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naughtynanzhu · 6 months ago

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I can't do a single fucking chore man I'm so fucking useless I wish I was dead LMAOOOOO

#i have several things i need to do and i just dont #its been months and months that ive needed to clear out my room to paint #and i bought new furniture and its just sitting in the middle of the living room for like two months #bc i just dont.#and i got this stupid fucking litter box and im so dumb and then i wanted to put it where the old was #but there wasnt an open plug so i was gonna find an extension cord and i couldn't so now i wish i was dead #big fucking loser piece of shit #and why the fuck am i taking Adderall #whats it doing for me #nothing like all the others ive tried #i probably dont even have adhd im just a lazy piece of shit lmaoooo jxnddjdjdkdj #chanting kill me kill me kill me kill me kill me #also im fat #'youre not stupid or useless' mom. gun to your head explain why im like this then

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bacchuschucklefuck · 8 months ago

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okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is

#dimension 20 #fantasy high junior year #not art #fhjy spoilers #its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical #like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real #like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this #yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out #meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it #its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started #the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show #which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them #and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear #that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others #thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and #a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he #wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude #its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others #and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT #Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere #Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually #Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!

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puppyeared · 7 months ago

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i feel like im not making any sense but does anyone else feel like there are stories that let u run with them and ones that spell everything out for you

#im reading that post that says artists are directors of audience reaction and not its dictator:#'you cannot guarantee that everyone viewing your work will react as you are trying t make them react. a good artist knows that this is what #allows work to breath. by definition you cannot have art where the viewer brings nothing to the table ... this is why you have to let go of #the urge to plainly state in text exactly how you think the work should be interpreted ... its better to be misinterpreted sometimes than #to talk down to your audience. you wont even gain any control that way; people will still develop their opinions no matter what you do #im thinking abt this again cuz i was thinking maybe the thing that lets adventure time work so well the way it does is cuz it doesnt #take itself too seriously that it gives the audience enough room to fuck with subtext and then fuck with them back yknow. i think it was #mentioned somewhere that they werent even planning to run with the postapocalyptic elements that are hinted in the show but changed their #mind after the one off with the frozen businessmen and dominoed into marcy and simons backstory. on the other side there are stories that #explain too much to let the story speak for itself and i think it ends up having to do more with the crew trying to lead ppl in a certain #direction than expand on what they have and i see a lot of this with miraculous. like when interviews and tweets are used as word of god in #arguments and it becomes a little stifling to play around with it knowing the creator can just interject. u can say its the crews effort to #engage with its audience but it feels more like micromanaging. and none of this is to say there ISNT room for stories that spell things out #theyre just suited for different things. if sesame street tried abstract approaches to themes and nuance itd be counterproductive #a lot of things fly over my head so i need help picking things apart to get it- but it doesnt have to be from the story itself. ive picked #picked up or built on my own interpretations listening to other ppl share their thoughts which creates conversation around the same thing #sometimes stories will spell things out for you without being so obvious abt it that it feels like its woven into the text. my fav example #for this might be ATLA using younger characters as its main cast but instead of feeling like its dumbed down for kids to understand why war #is bad its framed from a childs point of view so younger audiences can pick up on it by relating to the characters. maybe an 8 year old #wont get how geopolitics works but at least they get 'hey the world is a little more complicated than everyone vs. fire nation'. same for #steven universe bc its like theyre trying to describe and put feelings into words that kids might not have so they have smth to start with #especially with the metaphors around relationships bc even if it looks unfamiliar as a kid now maybe the hope is for it to be smth you can #look back to. thats why it feels like these shows grew up with me.. instead of saving difficult topics for 'when im ready for it'#as if its preparing me for high school it gave me smth to turn in my hands and revisit again and again as i grow. stories that never #treated u as dumb all along. just someone who could learn and come back to it as many times as u need to. i loved SU for the longest time #but i felt guilty for enjoying it hearing the way ppl bash it. bc i was a kid and thought other ppl understood it better than me and made #feel bad for leaning into the message of paying forward kindness and not questioning why steven didnt punish the diamonds or hold them #accountable. but im rewatching it now and going oh. i still love this show and what it was trying to teach me #yapping #diary

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s0fter-sin · 1 month ago

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i’d love to know how much of early day's spn subtext was deliberate or just a happy accident bc the subplot of 1x08 bugs is sam and dean butting heads about how they were raised and sam hating it while dean tells him he should accept it as they protect a family; predominantly a father and son

the father and son argue bc the son is different and not who the father wants him to be while the son feels ignored and shunned (aka sam). sam spends the episode empathising with him and telling him he can look forward to going to college to get away from him just like he did while dean cuts in to say he should stick with his family

the entire episode, dean defends john and the way he raised them ("maybe he needed to raise his voice but sometimes you were out of line"), it even starts with him and sam arguing over their illegal ways of making money and how they were brought up in the life; dean adapting to and enjoying it and sam wanting to be honest and straight

they talk about sam being sure john is and always has been disappointed in him just for dean to say john used to go to stanford whenever he could to check on him and something about his expression is so bitter; like he knows john would never express that care for him

but at the climax when they're trying to get matt to convince his dad to leave, sam is the one telling him to tell the truth and make his dad listen whereas dean tells him to lie; implying he wouldn't trust his son enough to believe him

he outright scoffs at sam and asks him what he was thinking for trying to get matt to tell the truth

the entire episode, dean is advocating for the kid to work it out (almost to just take it) and stay with his family but when push comes to shove, he tells him to lie

sam who spent years resenting john and his family for how they were raised, fell back on "making him listen"; echoing all the arguments he had with john, trying to force him to understand who he is while john's too blinded by vengeance to even begin to try. the same way sam refuses to see how they were raised and why they were raised that way from john’s point of view, hinting at how similar people they are (which still isn’t an excuse but also not the point rn)

dean winchester, the king of repression and masking (and fawning), dean who at this point is still staunchly defending john, tells a shunned kid with a harsh father to pretend in order for his father to care enough to listen to him and believe him

dean knows reasoning won't work bc he's watched it happen over and over again with sam and john

even the way matt tries to say, “but he’s my… (father)” feels like he’s coming over to dean’s point of view; that matt as a son respects his father to enough to tell the truth and no matter how much they’ve fought, that should trump everything. but dean still insists he lies. and matt tells the truth. and his father doesn’t listen

there's no way they intentionally made dean subconsciously know that a man raising his son in a mimicry of how john raised them wouldn't respect or trust his son enough to believe him about something potentially life threatening after half a season of john ignoring them about something potentially life threatening

right?

#sam accusing dean of being perfect and thats why john never yelled at him actually makes me crazy #especially when you take in how much dean fawns when hes around john #fawning being the fear response of making yourself as unobtrusive as possible so you dont become a target #deans fawn response is to be the soldier; to always agree and listen to orders and be johns mini replica so he doesnt make waves #its not just him being a good son despite how much thats hammered into us over the course if the show #thats why he tries so hard to get sam to just agree and do as hes told; not just bc he thinks john is right but so it wont cause an argument #arguments he expressly hates despite being highly confrontational with literally everyone else #he only has a fawn fear response when it comes to john and sam; not even bobby gets the same level of repression #anyway i unintentionally started a rewatch and dean flipping on a dime about how the kid should be with his father twigged my interest #and how much of it was intentional? in the good supernatural in my head all of it is #but alas this is the real supernatural and it was probably completely unintentional and means nothing #especially since the episode ends with the kid throwing away the things that make him different #and sam saying he wants to apologise to john in person for the things he said to him when he left for stanford #hes dean says he will apologise then theyll immediately be at each others throats again but he doesnt really progress at all beyond that #he spends the whole episode saying relationships are a two way street and sam said awful things and should pick up the slack between them #and he ends with that same mindset so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ likely all of it was unintentional #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #carry on my wayward son #talk meta to me #supernatural #spn #meta #dean winchester #sam winchester #john winchester #john winchesters a+ parenting

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wishjacked · 6 months ago

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u know what? fine. *draws my guys like they're a cartoon*

here's the lil antag crew too. they get to have more detail because they're special <3 (aka they show up less often so the AU version of myself that makes cartoons can afford to put more time into them)

#my art #pirate comic #ive never watched any cartoons tbh #so this was a lil silly to draw #i know nothing about animation i have no idea if this makes sense to be cartoon #but i didn't want to draw them in an extant cartoon style #wanted to draw them as if it was it's own cartoon with its own style guide #tried to make all of them really distinct #but also like if any 2 or 3 of them were in a scene together they wouldn;t clash. anyways.#pretty fun but hard af im happy to go back to my own stylee hahahaha #i don't kniw what the hell i was doing with colors on this #especially skin??? why is ginger GREY? idk #just accept it.#trying to imply matt and stan are related in this style gosh. hard.#richard was the first one i did so he looks a little wack but i couldnt make him better. everything i did made him look less lik himself #looooove his long limp arms though that's how he stands fr fr #SJ is a lil simpler than the others but thats just her in the reg style too hahahaha #matt continues to be hell to draw whenever he leaves the omic

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telesodalite · 5 days ago

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I need to be weirder about the scavengers and cannibalism...

#its been a long day... but im feeling better now. (thanks for the well wishes and such btw <3-)#(-sending my well wishes in return by tenfold bcs. damn. it seems stuff is really going around rn)#but yeah... just. augh. theres just smth about how the scavs sorta translate into more like. thriller-esque genres pretty well?#like. i feel somehow those themes compliment their characteristics? or could compliment their characteristics in a more rounded out way #sure. theyre generally a light hearted romp of absurdity with occasional themes of a not good not bad handling of 'mental health matters'#but they just really shine a bit in horrific circumstances. esp with the sort of absurdity they bring to the table #theyre odd people. even in the context of their generally weird and alien universe. and that right there feels like a trove of potential #its like. ok. the lost light crew? also odd. but thats a huge ship. full of people and variety and a sense of purpose and normalcy post-war #(normalcy being. whatever all those background folks were getting up too while plot happened around them. cruise ship stuff ig)#but in contrast. with the w.a.p crew. its an ark class ship with like. a handful of people. and a whole lot of junk and free time #both just cruising through space endlessly for years. one with hundreds of people. and one with like 6 people.#so both are technically isolated when theyre not making pit-stops planet or station side. but again. 100s vs 6 dudes.#think. top of the line cruise ship from hell with a small town sized populace vs a big shitty boat and 6 starving guys #both have the capacity to become case studies in madness. both could do really well thriller wise. but the scavs being a smaller group?#it only being the 6 of them emphasis the isolation perhaps. less variety. less change. same 6 people for 5(?) years #things could get weird fast. codependent mentalities. us vs them mindsets. an otherness about everyone else outside of their group #and then! then you add to the mix the fact that theyre eating/drinking from corpses?! *chefs kiss* awesome. love it.#non-stationary isolation + cannibalism. ough. perfect mix. a classic of maritime horror but in space! :D!#a big ship. small crew. living while knowing that as soon as you kick the bucket. your body is the meal. your body is the fuel.#no decorum about it. no faith. no belief. just perverse survival. bcs they might enjoy it. a bloody gluttony. with a bite. a sample. a taste #it takes seeing your buddy as a walking talking burger to another level. bcs every corpse you come across is also a burger. and a gas can #also fulcrum making candy out of corpses is so. particularly perfect when it comes to the horrifically absurd. just. smth about it. idk #but also also. the line. where was the line drawn for each of them? and when did they each cross it?#most of them dont seem like the type to jump head first into that. so how did they justify it to themselves? had they done it before?#and then. when did it become normal? a habit? smth enjoyable?#i might be running out of tags. but yeah. them being weirder. esp about each other and others.#nothing brings a group of people together like the overhanging knowledge that you sort of kinda wanna eat each other #(rlly wishing i could stomach realistic thrillers rn. but i just cant. gotta stick to written or artistic styles or risk panic attacks :/)#(ive tried a couple movies and shows now. and cant get through most of them. praise be synopses and peoples long rambles about them tho :D)#(nothing like reading someones passionate ramble about the meaning/symbolism of some gory nightmare without having to actually see it lol)

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toestalucia · 6 days ago

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(guy whos easy to please) i have forgiven cygames for everything

#stardust speaking !#THE STAGE PLAY WAS SO COOL AAAUUUUGGHHHHHH I LOOOVVEEE EVERY YRS STAGE PLAY ITS MY FAV PART OF THE EVENT....#release a dvd w them cygames cmon........with eng subs so i can show them to everyone easily....#i cant sit and realtimetranslate and then go 'idk what theyre saying in this part but context clue is-'#incredible that gbfs anni characters keeps outdoing each other. like fenie is the best one & shes the newest #no i dont accept criticism. im dying on the fenie no1 hill #um spoilers<333 for stage play<333 #'this time ill do it for melin' SECOND TIME I STARTED CRYING IN THAT SEGMENT.#fenie makes me cry sm.............ill fly to the future....all alone for all those centuries....maaNNNN #anyway the reason im forgiving them is cuz ive spent tve entire time 'man i wish djgr had official cosplays too' and 'man itd be so cool if #captain showed up' <-last section is main story crew #I GAAAASPEEEEEEEEDDDDD CONTENT FOR MEEEE #the crowd laughing when rackam tried to drag io away & she brushed him off JSBAKKSS MEEEEEE #nothing like being solo'd by a lil basic dude in a blue hoodie #if they had done blue captain i wouldve forgiven them for every main story crime theyre gonna commit in the future #zodiac anni jumpscared me cuz i didnt expevt tjat until all of tjem r out but 12 is a nicer number for estalucia anni....(delusional #well as much of a jumpscare it can be when joy was on the fes art #ive forgotten all the gameplay updates. head full of stage play. all is well.#ill be mad about about no msq next week #TRAILER DURING ANNI STREAM FOR SURE (COPIUM)#dudeim so excited for playable yatima WTFFFFFFFFFFFF SHES SO GOOD...i hope they touch on the yatima & lyria stuff #I LOVE YATIMA❗❗❗❗❗❗#ok i must go outside

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hammill-goes-fogwalking · 7 months ago

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sympathy for the outcasts <3

#Ive been a social outcast for almost two years and I wish everyone dealing with it joy in life ✌️😔#dont punish yourself for the way other people act towards you #you can work on yourself. but dont try to hide your entire personality.#otherwise one day all the sorrow will come back like a wave of depression.#Ive had this #yes I had friends during that dark era buuuuut they treated me as if I'm worth nothing #social outcast era #neurodivergent #mental health #and all my other friends: they left me #I lost all. literally. ALL my friends in that one year 2021 #I had like 6 or 7 close friends before covid but after the lockdown ALL friendships ended #and I developed a high ego and thought I need no one #I was happy to have no friends 🫥#zero friends.#around that time I developed some autistic traits in my personality :/#as an example-#I didnt know how to talk to my dog/animals/pets. it felt so uncomfortable I tried to avoid it #I avoided speaking in general #but that high ego inside me kinda prevented me from drifting into depression #at least #random mind #guys. dont think it was THAT bad. I still had family which supported me #thank god Im not like this anymore #I found many close friends now and I have people who appreciate me irl #and healthy friendships taught me how to be social again #hopefully that whole covid lockdown dark phase blah blah blah think will never return #life is beautiful #never say never #❣️

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phagodyke · 2 months ago

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they need to make a killing myself I can do every weekend but only on the weekends so I can get up fine on monday and go to work again

#.vent #maybe i should start drinking so i can get blackout drunk every weekend. or fuck around w sedatives or pay someone to just whack me round #the head with a sledgehammer on friday evenings and hopefully ill recover from the concussion by mondays #its not even funny what the fuck is wrong with me that i have to spend all my free time trying not to kill myself i feel so sick #im literally fine at work i guess i just dont know how to have fun or be happy or feel wanted or cared for or loved by other people #but dont have to think about that when im working so its fine 5/7 days which is pretty good. im so lonely i want to throw up #tried to leave the house got ready and everything and then burst into tears for no reason ive spent the past hour trying to talk myself #down from hurting myself and i probably wont in the next few hours but i almost certainly will before the day is up. oh well #man who fucking cares. typing this isnt making me feel any better i dont really know what to do anymore #i have a drs appt in 2 weeks for smth unrelated but maybe ill ask abt antidepressants. theres nothing specific causing this #my brain just doesnt work right.i dont even feel like a person most of the time #well nothing else to say 👍

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echo-s-land · 8 months ago

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It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

#vent ig #i wish i could #but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i #wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the #short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent #but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar #and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie #we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant #the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and #'im not even remotely interested by any of you'#its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT #NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up #on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.)#anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point)#am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as #a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened #i hate feeling apathetic #and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them #cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life

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transhoverfish · 9 months ago

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SECOND TO LAST CHAPTER IS FINISHED. LETS GO GIRLS.

#its so weird. like theres one more chapter and then im like.... done w all my subnaut fics #like other than those other aus ive posted about but. tbh i never really intended to WRITE any of those #bc i would be here forever if i tried every single idea i came up with #but this is like the last big project i have planned for this fandom #and its. its weird!!!! ive been writing these fics for. what. four years?? five??#theres an end in sight and its like. huh.#NOT TO SAY IM GOING AWAY FOREVER OBVS. IM STILL GONNA BE HERE.#but no more 20k+ word stories until at LEAST sub3 #sorry this has nothing to do w the fic at all EVERYONE ENJOY THIS CHAPTER IS A BIT OF A LONGER ONE TO MAKE UP FOR THE WAIT #final chapter will be out before the end of the week !!!!!#once again wtf r my tags #fanfic #fanfiction #subnautica: new years eve #subnautica spoilers

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sadhorsegirl · 2 years ago

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fuck it posting moiraine playlist on main

#please enjoy my incredibly vibey and abstract playlist i finalized while very very high lol #i made it that way bc she is vibey and abstract. 2 me ❤️#could have posted this days ago if i hadnt agonized over the inclusion of master hunter #feels like its a little aggressive and doesnt totally work #but i am a master hunter ive cured my skin nothing gets in nothing not as hard as it tries #vs the breakdown of like fuck off u think i enjoy suffering!!!#later in the song rly works for book moiraine at certain points. where u become so emotionally isolated to try and protect urself but #but rly u still care sososo much #i think her struggle for connection in the midst of all her planning is a big part of what makes moiraine such a strong character for me #like. any ability she has to repress her own emotions is p surely undercut by her own capacity for love #she cant help it! even if she struggles to connect with others and frequently faces rejection in the white tower #she still cares deeply for others #v boss of her u might say #anyways ramble basically over this playlist is also heavily impacted by new spring go read new spring sound of the summer #reserving the right to go back and edit this if the a side in the title isnt clear enough lol #moiraine damodred #wheel of time #music #Spotify

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sideblogformentalhealtshit · 5 months ago

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Hm. So am I the only one who 'likes' having ARFID?

Like don't get me wrong it's horrible it's caused so much damage to me but also like. I've had it my whole life I can't imagine a version of myself without it and I wouldn't want to not have it.

It's as big and fundamental a part of me as my autism. Sure there's bad parts but it's what makes me me, and without it I would cease to be me and become a whole nother person.

I've always found it a 'fun' part of me, a unique thing I was completely alone in most of my life, something that made me different in a funky way.

#arfid #avoidant restrictive food intake disorder #personal #just tbc this isnt anti recovery if thats what u wanna do good for u #i consider my arfid to be chronic tho #i tried therapy my family tried so many things when i was younger but nothing worked nothing helped #and i have consistently just gotten worse #and ive never truly wanted to get better or whatever #the doctors would always ask if i had any concerns about my eating habits and i would answer nl #no*#bc i dont. i dont mind it. its so fundamental to who i am as a person i cant separate it from myself #idk this is my relationship w all my disorders honestly #they suck but there does not exist a version of me without and if there did i would no lonher recognize them as Me #but also frankly? i was just one of those kids who was weird and creepy and loved it.#i love my unhealthy habits bc they make me special n not like everyone else. is that so wrong???#idk im just screamin into the void #only IM allowed to insult my arfid. anyone else does it and theyre on my shitlist #anyway again. if u wanna reciver good for u i dont consider it impossible for other ppl #just for me. bc my arfid is based in my sensory processing issues and that is never gonna change #and even if it could i wouldnt want it nor would i put in the effort #so yeah. my arfid is crhonic but my add is iconic whatever #ass*

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lanshappycorner · 3 months ago

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//NSFW text . I think

U know what's so funny is that in AnteRyn and JaceLuan's relationship Ante tops, and on the other hand Luan bottoms. They are like the alpha omega brothers. That is my wisdom for tonight

#i actually wrote a very long analysis but then i didn't know where i was going with it so ive put it off for tmr #so instead u guys get this tidbit #the fact that one twin is a top and the other is a bottom they really are nothing alike #jace looks like he bottoms but he does not😔#ryn is a switch by the way. in case u were wondering #all of them could be switches if they tried hard enough i guess

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dream-sans-mogai · 4 months ago

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Anyway, because I'm considered a bigger creator within the mogai community and I have a responsibility to address things given my bigger audience-

Please remember that Tumblr, especially LGBT Tumblr concerning discourse and intracommunity issues, is a hyper niche, reactive, violent, sensitive community with next to zero basis in reality at large and you should not take any of its opinions as absolute fact. Especially the mogai community's opinions.

A lot of people on mogai Tumblr talk big game with very clearly fake the-whole-bus-clapped stories about the real world concerning acceptance towards mspec monos, Neopronouns and Xenogenders and it's my job as an adult and guiding voice to remind people these experiences may happen but rarely do and you absolutely should not just tell random people you use purr/purrs pronouns or your a bi gaybian or you identify as Chronosian or other things like that because it's really fucking dangerous even in hyper progressive places like new york, cali and Detroit. It can be deadly in many many small towns, including ones in progressive states. Especially dangerous in non accepting states.

I don't say this to burst your bubble or ruin your hopeful world view but many stories of acceptance are fake, even if some are true, most of the community is underage and just cause your teacher may approve of your Soniccharic identity, doesn't mean they won't tell your transphobic parents. It's scary and dangerous out here for trans and gay people rn and I won't be one of the idiots who tell you to run and frolic with your Xenogender pins Infront of increasingly hostile transphobes. I want the younger gen z trans people to survive and I won't lie to you about the reality of the battle we all are staring down concerning project 2025.

Most of the people telling these stories live in progressive states and do not tell you about the failed times or exaggerate the acceptance they supposedly received. I'm telling you from the mouth of someone who grew up in a tiny town in South Ohio with less than 1,000 people, it's still just as dangerous as it was 10 years ago. I still get followed in my home town. I still get stares in my home town. My actual home town, a place I grew up in where people knew me as the gnc dyke for a good while in my last 2 years of school. Do not spread this shit around to everyone. Nex didn't think they would become a victim, Brianna didn't think she would be one of the unlucky ones, plenty of those we've lost did not think they would die in hate crimes. I almost died in two of the hate crimes I've experienced.

You need to be really fucking careful and although I love than Neopronouns and Xenogenders are becoming more accepted by the larger LGBT community, you need to be very very VERY careful about what you do, what you wear and who you tell what because word spreads fast in suburbia and hate spreads faster. You do not want to be wearing a pin the day some white cishet magat decides he's tired of the "pedophiles" and chooses you as the first victim because you were the first he saw. Don't hide who you are but Be. Fucking. Careful.

#clover speaks #im not being a doomist and i wont stand those allegations but some of yall telling these kids and teens the world is totes cool #with no-c paras and therians and bi lesbians have lost the plot and are gonna get these kids killed #especially considering i grew up very rural and none of the advice about presenting trans could possibly apply to me #thats why i say urban and even semi urban lgbt people should not be giving advice to rural lgbt people #nothing you say can apply to us because it is that dangerous #i still get followed as a fucking 23 yr old adult around my town #the one time an lgbt club tried to get established at my highschool the posters were ripped to shreds and there were both #bomb and shooting threats #people talking about setting the school on fire so they could quote pop the faggots one by one as they came running out #im so happy you live in a privileged Massachusetts school district with loving teachers who accept your system identity #please dont encourage the children in alabama and ohio to follow suit because you will get their naive asses killed #urban queer advice dosent apply to rural lgbt people #thats another thing ive seen be said by urban lgbt people that queer is no longer a slur used that way and has been totally reclaimed #great guess half my family and all my achool bullies were really just showing solidarity and i took it the wrong way #say youve never truely felt mortal danger in your small Christian home town cause your ex told pple your trans without saying it #like really #the privilege just jumps right out #that was the stupidest so and so is terf rhetoric to date and yall tme people just scarfed that shit down #ill never drop that veiw because i and many others can attest to it #surprise queer can be a slur an identity and a community all at the same time shocking ik #and if your offended because people are calling your identity a slur i ask whats dyke and faggor now #cause thoss were reclaimed waaaayyyyy before queer was and you still acknowledge their status as slurs #infact i remember seeing maps of slur usage on twitter from 2020 when that discourse was popular and queer #was the bigots favorite slur for us not dyke or faggot #i cant believe the brain rot on this site sometimes #itd be so funny as entertainment if yall werent using it to question and harass lgbt people with ptsd over it for litteral years #ik because i was one of the people harassed :)#i dont forget this shit so easily #sorry for the rant lol

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lifeofclonewars · 6 months ago

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Hallelujah, I somehow had time and energy tonight to write down the outline of my main personal project, come up with a character's last name, AND write almost 300 more words on the marching au after not working on it since like May

#b talks #marching au #character still does not have a first name but it's progress #but yeah worked on the part w numa!#which shocked me a bit #last few times ive tried writing that section got me stuck #and ive just been very focused on other fandoms most of this year #but im currently at a spot where i feel like all my fandom feels #are pretty equal. nothing is winning out over the other #so that really helps me out w marching au writing

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