#not the siken quotes. kills myself

[svnnyd4ys]

some sfth plays as Richard Siken poetry quotes bc i love combining my interests sorry guys

might do a version where it's characters with very specific ones, but for now the plays!! these quotes make the plays seem much sadder than they are lmfaoo

plays 1-10 under the cut~

OMG, IS THIS A JOKE? "It starts with bloodshed, always bloodshed, always the same running from yourself story," (driving, not washing - Crush)

THE MERINGUE HABERDASHERY "I woke up and ate ice cream in the dark, hunched over on the wooden chair in the kitchen, listening to the rain. I borrowed your shoes and didn't put them away." (i had a dream about you - Crush)

LOST IN YOUR EYES "I thought of myself as a city and I licked my lips. I thought of myself as a nation and I wrung my hands. I put a thing in your hands. Will you defend yourself?" (landscape with a blur of consequences - War of the Foxes)

THE DARK MOONS OF SLOUGH "They huddled closer, shoulder to shoulder, painted themselves in herds, all together and apart from the rest." (the language of the birds - War of the Foxes)

LONG JOHNS - STRIKE! "You're in a car. You're in the weeds again. You're on a bumpy roads and there are criminals everywhere, longing for danger." (the dislocated room - Crush)

TOO BIG TO BE A JOCKEY "A stone on the path means the tea's not ready, a stone in the hand means somebody's angry, the stone inside of you still hasn't hit bottom." (seaside improvisation - Crush)

THE OOPSIE DAISY BULGE "Our scope was much larger than I realised, which only made me that much more responsible." (detail of the hayfield - War of the Foxes)

THE HARE WHO WORE A SWEATER "The wife has a dead hand. This is earlier. She is living and her dead hands feed her pills that don't work. The boy sleeps on the roof or falls out of trees. The father works late. The wife looks out of the window and thinks, Not this." (war of the foxes - War of the Foxes)

ONCE UPON A TIME I KILLED MUM "'Cut off your head, kid. For all the good it'll do ya.' I glued my head back on. All thoughts finish themselves eventually." (landscape with fruit rot and millipede - War of the Foxes)

THE MIDNIGHT MYSTERY "He could build a city. Has a certain capacity. There's a niche in his chest where a heart could fit perfectly and he thinks if he could maneuver one into place- well then, game over." (road music - Crush)

(inside the mysterious cube is getting it's own post)

[astrronomemes]

RICHARD SIKEN : CRUSH STARTERS (PART II)

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings from Crush, a volume of poetry and prose by Richard Siken.

“Do you love yourself?”

“I don’t have to answer that.”

“I couldn’t find my cigarettes.”

“There’s nowhere to go. There’s nowhere to go.”

“You had a bottle of pills, but I wouldn’t let you swallow them.”

“Will you love me even more when I’m dead?”

“You didn’t show up. I kept waiting.”

“I had a Coke at the bar.”

“You’re still on fire.”

“I don’t really blame you for being dead, but you can’t have your sweater back.”

“Please keep him safe.”

“I can’t go through with it. I just don’t want to die anymore.”

“You want to die for love. You always have.”

“You saved my life. I owe you everything.”

“I took the bullet for all the wrong reasons. I’d just as soon kill you myself.”

“Let’s not talk about it. Let’s just not talk.”

“You say ‘I’ll give you anything’. But you never come through.”

“If you love me, [name], you don’t love me in a way I understand.”

“Stay in the room for now. Stay in the room for now.”

“This is the place where everything starts to begin.”

“It’s love, or it isn’t.”

“I’ve been in your body, baby, and it was paradise. I’ve been in your body, and it was a carnival ride.”

“Do not choose sides yet. It is still to your advantage to remain impartial.”

“Take off those wet clothes and come over here by the fire.”

“The radio is playing your favorite song.”

“Who do you love, [name]? Who do you love?”

“We love you. We really do.”

“Where did you get those bruises?”

“It’s yours. You deserve it.”

“I will come back from the dead for you.”

“He won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you.”

“Is that too much to expect? That I would name the stars for you? That I would take you there?”

“I wanted to hurt you, but the victory is that I could not stomach it.”

“What do you want, sweetheart?”

“We are all going forward. None of us are going back.”

[ghostlandtoo]

WISH FULFILLMENT — COME BACK WRONG

a mood board for a friend’s fic concept

ID:

A web weaving post feature Wolfwood and Vash from Trigun Maximum. The first image is a panel of Wolfwood biting down on glass vials in his mouth and underneath the panel is the quote: “Why does tragedy exist? Because you are full of rage. Why are you full of rage? Because you are full of grief.” The second image is spliced together panels from volume 10. The first panel is Wolfwood holding a shot glass with speech bubbles saying: [N][arrow][is][the][strai][T][.] [I am asking [You] [h][ow] to endure it.]. Next is the panel of Vash bowing over his shot glass with spec bubbles saying: On the strength of My having asked it of you. Around him are thought bubbles saying: Oh, God… God… Please do me this one favor… The third panel is Wolfwood in profile, a tear running down his cheek. A speech bubble next to him says: [I am asking [not] to endure it.] The final panel is of the gravestone placed over his grave with a cross craved into it. Around it says: Scio… Sweetheart.

The lines are from a poem by tumblr user inactics linked here.

The third image is a quote from Richard Siken: He was not dead yet, no exactly—parts of him were dead already, certainly other parts were still only waiting for something to happen, something grand, but it isn’t always about me, he keeps saying, though he’s talking about the only heart he knows—

The fourth image is a screencap of dialogue from Disco Elysium. It reads:

You – Do I remember?

Inland Empire – No, you don’t. And it’s better that way.

You – What *do* I remember?

Inland Empire – Nothing.

(in all caps by the narrator) Don’t come back here!

The fifth image is Wolfwood aiming his handgun at the back of Vash’s head, who is in the foreground. Underneath that panel is a picture of an engraved plaque with a Jenny Holzer truism on it reading: Protect me from what I want. The sixth image is the panel of Wolfwood forcing Vash to hold a gun to his head and saying “Shoot.” The panel is cut in half by a quote from Richard Siken: but I think I’d rather keep the bullet. It’s mine, see, I’m not giving it up. This way you still owe me, and that’s as good as anything. You can’t get out of this one, [] you can’t get it out of me, and with this bullet lodged in my chest, covered with your name, I will turn myself into a gun, because I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own. I’ll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue and final resting, walking around with this bullet inside me like the bullet was already there, like it’s been waiting inside me this entire time.

The seventh image is a picture of a line from Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead. It reads: (Guil) Our names shouted in a certain dawn… a message… a summons… there must have been a moment, at the beginning, where he could have said – no. But somehow we missed it. (He looks around and sees he is alone.) Rosen-? Guil-? (He gathers himself.) Well, we’ll know better next time. Now you see me, now you – (And disappears.)

The eighth image is the panel of Wolfwood and Vash sitting on the couch from volume 10. Wolfwood was been blacked out so he is just a silhouette. In the middle of his body is a block of text reading: living—despite (line break) living—against.

The final image is a dialogue box from the gamer Pathologic. The Executor is saying: I’ll tell you a story. Once there was a man who wanted to fix everything. He begged on bended knee for a chance to turn back time… And when he got it, history repeated itself. “Good job,” we told him. “That’s your fate.” He asked us, “Once more?” So we let him try once more, but with a catch. He who denies his fate will be punished.

[fireheld]

— FIVE SONGS. FIVE QUOTES. | b.j.h edition. (tagged by @crylamby).

SPIRAL [by] untitled (halo): My body grows and everything it brings is full of struggle / My conscious pride a power i seized all that i see — I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't even notice. I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't even notice. I didn't mean to hurt you. I didn't even notice. I didn't even notice.

SWAN [by] nicole dollanganger: You can't forgive me when you know if i had the gun i'd choose to shoot again. He raised my hands in the backyard. He taught me to be a good shot, you love the sound of sorry even when you know i'm not. — In the holy land of broken homes, you still pretend you don't know that i took it out back and i snapped its neck just like a wishbone and let it die.

DAMN THE MAN, SAVE THE EMPIRE [by] pierce the veil: You only see the dark side of my love, a fetish for the afterlife, and dead-end microphones, sharp enough to cut. Now our lips are bleeding from the tires but you don't see the difference between the color of the dried blood in the rust, well so tell me what I want but only when I want.

UNTITLED GOD SONG [by] haley heynderickx: And maybe my god has a trot in her walk and her coach bags are knock-off. Her shoes are all dressed up and she spins me around like a marionette, oh my web is still spinning, my web is still spinning, my web is still spinning. You can't see it yet.

BEAST [by] aldous harding: Why breed a boy for his meat to teach the child cruel rituals or ruin to repeat? Why leave a heart in the heat 'til the marble bath that held the truth lies broken at your feet?

CONFESSION, SELENA KITT: "Innocence could be lost more than once, after all."

WISHBONE, RICHARD SIKEN: "With this bullet lodged in my chest, covered with your name, I will turn myself into a gun, because it’s all I have, because I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own. I’ll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue and final resting, walking around with this bullet inside me ‘cause I couldn’t make you love me and I’m tired of pulling your teeth.”

CAIO FERNANDO ABREU, OS DRAGÕS NÃO CONHECEM O PARAÍSO — THE DRAGONS DON'T KNOW PARADISE: "The dragons don’t know the paradise, where everything happens perfectly and nothing hurts neither sparkles nor gasps, in an everlasting monotony of peaceful falsity. Their paradise is the conflict, never the harmony."

THE MAN WHO SLEEPS, 1974: "You have learnt nothing, except that solitude teaches you nothing, except that indifference teaches you nothing. The world has stirred and you have not changed. Indifference has not made you any different. You are not dead. You have not gone mad. There is no curse hanging over you."

A PERFECT DAY FOR BANANA FISH, J.D. SALINGER: "As if that blind rage had washed me clean, rid me of hope; for the first time, in that night alive with signs and stars, I opened myself to the gentle indifference of the world."

— tagging: @antler-flesh, @ofyorkshire, @exiitiosus, @mettleborn, @bloodsalted & YOU!

[that-void-boy]

Hannigram and Wishbone by Richard Siken

I love this poem so much , and I need to talk about it for a second , especially since certain lines can link so well with hannibal and will , I tried to keep each part as short as possible ,,,

all the quotes are straight from the poem :]

' I took the bullet for all the wrong reasons, I’d just as soon kill you myself '

ok , so starting out with a fairly obvious one , this aligns well with their overall dynamic , especially on will's side in the earlier seasons when he had more conflicting emotion towards hannibal . like in s2 when he sends mason after hannibal but ends up saving him before he can be fully lowered into the pig pen , this idea of wanting the other dead yet not wanting it at the same time , ' can't live with him , can't live without him '

' I say I want you inside me and you hold my head underwater, I say I want you inside me and you split me open with a knife '

' I want you inside me ' can easily refer to a number of things , though in the poem it does mean it in the literal more nsfw sense ( which does also work for will and hannibal ) , it can also refer to the more obvious comparison of cannibalism , and also the idea of being behind the veil or between the stitches of the person suit that they both wear , I want you inside me as in I want you to be within me to be able to properly see me and know me .

this line from the poem works well in the context of s2 when they are both attempting to kill each other as a way of flirting , especially since will sent matthew brown to kill hannibal when he was swimming , hence the ' and you hold my head underwater ' . and then also in mizumono when hannibal guts will , this aligns with ' and you split me open with a knife ' . the line shifts from hannibals point of view at the end of s1 and the start of s2 where he has framed will and wants him to understand and see him , and yet he is rejected at first as will is very determined to have him killed or convicted , this is the whole ' I want you to see me and be with me behind the veil and you need to be here in order to understand that ' and yet will ultimately tries to kill him for it at the start . then as the point of view shifts to will at the end of s2 when he realises this is what he actually wants and he returns to hannibal and chooses him in the end , it is too late and his betrayal is too great , and so he is also rejected as punishment for his actions .

they both clearly want to be seen and understood by eachother at this point , especially in s2 as they begin to interact with this part of their relationship more and more , even if it is still part of the honeytrap plot , its undeniable that will had awoken something inside himself and saw something in hannibal that led him to choose him and continue to follow him .

' I swear, I end up feeling empty, like you’ve taken something out of me, and I have to search my body for the scars, thinking Did he find that one last tender place to sink his teeth in? '

s1 will graham through and through , the vulnerability he ended up having with hannibal , the manipulation , how hannibal began isolating him and became his main support structure . will sleepwalking and losing time , having to 'search [his] body for scars ' when he comes around again because he doesn't know what has happened , and even more so from an audience perspective when we see things in s2 like hannibal putting abigails ear down his throat while he isn't conscious

also the idea of ' sink his teeth in ' is very visceral and I love it , shows the more animalistic sense hidden behind the person suit while also being a haha cannibal joke

' I’ll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue, and final resting '

hannibal and will have a form of obsessive love for one another that becomes all encompassing , hannibal even moved to a whole other continent with a different person and yet all he could think about was will , and the same goes to will when we consider how he was able to find hannibal and how he always went back to him .

this line really speaks to their relationship as a whole , its somewhat grotesque yet powerful and alluring , and there is a sense of quiet peace , like the calm in the eye of a storm . they could only ever die by eachothers hand , and neither would have it any other way , they will always find each other , and in a way , they were eachothers ' final resting ' . whether you believe they survived the fall or not , they definitely were able to find that peace within eachother in the moment before they fell off the cliff , that sense of belonging and that this could not have gone any other way , this was always what was meant to happen . they are equals , and they were predestined to die by eachothers hand , either during the fall or long after

' Don’t you see, it’s like I’ve swallowed your house keys, and it feels so natural, like the bullet was already there, like it’s been waiting inside me the whole time. '

will realising how he is so alike to hannibal towards the end of s2 and the whole of s3 , these acts he commits feel so natural to him and its as if he has tried to conceal this part of himself for so long , hidden behind the cold and off-putting exterior he puts on for his job , yet beneath it he knows what he is capable of , hannibal saw it and will saw it ripple beneath the surface the moment he pulled the trigger on hobbs . from that point onwards , he has an internal battle with himself until admitting to hannibal that what he did felt powerful

furthermore , in s2 , when he kills and displays randall tier with hannibal as part of his becoming , it seems to be no bother to him , he doesn't at any point seem to regret his actions or think about any repercussions he may suffer from them , he is already comfortable with this nature of killing and he willingly then eats tier alongside hannibal , it comes easily to him , as if its ' been waiting inside [him] the whole time '

' Do you want it? Do you want anything I have? Will you throw me to the ground like you mean it, reach inside, and wrestle it out with your bare hands? '

I think that this quote can be likened to hannibal in s3a where he is so desperate for will , and he is able to see how far will has come in his acceptance of this part of himself and they each gain eachothers forgiveness , now that hannibal knows about will and knows that he's still chasing after him , even after the events of mizumono , he so desperately wants to be wanted by him , and seeing will doing so is such a relief

the part ' will you throw me to the ground like you mean it ' after will in s2 saying how often he wanted to kill hannibal himself ' with [his] (bare) hands ' alongside the idea of will now being able to as he is much more comfortable with this part of himself in s3 , and hannibal wants that , he wants to see will kill and he wants to see him mean it fully . especially after his betrayal at the end of s2 , hannibal needs to know that will is no longer fooling him and that he can indeed be the person that belongs behind the veil with him . they aren't kidding around anymore and will isn't honeytrapping , they are able to be themselves

' If you love me, Henry, you don’t love me in a way I understand. '

will being confused by his own emotions towards hannibal , from s1 right through to the end of s3 , going from annoyance to reliance to need to fear to anger/hatred to realisation to acceptance to betrayal to sadness to forgiveness to love . ultimately culminating in the line ' is hannibal in love with me ? ' and bedelia confirming that he does have a very unique way of loving will , and yet it is still the most all-encompassing thing , will is very unsure about his own feelings towards hannibal in s3b up until then when he pieces it all together and I do believe that is when he realises that he does love him back . will's silences tend to speak louder than words , and his silence after bedelia essentially asks him if he also loves hannibal , speaks volumes , and almost definitely shows him having this realisation and finally coming to terms with it even if he does not fully understand how or why these feelings have come about

' There’s a bottle of whiskey in the trunk of the Chevy and a dead man at our feet staring up at us like we’re something interesting. '

this links back to s1e1 with will claiming ' I don't find you that interesting ' and hannibal replying ' you will ' , this line links to them later on in the show , perhaps with randall tier in s2 or later in s3 when they do eventually kill together or have some resemblance of that , the idea that they are now so much more intertwined with eachother and now they are much more ' interesting ' to one another

also will drinks whiskey so uhh , there's your other link

' This is where the evening splits in half, Henry, love or death. Grab an end, pull hard, and make a wish. '

this is reminiscent of their dinner the night before the kitchen scene of mizumono , hannibal knowing about wills betrayal and still offering him that chance to confess and suggesting that they leave that night and not leave a trace except for a note for alana , he gave will an opportunity to choose between ' love or death ' , and when will did not end up confessing , hannibal toasts ' to the truth then , and all its consequences ' , a thinly veiled way of showing his knowledge and how the future events will proceed , that is where the evening splits in half , that is when hannibal had to make his decision about how the next evening would plan out , even though will was technically still undecided about whose side he was on , he had unknowingly sealed his fate with hannibal

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bam , I highly recommend reading the full poem , here is a link if you would like to :

https://anotherhand.livejournal.com/86133.html

there's obviously a fxck ton more I could talk about but I shall leave it at that snvdsbdb

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[teddybeartoji]

OUR BRAINCELLS ARE KISSING<3333333333

i think we both have to stop apologizing bc i haven't felt this much joy in a hot minute it's so fun to talk to u!!!!!!!!!!!! 🤝🤝🤝🤝 our brains really do feel connected lmao it's great

omggggg you're a literature major!!!! (i feel like i definitely should've guessed that....) no but that's so fucking cool what the fuck i hope you're genuinely genuinely enjoying it!!!!! as for myself... i'm currently working at a bookstore warehouse, i'm packing orders!! very simple but honestly the work itself is nice u don't have to talk too much and you're just doing your own thing (if it wasn't a 9-5 i'd definitely like to stay there but oh well)

i'm saying it again - it literally means sooooooo much to me that you're sharing your favourite poems with me and it's so cute that we like the same lines and quotes hehehhe

i'm definitely gonna find myself a real siken book next month and i'm gonna tell u all about it when i finish it i'm very excited!!!!!!!! aaand i promise when i see more poetry i like i'll share it with u (and i hope you'll do the same hehe)

DISCO ELYYYSIUUUUMMMMMMMMMM GODDDDDD I ALMOST FELLLLLLL OUT OF MY BED i had to reread it multiple times bc i just thought i suddenly got dyslexia lmaoooooo my best friend has played it a little bit and she did seem to like it a lot but the thing is she can only play it at my place and well she doesn't even fucking live in the same city as me ripppp and then i showed it to my other friend but i don't think she liked it as much even bigger rip

i loved it from the first seconds it'S SO FUCKING COOL how does one even come up with everything that happens and everything they say there??????????? and the fact that there's sooooooo many different ways to do things too u can replay it so many times and you'll have a completely different experience every time wahh my brain is tingling just thinking about it AND IT'S SO GOOD TO HEAR THAT U LIKE VIDEO GAMES OVERALLL i haven't played persona 3 but i'll definitely put it on my list!!!!! and i've seen clips and stuff about the jjk game but i don't really know anything about it lmao i mean people seem to be having fun (i think it's just bc i don't really play mobile games) BUT YOU LET ME KNOW HOW IT IS THOUGH IF U LIKE IT

ok no wait de - i think i'm gonna try and start it again this weekend!!!! bc now i really can't get it out of my head it's your fault!!!! (i love u) fuck i love harry so much his brain works just like mine it's just the silliest stupidest things floating around in his head and ahh it feels so good to play as him BTW WHEN U PLAYED IT WHAT "COP" WERE U bc i'm pretty sure the first time i played it i was a 100% the sorry cop............. i've learned now i'm better now another thing! i love how harry acts with cuno and cunoesse it's very important to me

I FOUND SOME QUOTES from my gallery bc i'm like a boomer who just takes blurry pics instead of i don't know writing it down???? and ofc mine are just a few stupid ones but i love them ok

when the damaged ledger is telling him about the zoo tickets and one of the options is just "fucking kill yourself you asshole" LMAO

"drugs? i need info on this. major narc." (point to yourself.) HE'S SO ahh no words this is 1000% something i would say too.............

and when the bloated corpse visits him in his dream "do you remember the scent of your childhood?"

the ones you wrote down are so good it hurts

"subdue the regret. dust yourself off, proceed. you'll get it in the next life, where you don't make mistakes." they're trying to kill us i know it i need to get this tatted i think

"it’s the worst day of all time, harry dear, and it’s coming. she will hear about it on the phone." NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

"killing was his business and business was *good.* did he love it before they made him do it again and again and again?" hear me out...... knight!reader..................................................

as for my my favourite game of alllllll time - it's most definitely the last of us part 2 yayyy oh man i could go give u a fucking lecture about it (i won't dw) but it's just something that will forever forever forever be with me and i will absolutely kill somebody to defend it (was gonna say i'm ready to die for it but why should i be the one dying i'm literally right smh) the story is fucking insane and i really like ghost of tsushima and death stranding and of course red dead redemption2 and god of war and so on and so on i spend a lot of time gaming ok.....

i just thought of another thing that you might be interested in (IF UR NOT THAT'S TOTALLY FINE) i know u said u don't really watch movies so i'm making a big fat guess that you don't listen to soundtracks n scores?? but would you possibly maybe want some recs? this is very out of the blue I KNOWWW i just do listen to them and i do it a lot and i like it a lot and i often listen to them while i write and idk i think maybe you'd like it too just let me know

YOU'VE PLAYED DISCO ELYSIUM AND IT'S YOUR FAVOURITE GAME WHAT IS HAPPENING I LITERALLY DON'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WHO EVEN KNOWS THE GAME I LOVE IT SO MUCH WHAT THE HELL

- @softgirlgonehaywire

MICKEY???????? THE WAY OUR SOULS ARE LITERALLY BONDED ATP 😭😭😭😭 DUDEEEE im going a lil crazy. plsplspls i need to know ur fave character…. and ur fave skill……. and maybe ur fave quote if u have one……….. its legitimately like my favorite thing ever ever ever that game changed my LIFE

AAAA and. u asked for poetry book recs in ur other ask so i am here to deliver 🙏🙏🙏🙏

first of all!! richard siken…. he has two poetry books out at the moment, crush and war of the foxes!! i used to prefer crush but now i like war of the foxes more. its rly just a matter of personal preference, both are super good…. i said this already but i associate literally every single poem of his w at least one jjk character. mostly gojo or geto or kenny or shoko (i am predictable)

for some reason u can find literally all his poems on genius psjfjs but here are some of my faves from crush (first three) and war of the foxes (last four)!!

straw house, straw dog // planet of love // wishbone

landscape with a blur of conquerors // self-portrait against red wallpaper // portrait of fryderyk in shifting light // glue

but siken aside!!! frank bidart my beloved <333 hes so weird. his style of writing is very unique and can seem a bit very odd but u get used to it quickly!! i love him. my absolute favorite frank bidart poem is half-light, i’m fucking obsessed u dont understand, pls read it. (its so satosugu to me) and then u can find some other poems of his here! coincidentally his writing reminds me a LOT of disco elysium which is. probably maybe why i love it sm in the first place LMAO

AND AND AND…. lastly. ive tried getting into franz wright but i didnt like the collection of his that i bought :’3 HOWEVER hes written this one poem i absolutely adore, dedication. its so so so good. ”it’s true i never write, but i would gladly die with you” // ”although i never write, secretly i long to die with you, does that count?” have permanently altered the course of my destiny

… that was probably a lot im sorry PJDKFB i didnt even mention clementine von radics…. she has an instagram account where she posts some poems i think. ive run outof links so i cant show some i like but </3 her collection mouthful of forevers is super good!!

[infpisme]

[eds-gryff]

Wishbone

But I can’t look at him,

can hardly speak,

I took the bullet

for all the wrong reasons,

I’d just as soon kill you myself,

I say.

(Wishbone by Richard Siken)

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Richard Siken quotes are so fucking perfect for Caspeter, I can’t even.

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[fairmoephelia]

pictures, personhood, and past “how long can you look at those photos until the person in them becomes completely divorced from the real thing? until you’re looking at something that doesn’t exist anymore?”

richard siken / mitski / jeanette winterson / car seat headrest / tumblruser angelcommunist / mitski / will wood / critical role, campaign two, episode 109

[image description: eight images of quotes and lyrics from different sources.

1. a quote highlighted in yellow that reads “how much can you change and get away with it, before you turn into someone else, before it’s some kind of murder?”

2. lyrics from why didn’t you stop me? by mitski that read “i look for a picture of you to keep in my pocket, but i can’t seem to find one where you look how i remember, look how i remember, look how i remember.”

3. a quote that reads “when we killed what we were to become what we are, what did we do with the bodies? we did what most people do; buried them under the floorboards and got used to the smell. i’ve lived my life like a serial killer; finish with one part, strangle it and move on to the next. life in neat little boxes is life in neat little coffins, the dead bodies of the past laid out side by side. i am discovering, now, in the late afternoon of the day, that the dead still speak.”

4. lyrics from the pre-chorus of destroyed by hippie powers by car seat headrest that read “what happened to that chubby little kid who smiled so much and loved the beach boys? what happened is i killed that fucker and i took his name and i got new glasses.”

5. a quote that reads “looking at old photos of myself thinking not only is that girl dead but i killed her.”

6. lyrics from the chorus of fireworks by mitski that read “and then, one warm summer night, i’ll hear fireworks outside and i’ll listen to the memories as they cry, cry, cry.”

7. lyrics from dr. sunshine is dead by will wood that read “all that i ask is keep those empty frames, if nobody’s in them, then no one is to blame. for your self-portraits, sign another name. well, who should i be then, if i’ll never be the same?”

8. an image of a transcript from critical role that reads “taliesin: well. we can make our best guesses, but you know, everybody’s haunted by who they were and who they thought they’d be.”

end id.]

[thatweirdguyinthebushes]

all my dream smp playlists

as the title says, all my dream smp playlists! all quotes are by richard siken, except for the bee duo playlist, which is quote from the orestia. enjoy!

EDIT: new additions! quackity & tubbo playlist, awesamponk playlist, quackity & schlatt playlist, snowchester/post-doomsday playlist

EDIT: new new addition! a third tubbo playlist, this time in chronological order :)

OVERALL DREAM SMP PLAYLISTS

and they called it freedom (lmanberg playlist. art by qtiq. the three administrations are separated by war instrumentals. songs are ordered chronologically.)

a fresh start, with no past. (dream smp, post-doomsday/snowchester, art by quippso) I clawed my way into the light but the light is just as scary. I'd rather quit. I'd rather be sad. It's too much work.

DUO PLAYLISTS

never saw one without the other, did you? (c!tommy and tubbo. art by georgesspotify) but no ones left. you know this and i know this. together we trace out the trail away from doom. there is no hope. there is a trail. i follow you.

make it better. (c!beeduo. art by now_thatwaslie) "I'll take care of you." "It's rotten work." "Not for me. Not if it's you."

you never got to see the lights. (c!niki and c!wilbur. art by salsasscribbles) You wanted to be cremated so we cremated you and you wanted an adventure so I ran and I knew you wouldn’t catch me. You are a fever I am learning to live with, and everything is happening at the wrong end of a very long tunnel.

all that matters is that youre alive. (c!quackity and c!tubbo. art by tubbowithagun) Your skin looked blue in the television light. Your teeth looked yellow. Still wet, I lay down next to you. Your arms, your legs, your naked chest, your ribs delineated like a junkyard dog's. There’s nowhere to go, I thought. There’s nowhere to go.

getting to spend time with you aint that bad, huh? (c!awesamponk. art by ) Let’s jump ahead to the moment of epiphany, in gold light, as the camera pans to where the action is, lakeside and backlit, and it all falls into frame, close enough to see the blue rings of my eyes as I say something ugly. I never liked that ending either.

I'm never gonna protect you again. (c!quackity and c!schlatt. art by Probably a Plant) A man walks into a bar and says: Take my wife–please. But you take him instead. You take him home, and you make him a cheese sandwich, and you try to get his shoes off, but he kicks you and he keeps kicking you.

CHARACTER PLAYLISTS

be worse. (c!niki. art by evenspelledevan) We pull our boots on with both hands but we can’t punch ourselves awake and all I can do is stand on the curb and say Sorry about the blood in your mouth. I wish it was mine. I couldn’t get the boy to kill me, but I wore his jacket for the longest time.

he loves me, right? (c!sapnap. art by chjropta) Actually, you said Love, for you, is larger than the usual romantic love. It’s like a religion. It’s terrifying. No one will ever want to sleep with you.

there is no sunrise inside. (c!sam. art by pnksh1rts) I sleep. I dream. I make up things that I would never say. I say them very quietly.

trust nobody. dont even trust me. (c!quackity) We're shooting the scene where I swallow your heart and you make me spit it up again. I swallow your heart and it crawls right out of my mouth.

i know what I'm like. that's the issue. (c!wilbur. art by ranbooz) I will turn myself into a gun, because I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own.

i dont like who i am around you. (c!tommy. art by jellyilyy) I swear, I end up feeling empty, like you’ve taken something out of me, and I have to search my body for the scars, thinking Did he find that one last tender place to sink his teeth in?

be better. (c!jack manifold. art by robotic-poet.) So, I said, now that we have our dead, what are we going to do with them? There's a black dog and there's a white dog, depends on which you feed, depends on which damn dog you live with.

this is checkmate. (c!tubbo playlist #1. art by beetlle) History throws its shadow over the beginning, over the desktop, over the sock drawer with its socks, its hidden letters. History is a little man in a brown suit trying to define a room he is outside of.

a good kid, and an even better spy. (c!tubbo playlist #2. art by sad-ist) You're going to die in your best friend's arms. And you play along because it's funny, because it's written down, you've memorized it, it's all you know.

hope for the best, plan for the worst. (c!tubbo playlist #3, art by emikuthecipher, listen in order, seasons separated by c418) Imagine surrender. Imagine being useless. A stone on the path means the tea's not ready, a stone in the hand means somebody's angry, the stone inside you still hasn't hit bottom.

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A Non-Exhaustive List Of Quotes I Saved For TMWTYA

Just a bunch of quotes I saved to reference or allude to, or for dialogue style. In the order I saved them in my notes.

Dazai Quotes

1. Now I have neither happiness nor unhappiness. Everything passes.

2. I am convinced that human life is filled with many pure, happy, serene examples of insincerity, truly splendid of their kind-of people deceiving one another without (strangely enough) any wounds being inflicted, of people who seem unaware even that they are deceiving one another.

3. Whenever I was asked what I wanted my first impulse was to answer "Nothing." The thought went through my mind that it didn't make any difference, that nothing was going to make me happy.

4. I thought, “I want to die. I want to die more than ever before. There’s no chance now of a recovery. No matter what sort of thing I do, no matter what I do, it’s sure to be a failure, just a final coating applied to my shame.

5. Mine has been a life of much shame. I can't even guess myself what it must be to live the life of a human being.

6. He could only consider me as the living corpse of a would-be suicide, a person dead to shame, an idiot ghost.

7. Living itself is the source of sin.

8. To wait. In our lives we know joy, anger, sorrow, and a hundred other emotions, but these emotions all together occupy a bare one percent of our time. The remaining ninety-nine percent is just living in waiting. I wait in momentary expectation, feeling as though my breasts are being crushed, for the sound in the corridor of the footsteps of happiness. Empty. Oh, life is too painful, the reality that confirms the universal belief that it is best not to be born.

9. The thought of dying has never bothered me, but getting hurt, losing blood, becoming crippled and the like—no thanks.

10. After being hurt by the world so much, they began to see the demons within humans. So without hiding it through trickery, they worked to express it.

11. In my case such an expression as 'to be fallen for' or even 'to be loved' is not in the least appropriate; perhaps it describes the situation more accurately to say that I was 'looked after.

12. I know that I am liked by other people, but I seem to be deficient in the faculty to love others. (I should add that I have very strong doubts as to whether even human beings really possess this faculty.)

13. Is it painful to be the person who waits? Or is it more painful to be the person who makes others wait? Either way, there's no need to wait anymore. That's what is most painful."

14. In spite of my suffering, at the thought that I was sure to end up by killing myself, I cried aloud and burst into tears.

15. I was frightened even by God. I could not believe in His love, only in His punishment. Faith. That, I felt, was the act of facing the tribunal of justice with one’s head bowed to receive the scourge of God. I could believe in hell, but it was impossible for me to believe in the existence of heaven.

16. I felt as though the vessel if my suffering had become empty, as if nothing could interest me now. I had lost even the ability to suffer.

17. The dying are beautiful, but to live, to survive – those things somehow seem hideous and contaminated with blood.

18. In the present world, the most beautiful thing is a victim.

Siken Quotes (War of the Foxes)

1. You’d break your heart to make it bigger, so why not crack your skull

2. Will you defend yourself? From me, I mean.

3. I am faithful to you, darling.

4. Everything is a metaphor for itself

5. You cannot have an opponent if you keep saying yes.

6. In the wrong light anyone can look like a darkness.

7. If you don’t believe in God, then who are you talking to?

8. None of it is real, darling.

Plath (Redacted) Quotes

1. If you expect nothing from somebody you are never disappointed.

2. And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.

3. Perhaps when we find ourselves wanting everything, it is because we are dangerously close to wanting nothing.

4. If neurotic is wanting two mutually exclusive things at one and the same time, then I'm neurotic as hell. I'll be flying back and forth between one mutually exclusive thing and another for the rest of my days.

5. I desire the things that will destroy me in the end.

6. God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaiety of "parties" with no purpose, despite the false grinning faces we all wear. And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter - they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long. Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship - but the loneliness of the soul in its appalling self-consciousness is horrible and overpowering.

7. I talk to God but the sky is empty.

8. To the person in the bell jar, blank and stopped as a dead baby, the world itself is a bad dream.

9. Dying / Is an art, like everything else. / I do it exceptionally well. I do it so it feels like hell. / I do it so it feels real. / I guess you could say I have a call.

10. The floor seemed wonderfully solid. It was comforting to know I had fallen and could fall no farther.

11. Eternity bores me, I never wanted it.

12. If you love her", I said, "you'll love somebody else someday.

13. Is anyone anywhere happy?

14. You are a dream; I hope I never meet you.

15. Everything people did seemed so silly, because they only died in the end.

16. I think I would like to call myself "The girl who wanted to be God."

[twistedwit-arch]

LIST 5 SONGS THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE.

monsters - shinedown //   'Cause my monsters are real, they're trained how to kill There's no comin' back and they just laugh at how I feel. These monsters can fly, and they'll never say die. There's no goin' back, if I get trapped I'll never heal. Yeah, my monsters are real

throne - bring me the horizon //  So you can throw me to the wolves Tomorrow I will come back Leader of the whole pack Beat me black and blue Every wound will shape me Every scar will build my throne  

darkness settles in -  five finger death punch  //  Waiting for someone to save me But everyone just runs away Waiting for someone to change me But no one ever comes I'm breaking down the walls that cage me But nothing ever falls in place Waiting for the end to take me Blinded by the sun

break in  -  halestorm //   You are the only one The only one that sees me That trusts me and believes me You are the only one The only one that knows me And in the dark you show me Yeah, it's perfectly reckless Damn, you leave me defenseless So break in

under your scars  -  godsmack  //  Wish you were here Right beside me So I could watch you sleep Hold your body closer, breathe you deep And everything feels broken When you're not next to me Would you still be you If we weren't we Under your scars I pray You're like a shooting star in the rain You're everything that feels like home to me, yeah

& LIST 5 QUOTES THAT INSPIRE YOU TO WRITE YOUR MUSE.

“I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world.”   // madeleine miller - the song of achilles  

“You’re in a car with a beautiful boy and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you don’t even have a name for.“ // richard siken - you are jeff

“ What happens to a house when it is left alone? It becomes worn, and aged. Its paint peels, its foundation begins to sink. It goes for too long unlived in. What does it think of? What does it dream? How does it look on those creatures who built it, brought it into existence only to abandon it when its usefulness no longer satisfies them? They grow lonesome. It stares for long hours into the darkness of its own empty halls and sees shadows. And they jump as they think, here, here is someone again I’m not alone. And each time it is wrong, and the hurt starts over ” // Anatomy (2016) - kittyhorrorshow

“ here is the deepest secret nobody knows (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide) and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)  ” //  e e cummings

“ He's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same” // emily bronte - wuthering heights

stolen from: @crimeloyalty tagging: @piraticalwit @scapedgrace @vamporn @paddyfuck @lokadottr and anyone else with the masochistic urge to do this thing, tag me so I can see your answers!

[modern-wilde]

Some quotes by Richard Siken that ache my heart

1.  “Everyone needs a place. It shouldn't be inside of someone else.”

2.   “Sorry about the blood in your mouth. I wish it was mine. “

3.   “If you love me, Henry, you don’t love me in a way I understand. “

4.    “He was pointing at the moon, but I was looking at his hand.”

5.    “Tell me we're dead and I'll love you even more.”

6.    “I swear, I end up feeling empty, like you've taken something out of me and I have to search my body for scars.”

7.     “Moonlight making crosses on your body, and me putting my mouth on every one.”

8.    “with this bullet lodged in my chest, covered with your name, I will turn myself into a gun, because it’s all I have, because I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own. I’ll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue and final resting, walking around with this bullet inside me cause I couldn’t make you love me and I’m tired of pulling your teeth.”

9.   “We laugh & it pits the world against us.”

10.  “Someone has to leave first. This is a very old story. There is no other version of this story.”

will be adding more but thats it for today guys <33333 thank you for reading this and stay tuned *in an avg youtuber voice*

[orpheuslament]

howl hat.... william s. burroughs quotes......... what the hell are we meant to do when they inevitably start referencing richard siken

anon ill kill myself

[goreprofonde]

hi!! i saw your post about love as violence and was wondering do you know any more quotes in that theme? i can only think of "once i killed a plant by watering it too much. lord, i worry that love is violence" ahaha tia!!!

hey love <3 hooo yes, I do, I even got a tag for that here. So I'm just going to give a petite compilation.

I am a dove. You / recognize the hawk. You / offer an olive branch. I / feel the thorns. / You bleed. I / see crocodile tears. I / withdraw. You / reel from the impact

- You and I by Roger McGough.

You think / this is love, but it gets lost in translation. / I whisper what you really meant to say — / I harm you. I harm you. I harm you.

- Homophone by Tory Adkisson.

Next time we commit / love, we ought to / choose in advance what to kill.

-Margaret Atwood, Power Politics.

But we both know how it goes – I say I want you inside me / and you hold my head underwater. I say I want you inside me / and you split me open with a knife.

- Wishbone by Richard Siken.

I keep trying to find / the words for what happened: / was it love? / Who was the hunter? Who the prey?

- Marina Tsvetaeva, Bride of Ice: New Selected Poems (trsl. Elaine Feinstein)

He called me 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 & I cleaved myself faithful in half for him. I promised he didn’t have to get my blood on his hands — not if he didn’t want to. O how he always wanted to.

- Yves Olade, Sugar Apple.