#ok autism rant over

[skullzy20]

Do you think the corpus and grineer have protocols to follow if there's ever a tenno on their ship (or just in the area)

[rocketbirdie]

i would love to enjoy everything that stardew valley has to offer but unfortunately i approach this game the same way i approach real life: avoid all social interaction and tend to my garden in belligerent silence

[botanicalbasilly]

In many autism positivity posts, it is emphasized that it's okay for autistic people to act "childish". This is very true, but I think it lacks the elaboration that, though some autistic people act "like children", it is NEVER okay to treat us as so (or, god forbid, as animals).

I do not understand social cues. This means I say silly things and make silly mistakes, and that I often don't understand things that most other people do. This does not mean that I am a "cute uwu baby" or that I need to be talked down to. Explain it to me like an adult. This does not mean that I need to be given orders the same way you would a dog. Ask me to do what you want like you would an adult. This does not mean that you must patronize me (yes, even if it makes YOU feel good). You may give me compliments or joke with me like you would with an adult.

I'm a fucking grown man. I'm not cute or innocent or naive. Yes I'm hyperactive and I watch cartoons and I make funny noises but I also vote and have a job and have kinks and do all the things that adults do. Because, shockingly, I'm A Fucking Adult, so get your head out of your rose-tinted ass and treat me like one.

[immortalsins]

time to accept that I'm upset about the fact "its OK if you just want to be friends" is empty words. that's not going to happen!! & i can never go back to the society we met in because it'll just be awkward! without us EVER dating (unless we were and I wasn't aware of it). so sick of not understanding this stuff i wish it was simple and clear

[joowee-feftynn]

using retarded as an insult completely defeats the purpose of reclaiming slurs btw. you don't see queer people reclaiming faggot/dyke/tranny and unironically using them as insults

[eclaire-went-bam]

npd + autism culture is literally refusing to engage in your special interest because now it's so so mainstream and you don't wanna be associated with all the fakes who are into it

i pretend to not really enjoy space/astronomy anymore because holy shit so many people in my life who like astrology conflates the two. i can't talk about astronomy without someone bringing up some spiritual shit. and i know everything they do say that's correct, they're viewing it from a VERY different lens than i am

i hate family who act like "we're all stardust" is a new revelation to them in their spiritual journey, which i have ALWAYS stated growing up, albeit with a more scientific lens. they also act like it's some special notable thing that means we can manifest anything when i just think it's a fact of life & people only view it as something astonishing because of how mysterious and disconnected the stars seem to your average person

i can never bring up my nuanced takes on life outside earth because someone always dumbs it down or tries to make it fit their own personal ideology on real time, or they'll think i'm lying once i say The Proven Alien Hoax Is, ✨Surprise Surprise✨, A Hoax Again™.

don't get me started on all the alien theories rooted in Just Racism

there's also a lotta people who aren't necessarily spiritual or conspiratorial with it, but it's an aesthetic for them, which on its face is fine, but i hate the thought that i will be grouped in with people who just find kinship with the great unknown Like Y'all Don't Appreciate It Like Me!!!‼️ gatekeeping rn on god how is the special interest i was bullied for so mainstream in internal culture and aesthetics

so i just pretend i don't really care much about it & it's really diminished by love of space & that's a shame & all but idk what else to do

nevermind the fact that when i was like 7 years old i cleared out two whole libraries of their astronomy books by reading every single one regardless of reading level

nevermind the fact most things i own are based on space

nevermind the different space and aerodynamic museums ive been to

nevermind me being able to name certain events just based off photos

nevermind me still owning a lotta books

nevermind me opting to study physics so i could better appreciate space

how dare my special interest be stolen ‼️‼️‼️

[anakeions]

ok wait sorry i’m not done but tears of the kingdom is so insane. i didn’t actually think zelda would be a playable character—i mean come on what is this an indie franchise that respects women or something—but i at least thought she’d be like a npc you could occasionally talk to or something LMFAOOO. i feel like what the story of the game fundamentally fucks up is the themes between it and botw—wild is about the past and how it influences the present and how all the characters we meet are stuck in a tragic past that they have no control over. and as mid as the writing may be there is this overarching goal of “how the fuck do we break free of this horrible trauma that’s been haunting the kingdom for a billion years” and at the end you reunite with zelda and you get to rebuild hyrule… so obviously the next game will be about—

Nevermind it’s about the past again. But like the extra past this time. The super ultra mega past. And also btw everything that was meaningful in breath of the wild is dead now we killed it. go save zelda again

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

[blizzposts]

my mom needs to understand this or i might actually short circuit and die immediately. i NEED my sunday nights girl. i need those 10 hours of being left alone entirely by the people i live with (her). after a weekend of sleeping and feeling like a reanimated corpse i NEED that time to do absolutely anything i want. i love her but her ass really has the audacity to say “you’ve had enough fun, go to sleep” GIRL NO I HAVEN’T‼️‼️‼️‼️ I LITERALLY HAVE A FUN DEFICIENCY (ADHD) !!!!!! THATS WHAT THAT IS, ESSENTIALLY!!!!!!!!!! also girlie does not understand that living like school -> sleep -> repeat is FUCKING DEPRESSING AS HELL!!!! if i don’t have enough fun i end up having a ���random” mental breakdown at the mere mention of something stressful girl please i need my late night video games. just on sundays. please girl let me live

I need several hours of Quiet Time each day or i become the worst person alive

[autism-corner]

yippee

[skullzy20]

Hold on everyone I'm gonna be sick thinking about this

The fact the Drifter doesn't even feel like they belong in the Origin System is honestly painful. The fact they feel like everyone likes the Operator more because it's originally their timeline, and they've just grown to already accept that. The fact they feel actually at home in the fucking year of 1999.

The fact they feel like they were essentially being used when being sent back to 1999, but they end up staying and feeling more at home in the year despite being sent there like an errand boy. Feeling at home in a place you've barely been in for too long compared to everywhere else you've been for the rest of your life? That must feel wild, y'know? And exciting, but also terrifying.

They just have never felt like they belonged anywhere, basically, but when being sent off on a mission by the Lotus they end up actually feeling like the place they ended up felt like home. People finally care about them, and even love them. Friendships were formed and maybe even a true and genuine heartfelt relationship. Sure, they're still surrounded by daily threats like the Scaldra and Techrot, but there's people who actively care about their well-being now.

Imagine it, no longer actually being alone for most of your life? Having people who worry about you, for the first time in who knows how many years? Getting genuine human (as 'human' as the protoframes get) interaction instead of being called around to do jobs? To simply just exist in such a place? It must feel like a huge breath of fresh air

It's so human and it's so real. You finally begin to heal from the trauma that's been a part of essentially most- if not all your life before arriving. It's such a stark contrast to how things are in the Origin System. I wouldn't want to leave either.

Yeah I like the 1999 update a normal amount (lying)

[dunkalfredo]

i saw a post that rubbed me wrong so im gonna just get on my shadow soapbox for a second:

games shadow has some edge, sure. it was laid on thick during 05 and the meta era. but please, if you think he's a huge edgelord, look at the recent games and look at his characterization in sa2, heroes, and 06. you'll see that it's not edge for the sake of edge. he's traumatized.

like... the core of his character is that of someone that has been through hell, someone who had his family violently ripped away from him and his life irreversibly changed. his hard shell is protective; he is selective about his connections because he's lost so much already and found it hard to relate to others to begin with. his coldness has complexity. and he's still got a heart! we see this in his continued work to fulfill maria's wish and protect the planet (even if he claims he doesn't care about others). and, for more specific examples, we see this multiple times in dark beginnings, such as when he ejected the gun soldier so he wouldn't die in the vehicle crash. not to mention he's not cold 24/7. he bought amy tickets to a hot honey concert for her birthday because he was so ashamed he forgot to get her a gift AND THEN WENT WITH HER TO THE CONCERT!!! like cmon, would an edgelord go out of his way to do nice things for his friends like that? and don't even get me started on the team dark dynamic--i could write a whole separate post on them. they, on their own, show how shadow is someone that depends on and forms meaningful connections with others. through their interactions, we see sides of shadow that many in his life don't. we see him be vulnerable. we see him care.

as an autistic person that has experienced trauma, i like that he's not traditionally emotive and has a thick shell. i think it makes sense for his character. i like that cold exterior and its cracks. he's got layers, and he doesn't need to be soft and sweet to be someone that people resonate with.

[p3rson27]

I love the way wine hits it's like

I'm fine :) (I'm so sexy and powerful and this alcohol isn't affecting me at all)

*stands up*

Uh oh

[biceratops7]

I’m genuinely worried I’m going to have some sort of anxiety attack at work, and I don’t think I really understood till now how intertwined the little t trauma of being neurodivergent and being queer is for me. I try to stay positive and encourage others to not look down on those who have hope, but guys I’m terrified.

As someone who heavily hyperfixates on media, a behavior/ thought pattern beyond my control, I am constantly, constantly scared of being tricked, and then being proven right. I can’t just enjoy things for long, I try so hard to but then it’s only a matter of time before the fear of being put right back into my childhood takes hold. My autism makes me gullible, and sometimes just the tiniest hint that I may be getting manipulated again is enough to send me over the edge. I hate that watching tv so many times throws me back into that horrible experience of thinking you’re wanted and then realizing you’re only being kept around for laughs, or because you bring some special thing to the table that has absolutely nothing to do with people actually enjoying you as a person. (All rise twice exceptional kids.)

Queerbaiting isn’t just a disappointment for me, it’s mildly re-traumatizing. It just drills and drills and drills and drills into me that I have no worth in this world on yet another count. Oh and for fucks sake don’t even get me started on being trans! I completely forgot that my state also fucking hates me. I feel like my entire damn life is just waiting the outer community world to want and value me, I’m so sick of being an appendage in my own life, I can’t fucking take it anymore please just stop /nbh

[pheonix-inside]

Girl help I'm brainrotting over FNAF

[l-amplights]

MY HUGE TPOT 15 THEORIES AND OBSERVATIONS AND JUST RENERAL RANTS AND AUTISM POST. SPOILERS AHEAD

i NEED TO TALK ABOUT EAN AND VERPT(? NO SUBTITLES YET) RIGHT NOW

I NEED PEOPLE TO REALISE THEY CALLED THEMSELVES A LETTER. NOT A VARIABLE. A LETTER. ALSO CALLS VERPT A LETTER.... also awesome 1 legged algebralien and no limbed. we love to see variations :> excited for eventuall floater algebralien

PLEASE CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG BUT ASSUMING THIS IS WHERE THE ALGEBRALIENS COME FROM I THINK THIS IS THE FIRST TIME WEVE SEEN THIS???

HUGE WIN FOR NUMBER AUTISM

SOMETHING I JUST REALISED WHILE GOING FRAME BY FRAME FOR LAST IMAGE, MARKER. IS PURPLE HERE BUT THEN

YOU CAN SEE THE EFFECTS TAKING PLACE!!!!!

THATS AWESOME!!!!

these little shits are remind me of goo man from TPOT 11 (out of the blue)

looking back at goo man im not sure why

IM SO HAPPY THE VR HEADSET HOST FINALLY GOT USED

according to the awesome wiki

"The character was shown during the production of BFB. They may have been the original host of BFB, given the tweet description, but was replaced by Four and X.

Sometime after the VR Headset post was posted in jacknjellify's Twitter, Satomi clarified VR Headset was never meant to be a host or any sort of character, and was drawn simply because Michael thought they would be cool to draw."

HIIII PROFILEY... AWESOME TO SEE THEM BACK. REALLY COOL PARALELL HERE METHINKS BC THEYRE VOICED BY THE SAME GUY AS TWO :>

jumping around a bit. this was shown earlier and not expanded on untill the end. this. this drives me insane

thats ones equivilent of the fourest, it has a link to the equation playground I WAS RIGHT

very interesting its also plant based.

I CANNOT FIND . WHEN I WAS BLABBERING ABOUT THIS SO IT MUSTVE BEEN IN A VC. BUT I CALLED THIS. also barf bag literally my face when i saw this lollll

okkkk back to like the usual time

HI EVIL LEAFY HIIII IM SOOOO HAPPY SHE APPEARED. THIS DOESNT MEAN SHE ISNT LIKE DEAD AFTER IDFB BUT IM GLAD WE GOT TO SEE HER IN TPOT .. AND AS A HOST NO LESS!!

ID ALSO LIKE TO POINT OUT not sure if this is just startled or pin here being AFRAID for a second of EL

ABSOLUTELY HEARTBROKEN RF AND BB GOT OUT SAME TIME. HORRIBLE also neat they used the ending of the bfb intro here

X host.... imagine. life could be a dream

ok let me go over all the style stuff we see here also in order

(starting at the start of cake at stake (or cake at skate))

for the entire first half its just the usual TPOT style so i wont make a huge deal of that

Ean's part is also in TPOT

Pan Flute here's part is in the style of BFDIA specifically the newer episodes, figures, thats what hes from

EL's part is also in BFDIA style (with some very old assets behind), however id like to go over something else here

RIGHT BEFORE SHE APPEARS PIN GOES THROUGH SOME OF HER BFDIA ARC CHANGES. NEAT

also the music in the background here is "The Fiber" (thats what its called in the bfb ost release at least) WHICH IS ALSO THE SONG THAT PLAYS ENTIRELY THROUGHOUT BFDIA 5B!!!! AWESOME!!!!

GONNA BE HONEST NO IDEA WHAT STYLE THIS IS SUPPOSE TO BE... THE ANIMATION IS SUPER WEIRD AND DIFFERENT. it actually reminds me of how sacri animates her shows!!

hold on i need to make a new post i cant upload any more images