takes a step back.

My eyes sting from his rejection. It hurts.

“I’m not asking you to love me back. I don't expect that and I'm not sure if I ever will because I'm the furthest thing for lovable. I'm selfish, and rude, and don't know the first thing about being in a proper relationship with someone. But that doesn't mean I’m not willing to try for you if you let me."

How am I supposed to be angry at him when he thinks he is unlovable?

A pain rips through my chest at the thought of him talking about himself this way.

I get up off the floor and walk straight into his chest. His arms quickly wrap themselves around my waist, holding me even tighter.

"Just because you make selfish choices doesn't mean you're a selfish person. At least not completely."

This boy had been there for Belly, Steven, me and Jere for years without any kind of payback, especially when Susannah was going through her cancer and despite feeling an immense amount of pain himself, he shoved all his emotions aside so that he could be there for us. For me. If that isn't a selfless sacrifice, I don't know what is.

"Your logic is half-baked at best."

"So is yours, seeing as you called yourself unlovable."

His body tenses. "I'm stating facts."

"I don't know what bullshit your father told you over the years, but it's not true. Your brother loves you."

"He’s obligated to."

"No one is obligated to love someone else. Blood or not."

He takes a deep breath. "You're right."

I smile up at him. "I could get used to hearing those words."

He reaches up and cups my cheek. "Give me a chance and I'll tell you them every single day."

I sigh and look away. "I don't know.”

"Tell me what's stopping you."

"You don't do relationships."

“Good thing our feelings lead us here rather than our minds, and mine are willing to try then."

I avoid his penetrating gaze. "What if my feelings are telling me to run?”

“It's cute you think you can outrun me, but I'll give you a head start just to make things interesting." he smiles down at me.

"Do you always have an answer for everything?"

"Not for the one that matters most." The way he looks at me stirs up something deep inside of me.

Longing. I want to give him a chance, regardless of the potential fallout.

You might get hurt.

I might, but I might miss out on something special because I’m too afraid of the what ifs. I'm done being that person. Even if it means getting hurt, I'd rather try and fail than never try at all.

I stand on the tips of my toes and press my lips against his.

He holds me tight against his chest, as if he is afraid of letting me go.

I pull away, only to clasp onto his chin. "This could be a disaster, but I'm willing to try."

He shuts me up by pushing his lips against mine, sealing our new deal. The way he kisses me is different than any time before. He cups my face with the palms of his hands as his lips mold against mine, teasing me until I feel dizzy. His thumb brushes across my cheek back and forth, and heat rushes down my spine straight to my belly. He makes me feel cherished. Protected.

Loved in a way that makes me never want to come back down to reality.

I could spend forever being kissed like this and still feel like it isn't enough. While Conrad might not be the best with words, his kiss says it all.

He is falling in love with me. And I’m falling in love with him. No translation necessary.

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ahh i cant believe its finished omg😔💔...

anyways, onto the next one😍🙏

again please lmk what you think of this and please give me requests on what to do next!!

[mrhowells]

Smallville 4x04

There's no way he didn't time that, my dude was deadass waiting at his locker until she walked past so he could annoy her😭😭

AND to show off his jacket, that's adorable🥹

hehehehehe

(Their progression is just so---, from this to "I would love to hear about it." POETIC CINEMA😭)

Clark showing his jacket to everyone stoppppp🥹🥹 Somebody tell him it looks good please

Lex I think you should find a less weird way to make amends, no offense👀 Yeaaahhhh I knew that would be Clark's reaction😬

Let the madness begin

"I finally understand why it never worked with Clark." ohgod "I wasn't devoted to him." OHGOD

Nothing was going to stop Lois from writing that article after they provoked her like that, she's coming for their asses

"Just got my headline." SEEEE (also Lois you're so cool date me pls)

I'm not ready for the next scene

Clark wants to unexist so bad right now😭

LMAOOOOOO Clark I'm so sorry💀💀

"The problem is, I'm not over Lana yet. Sometimes I think I never will be."

I know something that you don't😌😏

"Oh sweetheart. There's somebody out there for you. I know it."

QUEEN MARTHA & I KNOW SOMETHING THAT YOU DON'T

I love that Clark is going to her for advice about this stuff😭😭

Lana got like 10 times more adorable this season wtf😭

Clark thinking she came to watch him practice, I hate to tell you this but she's dating your coach bestie💀💀

this is peak comedy actually I'm cackling PLEASEEEE

I'm really feeling Clark's pain this episode for some reason

Clark and Lois teaming up is the content I love and deserve😌😌

no because if she looked at me like that I'd be on one fucking knee immediately LOIS CHILL😭

I'm squealing omg look at themmmmm

I just love the way he says her name don't ask me why

plskasjsks they're comedians

she's so adorable I can't😭😭

Lois being super grossed out, same bestie, same💀

WHY ARE THEY SO FUNNY I'M SCREAMING

Clark I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I really am💀 The way he immediately runs to hide behind Chloe and Lois💀💀💀

"She was attacked by a crazy plumber." The way Clark just moves on from that statement LMAOOOO

"Oh, nice, Clark. You know you only have one thing to do." "Me? You're closer to the door." "Okay, so it's automatically my fault?"

full on married to each other years before they even start dating🤡🤡

His face journeys when she drags him are everything😌

"When you were in the loft, you told me to stay away from your girl. Who were you talking about?"

they know my weakness, they know it so well😭😭

I'm so glad Clark and Chloe are being upfront about how they feel

"But don't worry, I'll visit." "Is that a promise or a threat?" *short pause for eye sex* *shoulder punch to defuse the tension* "See you around, Smallville"

their episode endings are the best bc I'm just smiling like an idiot (trying not to think about the fact that she won't be there for the next 4 episodes or sth😭)

[astroismypassion]

Hey, I need to know your opinion here. It's totally fine if you don't wanna but just read maybe you'll enjoy 🤣

My moon and venus is in his 8h and my sun in his 7h; his sun is in my 8h, his moon is in my 9h and his venus in my 7h.

Sometimes I feel very overwhelmed— like why are you so obsessed with me?🤡 like what does he even sees in me??

He constantly tells me that he would leave his family if they tried to stop us being together (I'm assamese and he's a nepali— different tribes also his family knows about us but mine doesn't cuz they are strict asf)

I will not lie, at first I totally ignored him (for 2 year💀 kinda on and off contact- we were classmates) but there was something about him that kept pulling me towards him like crazy istg

He can't express very well nor can I wait he's actually better at expressing his feelings compared to me.

He's lost his v card and I have not. For me, my v card needs to go to someone who is gonna be my permanent not 'maybe/temporary'— he thinks otherwise. So different values and morals.

He constantly spends money and have to keep reminding him to be more strict with his finances (this one irks me so bad)

He gets jealous so fcking easily— like I do too but I try to rationalize my feelings and tell myself that "no they're are just friends, he can have friends okayyy!!" I try to control my possesiveness but no he doesn't.

This is actually my first serious relationship. I'm scared that I will lose my v card to him— no bad if we are the end game but if not then i don't wanna give other than my future hubby TT

I'm scared to commit with him bcs in his past he played around with different girls (NO I'M NOT A 'I CAN FIX HIM' ENERGY 😭) but he claims that I'm the first girl he wants to be with and commit too (his sister told me that he never cried for any girl in his past except for one but that was long ago and now he cries for me bcs I don't trust him) yesterday he told me that "you are making me crazy— are you having fun by having a guy run behind you like a dog??" I was speechless. He was drunk btw he called an hour ago apologizing (he doesn't remember anything he apologized cus his roommates kept scaring him that he told me shit) we haven't talked after that tho

Like always it's an on and off connection.

Okay there's so many things I wanna spill but I'll stop here. Thank you for reading, I hope you had fun my reading my tea lol 😹 anyways

Byeeee<333

Hi!

Hm, lots of complex questions these days in my mailbox. No, but it's alright. I understand the 8th house synastry desire to vent haha. Honestly, so much is to be said, when you are in an 8th house connection.

Definitely don't rush losing v card with the said person. You sound indecisive, which often leads to a "no". Remember that when you are unclear, confused or unsure about something, it's because it's probably a "no". I think that 8th house connections (especially with Sun in the 8th or Mercury in the 8th overlay) are not really worth losing your v card, if you are not beforehand in a committed, mutual partnership with this person. Otherwise, it's just regret and kind of feeling present you would wish to wait it out for someone that you truly have a mutual respect of boundaries in the connection with. If this has not been discussed and establish beforehand, I advise to not engage in any type of sexual activity. Sex might overly complicate already complex situation and when it's sex and feelings involved, the confusion is even stronger after. Don't think that by having sex this will give you more clarity. Try to simplify things for yourself and not overly complicate them, mutual respect is very important.

[kirk-says-wah]

How has Kirk deceived him 3 times? Comforting James is not deception. He touched him in a supportive way. James I think took it as such as well. Maybe they'll become friends since they have no one else to lean on while Lars is lying in a hospital bed. It's not like he stuck his hand down his pants...

1. Deception of character ❗️

2. Getting hard for someone else's husband❗️

3. Knowing that Kirk finds James attractive should make Kirk keep his distance. But he didn't❗️

Talk about betrayal.

No one ever called James a cheater. If anyone Lars is a cheater for kissing James. Kirk getting hard could've been his body's natural involuntary reaction to a heated moment.

In Chapter 5 James kissed Lars. In chapter 9 Lars kisses James to settle him down when they are in the hospital because James is acting erratic. Trying to get out of bed. So no Lars is not a cheater!!! He did that to stop James from trying to go back to Daves. Now show me another chapter where Lars just kisses James because he feels like it. I'll be waiting...

And getting hard was NOT his so-called involuntary reaction to a heated moment. The writer FULLY said that Kirk is attracted to James. It is written!!!! I can copy and paste it.

Do you know how many back-and-forths I've been having with the Klars lovers? Especially 🌚 anon. When me and that anon had gotten into a heated argument we knew it was all just for the story. It was never anything serious. In the same way, it's never serious when other anons come at me for wanting James and Lars together. They never took it to heart. And neither did I. I made jokes about Lars living in the bushes. I know he's not going to live there. But free-spirited people like living their lives a certain way. So that was the joke. You all were making 🗡 and 🛡 emojis about riding for Klars. Then we find out that Kirk finds James attractive and had a hard on for him. So I used the 🤡 emoji because Kirk doesn't just find his lover (Lars) attractive but Lars's husband as well. So all of a sudden it's a problem for my emoji?????

No one's called anyone here names for their opinions. It might be funny to you, but disrespectful to others.

When have I called someone names for their opinions 🤔 and Please don't ✋️talk about the clown one. Everyone else made an emoji so I did too.

And mind you, I have taken some comments myself from Klar's people but I never got upset like the way you are. I know it's the story. Ex) One anon calling my fantasy about James and Lars living out their best lives a fairy tale. Did I take offense no!

You came at me hot! Because of what??? My opinion right! Just like you talked about yours and others! I stick by everything I have said on top!

My deepest, deepest apologies to you that you think I'm being disrespectful. Yet there is no proof of that. You just can't take jokes or humor. But I can. And I have been reading almost everyone's comments on their opinions. And you are the one who has complained.

@ride-the-hammett

🙍

okay I think we all just need to remember this is all about a story and everyone is entitled to their opinion.

Lots of things have been said, and I don’t think anyone has intentionally meant to hurt anyone. This is all just for fun, nothing is serious

Please please don’t argue. I literally can’t cope with any type of fighting.

This is a safe space for everyone, it’s fun hearing you guys fight for your respective ships, and I love that you guys are so invested in the story. Let’s not lose that!

[fandomsoda]

There ain't much I can say or do for ya, pal, if I could do somethin', I would've done it by now.

But I can do this.

*Clown hug*

Hope this all stops soon and you'll feel better soon, bud. Just promise to not stop fightin' and to remember to take care of yourself, okay? Because someone out there cares a whole lot about you.

I'll be here for ya, bud.

-🤡 Anon

Oh, Clown! Welcome back, thank you so much… it’s great to see you again. I may not know you much at all, but your words have helped get me through several days. And I can’t thank you enough for being here. 🫂

[ronsenthal]

Hello Jessica, I hope you’re doing well!

😅🤡✍️ (if not, I could totally beta read stuff for you if you want!!!)✨💖 for the fanfic writer ask game please ☺️

Heeey Merrilyn I'm good thanks!!! thanks so much for your questions <3

😅 What’s a story or scene you’ve created that you’re a smidge embarrassed exists?

Honesly everything about my first ever fic Write your Name because i was really all over the place and my hands were shaking as I posted, i still hate the banner I created and like five minutes later I wanted to delete because I was really embarassed, but I guess I'm just fine with it now

🤡 What’s a line, scene, or exchange you’ve written that made you laugh?

Okay so I was giggling while writing the dance scene in my last fic Change Partners, but specially Lew's and Dick's reaction to seeing the reader and Ron dancing

Nix, who was just sitting in a corner torn between some dumb discussion with Harry and fighting to open another bottle of whisky, suddenly stopped and slapped Dick across his chest. Even the so composed Major Winters dropped his jaw as he saw what Lewis was trying to put into words, but couldn't.

✍️ Do you have a beta reader?

I'm really new to this world and so far I don't have any but if I need i'll definitely go to you yaaay

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

I'm so glad I started because i'm being really brave and I'm learning a lot with this writing stuff but specially how to be kind and patient with myself, I think I'm doing really well!!! at least some people have been so kind and supportive about my works, I'm working really hard to improve and come up with nice fics and I really hope people can see it too

💖 What made you start writing?

I started because I felt so inspired by so many amazing writers on our fandom, I had so much fun and joy (even tears) while reading amazing pieces here that I decided to give myself a chance too and also to share things I would like to read

Fanfic writer emoji ask game

[youremyheaven]

Hey, I always end up here for some reason. I actually do have a lot of people I want to ask about but it would take an eternity, but I would like to ask about relationships. I never dated but I did attract the boys I liked, some moments just happened for 1 or more years but I couldn't date them or anything, I don't regret nothing but I do remember them messing bad and it always ends up with me and my dignity, and I choose latter. They do remember and "seem" to like me even after months, as I heard from my friends after I stopped talking to them which I don't what's happening like where was your courtesy before? With such failed attempts in barely seeing them made me question my own taste. If I remember I know they reciprocate the feelings from here and there but they never told me directly, it's like I've to put efforts which I mostly don't and I don't want to assume anything so I just have to move on. I take my time and they end up doing bizzare things so I create some distance. There was a guy who did confess after whole ton of my hardwork but it was such a trashy experience, I didn't settle of course but my goodness never in my life again. I just gave up on this matter overall, let's see what happens next. I want to be a little delusional for a while. Can you talk about V a little bit, I was curious because I relate to him a lot and I thought of it as romantic before but I don't think it's the same now, I don't know what I'm trying to say but you haven't talked about him much either and I wished to hear this from your side? So if you just want to add something? Maybe I'll know myself a little too? Can you also talk about my attraction to such partners and them being weird?

i dont know if i entirely understood what you were trying to say

but basically you attract boys you like but even if they seem to like you, you don't get them to confess or be straight up with you??

IF this is what you meant,

boys who dont tell you they like you are weaklings. a lack of clear communication means they dont like you enough to risk their pride getting bruised. if a guy genuinely likes you, he'll risk it all and be straightforward with you

guys hold back when they have multiple thoughts running through their head and ideally their only thought should be bagging u

what goes on in their heads is none of our business and it doesnt matter. a guy who does not actually be clear with his intentions and does not pursue you is NOT worth your time. leave them in the dust.

idk how young you are but since you say you dont have any experience dating , i feel like saying this, its okay to want to be desired and wanted by others. there is nothing wrong with it. its biological and natural.

so ask yourself if you just wanted a bunch of admirers or if you actually wanted to date these guys

i know it can be really confusing and stressing as well tbh when someone gives you mixed signals but honestly just leave it at that. theyre being shady because THEY have shady intentions. no man with actually good intentions would hesitate to approach you directly my queen<333

idk how useful this is but im someone with a very "a win is a win" mentality lmao in the sense that if i liked someone and they liked me back, thats a win 😌😜

you did hear from your friends that those guys liked you, so likeeee 👀💅🏻

the number of people who like you, who you have mutual liking with etc will always exceed the number of people you actually date bc thats just math

if 10 guys like u and u like them back, u cant date all 10 in one go (or maybe u can but u'd have to figure that one out urself 🤡)

alsooo men being weird is just ://// how a lot of men are. many guys are straight up bizarre ://// dont take that stuff personally

about V (taehyung), he's actually my least favourite BTS member tbh,, idk if its because he's a Revati Moon (atmakaraka) with Mars in Uttara Ashadha amatyakaraka or what but he's always struck me as a guy who was kinda tough to be around. i dont think he's horrible or anything but his Shravana Venus, UA Mercury and Mars, Moon conjunct Ketu,,, its a weird combo,, he himself is a bit offbeat and eccentric but he would expect his partner to be kinda traditional and modest. i just dont like malefic influenced men i guess :///

something about his sweet boy act feels insincere to me. and as someone who has been around manyyyyy Revatis ,, i dont like that ADHD type behaviour they exhibit (im not making fun of anyone who actually suffers from ADHD and nor am i equating a mental condition with a nakshatra, i just dont know how else to describe the way manyyy Mercurials act??? yk all those funny reels and tiktoks about how gen z has a short attention span and communicate in a weird way bc they're chronically online, yeah, thats how a lot of Mercurials act)

a bit of a self-drag but i went to a girls school until i was 15 and had never interacted with a guy my age, after switching to a co-ed school at 16, i had to learn how to deal with guys from scratch. its a whole different world ill tell u. i think atp due to your lack of experiences with dating, you just dont know what to expect and how to deal with it. and thats okayyy,, this is just a part of life and youll figure it out for yourself as you go. dont stress out too much and dont worry about it tbh,, there are 8 billion people on this planet, there has to be a decent guy who will be honest, as well <333

[ashomodeus]

🤡 anon here tysm for writing my ask it’s so good i legit paced around my room and fell off my bed when i saw it hnghnhgs also don’t worry about taking some time to write i really don’t mind it

also if there isn’t anything else sitting in requests may i ask for monster fucker trans guy mc, like, ik the brothers have demon forms but it’s not really monstrous enough for me yk i need some bigger and weirder i need them to be twice their normal height with funky appendages and having a whole ass scary aura and i imagine an mc who’s like really really curious about it and just pestering them about it despite the brothers being under the impression that humans will hate those scarier forms and will die from a heart attack and shit but this mc is way too fucking excited, honestly you can just write all the brothers but don’t have to as long as it has asmo and luci i’m happy i low-key want to know your own interpretations of those scarier forms nd stuff hence i don’t mind whatever and whoever you go with

(in short size kink mc gets butt fucked by weird demon dick)

...Jesus... Christ... OF COURSE. Gonna do some research. I'll be right back.

I should disclose I do not have a monster fucking kink, wish I did, I do not know if this is good or not, hence this being with only Luci and Asmo but please please please let me know if you want the others.

When I say work has been a lot recently, I have 17 hours of overtime for working 7 days in a row. I also work farther away, so I was getting home late, but that's because we had a system upgrade, but I should now be okay, or things should be getting better now.

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Monster Lucifer x Trans M!Mc

Monster Asmo x Trans M!Mc.

Cw/Tw: Monster fucking, knots, gaping, size kink, breeding, filling, dp, Bad grammar. Only Lucifer and Asmo if you want the others I have ideas for them, like bullet points for appendages and their type pf cocks, but I just want to know if you guys want the others. One comment and I'll do it.

During class earlier Solomon mentioned a spell that would turn anyone into a weird looking monster. Mc asked what about demon and their demon form. Solomon answered that it just enhances their form to be bigger and to indulge in their sins a lot more.

Lucifer

Mc and Lucifer were laying down cuddling. Mc stared at Lucifer, his mind began to wander about the spell Solomon told him about.

"Mc... why are you staring" Mc immediately turned his face around hiding the redness on his face. Lucifer grabbed Mcs face and asked again.

"Well... Solomon told me about this spell..." Mc trailed off trying to look away but Lucifer's hand stopped him from turning away.

"Come on and tell me" Lucifer stared into Mc's eyes.

"Well uh. I was wonderingif I canturnyouintoamonster" Mc asked trying to hide his embarrassment. Lucifer made Mc explain what Solomon told him. Mc was now really horny at the idea of Lucifer fucking him with his monstrous dick. Lucifer smirked at Mc.

"Well I suppose if you want it that bad." Lucifer was suprised Mc wanted to fuck a monster form of his but he loves to make Mc think of him and only him. Mc cast the spell and Lucifer is suddenly tall enough where his head almost hits the ceiling and his clothes are ripped all over the floor... whoops... Lucifer won't mind. Lucifer felt powerful and yet hungry. He needs to get into Mc as soon as possible. Mc is so small compared to Lucifer now. Mc is staring directly at Lucifer's cock. The length was the size of his own forearm and as thick as his own thigh. He was mesmerized. Mc looked up, he had a forked tounge and fangs. Tonight was going to be a fun night. Lucifer grabbed Mc's grabbed

head and motioned it towards his huge cock. It's ribbed and thick. Mc couldn't take all of his cock but Mc would try. Mc got extremely horny. He bagan to lick Lucifre's hard cock and began to tease the tip. How could Mc's tiny mouth even wrap his lips around it. Mc'smanaged to wrap his mouth around the tip. His eyes filed with tears as his mouth stretched to take in more. Mc enjoyed the pain, warm runny fluid came from the tip of Lucifer's cock and suddely Mc could take Lucifers cock. The ribbed part of his cock rubbed against the right spots on Mc's throat. That liquid that came out of Lucifer's cock seemed to be a lube of some sort. Mc could feel their hole pulsing imagining how streched out their mouth and other places will be.

"What a good kitten, Why don't we try fucking your throat a bit." Lucifer groaned as he grabbed Mc's hair and started to slowly push Mc's head farther. Mc gagged causing his mouth to salvate. Lucifer could feel the drool and spit all over his lap and he couldn't help but to Move Mc's head farther. There's so much more length Lucifer wanted to push into Mc but he'll save that for somewhere else. He picked up Mc's head and started to thrust. Everytime Lucifer bobbed Mc's head down Mc's got a litle farther. Lucifer was so proud that this small little human could take his cock so well. Mc's throat so raw and yet they wanted more. Lucifer's huge cock leaves a buldge on Mc throat. It almost felt as though Lucifer's dick was molding to Mc's throat. Once lucifer pulled his long dick out, he picked up Mc with one hand. He smiled at his new little toy and propped Mc right at the tip of his dick. Mc was red faced he couldnt wait to be fucked so hard. He wanted to be sretch by Luicfer and take as much of his dick as possible.

"Be a good boy while you take my thick cock." Lucifer growled. Lucifer's cock shot out another load of lube as Mc's hole tightens around Lucifer's tip. Mc shook with excitement when he felt Lucifer's hand on Mc's hip. Lucifer used his long forked tongue to lick up Mc' back and their neck. He shoved his tongue down Mc's throat to catch him off guard while he thrust straight into Mc. Mc's moan vibrated on Lucifer's tongue. He managed to stuff his entire length into. It appears that Lucifer's cock molded to the shape of Mcs body. Lucifer could feel Mc tightening around his cock.

"Would you look at that." Lucifer smiled rubbing Mc's belly. Lucifer's cock managed to stretch Mc's belly outward. Mc squirmed a bit, he was so turned on seeing how much Lucifer stretched him but he was craving friction. Mc felt his belly and tried to move Lucifer's cock. The belly bludge was ribbed because of Lucifer's cock. Mc rocked back and forth to stimulate pleasure. Lucifer grinned as he sees how needy his small human is. Mc knew that he couldn't fuck himself if he tried because of Lucifer's size. He couldn't pick himself up. Lucifer grabbed Mc's waist and picked them up. Mc screamed in pleasure.

"Look at you so desprate for my cock. Lucifer let go of Mc as his full length slid into Mc once more. The mix of the ribbed cock and the length hit the perfect spot on Mc. He began to shake and sceam in pleasure as he yelled out Lucifer's name. Lucifer turned Mc around to face him the sudden shift hd Mc reaching for Lucifer's horns. Lucifer thrusted harder into Mc as Mc grabbed his horns. Lucifer's horns were extremly sestive and Mc noticed that. Mc rubbed Lucifer's horns at the base. Lucifer let out a monsterous groan and began to fuck Mc harder and faster. In between moans Mc began to suck on his horns which caused Lucifer to be over stimulated. Lucifer picked up mc and rammed into him a few more times Mc gripped Lucifer's horns as they came again. Everything was hiting all the right spots. All the streching and fucking exhasted Mc. Lucifer laid Mc on his back and continued to thrust into him. After a few thrust Lucifer fillled Mc up with his load. As Lucifer pulled out his cock Mc was left with a gaping hole flooding with cum. Lucifer smiled.

"Let's not waste all this." Lucifer plugged his finger into Mc. Lucifer was nowhere near done, but he'l let his human rest for a bit while he absorbed everything Lucifer gave him.

Asmo

Mc stared at Asmo thinking about what His monster would be like. Mc blushed thinking about all the ways Asmo would make Mc beg for more.

"Prince, what are you thinking about.,," Asmo smirked he knows whenever someone is thinking about anything Lusty.

"Nothing..." Mc pouted.

"Uh uh... tell me. I can smell how horny you are, it's exciting me." Asmo cheered.

"Solomon was telling me about this spell-" Mc was instanly cut off.

"Yes. Do it." Asmo instantly cheered. Asmo knows about this spell and he loves being under this spell. Mc put the spell on Asmo. Asmo grew just a bit taller but everything else grew by a lot. Asmo's tongue was now long his tongue was ribbed with swirls and bumps. Asmo's cock was now a lot longer. It has a knot at the base and his tip was pink.

"Come here hun" Asmo grabbed Mc by the wrist and shoved his tongue down his throat. The ribbed tounge massaged Mc's mouth and then Mc tasted something sweet. Their skin turned flushed red and they were sensative to every touch. Asmo had spit that was basically an aphrodisiac, Asmo laid Mc on his back and ripped of al the clothes Mc was wearing "better, now I can see all of you" Asmo was really horny. He licked up and down Mc's body while sucking and nibbling. He covered him in hickies and began to move to Mc's hole. He licked Mc's rim and dipped his tongue in and then quickly out, Mc let out a moan everywhere Asmo's tongue went it became the most sensative part of his body. Mc could basically cum when the slightest contact happened and as soon as Mc realized that Asmo stuck his tongue in. Mc instantly came at the feeling. Asmo dragged his tongue against the walls and sucked everything.Mc arched his hips as he was extremely close again.

"Go ahead baby boy. I'm going to milk every. Last. Drop." Asmo's voice got deep. Asmo punched his tongue on Mc's sweet spot and Mc began to shake as they came again. Asmo moaned tasted Mc's sweet cum. Mc grabbed Asmo. Mc wanted to retuen the favor. Asmo grinned as he crawled towards Mc face. "You're going to like this." Asmo shoved his cock into Mc's mouth. Asmo's cock began to thrust itself straight into Mc's throat. Once Mc had his full length in his mouth Asmo stopped thrusting. His cock began to vibrate against Mc's throat. Mc let out an extremely loud moan as his throat vibrated. The feling was very new but Mc was so horny that everything felt amazing.

"Let's try both" Asmo's cock began to vibrate and thrust at the same time. Asmo tried to shove more of his cock down Mc's throat. Mc could only get so far due to Asmo having a knot. Mc got far enough here his teeth could touch the knot which stimulated Asmo. Asmo thrusted a little faster as he liked the felling of Mc's teeth hitting his knot. Asmo instantly came. Mc choked on the masive amout of cum down his throat but tried to swallow as much as possible.

Asmo quickly pulled out and postioned himself at Mc's hole. He pushed himself into Mc and his cock began to vibrate. Mc screamed Asmo's name as the cock vibrates against him. What Mc didn't notice was that Asmo had the ability to grow another cock. He used his other cock to tease Mc. Mc yelled in pleasure. Mc was being treated like a cute litle sex doll. Asmo's other cock teased Mc's other entrance and began to thrust. Mc felt so full and yet he wanted more. Asmo began to thrust faster as his cock would thrust farther. The ribbed portions of his cocks almost rubbed together due to the only thing seprating them was a thin mount of tissue.

"Ohh, Mc, you're such a good boy~" Asmo moaned out, He thrusted so far that Asmo's full knot was now fully inside of Mc. His knot swelled as Asmo got close. Mc quickly came but he could feel another orgasm come in as he feels Asmo's knot swell while his other cock continues to thrust. Asmo's one cock stopped as began to fill Mc up with his cum. Mc moaned out As Asmo's warm cum filled Mc. None of Asmo's cum to threaten to spill since the knot pluged him up so well. Asmo began to focus on Mc's other hole, pouding into them as Mc rides his fourth orgasm. Asmo began to make out with Mc shoving his tongue to the back of Mc's throat. Asmo was so turned on thinking about how every single one Of Mc's holes were just filled by him. Mc tasted that sweet taste and just like that he had all his stamina. Asmo couldn't help but to admire how stretched out Mc got and how good he's being.

[bourbon-ontherocks]

okay, I moved stuff around in the asks so we wouldn’t end with something depressing 😂 (même si c’est déprimant en soi de devoir faire des pieds et des mains pour que discuter d’une série ne nous donne pas le cafard 🤡)

I’m sorry but I gotta address the timeline again… doesn’t timothée’s line at the beginning imply he and morgane have been dating for two months? "on n’essaie pas encore, ça fait que 2 mois" ? yet gilles tries to get out of his predicament by telling daphné ~je me suis mal exprimé "l’autre jour"… is it so hard to make the dialogue make sense?? 😟 ah, et aussi. congrats to adèle/jessica for whatever time travel gymnastics it took to be born in 1975 and die at 37 in the 2020s. (maybe she enlisted eliott’s help lol. he was wearing a back to the future sweater in the last scene, #timetravellerconfirmed)

I applaud the continuity in some regards though. lille est toujours un vivier olympique, apparemment (or are all cities like that? 😅); whatever research on hinduism they did for 304 was duly reused; morgane’s windows are still broken (tho if it really has been 2 months, we should perhaps hold the applause); she was right and did get dumped pretty fast (🥴💔💔); and, personal fave, my headcanon of a technophobic [gros canard] still holds 📱

but please tell me the product placement won’t last all season, jpp de leur café 💀 céline literally stops drinking tea because they put the coffee maker ON DISPLAY in her office, wtf 😂 a silver lining: it brings out the anticapicalist in morgane since she doesn’t drink a drop of the sponsored coffee timmy brings her at work. 🙏🙏🙏 certes, c’est capillotracté, but it’s something, alright?? let’s take that win before they snatch it away 😅 I’ll leave you with that, thanks for bearing with me! I’ll be happy to hear any and all positive takes you have on this ep. ❣️❣️❣️

"c’est déprimant en soi de devoir faire des pieds et des mains pour que discuter d’une série ne nous donne pas le cafard 🤡" -> And unfortunately, it's just the beginning... 😭😭 let's get used to it

So, before I dive into this one, Morgane's getting dumped by Timothée. This. Was. So. Gratuitously. Hurtful 😱😭 I mean, I was absolutely NOT rooting for them, but I wanted her to breakup with him, not the other way around. She objectively doesn't really care about the guy, and yet he still manages to break her heart by poking the same scar the others poked before, and I just -- 💔💔

Can we talk about how "J'ai besoin d'une relation plus...." "... simple ?" "Ouais c'est ça." "C'est toujours ça..." was such a heartbreaking exchange? Morgane being hit and ran over and over again about the SAME issue really hurt😰, and even more so when put in perspective with later stuff but 🤐🤐

Now, the timeline. 100% agreed, and I noted the same things re the inconsistencies. And the victime's date of birth made zero sense anyway since they changed her identity, right? So her zodiac sign might not be accurate, idk... Also the two months gap, which is necessary to vaguely establish Morgane and Timothée as a ~relationship, implies that Gilles kept pretending to Daphné that he was dating Timothée? And knowing Daphné she probably couldn't keep her mouth shut and made all sorts of allusions in front of Timothée who just had no clue at all? 😂 And I didn't notice Eliott's sweater but you're right, actually this show's been making fun of us and me specifically from the start 😅

(also yes, the windows weren't changed for two months while it was literally snowing during 304 🤦)

Now for me the biggest continuity issue in this episode is Morgane telling David she doesn't smoke while we saw her smoking in 301, I'll leave you with that 😅

Unfortunately, the product placement is far from over, and I must admit that it's particularly unsubtle and annoying this season 😠 but please tell me this didn't kill Céleane (Céline x tea 😆) aka my favorite ship from this show!!! 😱 And I didn't notice the trend but now that you're pointing it out, Morgane NEVER drinks out of these sponsored cups of coffee and only drinks from the anonymous cup during the breakfast scene, so... 👀

Other honorable mentions about this episode include :

Timothée attempting to lecture Serge and the latter just bursting with hilarity at him, that was extremely satisfying to watch 😊

Morgane and David bonding over getting dumped by the loves of their lives, that was sweet. At least Morgane got a modicum of sympathy and understanding this ep 🥲💕

Morgane's video at the end 🤣🤣🤣 Couac Investigations!! The fact that she answered Gilles in the video and the face he makes!!! Love this

Well, this is all I got for today, I hope I made you feel a tiny bit better about this episode (do you still have those boating shoes on or did they break already?)... And I just wanted to say, I will always bear with you 💕 ngl we're facing hard times, but we'll get through this, anon, and we'll get through this together 😘

Til next time! 🥃❤️