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she just turned 71! remember that the civil rights movement is not ancient history.

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It has been 5 days since my father disappeared. Each night I wonder what he eats, where he sleeps, if he takes his medicine, and the hardest question of all if he is still alive. I fall asleep exhausted from endless crying and grief.

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ok no more Gorillaz layout back to monke

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ts should not have taken forever dawg 😭😭

bonus self ship stuff (because i gotta make everything abt my dumb yaoi 💔)

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let’s be stylish with mama

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clenching my fist. I’m so normal about this

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my favorite outfits for them SHUT UPPPP ARE YOU KIDDING

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Noodle through the phases

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a lot of people who have experienced abuse do not know they have experienced it.

some people will hear this and think, well it couldn’t have been that bad if you didn’t even know.

but knowing you were abused is not a matter of severity. it is a matter of whether the forms of abuse you’ve experienced have been de-naturalized in a supportive social context, and thus made knowable as something that did not have to happen.

when people list common forms of abuse, many people will be in tags and notes saying “I didn’t know this wasn’t normal.”

it’s sad because this sentiment simultaneously misses and hits the point exactly.

abuse is normal. but what people mean when they say this is, “I didn’t know I was allowed to be hurt by this, to object to this, that anyone would ever recognize how violated, degraded, or dehumanized it feels to experience this.”

all of that is expressed through the word “normal” in these statements of realization because we all must constantly stomach being hurt, violated, degraded, and dehumanized in “normal” life, and we are taught from a young age that if something is “normal” it means we cannot object to it or escape it.

you’re allowed to feel violated by normalized forms of abuse. you are allowed to object to normalized forms of violation.

you don’t have to take on the loaded terms of Survivor and Abuser to describe things if you don’t want to or it feels inappropriate or inaccurate to you.

you can just allow yourself to recognize when people are abusing the power they have over you in ways that benefit themselves at your expense, and to recognize the ways that people with power over you coerce you to give up autonomy over your body.

something does not become less traumatic for being common and normal. the normalized trauma of being dehumanized and violated is part of what oppression is. it’s part of how subjugated classes within a population are constructed and maintained as distinct.

it’s okay to acknowledge it hurts. you don’t have to internalize it as something that was your own fault. you don’t have to suppress it forever.

you’re allowed to acknowledge that who you are was shaped by the people with power over you abusing that power.

abuse being common means you are not alone. you are in good company. we’re in it together ❤️

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damn girl is that a pie on your windowsill 👀👀👀

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pov they saw you from across the bar and they really dig your vibe. would you let them buy you a drink

happy 3rd starshear anniversary to meeee ehehehe ❤️🧡

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We are the crystal gems fr fr‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥💯💯💯💯🗣️🗣️🗣️

Blue quartz i don't really like the idea of her and how she turned out but a drew her so I'm just gonna leave her here

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please help 👋❗

our rent is due on monday the 8th and rn we are short of around $525. yeah.

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