#cnp rants
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every time i see something labeled as “4 years ago” im like oh so like 2018 NO its 2020
#i wish you could capitalize numbers#just when i’ve finally got used to 2016 being more than two year ago#i’m hit with this Horrible dilemma#cnp rants
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for the life of me i can’t remember the ending of the movie. i remember branch turnging blue and i blacked out from there
i watched the first trolls movie blazed out of my mind and i swear to god that wasn’t a real movie
#why are you blue#cnp rants#also my sister and i laughed way too hard at the jokes#only because we knew them already
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I got some writing feedback today and I fear it may have broken me.
It wasn’t bad, or even poor feedback. It just kind of hurt.
Me having a bit of a meltdown below the cut.
So, some explanation.
Back in January, I entered the Cheshire Novel Prize. Basic sort of contest, near 2000 entrants, you enter your novel, 100 get through to Round Two, like 10 make Round Three, and the winner is selected from them. The first round results were announced back in April, but it's old hat to me because this is my third year entering.
And I have never made it past the first round.
I've been entering the same novel, Stitches of the Mind, for three years, polishing it up more and more each time. But I've never so much as made it to round two.
Now, I’m not surprised by this, and it’s mostly fine. Sort of upsetting, but my rational side tells me its fine. 100 spots out of 2000? 5% chance? How likely is that?
BUT one of the selling points of CNP is that every entrant, no matter how far they get, will receive feedback on their entry. Which is great!
This year though, the contest did a bit of a number on me. My self confidence in my writing, and all around need to be validated, has been a little fragile the past year, and the CNP do a lot to build tension concerning who’s made it through, so it was a long tense build up, months in advance, to a simple disappointing loss.
But I still had the feedback to look forward to.
The feedback usually takes a while to go out, there are a lot of people to email, and I was patient… mostly. Started to get a little antsy by mid-September. But today, 23rd of September, my feedback arrived. And it was everything I should have expected. A lot of nice praise, some stuff I can improve (though that was a little vague) and a final summary of some general tips.
And buried in all that feedback was this line:
"There is so much to like about this novel, and it was so close to progressing in the competition."
And that comment felt like it cracked my brain.
I was so close to progressing. And I didn't even know. But I'd still lost!
And I'd just been given feedback that, had I known it six months ago, could have meant I finally got to Round Two, which is honestly all I could hope for.
But discovering that I was that CLOSE TO SUCCEEDING!
FUCK!
I... don't really know what to do with all this. I know there's another editing run in my future, because of course there is, but I am still struggling to process this news. I'd have killed to get to Round Two, and receive even that little bit of validation that this novel is worthwhile! But no. I missed it by inches, if the feedback is to be believed. After three years I still missed it by inches.
I'm just a little exhausted now.
I think I need to go to bed. I'm a little sleep deprived anyway, having stayed up too late last night, trying to track down my past CNP feedback on an old computer. And then the new one miraculously arrived today. What are the odds?
But yeah, that's the meltdown I'm having.
How are you guys doing?
#writeblr#writing#writers on tumblr#writing community#Cheshire Novel Prize#CNP#sorry for the rant#i'm constantly a little sore that people in real life don't ask me about my wips#I think that bled a lot into my hopes for this year#I might delete this depending on how I feel in the morning
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The fact this is being said by a policeman đź’€
#s#crime and punishment#FUCK YEAH this whole conversation is delightful#see i distinctly remember that rodyas Napoleon theory pissed me off tremendously when i first read cnp#because it seems so blatantly stupid to me and i considered it unrealistic that a character would ever believe it#and like... at the time i already loved stories that were blatantly unapologetically philosophically argumentative#and i think what annoyed me is that after this chapter the characters never sat down again to discuss this theory#or maybe just that i felt they didn't argue with it sufficiently in this chapter#i have a feeling that now a few years later i might be more able to see the argument being made in the story itself rather than in dialogue#though I'll still probably be annoyed at Dostoyevsky's judgement not complying with mine lol#anyway the most important point is that i love it when authors or characters rant about their highly specific philosophical takes#the historiography essays of war and peace are a delight
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every time i see a potato smiley i am immediately reminded of evil potato smiley and by association, mogami keiji
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made these edits for the age swap au. dies
#there were supposed to be like two others#accompanied by sketches of my own#but i ended up pushing them so far back that they never saw the light of day#so i was like fuck it#i’ll take the one thing that’s actually presentable and post that#so here you go#for tome’s suit i took the blue from her seifuku and picked a color from the opposite end of the spectrum. which turned up a nice brown#if she had a tie i’d make it green#cnp rants#mp100#reigen arataka#tome kurata#mp100 ageswap
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things to say after your packer falls from your pants
my eyes are up here
is that your phone on the floor or were you just excited to see me
five second rule!
#i actually can’t think of any more#i thought of this while my friend was talking abt being terrified of his packer falling out and i just blurted out “my eyes are up here”#i laughed so hard i cried#cnp rants
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i’m debating if i should participate in mobtober or cringetober or both. take this while i figure it out
#it’s from the cringetober prompt “oversized prop”#it was meant to be like their cardboard cutouts#but it just looks like i’m holding them#i accidentally picked the cuntified version of reigen#i was staring at him for a while too i was like why is he looking so good rn…#also i need a haircut sighhh#cnp rants
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finally they’re slowly making serizawa and reigen the same height like god (ONE) intended
#we got submas at home. the submas at home:#also what’s with the blank stare in serizawa’s eyes#boy are you okay#mob psycho 100#mp100#shigeo kageyama#reigen arataka#serizawa katsuya#cnp rants
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i miss that wonderful period of time where manga readers were able to gaslight the anime only mob psycho enjoyers. three characters died in their eyes
#it was reigen dimple and mob#like even before season three#i can only imagine the joy manga readers felt seeing anime onlys panic at reigen supposedly dying#mob psycho 100#mp100#cnp rants
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i need them to put reigen arataka into fortnite
#i’m not joking when i say i would actually start playing fortnite if they do#im serious. this is not a joke#cnp rants
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i think the idea of ritshou and terumob happening at the same time is hilarious. the bloodline ends with all of them
#sometimes i think about how neither me or my sister will have biological kids#sometimes i think that’s hilarious#sometimes it scares me#but alas#cnp rants#mp100#shou suzuki#ritsu kageyama#shigeo kageyama#teruki hanazawa#terumob#ritshou#i think#i guess it counts
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genuinely if mob choir ever decided to branch out or something and hold concerts to perform the mob psycho OP/ED’s live i would pay real money to see them
#catch me in the hospital the next morning with whiplash#IS THIS MY IDEAL??? IS THIS MY MIND??#IS THIS THE DAY. IS THIS THE TIME. AH DESPERATELY#mp100#cnp rants
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oh my god i just remembered i had a DREAM that ONE published bonus pages for the epilogue of mob psycho and for some fucking reason teruki died and i remember being so upset because i was like he did NOT have to kill him off like that. and now that i’m awake it sounds ridiculous but that hurt was real man
#emphasis on dream#woke up pissed too#it was for like a self sacrifice thing too#and it haunted mob and everyone else#i was like man all that character development for what#like yeah it sounds silly and mp100 isn’t even a story like that. to like kill off younger characters#but man#sorry thinking about it again#i’m not gonna tag this lawl#cnp rants
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what if one day i bring a partner to my bed and i have to be like “oh sorry let me move everything off my bed. sorry”

#my sister looked at my bed and said “brother you don’t even need the diagnosis”#this is why i’m aroace /j#could never show anyone this#except all of you i guess#this isn’t what my bed normally looks like#the blanket isn’t part of my bed it’s just there because the plushies are there#cnp rants#mp100
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if i ever see another blond spikey haired boy ask their rival smth along the lines of “would i still be able to catch up to you?” im gonna lose my mind
#mp100#teruki hanazawa#shigeo kageyama#hm. never had to tag this one before.#mha#mha spoilers#bakugou katsuki#izuku midoriya#cnp rants
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