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Not inappropriate but favorite author/s?
Thank you Anon for this question and so sorry for the super late response ; n ;
I have a couple of fav authors, here they are and some good fic recommendations should you wish to read :D
In no particular order:
Chipper99, all her stuff is good but I'm currently following What's One More Year? HIGHLY RECOMMEND
@eggymf, another amazing author, all her stuff is good, but man... of paper planes and wildflower...? SOOOO GOOODDDD
@fierymiasma, mostly a one shot author but her stuff are super cute! I really like You Look Better In Green
Speedgriffon with I Know Places, *chefs kiss* for all you omi fans
@choccy-milky, the beloved! The Raven and the Snake an amazing read
@twitchydownfall, The Glory Hole, HOLEY MOLEY SMUT GLORY
@slytherizz, been following In the Shadow of Us, it's making me cry guys. Not for the faint of heart. The slow pining be slow. And the angst be angst.
@applinsandoranges, @sebswebs @anto-pops A MUST. I'VE READ ALL THEIR STUFF. ALL OF THEM GOOD. GO READ THEM ALL.
These are just what I can think of off the top of my head, I'm also not finished discovering a lot of other authors so if I think of more I'll add them below :D
Happy reading Anon~
#aux answers#fav authors#here you go~~~#now go forth and READ#READ THEM ALL#READ THEMMMM#NOWWWW#THESE AUTHORS DESERVE YOUR LOVE#GO SPAM THEM#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#ominis gaunt#hogwarts legacy sebastian#ominis#hogwarts legacy ominis#slytherin#fic recommendation#go read
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In Stars And Time Classpects
Siffrin - Thief of Time Mirabelle - Page of Space Isabeau - Heir of Blood Odile - Seer of Heart Bonnie - Sylph of Hope
Explanations under the cut!
Siffrin - Thief of Time Of course Siffrin literally manipulates time, but Time as an aspect is also associated with death, destruction, and inevitability, which are huge themes in their story. Nothing says "time player" more than marching onwards through a thousand deaths, fighting against a fate that seems impossible to avert. And as a Thief, Siffrin specifically steals time from others in order to have more for himself. Whoops! Time players are relentless, and thieves are active, self-centered. They won't sit still and accept the inevitable; they'll struggle towards their goal at any cost. It's incredibly fitting for a Thief of Time to hold their objective so tightly that the reason they wanted it disintegrates in their grasp, lost to entropy.
Mirabelle - Page of Space As the chosen one spearheading the mission to collect the orbs and save the country, she seems like the obvious choice for the other essential aspect and its quest, collecting frogs and ensuring the continuation of life. Luckily, the metaphorical side fits perfectly as well: Space is about creation, just like the Change religion! But as a Page, Mirabelle doesn't use her aspect herself; instead, she leads using it, and leads others to use it. She inspires others to change, learn, and improve. Pages reach their potential slowly – they may struggle for a while with feelings of inadequacy and stagnation. After a long hard journey with lots of reflection and personal growth, though, they can end up the strongest of all! And for Mirabelle, as a Page of Space, that means learning to let go of the urge to force personal change, inspiring external change on a greater scale instead.
Isabeau - Heir of Blood Blood means relationships, trust, and obligation. Heirs embody their aspect, and perhaps attract it, receive it, are controlled by it; the perfect class for someone who specifically crafted himself into the kind of person others would reach out to. Heir is one of the most active of all the passive classes, but it's still passive – Isabeau makes space for bonds, commits to bonds, but doesn't take the first step to create the bonds himself. His choice to follow Mirabelle was a natural continuation of his obligations as defender. He couldn't bring himself to confess to Siffrin, but that passive crush was a powerful narrative force. Isabeau didn't assemble the team, but he reinforces the bonds that allow it to function!
Odile - Seer of Heart Heart is the aspect of self and identity, which is the heart (heh) of Odile's quest. She wants to learn about herself, and her chosen method is learning about other people. Seers seek a comprehensive knowledge of their aspect and then use it to coordinate and advise others; Odile analyzing enemies and deciding team tactics is a perfect example of this! The Seer prevents their party from making mistakes related to their aspect, so a successful Seer of Heart would understand each teammate's personality well enough to guide them through their character arcs and prevent self-destructive behavior. Odile noticed Siffrin's increasingly out-of-character behavior, and had the ability to figure out why they had changed... except he kept thwarting her efforts by stealing her time. But in the end she managed to thwart them instead, forcing them to stay put and go through their character development already!
Bonnie - Sylph of Hope Hope is one of the most literal aspects; Hope players raise morale, stick to their convictions, and believe that a better world is possible. The Sylph of Hope would be someone who uses Hope to heal other people, or fixes and maintains Hope itself. Obviously, Bonnie literally brings hope and healing by passing out the potions, but they're also the snack leader! Nothing boosts morale like a nice meal. Hope is also the antithesis to Rage, which represents possibilities being cut off. Bonnie reacts poorly to situations that invoke the Rage aspect, like the adults discussing death (the ultimate end of possibilities), and Siffrin getting injured in their defense (which no amount of belief can heal); in fact, they react with anger and an urge to tear down any positive that's left! Since Hope is associated with black and white thinking, it's not surprising that when Bonnie loses hope, they lose it, leaning into their aspect's opposite. But that's not where they stay – when they protect Siffrin in their friendquest, they're able to not just heal their own hope, but give hope to Siffrin as well. Bonnie believes that they and their friends can all protect each other, and in the end, they do!
#in stars and time#isat classpects#classpecting#THIS WAS SO HARD!!!!!#i kept going back and forth on who should have heart vs blood between odile and isabeau#and i was really tempted to make mirabelle a sylph for the healing stuff but decided to prioritize the character arc stuff instead#similar thing with bonnie for life - the healing/food = life bit is obvious but the personality bits just didn't fit as well!#when i first started working on this post i joked that the ISAT cast is “oops all hearts”#but now i'm like wow. they're really all hope as well...#hope would also work super well for mirabelle's change stuff and for siffrin's wishcraft stuff!#sif could also go more rage or even doom...#ahhh i love to play in this space#and now that i've finished mine and i can go read what people commented on my original hearts joke 👀#isat#siffrin#mirabelle#isabeau#odile#bonnie#homestuck#isat spoilers#thoughts about the whole family#thoughts#classpects
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*GASP* it's- *WHEEZE* Its ou- *COUGH* *HACK* IT'S OUT
#WE HAVE BREECHED CONTAINMENT#BE FREE#GO FORTH AND READ MOTHERFUCKERS#tsc#the sunshine court#tfc#aftg#trk#tkm#the raven king#the kings men#all for the game#andrew minyard#neil josten#andreil#jean moreau#jeremy knox#jerejen#hopefully#PRAISE BROTHERS AND SISTERS#OUR MOST GLORIOUS GODDESS#HER MAJESTY#nora sakavic#peace be with you#im going to go destroy my soul now 🙂🫡
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Look, I just think it's VERY funny and on brand that I thought of an entire premise of colorful characters for half the cast and immediately drew the only one void of color.
#my characters#i will not bore you all too much in the main post but now its story time in the tags so yeefuckinghaw#noll is a fae and is distinctly the only one that just lacks colors#at first he was like well surely i can wear colorful stuff to make up for my dark hair and eyes !#and then he overhears some of the fae talking about how hes a blemish to the fae and hes like well fuck#guess its time to go all in baby! and decks himself out in all black and jagged clothing#and he tries to play it off as hes an idiot and a lot of the fae actually believe its not ALL an act#like they can tell he thinks about stuff but he normally does it staring into space so they dont care to ask#cause surely it isnt important enough to brood about hes just thinking about stuff#and he really REALLY has a lot of confidence issues and worries that more fae are disturbed by his darkness than let on#but then the other fae that like to hang out with him are like#YOOOOOO THATS OUR LIL VOID! THATS OUR LIL GUY! our lil black spot look at him hes so edgy and cute!#and treat him like a pet cat at times giving him head pats even if he bats their hands away#and the plot premise is that some of the fae are bored and decide they should go play with some humans! give THEM enrichment too!#and noll gets roped into it and The Game is basically go find a human partner and convince them to be an ally#then the fae give the humans cool lil toys (weapons) and are like GO FORTH MY CHAMPION!#so noll keeps like ... not picking anyone to participate because its not just A Game to him#if he can prove victorious in A Game with outside factors such as humans then he can prove hes not#an absolute disappointment to the fae like he has a lot riding on this in his mind#and his friends are just like buddy you cant even play if you dont pick a human you gotta#anyway here is noll and then i have ideas for two other fae and also a veeeery vague idea for two of the humans though not as sure yet#rae if you read all this you should know the cobalt is a fae thanks bye#i am so stressed posting ocs every single time and i am incredibly depressed and anxious#so good lord please let me not just delete all the tags in an hour bc im ashamed
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house fics i recommend!
a forever incomplete list because i lose links frequently and there are frankly far too many incredible writers in this fandom!! so this list will be short to start. but look out for additions later. also these will probably all be hilson cause i know what i like
Look, Don't Touch by @oriley42 - wilson has a voyeurism problem. i LOVE the prose of this fic, and it's FUNNY funny. it made me cry laughing multiple different times while reading it the first time. really on-point characterization and dialogue as well
Sin Days of Auld Lang Syne by baffledbear - this fic fills in the gaps of house and wilson's pre-canon relationship and it's EVERYTHING. i've probably read this thirty times. life changing.
we peeled the freckles from our shoulders by flowersinapril - house and wilson meet as young adults as summer camp counsellors!! this fic has always stayed with me because of the beautiful and evocative development of the setting and the way it contributes to the feeling of the piece as a whole.
He Won't Tell You That He Loves You by @hellshandbasket - the first house fic i ever read, and the one that inspired me to get into fic writing! set in s6, nolan presses house about the whole wilson issue. PERFECT dialogue and very sweet story. truly truly so so good
Sun It Rises by @lucradiss - part of a per-season series, set in s2! one of the fics that inspired my fic Misdiagnoses, and really well-written. very evocative prose, i feel like everytime i read it i can see it in my head clearly! really good look at the inside of wilson's head and his jumbly anxious thoughts. beloved to me
#duckspeak#now go forth and read these!!! and reblog this post so more people read these. please please
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got a lot of requests — some i'm still working on — and yes yes lots of additions to googledrive from this week:
the cleaner – series 3
have i got news for you (usa) – s01e03 negin farsad, mark mckinnon
have i got news for you (uk) – s68e01 kevin bridges, helen lewis, chloe petts
out of order – s01e09 chloe petts, scarlett moffatt
taskmaster – s18e04
graham norton show – s32e02 hugh grant, neneh cherry, sebastian stan, greg davies
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PANEL SHOW WATCH LINKS / NON-PANEL SHOW WATCH LINKS FAQ / TAGS / ASK
#reminder all of ludwig is up as well! i'm hoping to finish it this weekend :')#graham norton was kinda meh even with hugh and greg :( why is sebastian stan soooooo boring#did anyone read graham's new book?#i want him on tm so bad it's actually sick#ok i'm just ranting now anyways pls go forth and enjoy your weekends!!#p
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you: nicholas alexander chavez, the actor from ryan murphy's recent work
me, a mama's girl and daytime tv viewer:
#text post#general hospital#nicholas alexander chavez#spencer cassadine#sorry i'm still not over my shock at this lol#i remember asking my mom MONTHS ago (she follows general hospital news online) 'hey wheres spencer i havent seen him in awhile?'#'oh his character died off. the actor is doing some netflix show where he plays a murderer'#and you have to understand. i dont consume anything to do w true crime. but to my 63-year-old mother. ryan murphy doesnt exist#so bc of just how self-contained the archaic institution of network soap operas are. i just. idk i didnt assume it was a big role#it didnt register to me that it was the sequel to the dahmer show. is what i am saying. and i never thought about it again#mommy made it sound like he might be coming back bc soap opera characters fake-die all the time#and so i put the thought out of my head until completely independently i was watching a video about monsters: menendez being flawed#and i was like. going absolutely insane w how familiar he looked i was like 'ok i know that man cant be too famous but i KNOW him'#'i know him from something and i know him WELL from something. like whatever hes from is iconic to me'#and then the video creator said his name and i was like THATS INSANE WHERE DO I KNOW THAT NAME??!?!??#it's a name i read in the credits but probably never thought in my head at all bc sorry he's just spencer to me#so i googled it and i was gobsmacked. i was like MOM DIDNT SAY he was gonna be in THIS SHIT!?!?!?#i also do lay my life down on the defense that the cinematography of a prestige netflix drama makes him less recognizable to me#who knew him best under cheap soap opera lighting in basic back and forth dialogue shots. like#i have to be honest i never cared for his looks on gh bc he just kinda looked like too perfect. like he looked like a mannequin#i see it now though i get it#i get why he's very fan editable to the true crime girlies i get it#not that it matters. im just in mourning bc it never occurred to me the spencer era was over. i actually liked his character#i cant tell u why bc he wasnt all that distinguishable from all the other basic dramatic character archetypes. idk it was a good performanc#i cant explain to u what makes a soap opera character distinct while still being completely generic (they all are)#i also liked his relationship w his girlfriend in the show it was cute. he was evil but they were sweet#nicky please come back. im begging u. as your only general hospital era fan who is your age#i dont wanna watch monsters menendez i reeeeeally dont
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Sort of a ramble, sort of me just writing my thoughts out while I'm stuck with writer's block, but I keep thinking about how Fulcrum was in stasis for roughly 3 million years??
Like, that's a long time, even for Cybertronians. Not a really long time, not an entire lifespan. But still, it's a large chunk of a normal lifespan just gone. Poof.
One second you're crawling across the pockmarked terrain of an alien planet, surrounded by the sound of gunfire, and the shouting and screaming before and after each earth shuddering impact of another k-con hitting the ground. And then it's quiet. You're not there anymore. You're drifting somewhere between not alive and just asleep. Preserved somewhere in the background of a doomed body, ignored by time and space, still here, but also not.
And then there's sound. Not gunfire. Not shouting or screaming. Not the sounds that'll haunt you till your dying days, your own death sentence pounding in your head. No. Just voices, talking, standing out against a silent, dead world. Wondering. Joking. Bickering. Familiar. Just, not familiar to you. And you're awake. Pulled back from the nothingness you've been frozen in, consciousness tugged forwards with the yank of a fuel pump and the nearness of life.
These two moments are roughly 3 million years apart, but only minutes, maybe even seconds, to him. From a hectic harrowing battlefield, to an old silent graveyard in one blink.
How long did it take to really sink in? I mean, he seems to just roll with it. He doesn't seem particularly bothered. But like, what happened outside of what we see? How did he really feel?
Also, his body aged without him. While his mind preserved itself, freezing him as he was right then, his body was left to weather Clemency for all those years. No wonder it crumbled to dust when he jumped off the world sweeper. It's probably a miracle of some kind that it didn't just fall apart each time someone leaned on him.
And even after they rebuild him, give him a better, newer body. His spark, it's casing, all the irreplaceable core bits that make up their inner bodies, it aged in the time without him. Does he feel it? Does it make his body even more foreign to him?
Then he's also a technician with information that's 3 million years out of date. Lucky him that the scavengers probably weren't working with top of the line material. But still it's gotta be weird when faced with anything brand new, because a lot can change and progress in 3 million years, and now some of the knowledge he once prided himself in is obsolete.
Besides those things, his view of the galaxy, of the war, of their kind, of other kinds, is one of the few things actually pointed out when it comes to him being stuck in the past. So, how often were his old views challenged? Facts of life he held close proved to no longer true? There's 3 million years worth of new science, new beliefs, new words, new terms, new views.
And sure, some of it can be familiar, because they're an ever evolving kind, and they have patterns, core beliefs, repeating behaviors, but a lot of it's gonna be unfamiliar at the same time, because it's 3 million years worth of catch up, it's not like missing last week's trend.
In a way, it makes him a living relic of a bygone era for Decepticons. It would've been really interesting to have had that explored a little more.
#rq i wanna say i love seeing others thoughts on these if you have them. esp those that have thought about it longer than i lol#like. im still just starting to sink my teeth into the lore and put things together. so your thoughts are much appreciated#sometimes i wish that i could turn these rambles into those really well worded. slightly pretentious. but in a fun way. character metas?#but i dont think i can organize my thoughts that well. so. rambles it is lol#not to say rambling is lesser or smth tho. i love a good ramble. love to read them. i support ramblers#speaking of rambling-#idk why it fascinates me so. but theres just something rlly interesting about fulcrum being somewhat stuck in the past#i think it could've played interestingly into his and kroks dynamic had it been explored more?#like. the past and history play big parts in their lives. krok having studied it. and fulcrum having been fast forwarded thru it#it would've been interesting to see them talk more about it? since logically fulcrum wouldve gone to krok for more of the 3mill year rundow#and its like. krok is shown to be really knowledgeable on not only history. but cultures as well. theres and others.#so certain eras of their own culture would probably be a slight interest of his. esp decepticon ones.#and then theres fulcrum. who pretty much got plucked from the empire era only to land in kroks lap (metaphorically) ((...unless?))#so heres this walking talking piece of history. and a dude that has a sort of passion for history. why not explore it more?#and like. yeah. the ''history'' krok has studied is all mostly shit he lived through. but people study the times they lived through-#-because while they may have lived through it. theirs is only one perspective. a good historian takes into account multiple perspectives#idk where i'm going with this now. smth smth fulcrum relying on krok for future stuff and krok having someone to talk history stuff with#i just. augh. i wanna know what their dynamic is more. what we see in the comics is so back and forth at times#like. they seem to hit it off pretty well. but then fulcrum fucks it up ig by being oblivious and a little too ''i can fix him'' vibey#and his taste in comedy is bad. to say the least. which is apparently grounds for messy divorce#also krok is sometimes cool with selling a whole dude. at least when the dude is their befriended giant killer autobot buddy :/#that is also grounds for divorce. obviously#sorry. this is derailing the more i start thinking about how messy fulkrok could be. like. ough <3#they're a little ''i hate my wife'' coded. but in a greater scav codependent poly way. and it's more krok being annoyed with fulcrum#its like. fulcrum: ''i can fix him bcs i need to feel validated'' vs krok: ''wtf is wrong with this guy?! who does he think he is??''#i think they'd want to pick each other apart intellectually. maybe emotionally. smth smth two officers. both disgraced. and power dynamics#its fun. they're both hypocrites. they'd need couples therapy. its also 4am. shit. ok goodnight
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right now i feel like , i would be happy if i could go to work, come home, have a few hours for hobbies, watch movies and read and go to concerts and do my thang on here on off days and get drunk sometimes in the evening like really i don't need more i don't want anything else
#so. it's beyond frustrating that i'm forced to study. i wish i could stop without consequences but now i can't stop#and i keep panicking because I don't want to do this and after failing like 3 times at the same thing i'm convinced i have no fucking idea#at all how to do this#and this is a bachelor's degree. it shouldn't be hard. to top it all off it's gonna be worth jack shit if i even get it#so not gonna lie if i have a moment to think i start feeling bad and it gets worse and worse and i don't know how to stop it 👍 and my#therapist ditched me lol#i don't think there is a way i can finish university. burnt out over it and so on and so forth#and i sit down to read and write and i just cry instead. and this has been going on for 3 semesters#not ideal!#kata.txt
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bran in acok thinking of robb as “the king in the north, who used to be his brother robb”. mr george rr martin i am in your walls
#the phrasing of this.#if we go back to the first book#it’s about bran constantly thinking of king in the north/lord robb and his brother robb as two different entities#whereas catelyn thinks her baby boy robb is turning into king robb#does that make sense. to catelyn one is fading into the other and she tries to claw at him. to bran they are two faces his brother can have#it’s even if king robb appeared later it’s not a progression from one to another as much as a back and forth#but now to bran too it feels as if his brother was disappearing#léa reads asoiaf#robb stark#acok#asoiaf
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So I'm gonna be stuck taking & editing pictures very last minute tomorrow after all :\
#stuff was supposed to show up today in the morning#like by noon#it didn't.. and then an hour later the delivery time updated to this#if they get here that late then i can't take pictures until tomorrow since no more daylight ;[#delays delays delays so cursed by more delays than ever before with this set#sucks.#anyway#for those of you that read this far in the tags if you'd like to see the crimes i'm commiting on main while losing my mind right now-#then go forth and check out my secretly main tumblr “jessdean”#watch out tho it's no good#lol
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hello my cuties, you may now rejoice, the masterposts are now all up to date! :) sorry it took me so long to get around to it. but it is supremely boring lol
#sorry to the person who asked about them like two weeks ago TWT#i had good intentions when i said i'd do them... i promise.#anyway they're good now so go forth and read my gay shit <3#diaerie
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proofreading an email for 2 hours straight just on the off chance that sometime between the 14th and 15th rereading the text has magically been replaced with a bunch of slurs and images of dead animals or something that I somehow entirely missed before
#ocd............... my enermy........#''Well. the text didn't say 'i hope you explode and die you nasty piece of shit' the first 23 times I read it but... hrm... what if that's#what it says now?? I should read it really thoroughly again just to check. I wouldnt want to accidentally say that to someone..... okay.#nope. looks like the text is normal! yay! ......... or... well..... hmm.... what if it says 'i hope you explode and die you nasty piece of#shit' and I just missed it because I wasn't looking closely enough?? people make typos all the time. I should check again'' so on and so#forth lol...#Usually not always like. it depends on the thing. usually not just casual messages to friends or something#but If I'm sending a message to a doctor or branch of government or someone important#or for an art commission client or something I'm always just like... uh oh.. what if my question to my doctor somehow now#says that I'm going to beat them to death... that would be bad.. I should check again. Nope. okay. it's just a question about chronic#headaches.. UNLESS... it also secretly says I'm going to beat them to death. well I wouldnt want to say that to my doctor. let me check aga#in ... aaaHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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I think that part of what like. kills me about the whole media literacy and critical thinking aspect of enjoying media these days is that people refuse to like. contextualize that
A. Bad media can still hold significant meaning to people
B. Media made for a demographic you aren’t apart of is not inherently bad media
C. Media made for and consumed by the opposite demographic is not inherently shallow or flawed nor is it above criticism for its media tropes either.
#unimportant thoughts#i dont feel like dropping specifics in post but like. people online drive me legitimately insane#good example is Ready Player One. its an okay book but people LOVE to hate on it for being a shallow nostalgia grab for old male demographic#and like. yeah. but also comsider that it Was written earnestly by a man in that demographic? and that people enjoyed it???#and maybe im soft hearted but my Dad was a nerd in the 80’s so both of us reading that book and comparing our experiences with it and#learning about his childhood from him. it was awesome yk??? was the book groudbreaking or particularly moving? no#are there a lot of fair criticisms you can make about the book regarding its poorly written female characters and painfully male tone#throughout? absolutely. its not the most vile piece of media its barely mediocre and its not the best thing since sliced bread either#and it kills me because instead of being able to have conversations like thay#people just attack and attack and attack and ATTACK#I don’t know i think the rise of this booktook wattpad level romance smut is another big part of this#are those books incredible? no. definitely not. are they decent? yeah theyre fine enough#are their characters shallow; do they follow tropes; are the characters clearly romanticized objects for us to googoo eye over? yeah#so fucking what??? they arent winning pulitzer prizes theyre just popular online and easily accesible#people love consumbable media thats not an inherently bad thing#and i think its hypocritical for people to defend one and attack the other or even to attack both#media doesnt exist to be appropriately Deep and Meaningful before people are allowed to consume and enjoy it#like. i think theres a LOT of levels of undestanding compassion and respect that people need to reach before these conversations are worth#anything. because right now it really feels like girls and boys arguing back and forth on the playground over whos show is better#anyways. i could go on but i wont.#bottom line i suggest you take a deep look at how ‘realistic’ and ‘meaningful’ the media you enjoy actually fucking is before you start#critizing other media for being too shallow or unrealistic depictions of something#hate to break it to you guys but 90% of fictional characters are fictional and dont act like people irl ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
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How does one get assigned as sam coded / dean coded ? Do I need a doctors note ? A psych evaluation perhaps ?
#i keep going back and forth on it#bc i used to identify with dean for the longest time bc i was so repressed and emotionally closed off (+older sister)#and at that point id spent my youth very purposefully protecting my younger sibling from our dad#and i guess in my brain i paralleled that with dean staying behind with john while sam took off for stanford#and dean protecting sam from knowing too much abt the supernatural#BUT having grown up ive now become the one resentful and angry at our father while my sister protects him#and our fights remind me a lot of scenes from the show where im obviously identifying a lot stronger with sam#plus the whole thing abt being the families designated academic or whatever#while also feeling cursed from the minute i was born and crushing at the guilt of everything wrong with me#and trying to be a good person and saving others to make for the fact that i feel an intrinsic evilness about myself#so like... yeah sam is very very relatable too in that sense#bc he also has that hope in him- the belief in god. in angels. in goodness. and i have that too !#im just also a miserable cynic at the same time :)#so ????#i havent been in the fandom for long enough to know the full requirements of being a sam or dean girl#(and by that i mean i havent been in the fandom for long AFTER i rejoined from my 10 year hiatus)#i literally would love to read someones page long explanation of what sam coded vs dean coded entails#someone with a spn hyperfixation or special interest needs to provide me with the goods fr 😭#spn
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