#I can’t lie before I really got into timeskip I also thought the changes in zoro was just Oda choosing to rewrite him diffenrtky more badas

[kacievvbbbb]

I think it’s interesting how as time goes on Zoro kind of becomes more and more like mihawk in some ways whether that’s just because if you spend time with someone for 2 years you’re bound to pick up their habits or a deliberate attempt to emulate him is a conversation for another time. And Mihawk and Zoro where already pretty similar at the start so it’s a little hard to notice now.

But yeah whether unconsciously or consciously Zoro is becoming a bit more like Mihawk and it’s interesting to think that while this means maturing in some ways (he’s swordsmanship for one but he’s also just quieter much more assured of himself) it also means deaging in some others.

Despite their significant age gap and general dispositions, when it comes down to it Zoro is just a lot more emotionally mature and developed than Mihawk is. And a big part of why is because he found something larger than himself to devote his life too, hell Mihawk himself even kind of acknowledges this when he agrees to take Zoro on as a student when Zoro begs for the sake of his captain and crew. He acknowledges that putting aside his own ego and dreams for the sake of someone else isn’t something he can do and sees it as a fault in himself and a strength in Zoro.

Mihawk may be outwardly mature and his skills defiently did not stagnant but I’d wager that Mentally Mihawk is still stuck at the same age he was when he took over the title of world’s strongest swordsman. Honestly maybe even younger. And it isn’t until training Zoro, letting Perona stay with him, for probably the first time in his life taking charge of lives outside his own did he finally unarrest his development.

If Zoro is purposely trying to emulate Hawkeyes, which it wouldn’t be a surprise if he was that’s who he’s trying to be Afterall, then it would honestly set him back emotionally because fundamentally as he is now Mihawk’s attitude doesn’t work in a crew. It’s too singular, too abrasive. And while that abrasiveness can be useful in Zoro’s role as Luffy’s first mate sometimes it makes him a little too callous a little too apathetic, like with his disregard for Luffy’s sadness over vegapunk.

But Zoro has his crew to temper that, they are honestly just too ridiculous to ever stay serious around. And try as he might to hide it Zoro is also just a silly dude who likes to be horrifically petty with his opponents. And zoro still has so much fire in him, so much he has too prove and so much he wants to protect to ever really fall into Mihawk’s apathy. Zoro has Luffy who even after they reach their dreams will probably still continue to turn the world upside down forever keeping Zoro in some kind of trouble and his life interesting.

Zoro can’t be Mihawk because even Mihawk can’t be Mihawk anymore. Being with crossguild and crossing with the Red hair pirates and the strawhats is going to change him, it has too. if Mihawk is going to live after losing his title he’s probably gonna have to become a little bit more like Zoro.

[sukirichi]

OKEY I GOT A FEW THINGS I NEED TO SAY

First of all, I knew that something incestuous was happening, since when Iris told Rin that she could never be with someone like him but mine was more twisted cuz... i- uh... thought that Iris and Rin were half-siblings 🫣😨

Second, I was already imagining the epilogue but the time y/n was saying that she was choosing Kiyoomi. I literally imagined how it is set 20-30 years in the future, where Kiyoomi and y/n visit/thank a farmer and it turns out to be Rin. I was already crying before I got to the twist at the end lol

And by the time I reached the end, I was already imagining how Kiyoomi decided to visit/thank a local family for their contribution to the Crown just to find out it is Rin and y/n's family lol

Third, you've mentioned that someone in the Palace is hoping for y/n and Rin's downfall but if it's not Iris, then I wonder who it is 🤔 Because I can not recall if anyone has shown an ounce of resentment... UNLESS IT IS USHIWAKA BECAUSE HE WAS EAGER TO TAKE ON THE THRONE IF RIN COULD NOT

Fourth, did Kiyoomi know that Iris was his half-sister? Or did he have some inkling that there was something weird between them and that's why he never touched her?

iris and rin being half siblings oh naur… I’m not gonna lie, I planned for iris and kiyoomi to be half siblings since like. years back when I first started dtd which was around 2022? yeah but then when I was rewriting it again I was kinda iffy because I was scared it wouldn’t be received well so I thought of omitting that part but then as I got to writing that chapter, my old plans just made more sense so I brought it back GAHSJKA. also OMG WAIT YOU’RE BREAKING MY HEART. I ACTUALLY THOUGHT OF THAT TOO and I remember telling my friend about how like… farmer! rin and kita LOL like obvs kiyoomi has his own land and farm so its natural that they’re going to visit other farms too especially because like in the timeskip (if it was omiyn endgame) then I can see them ruling over itachiyama happily and just!! yknow, living the good life while also caring so much about their people!! omiyn would actually really be good rulers and imagine they pay a visit then see rin working there and its just… UGH IT JUST BREAKS MY HEART. ALSO NOT FARMER RIN STILL CONTRIBUTING TO THE CROWN? STOP OMG THAT HURTS SO GOOD

agahjska no it isn’t ushi!! he may want to take the crown but he isn’t out here plotting for anyone’s downfall BUTTTTT hmmm actually it’s still a character that was written with quite some scenes but I got so lost in the flow of fic (because I feel like sometimes when I’m in the process of writing it, it tells me to go this way and that way that I often just disregard my outlines all over) lol SO UHM I guess I can’t really reveal who it was anymore because I never wrote it in the latest updates </3 let’s just say it was the queen though hehehe because their downfall would mean her success hehehe

yep, kiyoomi knew that iris was his half sister! he didn’t find out because the queen told him, but he overheard a conversation between iris and her mom one time and after that he was just like “oh hell nauh I’m out of here!” so yep GAHSAGAHJ but that leads to the question!! did omi also know that rin wasn’t his real brother? with that, he wasn’t informed about it either but kiyoomi is very quiet and liked to roam around a lot so he may or may not have discovered the queen’s secrets long ago. you might be thinking like, well why did he just let everything happen? why did he keep all those secrets when he could’ve done something to change it? the answer is that… kiyoomi doesn’t want trouble. he thinks exposing the queen’s secrets isn’t worth it, and during those times he honestly didn’t care what people around him did – he just wanted to be alone. it was only when he started falling for us that he felt the need to do something different, that’s why kiyoomi was so wary of everything and protective over us because he knows the shady things going around the palace

[yemilnisu]

I feel you too! when I’m on a road trip, my mind keeps on wandering 🙋🏻‍♀️

Can I request for Iwa? I miss this guy so much 🤧 Hmm.. where his gf is asking him a lot of questions because she saw him with a girl and it bothered her, Iwa became annoyed and it lead to a fight. U can change the scenario if u want hehehe sucker for angst to fluff here. Thank you!

Have a safe trip too!

nisu entries:

hi, bub! I apologize for the late response. I changed it a bit because I’m an idiot and taught that in the timeskip this was Iwa’s job ksjsjs I hope you’ll still enjoy this :>

DOUBT

Synopsis: there’s always something that will make you question your faith to your partner but the question is would the both of you work it out or break it off?

Pairing: gym instructor!iwaizumi x fem!reader

Genre: angst to fluff

Word Count: 1.8K

Having a professional gym instructor as your boyfriend is fun. You get to go to the gym as much as you’d like and you can stay as long as you’d like and you also get a hot instructor to guide you with no fees needed, just give him all your love and affection afterwards and it’s all good.

But there’s always something that you hate about his job. All these girls can take advances towards your boyfriend. Especially this new girl that seems to take her advances to the next level and you watched as your boyfriend seems to enjoy his time with her.

The girl glanced at your direction, scanned you from head-to-toe and leaned towards your boyfriend’s ear and whispered something. The lad seems to become a little flustered for the reason that his cheeks flushed red then he peered to your direction, when you the two of you made eye contact, he weirdly avoided your gaze.

You waited patiently for this last session of his to finish, either listening to some music or simply scrolling through your feed but your mind was wandering somewhere else, whether what the girl’s relationship with your boyfriend was or what they were talking about earlier and right now. You trust your boyfriend with all your heart but the way his cheeks grew the hue of pink, made you question some things...

When the two of you got home, you contemplated on whether you’re going to ask him or not. Thinking he might get mad because that just means that you don’t trust him the same way he does.

But you can’t help it the memory of him blushing because of some other girl seriously made an impact to you. If he doesn’t love you anymore and find other girls attractive, you want to hear it from him.

“Uh, Hajime, who is she?” you asked trying not to sound like the ‘possessive’ girlfriend. You knew that it was his job and that was his client but you just can’t help to hear what she was to him.

“What do you mean?” he replied and quickly putting his attention back to what he was doing. He was arranging his schedule for tomorrow and he needed to finish it as soon as possible because a lot of people wanted to have a training session with him.

“The girl earlier...” you muttered under your breath as you sink into the couch, fidgeting with the hem of your shorts.

Iwaizumi’s gaze didn’t left the screen of his computer when he sighed, “you need to be a little more specific.” He knows you were beating around the bush and in that moment he was a bit irritated about it. Can’t you go straight to the point and tell him what’s on your mind? He’s a little busy you know? He really wanted to finish this ASAP.

You peered at your boyfriend and he side-eyed you, waiting for your response. “The one wearing the cyan sports wear,” you lisped.

“You mean Irina?” he admonished. “She’s the new client. Why?”

“And? Is- is that all? I mean- how would you describe her...?” you stuttered out as you swallow your nervousness to what his answer might be down your throat.

“She’s kinda cool I guess? She’s the funniest client I had,” he gushed. You were about to say something but the ringing of his phone cut you off. He looked at the caller id and answered the phone. “Hello, Irina?”

Iwaizumi stared at you for a second before standing up and walking to the balcony of your shared apartment.

You gawked at his back while he hold his phone close to his ear. Why doesn’t he want you to hear their conversation? Is it that personal? He said she was just his client but why would he be talking about private matters with her? Did he lie to you? Why would he lie to you?

You came back to your senses when he turned around to look at you, you avoided his gaze and stood up to walk to the bedroom. It was 10 pm so you decided to sleep already. You knew he would stay up until late at night arranging his schedule because that’s just how well known he his in this field.

An hour already passed by but you were still awake. Shifting your position every so often, trying to find yourself a comfortable position. But it was not that you’re not comfortable, the bed was soft, the blanket wrapped around you in such a cozy manner and the air conditioner was at the right temperature. Everything was perfect but those were not the reason to your problem, to why you can’t sleep. The problem was your constant overthinking about what happened and what Iwaizumi said earlier.

He said she was cool? And even funny? When a person finds someone funny they’ll get attached to them right? So does that mean sooner or later, he’ll get attached to her? What about you? What will happen to your relationship?

You wanted to talk to him but doing so might be his chance to break up with you. You felt hot tears stream down your cheeks and you slowly drifted into slumber.

When you woke up, the other side of the bed was already empty. You didn’t see him sleep beside you nor wake up beside him, it made your heart ache. Your guess is that he already left for work. You were disappointed, did he really forgot what day it is?

When you lift the covers off of you and placed your feet at the floor, the usual cold, hard floor felt soft. You caught sight a trail that is made of red flower petals. When and how did those petals come from? Did you slept at the wrong house?

You followed the trail trying to avoid stepping on anymore petals even though it was soft and the sensation of the sole of your feet with the mushy petals was adequate, you felt bad for stepping on them.

When you reached the end of the trail you were at the living room. There was fairy lights everywhere and the coffee table was full of snacks and sweets you love. There was also a fort made out of blankets and pillow, it looked extremely comfortable that you wanted to lay on them right that instant but there was still a lot of questions on your mind. Who made them?

You felt a presence behind you and you slowly turned around. There stood the culprit holding a bouquet of your favorite flowers.

“Happy anniversary!” Your boyfriend beamed. He gave you the bouquet and you confusingly accepted them.

“I thought you forgot- how did you even get them? These are so rare,” you were completely astound as how he got the flowers you were holding. You leaned forward to sniff the bouquet and the aroma from it lingers through your nostrils was so relaxing.

“How could I forget? I spent all night trying to move all the schedules I had today,” he grumbled but he wasn’t mad about having to move them, he was mad he didn’t spend anytime with you yesterday. “I had some help from Irina,” he observed your reaction when he mentioned that name once again.

He knew you were significantly vigilant about the girl. He knew how extra fidgety you were last night and how you sunk into the couch when you asked about her but he can’t tell you anything or it will ruin the surprise. “You see, it turns out that she owns a flower shop and to my luck they have the flowers you adores so much,” he explained.

“Oh? I didn’t know talking about flowers can make you flustered?” you bleated. Iwaizumi was confused for a second but it quickly turned into a smirk.

“Oh, so you were watching,” he snickered. It wasn’t his intention to make you jealous but he’s getting so much amusement from it. He wanted to tease you a little more but he didn’t because he knows that there’s a 50 percent chance it will turn into an argument and he didn’t want to risk it, he didn’t want to ruin you guys’ anniversary.

You bit your bottom lip as you just exposed yourself. Your heart was pounding out of your chest when he answered, “Who wouldn’t? When you’re talking about the person you love.”

You furrowed your eyebrows and tried to observe his expression.

“Yes, dummy. We were talking about you,” he bloated. You can feel the side of your lips arc upwards but you stop it before your boyfriend notices. “She said how lucky I was to have you and how extremely patient you were because you waited for our session to finish. She even said to never let you go because you were the type of girl that is one of a kind,” he elaborated.

You can see that he was sincere. Iwaizumi was never the type of guy to give you long paragraphs or tell you long speeches of how much he loves, he thought that those things are just too cringe for his liking and you completely understood. Even though he wasn’t the type to get cheesy with you he never fails to show how much he loves you.

Like he’ll try to fix his schedule just so he can pick you up and drop you off work, even though you have told him countless of times to not do that, he’s still doing it well you can’t really talk him out of things when he sets his mind to. And when he canceled all of his session for two whole days just so he can take care of you because you weren’t feeling well. That’s how the Hajime Iwaizumi shows affection, your Hajime Iwaizumi.

“And I don’t plan to. I’ll never ever let go of you, Y/n,” he continued, staring deep into your eyes and slowly leaning forward.

“You’re just saying that,” you huffed and shoved him the bouquet. You were completely messing with him. The look on his face when you pushed him away was priceless. His eyes wide open from your sudden rejected and lips slightly parted.

Before you can even take a step away from him, he grabbed your wrist and pulled you closer by the waist. You always knew how to tease him and Iwaizumi doesn’t mind, he doesn’t mind being teased by you. He found it kinda hot, how you can easily piss him off just because rejected his kiss or his hug. Only you have that kind of power and affect on him. “I don’t think so, princess,” he murmured, his voice deep and raspy. He leaned towards your face and kissed you slowly and with so much affection.

This time you let yourself smile. Who knew even after years of dating Iwaizumi never fails to make the butterflies in your stomach go feral.

[fe-semi-decent-scenarios]

oooh could you do protective headcanons for the golden deer too??🥺

{I most certainly can. Y’all know I love these tropes so keep ‘em coming. Hope it’s to your liking! :3}

Claude: 

6/10

Neutral, with just a tad bit of nerves. 

Look. Claude has bigger fish to fry than what you’re gallivanting on about during the day. The man has a dream to catch with literally a country and 1/3 (woot woot alliance) on his shoulders. 

First, the future. Then, you. Can’t have a life together if there is no place for it to be had, yeah? 

This doesn’t mean that he never worries about you. Quite the contrary, if he begins then he can’t stop. So he doesn’t tinker the thought. 

Instead he has his most trusted allies at your back. During the Academy days you were left under Hilda’s watchful eye, and during the war you are always nearby (courtesy of matchmaker Prof.Byleth) 

Once he puts a ring on it you’ll have guards. No problem. 

He also trusts your own capabilities. One doesn’t train every day to walk out with nothing  

Also

You make me laugh if you think Claude believes you’ll ever cheat on him 

Not that he’s cocky okay, maybe a bit  but no one would dare put the moves on “The Master Tactician’s” s/o

Any suitor coming your way is peasant fodder. If not to him, than to your own personal retaliation. 

Yupp, nothing to worry about. You’ve got it covered. He’ll only step in if you physically come ask him 

and with a bit of teasing he’ll comply 

However, Claude is very sensitive to illness for obvious reasons. This is why he’s listed at a six. He always insists on tasting your food

It was a gimmick at first, and in the beginning he’d make banter to sneak a bite while you remain all unknowing of his true intentions 

He’ll be damned if someone ever poisons you. They won’t ever get the chance

Ignatz: 

9/10

Let us face it. Iggy is a worry-wart.

He freaks out over the most minuscule of situations. The poor lad nearly gets a heart attack at least once a day 

And no, i’m not just referring to his pre-timeskip self. Ignatz may have grown a head taller, got a backbone, fancy harem artist pants--but no, he did not lose his inner anxious zealot. That trait will cling until the day he dies sadly 

Having you at his side only makes things worse (in a good way. The trouble is worth it to him) 

Especially if you’re more of the risky sort. Expect him to mother hen if you cause ruckus around the monastery. He can and will lecture you to death (only to apologize and hide away after)

Now not only does he worry about his own issues, but also yours. I swear Ignatz acts like you are his second being. If someone scolds you, hurts you, etc. he acts like they did it to him 

Can be a bit dramatic, not gonna lie. He gets so worked up that his ears go red. Like, you can just t e l l he’s holding so much back because he doesn’t want to go too far

Don’t even get me started on if someone tries to make a move on you 

He becomes t o r n. It isn’t his place to tell you who to hang around, but ohmygodwhatifyourealizeheisn’tgoodenough 

iggy no, bad iggy. don’t think like that

He feels threatened so easily and not many would peg him the jealous type. He is, but hides it very well. 

If need be he will talk out his feelings with you. That’s something noteworthy of Ignatz: he uses his words. He may find communicating such thoughts aloud difficult, but if he truly is concerned then he will be honest with you.  

Raphael: 

10/10

Raphael believes in trust. He expects you to be honest and to not keep anything important secret. In return he’ll do the same. 

This is why he doesn’t care if someone is flirting. He could give less of a thought on gossip, rumors, or anything really. That effort can go towards training 

He truly, honest to Sothis, trusts you with all his heart. There isn’t any time to spend doing otherwise. Raph just wants to live happily and that means having you by his side 

Nor does he feel intimidated by anyone else either. I’m not saying that he reeks of resolved confidence, but Raph believes that you love him. Love topples any mindless flirting that other people throw your way 

but let’s get one thing straight 

If anybody, and I mean ANYBODY, tries to hurt you 

This guy’s having them for b r e a k f a s t. Pounded, sliced, and Smoked. The same way he liked his bacon. 

You are his family. Raphael protects his family, and those he cares about. 

You will never be alone. Goddess if you cry and someone else is the cause then he will take action. One fault of Raph is that while he’s a sweetie, he doesn’t think before acting a lot. Similar to Caspar, he just goes for it 

It takes a lot to get underneath Raph’s skin. 

In short: do not f*ck with his loved ones. He would take on Nemisis himself mono-e-mono if it meant protecting them 

Lorenz: 

8/10

Y’all going to sit there and try to convince me that Lorenz Hellman Gloucester doesn’t try to establish dominance? 

Key word: try

He’s quickly shut down

“Lorenz if you tell one more person that we’re betrothed, I swear that I’ll shave off your eyebrows” - You, one month post-confession 

Saying that you’re his perfect match is no excuse. Considering all the preaching he does on noble humility, you’d think he would want your private affairs off the notice board? 

It doesn’t take long for your peers to start complaining. Claude finds his behavior entertaining, but not a day goes by that someone doesn’t beg you to make him shut up 

Lorenz is also a bit old fashioned. He doesn’t like the idea of you fighting more than necessary

Once again, shut down 

Best way to deal with Lorenz is to let him think he has his way, then just do whatever. He gets upset, pouts, spouts his normal lecture, but then relents. All in due process with him 

Never thought I’d say this, but perhaps requesting not to be in the same troop together is the best option? You’d think he would fight better with an S tier relationship at his side? Nahhh. HE TAKES YOUR KILLS IT IS NOT FAIR 

He gives too much attention to what you’re doing, and not the enemy. Best if you stay separated

Ugh pray no one hits on you in front of him. Just... *screams* I don’t think anyone will, just to avoid him getting defensive. I swear the other deer take extensive preventative measures to avoid it.  

Hilda:

6/10

C’mon. This is Hilda we’re talking about 

You two most likely grew closer because she “asks” you for help so often 

Just like Claude, she has bigger fish to fry. The last type of person she wants to be is Holst (she loves him though don’t misinterpret that)

She does worry though 

Not enough to make her take the front lines, but a smidgen. Just to where you’ll get periodic check in’s 

Nothing obvious. A simple “what’s going on?”  as she inquired about your well-being 

A precarious scan-over as she checks for any new scars

She does get jealous though. There’s an entire castle full of available people and someone chooses to flirt with you? 

That just doesn’t make sense. Perhaps the “once something is taken it becomes more desirable,” saying has some truth 

She’s quite the clinger. You’ll just be walking and suddenly, BOOM, bubble-gum pink arm-candy in the corner of your vision

Once you two bypass the ‘puppy-love’ early stages, she changes. 

Despite her negligence beforehand, she does become overprotective   

Will fight if needed. Say you have a paralogue? Just so happens she was nearby and wants to tag along 

She also has to protect you from Holst. My dear, you cannot do that yourself. Brotherly wrath beseeches you, my god. Run dude run 

Marianne: 

3/10

A possessive streak is nonexistent in her blood. Such thing is a personal fear of her’s. Marianne refuses to conform to the stereotypes associated with her crest 

However, she does believe that one day you may leave her side. Marianne isn’t the most confident person. She...doubts 

Often does she wonder if you’re there solely to make her hurt. To love her and then one day disappear without a trace 

Anxieties like so will not go away overnight. She will not seek reassurance, which makes her more uncommunicative than most partners 

but no one is perfect. Neither are you. All you personally can do is politely decline any advances, and do your best to let Marianne know that you love her 

She isn’t particularly protective in any other sense either. She’ll heal you if needed, but special attention isn’t there

Marianne treats being a healer like how an ER doctor operates. On the field, everyone is equal. She is needed everywhere and cannot stay by your side. Otherwise lives will be lost, and that won’t be good for her conscience.

The same goes for all other aspects. If you’re gone, then you’re gone. If you’re sick, then you’re sick. She cannot give you special attention and acts in accordance to severity of the situation. Patients cannot be weighed in value via personal bias 

She has a surprisingly strong sense of self control, let me tell ya.

Lysithea:

7/10

She...does not have much time. Entering a romantic relationship was not a possibility that crossed her mind once before you 

Why bother when the ending is certain? Why leave someone brokenhearted, or a widow? Why give herself that extra stress when she’s already under so much as it is?

You can’t blame her for being extra cautious. While her life may be hanging on a string, that doesn’t mean yours has to end 

After some time she develops a resolve. If needed she would gladly lay her life down if it meant you could live another day 

A problematic conclusion. You two will argue often over how she cannot trade a ‘life for a life,’ just because of her special circumstances. Her mind always enforces that it’s the logical decision, and has trouble recognizing her own value

I suppose that comes with being a know-it-all, huh? Once her mind is set then there is no changing it 

Despite her brain sending all the signals that acting on jealousy is wrong...well, we know Lysithea 

She won’t come out and say she gets protective for your sake. Apparently anyone flirting with you already had business with her

Business that miraculously unfolds once you leave. Then suddenly they no longer have an interest? 

What’d she do? Threaten to shove a thoron up their rectum? No one knows 

Leonie: 

9/10 

She is the mom who’d create a strict morning routine for her kids to follow before school 

Or a thorough itinerary on a vacation 

Not a moment or bullion to be wasted! 

Cannot express enough how much this girl cares. She can become annoying from all the interference, but you’ll never become a bum with her in your life 

You might want to ask her to butt out. Remind her that you’re not one of the kids from her village, and that you can handle yourself 

Sometimes you’ll joke and say “yes mom,” because she gets b o s s y 

Which will earn you either: a) a glare, or b) her playing along and confusing everyone else 

So in a sense, yeah she’s protective. Overbearing in her own Leonie way 

Not the jealous type. Leonie doesn’t look at what other people have, and instead focuses on her own life. If someone wants to shamelessly throw themselves at your feet then that’s their issue. You know better than to cheat on her 

I can see her complaining to the captain or to Byleth though. Why waste time when the issue can easily be solved? Obviously someone with the time to flirt has time to do training drills  

Bonus! Cyril: (because during my first play-through I kept expecting GD to take him under their wing. They did not, and Nintendo missed out.) 

5/10

He personally hates being treated like a child. When someone doesn’t take him seriously Cyril’s self restraint goes b o o m 

So he won’t do that to you. You’re a capable individual and that’s that. Nothing more for him to interfere with 

His only protective streak lies when you’re incapable of doing things yourself. Aka: injured, ill, resting, etc. 

He’ll nag you for not being careful, but it’s not hard to miss the tears pricking his eyes 

He’s also very perceptive towards break-in’s. Many people have tried to kidnap/assassinate people of higher standing. He’s witnessed many attempts towards lady Rhea. I see him taking night shifts for patrol often, and after the war the habit sticks with him.

He takes a lot onto his shoulders often. It’s not bad. Being dedicated is an admirable trait, yet if you’re down someone will have to stop him from picking up the slack. 

He’s no healer, and leaves that job to the professionals. However he doesn’t want anyone to disturb you with the work your missing. So he’ll do it in your stead 

Manuela lets him stay in the infirmary past visitation hours. Mostly because he’s so busy during the day that he can’t come by 

He won’t return to his room those nights. He prefers to be by your side, just in case. 

Other than this type of situation- no, he’s not protective in the slightest.  

[sumire-bride]

Sumire and shuus route (demo) ecstasy prologue

((READ HASHTAGS PLZ!! It has the tw before you start the route!))

Scene is in living room

Sumire- ..pwah… (..it seems I have grown quite tired… in fact.. I have been more tired then usual… how strange…)

(..My body has been out of control as of late… oh goodness I don’t understand this at all… I ended up getting sick again this morning… I wonder what is wrong…)

*THUMB*

Sumire- ..ah… (..my chest stings…)

(..my chest has been burning or begins to sting every.. few hours or so… it is truly painful….)

*laito appears*

Laito- ne bitch-chan…~

Sumire- … (..maybe I should find a book about this… or..! Maybe I should do something to keep my mind off this… or drink some tea… hmm…)

Laito- bitch-chan.. can’t you hear me..? Ah.. her eyes are closed..

Sumire- … (..like shuu-sama said… this must be a tiny flu … nothing I have not had before… it will leave soon enough…)

Laito- nfu how cute, she closes her eyes when she’s lost in thought.. pretty dumb when your in a house of vampires though..

Hey

*snap snap*

Bitch-chan..!

Sumire- ..!!… ah..

Oh… hello laito-same… is there something I can do for you…?

Laito- you were ignoring me, a little rude don’t you think..? I just wanted to grab your attention,

I’d like to have a little chat with you.. bit-ch- cha-n~

Sumire- ..chat…? Of course… if having a chat makes laito-sama happy then I am willing to do so… please say what you need to…

Laito- fufu, always so eager to listen to others aren’t you..? Well..

There’s something different about you.. like your scent, it’s stronger now.. I felt like I should just ignore it but..

The scent kept coming back to me every time I’m near you.. mind telling me what that’s about hmm..?

Sumire- ..scent…? Do I have a scent…? I am not quite sure I understand….

Laito- yeah a scent is on you. Sure you had one before but now.. it’s stronger for some reason.

I got curious.. so I wanted to ask our bitch-chan about it.. seems you don’t understand it either

Sumire- ..I am sorry…. If there is a way I can understand and please you please tell me….

Laito- ufu, I’m beginning to think you have been doing some “things” with someone~ or..

One of my brothers, but who could it be hm.. so tell me bitch-chan, what type of things have you been doing..?

Sumire- ..things….? Well.. I have been sick and I’ve been around shuu-sama… I need to make sure he does not get hurt…

Laito- around shuu? Ahh so you went after the big brother, what have you two been doing together hmm..?

Sumire- ..mm… we just talk if I am honest…. Not always much….

Is there a reason you would like to know this…?

Laito- do I really need one..? Well if I’m being honest.. I smell I completely different smell on you.. your scent is there but..

I also smell another being on you, and not necessarily on you.. but it’s like there’s a scent inside you, ahh, you having me thinking about it so much and it’s simply enticing me to know more..

Sumire- …?.. inside me…? I am not quite sure I understand…

Laito- for the first little bit the scent of your blood changed but then.. after a little while it’s like a whole new beings scent has the one side of your body

I want to know.. have you been doing anything with shuu, like.. something we consider, naughty.. ufu, go on you can tell me, I won’t tell anyone

Sumire- ..naughty…? Uh.. (..pardon me but…) ah..! It is not like we have been doing anything of the sort…! Please do not make such assumptions….!

Laito- aha..! So my theory was correct..! It only seemed like the only option to go by since shuus the only one who stays here with bitch-chan..

You both were alone for so long, I wonder what type of things he did to your body..ahh.. the thought makes me want to know myself.. but

Sumire- ..er… (..that moment with shuu-sama and me is very secret.. it was not only a confusing but special moment for me… I did not want people to know about it…)

But.. what…?

Laito- I don’t think I can do that now.. I’m not even sure if I should suck your blood anymore.. mm.. how sad I won’t be able to,

Sumire- ..?… I am not quite sure what you mean… (..I don’t understand…)

Laito- you don’t know..? You haven’t figured it out..? Well I guess I of all people shouldn’t be surprised over how dense our little bitch-Chan can be..

Sumire- ..ah… do you maybe know why I am sick…? I would like to know… maybe I could find a way to cure myself besides resting…

Laito- fufu your adorable bitch-chan, you have no idea, I’ll tell you because your laito is so nice..

Your pre-gna-nt~

Sumire- ..huh….? (..pregnant…? I don’t.. huh…)

Laito- hahaha..! Look at that enticing face! You look so surprised it’s laughable.. so how do you feel about that hm..? The first bride to come in here and actually make a child with one of us..

Sumire- ..what… (..no… I can not be pregnant… I’ve read books about this thing called pregnancy…. There is just no way….)

..but… how is laito-Sama so sure…? You can not be sure from scent…. (..I can not sense any reason for him to lie to me… there’s no bad intent… could I truly be…)

Laito- vampires have a good nose, it’s how we can find prey so easily, and it’s also how we find cute women like you,

Sumire- … (..But.. I can not get pregnant…. If father found out… what… what would he think of me…? No… what would he do with me… or mother… or chousoka-nii…. Everything would go to hell if oroshii-nii found out….!)

Laito- oh don’t look so worried bitch-chan.. this is considered good for humans right..? Well I guess maybe for some

I’ve not once pictured me as a uncle, but the worlds full of surprises isn’t it,

Sumire- ..I can not let this happen… oh if anyone one of my family found out… ahh…

Laito- ufu, I’ll leave you to your own little thoughts about this okay,

*laito walks off*

Laito- bye bye bitch-chan.. I’ll keep this our little secret Kay..~!

Sumire- …uh… (..I couldn’t possibly be… no… no way… there is just no way….) … (..I am… I am not…)

???- (isn’t that what you wanted..?)

Sumire- ..what… I do not understand…. (..a voice…)

???- (a loving home.. a husband.. and a child.. you didn’t care who.. you just wanted that life you’ve seen in the book..)

Sumire- …please stop talking…. (..why is there a voice…)

???- (..don’t deny it.. you got what you wanted.. so why are you so upset..?)

Sumire- …stop… I don’t want to hear it…

(..that is what I wanted… right…?)

*flashback*

Flashback is in a big office

Young sumire- … (..wow…! This book has a happy ending…! Father gave me a new book… hm..)

*sumire flips the page*

Young sumire- … (..what is that…? “And soon this child.. in.. inside me will be full of love.. it will give us the love we need.. my de..dear…” ..?… child..? There are other children besides me…? I will continue to read it…)

*TIMESKIP*

Young sumire- …!.. (..this women had a baby…! Amazing…! I never knew a women could do that…! And her and the man got married…! What a happy ending…)

Fufu..

???- my child.. what are you laughing about..?

Sumire- ..hehe… the book gave me… this women had a baby…! And she got married….. I did not know there other children like me… well.. besides koukai-nii and the twins…

..how do you know make children father…?

???- *cough cough* dear that’s something you can learn later in life.. I won’t explain that to you

Sumire- ..i see… well.. the women is very happy… hehe… I want to have kids when I’m.. older…! And get married…!

..can I get married and have children father…? I promise I’ll still be with you…

???- married and children..? Why would you want such a thing..? You have me,

Im the only one you need my dear, no one else..

Sumire- ..I know but… I want to be as happy as she is in the book… she said that this child will bring happiness…

..I want to bring happiness to the world…. So maybe.. I can make you and I both happy if I have one… oh please father won’t you let me have thing called marriage and a child…?

???- er.. haah.. you are quite the little girl aren’t you.. well.. maybe when your of age I’ll find you a man of my liking, and then you can have as many children with that man as I see fit, how about that hm..?

Sumire- ..hahah…! If that makes you happy then I am happy with that decision…!

???- fufu.. settle down my love, that won’t happen any time soon you understand..? Your still a child you know

Sumire- ..okay…! (..father is the best…! I hope he picks a good man for me… I promise i will make the world happy…)

*FLASHBACK ENDS*

Sumire- … (..Father… I am so sorry… I.. I didn’t mean to…)

Monologue

..sometimes.. I wish I never read that book..

Because of how I feel at this moment..

It makes me seem so ungrateful for what I’ve always wanted since I was a little girl..

In the story.. everything seemed so happy.. that child made the women happy.. the marriage made her happy..

..I wanted that life.. to be loved and have something to love..

But then again I’m beginning to learn that books are full of lies..

I love a demon.. I have another being inside that I’m unsure will come out truly loved..

my life is the opposite of the books..

I truly lived a full childhood and life of lies..

—to be continued—

maniac epilogue—ecstasy 1

[kendrixtermina]

Interesting details about the 3 houses cast (From dialogue in ‘Heroes’)

The first name Ferdinand’s father is ‘Ludwig’ and he is apparently an insufferable braggart who also said his own name alot

Before moving into her uncle’s castle, Anette spent her early childhood in a small, humble house in the Capital. Gilbert & his wife couldn’t afford domestic servants so she did the chores herself.

Mercedes’ father died in a “conflict in the empire”. Before he died, he taught her mom the secret recipe that Mercedes mentions in the Constance and Dedue supports. A bit of her fatalistic passive attitude early on comes from feeling that she couldn’t change much about her life while she and her mom were being mistreated at the Bartels’ home

Claude has a lot of fun with the mushroom poison.

Despite their student’s glowing opinions, Byleth isn’t actually all that confident about their professor-ing, which is probably not unexpected given how the job was suddenly dumped in their lap.

They’re somewhat uncertain about whether they have real connections with people beyond just the professional level. I guess that’s another parallel to Edelgard.

Someone observed that they look “more like a mercenary and less like a teacher” while they’re fighting.

Apparently their students described them as “a bit eccentric at times”

They seem to like/appreciate it when other ppl can pick up what they’re really feeling/thinking. (I really hope Jeralt knew that) 

 It’s considered rare for Claude and Dimitri to agree on anything

The sad thing is that the trio is noted to be quite effective when they cooperated. I guess we also saw this in Cindered Shadows

There is a hilarious sequence where Byleth is like, “This may call for drastic measures” and everyone starts looking at Claude and correctly assuming that he’s probably already cooking up some sort of crazy plan

 Ferdinand apparently likes the “refined way” that Edelgard swings her axe

Petra considers hunting one of the most important skills you can have, both because you acquire many crucial materials (like leather etc) and because it also hones a lot of skills. Bridgid is very green & plentiful, so most people do some degree of hunting and even the rulers are expected to know it. Someone remarks that it’s probably a culture that places emphasis on self-sufficiency. That’s an interesting way to think about it, especially if you think about Petra’s attitudes, how she approaches even this cobjectively crappy political hostage situation as an opportunity and has a very problem-solvy approach to things. I’d noted that, but I’d never connected it with the hunting thing; I thought it was just Petra being awesome, which it basically still is, but it adds a cool layer to consider how she got this way and how this may be her way to stay close to her homeland’s values even in exile.

“In Brigid, there is a phrase we say. A gray sky will be pierced by the sun. A raging tide will be leading to land. Beyond failure, success is waiting.” 

Hubert seemed to know that he ten elites fought against the godess even pre timeskip. 

He also sees Edelgard as one of the few ppl who really paid attention to him when he was younger -  I guess this goes with this understated complex he has about his looks & personality.

Edelgard likes to just lie around and relax, but only when she’s all alone. At least pre timeskip or pre holy-tomb scene she didn’t think like she could really be herself in the company of others. She does seem to put some deliberate thought into what image to project/embody

Dimitri seems to think that having a crest (and high status) makes it his duty to protect & take care of the people – I guess that’s another way in which he’s completely ruled by obligation. He gets characteristically intense about this. “My life was never mine to begin with, I guess I haven’t the right to throw it away”

the glorious “nice weather” exchange has already been posted. Edelgard (and Lysithea) are the first to clarify that they shouldn’t bring their grudges into this situation since they’re not in Fodlan atm.

Edelgard and Claude are beyond shook when AzureMoon!Dimitri actually agrees. Chill Dimitri is apparently not something they ever imagined. He is obviously the most changed in “his” route, with the other two its no less profound but a lot more subtle. 

Lysithea has an interest in botany (now I really want her to talk plants with Bernie )

Hilda: “I haven’t heard about there being a future me here. She’s probably busy relaxing on a beach or something…”

Mercie and Anette immediately reassured each other that their future selves are probably cute af. Aww

 This is probably unsurprising, but future!Dimitri is still very tormented by his less than stellar actions during and right after the timeskip

Small Dimitri is heartbreakingly surprised to hear that there’s any version of him that’s alive and on the throne, though he hides it because his friends (or at least Annie and Mercie) did not have such doubt

Edelgard decides from the get-go not to concern herself with the future version of her. I get the sense that she really wants to avoid the scenario where she allows her resolve about what she feels absolutely must be done to falter after meeting a regretful future version of herself; I really like this, I know some haters will probably spin this into something about her not caring about the consequences of her actions but it really circles back to how she’s philosophically all about self-determination & can’t let something like a future possibility determine what she does… nor can she back off a sacrifice meant for the greater good just because it might turn out poorly for her (which it does, just not in the CF timeline that this particular future version is from)

 Cut to the future versions who have contrasting ideas about what to do about their tiny selves. Claude thinks they should not risk causing any time paradoxa. Dimitri ponders the thought of warning his younger self (and past!Byleth). Edelgard doesn’t think it would make any difference at all, especially since they would each be showing their tiny self the timeline where they win.

Though I guess one think to consider here is probably that Dimitri would be the most surprised by a sucessful older version of himself

Claude eventuallly agrees, since they were each doing what they thought was best (Claude, too, is sort of uniquely situated to grasp this as the one who can part on good terms with each of the other two in their respective timelines) – though he’s hoping that the time crash will maybe send their younger selves in a different direction (in which you see that this is distinctly VW!Claude & thus a bit more hopeful)

 the others actually agree & it ends with a fun semi-friendly sparring match

 Edelgard wants to show past!Byleth how awesome she’s going to be in the future

it is very in line with my interpretation of her character that she would describe her own disproportional strenght as “hideous”

Claude’s lines are solid gold in this. Like he’s just being aggressive irrevent to bridge the obvious awkwardness “Go on, we’re old dining hall palls!”

This gets Lysithea wondering what might’ve happened if they’d actually graduated as planned. I mean I kind of respect that they DIDNT put in a golden ending but I guess if you want one you can imagine that they got one after returning from Askr I guess.

let’s just hope that “the timeline none of them experienced” doesn’t just turn out to be silver snow lol

[sortavibing]

what the haikyuu!! boys/girls favorite songs/bands are📼

hello! this is my first post so i hope im doing it right :P anyways enjoy!

karasuno💾

daichi: Don’t Stop Believin’ by Journey. he’s such a typical dad holy shit so yeah he 100% listens to this i don’t know what else to say like- 🤠 yeah he probably sings it in his minivan (you cannot convince me that he doesn’t drive a minivan)

sugawara: WAP by Cardi B. yes we stan this bad bitch. he LOVES this song like he can do the dance and everything and he pulls it off like the baddie he is please someone animate this i NEED it anyways yeah he doesn’t really sing it but he 100% has done the dance in front of daichi.

asahi: Lullaby by Johannes Brahms. this baby hes such a slut for classical music and he always listens to it before a big game to calm his nerves. he pretends that he’s listening to something “tough” but everyone knows that he listens to classcial, they just pretend to not know.

nishinoya: Old Town Road by Lil Nas X. yeah, he hasn’t gotten out of the old town road phase and he unironically sings it and does a yeehaw dance. no one can stop him because everyone (except tanaka) is too embarrassed to be around him when he sings and dances, so he thinks it’s ok (honey, no), also, tanaka sometimes joins in and it’s painful to hear and see.

tanaka: GOOBA by 6xi9ine. he thinks it’s “badass” and tries to rap it whenever it comes on, and he fails horribly, but nishinoya always hypes him up saying that he did a good job, causing him to start singing again please save karasuno from hinata, nishinoya, and tanaka’s singing

ennoshita: Cough Syrup by Young The Giant. though it may not seem like it, but this man has got music TASTE like- yes. anyways yeah this song is a vibe and he really likes it. he once tried to introduce good music to tanaka and nishinoya, but they said it was “boring” and “sappy” and he never wanted to beat them up more than he did then.

kageyama: he listens to like play by play volleyball games or podcasts that talk about improving your skills because he’s a hoe for that volleyball shit try and prove me wrong i dare you

hinata: Red by Taylor Swift. he has terrible music taste and he literally just listens to what’s popular and like what his sister listens to. he likes to sing outloud and his voice is worse than oikawa- like karasuno cannot handle hinata singing at all it’s literal earrape.

tsukishima: Fancy by Twice. tsukki is a hardcore kpop stan, and he 100% listens to twice religiously, like that's the majority of his playlist, and he refuses to play his music out loud, and everyone thinks he listens to like rock or some shit like that. only yams knows that tsukki listens to it and he was sworn to secrecy.

yamaguchi: Sports by Beach Bunny. he likes to hum it quietly to himself because he really likes the beat and the lyrics. tsukishima has this song saved on his playlist just for yams and he plays it whenever they share headphones.

kiyoko: Body by Megan Thee Stallion. i dont know what to say, she is just a baddie who loves the confidence boost she gets from listening to this song as she should kiyoko is amazing she even learned the tiktok dance to this song and she performed it to yaichi yaichi.exe has stopped working but she won’t show it to anyone else anyways shes just a baddie and we stan.

yachi: Green by Cavetown. yeah she really likes the calming peaceful vibes this song has and she likes to sing it quietly when she is in a public place, like a bus or a subway to calm herself down and she also plays it when she studies.

aoba johsai 📼

oikawa: Bubblegum Bitch by MARINA because it just raidates that “i’m hotter than you” energy (just like he does our twink king). he prob sings it in the locker room while everyone is changing and his singing bursts everyones eardrums omg the whole team hates oikawa’s singing so much

matsukawa: Toad sings WAP he’s such a memer like- yeah so he and makki probably obsess over these toad sings video because 1. they are funny as hell like it’s some god tier comedy and 2. they say oikawa sounds like that when he sings it’s true tho

hanamaki: Toad sings Sweet Home Alabama. he and mattsun have a running debate about which one is better, and they ask the opinions of literally everyone they meet about it. so far more people have chose maki’s favorite song and he’s a little smug about it.

iwaizumi: Ride by twenty one pilots. this is probably like one of his secret pleasures. most people think he listens to like rap or something like that, but he really likes this song. he hopes that oikawa will never find out about this, because he will never hear the end of the teasing, so he just listens to this song while he is by himself, or just without the team.

yahaba: Walking On A Dream by Empire Of The Sun. idk this just feels right, like i really have no explanation why i think this works it just does🤠

kindaichi: Wake Me Up bye Avicii. this man is borderline bad taste, but we will let it slide for now, so yeah again, he just gives me the avicii stan vibes, he probably thought he would like rap more, but one day he heard avicii playing on the radio and he was hooked. he still pretends to like rap because he has a “reputation”

kunimi: Advice by Cavetown. this man gives absolutley zero fucks about everyone’s opinions you bet your ass he listens to this song. he 100% puts headphones in to listen to this while someone is talking to him because he just doesn’t want to have a conversation with them. everyone hates when he does that, but again, he doesn’t give a shit.

kyotani: We Will Rock You by Queen. yeah this is probably his pump up jam and he always listens to it before a game to get hyped up. if anyone dares to talk to him while he has headphones in, he will not hesitate to bite their head off i know this for a fact.

nekoma💾

kuroo: Yarichin Bitch Club OP. ever since kenma introduced him to anime OPs, he’s been obsessed, and he loves the yarichin op becuase 1. it’s dirty and he thinks that’s funny and 2. it actually slaps like why does it go so hard i’m in awe- anyways yeah he always sings it in the most public places just to get attention bc he’s a whore for the spotlight like that 😌. he also sings it with bokuto whenever they are together bc we stan the dumbass duo.

yaku: Arms Tonite by Mother Mother. yeah he is kinda obsessed with mother mother but this is hands down his favorite song. lev once heard yaku listening to this song and made fun of it, and let’s just say lev got the ass whopping of his life, yaku takes no prisoners- anyways yeah he just vibes with it and it’s great.

yamamoto: Who Let The Dogs Out by Baha Men. the whole nekoma team HATES his music taste, and they never let him play any music becasue- it’s just so bad i’m sorry this man has no taste like have you seen his hair? (the slander is real :))

kenma: Hikaru Nara (Your Lie in April OP) kenma loves to listen to anime ops while gaming bc they are highkey all bops and he says they help him concentrate. he tried to get kuroo to listen to the songs with him, and kuroo started to like listening to anime OPs, so they usually listen to them together.

fukunaga: he listens to like john mulaney comedy shows becuse he’s a little dork like that and (timeskip spoiler) he becomes a comedian later on so it just fits 🤠

inuoka: Roar by Katy Perry. again, it’s just the vibes that i get from him, i can’t explain it, he just seems like a big dork who would like this shit. so yeah, he probably sings this song really loudly when it comes on and the whole nekoma team just has to tolerate him when he does it.

lev: Ra Ra Rasputin by Boney M. he probably started listening to this song as a joke because he’s Russian, and the songs about Russia, but he genuinely started enjoying it and whenever it comes on, he starts singing. his voice isn’t actually that bad but yaku still gets annoyed as hell when he does it and beats the shit out of him.

fukurodani 📼

bokuto: Mr. Brightside by The Killers. he gets really excited when this plays and always gets up to sing it really really loudly, and do a really energetic dance. akaashi calm your child please he’s not a good singer, but he’s not a terrible one either, so the team has just gotten used to it.

akaashi: This Side of Paradise by Coyote Theory. eep akaashi the hopeless romantic we stan- anyways yeah he found this band in like his first year of high school and has been addicted ever since. he doesn’t really share his taste in music with others, but the one time he let bokuto listen to music with him, bokuto got way to excited and accidentally dropped akaashi’s phone and cracked it.

konoha: Spirits by The Strumbellas. idk i just feel like he would listen to this song. he would never play his music out loud though, because bokuto always takes the aux cord/ speaker before anyone gets the chance to.

shiratorizawa💾

ushijima: he doesn’t listen to music. like if tendou offers to play music with him, he’ll accept, but like he’s just confused why people like listening to music so much, so he will just listen with that face he always makes (😐) while tendo is jumping around, dancing, and going batshit crazy.

semi: All I Wanted by Paramore. he is flat out obsessed with this band and he learned how to play this song on his electric guitar and has went to a couple of their concerts. semi 100% makes fun of his teammates music taste as he should

tendou: Yoda CBT remix (i linked it if you want to listen), ok but seriously, i think money machine by 100 Gecs. tendo is so chaotic and i think his music taste reflects that. he cannot listen to music without dancing or singing, and he always plays his music on full volume (hearing? what’s that?) tendo never gets the aux cord, because the last time they gave it to him, the speakers almost broke.

goshiki: Eye of the Tiger by Survivor. this little dork omg i really don’t have an explanation for this, it just fits and i take no criticism on this because y’all know it’s true.

shirabu: Cigarette Ahegao by Penelope Scott. semi introduced him to this song and he pretened he didn’t like it but he’s secretly obsessed. i think he generally doesn’t like music but this song- this song is such a vibe that he has to like it. (anyways yeah go listen to this song its so good)

inarizaki 📼

kita: Animal by Neon Trees. he isn’t really open about listening to music, he only listens to his songs when he is alone and when he has earbuds in, and if someone walks up to him to talk, he takes his earphones out (we stan a respectful boy). so yeah, he isn’t a big fan of music, but he still likes to listen from time to time.

aran: You Know It by Colony House. he will never listen to music in front of anyone because whenever he hears this song, he has to sing, and he doesn’t like singing in front of people (the miya twins are annoying he can’t do anything in front of them🙄), but yeah, this songs really good we stan this man’s music taste.

atsumu: Girls in the Hood by Megan Thee Stallion. this man LOVES this song like- he is obsessed. if you ask him something, he will literally reply with “can’t talk right now, doing hot girl shit” and he just walks away and ur just like- what the fuck bro. anyways yeah he thinks he’s a bad bitch but he really is just a dork.

suna: 505 by The Arctic Monkeys. yeah, the basic choice would probably be “why’d you only call me when you’re high”, but i feel like he would like this song better because it starts off kinda vibey, and then it goes into this great guitar bit, and just- the v i b e s so yeah i think he really likes this shit.

osamu: cooking podcasts. like he literally doesn’t listen to music, just shit about cooking. atsumu makes fun of him for it and he is just like “bitch shut up and go do ur hot girl shit 😐” and just walks away and keeps on listening to his cooking shit. (we stan this petty bitch)

others💾

saeko: E-GIRLS ARE RUINING MY LIFE! by CORPSE and Savage Ga$p. this is self explanatory, she just is a bad bitch and this is what bad bitches listen to 😌 she def has played this song while getting it on with someone.

terushima: Bust It Open by Lil’ Wil. we all know terushima listens to these thirst trap songs and tries to do the tik tok dances that are associated with them. he probably posts videos to these songs on tik tok and they get a good amount of likes (cough cough he has a following of many thirsty girls).

sakusa: 24 hours of nothing yeah he doesn’t listen to music he just puts this on with headphones so people won’t bother him. he finds the silence relaxing and hates it when people interrupt him (cough cough atsumu)

btw: for some of the songs that aren’t on basic streaming services, i linked the youtube video for them.

anyways, i hope you enjoyed my first post [eep finishing this made me really happy]! have a nice day!

bye for now🌊

[dnarez]

Chapter 2 - Moving out

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The pictures I was going to use aren’t mine, so I think it’s better 4 me to just share the Wattpad link where you can see the story with the pics

https://www.wattpad.com/925296862-hawks%27s-sister-chapter-2-moving-out

))

I get inside my new home... it's very basic and simple, just a bedroom, a kitchen, a bathroom and the living room, nothing to fancy but it's enough for the 3 of us.

I look at all the boxes in the living room's floor and sigh.

"Come on Haru, Void! Let me get you some water, after I finish unpacking we will go out to eat, who would like some chicken?"

Haru barks and runs inside, Void follows behind. I close the door, lock it and put a bow with water on the floor and the other on top of a tall box.

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'It's hard to accept that they would put me out like this... at least they had some heart to get me a place to stay, and it's just a few blocks from UA, I still can't believe that I did it! I'm so happy! But so nervous... but I still did it!' I fist bump the air, then start getting the boxes that have "bedroom" in them in their place.

'I'm glad I passed the entrance, sadly I couldn't try for the hero course... they even had locked me up that day to make sure that I wouldn't even try' I start unpacking my things. 'If they see me in the hero course they will stop paying the bills of this apartment and I can't go make my dreams true while homeless and hungry... I'm so glad they gave me some kind of allowance'

After finishing getting the desk, bed and shelf set I start organizing everything. 'I heard a rumor that when you are in the U.A you get a few chances of getting in the hero course, I hope they are true, I will have to get the hard way around, but that's fine! I still have to learn how to fly and stuff, actually... I don't think I would pass even with my wings in the hero course exam... I can do so little with my wings...'

'But it's okay! Because I will go and be Plus Ultra!' I finish my room living it simple 'Maybe if I don't spend too much money, in a few months I could get this please a little better... but for now it's perfect'.

I go back to the living room and get the bathroom boxes to go unpack my things, but stop to take a better look at Haru and see her chewing something.

"Haru... what are you eating?" I approach her after putting down the boxes, but she starts to chew faster "HEY GIVE ME THAT!" I go to get her, but she is faster than me, so I had cornered her in the kitchen and immobilize her "Spit it out!" I open her mouth trying not to hurt her the best I can "SPIT IT OUT" I put my hand in her mouth and search for the thing "SPIT. IT. OUT." I finally get it and release her "Damn girl! You almost gave me a heart attack!" I look at the thing and see it's the cap of my shampoo "HOW THE FUCK DID YOU GET THIS? The box was closed I'm sure..." I sigh and go wash the cap then go to the bathroom getting the boxes off the floor and taking it with me.

"Should I call then to tell that I got here safe?..."

'You are no daughter of mine'

'I wish I never had any of  you!'

"Maybe not... both of us hm..." I finish setting the bathroom. "That's better!" I smile at the result.

"Now I'm starting to feel more at home!" I go check on my pets and see they both in my bed, Haru by the feet and Void in my pillow "what time is it?" I look at the clock and see that is 16h(4pm) I started at 10h(10am) "Wow time pass fast when we are having fun! But not really... I'm starting to get tired... maybe I should take a break and- no! I can't! There is just the living room and the kitchen and I will have finished! Hmmmm... I deserve some good chicken tonight!"

I kiss the top of their heads "sweet dreams cuties!" I go to the living room and get everything ready to start the kitchen. "Hands to work people! And by people I mean me, myself and I" I get everything ready by 17h40(5h40) "Uuuuh! Pretty!"

"Damn! I'm such a sloth! I- need to... take a break!" I say between breaths while i go to sit in the bed to relax a little. "I really need to train hu?" I Sigh

"... is it normal to miss who doesn't love you?" The house was silent, I look at the window and see that it was starting to get dark "I will let my thoughts get to me later now I have shit to do" I get up and go unpack everything that was left.

...........timeskip

"FINALLY DONE! AAAAAAAH!" I trow myself at the couch and stay laying there for a few minutes.

'It's dark but there is a kfc near here so it won't too take long'

"Void! Haru! I'm going out! Do any of you want to come with me?" Void comes flying and sits at the top of my h/c hair "Okay big guy! We will have to come back so let's not get ourselves lost ok?" I get my jacket and put on some pants while at it 'these always hide them better'

"CAW!"

"That's the spirit! Sorry Haru, but only one at time" I pet her head and kiss it "You can sleep with me today because of that!"

"WOOF!"

"Hehehe bye! We will be back soon"

I grab my keys while I go I put the hood, then getting down the stairs.

'I like living in the 5th floor, I can have some nice view and am not so dependable of the elevator, that's good!' I get out of the apartment complex and go down to the right 'I remember passing by a kfc before getting home so it must be near'

Void goes to my shoulder and hide inside my hood behind my neck.

"Hey! Don't go-" I look around to see people looking at me with a weird look since I was almost screaming with no one, 'I feel so embarrassed, I can't go running back home because I'm hungry! And I can't go running in this neighborhood that I know nothing of' I sigh and keep walking straight ignoring the looks they are giving me.

'Wait... did I get my wallet?' I check my pockets "fuck!... Void... honey" I stop next to the wall out of people's way and cover my mouth with my hand, his head poke out of his hiding spot that is between my neck and my hair "I need you to go back and grab my wallet... please Void, I promise that you will get some tasty popcorn tomorrow, ok?" He nods and goes back home sigh.... I'm happy that it was hot today, or I wouldn't have let the window of the living room open' I wait a bit more until he came back with the wallet in his beak. "Yes! My sweet raven! My dark crow! My knight wing!" He drops it in my hands and goes back to hide behind my neck inside my hood.

"Thank you Void!" I whisper to him and go back to walk to the kfc to get my tasty chicken.

I walk in and drop my hood.

'I'm lucky that this place is 10min walking from home, but I will need to get groceries tomorrow while coming back from school... what class I was in? I think it was... 1-E General Studies, I have to use a skirt, so I will be missing some feathers... I already have my school uniform and my school material, since I already have the uniform I don't think they will let me change it' I sigh and go to the line to get my food.

I feel Void moving and turn my head to see his beak poking out of my h/c hair. "Void! If someone sees you I will get in trouble! Go back in!" I whisper while making him hide himself again and when I see is my turn to order, I make my order, pay and go sit in the farthest corner away from others eyes and take Void out. "You bird brain! I thought that crows were supposed to be smart!" He turns his back to me "don't you dare ignore me! I could get in trouble Void! If mom and dad get a call from the police for any reason I can say bye bye to my hero course dream... and would say bye bye to me you little-"

"Number 69?"

"Nice! Our order is ready!" I get up and go get it I see that Void still is in the table, I whistle, and he flies to me landing in my shoulder, I look at the lady in the counter, she is eyeing Void.

"Sorry form bringing him in, but he doesn't like being alone" I scratch his head and get my order to go "Have a nice night"

"Y-you too..." the lady goes back to work and I go out and start going home "I need a place to train... I can't even fly, so I will need to get everything right... how the hell will I ever-" I looked up to take a breath and saw him.... Hawks! I see doing inside the kfc that I just got out of "omg... what do I do? Hmmmmm..." I stare at the kfc door for a few minutes and am surprised that Hawks came out with a bow of wings already made, hot n steamy.

He turns his back to me and goes on to walk his merry way, but before he can get another step away from me my body acts on his on. "Pro hero Hawks wait, please!" He stops and turn around to face me 'damn he got all the good traits from mom and dad'...

"Hi! Need something?" He smiles down at me

"Could you tell me if you know any good place to train my quirk? I know that it's illegal to use it without the license but I need to train to become a hero!". He looks at me with a sweet smile

"Sure little bird, what's your quirk?" He faces me completely

"It's-..."

'Damn it... I don't think I should tell him and let him get suspicious of me... but I really need help with this so fuck it'

"It's just like yours but my wings can change colors"

He looks in my eyes, then look at my back and chuckles "Sorry but I don't see wings on your back little bird"

"Oh! I tuck them in!" He turns serious at that.

"Wait, what? You hide your wings? Why?"

"Hmmmm... mom and dad don't like them, so they tell me to hide them" this isn't a lie, but it also isn't the full truth.

"Can you fly at least?"

I shake my head. "I never tried before... and I am scared... really scared" I look at the ground in shame

"Hey is normal to be scared, I was terrified in my first flight"

"Really?! But you are so cool! And can fly so well" he laughs at that

"Yes, thank you, I am the way I am now because of my training, it would include things that I didn't want to do you will be fine as long as you have faith in yourself" he pets my head

"And a place to train" he chuckles again

"And a place to train, I have to go but here" he gave me a paper with an address not too far from home "that is a good and discreet place to train, good luck little bird" he pets my head again and flies above me "I hope to see you in the sky any day by now" he waves to me one more time and fly off.

'YES!' I smile wildly and start to sprint home 'thank you big bro! You are the best!'

Tomorrow is a new day, tomorrow is the day that I will start U.A! . . . . . . . ........................................................................

Omg this was so fun to write! I know that this chapter was kinda bland n stuff, but I wanted you all to feel connected with y/n, so a chapter with her alone may help me active it.

Also having Hawks in the end was by accident, I was planning on putting him after the usj incident, but this chapter would be too blunt if it would end with nothing to hold on to, so I changed a bit!

Hope u all r enjoying! A lot of kisses to u all , until next week

Dnarez ❤~

[yaneyanedaze]

Don’t you remember?

(A SDC Jotaro x Oc +DIO fanfic )

Hi guys! This is a commission piece that I have done for @fyrestrike , I hope that you enjoy this fanfiction! This is a good example of what you could get when you commission me!~

I will get back to my regular ways of posting very soon! With that, on with the fanfiction!

Some things may be different,but the plot is mostly the same and the ending is mostly the same!

Also I apologize if any of the characters seem out of character! ❤️❤️❤️

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 It was cold, very cold. I didn’t expect Egypt to get so cold this quickly. I was with Jotaro Kujo and his group of friends, I could call them that. They called themselves the Stardust Crusaders, and from what I know, they were searching for a man named DIO. That’s all they told me at least, and I could barely remember how  I ended up with the group anyways. Mr. Joseph told me they found me wandering the desert by myself. I found that hard to believe because I hated the heat of the desert, but I just went along with it and decided to stay with them.

Jotaro and Kakyoin were the only ones I stayed closed to really, with all of us being around the same age, and with I apparently attending the same high school as them. They helped me understand the situation that was going on and the reason why we were in Egypt. I felt bad for Jotaro, his mom is in bad condition, and he had to drop everything and go on some wild ass adventure in order to save her. I tried to be as much help as I could be, I do have a stand, that I know, but I don’t know how to use it at all.

But all that out the way. Stand user after Stand user. Attack after Attack, we finally reached Cairo, Egypt. I cheered happily as I ran up to the hotel that we were going to be staying in. Mr. Joseph chuckled as he went up to the desk and prepared the rooms for us, Leaving the rest of use to chat and talk. I yawned and leaned on Jotaro, who was pretending to be annoyed, “Yare yare, What the hell are you doing?” He asked, gaze shifting down on me. I smiled at him and let out a small giggle, “Im resting on you until we can get our rooms straight, I don’t see how you guys can do it!” I say throwing my hands up, being playfully dramatic. Polnareff laughed and I knew even before he began talking what he was going to say.

“ Well Dearie, Maybe it’s because you’re a girl~ This mission is built for strong men! It’s our job to protect you anyway!” He said, flexing slight only to get hit on the back of the head by Jotaro. “She’s strong, why do you think we brought her along, She can handle herself. Last time I checked you cant defeat anyone without our help” He said back, a smirk appearing on his features as he watched Polnareff try to gather his comeback. But before he could get it out, Mr. Joseph came over giving everyone their room keys.

Joseph was with Avdol, Polnareff with Kakyoin, and……

Me and Jotaro.

A part of me wanted to speak up and say: ‘CAN I CHANGE PLEASE?!’ Because being in the same room with Jotaro for a long period of time like this. I don’t think I could take it. But alas, I didn’t same a damn thing and here I was, walking to the room with Jotaro beside me. It was a quiet peaceful walk, Jotaro was a quiet person I discovered. He didn’t talk much and when he did, it usually was a one-liner, his signature catchphrase or snark. I loved the silence to be honest, I think it added more to his personality, I thought it was sweet that he is out here risking his life for his mother, even though he doesn’t know what lay ahead.

When we reached the room, I unlocked the door and pushed it open, the room was nice, it was room, had a couch with a television in front of it, a small kitchen and dining area. But there was one problem that stuck out the most.

There was only one bed.

I felt a blush rise up on my cheeks but I tried to be calm about it, but it seemed that Jotaro could read my emotions. “I’ll take the couch, “ He muttered walking past me. I grabbed his coat stopping him and shyly looked up at him. “hey, we can share the bed, I don’t mind. I usually stay on one side curled up in a ball” I said trying to make light of the tense environment, He  let out a small grunt which I could only imagine was an “Ok’. I smiled as I went over to unpacking my small book bag, I only had a small amount of clothes with me. From what I remember, I packed two changes of clothes and night clothes along with the necessities. But everytime I try to remember where I came from, it leads to a massive headache. One that’s trying to basically tell me that the memory isn’t there.

It bothered me, and while I was changing into my night clothes I tried very hard to think and think trying to see if I could bring it back. I let out a frustrated yell as finished getting dressed and I walked out, but as I walked back into the bedroom, I got a surging pain in the back of my head, plopped down on the bed and it felt like someone else had a control on my body, and a voice that I have never heard before starting talking.

“It seems that my little devil is missing me…don’t worry, I’ll be waiting for you, you’ll remember me soon, you will…”

I let out a scream, one made of confusion and fear, as I couldn’t move my body, I felt like someone was just sitting on me, all of their weight pushing down upon me. I must’ve spooked Jotaro because he came rushing in the room and shook me, I could feel him shaking me, but I couldn’t move. Finally I found the strength to rise up and shake make head. When I opened my eyes up again I was staring into Jotaro’s baby blue eyes. He didn’t even said anything, he just hugged me and held me tightly. He lifted me up and placed me in bed correctly, I tried to move and show him that I was alright. But he held me in place, he wouldn’t let go. “Jotaro I am fine, that was just a little scare okay? Nothing too serious” I said, he shook his head and his grip on me tightened. “Quiet. Don’t say anything , just go to sleep.” He muttered. It was severely out of character for Jotaro to act like this, but I guess I really scared him with what happened. I felt horrible and I wanted to say that I was sorry for letting myself get like that but sleep took over me before I even could.

(TimeSkip. two days later)

We were up and on the move again.

Neither Jotaro or I talked about what took place that night , but I noticed he was closer to me more then he ever was before. He kept a close eye on me, which earned light teasing from Polnareff and Joseph. He brushed it off but I could see the blush that was coming up onto his face. He said his signature catch phrase before walking ahead from the group. I knew better though, and I tried not to let the teasing get to me as we pushed forward.

I felt ominous feelings coming from the large building in front of us.

And it seemed like another one of those moments like I had last time except that instead of me just not being able to move, I completely blacked out. It was dark, I could see Jotaro and the others anymore, but I could feel someone’s arms picking me up from the ground. I tried to scream but nothing came out, only a chuckle, a deep chuckle that couldn’t have come from any of the crusaders. I froze, it was the same tone of the voice I had previously heard. His footsteps were heavy, and his voice had a velvet like tone, “Fyre…I’ve been waiting for you…those Joestars brought you right to me…Like a little present~” He spoke. His voice was so familiar, Like even before my little black out.

All I know that I am scared.

My vision slowly started coming back, I could see that I was no longer with Jotaro and the group but i was with some weird man with blonde hair. When he realized I was awake he smirked wide, showing me a wide toothy like grin. “My darling is awaken now~ tell me, how did you enjoy your time away from me darling?~” He says placing me down in what felt a a plush like bed. It felt soft, I’m not gonna lie, it was really soft, I regained motion in my limbs and I made myself sit up so quickly. I glared at him, if looks could kill, he would’ve been dead.

He chuckled, turning fully to get a good look at him. He was about as tall as Jotaro, he was shirtless and very built, having a strange scar around his neck that made it look like his body was just attached with a needle and thread. I backed up as far as I could to the wall. He walked (more like sassy step) towards me before stopping at the end of the bed. “Don’t you remember me? Fyre, I made you what you are. My little Devil. That stand you have, it’s because of me. You are mine. I don’t care what that Jotaro fool says or does for you.” He growled. “Liar!! Jotaro found me! He took care of me! I don’t know who you are!!” I yelled back, but with brute force, I was held against the wall by a humanoid looking figure, he was a bright yellow and had muscles of steel. I struggled against him before sighing but not giving up totally.

The male must’ve saw and laughed. “Foolish. Foolish Fyre...Don’t you remember, How do you think you got out there in the first place~” he said getting close to my face. Now staring me down with those bright, crazed green eyes. For some reason, a memory that was laying deep in my mind came barreling back full force.

(Flashback Start)

“Where are you going!? You can’t get far, Little Devil!!”

His voice was taunting, he was taunting me, he knew that he could catch up to me if he wanted to. DIO was a damn bastard, a horrible excuse for a living- no an monstrous being. I kept running, refusing to fall prey for this damn man ever again, he kept me just a trophy, no one ever coming to visit me except him. The look on his servants faces when they say me run past shows that he never let anyone know that I existed.

I kicked open the door with one swift move and kept it moving, the desert sand kicking up behind me. I could feel his gaze on me, the thing he had on my forehead was weakening. His powers on me were not working, he made a mistake of stabbing me with the Stand Arrow, my stand was powerful an it allowed me to go against his will.

I ran and ran and ran until I felt my body slowing down, I couldn’t see anything and I collapsed, panting heavily as my body finally gave out, the adrenaline gone. I turned on my back and laid there looking at the sky as I closed my eyes. My breath slowing down and my conscious slowly slipping away.

“Oi, Is that a girl on the ground?...”

“Yea, I think you’re right Jotaro! What shall we do?”

“....Gigi..she’s coming with us.”

(Flashback End)

I tried to head butt him once my memory started coming back. I knew who he was. I knew what he did to me. He took me away from my family, kept me captive for god knows how long. DIO, His name now ringing a bell in my head. I growled and glared daggers at him. “Fuck you!! Fuck you bastard! You caused this! You made me like this you fucking bastard!!” I yelled kicking and thrashing about, He just stood there laughing at me, that same fucking taunting laugh that he used before. He snapped his fingers, and the ghost (stand that I now remember as ‘The World’) disappeared making me drop to the floor. When I went to stand up he pushed me back into the wall, his hand wrapped firmly around my neck.

“Listen here Little Devil. I don’t like the way that you are acting right now...You either shape up or else I’ll have to punish you severely for disobeying me.” He practically growled. I clawed at his hands gripping and trying to pull his hands away as I began to get light headed from his grip. “Fuck..you..” I muttered out, only making his grip tighter making him madder. A loud bang and a rush of footsteps made him release his grip.

“Lord DIO!! The Joestars have reached here! They’re currently fighting Vanilla Ice!”

He groaned, clearly annoyed but I saw it as an opportunity to run.

And so I did.

I took off out of the room, speeding past the servant. This speed was inhuman to me, I didn’t know where I came from but I just chalked it up to my adrenaline rushing as i was scared. I could hear his yelling but couldn’t make out the words that he said. Everything was a blur to me until I came to a skidding halt when I saw what I could only make out to see as Jotaro.

“JOTARO!” I yelled. ‘God I hope I don’t sound too desperate..’ I thought as I ran over to him, out of breath and scared. He look up and then rushed over to my side, he checked my forehead and checked all over my head before finally hugging me tightly. He let go and pulled his hat over his eyes letting out his signature catchphrase. “Yare Yare, We’ll talk later. We have to go and find-“ “DIO! He’s here! He’s the one who took me!” I blurted out. He looked at me then pulled me along, and off we went again. I was scared beyond belief, I can’t believe that this want the man, or well, thing, Jotaro and his Grandfather had been searching for all along, and he knew me!

Little did I know the carnage along the way that happened. While we were chasing after DIO, Polnareff ran into the them. And we lost two members of our group, Muhammad Avdol and a little French bull terrier named Iggy to one of DIO’s toadys. We didn’t have time to grieve, we didn’t have time to cry or anything. We had to keep moving on! I kept quiet as DIO’s words kept ringing in my ears.

“I made you. My little Devil, Don’t you remember?”

I shook my head as we entered the city. It was busy, as it was night time. Probably filled with tourists and natives alike, all of them unknowingly putting themselves in danger. It was now Joseph, Jotaro, Polnareff and I together. Kakyoin was no where to be found, and they didn’t tell me what happened to him. But I didn’t ask questions at all, I just kept my mouth shut and moved along, but DIO was eating away at my thoughts, I wanted to question him, but was afraid of what he might do to me if I did.

But my time to confront him came quicker than ever as now Jotaro, Joseph and DIO we’re locked in a heated battle. This was it, Jotaros mom (Who I figured out before, was named Holly!) layed on the line along with the entire worlds fate was on their back. I stood on the side with Polnareff watching the battle take place, I felt helpless though. I wanted to help, after all, I have been a liability during this entire thing! I at least needed to get out and do something. I got up and began walking over to where they were only to get a bad feeling going up my spine. I looked over at DIO just to see his stand come out. I quickly picked up my past before yelling to him.

“JOTARO LOOK OUT!!”

“Za WARUDO”

Everything froze around me, everything was still. I don’t know how I was moving, and it seemed DIO was just as confused but he was too focused on Jotaro. Knives now heading towards and lodging themselves into said male. While time was still frozen he looked at me and it seemed that I was a look of surprised. I was confused before I felt something, or rather someone behind me. I turned and there it was, or rather their she was, as it looked like a female. She had curly horns that could rival with Satan himself, large bat like wings with a shiny gleam coming off them, a short black dress with her entire back out along with small bats on her tights that looked like they were very much alive. She had light pink skin with red blush in certain spots, full pink lips , top and bottom fangs that could probably cut through diamond if she wanted to. she had bright lime green snake like eyes, long curly lilac purple hair that falls behind her knees hair. Finally there was a large tail swishing back and forth with a heart on the end, spikes lining the tail leading all the way up to her back.

I stood up as time started over again, Jotaro fell back , knives all over him. I wanted to scream but I knew that would show weakness, and especially to him, it would give him a huge ego booster. I watched as Jotaro laid motionless on the ground, DIO places his head on the ground trying to hear movement or heart beats of any kind and smirked once he didn’t. He began laughing as he made his way over to me, “Your darling hero isn’t with you anymore. And I’m so glad, his death made you finally show your stand. Might I say, it’s quiet beautiful perfect for a queen like yourself.” He said, now barely a foot away from me. I smirked myself, a thing I don’t normally do. “The Queen part you’re right about. But I wouldn’t celebrate to quickly.” I said. Landing a quick blow to his head myself, making him stumble back. He growled at me but kept a smug smirk on his face. “My little Devil..You think you can stop me! Your puny Stand means nothing to me!”

“But mines does.” I smiled as Jotaro was behind him now. Star Platinum now behind him as well looking madder than ever. I stepped back quickly to avoid the fist fight between the two stand users. I had to admit, it looked beautiful, the colors clashing together, the raw strength of both of their stands clashing and fighting each other. It was amazing. I crouched down using my stand to make a shield for myself to dodge oncoming debris coming my way, I closed my eyes because another part of me didn’t want to see the end result. It was painful, very painful, I didn’t want to see anymore of my friends get hurt anymore, I panted slightly, my vision getting blurry, I don’t know if it’s a side effect from my stand or I’m just tired. I felt my body falling to the ground after hearing a blood curdling scream and the sound of something splitting apart, before everything fades to black.

⬛️TimeSkip⬛️

I shot straight up only to see myself connected to hospital IV’s and looked around. I looked at my arms and touched my face to make sure I was in one piece. I sighed once I figured out I was all fine and sat back on the bed. The door open and first came in was a Nurse coming to make sure I was okay, checking all my vitals, blood pressure , all the medical stuff, then following was Mr. Joestar. “Hey! Look who’s arose from the dead! I’m glad you’re okay!” He said walking up to my bed side, a hand on my arm. “Did we win? Is he dead?” Is what I asked first.

He nodded slightly and stood up. “Yep! We sure did...We’re gonna be heading back to Japan once you get all better, Trust me, My grandson has been worried sick about you, you gotta stop passing out on us!” He said jokingly. I tilted my head in confused. Jotaro was worried about me? I found that hard to believe, but when the male came into my room with a large bouquet of flowers, I believed it then.

He handed them over to me with a blush gracing his features. They were beautiful shades of blue with some red in it. “this is for you..” He muttered, I grabbed and smiled softly, pulling him close and placing a kiss on his cheek. I smelled the flowers and hugged them close to my chest.

“Hey Jotaro, When we get back..Can we hang out more?..”

“...Sure, I wouldn’t mind that at all..”

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AHHHH I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING SO DAMN LATE OMG

So many things have been coming up in my life between family, Boyfriend issues, health issues, but I wanted to finish this because I loved the character, thank you so much for the opportunity!

If you want more and probs another part going on to part 4 because I loved so this much! ❤️

[moondustaeil]

essence , Lee Donghyuck

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⠀ about  

⋅  genre : soulmate au (fluff, angst, sadness, slightly suggestive content)

⋅  characters : Haechan x fem!reader , other nct members

⋅  word count : 13.8k

⋅  note : there are lots of timeskips in this fic, and some suggestive content. Leave some feedback if you want to!

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⠀ summary

⋅ In a world where soulmates meeting each other is the most normal thing, Donghyuck is gifted with two timers instead of one. One counts down to the day he meets you, as the other counts down to the last day you have together. 

Donghyuck’s brown eyes went over to the timer on his friend’s wrist, the countdown never paused but at least Mark still had over a year to go before he would meet his soulmate. While he was stuck at such a young age, with a soulmate that he was destined to meet in less than a month. He wasn’t sure if he was ready to tie the invisible knot between him and his soulmate, he was still young and wanted to enjoy life now that he had the chance. The staring didn’t go unnoticed by Mark, who pulled down his sleeve a bit more so that the counter was no longer visible, even though Mark was one of those people who didn’t care if others saw. 

“I’ve already seen it” Donghyuck whined out loud when he saw what Mark did to prevent him from staring at the timer. It was like a symbolic promise between everyone to not talk about each other’s timers too much: because it wasn’t a competition of who got to love first, and it surely wasn’t something to joke around with. “I know, but staring at mine won’t change yours, Haechan.” Mark replied to the words, being a bit more firm because last time this happened, Donghyuck had managed to lure Mark into telling him what their other friends had on their timers. 

Mark knew how Donghyuck felt, or at least he thought he knew what it felt like. But he lived in the opposite world and was looking forward to the day when his timer would no longer count, the day that he would meet his soulmate and share his life with that person. Sometimes he wished his and Donghyuck’s timers were swapped: but he strongly believed that he and his soulmate belonged together, even if they had never met each other. “How long do you have left?” Mark asked just to know how his friend was doing, Donghyuck had never revealed the timer, he only said it wasn’t that accurate but the timing was close. A quote that had made no sense at all.

The younger man seemed to hesitate for a bit but eventually pushed one sleeve up towards his elbow, although before Mark could see the time, Donghyuck did the same with the other sleeve. He extended both of his arms towards Mark, trying to keep his facial expressions in check even if he was worried about the timers on his skin. “You got two of them?” Mark asked right away as his eyes were completely focused on both wrists at the same time. The different numbers caught Mark’s attention: they weren’t that far apart, neither were they really close. But the question was, why did he have two? And why didn’t they indicate the same? 

“The reason I asked you to reveal the times of the others” Donghyuck admitted honestly, a slight smile on his lips as he remembered how happy he was for his friends, but also how worried he was for his own future and the future of his soulmate. Maybe they would meet at different times by just walking past each other which caused two different numbers to be displayed on his skin. That explanation was the one his mother had given him: but even the woman was worried about the real meaning of the two timers on her son’s wrist. But Donghyuck believed the explanation, perhaps since he had never considered something else or perhaps because his mother probably was old enough to know things like that.

Mark stared at the timers for a while longer, until Donghyuck became overwhelmed by the staring. He pulled both of his sleeves down hastily, not letting Mark have another view of the timers that were counting down each second. “They’re not even a year apart, it can’t be that bad” Mark said to Donghyuck, showing his point with a shrug of his shoulders. As much as Donghyuck wanted to protest, he knew he shouldn’t, he would keep his worries to himself and act as if he believed Mark. The few months between the timers could make a big difference even if he had no idea how it would impact his life.

“Don’t tell the others!” Donghyuck said, although his voice sounded more intimidating so that Mark understood that he really meant it. He wanted to keep this to himself, and him telling Mark had already been a big thing. “Only you and my mum know, and it will stay that way” He added to his previous words in case it hadn’t been clear enough the first time he said it had to be a secret. In response, Mark nodded his head quickly: he was slightly intimidated by Donghyuck’s behavior, something that was so much different than the usual playful way of intimidation that he would usually use.

The silence got into the room for a couple of seconds: Mark tried to forget about what he saw while in Donghyuck’s head it was all that kept replaying. Maybe Donghyuck kept such a close eye on the numbers that he knew the bigger numbers by head, he would only lose count of the hours, minutes and seconds because those went by so fast in his life. One glance away from the timers and a couple of hours would already pass by.

Even though he lived together with his friends, he never allowed the others to glance at the timers like he would. It was one big group of friends, a total of 21 happy souls. Though they had to live split up because of their large squad number. He lived together with 127, who called themselves that way because they had been the first to really settle down and represent the squad. But sometimes he stayed with the dreamies, called that because they were the younger ones of the entire squad. They were so close that some of them even had a nickname, his being Haechan, which translated itself to full sun.

Living together with so many people, sometimes caused him to fear that they would see either of his timers, but the long sleeves or many bracelets would prevent that kind of thing from happening. But it wouldn’t prevent his mind from thinking about finally being able to tell him, sometimes it was something that he wanted to get off of his chest although until this day he had been strong enough. Today though, the strong feeling got overpowered by his weakness, which caused him to say it to Mark.

“I have to go, I promised to go grocery shopping with Taeyong, Johnny and Jungwoo,” Mark said as the silence between them wasn’t comfortable anymore, it was clear that Donghyuck’s head was too full to think about other things. “Wanna come?” Mark suggested afterward as he wasn’t really sure if the younger man wanted to come, he could ask about it so that he wouldn’t feel left out. But Donghyuck just shook his head at the question. “No, I’ll stay here and check up on Yuta. He had a headache earlier” He said softly, though the words were no lie. 

Donghyuck watched as Mark got up from the bed and left the bedroom after a few more seconds of hesitating. As soon as Mark was out of the room, he uncovered his wrists again and stared at both of the timers. None of the numbers on each of his wrist seemed to match, not even the seconds that counted at a completely different number even if the speed of them changing was the same. He stared at his right wrist which counted the number closest to the date of today.

0384 : 12 : 35

He hoped it was the day that he got to know the meaning of the two timers, although maybe if the story his mom told him was true, then he wouldn’t know until the other counter stopped its count as well. Maybe it really represented the day he would meet you and the day you would meet him, that only after those moments, the two of you would really realize that you were meant to be together. 

But he tried to be positive and tell himself that he had at least 19 more days to prepare himself for the future that started closer than he had always wanted it to. In those 19 days, he would try to live his youngest life, somehow in his mind meeting his soulmate was like immediately getting married or having kids, even though that was far from what was actually the use of it. He would meet up with the entire squad and do some silly things, maybe have that fight on the rooftop that everyone always mentioned, even though it would be one with fake swords and probably the balcony rather than the rooftop.

Donghyuck pushed away the nineteen days thought, he pulled the sleeves down to his underarm and over his wrist before he stood up from his bed. With one last soft sigh, he left the memory in his bedroom and then went to Yuta’s room to check up on him. Maybe Yuta could take his mind away from the soulmate thing, the two of them could play some Nintendo together and relax.

0120 : 15 : 09

Donhyuck’s eyes were instantly greeted with the sight of the black numbers upon his wrist, his half-asleep state didn’t even realize the last digit changing every second. It was even somewhat calming to see it counting down, he had to admit that. 

His left hand went towards his face, nearly slapping himself but he managed to control his limbs slightly before he rubbed his hand through his face in a more careful manner. The eyes momentarily were closed, but once they were opened, they immediately saw the timer again. 

Five more days before something would happen, five more days before the first counter stopped its neverending digit changing. He wasn’t looking forward to it, but in the past two weeks, he had learned to stop moping about it, maybe because he was a bit curious about the things that were going to change in his life. Five days was less than a week, less than a week was what he had to try and get his hopes up.

Donghyuck got up from the bed, stretching out his arms and legs as he felt slightly stiff getting up for the first time in such a long night. Maybe it was because last night, he had gone out for some drinks together with some of the others. He didn’t drink much, but did drink enough to make some parts of the evening blurry, the last thing he could remember was Jaehyun and Mark shouting ‘apple juice’ through the entire place. He wasn’t sure what happened for the rest of the time. Luckily, he didn’t flirt with anyone, neither did he take someone home. He was devoted and loyal to his soulmate, even if he had no idea who his soulmate was. 

“Breakfast” He mumbled to himself as he ran a hand through his dyed hair. though before he left the room, his eyes fell on Jaehyun who was still deep asleep with the stuffed animal clutched in his arms tightly. Donghyuck ignored his sleeping roommate after giving him one look and left the bedroom, keeping the bedroom door open so that Jaehyun would wake up from all of the noises that the others made.

His steps were slow as he walked into the kitchen, to reveal only Taeil and Doyoung to be the other two who were awake at this time. They were probably the ones who drank less than others, they weren’t the type of guys to get so drunk that they wouldn’t remember anything from the night and also because they had a big sense of responsibility for the others. “Good morning,” Taeil said, giving the youngest in the dorm a genuine smile, but Donghyuck was still too tired to really give the same kind of smile back. “Did you make breakfast?” He asked after he had mumbled an inaudible greeting back, he was more interested in food than some lame breakfast table talk.

Neither of the older men replied to Donghyuck’s question, though it was Doyoung who put down a plate filled with breakfast in front of Donghyuck. “Here’s your breakfast” Doyoung said before he placed his own plate at his designated spot and took a seat. The three of them sat together at first, sometimes talking about their drinking adventure of yesterday, but the subject changed each time someone else entered the room and joined them for breakfast, or just some coffee when it wasn’t appropriate for their hangover to have breakfast. Though he had been one of the first ones to get breakfast, Donghyuck was the last one at the same time since he had been the one that had to clean up everything today.

“Any plans for today?” Taeyong asked Donghyuck as the leader-like person started to help Donghyuck clean up in the kitchen. Donghyuck was grateful for the help although it was annoying how perfect everything had to be for Taeyong. “I’m going to see a movie with the dreamies later on” He said, somewhat happy to once again get out of the house and forget about the entire soulmate thing. He hadn’t realized how his behavior seemed to change with every day that he was closer to the stop sign of his timer.

Taeyong nodded his head, putting the spray bottle of Febreze back into the right place but soon stood up straight again and looked at Donghyuck. “You’ve been going out so much the past weeks, with and without others. Are you alright?” he asked, his tone worried because that was what he genuinely was. Donghyuck maybe was an adult, but at the same time belonged to the younger set of the squad so he had to be cared for. “Yeah, I just feel like going out more” He replied to the worried question of his friend. He didn’t want to tell another person how he was trying to live his young life before his soulmate would take it away from him. But Taeyong was smarter and knew the truth behind the little lies that Donghyuck told. He never saw Donghyuck’s timer but the behavior told him enough: Donhyuck would meet his soulmate sooner than everyone expected.

“I’m going to shower and get ready” Donghyuck said once he felt slightly uncomfortable around Taeyong, it wasn’t always, he just got uncomfortable whenever he thought someone knew something about his timer, or timers. Everyone in the world had a timer: but he had two timers, and one of them was going to reach its ending point in five days. Those two things combined should be enough to make every human in the world scared for the things that would or could happen. Without waiting for a reply, Donghyuck left Taeyong standing in the kitchen as he went to take a shower.

A shower later, Donghyuck got himself ready to meet up with the dreamies: go out for lunch and afterward see a movie together. While looking through his clothes, he tried to imagine the things he would wear when his timer would stop, and if you would like the clothes he would wear or simply the way he would look. Once he was dressed, he said goodbye to the other members, took his wallet and left the dorm. 

He walked alone through the streets as they had already decided to meet up at the restaurant, it was the easiest for everyone: especially for him who lived in a different dorm, and Chenle who lived with his mother in a big house because she thought he was too young and irresponsible to live alone with other youngsters. While he was on the way to the restaurant, his mind started to drift off again to the days that he had left as an individual, which maybe was a dramatic way to put it but he was too young to see it in another way. He felt like a teenager who had no idea what to feel because of mood swings, which maybe was exactly what everyone would feel in this kind of situation.

The pair of brown eyes that belonged to him craved to know who you were even though the weird feelings surrounded and clouded the thoughts of it. Using his eyes: he scanned every person that he passed by on the street. Looking into every direction that he could without turning his body around. When would he notice that you were his soulmate? Or what if you just passed each other by but you didn’t realize that he was your soulmate which maybe was the reason behind the two different counters. None of the faces, looked like the one of his soulmate even though he had no idea what you were like, on the inside, he just had a feeling that he would know when his soulmate was right into his view. 

His walk to the restaurant was basically consisting of the same staring at every face, he didn’t even look at his phone once, neither did he look at his timer or the floor. Now that time was nearing, he was scared to pass you by without realizing it. Something that was prevented by the timer, but still, it worried Donghyuck more than it should. It was only when he walked into the restaurant and saw some of his friends, that he got distracted from those actions or thoughts. He took a seat next to Renjun, who had already been checking the menu as if he was starving. Jaemin and Chenle greeted Donghyuck while Jeno was halfway through a conversation with Jisung, showing the real maknae pictures of his cats that he had at his parents' house. 

“I made a list of movies that play today” Jaemin suddenly announced to all of them, pulling his phone out of his back pocket and went to the notes that he made. He gave the phone to the one next to him: allowing everyone to check out the things he had listed. In the list were movies allowed for all ages, since both Jisung and Chenle weren’t allowed to watch adult movies and it wasn’t as if the older members would have allowed it anyway.

The six of them had lunch together, walked around the streets, went to see a movie in the cinema and afterward had dinner together. Donghyuck hadn’t even realized how his mind hadn’t been on the situation, he seemed to have forgotten it during the time he could spend with his friends.

The queue in front of Donghyuck made him inwardly sigh in annoyance, both of his hands occupied with the two things that he wanted to buy in the grocery store. Flowers and a small bag of candy that he wanted to eat. He was about to tap Jaemin’s shoulder but realized the person in front of him wasn’t Jaemin at all. In fact, when he looked up, Jaemin was already standing there with the grocery bag clutched in his hand, laughing at Donghyuck for still standing in line. 

“How?” Donghyuck mouthed towards Jaemin as he wanted to know how suddenly Jaemin had paid already, it was as if his eyes had missed it, which probably was the case because he was too busy thinking about what day it was today. Jaemin didn’t mouth anything back to Donghyuck, but instead showed him a double set of cuteness, which revealed the answer already. Jaemin and his cuteness: cringeworthy but it got to everyone’s heart at the same time. 

Donghyuck placed his items down once there was more space in the checkout line, not paying attention to anything for a moment as he had to wait for another few minutes anyway. Though once his mind remembered the things he had been thinking about earlier, his eyes went to the countdown on his wrist almost immediately. 

0000 : 00 : 26 

The numbers were counting down faster than they had done before, or it at least seemed that way. The seconds ticked by with each passing moment, yet he didn’t stop staring at the changing numbers. 

A sudden tap on his shoulder made him look away from the numbers, even if he hoped they would stop passing by that way, it was something so unreal and stopping the time would never happen in real life. He didn’t turn to the person that tapped his shoulder yet, it was like a wake-up call to get him from staring mode into thinking mode. 

“Excuse me?”

He finally turned towards the sound of the voice and was greeted by the sight of you, you were just a stranger like the rest of the queue behind him, aside from the nervous smile that was playing on your lips that made you just more cuter than the other customers waiting for their turn. “Can you let me pass, I am meeting my soulmate in less than 10 seconds and I don’t want to miss him!” you said hastily, never looking up at the stranger because your eyes were going from one spot to the other. You were in a rush to meet your soulmate, especially after losing sight of the timer on your wrist for a few hours. Donghyuck quickly nodded and moved aside slightly to let you go past him, a strange feeling filling his insides as he saw you being so nervous and excited as you gushed about meeting your soulmate. He wished he could be as excited like that.

Two seconds later the realization hit Donghyuck in the face, making his arm grab yours to stop you from going any further towards the exit of the store. “I’m here” he said, struggling to say the words that he was your soulmate. Instead the ‘I’m here’ would substitute for that. Your eyes unconsciously took a quick glance towards the wrist that was so close to your view now, only to one second after that glance at your own wrist. 

0000 : 00 : 00

Donghyuck’s eyes did the same thing that yours did but oppositely, even if he had connected the dots when he spoke, looking at it was like the confirmation he needed. He looked up to properly see your face for the first time, surprised when your eyes met because you were about to do the same thing.

“Your countdown... it stopped,” You said soft and pointed towards his wrist, though your eyes never broke so you weren’t sure if it was his wrist that you pointed at. His head only slightly moved in a nodding motion, the grip he had on your arm never faltering even if his arm was starting to feel numb in that position. “Yours did too,” He said, stuttering slightly over the words: not because he was nervous but slightly out of disbelief, and unsure of what emotions that went through his body. Your eyes went to your timer as Donghyuck’s eyes went to his counter, both looking equally surprised like it was a movie with nonstop surprise moments. 

The rest of the queue had stopped moving as everyone was witnessing two soulmates meeting each other for the first time, something that happened daily all over the world but at the same time a phenomenon and miracle. No one spoke, neither were any sounds heard aside from the soft music playing through the speakers. Even Jaemin, who had been waiting for Donghyuck, seemed to be frozen in his spot and could only watch how one of his best friends found the love of his life. 

“You’re my soulmate” You spoke up first as soon as the little trance let you go from its embrace, even though you were still a little bit hazy, you were aware enough to realize that the man in front of you was your soulmate. Donghyuck heard your words, which popped the same imaginary trance bubble that you had been in too. “You’re mine” He said in a mumble but corrected his words a second after he had outed them “my soulmate.”

It was Jaemin who noticed that talking was hard, and even though he didn’t know if it went like that in all situations, he felt as if he needed to extend a helping hand towards the two of you. He put down the plastic bag he was holding and made his way to the two of you.

“What’s your name?” Jaemin asked as he smiled sweetly at you, the kind of smile that was as sweet as ice cream and instantly made you comfortable around him. “y/n” you said soft, smiling even if you hadn’t even seen the kind of smile he gave you a second ago. Jaemin nodded and turned his body to Donghyuck, giving him a playful push to keep him in the real world. “What’s your name?” he asked the same question to his friend as he knew you were listening intensely just like Donghyuck was. “Donghyuck... Haechan” He answered as if Jaemin was a stranger to him too, who simply asked for his name.

Jaemin took Donghyuck’s hand from your arm and connected it to your hand instead. His eyes noticing that both of your timers were starting to fade, and once your hands touched, the ink was completely vanished, as if it had never been there from the start. “Donghyuck why don’t you give y/n the flowers that you bought for her?” He asked and picked up the flowers that still had to be scanned by the cashier, he handed them over into Donghyuck’s free hand.

“I bought you flowers” Donghyuck said and extended the hand with the small bouquet towards you. The gesture was small and maybe the flowers were not as great as those of the flower shop, but the young boy had wanted to do something for his soulmate, even though his claims in the past month had told the complete opposite. You took the flowers and smiled, bringing them slightly closer to your face to take in the scent of them. “They’re really beautiful” you answered with a smile, unconsciously giving Donghyuck’s hand a little squeeze.

The smile on Donghyuck’s lips was one that wouldn’t leave anytime soon, all of the stress and worries about before were gone, as he even felt slightly in love with the idea of being with you forever. And when you squeezed his hand, he felt as if he was being embraced by someone that loved him in the same way. “Shall we go for coffee together? And with together, I mean you two, not me” Jaemin interrupted as he realized real life was slowly passing over the nice moment in front of his eyes. Being a spokesperson in a blooming love story wasn’t something Jaemin ever expected in his life, but seeing his friend like that, made him know it had been needed. 

Donghyuck nodded at Jaemin’s suggestion. “Come, y/n. We will get coffee” He said and for the first time showed you a real smile, which you obviously returned. He only held your hand a little bit tighter as he started to take slow steps towards the exit of the store, leaving you only a little bit behind him. Your hands connected to tie you together just like the invisible rope of the soulmate life did. Just like that, you left the imagination behind, just like Jaemin who now had to pay for the flowers that Donghyuck originally would buy for you.

For the first few minutes of the walk towards a coffee shop, it was quiet between you and Donghyuck. The silence had comfortably walked along with the two of you, and neither of you actually had the guts to shoo the silence away. Donghyuck barely knew what was happening now, while you could barely process that you actually met your soulmate. It was a day that you had dreaded and yet had been so excited for once the counter lowered numbers drastically. Donghyuck looked away from the ground beneath his feet, trying to steal some glances at you without you knowing. Yet, as soon as his eyes were about to meet with your featured, he stumbled over his own clumsy feet. 

A funny gesture that the silence found unpleasing so it left, and instead, your laughter was heard through Donghyuck’s ears. “You think that’s funny?” He asked you, trying to appear serious as he pulled your hand slightly, drawing your body a little closer against his. You nodded your head as another small laugh left your lips. “I do” you said, managing to speak through the laughter. The way you had to laugh, made Dognhyuck laugh though, despite his tries to act all serious about him nearly stumbling over his own feet. 

Not much later, the two of you arrived at the coffee shop, it wasn’t the one that Donghyuck had wanted to go to, but if he was speaking honestly, then he had to say how he completely forgot where his favorite coffee shop was because he was so mesmerized and caught up in the idea of his soulmate being right next to him, holding his hand, laughing at his stupidity. He opened the door to the coffee shop and let you inside first, following seconds after you because he already didn’t like the idea of being far away from you. Your eyes fell to a couple of empty tables and your feet just followed your eyes, liking the thought of not having anyone else at the other tables so that the two of you could have a private kind of talk in public.

As both of you sat down, you also put down the flowers that you received on the table. “Do you already know what you want to order?” You asked your soulmate, about to look at him but still noticed how connected your hands were. It must have been something really awkward to sit down while holding hands, but you couldn’t recall the moment and maybe that was for the best. Though your hand didn’t leave his alone for a second, they were still clasped together. Donghyuck let out a hum as he thought about his order without looking at the menu. “Something sweet maybe,” He said once he had given it a second of thinking, the cliche pickup line of something being as sweet as his soulmate popped up in his mind, but he decided against it as it was kind of cringy to use. “You?” He asked curiously, secretly wanting to know your taste in these things, maybe for future purposes. “I’ll order what I usually order, to make a special day, a little more ordinary,” you said with a smile.

It was you who decided to go to the counter and order, despite Donghyuck saying he would do it, you were off of your chair and in line before Donghyuck even had the chance to beat you to it. As you were in line, Donghyuck sat by himself in silence. Maybe a lonely moment like this had been needed: just to give everything that happened a chance to settle down in his mind. He stared at his right wrist even though no more ink was visible on there, it was like a habit to look at it from time to time. Looking at his right wrist made him remember the second counter, and the glance at his left wrist, let him know that the things his mum told him were wrong.

“Why are you still counting?” Donghyuck asked his left wrist even if he knew wrists couldn’t talk, and if they could then they probably would stay quiet anyway. His head suddenly turned towards you, as if he had no control over it, a weird feeling that wasn’t happiness crept over his body. And when he glanced at his timer again, it was as if the meaning was written all over his wrist but he was too blind to see or realize it at this moment. And if he was able to comprehend the meaning, then he wouldn’t have had time to process it as you were already on your way back to the table. He was quick enough to pull his sleeve over the remaining timer and looked up at you right when you sat down on the chair again. “They would bring our order to our table,” you said with a smile, not realizing how Donghyuck wasn’t looking at you because he was wondering why you didn’t return with the order. Donghyuck smiled at your words and even though he hadn’t heard what you said, he made you think it was okay that they would bring the order to your table. 

It was only at closing time that the two of you left the coffee shop, probably a little overactive from the beverages that you drank later on the evening. But your heart was filled with joy to know you found your one and only. And at the same time, Donghyuck’s heart, had immediately warmed up to the idea of you being his soulmate.

“So why do they call you Haechan?”

Your question brought his eyes up to yours even though they had been focused on the sheets of the bed. The curiosity that was seen in your eyes, made him smile at you. “Do you really want to know?” He asked with a playful smile on his lips, the question made you nod without hesitation. But the answer didn’t come from his lips like you had hoped. “Give me a kiss then,” he said as the playful smile turned into a smirk. Still, it made him look just as playful as before.

“I hate you” You said playfully before you leaned towards him and pressed your lips to his cheek. Cheek kisses were the only things you had shared for now, aside from hand-holding and cuddling together in bed when having a meet up at home. But it was enough affection for you. Both of you had questioned at what pace soulmate relationships went but no one really was prepared for an unusual inquiry like that. Once your lips separated from his cheek, he smiled as he was satisfied with it. “Let me tell you the meaning behind my nickname, only to be used by people who love me!” he said before he turned more serious to tell what it meant.

“Haechan is the translation of full sun. They gave me the nickname because I am usually happy like sunshine, and can brighten everyone's days. Including the day of my soulmate, she told me that I’m her sunshine” Donghyuck said, using a cuter voice to say the last part. You had been listening intensely, but the last part made you take a teddy bear he had on his bed, and without hesitation flung it to his face. From outside the room, the other members heard the happy laughter and giggles: it was obvious that their Haechan had found his soulmate and they couldn’t be happier. Though Mark remembered the second counter Donghyuck had showed him, and he remembered it each time he heard your voice. 

Donghyuck’s laugh was heard through the room as he shook his head in fake disappointment when you had flung the stuffed animal against him. “You’re not my soulmate, you’re the devil” he said, poking out his tongue at you before he pretended to be angry by turning his body away from yours. 

“Oh c’mon Hyuck, don’t be angry,” You said even if you knew it was all a small fake act from your soulmate, sometimes things grew through silliness even if it were childish things like this. You sighed and got closer to him, your head resting against his back like you would normally rest it against his chest whenever the two of you were being lazy like that. “Please,” you said, your tone making it clear that you were faking a pout. And even though he couldn’t see it, your pout was something that Donghyuck would always fall for. He instantly turned around to face you, pulling your body into his arms for your head to rest on his chest. “Just because you’re my soulmate,” he said as he still had a smile displayed on his lips.

It grew silent after that, only the breathing in the room together with some noises of the other guys that were in the dorm. But the silence no longer seemed uncomfortable or bothersome to the two of you, it was more like a silent moment of gratefulness to have each other. Time passed by just like that, time that also passed by on Donghyuck’s counter even if he had forgotten about it. Before you knew it, you had fallen into a light slumber, peacefully resting in the arms of your soulmate.

Donghyuck watched you sleep for a couple of minutes, the silence in the room growing as even your breathing seemed softer and Donhyuck himself tried to quiet down as much as he could when he saw you asleep in his arms. Suddenly he remembered something he hadn’t looked at today, simply because he had been so caught up with you and falling in love with you. He pulled up his left sleeve, just enough to reveal the countdown still going at its usual rate. 

0984 : 19 : 01

He watched how the last digit changed which also turned the other two digits in front of it to another number. He took his phone from the bedside table and went onto the internet, making sure the light was only on his face and not on yours. Once the browser had loaded, he typed in the first four digits that were represented on his wrist, and then typed behind them to convert the hours into days. He had expected a large number of days but the fast internet provided him with an unexpected answer: forty-one days.

forty-one days until what? Donghyuck wondered to himself. His eyes leaving the phone screen to look at you, and a small smile came on his lips one he saw that you were still peacefully cuddled into his arms, just like you were when you had first fallen asleep. He put his phone next to his body, pulled down his sleeve until the timer was covered and then carefully tangled his hand in your hair. Stroking it gently, barely even letting his fingertips graze over the soft strands.

The silence was interrupted when the door opened to reveal Mark standing there, Donghyuck immediately motioned towards your sleeping body as a signal for Mark to stay quiet. And Mark listened, very quietly stepping into the bedroom and closing the door behind him. “Bro, we have to talk” He whispered towards Donghyuck, going over to the bed so that the two could hear each other while whispering.

Donghyuck just nodded as an answer, simply because Mark seemed so serious, otherwise he would have told Mark to come back another time, when you weren’t asleep. “Why?” Donghyuck asked as he stopped stroking your hair, he didn’t want your surroundings to be full of triggers that could wake you up when it was too much. Mark motioned towards Donghyuck’s left wrist and without saying it, Donghyuck knew it was about his timer. “I know what it means” He said which caused Donghyuck to look at the older guy questioningly.

“One of Johnny’s friends had two counters too. The second timer stopped on the day that he last saw his soulmate.” Mark said in a careful voice as he told what he had heard from Johnny. Johnny had told the story because he announced he would be taking that friend out to cheer him up, and Mark’s eyes had particularly widened when he heard the story. Donghyuck listened to the meaning, the explanation being shorter than he expected but it was a strong message. And yet, Donghyuck shook his head. “Maybe they weren’t meant to be, their timers could have been one second apart. You don’t know that, it’s a story” Donghyuck said, protecting his mind from hearing the possible truth in the words. The response was something Mark expected, and as much as he wanted to protest, he knew Donghyuck could be right, but deep inside he also knew the second timer was counting down until the last time Donghyuck would see you.

Mark left the room as soon as silence came in between him and Donghyuck, maybe the denial that Donghyuck was in would go by once he had time alone to process it. And indeed, when Mark was out of the room, the words had gotten stuck thanks to the replay button in Donghyuck’s mind. 

forty-one days left until he would see you for the last time, what did that mean? Donghyuck had no idea of the meaning behind those words, neither did he really understand the story of Johnny’s friend. Maybe he would have understood it better if he was actually there to listen, but to hear it again, he would have to talk to Johnny about it. And possibly also reveal how he was gifted with an unlucky second counter. His eyes went towards you, but he no longer smiled, he felt weird all of a sudden as an almost melancholic feeling absorbed the happiness he felt earlier.

On the inside, Donghyuck knew the truth and he knew he wasn’t telling himself the truth. He was feeding himself a spoonful of lies while Mark was offering him the plate of truth right in front of his nose. Maybe he couldn’t bear to see the truth, he was too weak to handle the responsibility of knowing on his young shoulders. Maybe, it was because he was falling in love with you and giving up his soulmate this soon, was something he wasn’t prepared for. A soft sigh left his lips as he looked at your sleeping figure, though small tears made the sight of you blur until it seemed like the pixel filter had mixed with the grain filter. 

“Donghyuck, why are you crying?” 

The voice that he least expected to hear right now, filled his ears. The voice of his soulmate that he loved, the same voice that produced the laughter he could listen to all day. He closed his eyes rapidly to let the few last tears fall: he wanted them to fall quickly so that no more tears would produce on top of the ones that he had cried already. You reached up your arm until it was close enough to his face, the fingertip of your thumb slowly wiping the tears that rolled down, leaving some rough dry patches upon his skin. 

“I’m just so happy to have you, did I ever tell you that?” Donghyuck said through a small sob, sitting up properly to look at you even if your face was still slightly blurry through his vision. The sudden words surprised you but distracted you from the real reason behind his tears, in the short time that you had been familiar with each other, he never said those words. “You didn’t” you started as your body did the same as him so that the two of you sat face to face, looking at each other but not into each other’s eyes. “But I’m very happy to have you as my soulmate, as my future” you said, meaning every word you pushed past your lips.

The words Donghyuck said were completely true even if he lied about the reason he was crying. Because he felt lucky to be your soulmate and he was happy to spend every day with you. Yet, at the same time, he knew soon he wouldn’t be able to see you again, maybe the two of you wouldn’t even be soulmates anymore. Time for you two as soulmates was very limited and Donghyuck didn’t know whether he would have to let you go because of problems in your connection or maybe because either of you wouldn’t make it to the next day. All of those possibilities ran through his mind at a rapid speed, like a pinwheel that was spinning and it would keep on spinning until the dreaded day arrived.

Donghyuck rubbed his hand through his eyes once more as if he was getting rid of the last tears in them, but in reality, he was avoiding the new tears that threatened to fall already. He didn’t want to cry anymore, at least not when you were next to him. When you said that he was your future, a feeling went through his entire body. It was as if his heart seemed to get hit with a hammer, and the pain, was bittersweet. 

When he opened his eyes again, he met was with the sight of you, looking at him from a close-up with worried eyes. Seeing your soulmate cry was something that worried you, even though he said it was because he was happy to have you as his soulmate. His tears had dried upon his cheeks, which made you let out a sigh of relief that his tears had seemed to stop from falling. You tried to follow his eyes that were focused on you, but had no idea what they were seeing. “Hyuck?” you asked soft, wanting to ask if he really was alright at this point. His endless staring, his haze, the crying from earlier: it were things that brought worrisome feelings to your head.

“Can I kiss you?” Donghyuck suddenly broke the tense silence instead of answering to your call for him, his eyes indicated that he had snapped out of the little staring haze he seemed to be in. You could get lost in those eyes, but knew whenever he was lost, his own eyes would indicate it as well. Your eyes widened slightly at the unexpected question but nonetheless, you nodded your head in a positive answer. It took a few seconds for him to realize that you had nodded yes to kissing him, but the smile on his lips made it clear that he saw your nod earlier. 

Donghyuck leaned forward so that his lips were closer to yours, the gap slowly lessened when his lips brushed over yours, barely touching one another but still enough to make the goosebumps rose onto your skin. The slight smile that Donghyuck had on his lips disappeared when he finally pressed his lips to yours completely, creating that first kiss. It was gentle and heartfelt as if two hearts became one during the moment of intimacy. His arms that had been rested next to his body, slowly came up to cup your cheeks during the kiss, just to make it last a tad longer. He would do anything to feel the love falling from your lips onto his. 

The kiss had left both of you breathless the moment your lips separated, if it had been possible to feel sparks then it was more like an electric shock made up out of love. You heard Donghyuck muttering out something that sounded like a small ‘Woah’ but his heavy breathing made it hard to say it for sure. Though, you would say the exact same thing. Kissing Donghyuck was like so many things: each thing so different, but the euphoric feeling combined with happiness, love, and so many other emotions. 

“Come here” Donghyuck said and opened his arms for you to cuddle into them, something you didn’t say no to as you immediately moved to the arms that would make you feel like home. The embrace he held you in was tight but cozy, as both of your minds wandered to the first kiss you just shared. It might have been the first, but surely not the last. 

Donghyuck forgot everything for a second, only the kiss had deserved its press on the replay button. His mind was on you and it mixed itself with the feeling of love and happiness, something that would stay until he was alone again. Once his mind had a moment to wander alone, it would be filled with the thought of having to let you go in forty-one days.

0576 : 06 : 41

Time ticked further even on the moments that Donghyuck forgot about them, even in the moments where time had seemed to stop. And all of the moments that he forgot about the time, he was with you. Time revolved around you, but so did his life.

Donghyuck’s hands rested on your thighs as soon as he kissed your lips for the second time, this time it was more passionate than the sloppy kiss that ended a few minutes ago. Your hand slightly tugged at his arm to draw his body just a little bit closer against yours. 

It would be a lie if you said the kiss didn’t leave its wonders on your body, and by the way you reached up for more of his addictive lips, Donghyuck noticed the slight eagerness. He felt the exact same needs as you did, getting needy for a small taste of your lips, only to get intoxicated by all of you and not just a little taste test he had. His fingertips were warm as they pushed themselves towards your inner thigh, exploring the texture of your jeans but also the way your body felt. “So this is what they call drunk on love” He muttered against your parted lips, his own lips taking the opportunity to deepen the kiss. 

You had no chance to reply to the words because of the sudden change in the way of kissing, though you didn’t complain at all. The hand that had been on his right wrist slowly moved to his chest, to rest there instead. Without even realizing your own actions, your hand made a way under his shirt, fingertips discovering every inch of the warm skin. “Donghyuck” You muttered soft against his lips, accidentally letting your teeth sink into his lower lip because of eagerness. Before you could apologize, an unfamiliar but pleasing sound fell from your soulmate’s lips. 

It all felt so new, and as much as you felt inexperienced, at the same time, you felt as if it was going perfectly fine like this. Though, there was no time to think about those things, not when Donghyuck required your attention. His plump lips left one more kiss on yours before the trail went downwards: starting at your jaw but ending at the sensitive skin of your neck. The kisses felt like soft feathers tingling down your skin, but the heath rose when his kisses turned into leaving little love bites along the way. “Want to...take this further?” Donghyuck muttered against the skin after he had pushed his tongue past his lips to soothe the little bite he left. His voice sounded unsure, but the man just had no idea how to say that his pants were tightening with every passing minute.

Your hum was heard through the room even though it was soft, the hand that was under his shirt seemed to be frozen for a second as the other one was stroking through his hair, twirling at the strands whenever a love bite was stamped onto your skin. “I do” you answered with your words, slightly pulling away from the position you were in just so that you could place a deep kiss on his lips once again. Though, he lead the kiss more than you did as his tongue stroked a straight line over your lower lip. Before your reaction could follow, the teasing side of your soulmate made him decide to pull away.

Donghyuck carefully moved your hands away from his body and gave you a genuine smile, his fingertips latching itself onto your shirt this time and carefully pushed it upwards so that you could take it off. You pulled the remaining bit over your body and head, putting it aside once your body was freed from the piece of clothing. “I’ll take off mine now too” Donghyuck said to you and did as he said, in his head, he wondered if he had to do these things fast or slow, but knew no matter what he did, you wouldn’t judge him for it. 

The silence between you two after that was a nice one, where the two of you admired bits of each other’s bodies that you hadn’t seen before. Donghyuck had forgotten about his timer, but it didn’t matter as luckily you weren’t able to see it, for your own good probably. Still, in silence, the two of you got rid of the remaining pieces of clothing covering your bodies. 

Naked and exposed was what both of you were left in, but neither of you felt that way. Rather than naked, it was being bare in front of each other. Eyes that sparkled with admiration as you looked at each other. “You look so beautiful,” Donghyuck said to you as his eyes skimmed up your body again until he met your eyes. The simple set of words left you almost speechless, but a “thank you” managed to come out in a softer voice.

An unexpected giggle left your lips as the aftermath of his compliment, and the sound of that made Donghyuck let out a laugh too. He just thought you were too cute when you laughed or when you got flustered because of his compliments. Maybe to others, this would seem an awkward moment, but that made everything a little more natural and perfect in the eyes of the soulmates. 

The staring stopped when your lips were met again together, small glimpses of all the sorts of kisses you had shared passed by in this one. But the most overwhelming feeling was endless love for each other, a need for intimacy and closeness. A need for two soulmates to share their souls to be made into one. 

After that, the next step into your soulmate connection was set. Sex was something neither of you mentioned before, making it something unplanned. Unplanned but still like the first time together was supposed to be. The euphoric feeling that was chased through the time, wasn’t one that disappointed once it came. Though the aftermath was a tiring state, it had all been more than worth it.

...

Your eyes went to your soulmate who was next to you in bed, the warm covers pulled over your bare bodies to keep the cold from getting to you. Feeling his warm, bare skin against yours brought you back to the things that happened only a few hours ago. When intimacy became more lustful and a hunt to explore each other more. The unplanned romance was something simplistic and yet, something that wouldn’t leave your mind for a long time. It was as if you could still feel and see the things that happened at that moment: the soft shared kisses between you two, awkward giggles, the feeling of two bodies completing each other and turning into one. All of those things formed to one conclusion in your mind.

It was love

Donghyuck’s soft breathing interrupted further thoughts from coming inside your mind, but when you saw his eyes still lightly shut, you knew that he was still in a peaceful slumber. A slumber that you should be having too, but there was just something about watching your soulmate while he was at his most vulnerable and yet peaceful state. Out of all of the other people in the world, he was destined as yours and you were his. 

Soulmate lives brought up many questions of doubt, questions that everyone answered differently: none of them were right, none of them were wrong. And in the end, you knew that it just depended on life and on each other. Just like how your life and Donghyuck’s life became something that both of you would name as ‘our life’ , because life belonged to both of you, and both of you completed a small puzzle that you would have to continue building up together. Not all soulmates stayed together, not all soulmates even had the opportunity to meet each other. You considered yourself lucky and grateful: to have Donghyuck, and to share the love. 

Slow thoughts passed by in your mind as you continued to look at Donghyuck for a couple of minutes, a small smile played on your lips at the continuous stream of happy memories and thoughts. Maybe Donghyuck really was a full sun: giving its overflowing rays to others to brighten up their day, giving them positivity whenever things weren’t okay. But you also wondered what would happen when the sun himself had no light to shine or no chance to rest. It was a promise in your mind that you made with yourself, to try and make Donghyuck happy for as many days as you possibly could.

Donghyuck moved slightly in his sleep, both of his arms above the covers as his wrist became visible almost right away. Your eyes went from his bare shoulder to his arm and then to his hand, smiling when you thought about all the times you would hold hands. And a glance at his wrist reminded you of the day both of your timers had stopped; you missed looking at the changing numbers sometimes, but the habit was forgotten whenever you remembered that you had the face of your soulmate to look at instead. 

“I love you”

The words stirred in an invisible pot in your mind for a little bit but then you realized that it wasn’t your mind that actually produced the words. Your eyes no longer staring into the unknown when you also realized it really was Donghyuck’s voice that said them. Instead, your eyes focused on Donghyuck again. His eyes were slightly open and at the same time, it looked like he was still half asleep, but it didn’t make him less beautiful. 

A lazy smile played on his lips, his hand wrapping around your arm and pulled you into one of his warm embraces like that. Still facing him, you laid comfortably in his arms. “Hm, answer me, little sunflower,” He said to you, nudging the tip of his nose against the soft skin of your cheek. A playful gesture even if he did want to hear your voice, he had to know if you felt the same thing that he felt for you.

You smiled at the gesture, pressing a soft kiss to his shoulder but soon turned a bit so that you could look at him and his facial expressions when you two were lazing and talking together. “I love you too, Donghycuk” you finally answered the words he said earlier even though it hadn’t been a question. Your eyes still focused to see what expression his face would form into when you returned the act of love. And his smile seemed brighter than ever before, almost as if the literal sun was shining through lace curtains and into your heart.

Donghyuck hummed softly when he heard the words, a neverending smile was on display for you to see and admire. Though he hadn’t realized how his timer was on display just like his smile was, a timer that your eyes would never see, because it somehow just worked like that, and one Donghyuck would figure that out, he would feel grateful but also confused at the same time. 

His fingertips came in contact with your warm skin, starting to trace small shapes onto the soft flesh. First, it were small circles but circles turned into hearts and hearts turned into writing his name or your initials. The small traces never left a mark on your skin, invisible permanent ink stating how you were his and he was yours. Just like his fingertips touched you, his lips also did by pressing a few small but sweet kisses to your lips: in his little rush sometimes only pecking your lower or top lip, yet the kisses didn’t lack love or feelings. The little mistakes he made, left him smiling against your lips once he did kiss you properly. And you gladly returned that kiss.

this was forever

Donghyuck’s eyes opened themselves in the morning, aside from needing the time to adjust to the light, his eyes looked forward to seeing your sleeping figure next to him. His hand already reached out towards the side of the bed that you would always occupy. Only to be met by the cold, yet soft mattress. It made his eyes open themselves properly and the first thing they saw was the empty space beside him. At the same time, he also noticed the lack of warmth in the bed and in his arms. 

He took his phone from the nightstand but after having it unlocked, he noticed that he didn’t have a message from you to reveal where you were. Panic always rose in his body whenever Donghyuck couldn’t see you: scared that you had left or already disappeared from his life. It was a fear, a fear that made him weak in the knees and a fear that controlled a little part of his life.

Before deciding to get up, he took a look at the countdown on his wrist once again, a daily habit unless you were next to him. His eyes closed before he could see it: before the two of you went to bed, the number was still slightly over a hundred and he hoped nothing had changed to that number. “Please” He mumbled shortly to himself and opened his eyes in an instant to look at the verdict.

0096 : 01 : 42

Seeing more numbers going towards the 0 made him swallow away the lump in his throat. There was no more chance that time would ever stand still, no more chance of you staying longer in his arms than the time that had been given. What did he do to only deserve your love for a short moment in his life? Why did he deserve your love in such a small amount? Was he being punished for who he was in his previous life?

All kinds of questions bombarded Donghyuck’s mind but none of the questions would get an answer. He was grateful for the time he had with you, but at the time he wasn’t grateful for the heartbreak he was going to experience in ninety-six hours. 

“y/n” Donghyuck mumbled softly to himself as he was staring down at his wrist, sad eyes looking upon the timer the entire time as another minute passed by faster than the time really seemed to go. He wasn’t ready to lose you, to give you away and continue his life as if nothing ever happened. Once again, your name left his lips, a more angry tone coming from them. He tugged on his sleeve harshly: leaving the sleeve over his entire hand but at least it covered the timer so that he could no longer see it. He was angry, he was sad, he was disappointed, he was feeling so many negative emotions when he was on his own, while around you all he felt was sunshine, happiness, and love. 

Just as he was about to get up to look for you, you came into the bedroom with a small smile on your lips. He could see the way you were trying to focus on not dropping the tray with breakfast, which was a cute sight that instantly lowered the level of angriness he had in his body. When you almost reached the bed, your eyes finally looked away from the breakfast-filled tray and they scanned the bed, only to see Donghyuck already awake. 

“I wanted to make you breakfast in bed” You said with a small smile as you had kind of wished he was still asleep by the time you were done with making breakfast. You had even received help from Doyoung to get the breakfast ready faster than when you did it alone. As you put the tray down in the middle of the bed, Donghyuck sent you a sweet smile. “And you did, come here, sunflower,” He said and beckoned you in for a morning kiss. You leaned over towards his side of the bed, pressing a couple of small kisses to his lips, making him turn the last peck into a proper morning kiss. 

“Good morning” He mumbled against your lips before slowly withdrawing his lips from yours, leaving you with a smile on your lips. “Morning,” you said back to him as you got comfortable on the bed to eat your breakfast together here. Donghyuck carefully moved the tray a bit closer to both of you so that eating without spilling was easier, after all, he didn’t want to get scolded by Taeyong for having crumbs or coffee stains on the sheets of the bed. 

As both you and Donghyuck ate a bit, it was silent for a while. But at the same time both of you listened to the talking from the others that was happening outside your room, probably everyone getting up for breakfast or for plans they made. “Do you have any plans today?” You asked Donghyuck as you eyed him curiously to wait for his answer. Donghyuck shook his head as his mouth was still filled with fresh and warm coffee that had been just made. Once he swallowed it, he could speak up: “no, I just wanted to spend my day with you, unless you have something to do?” he said, adding the last bit more questioningly as he wanted to know if you had made any plans that didn’t involve him. You in response just shook your head as a sign that you had nothing planned for today.

For that response, Donghyuck was inwardly very grateful. Simply because he only had four days left with you and wished you would spend your four last days together. Even though there was the chance that you’d not survive and had to say a last goodbye to your family and friends, Donghyuck was selfish and wanted you all to himself. He wanted to protect you from whatever was going to happen, even if it meant having to lock you inside for four days just to keep you intact and safe.

“Maybe we could go to the coffee shop where we first drank coffee together?” You suggested to Donghyuck, still thinking he asked the question because he wanted to do something other than lazing around for most of the day. When Donghyuck shook his head at the suggestion, you were surprised because you thought he would have said yes. “Do you want to do something else?” you asked, asking more questions because you wanted to know what was going on in his mind and wanted to know what kind of day he had in mind when he asked about the plans earlier. “I kind of just want to stay here: have a movie marathon, or have a pamper day together,” he said, just speaking his opinion mixed with the worry of you leaving the dorm to get into the big world where scary things happened.

Hearing those words made you nod slowly as you were still trying to think of something that you could do together while you stayed inside since Donghyuck clearly didn’t want to leave the house today. Something that you were fine with, because all you wanted was for Donghyuck to be happy. 

Lately, in the past few days, you had seen the difference between your Donghyuck and the Donghyuck that he turned into. Not to forget how you could see his sad expression whenever he thought you were out of the room, but when you walked in again, it was just enough time for you to see how his expressions changed. As if he forced himself to be happy around you. You knew on the inside that it had nothing to do with who you were: maybe he was just hiding that he was going through a tough time. And it was your job to make him happy again since you did promise yourself to try and make each day as happy and good as possible for him.

“A pamper day sounds nice” You said as you had given it a thought, maybe it would be a good way to get Donghyuck to feel better or maybe he would open up to you about his struggles that way. But you had no idea how he wanted to use his last chances to give you his everything, to give you everything you deserved in life or more... maybe it would make you stay with him, maybe then you wouldn’t get taken away from him in whatever way. Donghyuck smiled when you had given your words of approval, even though he already guessed you would say yes because nothing was better than a day where you would take care of each other and love each other.

Donghyuck took the last bites of the breakfast before he wiped his hands on the napkin that you had also put down on the tray. He watched how you seemed to be in thinking mode, which probably was thinking about all the kinds of stuff you could do on your pampering day, at least he guessed so as he could still notice the slight smile that you had on your lips.

In the middle of the silence that was created, Donghyuck decided to speak up as a random thought pushed the other thoughts away from his mind immediately. “Do you want to go on a date?” He asked you suddenly, his words never faltering as he said the things even though it was as much of a shock to him as it would be to you. You snapped back into reality, your eyes going over to the person that you loved so much, to the person that was your forever and even beyond that. “We never had a real date because we are soulmates,” you said soft and smiled a bit once that thought recovered from the shock question he had bombarded you with, you didn’t know soulmates would go on dates as well. “Then let’s go on a date: what do you think of going to the flower fields and just spending some time together there. Just the two of us and no one else, our love and some kisses” He said hastily as he nearly was at the crying point again when the words of going on a romantic date on the day he would last see you slipped from his lips.

“Like a first date kind of concept?” You asked, confused as Donghyuck had seemed to think about it before. Maybe he already planned this out beforehand when you had no idea what was going on in his mind, and maybe that had been the reason why he always seemed to be sad or in thought when you weren’t in the room. “Exactly like that, we will make it special in our way, we don’t need many things to make it special. And I was thinking, we could even get to the place separately so that it seems more like a surprise” He said even though it no longer was a surprise, he could make it surprising in many different ways and that was exactly what he was planning on doing. Anything to make you stay.

You seemed to think about it for a while, although a while was only like a few seconds, but long enough to make Donghyuck wonder if it was really a good idea. He had thought about it before, but planning was hard for someone with such a young mind. “Yes, I would like that,” you said as a sign that you were up for that kind of date, and the smile made it even more clear to you that you did want to do so. Without saying anything, Donghyuck leaned forward and kissed your lips again, over the moon with the idea of you having your first date together and possibly make you stay with him for longer and hopefully forever.

Donghyuck looked at the flower garden with a proud smile, carrying the bag of things he had gotten from the grocery store. It maybe wasn’t the best quality food or the flower fields like he said, but he knew that the flower garden and the simple cup ramen was just as good as all of the other things that the world had to offer. His mind had dared to slip away from the timer because he didn’t want to look down upon it today: he had promised himself not to because it was too painful for him to handle and he still didn’t want to think about the chance of losing you.

He took his phone from the pocket of his jeans and looked down at the time it indicated, although it was more staring at your picture that was set proudly as his lockscreen. Aside from considering you as his soulmate, you were also his girlfriend at the same time and probably even the love of his life, the last one being words he didn’t say out loud even though he was very sure of them. Just ten more minutes before you would arrive at the place that he decided to meet up with you. He had texted you the address so by the address you probably would have noticed how it was a flower garden rather than the fields, but there was no real space for romantic flower fields in a city as big as this one. 

Donghyuck unlocked his phone and immediately went towards the last text that you had sent him, telling him that you were already on the way but that you had decided to walk there so that you had time to enjoy the weather. You could have easily asked one of the other guys to take you to the right destination but you wanted to go for the real first date concept and just try to find your own way to the destination, you didn’t want the other guys to waste time on taking you there and then drive back home once again.

He looked back at the time you last sent that message and frowned when he realized it had been over the normal time that you normally were supposed to be there. He had walked as well so he didn’t really understand why it took so long for you to get there while he hadn’t walked that long either: maybe you had just run into someone that you knew well and had gotten caught up in the middle of someone talking to you. While he was waiting for you, he put everything ready for the two of you to eat comfortably and just sit happily together between the flowers. 

His eyes were on the sunflowers as he waited and waited, the time passed by but he didn’t seem to realize it yet as he was waiting for you. He was impatient because he wanted to see you but at the same time, all he could do was wait for you to arrive and have your date together. His voice produced small humming sounds as his fingertips ran over the petals of the yellow flower, the humming distraught him even more from the tome that was passing by. Sunflowers reminded him of you, because he loved calling you sunflower while he was your sunshine. His sunflower: the girl that he would give his life for, the girl that he would ask the hand of today because he wanted to make it last forever.

The peaceful silence stopped as soon as he could hear the ringtone of his phone, he was about to take it from his pocket but was reminded that he was still holding his phone with one hand. He held his phone as he looked at the strange number: a number that he didn’t recognize but he still answered the phone call out of habit. 

“Hello?” He spoke into the phone, his tone more questioning as he was wondering who was at the other side of the line at this moment. The background noises that he heard sounded familiar but at the same time, he had no idea where he knew them from. “Lee Donghyuck?” the voice on the other side of the line finally made its clear appearance: the voice didn’t spark emotion, it was like a monotone voice without intonation and yet it was sounding serious. Donghyuck was silent for a couple of seconds but realized he had to answer in order to get information about who was calling him. “That’s me,” he said, keeping it just as short as the other person did although his voice had more emotions and a really unique sound.

“This is about y/l/n y/n, we need you to come to the hospital, she has been in an accident” The voice said and waited for an answer although it became clear that the person seemed impatient at this point. Though, Donghyuck’s world stopped spinning when he heard the words being said. Your name was enough to trigger him, even without hearing the hospital part. “I will...come,” He said, struggling to speak as his breathing got caught up in his throat. 

He put the phone in his pocket without realizing he had to hang up, he forgot all of his stuff at the flower garden and just ran as fast as he could.  There was no voice in his mind telling him that a taxi could be faster or that all of his belongings were left at the flower garden, all his mind was saying was your name over and over again. 

Donghyuck’s legs never gave in when he ran, it was as if his body had an unlimited supply of power at this point. Probably just because he really needed to get to you and make sure that everything was okay. Once he was at the hospital, he didn’t waste time and just ran inside: making other people who were walking look at him angrily because of his rush. It didn’t stop him from running as instinct even seemed to tell him where he had to go to see you: words weren’t even needed to ask one of the people who could help him with that. 

In the hallway that he ended up in, he stood still and glanced around to see if his instincts also told him where you were. But nothing happened, his mind no longer ran on thoughts of you or instincts of where he had to go to get to you. Standing still also caused reality to come down on the situation around him. He was in a hospital because someone called him, he was in the hospital because you were in the hospital. His soulmate was in the hospital.

With fear, he slightly pulled up the sleeve hiding his timer. Taking a deep breathe of tiredness but also nerves before he looked down upon the skin that would indicate how long it was before the last moment. 

0000 : 00 : 26

The remaining seconds seemed too familiar: he remembered he had seen those seconds when you were about to meet in the grocery store that you were both in. A time he had been nervous and yet excited about now that he thought back upon the moment. Meeting you, his soulmate, was the best thing that had ever happened to him: you were more than just his soulmate. His almost-happy moment was interrupted by the doctor after only a few moments.

“Lee Donghyuck, you can come with me” The doctor started to lead Donghyuck with him right away, even though Donghyuck’s feet really had to work hard to move only one step, he managed to take more than one step. Somehow, he had hoped they would go to the doctor’s office and talk but when he noticed they were going into the direction of one of the hospital rooms, his heart started to skip beats and beat faster synchronously. 

His eyes went back towards his timer as the seconds lowered themselves too fast for him to really process all of it. Just a few more seconds before you two would last see each other, or in this case for him to see you. He no longer could live without you, so how was he supposed to go into the room and watch you as you probably were dead, thanks to a driver who hadn’t kept his eyes on the road.

The door was opened by the doctor right as his timer ticked its last second, something that went unnoticed by his eyes as he was trying to mentally prepare himself for what was about to happen. Before he was prepared, his eyes were met with the sight of you: your eyes closed like the way they would when you would rest in his arms, your soft skin filled with wounds and scratches that left you scarred. A little damaged sunflower, as his positive mind would call it but positivity was long gone at this point.

Donghyuck’s eyes lowered after one lonely second, he was too weak to see you like that, the weight on his shoulders nearly made his legs weak. With tear-filled eyes, he habitually glanced towards his left wrist, the wrist that his second timer was inked upon. The many zeros stood still for the first time, there was no more countdown to be done, time ran out. In a flash of less than a second, the numbers seemed to count to a number that disappeared too quick for him to read, at the second glance, the ink had already faded on his frail skin.

Warm tears started to fall down Donghyuck’s cheeks as he slowly walked into the hospital room, dragging his feelings along with him, just like a broken heart. He reached out his hand towards you, a sob escaping his lips when you didn’t grasp his hand like you usually would. Instead, he took your hand in his and ran his fingertips over your skin. Careful and gentle, as if you were going to break any second. Unseen by him: a pair of eyes opened for what seemed like the first time, a mind that forgot everyone but wasn’t forgotten by anyone. The sudden shifting of fingers made Donghyuck’s eyes look at you, through the gloomy eyes of himself, he could see your eyes opened as if they had never closed.

“Who are you? And why are there sunflower petals in your hair?”

[loviesun]

unsaid feelings [ han jisung ]

🎵it will rain🎵

A/N: so uhm this is kinda boring and yeah it kinda sad cause it doesn’t have enough recognition to other people but anyways excuse my bad grammar and typos in the story

pairing: han jisung x reader (not proof read)

genre: angst

please click the link above :3 I hope you listen to it while reading

i.

you’ve awoken from your deep slumber, feeling the sun rays hit your soft skin, staring outside, the windo protecting your eyes. you saw students walking around the campus, you were still in the classroom, empty.

“y/n! why are you still here? I was about to go home already, thank god I didn’t forget about you” jisung, your best buddy. the one who always jokes around, making you feel happy and important.

you rested your chin in your hand and watched him sit down infront of you, he placed a small box of chocolates milk, you know that he had a feeling you were under the weather, as expected he knows what you would want to drink

“here drink this, you better drink this because I just went to a store and wasted my money to buy this drink” he said while inserting a straw and gave it to you while looking at you

you didn’t hesitate to take the choclate milk, slowly starting to drink the drink he bought for you, while you were drinking he was completely watching you, smiling at how you accepted his treat

“what are you looking at? do you want this, you do know you can have this instead right?” you said while offering the milk drink back to him

“no no, it’s okay I already drank one on my way here so yeah drink it” he said while gesturing you to continue on drinking the chocolate milk

you continued to drink the chocolate milk and he waited for you to finish it and go home together, as you finished the drink, you then stood up to throw the milk box and arrange your things so that the both of you could go home

once you finished fixing your things the both of you went out of the campus and walked on your way home, the walk was completely silent until jisung broke it

“yah, do you know that transferee in our school?” he asked you and looked at you waiting for you to answer his question

“yeah i do, why?” you know there’s something he’s gonna talk about her so you listened closely

“well she’s kinda pretty and her personality seems nice, I kinda like her I guess” he laughed a little, rubbing the back of his neck feeling shy

hearing him same “i like her” made your heart crash, it felt like an arrow shot in your chest. you didn’t know what to reply to him, you just wanted to cry and tell him that you also like him, but you’re scared, scared of breaking your friendship.

“well good for you, I hope she likes you back too tho. anyways we’re here now imma get going then.” gesturing a wave as a bye, you stopped at your doorway and watched back at him he looked happy, watching him move away made you feel anxious and scared. scared that your about to lose a friend.

*the next day*

“y/n! y/n! I can’t believe it!” you saw jisung running on his way to your seat and tell you something, he looked happy and excited much to tell you

“hmm? what is it?” you said while putting down your pen and looked at him, waiting for him to speak and tell you on what’s happening

“you remeber that girl right the transferee? so I asked her on a date and she said yes! oh my god, I can’t believe this y/n” he said

hearing the sudden news about them going on a date made you feel much more sad, you knew this was going to get worse any time now. it’s too late now, too late to confess that you’ve liked him for years now.

“really? good for you! I hope your date goes well!” you said while in a joyful tone, you had to act that you were proud of him, you didn’t want to disappoint him because you might lose him

*timeskip*

“Ji! let’s go home!” you called jisung and waited for his response, you expected he would say okay but that wasn’t his reply

“Oh y/n, I can’t walk with you today. we’re going to the arcade today, I’m sorry gotta go now!” jisung said while running outside not even looking back at you

you were dumbfounded, your best friend is starting to change. he’s starting to forget about you and focus on someone else who became important to him now, you didn’t notice your tears falling down to your soft cheeks. you startled yourself when you realized your crying, you wiped your tears and packed your things

“I guess having a best friend that’s in a relationship can cause destruction through time” you said while closing the door slowly

on your way home, you stopped by a store where you and jisung hang out for a while and eat, but now that jisung has other things that makes him happy. you only ate by yourself, you didn’t know why your too late on things.

tears were starting to fall down through your cheeks again, you were confused, it’s embarrassing for you to cry in public so you made your way outside and went home

you don’t know, if you could keep your friendship. you know it could go worse to as jisung is now starting to be in a relationship, you couldn’t help it but just to cry

ii.

It’s been a week since jisung started to forget about you, he couldn’t walk you home now because he was too focused with his date. yet you, have been staying away from them since you thought it’s much more better to not let them feel your presence.

while spacing out you remembered how you and jisung were still kids, when you got injured and he hugged you to feel better. you wanted to feel his embrace again but sadly you can’t because he has company with him. and that wasn’t you neither.

“y/n!” you heard jisung’s voice but you also realized he isn’t looking for you anymore, he’s looking for the person he loves much more than you, lowering your head down and tried to sleep to let the pain go away

you felt someone tapping your head, looking at that person it was him, your best friend. he was looking at you completely confused to why your face looks not good, you noticed him that he was looking at your face so you covered your face with your hair

“do you have a fever? you’ve been ignoring me for the past few days, have you been eating?” he said while looking worried at you

you didn’t want to believe him that he was worried about you, you thought that all of what he said was just a lie to you because he has someone that has a much more important role than you

“just leave me alone will you? I’m trying to focus on drawing this” you said while trying to put back your earphones and turned on your playlist, forgetting jisung was there infront of you

he pulled out one earphone and wanted your attention, you know he wants you to listen to him but you ignored him

“can’t you just listen for me once?” he said while trying to beg you to talk to him, his eyes were looking at you. the expression he painted on his face looks much more worried than you thought

before you could speak the teacher came and it stopped you from talking, shaking you head in annoyance. you looked down and tears were starting to form again in your eyes, you wiped those tears with the sleeve of your uniform and tried to not make it obvious that you were crying

*timeskip*

you were going home by yourself again, you started to getting used on going home alone. not stopping by the store you and jisung used to go. you felt a sudden drop from the sky and you realized, it’s gonna rain yet you didn’t bring any umbrella

as the rain started pouring, you didn’t do anything but stop at your tracks. kneeling down to the ground, hugging your knees as you started crying while getting soaked in the rain

“yah! y/n! you’d get a cold sitting here. let’s go home together.” you looked at that person, it was jisung. holding an umbrella to protect you from getting much more soaked in the rain.

you slowly stood up and made eye contacts with him. as you looked at his face he looked worried. much more worried than the last time

“do you really need to?” you asked while tears flowing through your soft cheeks, staining your cheeks

“what do you mean y/n? Ah! you mean the shop? ye-” before he finished saying you interrupted him

“you know what nevermind, I’ll go home by myself.” you said while running away from him, you can hear him shouting your name but you didn’t look back nor stop your tracks

iii.

you know it’s dumb, after all that had happened a few days ago made you stay away from jisung and ignore his messages and forget that you guys were friends

after that day, you’ve encouraged yourself to go out by 3 am and talk to the moon. it made you feel safe, sad and confused, you don’t know where all this thing could’ve happened if that girl didn’t transfer to your school

it’s 3 in the morning and now you’ve came outside again, stopping by a store to buy your chocolate milk and made your way to the beach near the town, you arrived at the place and your still mesmerized by it’s beauty. the water sparkling, the sound of the waves soothing your ears

as you sat in a spot, you’ve remebered about him. han jisung. your best friend since you were still in grade school, you thought this might be a sign that the both of you are starting to end this friendship

“y/n? what are you doing here at this hour?” he said

you heard his voice, the person you’ve been thinking about at this hour. you looked at him, han jisung. you’re best friend which you had a crush on.

“I’m just chilling, what about you?” you asked him in a comfortable tone, you had to act your okay seeing him again after a few days of ignoring

“i just came out to get some fresh air” he stated, taking a seat beside you. looking at the waves slowly coming to land

you didn’t know how to start a conversation with him, you were scared that he might misunderstand on why you’ve been ignoring him, the words in your mind wanting to spill out from your tongue and tell him about what you feel

“jisung, i need to tell you something” you hesitated to tell him and waited for him to answer you

“sure what is it?” he asked while looking at you, quietly waiting for you to speak up. his eyes sparkling with the water, his gaze looked amazing as always

“I’m sorry if I left you all alone that day, I wasn’t really thinking at that time, my mind was too messed up. I wanted to hug you but I know. I’m never gonna feel that again. you finally have someone important with you, someone who has a much more important role than me” you said while tears flowing down your cheeks, you were finally sobbing again

“what are you talking about y/n? your important to me! you’ll always be important to me” he said while holding your hand

“no i’m not, I know that we’ve been best friends ever since grade school. but now we’ve grown up so much that you found someone who can accompany you, someone who can make you laugh. and I’m not that person. I like you jisung. I like you so much but you love someone else” you said while tears we’re finally coming out faster, staining your cheeks

“what do you mean? you make me happy y/n, you and me have been hanging out for years now. you’ve been keeping me company y/n” he said while trying to wipe the tears in your cheeks

“I’m sorry but it’s hard for me, we’re still friends anyways. I like you. but i guess i might need to stay away from you for a little while since you have someone else” you said while standing up from your seat, you looked at your surroundings then you saved one last look to his face

“I should’ve confessed sooner to you If that'll make you mine, please remember this I love you han jisung”

you’ve lost your happiness, but you promise to yourself you’ll still be friends with jisung but catch no feelings, just friends.

[tiny-smallest]

STEVEN UNIVERSE FINALE THOUGHTS: SPOILERS ABOUND

My criticisms mostly lie in how short it was. This whole epilogue season needed to be longer. More episodes, or longer episodes. I'd lean more towards longer personally because as much as I'd love to revisit old friends who didn't get any time in SUF (FUCKING. NEPHRITE.), I'd rather the stuff that exists were fleshed out more. If I had my way we’d have more episodes (maybe 30-40, and not all of them painful; some more like Why So Blue or Guidance- ones that hint at his escalating mental illness but aren’t a sheer punch of pain) as well as longer episodes when needed (some of these were perfect for their length; others could’ve used a longer run time to really flesh things out) but if I had to pick one, I’d pick longer episodes over more episodes.

So far the biggest things that bug me are Connie's speech and White's breakdown. 

Connie's speech only because she started it. In a show that kind of finally called the adults out for how much Steven had to give to them, it's a different child who rallies them to a clear head so they can figure out what to do. I'd much rather Greg have started the speech and Connie then interject. And then Garnet comes up with the actual plan? That'd have been perfect. They got so close to that too, since Greg is the only adult not falling apart instead of focusing on what Steven needs; he admits his faults and is obviously super upset about it, but his statement is a declaration of action: that this time he’s not running to let the magic people deal with this, he’s going to be there too. THEY WERE SO CLOSE TO THAT MOMENT BEING ABSOLUTELY PERFECT AUGH.

White's breakdown. I get what they were going for here, I really do: we’ve all seen The Big Bad be dealt with by stabbing them real good a lot and rarely is there ever any nuance applied to the concept of toppling a tyrant and where that would leave people, and the show is BUILT on the idea of what happens when you try that (or... fake the succeeding of it), so I get why they decided not to straight up kill her. But you also built White up to be like... Mother Gothel meets Frollo and then SHOWCASED IT IN ACTION and I'm forever gonna have a hard time swallowing the concept that she could ever be so utterly repentant of her crimes, I guess, both on a personal and universal level? I’d have almost rather she remained toxic and kept at a distance?

Add-ons to this are not a word about humanizing Pink/Rose in Steven's viewpoint and not a word about what White did to Steven-- which is possibly the most traumatic thing that happened to him.

That being said, corrupted Steven was a fucking HELL YES. And they USED THE WORD CORRUPTED SO HATERS CAN SUCK IT. I thought the corruption was solved a little too... easily and quickly? If other corrupted gems weren’t reachable just by talking to them Steven shouldn’t have been either even with being half human, and I would have loved if they’d had to go into his mind in order to reach him with their words--which would’ve been an interesting parallel to Change Your Mind, actually. But this is an example of what I mean about wishing episodes were longer. For this to be a thing the episode would’ve needed to be longer. As it was, it was fine. The emotion of it still got through. Everyone got to say their piece and that was important. It teetered a little dangerously close to ‘Connie fixes Steven’ but since everyone else did talk and said some really important stuff it’s more like Connie just happened to go last and not that her words in particular were important above everyone else’s.

Steven hanging up the poster from the song Mr. Universe also is like- another mild criticism in that the implications there could use A WHOLE EPISODE OF THEIR OWN (he has accepted he is a Universe, he has accepted his father; there may or may not have been a talk about Greg’s decisions and why he made them) but the implications are there nonetheless and I love it. 

STEVEN. HAS. A THERAPIST. THEY SAID THE WORDS ON CAMERA.

STEVEN'S COOKING AGAIN!! 

A final conversation between him and his father and it was of a decent length yes thank you god. 

He said goodbye to all the Crystal Gems not just the three he lives with YAY

CONVERSE KISS. AT LAST. Sure, it didn’t get to be the big dramatic moment we were hoping for, but it was sweet and THERE.

A CONFIRMATION OF A TIMESKIP which is good because he'd really need a stable place for those first few months following something that awful. 

I'm glad they established there had been time between that and his road trip. I’m also glad they made sure to establish that his support system is going to be in contact with him constantly. My mom instincts are screaming that he’s still too young and too sick to be on the road alone and I’d rather that have happened in a year or two, but since he’s gonna be in constant contact, can, go home at any time, and is probably 1-2 months away from being eighteen at the time he sets out, I can accept that.

The implication that Steven might return is a deeply appreciated one, because I’d rather this ended where it did last time-- a family together on a beach. But Steven needs time to grow and learn and he can’t do that in Beach City right now which is a thing I get- but the fact that he’s just as likely to return as he is to settle elsewhere means that after he’s seen all he’s wanted to see he can always return to his family and find a new adventure waiting in Beach City. (Personally I’d like to think he opens a restaurant.) And for those who’d rather he settle elsewhere, they get to have that, too! 

It’s a way to leave it open-ended without feeling cheap, because the whole season has been building up to him needing to get away at least for awhile, and I appreciate that.

I realize that Being Human was sung in pieces by (I believe) Sugar over the course of the season in the way that Love Like You was to hide that the speaker is Steven the way it was previously done to hide that the speaker was Rose, but man, my final criticism: I wish Steven had sung the song as he was leaving. Just. A short version of it maybe as he drove off. If the lack of Steven being musical this season was supposed to be a nod to his worsening mental spiral then it would make sense for him to sing one final song as he’s healing, a sign of hope, and to leave the viewers with one last goodbye from the boy himself. 

(And also so our only Steven song isn’t the incredibly sad I’d Rather Be Me With You.)

But all in all? It was a good finale. A solid finale. I adored it and it made me Feel Things. It was amazing to see some theories come to fruition. It was amazing to tackle the wounds that the original series would have left on a child’s soul. It was an amazing experience overall and while I feel some things could have been done better, I am so, so glad I binged my way through the original series to experience Future as it happened. I regret not keeping up with the original series as it aired and I am so, so glad for the experience of getting to do that with this series’ last hurrah. It kind of hurts; I’ll be mourning this show’s loss for a long time. But in an internet littered with cartoons killed before their time, I am incredibly grateful this show got to come to a proper close, got to tell its story through to the end.

In this world of people there really is no one like you, Steven. We will always be your family, and each other’s. Thanks for the ride. 

[intellectual-urchin]

Gone Feral (A fallout 4 oneshot)

I originally posted this on my wattpad account but I feel like my talent was wasted posting it there so now i’m posting it here.  This is gender ambiguous! My first fallout 4 fanfiction and of course I had to make it angst.

The morning had started out the same as any other, Sole making a plan to make progress in the search for Shaun. They had spent the past 2 weeks gathering Rad-X and RadAway until they decided they had more than enough for their dangerous excursion to come. Today was the day that Sole would enter the glowing sea and find Virgil.

The rogue institute scientist had information and was going to be their ticket into the shadowy organization.

They wouldn't lie, they were terrified to go due to all of the horror stories they've heard about how dangerous the glowing sea is. There was no way they were going alone, going alone almost ensured death, which is why Sole decided to take someone whom they trusted wholeheartedly. Hancock. Sole met Hancock a few months ago and they hit it off and became good friends.

When Hancock heard about their predicament, he jumped right into the fray and wanted to help. He wasn't obligated to help at all and yet he wanted to anyways. Hancock saw it as unfair because Sole was new to the commonwealth. Having been on ice for 200 years only to be thrown into a confusing and cruel world. He decided he wanted to join Sole because he wasn't going to let Sole fall victim to the Commonwealth's cruelty without help. He already had strong resentment for the institute but knowing they stole Sole's little boy steeled his resolve to aid them. This fact was one of the many reasons Sole grew to be good friends with Hancock. He wasn't obligated to help and yet he was doing so anyways and that made Sole beam with respect for the ghoul.

And so Sole and Hancock made their way towards the glowing sea.

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The duo knew that they had made it into the glowing sea immediately. Sole's pip-boy began to click as it detected the lingering radiation in the air and they could feel the atmosphere change almost instantly. Hearing the clicking of the pip-boy, Hancock caught Sole's attention.

"I'd advise you to pop a Rad-X unless you wanna go ghoul like me Sole" Their eyes flew open as they realized their mistake. They had nearly forgotten because they had become so used to the clicking of the geiger counter. Sole grabbed a Rad-X from their bag and swallowed it, giving a nod and a sheepish smile to the ghoul in thanks. Hancock merely chuckled and shook his head playfully as they continued on.

They continued walking for a half hour before Sole felt the ground next to them shake before a ferocious radscorpion popped out the ground, its eyes gleaming and claws clicking threateningly. Sole lept back and fired 3 shots at the beast with their laser rifle. The first missed while the other two appeared to have no affect other than angering it. It began to charge Sole but Hancock fired his shotgun twice at its head to put it down before it could do real harm. The beast slumped over as life left its body.

"Well at least it wasn't a deathclaw. You should have seen the look on your face!" The ghoul laughed while Sole shot him a look before joining in with the ghoul's laughter.

"Remember that time you shrieked when a Mirelurk popped out from under you when we helped retake the castle? You sounded like a molerat!" Sole shot back at the ghoul and the laughter increased to a roar. Hancock was the first to stop laughing as he suddenly became mute and doubled over with his hands on his knees and face turned towards the ground. Sole stopped when they noticed this and raised an eyebrow.

"I know i'm funny but i've never seen you laugh hard enough to act like this." Sole said worriedly as Hancock remained silent.

"Uhh, Hancock? You okay there?" Sole waved their hand in front of Hancock's face and he looked up. His eyes were unfocused as he blinked up at Sole blearily before shaking his head as if to clear his vision.

"I just feel like I have a killer hangover. Maybe I should cut back on the chems..." He trailed off as Sole began lowering their stuff to the ground.

"What are you doing?" He asked.

"We are taking a break." Sole replied in a matter-of-factly tone that he interpreted to mean that there was no room for arguing. He sighed softly as he lowered himself to sit on a rock.

He pulled a cigarette out and lit it, bringing it to his ruined lips and puffing slowly. Sole fiddled with their pip-boy to see how far they were from their destination.

"So it looks like we have a few more hours worth of walking once we start moving again and-" Sole stopped talking when they raised their eyes towards Hancock.

"If you have a hangover, wouldn't smoking make it worse?" they chided.

"Nah, works differently for me. Helps me relax." the ghoul retorted.

Sole sighed at the ghoul and handed a can of purified water to the ghoul.

"Drink some water, will you? It'll help you feel better."

He accepted the water and drank it quickly muttering a quick "thanks" when he finished.

The two sat in a comfortable silence for a while longer before Sole got up and continued the laborious trek to find Virgil.

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Hancock's POV

I followed behind sole at a slightly slower pace. I don't know what's up with me today but I feel so weak. This is worse than any hangover I've ever had but I don't want to worry them. I can feel how shaky I am and I have to keep blinking to clear my eyes. If this goes on for much longer I may need to stop.

I let out an involuntary whine that sounded almost like a growl. I noticed that Sole froze ahead of me and turned around. Damn, this is supposed to be for their sake, I can't help but feel guilty for having them worry about me. They have enough problems to deal with without me feeling sick.

"Hancock? Are you sure you're okay? You don't look good at all. We can go back if you wa-"

"No! I'm fine, let's keep moving." I snapped and felt a minor pang of guilt after seeing the mixed emotion of shock and hurt flash across their face. I was confused. I don't know why i'm acting so irritable and it feels like everything is blurring together.

I stumbled past Sole heading in the direction of our destination. The shakes continued and my vision became foggier with each step I took. A voice in the back of my head was screaming to take Sole up on their offer and head home, saying that I wouldn't make it. I ignored it and continued on.

I couldn't even tell if Sole was following me anymore but I didn't care. Time seemed to slow as my surroundings faded. My vision began to go dark rapidly and my hearing faded away. I collapsed and the last thing I heard was Sole calling out to me. It sounded distant as if they were a mile away.

I couldn't see and I was losing my awareness. Everything was fading and quick. It seemed as though I was losing myself with every second. I didn't know where I was or what was going on. Even my own thoughts were dulling to the point of blankness.

I felt a hand grip my forearm firmly and I swatted at it and struggled weakly. The unknown appendage retracted quickly and I could feel my consciousness leave me. I couldn't even remember who I was anymore.

One last thought surfaced in my head before I finally gave in to the seductive lull of unconsciousness.

This is the end, I've gone feral.

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Sole sat on the ground a few feet away from Hancock and they were shaking slightly. It had been around 20 minutes since Hancock collapsed and their attempts at waking him were futile. The only sounds around them were the quiet rasps coming from the ghoul's unconscious form and the radiation storm that surrounded them. They held their head between their knees as they thought of what to do.

A few minutes passed before their head suddenly shot up and they stood quickly while pulling a small grenade like object from their bag. It was a last ditch effort to help Hancock: A vertibird signal grenade. They were barely involved with the brotherhood but they prayed that they would respond and give a lift back to sanctuary. Curie had recently set up a clinic there and Sole's last hope was that Curie could help Sole's trusted friend.

Sole fumbled with the pin and removed it before they tossed it a couple meters away. Now all they had to do was wait.

Barely 5 minutes passed before the ghoul began to stir. He struggled for a moment and hauled himself to his feet, swaying slightly as he surveyed his surroundings.

"Hancock! I'm so glad you're okay! I was really worried, I signaled a vertibird and we are going back to sanctuary to have you looked at. I really do think you should lower your chem use, at least until you rec-" They stopped as Hancock turned to face them. The movements caught them off guard. It wasn't fluid, it was jerky and sporadic.

His mouth hung open as saliva dripped from it. The hat that usually was placed on his head was knocked from it and it lay forgotten a few feet away. Hancock's eyes were gaunt and looked lifeless. There was no light behind them and no recognition when they looked upon Sole.

The rasps turned to growls and Hancock's form advanced upon sole in an inhuman way.

Realization hit Sole like a truck: Hancock had become feral. They had never seen it happen before but looking at the way Hancock was behaving, there was no mistaking it. They didn't expect it to happen so quickly but if they got back quick enough maybe Curie could find a way to help reverse the effect.

Lost in thought, Sole didn't notice that he had become close enough to reach. They shrunk back but he kept pursuing. Ferals were unpredictable and could easily catch someone off guard, which was why Sole was unprepared when Hancock suddenly lunged at them, knocking them down and landing on top of them.

His teeth gnashed at Sole's face but Sole used their strength to push him away. They couldn't hurt Hancock, he was their friend and it didn't feel right. But they also couldn't let themselves be killed when they were this close to finding their son.Sole shoved the ghoul off of them and stood, backpedaling a few steps away to create some distance.

He appeared to be disoriented and Sole used that to their advantage to pull a syringer rifle from their bag. Setting the gun aside, Sole rifled through the bag for their desired ammo: A lock joint syringe. It wouldn't kill him but it would paralyze him for a while and buy them some time for the vertibird to arrive.

Loading the gun, they aimed it carefully at Hancock's torso as he ambled toward Sole. Limbs jerking rather than the thought out movements of a human being.

Sole fired and the syringe hit it's mark; embedding itself into the ghoul's flesh.

The liquid in the syringe took effect almost immediately. He stopped moving as if time had frozen and fell to the floor as if he was a mannequin someone had knocked over.

Sole released a breath they didn't know they were holding and as if on cue, the whirring of a vertibird approached. It landed some yards away as a knight in power armor hopped out and approached.

"We received your signal and came as quickly as we could." The knight said in a controlled tone.

"Please help! My friend isn't doing good. I need you to give me a lift to Sanctuary. He needs help right away. I know you don't see ghouls as valuable but please don't let him die out here. I need your help." Sole sputtered out in a panicked tone.

The knight remained silent and effortlessly picked up Hancock's form and turned back and walked towards the vertibird. Sole gaped for a moment before following behind the knight.

Sole entered the vertibird and made the journey back to sanctuary where they hoped they could save Hancock. He meant a lot to Sole as well as the people of Goodneighbor and even some of Sole's other companions. His confident and playful nature was contagious and it made the ghoul easy to get along with...as long as you didn't mind the chem usage. A dark thought entered Sole's mind as they thought about what life without Hancock would be like if he proved to be a lost cause.

Sole shook their head of the thought and kept their eyes on the still paralyzed ghoul as the sound of the vertibird's blades whirred around them.

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Having finally made it to sanctuary, the knight from before helped carry Hancock to the infirmary. Curie gasped in shock when she caught sight of the paralyzed ghoul being carried towards her little clinic.

She could sense an emergency and silently led them to a cot. The knight laid him down and uttered a quick "Ad victoriam" before taking his leave.

"Curie, I'm afraid that Hancock may have gone feral and I want you to see if there is anything you can do. Please! I- I can't lose him!" Sole sounded desperate and they were.

"I will do all zhat I can but I cannot make any promises. If he has indeed gone feral zhen I need to use the restraints so zhat zhere is no risk of harm to anyone else when he regains mobility." and with that she began work.

Sole silently began to help restrain his limbs. They no longer held the warmth they had earlier that day and it was grounding and seemed to snap Sole out of their shock. This was reality, not some nightmare.

"Sole, I wish to ask you to go somewhere else while I work. I will call for you when you are needed. So much stress is no good for your health."

Sole sighed, Curie was right. It wasn't doing any good. There was nothing more they could do for the moment. They got up and stiffly walked out of the once cozy clinic, but now it looked grim and foreboding.

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Hours passed and Sole's exhaustion caught up with them. They fell into a restless sleep that was disturbed by a settler clearing their throat to grab their attention.

"Excuse me, Curie sent me to come get you. Something about your friend."

Sole's stomach did a flip as they approached the clinic with bated breath. They opened the door and were met with the sight of a thrashing and growling Hancock. "I am so sorry madame/monsieur. I have done everything I can but zhere is nothing to be done once they go feral. The damage is irreparable and none of my medical procedures have helped." Curie's eyes were red and fresh tears rolled down her cheeks. A small voice in the back of Sole's head told them that they had known all along that there was nothing to be done for him but until now they ignored it.

Now they were forced to face reality and reality was cruel. The tears rolled down their face before they could stop them. They couldn't just keep a feral chained up hoping that one day it would become aware. Not even a miracle could save Hancock, he was too far gone. There was only one thing to do and both people in the room knew it had to be done, they just didn't want to say it out loud.

Curie enveloped Sole in a hug to comfort them. There was no stopping the tears now, they flowed freely one after the other down their cheeks. They stood embracing each other until the crying died down to sniffling. Curie stepped back and opened her mouth to speak.

"I know how much you valued Hancock so if you'd like me too, I can ease his suffering so you don't have to see..." she trailed off.

"Curie, it's okay. I- I can deal with it. Could you step outside, I'd like to be alone." Sole choked out the words as Curie wordlessly stepped out and closed the door behind her.

Sole approached the still struggling Hancock and looked at his face. The eyes were dull and focused on Sole without recognition. A voice in Sole's head told them that this was no longer the Hancock they grew to respect. He's been gone since he turned feral. Arms struggled against their bonds in an attempt to reach their target.

Sole swallowed thickly as they pulled their pistol from it's holster. They held their breath and aimed it at Hancock's head. It would only take one shot, quick and painless.

Memories flashed through Sole's head as tears began flowing again. No more would there be drinking contests, no more would there be Sole nagging Hancock as he got high, the town of Goodneighbor now no longer had a mayor, and one of Sole's closest and only friends was soon to be no more although they supposed he had already been gone ever since the radiation turned him.

Sole's eyes met the dull eyes of Hancock. Although Sole's swam with recognition, Hancock's eyes were empty and wild.

They exhaled and their grip was firm as they clenched their eyes shut.

And they fired.

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This took me most of the day to write and actually my first time writing angst. I hope I did a good job writing this.

The idea that Hancock may eventually go feral is one I really don't like thinking of but I had inspiration to write and so I did.

[the-weeping-author]

Hate To Love Chapter 5

A/N: hi guys I hope y’all are enjoying this, this is where shit starts hitting the fan with miss Sara. So it’s about to start getting good.

Warnings: cussing, violence, bullying and just a little bit of blood.

Word count: 1,920

Tag list: @ahoy-stevieboy @thehair-ington @galactic-kitten-nonsense @linkispink1995 @theworldisugly-22 @harringtown @phoebethepheebs @bvrningdesires @gardeniasandwhiskey @lxvesickreality @bluebellbrooke @harrington-ofhawkins @thenameishayley248

Please enjoy 😊

Barb was missing, the only people at the party who seemed to notice and care was Nancy and I. If I’m being honest I personally blame Nancy for barb going missing. If she was being a good friend like she claims to be, maybe barb wouldn’t be gone.

I’m honestly over her shit, She's been on my last nerve here lately. Is it because Steve? Maybe, I wouldn’t ever say that out loud but most of it was because of the whole barb thing.

She’s just a bad person, She was more concerned with getting fucked by Harrington than being a good friend. If only I had listened to her.

My brother has been acting weird lately too, I knew he wouldn’t talk to me about it. First will now barb the only thing running through my mind right now is who's next?

School was annoying Steve and Nancy made sure of it, but there are more things to worry about and her name was Carol. She knew about the kiss. The only thing was when would she air it out.

She’s Conniving. She’s like a snake waiting to strike its prey, I was her prey. In elementary and middle school she tormented me along with Steve and Tommy they made my life hell, apparently Carol hand tormented me long enough.

When I got home I immediately did my homework, I got ready for work when I got there it was horribly slow. The bell above the door rang. I continued reading, calling out to the customer.

“Hello.”

When I didn’t hear a reply I just continued to read most of the customers didn’t reply but most did which counted for something.

When the customer put their stuff on the counter I looked up smiling until I saw Steve Harrington standing before me.

“Is this all?”

He looked at me smiling.

“Uh no let me get a pack of marlboro reds please.”

I smiled, started scanning his items.

“So Steve I haven’t seen you since the party, how are you?”

He raised a brow at me smiling, my stomach knotted.

“Sara we literally see each other everyday at school.”

I smiled, my cheeks turning red.

“Oh right.”

“So I don’t know if you remember but at the party something happened between us.”

He thought for a moment then looked at me.

“I don’t remember what happened?”

I looked at him, my mind flashing back to the look on Carol's face.

“Steve you kissed me and Carol saw, so I’m pretty sure she’s going to use it to make me look horrible.”

He looked at me as I continued to scan his items.

“Come on Sara, they aren’t like that anymore they’ve changed.”

I rolled my eyes at him scanning the last item he had.

“Oh please go blow that smoke up someone else’s ass cause I don’t buy it.”

He didn’t say anything for a moment so I looked at the cash register then back to him.

“Your total is $9.50.”

I smiled sarcastically, he smiled at me handing me the money. I gave him his bags then his change, watched him walk out the door.

A small smile formed on my lips, I knew from that moment on I was screwed

It was Thursday. It was honestly a really bad day, I had my brother's funeral to go to which I honestly didn’t even think it was his body they found but I never said anything because I didn’t want anyone's shit.

So here I was planning what to wear to my brothers funeral when I saw Carol, Tommy, Steve and Nancy in the hallway.

They were staring holes into me, I smiled lightly but when I walked to my locker I noticed other kids staring at me with papers in their hands.

I shrugged it off opening my locker, when I did papers flew out of my locker, all over the floor I quickly started to pick them up until I saw one of them.

There was a picture of me on them with bold letters Sara The Slut. My heart dropped to my feet, anxiety started to rip its way through my body as I continued reading the paper.

Sara the slut is not only a cheap whore but she’s also a bad friend. She kissed Steve Harrington when she knew Steve was with Nancy wheeler. So ladies watch your guys around her.

Tears stung my eyes, I stood up when I turned towards them. Carol had a shit eat grin on her face, the rest just looked cold.

I shut my locker, walked to class nancy chasing after me.

“Sara, wait.”

I stopped dead in my tracks turning towards her with a cold look on my face.

“Yes nancy?”

She looked at me while hurt and betrayal filling her eyes.

“Is it true?”

I looked at her mouth opening and closing like a fish, I felt like I was going to puke but I couldn’t let Steve lose Nancy if she knew the truth.

“Yeah Nancy it’s true I kissed him.”

She shook her head scoffing at me.

“How could you, how could you even smile in my face knowing that you kissed my boyfriend?”

I shrugged at her, a stray tear falling down my face.

“Because Nancy I didn’t care and I still don’t.”

I lied straight to her face, I wanted to tell her how it was all a lie how he kissed me, how Carol was just trying to start shit but she wouldn’t believe me.

“I guess I see where our friendship lies.”

With that she walked away, her shoulder brushing into mine causing me to move back a inch or two.

“I guess so.”

I went into the bathroom near my classroom to recollect myself. When I got In there I finally broke, tears started pouring down my face. I sobbed quietly when I looked up from the mirror, saw Carol standing there.

“Oh poor Humpty, you just couldn’t help yourself could you I mean couldn’t get Steve to notice you so you kiss him?”

I wiped my face, grabbed my bag and walked out the bathroom.

“Carol get a life please.”

She followed me out the bathroom which I knew was going to be bad.

“Oh I have one, I actually have a boyfriend, I have friends none of those you have.”

“Carol shut up.”

We both looked at Steve, so was Tommy along with Nancy.

“No Steve I mean come on it’s true she’s a nobody just like her brother. I mean just look at her family her dad left, her brothers dead, her other brother is just a creep and her mother is a total nutcase.”

I clenched my fist, when Carol looked at me I swung. Hitting carol right in her face, when she fell to the floor I got on top of her just hitting her over and over. I felt someone yanked me off Carol.

I thrashed in their grasp. I looked to see who was hold me and saw my history teacher Mr. Banks. When I looked towards them Carol’s nose was bleeding.

I felt proud I had finally stood up to my bully, I wasn’t going to stop. once I calmed down, Mr. Banks walked me to the principal’s office.

I got a week’s worth of ISS, I was pretty damn proud. Sure my mom would be pissed, they told me I needed to go home because I told them if I saw Carol again I would beat her up again.

So they decided it was best if I went home. Of course I’d have to get my homework from all my teachers before I left but the principal was doing that for me.

After that got handled I drove home, when I got there my mother wasn’t home, but Johnathan was.

“What are you doing here so early you literally left about 2 hours ago.”

I looked at him, frowning. He was staring at me but then his eyes widened.

“Holy shit Sara what happened?”

“What do you mean?”

“You have blood on you.”

I looked all over my hands not seeing anything, then I started looking at my legs.

“Sara what the fuck happened.”

I looked at him as he started looking me over.

“Get off me I’m fine it’s not my blood.”

“Then Who’s blood is it?”

I looked at him putting my hair in a ponytail.

“It's Carol’s but before you say anything she deserved it.��

He looked at me, his lips forming into a thin line.

“Sara, all you’re doing is showing them that they can get to you.”

I felt frustration fill me.

“Yeah Johnathan I am, you know what it felt great to punch that little bitch in the face.”

He sighed looking at me.

“Okay fine but you’re telling mom.”

I shrugged my shoulders while walking to my room.

“okay but I have homework to do so later.”

*Timeskip*

My mother got home around 9, immediately I wanted to disappear. I knew what I did was wrong but no one, I mean no one talks about my family.

I walked into the kitchen, my mom smiled.

“Hey Sara, how was school?”

I sighed, shutting the refrigerator door.

“Uh good but I need you to sign something.”

She turned to look at me, raised a brow.

“Oh yeah well bring it here and I will.”

I took the piece of paper from my back pocket, unfolded it, handed it to her, she read it then looked up at me.

“Sara Bailey Byers, why are you in ISS?”

I winced when she said my middle name, I looked up at her remorse filling my veins while tears threatened to fall from my eyes, my lip trembling.

“Mom I didn’t mean to but they can’t talk about you like that.”

My mom sighed but she sat the paper down.

“Okay first of all who? Who can’t talk about me?”

I looked at her, a tear slid down my face, my voice broke while I tried to explain it to her.

“Baby calm down and just explain it to me I’m not upset I’m just trying to understand.”

“W-well Carol made some stupid poster about me kissing Steve Harrington, then I lost nancy because she’s dating Steve, I went to the bathroom to cry then next thing I know carol said stuff about you guys and I just lost it. So I hit her.”

My mom frowned letting out a breath.

“Okay yeah well first of all you should t have ever hit that girl, is she okay?”

I shrugged at her.

“I don’t know, I think I broke her nose mom.”

She frowned then rubbed her temples.

“I understand you were upset but hitting people is never the answer so you hear me Sara? Next time you see her you need to apologize.”

I nodded, looking at her.

“Mom can I please have a hug?”

She laughed nodding her head.

“Of course but you also need to talk to Nancy and get that sorted out.”

I sighed while I walked Into her arms, wrapping them around her.

“Yes ma’am.”

She smiled while she rubbed my back.

“That’s my girl but you’re grounded until you get out of ISS and no going anywhere but here school and work.”

I nodded knowing the punishment wasn’t as bad as it could have been, but that was my consequences for my actions. I just have no idea how I’m going to talk to Nancy. 

A/N: thanks for the support, I hope y’all liked this chapter I’ll have six out at some point so keep a look out for it.

[evilisk]

Reading Len’En Profiles Pt 3

We’re rounding off the cast of EMS by looking at the “Yachie-length”* profiles of Sukune and the Snakes.

(*No seriously, these profiles are frigging big)

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So the three upcoming profiles don’t just give us details about each individual character. The information between the three characters give us a complete backstory to the events of Earthen Miraculous Sword. This backstory can be summarized as:

In Len’En’s version of the Orochi myth, Orochi’s corpse lead to the birth of 7 Adagumo Siblings (with Yaorochi being the sword wielding arm of Orochi, and Saragimaru being one of their Eyes).

Though they were born from Orochi’s corpse and vowed revenge on those that killed them, Yaorochi only really had eyes for the sword stolen from them, the Kusanagi / Tasouken. Their obsession with Tasouken even lead to them attacking Saragimaru at some point.

Yaorochi went after the Tasouken when it was lost at sea during, what I think is, the Len’En version of the Tale of Genji (I’m only vaguely familiar with the Tale of Genji between the Warriors Orochi and Genji series of games, so I might be wrong on this). Saragimaru waited for their return by the shore while the remaining Adagumo siblings perished without completing their revenge.

Yaorochi returned with Tasouken, but it was completely rusted at this point. Saragimaru witnessed this return, but Yaorochi did not seem to be aware of who they were (it is mentioned in Saragimaru’s profile that they did not get to reveal themselves as family to Yaorochi, which means they certainly met at one point).

For a time it seemed that Yaorochi had been lifted from their obsession with the blade. Then Yaorochi vanishes. There’s a big timeskip between the next “meeting” of Saragimaru and Yaorochi. Yaorochi begins to fall into a type of depression.

Saragimaru eventually notices Yaorochi in Mugenri. They realize that Yaorochi has become hollow due to the state of the sword. They become sickened by this, as they fear Yaorochi’s obsession with Tasouken, as well as Tasouken’s true power, but they cannot bring back the “true” Yaorochi without reviving Tasouken.

Saragimaru commissions Sukune to create the clay replica, but they don’t pick up the completed sword. Despite this, Yaorochi eventually runs into Sukune and notices the blade.

Yaorochi lies to Sukune, pretending to be a holy servant who can make Sukune’s works complete (there’s this whole bit about crafting and divine spirits in Sukune’s profile that you can check out on your own). They plan the ritual to transfer the power of Tasouken into the clay replica.

The story ends at “designated protagonist breaking into the ritual chamber, about to confront Yaoorchi”

As for my personal thoughts on this backstory... this backstory is so sad :/ It’s also really compelling. But it’s just really sad T_T, like will somebody please give Saragimaru a hug?? They have been through so much.

Before I go on, I should mention that Tasouken, the secret boss of Stage 6, also has a profile, though I don’t feel like talking about it as Tasouken isn’t really a character. The most relevant info here is that Tasouken apparently can’t be wielded by humans. This basically confirms that Orochi was a youkai (this was not clear just from Yaorochi’s profile) which his leads me to wonder if Saragimaru’s dislike of humans comes from Orochi’s death by trickery...

Anyway, onto the character relevant parts of each profile. 

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Stage 5 Boss - Sukune Katano

Original Opinion: I can’t lie here, I kind of knew about Sukune before my deep dive into this series. Ages ago, I watched a video of Earthen Miraculous Sword (I think it was probably Jaimers’ clear of the game). The bosses didn’t really impress me at the time... up until I got to Sukune’s fight. Sukune’s fight kind of blew me away. It’s hard not to be impressed by like, giant Haniwa and Haniwa artilleries. Their fight also helped me *get* what Len’En’s aesthetic is meant to be (it’s drab and low technology af)

When I finally got the chance to fight them for myself, I was just as impressed as the first time I saw them in action, though Sukune’s personality didn’t seem very appealing (again, I don’t like ditzy characters). Now that I’ve gone through and recorded all their conversations for my side-blog, and have also played RMI, I think I can say I honestly like Sukune. When I get to making a “Top Len’En Characters” post, I’ll probably go into more detail there, but all you need to know is Sukune is a character that’s interesting in their first appearance and only gets more interesting the further you get into the series.

Thoughts on their profile: 

Most of their profile is lore about how divine spirits work and that’s whatever. I mean, I get why it’s there. It’s to explain the backstory and how Yaorochi’s plot works. I just don’t have any meaningful commentary about it.

When the profile mentioned how Sukune feels most of their works are incomplete failures, I really felt that. Also, now I can’t help but feel Kuroji is kind of a jerk for dismissing their works.

Though I also feel bad about Sukune being tricked by Yaorochi too.

Sukune loving to open sake bottles but not actually liking to drink alcohol is the funniest thing.

New Opinion: I don’t think my opinion has changed of them, but they’re still really, really cool and I’m so glad that they became one of the series’ recurring player characters

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Stage 6 Boss - Adagumo no Yaorochi

Original Opinion: I didn’t really care for Yaorochi in EMS. I felt they were outshone by every other boss (in terms of personality and musical theme), though their fight was still kind of fun. RMI made me like them a bit more between their powerful shot type, their cool Team theme and their depiction in their route. They give off a really strong “why did I leave my house, I should have just stayed indoors with Tasouken” and it is honestly hilarious. 

Basically, EMS Yaorochi is a cheesy, boring villain, while RMI Yaorochi is more like a single-minded, anti-social dork who immediately regrets trying to get out of their comfort zone

Thoughts on their profile: 

Yaorochi still seems like a massive dork, but the bit about them basically having had depression makes them so much more relatable now.

I think the strange “love triangle” going on between Yaorochi, Tasouken and Saragimaru is fascinating. Saragimaru cares for Yaorochi, Yaorochi only cares for Tasouken, and Tasouken’s full potential can seemingly only be used by Saragimaru, but Saragimaru has no interest in anything other than Yaorochi’s happiness. It’s just all so interesting. It’s just a shame that Yaorochi is the least interesting character in this dynamic, since they know absolutely nothing about what’s going on.

I’m glad that Yaorochi is at least mentioned as feeling bad for tricking Sukune, though I’m not sure how I feel about Yaorochi and Sukune still being a thing in RMI.

New Opinion: While I like Yaorochi a bit more, I still think I’d have to rank them low on the EMS cast. No offense to Yaorochi at all, but someone’s gotta be last, and if I have to choose between Sluggo and Snek being in that spot, well...

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Stage EX Boss - Adagumo no Saragimaru

Original Opinion: I also felt Saragimaru was a little underwhelming in EMS, though I still ended up liking them over their sibling for their design and their amazing boss theme. RMI made it easier to like them since they got partnered with my favourite MC and gave them hilarious banter with them. I wouldn’t put them over Sukune or Hibaru, but I’d say they’re comfortably tied with Lumen and Jun for third. In all, I like ‘em for the fun banter and the dorky Youmu-esque vibes I get from them.

Thoughts on their profile: 

Somebody please give this snek a hug, they have been through so much T_T

More seriously, the whole “can’t seem to approach Yaorochi” thing explains why Saragimaru acts like such a weirdo when you encounter them in RMI as Yaorochi

As I mentioned before, the whole Yaorochi -> Tasouken -> Saragimaru -> Yaorochi triangle is just so fascinating. It’s rather interesting that Saragimaru can theoretically use Tasouken to its full potential (wait, is it “can” is it “could have”, now that Tasouken is a bottle opener)

I just realized that Yaorochi/Saragimaru is the Koishi/Satori and Flandre/Remilia dynamic but more compelling. 

Wait, this weird “unappreciated sibling” dynamic is why they got paired up with Kuroji isn’t it? That pairing makes so much more sense now.

New Opinion: Yeah okay, I think after reading through their profile, Saragimaru is easily my third favourite Earthen Miraculous Sword character. It’s a bit unfair to Lumen and Jun as they’re side characters that get much smaller profiles, but Saragimaru is so incredibly interesting to me now.

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Final Thoughts

I am actually really impressed with JynX’s writing in this game. Evanescent Existence’s story and characters didn’t really impress me, even if it was conceptually very interesting. Earthen Miraculous Sword was not only an immediate improvement (since one of my favourite characters is a flippin’ Stage 1 Boss) but I actually feel that the writing is on par with the Touhou series. And I’m not one of those people that dismisses the writing in Touhou either; the whole Tasouken / Saragimaru / Yaorochi backstory and dynamic is easily as compelling as Touhou’s best. 

If there’s one thing I take issue with, it’s that all the best writing in this game is confined to the profiles rather than the in-game banter... even that’s not a huge issue to me since it’s an issue that could just as easily be said of the official Touhou games (the shooters at least). 

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Ranking the EMS Cast:

Hibaru Kokutenshi

Sukune Katano

Adagumo no Saragimaru

Jun Amanomiya / Lumen Celeritas

Shou Amanomori

Adagumo no Yaorochi

[demonqueenofplastics]

Gretchen Wieners x reader

Your pov

North Shore highschool the place I go to school. It is a nice place most of the times if you don't count the bullying. I mean it kinda depends on where you are in the social pyramid. I'm one of those people that isn't too low let's say it like that. I'm not a mathlete so that makes me pretty okey. But then you also have the popular group. They are all so pretty but one is standing out for me. Gretchen Wieners the right hand of Regina George the queen bee. She is amazing although she finds out everybody's secrets and just gives them to Regina, she seems really nice. Maybe it is just my gay brain talking but I just think Gretchen deserves the world. It is basically a miracle she didn't find out about me being a lesbian or me liking her. When she finds that out my life is gone.

So right now I'm just sitting at one of the tables in the cafeteria staring at my phone when suddenly somebody sits next to me making me look up. "Euhm hello Gretchen what are you doing here?" I ask confused that she wasn't around Regina. "Oh you know just wanting to have a change of pace." She says making me actually really suspicious. "What do you need from me? You never sit anywhere else unless you need something from someone." I say and she sighs "Okey okey you got me. I need to know why you are always staring at us." She said 'They noticed that is never good. Let's hope I'm good enough in lying.' I think to myself while looking at her. "I don't know what you are talking about." I just answered making her nod. "Sure you do after all you are the one always staring at us. It is kinda easy to see. So explain why do you always do that?" She asks making me just sigh.

"Okey you got me. I'm always staring at you because I'm jealous now happy?" I ask a little bit annoyed especially since I now have to lie about that as well. "Yes I'm happy with it." She said still looking at me. "Although I don't believe it. Why would you be jealous of us? What I know of it you don't even like us at all so then you are all of a sudden jealous of us. So I think you are trying to hide your real reason and I'm going to find out what it is." She said looking determined. 'That look is cute but if she really figures it out then I'm done for.' I think to myself. "Well I wish you a lot of luck with that then." I say trying to sound confident that she won't find anything.

I just looked at Gretchen with a smile. "So are you going to start with that now or do you still have something else to do?" I ask grinning a bit especially when she just looks annoyed and gets up. "I will figure it out don't expect yourself to be okey." She says before walking away making me sigh quietly. 'She is pretty and smart but when is she going to use it the right way instead of just trying to figure out secrets.' I think to myself before I go back to looking at my phone and putting in ear buds listening to some music.

~timeskip to after some weeks Gretchen pov~

I have tried everything. I have been following (y/n) around, I have asked people that know them, looked on social media. Everything and I can't find anything that would be a reason that they are always staring at us. So now I'm just so confused about it and also about how they can hide it all so easily as if it is nothing. So now it is another day of me kinda following them and I'm just hoping that I can figure out why they always stare at our table. 'Although I don't want their life ruined. They are kinda hot.' I think to myself before her stopping with walking 'I'm thinking what now?' I think confused about why I would think something like that.

I just shake my head to get those thoughts out of my head before just following (y/n) again. When I follow them I just lose them and sigh deciding to just go back to the cafeteria until I suddenly get dragged into the bathroom. "Who do you think you are." I say before I hear laughter. " Really Gretchen you have been following me around everywhere and now you're shocked that I want to talk to you privately. So I pull you into one of the bathrooms that never gets used anyways." I hear making me turn around and look at (y/n). "Okey fair enough. You want to talk well what do you want to talk about then?" I ask being confused why they suddenly want to talk to me.

"Well I mean I have a lot to say like could you find what you were looking for? And how do you always look so perfect no matter what you do?" They say and it just makes me more and more confused. "You know that I couldn't find anything about you otherwise your reputation would be gone already. And how do you mean I always look perfect I think you are talking about the wrong person." I say looking quite annoyed about it. "Oh you mean Regina, yeah she looks perfect too but I couldn't care less about that. I only care about you looking perfexg especially since you are always working so hard." They say actually managing to make me blush. "W-what do you mean with that?" I ask confused and embarresed at the same time.

"Like I'm saying it I only care about your perfection. Oh and did I forget to mention that I enjoyed our little time together while you were following me around." They say making me more confused about everything. "I hope you enjoyed it as well. Although of course I would have enjoyed it more if you were just sitting with me or just talked to me. After all I do care about having some interesting conversations with a smart girl like yourself." They say and I just keep looking confused. "What are you doing and what do you want from me?" I ask really confused and not sure what was going on anymore. "Seriously you still didn't figure it out maybe this helps." They say walking closer to me and cupping my cheek before kissing me.

'They are kissing me I need to pull away but actually theirs lips are so soft' I start to think before kissing them back wanting nothing more but for the kiss to never end. When they pull away I look at them "does this answer your question? I like you so I'm always staring at you. Not the table, not Regina but you." They answer looking really honest making me blush bright red. "I think I like you too. I just never thought about it." I answer back also being honest about it. "Well because you're not sure how about we keep it a secret now and we will try to figure out how much you like me." They say and I just nod. "That sounds good. But one question can you kiss me again just to try it out?" I ask blushing making them laugh. "Of course I can do that." They say before kissing me again. This time I just kiss back immidiatly and close my eyes.

When we pull back I just blush more. "Or maybe I don't need some time to try it out I think I do like you." I answer making them smile. "Good then be my girlfriend." They say making me nod "Of course." I answer smiling happily "Well go back to Regina so she doesn't ask questions and we will be together whenever we have the time." They say and I just kiss them one last time before walking out feeling way more happy then before.

I hope this is something you all enjoy and I will try to write more until then keep beautiful and stay yourself