#of course I did; it’s me!

[vesperpharsalius]

✨Self-care✨ is re-reading light bringer and stopping at chapter 82 like damn i wonder what happens next anyway i’ll go and still enjoy my not ruined day

It’s so infuriating that Light Bringer ends on that loaded cliffhanger, isn’t it? Loathsome practice, really: leaving your audience in such terrible suspense—and after four years since the preceding book, too? But... you know, artistic license and all that. I suppose we’ll just have to wait on Red God for our answers.

🤷

But better that than a colossal waste of a chronically misunderstood character (oversimplified by the majority of the fandom and often reduced to a woobified caricature of themselves, abused by an author that, more often than not, only sees their utility as a plot–device) sacrificed like a lamb, fattened for slaughter over the course of the entire book, to further another character’s villain arc.

And because the author thinks spontaneous and senseless death is the pinnacle of plot–twists and the hallmark of compelling tragedy, when it’s really just about the most pedestrian thing you can write, especially as a conclusion to a redemption arc that promised reparations but delivered martyrdom instead.

Let’s count our blessings, shall we?

🙃

I, for one, am excited to see Dassius visit Lykos in Red God. Darrow going off about Cassius’ ethereal bioluminescence while they’re spelunking; Darrow teaching Cassius how to dance in the Red styles and dancing without violent application, for once, in the way that he passionately loves and Cassius has never seen; making rings of spidersilk interwoven with each other’s hair as tokens of their renewed vows—of lifelong brotherhood and steadfast companionship, of course.

Just ignore the fact that Darrow repeatedly compares Cassius to Eo; we don’t need to unpack that. And how they lovingly embrace beside the chasm; the deepmine drafts are cold! And the completely chaste and definitely–not–heated–by–eighteen–years–of–UST kiss on the lips. With... tongue? No, trust—it’s a cultural thing. Cassius is just Franco–Italian.

Ngl, though—I am a touch jealous of you, anon, because I only wish my beef with Light Bringer started at Ch. 82. It is, altogether, a bad time for me. Starting with the eldritch horror that is bald–and–bearded Darrow, because what the actual fuck. Narrative significance be damned, I am not here for Kratos!

😭

No, silliness aside, I’m dead serious about being a Kendrick–level hater of LB from page–fucking–one. But that’s something we definitely don’t need to unpack!

[wildbasil]

things haven't been great but i think they will be. eventually 🌻🌼🩷

[chloesimaginationthings]

The Aftons are a very normal FNAF couple

[menlove]

can't do this one as a poll bc there's endless choices but if you're in college/university or went to college/university what's been the most fun/enriching class you've had?

[cacaocheri]

they do sappy shit like this all the time

[shootingstarrfish]

no time to mope when asmo's here!!

[minuiko]

So @jekacatrina wrote a phenomenal Pacific Rim AU that has me in an emotional stranglehold... everyone please give it some love:

Nobody else (Can take me higher) - Jeka - 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia [Archive of Our Own

[remxedmoon]

(what if they died because you tried to get a better ending?)

ok i’ve been in this fandom drawing silly little blorbos for long enough. time to put them through the wood chipper. this is the first proper painted scene i’ve done for isat surprisingly. and of course i had to draw my silly little critter 😊😊😊 my little thang 😊😊😊 please enjoy my very normal bonnie art i’m very proud of it 😊😊😊😊

(also!! gradient map + my sketches!!! i don’t usually post my wips here but i spent an hour on them smh)

[anbaisai]

local octopus shot on sight

Bonus of said prefect:

[gongyussy]

you think YOU had a bad day at work?

bonus: sid shrieking "no!!!! NO!!!!!" loud enough to be heard in the stands and on camera

[axoqiii]

shujin trio,,my babies..,.,

[cobaltfluff]

I dont care that it happened you to kanji. it should have happened to ME.

[chiquilines]

In honour of mha ending, have some old (and i mean OLD) miryumi scribbles i never got around to posting. They were the main characters in my heart

[technically-human]

Hey, don't cry. Ghost yuri, okay?

(Now that you know the girls, they need to meet the boys!)

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[scatterbrainedbot]

cass, a professional: order of badass donbot, extra dramatic entrance!

me, nodding, banned from most kitchens: leo drama and angst, heard chef!

(shoutout to @somerandomdudelmao for yet again making feel emotions i cannot fully explain)