#oh the imposter syndrome.

[thesean]

I dont know. i wish i was as smart as i pretend to be sometimes

[sygneth]

I have had a lot of thoughts on the original story after listening to the Sherlock&Co "Gloria Scott" and a new headcanon just dropped.

Chapter 1: part 1 - part 2 - part 3 - part 4 - part 5 - part 6

Masterpost (Index)

AO3

thoughts, if you're curious:

As far as gay Victor Trevor absolutely got me, I don't think there was anything serious between him and Holmes. This all comes down to my reading of Holmes, who is (to me) too aroace-spec to get involved in a regular relationship (althouuuughh about Holmes, his sexual and romantic orientation and him discovering it I have had so many thoughts I could write a whole essay). He likes to have a default person though, someone who will take him as he is, and maybe even admire a little - now that's Watson, earlier it was Trevor.

And yea I think Victor got a crush straight away after their first meeting, maybe they even talked about this at some point. Maybe Holmes said that he won't be able to reciprocate this affection but if Victor is fine with keeping things as they are, then he is too. I like to think they stayed pen friends even after Trevor's leave.

I feel like I should emphasize this? My intention in the comic was to make Trevor visibly flustered because he didn't expect a young attractive boy (he's hopeless in my head), while Holmes simply didn't expect to see someone his age and so sincerely sorry.

[waitineedaname]

is it possible to work on your thesis without feeling like a failure at least once a week? experts are saying "no"

[blueskittlesart]

Good luck with crit!! If nothing you've got a bunch of unqualified Tumblr people who love your comics, but I'm sure you'll do great :)

guys i was stressed for literally no reason she looked me dead in the eyes and told me that the comic i turned in was better than some published books and that i should be sending it to publishers. i almost cried

[strangegutz]

I got one of your dolls recently and am very excited! But how does it feel to send them out? Is it mentally just a business transaction or is it kind of sad? Or is it happy?

Thank you so much anon!!

Honestly, the most fun part of the dolls to me is the process of making them! I have kept a handful of my dolls, but the satisfaction of finishing them up far outweighs the satisfaction of having them up on the shelf. I'm pretty happy that people love my work enough to buy it!

[battlecrazed-axe-mage]

Sometimes, when I'm playing Among Us with my friends, I start to doubt whether or not I'm playing it right. Like...am I actually supposed to be doing tasks right now? What if I'm supposed to be killing people

I think I've got imposter syndrome

[memeticallyengineered]

the thing with discoveries is that honestly it's always a long process

[fallenstarcat]

“i’ve done all this work and i’m not really in pain, i must be faking it”

i say as a slide down the stairs because it hurts too much to walk down

[fauvester]

also in self discussion reflecting on my imposter syndrome and anxiety i remembered how my mom passed up a really incredible surgical fellowship because she didnt think she was good enough. and how she never told her mentor about it and still regrets that it estranged them decades later. how fucked up is that. she lost an opportunity to do more training that she loved and reach a stratospheric point in an already competitive specialty and she sabotaged it for herself and lost a respected mentor in the process because she never told him why she passed up on that chance. because of literally the exact same thing that I'm going through now. she retired early because the anxiety was killing her even though she was constantly the #1 ranked physician in her practice and she LOVED her job and was GOOD at it. she'd come home every day convinced that everyone thought she was a horrible person. and now she's going crazy with boredom and lack of meaningful work at home! she talks about herself so negatively and honestly it's sad and tiring to hear.

I never put it together how Im having the exact same struggles that she was.. I dont want to end up the same way. I want to get help. If I rise or fall i want it to be on my own merits and not any warped and self-effacing self-perception. I dont know if I can be my own ally but I can try not to be my own enemy

[thelaststarfalling]

might take a medieval studies class next semester cuz i'm crazyyyy

[qprpbj]

do you have any tips on how to start writing fics?

the outsiders brainrot actually has me coming up with ideas and i have a desire to start writing them into actual stories but i've never written outside of class papers/assignments and i don't really know where/how to start since it's all just my own prompts and ideas and there's no grading rubric lmaoooo

like do you plan out each fic with a list first or do you just start writing about the main plot point of the chapter and fill in out of order or do you just start writing and see where it takes you... do you do any research while you're planning or pull from other authors/fics/posts or write from experience...

how do you decide when to stop writing or decide on which endings/paths/plot points to go with... the deadly combo of indecisiveness and perfectionism along with having no guidelines or due dates is crippling me so im asking some of my fav authors (who have also been inspiring me to write and be creative)

wait hi this is so sweet thank you!!! 🥹🥹 i will preface All This (sorry i yapped so much lol) by. i’ve been writing fic for like ten years and i think a lot of my old fic, while deeply cringe and awful, was all very important to getting me where i am today where i feel i can accurately get across what im trying to say!!!

first. hone your ideas!!! try to find a good niche you feel comfortable in (but also. don’t limit your creativity!!!). idk for me it’s easier to start specific and small rather than super general bc then i have Tooooo much freedom u know. i think my niche sorta across fandoms is generally softer dialogue, exploring close siblings or familial or friendship bonds an dynamics through situation, a lot of fluff, maybe a lil hurt comfort

i basically exclusively write in order! unless i get a really cool line/paragraph in my head that i write out and save for later to fit in somewhere. i usually have a like one-line idea that just Comes to me (ex. this was my entire line idea that turned into that pony getting jumped fic!)

then i’ll expand it a little more into a shitty little paragraph (ex. here’s a few!!!)

and then tbh after that i just kinda write everything in order from top to bottom from there. i wish i were more organized tbh and writing long fic/chaptered stuff is still sooo hard for me (which is why i don’t do it much yet lol) but im really trying to break out of it!! slowly we are learning!!! retaining the inspo and drive necessary to write that much is harddddd lmfao

before writing i always do have a solid idea where i want it to start and go and end though. like that ponyboy jumping fic i Knew i wanted to have pony get jumped in the opening scene, then go home, try to break down cutting his own hair, brothers come in and talk him down and it ends with talking abt johnny, even if i didn’t like. List that all out in words in a document.

definitely do research!!! espppp for outsiders bc it was like 60 years ago!!! well researched fics are soooo obviously tonally different and it’s always super obvious imo when that sort of care is put into ur writing. that fic i wrote about darry getting a panic attack was important researching bc panic attacks weren’t well known or researched or even Called panic attacks back then, so it’d be hella jarring seeing like 1967 13y/o pony whip out “you’re having a panic attack darry 🤓👆” yk lmfaoo

i SOO get the perfectionism and having no due dates thing btw. i have literally like 5 fics i’ve started and not finished in my docs rn with like 15 more ideas i wanna write someday. tbh! try to enter that Hyperfixation Zone and be really excited about what you’re making!!! helps it go by easier bc i swear sometimes i’ll write fic and it feels like pulling teeth even though it’s supposed to be fun!!!

last thing. try and find friends to bounce ideas off of and go crazy with you <3 or ppl to beta read!!! makes writing SO much easier and sm more fun having a your own lil personal cheerleader!!! if you ever need a beta id be soooo happy to read whatever you’ve got and hype u up!!! <3 i hope this helped at least a little bit LOL my writing process is kinda chaotic ngl

[messrsrobyn]

i left this on your tellonym as well but why do you think we've babygirled barty and evan but not bellatrix for example i try hard not to use words like misogyny but i cant think of anything else and need your thoughts

p.s congrats on 11k!

okay so i'll give my thoughts BUT i wanna preface by saying that i don't think i've ever read a bella fic so i have no idea how she's portrayed in centric fics

i think the first thing is just,,, she killed sirius 🤷‍♂️

and like yeah, barty attacked the longbottoms but sirius is a BIG part of the fandom, obviously. i think it puts a lot of us off of engaging with her because we'd have to try and emphasise? sympathise? justify? whichever term you prefer! i just think it would be harder if she killed one of our faves.

which also! we know i like pete and i can see the potential double standards there BUT we have evidence that pete was their friend. we know he was a good person at first, we have no idea about bella. we have no idea what she was like pre-DE, we do however know she was a DE and she killed sirius, and that makes it harder to (insert preferred term x)

building upon thattt, @courfee made this next point in a comment of my tt today (sorry, i'm stealing it 😖😖)

we have more canon info about bella than barty and evan !! so we have that grey space to look into motivations or reasons, or even to just explore their characters more. there's more space to play with them but we have a lottt of lore about bella and that restricts us a lot more (esp if we're talking about "babygirling" which btw, i dislike that term but i get it so yeah, if we're talking about "babygirling" it'd be harder with a character we know so much about but don't approve of any of it)

my finalllll point is just,,, sometimes we dislike characters 🤷‍♂️ like i know i do all my yaps and they seem very put together but a lot of the time my opinions are just like "yeah it could be this but also MEHHHH i just like it/dislike it" and i sit and think about it before filming. generally i'm just floating around clueless and engaging with whatever i like with an empty head 😭

no thoughts, head empty, just vibes

bella as a character is just one that i don't like. so i don't engage. head empty. not because she's a woman, i just don't like her character.

i never know how to end yaps on here 😭 yolo. okert. slay.

[wildharesandboundteeth]

Don't know if I've gushed about this here yet but I will gush about again!!!

I love how loving the gods have 'tricked' me into loving parts of myself I have forsaken. I could never claim to be as cunning or witty as Lord Hermes or let alone as ferocious and driven as Lord Ares- BUT I still see traits of them in myself.

How can I take my silver tongue for granted if Lord Hermes so graciously gifted it to me?

How could I look down on what others deem to be 'bad emotions' if it's what helps Lord Ares win the war?

It's been a long journey and it's going to be a longer one still to love myself fully but I think I'm starting to truly love the journey and not just tolerate it for the sake of surviving.

[theninjamouse]

Sometimes you really do need to go back and reread your own writing

[daincrediblegg]

Me: man. It’s been a while since I watched the terror. I don’t have anything else to watch so I’ll put it on. I’ve probably overplayed it by now and it ‘ll be boring now but-

Me exactly 5 minutes later when I see jared harris come into frame:

[steel-nageyari]

FULL 78 CARD ENGAGE TAROT DECK HAS PRE-ORDERS OPEN! ISN'T THAT SO COOL?! CLOSES 2.4.23!

i drew kagetsu! can you guess which card he is.... hee hee