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beastswinethief · 8 months ago

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sorry this was kinda rushed its ok i guess though

#lord of the flies #jack merridew #ralph lotf #lotf ralph #mine #post island #alcoholic ralph #fuck it i’ll use the alcoholic ralph tag again #nothing matters in my life anymore

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sophsicle · 8 months ago

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time is so fucking scary. because it does not care if you are happy. you will think I wish to stay like this, right here in this moment. i have found my place. but then time comes like a wave and pushes you forward. you cannot stay. and neither can the people you love. forward forward forward. time has ripped the claws from my hands, and the teeth from my mouth, as I have tried to cling to yesterday. but you must move forward forward forward. Forward forward forward. Forward forward forward. Forward forward forw—

#i recently went back to the place in which i was happiest in my life #and it has changed and doesn't look the same #and doesn't belong to me anymore #and quite honestly nothing aches quite like knowing #that no matter what i do i can never go back #that even if i stayed it would have all gone away anyway #that i had to move forward #and i had to let go of the things that made me happy #because time wouldn't stop #soph rambles

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stuckinapril · 2 months ago

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Went from being totally lost as a teenager to finding solace in aesthetics and fitting urself into a template in my late teens and now I think I struck a healthy intermediate where I know who I am as a person generally but I’m also completely subscribed to the idea of evolving and would never deny trying something just bc it doesn’t fit the image of myself I crafted in my head

#I rly want to spend a considerable amount of time just testing things and seeing how I like them instead of figuring out how they fit into #The jigsaw of my selfhood #Bc that’s the kind of self containment that keeps ppl from exploring who they truly r beyond what they associate w certain aesthetics that #Have already been done to death #Also part of this is accepting that I as a human have shifting opinions and may change my mind and so change the way I carry myself #I get sad when I see ppl label flexibility w how u conduct urself an identity crisis #This is literally why the well is so dry and nothing is new anymore #In reality ppl who invented the wheel just looked at things they liked and incorporated that into who they are and that’s how they became #Trends #like if you can envision a way it fits into ur head that’s all that matters #And if you allow urself the ability to change ur mind on things that’s so much the better #And an important skill to have in life actually

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zishuge · 4 months ago

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guys what the fuck. I just noticed this random throwaway line from episode 14 that i've literally never paid any attention to before. like this is something li lianhua has done so consistently through the years that he is famous for it and EVERYBODY knows this? as long as he has 50 taels of silver, he doesn't care to earn any more? .... you mean... like... ......as long as he has enough money to get the sigu sect leader token back from the pawn shop where he pawned it 10 years ago?

you mean to tell me that in all those years, he didn't care about going hungry, he didn't care about being penniless, but no matter what else happened, under any circumstance he needed to have at least 50 taels of silver on him? for 10 years? just in case he needed to go get his token? what the fuck li lianhua. it's been a full damn year, stop hurting my feelings like this

#mysterious lotus casebook #why has nobody told me about this #i'm hurt #mysterious lotus casebook spoilers #okay it could just be like as long as he has enough money. BUT. 50 taels exactly is SUCH a precise amount of money #and they DELIBERATELY give the amount. which comes up again in ep 40 #i can't help but think it's absolutely intentional #and li lianhua tries to tell everyone that nothing about his old life matters to him anymore?#my ramblings #as an aside this has hilarious implications for the scene when fang duobing tells li lianhua he just bought medicine with his life savinga

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browntrait · 6 days ago

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i fucking hate america

#yes its me fr #i just cant sleep #its been a million yrs huh #listen….nothing matters anymore atp #imma have to update y’all on my life now and whatnot #n maybe post on here again #anyways #fuck everything #this country is a joke #k's words

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gildeddlily · 6 months ago

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how are we feeling gojo nation

#gojo satoru #jjk satoru #jjk #jujutsu kaisen #what if i cried #what if my life will no longer be the same #what if my heart is in pieces #what if nothing matters anymore #jjk spoilers #jjk chapter 261

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steakout-05 · 23 days ago

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been drawing a sorta reference thingy for Salesman Barry in the timeloop au i've been rotating around in my brain for a while recently :] it isn't as much a character design reference as it is more of a reference for how Barry's mental state begins to deteriorate as he starts having intense deja vu and nightmares every time his timeline gets reset upon death and he tries to piece together what is going on out of pure desperation and instincts (he is being experimented on and doesn't know it yet). i want to throw him at a wall (affectionate)

it is still a WIP as i haven't drawn all the details yet and i want to change the colours as they look too dull on my pc,,, also here is the original sketch :D

#barry steakfries #jetpack joyride #salesman!barry steakfries #i have been thinking of more ideas for the timeloop au..... still haven't come up with a proper name for it yet though loolll #i like putting barry in horrible traumatising situations it's fun seeing his character traits get pushed to their limits #first i'm putting him through a brutal survivalist zombie landscape that makes barry question if he'll even make it out alive this time #and then i'm shoving him into a horrible reality where his life and timeline are fake and his whole reality literally starts to shatter #its ok he gets better!!!#not so much craig though :( craig gets it rough #he basically goes through a horrific accident involving experimental technology that damns him to an existence that is permanently-#-attached to the timeline itself where he will die if the timeline gets wiped or he tries to enter another one #craig's existence is basically a living purgatory where he can never age or die but he is no longer alive as his former self anymore #he's like a half-ghost and he ends up doomed no matter what action barry would take at the end of the story #if barry erases the timeline craig dies. if craig tries to come with barry to the new timeline he dies.#if barry does nothing and keeps living in this broken timeline loop he's in then craig will never escape and have the chance to help barry #oh yeah i forgot to mention craig is trapped in a basement. and also that this post is about barry. woops #barry has to basically become a detective in this story and string together what the fuck is happening based on pure instincts alone #he's like a conspiracy theorist with his board covered in photos connected by red strings #it's really cool i think..... i should make a whole separate post about this #i love drawing my little man :)#he's so traumatised he needs a big hug and a best friend and tons of therapy and plenty of ice cream #i'm just thinkin of the effects of barry's trauma after he goes through the events of timeloop and enters the new dimension #dude's probably gonna have tones of nightmares and trust issues and dissociative episodes #he's probably going to develop a compulsion where he continuously checks the date and time because he's terrified of it resetting again #he needs a hug seriously #alternate universe #my au

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hannibalismos-jaaneman · 1 year ago

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sometimes i think about what would have happened if richard had died instead of henry and the rest of the book had been narrated the song of achilles style and it hurts

#raj shitposting #imagine had the fight led to the gun being thrown out the window. had henry seen that richard was shot. had the ambulance been too late..#that is the saddest thought i've ever had #henry would quit college. buy the estate he had seen with richard. live there with all his stuff and sob into his clothes like a baby...#he'd go to california every christmas and spend the time alone in some stupid hotel and become absolutely fucking unhinged.#he'd tend to richard's mother because ofc his father would run away from home that was the kind of man he was.#and he'd call no one but his own mother for her funeral because no one else would be bothered.#he'd send some money to richard's father along with the news and go about living his life like a goddamn widow.#that's the perfect word. widow. henry would be nothing but a widow.#the bmw would be the worst thing in his possession. he'd think about selling it but he wouldn't.#he'd think that anytime he had a semblance of thought that maybe richard was with him.. it would be in that fucking car.#he wouldn't sell it out of superstition that the car was the only place where he could safely feel richard and fall apart in his memory.#he'd cry like a madman every damn day in that car.while getting groceries.visiting francis at the country house.going for dinner with them.#he'd probably get a portrait done of richard. maybe of a photo of richard in some fancy clothes francis took at the country house.#yk those times rich people ugly cry by a full size painting in a burgundy robe with wine spilled on the floor by them clutching their chest #as if in physical pain and agony? that would be my man henry.#he'd be too out of his mind to even remember that maybe that day he killed charles too because nothing seems to matter anymore.#henry winter #richard papen #winterpapen #tsh #donna tartt #the secret history #literati

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deus-ex-mona · 8 days ago

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remember when halloween aizo and white day yujiro had special gacha voice lines l m a o

#aka nothing in life matters anymore so lip times the lip ig #there’s still a special spot in the trash heap for yappa saikyou aizo though. stupid idiot’s skill never activates >:(#never forget the rerun of halloween lxl… the lv 22 difficulty for rodeo’s second half was a lie.#i could fc taketori part 2 (25 difficulty) but not… *that*. i always lost my combo at the apple.#heroiku pt 2 was a special kind of difficult too… as was terekakushi pt 1… bring back honeypre i want to try those beatmaps again.#(while im complaining about honeypre beatmaps can i cry here for a bit too)#(s o b s i screwed up at work and there’s no way to undo it (forgot to turn off some equipment before i left so. aaaa))#(unless someone just so happened to unintentionally cover for me im ✨s c r e w e d✨)#(it was nice knowing(?) y’all look at the lip and the lip for me g o o d b y e~~~~~)#ok. well. anyway. multiply the lip by the lip; that’s all. goodbye #just honeypre things

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naivety · 6 days ago

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not even saying it's a good thing because i am so far beyond checked out at this point but i cannot fathom nailbiting over this election after more than a year of genocide, after every single 395 days of it. like i can but i can't. the truth is americans will sleep just as well tonight as we have every day since october 7th no matter who wins because that's the world we live in. we live in. while the money we generate from shitty 9 to 5s is taxed and sent to keep children and mothers and fathers and brothers and sisters up night after night after night with the sound of drones and gunfire and bombshells. this world is so far beyond americans' worst case scenario already and the solution to it is outside a ballot box on election day.