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So I finished playing the Outer Worlds last week and let me tell you something, I would 100% die for Parvati (and Felix but this post is about Parvati). This absolutely angel deserves the world and within 10 minutes of meeting her I already adored her. 

On a more serious note, I came out as Asexual this year and seeing representation in a video game of all things really made me feel seen. I like being able to relate to characters in anything whether they be games, tv shows, or even books for that matter but seeing a character that’s also ace just really made me happy. I wish I could have seen the look on my face when I first got to the dialogue where she was talking about how she wasn’t interested in the physical aspects of a relationship, or when she voiced her thoughts and fears about how her previous partners reacted to it.

 I felt...kinship? I guess that’s the word I’d use here. Anyways, I was just so incredibly happy because I could relate. I’ve felt her fears and I’ve had those thoughts. I love the representation and this is why The Outer Worlds is one of my favorites. I love complex characters that I can relate to, I love having freedom with my choices, and I just love the lgbtq+ representation.

Oh and one last thing, Happy Pride Month to Parvati Holcomb <3

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Anime recs? I won’t actually watch them but I want to know

I could go on for a while but i'll limit myself to recommending only 3. I can say that bungou stray dogs is a pretty snazzy one! It's my favorite actually. I really like the complexities of the characters and the story really just sorta pulled me in.

Attack on Titan was my first anime and even though the later half gets a bit confusing, it's also top tier in my opinion.

And to end this post i'll share one that's short but doesn't feel rushed. It's called Plastic Memories. It was one of the few animes to make me genuinely sad. I'm a sucker for hurt/comfort tropes I suppose.

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Return to Fallout-posting

I've got other interests too. I'm not a fully devoted blog to fallout so please be patient. I do want to post more of it though.

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what’s your favorite pokémon and pokémon game?

I really like the newer games but my favorite is probably Pokémon Y. It's a bit hard to explain but I just liked the depth of the story and it had a nice post game. As for favorite pokémon, it's a tough decision. Zapdos will always be my number 1 but I also really like Togekiss, Vikavolt, Volcarona, Samurott, Yveltal, and Latias. There's no in between with me, I either like the adorable ones or the ones that can and would kill you.

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Nice to see you back again. I noticed your ama is open so I wanted to ask a question since you mentioned you are a college student. I wanted to ask what you're majoring in

Oh yeah sure no problem. I'm a biology major and once I get my degree I need to decide whether I want to go on and study to be either an animal doctor or a human doctor. I'm weighing the pros and cons and I haven't made an official commitment yet but I'm definitely working on it. All I know is that "Science Rules" -Bill Nye the Science Guy

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is markiplier your favorite youtuber?

Okay so Markiplier is definitely the youtuber I've stuck around with the most but he's a close second. My favorite youtuber is actually Call Me Kevin. I like his chaotic humor and I can appreciate the lack of toxicity in the community he has created. I recommend you check him out if you like somebody who isn't afraid to avoid playing by the rules.

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whos your favorite fallout character??

I'm not done with New Vegas yet so I'm just gonna focus on fallout 4. Oof that's a tough question though. I'm torn between Hancock, MacCready, and Valentine. I guess I'd have to say MacCready because I travel with him the most and I just really like his character. I would like to give all 3 of them a hug. Wait actually pretty much every companion needs a hug. Okay final answer is MacCready. My favorite sniper lad <3

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Fading

So I decided to post a little sample of my writing so here goes. Constructive criticism is welcome. This is a short story I wrote a few months back when I was bored on a car trip. I’m just a college student so this probably is a super inaccurate depiction of dying and war. I suppose i should put a Trigger Warning so TRIGGER WARNING: DEATH

His body lay crumpled, sitting in his blood that slowly spread out beneath him. This was the end of him and yet he didn't fear it. He knew joining the war would most likely lead to his Demise. People rarely come home nowadays anyway. 

His senses grew hazy as his thoughts slowly turned to static, yet still he hung on. Unwilling to die without his family on his mind. With what little strength he had he propped himself up against the sandbags that served as his now deceased squad's cover. 

He winced as he felt his wounds burn in protest, more blood slowly oozing out as he shifted positions. He'd been shot twice, once in the abdomen as he made a futile effort to save a comrade and then again in the thigh. 

He had collapsed from the pain and his commanding officer made use of a spare bandana to try and make a makeshift tourniquet above the wound on his thigh. However, a sniper made quick work of that and the man was dead before he was able to effectively tie it tight enough. 

It had been an ambush. Enemy troops made use of the cover of twilight when the setting sun glared in their foe's eyes. They scarcely had time to prepare and fight back before it all went to hell. He couldn't hear the screaming anymore and he had a passing thought. Were they all dead? Or had his hearing finally given up on him now that he was dying? No, that couldn't be right. He read somewhere that hearing was the last of the 5 senses to go. So that meant...they were gone. Wiped out. Nobody left to even surrender. 

God he was so tired. And cold. He felt so cold despite the hot humidity around him. 

He wondered briefly if his body would be recovered and returned to his family or if he'd simply become a statistic. Oh right, family. With shaking fingers he reached into his breast pocket and pulled out the photos he kept there. 

The first depicted his wedding, him in his well kept suit and her in an elegant dress that made her look angelic. Bright smiles seemed to light up the picture as he grew lost in her beauty. He hoped she'd be able to keep going without him. He couldn't bear the thought of her growing sad and losing herself because of him. 

He shuffled the photo to the back as his eyes fell upon the next. This one depicted his first child, a tiny red skinned boy swaddled in his arms. Despite his own happiness in the photo, the baby's face was screwed up as he wailed in his father's arms. He choked out a laugh and he felt water roll down his face. Rain? He looked up and saw the dark sky was clear of clouds. No, not rain. He was crying for the son he'd never see again. 

He felt his strength ebbing away faster as the seconds passed and he was unable to muster enough to wipe his eyes. He slowly flipped to the last photo and that's when panic set in.

It was him, his wife, and their 3 children. 2 sons and a daughter, all under the age of 10. They all smiled at the camera and his eyes caught on a detail he had missed, despite looking over the photo dozens of times while deployed. His sons were pinching each other in the photo. A barely noticeable gesture. He choked out a barely audible laugh at the absurdity of it all. However his laugh turned to a cry of anguish. 

His panic roze as he realized he wasn't okay with dying yet. He still had to show his sons how to be men. And he still had to show his daughter how to ride a bike. He still had to watch them grow up. And his wife... their goodbye had been brief and he didn't get the chance to tell her just how much he loved her. 

The tears continued flowing as he felt the pain dull and his body slump lower to the ground. He felt no tranquility. He still had regrets. He couldn't die yet! 

He can't.

He can't 

He can-

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Little Update for my blog!

Hey it’s been a super long time and I don’t really have much of an excuse. All I can say is that I started college and it’s been keeping me busy as well as killing my motivation to do much of the stuff I love. Anyways, I wanna post stuff again so I was thinking of maybe posting some of my writings on here? Idk I don’t really have many followers, if any anymore and my writing is kinda crappy in my opinion but eh if anyone would be interested in seeing it, lemme know and I’ll hook you guys up.

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Nick Valentine (Fallout 4) and Connor (Detroit Become Human) Headcanons

Feel free to add your ideas :) You don’t have to agree with me. Detroit and Fo4 have become a couple of my favorite things and after playing both I noticed just how similar the detectives are so I started thinking about how they’d interact if they met.

Pre-Deviant Connor would annoy the heck out of Valentine because of how pragmatic and unfeeling he acts. (Kinda like how he comments on gen 1 and gen 2 synths)

After becoming deviant, I feel like Valentine would be the ideal mentor for Connor. Teaching him about morals, feelings, and what it means to have free-will..

If they worked on cases together I feel like initially they’d disagree or even argue a little because Connor is a very “by the book” sort of person and Nick would have to tell him to look at things from other perspectives rather than just a machine analyzing what’s in front of them.

But! After time working together they could end up being a powerful duo. Sharing thoughts about their current case and using those processors of their’s to solve cases efficiently.

I’m getting good-cop, bad-cop vibes from them as a duo. It could go either way and I feel like they could get a confession easily. Connor a good-cop by being the mediator, and Valentine knowing when to be sympathetic. Or Connor being scarily harsh with his words and Valentine intimidating the perp.

Valentine helping Connor come to terms with his identity

Valentine calling Connor “Kid” 

Connor comforting Nick when he talks about his past

Watching eachother’s backs when on a case

Connor just can’t understand why Valentine smokes, no matter what the weathered detective says in his defense. “Detective, I don’t see the purpose of smoking. You have nothing to gain from it” 

Connor peering over Nick’s shoulder and offering advice if he catches the older detective looking through case files

Meaningful conversations. Valentine being the wise one and Connor being curious and asking questions

Connor interested in the biology synths

Pre-Deviant Connor sympathizing with the institute but not the fact that they refuse to help the people above ground

Deviant Connor using his skills to help the railroad

I’m half asleep, as usual so this is where i’m stopping. Ayy I hope you enjoyed my ideas though. Oof looking at it now, this post is ridiculously short. Apologies but eh it’s something at least.

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I made this at 2 am after watching a Nightmare on Elm Street for the first time. I had a certain inspiration and my brain decided this was a good waste of time. It’s badly edited and I just used snapchat to kinda throw it all together. Took 2 minutes to make, but my sense of humur is so ruined that I ended up laughing for 10.

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I decided to make a post about some of the wacky things I hear my friends say

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Me: Bellamy is 23 and Clarke is 17 in season 1

Her: I mean...age is just a number ❤

Her: NOO I'M KIDDING. But seriously, she's legal now so it should be fine if they end up together.

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Me: So that's my only issue with their soft pretzels. They are oversalted and I need to scrape some off.

Friend: See, that's a big issue. Usually soft pretzels have enough salt to collapse the economy.

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(In regards to a restaurant putting the wrong name on my order)

Me: So instead of my name they put down the name Krin -.-

Friend: Dang, that's pretty Krin-ge

Me: I appreciate that you have the time to laugh at my misery

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Me: You threatened to get us banned from the pottery place!

Friend: I didn't though! Although, I should have shot paint at that worker.

Me: She was really nice though

Friend: Not nice enough

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Me: (friend name), I'm a hoe again

Friend: Oh no

It's like a werewolf transformation

Every now and then

Poof! Hoe

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Friend: Inteleon is 6'3"?? 😏😏😏

Me: Stop sexualizing the chameleon!

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Me: I swear Julian is a masochist. He alludes to it too much.

Friend: Would you be down to give him what he wants?

Me: I was gonna say that I'd beat him up but he'd probably enjoy that. And i'm not sure. The worst I could probably do to him is give him a little smack on his butt

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Friend: If you dare ghost him then I'll hack your account and then block everyone but him

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Me: Apparently some people can't hear their own thoughts?

Friend: Oh lord no

I hear mine loudly

Sometimes they aren't even mine

It's a constant stream of talking

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Friend: *Sends fanart of some anime man*

Me: Okay I guess he looks good

Friend: Literally the best man I’ve seen all week

His only flaw is that he isn’t real and holding me in his arms

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Friend: So the question says "What is one thing you've learned so far that can keep you safe during quarantine?" We are talking about the reproductive system. Like how am I supposed to answer without getting in trouble?? "Wear a condom" "Close your legs" "don't be a thot" "Yeetus the Fetus"

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Me: Remind me to never let (friend) walk behind me again. All I heard was “(My name)’s got that fatty” and she was talking about my butt again. I am a modest lady and she always talks about my butt!!

Friend: It’s (friend) we’re talking about, modesty isn’t real

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Me: *Telling my friend about the fo4 companions*

Friend: Tbh I would still kiss him. Is his d*ck normal tho? Tbh would still ride that radiation fried d*ck

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Me: He’s a villain! He has a right to look like a king!

Friend: He’s ugly

Me: This feels like a personal attack on me

Friend: It is

he’s ugly

UGLY

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Me: I could never be the dom in a relationship  but being called master kinda hits different. 

Ugh I hate myself for saying that

Friend: (MY NAME)

U are now a certified whore

like me

It feels nice doesn’t it 

*Cue me somehow conveying being a stuttering mess through texts*

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Me: You can’t bone someone who is literally made of bones

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*Update*

So i don't know if anyone actually cares about this tiny little blog of mine but oh well. I need to rant a bit and I'd rather it not be somewhere easily accessible by friends and family. So yeah things aren't going so well for me recently. I had to give up on my dream college and dream job all at once and it's really tanking my mental health. My parents aren't exactly the nicest people and that's just another factor. I'm getting really tired of the negativity at home and sometimes I just feel worthless. I'm trying my absolute best and it does nothing to make my parents proud. It really sucks but I'm going to try and find a way to distract myself from the disappointment. So yeah just figured I'd keep my few followers updated and give an explanation as to why I haven't been updating.

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Happy National dog day to my favorite girls ❤❤ I couldnt ask for better dogs. I havent been able to visit the two retrievers and rottweiler in a while but hey at least I've got my bestest girl. When we adopted her from the shelter they said she was a border collie/great pyrenees mix and I definitely can see it

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Sanctuary is a work in progress at the moment. The sign I placed is looking a little empty so I intend to add more eventually.I built and fully decorated a single house and I gave it to Preston because he deserves it. I’m not the most creative person so i’m at a loss for what to do with the rest of it but i’m sure i’ll figure it out

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Uhhh, Danse? Are you doing okay over there? Yeah I think it’s best if I take point because something tells me you aren’t in the right state to.

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A little compilation of some of the weird occurences I’ve come across while playing. Whether it be companions popping out of nowhere, or them being stuck in an animation, it’s always entertaining.