#oh god i can talk about this all day
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michael to jeremy: hey this thing you said and did bothered me
jeremy starts overly apologizing and doesn’t let michael speak, unintentionally being a bad listener / feeling too sorry for himself
is my favorite thing ever. 12 yrs of friendship is a lot of weight to carry. whenever someone coined me as their best friend, i could never regard that as anything but a sign of doom. call me jaded. i headcanon michael to truly be extremely unsociable outside of direct interactions that are a must. hes deeply loyal to jeremy to a fault and oh baby the co dependency is bad bad bad!
once Michael becomes aware of it, he’ll hang so far back until he fades into the background. the painful part is watching your friends move on bc that’s just how it happens sometimes. love from afar is a bittersweet thing
#emotional detachment is not fun kids#i love fluff boyf friends#but i also thrive from the complex issues that stem behind it#i like the angst and toxicity#i like any and all type of boyf content except idk some things i personally view as ooc#but the strain and friend angst is my favorite hahaaaa#michael in all his wants wants jeremy for himself but is also too deeply connected with jeremy that he understands what he needs#jeremy is just too hung up on being perceived as good and wants to be good by everyone#but when hes wronged in the moment he can start to feel resentment towards the littlest shit#theyre both petty in their own ways#and also self destructive but michael is better at holding it in#hes better at pushing his emotions so far down he loses himself in his own web of lies#jeremy will take things at face value and has a hard time reading between the lines unless the line is clearly drawn on the floor#in permanent marker#michael has a hard time expressing his true feelings because he can be emotionally stunted for his own shit#hes snarkier and sarcastic and can be really mean#jeremy will jump at any chance to decidedly do something for himself and still feel like the world owes it to him#oh god i can talk about this all day#michael wants jeremy to read his mind!!!#jeremy wants michael to say the right things always#grrrr!!#unrealistic expectations from years of codependency!!!!!!#aaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaahaaarhfjfjdh#i need to start feeling better already i cant believe i spent my weekend in fucking bed#im going insane
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rook x lucanis: romance with a commentary track! solas and spite contribute with their thoughts and opinions along the way whether anyone wants them to or not. it's like a MST3K episode up in here as you try to get hot and heavy. in. in the pantry. love among the radishes at the end of the world (rifftrax version)
#still not sure who I'll romance first but I *am* starting to find lucanis just like. inherently hilarious. which is often how it starts.#for me. because of my many faults and flaws as a human being. I can't resist anything I find even slightly funny#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#solas#dragon age spoilers#god please PLEASE let there be a fade section where solas and spite could interact just to complete my Vision here#anyway I think this concept could bring out the absolute troll side of solas that I love and treasure so much#if you annoy him too much in your little fade talks he'll start loudly critiquing your kissing technique in the back of your head#'oh is that how people go about it these days. well. not how I would have done it but to each their own of course'#pls pls I want pass agg dread wolf roasts constantly he's such a bitch he was born for this (affectionate)#I mean only lucanis and the player can hear spite apparently so it'd be more like lucanis looking into the camera like he's on the office#it's so cruel I think he's already going to be real weird at emotional intimacy as it is he shouldn't have to deal#with being bounced against the fourth wall like a little rubber ball on top of it all. sorry about your life (?) lucanis
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imagine the woman you're dating letting slip the L word by accident and you're just not there enough, not yet ready, to say it back but you promise her you will be (it won't take that long) and you beg her to be patient with you and you kiss her and you go to bed sleeping beside her and you think everything is okay, and the next morning you leave her at breakfast with secret plans in mind to spoil her for her birthday, but the next time you hear from her she tells you she's leaving the country right now immediately and don't contact her she'll call you tomorrow. like. fuck 🥹
#swarla#coronation street spoilers#oh carla oh god#can somebody wrap that disaster of a woman in so many layers of bubble wrap for me#seeing her so small and so afraid and lying in a hospital bed and the only thing she can think about isn't her own condition but rather#the emotional trauma that her girlfriend went through in her last relationship and how this is all bound to dredge it back up again for her#about how she sat opposite lisa that one fateful night and heard her talk about her mental state and how she cannot she CANNOT go through#any of that again#and here carla is taking her there#except she isn't. because she can hide it right? only for a few days while she fights off the infection and then she can go home. right?#god i love this woman so much i love her i'd fight a grizzly bear for her#i would lose but i would go down screaming her name
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i actually have no words for how much it means to me to hear rook explicitly describe their gender the way i would describe my own and to have them also be voiced by someone who is Like Me (erika ishii, who is genderfluid), and to have a non-binary romance option in the game who is ALSO voiced by someone who is Like Me (jin maley, who is non-binary)... it honestly feels like a dream
#representation matters and it matters so much more TO ME than i thought it would#crying in the club#especially today of all days i'm just. very emotional about it#i had already had the scene with lucanis where you can talk about your gender#but the one with taash and neve hit me ten times harder oh my god#whatever flaws the game has it will always be special to me now#because it's the first time i've actually seen myself in a game#fucking wild#i'm just so ajfhakdkjsld#datv spoilers#rj plays da#rj.txt
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so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently
#ive been running on “two cakes. u aren't BOTHERING people by putting art on their feed they can scroll past it/if they dont they get ”cake“”#and we love “cake”#“cake” is picture on the internet in this case#like okay the contracts and transaction format is a me problem!! i need to get rid of the “utilitarian brain worms” bc they're boring#this is supposed to be a hobby and the “get a good grade in hobby” wolf in the brain is just crying bc that's how they understand the world#the “get a good grade in x” wolf has valid pain but needs to stop controlling my life because they don't need to earn “enough value to live”#ect ect ect#and the life of minmaxxed utility is a life of trying to appeal to a “correct” that doesn't exist yaddi yadda = boring#i love you wolf. also shut up. affectionate. concerned. you get it#ok so we remove tangible purpose from act of experience art because THAT'S not “the point”#because “the point” is the joy killer eccetera ecc#but then what? “here check out this labor of love. i drew this fucker 15 times. no there's no story* there it's just a guy”#*story in this case being an emotional engagement/a situation/a context in which to ponder/other#so it's just a Draw. no further analysis. what do others Get from that?#i know i deeply enjoy art because im a fan of the process of People Making Stuff. i love when there was nothing but now there's something!!!#THAT'S what's it all about!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!! right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so it stands to reason that creation is purpose enough?? to be experienced???? to be known????????#idk!!#this is a nothing burger of a thought people have always liked picture on the internet stfu maiora there doesn't need to be a reason#this is just the brainworms talking!!! because god forbid “something not have a purpose”??? blegh!!!!!!!!#sounds like unhealthy rationalizing instead of letting things be out of The Fear™!!sounds like depraving urself from joy bc of BRAINWORMS!!!#so like!!!!! picture on the internet doesn't NEED inherent value. creation is enough!! (plus there's the Attachment to Character. also.)#but then why are YOU *points at you* here? gen q!!#i made an image you like and now you are reading my word babble in some tags!!! what's THAT all about???????????#it's INTERESTING!! do you see what im trying to get at??#is it empathy??? person made something other saw something other made- other2other connection???? intrigue????????#.......all this is probably explained in some book or yt essay somewhere. oh well.#in the meantime thank you for your time! we can pretend we were stuck in an elevator together and then i started rambling#i hope you have a great rest of your day thanks for stopping by!! <3#maiora garrulates
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Mass Effect subtly implying a character is doomed to die every time the ocean or aquatic life is mentioned in any way makes me insane
#me when I hear a passing convo in me2 between a salarian and his asari daughter talking about buying a fish#So that his wife who will live for 1000 years vs his mere 40 will remember him: oh my god ohhhh my goddd#mass effect#I can write a whole essay on all the ways the ocean is an omen for death in the mass effect universe oughhhh#One day I might
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Erin, to her crush: You're a dick
Mason, the crush: I won't argue! But to clarify -
#my characters#its so sad that all of erins character development and kindness is on paper and nothing digital to show her growth#she picks on mason for many reasons and she kinda narrows her eyes at him but its more to squint than to glare#because she watches him from a distance when hes off laughing with others#though they are united on peter being worse than mason at least they can agree no matter what peter is worse#but also masons right arm is metal and she thinks its fascinating bc theres so many high tech prosthetics#why is he using the equivalent of a trash can ? is it some weird flex to not needing advanced stuff?#and its just he was from a poor family and was born with one full arm and then a stump#and he lived a lot of his youth with just one arm so once he got a second arm (installed basically) he went cheap#since he only wanted the other arm to get better jobs cause not many people would hire him with one arm#and he never really cared much about her comments because her lil verbal pokes of#so rogers whod you piss off? the mafia? is actually nicer than stuff he heard as a kid without the fake arm#so he tells her the only reason he has a metal limb is because god knew hed be two strong if born with two arms#and shes like uh huh sure thing rogers#and yeeeeah eventually something happens where mason is injured and erin is panicking#and hes acting like its okay to die because hes a dick remember TRYING to make light of it and she gets so sad#and after hes recovering and better he feels guilty making her so sad and hes talking to her#and she says that she doesnt have a lot of friends and she didnt want to lose one of the few people she liked#and hes just oh.......................... ididntthinkthatwouldbeme#so he starts to be super friendly to her and enforcing the crush that she doesnt wanna own up to#and then she does eventually confess and mason is baffled as to since when and shes like day one? and he just#erin you have got to be kidding me you were glaring at me for months#and shes just i have bad eye sight and im shy what did you expect#he isnt super smart or super stupid hes just exceedingly average
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if i had a nickel every time magneto, charles, and amelia were all featured on a cover that framed them as having a wack love triangle then im sure im missing more than just these two but im still baffled i naturally found two so easily anyway
#snap chats#sorry im coping with wanting to draw cherik but 1.) wanting a break from drawing today 2.) having to draw for work this week#so we simply gotta do things old fashioned. my goofy postings#also 'snap you cant just post about 309 twice in a day' OK IN ALL FAIRNESS I MEANT OT POST ABOUT THIS LIKE. THE SEC I GOT 309#CAUSE I REALIZED AND WAS LIKE 'OH THATS FUNNY' but then i forgot </3#anyway. we be talking about erik having beef with lilandra Hear Me Out ..... vjELKEJKLAJ I JEST I JEST#Flashback issue he's just Genuinely had it THIS is his charles-lover-related crashout not lilandra vjALKJALK#is that even like. inaccurate. EH in the issue charles and erik affirm with each other They Can't Work Together#im p sure amelia butts in like 'you guys would work well together tho ..' but i cant remember exactly so take that with a grain of salt#whats so funny about the Flashback issue tho is eriks just. I've Been Watching You Two. VERY Closely. once amelia makes herself known#like are you watching them bang erik is that. is that the insinuation with that tone. can you get help. whats with the tone.#in 309 he just looks like a disapproving ex or some shit it has me weak every time i look at it#not amelia leaving charles and erik just in the shadows like thank GOD
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the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier
#and also it's nice to know exactly what your food is going to taste like before you eat it#like when i get unfamiliar takeout. half the time i'm like. oh.#i'm going to have to eat all of this. or be judged.#so i just do my best to suppress my gag reflex and Get Through It and then it makes me sick so what was even the point#i think my parents spoiled me. and the most annoying thing is they're significantly better at cooking now than when i was a child#so when i go over i eat three delicious home cooked meals + snacks and they're all different and amazingggg#and then i come back to texas and i am like. googling 'how to feed myself healthy vegetarian'#because I do NOT have the time or money or energy to cook three beautiful delicious meals Just For Me#i think this would be easier with a partner#this whole week i bought a fuckton of mediterranean groceries and i have been making and eating food!!#mediterranean is close enough to indian that i like it well enough#unfortunately for me. i am def going to have to learn how to cook indian food to get through life. because i cannot fucking eat american#i don't know HOW you guys do it i'm so spoiled#i'm assuming meat is this really amazing wonderful thing that just adds flavor to everything#(it is physically repulsive to me and the couple times ive accidentally tasted it it's bleh so i refuse to partake)#i think it's an acquired taste but it magically makes ur food better. that is my understanding of how meat works#cause american vegetarian food is the saddest fucking thing i've ever tasted#i still think about my coworker i was talking to about my food issues and he was like. 'do u understand that you have been given a gift#by having constant access to tasty food your entire life. i ate unseasoned green beans every day of my childhood. learn how to fucking cook#indian food already.' truly a horrific thing to hear. but i'm calling my parents more and going HOW TO COOK VEGETABLE? BEAN? PLEASE HELP??#and by god i am not going to turn into my coworker.#anyways we start with baby steps. lentils and rice it is next week .-. going to the indian store to buy pickles to make it more tolerable#and i have my cabinet full of spices already at least#i wish i was less pickyyy#sometimes lalita cooks indian food for me and i'm like wow. i love and appreciate u for feeding me. but this sure is south indian food#i don't understand How they use spices. it feels like they toss as much of as many bottles as they can into every dish#and it's. the taste is just OW OW OW and nothing else. where's the nuance. the flavor.#and i like it when things are spicy!! i can even eat things where the flavor is just Hot. but not when she cooks it.#she will like watch my face when i take a bite and then go 'if you don't like it i'm throwing away all my pots and running away'#which. honestly a fair reaction. the problem is that i am incapable of lying
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do you guys remember when we used to post selfies every friday on football tumblr. or have i been on here wayyyy too long
#it was called something... football friday? i can't remember#this was at a time when footbyblr had like... huge drama between madridistas and cules every other day#and i was sending “fanmail” back and forth with this lfc fan from i think new york?#i have this like distinct memory of talking about the fact it snowed in new york with her#i wonder how she's doing. i can't even remember her name#she was a huge stevie g fan but tbh that doesn't narrow it down bc we all were#OH GOD remember when he announced he'd leave........... that was genuinely. like. soul shattering#i cried for a week not kidding at all. can only compare to when ricky left milan and nando left liverpool#i was up late reblogging all the edits and gifs and shit about stevie that we were all posting#😭😭😭😭😭 life was a lot when i was 18#nico rambles
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Would love to hear about potential parallel stories/lore in judaism 👁👁👁👁💞
i realized that i actually havent thought very in depth about parallels and themes in the bible in a LONG time but let me think...
one that jumped to the forefront of my mind is something that idk if its a theme/parallel or not, but it has to do with moses. in the torah (really in the talmud i think which is a bunch of rabbi's headcanons about the torah that were then accepted as canon later on), when moses was taken in by pharaoh a test was performed to see whether moses would overthrow him, and by extension whether he was safe to keep and raise. that test was to show baby moses two pots: one of gold and riches and one of hot coals, and whichever he grabbed would be indicative as to what kind of son he'd be. so obviously, being a baby, moses starts to go for the shiny stuff. but (so the story goes) since moses has plot armor an angel (of death [?]) reached out and moved his hand to the hot coals. this is important because not only did it secure his safety to grow up under pharaoh's watch, but it burned his hand, which he then put in his mouth which permanantly burned his tongue and gave him a lisp. now the lisp isnt really talked about much more until later on, and its kind of minor so i get why its often left out, but it changes the whole feeling of the story! because of the lisp, moses gets nervous to speak in front of pharaoh's mages, and so it's aaron who does the talking when they turn their staffs into snakes. it's aaron (iirc) who speaks to the hebrews and tells them the word of god. moses is the one who speaks directly to god and does his bidding in the stories, but aaron is the one who conveys the information. and AND i just remembered this continues!! it continues to be true that moses doesnt always tell his own story!! in the scientific world it is generally accepted that there are a few different authors/compilers of the torah, but in judaism there is one main accepted truth of how it was written with two endings: moses wrote the whole thing up until the last chapter when he was on mount sinai, writing down word for word what god told him to. the ending, though, changes because at the end of the bible moses dies there is a debate over whether moses wrote his own death before it happened (since god is omnipresent blah blah blah) or whether joshua took over for him after he died. if the latter is true, that would be the second time someone tells moses' story for him!! first aaron tells the mages and the hebrews who moses is and why he was sent to save them, and then joshua tells the story of his death and his exile from the holy land! there are THEMES and MOTIFS i can SEE THEM
i have no idea if this is what you were asking for but thank you for inviting me to infodump XD <3
#theres other stuff about moses too now that i think about it#i think this was just at the front of my mind since i just watched the prince of egypt last sunday lol#or whenever it was#i almost talked about something else and now i legitimately cant remember what it was#but if i flipped through im sure id remember more#oh i remember now it was how moses wasnt allowed to get into the holy land#even though he was the one chosen to deliver the hebrews#and even though the hebrews were forgiven time and time again#moses fucks up once when god was having a bad day or something#and boom exiled from the holy land#like my dude wanders the desert for 40 fucking years#cant you give him a break#themes and motifs my beloved <3#im sorry this is so long this is kind of my word vomit#ty for asking <3#id also love to talk on the server if thats easier just so you and me and jed can all talk at the same time lol (no pressure tho for real)#asks#alistair my beloved <3
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in case anyone worries that I just said I've discussed walrus fairy with my partner for two hours, it's not a fight discussion, we're just two autism-bained academia suckasses and we LOVE getting into long profound discussions, and right now is "how the fairy/walrus dichotomy of humans reflects their stances on religion (my argument, I vote walrus) and ultimately proves how dangerous thought patterns lead to the prevalence of scams (his argument, he votes fairy)
#everyone in both families is always so thrilled that we found each other to finally leave the rest of the family members alone#one day if everything goes wrong in our lives we can always start a podcast lmao#neither of us shut up ever and I love us#im tagging all posts about this with#walrus fairy poll#so that I can bring this up to friends later at parties hahaha#oh my god this subject and our drunk also debate-freak friends are going to fuel HOURS#like Im gonna say possibly twelve?#once at a party him and one of our friends stayed up ALL NIGHT discussing with a religious bloke who believed in miracles#and by all night I mean the party ended and I had to sleep over at the homeowner's couch because they talked until the sun was up#we arrived there at like 10pm and we left 8 the next morning#and the discussion was not over#so believe me fairy walrus is gonna last FOREVER#They've spent 3 or 4 hours last time discussing the effectiveness or harm of farmers killing snakes out of fear
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I always get detained at da border because PROFUNC never ended but basically I'm like if a targeted individual didn't even care
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squish ramble
this probably isn't gonna make much sense bc I'm kinda sleepy but I just. I love them so fucking much. we just called for like an hour an a half and for those moments everything else disappeared. all the stress, all the worries, it all seems so much lighter just because I know I have them in my life and we can talk about anything. that feeling of complete ease and comfort when we're together, even if it's over a patchy phone signal, there's nothing else in the world that could replace it. the feeling of being seen and heard and understood entirely, the knowledge that we have each other and we're going to be okay. I know we're still young, but I hope we have this for the rest of our lives. I think as long as I have them, everything else will be alright. I love them and I love loving them, it's the best feeling in the world <3
#I wish I could take away all of your worries#but at least we have each other to lean on#it's the way I've been looking forward to the call all day. the way I could talk to you for hours about everything and nothing#the way being in your presence leaves me with this warm glow in my chest that makes everything a little softer#the way you give me courage to keep going and the way you calm my over anxious brain#(these days I imagine the moment I get to see you again constantly. whenever things get rough I imagine seeing your smile again#and being enveloped in your hug. not that I'd ever admit it though)#I think its the small moments of confirmation that get to me the most actually#when you said it was fantastic talking to me#or when you said you missed me too and your voice got soft#or your excitement when we plan our life together next year#those small moments of 'oh <3'#I know you're not *in love* with me back but in those moments I think maybe you love me. sometimes I think that's better <3#like yes I want a qpr and sometimes I want more#but if we have and love each other in whatever way we can I think that's more important#and I know for a fact I'm the luckiest person in the world to have this :)#god I love you#the future scares me sometimes but for now? I'm basking in your glow and that's all I need#I absolutely cannot wait to see you again. final stretch now!!#queerplatonic yearning hours#cosmo rambles#queerplatonic#aroace#aromantic#platonic love#loving hours
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you should kill yourself if you spend 12 minutes sorting around your notes on your desk, making sure they look messy but also the prettiest ones are on top, posing your textbook open and having the most "academia" looking web page or lecture slides on your laptop screen before taking a picture and posting it on your social media story while quietly scrolling through songs to put with it.
#every time exam season comes around#people do this religiously#i hate it profusely it's so incredibly vain and pointless#you're like the people who go to the library for an epic study day and set up your big environment#only to sit on your phone for 5 hours#have the humility to be honest about your study habits and what works and what doesn't#i feel like its a form of cognitive dissonance this type of stuff and a form of lying to themselves#which is the one person you should always be brutally honest to#txt#i plan ahead and give myself so much extra time because i know my time efficiency is dogshit and i compensate for that#i try to avoid talking to other people about studying and i try to insulate myself when i am#of course for med school it's impossible not to talk about it as your classmates will bring it up in every third conversation#which opens the pandora's box of listening to other people talk about it which is atrocious as all people ever take away from it is#'oh my god everyone is doing so much more i'm so behind'#which isn't true everyone is in their own variation of hell just slightly different#i try to block it out completely when i can#med students have this annoying tendency to group themselves into these circles of self feeding despair and nervousness#i mean all of med insta is full of dogshit memes like this of the same 'le epic med stress' memes#kill yourselves you people are self fulfilling prophecies#josef lada ice these fools#to chce klid#as the man said#a taky trošku sebevědomí#and also not listening or giving a fuck what anyone else is doing#každý ma svůj systém a svůj styl#and have a life outside of this as well
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