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Exam season is approaching, so these are my affirmations for the next 3 weeks any time...
I'm feeling emotions:
🩷 It's okay to cry. You are not a crybaby for it.
🧡 I will NOT cry so hard I throw up
🩷 I will NOT have a panic attack
🧡 I will NOT have a mental breakdown
🩷 I will NOT shut down
🧡 I will NOT do anything Bakugou Katsuki would call me a pussy for
🩷 I will NOT let my anxiety eat me alive
🧡 I will NOT procrastinate and stress myself out
🩷 I will NOT stress out so much I make myself nauseous.
🧡 I am good enough, intelligent, and confident
🩷 I will express how I'm feeling to someone if things get rough
🧡 I will stay in tune with my emotions
I'm not taking care of myself:
🩷 I will rest and not stop when I'm tired
🧡 chores and cleaning are still productive for studying. You CANNOT study in a messy space
🩷 Meals are essential, and it does not count as being lazy to stop and eat
🧡 clean clothes and body = good minds for studying
🩷 Sleep deprivation is not good. sleeping for 7-9 hrs is NOT lazy
🧡 You are human. You are not a robot that can study 24/7.
🩷 Having a little bit of fun is okay.
🧡 I will NOT do anything that will make my loved ones worried for me
My academic validation is acting up:
🩷 your family will still love you if you have B
🧡 You are more than a test grade
🩷 You can still fail every test and pass this year with nearly all Bs
🧡 That one class is okay at a C. It's a hard class bc you have a bad teacher and a lot of information.
🩷 No grade is worth your life, your well-being, or your mental health being harmed.
I'm about to start studying:
🩷 I REFUSE TO FAIL BECAUSE OF MY SELF DESTRUCTIVE HABITS AND SELF DOUBTS!
🧡 I CAN OVERCOME ANY STRUGGLES INTERNAL OR EXTERNAL TO PASS THESE TESTS!
🩷 I AM HUNGRY FOR THIS AND I WILL ACHIEVE THE RESULTS I WANT!
🧡 YOUR HARD WORK IS GOING TO PAY OFF! IT IS INEVITABLE!
🩷 YOU WILL NOT REGRET WORKING THIS HARD FOR YOUR GOALS!
#studyblr#study motivation#study inspo#mine#study#study blog#studyspiration#affirmations#NEVER BACK DOWN NEVER GIVE UP#toxic study motivation#not really toxic but kinda#baby babbles
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How Bill was defeated and captured by Ford in my Gf AU! He basically just tricked Bill into accepting a deal that trapped him within Ford's mind and under his control :]
He may have gotten a little out of hand though....
>:)
Next post :]
#i am on a ROLL these days so have one last comic before I peace out for like another month or so#I KNOW I keep forgetting to draw Ford's sixth finger and I am SORRY alr#something something toxic relationships can lead you to adopt some negative attributes#and behaviors both as a shield to the abuser but also as a sword#Bill pushed Ford too far and Ford pushed back- what can I say?#my art#gravity falls#gravity falls fanart#gravity falls au#stanford pines#ford pines#grunkle ford#bill cipher#gravity falls bill#billford#<-kinda?? not really??#tw eyestrain#tw scopophobia#tw eye contact#tw graphic violence#HWINEBHABWNAJCAHOWEEATOWEUB AU
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This is the first thing I thought of after getting out of the cinema
#finally some good toxic yaoi#the cropping is kinda scuffed but it is what it is#unsure what level of “spoiler” is that since we all knew that this man was doomed from the start and the text really isn't THAT specific#maccadam#transformers#transformers one#tf one
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He’s so dramatic
#doctorsiren#gravity falls#bill cipher#stanford pines#billford#the book of bill#gravity falls fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#I did both normal bill and my humanoid design#bc I originally found this song through an animation of Mettaton#and my humanoid Bill design gives Mettaton haha#me trying to draw toxic yaoi at work while my coworker who definitely knows gravity falls is sitting right next to me 😰😰😰😰#look I know human bill as a concept is kinda seen as cringe and very 2010s BUT#idc lmao I am cringe but I am free#I find it really silly#I think people made him TOO cool#we need to acknowledge that he’s desperate and lonely and very pathetic 😁
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Gore, Violence and Blood under the cut
What a mess
#fop nature au#fairly oddparents#fop a new wish#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop#dale dimmadome#Flowers OC#candy gore#gore#blood#body horror#this really is a mess on so many levels#I wanted to make this situation as difficult as possible for the fairy council to theoretically clear up#everything from the animal to the location to the injury is a nightmare to try and explain#And theres a reason I spent so much time showing the gore getting on his injury. Mans gonna have a rainbow bitemark on his leg forever now#Not exactly easy to explain away#Also I think I accidentally established that Magic was a little toxic so he might have minor blood poisoning lol#Im sure he'll be fine#This is how all gay people are made but the fairies make you forget it#Actually while scripting this I realized how much this looked like the set up for some kind were-deer or were-fairy(??) plotline#which was not the intention but would be a hilarious direction to take the plot in LMAO#Also Id like to mention that flowers is fine. Fairies are functionally immortal aside from magic backup#Itll be healed up like nothing happened it no time#that being said it is still kinda pissed about the skull smashing#Dales got multiple broken ribs plush his leg is in shambled. Absolutely demolished#He's gonna have to get metal implants#You might think 'oh he's gonna opt to get a prosthetic leg now too'#No. Because hes a cowardly little bitch#He doesnt want to get his leg removed if its not absolutely necessary and because he's a nasty little hypocrite#Anyway this will be the start of a very nasty spiral methinks
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Be honest, what are your thoughts on appledash? Do you hate it or its more of not a big deal
Not a big deal to me. I like it, I see all the appeals, I just personally like Rarijack more.
#ask me#anon#if you wanna know why i like rarijack more i just think they're a healthier depiction of a domestic and longterm relationship#appledash gives me the vibes of gfs that'll eventually break up#because from s1 to s8 their relationship and communication with each other on serious things never really matures or grows#they were competitive and petty in s1 and they were competitive and petty in s8#arguably worse cuz in that s8 episode their dynamic becomes so toxic they almost cause a student under their care to drown#both of them have a superiority complex that's constantly conflicting with each other and it never really gets resolved#but with rarijack there's a very clear arc of development you can follow in their character#and multiple episodes show how they'll argue and eventually come back together and apologize and communicate and work to better things#you can watch them grow to like and understand each other. in s1 aj scoffs and makes fun of rarity's work in fashion#but in a later season (after some conflict) aj says that she doesn't understand fashion but she knows it means a lot to rarity so it means#a lot to her too. and that's what love is to me. “it didn't mean anything to me until it meant something to you”#it's genuinely really sweet and i'd argue rarijack /feels/ the most romantic out of all the main 6 ships. through arguing they grow closer#which is how it's supposed to be in relationships that last! you argue to work out your interpersonal problems and understand each other#(which is why it's genuinely kinda baffling to me that appledash ended up being canonically married because they never gave me those vibes)#but it really doesn't matter. they're cartoon horses! have fun with them
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mins
#pikmin#louie#olimar#louimar#? kinda? not really but just in case#i dont really see them as friends or lovers but a secret third thing.#people calling them toxic yaoi will never not be funny to me though#doodles#fanart
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so. book of bill huh
(ty @robo-bozo7125 for the inspo <3)
#gravity falls#dipper pines#stanford pines#ford pines#the book of bill#tbob spoilers#kinda#billford#kinda? i don't really ship it#except in like a fucked up toxic yaoi way#theres was Something there For Sure but it wouldnt have worked out#my art
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#allied mastercomputer#ted ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#my art#toxic yaoi *thumbs up#I kinda hate this but I got other things to draw so ion really care about that rn#opens a monster can and gets back on the mother fucking grind!!!
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My toxic trait is I don't believe in difficulty ratings. YouTube exists for a reason. I'm sure I'll figure it out when I'm halfway through and have no other choice.
#has this backfired#kinda#but also not really#knitblr#knitting#though this can apply to anything I'm realizin#crochet#is this actually toxic tho
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Entwined (Ch. 8)
Melissa Schemmenti x Reader
Weekend getaway (the r rated stuff) :)
Warnings: SMUT and FLUFF
Author's Note: WHEN I TELL YOU TO LISTEN TO 'NAKED IN MANHATTAN' BY CHAPPELL ROAN ON REPEAT WHEN YOU READ THE SMUT, I AM SO DEADASS SERIOUS. It will convey the exact level of passion and excitement that is happening.
Ch. 1 | Ch. 2 | Ch. 3 | Ch. 4 | Ch. 5 | Ch. 6 | Ch. 7
Before the elevator doors could close behind you, Melissa’s hand was clutching yours as she set off towards your hotel room. Her confidence and determination reminded you of a hot summer night during your twenties when you walked her home from a party - as soon as you approached her apartment, her hand was in yours, but her mind already between the sheets of her bed.
“You aren’t too busy to stay tonight, are you?” Melissa cooed as she stopped in her tracks outside of her apartment door. She gave your hand a strong tug which sent your tipsy body stumbling into hers - your hands gripping her sides to steady yourself.
Her statement was obviously rhetorical when she attached her lips to yours. One arm wound around your neck while the other slithered up your chest to hold your chin - both effectively holding you in place. Not that you wanted to go anywhere anyways.
As of a week ago, she and Joe were on a break (again), and suddenly you were both attached at the hips once again. Her hands had been wandering for days - slowly testing the waters to see how far she could get with you. And each time Mel’s skin brushed against your own, you felt electricity crackling across your body.
Melissa still hadn’t lost her touch. Her hands had found their way under your shirt, thumbs stroking your skin, sending those same jolts across your body once more. You were losing yourself in the moment. Her hands felt everywhere all at once. You could have sworn that her pink lipstick covered your face. Each touch made you feel intoxicated.
You found yourself fading into past memories when you heard her breathless, gruff voice in your ear. And suddenly you were 16 again.
“I need you.” The redhead whispered as she pressed you against her bedroom door.
You had picked her up from her boyfriend’s house at one in the morning. She had snuck out to see him, but when her sexual escapades resulted in disappointing results, she called pleading with you to rescue her.
“I-” Your brows furrowed, head bowed, and hands clutched her sides. How could you tell her that you had no clue what to do with all of her bottled up desire? It felt like she expected the world from you, but your inexperience made you freeze up like a deer in headlights.
Her mother, sisters, and brothers were home. You couldn’t have the devout Catholic Ms. Schemmenti see you being more than friendly with her daughter, but Melissa’s canine teeth gently sinking into the side of your neck made your worries start to fade.
She tempted you once more, “Come on, baby.”
With unexpected expertise, Melissa fished her hotel key from her pocket and pressed it to the sensor on the door. Your heart leapt when you heard her giggle as she fumbled with the door handle. Overwhelmed by your desire for her, you forced your lips to hers once more and backed her into the hotel room, letting the door slam behind you.
It was blurry as you both approached the bed. Dominance would shift back and forth as you pressed one another to the walls and tore at each other's clothes. She had come away as the winner when she pushed you back onto the bed.
Melissa’s gaze was hungry as she stared down at you. Her hands undid her jeans, and you loved the way her jaw shifted when she was met with the slight challenge of sliding her jeans over her wide hips. She slowly stripped before you, taking off each piece of clothing without breaking her eye contact.
“Take a picture. It lasts longer.”
“Don’t tempt me.” Your response had been so quick that Melissa wasn’t expecting such forwardness. She always loved teasing you about your tendency to admire her, but often you would just look away with a red face.
The redhead was comfortable changing in front of you, but would usually turn away from you when she removed her bra - always preserving some assemblance of privacy. This time, however, she remained facing you, staring you down as she revealed her chest to you. In the past, you had always had the decency to stare down into your lap, but now you soaked up the sight.
She took a few steps closer, and time stopped. She was towering over you as you sat on the edge of her bed, her breasts were at eye level. Her hand caught the back of your neck, causing you to stall in place. You couldn’t believe the momentum of her hand was pulling you towards her enchanting body.
“Well, don’t be shy now.”
Shaken from lingering in your memories, you caught her nipple between your lips, settling into the comforting position of our hands and mouth on her tits and her knees on either side of your lap. Her fingers scratched your scalp and played with your hair as small hums of satisfaction emanated from her body.
When you detached your lips and looked up to meet her eyes, Melissa’s intensity wavered for a moment. A soft smile graced her lips and she cocked her head, “You always look beautiful like this.”
You had no words for her. You only wanted to make her feel good.
With strong hands gripping her thighs, you lifted her momentarily to exchange places with her on the bed. And rather than loom over her for the same body worship, you sank to your knees, taking your rightful place between her legs.
“This always feels so right...”
Of course it does. You knew this, but after years apart, you were happy to remind her (or prove to her) how well you knew every square inch of her. It was so satisfying to hear each one of her vocalizations, each more unrestrained than the last as she lost control over herself.
Maybe it was pure ego, but you always told yourself that you were the only one that could do this to her. That could bring out this part of her. Why else would she keep coming back for more?
With the pure motivation of proving yourself to be Melissa’s most competent lover, you probed her cunt more thoroughly and savored her flavor as she grew wetter.
“I have to feel you against me.” Mel’s hands on your cheeks and growl drew you from continuing to swim through the memory any longer.
While you weren’t sure what she had in mind, you were directed by the impatient and aggressive woman sharing the bed. Her hands desperately tugged at any remaining clothes, causing you to nervously fumble around as you stripped.
When you were finally naked, she had you with your back against the bed and her manicured nails teasing your cunt, testing your wetness only to find you soaked. Reliving the past while also being in the present with Melissa had you feeling frenzied for her touch, and you let her know as such when you muttered ‘please’ over and over.
“I will, baby.” Her voice was breathy and your clit throbbed at hearing the pet name. You knew you were weak for Melissa Schemmenti, but now you felt like absolute putty in her hands, ready to do what she requested at any second.
You were disappointed when she momentarily moved away. It was impossible for you to contain your groan when your cunt made contact with hers as you weren’t expecting the coolness of her sopping heat against you.
Instinct took over you both as you gripped one another's hips and thighs, attempting to draw the other closer for increasingly satisfying sensations as you grind your cunts together. When her mouth found yours, it felt as though she was trying to swallow you whole with each open mouthed kiss and swipe of her tongue. From the way she held and kissed you, it was hard to contend which one of you was the most desperate for the other’s touch.
Melissa was turned around and completely lost in the humping, grinding, and swirl of limbs. Her thoughts were so overrun by her body chasing down the orgasm she craved, the filter for her thoughts had completely shut down.
“I love you,” she breathed, hand squeezing at the back of your neck, “I never want... you... you to think otherwise.”
You lost track of the night from there, completely blinded by her admission.
Hours later you would still have her sprawled out on her back, chest heaving with each tantalizing thrust of your hips. You had her repeat those first three words over and over, breathing them in as if you needed them to live. While you couldn’t force the same words from your mouth, you hoped each of your kisses and movements could reflect the love you held for her until you were ready to return the sentiment.
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It had been disappointing to wake up to an empty bed, but the photo of Melissa in a black bikini waiting for you in your texts had you throwing on your bathing suit to make your way to her by the pool before you had truly shaken the sleep from your body. It was easy to push the thought of not admitting your feelings from your head. You knew you loved her, but hearing her say it was far better than anything you had experienced in years. For now, it was easier to focus on that than your own shortcomings in vulnerability.
When you found her by the poolside, Melissa patted the spot between her legs, and while the innuendo would typically make you blush, her tone and eyes only conveyed an innocent sweetness. “I didn’t have the heart to wake you, but I saved you a seat.”
“Thank you?” With a bit of nervous skepticism for the unusual docility from Melissa, you crawl onto the round cushioned pool chair and shiver at the feeling of her hands immediately finding your shoulders.
“I can help with your sunscreen.” She offers with a forceful execution as she is already applying sunscreen to her hands before you have an opportunity to accept the offer. Mel’s hands work the lotion into your screen, lingering on your shoulders and biceps as she speaks casually, “The UVs are already high so I’m gonna read for a bit to tan. You can lay here with me or whatever.”
You shrug and nod, not wanting to seem too overzealous at the prospect of publicly being seen together. “Yeah, sure.”
Your heart was thudding in your chest when she patted your back and said ‘good to go’. There were no examples of public displays of affection between Melissa and you for you to base this interaction off of. Cautiously, you slide down enough to recline back into Mel’s lap.
Rather than confirming your anxious worries of rejection, Melissa shifted to having your head resting on her thigh while she drew up her other knee to rest her book onto. While she wasn’t turning pages in her book, her fingers brushed against your cheeks and forehead or twirled locks of your hair.
Her thoughts must have been wandering elsewhere as she spoke up suddenly, breaking the longstanding, comfortable silence between you, “When we get back, you should meet Barb. You could even come to a family dinner if you wanna.”
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#melissa schemmenti x reader#melissa schemmenti#lisa ann walter#abbott elementary#toxic relationship? kinda but not really
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Never redeemed au or something
#my art#fanart#i dont think i'll draw much of this anyway but if you wanna ask something feel free to do it#i just wanted them to hate each other a bit they like each other too much in canon#semi toxic yamten but not really but kinda#they respect each other but cant be in the same room for more than 30 minutes#they respect each other bc they both are well know uuhh bad guys?? you get it#tenshinhan#yamcha#tien shinhan#dragon ball#yamten#yamtien
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Actually so tired that people mainly focus on the bdsm when they talk about La Pianiste when we literally have this dynamic right here. Like, that's insane.
What if you were a little girl in her 40's who couldn't grow up because of your mother-wife who made you sleep in her bed and forced you to repress every sexual desires and thoughts of becoming your own person just to keep you close to her ? What if you fought back and yearned for dangerous things out of her reach ? But also, what if you let her because it's all you've ever known and been taught to want ?
#these two are so entangled with each other and in the roles they play#(mother and daughter. husband and wife. prodigal or ungrateful daughter. adoring or mocking mother)#that they cannot handle it when something else is thrown into the mix#There's no space left because they fill all the roles in each other's lives.#but at the same time they never give the other exactly what she wants#The fights never last. Erika will never live up to her mother's ambitions. And her mother will never give her any form of affection which#might satiate her hunger for love. And so on.#They are deeply imperfect- Love and Despise each other but they could never bear the thought of being separated#When I read the part in the book where Erika talks to Walter for the first time and all she wants is to go back into her mother's womb...#you can't make that shi up#when people talk about toxic yuri that's what they could mean but unfortunately we live in a society#gradually learning to accept the person I'm becoming who would've been burned at the stake by my younger self <3#been having so much thoughts about this film once again. And I know that nothing written here is new but I'm a little sad no one really#talks about this relationship online since it's really the heart of the story for me#Of course everything happening with Walter is important. But none of that would be there without the mother-daughter situation#la pianiste#the piano teacher#haneke#sheep stuffs#isabelle huppert#also I'd kinda get it if it was another film and it made people too uncomfortable to talk about it. but I mean this is literally La Pianist
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Can Stuilly really be toxic if both parties are equally psychotic and they’re in a consensual insane and twisted, violently codependent relationship???
Equally as insane and in love with each other Stuilly supremacy man >>>>>
#can you really be toxic if you’re on the same page about being toxic yaoi to begin with#randoms#shitpost#I guess#kinda#only half kinda#scream#scream 1996#stu macher#billy loomis#billy x stu#stu x billy#stuilly
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I know I'm late (I have my copy of the Book of Bill but I've yet to read it bc I've been busy) but BoB basically making BillFord canon in the year of our lord 2024 is so fucking funny and weirdly vindicating bc BACK IN THE DAY!!!! I saw that shit. So many of us saw the way Bill acted around Ford and went, "...he kinda fruity, huh?" and we were MOCKED!!!! SCORNED!!!!!!!! TOLD WE WERE "glorifying abusive relationships" WHEN ACTUALLY, WE SAW THE TRUTH!!!!!!!! 😤😤😤
#bill cipher#book of bill#book of bill spoilers#kinda i guess#also this isn't that deep I just think toxic old man triangle yaoi being HEAVILY IMPLIED as canon is fucking hilarious#tbh I *personally* think Ford is aroace and Bill is... Bill....... so that never would have worked out anyways LMFAO#but Bill being a bitter messy ex is fucking hilarious#Bill really is a little bitch tbh and I love that for him#billford#billford shippers are eating good and I love that for y'all
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finally finished this fucking book
it took me almost a year because it’s so hard to get through oh my GODS
#every time Leo and Calypso interacted I wanted to bang my head on the table until I passed out#I’ve already reblogged 2 posts about this ik. But seriously how the hell does uncle Rick not realize how toxic that ship is#Leo’s character is practically ruined bc of Caleo WHY CANT MY POOR SON JUST HAVE ACTUAL CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT GOTDAMN :(#also Lester literally pissed his pants like every other chapter wtf???#and the new characters were kinda boring imo#Leo finding a mother figure in Josephine was really sweet but other than that I had no strong opinions on anyone#i do appreciate Meg and her backstory but she really does get on my nerves sometimes#istg if Grover pookie is mid next book I’m going to sob#and I already know my baby boy Jason dies next book so sobbing will happen either way#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#lester papadopoulos#the trials of apollo#pjo hoo toa#jason grace#meg mccaffrey#leo valdez#grover underwood#(I’m just saying if Leo and Jason kissed all my problems would be solved)#how tf did I accidentally become a valgrace shipper#idc it’s much better than caleo anyway 🤷♀️#this book was repulsing it never happened
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