#ok autism rant over

[skullzy20]

Do you think the corpus and grineer have protocols to follow if there's ever a tenno on their ship (or just in the area)

[rocketbirdie]

i would love to enjoy everything that stardew valley has to offer but unfortunately i approach this game the same way i approach real life: avoid all social interaction and tend to my garden in belligerent silence

[botanicalbasilly]

In many autism positivity posts, it is emphasized that it's okay for autistic people to act "childish". This is very true, but I think it lacks the elaboration that, though some autistic people act "like children", it is NEVER okay to treat us as so (or, god forbid, as animals).

I do not understand social cues. This means I say silly things and make silly mistakes, and that I often don't understand things that most other people do. This does not mean that I am a "cute uwu baby" or that I need to be talked down to. Explain it to me like an adult. This does not mean that I need to be given orders the same way you would a dog. Ask me to do what you want like you would an adult. This does not mean that you must patronize me (yes, even if it makes YOU feel good). You may give me compliments or joke with me like you would with an adult.

I'm a fucking grown man. I'm not cute or innocent or naive. Yes I'm hyperactive and I watch cartoons and I make funny noises but I also vote and have a job and have kinks and do all the things that adults do. Because, shockingly, I'm A Fucking Adult, so get your head out of your rose-tinted ass and treat me like one.

[immortalsins]

time to accept that I'm upset about the fact "its OK if you just want to be friends" is empty words. that's not going to happen!! & i can never go back to the society we met in because it'll just be awkward! without us EVER dating (unless we were and I wasn't aware of it). so sick of not understanding this stuff i wish it was simple and clear

[joowee-feftynn]

using retarded as an insult completely defeats the purpose of reclaiming slurs btw. you don't see queer people reclaiming faggot/dyke/tranny and unironically using them as insults

[eclaire-went-bam]

npd + autism culture is literally refusing to engage in your special interest because now it's so so mainstream and you don't wanna be associated with all the fakes who are into it

i pretend to not really enjoy space/astronomy anymore because holy shit so many people in my life who like astrology conflates the two. i can't talk about astronomy without someone bringing up some spiritual shit. and i know everything they do say that's correct, they're viewing it from a VERY different lens than i am

i hate family who act like "we're all stardust" is a new revelation to them in their spiritual journey, which i have ALWAYS stated growing up, albeit with a more scientific lens. they also act like it's some special notable thing that means we can manifest anything when i just think it's a fact of life & people only view it as something astonishing because of how mysterious and disconnected the stars seem to your average person

i can never bring up my nuanced takes on life outside earth because someone always dumbs it down or tries to make it fit their own personal ideology on real time, or they'll think i'm lying once i say The Proven Alien Hoax Is, ✨Surprise Surprise✨, A Hoax Again™.

don't get me started on all the alien theories rooted in Just Racism

there's also a lotta people who aren't necessarily spiritual or conspiratorial with it, but it's an aesthetic for them, which on its face is fine, but i hate the thought that i will be grouped in with people who just find kinship with the great unknown Like Y'all Don't Appreciate It Like Me!!!‼️ gatekeeping rn on god how is the special interest i was bullied for so mainstream in internal culture and aesthetics

so i just pretend i don't really care much about it & it's really diminished by love of space & that's a shame & all but idk what else to do

nevermind the fact that when i was like 7 years old i cleared out two whole libraries of their astronomy books by reading every single one regardless of reading level

nevermind the fact most things i own are based on space

nevermind the different space and aerodynamic museums ive been to

nevermind me being able to name certain events just based off photos

nevermind me still owning a lotta books

nevermind me opting to study physics so i could better appreciate space

how dare my special interest be stolen ‼️‼️‼️

[anakeions]

ok wait sorry i’m not done but tears of the kingdom is so insane. i didn’t actually think zelda would be a playable character—i mean come on what is this an indie franchise that respects women or something—but i at least thought she’d be like a npc you could occasionally talk to or something LMFAOOO. i feel like what the story of the game fundamentally fucks up is the themes between it and botw—wild is about the past and how it influences the present and how all the characters we meet are stuck in a tragic past that they have no control over. and as mid as the writing may be there is this overarching goal of “how the fuck do we break free of this horrible trauma that’s been haunting the kingdom for a billion years” and at the end you reunite with zelda and you get to rebuild hyrule… so obviously the next game will be about—

Nevermind it’s about the past again. But like the extra past this time. The super ultra mega past. And also btw everything that was meaningful in breath of the wild is dead now we killed it. go save zelda again

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

[akinachiri]

being tested for a disorder then not being able to be given a medical diagnosis just bc u dont meet a singular criteria is so..... yea

[blizzposts]

my mom needs to understand this or i might actually short circuit and die immediately. i NEED my sunday nights girl. i need those 10 hours of being left alone entirely by the people i live with (her). after a weekend of sleeping and feeling like a reanimated corpse i NEED that time to do absolutely anything i want. i love her but her ass really has the audacity to say “you’ve had enough fun, go to sleep” GIRL NO I HAVEN’T‼️‼️‼️‼️ I LITERALLY HAVE A FUN DEFICIENCY (ADHD) !!!!!! THATS WHAT THAT IS, ESSENTIALLY!!!!!!!!!! also girlie does not understand that living like school -> sleep -> repeat is FUCKING DEPRESSING AS HELL!!!! if i don’t have enough fun i end up having a “random” mental breakdown at the mere mention of something stressful girl please i need my late night video games. just on sundays. please girl let me live

I need several hours of Quiet Time each day or i become the worst person alive

[dunkalfredo]

i saw a post that rubbed me wrong so im gonna just get on my shadow soapbox for a second:

games shadow has some edge, sure. it was laid on thick during 05 and the meta era. but please, if you think he's a huge edgelord, look at the recent games and look at his characterization in sa2, heroes, and 06. you'll see that it's not edge for the sake of edge. he's traumatized.

like... the core of his character is that of someone that has been through hell, someone who had his family violently ripped away from him and his life irreversibly changed. his hard shell is protective; he is selective about his connections because he's lost so much already and found it hard to relate to others to begin with. his coldness has complexity. and he's still got a heart! we see this in his continued work to fulfill maria's wish and protect the planet (even if he claims he doesn't care about others). and, for more specific examples, we see this multiple times in dark beginnings, such as when he ejected the gun soldier so he wouldn't die in the vehicle crash. not to mention he's not cold 24/7. he bought amy tickets to a hot honey concert for her birthday because he was so ashamed he forgot to get her a gift AND THEN WENT WITH HER TO THE CONCERT!!! like cmon, would an edgelord go out of his way to do nice things for his friends like that? and don't even get me started on the team dark dynamic--i could write a whole separate post on them. they, on their own, show how shadow is someone that depends on and forms meaningful connections with others. through their interactions, we see sides of shadow that many in his life don't. we see him be vulnerable. we see him care.

as an autistic person that has experienced trauma, i like that he's not traditionally emotive and has a thick shell. i think it makes sense for his character. i like that cold exterior and its cracks. he's got layers, and he doesn't need to be soft and sweet to be someone that people resonate with.

[p3rson27]

I love the way wine hits it's like

I'm fine :) (I'm so sexy and powerful and this alcohol isn't affecting me at all)

*stands up*

Uh oh

[biceratops7]

I’m genuinely worried I’m going to have some sort of anxiety attack at work, and I don’t think I really understood till now how intertwined the little t trauma of being neurodivergent and being queer is for me. I try to stay positive and encourage others to not look down on those who have hope, but guys I’m terrified.

As someone who heavily hyperfixates on media, a behavior/ thought pattern beyond my control, I am constantly, constantly scared of being tricked, and then being proven right. I can’t just enjoy things for long, I try so hard to but then it’s only a matter of time before the fear of being put right back into my childhood takes hold. My autism makes me gullible, and sometimes just the tiniest hint that I may be getting manipulated again is enough to send me over the edge. I hate that watching tv so many times throws me back into that horrible experience of thinking you’re wanted and then realizing you’re only being kept around for laughs, or because you bring some special thing to the table that has absolutely nothing to do with people actually enjoying you as a person. (All rise twice exceptional kids.)

Queerbaiting isn’t just a disappointment for me, it’s mildly re-traumatizing. It just drills and drills and drills and drills into me that I have no worth in this world on yet another count. Oh and for fucks sake don’t even get me started on being trans! I completely forgot that my state also fucking hates me. I feel like my entire damn life is just waiting the outer community world to want and value me, I’m so sick of being an appendage in my own life, I can’t fucking take it anymore please just stop /nbh

[pheonix-inside]

Girl help I'm brainrotting over FNAF

[l-amplights]

MY HUGE TPOT 15 THEORIES AND OBSERVATIONS AND JUST RENERAL RANTS AND AUTISM POST. SPOILERS AHEAD

i NEED TO TALK ABOUT EAN AND VERPT(? NO SUBTITLES YET) RIGHT NOW

I NEED PEOPLE TO REALISE THEY CALLED THEMSELVES A LETTER. NOT A VARIABLE. A LETTER. ALSO CALLS VERPT A LETTER.... also awesome 1 legged algebralien and no limbed. we love to see variations :> excited for eventuall floater algebralien

PLEASE CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG BUT ASSUMING THIS IS WHERE THE ALGEBRALIENS COME FROM I THINK THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WEVE SEEN THIS???

HUGE WIN FOR NUMBER AUTISM

SOMETHING I JUST REALISED WHILE GOING FRAME BY FRAME FOR LAST IMAGE, MARKER. IS PURPLE HERE BUT THEN

YOU CAN SEE THE EFFECTS TAKING PLACE!!!!!

THATS AWESOME!!!!

these little shits are remind me of goo man from TPOT 11 (out of the blue)

looking back at goo man im not sure why

IM SO HAPPY THE VR HEADSET HOST FINALLY GOT USED

according to the awesome wiki

"The character was shown during the production of BFB. They may have been the original host of BFB, given the tweet description, but was replaced by Four and X.

Sometime after the VR Headset post was posted in jacknjellify's Twitter, Satomi clarified VR Headset was never meant to be a host or any sort of character, and was drawn simply because Michael thought they would be cool to draw."

HIIII PROFILEY... AWESOME TO SEE THEM BACK. REALLY COOL PARALELL HERE METHINKS BC THEYRE VOICED BY THE SAME GUY AS TWO :>

jumping around a bit. this was shown earlier and not expanded on untill the end. this. this drives me insane

thats ones equivilent of the fourest, it has a link to the equation playground I WAS RIGHT

very interesting its also plant based.

I CANNOT FIND . WHEN I WAS BLABBERING ABOUT THIS SO IT MUSTVE BEEN IN A VC. BUT I CALLED THIS. also barf bag literally my face when i saw this lollll

okkkk back to like the usual time

HI EVIL LEAFY HIIII IM SOOOO HAPPY SHE APPEARED. THIS DOESNT MEAN SHE ISNT LIKE DEAD AFTER IDFB BUT IM GLAD WE GOT TO SEE HER IN TPOT .. AND AS A HOST NO LESS!!

ID ALSO LIKE TO POINT OUT not sure if this is just startled or pin here being AFRAID for a second of EL

ABSOLUTELY HEARTBROKEN RF AND BB GOT OUT SAME TIME. HORRIBLE also neat they used the ending of the bfb intro here

X host.... imagine. life could be a dream

ok let me go over all the style stuff we see here also in order

(starting at the start of cake at stake (or cake at skate))

for the entire first half its just the usual TPOT style so i wont make a huge deal of that

Ean's part is also in TPOT

Pan Flute here's part is in the style of BFDIA specifically the newer episodes, figures, thats what hes from

EL's part is also in BFDIA style (with some very old assets behind), however id like to go over something else here

RIGHT BEFORE SHE APPEARS PIN GOES THROUGH SOME OF HER BFDIA ARC CHANGES. NEAT

also the music in the background here is "The Fiber" (thats what its called in the bfb ost release at least) WHICH IS ALSO THE SONG THAT PLAYS ENTIRELY THROUGHOUT BFDIA 5B!!!! AWESOME!!!!

GONNA BE HONEST NO IDEA WHAT STYLE THIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE... THE ANIMATION IS SUPER WEIRD AND DIFFERENT. it actually reminds me of how sacri animates her shows!!

hold on i need to make a new post i cant upload any more images

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for threatening to become a girl's step dad to troll her into blocking me and stop dragging me in a group chat ? Jenny (23F) blew up because I (24NB) said she'd be a shitty social worker bc of her specific autism symptoms + class bg. My gf (45F) said it was warranted because of how  overwhelmed i got by the wall of text with triggering details of my abuse. I never told my GF that the fight started because Jenny called me a gold digger. I also never mentioned that I ended it an hour later by posting pics of Jenny's mom in the chat, ignoring her ranting and discussing the vacancy left by her dead dad*, and how i could fill said vacancy. 😬😬😬 Might of gone too far with this one.

Backstory: I lived with Jenny when I was houseless indefinitely. She only let me stay for two weeks because it would be too "distracting" to her studies. Jenny was incredibly rich, didn't work, and her parents paid her rent for a 2 bedroom. She admitted she got rejected from every grad school she applied to except for the one her mom was in charge of. Her mom bought her a condo in the city the school was in. She kept asking me how she should decorate it, completely ignorant to how uncomfortable this made me and my other friends. Jenny was oblivious constantly to how she made others feel. She was actually the most incompetent person I've ever met in terms of comforting other, always tone deaf and completely absorbed with her own, single traumatic event. She made constant jokes about the abuser I was fleeing and even compared this stalked to a /serial killer/ documentary she watched, but never EVER showed any signs of internalizing how I almost lost my life to another person, how that might affect me or even just bum me out. Seriously, I've never met someone else who was so incapable of even being sensitive to issues that were /EXTREMELY SERIOUS/. Forget comforting, the stuff she routinely said to me and my other friends to try to cheer us up was beyond degrading. It was wearing on me a lot.

Jenny herself was neurodivergent. She often said her autism prevented her from understanding the feelings others had, reading their expressions, and tolerating crying or loud noise-- she forbid her musician roommate from doing both. None of those mean shes a worthless person, but all of those things would make someone a horrible therapist or social worker. Oh my God, literally every time I talked about my recent trauma, she would talk about herself and then blame her autism when I told her it just wasn't helping.

The final piece of this was I had a nervous breakdown and screamed at her over discord that she was a shit friend and needed to give up on social work, for like an hour. NOT MY PROUDEST, but I ALMOST DIED. I was living with her because SOMEONE WAS STALKING ME. and I would have liked to not have my abuse JOKED about. HOW DID JENNY RESPOND!? She began dragging me, through the mud, in the group chat, for, dating, an, older, woman, who, paid, for, my, air bnb, because, !!!she!!! wouldn't let me live with her for more than a week. I was HOMELESS. It became all about "OP you are such a b*tch, you are with a woman twice your age and she pays for everything now but you are still a miserable and angry person. You are so blah blah blah you are an ableist, you said I can't become a social worker bc of autism blah blah blah you have major major issues, Go back your rich granny and leech off of her you useless, fucked up little gold digger."

U_U Then, she started graphically describing how I deserved my abuse, so I shrimply began to troll. And yes, I pulled out my magnum oppus like fucking playing blue eyes white dragon, oh yeah I slipped her a pristine Jenny's mom facebook photo and said "Hey you never said your mom was so cute. Maybe, I could leech off her next and become your new dad." Yes, her dad died.* She blocked me immediately. Its OK. It was knives out for Jenny as soon as my GF gifted me a pair of $700 Isabel Marant shoes** , the most EXPENSIVE thing ive ever owned in my whole life, and Jenny saw me excited and called her mom to buy her a pair. It's, absolutely OK, if I am the asshole. I wear my crown of thorns, judas that I am, but I really, really think Jenny was being cruel. *he died 18 years ago ** the shoes are no more because i fell into my gf's rich friend's koi pond