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This afternoon I was invited to help a group of Girl Scout Brownies and Daisies achieve their Art and Design badge! I had so much fun teaching them how to make pinch pots and coil pots, explore what it means to make art and how it can solve problems, and then to just have fun making little fun things!
#arting#pottery#i am now going to go home and not speak for the rest of the day#that was a lot more draining to teach than my adult workshops lmao
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whenever you're playing phighting do you ever just look at the characters the opposite team is playing as and think ''we're gonna lose''
oh all the TIME, I think the worst ones are when I see a all skinned double healer (medkit and vinestaff) combo with skateboard, katana, and hyper,, those rounds are always the most miserable things in existence /silly
#Cro chatter#To. Everyone asking me stuff in my ask box I am so genuinely sorry I’ve been so unmotivated to answer any of them#I swear to god I’m not just ignoring asks I see every one and I’ve been trying to get to them for awhile :’DD#I’m gonna be answering a lot of them today but YEAH LOL#Also to mutuals/friends/etc I’m so sorry I’ve been neglecting all of you as well#I’ve just been very very drained both physically and mentally so I haven’t really had too much time for stuff :((#Ill try to be a bit better but so far if you guys wanna interact with me i highly suggest you all go to my twt for it since#Ive been a bit more alive there LMAO#But for now I’m gonna try not to neglect you all LOLLLL
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for the followers gift simdump!!!!!!!!
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(spoilers up to orv chapter 270) (sort of?)
you ever just kinda. suddenly realise what you're listening to
#omniscient reader's viewpoint#omniscent reader#orv spoilers#orv#kim dokja#yoo joonghyuk#art i made#the first hyperlink is to the song on youtube the second one is to my translation btw#that caption was not an exaggeration i was deadass like walking back from class with my spotify on shuffle and kinda like#tuned back in to what was playing in my ears and just had a kinda. HOLD UP WAIT A FUCKIN SECOND#honestly the whole song is kinda yjh if you squint and like for what its worth literally the only reason this is tied to like#that scene from 269 specifically is bc i literally just read that part today so it was really fresh in my brain#god the process of making this was so strange too bc i did it in almost one sitting except i had a fuckin SPORTS EVENT of all things#in the evening so it was like. 3 hours straight of doing this 2 hours of playing sportsball of all things then another 3 hours of this#so now i am physically mentally AND emotionally drained! genuinely couldntve had a more exhausting consecutive 8 hours if i tried#btw fun fact in the spirit of like. making life easier for myself all of yjh's flashback frames or whatever are webtoon panel redraws#except for that last one obviously cuz the webtoon isnt there yet (which. wow the processing of drawing that was. very painful)#but its like. I AM THE WAY THAT I AM if given the chance to draw to my knowledge one of the most tragic moments from the story I WILL DO IT#ok looking back theres a bunch of editing errors but also i just. really need to go do my ACTUAL FUCKIN WORK LMAO#god my arm hurts#hmmm i might clean up that 10 scenario sketch later on. i kinda like how the wings turned out#and also kdj's dipshit expression.
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two very different experiences were had
#hollow knight#z talks#neither less enjoyable than the other <3#1 is my very first save where ive done Everything. except for like radiant bosses (and absrad on ascended lmao i just cant do it…)#and like. when i bought this game i Sucked at it. HOURS learning every boss. when i first beat thk (no voidheart) i was already at like#60 or 70 hours#and then obviously the fucking Pantheon Grind#i cannot tell you how many fucking hours ive sunk into p5. and its all on that save#and then the second is the save i started like. 3 days ago#after several failed steel soul saves lmaoo#i was intending to get the steel soul + steel soul 100% + speed 100% in one go#but then started this one to Just get the speed 100% one#and as i was approaching 10 hours i was already basically 100%ed. so i was like. why not go for 112 then. and that i did <3#finished it off with a good ol dream no more just for the finality of it#i am now Emotionally Drained#god this game#it was by no means a speedrun but it Was like. semi routed#and by that i mean i sat down beforehand and made a map on my ipad of all the things i needed and wouldnt necessarily Remember#(including stuff like relics for money)#oh yea and i also ended up grinding coloseum 2 for unbreakable strength. that probably took up an hour or two
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So in the end today might have started with a breakdown and me saying we should kill all men but I redirected my rage pretty well. Bow tomorrow I will have to say "ok one or two men can live and humanity has like two good aspects (food and books, and food again), sorry about yesterday"
#i can say with confidence that this place does not have microphone or i would have been fired by long now lmfao#anyway i wish i could say 'yes whatever' and move on#but today i was too close to the edge to say that#then we had the company new year lunch#where i made sure to remind everyone i am the foodie of the company lmao#literally nobody could tell i was having a breakdown five minutes before#food probably calmed me though#then came home#deleted Instagram#vacuumed#decided to make one phone call#for the boiler cause my phone anxiety is less important than if I don't do the annual cleaning and something happen#honestly my brain was so all over the place i didn't even have the time to panic and not call#my rational brain and my emotional brain were too far apart today#then saw the gynecologist and she didn't even ask me for a smear which i am grateful#cause she's a substitute for my regular one#and i was only opening to her after one year and a half and considering letting her touch this area#only to have a substitute and like i don't want an unknown person#even she was cool and hopefully found the right pill for me#read a bit while waiting#abd now that i have insta free time i might read some more#honestly i hope this energy stays#i need to transform my rage and hopelessness in energy to work on myself#and finally take a step in the thing i want to do#nobody annoyed me with it since years so i don't feel pressure anymore and now i want to do it#but the thing requires from me to fight approximately 100 different levels of anxiety starting with administrative one#and it's gonna be time and energy consuming for months maybe year cause i suck#but if i succeed now i will be 100% independent#and i will be able to fuck off in the Pyrenees whenever the slightest inconvenience happen instead of nervous breakdown#anyway for now im so drained im cold tired and have a massive headache so shower time
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i opened my thesis document this morning
"last edit made on June 3rd, 2023"
i feel like word is intentionally trying to make me avoid this whole thing bc that message does not make me motivated lmao
#it is July 10th today#a few things has happened disrupting this whole process#you know moving#training new workers draining me#passing out in the middle of Mannerheimintie in the centre of Helsinki :)#there were police and ambulance bc i did not respond lmao#all good now#but kind of took a toll on me and my courage to go out in public#getting my insulin pump and it kinda letting me down a couple weeks later so the anxiety of not being confident of not passing out is back#my nurse trying to call me twenty times and me not answering bc it was impossible due to work tasks at the moment#receiving a passive aggressiv message from her and now an appointment to her#i dont want to see her anymore#i am kind of a lil mess ranting here so don't mind me#literally no one cares emma
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The write a thon theme in October is Hyrule so this will be perfect for another Lanayrulie hehe
#daily bailey#I don't have a whole lot of writing motivation now lmao#but i have a few ideas for lanayrulie and/or funny tales#also you might be wondering if I will write stuff with ravio#well my answer is maybe!#ravio is a very new obsession and so i am not confident enough to write him in a fic just yet hehe#also motivation is down the drain#ive been kinda taking a break from writing other than write a thons#but expect more headcanons and stuff
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hmm i think i am not coping. very well
#i feel like ive hit a wall in my ability to handle anything and idk how to hold myself together anymore#i see myself spiraling terribly but i am so exhausted in every single way that i cannot bring myself to care#and it’s going to kill me one day but i cant even care abt that#july was so horrible. so so bad it’s the worst month ive had since my dad’s passing#i feel so incredibly empty and stagnant and stuck i feel like i am in a tar pit and ive been here before#but i no longer have the strength to claw myself out of it#nor the support of others (irl i love u mutuals)#i quite literally only have my brother at this point and with how physically abusive he can become it’s not like that’s a relationship i#truly feel supported and safe in but it’s all i have#ive always been isolated severely by my family + the Issues have always made socialization so exhausting#i feel like im just floating and no one knows me nor cares bc how can they. i either just push people away to avoid getting hurt or i dont e#even try. and when i want to it’s a task so daunting and draining#i don’t have it in me despite knowing the lack of human connection is absolutely destroying me and ripping me to shreds#despite knowing a community of some kind would help#but i also feel like i offer fucking nothing and am worthless so would i even accept the help given to me. probably not#i wish i wasnt so intense of a person in every single way. and yet i will never be enough either#i feel like ive been clinging and digging my claws into my sanity that was not really present in the first place#ive been put through so much i couldnt cope with so repeatedly and so young i think by the time i wqs 10 i had already hit a wall but you#cant just stop living so it’s only compounded on top of that#it feels unhealable it feels like just part of me now.#i see a complete absence of a future for myself and i have no one to stay alive for anymore#not my parents not my pets not my friends and i dont know how to stay alive for myself bc it’s not something ive ever wanted#idk anymore. ive never felt so utterly lost and alone and broken lmao.#no wonder this relapse has been so all-consuming#dlt ltr
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Woke up from a nap more tired than when I went to sleep 😔
#certified wally post#i am just entirely mentally drained. and shit keeps happening to deplete me further#to the point that i don't have it in me to talk to anyone at all#i don't know how much more of this i have the capacity for#see i wasn't planning to need my vent tag on this post but now i think i should LMAO#vent post
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⇝KY'S BIRTHDAY EXCHANGE -- Parker Sisters³
my sister has died -- is dead, yet alive
@elmunson happy birthday lovely!! the parker sisters have such a cool storyline that i had to make a gifset for them, hope you like this!! <33
coloring
#i tried a lot of new stuff in this so feel free to give criticism#and yeah this is the gifset i lost my mind over lol#but look at it!!#its so pretty!!#(i think#i had a longer quote but these four gifs made me want to cry so much that i gave up on the full thing#but if you want i can make the whole thing!!#just gotta wait until i have more time lmao#also yeah i was the anon who asked abt them haha#anyhow i am drained after this monster and now i shall sleep#alvita's edits
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Beginning to really wonder how much of my financial concern is manufactured and handed to me as opposed to something I'm genuinely concerned by
#bc like. i'm getting by just fine. i don't have anything to be reasonably worried about#but also when i was a kid my father would break down my mother's paycheck and basically explain how broke we were#and that May Have Affected Me Somewhat#as well as just. the way you consistently see the advice to just save! don't get takeout! necessities! and i'm not intent on living like#a monk nor am i intent on being on that grindset for financial gain#it's like i don't intrinsically care but i have so many messages given to me about how i need to care a lot and it puts me in a weird spot#i am simultaneously standing still and moving at mach speeds#i mean right now i just need a safety net while in between jobs; after that i need to save up to move out of state bc the uh#political situation and upcoming presidential election don't seem very sustainable for someone like me anymore#they weren't to begin with but i don't wanna stick around to see how bad it's gonna get#but it's like. okay and then what? save for what? going back to school i guess? idk#i feel like i keep asking myself what i'm trying to accomplish and keep trying to force myself to have answers#here and now when i have to be okay with taking things one step at a time instead of having everything here and now#it's simultaneously fine and terrible and i am holding two conflicting yet equal truths#i feel i may have a clearer head once i leave my current job. i'm trying to look but nothing feels appealing given how#burnt out i already feel. i dread going back into my workplace and i fear it's showing to the patients and i don't want that#i want a month off to rediscover who i am as a person outside of getting yelled at in retail and then pick something back up#could be feasible. genuinely could be. i need to sort out the health insurance aspect but. that's lowkey the plan?#to construct a financial safety net and then slam on the breaks for a while; see if i can strike up a deal with the staff about me#coming in for specific tasks bc we already know i'm quick and efficient with the inventory so i do have a little leverage#you know what. this is getting some of it off my chest and i'm starting to feel confident again lmao#i won't be doing weekends starting either next week or the week after so that's a start! i just think i want everything done right now#bc i'm afraid i won't have the chance again but i will. i definitely will#i just need to let myself get to that point; it's just the immense drain from the register work and the Everything that comes with retail#also having to accept that it's okay to leave this; there's not something wrong with me like. ''not being able to handle it'' or w/e#no mindfulness or detachment could've saved me; it was shit and i'm hitting the bricks and that's all there is to it#i've been thinking a lot about it all lately bc it's what's most prominent in my life rn of course#idk. pondering. introspecting. as i am wont to do#anyways if you've read all this you're a real mvp and i am kissing you on the hand#shai speaks
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what if I did a Baldur's Gate playthrough as miku
#smash my hyperfixations together#miku as a bard???? romancing WHOM now that is the question.......#im in a weird mental place today guys#had a drs appt and it completely drained my hp bar and i am listening to vocaloid and playing baldurgate#lmao#notatextpost
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not ready to go back to work tomorrow but luckily im so not ready that my brain isn't letting it fully process and so im just kind of numb except for little moments when the panic breaks through again
#feeling more and more like a robot and less and less like a person the emptier my life gets#the future is so empty like its just work and isolation forever#i have one thing left at the end of this week and then after that its just work and family and alone#and i think numbing out completely is really the only way ill be able to cope at all#i didnt used to really be able to do that but maybe now im to the point where i just have to so its become an option#idk i also might just be lying to myself and be about to get hit really hard with how bad this all is tomorrow#job interview friday. but plausibly i dont think i can take the job even if i get it bc i just dont think i can move to nyc#i just feel like ive hit a dead end#like i was a side character in someone elses story and that person has moved on so im just like floating in stasis#bc my part of the story is over i wrote myself out of their lives so i don't really exist anymore#idk my brain is telling me all these things that i know are silly but feel so true and i just am tired and empty#sorry to be dramatic and complain again just dreading work so bad#i just dont see any path forward thats not this forever loop like i cant make or have real connections with other ppl#and thats whats supposed to make a life real and worth living#but ive never had the capacity to connect right and ive never had passion for anything and ive never been able to really love and be loved#and i dont know how to fix any of it bc honestly i dont think any of its fixable#ill always be an emotionally harmful drain on anyone i think i love and ill always be left when they realize that#and then ive just hurt another person and i dont want to be a person that just hurts people so i cant be around people anymore#but its so empty and its so lonely and i hate myself so fucking much#anyway. i sound like a pathetic whiny teenager lmao sorry i know how stupid it all is i promise
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Finally home. Crawling into my bed with snacks
#yo i am actually fucking exhausted#i didn't even do much but i suppose after almost 2 months of rotting away even just trying to find sources is draining lmao#i am happy i am slowly dragging myself out of this hole though#but yeah now I'm probably going to change into my pajamas eat and write#I've been feeling really inspired lately#honestly if i didn't have to do work i think could've finished this josh fic by sunday but alas#rj talks
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hi . have not checked the dash much all day and it’s too late to be productive so tomorrow maybe SKDJFK
#my friend and i are playing dbh which is so 2018 core we banged out most of it today KSKDJD#impulse buy of a game we’ve both already seen years ago that took so much effort to actually install we just had to commit to the bit#followed by a fucking TALK over gelato after picking up another friend (not a bad one just. generally heavy and emotional) so i am Drained#i will be in the markiplier fnaf corner of youtube until i sleep i think lmao#i hope ur all having a good night <3#⁂ ･ﾟ: i was looking for a job‚ and then i found a job‚ and heaven knows i’m miserable now ➛ ooc
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