#not with this rejected person clearly
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time to accept that I'm upset about the fact "its OK if you just want to be friends" is empty words. that's not going to happen!! & i can never go back to the society we met in because it'll just be awkward! without us EVER dating (unless we were and I wasn't aware of it). so sick of not understanding this stuff i wish it was simple and clear
#i'm so so tired i just like to make friends#and i thought i had one#when this guy messaged me asking if i was alright#after i didnt show up to a society for ages#i thought he was checking for the sake of checking#and i appreciated that because i was not alright#but he said he messaged me because he realised he needed to be proactive in finding a partner#and he thought i was pretty.#ok thanks but i want to be cared about outside of romantic intent#like i would worry for him and care about him#as someone i trust whose company i enjoy#but that wasn't the intent. and now there will be nothing#i'm so tired i hate this#asked my friend just now how it feels to be in love#or romantically attracted to someone#and she could not give a clear answer#despite having felt it before#but by the way she describes it. i tick all the boxes#not with this rejected person clearly#idk. i may not be capable. im so tired of it being everywhere#i wish i could message that friend i made at a social last year#who i had such a good time with#but he tried to kiss me then and he's got a girlfriend now#so it would be wrong#according to rules i don't understand#rant over#i am not sober which was such a mistake#because now i am alone and sad about lost friends who apparently felt something i did not#so that means we have to pretend like we mean nothing to each other#is it the autism. fr. i don't understand
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honestly, i am so glad that a piece of media is finally exploring the unrequited love trope appropriately. everyone always romantisises the shit out of it and talks about how sad and tragic it is, but in reality the idea of someone who has clearly been rejected pining after someone else for years is just uncomfortable and selfish. moving on is the only appropriate response to a situation like this. while, by the way, continuing to actively pursue the other person, especially when they are exclusively involved with someone else, is the most inappropriate one.
#to be clear i do not mean like mutual pining supposedly unrequited love situations where the person hasn't been rejected and just assumes#that the other person doesnt feel the same because of self esteem issues etc etc#i mean when someone clearly does not recirprocate but the other person just continues on obsessing over them#only friends the series#ofts#archer watches ofts#ofts: ep 4
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I feel like I'm going insane. That episode read to me as a lot more tragic than other people are reading it. Yeah they were racist and rich and spoiled and awful but they were just kids. They were all just kids. Lindy was absolutely terrified throughout the whole thing and clinging desperately to what she knew, which was terrible. They could've had the chance to learn and become better but they chose to go die and it's infuriating and tragic because nobody deserves that. Nobody deserves to be eaten by slugs or die of exposure in the woods. Nobody deserves to suffer like that. But they chose it rather than let the Doctor help them because they'd rather stay in their rich white supremacist bubble and he just wants to help and there's nothing he can do.
Maybe it's because one of my core beliefs is that nobody deserves death and suffering. Nobody. Even the worst person on earth can learn from their mistakes and come back and change and everyone deserves that chance. There's no such thing as too late. But they're never going to get that chance because they actively rejected it and to me that's still very, very sad.
#dead men do tell tales#doctor who#doctor who spoilers#dot and bubble#I am losing my mind. I am actually losing my mind#maybe it's because my brain is always telling me that I'm the worst person alive#instead of just saying that no I'm not my response is to say yeah okay and even the worst person alive doesn't deserve to die and can chang#what matters is that I'm taking the next step. and anyone can choose at any point to take the next step#and they actively rejected doing that and it's sad and infuriating#because nobody deserves to die#but they get what they chose#there's also the fact that I was raised by racist trump supporters and had to unlearn a lot of shit#which I was only able to do because I got out of my small town cult bubble and I was actually willing to listen to people#the problem comes when you see assholes and go wow look at those horrible unsympathetic assholes I could never be like them#by treating them as solely monstrous and something completely different from you you ignore your own ability to be monstrous#because you're not like them you're better#even the worst person is still a person and not some cartoon villain#and thinks that their actions are justified#and I'm always looking at people being assholes and going what makes you think this behavior is okay. you clearly think you're in the right#seriously what makes you think this. I want to know your exact thought process so I can stay far the hell away from it#I've been the asshole thinking I was completely in the right and I've seen people be absolutely horrible and justify it to themselves#so I'm always aware that this could be me. I could be being a total fucking dick. so I'm going to study you so I can avoid that#also the next person who says it was because they didn't learn empathy/were unempathetic gets slapped
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everytime i feel bad and stressed about my life i remember that i might be in a troubling situation and having a bad time but im not season 4 fiona gallagher in the clink after leaving crack on the counter which my 3 year old baby brother happened to ingest resulting in a fatal near-death experience thats wracked me with never-ending guilt and forever altered my life
#this storyline was stupid you expect me to believe two-apples-tall liam gallagher came close to the crack AND managed to ingest it?#the crack which is lined up on the kitchen counter?#Also i don't believe that fiona would be irresponsible enough for liam to have been able to be close to the crack#that was an ooc moment and not like “its ooc cause thats the point shes going thru a tough time”#morelike “so ooc that it seems like a discrepancy that was overlooked for the sake of drama and shock value#as an older sister i feel like being watchful of your younger sibling if crack is in their general vicinity is an unstoppable instinct#its just not a plausible situation sorry like this is coming from someone who wholeheartedly embraces the realistic idea#of fiona falling short sometimes and being very human by struggling to consistently maintain her doting attentiveness#but anyways it's complicated cause Fiona clearly put it somewhere he cant reach#so how did he get access to it????#its like getting mad at a parent for putting a glass of wine on the counter#not comparing that to literal cocaine obviously this whole situation was nonetheless messed up#but just for some perspective... the writers were clearly doing cocaine themselves if they thought that#liam was bungee-jumping onto the counter and showing off his skills as an apparent budding olympics gymnast#not justifying anything but. listen.#the fact that it was on the counter FOR A REASONNN shows that fiona was careful to keep it out of reach and NOT do something insane like#putting it on the table#liam somehow magically having access to it defeats the purpose of it being on the counter.#if they really wanted for it to be believable that liam managed to snort it they should've put it on the table#but we already know that situation wouldn't be believable in its entirety cause we know that fiona would literally never leave it there#WHICH IS MY POINT. LIKE THIS SITUATION IS JUST ANNOYINGLY UNBELIEVABLE. FIONA WOULD NOT DO THIS AND HOW DID LIAM EVEN GET TO IT??#theres like 39482939 overlooked discrepancies just for the sake of getting to the shock#just to circle back Fiona would literally never let liam go near crack no matter how far gone and fucked up she was#I KNOW THIS BECAUSE I AM AN OLDER SISTER.#its just so UGHHHHH anyways obviously i still think in canon yeah Fiona was at fault shouldve been more careful and watchful#no matter how you look at it its clear that a risk like this just cannot be taken and she had to be blamed to an extent#but me personally? i reject it because it didnt feel natural to me at all there were 394939 other ways to frame a Fiona downfall#And i loved all the other ways her spiral was shown like getting messed up and ending up in Sheboygan#all the shit she got into with robbie + the impulsive urge to ruin the good thing she had going with mike#so human and believable and deeply flawed unlike the liam situation which was horrifically OOC and unrealistic
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nothing makes me more mad than when david gaider tweets lmfaoooo
#hate that man#no offense#well full offense actually#the playersexual discourse is crazy but him admitting that he's the reason there's like.#gender-locked romances in response to da:tv having pansexual romances is insane#“everyone being able to be attracted to ur character takes away from the characters' agency” in what world actually#like does iron bull have no agency over his character cuz he can like both?#homophobic rhetoric i fear#not to mention idk why it would be more important for people that a fake person made of pixels#has more “agency” (as if they ever do theyre NOT REAL!!!!!!!!!)#than players who want to express themselves through the medium of the video game and experience it#in a way that makes them comfortable#dorian romance is great and it does revolve a whole lot around being gay but at some point like#not liking how bg3 did their romance bc characters can fall in love with you regardless of gender just stinks of losers#“they fall in love with you no matter how you act” bro if u do mean things some of them will permanently leave the party#like literally what are you talking abt#astarion rejected 60 percent of players in the first few weeks of the game being out like literally what are you talking about#its fine im calm#im chill#take a deep breath me#LOL#anyways fuck that guy#glad he's no longer lead writer cuz him freely admitting he's the reason for the limitations of dai is crazy#same guy who said astarion is basically fenris tho so u can clearly tell his ego has started leaking out his ass
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all the lyrics across Taylor’s past 5 albums about how she hopes she doesn’t lose him (hopes he doesn’t leave, hopes it never ends) only to arrive at her saying “you’re losing me.”
#the moment where it shifts in any relationship#where it goes from this fear of losing something to realizing that the loss is inevitable beCAUSE a person doesn’t want you#like. in a way her fears didn’t come true. because she didn’t do the losing.#it’s not like she had perfect happiness and it was just suddenly ripped away. it can’t be that no matter what people say#which was the fear#the absolute strangled fear in Cornelia street#because the coldness was there first and the distance and the apathy. and then it’s not about being left and feeling rejected#it’s about seeing the truth and saying oh. you’re losing ME. Because you don’t WANT this#idk if this makes sense but it is such a real life distinction to me#the difference between fears and reality#and of course that doesn’t mean it isn’t also a loss and a blow (a huge one) for her too#but it’s still not I wake up screaming from dreaming one day I’ll watch as you’re leaving#cause you got tired of my scheming#where the burden rests on her for the loss. as in the failure was innately in her#because you’re losing me still has ‘don’t read the last page cause I stay’ written on all over it#but then it’s seeing clearly too—you don’t want this enough to stay#this Probably makes no sense#it’s just exactly how heartbreak happens in real times which is. Yeah exactly what’s happening#the whole thing makes me so sad
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she's so arrogant and annoying and hot it pisses me off !!!
#like have some shame omg . have some respect#shes soooo certain i will date her she keeps saying shes not worried she doesnt care etc etc bc she knows i want to date her#not even that. she Declared we were dating. like when i was like do u even want this. not just going on dates but acc dating. and she was#like wdym? im already dating you . like ok??? i wasnt informed ig#anyway i said she was arrogant and she said she knows so.#also she did several things when she was drunk that i found cringe/i personally would b embarrassed if i was her but she just found it funn#like genuinely does she have no sense of shame#also her reasoning is that shes too hot to be rejected and since im talking to her instead of... not that makes her certain that#no matter what i say i wont reject her#WHICH MAKES ME WANT TO REJECT HER. DONT TELL ME WHAT I WANT OR WHAT TO DO. UGH.#I WANT TO FIGHT HER FR MEIN GOTT#also i want her to be more romantic i literally told her im not asking her out on the next date lmao#also if we do end up dating properly i have to swear and oath never to argue w her and just communicate slowly and clearly bc imagine#lawyer and philosophy student get into an argument and theyre both scorpios. insane combination imo#INSUFFERABLE. she was also 40 mins late and tbf she did warn me and keep me updated but i was still rly mad at her bc#i was waiting for so long . and i was like . listen im gonna leave. and she walked thru the door. but anyway she apologised but also she#said no ones ever threatened to leave her b4. what do you mean before?? anyway i told her to respect my time more and she was like i cant#believe im being told off by a 21 yr old like bitch ur literally 24 stop acting ancient fuck off#UGH SHES SO IRRITATING. WHY DOESNT SHE CALL ME MORE.#crushposting
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under the cut in case tags are broken but spoilers for the game & fandom crit
i rly think some of you are just rancid for no reason btw. like i just think if u look at a queer man LI who is a canonical victim of abuse - inc sexual abuse, and the story does not shy away from it & the ramifications of that - and a deep, rich, layered story about regaining autonomy and healing and personal liberty and trying to forgive yourself for all the horrible things that you did & were while you were abused (that you were a Real monster for) and all you have to say about it is "ugh another fucking white LI ofc you're all into him" like... idk. i dont think the problem is the fact that he's white. i think there's something wrong with YOU.
#ppl will bitch when characters of colour are survivors of abuse saying its some jerk off fantasy. ppl will also bitch when white charas have#that narrative too. like. just because a story isn't for you doesn't mean there's no fucking value to it.#and to idk sooo easily dismiss as ofc people only care abt this LI because flirty white boy. like everyone who has tried to approach him#that way has apparently gotten rejected. so like. clearly that's not his character.#i keep saying this but sometimes stories are not for you or about you or relevant to you#and that's fine. yes. even those stories.#there's never any room in fandom anywhere for these kinds of stories. you people will deny deny deny#any depictions of these kinds of experiences and you will find a way to claim it's problematic or idk morally deficient in SOME way#and you're hemming and hawing about it. and finding 100 ways to dismiss it. but the underlying theme is that it happens with specific kinds#of stories and storylines and character backstories. but ofc you don't want to get accused of not being supportive of abuse victims#so you couch it in other terms. and i just want you to fucking know that i see you. i see you and i think you're RANCID.#your faux activism does nothing for me either as a person of colour or as a victim of abuse.#get FUCKED.#tbd#vee plays bg3#bg3 spoilers#fandom critical
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Ig sort of my thesis for the sum total gender discourse within PH is it mostly comes off as very off the cuff
#logxx#Aside from the obvious exceptions most of the stuff it ends up saying about gender or sexuality comes off as like#Bc the author clearly thinks abt these subjects a lot and has very complicated feelings abt them#Her work (which comes off as strongly influenced by personal history and introspection) ends up making statements abt gender#But the work overall* doesn't come off as deliberately feminist or anything As Such#(* VnC comes off as a lot more deliberate which makes sense)#Saw post talking about how The Fact of Relationships is moralized in PH and my grievance w it is like#You're not wrong but ''Loving Someone is morally neutral'' is kind of the least interesting analysis of that topic#Mostly bc I don't think PH rly attempts to reject any alternative hypothesis#And even goes so far as to parody like. Conventional heteronormative depictions of the subject#PH *IS* interested in the fact of loving other people but not rly in the morality of the action itself#And in general is more interested in how power dynamics affect relationships including between people who love each other
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ok i guess im posting my dnd opinions today. alignment as a system is so fickle and debated because the average ttrpg player is not somebody who is interested in philosophical theory, let alone an in-depth discussion of morality, so defining both the good/evil and chaotic/lawful spectrums is fucking difficult because NOBODY here is equipped to answer questions like "what is evil?" let alone "what makes a person Inherently Evil or Inherently Good", and the fact that the average dnd group would need to satisfactorily ANSWER those questions in order to rules-lawyer certain spells/items/abilities is absolutely fucking ridiculous
#and thats not even touching on how ridiculous lawful/chaotic is#like i just use it as a legalist/anarchist scale but some other definitions get really fucking esoteric really quick#the most common one ive seen is lawful means having a personal code you use to make decisions while chaotic means not doing that ig#but now youve defined it as having literally any ideology at all which. everything is ideological all the time always.#like am i lawful for being an anarchist?#its an internal code i follow so by popular definition it would make me lawful right? nvm that the code is a rejection of laws as authority#like it just makes no goddamn sense but thats what people come up with when they dont have the mental frameworks to actually discuss this#and someone notices that legality and morality are attached to 2 different axes even though authoritarian society says theyre the same thing#you get answers like ''well clearly lawful doesnt mean literally actually law-abiding because how could the law be evil?''#its. why the fuck is something so subjective and conceptually advanced still a core mechanic of the worlds most popular ttrpg#it doesnt HELP except for establishing the bare bones of ''your character should have a personality and it should affect their choices''
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pmd chatot for blorbo bingo? ^^
He's a silly rabbit. I love him
#anonymous#wondermail#tbh w chatot i think ppl jump from one extreme to the other of either 'horrible capitalist'#or 'genuinely plans everything out to test people's faith and is Always Trusting And Good W Protags'#but i think there's more nuance to it than that#he does make mistakes! and he laughs nervously and tries too hard to cover it up and that's why i love him honestly#like when wigglytuff says chatot clearly believed hero and partner all along i think he was trying to give him an out#and chatot could tell and gratefully took that#he's flawed and that's okay!!!! it doesn't make him any less passionate or caring#he's just the head of intelligence and trying to run w what he thinks is logical#anyway. love this disaster birb. will fight ppl who make hating him their personality. (except eots hero bc their dynamic is awesome)#*dives back in w more tags* OKAY HIM NOT BELIEVING THEM ABOUT THE FUTURE AT FIRST MAKES ME THINK OF PARTNER REFUSING TO BELIEVE GROVYLE#it's not a slight to them it's just. he idolised dusknoir and he's in denial. he doesn't wanna believe things went so bad#and honestly i think he's probably wanting to avoid the idea that he let hero and partner down by letting dusknoir so close if he was bad#so he rejects that reality#damn now i wanna make a post about this#but I've also seen the aftermath of my mutuals facing backlash for chatotposting and it's like hmm. ppl can be so negative about him huh
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The thing about Camilla Hect is that she's Lancelot but we see almost nothing of her relationship with Guinevere. But also we do know that she's the one person Dulcinea thought might realize Cytherea was a fraud, and also iirc Camilla brings up whether Dulcinea will recognize them immediately before she stops existing. Of course she loves where Palamedes loves, and that's probably both a sublimation of her feelings about him and a natural consequence of those feelings - quoth Gideon, she's his sword, his right hand, an extension of his very self - but she wants to be seen by Dulcinea. Dulcinea believes Cam sees her. Their relationship is attached to their connections with Palamedes but still distinct from those connections until Cam and Pal disappear so completely into each other they stop existing. What I'm saying is that I think Dulcie should haunt Paul both literally and figuratively.
#tbh I think the cam/pal fic ive tried so far has failed me because it doesn't lean hard enough into the deranged fealty kink of it all#which is not to say that has to be a key component of their thing for other people but it is to me personally#but also the traditionally homoerotic but in this case extremely bisexual dynamic of being in love with your best friends' girl#anyway it's not that I think pal knows dulcie less it's that he's going to be too busy respecting the apparent rejection to#analyze it#my darlings!!!#I sometimes internally rail at Tazmuir for leaving the good stuff in the margins but there is so much good stuff#anyway dulcie! she clearly knew cam and pal were an absolute package deal but was she prepared for this package#I hope to find out
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As I get older and older I more tangibly realize why queer individuals in older generations than mine might prefer words I wouldn't use for myself, and likewise why younger generations preferences would be different too. Like it was always clear you know, a person knows their identity best and what labels they prefer best and even if you don't get it you should respect it. But I guess the older I get the more I realize I really don't know and never can know the background another person has for their perceptions and meaning for labels and why something in particular helps them to use or not
#rant#lgbt#...........................................................................................................................................#i just. so im alive in the time i guess when i saw trans identities barely discussed like even in educational material i didnt#hear about gender identity until i dug deep. to people now using transmasc and transfemme as labels. labels i dont understand and know#i dont. i presume they mean trans people who identify with masculinity or femininity? but i think im probably wrong#because ive seen transmen call themselves transmasc and it confuses me. because a transman can be a very feminine person who loves makeup#so. one cannot say transmasc and actually Mean all trans men. a transfemme does Not include all transwomen because transwomen can be butch#and reject femininity. so like... from my outdated perception i see it as the cis straight societal gender expectations of men MUST be masc#women MUST be femme which. i hate. becayse i specifically feel all people should and can be whatever they want.#any man can be feminine any woman can be masculine any person can be any range on that and change daily and do what they want#and their gender is still valid. and then like. theres ppl like me. im nonbinary. im a pretty feminine guy#im a fairly masculine woman. i dont think i could even fit into transmasc or transfemme labels.#i do think those labels help and suit people who like them. if i met a nonbinary lipstick lesbian perhapa#transfemme would help her xommunicate how she feels. but those words dont help me they are boxes i cant fit inside#and i get why they exist but its like. cool. now i get why transman needs to be preserved Outside of transmasc. because feminine trans men#still need space. i get why masculinjty and femininity need to mean something clearly Separate from gender itself or we loose the ability#to express the range of gender expression in qll areas. i dont know what transexual means but now i realize why a person older than me#may LIKE that label and cling to it. because it may communicqte something For Them that helps them in a#way that was lost to understanding by my generation. in a way that the terms no longer useful for my self identity but is for them.#in the way that trans man and nonbinary fit me but i could never be fit within the labels of transmasc or transfem etc#and in the way that for some people transmasc etc labels will fit Them and Help in a way a label like transman never can. and so on
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Alternate ways to say “I love you” (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Yanderapy#Still in the ''Getting To Know You'' phase but with all the other steps missed lol#Especially Ishida calling him Micchan - he skipped right on past Maeda-san or Mitsuru-san or even Mitsu-kun and went straight to -chan#He probably asked permission first but like - Mitsuru would've said yes to basically any endearment lol#Boundaries what boundaries#He does intentionally call Ishida ''Ishida-san'' tho - he's too nervous to ask (there's that fear of rejection again)#But he also just likes calling him like that! He likes that Ishida is a year older than him but he can leave off the -sempai#But he also likes being respectful and leaving a little bit of distance#All the nicer when he finally bucks up the courage to get a little closer hehehe ♪#Ishida would probably let him call him by his first name without honourifics if he asked but Icchan might be a Little♪ too far right now lol#Maybe someday tho >:3c#Anyway lol to the topic at hand! They're discussing Love Languages obviously - Mitsuru brought it up and Ishida didn't know any specifics#Yet more of his yandere side lol - it makes him feel powerful! And cared for of course haha#Mitsuru seems into it :3#Also Mitsu is by no means touch-starved - his family isn't exactly touchy-feely but they're not afraid of closeness either#He gets hugs and general friendly touches - and clearly he's had his hair messed with lol - he's just a tactile person!#Doesn't make it not embarrassing to say so openly to his boyfriend tho haha - that Expectation y'know#Ishida takes it in stride ♪ If it will make Mitsu happy to touch him then what does it hurt to do so#The PDAs! Goodness you two (lol)#Mitsuru does appreciate that he took right to it :) No hesitation to make him feel loved! Shows he cares <3
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OH I’M. SO FUCKING ANGRY I WAS SO EXCITED TO SHOW YOU GUYS MY SENIOR QUOTE BUT THEY. THEY REJECTED IT
#WITHOUT TELLING ME TOO#I WAS LIKE HAHA I KEPT THE MOB PSYCHO BIT GOING#anyway it was reigens “be a good person that is all”#we had really strict guidelines it was the only one i could fit#anyway#anyone got any ideas for my cap?#it’s just super annoying cuz 1) they rejected a lot of people’s quotes without telling them#2) you can VERY clearly see the handpicked and were biased about other peoples quotes#3) they just ruined a whole grade’s experience of getting a senior quote#cnp rants
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This haunted face holds no horror for me now. It’s in your soul where the true distortion lies.
— Christine, The Phantom of the Opera, A.L.W.
#Erik did not have nearly enough time to process how hard this line goes#she said babe i'm not rejecting you because you’re ugly i'm rejecting you because you're evil#and the thing is he doesn't know how to be a good person BECAUSE he was considered too ugly to BE a person#and being ugly in the face and ugly in the heart are not the same but for him they are so horribly linked#and i just think like fuck man she's right#and she loves him anyway (which like CHRISTINE NO but also Deeply Felt That)#not to make everything about anthony bridgerton but like same-opposite vibe#'you find my smile pleasing?'#and kate is like I think you're a bitch it doesn't matter if you're pretty (but also it matters but also it doesn't PROVE YOURSELF SIR)#you'd think anthony would be raoul who's literally the viscount who falls for an opera singer#but clearly he's a weirdo ghost haunting himself#poto#bridgerton#keeping my blorbo rant in the tags for reasons lol#.braindump
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