#no one knows I’m autistic at work

[vizthedatum]

I don’t want to do poorly at my job - I want to improve healthcare with my skills. I work with people who do care about their projects and patients.

I am upset at the lack of transparency and the EMOTIONAL AND PHYSICAL PAIN of being neurodivergent and having disabilities within academia.

I know I can appear healthy and as a “woman” but I’m not either. I am healthier and more productive when I am supported.

Including support from my social supports as well.

And I want to be financially stable after upending my whole entire life last year so I can have the family I want.

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I am realizing that people who are able to be in my life without causing me harm… is up to me.

I need better boundaries.

And I need to not take it personally if someone can’t match what I expect.

And I can feel what I feel… and express that.

(I am upset and annoyed that this is all so hard to do - like, it’s all up to me?! Stfu 🤬)

[cupiidzbow]

we’re autism4autism have i ever mentioned that

[teethbomb]

It’s hip to be square

[pacifistcowboy]

imagining espio infodumping about ninja stuff to silver n he stops himself like “sorry, i’ve talked far too much. you probably don’t care about this” but then silver’s like “are you kidding? this is fascinating!” whilst hand flappin’ with excitement, n espio just kinda realises that he doesn’t have to mask in front of silver

[flygonscales]

2 weeks at uni and I’ve already reached peak procrastination. I found masking tape and somehow decided that the best use of my time was to make a tiny Belphemon-sleep.

[steve-brules-rules]

There’s a time and place for discussing politics, and there are spaces where it’s not appropriate. And today, people keep pulling me into extremely inappropriate discussions.

I’m very queer and very neurodivergent, and I’m extremely aware of how social/political issues shape my world. But while some people object and/or judge me for it, I need to maintain personal spaces where I don’t engage (or engage very minimally) with those things, and I don’t owe anybody an explanation or change.

I have no problem with how other people handle their own spaces and what they choose to rb/retweet/repost to their spaces. This isn’t about me trying to police how other ppl run their blogs here on tumblr. It’s about me setting boundaries with how others approach me in my own spaces and reminding everybody that there are places irl where you shouldn’t bring it up.

So please, read the room before you say something. And if you’re unsure, just ask. This modern notion that we need to be activists 24/7 everywhere we go is ridiculously toxic and unhealthy.

[rosaacicularis]

au where third life grian accidentally puts himself in a time loop because he can’t stand to see to scar die, except now he has to watch it happen every single day and it hurts just as badly as it did the day before :)

[starbuck]

just found out that my boss’s boss, who responded to a situation where i was harassed by a coworker for a month for being autistic by telling me to “do some soul searching,” is LEAVING MY PARK!!!!!!

my boss broke this news to me by saying “not to ruin your night, but…” as if it wouldn’t be the best news i had received in months.

[cherrysnax]

im very silly but sometimes it annoys me when people don’t enjoy something the exact same way I do. and it’s suuuuch a bad trait and I’m working on it 😭

[themanirealityshifter]

once again, not shifting related, but see, i have a lot of things that come along with autism and ADHD, and the like, but i’m still prettyyy damn sure i don’t have em, but also maaaybe, buuut alsooo i don’t knoooow. i have hyperfixations, special interests, the verbal shutdowns, shutdowns in general, meltdowns, also executive dysfunction, neurodivergent stimming (plus some that can pass as neurotypical stimming), and lots more that i can’t remember at the moment, cuz i haven’t eaten enough, OH YEAH AND SENSORY PROCESSING DISORDER, annnd auditory processing disorder, also internalized echolalia and just echolalia, possibly alexithymia, and have trouble with social cues and eye contact. plus food allergies which is also common/comorbid with autism. plus also i was what ya call the gifted kid and now i’m burnt out and even though my grades are always good when i actually hand something in, i constantly procrastinate and have basically given up on school altogether, cuz there’s no possible way for my mental health to be okay, for me to have relationships, for me to do things i like, and do well and be consistent in school all at the same time.

soooo, what am i? i relate to autistics and ADHDers A TON. buuuut i don’t think i am one of y’all. buuut what else can i possibly be? i have no idea. i am a mystery and i pretty sure i always will be.

[ocpdzim]

tbh my advice to other disabled people is Don’t Be Afraid To Be An Asshole Sometimes. like not unprovoked but if people are bothering you. you may think “he probably doesn’t mean anything by it” and maybe you’re even right, but if you’re enough of a pain in the ass about it then people learn not to be ableist next time and it doesn’t actually hurt them any aside from momentarily feeling horribly awkward. grill ME on why i’m sitting down at an event where most people stand up and you get my whole medical history in painstaking detail loud enough for everyone nearby to hear our conversation. and the bonus of this is it flips an interaction that would otherwise be upsetting and embarrassing to you back around onto the dick who tried to make you feel that way. it’s your turn to feel like you’ve personally fucked up the vibe at the whole party now, dipshit

[ninjaaa-go]

please, I’m begging you, just give me clear and thorough instructions. please

[explode-this]

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[kurtcore]

cried at work today! i’m now 3/3 for crying at jobs :)

[incidentalblr]

guys in very very exciting news my mom found an art therapist in our area who is apparently over the moon to work with me. she wants to take me to a museum as my first appointment

[rainswept]

so ur a chuuya AND dazai fan….youre a lost cause my guy 💔💔💔 /j

WHAT DID I SAY ABOUT HATING DAZAI !!!!! (more photos fall)