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Top 5 fruits or top 5 drawings you've done (totally not an excuse to see more cool art from you 😎❤️)
Hi hello!!! I’ll do top 5 drawings bc I don’t like many fruits 😭😭😭 (apples and pears take top spot)
This is in no particular I just perused my old sketchbooks and found the ones I like best :))
I rly love these two <3333 especially the one on the left. I went through a phase a year ago where I just found random people on Pinterest and drew them, and these are two of my favorites
Partial tugger design reveal…..oh no…..
Just kidding I resigned him slightly since I’ve drawn this but I’m thinking of redoing the hair on my redesign bc I love this so much…..sir….
Also ignore nibbly and wiggly off to the side there lol
Last two under the cut :)))))
I just think he’s neat :)))
His name is Ferdinand I think
And finally….
Michael Afton you will be forever famous….outing myself as a fnaf fan…..anyway ily Michael you’re so cool
#I GOT OUT OF SCHOOL EARLY THANKS TO EXAMS#SPEAKING OF EXAMS I JUST ACED TWO OF THEM#all of these are from last year except Tugger…..#man I was rly good at drawing faces there for a second#thanks for sending an ask!!!#man these are fun#dude I love art….so cool…..#I’ve gotta get back into the groove of things if I wanna draw my silly detectives#there’s a drawing of irratino that I was gonna put here but then I found the Michael one and I just had to include him#but I am quickly nearing the end of the school year and then I will be home fucking free to do whatever I want forever#immediately started having an anxiety when I stood up#be still my heart#no seriously be still I’m scared#anyyyyyhowwwww#sorah’s silly scribbles#cats the musical#the rum tum tugger#rum tum tugger#michael afton#art things#asks!!!!!!!
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I think it’s interesting how as time goes on Zoro kind of becomes more and more like mihawk in some ways whether that’s just because if you spend time with someone for 2 years you’re bound to pick up their habits or a deliberate attempt to emulate him is a conversation for another time. And Mihawk and Zoro where already pretty similar at the start so it’s a little hard to notice now.
But yeah whether unconsciously or consciously Zoro is becoming a bit more like Mihawk and it’s interesting to think that while this means maturing in some ways (he’s swordsmanship for one but he’s also just quieter much more assured of himself) it also means deaging in some others.
Despite their significant age gap and general dispositions, when it comes down to it Zoro is just a lot more emotionally mature and developed than Mihawk is. And a big part of why is because he found something larger than himself to devote his life too, hell Mihawk himself even kind of acknowledges this when he agrees to take Zoro on as a student when Zoro begs for the sake of his captain and crew. He acknowledges that putting aside his own ego and dreams for the sake of someone else isn’t something he can do and sees it as a fault in himself and a strength in Zoro.
Mihawk may be outwardly mature and his skills defiently did not stagnant but I’d wager that Mentally Mihawk is still stuck at the same age he was when he took over the title of world’s strongest swordsman. Honestly maybe even younger. And it isn’t until training Zoro, letting Perona stay with him, for probably the first time in his life taking charge of lives outside his own did he finally unarrest his development.
If Zoro is purposely trying to emulate Hawkeyes, which it wouldn’t be a surprise if he was that’s who he’s trying to be Afterall, then it would honestly set him back emotionally because fundamentally as he is now Mihawk’s attitude doesn’t work in a crew. It’s too singular, too abrasive. And while that abrasiveness can be useful in Zoro’s role as Luffy’s first mate sometimes it makes him a little too callous a little too apathetic, like with his disregard for Luffy’s sadness over vegapunk.
But Zoro has his crew to temper that, they are honestly just too ridiculous to ever stay serious around. And try as he might to hide it Zoro is also just a silly dude who likes to be horrifically petty with his opponents. And zoro still has so much fire in him, so much he has too prove and so much he wants to protect to ever really fall into Mihawk’s apathy. Zoro has Luffy who even after they reach their dreams will probably still continue to turn the world upside down forever keeping Zoro in some kind of trouble and his life interesting.
Zoro can’t be Mihawk because even Mihawk can’t be Mihawk anymore. Being with crossguild and crossing with the Red hair pirates and the strawhats is going to change him, it has too. if Mihawk is going to live after losing his title he’s probably gonna have to become a little bit more like Zoro.
#can you tell how much I like the phrase arrested development#mihawk is essentially mentally still a teenager and honestly that tracks#in psychology terms he never developed his super ego#everytime I write a long post I’m so scared that I didn’t make any point at all and it’s just a bunch of jumbled nonsense and half points#so I hope this made sense 😭#zoro and Mihawk are great they are so alike yet the little differences matter so much#don’t you just hate when people say Zoro has no character arc?#they aren’t even two sides of the same coin they are literally just Son learning from the mistakes of his father#I can’t lie before I really got into timeskip I also thought the changes in zoro was just Oda choosing to rewrite him diffenrtky more badas#I also missed the loud smiling and laughing zoro but the truth is that he’s still there#and maybe it is just Oda deciding to make Zoro cooler but it’s honestly so in line with who he already was and makes so much sense given#who he was training with that it still works as character development#zoro can still be loud and silly and maybe his digs are not said instead of screamed and maybe his smiles are a little meaner instead of#genuine and maybe he doesn’t laugh out loud anymore but honestly sometimes thats part of growing up#Zoro is the way he is so Luffy can be who he is that’s why they work. somebody’s got to take it seriously#somebody’s got to feel the weight of being an emperor’s crew. might as well be Zoro#one piece#throwing thoughts to the void#zoro appreciation post#dracule mihawk#hawkeye mihawk#roronoa zoro#zoro#character analysis#one piece meta#goth fam#goth family#one piece goth family#the strawhats#strawhat pirates
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oh so THAT’S what you guys meant about persona 4.
#finally seriously attempting to finish it. just got to naoto’s whole. thing. jesus christ#btw i thought playing persona 5 on the family tv was bad but NOTHING prepares you for your 55 year old mother#watching you play through rise’s midnight channel scene. truly. and i can’t even explain what the hell is going on because I DONT KNOW#i am enjoying it though. i’d die and kill for nanako in a heartbeat#and i’m very slowly getting dojima to stop neglecting her which is great 😐👍#deeply scared for what is to come though because i still don’t know JACK SHIT#i feel like at this point in persona 5 i at least had a suspect. like i knew akechi was WEIRD at the very least#anyways. wish me luck everyone i haven’t actually saved naoto yet and im pretty sure im very underleveled#personal
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@the-bi-space-ace @floundrickthewayfarer
👀 oh. uh. …gimme a sec—
*digs through old wips bin*
OK SO, like the original post, this fic was going to be a time loop. specifically, a time loop of the citadel mission. MORE specifically, Fives, in a time loop of the citadel mission.
>:)
concept ramble below cut
the bare bones idea was just for the first chapter to be a domino twins focused rewrite of the citadel mission, complete with silly banter, devastation, and fives losing his absolute mind as he gets back to base alone.
but then!! fives would wake up! and tada, echos right there next to him like he was earlier, the mission hasn’t happened yet and hey, it must’ve been a dream.
but fives can’t help but notice that he knows exactly what’s going to happen. he recognizes what people are going to say before they say it, he knows the plan for the mission and knows every death that happens along the way. he’s uncharacteristically quiet through the whole thing, and when the shuttle explodes, he cant stop it.
he wakes up again. and again and again and again and every single time, he can’t save him. no matter what he does, no matter how he tries to change things, echo always dies.
or so he thinks, of course. i’m pretty sure the ending i had planned required fives to realize that echo DIDNT die, and the time loop only happened because they always left him behind
it was really just an excuse for me to pack as much echo and fives angst into a single fic as i possibly could. when else am i gonna get to explore all the fun possibilities like:
Fives struggling to cope with echos death in the midst of it replaying on a constant loop
Fives trying to convince Echo of the time loop and because he’s Echo he believes Fives, but it still never changes the outcome
Fives sacrificing himself for Echo only for it to fail as Echo dies instead
Them making it past the shuttle explosion only for a million other things to kill Echo anyway
Fives getting sick of the aftermath of echos death and the journey back to base and just… skipping back to the start
Fives convincing Rex of what’s happening and still nothing changes
Fives not being able to look at Echo anymore without seeing him die
Fives slowly growing more cold and distant towards his twin as he’s forced to survive in this nightmare
seriously the angst potential is limitless
but yeah. that was the idea :P we’ll see if it ever gets written.
#i feel bad putting this out there knowing full well it could be years before i actually write it lol#i seriously do not have the time energy or motivation to work on this fic next HOWEVER#i still absolutely love the concept and i WILL get it out there someday#just not some day soon unfortunately lol#saturn starts yappin#arc trooper fives#arc trooper echo#domino twins#also um#considering how each chapter would kinda be it’s own mini story…#i’m not gonna finish that thought because i’m scared of suggesting it BUT IT WOULD TOTALLY WORK
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crying whenever i talk about Cookie9 because all my friends have these interesting and unique theories on them while i take everything too literally and they all just stare at me like “dude… uuugh we r TIRED” <-they dont actually say this they are very kind to me but i can Feel It
#my version of them is centered around their blog version with the ‘personality’ of their steam review and like a bunch of HC#i developed them with the implication that they’re Real but i’m a bit iffy on it#because all my friends have theories about how they’re from the narrator’s consciousness which is sick as hell#and i’m unsure how to actually structure everything or if i should go the same route so i can get approval from them </3#my friends r the real reviewer fans even though they dont plague themselves over them every day and im so sad that i don’t know anythinggg#gggggggggggg#like im p sure they genuinely hate the stuff i make about cookie9 and im just. scrumbles myself. sorry im Trying :( i’m not smart#or good at writing or even media literate#whatever that term means#all i have is love in my heart for them i don’t know anything at all#ouhghghhg they hate It so much but i cant do anything else and it’s all i have#like all my cookie9 stuff works on the ‘what if their blog self Was Real’ but i’m not actually sure how to fit it all into my actual parabl#stuff because i still havent worked out how my parable itself works#and people probably don’t think i know enough and i don’t think they’ll approve if i try. so i Don’t#tempted to blame this on my like. general crushing lack of intelligence caused by both physical and mental reasons#but i want to believe i could do better if i try? but that’s incredibly hopeful#i’ll be stuck here forever i think#<-guy who. whenever Anything wrong happens ever. just goes back to ‘oh yeah its because im dumb as fuckign rocks. due to the Incidents’#i am very scared of the possibility that it is possible for me to be anything more because that implies that i’m stupid because i didnt try#even though i’m trying very very fucking hard and every time i get something wrong way more than anyone else i’ve ever known#and they hate me for it . MAN!!!!!!!!!#<-brain is lying 2 me i think nobody hates me or . whatever. it still feels like it though im just saying this because i dont want anyone t#think people genuinely hate me for being stupid. i mean. people DO. but not my friends ☝️#man i can’t even get into the buglivia crap either because she is so abstracted from her actual review#girl w identity issues and also the general normal Changing A Lot Through Time. i scrumble her. around#her Self during 2018 would in fact be in character for the review.i want to draw her during that time. she took everything so seriously </3#tbh my version of her does react well to TSP humor but at the time she felt like she wasn’t allowed 2 Do Her Thing and tried to seem#more professional and Normal and it seeped into EVERYTHING for a bit#cookie9 though just genuinely found the narrator annoying and patronizing. its just not his thing and thats fine#<-random nonsensechemical reviewer bits hidden inside the vents. SEND POST.
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i’m gonna kill my self what do you mean i’m getting all 4 wisdom teeth out in two weeks and you just told me 😭😭
#they told me over lunch#i knew i had to get them out but they failed to tell me the date#i’m genuinely so fucking scared like#i’m going under anesthesia and i’m so scared of that evacsue u hate ivs#i’ve watched too many death row documentaries i think#but seriously what#my mom told me she’s ok with stage dooring at the outsiders tho so that made it ok#but still huh
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Hey! You there!
Get vaccinated against the current Covid and Flu strains! Tis the Season! To Immunize Yourself!
#seriously#I got Covid recently#still have it tbh#the past couple days have been ok#but that first day I felt like my brain was being pressure cooked#spent the day in bed with a fever and aching all over#had some crazy fever dreams where I was the king of an alien civilization?#that were stressful and scary but weirdly gender-affirming?#woke up after my fever broke covered in gross Covid sweat#-100/10 would not recommend#get vaccinated#also got anosmia again which I hate#every time I’m scared it’s gonna be permanent this time#it’s not a complete loss of smell unlike the other times but it still makes me feel out of sorts#like I can’t smell any of my citrus perfumes but I can smell my basil dish soap ok-ish#vent post#personal#covid 19#influenza#flu shot#covid shot
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i love being girlie online bc i dont immediately get perceived as woman. i’m literally just a profile picture here i’m just a guy being silly i love it it’s a place to express my feminine girlie fun side :3 but then irl i am desperately closeted so i do everything in my power to be perceived as less like a woman, meaning i neglect the girlie inside of me
#it’s really funny i’ve been procrastinating coming out for ages but i’m lasy#this is why i need deadlines#i’m great at working to deadlines#but also i kinda wanna get my shit together and become more independent before coming out bc i want to be taken seriously or something#listen a childhood friend of mine came out as nb when they were like 13 and my parents never took it seriously bc of their age#i’m not 13 but ykylykylykykyk it sticks with me#cal original#also this post feels very mysoginistoc#i really hate talking about my gender because i havent got it all sorted out and i’m scared that it’s literally all internalised mysogony#and i’m lying to myself#anywayyyyyy i love u feminine people and women and ayyyyyayayayyw just not as me ok!???? ok!!! mwah mwah#i love using the term girlie to describe myself bc i use it for a lot of my guy friends so it feels very gender neutral to me#whilr still conveying fun and whimsy and girliness and yayyyyyyy :3#ok shutting up now
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Hey concernedape, what the fuck is this?
#stardew valley#sam stardew valley#stardew 1.6#why is 1.6 so scary#why#hey wtf#seriously why is this a thing#i’m so scared#i love stardew valley#but still#why!
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#I want to write the most ushy gushy headcanons for togame known to man but I still want u guys to be my friends#seriously I’m thinking like LOVIE DOVIE headcanons#I was gonna do it for anons ask but I’m scared it’s not what they thought it would be#anyway I’m tired gonna play spider til I fall asleep#caitie blabs
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I have Covid for the first time and I’ve never been so sick and miserable in my life
#I haven’t been able to eat or drink since Tuesday because my stomach will reject anything even water#went to the ER today and they sent me home after fluids even tho I still can’t even ingest water or take medicine without vomiting#so then I’ve been crying for the rest of the day because I feel so miserable and sick and don’t know what to do#my dad wants me to go back to the ER but I’m scared since they already sent me home once#idk how to advocate for myself to be taken more seriously so I’ll just die from dehydration and malnutrition it’s fine#stfu
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misery posting hours i think george not celebrating his anniversary shows how much everything fucked him up a little like i had low hopes in the first place but :( he loves an anniversary he’s so sentimental…… thinking that streaming makes him too nervous or something actually makes me want to die.
#or like he just doesnt want to come back#i will seriously die#i’m still hoping that his big return will be in dream’s video#and after that he might stream again#:((((dorry its 6am and i barely slept#girls when they’re scared that the longer georgie takes to come back to streaming the more difficult he’ll find it#remember when he didn’t stream for like 2 months before snf meet up#becaue it had been so long anyway and he didn’t have any other ideas for an epic stream#so he just waited for sapnap#owwww my baby…..
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the stark realization that I almost completely caught up w all rebornverse games haunts me I’m now afraid to pursue the renegade arc because What Do I Do Now.
#talk#like. mini rant here I don’t have Anything Else occupying the mind and once it’s gone I’m seriously lost.#I’ll still draw when I can and all.#what am I supposed to do?#I feel like I’m going to run out of things to say here about my Guys and accidentally repeat myself like I usually do#and that’s being a bit generous because Im a Very Scared Person with ppl though everyone is rlly nice#idk. I’ll do what I do and do what I gotta do eventually#I know this community is v. tight knit? from my pov#which is rlly sweet.#and I’ve made myself a small corner away for my own Guys to frolick while I watch#and I’m super grateful people even like them just like I do.#but idk if I’m a Fit . if That makes sense#ill keep loving the series and waiting I’m just afraid my fire is gonna sputter and die here#and I don’t want that! I want to keep going w this#idk it’s rlly hard to keep brain fuel up when there’s limited food to begin with#blergh.
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I did what I always do when I get this storm anxiety and I watched goofy videos and reels all day and today ha get like three days and also I’m just so so so stressed about tomorrow night cause my whole family is gonna be split up around the county and I’m so so…. Not ok.
#very much so#uuugh#I hate tornadoes so freaking much.#would feel better if we had a storm shelter of ANY KIND but the closest we have is the half basement in my aunts hous (in the same yard as#us) but like!! NOTHING HERE. we live in a tiny ass trailer house!!!#I’m gonna fucking vomit.#and of course no one actually takes me seriously#like they are predicting SOFT BALL SIZE HAIL. not even tornadoes this time is the main worry 🥎 size hail.#uuuuuuugh. I think most everyone in the family will be home….. when it hits….. but fuck dude I think my sister will still be at work and#she is the BIGGEST liability in this shit thunderstorms do NOT scare her at all and I HATE IT.#and by that I don’t me ‘she doesn’t worry’ I MEAN SHE STANDS OUT ON OUR METAL FRONT PORCH AND WATCHES THEM.#she’s crazy!!!!#I know I’m just….. repeating myself a lot but I’m so terrified you guys.#I don’t think anything will happen and yet…. this is so scary to me#and I’m just…. it’s the first time in a while we’ve been directly in the Bad Zone and it’s so so scary
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like i distinctly remember my heart going 72728272 miles per hour because i was that anxious to tell my friends about this band i was interested in middle school
#which now that i think about it. isn’t normal.#maybe that’s why u have anxiety disorders 🥰#like they talked about their interests so freely and i appreciated how excited they got but i was like what if they don’t take it as#seriously and their image of me would change and that wouldn’t be good and it would just be a whole spiral i remember feeling like i wanted#to be normal and talk about these things with people i called my friends but i couldn’t?#i had this tv show i was obsessed with and i was scared to talk about it to my parents because i was scared that they would see me#differently…. it was a KIDS show…. kids get obsessed with things that’s normal!!!!!!!!#even now. i have a lot more interests but im still deathly scared of being perceived by others. even my best friend who is like a sister to#me… i’m working on that though because she has never once made me feel like i’m annoying her by talking about what i like but the fear is#still there and i don’t know how to get it out:(#genuinely from the bottom of my heart i really really really love it when people open up enough to share their interests and likes with me#it’s so endearing seeing how excited they are but when it’s my turn i just feel like disappearing because im scared opening up about normal#things i like and enjoy will change the way they see me ultimately#✉️
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Society if Iris and Cilan had continued to travel with Ash into Kalos, Alola, Galar, and beyond
#Ko’s Idealistic Alternate Timelines tag#Too scared to throw this in the main tags lol#but seriously#idk i guess we wouldn’t have got clemont or serena#or the companions in alola#BUT *points to the companions in Alola*#CLEARLY having a big cast of companions isn’t the end of the world#they could’ve easily still included serena and MAYBE clemont too#The Alola Cast probably would’ve got a bit crowded BUT#there’s probably a way 2 make it work#exploring character dynamics would’ve been so damn fun#tempted to watch the rest of the anime now so i can figure out how they’d fit into the equation#like i’m certain that bring iris and cilan along would’ve spread the cast too thin but there’s ways to make it work#btw i’m talking like if they brought iris and cilan into the kalos region and then added serena and clemont in#you could also throw bonnie in there that’d be cute probably#idk realistically i guess they’d probably part ways after kalos BUT.#SHAKES TEXT BOX#LISTEN LISTEN WHAT IF THEY DIDN’T
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