#no one's died

[bitletsanddrabbles]

Okay, this is going to sound damn pathetic, but I don’t care...

...especially since this is exactly one of those posts that gets 0 responses, but...please...

...even though someone just started following me and said it was because they liked my fic and my opinions...

...even if it’s just that person again...

Someone.

PLEASE.

Someone who loves Thomas Barrow.

Someone who loves Thomas Barrow and Richard Ellis together.

Someone who has not made me want to delete my entire Tumblr and take all of my fanfiction down off of Ao3 - repeatedly - for daring to write Thomas with someone other than Richard. Or for speaking well of Julian Fellowes. Or for feeling represented by a ‘poorly written depiction of gay people who we both happen to love, but gawd could JF have done a worse job?’.

Tell me you’d miss me if I walked out.

Tell me you’d miss me if this blog went away and the fiction was gone over night.

Tell me that all of the times “someone else in ‘my’ corner of the fandom” said something that “everyone who loves Thomas or Thomas/Richard absolutely agrees on” and left me feeling like Thomas in the servant’s hall while everyone else danced at the Carsons’s return to Downton were worth sticking through, and I was right not to throw in the towel.

Maybe I’m just tired and stressed from the holiday season and burnt out and frustrated at not being able to write. Maybe I’m sick of dealing with hundreds of people a day who could take offense at my packing they’re groceries wrong or asking them to obey State law. Maybe I’m just 100% done with feeling like I have to walk on eggshells around every other damn person on the planet, but they can stomp all over me with cleats and I have to say ‘thank you’ for the privilege.

But I really, really need to hear that I’m worth it to someone right now. That I’m not a bad person for needing a place I can go and enjoy something as simple as a show I enjoy. That I have the right to occasionally get a little bit cranky on my blog at people who do nothing but find reasons complain and be dissatisfied and reblog my posts so they can complain and leave comments in my fiction so they can complain and to assume that of course I’m going to agree with them.

I need to know hear that I’m not responsible for thinking of the entire fandom’s feelings, especially since the entire fandom sure as hell doesn’t think about mine! I don’t have to return a favor that isn’t extended in the first place! I can care about my mutuals and that’s good enough!

With everyone else clustering around in their mutual support groups, please just tell me I’m not as alone as I feel.

[el-ffej]

Just imagine what it's like for software developers.

yesterday for April Fool’s my workplace had a short training article on recognizing computer-generated faces from real ones and one of the tricks mentioned was “count the teeth” and I just wanted to say that it’s both ironic and kind of horrifying how society has unwittingly cycled right back to IF YE MEET A MAN ON THE ROAD, COUNT HIS FINGERS LEST YE DEAL UNKNOWING WITH A FAE 

[archi-pelago]

maybe never forgive. but things are different now. so we'll use maybe.

[wrenchwenches]

[batcavescolony]

Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.

[symphonyofsilence]

Let the poor man rest.

[jaradraws]

‘Cause I was born with a hole in my heart Yeah, we were fucked from the start Tell me it’s inevitable that I’d End up with scars from falling Down, down We were always meant to fall apart

[xx-k1tsun3-k1d-xx]

ROUND TWO OF LIKES CHARGE REBLOGS CAST ✨

[ashrayus]

absolutely lost it over this fic by @neuro-psyche so. have this comic o(- (

go read it rn if u also love some Good identity reveal fic!!!!

[eydilily]

gem n joel the strongest duo (family) that you are

and of course. her

[dr11ft]

chicana miku 🤎

[ahotknife]

the thing is that childhood doesn't just end when you turn 18 or when you turn 21. it's going to end dozens of times over. your childhood pet will die. actors you loved in movies you watched as a kid will die. your grandparents will die, and then your parents will die. it's going to end dozens and dozens of times and all you can do is let it. all you can do is stand in the middle of the grocery store and stare at freezers full of microwave pizza because you've suddenly been seized by the memory of what it felt like to have a pizza party on the last day of school before summer break. which is another ending in and of itself

[rabid-transcendentalist]

when I have to take 5x as long to spam the moots with evil boops:

[hinamie]

I don't want to regret the way I lived

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

main take aways from Halloween (1978) rewatch:

michael myers is canonically 21??? this bitch should be at the club

*sees tiddies* ***MURDEROUS RAMPAGE NOISES***

that's it that's the movie

outside of the fact that everyone who has sex is murdered by the narrative, this is a surprisingly chill portrayal of female sexuality? these teen girls are horny and actively enjoying Getting It On with their boytoys. no pushy boyfriends sneaking in through their bedroom windows--these ladies are taking the initiative to sneak out and GET SOME. one of them gets laid and then immediately orders her boyfriend to get her a beer. (yes she gets Slashered soon afterward, but so does the boyfriend so honestly, gender equality.) yes the Final Girl is the only one not having sex, but she's not bullied for that, nor are her friends slut shamed except possibly by being murdered by the narrative

actually the only character who is shown being morally condemned on-screen is michael myers. specifically FOR his violent overreaction to other people's sex lives. (people he is spying on). metaphorically, the villain is American Puritanism sticking its judgy nose into other people's business.

aka Michael Myers Is A Republican

but actually the real villain is the doctor. guy's a judgemental, shaming, pathologizing asshole. and he's been in charge of michael's care since he was SIX YEARS OLD? kid never had a chance. i'd go on a killing spree too

also the parents. where are the parents? it's halloween night and all the teenage girls are home babysitting their younger siblings? come to think of it, michael's first victim was his own older sister, whom he killed while she was babysitting him. teen girls are really shouldering a labour burden here. maybe parentification is the true villain

side note: mike commits his first murder wearing a clown costume...which is never referenced again? his 'iconic' costume is a generic mask and wig and jumpsuit, when we coulda had a Killer Clown Michael Myers??? travesty

i like how the Final Girl and her friend casually smoke weed in her car. yeah she's an honor student and her friend is the sheriff's daughter. yeah they smoke weed. so what it's 1978

(to reiterate, mike is 21 and should be at the club. im not saying he shouldn't be rampaging, im saying it's sad that he broke out, tasted freedom for the first time in his life, and immediately snuck back into his childhood home to go rampaging. let's have a remake where he goes to a nightclub and has a few beers. maybe some slutty dancing. then rampage)

oh no he's hot

[moonlit-nihility]

wow i sure do love the ending of arcane season 2 i love that this is how arcane ended and nothing else happened! nothing bad! no one died everyones just a big happy family