#ok autism rant over

[skullzy20]

Do you think the corpus and grineer have protocols to follow if there's ever a tenno on their ship (or just in the area)

[rocketbirdie]

i would love to enjoy everything that stardew valley has to offer but unfortunately i approach this game the same way i approach real life: avoid all social interaction and tend to my garden in belligerent silence

[megkuna]

booping was fun but also i see a lot of people romanticizing how easy it is to connect to people thru booping etc and like i get it but also i'm horrified by the increasing unwillingness to go thru the ordeal to like ... actually connect to people unless it is in some parasocial form (booping, liking posts, etc.) as opposed to, you know ... actually talking lol. imo that's the biggest shift there's been on this website like idk remember when we used to reblog each other's posts and comment without fear of being cringe

[botanicalbasilly]

In many autism positivity posts, it is emphasized that it's okay for autistic people to act "childish". This is very true, but I think it lacks the elaboration that, though some autistic people act "like children", it is NEVER okay to treat us as so (or, god forbid, as animals).

I do not understand social cues. This means I say silly things and make silly mistakes, and that I often don't understand things that most other people do. This does not mean that I am a "cute uwu baby" or that I need to be talked down to. Explain it to me like an adult. This does not mean that I need to be given orders the same way you would a dog. Ask me to do what you want like you would an adult. This does not mean that you must patronize me (yes, even if it makes YOU feel good). You may give me compliments or joke with me like you would with an adult.

I'm a fucking grown man. I'm not cute or innocent or naive. Yes I'm hyperactive and I watch cartoons and I make funny noises but I also vote and have a job and have kinks and do all the things that adults do. Because, shockingly, I'm A Fucking Adult, so get your head out of your rose-tinted ass and treat me like one.

[immortalsins]

time to accept that I'm upset about the fact "its OK if you just want to be friends" is empty words. that's not going to happen!! & i can never go back to the society we met in because it'll just be awkward! without us EVER dating (unless we were and I wasn't aware of it). so sick of not understanding this stuff i wish it was simple and clear

[joowee-feftynn]

using retarded as an insult completely defeats the purpose of reclaiming slurs btw. you don't see queer people reclaiming faggot/dyke/tranny and unironically using them as insults

[eclaire-went-bam]

npd + autism culture is literally refusing to engage in your special interest because now it's so so mainstream and you don't wanna be associated with all the fakes who are into it

i pretend to not really enjoy space/astronomy anymore because holy shit so many people in my life who like astrology conflates the two. i can't talk about astronomy without someone bringing up some spiritual shit. and i know everything they do say that's correct, they're viewing it from a VERY different lens than i am

i hate family who act like "we're all stardust" is a new revelation to them in their spiritual journey, which i have ALWAYS stated growing up, albeit with a more scientific lens. they also act like it's some special notable thing that means we can manifest anything when i just think it's a fact of life & people only view it as something astonishing because of how mysterious and disconnected the stars seem to your average person

i can never bring up my nuanced takes on life outside earth because someone always dumbs it down or tries to make it fit their own personal ideology on real time, or they'll think i'm lying once i say The Proven Alien Hoax Is, ✨Surprise Surprise✨, A Hoax Again™.

don't get me started on all the alien theories rooted in Just Racism

there's also a lotta people who aren't necessarily spiritual or conspiratorial with it, but it's an aesthetic for them, which on its face is fine, but i hate the thought that i will be grouped in with people who just find kinship with the great unknown Like Y'all Don't Appreciate It Like Me!!!‼️ gatekeeping rn on god how is the special interest i was bullied for so mainstream in internal culture and aesthetics

so i just pretend i don't really care much about it & it's really diminished by love of space & that's a shame & all but idk what else to do

nevermind the fact that when i was like 7 years old i cleared out two whole libraries of their astronomy books by reading every single one regardless of reading level

nevermind the fact most things i own are based on space

nevermind the different space and aerodynamic museums ive been to

nevermind me being able to name certain events just based off photos

nevermind me still owning a lotta books

nevermind me opting to study physics so i could better appreciate space

how dare my special interest be stolen ‼️‼️‼️

[anakeions]

ok wait sorry i’m not done but tears of the kingdom is so insane. i didn’t actually think zelda would be a playable character—i mean come on what is this an indie franchise that respects women or something—but i at least thought she’d be like a npc you could occasionally talk to or something LMFAOOO. i feel like what the story of the game fundamentally fucks up is the themes between it and botw—wild is about the past and how it influences the present and how all the characters we meet are stuck in a tragic past that they have no control over. and as mid as the writing may be there is this overarching goal of “how the fuck do we break free of this horrible trauma that’s been haunting the kingdom for a billion years” and at the end you reunite with zelda and you get to rebuild hyrule… so obviously the next game will be about—

Nevermind it’s about the past again. But like the extra past this time. The super ultra mega past. And also btw everything that was meaningful in breath of the wild is dead now we killed it. go save zelda again

[thatqueervampire]

I go non-verbal for a day and people ask me:

"Oh what's wrong?"

Or

"Oh are you ok?"

Or

"OK fine I'll leave you be then"

Like

Dude

I'm literally just, [not speaking], I don't get why they think that's a negative thing.

Plus the way they say those things with this bullshit concern layered on top like I'm a fucking child, genuinely pisses me off.

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how I was legitimately the most hated and bullied kid in my entire class, and probably entire school. I knew this as a fact. there was nothing I could do about it. not just by the kids either, but the teachers/staff as well. all because I was autistic and unable to speak and they didn't want to treat me decently. and I ask why. (rhetorically of course, because I know all the excuses given as answers)

being an autistic kid and knowing damn well this is true, that you're the most hated person in the entire building with not a single person on your side, knowing you're the main target for everyone's aggression every day, is....truly something. you know. like carrying the weight of everyone's hatred and negativity on your back alone, being their punching bag, internalizing their hatred for then. from ages 4 to 18. nonstop. never getting better. never knowing why. not being able to stop it. never getting any help. on your own and alone. blamed for it all.

yet i'm simply told to "get over it/stop caring" and get blamed for it fucking me up and having a lasting effect. lmao ok. let me just forget more than half my life existed at this point and magically get better! thanks!

[akinachiri]

being tested for a disorder then not being able to be given a medical diagnosis just bc u dont meet a singular criteria is so..... yea

[bowithoutadaemon]

Just sat down to do the thing I've been putting off, call the place about a thing.

They do not have a phone number. They have a form were you can tell them your phone number and the 4 hour chunk of time you want them to call you back. .... I hate this.

Guess I am picking the 3 hour chunk I'll be most likely to be awake all days next week and have a shitty, anxious, exhausting week next week until they call me on a random day at a near random time.

And today instead I'll buy groceries and meal prep over the weekend. Or I know I'll not eat until the phone call happened. Because my ability to prepare and remember to eat meals while extremely anxious is non existent...

[orgrimmar-archive]

[blizzposts]

my mom needs to understand this or i might actually short circuit and die immediately. i NEED my sunday nights girl. i need those 10 hours of being left alone entirely by the people i live with (her). after a weekend of sleeping and feeling like a reanimated corpse i NEED that time to do absolutely anything i want. i love her but her ass really has the audacity to say “you’ve had enough fun, go to sleep” GIRL NO I HAVEN’T‼️‼️‼️‼️ I LITERALLY HAVE A FUN DEFICIENCY (ADHD) !!!!!! THATS WHAT THAT IS, ESSENTIALLY!!!!!!!!!! also girlie does not understand that living like school -> sleep -> repeat is FUCKING DEPRESSING AS HELL!!!! if i don’t have enough fun i end up having a “random” mental breakdown at the mere mention of something stressful girl please i need my late night video games. just on sundays. please girl let me live

I need several hours of Quiet Time each day or i become the worst person alive

[tis-tics]

Why do people think it's a good idea to have fireworks EVERY NIGHT AND DAY OF DECEMBER?!?! Like, I'm currently fighting the urge to claw my ears off and/or have a meltdown (which I KNOW is imminent) and for WHAT?? THEY AREN'T EVEN THE NICE LOOKING FIREWORKS they're just flashes of light and DOING THEM DURING THE DAY ASWELL is overkill

[p3rson27]

I love the way wine hits it's like

I'm fine :) (I'm so sexy and powerful and this alcohol isn't affecting me at all)

*stands up*

Uh oh