#not in the school mindset rn
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nah bc why is my first class on tuesday and i already have work to do 😭
#wack as hell#one of my profs is like read all of this and make a question and comment etc etc abt it and i'm like dawg can we pls slow down 😭😭😭#not in the school mindset rn#i need to decorate my room still UGHHHH#me when i put my stepstool on top of my desk to put my lights up on my high ass ceilings 😀#pray i don't fall and die everyone#ashlee's bs
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why is everything (showing other people respect. being patient and kind. not flying off the handle about stupid things. emotional regulation and self-control. et cetera.) so easy when I'm not around my parents and so so so so hard when I AM around them?
#this is a genuine question btw I need advice bc I'm STRUGGLING. idk why everything makes me frustrated and angry#when I'm around my parents and it's SO hard to be kind and respectful to them and my sister#but so easy literally everywhere else#I hate that I'm like this I wish I could genuinely be a nice person but apparently the person#I REALLY am is the horrible selfish lazy brat I am with my parents.#even though it feels 100% easier otherwise APPARENTLY the real me is the one I revert to at home#but being nice away from home comes so naturally?? so is THAT the real me??? idk what to do I'm so frustrated right now#Lu rambles#can my mutuals please weigh in bc I feel like a terrible horrible emotionally illiterate person rn#bc of a conversation in which I fought with my mom over the fact that I have a hard time respecting my middle school aged sister#bc I don't want her (bold. confident. sometimes a little bit of a brat as well bc humanity) thinking she can walk all over me#the way she acts always makes me feel like she thinks she's better than me but maybe it's just my mindset. bc I KNOW#that my middle schooler sister IS better than me in most ways and I HATE that. how can someone#so much younger than me be better than me at basically everything she sets her mind to?#and how can I ever have confidence in myself when I know that's the case??? it's so frustrating!!#ugghdnfnsngsmkgnskfnskd I need advice and prayers. and probably to go to bed early tonight.
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Accounts with "r18 accounts do NOT follow!!!" rules following you when you your account is 18+ and has artistic nudity and ~mature~ (albeit flagged and tagged, I know some people don't) posts from time of time is just kinda... did you... did you even read anything about my blog. It says it's 18+ partly due to the contents in multiple places
If they're also a minor, who is naive enough to publicly announce that, that's a double whammy of why are you here you clearly expressed you shouldn't be now I gotta permablock you
#do you mean like. strictly p[]rn only blogs or are you not playing by your own rules#because if it's the former just say it#vena vents#a lot of technically n$fw blogs are like. medical historical and fine arts and shit#not art#granted I remember the ''everyone EXCEPT MEEEEEE :3'' mindset a lot of teens have because I was a teen once and also went to school#so I don't exactly expect kids on here to like. be consistent in when rules apply to themselves#Also you can tell if someone's a minor just by overall behavior and attitudes#the age thing is a stupid thing to put out there though don't do that kids (who should not be here)
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for yrs i railed against the holiday creep and insisted the proper time to watch christmas movies and listen to christmas music was like the month of december but this yr i have done a complete turnaround i watched polar express last week and i have procured eggnog. i get why adults start so early now it's bc theres so little time for it all anyhow. close to thanksgiving is close enough!
#my mindset has shifted def as a result of grad school#i dont get time off for thanksgiving and im on the finals creep and#i am just accepting the holidays to happen rn#i Need it
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I NEEED to go back to making art that makes it ABUNDANTLY clear that theres something wrong with my brain BUT NOT in a cool or stylishly interesting way. i need to do it in a way that makes people say "hm." and walk away
#sowwy ive been kinda going through it in my fine arts major rn can u tell HJKSDHKFd#ive been feeling like. scared. and paralyzed by marketability and branding.#i cant stop thinking about how other people will see my art. but not like in a good way#when i was younger i thought about it in a good way. like hee hee hoo hoo the act of looking connected us hee hee#but rn i keep thinking about it in like this wretched like consumer product mindset? ouhhghhhhh el problema es el capitalismo#and like maybe this works for some people. to think like this. to make art like this. its what my professors push me towards#not intentionally. they dont say it out loud at least. im not sure if they know or not some of the irony#my professors are nice and pretty smart and talented and i like em. but sometimes i wonder like. the push for us as students to make like#marketable 'avant garde'? stuff thats safe but pretending to be weird and out there#i dont mean to sound pretentious. in general i play it too safe myself (spent too much time as an edgy 10 year old with my#parents freaking out over my shoulder because they think the fact that i drew an anime character frowning means something serious LOL)#but i dunno man. my least interesting art with the least amount of care thought or effort always gets so much more attention in school#nowhere else oddly. online? people like my more passionate but seemingly frivolous art (oc art etc. not frivolous to me but yknow how it is#same with irl artists and other industry people outside my school. whats going on in my school LOL#i know from experience i cant push myself into a supposedly marketable brand. if i try to make something sell it will not.#i dont know why. maybe theres an invisible essence buyers can tell when i didnt care jkfsldjdfrds#but my teachers LOOOOVE the stuff i put no passion in its so bizarre orz but i gotta relearn how to ignore half of their advice#i used to be better at it. but i also only used to ignore like a quarter of their advice. maybe i need to amp up how much im ignoring#that sounds mean. they have plenty of good advice. but also plenty of advice thats clouded by their own biases#and i gotta relearn how to sort out this stuff again. i forget every few months for some reason#you know i always think ouuhhhhh i act so neurotypical ouhhhhhhhhh im outgoing i talk to strangers all the time i seem confident#im so masked IM SO MASKED but then i go a couple weeks where every conversation i have has people looking at me like#i have two heads and neither of them are speaking their language. and then i descend into madness like this HJKLDSHJDS#i'll be fine i'll figure it out. i need to stop trying to get a good grade in being a 'cutting edge' conventional artist <3#i need to just. draw my cartoon characters in peace 😔😔😔
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i have a feeling after the 1st during the sharks game, they changed their mindset to “it’s literally just that easy” and got their 7 goals
#like#i seriously do not think it was a whole grand speech#just nico (probably) saying that it’s Just That Easy#so can they do that for tomorrow cause it’s Literally That Easy#(obv easier said than done)#(but i’m correct so they should start changing their mindset)#(learning a Lot about mindsets in school rn)
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i hope you are doing well today!
this is a super late response since i haven't been active on here but thank you sm!! 😭🙏 you're so sweet, i really hope you had a good holiday season whichever holiday (if any) you celebrate 💙
#asks#i've been doing good! just more active on twitter rn lol. i think i may take a break though bc twitter is... twitter 🫠#i miss being on here bc it feels like my thoughts were more coherent and rather than forcing myself to speak on the current Disk Horse#i was able to think through what i said more. and not to say that everyone of my tweets is bad or anything Lol#i just prefer my mindset when i'm on here#in irl news! i moved to a diff more populated & diverse state to start college :]#i'm still getting settled and i've been. at home mostly since idk where to go around here#it kinda sucks but it'll change once i get into school and stuff#now for the monumental task of Make Friend ... 🫡#wish me luck haha :')#tysm for the ask again! it really makes me feel like a person when i get a hi#i'm always open for convos and questions .. finger guns#okay im getting cringy now goodbye
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dude i wish i had a enchanted mirror so bad
#my brathroom mirror is getting the discussion of its LIFE rn#one thing abt me i will ALWAYS pretend i’m getting interviewed as someone famous and i will ALWAYS start convos abt thoughts i always have#in my brain.#mirror me just had the best ride involving the first time i felt represented in western media a psa on public libraries#how loneliness KILLS people#my underlying frustrations regarding school#my love for science a revamp on my discussion abt poetry and aligning mindsets#i wish i could just magically have recorded this conversation bc it was so GOOOODDDD full of such good takes UGH all this wasted bc i can#not remember everything word for word and every incredible line i dropped in that incredibly one sided convo#man 😔 . need to contain some of my thoughts in the notes app to save for later
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there are so many things to do and i am just a little guy
#dragon's discussions#context i have 4 projects i want to work on (in some order: spiderverse fic -> end patch -> rest of minecraft patches -> hobie brown cospla#-> other cool patches (for a battlevest in the future)#AND I STILL HAVE 2 GET READY FOR WORK TOMORROW#AND DO COLLEGE STUFF#FUCK#SHIT DAMN#ok hold on lemme make a list lets see#work stuff: i have 2 make my lunch and get water ready#we're doing cpr training tomorrow so itll be fairly easy + chill#college stuff is w/e i can do that later#and im INGORING school (im not im having an anurysm just thinking abou it)#end patch is fairly easy except i didn't size the base properly so i need to sew it on in a way that it doesnt fray#hobie brown needs the battlevest first so thats on backburner so it doesnt really count ig#BUT THE FIC#fuck im in a weird mindset rn i cant concentrate on shit and feel kinda not here#anyway#fic hard words weird i think i wrote myself into a mini corner and i keep repeating myself#anyway im going to get work lunch over with
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*taps mic* this thing on?
#r.txt#hi hi hi i miss being active sm i hate school :|#i still need a new computer too cause rn i cant run sims with anything installed it sucks ass#im excited for infants tho!!!! and the new pack im foaming at the mouth why do they make us pay for basic game things its so lame but wtvr!!#im just popping in for a min im on spring break but i still have hw :'((#just a few more months and maybe i can get a job and save enough for a new pc lets hope#im taking a photoshop/illustrator class and i rly hate my prof i havent learned anything i didnt already know#and we have to use MACS :| actually wanna fight its me vs apple products till i di#e#ive been playing vanilla for a bit and its not as fun but its alright#ive uploaded some houses to the gallery if anyone is interested ig i could post those to be semi active#i have literally sm to do in my life i hate being old (19) im basically dead#i say it every time but im going to make my return one day i swear it i love this community despite its many many flaws i miss everything#unfortunatly i have to deal w an 8-5 school schedule twice a week the rise and grind mindset is not for me#if i get time i might try to post more silly updates ive been doing but for now au revoir (adios) (im into tfb now smile)#ok bye aggain 4 nowsies
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if i wasn't such a coward i'd be drawing arkae and adalberta being angsty or some shit like that but alas. ff xiv is so hard for me to art
#to be fair everything is hard to art for me rn but that game has never been kind to me on this#anyway i come from the matsuno school of dealing with love/romance aka it's got to be miserable and tragic and yearning has to be up to 100#me when i'm queerbaiting with my own oc#have i drawn them kissing and being romantic together? yes. are they there yet? not in the slightest#honestly if i wasn't coward x2 i'd retire arkae after endwalker but#but i don't wanna....................... so i'll drag her partner with her in the next expac. if i can even play it because i feel like my-#- computer will explode with the graphical update and everything so uh#trying so hard to get in the mindset of creating oc content instead of just doing fanart :( with arkae and others :( aaaaaaaaaaa#sorry i felt like talking to myself rn it'll pass
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>:3
#i feel like sisyphus in this job space tonight so assorted bellumbeck thoughts go#tryjng to not touch on the stuff im writing an actual post on bjt i might repeat stuff and get into ship territory#so like. i enjoy getting way too deep abt bellumbeck and the possible parallels and w/e between bellum n linebeck#things to get deeper abt them and connections between them. abt linebeck being somehow more drawn to bellum than oshus#tryina get my mind off of things. school work world at large yknow. uh. trying to stay optimistic. idk if thats a good idea rn#anyways. um. something abt like. bellum is to linebeck as the spirits are to link. linebeck and link as the two major human main characters#being kind of strongly associated with these opposing forces? linebeck and link being foils/generally very different#yknow? like maybe oshus/the spirits ofc choose him in a sense bc he aligns with their goals and beliefs#while linebeck aligns more with bellum’s goals (which ig you can infer with some similarities between them from what you see)#yeah. making it way deeper than it actually is. bellum meeting linebeck in the middle in some form before just yknow. fucking with him#the thing between linebeck and bellum is so fun. it starts with bellum just throwing all of linebecks trauma at him and that backfiring#then trying to get him on to his side with the whole like i mean you do fantasize abt murder dude and then that falling flat#and then just giving up and getting violent and then THAT backfires bc uh oh he started venting by accident n linebecks kinda into this#its half weird silly visceral homoerotic WHATEVER and the just straight up literary analysis of this 17 year old game#oh god ph is turning 17 this year. now THAT makes me feel old#anyyyyyways. i do like linebeck kind of being v similar to bellum. the disdain for ciela. a mlre chaotic and self serving way of life.#hatred for ppl who try to limit or control him. bit of a scrappier n frantic mindset when scared. loves to hit da bricks when shit sucks#i am putting them together like little dolls i think brllumbeck is really interesting to get wayyyy too invested in.
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I don’t fear getting older, but I sure as hell don’t want to grow up
#not in the anti aging way#more in the oh my god I’ve lost so much of my life to trauma trauma trauma and my childhood ended prematurely#and now I feel like a tall child#way#I hope that makes sense#idc abt looking young or even really feeling young#I’m disabled in my early 20s I’m never gonna feel young#but#growing up is different#when I’m stressed I go back to like. middle school high school mindset of survive and intake comfort media#no one can hurt u if ur brain is in like. fucking ponyville or something#and it’s bad. I shouldn’t have had to do that as a kid and I can’t do that as an adult#especially because I don’t know if I’ll be here for long genuinely#like two years ago we were so out of it at all times#it was like we were 200000 miles away from real life at all times#we are much more attached to reality now ofc#but that was. scary and familiar#for most of our childhood I didn’t front#mostly because I wasn’t even the one who was supposed to be the main guy#I forget all terminology rn because I’m sleepy sorry#host. wasn’t always the host but took over around like. 5 and it’s been my life ever since#but it was also jays. because I was too scared#but jays gone now and while I’m not all alone in here it sometimes feels that way#but Jay was a micromanager and literally would ruin friendships because he’d thought I’d be better on my own#something I’m still unlearning.#can’t even blame it on him. I’m a mess. I’m sick im lazy i have no skills#and yet people still try and help me. help us really. but it’s because I’m somewhat young. I’m still a baby in so many peoples eyes#but that’s a bad thing. I want to be set sufficient but it’s hard when you can’t get out of bed most days. When you can’t be alone without#having horrific intrusive thoughts about hurting urself. when ur eyes start to go out on you. when you black out if u try and wash ur hair#a part of me wants to be coddled and cradled and have the childhood I was robbed of. but I know I need to grow up.
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#Anyone else in the stage of being completely unmotivated to keep stufying your field but you dont have anything else going on for you LOL#In my head rn its a toss up of Get Your Ass Together and TRY or hey you tried but Its not working out so drop it#Im not in the right mindset to decide for real I know that#but my irl social life is 100000% school so I wouldn’t ‘drop out’ just keep going for everything else besides getting qualified#which I have qualifications but… do I really wanna pursue this industry still? Idk… just some thoughts GRRRRR#qzth
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mindset of manifestation & how i manifest
like melanie martínez, i am back from the dead.
i apologize for being gone so long, but i needed a break from tumblr. i saw toxicity swirling in the community, my life got busy, and i decided it was just time for a break. when i was planking to come back, i just saw how things got terrible and i got upset and decided not to come back.
so, im back now and with a little tutorial on how i manifest!!! <3 i hope this can help some of you out.
let’s start with background.
manifesting is kind of like predicting the future. you have something you want to happen, then it happens soon after. i feel like this is the easiest way to get into the manifestation mindset. you cannot change what you’re getting if you want it. could you change your mind later and return it like a package? yes! but before it arrives, you know it’s arrival is coming.
sure, there can be delays, but it all is going to turn out YOUR way in the end.
nile and i have been working on our mindset and this is something they wrote that i think can be really helpful — as it was to me.
from the past two years we have been actively manifesting, we learned that we often saw things as “crazy”. but manifesting isn’t crazy, it’s quite normal.
every time you get dressed in the morning, it’s an act of manifestation. you’re showing up with what you want.
manifestation is a mondane activity!! stop treating it like it was a kiss from an angel!
by reading this, you’re manifesting your eyes working, you’ve used your hands to open an app, and you have believed you can read and get through this blog! without manifesting that, you would not be here.
the first step to manifestation is believing you can do it, believing you have done it, and believing you will continue to do it. period.
there are many MANY different ways to manifest, but i manifest in 3 ways (sometimes i use all three, sometimes i use just 1 or 2.)
!! I ALMOSR FORGOT TO PUT THIS AND IM ADDING IT BEFORE I GET TO NUMBER 2 OMG!!
STOP! BEFORE ANYTHING ELSE I WANT YOU TO GET A NOTEBOOK, A SHEET OF PAPER, OR MAKE A CHECKLIST ON YOUR PHONE IN YOUR NOTES APP!!!
now i want you to write down everything you want right now down and leave the boxes blank if you haven’t gotten them yet.
once you get through that, i want you to randomly click between some of the items you want and write down things you wanted that you did get! they can be some simple and things from years ago, what matters is you have them down. throw in some things that you may have to do for school or work while you’re at it.
here’s an example! (left is before checking off, right is after)
as you can see, i added a note to the side because i got what i wanted and more abundantly! i had been manifesting a dog since i was a young child, and in 2021, i got 2!!!! (one is laying at my feet right now <3)
continue to do this daily, weekly, or whatever you have time for. i personally do this on notion and i try to add something new daily (im adding the heartstopper thing rn!!)
but yeah!! write everything u want down, and continue to add to it, just so u can see progress DOES happen and your work and effort DOES pay off!
affirming and persisting
this id the first way i learned to manifest, and the most self-explanatory.
you simply repeat what you want over and over until you get it! but not in the future tense, in the current or past tense.
ex; “i passed my maths final!”, “im so happy my boyfriend gave me those roses for valentine’s day, he’s so sweet!”, “i finished the essay for english like a week before it was due!” “i got the lead role in my play! im so excited!” etc.
now, the common factor between all of these is having a positive mindset about them. i cannot tell you HOW many times i manifested something would go well, and right before they happened, i got in a shitty mind space and wondered if it would ever happen.
but, nonetheless, i persisted through and i got what i wanted.
the pain have have been feeling cant compare to the joy that is coming. Romans 8:18
persisting is basically pushing through. think about the time you didn’t think you would make it through an injury, a school year, a trial, yet you still walked through it — even if it was slow.
like when work days are long and you want to go home, but you can’t, so you persist.
i try to think of my manifestations as an ultimatum. it’s going to happen, and that’s final. the only thing you have to do to get it is stay conscious.
and staying conscious, walking through those days, is how you get to the end!
i use affirming and persisting with pretty much everything, which is why it was first.
2. listening to subs.
it’s that simple — listen to an audible subliminal that has the results you want over and over!! that’s all i do u guys. here’s my playlist if u want it (IF I DELETE IT CHECK MY PINNED POST!! I UPDATE IT OFTEN)
i often use @stilljuststardust’s subs, slade’s subs, enchanted workshops’ subs and i want it, i got it’s subs!
all of them are trusted and credible. i cannot promise you that all the subs in my playlist will work for you, as they are (sometimes) linked to my personal desires.
3. pinterest manifestation!!
i recommend having either a whole pinterest account or a board set aside for this way of manifestation.
you simply make boards (or sections) for things you want. i would say this is best for physical items, people, looks, makeup, etc. things that re physically tangible, rather than something like reality shifting (although i do have a reality shifting board! it has been working pretty well <3)
i also have one for my mindset, my religion, so on and so forth (link btw)
i think this is pretty self explanatory. just save picture of things you want and quotes/affirmations and DONE!
i also use this sub with it :p it’s worked WONDERSSS!
if you have any other questions i will be happy to answer them!! i love you all!! go manifest!!
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its so sad and heartbreaking the things happening in afghanistan.. women are being banned from talking or even hearing eachothers voices even during prayer theyre not allowed to speak
they destroyed women businesses and have got rid of hairdressers and stores that women owned and they are being silenced
banned from school not allowed to vote and this is all a result of psychotic tyrant MEN i was genuinely shocked when i read all the stuff that has come out recently how can this even be allowed to happen???
women are losing their HUMAN rights
feminism is everything we need rn its like were going back in time its fucking sad and weird what this world is
if the roles were reversed and the ability to speak freely or have an education was taken by men there’d be a huge issue yet women are literally being silenced and having their human rights taken away from them
afghan women cant even train to be a doctor and cant be treated by a male therefore they cannot access healthcare which is a basic human right..
whats even more fucking crazier is people are trying to defend this and try to make it seem okay when its not okay??? why would it ever be okay if the same happened to you you wouldnt fucking like it its horrible
as a girl with a middle eastern mother i find it appalling how brown men talk about women and girls im happy my mother has a similar mindset to me but most brown men are genuinely so out of touch with reality and far gone some of the things ive heard or that theyve said to me is insane idk why they feel that things like this are right or okay and the fact its so normalised amongst them is crazy i feel bad for my mother and her sisters and how they were treated as kids simply bcs they are women im fortunate and lucky to have a father that literally explains to me why guys are bad and to not talk to them or waste my time on them as a girl and he has made me so aware of what men are really like and im thankful for that its been like engrained into my brain since i was very young because of him and my mother
using religion to twist it and push political ideologies that take away womens rights is such a huge issue, im not even talking about just afghanistan even america.. ive seen numerous christian men defend taking abortion rights away.. its like first why are u even allowed an opinion on it, ur a MAN.. and second why do u think its okay to tell a woman what she can or cant do with her OWN body……………
#free afghan women#radical misandrist#misandry#misandrist#radical feminists do touch#radical feminist community#radfemblr#radfeminism#radical feminist safe#radblr#terfsruntumblr#terfsafe#terfblr
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